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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5331更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
’O?Yousurpriseme。Whichactressisit?’ ’ThatMissJohnson。Annetellsmethathelovesherhopelessly。’ Festusarose。MissJohnsonseemedsuddenlytoacquirehighvalueasasweetheartatthisannouncement。Hehadhimselffeltanamelessattractivenessinher,andJohnhaddonelikewise。Johncrossedhispathinallpossibleways。 Beforetheyeomanhadrepliedsomebodyopenedthedoor,andthefirelightshoneupontheuniformofthepersontheydiscussed。 Festusnoddedonrecognizinghim,wishedMrs。Lovedaygoodevening,andwentoutprecipitately。 ’SoBobtoldyouhemeanttobreakoffwithmyAnnewhenhewentaway?’Mrs。Lovedayremarkedtothetrumpet-major。’IwishIhadknownofitbefore。’ Johnappeareddisturbedatthesuddencharge。Hemurmuredthathecouldnotdenyit,andthenhastilyturnedfromherandfollowedDerriman,whomhesawbeforehimonthebridge。 ’Derriman!’heshouted。 Festusstartedandlookedround。’Well,trumpet-major,’hesaidblandly。 ’Whenwillyouhavesenseenoughtomindyourownbusiness,andnotcomeheretellingthingsyouhaveheardbysneakingbehindpeople’sbacks?’demandedJohnhotly。’Ifyoucan’tlearninanyotherway,Ishallhavetopullyourearsagain,asIdidtheotherday!’ ’YOUpullmyears?Howcanyoutellthatlie,whenyouknow’twassomebodyelsepulled’em?’ ’Ono,no。Ipulledyourears,andthrashedyouinamildway。’ ’You’llsweartoit?Surely’twasanotherman?’ ’Itwasintheparlouratthepublic-house;youwerealmostinthedark。’AndJohnaddedafewdetailsastotheparticularblows,whichamountedtoproofitself。 ’ThenIheartilyaskyourpardonforsaying’twasalie!’criedFestus,advancingwithextendedhandandagenialsmile。’Sure,ifIhadknown’TWASyou,Iwouldn’thaveinsultedyoubydenyingit。’ ’Thatwaswhyyoudidn’tchallengeme,then?’ ’Thatwasit!Iwouldn’tfortheworldhavehurtyournicesenseofhonourbyletting’eegounchallenged,ifIhadknown!Andnow,yousee,unfortunatelyIcan’tmendthemistake。Solongatimehaspassedsinceithappenedthattheheatofmytemperisgoneoff。I couldn’toblige’ee,tryhowImight,forIamnotaman,trumpet-major,thatcanbutcherincoldblood——no,notI,noryouneither,fromwhatIknowof’ee。So,willy-nilly,wemustfainletitpass,eh?’ ’Wemust,Isuppose,’saidJohn,smilinggrimly。’WhodidyouthinkIwas,then,thatnightwhenIboxedyouallround?’ ’No,don’tpressme,’repliedtheyeoman。’Ican’treveal;itwouldbedisgracingmyselftoshowhowverywideofthetruththemockeryofwinewasabletoleadmysenses。Wewillletitbeburiedineternalmixensofforgetfulness。’ ’Asyouwish,’saidthetrumpet-majorloftily。’ButifyoueverSHOULDthinkyouknewitwasme,why,youknowwheretofindme?’ AndLovedaywalkedaway。 TheinstantthathewasgoneFestusshookhisfistattheeveningstar,whichhappenedtolieinthesamedirectionasthattakenbythedragoon。 ’Nowformyrevenge!Duels?LifelongdisgracetomeifeverI fightwithamanofbloodbelowmyown!Thereareotherremediesforupper-classsouls!……Matilda——that’smyway。’ FestusstrodealongtillhereachedtheHall,whereCripplestrawappearedgazingathimfromunderthearchoftheporter’slodge。 Derrimandashedopentheentrance-hurdlewithsuchviolencethatthewholerowofthemfellflatinthemud。 ’Mercy,MaisterFestus!’saidCripplestraw。’“Surely,“IsaystomyselfwhenIseeyea-coming,“surelyMaisterFestusisfuminglikethatbecausethere’snochanceoftheenemycomingthisyearafterall。“’ ’Cr-r-ripplestraw!Ihavebeenwoundedtotheheart,’repliedDerriman,withaluridbrow。 ’Andthemanyetlives,andyouwantsyerhorse-pistolsinstantly? Certainly,MaisterF——’ ’No,Cripplestraw,notmypistols,butmynew-cutclothes,myheavygoldseals,mysilver-toppedcane,andmybucklesthatcostmoremoneythanheeversaw!Yes,Imusttellsomebody,andI’lltellyou,becausethere’snootherfoolnear。Helovesherheartandsoul。He’spoor;she’stip-topgenteel,andnotrich。Iamrich,bycomparison。I’llcourttheprettyplay-actress,andwinherbeforehiseyes。’ ’Play-actress,MaisterDerriman?’ ’Yes。Isawherthisveryday,metherbyaccident,andspoketoher。She’sstillinthetown——perhapsbecauseofhim。Icanmeetheratanyhouroftheday——ButIdon’tmeantomarryher;notI。 Iwillcourtherformypastime,andtoannoyhim。ItwillbeallthemoredeathtohimthatIdon’twanther。Thenperhapshewillsaytome,“Youhavetakenmyoneewelamb“——meaningthatIamtheking,andhe’sthepoorman,asinthechurchverse;andhe’llbegformercywhen’tistoolate——unless,meanwhile,Ishallhavetiredofmynewtoy。Saddlethehorse,Cripplestraw,tomorrowatten。’ FullofthisresolvetoscourgeJohnLovedaytothequickthroughhispassionforMissJohnson,Festuscameoutbootedandspurredatthetimeappointed,andsetoffonhismorningride。 MissJohnson’stheatricalengagementhavinglongagoterminated,shewouldhavelefttheRoyalwatering-placewiththerestofthevisitorshadnotmatrimonialhopesdetainedherthere。ThesehadnothingwhatevertodowithJohnLoveday,asmaybeimagined,butwithastout,staidboat-builderinCoveRowbythequay,whohadshownmuchinterestinherimpersonations。Unfortunatelythissubstantialmanhadnotbeenquitesoattentivesincetheendoftheseasonashispreviousmannerledhertoexpect;anditwasagreatpleasuretotheladytoseeMr。Derrimanleaningovertheharbourbridgewithhiseyesfixeduponherasshecametowardsitafterastrollpastherelderlywooer’shouse。 ’Odtakeit,ma’am,youdidn’ttellmewhenIsawyoulastthatthetootingmanwiththebluejacketandlacewasyoursdevoted?’beganFestus。 ’Whodoyoumean?’InMatilda’sever-changingemotionalinterests,JohnLovedaywasastaleandunprofitablepersonality。 ’Why,thattrumpet-majorman。’ ’O!Whatofhim?’ ’Come;helovesyou,andyouknowit,ma’am。’ Sheknew,atanyrate,howtotakethecurrentwhenitserved。SosheglancedatFestus,foldedherlipsmeaningly,andnodded。 ’I’vecometocuthimout。’ Sheshookherhead,itbeingunsafetospeaktillsheknewalittlemoreofthesubject。 ’What!’saidFestus,reddening,’doyoumeantosaythatyouthinkofhimseriously——you,whomightlooksomuchhigher?’ ’Constantdroppingwillwearawayastone;andyoushouldonlyhearhispleading!Hishandsomefaceisimpressive,andhismannersare—— O,sogenteel!Iamnotrich;Iam,inshort,apoorladyofdecayedfamily,whohasnothingtoboastofbutmybloodandancestors,andtheywon’tfindabodyinfoodandclothing!——Iholdtheworldbutastheworld,Derrimanio——astagewhereeverymanmustplayapart,andmineasadone!’Shedroppedhereyesthoughtfullyandsighed。 ’Wewilltalkofthis,’saidFestus,muchaffected。’LetuswalktotheLook-out。’ Shemadenoobjection,andsaid,astheyturnedthatway,’Mr。 Derriman,alongtimeagoIfoundsomethingbelongingtoyou;butI haveneveryetrememberedtoreturnit。’AndshedrewfromherbosomthepaperwhichAnnehaddroppedinthemeadowwheneludingthegraspofFestusonthatsummerday。 ’Zounds,Ismellfreshmeat!’criedFestuswhenhehadlookeditover。’’Tisinmyuncle’swriting,and’tiswhatIheardhimsingingonthedaytheFrenchdidn’tcome,andafterwardssawhimmarkingintheroad。’Tissomethinghe’sgothidaway。Givemethepaper,there’sadear;’tisworthsterlinggold!’ ’Halves,then?’saidMatildatenderly。 ’Gad,yes——anything!’repliedFestus,blazingintoasmile,forshehadlookedupinherbestnewmanneratthepossibilitythathemightbeworththewinning。Theywentupthestepstothesummitofthecliff,anddwindledoveritagainstthesky。 XXXVII。REACTION TherewasnoletterfromBob,thoughDecemberhadpassed,andthenewyearwastwoweeksold。Hismovementswere,however,prettyaccuratelyregisteredinthepapers,whichJohnstillbrought,butwhichAnnenolongerread。DuringthesecondweekinDecembertheVictorysailedforSheerness,andonthe9thofthefollowingJanuarythepublicfuneralofLordNelsontookplaceinSt。Paul’s。 Thentherecameameagrelineaddressedtothefamilyingeneral。 Bob’snewPortsmouthattachmentwasnotmentioned,buthetoldthemhehadbeenoneoftheeight-and-fortyseamenwhowalkedtwo-and-twointhefuneralprocession,andthatCaptainHardyhadbornethebannerofemblemsonthesameoccasion。ThecrewwassoontobepaidoffatChatham,whenhethoughtofreturningtoPortsmouthforafewdaystoseeavaluedfriend。Afterthatheshouldcomehome。 Butthespringadvancedwithoutbringinghim,andJohnwatchedAnneGarland’sdesolationwithaugmentingdesiretodosomethingtowardsconsolingher。Theoldfeelings,soreligiouslyheldincheck,werestimulatedtorebelliousness,thoughtheydidnotshowthemselvesinanydirectmannerasyet。 Themiller,inthemeantime,whoseldominterferedinsuchmatters,wasobservedtolookmeaninglyatAnneandthetrumpet-majorfromdaytoday;andby-and-byhespokeprivatelytoJohn。 Hiswordswereshortandtothepoint:Annewasverymelancholy; shehadthoughttoomuchofBob。Now’twasplainthattheyhadlosthimformanyyearstocome。Well;hehadalwaysfeltthatofthetwohewouldratherJohnmarriedher。NowJohnmightsettledownthere,andsucceedwhereBobhadfailed。’Soifyoucouldgether,mysonny,tothinklessofhimandmoreofthyself,itwouldbeagoodthingforall。’ AninwardexcitementhadriseninJohn;buthesuppresseditandsaidfirmly—— ’FairnesstoBobbeforeeverything!’ ’Hehevforgother,andthere’sanendon’t。’ ’She’snotforgothim。’ ’Well,well;thinkitover。’ Thisdiscoursewasthecauseofhispenningalettertohisbrother。 Hebeggedforadistinctstatementwhether,asJohnatfirstsupposed,Bob’sverbalrenunciationofAnneonthequayhadbeenonlyamomentaryebullitionoffriendship,whichitwouldbecrueltotakeliterally;orwhether,asseemednow,ithadpassedfromahastyresolvetoastandingpurpose,perseveredinforhisownpleasure,withnotacarefortheresultonpoorAnne。 Johnwaitedanxiouslyfortheanswer,butnoanswercame;andthesilenceseemedevenmoresignificantthanaletterofassurancecouldhavebeenofhisabsolutionfromfurthersupporttoaclaimwhichBobhimselfhadsoclearlyrenounced。Thusithappenedthatpaternalpressure,brotherlyindifference,andhisownreleasedimpulseoperatedinonedelightfuldirection,andthetrumpet-majoroncemoreapproachedAnneasintheoldtime。 Butitwasnottillshehadbeenlefttoherselfforafullfivemonths,andtheblue-bellsandragged-robinsofthefollowingyearwereagainmakingthemselvescommontotheramblingeye,thathedirectlyaddressedher。Shewastyingupagroupoftallfloweringplantsinthegarden:sheknewthathewasbehindher,butshedidnotturn。Shehadsubsidedintoaplaciddignitywhichenabledherwhenwatchedtoperformanylittleactionwithseemingcomposure—— verydifferentfromtheflutterofherinexperienceddays。 ’Areyounevergoingtoturnround?’heatlengthaskedgood-humouredly。 Shethendidturn,andlookedathimforamomentwithoutspeaking; acertainsuspicionloominginhereyes,asifsuggestedbyhisperceptiblewantofease。 ’Howlikesummeritisgettingtofeel,isitnot?’shesaid。 Johnadmittedthatitwasgettingtofeellikesummer:and,bendinghisgazeuponherwithanearnestnesswhichnolongerleftanydoubtofhissubject,wentontoask—— ’Haveyoueverintheselastweeksthoughtofhowitusedtobebetweenus?’ Sherepliedquickly,’O,John,youshouldn’tbeginthatagain。Iamalmostanotherwomannow!’ ’Well,that’sallthemorereasonwhyIshould,isn’tit?’ Annelookedthoughtfullytotheotherendofthegarden,faintlyshakingherhead;’Idon’tquiteseeitlikethat,’shereturned。 ’Youfeelyourselfquitefree,don’tyou?’ ’QUITEfree!’shesaidinstantly,andwithprouddistinctness;hereyesfell,andsherepeatedmoreslowly,’Quitefree。’Thenherthoughtsseemedtoflyfromherselftohim。’Butyouarenot?’ ’Iamnot?’ ’MissJohnson!’