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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5152更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
’Iwillgoandsee,’saidAnne。’WaittillIreturn。’ ’No;Icandonomore。WhenyoucomebackIshallbegone。Iaskonethingofyou。Ifallgoeswellwithyouandhim,andhemarriesyou——don’tbealarmed;myplanslieelsewhere——whenyouarehiswifetellhimwhohelpedtocarryhimaway。Butdon’tmentionmynametotherestofyourfamily,eithernoworatanytime。’ Anneregardedthespeakerforamoment,andpromised;afterwhichshewadedoutfromthearchway。 MatildastoodlookingatBobforamoment,asifpreparingtogo,tillmovedbysomeimpulseshebentandlightlykissedhimonce。 ’Howcanyou!’criedAnnereproachfully。Whenleavingthemouthofthearchshehadbentbackandseentheact。 Matildaflushed。’Youjealousbaby!’shesaidscornfully。 Annehesitatedforamoment,thenwentoutfromthewater,andhastenedtowardsthemill。 Sheenteredbythegarden,and,seeingnoone,advancedandpeepedinatthewindow。HermotherandMr。Lovedayweresittingwithinasusual。 ’Aretheyallgone?’saidAnnesoftly。 ’Yes。Theydidnottroubleusmuch,beyondgoingintoeveryroom,andsearchingaboutthegarden,wheretheysawsteps。Theyhavebeenluckyto-night;theyhavecaughtfifteenortwentymenatplacesfurtheron;sothelossofBobwasnohurttotheirfeelings。 Iwonderwhereintheworldthepoorfellowis!’ ’Iwillshowyou,’saidAnne。Andexplaininginafewwordswhathadhappened,shewaspromptlyfollowedbyDavidandLovedayalongtheroad。SheliftedherdressandenteredthearchwithsomeanxietyonaccountofMatilda;buttheactresswasgone,andBoblayontheseatasshehadlefthim。 Bobwasbroughtout,andwaterthrownuponhisface;butthoughhemovedhedidnotrousehimselfuntilsometimeafterhehadbeenborneintothehouse。Hereheopenedhiseyes,andsawthemstandinground,andgatheredalittleconsciousness。 ’Youareallright,myboy!’saidhisfather。’Whathevhappenedtoye?Wheredidyegetthatterribleblow?’ ’Ah——Icanmindnow,’murmuredBob,withastupefiedgazearound。 ’Ifellinslippingdownthetopsailhalyard——therope,thatis,wastooshort——andIfelluponmyhead。AndthenIwentaway。WhenI camebackIthoughtIwouldn’tdisturbye:soIlaydownoutthere,tosleepoutthewatch;butthepaininmyheadwassogreatthatI couldn’tgettosleep;soIpickedsomeofthepoppy-headsintheborder,whichIonceheardwasagoodthingforsendingfolkstosleepwhentheyareinpain。SoImunchedupallIcouldfind,anddroppedoffquitenicely。’ ’Iwonderedwhohadpicked’em!’saidMolly。’Inoticedtheyweregone。’ ’Why,youmightneverhavewokeagain!’saidMrs。Loveday,holdingupherhands。’Howisyourheadnow?’ ’Ihardlyknow,’repliedtheyoungman,puttinghishandtohisforeheadandbeginningtodozeagain。’Wherebethosefellowsthatboardedus?Withthis——smoothwaterand——finebreezeweoughttogetawayfrom’em。Haulin——thelarboardbraces,and——bringhertothewind。’ ’Youareathome,dearBob,’saidAnne,bendingoverhim,’andthemenaregone。’ ’Comealongupstairs:th’beesthardlyawakenow,’saidhisfatherandBobwasassistedtobed。 Infour-and-twentyhoursBobhadrecovered。Butthoughphysicallyhimselfagain,hewasnotatallsureofhispositionasapatriot。 Hehadthatpracticalknowledgeofseamanshipofwhichthecountrystoodmuchinneed,anditwashumiliatingtofindthatimpressmentseemedtobenecessarytoteachhimtouseitforheradvantage。 Manyneighbouringyoungmen,lessfortunatethanhimself,hadbeenpressedandtaken;andtheirabsenceseemedareproachtohim。Hewentawaybyhimselfintothemill-roof,and,surroundedbythecorn-heaps,gaveventtoself-condemnation。 ’Certainly,Iamnomantolieheresolongforthepleasureofsightingthatyounggirlfortytimesaday,andlettinghersightme——blesshereyes!——tillImustneedswantapress-gangtoteachmewhatI’veforgot。AndisitthenalloverwithmeasaBritishsailor?We’llsee。’ WhenhewasthrownundertheinfluenceofAnne’seyesagain,whichweremoretantalizinglybeautifulthaneverjustnow(soitseemedtohim),hisintentionofofferinghisservicestotheGovernmentwouldwaxweaker,andhewouldputoffhisfinaldecisiontillthenextday。Annesawthesefluctuationsofhismindbetweenloveandpatriotism,andbeingterrifiedbywhatshehadheardofsea-fights,usedtheutmostartofwhichshewascapabletoseducehimfromhisformingpurpose。Shecametohiminthemill,wearingtheveryprettiestofhermorningjackets——theonethatonlyjustpassedthewaist,andwaslacedsotastefullyroundthecollarandbosom。Thenshewouldappearinhernewhat,withabouquetofprimrosesononeside;andonthefollowingSundayshewalkedbeforehiminlemon-colouredboots,sothatherfeetlookedlikeapairofyellow-hammersflittingunderherdress。 Butdresswastheleastofthemeanssheadoptedforchaininghimdown。Shetalkedmoretenderlythanever;askedhimtobeginsmallundertakingsinthegardenonheraccount;shesangaboutthehouse,thattheplacemightseemcheerfulwhenhecamein。Thissingingforapurposerequiredgreateffortonherpart,leavingherafterwardsverysad。WhenBobaskedherwhatwasthematter,shewouldsay,’Nothing;onlyIamthinkinghowyouwillgrieveyourfather,andcrosshispurposes,ifyoucarryoutyourunkindnotionofgoingtosea,andforsakingyourplaceinthemill。’ ’Yes,’Bobwouldsayuneasily。’Itwilltroublehim,Iknow。’ Beingalsoquiteawarehowitwouldtroubleher,hewouldagainpostpone,andthusanotherweekpassedaway。 AllthistimeJohnhadnotcomeoncetothemill。ItappearedasifMissJohnsonabsorbedallhistimeandthoughts。Bobwasoftenseenchucklingoverthecircumstance。’Aslyrascal!’hesaid。 ’Pretendingonthedayshecametobemarriedthatshewasnotgoodenoughforme,whenitwasonlythathewantedherforhimself。Howhecouldhavepersuadedhertogoawayisbeyondmetosay!’ Annecouldnotcontestthisbeliefofherlover’s,andremainedsilent;buttherehadmorethanonceoccurredtohermindadoubtofitsprobability。YetshehadonlyabandonedheropinionthatJohnhadschemedforMatilda,toembracetheoppositeerror;that,findinghehadwrongedtheyounglady,hehadpitiedandgrowntoloveher。 ’AndyetJack,whenhewasaboy,wasthesimplestfellowalive,’ resumedBob。’ByGeorge,though,Ishouldhavebeenhotagainsthimforsuchatrick,ifinlosingherIhadn’tfoundabetter!Butshe’llnevercomedowntohimintheworld:shehashighnotionsnow。Iamafraidhe’sdoomedtosighinvain!’ ThoughBobregrettedthispossibility,thefeelingwasnotreciprocatedbyAnne。ItwastruethatsheknewnothingofMatilda’stemporarytreachery,andthatshedisbelievedthestoryofherlackofvirtue;butshedidnotlikethewoman。’Perhapsitwillnotmatterifheisdoomedtosighinvain,’shesaid。’ButI owehimnoill-will。Ihaveprofitedbyhisdoings,incomprehensibleastheyare。’AndshebentherfaireyesonBobandsmiled。 Boblookeddubious。’Hethinkshehasaffrontedme,nowIhaveseenthroughhim,andthatIshallbeagainstmeetinghim。But,ofcourse,Iamnotsotouchy。Icanstandapracticaljoke,ascananymanwhohasbeenafloat。I’llcallandseehim,andtellhimso。’ Beforehestarted,BobbethoughthimofsomethingwhichwouldstillfurtherprovetothemisapprehendingJohnthathewasentirelyforgiven。Hewenttohisroom,andtookfromhischestapacketcontainingalockofMissJohnson’shair,whichshehadgivenhimduringtheirbriefacquaintance,andwhichtillnowhehadquiteforgotten。When,atstarting,hewishedAnnegoodbye,itwasaccompaniedbysuchabeamingface,thatsheknewhewasfullofanidea,andaskedwhatitmightbethatpleasedhimso。 ’Why,this,’hesaid,smackinghisbreast-pocket。’AlockofhairthatMatildagaveme。’ Annesankbackwithpartedlips。 ’IamgoingtogiveittoJack——he’lljumpforjoytogetit!AnditwillshowhimhowwillingIamtogiveheruptohim,finepieceassheis。’ ’Willyouseeherto-day,Bob?’Anneaskedwithanuncertainsmile。 ’Ono——unlessitisbyaccident。’ Onreachingtheoutskirtsofthetownhewentstraighttothebarracks,andwasluckyenoughtofindJohninhisroom,attheleft-handcornerofthequadrangle。Johnwasgladtoseehim;buttoBob’ssurpriseheshowednoimmediatecontrition,andthusaffordednoroomforthebrotherlyspeechofforgivenesswhichBobhadbeengoingtodeliver。Asthetrumpet-majordidnotopenthesubject,Bobfeltitdesirabletobeginhimself。 ’Ihavebroughtyesomethingthatyouwillvalue,Jack,’hesaid,astheysatatthewindow,overlookingthelargesquarebarrack-yard。 ’Ihavegotnofurtheruseforit,andyoushouldhavehaditbeforeifithadenteredmyhead。’ ’Thankyou,Bob;whatisit?’saidJohn,lookingabsentlyatanawkwardsquadofyoungmenwhoweredrillingintheenclosure。 ’’Tisayoungwoman’slockofhair。’ ’Ah!’saidJohn,quiterecoveringfromhisabstraction,andslightlyflushing。CouldBobandAnnehavequarrelled?Bobdrewthepaperfromhispocket,andopenedit。 ’Black!’saidJohn。 ’Yes——blackenough。’ ’Whose?’ ’Why,Matilda’s。’ ’O,Matilda’s!’ ’Whosedidyouthinkthen?’ Insteadofreplying,thetrumpet-major’sfacebecameasredassunset,andheturnedtothewindowtohidehisconfusion。 Bobwassilent,andthenhe,too,lookedintothecourt。Atlengthhearose,walkedtohisbrother,andlaidhishanduponhisshoulder。’Jack,’hesaid,inanalteredvoice,’youareagoodfellow。NowIseeitall。’ ’Ono——that’snothing,’saidJohnhastily。 ’You’vebeenpretendingthatyoucareforthiswomanthatImightn’tblamemyselfforheavingyououtfromtheother——whichiswhatI’vedonewithoutknowingit。’ ’Whatdoesitmatter?’ ’Butitdoesmatter!I’vebeenmakingyouunhappyalltheseweeksandweeksthroughmythoughtlessness。Theyseemedtothinkathome,youknow,John,thatyouhadgrownnottocareforher;orI wouldn’thavedoneitforalltheworld!’ ’Yousticktoher,Bob,andnevermindme。Shebelongstoyou。Shelovesyou。Ihavenoclaimuponher,andshethinksnothingaboutme。’ ’Shelikesyou,John,thoroughlywell;sodoeseverybody;andifI hadn’tcomehome,puttingmyfootinit——Thatcominghomeofminehasbeenaregularblightuponthefamily!Ioughtnevertohavestayed。Theseaismyhome,andwhycouldn’tIbidethere?’ Thetrumpet-majordrewBob’sdiscourseoffthesubjectassoonashecould,andBob,aftersomeunconsideredrepliesandremarks,seemedwillingtoavoiditforthepresent。HedidnotaskJohntoaccompanyhimhome,ashehadintended;andonleavingthebarracksturnedsouthwardandenteredthetowntowanderabouttillhecoulddecidewhattodo。 Itwasthe3rdofSeptember,buttheKing’swatering-placestillretaineditssummeraspect。Theroyalbathing-machinehadbeendrawnoutjustasBobreachedGloucesterBuildings,andhewaitedaminute,inthelackofotherdistraction,tolookon。ImmediatelythattheKing’smachinehadenteredthewateragroupoffloridmenwithfiddles,violoncellos,atrombone,andadrum,cameforward,packedthemselvesintoanothermachinethatwasinwaiting,andweredrawnoutintothewavesintheKing’srear。Allthatwastobeheardforafewminutesweretheslowpulsationsofthesea;andthenadeafeningnoiseburstfromtheinteriorofthesecondmachinewithpowerenoughtosplittheboardsasunder;itwasthecondensedmassofmusiciansinside,strikingupthestrainsof’GodsavetheKing,’ashisMajesty’sheadrosefromthewater。Bobtookoffhishatandwaitedtilltheendoftheperformance,which,intendedasapleasantsurprisetoGeorgeIII。bytheloyalburghers,waspossiblyinthewaterycircumstancestoleratedratherthandesiredbythatdrippingmonarch。* *VidePreface。