第33章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5419更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
’No,Icannotletyouin,’shemurmured,afterapause。 ’Dashmywig,then,’hecried,hisfaceflamingup,’I’llfindawaytogetin!Now,don’tyouprovokeme!Youdon’tknowwhatIamcapableof。Iaskyouagain,willyouopenthedoor?’ ’Whydoyouwishit?’shesaidfaintly。 ’IhavetoldyouIwanttositdown;andIwanttoaskyouaquestion。’ ’Youcanaskmefromwhereyouare。’ ’Icannotaskyouproperly。Itisaboutaseriousmatter:whetheryouwillacceptmyheartandhand。Iamnotgoingtothrowmyselfatyourfeet;butIaskyoutodoyourdutyasawoman,namely,giveyoursolemnwordtotakemynameassoonasthewarisoverandI havetimetoattendtoyou。Iscorntoaskitofahaughtyhussywhowillonlyspeaktomethroughawindow;however,Iputittoyouforthelasttime,madam。’ Therewasnosignonthedownofanybody’sreturn,andshesaid,’I’llthinkofit,sir。’ ’Youhavethoughtofitlongenough;Iwanttoknow。Willyouorwon’tyou?’ ’Verywell;IthinkIwill。’Andthenshefeltthatshemightbebuyingpersonalsafetytoodearlybyshufflingthus,sincehewouldspreadthereportthatshehadacceptedhim,andcauseendlesscomplication。’No,’shesaid,’Ihavechangedmymind。Icannotacceptyou,Mr。Derriman。’ ’That’showyouplaywithme!’heexclaimed,stamping。’“Yes,“onemoment;“No,“thenext。Come,youdon’tknowwhatyourefuse。Thatoldhallismyuncle’sown,andhehasnobodyelsetoleaveitto。 Assoonashe’sdeadIshallthrowupfarmingandstartasasquire。 Andnow,’headdedwithabittersneer,’whatafoolyouaretohangbackfromsuchachance!’ ’Thankyou,Idon’tvalueit,’saidAnne。 ’Becauseyouhatehimwhowouldmakeityours?’ ’Itmaynotlieinyourpowertodothat。’ ’What——hastheoldfellowbeentellingyouhisaffairs?’ ’No。’ ’Thenwhydoyoumistrustme?Now,afterthiswillyouopenthedoor,andshowthatyoutreatmeasafriendifyouwon’tacceptmeasalover?Ionlywanttositandtalktoyou。’ Annethoughtshewouldtrusthim;itseemedalmostimpossiblethathecouldharmher。Sheretiredfromthewindowandwentdownstairs。 Whenherhandwasupontheboltofthedoor,hermindmisgaveher。 Insteadofwithdrawingitsheremainedinsilencewhereshewas,andhebeganagain—— ’Areyougoingtounfastenit?’ Annedidnotspeak。 ’Now,dashmywig,Iwillgetatyou!You’vetriedmebeyondendurance。Onekisswouldhavebeenenoughthatdayinthemead; nowI’llhaveforty,whetheryouwillorno!’ Heflunghimselfagainstthedoor;butasitwasbolted,andhadinadditionagreatwoodenbaracrossit,thisproducednoeffect。Hewassilentforamoment,andthentheterrifiedgirlheardhimattempttheshutteredwindow。Sheranupstairsandagainscannedthedown。Theyellowgigstilllayintheblazingsunshine,andthehorseofFestusstoodbythecornerofthegarden——nothingelsewastobeseen。Atthismomenttherecametoherearthenoiseofasworddrawnfromitsscabbard;and,peepingoverthewindow-sill,shesawhertormentordrivehisswordbetweenthejointsoftheshutters,inanattempttoripthemopen。Theswordsnappedoffinhishand。Withanimprecationhepulledoutthepiece,andreturnedthetwohalvestothescabbard。 ’Ha!ha!’hecried,catchingsightofthetopofherhead。’’Tisonlyajoke,youknow;butI’llgetinallthesame。Allforakiss!Butnevermind,we’lldoityet!’Hespokeinanaffectedlylighttone,asifashamedofhispreviousresentfultemper;butshecouldseebythelividbackofhisneckthathewasbrimfulofsuppressedpassion。’Onlyajest,youknow,’hewenton。’Howarewegoingtodoitnow?Why,inthisway。Igoandgetaladder,andenterattheupperwindowwheremyloveis。Andthere’stheladderlyingunderthatcorn-rickinthefirstenclosedfield。Backintwominutes,dear!’ Heranoff,andwaslosttoherview。 Annefearfullysurveyedherposition。Theupperwindowsofthecottagewereofflimsiestlead-work,andtokeephimoutwouldbehopeless。Shefeltthatnotamomentwastobelostingettingaway。Runningdownstairssheopenedthedoor,andthenitoccurredtoherterrifiedunderstandingthattherewouldbenochanceofescapinghimbyflightafootacrosssuchanextensivedown,sincehemightmounthishorseandeasilyrideafterher。Theanimalstillremainedtetheredatthecornerofthegarden;ifshecouldreleasehimandfrightenhimawaybeforeFestusreturned,therewouldnotbequitesuchoddsagainsther。Sheaccordinglyunhookedthehorsebyreachingoverthebank,andthen,pullingoffhermuslinneckerchief,flappeditinhiseyestostartlehim。Butthegallantsteeddidnotmoveorflinch;shetriedagain,andheseemedratherpleasedthanotherwise。Atthismomentsheheardacryfromthecottage,andturning,beheldheradversaryapproachingroundthecornerofthebuilding。 ’IthoughtIshouldtoleoutthemousebythattrick!’criedFestusexultingly。Insteadofgoingforaladder,hehadsimplyhiddenhimselfatthebacktotemptherdown。 PoorAnnewasnowdesperate。Thebankonwhichshestoodwaslevelwiththehorse’sback,andthecreatureseemedquietasalamb。 Withadeterminationofwhichshewascapableinemergencies,sheseizedtherein,flungherselfuponthesheepskin,andheldonbythemane。Theamazedchargerliftedhishead,sniffed,wrenchedhisearshitherandthither,andstartedoffatafrightfulspeedacrossthedown。 ’O,myheartandlimbs!’saidFestusunderhisbreath,as,thoroughlyalarmed,hegazedafterher。’SheonChampion!She’llbreakherneck,andIshallbetriedformanslaughter,anddisgracewillbebroughtuponthenameofDerriman!’ Championcontinuedtogoatastretch-gallop,buthedidnothingworse。Hadheplungedorreared,Derriman’sfearsmighthavebeenverified,andAnnehavecomewithdeadlyforcetotheground。Butthecoursewasgood,andinthehorse’sspeedlayacomparativesecurity。Shewasscarcelyshakeninherprecarioushalf-horizontalposition,thoughshewasawedtoseethegrass,loosestones,andotherobjectspasshereyeslikestrokeswheneversheopenedthem,whichwasonlyjustforasecondatintervalsofhalfaminute;andtofeelhowwildlythestirrupsswung,andthatwhatstruckherkneewasthebucketofthecarbine,andthatitwasapistol-holsterwhichhurtherarm。 Theyquicklyclearedthedown,andAnnebecameconsciousthatthecourseofthehorsewashomeward。Assoonasthegroundbegantorisetowardstheouterbeltofuplandwhichlaybetweenherandthecoast,Champion,nowpantingandreekingwithmoisture,lessenedhisspeedinsheerweariness,andproceededatarapidjoltingtrot。 Annefeltthatshecouldnotholdonhalfsowell;thegallophadbeenchild’splaycomparedwiththis。Theywereinalane,ascendingtoaridge,andshemadeuphermindforafall。Overtheridgeroseananimatedspot,higherandhigher;itturnedouttobetheupperpartofaman,andthemantobeasoldier。SuchwasAnne’sattitudethatsheonlygotanoccasionalglimpseofhim;and,thoughshefearedthathemightbeaFrenchman,shefearedthehorsemorethantheenemy,asshehadfearedFestusmorethanthehorse。 Annehadenergyenoughlefttocry,’Stophim;stophim!’asthesoldierdrewnear。 He,astonishedatthesightofamilitaryhorsewithabundleofdraperyacrosshisback,hadalreadyplacedhimselfinthemiddleofthelane,andhenowheldouthisarmstillhisfigureassumedtheformofaLatincrossplantedintheroadway。Championdrewnear,swerved,andstoodstillalmostsuddenly,achecksufficienttosendAnneslippingdownhisflanktotheground。Thetimelyfriendsteppedforwardandhelpedhertoherfeet,whenshesawthathewasJohnLoveday。 ’Areyouhurt?’hesaidhastily,havingturnedquitepaleatseeingherfall。 ’Ono;notabit,’saidAnne,gatheringherselfupwithforcedbriskness,tomakelightofthemisadventure。 ’Buthowdidyougetinsuchaplace?’ ’There,he’sgone!’sheexclaimed,insteadofreplying,asChampionsweptroundJohnLovedayandcanteredofftriumphantlyinthedirectionofOxwell,aperformancewhichshefollowedwithhereyes。 ’Buthowdidyoucomeuponhisback,andwhosehorseisit?’ ’Iwilltellyou。’ ’Well?’ ’I——cannottellyou。’ Johnlookedsteadilyather,sayingnothing。 ’Howdidyoucomehere?’sheasked。’IsittruethattheFrenchhavenotlandedatall?’ ’Quitetrue;thealarmwasgroundless。I’lltellyouallaboutit。 Youlookverytired。Youhadbettersitdownafewminutes。Letussitonthisbank。’ Hehelpedhertotheslopeindicated,andcontinued,stillasifhisthoughtsweremoreoccupiedwiththemysteryofherrecentsituationthanwithwhathewassaying:’WearrivedatBudmouthBarracksthismorning,andaretoliethereallthesummer。Icouldnotwritetotellfatherwewerecoming。ItwasnotbecauseofanyrumouroftheFrench,forweknewnothingofthattillwemetthepeopleontheroad,andthecolonelsaidinamomentthenewswasfalse。 BuonaparteisnotevenatBoulognejustnow。Iwasanxioustoknowhowyouhadbornethefright,soIhastenedtoOvercombeatonce,assoonasIcouldgetoutofbarracks。’ Anne,whohadnotbeenatallresponsivetohisdiscourse,nowswayedheavilyagainsthim,andlookingquicklydownhefoundthatshehadsilentlyfainted。Tosupportherinhisarmswasofcoursetheimpulseofamoment。Therewasnowatertobehad,andhecouldthinkofnothingelsebuttoholdhertenderlytillshecameroundagain。Certainlyhedesirednothingmore。 Againheaskedhimself,whatdiditallmean? Hewaited,lookingdownuponhertiredeyelids,andattherowoflasheslyinguponeachcheek,whosenaturalroundnessshoweditselfinsingularperfectionnowthatthecustomarypinkhadgivenplacetoapaleluminousnesscaughtfromthesurroundingatmosphere。Thedumpyringletsaboutherforeheadandbehindherpoll,whichwereusuallyastightassprings,hadbeenpartiallyuncoiledbythewildnessofherride,andhunginsplitlocksoverherforeheadandneck。John,who,duringthelongmonthsofhisabsence,hadlivedonlytomeetheragain,wasinastateofecstaticreverence,andbendingdownhegentlykissedher。 Annewasjustbecomingconscious。 ’O,Mr。Derriman,never,never!’shemurmured,sweepingherfacewithherhand。 ’Ithoughthewasatthebottomofit,’saidJohn。 Anneopenedhereyes,andstartedbackfromhim。’Whatisit?’shesaidwildly。 ’Youareill,mydearMissGarland,’repliedJohnintremblinganxiety,andtakingherhand。 ’Iamnotill,Iamweariedout!’shesaid。’Can’twewalkon?HowfararewefromOvercombe?’ ’Aboutamile。Buttellme,somebodyhasbeenhurtingyou—— frighteningyou。Iknowwhoitwas;itwasDerriman,andthatwashishorse。Nowdoyoutellmeall。’ Annereflected。’ThenifItellyou,’shesaid,’willyoudiscusswithmewhatIhadbetterdo,andnotforthepresentletmymotherandyourfatherknow?Idon’twanttoalarmthem,andImustnotletmyaffairsinterruptthebusinessconnexionbetweenthemillandthehallthathasgoneonforsomanyyears。’ Thetrumpet-majorpromised,andAnnetoldtheadventure。Hisbrowreddenedasshewenton,andwhenshehaddoneshesaid,’Nowyouareangry。Don’tdoanythingdreadful,willyou?RememberthatthisFestuswillmostlikelysucceedhisuncleatOxwell,inspiteofpresentappearances,andifBobsucceedsatthemillthereshouldbenoenmitybetweenthem。’ ’That’strue。Iwon’ttellBob。Leavehimtome。WhereisDerrimannow?Onhiswayhome,Isuppose。WhenIhaveseenyouintothehouseIwilldealwithhim——quitequietly,sothatheshallsaynothingaboutit。’ ’Yes,appealtohim,do!Perhapshewillbebetterthen。’ Theywalkedontogether,Lovedayseemingtoexperiencemuchquietbliss。 ’Icametolookforyou,’hesaid,’becauseofthatdear,sweetletteryouwrote。’ ’Yes,Ididwriteyoualetter,’sheadmitted,withmisgiving,nowbeginningtoseehermistake。’ItwasbecauseIwassorryIhadblamedyou。’ ’Iamalmostgladyoudidblameme,’saidJohncheerfully,’since,ifyouhadnot,theletterwouldnothavecome。Ihavereaditfiftytimesaday。’ ThisputAnneintoanunhappymood,andtheyproceededwithoutmuchfurthertalktillthemillchimneyswerevisiblebelowthem。Johnthensaidthathewouldleavehertogoinbyherself。 ’Ah,youaregoingbacktogetintosomedangeronmyaccount?’ ’Ican’tgetintomuchdangerwithsuchafellowashe,canI?’saidJohn,smiling。