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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4925更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
WhenAnneenteredandtookherseatshewasalwaysloudlyhailedbyMillerLovedayashewhettedhisknife;butfromBobshecondescendedtoacceptnosuchfamiliargreeting,andtheyoftensatdowntogetherasifeachhadablindeyeinthedirectionoftheother。Bobsometimestoldseriousandcorrectstoriesaboutsea- captains,pilots,boatswains,mates,ableseamen,andothercuriousfaunaofthemarineworld;buttheseweredirectlyaddressedtohisfatherandMrs。Loveday,Annebeingincludedattheclinching-pointbyaglanceonly。Hesometimesopenedbottlesofsweetciderforher,andthenshethankedhim;buteventhisdidnotleadtoherencouraginghischat。 OnedaywhenAnnewasparinganappleshewasleftattablewiththeyoungman。’Ihavemadesomethingforyou,’hesaid。 Shelookedalloverthetable;nothingwastheresavetheordinaryremnants。 ’OIdon’tmeanthatitishere;itisoutbythebridgeatthemill-head。’ Hearose,andAnnefollowedwithcuriosityinhereyes,andwithherfirmlittlemouthpouteduptoapuzzledshape。Onreachingthemossymill-headshefoundthathehadfixedinthekeendampdraughtwhichalwaysprevailedoverthewheelanAEolianharpoflargesize。 Atpresentthestringswerepartlycoveredwithacloth。Heliftedit,andthewiresbegantoemitaweirdharmonywhichmingledcuriouslywiththeplashingofthewheel。 ’Imadeitonpurposeforyou,MissGarland,’hesaid。 Shethankedhimverywarmly,forshehadneverseenanythinglikesuchaninstrumentbefore,anditinterestedher。’Itwasverythoughtfulofyoutomakeit,’sheadded。’Howcameyoutothinkofsuchathing?’ ’OIdon’tknowexactly,’hereplied,asifhedidnotcaretobequestionedonthepoint。’Ihavenevermadeoneinmylifetillnow。’ Everynightafterthis,duringthemournfulgalesofautumn,thestrangemixedmusicofwater,wind,andstringsmetherear,swellingandsinkingwithanalmostsupernaturalcadence。ThecharacteroftheinstrumentwasfarenoughremovedfromanythingshehadhithertoseenofBob’shobbies;sothatshemarvelledpleasantlyatthenewdepthsofpoetrythiscontrivancerevealedasexistentinthatyoungseaman’snature,andallowedheremotionstoflowoutyetalittlefurtherintheolddirection,notwithstandingherlatesevereresolvetobarthemback。 Onebreezynight,whenthemillwaskeptgoingintothesmallhours,andthewindwasexactlyinthedirectionofthewater-current,themusicsomingledwithherdreamsastowakeher:itseemedtorhythmicallysetitselftothewords,’Rememberme!thinkofme!’ Shewasmuchimpressed;thesoundswerealmosttootouching;andshespoketoBobthenextmorningonthesubject。 ’Howstrangeitisthatyoushouldhavethoughtoffixingthatharpwherethewatergushes!’shegentlyobserved。’Itaffectsmealmostpainfullyatnight。Youarepoetical,CaptainBob。Butitistoo—— toosad!’ ’Iwilltakeitaway,’saidCaptainBobpromptly。’Itcertainlyistoosad;Ithoughtsomyself。Imyselfwaskeptawakebyitonenight。’ ’Howcameyoutothinkofmakingsuchapeculiarthing?’ ’Well,’saidBob,’itishardlyworthsayingwhy。Itisnotagoodplaceforsuchaqueernoisymachine;andI’lltakeitaway。’ ’Onsecondthoughts,’saidAnne,’Ishouldlikeittoremainalittlelonger,becauseitsetsmethinking。’ ’Ofme?’heaskedwithearnestfrankness。 Anne’scolourrosefast。 ’Well,yes,’shesaid,tryingtoinfusemuchplainmatter-of-factintohervoice。’OfcourseIamledtothinkofthepersonwhoinventedit。’ Bobseemedunaccountablyembarrassed,andthesubjectwasnotpursued。Abouthalf-an-hourlaterhecametoheragain,withsomethingofanuneasylook。 ’TherewasalittlematterIdidn’ttellyoujustnow,MissGarland,’hesaid。’Aboutthatharpthing,Imean。Ididmakeit,certainly,butitwasmybrotherJohnwhoaskedmetodoit,justbeforehewentaway。Johnisverymusical,asyouknow,andhesaiditwouldinterestyou;butashedidn’taskmetotell,Ididnot。 PerhapsIoughttohave,andnothavetakenthecredittomyself。’ ’O,itisnothing!’saidAnnequickly。’Itisaveryincompleteinstrumentafterall,anditwillbejustaswellforyoutotakeitawayasyoufirstproposed。’ Hesaidthathewould,butheforgottodoitthatday;andthefollowingnighttherewasahighwind,andtheharpcriedandmoanedsomovinglythatAnne,whosewindowwasquitenear,couldhardlybearthesoundwithitsnewassociations。JohnLovedaywaspresenttohermindallnightasanill-usedman;andyetshecouldnotownthatshehadill-usedhim。 Theharpwasremovednextday。Bob,feelingthathiscreditfororiginalitywasdamagedinhereyes,bywayofrecoveringitsethimselftopaintthesummer-housewhichAnnefrequented,andwhenhecameoutheassuredherthatitwasquitehisownidea。 ’Itwanteddoing,certainly,’shesaid,inaneutraltone。 ’Itisjustabouttroublesome。’ ’Yes;youcan’tquitereachup。That’sbecauseyouarenotverytall;isitnot,CaptainLoveday?’ ’Youneverusedtosaythingslikethat。’ ’O,Idon’tmeanthatyouaremuchlessthantall!ShallIholdthepaintforyou,tosaveyoursteppingdown?’ ’Thankyou,ifyouwould。’ Shetookthepaint-pot,andstoodlookingatthebrushasitmovedupanddowninhishand。 ’IhopeIshallnotsprinkleyourfingers,’heobservedashedipped。 ’O,thatwouldnotmatter!Youdoitverywell。’ ’Iamgladtohearthatyouthinkso。’ ’Butperhapsnotquitesomuchartisdemandedtopaintasummer-houseastopaintapicture?’ Thinkingthat,asapainter’sdaughter,andapersonofeducationsuperiortohisown,shespokewithaflavourofsarcasm,hefelthumbledandsaid—— ’Youdidnotusetotalklikethattome。’ ’Iwasperhapstooyoungthentotakeanypleasureingivingpain,’ sheobserveddaringly。 ’Doesitgiveyoupleasure?’ Annenodded。 ’Iliketogivepaintopeoplewhohavegivenpaintome,’shesaidsmartly,withoutremovinghereyesfromthegreenliquidinherhand。 ’Iaskyourpardonforthat。’ ’Ididn’tsayImeantyou——thoughIdidmeanyou。’ Boblookedandlookedathersidefacetillhewasbewitchedintoputtingdownhisbrush。 ’Itwasthatstupidforgettingof’eeforatime!’heexclaimed。 ’Well,Ihadn’tseenyouforsoverylong——considerhowmanyyears! O,dearAnne!’hesaid,advancingtotakeherhand,’howwellweknewoneanotherwhenwewerechildren!Youwasaqueentomethen; andsoyouarenow,andalways。’ PossiblyAnnewasthrilledpleasantlyenoughathavingbroughtthetruantvillageladtoherfeetagain;buthewasnottofindthesituationsoeasyasheimagined,andherhandwasnottobetakenyet。 ’Verypretty!’shesaid,laughing。’AndonlysixweekssinceMissJohnsonleft。’ ’Zounds,don’tsayanythingaboutthat!’imploredBob。’IswearthatInever——neverdeliberatelylovedher——foralongtimetogether,thatis;itwasasuddensortofthing,youknow。Buttowardsyou——Ihavemoreorlesshonouredandrespectfullylovedyou,offandon,allmylife。There,that’strue。’ Anneretortedquickly—— ’Iamwilling,offandon,tobelieveyou,CaptainRobert。ButI don’tseeanygoodinyourmakingthesesolemndeclarations。’ ’Givemeleavetoexplain,dearMissGarland。Itistogetyoutobepleasedtorenewanoldpromise——madeyearsago——thatyou’llthinko’me。’ ’NotawordofanypromisewillIrepeat。’ ’Well,well,Iwon’turge’eetoday。Onlyletmebegofyoutogetoverthequitewrongnotionyouhaveofme;anditshallbemywholeendeavourtofetchyourgraciousfavour。’ Anneturnedawayfromhimandenteredthehouse,whitherinthecourseofaquarterofanhourhefollowedher,knockingatherdoor,andaskingtobeletin。Shesaidshewasbusy;whereuponhewentaway,tocomebackagaininashorttimeandreceivethesameanswer。 ’Ihavefinishedpaintingthesummer-houseforyou,’hesaidthroughthedoor。 ’Icannotcometoseeit。Ishallbeengagedtillsupper-time。’ Sheheardhimbreatheaheavysighandwithdraw,murmuringsomethingabouthisbadluckinbeingcutawayfromthestarnlikethis。Butitwasnotoveryet。Whensupper-timecameandtheysatdowntogether,shetookuponherselftoreprovehimforwhathehadsaidtoherinthegarden。 Bobmadehisforeheadexpressdespair。 ’Now,Ibegyouthisonething,’hesaid。’Justletmeknowyourwholemind。ThenIshallhaveachancetoconfessmyfaultsandmendthem,orclearmyconducttoyoursatisfaction。’ Sheansweredwithquickness,butnotloudenoughtobeheardbytheoldpeopleattheotherendofthetable——’Then,CaptainLoveday,I willtellyouonething,onefault,thatperhapswouldhavebeenmorepropertomycharacterthantoyours。Youaretooeasilyimpressedbynewfaces,andthatgivesmeaBADOPINIONofyou——yes,aBADOPINION。’ ’O,that’sit!’saidBobslowly,lookingatherwiththeintenserespectofapupilforamaster,herwordsbeingspokeninamannersopreciselybetweenjestandearnestthathewasinsomedoubthowtheyweretobereceived。’Impressedbynewfaces。Itiswrong,certainly,ofme。’ Thepoppingofacork,andthepouringoutofstrongbeerbythemillerwithaviewtogivingitahead,wereapparentlydistractionssufficienttoexcuseherinnotattendingfurthertohim;andduringtheremainderofthesittinghergentlechidingseemedtobesinkingseriouslyintohismind。Perhapsherownheartachedtoseehowsilenthewas;butshehadalwaysmeanttopunishhim。Dayafterdayfortwoorthreeweeksshepreservedthesamedemeanour,withaself-controlwhichdidjusticetohercharacter。And,onhispart,consideringwhathehadtoputupwith——howsheeludedhim,snappedhimoff,refusedtocomeoutwhenhecalledher,refusedtoseehimwhenhewantedtoenterthelittleparlourwhichshehadnowappropriatedtoherprivateuse,hispatiencetestifiedstronglytohisgood-humour。 Christmashadpassed。Drearywinterwithdarkeveningshadgivenplacetomoredrearywinterwithlightevenings。Rapidthawshadendedinrain,raininwind,windindust。Showerydayshadcome—— theseasonofpinkdawnsandwhitesunsets;andpeoplehopedthattheMarchweatherwasover。 Thechiefincidentthatconcernedthehouseholdatthemillwasthatthemiller,followingtheexampleofallhisneighbours,hadbecomeavolunteer,anddulyappearedtwiceaweekinared,long-tailedmilitarycoat,pipe-clayedbreeches,blackclothgaiters,aheel-balledhelmet-hat,withatuftofgreenwool,andepaulettesofthesamecolourandmaterial。Bobstillremainedneutral。Notbeingabletodecidewhethertoenrolhimselfasasea-fencible,alocalmilitia-man,oravolunteer,hesimplywentondancingattendanceuponAnne。Mrs。Lovedayhadbecomeawaketothefactthatthepairofyoungpeoplestoodinacuriousattitudetowardseachother;butastheywereneverseenwiththeirheadstogether,andscarcelyeversateveninthesameroom,shecouldnotbesurewhattheirmovementsmeant。 Strangelyenough(orperhapsnaturallyenough),sinceenteringtheLovedayfamilyherself,shehadgraduallygrowntothinklessfavourablyofAnnedoingthesamething,andrevertedtoheroriginalideaofencouragingFestus;thismoreparticularlybecausehehadoflateshownsuchperseveranceinhauntingtheprecinctsofthemill,presumablywiththeintentionoflightingupontheyounggirl。Buttheweatherhadkepthermostlyindoors。