第25章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5517更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
Annefaintlyreplied’Yes,’andallowedthemillertotakeherforwardonhisarmtothetrackway,soastobeclosetotheflankoftheapproachingcolumn。Itcameup,manypeopleoneachsidegraspingthehandsofthetroopersinbiddingthemfarewell;andassoonasJohnLovedaysawthemembersofhisfather’shousehold,hestretcheddownhishandacrosshisrightpistolforthesameperformance。Themillergavehis,thenMrs。Lovedaygavehers,andthenthehandofthetrumpet-majorwasextendedtowardsAnne。Butasthehorsedidnotabsolutelystop,itwasasomewhatawkwardperformanceforayoungwomantoundertake,and,moreonthataccountthanonanyother,Annedrewback,andthegallanttrooperpassedbywithoutreceivingheradieu。Anne’sheartreproachedherforamoment;andthenshethoughtthat,afterall,hewasnotgoingofftoimmediatebattle,andthatshewouldinallprobabilityseehimagainatnodistantdate,whenshehopedthatthemysteryofhisconductwouldbeexplained。Herthoughtswereinterruptedbyavoiceatherelbow:’Thankheaven,he’sgone!Nowthere’sachanceforme。’ Sheturned,andFestusDerrimanwasstandingbyher。 ’There’snochanceforyou,’shesaidindignantly。 ’Whynot?’ ’Becausethere’sanotherleft!’ Thewordshadslippedoutquiteunintentionally,andsheblushedquickly。Shewouldhavegivenanythingtobeabletorecallthem; buthehadheard,andsaid,’Who?’ Annewentforwardtothemillertoavoidreplying,andFestuscaughthernomore。 ’HasanybodybeenhangingaboutOvercombeMillexceptLoveday’ssonthesoldier?’heaskedofacomrade。 ’Hissonthesailor,’wasthereply。 ’O——hissonthesailor,’saidFestusslowly。’Damnhissonthesailor!’ AtthisparticularmomenttheobjectofFestusDerriman’sfulminationwasassuredlynotdangerousasarival。Bob,afterabstractedlywatchingthesoldiersfromthefrontofthehousetilltheywereoutofsight,hadgonewithindoorsandseatedhimselfinthemill-parlour,wherehisfatherfoundhim,hiselbowsrestingonthetableandhisforeheadonhishands,hiseyesbeingfixeduponadocumentthatlayopenbeforehim。 ’Whatartperusing,Bob,withsuchalongface?’ Bobsighed,andthenMrs。LovedayandAnneentered。’’Tisonlyastate-paperthatIfondlythoughtIshouldhaveausefor,’hesaidgloomily。And,lookingdownasbefore,heclearedhisvoice,asifmovedinwardlytogoon,andbegantoreadinfeelingtonesfromwhatprovedtobehisnullifiedmarriagelicence:—— ’“TimothyTitusPhilemon,bypermissionBishopofBristol:Toourwell-belovedRobertLoveday,oftheparishofOvercombe,Bachelor; andMatildaJohnson,ofthesameparish,Spinster。Greeting。“’ HereAnnesighed,butcontrivedtokeepdownhersightoamerenothing。 ’Beautifullanguage,isn’tit!’saidBob。’Iwasnevergreetedlikethatafore!’ ’Yes;Ihaveoftenthoughtitveryexcellentlanguagemyself,’saidMrs。Loveday。 ’Cometothat,theoldgentlemanwillgreettheelikeitagainanydayforacoupleofguineas,’saidthemiller。 ’That’snotthepoint,father!Younevercouldseetherealmeaningofthesethings……Well,thenhegoeson:“Whereasyeare,asitisalleged,determinedtoenterintotheholyestateofmatrimony——“ButwhyshouldIreadon?Itallmeansnothingnow—— nothing,andthesplendidwordsareallwasteduponair。ItseemsasifIhadbeenhailedbysomevenerablehoaryprophet,andhadturnedaway,putthehelmhardup,andwouldn’thear。’ Nobodyreplied,feelingprobablythatsympathycouldnotmeetthecase,andBobwentonreadingtherestofittohimself,occasionallyheavingabreathlikethewindinaship’sshrouds。 ’Iwouldn’tsetmymindsomuchuponher,ifIwasthee,’saidhisfatheratlast。 ’Whynot?’ ’Well,folkmightcalltheeafool,andsaythybrainswereturningtowater。’ Bobwasapparentlymuchstruckbythisthought,and,insteadofcontinuingthediscoursefurther,hecarefullyfoldedupthelicence,wentout,andwalkedupanddownthegarden。Itwasstartlinglyaptwhathisfatherhadsaid;and,worsethanthat,whatpeoplewouldcallhimmightbetrue,andtheliquefactionofhisbrainsturnouttobenofable。Bydegreeshebecamemuchconcerned,andthemoreheexaminedhimselfbythisnewlightthemoreclearlydidheperceivethathewasinaverybadway。 OnreflectionherememberedthatsinceMissJohnson’sdeparturehisappetitehaddecreasedamazingly。Hehadeateninmeatnomorethanfourteenorfifteenouncesaday,butone-thirdofaquarternpuddingonanaverage,invegetablesonlyasmallheapofpotatoesandhalfaYorkcabbage,andnogravywhatever;which,consideringtheusualappetiteofaseamanforfreshfoodattheendofalongvoyage,wasnosmallindexofthedepressionofhismind。Thenhehadwakedonceeverynight,andononeoccasiontwice。Whiledressingeachmorningsincethegloomydayhehadnotwhistledmorethansevenbarsofahornpipewithoutstoppingandfallingintothoughtofamostpainfulkind;andhehadtoldnonebutabsolutelytruestoriesofforeignpartstotheneighbouringvillagerswhentheysalutedandclusteredabouthim,asusual,foranythinghechosetopourforth——exceptthatstoryofthewhalewhoseeyewasaboutaslargeastheroundpondinDerriman’sewe-lease——whichwasliketemptingfatetosetasealforeveruponhistongueasatraveller。Allthisenervation,mentalandphysical,hadbeenproducedbyMatilda’sdeparture。 Healsoconsideredwhathehadlostoftherationalamusementsofmanhoodduringtheseunfortunatedays。Hemighthavegonetotheneighbouringfashionableresorteveryafternoon,stoodbeforeGloucesterLodgetilltheKingandQueencameout,heldhishatinhishand,andenjoyedtheirMajesties’smilesathishomageallfornothing——watchedthepicket-mounting,heardthedifferentbandsstrikeup,observedthestaff;and,aboveall,haveseentheprettytowngirlsgotrip-trip-tripalongtheesplanade,deliberatelyfixingtheirinnocenteyesonthedistantsea,thegreycliffs,andthesky,andaccidentallyonthesoldiersandhimself。 ’I’llrazeoutherimage,’hesaid。’Sheshallmakeafoolofmenomore。’Andhisresolveresultedinconductwhichhadelementsofrealgreatness。 Hewentbacktohisfather,whomhefoundinthemill-loft。’’Tistrue,father,whatyousay,’heobserved:’mybrainswillturntobilge-waterifIthinkofhermuchlonger。Bytheoathofa—— navigator,IwishIcouldsighlessandlaughmore!She’sgone——whycan’tIlethergo,andbehappy?Buthowbegin?’ ’Takeitcareless,myson,’saidthemiller,’andlayyourselfouttoenjoysnacksandcordials。’ ’Ah——that’sathought!’saidBob。 ’Baccyisgoodfor’t。Soissperrits。ThoughIdon’tadvisetheetodrinkneat。’ ’Baccy——I’dalmostforgotit!’saidCaptainLoveday。 Hewenttohisroom,hastilyuntiedthepackageoftobaccothathehadbroughthome,andbegantomakeuseofitinhisownway,callingtoDavidforabottleoftheoldhouseholdmeadthathadlaininthecellartheseelevenyears。Hewasdiscoveredbyhisfatherthree-quartersofanhourlaterasahalf-invisibleobjectbehindacloudofsmoke。 Themillerdrewabreathofrelief。’Why,Bob,’hesaid,’Ithoughtthehousewasa-fire!’ ’I’msmokingratherfasttodrownmyreflections,father。’Tisnousetochaw。’ TotempthisattenuatedappetitetheunhappymatemadeDavidcookanomeletandbakeaseed-cake,thelattersorichlycompoundedthatitopenedtotheknifelikeafreckledbuttercup。Withthesameobjecthestucknight-linesintothebanksofthemill-pond,anddrewupnextmorningafamilyoffateels,someofwhichwereskinnedandpreparedforhisbreakfast。Theywerehisfavouritefish,butsuchhadbeenhisconditionthat,untilthemomentofmakingthiseffort,hehadquiteforgottentheirexistenceathisfather’sback-door。 InafewdaysBobLovedayhadconsiderablyimprovedintoneandvigour。OneotherobviousremedyforhisdejectionwastoindulgeinthesocietyofMissGarland,lovebeingsomuchmoreeffectuallygotridofbydisplacementthanbyattemptedannihilation。ButLoveday’sbeliefthathehadoffendedherbeyondforgiveness,andhisever-presentsenseofherasawomanwhobyeducationandantecedentswasfittedtoadornahigherspherethanhisown,effectuallykepthimfromgoingnearherforalongtime,notwithstandingthattheywereinmatesofonehouse。Thereservewas,however,insomedegreebrokenbytheappearanceonemorning,laterintheseason,ofthepointofasawthroughthepartitionwhichdividedAnne’sroomfromtheLovedayhalfofthehouse。 ThoughshedinedandsuppedwithhermotherandtheLovedayfamily,MissGarlandhadstillcontinuedtooccupyheroldapartments,becauseshefounditmoreconvenienttheretopursueherhobbiesofwool-workandofcopyingherfather’soldpictures。Thedivisionwallhadnotasyetbeenbrokendown。 AsthesawworkeditswaydownwardsunderherastonishedgazeAnnejumpedupfromherdrawing;andpresentlythetemporarycanvasingandpaperingwhichhadsealeduptheolddoorofcommunicationwascutcompletelythrough。Thedoorburstopen,andBobstoodrevealedontheotherside,withthesawinhishand。 ’Ibegyourladyship’spardon,’hesaid,takingoffthehathehadbeenworkingin,ashishandsomefaceexpandedintoasmile。’I didn’tknowthisdooropenedintoyourprivateroom。’ ’Indeed,CaptainLoveday!’ ’Iampullingdownthedivisiononprinciple,aswearenowonefamily。ButIreallythoughtthedooropenedintoyourpassage。’ ’Itdon’tmatter;Icangetanotherroom。’ ’Notatall。Fatherwouldn’tletmeturnyouout。I’llcloseitupagain。’ ButAnnewassointerestedinthenoveltyofanewdoorwaythatshewalkedthroughit,andfoundherselfinadarklowpassagewhichshehadneverseenbefore。 ’Itleadstothemill,’saidBob。’Wouldyouliketogoinandseeitatwork?Butperhapsyouhavealready。’ ’Onlyintothegroundfloor。’ ’Comealloverit。Iampractisingasgrinder,youknow,tohelpmyfather。’ Shefollowedhimalongthedarkpassage,inthesideofwhichheopenedalittletrap,whenshesawagreatslimycavern,wherethelongarmsofthemill-wheelflungthemselvesslowlyanddistractedlyround,andsplashingwater-dropscaughtthelittlelightthatstrayedintothegloomyplace,turningitintostarsandflashes。A coldmist-ladenpuffofaircameintotheirfaces,andtheroarfromwithinmadeitnecessaryforAnnetoshoutasshesaid,’Itisdismal!letusgoon。’ Bobshutthetrap,theroarceased,andtheywentontotheinnerpartofthemill,wheretheairwaswarmandnutty,andpervadedbyafogofflour。Thentheyascendedthestairs,andsawthestoneslumberingroundandround,andtheyellowcornrunningdownthroughthehopper。Theyclimbedyetfurthertothetopstage,wherethewheatlayinbins,andwherelongrayslikefeelersstretchedinfromthesunthroughthelittlewindow,gotnearlylostamongcobwebsandtimber,andcompletedtheircoursebymarkingtheoppositewallwithaglowingpatchofgold。 InhisearnestnessasanexhibitorBobopenedthebolter,whichwasspinningrapidlyround,theresultbeingthatadensecloudofflourrolledoutintheirfaces,remindingAnnethathercomplexionwasprobablymuchpalerbythistimethanwhenshehadenteredthemill。 Shethankedhercompanionforhistrouble,andsaidshewouldnowgodown。Hefollowedherwiththesamedeferenceashitherto,andwithasuddenandincreasingsensethatofallcuresforhisformerunhappypassionthiswouldhavebeenthenicest,theeasiest,andthemosteffectual,ifhehadonlybeenfortunateenoughtokeepheruponeasyterms。ButMissGarlandshowednodispositiontogofurtherthanaccepthisservicesasaguide;shedescendedtotheopenair,shooktheflourfromherlikeabird,andwentonintothegardenamidtheSeptembersunshine,whoserayslaylevelacrossthebluehazewhichtheearthgaveforth。Thegnatsweredancingupanddowninairycompanies,thenasturtiumflowersshoneoutingroupsfromthedarkhedgeoverwhichtheyclimbed,andthemellowsmellofthedeclineofsummerwasexhaledbyeverything。Bobfollowedherasfarasthegate,lookedafterher,thoughtofherasthesamegirlwhohadhalfencouragedhimyearsago,whensheseemedsosuperiortohim;thoughnowtheywerealmostequalsheapparentlythoughthimbeneathher。Itwaswithanewsenseofpleasurethathismindflewtothefactthatshewasnowaninmateofhisfather’shouse。 Hisobsequiousbearingwascontinuedduringthenextweek。Inthebusyhoursofthedaytheyseldommet,buttheyregularlyencounteredeachotheratmeals,andthesecheerfuloccasionsbegantohaveaninterestforhimquiteirrespectiveofdishesandcups。