第22章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5379更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
’Yes,yes,’saidLoveday;andtheydescendedintothegarden。 Heretheyturnedoversundryflatstonesandkilledtheslugsshelteredbeneaththemfromthecomingheatoftheday,talkingofslugsinalltheirbranches——ofthebrownandtheblack,ofthetoughandthetender,ofthereasonwhythereweresomanyinthegardenthatyear,ofthecomingtimewhenthegrass-walksharbouringthemweretobetakenupandgravellaid,andoftherelativelyexterminatorymeritsofapairofscissorsandtheheeloftheshoe。 Atlastthemillersaid,’Well,really,Bob,I’mhungry;wemustbeginwithouther。’ Theywereabouttogoin,whenDavidappearedwithhasteinhismotions,hiseyeswiderverticallythancrosswise,andhischeeksnearlyallgone。 ’Maister,I’vebeentocallher;andas’adidn’tspeakIrapped,andas’adidn’tanswerIkicked,andnotbeinglatchedthedooropened,and——she’sgone!’ Bobwentofflikeaswallowtowardsthehouse,andthemillerfollowedliketheratherheavymanthathewas。ThatMissMatildawasnotinherroom,orascrapofanythingbelongingtoher,wassoonapparent。Theysearchedeveryplaceinwhichshecouldpossiblyhideorsqueezeherself,everyplaceinwhichshecouldnot,butfoundnothingatall。 CaptainBobwasquitewildwithastonishmentandgrief。Whenhewasquitesurethatshewasnowhereinhisfather’shouse,heranintoMrs。Garland’s,andtellingthemthestorysohastilythattheyhardlyunderstoodtheparticulars,hewentontowardsComfort’shouse,intendingtoraisethealarmthere,andalsoatMitchell’s,Beach’s,Cripplestraw’s,theparson’s,theclerk’s,thecampofdragoons,ofhussars,andsoonthroughthewholecounty。Buthepaused,andthoughtitwouldbehardlyexpedienttopublishhisdiscomfitureinsuchaway。IfMatildahadleftthehouseforanyfreakishreasonhewouldnotcaretolookforher,andifherdeedhadatragicintentshewouldkeepalooffromcampandvillage。 InhistroublehethoughtofAnne。Shewasanicegirlandcouldbetrusted。Toherhewent,andfoundherinastateofexcitementandanxietywhichequalledhisown。 ’’Tissolonelytocruiseforherallbymyself!’saidBobdisconsolately,hisforeheadallinwrinkles,’andI’vethoughtyouwouldcomewithmeandcheertheway?’ ’Whereshallwesearch?’saidAnne。 ’O,intheholesofrivers,youknow,anddownwells,andinquarries,andovercliffs,andlikethat。YoureyesmightcatchtheloomofanybitofashawlorbonnetthatIshouldoverlook,anditwoulddomearealservice。Pleasedocome!’ SoAnnetookpityuponhim,andputonherhatandwent,themillerandDavidhavinggoneoffinanotherdirection。Theyexaminedtheditchesoffields,BobgoingroundbyonefenceandAnnebytheother,tilltheymetattheoppositeside。Thentheypeepedunderculverts,intoouthouses,anddownoldwellsandquarries,tillthetheoryofatragicalendhadnearlyspentitsforceinBob’smind,andhebegantothinkthatMatildahadsimplyrunaway。However,theystillwalkedon,thoughbythistimethesunwashotandAnnewouldgladlyhavesatdown。 ’Now,didn’tyouthinkhighlyofher,MissGarland?’heinquired,asthesearchbegantolanguish。 ’Oyes,’saidAnne,’veryhighly。’ ’Shewasreallybeautiful;nononsenseaboutherlooks,wasthere?’ ’None。Herbeautywasthoroughlyripe——nottooyoung。Weshouldallhavegottoloveher。Whatcanhavepossessedhertogoaway?’ ’Idon’tknow,and,uponmylife,IshallsoonbedrovetosayI don’tcare!’repliedthematedespairingly。’Letmepilotyedownoverthosestones,’headded,asAnnebegantodescendaruggedquarry。Hesteppedforward,leaptdown,andturnedtoher。 Shegavehimherhandandsprangdown。Beforeherelinquishedhishold,CaptainBobraisedherfingerstohislipsandkissedthem。 ’O,CaptainLoveday!’criedAnne,snatchingawayherhandingenuinedismay,whileatearroseunexpectedlytoeacheye。’Ineverheardofsuchathing!Iwon’tgoaninchfurtherwithyou,sir;itistoobarefaced!’Andsheturnedandranoff。 ’UponmylifeIdidn’tmeanit!’saidtherepentantcaptain,hasteningafter。’Idoloveherbest——indeedIdo——andIdon’tloveyouatall!Iamnotsofickleasthat!Imerelyjustforthemomentadmiredyouasasweetlittlecraft,andthat’showIcametodoit。Youknow,MissGarland,’hecontinuedearnestly,andstillrunningafter,’’tislikethis:whenyoucomeashoreafterhavingbeenshutupinashipforeighteenmonths,women-folksseemsonewandnicethatyoucan’thelplikingthem,oneandallinabody;andsoyourheartisapttogetscatteredandtoyawabit;butofcourseIthinkofpoorMatildamost,andshallalwayssticktoher。’ Heheavedasighoftremendousmagnitude,toshowbeyondthepossibilityofdoubtthathisheartwasstillintheplacethathonourrequired。 ’Iamgladtohearthat——ofcourseIamveryglad!’saidshe,withquickpetulance,keepingherfaceturnedfromhim。’AndIhopeweshallfindher,andthattheweddingwillnotbeputoff,andthatyou’llbothbehappy。ButIwon’tlookforheranymore!No;I don’tcaretolookforher——andmyheadaches。Iamgoinghome!’ ’AndsoamI,’saidRobertpromptly。 ’No,no;goonlookingforher,ofcourse——alltheafternoon,andallnight。Iamsureyouwill,ifyouloveher。’ ’Oyes;Imeanto。Still,Ioughttoconvoyyouhomefirst?’ ’No,yououghtnot;andIshallnotacceptyourcompany。 Good-morning,sir!’Andshewentoffoveroneofthestonestileswithwhichthespotabounded,leavingthefriendlysailorstandinginthefield。 Hesighedagain,and,observingthecampnotfaroff,thoughthewouldgotohisbrotherJohnandaskhimhisopiniononthesorrowfulcase。OnreachingthetentshefoundthatJohnwasnotatlibertyjustatthattime,beingengagedinpractisingthetrumpeters;andleavingwordthathewishedthetrumpet-majortocomedowntothemillassoonaspossible,Bobwentbackagain。 ’’Tisnogoodlookingforher,’hesaidgloomily。’Shelikedmewellenough,butwhenshecamehereandsawthehouse,andtheplace,andtheoldhorse,andtheplainfurniture,shewasdisappointedtofindusallsohomely,andfeltshedidn’tcaretomarryintosuchafamily!’ HisfatherandDavidhadreturnedwithnonews。 ’Yes,’tisasI’vebeenthinking,father,’Bobsaid。’Weweren’tgoodenoughforher,andshewentawayinscorn!’ ’Well,thatcan’tbehelped,’saidthemiller。’Whatwebe,webe,andhavebeenforgenerations。Tomymindsheseemedgladenoughtogetholdofus!’ ’Yes,yes——forthemoment——becauseoftheflowers,andbirds,andwhat’sprettyintheplace,’saidBobtragically。’Butyoudon’tknow,father——howshouldyouknow,whohavehardlybeenoutofOvercombeinyourlife?——youdon’tknowwhatdelicatefeelingsareinarealrefinedwoman’smind。Anylittlevulgaractionunreavestheirnerveslikeamarline-spike。NowIwonderifyoudidanythingtodisgusther?’ ’Faith!notthatIknowof,’saidLoveday,reflecting。’Ididn’tsayasinglethingthatIshouldnaturallyhavesaid,onpurposetogivenooffence。’ ’Youwasalwaysveryhomely,youknow,father。’ ’Yes;soIwas,’saidthemillermeekly。 ’Iwonderwhatitcouldhavebeen,’Bobcontinued,wanderingaboutrestlessly。’Youdidn’tgodrinkingoutofthebigmugwithyourmouthfull,orwipeyourlipswithyoursleeve?’ ’ThatI’llswearIdidn’t!’saidthemillerfirmly。’ThinksI,there’snoknowingwhatImaydotoshockher,soI’lltakemysolidvictualsinthebakehouse,andonlyacrumbandadropinhercompanyformanners。’ ’Youcoulddonomorethanthat,certainly,’saidBobgently。 ’Ifmymannersbegoodenoughforwell-brought-uppeopleliketheGarlands,theybegoodenoughforher,’continuedthemiller,withasenseofinjustice。 ’That’strue。ThenitmusthavebeenDavid。David,comehere!Howdidyoubehavebeforethatlady?Now,mindyouspeakthetruth!’ ’Yes,Mr。CaptainRobert,’saidDavidearnestly。’Iassureyeshewasservedlikearoyalqueen。Thebestsilverspoonswezputdown,andyerpoorgrandfer’ssilvertanket,asyouseed,andthefeathercushionforhertositon——’ ’NowI’vegotit!’saidBobdecisively,bringingdownhishanduponthewindow-sill。’Herbedwashard!——andthere’snothingshocksatrueladylikethat。ThebedinthatroomalwayswasashardastheRockofGibraltar!’ ’No,CaptainBob!Thebedswerechanged——wasn’ttheymaister?Weputthegoosebedinherroom,andtheflockone,thatusedtobethere,inyours。’ ’Yes,wedid,’corroboratedthemiller。’DavidandIchanged’emwithourownhands,becausetheyweretooheavyforthewomentomove。’ ’SureIdidn’tknowIhadtheflockbed,’murmuredBob。’Islepton,littlethinkingwhatIwasgoingtowaketo。Well,well,she’sgone;andsearchasIwillIshallneverfindanotherlikeher!Shewastoogoodforme。Shemusthavecarriedherboxwithherownhands,poorgirl。Asfarasthatgoes,Icouldovertakeherevennow,Idaresay;butIwon’tentreatheragainstherwill——notI。’ MillerLovedayandDavid,feelingthemselvestoberatheradesecrationinthepresenceofBob’ssacredemotions,managedtoedgeoffbydegrees,theformerburyinghimselfinthemostflouryrecessesofthemill,hisinvariableresourcewhenperturbed,therumblinghavingasoothingeffectuponthenervesofthoseproperlytrainedtoitsmusic。 Bobwassoimpatientthat,aftergoinguptoherroomtoassurehimselfoncemorethatshehadnotundressed,buthadonlylaindownontheoutsideofthebed,hewentoutofthehousetomeetJohn,andwaitedonthesunnyslopeofthedowntillhisbrotherappeared。 Johnlookedsobraveandshapelyandwarlikethat,eveninBob’spresentdistress,hecouldnotbutfeelanhonestandaffectionateprideatowningsucharelative。YethefanciedthatJohndidnotcomealongwiththesameswingingstephehadshownyesterday;andwhenthetrumpet-majorgotnearerhelookedanxiouslyatthemateandwaitedforhimtospeakfirst。 ’Youknowourgreattrouble,John?’saidRobert,gazingstoicallyintohisbrother’seyes。 ’Comeandsitdown,andtellmeallaboutit,’answeredthetrumpet-major,showingnosurprise。 Theywenttowardsaslightravine,whereitwaseasiertositdownthanontheflatground,andhereJohnreclinedamongthegrasshoppers,pointingtohisbrothertodothesame。 ’Butdoyouknowwhatitis?’saidRobert。’Hasanybodytoldye?’ ’Idoknow,’saidJohn。’She’sgone;andIamthankful!’ ’What!’saidBob,risingtohiskneesinamazement。 ’I’matthebottomofit,’saidthetrumpet-majorslowly。 ’You,John?’ ’Yes;andifyouwilllistenI’lltellyouall。DoyourememberwhathappenedwhenIcameintotheroomlastnight?Why,sheturnedcolourandnearlyfaintedaway。Thatwasbecausesheknewme。’ Bobstaredathisbrotherwithafaceofpainanddistrust。 ’Foronce,Bob,Imustsaysomethingthatwillhurttheeagooddeal,’continuedJohn。’Shewasnotawomanwhocouldpossiblybeyourwife——andsoshe’sgone。’ ’Yousentheroff?’ ’Well,Idid。’ ’John!——Tellmerightthrough——tellme!’ ’PerhapsIhadbetter,’saidthetrumpet-major,hisblueeyesrestingonthefardistantsea,thatseemedtoriselikeawallashighasthehilltheysatupon。 AndthenhetoldataleofMissJohnsonandthe——thDragoonswhichwrunghisheartasmuchinthetellingasitdidBob’stohear,andwhichshowedthatJohnhadbeentemporarilycrueltobeultimatelykind。EvenBob,excitedashewas,coulddiscernfromJohn’smannerofspeakingwhataterribleundertakingthatnight’sbusinesshadbeenforhim。Tojustifythecoursehehadadoptedthedictatesofdutymusthavebeenimperative;butthetrumpet-major,withabecomingreticencewhichhisbrotheratthetimewasnaturallyunabletoappreciate,scarcelydweltdistinctlyenoughuponthecompellingcauseofhisconduct。Itwould,indeed,havebeenhardforanyman,muchlesssomodestaoneasJohn,todohimselfjusticeinthatremarkablerelation,whenthelistenerwasthelady’slover;anditisnowonderthatRobertrosetohisfeetandputagreaterdistancebetweenhimselfandJohn。 ’Andwhattimewasit?’heaskedinahard,suppressedvoice。 ’Itwasjustbeforeoneo’clock。’ ’Howcouldyouhelphertogoaway?’ ’Ihadapass。Icarriedherboxtothecoach-office。Shewastofollowatdawn。’