第25章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:4625更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
“Mydearestgirl,“shebegan,“wasthereeversuchanunfortunateandincomprehensiblespeechmadebefore?OfcourseitisscarcelynecessarytoexplaintoyoupoorArthur’slackoftact,andthathemeantnothing。Butthey!Cantheybeexpectedtounderstand?Hewillfeelwretchedlyaboutitwhenherealizeswhathehasdone,butinthemeantime?AndM。Roux,ofallmen!Whenweweresofortunateastogethim,andhemadehimselfsounreservedlyagreeable,andIfanciedthat,inhisway,Arthurquiteadmiredhim。Mydear,youhavenoideawhatthatspeechhasdone。SchemetzkinandHerrSchottehavealreadysentmewordthattheymustleaveustomorrow。Suchathingfromahost!“Flaviapaused,chokedbytearsofvexationanddespair。 Imogenwasthoroughlydisconcerted;thiswasthefirsttimeshehadeverseenFlaviabetrayanypersonalemotionwhichwasindubitablygenuine。Sherepliedwithwhatconsolationshecould。“Needtheytakeitpersonallyatall?Itwasamereobservationuponaclassofpeople——“ “Whichheknowsnothingwhateverabout,andwithwhomhehasnosympathy,“interruptedFlavia。“Ah,mydear,youcouldnotbeexpectedtounderstand。Youcan’trealize,knowingArthurasyoudo,hisentirelackofanyaestheticsensewhatever。Heisabsolutelynil,stonedeafandstarkblind,onthatside。 Hedoesn’tmeantobebrutal,itisjustthebrutalityofutterignorance。Theyalwaysfeelit——theyaresosensitivetounsympatheticinfluences,youknow;theyknowitthemomenttheycomeintothehouse。Ihavespentmylifeapologizingforhimandstrugglingtoconcealit;butinspiteofme,hewoundsthem; hisveryattitude,eveninsilence,offendsthem。Heavens!DoI notknow?Isitnotperpetuallyandforeverwoundingme?Buttherehasneverbeenanythingsodreadfulasthis——never!IfI couldconceiveofanypossiblemotive,even!“ “But,surely,Mrs。Hamilton,itwas,afterall,amereexpressionofopinion,suchasweareanyofuslikelytoventureuponanysubjectwhatever。ItwasneithermorepersonalnormoreextravagantthanmanyofM。Roux’sremarks。“ “But,Imogen,certainlyM。Rouxhastheright。Itisapartofhisart,andthatisaltogetheranothermatter。Oh,thisisnottheonlyinstance!“continuedFlaviapassionately,“I’vealwayshadthatnarrow,bigotedprejudicetocontendwith。Ithasalwaysheldmeback。Butthis——!“ “Ithinkyoumistakehisattitude,“repliedImogen,feelingaflushthatmadeherearstingle。“Thatis,Ifancyheismoreappreciativethanheseems。Amancan’tbeverydemonstrativeaboutthosethings——notifheisarealman。Ishouldnotthinkyouwouldcaremuchaboutsavingthefeelingsofpeoplewhoaretoonarrowtoadmitofanyotherpointofviewthantheirown。“ Shestopped,findingherselfintheimpossiblepositionofattemptingtoexplainHamiltontohiswife;ataskwhich,ifoncebegun,wouldnecessitateanentirecourseofenlightenmentwhichshedoubtedFlavia’sabilitytoreceive,andwhichshecouldofferonlywithverypoorgrace。 “That’sjustwhereitstingsmost“——hereFlaviabeganpacingthefloor——“itisjustbecausetheyhaveallshownsuchtoleranceandhavetreatedArthurwithsuchunfailingconsiderationthatI canfindnoreasonablepretextforhisrancor。Howcanhefailtoseethevalueofsuchfriendshipsonthechildren’saccount,iffornothingelse!Whatanadvantageforthemtogrowupamongsuchassociations!Eventhoughhecaresnothingaboutthesethingshimselfhemightrealizethat。IstherenothingIcouldsaybywayofexplanation?Tothem,Imean?Ifsomeoneweretoexplaintothemhowunfortunatelylimitedheisinthesethings——“ “I’mafraidIcannotadviseyou,“saidImogendecidedly,“butthat,atleast,seemstomeimpossible。“ Flaviatookherhandandglancedatheraffectionately,noddingnervously。“Ofcourse,deargirl,Ican’taskyoutobequitefrankwithme。Poorchild,youaretremblingandyourhandsareicy。PoorArthur!Butyoumustnotjudgehimbythisaltogether;thinkhowmuchhemissesinlife。Whatacruelshockyou’vehad。I’llsendyousomesherry,Goodnight,mydear。“ WhenFlaviashutthedoorImogenburstintoafitofnervousweeping。 Nextmorningsheawokeafteratroubledandrestlessnight。Ateighto’clockMissBroadwoodenteredinaredandwhitestripedbathrobe。 “Up,up,andseethegreatdoom’simage!“shecried,hereyessparklingwithexcitement。“Thehallisfulloftrunks,theyarepacking。Whatbolthasfallen?It’syou,macherie,you’vebroughtUlysseshomeagainandtheslaughterhasbegun!“sheblewacloudofsmoketriumphantlyfromherlipsandthrewherselfintoachairbesidethebed。 Imogen,risingonherelbow,plungedexcitedlyintothestoryoftheRouxinterview,whichMissBroadwoodheardwiththekeenestinterest,frequentlyinterruptingherwithexclamationsofdelight。WhenImogenreachedthedramaticscenewhichterminatedinthedestructionofthenewspaper,MissBroadwoodroseandtookaturnabouttheroom,violentlyswitchingthetasselledcordsofherbathrobe。 “Stopamoment,“shecried,“youmeantotellmethathehadsuchaheaven-sentmeanstobringhertohersensesanddidn’tuseit——thatheheldsuchaweaponandthrewitaway?“ “Useit?“criedImogenunsteadily。“Ofcoursehedidn’t!Hebaredhisbacktothetormentor,signedhimselfovertopunishmentinthatspeechhemadeatdinner,whicheveryoneunderstandsbutFlavia。Shewashereforanhourlastnightanddisregardedeverylimitoftasteinhermaledictions。“ “Mydear!“criedMissBroadwood,catchingherhandininordinatedelightatthesituation,“doyouseewhathehasdone?There’llbenoendtoit。Whyhehassacrificedhimselftosparetheveryvanitythatdevourshim,putrancorsinthevesselsofhispeace,andhiseternaljewelgiventothecommonenemyofman,tomakethemkings,theseedofBanquokings!Heismagnificent!“ “Isn’thealwaysthat?“criedImogenhotly。“He’slikeapillarofsanityandlawinthishouseofshamsandswollenvanities,wherepeoplestalkaboutwithasortofmadhousedignity,eachonefancyinghimselfakingorapope。Ifyoucouldhaveheardthatwomantalkofhim!Why,shethinkshimstupid,bigoted,blindedbymiddleclassprejudices。Shetalkedabouthishavingnoaestheticsenseandinsistedthatherartistshadalwaysshownhimtolerance。Idon’tknowwhyitshouldgetonmynervesso,I’msure,butherstupidityandassuranceareenoughtodriveonetothebrinkofcollapse。“ “Yes,asopposedtohissingularfineness,theyarecalculatedtodojustthat,“saidMissBroadwoodgravely,wiselyignoringImogen’stears。“Butwhathasbeenisnothingtowhatwillbe。JustwaituntilFlavia’sblackswanshaveflown!Yououghtnottotrytostickitout;thatwouldonlymakeitharderforeveryone。Supposeyouletmetelephoneyourmothertowireyoutocomehomebytheeveningtrain?“ “Anything,ratherthanhavehercomeatmelikethatagain。Itputsmeinaperfectlyimpossibleposition,andheissofine!“ “Ofcourseitdoes,“saidMissBroadwoodsympathetically,“andthereisnogoodtobegotfromfacingit。Iwillstaybecausesuchthingsinterestme,andFrauLichtenfeldwillstaybecauseshehasnomoneytogetaway,andBuissonwillstaybecausehefeelssomewhatresponsible。Thesecomplicationsareinterestingenoughtocold-bloodedfolklikemyselfwhohaveaneyeforthedramaticelement,buttheyaredistractinganddemoralizingtoyoungpeoplewithanyseriouspurposeinlife。“ MissBroadwood’scounselwasallthemoregenerousseeingthat,forher,themostinterestingelementofthisdenouementwouldbeeliminatedbyImogen’sdeparture。“Ifshegoesnow,she’llgetoverit,“soliloquizedMissBroadwood。“Ifshestays,she’llbewrungforhimandthehurtmaygodeepenoughtolast。 Ihaven’tthehearttoseeherspoilingthingsforherself。“ShetelephonedMrs。WillardandhelpedImogentopack。SheeventookituponherselftobreakthenewsofImogen’sgoingtoArthur,whoremarked,asherolledacigaretteinhisnervelessfingers: “Rightenough,too。Whatshouldshedoherewitholdcynicslikeyouandme,Jimmy?Seeingthatsheisbrimfullofdatesandformulaeandotherpositivisms,andissogirtaboutwithillusionsthatshestillcastsashadowinthesun。You’vebeenverytenderofher,haven’tyou?I’vewatchedyou。Andtothinkitmayallbegonewhenweseehernext。’Thecommonfateofallthingsrare,’youknow。Whatagoodfellowyouare,anyway,Jimmy,“headded,puttinghishandsaffectionatelyonhershoulders。 Arthurwentwiththemtothestation。FlaviawassoprostratedbytheconcertedactionofhergueststhatshewasabletoseeImogenonlyforamomentinherdarkenedsleepingchamber,whereshekissedherhysterically,withoutliftingherhead,bandagedinaromaticvinegar。OnthewaytothestationbothArthurandImogenthrewtheburdenofkeepingupappearancesentirelyuponMissBroadwood,whoblithelyrosetotheoccasion。 WhenHamiltoncarriedImogen’sbagintothecar,MissBroadwooddetainedherforamoment,whisperingasshegaveheralarge,warmhandclasp,“I’llcometoseeyouwhenIgetbacktotown; and,inthemeantime,ifyoumeetanyofourartists,tellthemyouhaveleftCaiusMariusamongtheruinsofCarthage。“ EndTheSculptor’sFuneralAgroupofthetownspeoplestoodonthestationsidingofalittleKansastown,awaitingthecomingofthenighttrain,whichwasalreadytwentyminutesoverdue。Thesnowhadfallenthickovereverything;inthepalestarlightthelineofbluffsacrossthewide,whitemeadowssouthofthetownmadesoft,smoke- coloredcurvesagainsttheclearsky。Themenonthesidingstoodfirstononefootandthenontheother,theirhandsthrustdeepintotheirtrouserspockets,theirovercoatsopen,theirshouldersscrewedupwiththecold;andtheyglancedfromtimetotimetowardthesoutheast,wheretherailroadtrackwoundalongtherivershore。Theyconversedinlowtonesandmovedaboutrestlessly,seeminguncertainastowhatwasexpectedofthem。 Therewasbutoneofthecompanywholookedasthoughheknewexactlywhyhewasthere;andhekeptconspicuouslyapart; walkingtothefarendoftheplatform,returningtothestationdoor,thenpacingupthetrackagain,hischinsunkinthehighcollarofhisovercoat,hisburlyshouldersdroopingforward,hisgaitheavyanddogged。Presentlyhewasapproachedbyatall,spare,grizzledmancladinafadedGrandArmysuit,whoshuffledoutfromthegroupandadvancedwithacertaindeference,craninghisneckforwarduntilhisbackmadetheangleofajackknifethree-quartersopen。