第18章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:3915更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
ClarawasprovingamuchbetterhostthanOlaf,who,oncethesupperwasover,seemedtofeelnointerestinanythingbutthelanterns。Hehadbroughtalocomotiveheadlightfromtowntolighttherevels,andhekeptskulkingaboutasifhefearedthemerelightfromitmightsethisnewbarnonfire。 Hiswife,onthecontrary,wascordialtoeveryone,wasanimatedandevengay。Thedeepsalmoncolourinhercheeksburnedvividly,andhereyeswerefulloflife。ShegavethepianoovertothefatSwedishheiress,pulledherfatherawayfromthecornerwherehesatgossipingwithhiscronies,andmadehimdanceaBohemiandancewithher。InhisyouthJoehadbeenafamousdancer,andhisdaughtergothimsolimberedupthateveryonesataroundandapplaudedthem。Theoldladieswereparticularlydelighted,andmadethemgothroughthedanceagain。Fromtheircornerwheretheywatchedandcommented,theoldwomenkepttimewiththeirfeetandhands,andwheneverthefiddlesstruckupanewairoldMrs。Svendsen’swhitecapwouldbegintobob。 ClarawaswaltzingwithlittleEricwhenNilscameuptothem,brushedhisbrotheraside,andswungheroutamongthedancers。 “Rememberhowweusedtowaltzonrollersattheoldskatingrinkintown?Isupposepeopledon’tdothatanymore。Weusedtokeepitupforhours。Youknow,weneverdidmoonaroundasotherboysandgirlsdid。Itwasdeadseriouswithusfromthebeginning。 Whenweweremostinlovewitheachother,weusedtofight。Youwerealwayspinchingpeople;yourfingerswerelikelittlenippers。 Aregularsnappingturtle,youwere。Lord,howyou’dlikeStockholm!Sitoutinthestreetsinfrontofcafesandtalkallnightinsummer。justlikeareception——officersandladiesandfunnyEnglishpeople。Jolliestpeopleintheworld,theSwedes,onceyougetthemgoing。Alwaysdrinkingthings——champagneandstoutmixed,half-and-half,serveitoutofbigpitchers,andserveplenty。Slowpulse,youknow;theycanstandalot。Oncetheylightup,they’reglowworms,Icantellyou。“ “Allthesame,youdon’treallylikegaypeople。“ don’t?“ “No;Icouldtellthatwhenyouwerelookingattheoldwomentherethisafternoon。They’rethekindyoureallyadmire,afterall;womenlikeyourmother。Andthat’sthekindyou’llmarry。“ “Isit,MissWisdom?You’llseewhoI’llmarry,andshewon’thaveadomesticvirtuetoblessherselfwith。She’llbeasnappingturtle,andshe’llbeamatchforme。Allthesame,they’reafinebunchofolddamesoverthere。Youadmirethemyourself“No,Idon’t;Idetestthem。“ “Youwon’t,whenyoulookbackonthemfromStockholmorBudapest。Freedomsettlesallthat。Oh,butyou’retherealBohemianGirl,ClaraVavrika!“Nilslaugheddownathersullenfrownandbeganmockinglytosing: “Oh,howcouldapoorgypsymaidenlikemeExpecttheproudbrideofabarontobe?“ Claraclutchedhisshoulder。“Hush,Nils;everyoneislookingatyou。“ “Idon’tcare。Theycan’tgossip。It’sallinthefamily,astheEricsonssaywhentheydivideuplittleHilda’spatrimonyamongstthem。Besides,we’llgivethemsomethingtotalkaboutwhenwehitthetrail。Lord,itwillbeagodsendtothem!Theyhaven’thadanythingsointerestingtochatteraboutsincethegrasshopperyear。It’llgivethemanewleaseoflife。AndOlafwon’tlosetheBohemianvote,either。They’llhavethelaughonhimsothatthey’llvotetwoapiece。They’llsendhimtoCongress。 They’llneverforgethisbarnparty,orus。They’llalwaysrememberusaswe’redancingtogethernow。We’remakingalegend。 Where’smywaltz,boys?“hecalledastheywhirledpastthefiddlers。 Themusiciansgrinned,lookedateachother,hesitated,andbegananewair;andNilssangwiththem,asthecouplesfellfromaquickwaltztoalong,slowglide: “WhenotherlipsandotherheartsTheirtaleofloveshalltell,InlanguagewhoseexcessimpartsThepowertheyfeelsowell。“ Theoldwomenapplaudedvigorously。“Whatagayoneheis,thatNils!“AndoldMrs。Svendsen’scaplurcheddreamilyfromsidetosidetotheflowingmeasureofthedance。 Ofdaysthathaveasha-a-p-pybeen,Andyou’llrememberme。“ Themoonlightfloodedthatgreat,silentland。Thereapedfieldslayyellowinit。Thestrawstacksandpoplarwindbreaksthrewsharpblackshadows。Theroadswerewhiteriversofdust。 Theskywasadeep,crystallineblue,andthestarswerefewandfaint。Everythingseemedtohavesuccumbed,tohavesunktosleep,underthegreat,golden,tender,midsummermoon。Thesplendourofitseemedtotranscendhumanlifeandhumanfate。Thesensesweretoofeebletotakeitin,andeverytimeonelookedupattheskyonefeltunequaltoit,asifoneweresittingdeafunderthewavesofagreatriverofmelody。Neartheroad,NilsEricsonwaslyingagainstastrawstackinOlaf’swheatfield。Hisownlifeseemedstrangeandunfamiliartohim,asifitweresomethinghehadreadabout,ordreamed,andforgotten。Helayverystill,watchingthewhiteroadthatraninfrontofhim,lostitselfamongthefields,andthen,atadistance,reappearedoveralittlehill。Atlast,againstthiswhitebandhesawsomethingmovingrapidly,andhegotupandwalkedtotheedgeofthefield。“Sheispassingtherowofpoplarsnow,“hethought。Heheardthepaddedbeatofhoofsalongthedustyroad,andasshecameintosighthesteppedoutandwavedhisarms。Then,forfearoffrighteningthehorse,hedrewbackandwaited。Clarahadseenhim,andshecameupatawalk。Nilstookthehorsebythebitandstrokedhisneck。 “Whatareyoudoingoutsolate,ClaraVavrika?Iwenttothehouse,butJohannatoldmeyouhadgonetoyourfather’s。“ “Whocanstayinthehouseonanightlikethis?Aren’tyououtyourself?“ “Ah,butthat’sanothermatter。“ Nilsturnedthehorseintothefield。 “Whatareyoudoing?WhereareyoutakingNorman?“ “Notfar,butIwanttotalktoyoutonight;Ihavesomethingtosaytoyou。Ican’ttalktoyouatthehouse,withOlafsittingthereontheporch,weighingathousandtons。“ Claralaughed。“Hewon’tbesittingtherenow。He’sinbedbythistime,andasleep——weighingathousandtons。“ Nilsploddedonacrossthestubble。“Areyoureallygoingtospendtherestofyourlifelikethis,nightafternight,summeraftersummer?Haven’tyouanythingbettertodoonanightlikethisthantowearyourselfandNormanouttearingacrossthecountrytoyourfather’sandback?Besides,yourfatherwon’tliveforever,youknow。Hislittleplacewillbeshutuporsold,andthenyou’llhavenobodybuttheEricsons。You’llhavetofastendownthehatchesforthewinterthen。“ Claramovedherheadrestlessly。“Don’ttalkaboutthat。I trynevertothinkofit。IfIlostFatherI’dloseeverything,evenmyholdovertheEricsons。“ “Bah!You’dloseagooddealmorethanthat。You’dloseyourrace,everythingthatmakesyouyourself。You’velostagooddealofitnow。“ “Ofwhat?“ “Ofyourloveoflife,yourcapacityfordelight。“ Claraputherhandsuptoherface。“Ihaven’t,NilsEricson,Ihaven’t!Sayanythingtomebutthat。Iwon’thaveit!“shedeclaredvehemently。 Nilsledthehorseuptoastrawstack,andturnedtoClara,lookingatherintently,ashehadlookedatherthatSundayafternoonatVavrika’s。“Butwhydoyoufightforthatso?Whatgoodisthepowertoenjoy,ifyouneverenjoy?Yourhandsarecoldagain;whatareyouafraidofallthetime?Ah,you’reafraidoflosingit;that’swhat’sthematterwithyou!Andyouwill,ClaraVavrika,youwill!WhenIusedtoknowyou——listen; you’vecaughtawildbirdinyourhand,haven’tyou,andfeltitsheartbeatsohardthatyouwereafraiditwouldshatteritslittlebodytopieces?Well,youusedtobejustlikethat,aslender,eagerthingwithawilddelightinsideyou。ThatishowIrememberedyou。AndIcomebackandfindyou——abitterwoman。Thisisaperfectferretfighthere;youlivebybitingandbeingbitten。Can’tyourememberwhatlifeusedtobe?Can’tyourememberthatolddelight?I’veneverforgottenit,orknownitslike,onlandorsea。“ Hedrewthehorseundertheshadowofthestrawstack。 Clarafelthimtakeherfootoutofthestirrup,andsheslidsoftlydownintohisarms。Hekissedherslowly。Hewasadeliberateman,buthisnervesweresteelwhenhewantedanything。Somethingflashedoutfromhimlikeaknifeoutofasheath。Clarafelteverythingslippingawayfromher;shewasfloodedbythesummernight。Hethrusthishandintohispocket,andthenhelditoutatarm’slength。“Look,“hesaid。Theshadowofthestrawstackfellsharpacrosshiswrist,andinthepalmofhishandshesawasilverdollarshining。“That’smypile,“hemuttered;“willyougowithme?“ Claranodded,anddroppedherforeheadonhisshoulder。 Nilstookadeepbreath。“Willyougowithmetonight?“ “Where?“shewhisperedsoftly。 “Totown,tocatchthemidnightflyer。“ Claraliftedherheadandpulledherselftogether。“Areyoucrazy,Nils?Wecouldn’tgoawaylikethat。“