第15章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:3320更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
JoeVavrika’ssaloonwasnotinthecountyseat,whereOlafandMrs。Ericsondidtheirtrading,butinacheerfullerplace,alittleBohemiansettlementwhichlayattheotherendofthecounty,tenlevelmilesnorthofOlaf’sfarm。Clararodeuptoseeherfatheralmosteveryday。Vavrika’shousewas,sotospeak,inthebackyardofhissaloon。Thegardenbetweenthetwobuildingswasinclosedbyahighboardfenceastightasapartition,andinsummerJoekeptbeertablesandwoodenbenchesamongthegooseberrybushesunderhislittlecherrytree。AtoneofthesetablesNilsEricsonwasseatedinthelateafternoon,threedaysafterhisreturnhome。Joehadgoneintoserveacustomer,andNilswasloungingonhiselbows,lookingrathermournfullyintohishalf- emptiedpitcher,whenheheardalaughacrossthelittlegarden。 Clara,inherridinghabit,wasstandingatthebackdoorofthehouse,underthegrapevinetrellisthatoldJoehadgrowntherelongago。Nilsrose。 “Comeoutandkeepyourfatherandmecompany。We’vebeengossipingallafternoon。Nobodytobotherusbuttheflies。“ Sheshookherhead。“No,Inevercomeouthereanymore。Olafdoesn’tlikeit。Imustliveuptomyposition,youknow。“ “Youmeantotellmeyounevercomeoutandchatwiththeboys,asyouusedto?Hehastamedyou!Whokeepsuptheseflower-beds?“ “IcomeoutonSundays,whenfatherisalone,andreadtheBohemianpaperstohim。ButIamneverherewhenthebarisopen。 Whathaveyoutwobeendoing?“ “Talking,asItoldyou。I’vebeentellinghimaboutmytravels。IfindIcan’ttalkmuchathome,noteventoEric。“ Clarareachedupandpokedwithherriding-whipatawhitemoththatwasflutteringinthesunlightamongthevineleaves。“I supposeyouwillnevertellmeaboutallthosethings。“ “WherecanItellthem?NotinOlaf’shouse,certainly。 What’sthematterwithourtalkinghere?“Hepointedpersuasivelywithhishattothebushesandthegreentable,wherethefliesweresinginglazilyabovetheemptybeerglasses。 Clarashookherheadweakly。“No,itwouldn’tdo。Besides,Iamgoingnow。“ “I’monEric’smare。WouldyoubeangryifIovertookyou?“ Claralookedbackandlaughed。“Youmighttryandsee。IcanleaveyouifIdon’twantyou。Eric’smarecan’tkeepupwithNorman。“ Nilswentintothebarandattemptedtopayhisscore。BigJoe,sixfeetfour,withcurlyyellowhairandmustache,clappedhimontheshoulder。“NotaGoddamnayourmoneygoinmydrawer,youhear?Onlynexttimeyoubringyourflute,te-te-te-te-te-ty。“ Joewaggedhisfingersinimitationofthefluteplayer’sposition。 “MyClara,shecomeall-a-timeSundaysan’playforme。ShenotliketoplayatEricson’splace。“Heshookhisyellowcurlsandlaughed。“NotaGoddamnafunatEricson’s。YoucomeaSunday。 Youlike-afun。Noforgetdeflute。“JoetalkedveryrapidlyandalwaystumbledoverhisEnglish。Heseldomspokeittohiscustomers,andhadneverlearnedmuch。 Nilsswunghimselfintothesaddleandtrottedtothewestofthevillage,wherethehousesandgardensscatteredintoprairielandandtheroadturnedsouth。Faraheadofhim,inthedeclininglight,hesawClaraVavrika’sslenderfigure,loiteringonhorseback。Hetouchedhismarewiththewhip,andshotalongthewhite,levelroad,underthereddeningsky。WhenheovertookOlaf’swifehesawthatshehadbeencrying。“What’sthematter,ClaraVavrika?“heaskedkindly。 “Oh,Igetbluesometimes。Itwasawfullyjollylivingtherewithfather。IwonderwhyIeverwentaway。“ Nilsspokeinalow,kindtonethathesometimesusedwithwomen: “That’swhatI’vebeenwonderingthesemanyyears。YouwerethelastgirlinthecountryI’dhavepickedforawifeforOlaf。Whatmadeyoudoit,Clara?“ “IsupposeIreallydidittoobligetheneighbours“——Claratossedherhead。“Peoplewerebeginningtowonder。“ “Towonder?“ “Yes——whyIdidn’tgetmarried。IsupposeIdidn’tliketokeeptheminsuspense。I’vediscoveredthatmostgirlsmarryoutofconsiderationfortheneighbourhood。“ Nilsbenthisheadtowardherandhiswhiteteethflashed。 “I’dhavegambledthatonegirlIknewwouldsay,’Lettheneighbourhoodbedamned。’“ Clarashookherheadmournfully。“Yousee,theyhaveitonyou,Nils;thatis,ifyou’reawoman。Theysayyou’rebeginningtogooff。That’swhatmakesusgetmarried:wecan’tstandthelaugh。“ Nilslookedsidewiseather。Hehadneverseenherheaddroopbefore。Resignationwasthelastthinghewouldhaveexpectedofher。“Inyourcase,therewasn’tsomethingelse?“ “Somethingelse?“ “Imean,youdidn’tdoittospitesomebody?Somebodywhodidn’tcomeback?“ Claradrewherselfup。“Oh,Ineverthoughtyou’dcomeback。 NotafterIstoppedwritingtoyou,atleast。Thatwasallover,longbeforeImarriedOlaf。“ “Itneveroccurredtoyou,then,thatthemeanestthingyoucoulddotomewastomarryOlaf?“ Claralaughed。“No;Ididn’tknowyouweresofondofOlaf。“ Nilssmoothedhishorse’smanewithhisglove。“Youknow,ClaraVavrika,youarenevergoingtostickitout。You’llcutawaysomeday,andI’vebeenthinkingyoumightaswellcutawaywithme。“ Clarathrewupherchin。“Oh,youdon’tknowmeaswellasyouthink。Iwon’tcutaway。Sometimes,whenI’mwithfather,I feellikeit。ButIcanholdoutaslongastheEricsonscan。 They’venevergotthebestofmeyet,andonecanlive,solongasoneisn’tbeaten。IfIgobacktofather,it’sallupwithOlafinpolitics。Heknowsthat,andhenevergoesmuchbeyondsulking。I’veasmuchwitastheEricsons。I’llneverleavethemunlessIcanshowthemathingortwo。“ “Youmeanunlessyoucancomeitoverthem?“ “Yes——unlessIgoawaywithamanwhoisclevererthantheyare,andwhohasmoremoney。“ Nilswhistled。“Dearme,youaredemandingagooddeal。TheEricsons,takethelotofthem,areabunchtobeat。ButIshouldthinktheexcitementoftormentingthemwouldhavewornoffbythistime。“ “Ithas,I’mafraid,“Claraadmittedmournfully。 “Thenwhydon’tyoucutaway?Therearemoreamusinggamesthanthisintheworld。WhenIcamehomeIthoughtitmightamusemetobullyafewquartersectionsoutoftheEricsons;butI’vealmostdecidedIcangetmorefunformymoneysomewhereelse。“ Claratookinherbreathsharply。“Ah,youhavegottheotherwill!Thatwaswhyyoucamehome!“ “No,itwasn’t。IcamehometoseehowyouweregettingonwithOlaf。“ Clarastruckherhorsewiththewhip,andinaboundshewasfaraheadofhim。Nilsdroppedoneword,“Damn!“andwhippedafterher;butsheleanedforwardinhersaddleandfairlycutthewind。 Herlongridingskirtrippledinthestillairbehindher。Thesunwasjustsinkingbehindthestubbleinavast,clearsky,andtheshadowsdrewacrossthefieldssorapidlythatNilscouldscarcelykeepinsightthedarkfigureontheroad。Whenheovertookherhecaughtherhorsebythebridle。Normanreared,andNilswasfrightenedforher;butClarakeptherseat。 “Letmego,NilsEricson!“shecried。“Ihateyoumorethananyofthem。Youwerecreatedtotortureme,thewholetribeofyou——tomakemesufferineverypossibleway。“ Shestruckherhorseagainandgallopedawayfromhim。Nilssethisteethandlookedthoughtful。Herodeslowlyhomealongthedesertedroad,watchingthestarscomeoutintheclearvioletsky。 Theyflashedsoftlyintothelimpidheavens,likejewelsletfallintoclearwater。Theywereareproach,hefelt,toasordidworld。Asheturnedacrossthesandcreek,helookedupattheNorthStarandsmiled,asiftherewereanunderstandingbetweenthem。Hismotherscoldedhimforbeinglateforsupper。