第8章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:4400更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
Thiswoman,onawindmilltowerattheworld’sendwithagiantbarbarian,heardthatcrytonight,andshewasafraid!Ah! theterrorandthedelightofthatmomentwhenfirstwefearourselves!Untilthenwehavenotlived。 “Come,Eric,letusgodown;themoonisupandthemusichasbegunagain,“shesaid。 Herosesilentlyandsteppeddownupontheladder,puttinghisarmabouthertohelpher。ThatarmcouldhavethrownThor’shammeroutinthecornfieldsyonder,yetitscarcelytouchedher,andhishandtrembledasithaddoneinthedance。Hisfacewaslevelwithhersnowandthemoonlightfellsharplyuponit。Allherlifeshehadsearchedthefacesofmenforthelookthatlayinhiseyes。Sheknewthatthatlookhadnevershoneforherbefore,wouldnevershineforheronearthagain,thatsuchlovecomestooneonlyindreamsorinimpossibleplaceslikethis,unattainablealways。ThiswasLove’sself,inamomentitwoulddie。Stungbytheagonizedappealthatemanatedfromtheman’swholebeing,sheleanedforwardandlaidherlipsonhis。Once,twiceandagainsheheardthedeeprespirationsrattleinhisthroatwhilesheheldthemthere,andtheriotousforceunderherheadbecameanengulfingweakness。Hedrewheruptohimuntilhefeltalltheresistancegooutofherbody,untileverynerverelaxedandyielded。Whenshedrewherfacebackfromhis,itwaswhitewithfear。 “Letusgodown,oh,myGod!letusgodown!“shemuttered。 Andthedrunkenstarsupyonderseemedreelingtosomeappointeddoomassheclungtotheroundsoftheladder。Allthatshewastoknowofloveshehadleftuponhislips。 “Thedevilislooseagain,“whisperedOlafOleson,ashesawEricdancingamomentlater,hiseyesblazing。 ButEricwasthinkingwithanalmostsavageexultationofthetimewhenheshouldpayforthis。Ah,therewouldbenoquailingthen!ifeverasoulwentfearlessly,proudlydowntothegatesinfernal,hisshouldgo。Foramomenthefanciedhewastherealready,treadingdownthetempestofflame,huggingthefieryhurricanetohisbreast。Hewonderedwhetherinagesgone,allthecountlessyearsofsinninginwhichmenhadsoldandlostandflungtheirsoulsaway,anymanhadeversocheatedSatan,hadeverbarteredhissoulforsogreataprice。 Itseemedbutalittlewhiletilldawn。 ThecarriagewasbroughttothedoorandWyllisElliotandhissistersaidgoodbye。ShecouldnotmeetEric’seyesasshegavehimherhand,butashestoodbythehorse’shead,justasthecarriagemovedoff,shegavehimoneswiftglancethatsaid,“I willnotforget。“Inamomentthecarriagewasgone。 Ericchangedhiscoatandplungedhisheadintothewatertankandwenttothebarntohookuphisteam。Asheledhishorsestothedoor,ashadowfellacrosshispath,andhesawSkinnerrisinginhisstirrups。Hisruggedfacewaspaleandwornwithlookingafterhiswaywardflock,withdraggingmenintothewayofsalvation。 “Goodmorning,Eric。Therewasadanceherelastnight?“heasked,sternly。 “Adance?Oh,yes,adance,“repliedEric,cheerfully。 “Certainlyyoudidnotdance,Eric?“ “Yes,Idanced。Idancedallthetime。“ Theminister’sshouldersdrooped,andanexpressionofprofounddiscouragementsettledoverhishaggardface。Therewasalmostanguishintheyearninghefeltforthissoul。 “Eric,Ididn’tlookforthisfromyou。IthoughtGodhadsethismarkonyouifheeverhadonanyman。AnditisforthingslikethisthatyousetyoursoulbackathousandyearsfromGod。0 foolishandperversegeneration!“ Ericdrewhimselfuptohisfullheightandlookedofftowherethenewdaywasgildingthecorn-tasselsandfloodingtheuplandswithlight。Ashisnostrilsdrewinthebreathofthedewandthemorning,somethingfromtheonlypoetryhehadeverreadflashedacrosshismind,andhemurmured,halftohimself,withdreamyexultation: “’Andadayshallbeasathousandyears,andathousandyearsasaday。’“ EndTheEnchantedBluffWehadourswimbeforesundown,andwhilewewerecookingoursuppertheobliqueraysoflightmadeadazzlingglareonthewhitesandaboutus。Thetranslucentredballitselfsankbehindthebrownstretchesofcornfieldaswesatdowntoeat,andthewarmlayerofairthathadrestedoverthewaterandourcleansandbargrewfresherandsmelledoftherankironweedandsunflowersgrowingontheflattershore。Theriverwasbrownandsluggish,likeanyotherofthehalf-dozenstreamsthatwatertheNebraskacornlands。Ononeshorewasanirregularlineofbaldclaybluffswhereafewscruboakswiththicktrunksandflat,twistedtopsthrewlightshadowsonthelonggrass。Thewesternshorewaslowandlevel,withcornfieldsthatstretchedtotheskyline,andallalongthewater’sedgewerelittlesandycovesandbeacheswhereslimcottonwoodsandwillowsaplingsflickered。 Theturbulenceoftheriverinspringtimediscouragedmilling,and,beyondkeepingtheoldredbridgeinrepair,thebusyfarmersdidnotconcernthemselveswiththestream;sotheSandtownboyswereleftinundisputedpossession。Intheautumnwehuntedquailthroughthemilesofstubbleandfodderlandalongtheflatshore,and,afterthewinterskatingseasonwasoverandtheicehadgoneout,thespringfreshetsandfloodedbottomsgaveusourgreatexcitementoftheyear。Thechannelwasneverthesamefortwosuccessiveseasons。Everyspringtheswollenstreamunderminedablufftotheeast,orbitoutafewacresofcornfieldtothewestandwhirledthesoilaway,todeposititinspumymudbankssomewhereelse。Whenthewaterfelllowinmidsummer,newsandbarswerethusexposedtodryandwhitenintheAugustsun。 Sometimesthesewerebankedsofirmlythatthefuryofthenextfreshetfailedtounseatthem;thelittlewillowseedlingsemergedtriumphantlyfromtheyellowfroth,brokeintospringleaf,shotupintosummergrowth,andwiththeirmeshofrootsboundtogetherthemoistsandbeneaththemagainstthebatteringsofanotherApril。 Hereandthereacottonwoodsoonglitteredamongthem,quiveringinthelowcurrentofairthat,evenonbreathlessdayswhenthedusthunglikesmokeabovethewagonroad,trembledalongthefaceofthewater。 Itwasonsuchanisland,inthethirdsummerofitsyellowgreen,thatwebuiltourwatchfire;notinthethicketofdancingwillowwands,butonthelevelterraceoffinesandwhichhadbeenaddedthatspring;alittlenewbitofworld,beautifullyridgedwithripplemarks,andstrewnwiththetinyskeletonsofturtlesandfish,allaswhiteanddryasiftheyhadbeenexpertlycured。 Wehadbeencarefulnottomarthefreshnessoftheplace,althoughweoftenswamtoitonsummereveningsandlayonthesandtorest。 Thiswasourlastwatchfireoftheyear,andtherewerereasonswhyIshouldrememberitbetterthananyoftheothers。 NextweektheotherboysweretofilebacktotheiroldplacesintheSandtownHighSchool,butIwastogouptotheDividetoteachmyfirstcountryschoolintheNorwegiandistrict。IwasalreadyhomesickatthethoughtofquittingtheboyswithwhomIhadalwaysplayed;ofleavingtheriver,andgoingupintoawindyplainthatwasallwindmillsandcornfieldsandbigpastures;wheretherewasnothingwilfulorunmanageableinthelandscape,nonewislands,andnochanceofunfamiliarbirds——suchasoftenfollowedthewatercourses。 Otherboyscameandwentandusedtheriverforfishingorskating,butwesixweresworntothespiritofthestream,andwewerefriendsmainlybecauseoftheriver。TherewerethetwoHasslerboys,FritzandOtto,sonsofthelittleGermantailor。 Theyweretheyoungestofus;raggedboysoftenandtwelve,withsunburnedhair,weather-stainedfaces,andpaleblueeyes。Otto,theelder,wasthebestmathematicianinschool,andcleverathisbooks,buthealwaysdroppedoutinthespringtermasiftherivercouldnotgetonwithouthim。HeandFritzcaughtthefat,hornedcatfishandsoldthemaboutthetown,andtheylivedsomuchinthewaterthattheywereasbrownandsandyastheriveritself。 TherewasPercyPound,afat,freckledboywithchubbycheeks,whotookhalfadozenboys’story-papersandwasalwaysbeingkeptinforreadingdetectivestoriesbehindhisdesk。TherewasTipSmith,destinedbyhisfrecklesandredhairtobethebuffooninallourgames,thoughhewalkedlikeatimidlittleoldmanandhadafunny,crackedlaugh。Tipworkedhardinhisfather’sgrocerystoreeveryafternoon,andsweptitoutbeforeschoolinthemorning。Evenhisrecreationswerelaborious。Hecollectedcigarettecardsandtintobacco-tagsindefatigably,andwouldsitforhourshumpedupoverasnarlinglittlescroll-sawwhichhekeptinhisattic。HisdearestpossessionsweresomelittlepillbottlesthatpurportedtocontaingrainsofwheatfromtheHolyLand,waterfromtheJordanandtheDeadSea,andearthfromtheMountofOlives。HisfatherhadboughtthesedullthingsfromaBaptistmissionarywhopeddledthem,andTipseemedtoderivegreatsatisfactionfromtheirremoteorigin。 ThetallboywasArthurAdams。Hehadfinehazelevesthatwerealmosttooreflectiveandsympatheticforaboy,andsuchapleasantvoicethatwealllovedtohearhimreadaloud。Evenwhenhehadtoreadpoetryaloudatschool,nooneeverthoughtoflaughing。Tobesure,hewasnotatschoolverymuchofthetime。 HewasseventeenandshouldhavefinishedtheHighSchooltheyearbefore,buthewasalwaysoffsomewherewithhisgun。Arthur’smotherwasdead,andhisfather,whowasfeverishlyabsorbedinpromotingschemes,wantedtosendtheboyawaytoschoolandgethimoffhishands;butArthuralwaysbeggedoffforanotheryearandpromisedtostudy。Irememberhimasatall,brownboywithanintelligentface,alwaysloungingamongalotofuslittlefellows,laughingatusoftenerthanwithus,butsuchasoft,satisfiedlaughthatwefeltratherflatteredwhenweprovokedit。Inafter-yearspeoplesaidthatArthurhadbeengiventoevilwaysasa]ad,anditistruethatweoftensawhimwiththegambler’ssonsandwitholdSpanishFanny’sboy,butifhelearnedanythinguglyintheircompanyheneverbetrayedittous。WewouldhavefollowedArthuranywhere,andIamboundtosaythatheledusintonoworseplacesthanthecattailmarshesandthestubblefields。