第5章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:4532更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
Margaretwenton,notheedingtheinterruption。“Iknewitfromthefirst,whenhetoldmeaboutthesuicideofhiscousin,theBernsteinboy。Thatkindofbluntpathoscan’tbesummonedatwillinanybody。Theearliernovelistsrosetoit,sometimes,unconsciously。ButlastnightwhenIsangforhimIwasdoublysure。Oh,Ihaven’ttoldyouaboutthatyet!Betterlightyourpipeagain。Yousee,hestumbledinonmeinthedarkwhenIwaspumpingawayatthatoldparlourorgantopleaseMrs。LockhartIt’sherhouseholdfetishandI’veforgottenhowmanypoundsofbuttershemadeandsoldtobuyit。Well,Ericstumbledin,andinsomeinarticulatemannermademeunderstandthathewantedmetosingforhim。Isangjusttheoldthings,ofcourse。It’squeertosingfamiliarthingshereattheworld’send。Itmakesonethinkhowtheheartsofmenhavecarriedthemaroundtheworld,intothewastesofIcelandandthejunglesofAfricaandtheislandsofthePacific。Ithinkifonelivedherelongenoughonewouldquiteforgethowtobetrivial,andwouldreadonlythegreatbooksthatwenevergettimetoreadintheworld,andwouldrememberonlythegreatmusic,andthethingsthatarereallyworthwhilewouldstandoutclearlyagainstthathorizonoverthere。AndofcourseIplayedtheintermezzofromCavalleriaRusticana forhim;itgoesratherbetteronanorganthanmostthingsdo。Heshuffledhisfeetandtwistedhisbighandsupintoknotsandblurtedoutthathedidn’tknowtherewasanymusiclikethatintheworld。Why,thereweretearsinhisvoice,Wyllis!Yes,likeRossetti,Iheardhistears。Thenitdawneduponmethatitwasprobablythefirstgoodmusicbehadeverheardinallhislife。Thinkofit,tocareformusicashedoesandnevertohearit,nevertoknowthatitexistsonearth!Tolongforitaswelongforotherperfectexperiencesthatnevercome。Ican’ttellyouwhatmusicmeanstothatman。Ineversawanyonesosusceptibletoit。Itgavehimspeech,hebecamealive。WhenIhadfinishedtheintermezzo,hebegantellingmeaboutalittlecrippledbrotherwhodiedandwhomhelovedandusedtocarryeverywhereinhisarms。Hedidnotwaitforencouragement。Hetookupthestoryandtolditslowly,asiftohimself,justsortofroseupandtoldhisownwoetoanswerMascagni’s。Itovercameme。“ “Poordevil,“saidWyllis,lookingatherwithmysteriouseyes,“andsoyou’vegivenhimanewwoe。Nowhe’llgoonwantingGriegandSchuberttherestofhisdaysandnevergettingthem。That’sagirl’sphilanthropyforyou!“ JerryLockhartcameoutofthehousescrewinghischinovertheunusualluxuryofastiffwhitecollar,whichhiswifeinsisteduponasanecessaryarticleoftoiletwhileMissElliotwasatthehouse。Jerrysatdownonthestepandsmiledhisbroad,redsmileatMargaret。 “Well,I’vegotthemusicforyourdance,MissElliot。OlafOlesonwillbringhisaccordionandMolliewillplaytheorgan,whensheisn’tlookin’afterthegrub,andalittlechapfromFrenchtownwillbringhisfiddle——thoughtheFrenchdon’tmixwiththeNorwegiansmuch。“ “Delightful!Mr。Lockhart,thatdancewillbethefeatureofourtrip,andit’ssoniceofyoutogetitupforus。We’llseetheNorwegiansincharacteratlast,“criedMargaret,cordially。 “Seehere,Lockhart,I’llsettlewithyouforbackingherinthisscheme,“saidWyllis,sittingupandknockingtheashesoutofhispipe。“She’sdonecrazythingsenoughonthistrip,buttotalkofdancingallnightwithagangofhalf-madNorwegiansandtakingthecarriageatfourtocatchthesixo’clocktrainoutofRiverton——well,it’stommyrot,that’swhatitis!“ “Wyllis,Ileaveittoyoursovereignpowerofreasontodecidewhetheritisn’teasiertostayupallnightthantogetupatthreeinthemorning。Togetupatthree,thinkwhatthatmeans!No,sir,Iprefertokeepmyvigilandthengetintoasleeper。“ “ButwhatdoyouwantwiththeNorwegians?Ithoughtyouweretiredofdancing。“ “SoIam,withsomepeople。ButIwanttoseeaNorwegiandance,andIintendto。Come,Wyllis,youknowhowseldomitisthatonereallywantstodoanythingnowadays。IwonderwhenI havereallywantedtogotoapartybefore。ItwillbesomethingtoremembernextmonthatNewport,whenwehavetoanddon’twantto。Rememberyourowntheorythatcontrastisabouttheonlythingthatmakeslifeendurable。ThisismypartyandMr。Lockhart’s; yourwholedutytomorrownightwillconsistinbeingnicetotheNorwegiangirls。I’llwarrantyouwereadeptenoughatitonce。 Andyou’dbetterbeveryniceindeed,foriftherearemanysuchyoungValkyriesasEric’ssisteramongthem,theywouldsimplytieyouupinaknotiftheysuspectedyouwereguyingthem。“ Wyllisgroanedandsankbackintothehammocktoconsiderhisfate,whilehissisterwenton。 “Andtheguests,Mr。Lockhart,didtheyaccept?“ Lockharttookouthisknifeandbegansharpeningitonthesoleofhisplowshoe。 “Well,Iguesswe’llhaveacoupledozen。Youseeit’sprettyhardtogetacrowdtogetherhereanymore。Mostof’emhavegoneovertotheFreeGospellers,andthey’dratherputtheirfeetinthefirethanshake’emtoafiddle。“ Margaretmadeagestureofimpatience。“ThoseFreeGospellershavejustcastanevilspelloverthiscountry,haven’tthey?“ “Well,“saidLockhart,cautiously,“Idon’tjustliketopassjudgmentonanyChristiansect,butifyou’retoknowthechosenbytheirworks,theGospellerscan’tmakeaveryproudshowin’,an’ that’safact。They’reresponsibleforafewsuicides,andthey’vesentagood-sizeddelegationtothestateinsaneasylum,an’I don’tseeasthey’vemadetherestofusmuchbetterthanwewerebefore。Ihadalittleherdboylastspring,assquarealittleDaneasIwanttoworkforme,butaftertheGospellersgotholdofhimandsanctifiedhim,thelittlebeggarusedtogetdownonhiskneesoutontheprairieandpraybythehourandletthecattlegetintothecorn,an’Ihadtofirehim。That’saboutthewayitgoes。Nowthere’sEric;thatchapusedtobeahustlerandthespryestdancerinallthissection-calledallthedances。Nowhe’sgotnoambitionandhe’sglumasapreacher。Idon’tsupposewecanevengethimtocomeintomorrownight。“ “Eric?Why,hemustdance,wecan’tlethimoff,“saidMargaret,quickly。“Why,Iintendtodancewithhimmyself。“ “I’mafraidhewon’tdance。Iaskedhimthismorningifhe’dhelpusoutandhesaid,’Idon’tdancenow,anymore,’“saidLockhart,imitatingthelabouredEnglishoftheNorwegian。 “’TheMillerofHofbau,theMillerofHofbau,OmyPrincess!’“ chirpedWyllis,cheerfully,fromhishammock。 Theredonhissister’scheekdeepenedalittle,andshelaughedmischievously。“We’llseeaboutthat,sir。I’llnotadmitthatIambeatenuntilIhaveaskedhimmyself。“ EverynightEricrodeovertoSt。Anne,alittlevillageintheheartoftheFrenchsettlement,forthemail。AstheroadlaythroughthemostattractivepartoftheDividecountry,onseveraloccasionsMargaretElliotandherbrotherhadaccompaniedhim。 TonightWyllishadbusinesswithLockhart,andMargaretrodewithEric,mountedonafriskylittlemustangthatMrs。Lockharthadbrokentothesidesaddle。Margaretregardedherescortverymuchasshedidtheservantwhoalwaysaccompaniedheronlongridesathome,andtheridetothevillagewasasilentone。Shewasoccupiedwiththoughtsofanotherworld,andEricwaswrestlingwithmorethoughtsthanhadeverbeencrowdedintohisheadbefore。 Herodewithhiseyesrivetedonthatslightfigurebeforehim,asthoughhewishedtoabsorbitthroughtheopticnervesandholditinhisbrainforever。Heunderstoodthesituationperfectly。Hisbrainworkedslowly,buthehadakeensenseofthevaluesofthings。Thisgirlrepresentedanentirelynewspeciesofhumanitytohim,butheknewwheretoplaceher。Theprophetsofold,whenanangelfirstappeareduntothem,neverdoubteditshighorigin。 Ericwaspatientundertheadverseconditionsofhislife,buthewasnotservile。TheNorsebloodinhimhadnotentirelylostitsself-reliance。Hecameofaproudfisherline,menwhowerenotafraidofanythingbuttheiceandthedevil,andhehadprospectsbeforehimwhenhisfatherwentdownofftheNorthCapeinthelongArcticnight,andhismother,seizedbyaviolenthorrorofseafaringlife,hadfollowedherbrothertoAmerica。 Ericwaseighteenthen,handsomeasyoungSiegfried,agiantinstature,withaskinsingularlypureanddelicate,likeaSwede’s; hairasyellowasthelocksofTennyson’samorousPrince,andeyesofafierce,burningblue,whoseflashwasmostdangeroustowomen。 Hehadinthosedaysacertainprideofbearing,acertainconfidenceofapproach,thatusuallyaccompaniesphysicalperfection。Itwasevensaidofhimthenthathewasinlovewithlife,andinclinedtolevity,avicemostunusualontheDivide。 ButthesadhistoryofthoseNorwegianexiles,transplantedinanaridsoilandunderascorchingsun,hadrepeateditselfinhiscase。Toilandisolationhadsoberedhim,andhegrewmoreandmoreliketheclodsamongwhichhelaboured。Itwasasthoughsomered-hotinstrumenthadtouchedforamomentthosedelicatefibersofthebrainwhichrespondtoacutepainorpleasure,inwhichliesthepowerofexquisitesensation,andhadsearedthemquiteaway。ItisapainfulthingtowatchthelightdieoutoftheeyesofthoseNorsemen,leavinganexpressionofimpenetrablesadness,quitepassive,quitehopeless,ashadowthatisneverlifted。Withsomethischangecomesalmostatonce,inthefirstbitternessofhomesickness,withothersitcomesmoreslowly,accordingtothetimeittakeseachman’shearttodie。 Oh,thosepoorNorthmenoftheDivide!Theyaredeadmanyayearbeforetheyareputtorestinthelittlegraveyardonthewindyhillwhereexilesofallnationsgrowakin。 ThepeculiarspeciesofhypochondriatowhichtheexilesofhispeoplesoonerorlatersuccumbhadnotdevelopedinEricuntilthatnightattheLoneStarschoolhouse,whenhehadbrokenhisviolinacrosshisknee。Afterthat,thegloomofhispeoplesettleddownuponhim,andthegospelofmacerationbeganitswork。 “Ifthineeyeoffendthee,pluckitout,“etcetera。Thepagansmilethatoncehoveredabouthislipswasgone,andhewasonewithsorrow。Religionhealsahundredheartsforonethatitembitters,butwhenitdestroys,itsworkisquickanddeadly,andwheretheagonyofthecrosshasbeen,joywillnotcomeagain。