第4章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:4002更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
ThefinalbarrierbetweenEricandhismother’sfaithwashisviolin,andtothatheclungasamansometimeswillclingtohisdearestsin,totheweaknessmoreprecioustohimthanallhisstrength,Inthegreatworldbeautycomestomeninmanyguises,andartinahundredforms,butforErictherewasonlyhisviolin。 Itstood,tohim,forallthemanifestationsofart;itwashisonlybridgeintothekingdomofthesoul。 ItwastoEricHermannsonthattheevangelistdirectedhisimpassionedpleadingthatnight。 “Saul,Saul,whypersecutestthoume?IsthereaSaulheretonightwhohasstoppedhisearstothatgentlepleading,whohasthrustaspearintothatbleedingside?Thinkofit,mybrother; youareofferedthiswonderfulloveandyoupreferthewormthatdiethnotandthefirewhichwillnotbequenched。WhatrighthaveyoutoloseoneofGod’sprecioussouls?Saul,Saul,whypersecutestthoume?“ AgreatjoydawnedinAsaSkinner’spaleface,forhesawthatEricHermannsonwasswayingtoandfroinhisseat。Theministerfelluponhiskneesandthrewhislongarmsupoverhishead。 “Omybrothers!Ifeelitcoming,theblessingwehaveprayedfor。ItellyoutheSpiritiscoming!justalittlemoreprayer,brothers,alittlemorezeal,andhewillbehere。Icanfeelhiscoolingwinguponmybrow。GlorybetoGodforeverandever,amen!“ Thewholecongregationgroanedunderthepressureofthisspiritualpanic。Shoutsandhallelujahswentupfromeverylip。 Anotherfigurefellprostrateuponthefloor。Fromthemourners’ benchroseachantofterrorandrapture: “Eatinghoneyanddrinkingwine,GlorytothebleedingLamb! IammyLord’sandheismine,GlorytothebleedingLamb!“ Thehymnwassunginadozendialectsandvoicedallthevagueyearningofthesehungrylives,ofthesepeoplewhohadstarvedallthepassionssolong,onlytofallvictimstothebarestofthemall,fear。 AgroanofultimateanguishrosefromEricHermannson’sbowedhead,andthesoundwaslikethegroanofagreattreewhenitfallsintheforest。 Theministerrosesuddenlytohisfeetandthrewbackhishead,cryinginaloudvoice: “Lazarus,comeforth!EricHermannson,youarelost,goingdownatsea。InthenameofGod,andJesusChristhisSon,Ithrowyouthelifeline。Takehold!AlmightyGod,mysoulforhis!“ Theministerthrewhisarmsoutandliftedhisquiveringface。 EricHermannsonrosetohisfeet;hislipsweresetandthelightningwasinhiseyes。Hetookhisviolinbytheneckandcrushedittosplintersacrosshisknee,andtoAsaSkinnerthesoundwasliketheshacklesofsinbrokenaudiblyasunder。 FormorethantwoyearsEricHermannsonkepttheausterefaithtowhichhehadswornhimself,keptituntilagirlfromtheEastcametospendaweekontheNebraskaDivide。Shewasagirlofothermannersandconditions,andthereweregreaterdistancesbetweenherlifeandEric’sthanallthemileswhichseparatedRattlesnakeCreekfromNewYorkCity。Indeed,shehadnobusinesstobeintheWestatall;butah!acrosswhatleaguesoflandandsea,bywhatimprobablechances,dotheunrelentinggodsbringtousourfate! ItwasinayearoffinancialdepressionthatWyllisElliotcametoNebraskatobuycheaplandandrevisitthecountrywherehehadspentayearofhisyouth。WhenhehadgraduatedfromHarvarditwasstillcustomaryformoneyedgentlementosendtheirscapegracesonstoroughitonranchesinthewildsofNebraskaorDakota,ortoconsignthemtoalivingdeathinthesagebrushoftheBlackHills。Theseyoungmendidnotalwaysreturntothewaysofcivilizedlife。ButWyllisElliothadnotmarriedahalf-breed,norbeenshotinacowpunchers’brawl,norwreckedbybadwhisky,norappropriatedbyasmirchedadventuress。Hehadbeensavedfromthesethingsbyagirl,hissister,whohadbeenveryneartohislifeeversincethedayswhentheyreadfairytalestogetheranddreamedthedreamsthatnevercometrue。Onthis,hisfirstvisittohisfather’sranchsinceheleftitsixyearsbefore,hebroughtherwithhim。Shehadbeenlaiduphalfthewinterfromasprainreceivedwhileskating,andhadhadtoomuchtimeforreflectionduringthosemonths。Shewasrestlessandfilledwithadesiretoseesomethingofthewildcountryofwhichherbrotherhadtoldhersomuch。Shewastobemarriedthenextwinter,andWyllisunderstoodherwhenshebeggedhimtotakeherwithhimonthislong,aimlessjauntacrossthecontinent,totastethelastoftheirfreedomtogether。itcomestoallwomenofhertype——thatdesiretotastetheunknownwhichalluresandterrifies,torunone’swholesoul’slengthouttothewind——justonce。 Ithadbeenaneventfuljourney。Wyllissomehowunderstoodthatstrainofgypsybloodinhissister,andheknewwheretotakeher。 TheyhadsleptinsodhousesonthePlatteRiver,madetheacquaintanceofthepersonnelofathird-rateoperacompanyonthetraintoDeadwood,dinedinacampofrailroadconstructorsattheworld’sendbeyondNewCastle,gonethroughtheBlackHillsonhorseback,fishedfortroutinDomeLake,watchedadanceatCrippleCreek,wherethelostsoulswhohideinthehillsgatheredfortheirbesottedrevelry。Andnow,lastofall,beforethereturntothraldom,therewasthislittleshack,anchoredonthewindycrestoftheDivide,alittleblackdotagainsttheflamingsunsets,ascentedseaofcornlandbathedinopalescentairandblindingsunlight。 MargaretElliotwasoneofthosewomenofwhomtherearesomanyinthisday,whenoldorder,passing,givethplacetonew; beautiful,talented,critical,unsatisfied,tiredoftheworldattwenty-four。ForthemomentthelifeandpeopleoftheDivideinterestedher。Shewastherebutaweek;perhapshadshestayedlonger,thatinexorableennuiwhichtravelsfastereventhantheVestibuleLimitedwouldhaveovertakenher。TheweekshetarriedtherewastheweekthatEricHermannsonwashelpingJerryLockhartthresh;aweekearlieroraweeklater,andtherewouldhavebeennostorytowrite。 ItwasonThursdayandtheyweretoleaveonSaturday。Wyllisandhissisterweresittingonthewidepiazzaoftheranchhouse,staringoutintotheafternoonsunlightandprotestingagainstthegustsofhotwindthatblewupfromthesandyriverbottomtwentymilestothesouthward。 Theyoungmanpulledhiscaploweroverhiseyesandremarked: “Thiswindistherealthing;youdon’tstrikeitanywhereelse。YourememberwehadatouchofitinAlgiersandItoldyouitcamefromKansas。It’sthekeynoteofthiscountry。“ Wyllistouchedherhandthatlayonthehammockandcontinuedgently: “Ihopeit’spaidyou,Sis。Roughingit’sdangerousbusiness; ittakesthetasteoutofthings。“ Sheshutherfingersfirmlyoverthebrownhandthatwassolikeherown。 “Paid?Why,Wyllis,Ihaven’tbeensohappysincewewerechildrenandweregoingtodiscovertheruinsofTroytogethersomeday。Doyouknow,IbelieveIcouldjuststayonhereforeverandlettheworldgoonitsowngait。Itseemsasthoughthetensionandstrainweusedtotalkoflastwinterweregoneforgood,asthoughonecouldnevergiveone’sstrengthouttosuchpettythingsanymore。“ Wyllisbrushedtheashesofhispipeawayfromthesilkhandkerchiefthatwasknottedabouthisneckandstaredmoodilyoffattheskyline。 “No,you’remistaken。Thiswouldboreyouafterawhile。Youcan’tshakethefeveroftheotherlife。I’vetriedit。TherewasatimewhenthegayfellowsofRomecouldtrotdownintotheThebaidandburrowintothesandhillsandgetridofit。Butit’salltoocomplexnow。Youseewe’vemadeourdissipationssodaintyandrespectablethatthey’vegonefurtherinthantheflesh,andtakenholdoftheegoproper。Youcouldn’trest,evenhere。Thewarcrywouldfollowyou。“ “Youdon’twastewords,Wyllis,butyounevermissfire。I talkmorethanyoudo,withoutsayinghalfsomuch。YoumusthavelearnedtheartofsilencefromthesetaciturnNorwegians。IthinkIlikesilentmen。“ “Naturally,“saidWyllis,“sinceyouhavedecidedtomarrythemostbrillianttalkeryouknow。“ Bothweresilentforatime,listeningtothesighingofthehotwindthroughtheparchedmorning-gloryvines。Margaretspokefirst。 “Tellme,Wyllis,weremanyoftheNorwegiansyouusedtoknowasinterestingasEricHermannson?“ “Who,Siegfried?Well,no。HeusedtobethefloweroftheNorwegianyouthinmyday,andhe’sratheranexception,evennow。 Hehasretrograded,though。Thebondsofthesoilhavetightenedonhim,Ifancy。“ “Siegfried?Come,that’srathergood,Wyllis。Helookslikeadragon-slayer。Whatisitthatmakeshimsodifferentfromtheothers?Icantalktohim;heseemsquitelikeahumanbeing。“ “Well,“saidWyllis,meditatively,“Idon’treadBourgetasmuchasmyculturedsister,andI’mnotsowellupinanalysis,butIfancyit’sbecauseonekeepscherishingaperfectlyunwarrantedsuspicionthatunderthatbig,hulkinganatomyofhis,hemayconcealasoulsomewhere。Nichtwahr?“ “Somethinglikethat,“saidMargaret,thoughtfully,“exceptthatit’smorethanasuspicion,anditisn’tgroundless。Hehasone,andhemakesitknown,somehow,withoutspeaking。“ “Ialwayshavemydoubtsaboutloquacioussouls,“Wyllisremarked,withtheunbelievingsmilethathadgrownhabitualwithhim。