第3章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:4723更新时间:18/12/26 16:55:51
Lenabegantocryandmoanafresh,beggingtheministertotakeherhome。HelookedhelplesslyatCanute。Canutesaidsimply,“Ifyouarewarmnow,youcanmarryus。“ “Mydaughter,doyoutakethisstepofyourownfreewill?“ askedtheministerinatremblingvoice。 “No,sir,Idon’t,anditisdisgracefulheshouldforcemeintoit!Iwon’tmarryhim。“ “Then,Canute,Icannotmarryyou,“saidtheminister,standingasstraightashisrheumaticlimbswouldlethim。 “Areyoureadytomarryusnow,sir?“saidCanute,layingoneironhandonhisstoopedshoulder。Thelittlepreacherwasagoodman,butlikemostmenofweakbodyhewasacowardandhadahorrorofphysicalsuffering,althoughhehadknownsomuchofit。 Sowithmanyqualmsofconsciencehebegantorepeatthemarriageservice。Lenasatsullenlyinherchair,staringatthefire。 Canutestoodbesideher,listeningwithhisheadbentreverentlyandhishandsfoldedonhisbreast。Whenthelittlemanhadprayedandsaidamen,Canutebeganbundlinghimupagain。 “Iwilltakeyouhome,now,“hesaidashecarriedhimoutandplacedhiminhisbuggy,andstartedoffwithhimthroughthefuryofthestorm,flounderingamongthesnowdriftsthatbroughteventhegianthimselftohisknees。 Aftershewasleftalone,Lenasoonceasedweeping。Shewasnotofaparticularlysensitivetemperament,andhadlittlepridebeyondthatofvanity。Afterthefirstbitterangerworeitselfout,shefeltnothingmorethanahealthysenseofhumiliationanddefeat。Shehadnoinclinationtorunaway,forshewasmarriednow,andinhereyesthatwasfinalandallrebellionwasuseless。Sheknewnothingaboutalicense,butsheknewthatapreachermarriedfolks。SheconsoledherselfbythinkingthatshehadalwaysintendedtomarryCanutesomeday,anyway。 Shegrewtiredofcryingandlookingintothefire,soshegotupandbegantolookabouther。ShehadheardqueertalesabouttheinsideofCanute’sshanty,andhercuriositysoongotthebetterofherrage。Oneofthefirstthingsshenoticedwasthenewblacksuitofclotheshangingonthewall。Shewasdull,butitdidnottakeavainwomanlongtointerpretanythingsodecidedlyflattering,andshewaspleasedinspiteofherself。Asshelookedthroughthecupboard,thegeneralairofneglectanddiscomfortmadeherpitythemanwholivedthere。 “Poorfellow,nowonderhewantstogetmarriedtogetsomebodytowashuphisdishes。Batchin’sprettyhardonaman。“ Itiseasytopitywhenonceone’svanityhasbeentickled。 Shelookedatthewindowsillandgavealittleshudderandwonderedifthemanwerecrazy。ThenshesatdownagainandsatalongtimewonderingwhatherDickandOlewoulddo。 “ItisqueerDickdidn’tcomerightoverafterme。Hesurelycame,forhewouldhavelefttownbeforethestormbeganandhemightjustaswellcomerightonasgoback。Ifhe’dhurriedhewouldhavegottenherebeforethepreachercame。Isupposehewasafraidtocome,forheknewCanutesoncouldpoundhimtojelly,thecoward!“Hereyesflashedangrily。 ThewearyhoursworeonandLenabegantogrowhorriblylonesome。Itwasanuncannynightandthiswasanuncannyplacetobein。Shecouldhearthecoyoteshowlinghungrilyalittlewayfromthecabin,andmoreterriblestillwerealltheunknownnoisesofthestorm。Sherememberedthetalestheytoldofthebiglogoverheadandshewasafraidofthosesnakythingsonthewindowsills。Sherememberedthemanwhohadbeenkilledinthedraw,andshewonderedwhatshewoulddoifshesawcrazyLou’swhitefaceglaringintothewindow。Therattlingofthedoorbecameunbearable,shethoughtthelatchmustbelooseandtookthelamptolookatit。Thenforthefirsttimeshesawtheuglybrownsnakeskinswhosedeathrattlesoundedeverytimethewindjarredthedoor。 “Canute,Canute!“shescreamedinterror。 Outsidethedoorsheheardaheavysoundasofabigdoggettingupandshakinghimself。ThedooropenedandCanutestoodbeforeher,whiteasasnowdrift。 “Whatisit?“heaskedkindly。 “Iamcold,“shefaltered。 Hewentoutandgotanarmfulofwoodandabasketofcobsandfilledthestove。Thenhewentoutandlayinthesnowbeforethedoor。Presentlyheheardhercallingagain。 “Whatisit?“hesaid,sittingup。 “I’msolonesome,I’mafraidtostayinhereallalone。“ “Iwillgooverandgetyourmother。“Andhegotup。 “Shewon’tcome。“ “I’llbringher,“saidCanutegrimly。 “No,no。Idon’twanther,shewillscoldallthetime。“ “Well,Iwillbringyourfather。“ Shespokeagainanditseemedasthoughhermouthwascloseuptothekey-hole。Shespokelowerthanhehadeverheardherspeakbefore,solowthathehadtoputhisearuptothelocktohearher。 “Idon’twanthimeither,Canute,——I’dratherhaveyou。“ Foramomentsheheardnonoiseatall,thensomethinglikeagroan。Withacryoffearsheopenedthedoor,andsawCanutestretchedinthesnowatherfeet,hisfaceinhishands,sobbingonthedoorstep。 EndEricHermannson’sSoulItwasagreatnightattheLoneStarschoolhouse——anightwhentheSpiritwaspresentwithpowerandwhenGodwasveryneartoman。SoitseemedtoAsaSkinner,servantofGodandFreeGospeller。Theschoolhousewascrowdedwiththesavedandsanctified,robustmenandwomen,tremblingandquailingbeforethepowerofsomemysteriouspsychicforce。Hereandthereamongthiscowering,sweatingmultitudecrouchedsomepoorwretchwhohadfeltthepangsofanawakenedconscience,buthadnotyetexperiencedthatcompletedivestmentofreason,thatfrenzybornofaconvulsionofthemind,which,intheparlanceoftheFreeGospellers,istermed“theLight。“Onthefloorbeforethemourners’benchlaytheunconsciousfigureofamaninwhomoutragednaturehadsoughtherlastresort。This“trance“stateisthehighestevidenceofgraceamongtheFreeGospellers,andindicatesaclosewalkingwithGod。 BeforethedeskstoodAsaSkinner,shoutingofthemercyandvengeanceofGod,andinhiseyesshoneaterribleearnestness,analmostpropheticflame。AsawasaconvertedtraingamblerwhousedtorunbetweenOmahaandDenver。Hewasamanmadefortheextremesoflife;fromthemostdebauchedofmenhehadbecomethemostascetic。Hiswasabestialface,a。facethatborethestampofNature’seternalinjustice。Theforeheadwaslow,projectingovertheeyes,andthesandyhairwasplastereddownoveritandthenbrushedbackatanabruptrightangle。Thechinwasheavy,thenostrilswerelowandwide,andthelowerliphunglooselyexceptinhismomentsofspasmodicearnestness,whenitshutlikeasteeltrap。Yetaboutthosecoarsefeaturesthereweredeep,ruggedfurrows,thescarsofmanyahand-to-handstrugglewiththeweaknessoftheflesh,andaboutthatdroopinglipweresharp,strenuouslinesthathadconquereditandtaughtittopray。Overthoseseamedcheekstherewasacertainpallor,agreynesscaughtfrommanyavigil。Itwasasthough,afterNaturehaddoneherworstwiththatface,somefinechiselhadgoneoverit,chasteningandalmosttransfiguringit。Tonight,ashismusclestwitchedwithemotion,andtheperspirationdroppedfromhishairandchin,therewasacertainconvincingpowerintheman。ForAsaSkinnerwasamanpossessedofabelief,ofthatsentimentofthesublimebeforewhichallinequalitiesareleveled,thattransportofconvictionwhichseemssuperiortoalllawsofcondition,underwhichdebaucheeshavebecomemartyrs;whichmadeatinkeranartistandacamel-driverthefounderofanempire。ThiswaswithAsaSkinnertonight,ashestoodproclaimingthevengeanceofGod。 ItmighthaveoccurredtoanimpartialobserverthatAsaSkinner’sGodwasindeedavengefulGodifhecouldreservevengeanceforthoseofhiscreatureswhowerepackedintotheLoneStarschoolhousethatnight。Poorexilesofallnations;menfromthesouthandthenorth,peasantsfromalmosteverycountryofEurope,mostofthemfromthemountainous,night-boundcoastofNorway。Honestmenforthemostpart,butmenwithwhomtheworldhaddealthardly;thefailuresofallcountries,mensoberedbytoilandsaddenedbyexile,whohadbeendriventofightforthedominionofanuntowardsoil,tosowwhereothersshouldgather,theadvanceguardofamightycivilizationtobe。 NeverhadAsaSkinnerspokenmoreearnestlythannow。HefeltthattheLordhadthisnightaspecialworkforhimtodo。TonightEricHermannson,thewildestladonalltheDivide,satinhisaudiencewithafiddleonhisknee,justashehaddroppedinonhiswaytoplayforsomedance。TheviolinisanobjectofparticularabhorrencetotheFreeGospellers。Theirantagonismtothechurchorganisbitterenough,butthefiddletheyregardasaveryincarnationofevildesires,singingforeverofworldlypleasuresandinseparablyassociatedwithallforbiddenthings。 EricHermannsonhadlongbeentheobjectoftheprayersoftherevivalists。HismotherhadfeltthepoweroftheSpiritweeksago,andspecialprayer-meetingshadbeenheldatherhouseforherson。ButErichadonlygonehiswayslaughing,thewaysofyouth,whichareshortenoughatbest,andnonetoofloweryontheDivide。 Heslippedawayfromtheprayer-meetingstomeettheCampbellboysinGenereau’ssaloon,orhugtheplumplittleFrenchgirlsatChevalier’sdances,andsometimes,ofasummernight,heevenwentacrossthedewycornfieldsandthroughthewild-plumthickettoplaythefiddleforLenaHanson,whosenamewasareproachthroughalltheDividecountry,wherethewomenareusuallytooplainandtoobusyandtootiredtodepartfromthewaysofvirtue。OnsuchoccasionsLena,attiredinapinkwrapperandsilkstockingsandtinypinkslippers,wouldsingtohim,accompanyingherselfonabatteredguitar。Itgavehimadelicioussenseoffreedomandexperiencetobewithawomanwho,nomatterhow,hadlivedinbigcitiesandknewthewaysoftownfolk,whohadneverworkedinthefieldsandhadkeptherhandswhiteandsoft,herthroatfairandtender,whohadheardgreatsingersinDenverandSaltLake,andwhoknewthestrangelanguageofflatteryandidlenessandmirth。 Yet,carelessasheseemed,thefranticprayersofhismotherwerenotaltogetherwithouttheireffectuponEric。Fordayshehadbeenfleeingbeforethemasacriminalfromhispursuers,andoverhispleasureshadfallentheshadowofsomethingdarkandterriblethatdoggedhissteps。Theharderhedanced,thelouderhesang,themorewasheconsciousthatthisphantomwasgaininguponhim,thatintimeitwouldtrackhimdown。OneSundayafternoon,lateinthefall,whenhehadbeendrinkingbeerwithLenaHansonandlisteningtoasongwhichmadehischeeksburn,arattlesnakehadcrawledoutofthesideofthesodhouseandthrustitsuglyheadinunderthescreendoor。Hewasnotafraidofsnakes,butheknewenoughofGospellismtofeelthesignificanceofthereptilelyingcoiledthereuponherdoorstep。HislipswerecoldwhenhekissedLenagoodbye,andhewenttherenomore。