第67章

类别:其他 作者:Haggard, H。 Rider字数:4584更新时间:18/12/26 16:43:37
Seeingmecomehehobbledonhissticktothegatetoopenitforme,whiningaprayerforalms。 ’DoesMr。Wingfleldlivehere?’Isaid,pointingupthepath,andmybreathcamequickasIasked。 ’Mr。Wingfield,sir,Mr。Wingfield,whichofthem?’heanswered。 ’Theoldgentlemanhe’sbeendeadnighupontwentyyears。 IhelpedtodighisgraveinthechancelofyonderchurchIdid,welaidhimbyhiswife——herthatwasmurdered。 Thenthere’sMr。Geoffrey。’ ’Whatofhim?’Iasked。 ’He’sdead,too,twelveyeargoneormore;hedrankhisselftodeadhedid。 AndMr。Thomas,he’sdead,drownedoverseastheysay,manyawinterback;they’realldead,alldead! Ah!hewasarareone,Mr。Thomaswas;ImindmewellhowwhenIletthefurrinergo——’ andherambledoffintothetaleofhowhehadsetdeGarciaonhishorseafterIhadbeatenhim,norcouldIbringhimbackfromit。 Castinghimapieceofmoney,Isetspurstomywearyhorseandcanteredupthebridlepath,leavingtheMillHouseonmyleft,andasIwent,thebeatofhishoofsseemedtoechotheoldman’swords,’Alldead,alldead!’ DoubtlessLilywasdeadalso,orifshewasnotdead,whenthetidingscamethatIhadbeendrownedatsea,shewouldhavemarried。 Beingsofairandsweetshewouldsurelynothavelackedforsuitors,norcoulditbebelievedthatshehadwornherlifeawaymourningoverthelostloveofheryouth。 NowtheLodgewasbeforeme;ithadchangednowhitexceptthattheivyandcreepersonitsfronthadgrownhigher,totheroofindeed,andIcouldseethatpeoplelivedinthehouse,foritwaswellkept,andsmokehungabovethechimneys。 Thegatewaslocked,andtherewerenoservingmenabout,fornightfellfast,andallhadceasedfromtheirlabour。 LeavingthehouseontherightIpassedroundittothestablesthatareatthebacknearthehillsidegarden,butherethegatewaslockedalso,andIdismountednotknowingwhattodo。 IndeedIwassounmannedwithfearanddoubtthatforawhileIseemedbewildered,andleavingthehorsetocropthegrasswherehestood,IwanderedtothefootofthechurchpathandgazedupthehillasthoughIwaitedforthecomingofonewhomIshouldmeet。 ’Whatiftheywerealldead,whatifSHEweredeadandgone?’ I buriedmyfaceinmyhandsandprayedtotheAlmightywhohadprotectedmethroughsomanyyears,tosparemethislastbitterness。 Iwascrushedwithsorrow,andIfeltthatIcouldbearnomore。 IfLilywerelosttomealso,thenIthoughtthatitwouldbebestthatIshoulddie,sincetherewasnothingleftforwhichIcaredtolive。 ThusIprayedforsomewhile,tremblinglikealeaf,andwhenI lookedupagain,ereIturnedtoseektidingsfromthosethatdweltinthehouse,whoevertheymightbe,thetwilighthadfallencompletely,andlo!nightingalessangbothfarandnear。 I listenedtotheirsong,andasIlistened,sometroubledmemorycamebacktomethatatfirstIcouldnotgrasp。 ThensuddenlythereroseupinmymindavisionofthesplendidchamberinMontezuma’spalaceinTenoctitlan,andofmyselfsleepingonagoldenbed,anddreamingonthatbed。 Iknewitnow,IwasthegodTezcat,andonthemorrowImustbesacrificed,andIsleptinmisery,andasIsleptIdreamed。 IdreamedthatIstoodwhereI stoodthisnight,thatthescentoftheEnglishflowerswasinmynostrilsasitwasthisnight,andthatthesweetsongofthenightingalesranginmyearsasatthispresenthour。 IdreamedthatasImusedandlistenedthemooncameupoverthegreenashandoaks,andlo!theresheshone。 IdreamedthatIheardasoundofsingingonthehill—— ButnowIawokefromthisvisionofthepastandofalonglostdream,forasIstoodthesweetvoiceofawomanbegantosingyonderonthebrowoftheslope;Iwasnotmad,Ihearditclearly,andthesoundgrewevernearerasthesingerdrewdownthesteephillside。 ItwassonearnowthatIcouldcatchtheverywordsofthatsadsongwhichtothisdayIremember。 NowIcouldseethewoman’sshapeinthemoonlight;itwastallandstatelyandcladinawhiterobe。 Presentlysheliftedherheadtowatchtheflitterofabatandthemoonlightlituponherface。 ItwasthefaceofLilyBozard,mylostlove,beautifulasofyore,thoughgrownolderandstampedwiththesealofsomegreatsorrow。 Isaw,andsodeeplywasIstirredatthesight,thathaditnotbeenforthelowpalingtowhichIclung,Imusthavefallentotheearth,andadeepgroanbrokefrommylips。 Sheheardthegroanandceasedhersong,thencatchingsightofthefigureofaman,shestoppedandturnedasthoughtofly。 Istoodquitestill,andwonderovercomingherfear,shedrewnearerandspokeinthesweetlowvoicethatIrememberedwell,saying,’Whowandersheresolate? Isityou,John?’ NowwhenIheardherspeakthusanewfeartookme。 Doubtlessshewasmarriedand’John’washerhusband。 Ihadfoundherbuttolosehermorecompletely。 OfasuddenitcameintomymindthatI wouldnotdiscovermyselftillIknewthetruth。 Iadvancedapace,butnotsofarastopassfromtheshadowoftheshrubswhichgrowhere,andtakingmystandinsuchafashionthatthemoonlightdidnotstrikeuponmyface,IbowedlowinthecourtlySpanishfashion,anddisguisingmyvoicespokeasaSpaniardmightinbrokenEnglishwhichIwillsparetowritedown。 ’Madam,’Isaid,’haveIthehonourtospeaktoonewhoinbygoneyearswasnamedtheSenoraLilyBozard?’ ’Thatwasmyname,’sheanswered。 ’Whatisyourerrandwithme,sir?’ NowItrembledafresh,butspokeonboldly。 ’BeforeIanswer,Madam,forgivemeifIaskanotherquestion。 Isthisstillyourname?’ ’Itisstillmyname,Iamnomarriedwoman,’sheanswered,andforamomenttheskyseemedtoreelabovemeandthegroundtoheavebeneathmyfeetlikethelavacrustofXaca。 ButasyetIdidnotrevealmyself,forIwishedtolearnifshestilllovedmymemory。 ’Senora,’Isaid,’IamaSpaniardwhoservedintheIndianwarsofCortes,ofwhichperhapsyouhaveheard。’ ShebowedherheadandIwenton。 ’InthosewarsImetamanwhowasnamedTeule,butwhohadanothernameinformerdays,sohetoldmeonhisdeathbedsometwoyearsago。 ’Whatname?’sheaskedinalowvoice。 ’ThomasWingfield。’ NowLilymoanedaloud,andinherturncaughtatthepalestosaveherselffromfalling。 ’Ideemedhimdeadtheseeighteenyears,’shegasped;’drownedintheIndianseaswherehisvesselfoundered。’ ’Ihaveheardsaythathewasshipwreckedinthoseseas,senora,butheescapeddeathandfellamongtheIndians,whomadeagodofhimandgavehimthedaughteroftheirkinginmarriage,’andI paused。 Sheshivered,thensaidinahardvoice,’Continue,sir;Ilistentoyou。’ ’MyfriendTeuletookthepartoftheIndiansinthewars,asbeingthehusbandofoneoftheirprincesseshemustdoinhonour,andfoughtbravelyforthemformanyyears。 Atlengththetownthathedefendedwascaptured,hisoneremainingchildwasmurdered,hiswifetheprincessslewherselfforsorrow,andhehimselfwastakenintocaptivity,wherehelanguishedanddied。’ ’Asadtale,sir,’shesaidwithalittlelaugh——amournfullaughthatwashalfchokedbytears。 ’Averysadtale,senora,butonewhichisnotfinished。 Whilehelaydying,myfriendtoldmethatinhisearlylifehehadplightedtrothwithacertainEnglishmaid,named——’ ’Iknowthename——continue。’ ’Hetoldmethatthoughhehadbeenwedded,andlovedhiswifetheprincess,whowasaveryroyalwoman,thatmanytimeshadriskedherlifeforhis,ay,eventolyingathissideuponthestoneofsacrificeandofherownfreewill,yetthememoryofthismaidentowhomhewasoncebetrothedhadcompanionedhimthroughlifeandwasstronguponhimnowatitsclose。 Thereforeheprayedmeforourfriendship’ssaketoseekheroutwhenIreturnedtoEurope,shouldshestilllive,andtogiveheramessagefromhim,andtomakeaprayertoheronhisbehalf。’ ’Whatmessageandwhatprayer?’Lilywhispered。 ’This:thathelovedherattheendofhislifeashehadlovedheratitsbeginning;thathehumblyprayedherforgivenessbecausehehadbrokenthetrothwhichtheytwosworebeneaththebeechatDitchingham。’ ’Sir,’shecried,’whatdoyouknowofthat?’ ’Onlywhatmyfriendtoldme,senora。’ ’Yourfriendshipmusthavebeencloseandyourmemorymustbegood,’shemurmured。 ’Whichhehaddone,’Iwenton,’understrangecircumstances,sostrangeindeedthathedaredtohopethathisbrokentrothmightberenewedinsomebetterworldthanthis。 Hislastprayerwasthatsheshouldsaytome,hismessenger,thatsheforgavehimandstilllovedhim,astohisdeathhelovedher。’ ’Andhowcansuchforgivenessorsuchanavowaladvantageadeadman?’Lilyasked,watchingmekeenlythroughtheshadows。 ’Havethedeadtheneyestoseeandearstohear?’ ’HowcanIknow,senora? Idobutexecutemymission。’ ’AndhowcanIknowthatyouareatruemessenger。 ItchancedthatIhadsuretidingsofthedrowningofThomasWingfieldmanyyearsago,andthistaleofIndiansandprincessesiswondrousstrange,morelikethosethathappeninromancesthaninthisplainworld。 Haveyounotokenofyourgoodfaith,sir?’ ’Ihavesuchatoken,senora,butthelightistoofaintforyoutoseeit。’ ’Thenfollowmetothehouse,therewewillgetlight。 Stay,’andoncemoregoingtothestablegate,shecalled’John。’ Anoldmanansweredher,andIknewthevoiceforthatofoneofmyfather’sservingmen。 Tohimshespokeinlowtones,thenledthewaybythegardenpathtothefrontdoorofthehouse,whichsheopenedwithakeyfromhergirdle,motioningtometopassinbeforeher。 Ididso,andthinkinglittleofsuchmattersatthemoment,turnedbyhabitintothedoorwayofthesitting-roomwhichIknewsowell,liftingmyfeettoavoidstumblingonitsstep,andpassingintotheroomfoundmywaythroughthegloomtothewidefireplacewhereItookmystand。 Lilywatchedmeenter,thenfollowingme,shelitataperatthefirewhichsmoulderedonthehearth,andplacedituponthetableinthewindowinsuchfashionthatthoughIwasnowobligedtotakeoffmyhat,myfacewasstillinshadow。 ’Now,sir,yourtokenifitpleasesyou。’ ThenIdrewtheposyringfrommyfingerandgaveittoher,andshesatdownbythetableandexamineditinthelightofthecandle,andasshesatthus,Isawhowbeautifulshewasstill,andhowlittletimehadtouchedher,exceptforthesadnessofherface,thoughnowshehadseeneight-and-thirtywinters。 Isawalsothatthoughshekeptcontrolofherfeaturesasshelookeduponthering,herbreastheavedquicklyandherhandshook。 ’Thetokenisatrueone,’shesaidatlength。 ’Iknowthering,thoughitissomewhatwornsincelastIsawit,itwasmymother’s;