第50章

类别:其他 作者:Haggard, H。 Rider字数:4335更新时间:18/12/26 16:43:37
’DoyourememberhowonceyourejectedmedownyonderinTobasco,Guatemoc,andwhatItoldyouthen?——thatIshouldgrowgreatinspiteofyou? Youseeithasallcometrueandmorethantrue,andyouarebroughttothis。 Areyounotsorry,Guatemoc? Iamsorry,thoughwereIassomewomenare,perchanceImightrejoicetoseeyouthus。’ ’Woman,’theprinceansweredinathickvoice,’youhavebetrayedyourcountryandyouhavebroughtmetoshameandtorment。 Yes,haditnotbeenforyou,thesethingshadneverbeen。 Iamsorry,indeedIamsorry——thatIdidnotkillyou。 Fortherest,mayyournamebeshamefulforeverintheearsofhonestmenandyoursoulbeeverlastinglyaccursed,andmayyouyourself,evenbeforeyoudie,knowthebitternessofdishonourandbetrayal! Yourwordswerefulfilled,andsoshallminebealso。’ Sheheardandturnedawaytrembling,andforawhilewassilent。 Thenherglancefelluponmeandshebegantoweep。 ’Alas!poorman,’shesaid;’alas!myfriend。’ ’Weepnotoverme,Marina,’Ianswered,speakinginAztec,’forourtearsareofnoworth,buthelpmeifyoumay。’ ’AhthatIcould!’shesobbed,andturningfledfromtheplace,followedpresentlybyCortes。 NowtheSpaniardscameinagainandremovedGuatemocandthecaciqueofTacuba,carryingthemintheirarms,fortheycouldnotwalk,andindeedthecaciquewasinaswoon。 ’Farewell,Teule,’saidGuatemocashepassedme;’youareindeedatruesonofQuetzalandagallantman。 Maythegodsrewardyouintimestocomeforallthatyouhavesufferedformeandmine,sinceIcannot。’ ThenhewasborneoutandthesewerethelastwordsthatIeverheardhimutter。 NowIwasleftalonewiththeTlascalansanddeGarcia,whomockedmeasbefore。 ’Alittletired,eh,friendWingfield?’hesaidsneering。 ’Well,theplayisroughtillyougetusedtoit。 Anight’ssleepwillrefreshyou,andto-morrowyouwillbeanewman。 PerhapsyoubelievethatIhavedonemyworst。 Fool,thisisbutabeginning。 Alsoyouthinkdoubtlessthatyourobstinacyangersme? Wrongagain,myfriend,Ionlypraythatyoumaykeepyourlipssealedtothelast。 GladlywouldIgivemyshareofthishiddengoldinpaymentfortwomoresuchdayswithyou。 Ihavestillmuchtopayyouback,andlookyou,Ihavefoundawaytodoit。 Therearemorewaysofhurtingamanthanthroughhisownflesh——forinstance,whenIwishedtoberevengeduponyourfather,Istruckhimthroughherwhomheloved。 NowIhavetouchedyouandyouwonderwhatImean。 Well,Iwilltellyou。 PerhapsyoumayknowanAztecladyofroyalbloodwhoisnamedOtomie?’ ’Otomie,whatofher?’Icried,speakingforthefirsttime,sincefearforherstirredmemorethanallthetormentsIhadborne。 ’Atriumphindeed;Ihavefoundawaytomakeyouspeakatlast; why,then,to-morrowyouwillbefullofwords。 Onlythis,CousinWingfield;Otomie,Montezuma’sdaughter,averylovelywomanbytheway,isyourwifeaccordingtotheIndiancustoms。 Well,Iknowallthestoryand——sheisinmypower。 Iwillproveittoyou,forsheshallbebroughtherepresentlyandthenyoucanconsoleeachother。 Forlisten,dog,to-morrowshewillsitwhereyouaresitting,andbeforeyoureyessheshallbedealtwithasyouhavebeendealtwith。 Ah!thenyouwilltalkfastenough,butperhapsitwillbetoolate。’ AndnowforthefirsttimeIbrokedownandprayedformercyevenofmyfoe。 ’Spareher,’Igroaned;’dowhatyouwillwithme,butspareher! Surelyyoumusthaveaheart,evenyou,foryouarehuman。 Youcanneverdothisthing,andCorteswouldnotsufferit。’ ’AsforCortes,’heanswered,’hewillknownothingofit——tillitisdone。 Ihavemywarrantthatchargesmetouseeverymeansinmypowertoforcethetruthfromyou。 Torturehasfailed;thisaloneisleft。 Andfortherest,youmustreadmeill。 Youknowwhatitistohate,foryouhateme;multiplyyourhatebytenandyoumayfindthesumofmineforyou。 Ihateyouforyourblood,I hateyoubecauseyouhaveyourmother’seyes,butmuchmoredoI hateyouforyourself,fordidyounotbeatme,agentlemanofSpain,withastickasthoughIwereahound? ShallIthenshrinkfromsuchadeedwhenIcansatisfymyhatebyit? Alsoperhaps,thoughyouareabraveman,atthismomentyouknowwhatitistofear,andaretastingofitsagony。 NowIwillbeopenwithyou; ThomasWingfield,Ifearyou。 WhenfirstIsawyouIfearedyouasIhadreasontodo,andthatiswhyItriedtokillyou,andastimehasgonebyIhavefearedyoumoreandmore,somuchindeed,thatattimesIcannotrestbecauseofanamelessterrorthatdogsmeandwhichhastodowithyou。 BecauseofyouIfledfromSpain,becauseofyouIhaveplayedthecowardinmorefraysthanone。 Theluckhasalwaysbeenmineinthisduelbetweenus,andyetI tellyouthatevenasyouare,Ifearyoustill。 IfIdaredI wouldkillyouatonce,onlythenyouwouldhauntmeasyourmotherhauntsme,andalsoImustanswerforittoCortes。 Fear,CousinWingfield,isthefatherofcruelty,andminemakesmecrueltoyou。 Livingordead,Iknowthatyouwilltriumphovermeatthelast,butitismyturnnow,andwhileyoubreathe,orwhileonebreatheswhoisdeartoyou,Iwillspendmylifetobringyouandthemtoshameandmiseryanddeath,asIbroughtyourmother,mycousin,thoughsheforcedmetoittosavemyself。 Whynot? Thereisnoforgivenessforme,Icannotundothepast。 Youcametotakevengeanceonme,andsoonorlatebyyou,orthroughyou,itwillbeglutted,buttillthenItriumph,ay,evenwhenImustsinktothisbutcher’sworktodoit,’andsuddenlyheturnedandlefttheplace。 ThenweaknessandsufferingovercamemeandIswoonedaway。 WhenI awokeitwastofindthatmybondshadbeenloosedandthatIlayonsomesortofbed,whileawomanbentoverme,tendingmewithmurmuredwordsofpityandlove。 Thenighthadfallen,buttherewaslightinthechamber,andbyitIsawthatthewomanwasnoneotherthanOtomie,nolongerstarvedandwretched,butalmostaslovelyasbeforethedaysofsiegeandhunger。 ’Otomie!youhere!’Igaspedthroughmywoundedlips,forwithmysensescamethememoryofdeGarcia’sthreats。 ’Yes,beloved,itisI,’shemurmured;’theyhavesufferedthatI nurseyou,devilsthoughtheyare。 Oh!thatImustseeyouthusandyetbehelplesstoavengeyou,’andsheburstintoweeping。 ’Hush,’Isaid,’hush。 Havewefood?’ ’Inplenty。 AwomanbroughtitfromMarina。’ ’Givemetoeat,Otomie。’ Nowforawhileshefedmeandthedeadlysicknesspassedfromme,thoughmypoorfleshburnedwithahundredagonies。 ’Listen,Otomie:haveyouseendeGarcia?’ ’No,husband。 TwodayssinceIwasseparatedfrommysisterTecuichpoandtheotherladies,butIhavebeenwelltreatedandhaveseennoSpaniardexceptthesoldierswholedmehere,tellingmethatyouweresick。 Alas!Iknewnotfromwhatcause,’andagainshebegantoweep。 ’Stillsomehaveseenyouanditisreportedthatyouaremywife。’ ’Itislikelyenough,’sheanswered,’foritwasknownthroughouttheAztechosts,andsuchsecretscannotbekept。 Butwhyhavetheytreatedyouthus? Becauseyoufoughtagainstthem?’ ’Arewealone?’Iasked。 ’Theguardiswithout,buttherearenoneelseinthechamber。’ ’ThenbenddownyourheadandIwilltellyou,’andItoldherall。 WhenIhaddonesoshesprangupwithflashingeyesandherhandpresseduponherbreast,andsaid: ’Oh!ifIlovedyoubefore,nowIloveyoumoreifthatispossible,whocouldsufferthushorriblyandyetbefaithfultothefallenandyouroath。 BlessedbethedaywhenfirstIlookeduponyourface,Omyhusband,mosttrueofmen。 Buttheywhocoulddothis——whatofthem? StillitisdonewithandIwillnurseyoubacktohealth。 Surelyitisdonewith,ortheyhadnotsufferedmetocometoyou?’ ’Alas!Otomie,Imusttellall——itisNOTdonewith,’andwithfalteringvoiceIwentonwiththetale,yes,andsinceImust,I toldherforwhatpurposeshehadbeenbroughthere。 Shelistenedwithoutaword,thoughherlipsturnedpale。 ’Truly,’shesaidwhenIhaddone,’theseTeulesfarsurpassthepabasofourpeople,foriftheprieststortureandsacrifice,itistothegodsandnotforgoldandsecrethate。 Now,husband,whatisyourcounsel? Surelyyouhavesomecounsel。’ ’IhavenonethatIdareoffer,wife,’Igroaned。 ’Youaretimidasagirlwhowillnotutterthelovesheburnstotell,’Otomieansweredwithaproudandbitterlaugh。 ’Well,I willspeakitforyou。 Itisinyourmindthatwemustdieto- night。’ ’Itis,’Isaid;’deathnow,orshameandagonyto-morrowandthendeathatlast,thatisourchoice。 SinceGodwillnotprotectus,wemustprotectourselvesifwecanfindthemeans。’ ’God!thereisnoGod。 AttimesIhavedoubtedthegodsofmypeopleandturnedtoyours;nowIrenounceandrejectHim。 IftherewereaGodofmercysuchasyouclingto,couldHesufferthatsuchthingsbe? Youaremygod,husband,toyouandforyouI pray,andyoualone。 Letushavedonenowwithpleadingtothosewhoarenot,orwho,iftheylive,aredeaftoourcriesandblindtoourmisery,andbefriendourselves。 Yonderliesrope,thatwindowhasbars,verysoonwecanbebeyondthesunandthecrueltyofTeules,orsoundasleep。 Butthereistimeyet;letustalkawhile,theywillscarcelybegintheirtormentsbeforethedawn,anderedawnweshallbefar。’ Sowetalkedaswellasmysufferingswouldallow。 Wetalkedofhowwefirsthadmet,ofhowOtomiehadbeenvowedtomeasthewifeofTezcat,SouloftheWorld,ofthatdaywhenwehadlainsidebysideuponthestoneofsacrifice,ofourtruemarriagethereafter,ofthesiegeofTenoctitlanandthedeathofourfirst- born。 Thuswetalkedtillmidnightwastwohoursgone。 Thentherecameasilence。 ’Husband,’saidOtomieatlastinahushedandsolemnvoice,’youarewornwithsuffering,andIamweary。 Itistimetodothatwhichmustbedone。 Sadisourfate,butatleastrestisbeforeus。 Ithankyou,husband,foryourgentleness,Ithankyoumoreforyourfaithfulnesstomyhouseandpeople。 ShallImakereadyforourlastjourney?’