第57章

类别:其他 作者:Daniel Defoe字数:3917更新时间:18/12/26 16:40:16
saysthealderman,takinghimshort,’nowyoucontradict yourself,forjustnowyousaidshewasintheshopwithher backtoyou,anddidnotseeyoutillyoucameuponher。’ Now itwastruethatmybackwaspartlytothestreet,butyetasmy businesswasofakindthatrequiredmetohavemyeyesevery way,soIreallyhadaglanceofhimrunningover,asIsaid before,thoughhedidnotperceiveit。 Afterafullhearing,thealdermangaveitashisopinionthat hisneighbourwasunderamistake,andthatIwasinnocent, andthegoldsmithacquiescedinittoo,andhiswife,andso Iwasdismissed;butasIwasgoingtodepart,Mr。Alderman said,’Buthold,madam,ifyouweredesigningtobuyspoons, Ihopeyouwillnotletmyfriendherelosehiscustomerby themistake。’ Ireadilyanswered,’No,sir,I’llbuythespoons still,ifhecanmatchmyoddspoon,whichIbroughtfora pattern’;andthegoldsmithshowedmesomeoftheverysame fashion。 Soheweighedthespoons,andtheycametofive-and-thirty shillings,soIpullsoutmypursetopayhim,inwhichIhad neartwentyguineas,forIneverwentwithoutsuchasum aboutme,whatevermighthappen,andIfounditofuseat othertimesaswellasnow。 WhenMr。Aldermansawmymoney,hesaid,’Well,madam, nowIamsatisfiedyouwerewronged,anditwasforthis reasonthatImovedyoushouldbuythespoons,andstayed tillyouhadboughtthem,forifyouhadnothadmoneytopay forthem,Ishouldhavesuspectedthatyoudidnotcomeinto theshopwithanintenttobuy,forindeedthesortofpeople whocomeuponthesedesignsthatyouhavebeencharged with,areseldomtroubledwithmuchgoldintheirpockets, asIseeyouare。’ Ismiled,andtoldhisworship,thatthenIowedsomethingof hisfavourtomymoney,butIhopedhesawreasonalsoin thejusticehehaddonemebefore。 Hesaid,yes,hehad,but thishadconfirmedhisopinion,andhewasfullysatisfiednow ofmyhavingbeeninjured。 SoIcameoffwithflyingcolours, thoughfromanaffairinwhichIwasattheverybrinkof destruction。 Itwasbutthreedaysafterthis,thatnotatallmadecautious bymyformerdanger,asIusedtobe,andstillpursuingthe artwhichIhadsolongbeenemployedin,Iventuredintoa housewhereIsawthedoorsopen,andfurnishedmyself,as Ithoughverilywithoutbeingperceived,withtwopiecesof floweredsilks,suchastheycallbrocadedsilk,veryrich。 It wasnotamercer’sshop,norawarehouseofamercer,but lookedlikeaprivatedwelling-house,andwas,itseems, inhabitedbyamanthatsoldgoodsfortheweaverstothe mercers,likeabrokerorfactor。 ThatImaymakeshortofthisblackpartofthisstory,Iwas attackedbytwowenchesthatcameopen-mouthedatmejust asIwasgoingoutatthedoor,andoneofthempulledme backintotheroom,whiletheothershutthedooruponme。 Iwouldhavegiventhemgoodwords,buttherewasnoroom forit,twofierydragonscouldnothavebeenmorefurious thantheywere;theytoremyclothes,bulliedandroaredasif theywouldhavemurderedme;themistressofthehousecame next,andthenthemaster,andalloutrageous,forawhileespecially。 Igavethemasterverygoodwords,toldhimthedoorwas open,andthingswereatemptationtome,thatIwaspoorand distressed,andpovertywaswhenmanycouldnotresist,and beggedhimwithtearstohavepityonme。 Themistressof thehousewasmovedwithcompassion,andinclinedtohave letmego,andhadalmostpersuadedherhusbandtoitalso, butthesaucywencheswererun,evenbeforetheyweresent, andhadfetchedaconstable,andthenthemastersaidhecould notgoback,Imustgobeforeajustice,andansweredhiswife thathemightcomeintotroublehimselfifheshouldletmego。 Thesightoftheconstable,indeed,struckmewithterror,and IthoughtIshouldhavesunkintotheground。 Ifellinto faintings,andindeedthepeoplethemselvesthoughtIwould havedied,whenthewomanarguedagainforme,andentreated herhusband,seeingtheyhadlostnothing,toletmego。 I offeredhimtopayforthetwopieces,whateverthevaluewas, thoughIhadnotgotthem,andarguedthatashehadhisgoods, andhadreallylostnothing,itwouldbecrueltopursuemeto death,andhavemybloodforthebareattemptoftakingthem。 IputtheconstableinmindthatIhadbrokenodoors,nor carriedanythingaway;andwhenIcametothejustice,and pleadedtherethatIhadneitherbrokenanythingtogetin,nor carriedanythingout,thejusticewasinclinedtohavereleased me;butthefirstsaucyjadethatstoppedme,affirmingthatI wasgoingoutwiththegoods,butthatshestoppedmeand pulledmebackasIwasuponthethreshold,thejusticeupon thatpointcommittedme,andIwascarriedtoNewgate。 That horridplace!myverybloodchillsatthementionofitsname; theplacewheresomanyofmycomradeshadbeenlockedup, andfromwhencetheywenttothefataltree;theplacewhere mymothersufferedsodeeply,whereIwasbroughtintothe world,andfromwhenceIexpectednoredemptionbutbyan infamousdeath: toconclude,theplacethathadsolong expectedme,andwhichwithsomuchartandsuccessIhad solongavoided。 Iwasnotfixedindeed;’tisimpossibletodescribetheterror ofmymind,whenIwasfirstbroughtin,andwhenIlooked arounduponallthehorrorsofthatdismalplace。 Ilookedon myselfaslost,andthatIhadnothingtothinkofbutofgoing outoftheworld,andthatwiththeutmostinfamy: thehellish noise,theroaring,swearing,andclamour,thestenchand nastiness,andallthedreadfulcrowdofafflictingthingsthat Isawthere,joinedtogethertomaketheplaceseemanemblem ofhellitself,andakindofanentranceintoit。 NowIreproachedmyselfwiththemanyhintsIhadhad,asI havementionedabove,frommyownreason,fromthesense ofmygoodcircumstances,andofthemanydangersIhad escaped,toleaveoffwhileIwaswell,andhowIhadwithstood themall,andhardenedmythoughtsagainstallfear。 Itseemed tomethatIwashurriedonbyaninevitableandunseenfate tothisdayofmisery,andthatnowIwastoexpiateallmy offencesatthegallows;thatIwasnowtogivesatisfactionto justicewithmyblood,andthatIwascometothelasthourof mylifeandofmywickednesstogether。 Thesethingspoured themselvesinuponmythoughtsinaconfusedmanner,and leftmeoverwhelmedwithmelancholyanddespair。 ThemIrepentedheartilyofallmylifepast,butthatrepentance yieldedmenosatisfaction,nopeace,no,notintheleast, because,asIsaidtomyself,itwasrepentingafterthepower offurthersinningwastakenaway。 Iseemednottomournthat Ihadcommittedsuchcrimes,andforthefactasitwasan offenceagainstGodandmyneighbour,butImournedthatI wastobepunishedforit。 Iwasapenitent,asIthought,not thatIhadsinned,butthatIwastosuffer,andthistookaway allthecomfort,andeventhehopeofmyrepentanceinmy ownthoughts。 IgotnosleepforseveralnightsordaysafterIcameintothat wretchedplace,andgladIwouldhavebeenforsometimeto havediedthere,thoughIdidnotconsiderdyingasitoughtto beconsideredneither;indeed,nothingcouldbefilledwith morehorrortomyimaginationthantheveryplace,nothing wasmoreodioustomethanthecompanythatwasthere。 Oh! ifIhadbutbeensenttoanyplaceintheworld,andnotto Newgate,Ishouldhavethoughtmyselfhappy。 Inthenextplace,howdidthehardenedwretchesthatwere therebeforemetriumphoverme! What!Mrs。Flanderscome toNewgateatlast? What!Mrs。Mary,Mrs。Molly,andafter thatplainMollFlanders?Theythoughtthedevilhadhelped me,theysaid,thatIhadreignedsolong;theyexpectedme theremanyyearsago,andwasIcomeatlast? Thenthey floutedmewithmydejections,welcomedmetotheplace, wishedmejoy,bidmehaveagoodheart,nottobecastdown, thingsmightnotbesobadasIfeared,andthelike;thencalled forbrandy,anddranktome,butputitalluptomyscore,for theytoldmeIwasbutjustcometothecollege,astheycalled it,andsureIhadmoneyinmypocket,thoughtheyhadnone。 Iaskedoneofthiscrewhowlongshehadbeenthere。 She saidfourmonths。Iaskedherhowtheplacelookedtoher whenshefirstcameintoit。 ’Justasitdidnowtoyou,’says she,dreadfulandfrightful’;thatshethoughtshewasinhell; ’andIbelievesostill,’addsshe,’butitisnaturaltomenow,I don’tdisturbmyselfaboutit。’ ’Isuppose,’saysI,’youarein nodangerofwhatistofollow?’ ’Nay,’saysshe,’foryouare mistakenthere,Iassureyou,forIamundersentence,onlyI pleadedmybelly,butIamnomorewithchildthanthejudge thattriedme,andIexpecttobecalleddownnextsessions。’ This’callingdown’iscallingdowntotheirformerjudgment, whenawomanhasbeenrespitedforherbelly,butprovesnot tobewithchild,orifshehasbeenwithchild,andhasbeen broughttobed。 ’Well,’saysI,’areyouthuseasy?’ ’Ay,’says she,’Ican’thelpmyself;whatsignifiesbeingsad? IfIam hanged,there’sanendofme,’saysshe;andawaysheturns dancing,andsingsasshegoesthefollowingpieceofNewgate