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THEWRECK IwasapprenticedtotheSeawhenIwastwelveyearsold,andIhaveencounteredagreatdealofroughweather,bothliteralandmetaphorical。IthasalwaysbeenmyopinionsinceIfirstpossessedsuchathingasanopinion,thatthemanwhoknowsonlyonesubjectisnexttiresometothemanwhoknowsnosubject。Therefore,inthecourseofmylifeIhavetaughtmyselfwhateverIcould,andalthoughIamnotaneducatedman,Iamable,Iamthankfultosay,tohaveanintelligentinterestinmostthings。 Apersonmightsuppose,fromreadingtheabove,thatIaminthehabitofholdingforthaboutnumberone。Thatisnotthecase。 JustasifIwastocomeintoaroomamongstrangers,andmusteitherbeintroducedorintroducemyself,soIhavetakenthelibertyofpassingthesefewremarks,simplyandplainlythatitmaybeknownwhoandwhatIam。IwilladdnomoreofthesortthanthatmynameisWilliamGeorgeRavender,thatIwasbornatPenrithhalfayearaftermyownfatherwasdrowned,andthatIamontheseconddayofthispresentblessedChristmasweekofonethousandeighthundredandfifty—six,fifty—sixyearsofage。 WhentherumourfirstwentflyingupanddownthattherewasgoldinCalifornia——which,asmostpeopleknow,wasbeforeitwasdiscoveredintheBritishcolonyofAustralia——IwasintheWestIndies,tradingamongtheIslands。Beingincommandandlikewisepart—ownerofasmartschooner,Ihadmyworkcutoutforme,andIwasdoingit。Consequently,goldinCaliforniawasnobusinessofmine。 But,bythetimewhenIcamehometoEnglandagain,thethingwasasclearasyourhandheldupbeforeyouatnoon—day。TherewasCaliforniangoldinthemuseumsandinthegoldsmiths’shops,andtheveryfirsttimeIwentupon’Change,Imetafriendofmine(aseafaringmanlikemyself),withaCaliforniannuggethangingtohiswatch—chain。Ihandledit。Itwasaslikeapeeledwalnutwithbitsunevenlybrokenoffhereandthere,andthenelectrotypedallover,aseverIsawanythinginmylife。 Iamasingleman(shewastoogoodforthisworldandforme,andshediedsixweeksbeforeourmarriage—day),sowhenIamashore,I liveinmyhouseatPoplar。MyhouseatPoplaristakencareofandkeptship—shapebyanoldladywhowasmymother’smaidbeforeIwasborn。Sheisashandsomeandasuprightasanyoldladyintheworld。Sheisasfondofmeasifshehadeverhadanonlyson,andIwashe。WelldoIknowwhereverIsailthatsheneverlaysdownherheadatnightwithouthavingsaid,\"MercifulLord!blessandpreserveWilliamGeorgeRavender,andsendhimsafehome,throughChristourSaviour!\"Ihavethoughtofitinmanyadangerousmoment,whenithasdonemenoharm,Iamsure。 InmyhouseatPoplar,alongwiththisoldlady,Ilivedquietforbestpartofayear:havinghadalongspellofitamongtheIslands,andhaving(whichwasveryuncommoninme)takenthefeverratherbadly。Atlast,beingstrongandhearty,andhavingreadeverybookIcouldlayholdof,rightout,IwaswalkingdownLeadenhallStreetintheCityofLondon,thinkingofturning—toagain,whenImetwhatIcallSmithickandWatersbyofLiverpool。I chancedtoliftupmyeyesfromlookinginataship’schronometerinawindow,andIsawhimbearingdownuponme,headon。 Itis,personally,neitherSmithick,norWatersby,thatIheremention,norwasIeveracquaintedwithanymanofeitherofthosenames,nordoIthinkthattherehasbeenanyoneofeitherofthosenamesinthatLiverpoolHouseforyearsback。But,itisinrealitytheHouseitselfthatIreferto;andawisermerchantoratruergentlemanneverstepped。 \"MydearCaptainRavender,\"sayshe。\"Ofallthemenonearth,I wantedtoseeyoumost。Iwasonmywaytoyou。\" \"Well!\"saysI。\"ThatlooksasifyouWEREtoseeme,don’tit?\" WiththatIputmyarminhis,andwewalkedontowardstheRoyalExchange,andwhenwegotthere,walkedupanddownatthebackofitwheretheClock—Toweris。Wewalkedanhourandmore,forhehadmuchtosaytome。HehadaschemeforcharteringanewshipoftheirowntotakeoutcargotothediggersandemigrantsinCalifornia,andtobuyandbringbackgold。IntotheparticularsofthatschemeIwillnotenter,andIhavenorighttoenter。AllI sayofitis,thatitwasaveryoriginalone,averyfineone,averysoundone,andaverylucrativeonebeyonddoubt。 HeimpartedittomeasfreelyasifIhadbeenapartofhimself。 Afterdoingso,hemademethehandsomestsharingofferthateverwasmadetome,boyorman——orIbelievetoanyothercaptainintheMerchantNavy——andhetookthisroundturntofinishwith: \"Ravender,youarewellawarethatthelawlessnessofthatcoastandcountryatpresent,isasspecialasthecircumstancesinwhichitisplaced。Crewsofvesselsoutward—bound,desertassoonastheymaketheland;crewsofvesselshomeward—bound,shipatenormouswages,withtheexpressintentionofmurderingthecaptainandseizingthegoldfreight;nomancantrustanother,andthedevilseemsletloose。Now,\"sayshe,\"youknowmyopinionofyou,andyouknowIamonlyexpressingit,andwithnosingularity,whenI tellyouthatyouarealmosttheonlymanonwhoseintegrity,discretion,andenergy——\"&c。,&c。For,Idon’twanttorepeatwhathesaid,thoughIwasandamsensibleofit。 Notwithstandingmybeing,asIhavementioned,quitereadyforavoyage,stillIhadsomedoubtsofthisvoyage。OfcourseIknew,withoutbeingtold,thattherewerepeculiardifficultiesanddangersinit,alongwayoverandabovethosewhichattendallvoyages。ItmustnotbesupposedthatIwasafraidtofacethem; but,inmyopinionamanhasnomanlymotiveorsustainmentinhisownbreastforfacingdangers,unlesshehaswellconsideredwhattheyare,andisablequietlytosaytohimself,\"Noneoftheseperilscannowtakemebysurprise;Ishallknowwhattodoforthebestinanyofthem;alltherestliesinthehigherandgreaterhandstowhichIhumblycommitmyself。\"OnthisprincipleIhavesoattentivelyconsidered(regardingitasmyduty)allthehazardsI haveeverbeenabletothinkof,intheordinarywayofstorm,shipwreck,andfireatsea,thatIhopeIshouldbepreparedtodo,inanyofthosecases,whatevercouldbedone,tosavethelivesintrustedtomycharge。 AsIwasthoughtful,mygoodfriendproposedthatheshouldleavemetowalkthereaslongasIliked,andthatIshoulddinewithhimby—and—byathisclubinPallMall。IacceptedtheinvitationandI walkedupanddownthere,quarter—deckfashion,amatterofacoupleofhours;nowandthenlookingupattheweathercockasImighthavelookedupaloft;andnowandthentakingalookintoCornhill,asI mighthavetakenalookovertheside。 Alldinner—time,andallafterdinner—time,wetalkeditoveragain。 Igavehimmyviewsofhisplan,andheverymuchapprovedofthesame。ItoldhimIhadnearlydecided,butnotquite。\"Well,well,\"sayshe,\"comedowntoLiverpoolto—morrowwithme,andseetheGoldenMary。\"Ilikedthename(hernamewasMary,andshewasgolden,ifgoldenstandsforgood),soIbegantofeelthatitwasalmostdonewhenIsaidIwouldgotoLiverpool。OnthenextmorningbutonewewereonboardtheGoldenMary。Imighthaveknown,fromhisaskingmetocomedownandseeher,whatshewas。I declarehertohavebeenthecompletestandmostexquisiteBeautythateverIsetmyeyesupon。 Wehadinspectedeverytimberinher,andhadcomebacktothegangwaytogoashorefromthedock—basin,whenIputoutmyhandtomyfriend。\"Touchuponit,\"saysI,\"andtouchheartily。Itakecommandofthisship,andIamhersandyours,ifIcangetJohnSteadimanformychiefmate。\" JohnSteadimanhadsailedwithmefourvoyages。ThefirstvoyageJohnwasthirdmateouttoChina,andcamehomesecond。Theotherthreevoyageshewasmyfirstofficer。AtthistimeofcharteringtheGoldenMary,hewasagedthirty—two。Abrisk,bright,blue—eyedfellow,averyneatfigureandratherunderthemiddlesize,neveroutofthewayandneverinit,afacethatpleasedeverybodyandthatallchildrentookto,ahabitofgoingaboutsingingascheerilyasablackbird,andaperfectsailor。 WewereinoneofthoseLiverpoolhackney—coachesinlessthanaminute,andwecruisedaboutinherupwardsofthreehours,lookingforJohn。JohnhadcomehomefromVanDiemen’sLandbarelyamonthbefore,andIhadheardofhimastakingafriskinLiverpool。Weaskedafterhim,amongmanyotherplaces,atthetwoboarding—houseshewasfondestof,andwefoundhehadhadaweek’sspellateachofthem;but,hehadgonehereandgonethere,andhadsetoff\"tolayoutonthemain—to’—gallant—yardofthehighestWelshmountain\"(sohehadtoldthepeopleofthehouse),andwherehemightbethen,orwhenhemightcomeback,nobodycouldtellus。Butitwassurprising,tobesure,toseehoweveryfacebrightenedthemomenttherewasmentionmadeofthenameofMr。Steadiman。 Weweretakenabackatmeetingwithnobetterluck,andwehadworeshipandputherheadformyfriends,whenaswewerejoggingthroughthestreets,IclapmyeyesonJohnhimselfcomingoutofatoyshop!Hewascarryingalittleboy,andconductingtwouncommonprettywomentotheircoach,andhetoldmeafterwardsthathehadneverinhislifeseenoneofthethreebefore,butthathewassotakenwiththemonlookinginatthetoyshopwhiletheywerebuyingthechildacrankyNoah’sArk,verymuchdownbythehead,thathehadgoneinandaskedtheladies’permissiontotreathimtoatolerablycorrectCuttertherewasinthewindow,inorderthatsuchahandsomeboymightnotgrowupwithalubberlyideaofnavalarchitecture。 Westoodoffandonuntiltheladies’coachmanbegantogiveway,andthenwehailedJohn。Onhiscomingaboardofus,Itoldhim,verygravely,whatIhadsaidtomyfriend。Itstruckhim,ashesaidhimself,amidships。Hewasquiteshakenbyit。\"CaptainRavender,\"wereJohnSteadiman’swords,\"suchanopinionfromyouistruecommendation,andI’llsailroundtheworldwithyoufortwentyyearsifyouhoistthesignal,andstandbyyouforever!\"AndnowindeedIfeltthatitwasdone,andthattheGoldenMarywasafloat。 GrassnevergrewyetunderthefeetofSmithickandWatersby。Theriggerswereoutofthatshipinafortnight’stime,andwehadbeguntakingincargo。Johnwasalwaysaboard,seeingeverythingstowedwithhisowneyes;andwheneverIwentaboardmyselfearlyorlate,whetherhewasbelowinthehold,orondeckatthehatchway,oroverhaulinghiscabin,nailinguppicturesinitoftheBlushRosesofEngland,theBlueBellesofScotland,andthefemaleShamrockofIreland:ofacertaintyIheardJohnsinginglikeablackbird。 Wehadroomfortwentypassengers。Oursailingadvertisementwasnosoonerout,thanwemighthavetakenthesetwentytimesover。Inenteringourmen,IandJohn(bothtogether)pickedthem,andweenterednonebutgoodhands——asgoodasweretobefoundinthatport。Andso,inagoodshipofthebestbuild,wellowned,wellarranged,wellofficered,wellmanned,wellfoundinallrespects,wepartedwithourpilotataquarterpastfouro’clockintheafternoonoftheseventhofMarch,onethousandeighthundredandfifty—one,andstoodwithafairwindouttosea。 ItmaybeeasilybelievedthatuptothattimeIhadhadnoleisuretobeintimatewithmypassengers。Themostofthemwerethenintheirberthssea—sick;however,ingoingamongthem,tellingthemwhatwasgoodforthem,persuadingthemnottobethere,buttocomeupondeckandfeelthebreeze,andinrousingthemwithajoke,oracomfortableword,Imadeacquaintancewiththem,perhaps,inamorefriendlyandconfidentialwayfromthefirst,thanImighthavedoneatthecabintable。 Ofmypassengers,Ineedonlyparticularise,justatpresent,abright—eyedbloomingyoungwifewhowasgoingouttojoinherhusbandinCalifornia,takingwithhertheironlychild,alittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whomhehadneverseen;asedateyoungwomaninblack,somefiveyearsolder(aboutthirtyasIshouldsay),whowasgoingouttojoinabrother;andanoldgentleman,agooddeallikeahawkifhiseyeshadbeenbetterandnotsored,whowasalwaystalking,morning,noon,andnight,aboutthegolddiscovery。But,whetherhewasmakingthevoyage,thinkinghisoldarmscoulddigforgold,orwhetherhisspeculationwastobuyit,ortobarterforit,ortocheatforit,ortosnatchitanyhowfromotherpeople,washissecret。Hekepthissecret。 Thesethreeandthechildwerethesoonestwell。Thechildwasamostengagingchild,tobesure,andveryfondofme:thoughIamboundtoadmitthatJohnSteadimanandIwereborneonherprettylittlebooksinreverseorder,andthathewascaptainthere,andI wasmate。ItwasbeautifultowatchherwithJohn,anditwasbeautifultowatchJohnwithher。Fewwouldhavethoughtitpossible,toseeJohnplayingatbo—peeproundthemast,thathewasthemanwhohadcaughtupanironbarandstruckaMalayandaMaltesedead,astheywereglidingwiththeirknivesdownthecabinstairaboardthebarqueOldEngland,whenthecaptainlayillinhiscot,offSaugarPoint。Buthewas;andgivehimhisbackagainstabulwark,hewouldhavedonethesamebyhalfadozenofthem。ThenameoftheyoungmotherwasMrs。Atherfield,thenameoftheyoungladyinblackwasMissColeshaw,andthenameoftheoldgentlemanwasMr。Rarx。 Asthechildhadaquantityofshiningfairhair,clusteringincurlsallaboutherface,andashernamewasLucy,SteadimangaveherthenameoftheGoldenLucy。So,wehadtheGoldenLucyandtheGoldenMary;andJohnkeptuptheideatothatextentasheandthechildwentplayingaboutthedecks,thatIbelievesheusedtothinktheshipwasalivesomehow——asisterorcompanion,goingtothesameplaceasherself。Shelikedtobebythewheel,andinfineweather,Ihaveoftenstoodbythemanwhosetrickitwasatthewheel,onlytohearher,sittingnearmyfeet,talkingtotheship。 Neverhadachildsuchadollbefore,Isuppose;butshemadeadolloftheGoldenMary,andusedtodressherupbytyingribbonsandlittlebitsoffinerytothebelaying—pins;andnobodyevermovedthem,unlessitwastosavethemfrombeingblownaway。 OfcourseItookchargeofthetwoyoungwomen,andIcalledthem\"mydear,\"andtheyneverminded,knowingthatwhateverIsaidwassaidinafatherlyandprotectingspirit。Igavethemtheirplacesoneachsideofmeatdinner,Mrs。AtherfieldonmyrightandMissColeshawonmyleft;andIdirectedtheunmarriedladytoserveoutthebreakfast,andthemarriedladytoserveoutthetea。LikewiseIsaidtomyblackstewardintheirpresence,\"TomSnow,thesetwoladiesareequallythemistressesofthishouse,anddoyouobeytheirordersequally;\"atwhichTomlaughed,andtheyalllaughed。 OldMr。Rarxwasnotapleasantmantolookat,noryettotalkto,ortobewith,fornoonecouldhelpseeingthathewasasordidandselfishcharacter,andthathehadwarpedfurtherandfurtheroutofthestraightwithtime。Notbutwhathewasonhisbestbehaviourwithus,aseverybodywas;forwehadnobickeringamongus,for’ardoraft。Ionlymeantosay,hewasnotthemanonewouldhavechosenforamessmate。Ifchoicetherehadbeen,onemightevenhavegoneafewpointsoutofone’scourse,tosay,\"No!Nothim!\" But,therewasonecuriousinconsistencyinMr。Rarx。Thatwas,thathetookanastonishinginterestinthechild。Helooked,andI mayadd,hewas,oneofthelastofmentocareatallforachild,ortocaremuchforanyhumancreature。Still,hewentsofarastobehabituallyuneasy,ifthechildwaslongondeck,outofhissight。Hewasalwaysafraidofherfallingoverboard,orfallingdownahatchway,orofablockorwhatnotcomingdownuponherfromtheriggingintheworkingoftheship,orofhergettingsomehurtorother。Heusedtolookatherandtouchher,asifshewassomethingprecioustohim。Hewasalwayssolicitousabouthernotinjuringherhealth,andconstantlyentreatedhermothertobecarefulofit。Thiswassomuchthemorecurious,becausethechilddidnotlikehim,butusedtoshrinkawayfromhim,andwouldnotevenputoutherhandtohimwithoutcoaxingfromothers。Ibelievethateverysoulonboardfrequentlynoticedthis,andnotoneofusunderstoodit。However,itwassuchaplainfact,thatJohnSteadimansaidmorethanoncewhenoldMr。Rarxwasnotwithinearshot,thatiftheGoldenMaryfeltatendernessforthedearoldgentlemanshecarriedinherlap,shemustbebitterlyjealousoftheGoldenLucy。 BeforeIgoanyfurtherwiththisnarrative,Iwillstatethatourshipwasabarqueofthreehundredtons,carryingacrewofeighteenmen,asecondmateinadditiontoJohn,acarpenter,anarmourerorsmith,andtwoapprentices(oneaScotchboy,poorlittlefellow)。 Wehadthreeboats;theLong—boat,capableofcarryingtwenty—fivemen;theCutter,capableofcarryingfifteen;andtheSurf—boat,capableofcarryingten。Iputdownthecapacityoftheseboatsaccordingtothenumberstheywerereallymeanttohold。 Wehadtastesofbadweatherandhead—winds,ofcourse;but,onthewholewehadasfinearunasanyreasonablemancouldexpect,forsixtydays。Ithenbegantoentertworemarksintheship’sLogandinmyJournal;first,thattherewasanunusualandamazingquantityofice;second,thatthenightsweremostwonderfullydark,inspiteoftheice。 Forfivedaysandahalf,itseemedquiteuselessandhopelesstoaltertheship’scoursesoastostandoutofthewayofthisice。 ImadewhatsouthingIcould;but,allthattime,wewerebesetbyit。Mrs。Atherfieldafterstandingbymeondeckonce,lookingforsometimeinanawedmanneratthegreatbergsthatsurroundedus,saidinawhisper,\"O!CaptainRavender,itlooksasifthewholesolidearthhadchangedintoice,andbrokenup!\"Isaidtoher,laughing,\"Idon’twonderthatitdoes,toyourinexperiencedeyes,mydear。\"ButIhadneverseenatwentiethpartofthequantity,and,inreality,Iwasprettymuchofheropinion。 However,attwop。m。ontheafternoonofthesixthday,thatistosay,whenweweresixty—sixdaysout,JohnSteadimanwhohadgonealoft,sangoutfromthetop,thattheseawasclearahead。Beforefourp。m。astrongbreezespringinguprightastern,wewereinopenwateratsunset。Thebreezethenfresheningintohalfagaleofwind,andtheGoldenMarybeingaveryfastsailer,wewentbeforethewindmerrily,allnight。 Ihadthoughtitimpossiblethatitcouldbedarkerthanithadbeen,untilthesun,moon,andstarsshouldfalloutoftheHeavens,andTimeshouldbedestroyed;but,ithadbeennexttolight,incomparisonwithwhatitwasnow。Thedarknesswassoprofound,thatlookingintoitwaspainfulandoppressive——likelooking,withoutarayoflight,intoadenseblackbandageputasclosebeforetheeyesasitcouldbe,withouttouchingthem。Idoubledthelook—out,andJohnandIstoodinthebowside—by—side,neverleavingitallnight。YetIshouldnomorehaveknownthathewasnearmewhenhewassilent,withoutputtingoutmyarmandtouchinghim,thanI shouldifhehadturnedinandbeenfastasleepbelow。Wewerenotsomuchlookingout,allofus,aslisteningtotheutmost,bothwithoureyesandears。 Nextday,Ifoundthatthemercuryinthebarometer,whichhadrisensteadilysinceweclearedtheice,remainedsteady。Ihadhadverygoodobservations,withnowandthentheinterruptionofadayorso,sinceourdeparture。Igotthesunatnoon,andfoundthatwewereinLat。58degreesS。,Long。60degreesW。,offNewSouthShetland;intheneighbourhoodofCapeHorn。Weweresixty—sevendaysout,thatday。Theship’sreckoningwasaccuratelyworkedandmadeup。Theshipdidherdutyadmirably,allonboardwerewell,andallhandswereassmart,efficient,andcontented,asitwaspossibletobe。 Whenthenightcameonagainasdarkasbefore,itwastheeighthnightIhadbeenondeck。NorhadItakenmorethanaverylittlesleepintheday—time,mystationbeingalwaysnearthehelm,andoftenatit,whilewewereamongtheice。Fewbutthosewhohavetrieditcanimaginethedifficultyandpainofonlykeepingtheeyesopen——physicallyopen——undersuchcircumstances,insuchdarkness。Theygetstruckbythedarkness,andblindedbythedarkness。Theymakepatternsinit,andtheyflashinit,asiftheyhadgoneoutofyourheadtolookatyou。Ontheturnofmidnight,JohnSteadiman,whowasalertandfresh(forIhadalwaysmadehimturninbyday),saidtome,\"CaptainRavender,Ientreatofyoutogobelow。Iamsureyoucanhardlystand,andyourvoiceisgettingweak,sir。Gobelow,andtakealittlerest。I’llcallyouifablockchafes。\"IsaidtoJohninanswer,\"Well,well,John!Letuswaittilltheturnofoneo’clock,beforewetalkaboutthat。\"Ihadjusthadoneoftheship’slanternsheldup,thatImightseehowthenightwentbymywatch,anditwasthentwentyminutesaftertwelve。 Atfiveminutesbeforeone,Johnsangouttotheboytobringthelanternagain,andwhenItoldhimoncemorewhatthetimewas,entreatedandprayedofmetogobelow。\"CaptainRavender,\"sayshe,\"all’swell;wecan’taffordtohaveyoulaidupforasinglehour;andIrespectfullyandearnestlybegofyoutogobelow。\"Theendofitwas,thatIagreedtodoso,ontheunderstandingthatifIfailedtocomeupofmyownaccordwithinthreehours,Iwastobepunctuallycalled。Havingsettledthat,IleftJohnincharge。ButIcalledhimtomeonceafterwards,toaskhimaquestion。Ihadbeentolookatthebarometer,andhadseenthemercurystillperfectlysteady,andhadcomeupthecompanionagaintotakealastlookaboutme——ifIcanusesuchawordinreferencetosuchdarkness——whenIthoughtthatthewaves,astheGoldenMarypartedthemandshookthemoff,hadahollowsoundinthem;somethingthatIfanciedwasaratherunusualreverberation。Iwasstandingbythequarter—deckrailonthestarboardside,whenIcalledJohnafttome,andbadehimlisten。Hedidsowiththegreatestattention。 Turningtomehethensaid,\"Relyuponit,CaptainRavender,youhavebeenwithoutresttoolong,andthenoveltyisonlyinthestateofyoursenseofhearing。\"Ithoughtsotoobythattime,andIthinksonow,thoughIcanneverknowforabsolutecertaininthisworld,whetheritwasornot。 WhenIleftJohnSteadimanincharge,theshipwasstillgoingatagreatratethroughthewater。Thewindstillblewrightastern。 Thoughshewasmakinggreatway,shewasundershortenedsail,andhadnomorethanshecouldeasilycarry。Allwassnug,andnothingcomplained。Therewasaprettysearunning,butnotaveryhighseaneither,noratallaconfusedone。 Iturnedin,asweseamensay,allstanding。Themeaningofthatis,Ididnotpullmyclothesoff——no,notevensomuchasmycoat: thoughIdidmyshoes,formyfeetwerebadlyswelledwiththedeck。 Therewasalittleswing—lampalightinmycabin。Ithought,asI lookedatitbeforeshuttingmyeyes,thatIwassotiredofdarkness,andtroubledbydarkness,thatIcouldhavegonetosleepbestinthemidstofamillionofflaminggas—lights。ThatwasthelastthoughtIhadbeforeIwentoff,excepttheprevailingthoughtthatIshouldnotbeabletogettosleepatall。 IdreamedthatIwasbackatPenrithagain,andwastryingtogetroundthechurch,whichhadaltereditsshapeverymuchsinceIlastsawit,andwasclovenalldownthemiddleofthesteepleinamostsingularmanner。WhyIwantedtogetroundthechurchIdon’tknow; butIwasasanxioustodoitasifmylifedependedonit。Indeed,Ibelieveitdidinthedream。Forallthat,Icouldnotgetroundthechurch。Iwasstilltrying,whenIcameagainstitwithaviolentshock,andwasflungoutofmycotagainsttheship’sside。 Shrieksandaterrificoutcrystruckmefarharderthanthebruisingtimbers,andamidstsoundsofgrindingandcrashing,andaheavyrushingandbreakingofwater——soundsIunderstoodtoowell——Imademywayondeck。Itwasnotaneasythingtodo,fortheshipheeledoverfrightfully,andwasbeatinginafuriousmanner。 IcouldnotseethemenasIwentforward,butIcouldhearthattheywerehaulinginsail,indisorder。Ihadmytrumpetinmyhand,and,afterdirectingandencouragingtheminthistillitwasdone,IhailedfirstJohnSteadiman,andthenmysecondmate,Mr。 WilliamRames。Bothansweredclearlyandsteadily。Now,Ihadpractisedthemandallmycrew,asIhaveevermadeitacustomtopractiseallwhosailwithme,totakecertainstationsandwaitmyorders,incaseofanyunexpectedcrisis。Whenmyvoicewasheardhailing,andtheirvoiceswereheardanswering,Iwasaware,throughallthenoisesoftheshipandsea,andallthecryingofthepassengersbelow,thattherewasapause。\"Areyouready,Rames?\"—— \"Ay,ay,sir!\"——\"Thenlightup,forGod’ssake!\"Inamomentheandanotherwereburningblue—lights,andtheshipandallonboardseemedtobeenclosedinamistoflight,underagreatblackdome。 ThelightshoneupsohighthatIcouldseethehugeIceberguponwhichwehadstruck,clovenatthetopanddownthemiddle,exactlylikePenrithChurchinmydream。AtthesamemomentIcouldseethewatchlastrelieved,crowdingupanddownondeck;IcouldseeMrs。 AtherfieldandMissColeshawthrownaboutonthetopofthecompanionastheystruggledtobringthechildupfrombelow;I couldseethatthemastsweregoingwiththeshockandthebeatingoftheship;Icouldseethefrightfulbreachstoveinonthestarboardside,halfthelengthofthevessel,andthesheathingandtimbersspirtingup;IcouldseethattheCutterwasdisabled,inawreckofbrokenfragments;andIcouldseeeveryeyeturneduponme。 Itismybeliefthatiftherehadbeententhousandeyesthere,I shouldhaveseenthemall,withtheirdifferentlooks。Andallthisinamoment。Butyoumustconsiderwhatamoment。 Isawthemen,astheylookedatme,falltowardstheirappointedstations,likegoodmenandtrue。Ifshehadnotrighted,theycouldhavedoneverylittlethereoranywherebutdie——notthatitislittleforamantodieathispost——Imeantheycouldhavedonenothingtosavethepassengersandthemselves。Happily,however,theviolenceoftheshockwithwhichwehadsodeterminedlybornedowndirectonthatfatalIceberg,asifithadbeenourdestinationinsteadofourdestruction,hadsosmashedandpoundedtheshipthatshegotoffinthissameinstantandrighted。Ididnotwantthecarpentertotellmeshewasfillingandgoingdown;Icouldseeandhearthat。IgaveRamesthewordtolowertheLong—boatandtheSurf—boat,andImyselftoldoffthemenforeachduty。Notonehungback,orcamebeforetheother。InowwhisperedtoJohnSteadiman,\"John,Istandatthegangwayhere,toseeeverysoulonboardsafeovertheside。Youshallhavethenextpostofhonour,andshallbethelastbutonetoleavetheship。Bringupthepassengers,andrangethembehindme;andputwhatprovisionandwateryoucangotat,intheboats。Castyoureyefor’ard,John,andyou’llseeyouhavenotamomenttolose。\" MynoblefellowsgottheboatsoverthesideasorderlyasIeversawboatsloweredwithanysearunning,and,whentheywerelaunched,twoorthreeofthenearestmeninthemastheyheldon,risingandfallingwiththeswell,calledout,lookingupatme,\"CaptainRavender,ifanythinggoeswrongwithus,andyouaresaved,rememberwestoodbyyou!\"——\"We’llallstandbyoneanotherashore,yet,pleaseGod,mylads!\"saysI。\"Holdonbravely,andbetenderwiththewomen。\" Thewomenwereanexampletous。Theytrembledverymuch,buttheywerequietandperfectlycollected。\"Kissme,CaptainRavender,\" saysMrs。Atherfield,\"andGodinheavenblessyou,yougoodman!\" \"Mydear,\"saysI,\"thosewordsarebetterformethanalife—boat。\" Iheldherchildinmyarmstillshewasintheboat,andthenkissedthechildandhandedhersafedown。Inowsaidtothepeopleinher,\"Youhavegotyourfreight,mylads,allbutme,andIamnotcomingyetawhile。Pullawayfromtheship,andkeepoff!\" ThatwastheLong—boat。OldMr。Rarxwasoneofhercomplement,andhewastheonlypassengerwhohadgreatlymisbehavedsincetheshipstruck。Othershadbeenalittlewild,whichwasnottobewonderedat,andnotveryblamable;but,hehadmadealamentationanduproarwhichitwasdangerousforthepeopletohear,asthereisalwayscontagioninweaknessandselfishness。Hisincessantcryhadbeenthathemustnotbeseparatedfromthechild,thathecouldn’tseethechild,andthatheandthechildmustgotogether。Hehadeventriedtowrestthechildoutofmyarms,thathemightkeepherinhis。\"Mr。Rarx,\"saidItohimwhenitcametothat,\"Ihavealoadedpistolinmypocket;andifyoudon’tstandoutofthegang— way,andkeepperfectlyquiet,Ishallshootyouthroughtheheart,ifyouhavegotone。\"Sayshe,\"Youwon’tdomurder,CaptainRavender!\"\"No,sir,\"saysI,\"Iwon’tmurderforty—fourpeopletohumouryou,butI’llshootyoutosavethem。\"Afterthathewasquiet,andstoodshiveringalittlewayoff,untilInamedhimtogoovertheside。 TheLong—boatbeingcastoff,theSurf—boatwassoonfilled。ThereonlyremainedaboardtheGoldenMary,JohnMullionthemanwhohadkeptonburningtheblue—lights(andwhohadlightedeverynewoneateveryoldonebeforeitwentout,asquietlyasifhehadbeenatanillumination);JohnSteadiman;andmyself。IhurriedthosetwointotheSurf—boat,calledtothemtokeepoff,andwaitedwithagratefulandrelievedheartfortheLong—boattocomeandtakemein,ifshecould。Ilookedatmywatch,anditshowedme,bytheblue—light,tenminutespasttwo。Theylostnotime。Assoonasshewasnearenough,Iswungmyselfintoher,andcalledtothemen,\"Withawill,lads!She’sreeling!\"Wewerenotaninchtoofaroutoftheinnervortexofhergoingdown,when,bytheblue—lightwhichJohnMullionstillburntinthebowoftheSurf—boat,wesawherlurch,andplungetothebottomhead—foremost。Thechildcried,weepingwildly,\"OthedearGoldenMary!Olookather!Saveher! SavethepoorGoldenMary!\"Andthenthelightburntout,andtheblackdomeseemedtocomedownuponus。 Isupposeifwehadallstooda—topofamountain,andseenthewholeremainderoftheworldsinkawayfromunderus,wecouldhardlyhavefeltmoreshockedandsolitarythanwedidwhenweknewwewerealoneonthewideocean,andthatthebeautifulshipinwhichmostofushadbeensecurelyasleepwithinhalfanhourwasgoneforever。Therewasanawfulsilenceinourboat,andsuchakindofpalsyontherowersandthemanattherudder,thatIfelttheywerescarcelykeepingherbeforethesea。Ispokeoutthen,andsaid,\"LeteveryoneherethanktheLordforourpreservation!\" Allthevoicesanswered(eventhechild’s),\"WethanktheLord!\"I thensaidtheLord’sPrayer,andallhandssaiditaftermewithasolemnmurmuring。ThenIgavetheword\"Cheerily,Omen,Cheerily!\" andIfeltthattheywerehandlingtheboatagainasaboatoughttobehandled。 TheSurf—boatnowburntanotherblue—lighttoshowuswheretheywere,andwemadeforher,andlaidourselvesasnearlyalongsideofheraswedared。Ihadalwayskeptmyboatswithacoilortwoofgoodstoutstuffineachofthem,sobothboatshadaropeathand。 Wemadeashift,withmuchlabourandtrouble,togotnearenoughtooneanothertodividetheblue—lights(theywerenouseafterthatnight,forthesea—watersoongotatthem),andtogetatow—ropeoutbetweenus。Allnightlongwekepttogether,sometimesobligedtocastofftherope,andsometimesgettingitoutagain,andallofuswearyingforthemorning——whichappearedsolongincomingthatoldMr。Rarxscreamedout,inspiteofhisfearsofme,\"Theworldisdrawingtoanend,andthesunwillneverriseanymore!\" Whenthedaybroke,Ifoundthatwewereallhuddledtogetherinamiserablemanner。Weweredeepinthewater;being,asIfoundonmustering,thirty—oneinnumber,oratleastsixtoomany。IntheSurf—boattheywerefourteeninnumber,beingatleastfourtoomany。ThefirstthingIdid,wastogetmyselfpassedtotherudder——whichItookfromthattime——andtogetMrs。Atherfield,herchild,andMissColeshaw,passedontositnextme。AstooldMr。