第40章

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invariably,andwithoutintendingit-nay,inspiteofapurposeto thecontrary-revertedtothisonedisastroustopic。Triflingasitat firstappeared,itsoconnecteditselfwithinnumerabletrainsof thought,andmodesoffeeling,thatitbecamethecentralpointof all。Withthemorningtwilight,Aylmeropenedhiseyesuponhiswife’s face,andrecognizedthesymbolofimperfection;andwhentheysat togetherattheeveninghearth,hiseyeswanderedstealthilytoher cheek,andbeheld,flickeringwiththeblazeofthewoodfire,the spectralHandthatwrotemortalitywherehewouldfainhave worshipped。Georgianasoonlearnedtoshudderathisgaze。Itneeded butaglance,withthepeculiarexpressionthathisfaceoftenwore, tochangetherosesofhercheekintoadeath-likepaleness,amid whichtheCrimsonHandwasbroughtstronglyout,likeabas-relief ofrubyonthewhitestmarble。 Late,onenight,whenthelightsweregrowingdim,soashardly tobetraythestainonthepoorwife’scheek,sheherself,forthe firsttime,voluntarilytookupthesubject。 “Doyouremember,mydearAylmer。”saidshe,withafeeble attemptatasmile-“haveyouanyrecollectionofadream,lastnight, aboutthisodiousHand?” “None!nonewhatever!”repliedAylmer,starting;butthenhe addedinadry,coldtone,affectedforthesakeofconcealingthe realdepthofhisemotion:“Imightwelldreamofit;for,beforeI fellasleep,ithadtakenaprettyfirmholdofmyfancy。” “Andyoudiddreamofit。”continuedGeorgiana,hastily;forshe dreadedlestagushoftearsshouldinterruptwhatshehadtosay- “Aterribledream!Iwonderthatyoucanforgetit。Isitpossible toforgetthisoneexpression?’Itisinherheartnow-wemusthave itout!’Reflect,myhusband;forbyallmeansIwouldhaveyourecall thatdream。” Themindisinasadstate,whenSleep,theall-involving,cannot confineherspectreswithinthedimregionofhersway,butsuffers themtobreakforth,affrightingthisactuallifewithsecretsthat perchancebelongtoadeeperone。Aylmernowrememberedhisdream。 Hehadfanciedhimself,withhisservantAminadab,attemptingan operationfortheremovalofthebirthmark。Butthedeeperwentthe knife,thedeepersanktheHand,untilatlengthitstinygrasp appearedtohavecaughtholdofGeorgiana’sheart;whence,however, herhusbandwasinexorablyresolvedtocutorwrenchitaway。 Whenthedreamhadshapeditselfperfectlyinhismemory,Aylmer satinhiswife’spresencewithaguiltyfeeling。Truthoftenfinds itswaytothemindclose-muffledinrobesofsleep,andthenspeaks withuncompromisingdirectnessofmattersinregardtowhichwe practiseanunconsciousself-deception,duringourwakingmoments。 Untilnow,hehadnotbeenawareofthetyrannizinginfluenceacquired byoneideaoverhismind,andofthelengthswhichhemightfindin hishearttogo,forthesakeofgivinghimselfpeace。 “Aylmer。”resumedGeorgiana,solemnly,“Iknownotwhatmaybe thecosttobothofus,toridmeofthisfatalbirthmark。Perhapsits removalmaycausecurelessdeformity。Or,itmaybe,thestaingoesas deepaslifeitself。Again,doweknowthatthereisapossibility,on anyterms,ofunclaspingthefirmgripeofthislittleHand,whichwas laiduponmebeforeIcameintotheworld?” “DearestGeorgiana,Ihavespentmuchthoughtuponthesubject。” hastilyinterruptedAylmer-“Iamconvincedoftheperfect practicabilityofitsremoval。” “Iftherebetheremotestpossibilityofit。”continued Georgiana,“lettheattemptbemade,atwhateverrisk。Dangeris nothingtome;forlife-whilethishatefulmarkmakesmetheobject ofyourhorroranddisgust-lifeisaburthenwhichIwouldflingdown withjoy。EitherremovethisdreadfulHand,ortakemywretched life!Youhavedeepscience!Alltheworldbearswitnessofit。You haveachievedgreatwonders!Cannotyouremovethislittle,little mark,whichIcoverwiththetipsoftwosmallfingers!Isthisbeyond yourpower,forthesakeofyourownpeace,andtosaveyourpoorwife frommadness?” “Noblest-dearest-tenderestwife!”criedAylmer,rapturously。 “Doubtnotmypower。Ihavealreadygiventhismatterthedeepest thought-thoughtwhichmightalmosthaveenlightenedmetocreatea beinglessperfectthanyourself。Georgiana,youhaveledmedeeper thaneverintotheheartofscience。Ifeelmyselffullycompetent torenderthisdearcheekasfaultlessasitsfellow;andthen,most beloved,whatwillbemytriumph,whenIshallhavecorrectedwhat Natureleftimperfect,inherfairestwork!EvenPygmalion,whenhis sculpturedwomanassumedlife,feltnotgreaterecstasythanminewill be。” “Itisresolved,then。”saidGeorgiana,faintlysmiling-“And, Aylmer,sparemenot,thoughyoushouldfindthebirthmarktakerefuge inmyheartatlast。” Herhusbandtenderlykissedhercheek-herrightcheek-notthat whichboretheimpressoftheCrimsonHand。 Thenextday,Aylmerapprisedhiswifeofaplanthathehad formed,wherebyhemighthaveopportunityfortheintensethought andconstantwatchfulnesswhichtheproposedoperationwould require;whileGeorgiana,likewise,wouldenjoytheperfectrepose essentialtoitssuccess。Theyweretosecludethemselvesinthe extensiveapartmentsoccupiedbyAylmerasalaboratory,andwhere, duringhistoilsomeyouth,hehadmadediscoveriesintheelemental powersofNature,thathadrousedtheadmirationofallthelearned societiesinEurope。Seatedcalmlyinthislaboratory,thepale philosopherhadinvestigatedthesecretsofthehighest cloud-region,andoftheprofoundestmines;hehadsatisfiedhimself ofthecausesthatkindledandkeptalivethefiresofthevolcano; andhadexplainedthemysteryoffountains,andhowitisthatthey gushforth,somesobrightandpure,andotherswithsuchrich medicinalvirtues,fromthedarkbosomoftheearth。Here,too,at anearlierperiod,hehadstudiedthewondersofthehumanframe, andattemptedtofathomtheveryprocessbywhichNatureassimilates allherpreciousinfluencesfromearthandair,andfromthespiritual world,tocreateandfosterMan,hermasterpiece。Thelatter pursuit,however,Aylmerhadlonglaidaside,inunwillingrecognition ofthetruth,againstwhichallseekerssoonerorlaterstumble, thatourgreatcreativeMother,whilesheamusesuswithapparently workinginthebroadestsunshine,isyetseverelycarefultokeep herownsecrets,and,inspiteofherpretendedopenness,showsus nothingbutresults。Shepermitsusindeedtomar,butseldomtomend, and,likeajealouspatentee,onnoaccounttomake。Now,however, Aylmerresumedthesehalf-forgotteninvestigations;not,ofcourse, withsuchhopesorwishesasfirstsuggestedthem;butbecausethey involvedmuchphysiologicaltruth,andlayinthepathofhisproposed schemeforthetreatmentofGeorgiana。 Asheledheroverthethresholdofthelaboratory,Georgianawas coldandtremulous。Aylmerlookedcheerfullyintoherface,with intenttoreassureher,butwassostartledwiththeintenseglowof thebirthmarkuponthewhitenessofhercheek,thathecouldnot restrainastrongconvulsiveshudder。Hiswifefainted。 “Aminadab!Aminadab!”shoutedAylmer,stampingviolentlyonthe floor。 Forthwith,thereissuedfromaninnerapartmentamanoflow stature,butbulkyframe,withshaggyhairhangingabouthisvisage, whichwasgrimedwiththevaporsofthefurnace。Thispersonagehad beenAylmer’sunder-workerduringhiswholescientificcareer,andwas admirablyfittedforthatofficebyhisgreatmechanicalreadiness, andtheskillwithwhich,whileincapableofcomprehendingasingle principle,heexecutedallthepracticaldetailsofhismaster’s experiments。Withhisvaststrength,hisshaggyhair,hissmoky aspect,andtheindescribableearthinessthatencrustedhim,heseemed torepresentman’sphysicalnature;whileAylmer’sslenderfigure,and pale,intellectualface,werenolessaptatypeofthespiritual element。 “Throwopenthedooroftheboudoir,Aminadab。”saidAylmer,“and burnapastille。” “Yes,master。”answeredAminadab,lookingintentlyatthe lifelessformofGeorgiana;andthenhemutteredtohimself:“Ifshe weremywife,I’dneverpartwiththatbirthmark。” WhenGeorgianarecoveredconsciousness,shefoundherselfbreathing anatmosphereofpenetratingfragrance,thegentlepotencyofwhich hadrecalledherfromherdeath-likefaintness。Thescenearoundher lookedlikeenchantment。Aylmerhadconvertedthosesmoky,dingy, sombrerooms,wherehehadspenthisbrightestyearsinrecondite pursuits,intoaseriesofbeautifulapartments,notunfittobethe secludedabodeofalovelywoman。Thewallswerehungwithgorgeous curtains,whichimpartedthecombinationofgrandeurandgrace,that nootherspeciesofadornmentcanachieve;andastheyfellfromthe ceilingtothefloor,theirrichandponderousfolds,concealingall anglesandstraightlines,appearedtoshutinthescenefrominfinite space。ForaughtGeorgianaknew,itmightbeapavilionamongthe clouds。AndAylmer,excludingthesunshine,whichwouldhave interferedwithhischemicalprocesses,hadsupplieditsplacewith perfumedlamps,emittingflamesofvarioushue,butallunitingina soft,empurpledradiance。Henowkneltbyhiswife’sside,watching herearnestly,butwithoutalarm;forhewasconfidentinhisscience, andfeltthathecoulddrawamagiccircleroundher,withinwhich noevilmightintrude。 “WhereamI?Ah,Iremember!”saidGeorgiana,faintly;andshe placedherhandoverhercheek,tohidetheterriblemarkfromher husband’seyes。 “Fearnot,dearest!”exclaimedhe。“Donotshrinkfromme! Believeme,Georgiana,Ievenrejoiceinthissingleimperfection, sinceitwillbesucharapturetoremoveit。” “Oh,spareme!”sadlyrepliedhiswife。“Praydonotlookatit again。Inevercanforgetthatconvulsiveshudder。” InordertosootheGeorgiana,and,asitwere,toreleaseher mindfromtheburthenofactualthings,Aylmernowputinpractice someofthelightandplayfulsecretswhichsciencehadtaughthim amongitsprofounderlore。Airyfigures,absolutelybodilessideas, andformsofunsubstantialbeauty,cameanddancedbeforeher, imprintingtheirmomentaryfootstepsonbeamsoflight。Thoughshehad someindistinctideaofthemethodoftheseopticalphenomena,still theillusionwasalmostperfectenoughtowarrantthebeliefthat herhusbandpossessedswayoverthespiritualworld。Thenagain, whenshefeltawishtolookforthfromherseclusion,immediately,as ifherthoughtswereanswered,theprocessionofexternalexistence flittedacrossascreen。Thesceneryandthefiguresofactuallife wereperfectlyrepresented,butwiththatbewitching,yet indescribabledifference,whichalwaysmakesapicture,animage,ora shadow,somuchmoreattractivethantheoriginal。Whenweariedof this,Aylmerbadehercasthereyesuponavessel,containinga quantityofearth。Shedidso,withlittleinterestatfirst,but wassoonstartled,toperceivethegermofaplant,shootingupward fromthesoil。Thencametheslenderstalk-theleavesgradually unfoldedthemselves-andamidthemwasaperfectandlovelyflower。 “Itismagical!”criedGeorgiana,“Idarenottouchit。” “Nay,pluckit。”answeredAylmer,“pluckit,andinhaleitsbrief perfumewhileyoumay。Theflowerwillwitherinafewmoments,and leavenothingsaveitsbrownseed-vessels-butthencemaybe perpetuatedaraceasephemeralasitself。” ButGeorgianahadnosoonertouchedtheflowerthanthewholeplant sufferedablight,itsleavesturningcoal-black,asifbythe agencyoffire。