Hetookfrombeneathaglass,apieceofminutemachinery,whichhe
setinthecondensedlightofhislamp,and,lookingintentlyatit
throughamagnifyingglass,proceededtooperatewithadelicate
instrumentofsteel。Inaninstant,however,hefellbackinhis
chair,andclaspedhishands,withalookofhorroronhisface,
thatmadeitssmallfeaturesasimpressiveasthoseofagiantwould
havebeen。
“Heaven!WhathaveIdone!”exclaimedhe。“Thevapor!theinfluence
ofthatbruteforce!ithasbewilderedme,andobscuredmyperception。
Ihavemadetheverystroke-thefatalstroke-thatIhavedreaded
fromthefirst!Itisallover-thetoilofmonths-theobjectofmy
life!Iamruined!”
Andtherehesat,instrangedespair,untilhislampflickeredin
thesocket,andlefttheArtistoftheBeautifulindarkness。
Thusitis,thatideaswhichgrowupwithintheimagination,and
appearsolovelytoit,andofavaluebeyondwhatevermencall
valuable,areexposedtobeshatteredandannihilatedbycontact
withthePractical。Itisrequisitefortheidealartisttopossess
aforceofcharacterthatseemshardlycompatiblewithitsdelicacy;
hemustkeephisfaithinhimself,whiletheincredulousworldassails
himwithitsutterdisbelief;hemuststandupagainstmankindand
behisownsoledisciple,bothasrespectshisgenius,andtheobjects
towhichitisdirected。
Foratime,OwenWarlandsuccumbedtothissevere,butinevitable
test。Hespentafewsluggishweeks,withhisheadsocontinually
restinginhishands,thatthetownspeoplehadscarcelyanopportunity
toseehiscountenance。When,atlast,itwasagainupliftedtothe
lightofday,acold,dull,namelesschangewasperceptibleuponit。
IntheopinionofPeterHovenden,however,andthatorderofsagacious
understandingswhothinkthatlifeshouldberegulated,like
clock-work,withleadenweights,thealterationwasentirelyforthe
better。Owennow,indeed,appliedhimselftobusinesswithdogged
industry。Itwasmarvelloustowitnesstheobtusegravitywithwhich
hewouldinspectthewheelsofagreat,oldsilverwatch;thereby
delightingtheowner,inwhosefobithadbeenworntillhedeemed
itaportionofhisownlife,andwasaccordinglyjealousofits
treatment。Inconsequenceofthegoodreportthusacquired,Owen
Warlandwasinvitedbytheproperauthoritiestoregulatetheclockin
thechurch-steeple。Hesucceededsoadmirablyinthismatterofpublic
interest,thatthemerchantsgrufflyacknowledgedhismeritson
’Change;thenursewhisperedhispraises,asshegavethepotionin
thesick-chamber;theloverblessedhimatthehourofappointed
interview;andthetowningeneralthankedOwenforthepunctualityof
dinner-time。Inaword,theheavyweightuponhisspiritskept
everythinginorder,notmerelywithinhisownsystem,butwheresoever
theironaccentsofthechurch-clockwereaudible。Itwasa
circumstance,thoughminute,yetcharacteristicofhispresent
state,that,whenemployedtoengravenamesorinitialsonsilver
spoons,henowwrotetherequisitelettersintheplainestpossible
style;omittingavarietyoffancifulflourishes,thathad
heretoforedistinguishedhisworkinthiskind。
Oneday,duringtheeraofthishappytransformation,oldPeter
Hovendencametovisithisformerapprentice。
“Well,Owen。”saidhe,Iamgladtohearsuchgoodaccountsof
youfromallquarters;andespeciallyfromthetown-clockyonder,
whichspeaksinyourcommendationeveryhourofthetwenty-four。
OnlygetridaltogetherofyournonsensicaltrashabouttheBeautiful-
whichI,nornobodyelse,noryourselftoboot,couldeverunderstand-
onlyfreeyourselfofthat,andyoursuccessinlifeisassureas
daylight。Why,ifyougooninthisway,Ishouldevenventureto
letyoudoctorthispreciousoldwatchofmine;though,exceptmy
daughterAnnie,Ihavenothingelsesovaluableintheworld。”
“Ishouldhardlydaretouchit,sir。”repliedOweninadepressed
tone;forhewasweigheddownbyhisoldmaster’spresence。
“Intime,saidthelatter,“intime,youwillbecapableofit。”
Theoldwatchmaker,withthefreedomnaturallyconsequentonhis
formerauthority,wentoninspectingtheworkwhichOwenhadinhand
atthemoment,togetherwithothermattersthatwereinprogress。
Theartist,meanwhile,couldscarcelylifthishead。Therewasnothing
soantipodaltohisnatureasthisman’scold,unimaginativesagacity,
bycontactwithwhicheverythingwasconvertedintoadream,except
thedensestmatterofthephysicalworld。Owengroanedinspirit,
andprayedferventlytobedeliveredfromhim。
“Butwhatisthis?”criedPeterHovendenabruptly,takingupa
dustybell-glass,beneathwhichappearedamechanicalsomething,as
delicateandminuteasthesystemofabutterfly’sanatomy。“Whathave
wehere!Owen,Owen!thereiswitchcraftintheselittlechains,and
wheels,andpaddles!See!withonepinchofmyfingerandthumb,I
amgoingtodeliveryoufromallfutureperil。”
“ForHeaven’ssake。”screamedOwenWarland,springingupwith
wonderfulenergy,“asyouwouldnotdrivememad-donottouchit!The
slightestpressureofyourfingerwouldruinmeforever。
“Aha,youngman!Andisitso?”saidtheoldwatchmaker,lookingat
himwithjustenoughofpenetrationtotortureOwen’ssoulwiththe
bitternessofworldlycriticism。“Well;takeyourowncourse。ButI
warnyouagain,thatinthissmallpieceofmechanismlivesyour
evilspirit。ShallIexorcisehim?”
“YouaremyEvilSpirit。”answeredOwen,muchexcited-“you,and
thehard,coarseworld!Theleadenthoughtsandthedespondencythat
youflinguponmearemyclogs。Else,Ishouldlongagohave
achievedthetaskthatIwascreatedfor。”
PeterHovendenshookhishead,withthemixtureofcontemptand
indignationwhichmankind,ofwhomhewaspartlyarepresentative,
deemthemselvesentitledtofeeltowardsallsimpletonswhoseekother
prizesthanthedustyonealongthehighway。Hethentookhisleave
withanupliftedfinger,andasneeruponhisface,thathauntedthe
artist’sdreamsformanyanightafterwards。Atthetimeofhisold
master’svisit,Owenwasprobablyonthepointoftakingupthe
relinquishedtask;but,bythissinisterevent,hewasthrownback
intothestatewhencehehadbeenslowlyemerging。
Buttheinnatetendencyofhissoulhadonlybeenaccumulating
freshvigor,duringitsapparentsluggishness。Asthesummeradvanced,
healmosttotallyrelinquishedhisbusiness,andpermittedFather
Time,sofarastheoldgentlemanwasrepresentedbytheclocksand
watchesunderhiscontrol,tostrayatrandomthroughhumanlife,
makinginfiniteconfusionamongthetrainofbewilderedhours。He
wastedthesunshine,aspeoplesaid,inwanderingthroughthewoods
andfields,andalongthebanksofstreams。There,likeachild,he
foundamusementinchasingbutterflies,orwatchingthemotionsof
water-insects。Therewassomethingtrulymysteriousinthe
intentnesswithwhichhecontemplatedtheselivingplaythings,asthey
sportedonthebreeze;orexaminedthestructureofanimperialinsect
whomhehadimprisoned。Thechaseofbutterflieswasanaptemblem
oftheidealpursuitinwhichhehadspentsomanygoldenhours。
But,wouldtheBeautifulIdeaeverbeyieldedtohishand,likethe
butterflythatsymbolizedit?Sweet,doubtless,werethesedays,and
congenialtotheartist’ssoul。Theywerefullofbright
conceptions,whichgleamedthroughhisintellectualworld,asthe
butterfliesgleamedthroughtheoutwardatmosphere,andwererealto
himfortheinstant,withoutthetoilandperplexity,andmany
disappointments,ofattemptingtomakethemvisibletothesensual
eye。Alas,thattheartist,whetherinpoetryorwhateverother
material,maynotcontenthimselfwiththeinwardenjoymentofthe
Beautiful,butmustchasetheflittingmysterybeyondthevergeofhis
etherealdomain,andcrushitsfrailbeinginseizingitwitha
materialgrasp!OwenWarlandfelttheimpulsetogiveexternalreality
tohisideas,asirresistiblyasanyofthepoetsorpainters,who
havearrayedtheworldinadimmerandfainterbeauty,imperfectly
copiedfromtherichnessoftheirvisions。
Thenightwasnowhistimefortheslowprogressofrecreating
theoneIdea,towhichallhisintellectualactivityreferred
itself。Alwaysattheapproachofdusk,hestoleintothetown,locked
himselfwithinhisshop,andwroughtwithpatientdelicacyoftouch,
formanyhours。Sometimeshewasstartledbytherapofthe
watchman,who,whenalltheworldshouldbeasleep,hadcaughtthe
gleamoflamplightthroughthecrevicesofOwenWarland’sshutters。
Daylight,tothemorbidsensibilityofhismind,seemedtohavean
intrusivenessthatinterferedwithhispursuits。Oncloudyand
inclementdays,therefore,hesatwithhisheaduponhishands,
muffling,asitwere,hissensitivebraininamistofindefinite
musings;foritwasarelieftoescapefromthesharpdistinctness
withwhichhewascompelledtoshapeouthisthoughts,duringhis
nightlytoil。
Fromoneofthesefitsoftorpor,hewasarousedbytheentranceof
AnnieHovenden,whocameintotheshopwiththefreedomofacustomer,
andalsowithsomethingofthefamiliarityofachildishfriend。She
hadwornaholethroughhersilverthimble,andwantedOwento
repairit。
“ButIdon’tknowwhetheryouwillcondescendtosuchatask。”said
she,laughing,“nowthatyouaresotakenupwiththenotionof
puttingspiritintomachinery。”
“Wheredidyougetthatidea,Annie?”saidOwen,startingin
surprise。
“Oh,outofmyownhead。”answeredshe,“andfromsomethingthat
Iheardyousay,longago,whenyouwerebutaboy,andIalittle
child。But,come!willyoumendthispoorthimbleofmine?”
“Anythingforyoursake,Annie。”saidOwenWarland-“anything!even
wereittoworkatRobertDanforth’sforge。”
“Andthatwouldbeaprettysight!”retortedAnnie,glancingwith
imperceptibleslightnessattheartist’ssmallandslenderframe。
“Well;hereisthethimble。”
“Butthatisastrangeideaofyours。”saidOwen,“aboutthe
spiritualizationofmatter!”
Andthenthethoughtstoleintohismind,thatthisyounggirl
possessedthegifttocomprehendhim,betterthanalltheworld
beside。Andwhatahelpandstrengthwoulditbetohim,inhislonely
toil,ifhecouldgainthesympathyoftheonlybeingwhomheloved!
Topersonswhosepursuitsareinsulatedfromthecommonbusinessof
life-whoareeitherinadvanceofmankind,orapartfromit-there
oftencomesasensationofmoralcold,thatmakesthespiritshiver,
asifithadreachedthefrozensolitudesaroundthepole。Whatthe
prophet,thepoet,thereformer,thecriminal,oranyotherman,
withhumanyearnings,butseparatedfromthemultitudebyapeculiar
lot,mightfeel,poorOwenWarlandfelt。
“Annie。”criedhe,growingpaleasdeathatthethought,“how
gladlywouldItellyouthesecretofmypursuit!You,methinks,would
estimateitrightly。You,Iknow,wouldhearitwithareverence
thatImustnotexpectfromtheharsh,materialworld。”
“WouldInot!tobesureIwould!”repliedAnnieHovenden,
lightlylaughing。“Come;explaintomequicklywhatisthemeaning
ofthislittlewhirligig,sodelicatelywroughtthatitmightbea
playthingforQueenMab。See;Iwillputitinmotion。”
“Hold。”exclaimedOwen,hold!”