第36章

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Hetookfrombeneathaglass,apieceofminutemachinery,whichhe setinthecondensedlightofhislamp,and,lookingintentlyatit throughamagnifyingglass,proceededtooperatewithadelicate instrumentofsteel。Inaninstant,however,hefellbackinhis chair,andclaspedhishands,withalookofhorroronhisface, thatmadeitssmallfeaturesasimpressiveasthoseofagiantwould havebeen。 “Heaven!WhathaveIdone!”exclaimedhe。“Thevapor!theinfluence ofthatbruteforce!ithasbewilderedme,andobscuredmyperception。 Ihavemadetheverystroke-thefatalstroke-thatIhavedreaded fromthefirst!Itisallover-thetoilofmonths-theobjectofmy life!Iamruined!” Andtherehesat,instrangedespair,untilhislampflickeredin thesocket,andlefttheArtistoftheBeautifulindarkness。 Thusitis,thatideaswhichgrowupwithintheimagination,and appearsolovelytoit,andofavaluebeyondwhatevermencall valuable,areexposedtobeshatteredandannihilatedbycontact withthePractical。Itisrequisitefortheidealartisttopossess aforceofcharacterthatseemshardlycompatiblewithitsdelicacy; hemustkeephisfaithinhimself,whiletheincredulousworldassails himwithitsutterdisbelief;hemuststandupagainstmankindand behisownsoledisciple,bothasrespectshisgenius,andtheobjects towhichitisdirected。 Foratime,OwenWarlandsuccumbedtothissevere,butinevitable test。Hespentafewsluggishweeks,withhisheadsocontinually restinginhishands,thatthetownspeoplehadscarcelyanopportunity toseehiscountenance。When,atlast,itwasagainupliftedtothe lightofday,acold,dull,namelesschangewasperceptibleuponit。 IntheopinionofPeterHovenden,however,andthatorderofsagacious understandingswhothinkthatlifeshouldberegulated,like clock-work,withleadenweights,thealterationwasentirelyforthe better。Owennow,indeed,appliedhimselftobusinesswithdogged industry。Itwasmarvelloustowitnesstheobtusegravitywithwhich hewouldinspectthewheelsofagreat,oldsilverwatch;thereby delightingtheowner,inwhosefobithadbeenworntillhedeemed itaportionofhisownlife,andwasaccordinglyjealousofits treatment。Inconsequenceofthegoodreportthusacquired,Owen Warlandwasinvitedbytheproperauthoritiestoregulatetheclockin thechurch-steeple。Hesucceededsoadmirablyinthismatterofpublic interest,thatthemerchantsgrufflyacknowledgedhismeritson ’Change;thenursewhisperedhispraises,asshegavethepotionin thesick-chamber;theloverblessedhimatthehourofappointed interview;andthetowningeneralthankedOwenforthepunctualityof dinner-time。Inaword,theheavyweightuponhisspiritskept everythinginorder,notmerelywithinhisownsystem,butwheresoever theironaccentsofthechurch-clockwereaudible。Itwasa circumstance,thoughminute,yetcharacteristicofhispresent state,that,whenemployedtoengravenamesorinitialsonsilver spoons,henowwrotetherequisitelettersintheplainestpossible style;omittingavarietyoffancifulflourishes,thathad heretoforedistinguishedhisworkinthiskind。 Oneday,duringtheeraofthishappytransformation,oldPeter Hovendencametovisithisformerapprentice。 “Well,Owen。”saidhe,Iamgladtohearsuchgoodaccountsof youfromallquarters;andespeciallyfromthetown-clockyonder, whichspeaksinyourcommendationeveryhourofthetwenty-four。 OnlygetridaltogetherofyournonsensicaltrashabouttheBeautiful- whichI,nornobodyelse,noryourselftoboot,couldeverunderstand- onlyfreeyourselfofthat,andyoursuccessinlifeisassureas daylight。Why,ifyougooninthisway,Ishouldevenventureto letyoudoctorthispreciousoldwatchofmine;though,exceptmy daughterAnnie,Ihavenothingelsesovaluableintheworld。” “Ishouldhardlydaretouchit,sir。”repliedOweninadepressed tone;forhewasweigheddownbyhisoldmaster’spresence。 “Intime,saidthelatter,“intime,youwillbecapableofit。” Theoldwatchmaker,withthefreedomnaturallyconsequentonhis formerauthority,wentoninspectingtheworkwhichOwenhadinhand atthemoment,togetherwithothermattersthatwereinprogress。 Theartist,meanwhile,couldscarcelylifthishead。Therewasnothing soantipodaltohisnatureasthisman’scold,unimaginativesagacity, bycontactwithwhicheverythingwasconvertedintoadream,except thedensestmatterofthephysicalworld。Owengroanedinspirit, andprayedferventlytobedeliveredfromhim。 “Butwhatisthis?”criedPeterHovendenabruptly,takingupa dustybell-glass,beneathwhichappearedamechanicalsomething,as delicateandminuteasthesystemofabutterfly’sanatomy。“Whathave wehere!Owen,Owen!thereiswitchcraftintheselittlechains,and wheels,andpaddles!See!withonepinchofmyfingerandthumb,I amgoingtodeliveryoufromallfutureperil。” “ForHeaven’ssake。”screamedOwenWarland,springingupwith wonderfulenergy,“asyouwouldnotdrivememad-donottouchit!The slightestpressureofyourfingerwouldruinmeforever。 “Aha,youngman!Andisitso?”saidtheoldwatchmaker,lookingat himwithjustenoughofpenetrationtotortureOwen’ssoulwiththe bitternessofworldlycriticism。“Well;takeyourowncourse。ButI warnyouagain,thatinthissmallpieceofmechanismlivesyour evilspirit。ShallIexorcisehim?” “YouaremyEvilSpirit。”answeredOwen,muchexcited-“you,and thehard,coarseworld!Theleadenthoughtsandthedespondencythat youflinguponmearemyclogs。Else,Ishouldlongagohave achievedthetaskthatIwascreatedfor。” PeterHovendenshookhishead,withthemixtureofcontemptand indignationwhichmankind,ofwhomhewaspartlyarepresentative, deemthemselvesentitledtofeeltowardsallsimpletonswhoseekother prizesthanthedustyonealongthehighway。Hethentookhisleave withanupliftedfinger,andasneeruponhisface,thathauntedthe artist’sdreamsformanyanightafterwards。Atthetimeofhisold master’svisit,Owenwasprobablyonthepointoftakingupthe relinquishedtask;but,bythissinisterevent,hewasthrownback intothestatewhencehehadbeenslowlyemerging。 Buttheinnatetendencyofhissoulhadonlybeenaccumulating freshvigor,duringitsapparentsluggishness。Asthesummeradvanced, healmosttotallyrelinquishedhisbusiness,andpermittedFather Time,sofarastheoldgentlemanwasrepresentedbytheclocksand watchesunderhiscontrol,tostrayatrandomthroughhumanlife, makinginfiniteconfusionamongthetrainofbewilderedhours。He wastedthesunshine,aspeoplesaid,inwanderingthroughthewoods andfields,andalongthebanksofstreams。There,likeachild,he foundamusementinchasingbutterflies,orwatchingthemotionsof water-insects。Therewassomethingtrulymysteriousinthe intentnesswithwhichhecontemplatedtheselivingplaythings,asthey sportedonthebreeze;orexaminedthestructureofanimperialinsect whomhehadimprisoned。Thechaseofbutterflieswasanaptemblem oftheidealpursuitinwhichhehadspentsomanygoldenhours。 But,wouldtheBeautifulIdeaeverbeyieldedtohishand,likethe butterflythatsymbolizedit?Sweet,doubtless,werethesedays,and congenialtotheartist’ssoul。Theywerefullofbright conceptions,whichgleamedthroughhisintellectualworld,asthe butterfliesgleamedthroughtheoutwardatmosphere,andwererealto himfortheinstant,withoutthetoilandperplexity,andmany disappointments,ofattemptingtomakethemvisibletothesensual eye。Alas,thattheartist,whetherinpoetryorwhateverother material,maynotcontenthimselfwiththeinwardenjoymentofthe Beautiful,butmustchasetheflittingmysterybeyondthevergeofhis etherealdomain,andcrushitsfrailbeinginseizingitwitha materialgrasp!OwenWarlandfelttheimpulsetogiveexternalreality tohisideas,asirresistiblyasanyofthepoetsorpainters,who havearrayedtheworldinadimmerandfainterbeauty,imperfectly copiedfromtherichnessoftheirvisions。 Thenightwasnowhistimefortheslowprogressofrecreating theoneIdea,towhichallhisintellectualactivityreferred itself。Alwaysattheapproachofdusk,hestoleintothetown,locked himselfwithinhisshop,andwroughtwithpatientdelicacyoftouch, formanyhours。Sometimeshewasstartledbytherapofthe watchman,who,whenalltheworldshouldbeasleep,hadcaughtthe gleamoflamplightthroughthecrevicesofOwenWarland’sshutters。 Daylight,tothemorbidsensibilityofhismind,seemedtohavean intrusivenessthatinterferedwithhispursuits。Oncloudyand inclementdays,therefore,hesatwithhisheaduponhishands, muffling,asitwere,hissensitivebraininamistofindefinite musings;foritwasarelieftoescapefromthesharpdistinctness withwhichhewascompelledtoshapeouthisthoughts,duringhis nightlytoil。 Fromoneofthesefitsoftorpor,hewasarousedbytheentranceof AnnieHovenden,whocameintotheshopwiththefreedomofacustomer, andalsowithsomethingofthefamiliarityofachildishfriend。She hadwornaholethroughhersilverthimble,andwantedOwento repairit。 “ButIdon’tknowwhetheryouwillcondescendtosuchatask。”said she,laughing,“nowthatyouaresotakenupwiththenotionof puttingspiritintomachinery。” “Wheredidyougetthatidea,Annie?”saidOwen,startingin surprise。 “Oh,outofmyownhead。”answeredshe,“andfromsomethingthat Iheardyousay,longago,whenyouwerebutaboy,andIalittle child。But,come!willyoumendthispoorthimbleofmine?” “Anythingforyoursake,Annie。”saidOwenWarland-“anything!even wereittoworkatRobertDanforth’sforge。” “Andthatwouldbeaprettysight!”retortedAnnie,glancingwith imperceptibleslightnessattheartist’ssmallandslenderframe。 “Well;hereisthethimble。” “Butthatisastrangeideaofyours。”saidOwen,“aboutthe spiritualizationofmatter!” Andthenthethoughtstoleintohismind,thatthisyounggirl possessedthegifttocomprehendhim,betterthanalltheworld beside。Andwhatahelpandstrengthwoulditbetohim,inhislonely toil,ifhecouldgainthesympathyoftheonlybeingwhomheloved! Topersonswhosepursuitsareinsulatedfromthecommonbusinessof life-whoareeitherinadvanceofmankind,orapartfromit-there oftencomesasensationofmoralcold,thatmakesthespiritshiver, asifithadreachedthefrozensolitudesaroundthepole。Whatthe prophet,thepoet,thereformer,thecriminal,oranyotherman, withhumanyearnings,butseparatedfromthemultitudebyapeculiar lot,mightfeel,poorOwenWarlandfelt。 “Annie。”criedhe,growingpaleasdeathatthethought,“how gladlywouldItellyouthesecretofmypursuit!You,methinks,would estimateitrightly。You,Iknow,wouldhearitwithareverence thatImustnotexpectfromtheharsh,materialworld。” “WouldInot!tobesureIwould!”repliedAnnieHovenden, lightlylaughing。“Come;explaintomequicklywhatisthemeaning ofthislittlewhirligig,sodelicatelywroughtthatitmightbea playthingforQueenMab。See;Iwillputitinmotion。” “Hold。”exclaimedOwen,hold!”