第9章

类别:其他 作者:George MacDonald字数:18406更新时间:18/12/21 16:58:57
Afterthishesaidnothingforawhile,andIlaidmyselfonthefloorofhisgarret,andstaredupandaroundatthegreatbluebeautifulness。 Ihadforgottenhimalmost,whenatlasthesaid:`Ain’tyoudoneyet?’ `Donewhat?’Iasked。`Donesayingyourprayers,’sayshe。 ’Iwasn’tsayingmyprayers,’Ianswered。`Oh,yes,youwere,’ saidhe,`thoughyoudidn’tknowit!AndnowImustshowyousomethingelse。’ “Hetookmyhandandledmedownthestairagain,andthroughanarrowpassage,andthroughanother,andanother,andanother。 Idon’tknowhowtherecouldberoomforsomanypassagesinsuchalittlehouse。Theheartofitmustbeeversomuchfartherfromthesidesthantheyarefromeachother。Howcouldithaveaninsidethatwassoindependentofitsoutside?There’sthepoint。 Itwasfunny——wasn’tit,Diamond?” “No。”saidDiamond。Hewasgoingtosaythatthatwasverymuchthesortofthingatthebackofthenorthwind;buthecheckedhimselfandonlyadded,“Allright。Idon’tseeit。Idon’tseewhytheinsideshoulddependontheoutside。Itain’tsowiththecrabs。Theycreepoutoftheiroutsidesandmakenewones。 Mr。Raymondtoldmeso。” “Idon’tseewhatthathasgottodowithit。”saidNanny。 “Thengoonwithyourstory,please。”saidDiamond。“Whatdidyoucometo,aftergoingthroughallthosewindingpassagesintotheheartofthemoon?” “Ididn’tsaytheywerewindingpassages。Isaidtheywerelongandnarrow。Theydidn’twind。Theywentbycorners。” “That’sworthknowing。”remarkedDiamond。“Forwhoknowshowsoonhemayhavetogothere?Butthemainthingis,whatdidyoucometoatlast?” “Wecametoasmallboxagainstthewallofatinyroom。 Thelittlemantoldmetoputmyearagainstit。Ididso,andheardanoisesomethinglikethepurringofacat,onlynotsoloud,andmuchsweeter。`Whatisit?’Iasked。`Don’tyouknowthesound?’returnedthelittleman。`No,’Ianswered。 `Don’tyouknowthesoundofbees?’hesaid。Ihadneverheardbees,andcouldnotknowthesoundofthem。`Thosearemylady’sbees,’ hewenton。Ihadheardthatbeesgatherhoneyfromtheflowers。 `Butwherearetheflowersforthem?’Iasked。`Mylady’sbeesgathertheirhoneyfromthesunandthestars,’saidthelittleman。 `Doletmeseethem,’Isaid。`No。Idaren’tdothat,’heanswered。 `Ihavenobusinesswiththem。Idon’tunderstandthem。 Besides,theyaresobrightthatifoneweretoflyintoyoureye,itwouldblindyoualtogether。’`Thenyouhaveseenthem?’ `Oh,yes!Onceortwice,Ithink。ButIdon’tquiteknow: theyaresoverybright——likebuttonsoflightning。NowI’veshowedyouallIcanto-night,andwe’llgobacktotheroom。’ Ifollowedhim,andhemademesitdownunderalampthathungfromtheroof,andgavemesomebreadandhoney。 “Theladyhadnevermoved。Shesatwithherforeheadleaningonherhand,gazingoutofthelittlewindow,hungliketherestwithwhitecloudycurtains。FromwhereIwassittingIlookedoutofittoo,butIcouldseenothing。Herfacewasverybeautiful,andverywhite,andverystill,andherhandwasaswhiteastheforeheadthatleanedonit。Ididnotseeherwholeface—— onlythesideofit,forshenevermovedtoturnitfulluponme,oreventolookatme。 “HowlongIsatafterIhadeatenmybreadandhoney,Idon’tknow。 Thelittlemanwasbusyabouttheroom,pullingastringhere,andastringthere,butchieflythestringatthebackofthedoor。 Iwasthinkingwithsomeuneasinessthathewouldsoonbewantingmetogooutandcleanthewindows,andIdidn’tfancythejob。 Atlasthecameuptomewithagreatarmfulofdusters。`It’stimeyousetaboutthewindows,’hesaid;`forthere’sraincoming,andifthey’requitecleanbefore,thentheraincan’tspoilthem。’ Igotupatonce。`Youneedn’tbeafraid,’hesaid。`Youwon’ttumbleoff。Onlyyoumustbecareful。Alwaysholdonwithonehandwhileyourubwiththeother。’Ashespoke,heopenedthedoor。 Istartedbackinaterriblefright,fortherewasnothingbutblueairtobeseenunderme,likeagreatwaterwithoutabottomatall。 Butwhatmustbemust,andtoliveupherewassomuchnicerthandowninthemudwithholesinmyshoes,thatIneverthoughtofnotdoingasIwastold。ThelittlemanshowedmehowandwheretolayholdwhileIputmyfootroundtheedgeofthedoorontothefirstroundofaladder。`Onceyou’reup,’hesaid,`you’llseehowyouhavetogowellenough。’Ididashetoldme,andcreptoutverycarefully。Thenthelittlemanhandedmethebundleofdusters,saying,`Ialwayscarrythemonmyreapinghook,butIdon’tthinkyoucouldmanageitproperly。Youshallhaveitifyoulike。’Iwouldn’ttakeit,however,foritlookeddangerous。 “IdidthebestIcouldwiththedusters,andcrawleduptothetopofthemoon。Butwhatagrandsightitwas!Thestarswereallovermyhead,sobrightandsonearthatIcouldalmosthavelaidholdofthem。TheroundballtowhichIclungwentbobbingandfloatingawaythroughthedarkblueaboveandbelowandoneveryside。Itwassobeautifulthatallfearleftme,andIsettoworkdiligently。Icleanedwindowafterwindow。 AtlengthIcametoaverylittleone,inatwhichIpeeped。 Therewastheroomwiththeboxofbeesinit!Ilaidmyeartothewindow,andheardthemusicalhumquitedistinctly。 Agreatlongingtoseethemcameuponme,andIopenedthewindowandcreptin。Thelittleboxhadadoorlikeacloset。Iopenedit—— thetiniestcrack——whenoutcamethelightwithsuchastingthatI closeditagaininterror——not,however,beforethreebeeshadshotoutintotheroom,wheretheydartedaboutlikeflashesoflightning。 Terriblyfrightened,Itriedtogetoutofthewindowagain,butI couldnot:therewasnowaytotheoutsideofthemoonbutthroughthedoor;andthatwasintheroomwheretheladysat。NosoonerhadIreachedtheroom,thanthethreebees,whichhadfollowedme,flewatoncetothelady,andsettleduponherhair。ThenfirstIsawhermove。Shestarted,putupherhand,andcaughtthem; thenroseand,havingheldthemintotheflameofthelamponeaftertheother,turnedtome。Herfacewasnotsosadnowasstern。 Itfrightenedmemuch。`Nanny,youhavegotmeintotrouble,’ shesaid。`Youhavebeenlettingoutmybees,whichitisallIcandotomanage。Youhaveforcedmetoburnthem。Itisagreatloss,andtherewillbeastorm。’Asshespoke,thecloudshadgatheredallaboutus。Icouldseethemcomecrowdingupwhiteaboutthewindows。`Iamsorrytofind,’saidthelady,`thatyouarenottobetrusted。Youmustgohomeagain——youwon’tdoforus。’ Thencameagreatclapofthunder,andthemoonrockedandswayed。 Allgrewdarkaboutme,andIfellonthefloorandlayhalf-stunned。 Icouldheareverythingbutcouldseenothing。`ShallIthrowheroutofthedoor,mylady?’saidthelittleman。`No,’sheanswered; `she’snotquitebadenoughforthat。Idon’tthinkthere’smuchharminher;onlyshe’llneverdoforus。Shewouldmakedreadfulmischiefuphere。She’sonlyfitforthemud。It’sagreatpity。 Iamsorryforher。Justtakethatringoffherfinger。Iamsadlyafraidshehasstolenit。’Thelittlemancaughtholdofmyhand,andIfelthimtuggingatthering。Itriedtospeakwhatwastrueaboutit,but,afteraterribleeffort,onlygaveagroan。 Otherthingsbegantocomeintomyhead。Somebodyelsehadaholdofme。Thelittlemanwasn’tthere。Iopenedmyeyesatlast,andsawthenurse。Ihadcriedoutinmysleep,andshehadcomeandwakedme。But,Diamond,forallitwasonlyadream,Icannothelpbeingashamedofmyselfyetforopeningthelady’sboxofbees。” “Youwoudn’tdoitagain——wouldyou——ifsheweretotakeyouback?” saidDiamond。 “No。Idon’tthinkanythingwouldevermakemedoitagain。 Butwhere’sthegood?Ishallneverhavethechance。” “Idon’tknowthat。”saidDiamond。 “Yousillybaby!Itwasonlyadream。”saidNanny。 “Iknowthat,Nanny,dear。Buthowcanyoutellyoumayn’tdreamitagain?” “That’snotabitlikely。” “Idon’tknowthat。”saidDiamond。 “You’realwayssayingthat。”saidNanny。“Idon’tlikeit。” “ThenIwon’tsayitagain——ifIdon’tforget。”saidDiamond。 “Butitwassuchabeautifuldream!——wasn’tit,Nanny?Whatapityyouopenedthatdoorandletthebeesout!Youmighthavehadsuchalongdream,andsuchnicetalkswiththemoon-lady。Dotrytogoagain,Nanny。Idosowanttohearmore。” Butnowthenursecameandtoldhimitwastimetogo;andDiamondwent,sayingtohimself,“Ican’thelpthinkingthatNorthWindhadsomethingtodowiththatdream。Itwouldbetiresometolietherealldayandallnighttoo——withoutdreaming。Perhapsifshehadn’tdonethat,themoonmighthavecarriedhertothebackofthenorthwind—— whoknows?” CHAPTERXXXI THENORTHWINDDOTHBLOW ITWASagreatdelighttoDiamondwhenatlengthNannywaswellenoughtoleavethehospitalandgohometotheirhouse。Shewasnotverystrongyet,butDiamond’smotherwasveryconsiderateofher,andtookcarethatsheshouldhavenothingtodoshewasnotquitefitfor。IfNannyhadbeentakenstraightfromthestreet,itisveryprobableshewouldnothavebeensopleasantinadecenthousehold,orsoeasytoteach;butaftertherefininginfluencesofherillnessandthekindtreatmentshehadhadinthehospital,shemovedaboutthehousejustlikesomerathersadpleasurehauntingthemind。 Asshegotbetter,andthecolourcamebacktohercheeks,herstepgrewlighterandquicker,hersmileshoneoutmorereadily,anditbecamecertainthatshewouldsoonbeatreasureofhelp。 ItwasgreatfuntoseeDiamondteachingherhowtoholdthebaby,andwashanddresshim,andoftentheylaughedtogetheroverherawkwardness。ButshehadnotmanysuchlessonsbeforeshewasabletoperformthosedutiesquiteaswellasDiamondhimself。 ThingshoweverdidnotgowellwithJosephfromtheveryarrivalofRuby。 Italmostseemedasiftheredbeasthadbroughtillluckwithhim。 Thefareswerefewer,andthepayless。Ruby’sservicesdidindeedmaketheweek’sincomeatfirstalittlebeyondwhatitusedtobe,butthenthereweretwomoretofeed。Afterthefirstmonthhefelllame,andforthewholeofthenextJosephdarednotattempttoworkhim。 Icannotsaythathenevergrumbled,forhisownhealthwasfarfromwhatithadbeen;butIcansaythathetriedtodohisbest。 Duringallthatmonth,theylivedonveryshortcommonsindeed,seldomtastingmeatexceptonSundays,andpooroldDiamond,whoworkedhardestofall,noteventhen——sothatattheendofithewasasthinasaclothes-horse,whileRubywasasplumpandsleekasabishop’scob。 NorwasitmuchbetterafterRubywasabletoworkagain,foritwasaseasonofgreatdepressioninbusiness,andthatisverysoonfeltamongstthecabmen。Citymenlookmoreaftertheirshillings,andtheirwivesanddaughtershavelesstospend。Itwasbesidesawetautumn,andbreadrosegreatlyinprice。WhenIaddtothisthatDiamond’smotherwasbutpoorly,foranewbabywascoming,youwillseethatthesewerenotveryjollytimesforourfriendsinthemews。 Notwithstandingthedepressinginfluencesaroundhim,Josephwasabletokeepalittlehopealiveinhisheart;andwhenhecamehomeatnight,wouldgetDiamondtoreadtohim,andwouldalsomakeNannyproduceherbookthathemightseehowshewasgettingon。 ForDiamondhadtakenhereducationinhand,andasshewasacleverchild,shewasverysoonabletoputlettersandwordstogether。 Thusthethreemonthspassedaway,butMr。Raymonddidnotreturn。 Josephhadbeenlookinganxiouslyforhim,chieflywiththedesireofgettingridofRuby——notthathewasabsolutelyofnousetohim,butthathewasaconstantweightuponhismind。Indeed,asfarasprovisionwent,hewasratherworseoffwithRubyandNannythanhehadbeenbefore,butontheotherhand,Nannywasagreathelpinthehouse,anditwasacomforttohimtothinkthatwhenthenewbabydidcome,Nannywouldbewithhiswife。 OfGod’sgiftsababyisofthegreatest;thereforeitisnowonderthatwhenthisonecame,shewasasheartilywelcomedbythelittlehouseholdasifshehadbroughtplentywithher。 Ofcourseshemadeagreatdifferenceintheworktobedone—— farmoredifferencethanhersizewarranted,butNannywasnoendofhelp,andDiamondwasasmuchofasunbeamasever,andbegantosingtothenewbabythefirstmomenthegotherinhisarms。 Buthedidnotsingthesamesongstoherthathehadsungtohisbrother,for,hesaid,shewasanewbabyandmusthavenewsongs; andbesides,shewasasister-babyandnotabrother-baby,andofcoursewouldnotlikethesamekindofsongs。Wherethedifferenceinhissongslay,however,Idonotpretendtobeabletopointout。 OnethingIamsureof,thattheynotonlyhadnosmallshareintheeducationofthelittlegirl,buthelpedthewholefamilyagreatdealmorethantheywereaware。 Howtheymanagedtogetthroughthelongdrearyexpensivewinter,Icanhardlysay。Sometimesthingswerebetter,sometimesworse。 Butatlastthespringcame,andthewinterwasoverandgone,andthatwasmuch。Still,Mr。Raymonddidnotreturn,andalthoughthemotherwouldhavebeenabletomanagewithoutNannynow,theycouldnotlookforaplaceforhersolongastheyhadRuby; andtheywerenotaltogethersorryforthis。Oneweekatlastwasworsethantheyhadyethad。Theywerealmostwithoutbreadbeforeitwasover。Butthesadderhesawhisfatherandmotherlooking,themoreDiamondsethimselftosingtothetwobabies。 OnethingwhichhadincreasedtheirexpenseswasthattheyhadbeenforcedtohireanotherlittleroomforNanny。Whenthesecondbabycame,DiamondgaveuphisroomthatNannymightbeathandtohelphismother,andwenttohers,which,althoughafineplacetowhatshehadbeenaccustomedto,wasnotveryniceinhiseyes。 Hedidnotmindthechangethough,forwasnothismotherthemorecomfortableforit?AndwasnotNannymorecomfortabletoo? AndindeedwasnotDiamondhimselfmorecomfortablethatotherpeopleweremorecomfortable?Andiftherewasmorecomforteveryway,thechangewasahappyone。 CHAPTERXXXII DIAMONDANDRUBY ITWASFridaynight,andDiamond,liketherestofthehousehold,hadhadverylittletoeatthatday。Themotherwouldalwayspaytheweek’srentbeforeshelaidoutanythingevenonfood。Hisfatherhadbeenverygloomy——sogloomythathehadactuallybeencrosstohiswife。Itisastrangethinghowpainofseeingthesufferingofthosewelovewillsometimesmakeusaddtotheirsufferingbybeingcrosswiththem。ThiscomesofnothavingfaithenoughinGod,andshowshownecessarythisfaithis,forwhenweloseit,weloseeventhekindnesswhichalonecansoothethesuffering。 Diamondinconsequencehadgonetobedveryquietandthoughtful—— alittletroubledindeed。 Ithadbeenaverystormywinter。andevennowthatthespringhadcome,thenorthwindoftenblew。WhenDiamondwenttohisbed,whichwasinatinyroomintheroof,hehearditliketheseamoaning;andwhenhefellasleephestillheardthemoaning。 Allatoncehesaidtohimself,“AmIawake,oramIasleep?” Buthehadnotimetoanswerthequestion,fortherewasNorthWindcallinghim。Hisheartbeatveryfast,itwassuchalongtimesincehehadheardthatvoice。Hejumpedoutofbed,andlookedeverywhere,butcouldnotseeher。“Diamond,comehere。” shesaidagainandagain;butwheretheherewashecouldnottell。 Tobesuretheroomwasallbutquitedark,andshemightbeclosebesidehim。 “DearNorthWind。”saidDiamond,“Iwantsomuchtogotoyou,butIcan’ttellwhere。” “Comehere,Diamond。”wasallheranswer。 Diamondopenedthedoor,andwentoutoftheroom,anddownthestairandintotheyard。Hislittleheartwasinaflutter,forhehadlonggivenupallthoughtofseeingheragain。Neithernowwashetoseeher。Whenhegotout,agreatpuffofwindcameagainsthim,andinobediencetoitheturnedhisback,andwentasitblew。 Itblewhimrightuptothestable-door,andwentonblowing。 “Shewantsmetogointothestable。”saidDiamondtohimself。 “butthedoorislocked。” Heknewwherethekeywas,inacertainholeinthewall——fartoohighforhimtogetat。Herantotheplace,however:justashereachedittherecameawildblast,anddownfellthekeyclangingonthestonesathisfeet。Hepickeditup,andranbackandopenedthestable-door,andwentin。Andwhatdoyouthinkhesaw? Alittlelightcamethroughthedustywindowfromagas-lamp,sufficienttoshowhimDiamondandRubywiththeirtwoheadsup,lookingateachotheracrossthepartitionoftheirstalls。ThelightshowedthewhitemarkonDiamond’sforehead,butRuby’seyeshonesobright,thathethoughtmorelightcameoutofitthanwentin。 Thisiswhathesaw。 Butwhatdoyouthinkheheard? Heheardthetwohorsestalkingtoeachother——inastrangelanguage,whichyet,somehoworother,hecouldunderstand,andturnoverinhismindinEnglish。ThefirstwordsheheardwerefromDiamond,whoapparentlyhadbeenalreadyquarrellingwithRuby。 “LookhowfatyouareRuby!“saidoldDiamond。“Youaresoplumpandyourskinshinesso,yououghttobeashamedofyourself。” “There’snoharminbeingfat。”saidRubyinadeprecatingtone。 “No,norinbeingsleek。Imayaswellshineasnot。” “Noharm?”retortedDiamond。“Isitnoharmtogoeatingupallpoormaster’soats,andtakingupsomuchofhistimegroomingyou,whenyouonlyworksixhours——no,notsixhoursaday,and,asIhear,getalongnofasterthanabigdray-horsewithtwotonsbehindhim?—— Sotheytellme。” “Yourmaster’snotmine。”saidRuby。“Imustattendtomyownmaster’sinterests,andeatallthatisgivenme,andbesleekandfatasIcan,andgonofasterthanIneed。” “Nowreallyiftherestofthehorsesweren’tallasleep,poorthings—— theyworktillthey’retired——Idobelievetheywouldgetupandkickyououtofthestable。Youmakemeashamedofbeingahorse。 Youdaretosaymymasterain’tyourmaster!That’syourgratitudeforthewayhefeedsyouandsparesyou!Praywherewouldyourcarcassbeifitweren’tforhim?” “Hedoesn’tdoitformysake。IfIwerehisownhorse,hewouldworkmeashardashedoesyou。” “AndI’mproudtobesoworked。Iwouldn’tbeasfatasyou—— notforallyou’reworth。You’readisgracetothestable。Lookatthehorsenextyou。He’ssomethinglikeahorse——allskinandbone。 Andhismasterain’toverkindtohimeither。Heputastinginglashonhiswhiplastweek。Butthatoldhorseknowshe’sgotthewifeandchildrentokeep——aswellashisdrunkenmaster——andheworkslikeahorse。Idaresayhegrudgeshismasterthebeerhedrinks,butIdon’tbelievehegrudgesanythingelse。” “Well,Idon’tgrudgeyourswhathegetsbyme。”saidRuby。 “Gets!“retortedDiamond。“Whathegetsisn’tworthgrudging。 Itcomestonexttonothing——whatwithyourfatandshine。 “Well,atleastyououghttobethankfulyou’rethebetterforit。 Yougetatwohours’restadayoutofit。” “Ithankmymasterforthat——notyou,youlazyfellow!Yougoalonglikeabuttockofbeefuponcastors——youdo。” “Ain’tyouafraidI’llkick,ifyougoonlikethat,Diamond?” “Kick!Youcouldn’tkickifyoutried。Youmightheaveyourrumpuphalfafoot,butforlashingout——oho!Ifyoudid,you’dbedownonyourbellybeforeyoucouldgetyourlegsunderyouagain。 It’smybelief,onceout,they’dstickoutforever。Talkofkicking! Whydon’tyouputonefootbeforetheothernowandthenwhenyou’reinthecab?Theabusemastergetsforyoursakeisquiteshameful。 Nodecenthorsewouldbringitonhim。Dependuponit,Ruby,nocabmanlikestobeabusedanymorethanhisfare。Buthisfares,atleastwhenyouarebetweentheshafts,areverymuchtobeexcused。 Indeedtheyare。” “Well,yousee,Diamond,Idon’twanttogolameagain。” “Idon’tbelieveyouweresoverylameafterall——there!“ “Oh,butIwas。” “ThenIbelieveitwasallyourownfault。I’mnotlame。 Ineverwaslameinallmylife。Youdon’ttakecareofyourlegs。 Youneverlaythemdownatnight。Thereyouarewithyourhugecarcasscrushingdownyourpoorlegsallnightlong。Youdon’tevencareforyourownlegs——solongasyoucaneat,eat,andsleep,sleep。 Youahorseindeed!“ “ButItellyouIwaslame。” “I’mnotdenyingtherewasapuffylookaboutyouroff-pastern。 Butmybeliefis,itwasn’tevengrease——itwasfat。” “ItellyouIputmyfootononeofthosehorridstonestheymaketheroadswith,anditgavemyanklesuchatwist。” “Ankleindeed!Whyshouldyouapeyourbetters?Horsesain’tgotanyankles:they’reonlypasterns。Andsolongasyoudon’tliftyourfeetbetter,butfallasleepbetweeneverystep,you’llrunagoodchanceoflamingallyouranklesasyoucallthem,oneafteranother。It’snotyourlivelyhorsethatcomestogriefinthatway。ItellyouIbelieveitwasn’tmuch,andifitwas,itwasyourownfault。There!I’vedone。I’mgoingtosleep。 I’lltrytothinkaswellofyouasIcan。Ifyouwouldbutstepoutabitandrunoffalittleofyourfat!“HereDiamondbegantodoubleuphisknees;butRubyspokeagain,and,asyoungDiamondthought,inaratherdifferenttone。 “Isay,Diamond,Ican’tbeartohaveanhonestoldhorselikeyouthinkofmelikethat。Iwilltellyouthetruth:itwasmyownfaultthatIfelllame。” “Itoldyouso。”returnedtheother,tumblingagainstthepartitionasherolledoveronhissidetogivehislegseverypossibleprivilegeintheirnarrowcircumstances。 “Imeanttodoit,Diamond。” Atthewords,theoldhorsearosewithascramblelikethunder,shothisangryheadandglaringeyeoverintoRuby’sstall,andsaid—— “Keepoutofmyway,youunworthywretch,orI’llbiteyou。 Youahorse!Whydidyoudothat?” “BecauseIwantedtogrowfat。” “Yougrease-tub!Oh!myteethandtail!Ithoughtyouwereahumbug! Whydidyouwanttogetfat?There’snotruthtobegotoutofyoubutbycross-questioning。Youain’tfittobeahorse。” “BecauseonceIamfat,mynatureistokeepfatforalongtime; andIdidn’tknowwhenmastermightcomehomeandwanttoseeme。” “Youconceited,good-for-nothingbrute!You’reonlyfitfortheknacker’syard。Youwantedtolookhandsome,didyou?Holdyourtongue,orI’llbreakmyhalterandbeatyou——withyourhandsomefat!“ “Nevermind,Diamond。You’reagoodhorse。Youcan’thurtme。” “Can’thurtyou!Justletmeoncetry。” “No,youcan’t。” “Whythen?” “BecauseI’manangel。” “What’sthat?” “Ofcourseyoudon’tknow。” “IndeedIdon’t。” “Iknowyoudon’t。Anignorant,rudeoldhumanhorse,likeyou,couldn’tknowit。Butthere’syoungDiamondlisteningtoallwe’resaying;andheknowswellenoughtherearehorsesinheavenforangelstorideupon,aswellasotheranimals,lionsandeaglesandbulls,inmoreimportantsituations。Thehorsestheangelsride,mustbeangel-horses,elsetheangelscouldn’trideuponthem。 Well,I’moneofthem。” “Youain’t。” “Didyoueverknowahorsetellalie?” “Neverbefore。Butyou’veconfessedtoshamminglame。” “Nothingofthesort。ItwasnecessaryIshouldgrowfat,andnecessarythatgoodJoseph,yourmaster,shouldgrowlean。 Icouldhavepretendedtobelame,butthatnohorse,leastofallanangel-horsewoulddo。SoImustbelame,andsoIsprainedmyankle—— fortheangel-horseshaveankles——theydon’ttalkhorse-slangupthere—— andithurtmeverymuch,Iassureyou,Diamond,thoughyoumayn’tbegoodenoughtobeabletobelieveit。” OldDiamondmadenoreply。Hehadlaindownagain,andasleepysnort,verylikeasnore,revealedthat,ifhewasnotalreadyasleep,hewaspastunderstandingawordthatRubywassaying。WhenyoungDiamondfoundthis,hethoughthemightventuretotakeupthedroptshuttlecockoftheconversation。 “I’mgoodenoughtobelieveit,Ruby。”hesaid。 ButRubyneverturnedhishead,ortookanynoticeofhim。 IsupposehedidnotunderstandmoreofEnglishthanjustwhatthecoachmanandstablemanwereinthehabitofaddressinghimwith。Finding,however,thathiscompanionmadenoreply,heshothisheadoverthepartitionandlookingdownathimsaid—— “Youjustwaittillto-morrow,andyou’llseewhetherI’mspeakingthetruthornot——Ideclaretheoldhorseisfastasleep!—— Diamond!——NoIwon’t。” Rubyturnedaway,andbeganpullingathishayrackinsilence。 Diamondgaveashiver,andlookingroundsawthatthedoorofthestablewasopen。Hebegantofeelasifhehadbeendreaming,andafteraglanceaboutthestabletoseeifNorthWindwasanywherevisible,hethoughthehadbettergobacktobed。 CHAPTERXXXIII THEPROSPECTBRIGHTENS THEnextmorning,Diamond’smothersaidtohisfather,“I’mnotquitecomfortableaboutthatchildagain。” “Whichchild,Martha?”askedJoseph。“You’vegotachoicenow。” “Well,DiamondImean。I’mafraidhe’sgettingintohisqueerwaysagain。He’sbeenathisoldtrickofwalkinginhissleep。 Isawhimrunupthestairinthemiddleofthenight。” “Didn’tyougoafterhim,wife?” “OfcourseIdid——andfoundhimfastasleepinhisbed。It’sbecausehe’shadsolittlemeatforthelastsixweeks,I’mafraid。” “Itmaybethat。I’mverysorry。Butifitdon’tpleaseGodtosendusenough,whatamItodo,wife?” “Youcan’thelpit,Iknow,mydeargoodman。”returnedMartha。 “AndafterallIdon’tknow。Idon’tseewhyheshouldn’tgetonaswellastherestofus。ThereI’mnursingbabyallthistime,andIgetalongprettywell。I’msure,tohearthelittlemansinging,youwouldn’tthinktherewasmuchamisswithhim。” ForatthatmomentDiamondwassinginglikealarkintheclouds。 Hehadthenewbabyinhisarms,whilehismotherwasdressingherself。 Josephwassittingathisbreakfast——alittleweaktea,drybread,andverydubiousbutter——whichNannyhadsetforhim,andwhichhewasenjoyingbecausehewashungry。Hehadgroomedbothhorses,andhadgotoldDiamondharnessedreadytoputto。 “Thinkofafatangel,Dulcimer!“saidDiamond。 Thebabyhadnotbeenchristenedyet,butDiamond,inreadinghisBible,hadcomeupontheworddulcimer,andthoughtitsoprettythateverafterhecalledhissisterDulcimer! “Thinkofared,fatangel,Dulcimer!“herepeated;“forRuby’sanangelofahorse,Dulcimer。Hesprainedhisankleandgotfatonpurpose。” “Whatpurpose,Diamond?”askedhisfather。 “Ah!thatIcan’ttell。Isupposetolookhandsomewhenhismastercomes。”answeredDiamond——“Whatdoyouthink,Dulcimer? Itmustbeforsomegood,forRuby’sanangel。” “IwishIwereridofhim,anyhow。”saidhisfather;“forheweighsheavyonmymind。” “Nowonder,father:he’ssofat。”saidDiamond。“Butyouneedn’tbeafraid,foreverybodysayshe’sinbetterconditionthanwhenyouhadhim。” “Yes,buthemaybeasthinasatinhorsebeforehisownercomes。 Itwastoobadtoleavehimonmyhandsthisway。” “Perhapshecouldn’thelpit。”suggestedDiamond。“Idaresayhehassomegoodreasonforit。” “SoIshouldhavesaid。”returnedhisfather,“ifhehadnotdrivensuchahardbargainwithmeatfirst。” “Butwedon’tknowwhatmaycomeofityet,husband。”saidhiswife。 “Mr。Raymondmaygivealittletoboot,seeingyou’vehadmoreofthebargainthanyouwantedorreckonedupon。” “I’mafraidnot:he’sahardman。”saidJoseph,asheroseandwenttogethiscabout。 Diamondresumedhissinging。Forsometimehecarolledsnatchesofeverythingoranything;butatlastitsettleddownintosomethinglikewhatfollows。Icannottellwhereorhowhegotit。 Wheredidyoucomefrom,babydear? Outoftheeverywhereintohere。 Wheredidyougetyoureyessoblue? OutoftheskyasIcamethrough。 Whatmakesthelightinthemsparkleandspin? Someofthestarryspikesleftin。 Wheredidyougetthatlittletear? IfounditwaitingwhenIgothere。 Whatmakesyourforeheadsosmoothandhigh? AsofthandstrokeditasIwentby。 Whatmakesyourcheeklikeawarmwhiterose? Isawsomethingbetterthananyoneknows。 Whencethatthree-corneredsmileofbliss? Threeangelsgavemeatonceakiss。 Wheredidyougetthispearlyear? Godspoke,anditcameouttohear。 Wheredidyougetthosearmsandhands? Lovemadeitselfintohooksandbands。 Feet,whencedidyoucome,youdarlingthings? Fromthesameboxasthecherubs’wings。 Howdidtheyalljustcometobeyou? Godthoughtaboutme,andsoIgrew。 Buthowdidyoucometous,youdear? Godthoughtaboutyou,andsoIamhere。 “Younevermadethatsong,Diamond。”saidhismother。 “No,mother。IwishIhad。No,Idon’t。Thatwouldbetotakeitfromsomebodyelse。Butit’smineforallthat。” “Whatmakesityours?” “Iloveitso。” “Doeslovingathingmakeityours?” “Ithinkso,mother——atleastmorethananythingelsecan。IfIdidn’tlovebaby(whichcouldn’tbe,youknow)shewouldn’tbemineabit。 ButIdolovebaby,andbabyismyveryownDulcimer。” “Thebaby’smine,Diamond。” “Thatmakesherthemoremine,mother。” “Howdoyoumakethatout?” “Becauseyou’remine,mother。” “Isthatbecauseyouloveme?” “Yes,justbecause。Lovemakestheonlymyness。”saidDiamond。 Whenhisfathercamehometohavehisdinner,andchangeDiamondforRuby,theysawhimlookverysad,andhetoldthemhehadnothadafareworthmentioningthewholemorning。 “Weshallallhavetogototheworkhouse,wife。”hesaid。 “Itwouldbebettertogotothebackofthenorthwind。” saidDiamond,dreamily,notintendingtosayitaloud。 “Soitwould。”answeredhisfather。“Buthowarewetogetthere,Diamond?” “Wemustwaittillwe’retaken。”returnedDiamond。 Beforehisfathercouldspeakagain,aknockcametothedoor,andinwalkedMr。Raymondwithasmileonhisface。Josephgotupandreceivedhimrespectfully,butnotverycordially。Marthasetachairforhim,buthewouldnotsitdown。 “Youarenotverygladtoseeme。”hesaidtoJoseph。“Youdon’twanttopartwiththeoldhorse。” “Indeed,sir,youaremistakenthere。Whatwithanxietyabouthim,andbadluck,I’vewishedIwereridofhimathousandtimes。 Itwasonlytobeforthreemonths,andhereit’seightornine。” “I’msorrytohearsuchastatement。”saidMr。Raymond。“Hasn’thebeenofservicetoyou?” “Notmuch,notwithhislameness“ “Ah!“saidMr。Raymond,hastily——“you’vebeenlaminghim——haveyou? Thataccountsforit。Isee,Isee。” “Itwasn’tmyfault,andhe’sallrightnow。Idon’tknowhowithappened,but“ “Hediditonpurpose。”saidDiamond。“Heputhisfootonastonejusttotwisthisankle。” “Howdoyouknowthat,Diamond?”saidhisfather,turningtohim。 “Ineversaidso,forIcouldnotthinkhowitcame。” “Iheardit——inthestable。”answeredDiamond。 “Let’shavealookathim。”saidMr。Raymond。 “Ifyou’llstepintotheyard。”saidJoseph,“I’llbringhimout。” Theywent,andJoseph,havingfirsttakenoffhisharness,walkedRubyintothemiddleoftheyard。 “Why。”saidMr。Raymond,“you’venotbeenusinghimwell。” “Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbythat,sir。Ididn’texpecttohearthatfromyou。He’ssoundinwindandlimb——assoundasabarrel。” “Andasbig,youmightadd。Why,he’sasfatasapig!Youdon’tcallthatgoodusage!“ Josephwastooangrytomakeanyanswer。 “You’venotworkedhimenough,Isay。That’snotmakinggooduseofhim。That’snotdoingasyou’dbedoneby。” “Ishouldn’tbesorryifIwasservedthesame,sir。” “He’stoofat,Isay。” “TherewasawholemonthIcouldn’tworkhimatall,andhedidnothingbuteathisheadoff。He’sanawfuleater。I’vetakenthebestpartofsixhoursadayoutofhimsince,butI’malwaysafraidofhiscomingtogriefagain,andsoIcouldn’tmakethemostevenofthat。Ideclaretoyou,sir,whenhe’sbetweentheshafts,IsitontheboxasmiserableasifI’dstolenhim。Helooksallthetimeasifhewasabottlingupofcomplaintstomakeofmetheminuteheseteyesonyouagain。There!lookathimnow,squintingroundatmewithoneeye!Ideclaretoyou,onmyword,Ihaven’tlaidthewhiponhimmorethanthreetimes。” “I’mgladtohearit。Heneverdidwantthewhip。” “Ididn’tsaythat,sir。Ifeverahorsewantedthewhip,hedo。 He’sbroughtmetobeggaryalmostwithhissnail’space。I’mverygladyou’vecometoridmeofhim。” “Idon’tknowthat。”saidMr。Raymond。“SupposeIweretoaskyoutobuyhimofme——cheap。” “Iwouldn’thavehiminapresent,sir。Idon’tlikehim。 AndIwouldn’tdriveahorsethatIdidn’tlike——no,notforgold。 Itcan’tcometogoodwherethere’snolovebetween’em。” “Justbringoutyourownhorse,andletmeseewhatsortofapairthey’dmake。” JosephlaughedratherbitterlyashewenttofetchDiamond。 Whenthetwowereplacedsidebyside,Mr。Raymondcouldhardlykeephiscountenance,butfromaminglingoffeelings。 Besidethegreat,red,roundbarrel,Ruby,allbodyandnolegs,Diamondlookedlikeaclothes-horsewithaskinthrownoverit。 Therewashardlyaspotofhimwhereyoucouldnotdescrysomesignofaboneunderneath。Gauntandgrimandwearyhestood,kissinghismaster,andheedingnooneelse。 “Youhaven’tbeenusinghimwell。”saidMr。Raymond。 “Imustsay。”returnedJoseph,throwinganarmroundhishorse’sneck,“thattheremarkhadbetterhavebeenspared,sir。Thehorseisworththreeoftheothernow。” “Idon’tthinkso。Ithinktheymakeaverynicepair。 Iftheone’stoofat,theother’stoolean——sothat’sallright。 Andifyouwon’tbuymyRuby,ImustbuyyourDiamond。” “Thankyou,sir。”saidJoseph,inatoneimplyinganythingbutthanks。 “Youdon’tseemtoliketheproposal。”saidMr。Raymond。 “Idon’t。”returnedJoseph。“Iwouldn’tpartwithmyoldDiamondforhisskinasfullofnuggetsasitisofbones。” “Whosaidanythingaboutpartingwithhim?” “Youdidnow,sir。” “No;Ididn’t。IonlyspokeofbuyinghimtomakeapairwithRuby。 WecouldpareRubyandpatchDiamondabit。Andforheight,theyareasnearamatchasIcareabout。Ofcourseyouwouldbethecoachman—— ifonlyyouwouldconsenttobereconciledtoRuby。” Josephstoodbewildered,unabletoanswer。 “I’veboughtasmallplaceinKent。”continuedMr。Raymond,“andI musthaveapairtomycarriage,fortheroadsarehillythereabouts。 Idon’twanttomakeashowwithapairofhigh-steppers。Ithinkthesewilljustdo。Suppose,foraweekortwo,yousetyourselftotakeRubydownandbringDiamondup。IfwecouldonlylayapipefromRuby’ssidesintoDiamond’s,itwouldbetheworkofamoment。 ButIfearthatwouldn’tanswer。” AstronginclinationtolaughintrudeduponJoseph’sinclinationtocry,andmadespeechstillharderthanbefore。 “Ibegyourpardon,sir。”hesaidatlength。“I’vebeensomiserable,andforsolong,thatIneverthoughtyouwasonlyachaffingofmewhenyousaidIhadn’tusedthehorseswell。Ididgrumbleatyou,sir,many’sthetimeinmytrouble;butwheneverIsaidanything,mylittleDiamondwouldlookatmewithasmile,asmuchastosay: “Iknowhimbetterthanyou,father;“anduponmyword,Ialwaysthoughttheboymustberight。” “WillyousellmeoldDiamond,then?” “Iwill,sir,ononecondition——thatifeveryouwanttopartwithhimorme,yougivemetheoptionofbuyinghim。Icouldnotpartwithhim,sir。Astowhocallshimhis,that’snothing; for,asDiamondsays,it’sonlylovingathingthatcanmakeityours—— andIdoloveoldDiamond,sir,dearly。” “Well,there’sachequefortwentypounds,whichIwrotetoofferyouforhim,incaseIshouldfindyouhaddonethehandsomethingbyRuby。Willthatbeenough?” “It’stoomuch,sir。Hisbodyain’tworthit——shoesandall。 It’sonlyhisheart,sir——that’sworthmillions——buthisheart’llbemineallthesame——soit’stoomuch,sir。” “Idon’tthinkso。Itwon’tbe,atleast,bythetimewe’vegothimfedupagain。Youtakeitandwelcome。Justgoonwithyourcabbingforanothermonth,onlytakeitoutofRubyandletDiamondrest; andbythattimeIshallbereadyforyoutogodownintothecountry。” “Thankyou,sir。thankyou。Diamondsetyoudownforafriend,sir,themomenthesawyou。Idobelievethatchildofmineknowsmorethanotherpeople。” “Ithinkso,too。”saidMr。Raymondashewalkedaway。 HehadmeanttotestJosephwhenhemadethebargainaboutRuby,buthadnointentionofsogreatlyprolongingthetrial。HehadbeentakenillinSwitzerland,andhadbeenquiteunabletoreturnsooner。 Hewentawaynowhighlygratifiedatfindingthathehadstoodthetest,andwasatrueman。 Josephrushedintohiswifewhohadbeenstandingatthewindowanxiouslywaitingtheresultofthelongcolloquy。Whensheheardthatthehorsesweretogotogetherindoubleharness,sheburstforthintoanimmoderatefitoflaughter。Diamondcameupwiththebabyinhisarmsandmadebiganxiouseyesather,saying—— “Whatisthematterwithyou,motherdear?Docryalittle。 Itwilldoyougood。Whenfathertakeseversosmalladropofspirits,heputswatertoit。” “Yousillydarling!“saidhismother;“howcouldIbutlaughatthenotionofthatgreatfatRubygoingsidebysidewithourpooroldDiamond?” “Butwhynot,mother?Withamonth’soats,andnothingtodo,Diamond’llbenearerRuby’ssizethanyouwillfather’s。Ithinkit’sverygoodfordifferentsortstogotogether。NowRubywillhaveachanceofteachingDiamondbettermanners。” “Howdareyousaysuchathing,Diamond?”saidhisfather,angrily。 “Tocomparethetwoformanners,there’snocomparisonpossible。 OurDiamond’sagentleman。” “Idon’tmeantosayheisn’t,father;forIdaresaysomegentlemenjudgetheirneighboursunjustly。That’sallImean。 Diamondshouldn’thavethoughtsuchbadthingsofRuby。Hedidn’ttrytomakethebestofhim。” “Howdoyouknowthat,pray?” “Iheardthemtalkingaboutitonenight。” “Who?” “WhyDiamondandRuby。Ruby’sanangel。” Josephstaredandsaidnomore。Forallhisnewgladness,hewasverygloomyashere-harnessedtheangel,forhethoughthisdarlingDiamondwasgoingoutofhismind。 Hecouldnothelpthinkingratherdifferently,however,whenhefoundthechangethathadcomeoverRuby。Consideringhisfat,heexertedhimselfamazingly,andgotoverthegroundwithincrediblespeed。 Sowilling,evenanxious,washetogonow,thatJosephhadtoholdhimquitetight。 Thenashelaughedathisownfancies,anewfearcameuponhimlestthehorseshouldbreakhiswind,andMr。Raymondhavegoodcausetothinkhehadnotbeenusinghimwell。Hemightevensupposethathehadtakenadvantageofhisnewinstructions,toletoutuponthehorsesomeofhispent-updislike;whereasintruth,ithadsoutterlyvanishedthathefeltasifRuby,too,hadbeenhisfriendallthetime。 CHAPTERXXXIV INTHECOUNTRY BEFOREtheendofthemonth,Rubyhadgotrespectablythin,andDiamondrespectablystout。Theyreallybegantolookfitfordoubleharness。 Josephandhiswifegottheiraffairsinorder,andeverythingreadyformigratingattheshortestnotice;andtheyfeltsopeacefulandhappythattheyjudgedallthetroubletheyhadgonethroughwellworthenduring。AsforNanny,shehadbeensohappyeversincesheleftthehospital,thatsheexpectednothingbetter,andsawnothingattractiveinthenotionofthecountry。 Atthesametime,shehadnottheleastideaofwhatthewordcountrymeant,forshehadneverseenanythingaboutherbutstreetsandgas-lamps。Besides,shewasmoreattachedtoJimthantoDiamond: Jimwasareasonablebeing,Diamondinhereyesatbestonlyanamiable,over-grownbaby,whomnoamountofexpostulationwouldeverbringtotalksense,nottosaythinkit。Nowthatshecouldmanagethebabyaswellashe,shejudgedherselfaltogetherhissuperior。 Towardshisfatherandmother,shewasalltheycouldwish。 DiamondhadtakenagreatdealofpainsandtroubletofindJim,andhadatlastsucceededthroughthehelpofthetallpoliceman,whowasgladtorenewhisacquaintancewiththestrangechild。 Jimhadmovedhisquarters,andhadnotheardofNanny’sillnesstillsometimeaftershewastakentothehospital,wherehewastooshytogoandinquireabouther。ButwhenatlengthshewenttolivewithDiamond’sfamily,Jimwaswillingenoughtogoandseeher。 Itwasafteroneofhisvisits,duringwhichtheyhadbeentalkingofhernewprospects,thatNannyexpressedtoDiamondheropinionofthecountry。 “Thereain’tnothinginitbutthesunandmoon,Diamond。” “There’streesandflowers。”saidDiamond。 “Well,theyain’tnocount。”returnedNanny。 “Ain’tthey?They’resobeautiful,theymakeyouhappytolookatthem。” “That’sbecauseyou’resuchasilly。” Diamondsmiledwithafar-awaylook,asifheweregazingthroughcloudsofgreenleavesandthevisioncontentedhim。 ButhewasthinkingwithhimselfwhatmorehecoulddoforNanny; andthatsameeveninghewenttofindMr。Raymond,forhehadheardthathehadreturnedtotown。 “Ah!howdoyoudo,Diamond?”saidMr。Raymond;“Iamgladtoseeyou。” Andhewasindeed,forhehadgrownveryfondofhim。HisopinionofhimwasverydifferentfromNanny’s。 “Whatdoyouwantnow,mychild?”heasked。 “I’malwayswantingsomething,sir。”answeredDiamond。 “Well,that’squiteright,solongaswhatyouwantisright。 Everybodyisalwayswantingsomething;onlywedon’tmentionitintherightplaceoftenenough。Whatisitnow?” “There’safriendofNanny’s,alameboy,calledJim。” “I’veheardofhim。”saidMr。Raymond。“Well?” “Nannydoesn’tcaremuchaboutgoingtothecountry,sir。” “Well,whathasthattodowithJim?” “Youcouldn’tfindacornerforJimtoworkin——couldyou,sir?” “Idon’tknowthatIcouldn’t。Thatis,ifyoucanshowgoodreasonforit。” “He’sagoodboy,sir。” “Well,somuchthebetterforhim。” “Iknowhecanshineboots,sir。” “Somuchthebetterforus。” “Youwantyourbootsshinedinthecountry——don’tyou,sir?” “Yes,tobesure。” “Itwouldn’tbenicetowalkovertheflowerswithdirtyboots—— wouldit,sir?” “No,indeed。” “Theywouldn’tlikeit——wouldthey?” “No,theywouldn’t。” “ThenNannywouldbebetterpleasedtogo,sir。” “Iftheflowersdidn’tlikedirtybootstowalkoverthem,Nannywouldn’tmindgoingtothecountry?Isthatit?Idon’tquiteseeit。” “No,sir;Ididn’tmeanthat。Imeant,ifyouwouldtakeJimwithyoutocleanyourboots,anddooddjobs,youknow,sir,thenNannywouldlikeitbetter。She’ssofondofJim!“ “Nowyoucometothepoint,Diamond。Iseewhatyoumean,exactly。 Iwillturnitoverinmymind。CouldyoubringJimtoseeme?” “I’lltry,sir。Buttheydon’tmindmemuch。TheythinkI’msilly。” addedDiamond,withoneofhissweetestsmiles。