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类别:其他 作者:George MacDonald字数:20910更新时间:18/12/21 16:58:57
CHAPTERX ATTHEBACKOFTHENORTHWIND IHAVEnowcometothemostdifficultpartofmystory。Andwhy? BecauseIdonotknowenoughaboutit。AndwhyshouldInotknowasmuchaboutthispartasaboutanyotherpart?ForofcourseIcouldknownothingaboutthestoryexceptDiamondhadtoldit; andwhyshouldnotDiamondtellaboutthecountryatthebackofthenorthwind,aswellasabouthisadventuresingettingthere? Because,whenhecameback,hehadforgottenagreatdeal,andwhathedidrememberwasveryhardtotell。Thingstherearesodifferentfromthingshere!Thepeopletheredonotspeakthesamelanguageforonething。Indeed,Diamondinsistedthattheretheydonotspeakatall。Idonotthinkhewasright,butitmaywellhaveappearedsotoDiamond。Thefactis,wehavedifferentreportsoftheplacefromthemosttrustworthypeople。 Thereforeweareboundtobelievethatitappearssomewhatdifferenttodifferentpeople。All,however,agreeinageneralwayaboutit。 Iwilltellyousomethingofwhattwoverydifferentpeoplehavereported,bothofwhomknewmoreaboutit,Ibelieve,thanHerodotus。 Oneofthemspeaksfromhisownexperience,forhevisitedthecountry; theotherfromthetestimonyofayoungpeasantgirlwhocamebackfromitforamonth’svisittoherfriends。TheformerwasagreatItalianofnoblefamily,whodiedmorethanfivehundredyearsago; thelatteraScotchshepherdwhodiednotfortyyearsago。 TheItalian,then,informsusthathehadtoenterthatcountrythroughafiresohotthathewouldhavethrownhimselfintoboilingglasstocoolhimself。ThiswasnotDiamond’sexperience,butthenDurante——thatwasthenameoftheItalian,anditmeansLasting,forhisbookswilllastaslongasthereareenoughmenintheworldworthyofhavingthem——Durantewasanelderlyman,andDiamondwasalittleboy,andsotheirexperiencemustbealittledifferent。 Thepeasantgirl,ontheotherhand,fellfastasleepinawood,andwokeinthesamecountry。 Indescribingit,Durantesaysthatthegroundeverywheresmeltsweetly,andthatagentle,even-temperedwind,whichneverblewfasterorslower,breathedinhisfaceashewent,makingalltheleavespointoneway,notsoastodisturbthebirdsinthetopsofthetrees,but,onthecontrary,soundingabasstotheirsong。 Hedescribesalsoalittleriverwhichwassofullthatitslittlewaves,asithurriedalong,bentthegrass,fullofredandyellowflowers,throughwhichitflowed。Hesaysthatthepureststreamintheworldbesidethisonewouldlookasifitweremixedwithsomethingthatdidnotbelongtoit,evenalthoughitwasflowingeverinthebrownshadowofthetrees,andneithersunnormooncouldshineuponit。 HeseemstoimplythatitisalwaysthemonthofMayinthatcountry。 Itwouldbeoutofplacetodescribeherethewonderfulsightshesaw,forthemusicofthemisinanotherkeyfromthatofthisstory,andIshallthereforeonlyaddfromtheaccountofthistraveller,thatthepeopletherearesofreeandsojustandsohealthy,thateveryoneofthemhasacrownlikeakingandamitrelikeapriest。 Thepeasantgirl——Kilmenywashername——couldnotreportsuchgrandthingsasDurante,for,astheshepherdsays,tellingherstoryasItellDiamond’s—— “Kilmenyhadbeensheknewnotwhere,AndKilmenyhadseenwhatshecouldnotdeclare; Kilmenyhadbeenwherethecocknevercrew,Wheretherainneverfell,andthewindneverblew。 Butitseemedastheharpoftheskyhadrung,Andtheairsofheavenplayedroundhertongue,Whenshespokeofthelovelyformsshehadseen,Andalandwheresinhadneverbeen; Alandofloveandalandoflight,Withoutensun,ormoon,ornight; Wheretheriverswayedalivingstream,Andthelightapureandcloudlessbeam: Thelandofvisionitwouldseem,Andstillaneverlastingdream。” Thelasttwolinesaretheshepherd’sownremark,andamatterofopinion。Butitisclear,Ithink,thatKilmenymusthavedescribedthesamecountryasDurantesaw,though,nothavinghisexperience,shecouldneitherunderstandnordescribeitsowell。 NowImustgiveyousuchfragmentsofrecollectionasDiamondwasabletobringbackwithhim。 Whenhecametohimselfafterhefell,hefoundhimselfatthebackofthenorthwind。NorthWindherselfwasnowheretobeseen。 Neitherwasthereavestigeofsnoworoficewithinsight。 Thesuntoohadvanished;butthatwasnomatter,fortherewasplentyofacertainstillraylesslight。Whereitcamefromheneverfoundout;buthethoughtitbelongedtothecountryitself。 Sometimeshethoughtitcameoutoftheflowers,whichwereverybright,buthadnostrongcolour。Hesaidtheriver——forallagreethatthereisariverthere——flowednotonlythrough,butovergrass:itschannel,insteadofbeingrock,stones,pebbles,sand,oranythingelse,wasofpuremeadowgrass,notoverlong。Heinsistedthatifitdidnotsingtunesinpeople’sears,itsungtunesintheirheads,inproofofwhichImaymentionthat,inthetroubleswhichfollowed,Diamondwasoftenheardsinging;andwhenaskedwhathewassinging,wouldanswer,“Oneofthetunestheriveratthebackofthenorthwindsung。”AndImayaswellsayatoncethatDiamondnevertoldthesethingstoanyonebut——no,Ihadbetternotsaywhoitwas; butwhoeveritwastoldme,andIthoughtitwouldbewelltowritethemformychild-readers。 Hecouldnotsayhewasveryhappythere,forhehadneitherhisfathernormotherwithhim,buthefeltsostillandquietandpatientandcontented,that,asfarasthemerefeelingwent,itwassomethingbetterthanmerehappiness。Nothingwentwrongatthebackofthenorthwind。Neitherwasanythingquiteright,hethought。Onlyeverythingwasgoingtoberightsomeday。 HisaccountdisagreedwiththatofDurante,andagreedwiththatofKilmeny,inthis,thatheprotestedtherewasnowindthereatall。 Ifancyhemissedit。Atalleventswecouldnotdowithoutwind。 Italldependsonhowbigourlungsarewhetherthewindistoostrongforusornot。 Whenthepersonhetoldaboutitaskedhimwhetherhesawanybodyheknewthere,heanswered,“Onlyalittlegirlbelongingtothegardener,whothoughthehadlosther,butwasquitemistaken,forthereshewassafeenough,andwastocomebacksomeday,asIcameback,iftheywouldonlywait。” “Didyoutalktoher,Diamond?” “No。Nobodytalksthere。Theyonlylookateachother,andunderstandeverything。” “Isitcoldthere?” “No。” “Isithot?” “No。” “Whatisitthen?” “Youneverthinkaboutsuchthingsthere。” “Whataqueerplaceitmustbe!“ “It’saverygoodplace。” “Doyouwanttogobackagain?” “No;Idon’tthinkIhaveleftit;Ifeelithere,somewhere。” “Didthepeopletherelookpleased?” “Yes——quitepleased,onlyalittlesad。” “Thentheydidn’tlookglad?” “Theylookedasiftheywerewaitingtobegladdersomeday。” ThiswashowDiamondusedtoanswerquestionsaboutthatcountry。 AndnowIwilltakeupthestoryagain,andtellyouhowhegotbacktothiscountry。 CHAPTERXI HOWDIAMONDGOTHOMEAGAIN WHENoneatthebackofthenorthwindwantedtoknowhowthingsweregoingwithanyoneheloved,hehadtogotoacertaintree,climbthestem,andsitdowninthebranches。Inafewminutes,ifhekeptverystill,hewouldseesomethingatleastofwhatwasgoingonwiththepeopleheloved。 OnedaywhenDiamondwassittinginthistree,hebegantolongverymuchtogethomeagain,andnowonder,forhesawhismothercrying。 Durantesaysthatthepeopletheremayalwaysfollowtheirwishes,becausetheyneverwishbutwhatisgood。Diamond’swishwastogethome,andhewouldfainfollowhiswish。 Buthowwashetosetaboutit?IfhecouldonlyseeNorthWind! Butthemomenthehadgottoherback,shewasgonealtogetherfromhissight。Hehadneverseenherback。Shemightbesittingonherdoorstepstill,lookingsouthwards,andwaiting,whiteandthinandblue-eyed,untilshewaswanted。Orshemighthaveagainbecomeamightycreature,withpowertodothatwhichwasdemandedofher,andgonefarawayuponmanymissions。Shemustbesomewhere,however。 Hecouldnotgohomewithouther,andthereforehemustfindher。 Shecouldneverhaveintendedtoleavehimalwaysawayfromhismother。 Iftherehadbeenanydangerofthat,shewouldhavetoldhim,andgivenhimhischoiceaboutgoing。ForNorthWindwasrighthonest。 HowtofindNorthWind,therefore,occupiedallhisthoughts。 Inhisanxietyabouthismother,heusedtoclimbthetreeeveryday,andsitinitsbranches。Howevermanyofthedwellerstheredidso,theyneverincommodedoneanother;forthemomentonegotintothetree,hebecameinvisibletoeveryoneelse;anditwassuchawide-spreadingtreethattherewasroomforeveryoneofthepeopleofthecountryinit,withouttheleastinterferencewitheachother。Sometimes,ongettingdown,twoofthemwouldmeetattheroot,andthentheywouldsmiletoeachothermoresweetlythanatanyothertime,asmuchastosay,“Ah,you’vebeenuptheretoo!“ Onedayhewassittingononeoftheouterbranchesofthetree,lookingsouthwardsafterhishome。Farawaywasablueshiningsea,dottedwithgleamingandsparklingspecksofwhite。Thoseweretheicebergs。Nearerhesawagreatrangeofsnow-cappedmountains,anddownbelowhimthelovelymeadow-grassofthecountry,withthestreamflowingandflowingthroughit,awaytowardsthesea。 Ashelookedhebegantowonder,forthewholecountrylaybeneathhimlikeamap,andthatwhichwasnearhimlookedjustassmallasthatwhichheknewtobemilesaway。Theridgeoficewhichencircleditappearedbutafewyardsoff,andnolargerthantherowofpebbleswithwhichachildwillmarkouttheboundariesofthekingdomhehasappropriatedonthesea-shore。HethoughthecoulddistinguishthevapouryformofNorthWind,seatedashehadlefther,ontheotherside。Hastilyhedescendedthetree,andtohisamazementfoundthatthemapormodelofthecountrystilllayathisfeet。 Hestoodinit。Withonestridehehadcrossedtheriver; withanotherhehadreachedtheridgeofice;withthethirdhesteppedoveritspeaks,andsankwearilydownatNorthWind’sknees。 Forthereshesatonherdoorstep。Thepeaksofthegreatridgeoficewereasloftyaseverbehindher,andthecountryatherbackhadvanishedfromDiamond’sview。 NorthWindwasasstillasDiamondhadlefther。Herpalefacewaswhiteasthesnow,andhermotionlesseyeswereasblueasthecavernsintheice。ButtheinstantDiamondtouchedher,herfacebegantochangelikethatofonewakingfromsleep。 Lightbegantoglimmerfromtheblueofhereyes。 Amomentmore,andshelaidherhandonDiamond’shead,andbeganplayingwithhishair。Diamondtookholdofherhand,andlaidhisfacetoit。Shegavealittlestart。 “Howveryaliveyouare,child!“shemurmured。“Comenearertome。” Bythehelpofthestonesallaroundheclamberedupbesideher,andlaidhimselfagainstherbosom。Shegaveagreatsigh,slowlyliftedherarms,andslowlyfoldedthemabouthim,untilsheclaspedhimclose。Yetamoment,andsherousedherself,andcamequiteawake;andthecoldofherbosom,whichhadpiercedDiamond’sbones,vanished。 “HaveyoubeensittinghereeversinceIwentthroughyou,dearNorthWind?”askedDiamond,strokingherhand。 “Yes。”sheanswered,lookingathimwithheroldkindness。 “Ain’tyouverytired?” “No;I’veoftenhadtositlonger。Doyouknowhowlongyouhavebeen?” “Oh!yearsandyears。”answeredDiamond。 “Youhavejustbeensevendays。”returnedNorthWind。 “IthoughtIhadbeenahundredyears!“exclaimedDiamond。 “Yes,Idaresay。”repliedNorthWind。“You’vebeenawayfromheresevendays;buthowlongyoumayhavebeeninthereisquiteanotherthing。Behindmybackandbeforemyfacethingsaresodifferent!Theydon’tgoatallbythesamerule。” “I’mveryglad。”saidDiamond,afterthinkingawhile。 “Why?”askedNorthWind。 “BecauseI’vebeensuchalongtimethere,andsuchalittlewhileawayfrommother。Why,shewon’tbeexpectingmehomefromSandwichyet!“ “No。Butwemustn’ttalkanylonger。I’vegotmyordersnow,andwemustbeoffinafewminutes。” NextmomentDiamondfoundhimselfsittingaloneontherock。 NorthWindhadvanished。Acreaturelikeagreathumble-beeorcockchaferflewpasthisface;butitcouldbeneither,fortherewerenoinsectsamongsttheice。Itpassedhimagainandagain,flyingincirclesaroundhim,andheconcludedthatitmustbeNorthWindherself,nobiggerthanTomThumbwhenhismotherputhiminthenutshelllinedwithflannel。Butshewasnolongervapouryandthin。Shewassolid,althoughtiny。Amomentmore,andsheperchedonhisshoulder。 “Comealong,Diamond。”shesaidinhisear,inthesmallestandhighestoftreblevoices;“itistimeweweresettingoutforSandwich。” Diamondcouldjustseeher,byturninghisheadtowardshisshoulderasfarashecould,butonlywithoneeye,forhisnosecamebetweenherandtheother。 “Won’tyoutakemeinyourarmsandcarryme?”hesaidinawhisper,forheknewshedidnotlikealoudvoicewhenshewassmall。 “Ah!youungratefulboy。”returnedNorthWind,smiling“howdareyoumakegameofme?Yes,Iwillcarryyou,butyoushallwalkabitforyourimpertinencefirst。Comealong。” Shejumpedfromhisshoulder,butwhenDiamondlookedforherupontheground,hecouldseenothingbutalittlespiderwithlonglegsthatmadeitswayovertheicetowardsthesouth。Itranveryfastindeedforaspider,butDiamondranalongwaybeforeit,andthenwaitedforit。Itwasupwithhimsoonerthanhehadexpected,however,andithadgrownagooddeal。Andthespidergrewandgrewandwentfasterandfaster,tillallatonceDiamonddiscoveredthatitwasnotaspider,butaweasel;andawayglidedtheweasel,andawaywentDiamondafterit,andittookalltheruntherewasinhimtokeepupwiththeweasel。Andtheweaselgrew,andgrew,andgrew,tillallatonceDiamondsawthattheweaselwasnotaweaselbutacat。Andawaywentthecat,andDiamondafterit。 Andwhenhehadrunhalfamile,hefoundthecatwaitingforhim,sittingupandwashingherfacenottolosetime。Andawaywentthecatagain,andDiamondafterit。Butthenexttimehecameupwiththecat,thecatwasnotacat,butahunting-leopard。 Andthehunting-leopardgrewtoajaguar,allcoveredwithspotslikeeyes。AndthejaguargrewtoaBengaltiger。AndatnoneofthemwasDiamondafraid,forhehadbeenatNorthWind’sback,andhecouldbeafraidofhernolongerwhatevershedidorgrew。 Andthetigerflewoverthesnowinastraightlineforthesouth,growinglessandlesstoDiamond’seyestillitwasonlyablackspeckuponthewhiteness;andthenitvanishedaltogether。 AndnowDiamondfeltthathewouldrathernotrunanyfarther,andthattheicehadgotveryrough。Besides,hewasneartheprecipicesthatboundedthesea,soheslackenedhispacetoawalk,sayingaloudtohimself: “WhenNorthWindhaspunishedmeenoughformakinggameofher,shewillcomebacktome;Iknowshewill,forIcan’tgomuchfartherwithouther。” “Youdearboy!Itwasonlyinfun。HereIam!“saidNorthWind’svoicebehindhim。 Diamondturned,andsawherashelikedbesttoseeher,standingbesidehim,atalllady。 “Where’sthetiger?”heasked,forheknewallthecreaturesfromapicturebookthatMissColemanhadgivenhim。“But,ofcourse。” headded,“youwerethetiger。Iwaspuzzledandforgot。Isawitsuchalongwayoffbeforeme,andthereyouwerebehindme。 It’ssoodd,youknow。” “Itmustlookveryoddtoyou,Diamond:Iseethat。Butitisnomoreoddtomethantobreakanoldpineintwo。” “Well,that’soddenough。”remarkedDiamond。 “Soitis!Iforgot。Well,noneofthesethingsareoddertomethanitistoyoutoeatbreadandbutter。” “Well,that’soddtoo,whenIthinkofit。”persistedDiamond。 “Ishouldjustlikeasliceofbreadandbutter!I’mafraidtosayhowlongitis——howlongitseemstome,thatis——sinceIhadanythingtoeat。” “Comethen。”saidNorthWind,stoopingandholdingoutherarms。 “Youshallhavesomebreadandbutterverysoon。Iamgladtofindyouwantsome。” Diamondhelduphisarmstomeethers,andwassafeuponherbosom。 NorthWindboundedintotheair。Hertressesbegantoliftandriseandspreadandstreamandflowandflutter;andwitharoarfromherhairandanansweringroarfromoneofthegreatglaciersbesidethem,whoseslowtorrenttumbledtwoorthreeicebergsatonceintothewavesattheirfeet,NorthWindandDiamondwentflyingsouthwards。 CHAPTERXII WHOMETDIAMONDATSANDWICH AsTHEYflew,sofasttheywentthattheseaslidawayfromunderthemlikeagreatwebofshotsilk,blueshotwithgrey,andgreenshotwithpurple。Theywentsofastthatthestarsthemselvesappearedtosailawaypastthemoverhead,“likegoldenboats。” onablueseaturnedupsidedown。AndtheywentsofastthatDiamondhimselfwenttheotherwayasfast——ImeanhewentfastasleepinNorthWind’sarms。 Whenhewoke,afacewasbendingoverhim;butitwasnotNorthWind’s; itwashismother’s。Heputouthisarmstoher,andsheclaspedhimtoherbosomandburstoutcrying。Diamondkissedheragainandagaintomakeherstop。Perhapskissingisthebestthingforcrying,butitwillnotalwaysstopit。 “Whatisthematter,mother?”hesaid。 “Oh,Diamond,mydarling!youhavebeensoill!“shesobbed。 “No,motherdear。I’veonlybeenatthebackofthenorthwind。” returnedDiamond。 “Ithoughtyouweredead。”saidhismother。 Butthatmomentthedoctorcamein。 “Oh!there!“saidthedoctorwithgentlecheerfulness;“we’rebetterto-day,Isee。” Thenhedrewthemotheraside,andtoldhernottotalktoDiamond,ortomindwhathemightsay;forhemustbekeptasquietaspossible。 AndindeedDiamondwasnotmuchinclinedtotalk,forhefeltverystrangeandweak,whichwaslittlewonder,seeingthatallthetimehehadbeenawayhehadonlysuckedafewlumpsofice,andtherecouldnotbemuchnourishmentinthem。 Nowwhileheislyingthere,gettingstrongagainwithchickenbrothandothernicethings,Iwilltellmyreaderswhathadbeentakingplaceathishome,fortheyoughttobetoldit。 TheymayhaveforgottenthatMissColemanwasinaverypoorstateofhealth。Nowtherewerethreereasonsforthis。 Inthefirstplace,herlungswerenotstrong。Inthesecondplace,therewasagentlemansomewherewhohadnotbehavedverywelltoher。 Inthethirdplace,shehadnotanythingparticulartodo。 Thesethreenotstogetherareenoughtomakealadyveryillindeed。 Ofcourseshecouldnothelpthefirstcause;butiftheothertwocauseshadnotexisted,thatwouldhavebeenoflittleconsequence; shewouldonlyhavetobealittlecareful。Thesecondshecouldnothelpquite;butifshehadhadanythingtodo,andhaddoneitwell,itwouldhavebeenverydifficultforanymantobehavebadlytoher。 Andforthisthirdcauseofherillness,ifshehadhadanythingtodothatwasworthdoing,shemighthavebornehisbadbehavioursothateventhatwouldnothavemadeherill。Itisnotalwayseasy,Iconfess,tofindsomethingtodothatisworthdoing,butthemostdifficultthingsareconstantlybeingdone,andshemighthavefoundsomethingifshehadtried。Herfaultlayinthis,thatshehadnottried。But,tobesure,herfatherandmotherweretoblamethattheyhadneversethergoing。Onlythenagain,nobodyhadtoldherfatherandmotherthattheyoughttosethergoinginthatdirection。Soasnoneofthemwouldfinditoutofthemselves,NorthWindhadtoteachthem。 WeknowthatNorthWindwasverybusythatnightonwhichsheleftDiamondinthecathedral。ShehadinasensebeenblowingthroughandthroughtheColemans’housethewholeofthenight。 First,MissColeman’smaidhadleftachinkofhermistress’swindowopen,thinkingshehadshutit,andNorthWindhadwoundafewofherhairsroundthelady’sthroat。Shewasconsiderablyworsethenextmorning。Again,theshipwhichNorthWindhadsunkthatverynightbelongedtoMr。Coleman。NorwillmyreadersunderstandwhataheavylossthiswastohimuntilIhaveinformedthemthathehadbeengettingpoorerandpoorerforsometime。 Hewasnotsosuccessfulinhisspeculationsashehadbeen,forhespeculatedagreatdealmorethanwasright,anditwastimeheshouldbepulledup。Itisahardthingforarichmantogrowpoor; butitisanawfulthingforhimtogrowdishonest,andsomekindsofspeculationleadamandeepintodishonestybeforehethinkswhatheisabout。Povertywillnotmakeamanworthless——hemaybeworthagreatdealmorewhenheispoorthanhewaswhenhewasrich; butdishonestygoesveryfarindeedtomakeamanofnovalue—— athingtobethrownoutinthedust-holeofthecreation,likeabitofabrokenbasin,oradirtyrag。SoNorthWindhadtolookafterMr。Coleman,andtrytomakeanhonestmanofhim。 Soshesanktheshipwhichwashislastventure,andhewaswhathimselfandhiswifeandtheworldcalledruined。 Norwasthisallyet。ForonboardthatvesselMissColeman’sloverwasapassenger;andwhenthenewscamethatthevesselhadgonedown,andthatallonboardhadperished,wemaybesureshedidnotthinkthelossoftheirfinehouseandgardenandfurniturethegreatestmisfortuneintheworld。 Ofcourse,thetroubledidnotendwithMr。Colemanandhisfamily。 Nobodycansufferalone。Whenthecauseofsufferingismostdeeplyhiddenintheheart,andnobodyknowsanythingaboutitbutthemanhimself,hemustbeagreatandagoodmanindeed,suchasfewofushaveknown,ifthepaininsidehimdoesnotmakehimbehavesoastocauseallabouthimtobemoreorlessuncomfortable。 Butwhenamanbringsmoney-troublesonhimselfbymakinghastetoberich,thenmostofthepeoplehehastodowithmustsufferinthesamewaywithhimself。Theelm-treewhichNorthWindblewdownthatverynight,asifsmallandgreattrialsweretobegatheredinoneheap,crushedMissColeman’sprettysummer-house: justsothefallofMr。Colemancrushedthelittlefamilythatlivedoverhiscoach-houseandstable。BeforeDiamondwaswellenoughtobetakenhome,therewasnohomeforhimtogoto。 Mr。Coleman——orhiscreditors,forIdonotknowtheparticulars—— hadsoldhouse,carriage,horses,furniture,andeverything。 HeandhiswifeanddaughterandMrs。CrumphadgonetoliveinasmallhouseinHoxton,wherehewouldbeunknown,andwhencehecouldwalktohisplaceofbusinessintheCity。 Forhewasnotanoldman,andhopedyettoretrievehisfortunes。 Letushopethathelivedtoretrievehishonesty,thetailofwhichhadslippedthroughhisfingerstotheverylastjoint,ifnotbeyondit。 Ofcourse,Diamond’sfatherhadnothingtodoforatime,butitwasnotsohardforhimtohavenothingtodoasitwasforMissColeman。 Hewrotetohiswifethat,ifhersisterwouldkeephertheretillhegotaplace,itwouldbebetterforthem,andhewouldbegreatlyobligedtoher。Meantime,thegentlemanwhohadboughtthehousehadallowedhisfurnituretoremainwhereitwasforalittlewhile。 Diamond’sauntwasquitewillingtokeepthemaslongasshecould。 AndindeedDiamondwasnotyetwellenoughtobemovedwithsafety。 Whenhehadrecoveredsofarastobeabletogoout,onedayhismothergothersister’shusband,whohadalittlepony-cart,tocarrythemdowntothesea-shore,andleavethemthereforafewhours。 HehadsomebusinesstodofurtheronatRamsgate,andwouldpickthemupashereturned。Awhiffofthesea-airwoulddothembothgood,shesaid,andshethoughtbesidesshecouldbesttellDiamondwhathadhappenedifshehadhimquitetoherself。 CHAPTERXIII THESEASIDE DIAMONDandhismothersatdownupontheedgeoftheroughgrassthatborderedthesand。Thesunwasjustfarenoughpastitshighestnottoshineintheireyeswhentheylookedeastward。 Asweetlittlewindblewontheirleftside,andcomfortedthemotherwithoutlettingherknowwhatitwasthatcomfortedher。 Awaybeforethemstretchedthesparklingwatersoftheocean,everywaveofwhichflashedoutitsowndelightbackinthefaceofthegreatsun,whichlookeddownfromthestillnessofitsbluehousewithglorioussilentfaceuponitsflashingchildren。 Oneachhandtheshoreroundedoutwards,formingalittlebay。 Therewerenowhitecliffshere,asfurthernorthandsouth,andtheplacewasratherdreary,buttheskygotatthemsomuchthebetter。 Notahouse,notacreaturewaswithinsight。Drysandwasabouttheirfeet,andunderthemthinwirygrass,thatjustmanagedtogrowoutofthepoverty-strickenshore。 “Ohdear!“saidDiamond’smother,withadeepsigh,“it’sasadworld!“ “Isit?”saidDiamond。“Ididn’tknow。” “Howshouldyouknow,child?You’vebeentoowelltakencareof,Itrust。” “Ohyes,Ihave。”returnedDiamond。“I’msorry!Ithoughtyouweretakencareoftoo。Ithoughtmyfathertookcareofyou。 Iwillaskhimaboutit。Ithinkhemusthaveforgotten。” “Dearboy!“saidhismother。“yourfather’sthebestmanintheworld。” “SoIthought!“returnedDiamondwithtriumph。“Iwassureofit!——Well,doesn’thetakeverygoodcareofyou?” “Yes,yes,hedoes。”answeredhismother,burstingintotears。 “Butwho’stotakecareofhim?Andhowishetotakecareofusifhe’sgotnothingtoeathimself?” “Ohdear!“saidDiamondwithagasp;“hasn’thegotanythingtoeat?Oh!Imustgohometohim。” “No,no,child。He’snotcometothatyet。Butwhat’stobecomeofus,Idon’tknow。” “Areyouveryhungry,mother?There’sthebasket。Ithoughtyouputsomethingtoeatinit。” “Oyoudarlingstupid!Ididn’tsayIwashungry。”returnedhismother,smilingthroughhertears。 “ThenIdon’tunderstandyouatall。”saidDiamond。“Dotellmewhat’sthematter。” “Therearepeopleintheworldwhohavenothingtoeat,Diamond。” “ThenIsupposetheydon’tstopinitanylonger。They——they—— whatyoucall——die——don’tthey?” “Yes,theydo。Howwouldyoulikethat?” “Idon’tknow。Inevertried。ButIsupposetheygowheretheygetsomethingtoeat。” “Likeenoughtheydon’twantit。”saidhismother,petulantly。 “That’sallrightthen。”saidDiamond,thinkingIdaresaymorethanhechosetoputinwords。 “Isitthough?Poorboy!howlittleyouknowaboutthings! Mr。Coleman’slostallhismoney,andyourfatherhasnothingtodo,andweshallhavenothingtoeatbyandby。” “Areyousure,mother?” “Sureofwhat?” “Surethatweshallhavenothingtoeat。” “No,thankHeaven!I’mnotsureofit。Ihopenot。” “ThenIcan’tunderstandit,mother。There’sapieceofgingerbreadinthebasket,Iknow。” “Oyoulittlebird!Youhavenomoresensethanasparrowthatpickswhatitwants,andneverthinksofthewinterandthefrostand,thesnow。” “Ah——yes——Isee。Butthebirdsgetthroughthewinter,don’tthey?” “Someofthemfalldeadontheground。” “Theymustdiesometime。Theywouldn’tliketobebirdsalways。 Wouldyou,mother?” “Whatachilditis!“thoughthismother,butshesaidnothing。 “Oh!nowIremember。”Diamondwenton。“FathertoldmethatdayIwenttoEppingForestwithhim,thattherose-bushes,andthemay-bushes,andtheholly-busheswerethebird’sbarns,fortherewerethehips,andthehaws,andtheholly-berries,allreadyforthewinter。” “Yes;that’sallverytrue。Soyouseethebirdsareprovidedfor。 Buttherearenosuchbarnsforyouandme,Diamond。” “Ain’tthere?” “No。We’vegottoworkforourbread。” “Thenlet’sgoandwork。”saidDiamond,gettingup。 “It’snouse。We’venotgotanythingtodo。” “Thenlet’swait。” “Thenweshallstarve。” “No。There’sthebasket。Doyouknow,mother,IthinkIshallcallthatbasketthebarn。” “It’snotaverybigone。Andwhenit’sempty——wherearewethen?” “Atauntie’scupboard。”returnedDiamondpromptly。 “Butwecan’teatauntie’sthingsallupandleavehertostarve。” “No,no。We’llgobacktofatherbeforethat。He’llhavefoundacupboardsomewherebythattime。” “Howdoyouknowthat?” “Idon’tknowit。ButIhaven’tgotevenacupboard,andI’vealwayshadplentytoeat。I’veheardyousayIhadtoomuch,sometimes。” “ButItellyouthat’sbecauseI’vehadacupboardforyou,child。” “Andwhenyourswasempty,auntieopenedhers。” “Butthatcan’tgoon。” “Howdoyouknow?Ithinktheremustbeabigcupboardsomewhere,outofwhichthelittlecupboardsarefilled,youknow,mother。” “Well,IwishIcouldfindthedoorofthatcupboard。”saidhismother。 Butthesamemomentshestopped,andwassilentforagoodwhile。 IcannottellwhetherDiamondknewwhatshewasthinking,butI thinkIknow。Shehadheardsomethingatchurchthedaybefore,whichcamebackuponher——somethinglikethis,thatshehadn’ttoeatfortomorrowaswellasforto-day;andthatwhatwasnotwantedcouldn’tbemissed。So,insteadofsayinganythingmore,shestretchedoutherhandforthebasket,andsheandDiamondhadtheirdinner。 AndDiamonddidenjoyit。Forthedriveandthefreshairhadmadehimquitehungry;andhedidnot,likehismother,troublehimselfaboutwhattheyshoulddineoffthatdayweek。Thefactwashehadlivedsolongwithoutanyfoodatallatthebackofthenorthwind,thatheknewquitewellthatfoodwasnotessentialtoexistence; thatinfact,undercertaincircumstances,peoplecouldlivewithoutitwellenough。 Hismotherdidnotspeakmuchduringtheirdinner。Afteritwasovershehelpedhimtowalkaboutalittle,buthewasnotableformuchandsoongottired。Hedidnotgetfretful,though。 Hewastoogladofhavingthesunandthewindagain,tofretbecausehecouldnotrunabout。Helaydownonthedrysand,andhismothercoveredhimwithashawl。Shethensatbyhisside,andtookabitofworkfromherpocket。ButDiamondfeltrathersleepy,andturnedonhissideandgazedsleepilyoverthesand。 Afewyardsoffhesawsomethingfluttering。 “Whatisthat,mother?”hesaid。 “Onlyabitofpaper。”sheanswered。 “Itfluttersmorethanabitofpaperwould,Ithink。”saidDiamond。 “I’llgoandseeifyoulike。”saidhismother。“Myeyesarenoneofthebest。” Sosheroseandwentandfoundthattheywerebothright,foritwasalittlebook,partlyburiedinthesand。Butseveralofitsleaveswereclearofthesand,andthesethewindkeptblowingaboutinaveryflutterfulmanner。ShetookitupandbroughtittoDiamond。 “Whatisit,mother?”heasked。 “Somenurseryrhymes,Ithink。”sheanswered。 “I’mtoosleepy。”saidDiamond。“Doreadsomeofthemtome。” “Yes,Iwill。”shesaid,andbeganone——“Butthisissuchnonsense!“ shesaidagain。“Iwilltrytofindabetterone。” Sheturnedtheleavessearching,butthreetimes,withsuddenpuffs,thewindblewtheleavesrustlingbacktothesameverses。 “Doreadthatone。”saidDiamond,whoseemedtobeofthesamemindasthewind。“Itsoundedverynice。Iamsureitisagoodone。” Sohismotherthoughtitmightamusehim,thoughshecouldn’tfindanysenseinit。Sheneverthoughthemightunderstandit,althoughshecouldnot。 NowIdonotexactlyknowwhatthemotherread,butthisiswhatDiamondheard,orthoughtafterwardsthathehadheard。 Hewas,however,asIhavesaid,verysleepy。Andwhenhethoughtheunderstoodtheverseshemayhavebeenonlydreamingbetterones。 Thisishowtheywent—— Iknowariverwhosewatersrunasleeprunruneversingingintheshallowsdumbinthehollowssleepingsodeepandalltheswallowsthatdiptheirfeathersinthehollowsorintheshallowsarethemerriestswallowsofallfortheneststheybakewiththeclaytheycakewiththewatertheyshakefromtheirwingsthatrakethewateroutoftheshallowsorthehollowswillholdtogetherinanyweatherandsotheswallowsarethemerriestfellowsandhavethemerriestchildrenandarebuiltsonarrowliketheheadofanarrowtocuttheairandgojustwherethenicestwaterisflowingandthenicestdustisblowingforeachsonarrowlikeheadofanarrowisonlyabarrowtocarrythemudhemakesfromthenicestwaterflowingandthenicestdustthatisblowingtobuildhisnestforherhelovesbestwiththenicestcakeswhichthesunshinebakesallfortheirmerrychildrenallsocallowwithbeaksthatfollowgapingandhollowwiderandwideraftertheirfatheroraftertheirmotherthefood-providerwhobringsthemaspiderorawormthepoorhiderdownintheearthsothere’snodearthfortheirbeaksasyellowasthebuttercupsgrowingbesidetheflowingofthesingingriveralwaysandevergrowingandblowingforfastasthesheepawakeorasleepcropthemandcropthemtheycannotstopthembutuptheycreepandontheygoblowingandsowiththedaisiesthelittlewhitepraisestheygrowandtheyblowandtheyspreadouttheircrownandtheypraisethesunandwhenhegoesdowntheirpraisingisdoneandtheyfolduptheircrownandtheysleepeveryonetillovertheplainhe’sshiningamainandthey’reatitagainpraisingandpraisingsuchlowsongsraisingthatnoonehearsthembutthesunwhorearsthemandthesheepthatbitethemarethequietestsheepawakeorasleepwiththemerriestbleatandthelittlelambsarethemerriestlambstheyforgettoeatforthefrolicintheirfeetandthelambsandtheirdamsarethewhitestsheepwiththewoolliestwoolandthelongestwoolandthetrailingesttailsandtheyshinelikesnowinthegrassesthatgrowbythesingingriverthatsingsforeverandthesheepandthelambsaremerryforeverbecausetheriversingsandtheydrinkitandthelambsandtheirdamsarequietandwhitebecauseoftheirdietforwhattheybiteisbuttercupsyellowanddaisieswhiteandgrassasgreenastherivercanmakeitwithwindasmellowtokissitandshakeitasneverwasseenbuthereinthehollowsbesidetheriverwherealltheswallowsaremerriestoffellowsfortheneststheymakewiththeclaytheycakeinthesunshinebaketilltheyarelikeboneasdryinthewindasamarblestonesofirmtheybindthegrassintheclaythatdriesinthewindthesweetestwindthatblowsbytheriverflowingforeverbutneveryoufindwhencecomesthewindthatblowsonthehollowsandovertheshallowswherediptheswallowsaliveitblowsthelifeasitgoesawakeorasleepintotheriverthatsingsasitflowsandthelifeitblowsintothesheepawakeorasleepwiththewoolliestwoolandthetrailingesttailsanditneverfailsgentleandcooltowavethewoolandtotossthegrassasthelambsandthesheepoveritpassandtugandbitewiththeirteethsowhiteandthenwiththesweepoftheirtrailingtailssmoothitagainanditgrowsamainandamainitgrowsandthewindasitblowstossestheswallowsoverthehollowsanddownontheshallowstilleveryfeatherdothshakeandquiverandalltheirfeathersgoalltogetherblowingthelifeandthejoysorifeintotheswallowsthatskimtheshallowsandhavetheyellowestchildrenforthewindthatblowsisthelifeoftheriverflowingforeverthatwashesthegrassesstillasitpassesandfeedsthedaisiesthelittlewhitepraisesandbuttercupsbonnysogoldenandsunnywithbutterandhoneythatwhitenthesheepawakeorasleepthatnibbleandbiteandgrowwhiterthanwhiteandmerryandquietonthesweetdietfedbytheriverandtossedforeverbythewindthattossestheswallowthatcrossesovertheshallowsdippinghiswingstogatherthewaterandbakethecakethatthewindshallmakeashardasaboneasdryasastoneit’sallinthewindthatblowsfrombehindandallintheriverthatflowsforeverandallinthegrassesandthewhitedaisiesandthemerrysheepawakeorasleepandthehappyswallowsskimmingtheshallowsandit’sallinthewindthatblowsfrombehindHereDiamondbecameawarethathismotherhadstoppedreading。 “Whydon’tyougoon,motherdear?”heasked。 “It’ssuchnonsense!“saidhismother。“Ibelieveitwouldgoonforever。” “That’sjustwhatitdid。”saidDiamond。 “Whatdid?”sheasked。 “Why,theriver。That’salmosttheverytuneitusedtosing。” Hismotherwasfrightened,forshethoughtthefeverwascomingonagain。Soshedidnotcontradicthim。 “Whomadethatpoem?”askedDiamond。 “Idon’tknow。”sheanswered。“Somesillywomanforherchildren,Isuppose——andthenthoughtitgoodenoughtoprint。” “Shemusthavebeenatthebackofthenorthwindsometimeorother,anyhow。”saidDiamond。“Shecouldn’thavegotaholdofitanywhereelse。That’sjusthowitwent。”Andhebegantochantbitsofithereandthere;buthismothersaidnothingforfearofmakinghim,worse;andshewasverygladindeedwhenshesawherbrother-in-lawjoggingalonginhislittlecart。TheyliftedDiamondin,andgotupthemselves,andawaytheywent,“homeagain,homeagain,homeagain。”asDiamondsang。Buthesoongrewquiet,andbeforetheyreachedSandwichhewasfastasleepanddreamingofthecountryatthebackofthenorthwind。 CHAPTERXIV OLDDIAMOND AFTERthisDiamondrecoveredsofast,thatinafewdayshewasquiteabletogohomeassoonashisfatherhadaplaceforthemtogo。 Nowhisfatherhavingsavedalittlemoney,andfindingthatnosituationoffereditself,hadbeenthinkingoveranewplan。 Astrangeoccurrenceitwaswhichturnedhisthoughtsinthatdirection。 HehadafriendintheBloomsburyregion,wholivedbylettingoutcabsandhorsestothecabmen。Thisman,happeningtomeethimonedayashewasreturningfromanunsuccessfulapplication,saidtohim: “Whydon’tyousetupforyourselfnow——inthecabline,Imean?” “Ihaven’tenoughforthat。”answeredDiamond’sfather。 “Youmusthavesavedagoodishbit,Ishouldthink。JustcomehomewithmenowandlookatahorseIcanletyouhavecheap。Iboughthimonlyafewweeksago,thinkinghe’ddoforaHansom,butIwaswrong。 He’sgotboneenoughforawaggon,butawaggonain’taHansom。 Heain’tgotgoenoughforaHansom。YouseepartiesastakesHansomswantstogolikethewind,andheain’tgotwindenough,forheain’tsoyoungasheoncewas。Butforafour-wheelerastakesfamiliesandtheirluggages,he’stheveryhorse。 He’dcarryasmallhouseanyday。Iboughthimcheap,andI’llsellhimcheap。” “Oh,Idon’twanthim。”saidDiamond’sfather。“Abodymusthavetimetothinkoveranaffairofsomuchimportance。Andthere’sthecabtoo。Thatwouldcometoadealofmoney。” “Icouldfityouthere,Idaresay。”saidhisfriend。“Butcomeandlookattheanimal,anyhow。” “SinceIlostmyownoldpair,aswasMr。Coleman’s。” saidDiamond’sfather,turningtoaccompanythecab-master,“Iain’talmostgotthehearttolookahorseintheface。 It’sathousandpitiestopartmanandhorse。” “Soitis。”returnedhisfriendsympathetically。 Butwhatwastheex-coachman’sdelight,when,ongoingintothestablewherehisfriendledhim,hefoundthehorsehewantedhimtobuywasnootherthanhisownoldDiamond,grownverythinandbonyandlong-legged,asifthey,hadbeendoingwhattheycouldtofithimforHansomwork! “Heain’taHansomhorse。”saidDiamond’sfatherindignantly。 “Well,you’reright。Heain’thandsome,buthe’sagoodun“ saidhisowner。 “Whosaysheain’thandsome?He’soneofthehandsomesthorsesagentleman’scoachmaneverdruv。”saidDiamond’sfather; remarkingtohimselfunderhisbreath——“thoughIsaysitasshouldn’t“—— forhedidnotfeelinclinedallatoncetoconfessthathisownoldhorsecouldhavesunksolow。 “Well。”saidhisfriend,“allIsayis——There’saanimalforyou,asstrongasachurch;an’llgolikeatrain,leastwaysaparly。” headded,correctinghimself。 Butthecoachmanhadalumpinhisthroatandtearsinhiseyes。 Fortheoldhorse,hearinghisvoice,hadturnedhislongneck,andwhenhisoldfriendwentuptohimandlaidhishandonhisside,hewhinniedforjoy,andlaidhisbigheadonhismaster’sbreast。 Thissettledthematter。Thecoachman’sarmswereroundthehorse’sneckinamoment,andhefairlybrokedownandcried。 Thecab-masterhadneverbeensofondofahorsehimselfastohughimlikethat,buthesawinamomenthowitwas。Andhemusthavebeenagood-heartedfellow,forIneverheardofsuchanideacomingintotheheadofanyothermanwithahorsetosell: insteadofputtingsomethingontothepricebecausehewasnowprettysureofsellinghim,heactuallytookapoundoffwhathehadmeanttoaskforhim,sayingtohimselfitwasashametopartoldfriends。 Diamond’sfather,assoonashecametohimself,turnedandaskedhowmuchhewantedforthehorse。 “Iseeyou’reoldfriends。”saidtheowner。 “It’smyownoldDiamond。Ilikedhimfarthebestofthepair,thoughtheotherwasgood。Youain’tgothimtoo,haveyou?” “No;nothinginthestabletomatchhimthere。” “Ibelieveyou。”saidthecoachman。“Butyou’llbewantingalongpriceforhim,Iknow。” “No,notsomuch。Iboughthimcheap,andasIsay,heain’tformywork。” TheendofitwasthatDiamond’sfatherboughtoldDiamondagain,alongwithafour-wheeledcab。Andasthereweresomeroomstobehadoverthestable,hetookthem,wrotetohiswifetocomehome,andsetupasacabman。 CHAPTERXV THEMEWS ITWASlateintheafternoonwhenDiamondandhismotherandthebabyreachedLondon。IwassofullofDiamondthatIforgottotellyouababyhadarrivedinthemeantime。Hisfatherwaswaitingforthemwithhisowncab,buttheyhadnottoldDiamondwhothehorsewas; forhisfatherwantedtoenjoythepleasureofhissurprisewhenhefounditout。Hegotinwithhismotherwithoutlookingatthehorse,andhisfatherhavingputupDiamond’scarpet-bagandhismother’slittletrunk,gotupontheboxhimselfanddroveoff;andDiamondwasquiteproudofridinghomeinhisfather’sowncarriage。 Butwhenhegottothemews,hecouldnothelpbeingalittledismayedatfirst;andifhehadneverbeentothebackofthenorthwind,Iamafraidhewouldhavecriedalittle。Butinsteadofthat,hesaidtohimselfitwasafinethingalltheoldfurniturewasthere。 Andinsteadofhelpinghismothertobemiserableatthechange,hebegantofindoutalltheadvantagesoftheplace;foreveryplacehassomeadvantages,andtheyarealwaysbetterworthknowingthanthedisadvantages。Certainlytheweatherwasdepressing,forathick,dull,persistentrainwasfallingbythetimetheyreachedhome。Buthappilytheweatherisverychangeable; andbesides,therewasagoodfireburningintheroom,whichtheirneighbourwiththedrunkenhusbandhadattendedtoforthem;andthetea-thingswereputout,andthekettlewasboilingonthefire。 Andwithagoodfire,andteaandbreadandbutter,thingscannotbesaidtobemiserable。 Diamond’sfatherandmotherwere,notwithstanding,rathermiserable,andDiamondbegantofeelakindofdarknessbeginningtospreadoverhisownmind。Butthesamemomenthesaidtohimself,“Thiswillneverdo。Ican’tgiveintothis。I’vebeentothebackofthenorthwind。Thingsgorightthere,andsoImusttrytogetthingstogorighthere。I’vegottofightthemiserablethings。 Theyshan’tmakememiserableifIcanhelpit。”Idonotmeanthathethoughttheseverywords。Theyareperhapstoogrown-upforhimtohavethought,buttheyrepresentthekindofthingthatwasinhisheartandhishead。Andwhenheartandheadgotogether,nothingcanstandbeforethem。 “Whatnicebreadandbutterthisis!“saidDiamond。 “I’mgladyoulikeit,mydear“saidhisfather。“Iboughtthebuttermyselfatthelittleshoproundthecorner。” “It’sverynice,thankyou,father。Oh,there’sbabywaking! I’lltakehim。” “Sitstill,Diamond。”saidhismother。“Goonwithyourbreadandbutter。You’renotstrongenoughtolifthimyet。” Soshetookthebabyherself,andsethimonherknee。ThenDiamondbegantoamusehim,andwentontillthelittlefellowwasshriekingwithlaughter。Forthebaby’sworldwashismother’sarms; andthedrizzlingrain,andthedrearymews,andevenhisfather’stroubledfacecouldnottouchhim。Whatcaredbabyforthelossofahundredsituations?Yetneitherfathernormotherthoughthimhard-heartedbecausehecrowedandlaughedinthemiddleoftheirtroubles。Onthecontrary,hiscrowingandlaughingwereinfectious。Hislittleheartwassofullofmerrimentthatitcouldnotholditall,anditranoverintotheirs。Fatherandmotherbegantolaughtoo,andDiamondlaughedtillhehadafitofcoughingwhichfrightenedhismother,andmadethemallstop。 Hisfathertookthebaby,andhismotherputhimtobed。 Butitwasindeedachangetothemall,notonlyfromSandwich,butfromtheiroldplace,insteadofthegreatriverwherethehugebargeswiththeirmightybrownandyellowsailswenttackingfromsidetosidelikelittlepleasure-skiffs,andwherethelongthinboatsshotpastwitheightandsometimestwelverowers,theirwindowsnowlookedoutuponadirtypavedyard。AndtherewasnogardenmoreforDiamondtorunintowhenhepleased,withgayflowersabouthisfeet,andsolemnsun-filledtreesoverhishead。 NeitherwasthereawoodenwallatthebackofhisbedwithaholeinitforNorthWindtocomeinatwhensheliked。Indeed,therewassuchahighwall,andthereweresomanyhousesaboutthemews,thatNorthWindseldomgotintotheplaceatall,exceptwhensomethingmustbedone,andshehadagrandcleaningoutlikeotherhousewives; whilethepartitionattheheadofDiamond’snewbedonlydivideditfromtheroomoccupiedbyacabmanwhodranktoomuchbeer,andcamehomechieflytoquarrelwithhiswifeandpinchhischildren。 ItwasdreadfultoDiamondtohearthescoldingandthecrying。 Butitcouldnotmakehimmiserable,becausehehadbeenatthebackofthenorthwind。 IfmyreaderfindithardtobelievethatDiamondshouldbesogood,hemustrememberthathehadbeentothebackofthenorthwind。 Ifheneverknewaboysogood,didheeverknowaboythathadbeentothebackofthenorthwind?ItwasnotintheleaststrangeofDiamondtobehaveashedid;onthecontrary,itwasthoroughlysensibleofhim。 Weshallseehowhegoton。 CHAPTERXVI DIAMONDMAKESABEGINNING THEwindblewloud,butDiamondsleptadeepsleep,andneverheardit。 MyownimpressionisthateverytimewhenDiamondsleptwellandrememberednothingaboutitinthemorning,hehadbeenallthatnightatthebackofthenorthwind。Iamalmostsurethatwashowhewokesorefreshed,andfeltsoquietandhopefulalltheday。 Indeedhesaidthismuch,thoughnottome——thatalwayswhenhewokefromsuchasleeptherewasasomethinginhismind,hecouldnottellwhat——couldnottellwhetheritwasthelastfar-offsoundsoftheriverdyingawayinthedistance,orsomeofthewordsoftheendlesssonghismotherhadreadtohimonthesea-shore。 Sometimeshethoughtitmusthavebeenthetwitteringoftheswallows—— overtheshallows,you,know;butitmayhavebeenthechirpingofthedingysparrowspickinguptheirbreakfastintheyard—— howcanItell?Idon’tknowwhatIknow,IonlyknowwhatIthink; andtotellthetruth,Iammorefortheswallowsthanthesparrows。 Whenheknewhewascomingawake,hewouldsometimestryhardtokeepholdofthewordsofwhatseemedanewsong,onehehadnotheardbefore——asonginwhichthewordsandthemusicsomehowappearedtobeallone;butevenwhenhethoughthehadgotthemwellfixedinhismind,everashecameawaker——ashewouldsay—— onelinefadedawayoutofit,andthenanother,andthenanother,tillatlasttherewasnothingleftbutsomelovelypictureofwaterorgrassordaisies,orsomethingelseverycommon,butwithallthecommonnesspolishedoffit,andthelovelysoulofit,whichpeoplesoseldomsee,and,alas!yetseldomerbelievein,shiningout。 Butafterthathewouldsingtheoddest,loveliestlittlesongstothebaby——ofhisownmaking,hismothersaid;butDiamondsaidhedidnotmakethem;theyweremadesomewhereinsidehim,andheknewnothingaboutthemtilltheywerecomingout。 Whenhewokethatfirstmorninghegotupatonce,sayingtohimself,“I’vebeenilllongenough,andhavegivenagreatdealoftrouble; Imusttryandbeofusenow,andhelpmymother。”Whenhewentintoherroomhefoundherlightingthefire,andhisfatherjustgettingoutofbed。Theyhadonlytheoneroom,besidesthelittleone,notmuchmorethanacloset,inwhichDiamondslept。Hebeganatoncetosetthingstorights,butthebabywakingup,hetookhim,andnursedhimtillhismotherhadgotthebreakfastready。 Shewaslookinggloomy,andhisfatherwassilent;andindeedexceptDiamondhaddoneallhepossiblycouldtokeepoutthemiserythatwastryingtogetinatdoorsandwindows,hetoowouldhavegrownmiserable,andthentheywouldhavebeenallmiserabletogether。 Buttotrytomakeotherscomfortableistheonlywaytogetrightcomfortableourselves,andthatcomespartlyofnotbeingabletothinksomuchaboutourselveswhenwearehelpingotherpeople。