Thenexteventthatoccurredwasofsosingularanaturethatitmighthavecausedmeafeelingofsuperstitioussurprise,ifmymindhadnotbeenfortifiedbyprincipleagainstanypaganweaknessofthatsort。TheuneasysenseofsomethingwronginthefamilywhichhadmademewishmyselfawayfromBlackwaterPark,wasactuallyfollowed,strangetosay,bymydeparturefromthehouse。Itistruethatmyabsencewasforatemporaryperiodonly,butthecoincidencewas,inmyopinion,notthelessremarkableonthataccount。
Mydeparturetookplaceunderthefollowingcircumstances——
AdayortwoaftertheservantsallleftIwasagainsentfortoseeSirPercival。Theundeservedslurwhichhehadcastonmymanagementofthehouseholddidnot,Iamhappytosay,preventmefromreturninggoodforeviltothebestofmyability,bycomplyingwithhisrequestasreadilyandrespectfullyasever。Itcostmeastrugglewiththatfallennature,whichweallshareincommon,beforeIcouldsuppressmyfeelings。Beingaccustomedtoself-discipline,Iaccomplishedthesacrifice。IfoundSirPercivalandCountFoscosittingtogetheragain。Onthisoccasionhislordshipremainedpresentattheinterview,andassistedinthedevelopmentofSirPercival’sviews。ThesubjecttowhichtheynowrequestedmyattentionrelatedtothehealthychangeofairbywhichweallhopedthatMissHalcombeandLadyGlydemightsoonbeenabledtoprofit。SirPercivalmentionedthatboththeladieswouldprobablypasstheautumn(byinvitationofFrederickFairlie,Esquire)atLimmeridgeHouse,Cumberland。Butbeforetheywentthere,itwashisopinion,confirmedbyCountFosco(whoheretookuptheconversationandcontinuedittotheend)。thattheywouldbenefitbyashortresidencefirstinthegenialclimateofTorquay。Thegreatobject,therefore,wastoengagelodgingsatthatplace,affordingallthecomfortsandadvantagesofwhichtheystoodinneed,andthegreatdifficultywastofindanexperiencedpersoncapableofchoosingthesortofresidencewhichtheywanted。InthisemergencytheCountbeggedtoinquire,onSirPercival’sbehalf,whetherIwouldobjecttogivetheladiesthebenefitofmyassistance,byproceedingmyselftoTorquayintheirinterests。Itwasimpossibleforapersoninmysituationtomeetanyproposal,madeintheseterms,withapositiveobjection。IcouldonlyventuretorepresenttheseriousinconvenienceofmyleavingBlackwaterParkintheextraordinaryabsenceofalltheindoorservants,withtheoneexceptionofMargaretPorcher。ButSirPercivalandhislordshipdeclaredthattheywerebothwillingtoputupwithinconvenienceforthesakeoftheinvalids。InextrespectfullysuggestedwritingtoanagentatTorquay,butIwasmetherebybeingremindedoftheimprudenceoftakinglodgingswithoutfirstseeingthem。IwasalsoinformedthattheCountess(whowouldotherwisehavegonetoDevonshireherself)couldnot,inLadyGlyde’spresentcondition,leaveherniece,andthatSirPercivalandtheCounthadbusinesstotransacttogetherwhichwouldobligethemtoremainatBlackwaterPark。Inshort,itwasclearlyshownmethatifIdidnotundertaketheerrand,nooneelsecouldbetrustedwithit。Underthesecircumstances,IcouldonlyinformSirPercivalthatmyserviceswereatthedisposalofMissHalcombeandLadyGlyde。
ItwasthereuponarrangedthatIshouldleavethenextmorning,thatIshouldoccupyoneortwodaysinexaminingallthemostconvenienthousesinTorquay,andthatIshouldreturnwithmyreportassoonasIconvenientlycould。Amemorandumwaswrittenformebyhislordship,statingtherequisiteswhichtheplaceIwassenttotakemustbefoundtopossess,andanoteofthepecuniarylimitassignedtomewasaddedbySirPercival。
Myownideaonreadingovertheseinstructionswas,thatnosuchresidenceasIsawdescribedcouldbefoundatanywatering-placeinEngland,andthat,evenifitcouldbychancebediscovered,itwouldcertainlynotbepartedwithforanyperiodonsuchtermsasIwaspermittedtooffer。Ihintedatthesedifficultiestoboththegentlemen,butSirPercival(whoundertooktoanswerme)didnotappeartofeelthem。Itwasnotformetodisputethequestion。Isaidnomore,butIfeltaverystrongconvictionthatthebusinessonwhichIwassentawaywassobesetbydifficultiesthatmyerrandwasalmosthopelessatstarting。
BeforeIleftItookcaretosatisfymyselfthatMissHalcombewasgoingonfavourably。
Therewasapainfulexpressionofanxietyinherfacewhichmademefearthathermind,onfirstrecoveringitself,wasnotatease。ButshewascertainlystrengtheningmorerapidlythanIcouldhaveventuredtoanticipate,andshewasabletosendkindmessagestoLadyGlyde,sayingthatshewasfastgettingwell,andentreatingherladyshipnottoexertherselfagaintoosoon。IleftherinchargeofMrsRubelle,whowasstillasquietlyindependentofeveryoneelseinthehouseasever。WhenIknockedatLadyGlyde’sdoorbeforegoingaway,Iwastoldthatshewasstillsadlyweakanddepressed,myinformantbeingtheCountess,whowasthenkeepinghercompanyinherroom。SirPercivalandtheCountwerewalkingontheroadtothelodgeasIwasdrivenbyinthechaise。Ibowedtothemandquittedthehouse,withnotalivingsoulleftintheservants’officesbutMargaretPorcher。
Every。onemustfeelwhatIhavefeltmyselfsincethattime,almostsuspicious。Letme,however,sayagainthatitwasimpossibleforme,inmydependentposition,toactotherwisethanIdid。
TheresultofmyerrandatTorquaywasexactlywhatIhadfore-seen。NosuchlodgingsasIwasinstructedtotakecouldbefoundinthewholeplace,andthetermsIwaspermittedtogiveweremuchtoolowforthepurpose,evenifIhadbeenabletodiscoverwhatIwanted。IaccordinglyreturnedtoBlackwaterPark,andinformedSirPercival,whometmeatthedoor,thatmyjourneyhadbeentakeninvain。Heseemedtoomuchoccupiedwithsomeothersubjecttocareaboutthefailureofmyerrand,andhisfirstwordsinformedmethatevenintheshorttimeofmyabsenceanotherremarkablechangehadtakenplaceinthehouse。
TheCountandCountessFoscohadleftBlackwaterParkfortheirnewresidenceinStJohn’sWood。
Iwasnotmadeawareofthemotiveforthissuddendeparture——IwasonlytoldthattheCounthadbeenveryparticularinleavinghiskindcomplimentstome。WhenIventuredonaskingSirPercivalwhetherLadyGlydehadanyonetoattendtohercomfortsintheabsenceoftheCountess,herepliedthatshehadMargaretPorchertowaitonher,andheaddedthatawomanfromthevillagehadbeensentfortodotheworkdownstairs。
Theanswerreallyshockedme——therewassuchaglaringimproprietyinpermittinganunder-housemaidtofilltheplaceofconfidentialattendantonLadyGlyde。Iwentupstairsatonce,andmetMargaretonthebedroomlanding。Herserviceshadnotbeenrequired(naturallyenough),hermistresshavingsufficientlyrecoveredthatmorningtobeabletoleaveherbed。IaskednextafterMissHalcombe,butIwasansweredinaslouching,sulkyway,whichleftmenowiserthanIwasbefore。Ididnotchoosetorepeatthequestion,andperhapsprovokeanimpertinentreply。ItwasineveryrespectmorebecomingtoapersoninmypositiontopresentmyselfimmediatelyinLadyGlyde’sroom。
Ifoundthatherladyshiphadcertainlygainedinhealthduringthelastfewdays。Althoughstillsadlyweakandnervous,shewasabletogetupwithoutassistance,andtowalkslowlyaboutherroom,feelingnoworseeffectfromtheexertionthanaslightsensationoffatigue。ShehadbeenmadealittleanxiousthatmorningaboutMissHalcombe,throughhavingreceivednonewsofherfromanyone。IthoughtthisseemedtoimplyablamablewantofattentiononthepartofMrsRubelle,butIsaidnothing,andremainedwithLadyGlydetoassisthertodress。WhenshewasreadywebothlefttheroomtogethertogotoMissHalcombe。
WewerestoppedinthepassagebytheappearanceofSirPercival。Helookedasifhehadbeenpurposelywaitingtheretoseeus。
`Whereareyougoing?’hesaidtoLadyGlyde。
`ToMarian’sroom,’sheanswered。
`Itmayspareyouadisappointment,’remarkedSirPercival,`ifItellyouatoncethatyouwillnotfindherthere。’
`Notfindherthere!’
`No。SheleftthehouseyesterdaymorningwithFoscoandhiswife。’
LadyGlydewasnotstrongenoughtobearthesurpriseofthisextraordinarystatement。Sheturnedfearfullypale,andleanedbackagainstthewall,lookingatherhusbandindeadsilence。
IwassoastonishedmyselfthatIhardlyknewwhattosay。IaskedSirPercivalifhereallymeantthatMissHalcombehadleftBlackwaterPark。
`Icertainlymeanit,’heanswered。
`Inherstate,SirPercival!WithoutmentioningherintentionstoLadyGlyde!’
Beforehecouldreplyherladyshiprecoveredherselfalittleandspoke。
`Impossible!’shecriedoutinaloud,frightenedmanner,takingasteportwoforwardfromthewall。`Wherewasthedoctor?wherewasMrDawsonwhenMarianwentaway?’
`MrDawsonwasn’twanted,andwasn’there,’saidSirPercival。`Heleftofhisownaccord,whichisenoughofitselftoshowthatshewasstrongenoughtotravel。Howyoustare!Ifyoudon’tbelieveshehasgone,lookforyourself。Openherroomdoor,andalltheotherroomdoorsifyoulike。’
Shetookhimathisword,andIfollowedher。TherewasnooneinMissHalcombe’sroombutMargaretPorcher,whowasbusysettingittorights。Therewasnooneinthespareroomsorthedressing-roomswhenwelookedintothemafterwards。SirPercivalstillwaitedforusinthepassage。AswewereleavingthelastroomthatwehadexaminedLadyGlydewhispered,`Don’tgo,MrsMichelson!don’tleaveme,forGod’ssake!’BeforeIcouldsayanythinginreturnshewasoutagaininthepassage,speakingtoherhusband。
`Whatdoesitmean,SirPercival?Iinsist——Ibegandprayyouwilltellmewhatitmeans。’
`Itmeans,’heanswered,`thatMissHalcombewasstrongenoughyesterdaymorningtositupandbedressed,andthatsheinsistedontakingadvantageofFosco’sgoingtoLondontogotheretoo。’
`ToLondon!’
`Yes——onherwaytoLimmeridge。’
LadyGlydeturnedandappealedtome。
`YousawMissHalcombelast,’shesaid。`Tellmeplainly,MrsMichelson,didyouthinkshelookedfittotravel?’
`Notinmyopinion,yourladyship。’
SirPercival,onhisside,instantlyturnedandappealedtomealso。
`Beforeyouwentaway,’hesaid,`didyou,ordidyounot,tellthenursethatMissHalcombelookedmuchstrongerandbetter?’
`Icertainlymadetheremark,SirPercival。’
HeaddressedherladyshipagainthemomentIofferedthatreply。
`SetoneofMrsMichelson’sopinionsfairlyagainsttheother,’hesaid,`andtrytobereasonableaboutaperfectlyplainmatter。Ifshehadnotbeenwellenoughtobemoveddoyouthinkweshouldanyofushaveriskedlettinghergo?Shehasgotthreecompetentpeopletolookafterher——Foscoandyouraunt,andMrsRubelle,whowentawaywiththemexpresslyforthatpurpose。Theytookawholecarriageyesterday,andmadeabedforherontheseatincaseshefelttired。Today,FoscoandMrsRubellegoonwithherthemselvestoCumberland——’
`WhydoesMariangotoLimmeridgeandleavemeherebymyself?’saidherladyship,interruptingSirPercival。
`Becauseyourunclewon’treceiveyoutillhehasseenyoursisterfirst,’hereplied。`Haveyouforgottentheletterhewrotetoheratthebeginningofherillness?Itwasshowntoyou,youreadityourself,andyououghttorememberit。’
`Idorememberit。’
`Ifyoudo,whyshouldyoubesurPrisedatherleavingyou?YouwanttobebackatLimmeridge,andshehasgonetheretogetyouruncle’sleaveforyouonhisownterms。’
PoorLadyGlyde’seyesfilledwithtears。
`Marianneverleftmebefore,’shesaid,`withoutbiddingmegood-bye。’
`Shewouldhavebidyougood-byethistime,’returnedSirPercival,`ifshehadnotbeenafraidofherselfandofyou。Sheknewyouwouldtrytostopher,sheknewyouwoulddistressherbycrying。Doyouwanttomakeanymoreobjections?Ifyoudo,youmustcomedownstairsandaskquestionsinthedining-room。Theseworriesupsetme。Iwantaglassofwine。’
Heleftussuddenly。
Hismannerallthroughthisstrangeconversationhadbeenveryunlikewhatitusuallywas-Heseemedtobealmostasnervousandfluttered,everynowandthen,ashisladyherself。Ishouldneverhavesupposedthathishealthhadbeensodelicate,orhiscomposuresoeasytoupset。
ItriedtoprevailonLadyGlydetogobacktoherroom,butitwasuseless。Shestoppedinthepassage,withthelookofawomanwhosemindwaspanic-stricken。
`Somethinghashappenedtomysister!’shesaid。
`Remember,mylady,whatsurprisingenergythereisinMissHalcombe,’Isuggested。`Shemightwellmakeaneffortwhichotherladiesinhersituationwouldbeunfitfor。Ihopeandbelievethereisnothingwrong——Idoindeed。’
`ImustfollowMarian,’saidherladyship,withthesamepanic-strickenlook。`Imustgowhereshehasgone,Imustseethatsheisaliveandwellwithmyowneyes。Come!comedownwithmetoSirPercival。’
Ihesitated,fearingthatmypresencemightbeconsideredanintrusion。Iattemptedtorepresentthistoherladyship,butshewasdeaftome。Sheheldmyarmfastenoughtoforcemetogodownstairswithher,andshestillclungtomewithallthelittlestrengthshehadatthemomentwhenIopenedthedining-roomdoor。
SirPercivalwassittingatthetablewithadecanterofwinebeforehim。Heraisedtheglasstohislipsaswewentinanddraineditatadraught。Seeingthathelookedatmeangrilywhenheputitdownagain,Iattemptedtomakesomeapologyformy
accidentalpresenceintheroom。
`Doyousupposethereareanysecretsgoingonhere?’hebrokeoutsuddenly;`therearenone——thereisnothingunderhand,nothingkeptfromyouorfromanyone。’Afterspeakingthosestrangewordsloudlyandsternly,hefilledhimselfanotherglassofwineandaskedLadyGlydewhatshewantedofhim。
`IfmysisterisSttotravelIamfittotravel,’saidherladyship,withmorefirmnessthanshehadyetshown。`IcometobegyouwillmakeallowancesformyanxietyaboutMarian,andletmefollowheratoncebytheafternoontrain。’
`Youmustwaittilltomorrow,’repliedSirPercival,`andthenifyoudon’theartothecontraryyoucango。Idon’tsupposeyouareatalllikelytoheartothecontrary,soIshallwritetoFoscobytonight’spost。’
Hesaidthoselastwordsholdinghisglassuptothelight,andlookingatthewineinitinsteadofatLadyGlyde。Indeedheneveroncelookedatherthroughouttheconversation。Suchasingularwantofgoodbreedinginagentlemanofhisrankimpressedme,Iown,verypainfully。
`WhyshouldyouwritetoCountFosco?’sheasked,inextremesurprise。
`Totellhimtoexpectyoubythemiddaytrain,’saidSirPercival。`HewillmeetyouatthestationwhenyougettoLondon,andtakeyouontosleepatyouraunt’sinStJohn’sWood。’
LadyGlyde’shandbegantotrembleviolentlyroundmyarm——whyIcouldnotimagine。
`ThereisnonecessityforCountFoscotomeetme,’shesaid。`IwouldrathernotstayinLondontosleep。’
`Youmust。Youcan’ttakethewholejourneytoCumberlandinoneday。YoumustrestanightinLondon——andIdon’tchooseyoutogobyyourselftoanhotel。Foscomadetheoffertoyouruncletogiveyouhouse-roomonthewaydown,andyourunclehasaccepted。Here!hereisaletterfromhimaddressedtoyourself。Ioughttohavesentitupthismorning,butIforgot。ReaditandseewhatMrFairliehimselfsaystoyou。’
LadyGlydelookedattheletterforamomentandthenplaceditinmyhands。
`Readit,’shesaidfaintly。`Idon’tknowwhatisthematterwithme。Ican’treaditmyself。’
Itwasanoteofonlyfourlines——soshortandsocarelessthatitquitestruckme。IfIremembercorrectlyitcontainednomorethanthesewords——
`DearestLaura,Pleasecomewheneveryoulike。Breakthejourneybysleepingatyouraunt’shouse。GrievedtohearofdearMarian’sillness。Affectionatelyyours,FrederickFairlie。’
`Iwouldrathernotgothere——IwouldrathernotstayanightinLondon,’saidherladyship,breakingouteagerlywiththosewordsbeforeIhadquitedonereadingthenote,shortasitwas。`Don’twritetoCountFosco!Pray,praydon’twritetohim!’
SirPercivalfilledanotherglassfromthedecantersoawkwardlythatheupsetitandspiltallthewineoverthetable。`Mysightseemstobefailingme,’hemutteredtohimself,inanodd,muffledvoice。Heslowlysettheglassupagain,refilledit,anddraineditoncemoreatadraught。Ibegantofear,fromhislookandmanner,thatthewinewasgettingintohishead。
`Praydon’twritetoCountFosco,’persistedLadyGlyde,moreearnestlythanever。
`Whynot,Ishouldliketoknow?’criedSirPercival,withasuddenburstofangerthatstartledusboth。`WherecanyoustaymoreproperlyinLondonthanattheplaceyourunclehimselfchoosesforyou——atyouraunt’shouse?AskMrsMichelson。
Thearrangementproposedwassounquestionablytherightandtheproperone,thatIcouldmakenopossibleobjectiontoit。MuchasIsympathisedwithLadyGlydeinotherrespects,IcouldnotsympathisewithherinherunjustprejudicesagainstCountFosco。Ineverbeforemetwithanyladyofherrankandstationwhowassolamentablynarrow-mindedonthesubjectofforeigners。Neitherheruncle’snotenorSirPercival’sincreasingimpatienceseemedtohavetheleasteffectonher。ShestillobjectedtostayinganightinLondon,shestillimploredherhusbandnottowritetotheCount。
`Dropit!’saidSirPercival,rudelyturninghisbackonus。`Ifyouhaven’tsenseenoughtoknowwhatisbestforyourselfotherpeoplemustknowforyou。Thearrangementismade,andthereisanendofit。YouareonlywantedtodowhatMissHalcombehasdonebeforeyou——’
`Marian?’repeatedherladyship,inabewilderedmanner;`MariansleepinginCountFosco’shouse!’
`Yes,inCountFosco’shouse。Sheslepttherelastnighttobreakthejourney,andyouaretofollowherexample,anddowhatyouruncletellsyou。YouaretosleepatFosco’stomorrownight,asyoursisterdid,tobreakthejourney。Don’tthrowtoomanyobstaclesinmyway!don’tmakemerepentoflettingyougoatall!’
Hestartedtohisfeet,andsuddenlywalkedoutintotheverandahthroughtheopenglassdoors。
`Willyourladyshipexcuseme,’Iwhispered,`ifIsuggestthatwehadbetternotwaitheretillSirPercivalcomesback?Iamverymuchafraidheisover-excitedwithwine。’
Sheconsentedtoleavetheroominaweary,absentmanner。
Assoonasweweresafeupstairsagain,IdidallIcouldtocomposeherladyship’sspirits。IremindedherthatMrFairlie’sletterstoMissHalcombeandtoherselfdidcertainlysanction,andevenrendernecessary,soonerorlater,thecoursethathadbeentaken。Sheagreedtothis,andevenadmitted,ofherownaccord,thatbothletterswerestrictlyincharacterwithheruncle’speculiardisposition——butherfearsaboutMissHalcombe,andherunaccountabledreadofsleepingattheCount’shouseinLondon,stillremainedunshakeninspiteofeveryconsiderationthatIcouldurge。IthoughtitmydutytoprotestagainstLadyGlyde’sunfavourableopinionofhislordship,andIdidso,withbecomingforbearanceandrespect。
`Yourladyshipwillpardonmyfreedom,’Iremarked,inconclusion,`butitissaid,``bytheirfruitsyeshallknowthem。’’IamsuretheCount’sconstantkindnessandconstantattention,fromtheverybeginningofMissHalcombe’sillness,meritourbestconfidenceandesteem。Evenhislordship’sseriousmisunderstandingwithMrDawsonwasentirelyattributabletohisanxietyonMissHalcombe’saccount。’
`Whatmisunderstanding?’inquiredherladyship,withalookofsuddeninterest。
IrelatedtheunhappycircumstancesunderwhichMrDawsonhadwithdrawnhisattendance——mentioningthemallthemorereadilybecauseIdisapprovedofSirPercival’scontinuingtoconcealwhathadhappened(ashehaddoneinmypresence)fromtheknowledgeofLadyGlyde。
Herladyshipstartedup,witheveryappearanceofbeingadditionallyagitatedandalarmedbywhatIhadtoldher。
`Worse!worsethanIthought!’shesaid,walkingabouttheroom,inabewilderedmanner。`TheCountknewMrDawsonwouldneverconsenttoMarian’stakingajourney——hepurposelyinsultedthedoctortogethimoutofthehouse。’
`Oh,mylady!mylady!’Iremonstrated。
`MrsMichelson!’shewentonvehemently,`nowordsthateverwerespokenwillpersuademethatmysisterisinthatman’spowerandinthatman’shousewithherownconsent-Myhorrorofhimissuch,thatnothingSirPercivalcouldsay,andnolettersmyunclecouldwrite,wouldinduceme,ifIhadonlymyownfeelingstoconsult,toeat,drink,orsleepunderhisroof。ButmymiseryofsuspenseaboutMariangivesmethecouragetofollowheranywhere,tofollowherevenintoCountFosco’shouse。’
Ithoughtitright,atthispoint,tomentionthatMissHalcombehadalreadygoneontoCumberland,accordingtoSirPercival’saccountofthematter。
`Iamafraidtobelieveit!’answeredherladyship。`Iamafraidsheisstillinthatman’shouse。IfIamwrong,ifshehasreallygonetoLimmeridgeIamresolvedIwillnotsleeptomorrownightunderCountFosco’sroof。Mydearestfriendintheworld,nexttomysister,livesnearLondon。Youhaveheardme,youhaveheardMissHalcombe,speakofMrsVesey?Imeantowrite,andproposetosleepatherhouse。Idon’tknowhowIshallgetthere——Idon’tknowhowIshallavoidtheCount——buttothatrefugeIwillescapeinsomeway,ifmysisterhasgonetoCumberland。AllIaskofyoutodo,istoseeyourselfthatmylettertoMrsVeseygoestoLondontonight,ascertainlyasSirPercival’slettergoestoCountFosco。Ihavereasonsfornottrustingthepost-bagdownstairs。Willyoukeepmysecret,andhelpmeinthis?itisthelastfavour,perhaps,thatIshalleveraskofyou。’
Ihesitated,Ithoughtitallverystrange,Ialmostfearedthatherladyship’smindhadbeenalittleaffectedbyrecentanxietyandsuffering。Atmyownrisk,however,Iendedbygivingmyconsent。Iftheletterhadbeenaddressedtoastranger,ortoanyonebutaladysowellknowntomebyreportasMrsVesey,Imighthaverefused。IthankGod——lookingtowhathappenedafterwards——IthankGodIneverthwartedthatwish,oranyother,whichLadyGlydeexpressedtome,onthelastdayofherresidenceatBlackwaterPark。
Theletterwaswrittenandgivenintomyhands。Imyselfputitintothepost-boxinthevillagethatevening。
WesawnothingmoreofSirPercivalfortherestoftheday。
Islept,byLadyGlyde’sowndesire,inthenextroomtohers,withthedooropenbetweenus。Therewassomethingsostrangeanddreadfulinthelonelinessandemptinessofthehouse,thatIwasglad,onmyside,tohaveacompanionnearme。Herladyshipsatuplate,readinglettersandburningthem,andemptyingherdrawersandcabinetsoflittlethingssheprized,asifsheneverexpectedtoreturntoBlackwaterPark。Hersleepwassadlydisturbedwhensheatlastwenttobed——shecriedoutinitseveraltimes,oncesoloudthatshewokeherself。Whateverherdreamswere,shedidnotthinkfittocommunicatethemtome。Perhaps,inmysituation,Ihadnorighttoexpectthatsheshoulddoso。Itmatterslittlenow。Iwassorryforher,Iwasindeedheartilysorryforherallthesame。
Thenextdaywasfineandsunny。SirPercivalcameup,afterbreakfast,totellusthatthechaisewouldbeatthedoorataquartertotwelve——thetraintoLondonstoppingatourstationattwentyminutesafter。HeinformedLadyGlydethathewasobligedtogoout,butaddedthathehopedtobebackbeforesheleft。Ifanyunforeseenaccidentdelayedhim,Iwastoaccompanyhertothestation,andtotakespecialcarethatshewasintimeforthetrain。SirPercivalcommunicatedthesedirectionsveryhastily——walkinghereandthereabouttheroomallthetime。Herladyshiplookedattentivelyafterhimwhereverhewent。Heneveroncelookedatherinreturn。
Sheonlyspokewhenhehaddone,andthenshestoppedhimasheapproachedthedoor,byholdingoutherhand。
`Ishallseeyounomore,’shesaid。inaverymarkedmanner。`Thisisourparting——ourparting,itmaybeforever。Willyoutrytoforgiveme,Percival,asheartilyasIforgiveyou?’
Hisfaceturnedofanawfulwhitenessallover,andgreatbeadsofperspirationbrokeoutonhisbaldforehead。`Ishallcomeback,’hesaid,andmadeforthedoor,ashastilyasifhiswife’sfarewellwordshadfrightenedhimoutoftheroom。
IhadneverlikedSirPercival,butthemannerinwhichheleftLadyGlydemademefeelashamedofhavingeatenhisbreadandlivedinhisservice。IthoughtofsayingafewcomfortingandChristianwordstothepoorlady,buttherewassomethinginherface,asshelookedafterherhusbandwhenthedoorclosedonhim,thatmademealtermymindandkeepsilence
Atthetimenamedthechaisedrewupatthegates。Herladyshipwasright——SirPercivalnevercameback。Iwaitedforhimtillthelastmoment,andwaitedinvain。
Nopositiveresponsibilitylayonmyshoulders,andyetIdidnotfeeleasyinmymind。`Itisofyourownfreewill,’Isaid,asthechaisedrovethroughthelodge-gates,`thatyourladyshipgoestoLondon?’
`Iwillgoanywhere,’sheanswered,`toendthedreadfulsuspensethatIamsufferingatthismoment。’
ShehadmademefeelalmostasanxiousandasuncertainaboutMissHalcombeasshefeltherself。Ipresumedtoaskhertowritemealine,ifallwentwellinLondon。Sheanswered,`Mostwillingly,MrsMichelson。’
`Weallhaveourcrossestobear,mylady,’Isaid,seeinghersilentandthoughtful,aftershehadpromisedtowrite。
Shemadenoreply——sheseemedtobetoomuchwrappedupinherownthoughtstoattendtome。
`Ifearyourladyshiprestedbadlylastnight,’Iremarked,afterwaitingalittle。
`Yes,’shesaid,Iwasterriblydisturbedbydreams。’
`Indeed,mylady?’Ithoughtshewasgoingtotellmeherdreams,butno,whenshespokenextitwasonlytoaskaquestion。
`YoupostedthelettertoMrsVeseywithyourownhands?’
`Yes,myLady。’
`DidSirPercivalsay,yesterday,thatCountFoscowastomeetmeattheterminusinLondon?’
`Hedid,mylady。’
ShesighedheavilywhenIansweredthatlastquestion,andsaidnomore。
Wearrivedatthestation,withhardlytwominutestospare。Thegardener(whohaddrivenus)managedabouttheluggage,whileItooktheticket。ThewhistleofthetrainwassoundingwhenIjoinedherladyshipontheplatform。Shelookedverystrangely,andpressedherhandoverherheart,asifsomesuddenpainorfrighthadovercomeheratthatmoment。
`Iwishyouweregoingwithme!’shesaid,catchingeagerlyatmyarmwhenIgavehertheticket。
Iftherehadbeentime,ifIhadfeltthedaybeforeasIfeltthen,Iwouldhavemademyarrangementstoaccompanyher,eventhoughthedoingsohadobligedmetogiveSirPercivalwarningonthespot。Asitwas,herwishes,expressedatthelastmomentonly,wereexpressedtoolateformetocomplywiththem。SheseemedtounderstandthisherselfbeforeIcouldexplainit,anddidnotrepeatherdesiretohavemeforatravellingcompanion。Thetraindrewupattheplatform。Shegavethegardenerapresentforhischildren,andtookmyhand,inhersimpleheartymanner,beforeshegotintothecarriage。
`Youhavebeenverykindtomeandtomysister,’shesaid——`kindwhenwewerebothfriendless。Ishallrememberyougratefully,aslongasIlivetorememberanyone。Good-bye——andGodblessyou!’
Shespokethosewordswithatoneandalookwhichbroughtthetearsintomyeyes——shespokethemasifshewasbiddingmefarewellforever。
`Good-bye,mylady,’Isaid,puttingherintothecarriage,andtryingtocheerher;`good-bye,forthepresentonly;good-bye,withmybestandkindestwishesforhappiertimes。’
Sheshookherhead,andshudderedasshesettledherselfinthecarriage。Theguardclosedthedoor。`Doyoubelieveindreams?’shewhisperedtomeatthewindow。`Mydreams,lastnight,weredreamsIhaveneverhadbefore。Theterrorofthemishangingovermestill。’ThewhistlesoundedbeforeIcouldanswer,andthetrainmoved。Herpalequietfacelookedatmeforthelasttime——lookedsorrowfullyandsolemnlyfromthewindow。Shewavedherhand,andIsawhernomore。
Towardsfiveo’clockontheafternoonofthatsameday,havingalittletimetomyselfinthemidstofthehouseholddutieswhichnowpresseduponme,Isatdownaloneinmyownroom,totryandcomposemymindwiththevolumeofmyhusband’sSermons。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIfoundmyattentionwanderingoverthosepiousandcheeringwords。ConcludingthatLadyGlyde’sdeparturemusthavedisturbedmefarmoreseriouslythanIhadmyselfsupposed,Iputthebookaside,andwentouttotakeaturninthegarden。SirPercivalhadnotyetreturned,tomyknowledge,soIcouldfeelnohesitationaboutshowingmyselfinthegrounds。
Onturningthecornerofthehouse,andgainingaviewofthegarden,Iwasstartledbyseeingastrangerwalkinginit。Thestrangerwasawoman——shewasloungingalongthepathwithherhacktome。andwasgatheringtheflowers。
AsIapproachedsheheardme,andturnedround。
Mybloodcurdledinmyveins。ThestrangewomaninthegardenwasMrsRubelle!
Icouldneithermorenorspeak。Shecameuptome,ascomposedlyasever,withherflowersinherhand。
`Whatisthematter,ma’am?’shesaidquietly。
`Youhere!’Igaspedout。`NotgonetoLondon!NotgonetoCumberland!’
MrsRubellesmeltatherflowerswithasmileofmaliciouspity。
`Certainlynot,’shesaid。`IhaveneverleftBlackwaterPark。’
Isummonedbreathenoughandcourageenoughforanotherquestion。
`WhereisMissHalcombe?’
MrsRubellefairlylaughedatmethistime,andrepliedinthesewords——
`MissHalcombe,ma’am,hasnotleftBlackwaterParkeither。’
MISSHALCOMBEhadneverleftBlackwaterPark!
WhenIheardthatastoundinganswer,allmythoughtswerestartledbackontheinstanttomypartingwithLadyGlyde。IcanhardlysayIreproachedmyself,butatthatmomentIthinkIwouldhavegivenmanyayear’shardsavingstohaveknownfourhoursearlierwhatIknewnow。
MrsRubellewaited,quietlyarranginghernosegay,asifsheexpectedmetosaysomething。
Icouldsaynothing。IthoughtofLadyGlyde’sworn-outenergiesandweaklyhealth,andItrembledforthetimewhentheshockofthediscoverythatIhadmadewouldfallonher。Foraminuteormoremyfearsforthepoorladiessilencedme。AttheendofthattimeMrsRubellelookedupsidewaysfromherflowers,andsaid,`HereisSirPercival,ma’am,returnedfromhisride。’
Isawhimassoonasshedid。Hecametowardsus,slashingviciouslyattheflowerswithhisriding-whip。Whenhewasnearenoughtoseemyfacehestopped,struckathisbootwiththewhip,andburstoutlaughing,soharshlyandsoviolentlythatthebirdsflewaway,startled,fromthetreebywhichhestood。
`Well。MrsMichelson,’hesaid,`youhavefounditoutatlast,haveyou?’
Imadenoreply。HeturnedtoMrsRubelle。
`Whendidyoushowyourselfinthegarden?’
`Ishowedmyselfabouthalfanhourago,sir。YousaidImighttakemylibertyagainassoonasLadyGlydehadgoneawaytoLondon。’
`Quiteright。Idon’tblameyouIonlyaskedthequestion。’Hewaitedamoment,andthenaddressedhimselfoncemoretome。`Youcan’tbelieveit,canyou?’hesaidmockingly。`Here!comealongandseeforyourself。’
Heledthewayroundtothefrontofthehouse。Ifollowedhim,andMrsRubellefollowedme。Afterpassingthroughtheirongateshestopped,andpointedwithhiswhiptothedisusedmiddlewingofthebuilding。
`There!’hesaid。`Lookupatthefirstfloor。YouknowtheoldElizabethanbedrooms?MissHalcombeissnugandsafeinoneofthebestofthematthismoment。Takeherin,MrsRubelle(youhavegotyourkey?);takeMrsMichelsonin,andletherowneyessatisfyherthatthereisnodeceptionthistime。’
Thetoneinwhichhespoketome。andtheminuteortwothathadpassedsinceweleftthegarden。helpedmetorecovermyspiritsalittle。WhatImighthavedoneatthiscriticalmoment,ifallmylifehadbeenpassedinservice,Icannotsay。Asitwas,possessingthefeelings,theprinciples,andthebringingupofalady,Icouldnothesitateabouttherightcoursetopursue。Mydutytomyself,andmydutytoLadyGlyde,alikeforbademetoremainintheemploymentofamanwhohadshamefullydeceivedusbothbyaseriesofatrociousfalsehoods。
`Imustbegpermission,SirPercival,tospeakafewwordstoyouinprivate,’Isaid。`Havingdoneso,IshallbereadytoproceedwiththispersontoMissHalcombe’sroom。’
MrsRubelle,whomIhadindicatedbyaslightturnofmyhead,insolentlysniffedathernosegayandwalkedaway,withgreatdeliberation,towardsthehousedoor。
`Well,’saidSirPercivalsharply,`whatisitnow?’
`Iwishtomention,sir,thatIamdesirousofresigningthesituationInowholdatBlackwaterPark。’Thatwasliterallyhowlputit。Iwasresolvedthatthefirstwordsspokeninhispresenceshouldbewordswhichexpressedmyintentiontoleavehisservice。
Heeyedmewithoneofhisblackestlooks,andthrusthishandssavagelyintothepocketsofhisriding-coat。
`Why?’hesaid,`why,Ishouldliketoknow?’
`Itisnotforme,SirPercival,toexpressanopiniononwhathastakenplaceinthishouse。Idesiretogivenooffence。ImerelywithtosaythatIdonotfeelitconsistentwithmydutytoLadyGlydeandtomyselftoremainanylongerinyourservice。’
`Isitconsistentwithyourdutytometostandthere,castingsuspiciononmetomyface?’hebrokeoutinhismostviolentmanner。`Iseewhatyou’redrivingat。Youhavetakenyourownmean,underhandviewofaninnocentdeceptionpractisedonLadyGlydeforherowngood。Itwasessentialtoherhealththatsheshouldhavea。changeofairimmediately,andyouknowaswellasIdoshewouldneverhavegoneawayifshehadbeentoldMissHalcombewasstilllefthere。Shehasbeendeceivedinherowninterests——andIdon’tcarewhoknowsit。Go,ifyoulike——thereareplentyofhousekeepersasgoodasyoutobehadfortheasking。Gowhenyouplease——buttakecarehowyouspreadscandalsaboutmeandmyaffairswhenyou’reoutofmyservice。Tellthetruth,andnothingbutthetruth,oritwillbetheworseforyou!SeeMissHalcombeforyourself——seeifshehasn’tbeenaswelltakencareofinonepartofthehouseasintheother。Rememberthedoctor’sownordersthatLadyGlydewastohaveachangeofairattheearliestpossibleopportunity。Bearallthatwellinmind,andthensayanythingagainstmeandmyproceedingsifyoudare!’
Hepouredoutthesewordsfiercely,allinabreath,walkingbackwardsandforwards,andstrikingabouthimintheairwithhiswhip。
Nothingthathesaidordidshookmyopinionofthedisgracefulseriesoffalsehoodsthathehadtoldinmypresencethedaybefore,orofthecrueldeceptionbywhichhehadseparatedLadyGlydefromhersister,andhadsentheruselesslytoLondon,whenshewashalfdistractedwithanxietyonMissHalcombe’saccount。Inaturallykeptthesethoughtstomyself,andsaidnothingmoretoirritatehim;butIwasnotthelessresolvedtopersistinmypurpose。Asoftanswerturnethawaywrath,andIsuppressedmyownfeelingsaccordinglywhenitwasmyturntoreply。
`WhileIaminyourservice,SirPercival,’Isaid。`IhopeIknowmydutywellenoughnottoinquireintoyourmotives。WhenIamoutofyourservice,IhopeIknowmyownplacewellenoughnottospeakofmatterswhichdon’tconcernme——’
`Whendoyouwanttogo?’heasked,interruptingmewithoutceremony。`Don’tsupposeIamanxioustokeepyou——don’tsupposeIcareaboutyourleavingthehouse。Iamperfectlyfairandopeninthismatter,fromfirsttolast。Whendoyouwanttogo?’
`Ishouldwishtoleaveatyourearliestconvenience,SirPercival-’
`Myconveniencehasnothingtodowithit。Ishallbeoutofthehouseforgoodandalltomorrowmorning,andIcansettleyouraccounttonight。Ifyouwanttostudyanybody’sconvenience,ithadbetterbeMissHalcombe’s。MrsRubelle’stimeisuptoday,andshehasreasonsforwishingtobeinLondontonight。Ifyougoatonce,MissHalcombewon’thaveasoulleftheretolookafterher。’
IhopeitisunnecessaryformetosaythatIwasquiteincapableofdesertingMissHalcombeinsuchanemergencyashadnowbefallenLadyGlydeandherself。AfterfirstdistinctlyascertainingfromSirPercivalthatMrsRubellewascertaintoleaveatonceifItookherplace,andafteralsoobtainingpermissiontoarrangeforMrDawson’sresuminghisattendanceonhispatient,IwillinglyconsentedtoremainatBlackwaterParkuntilMissHalcombenolongerrequiredmyservices。ItwassettledthatIshouldgiveSirPercival’ssolicitoraweek’snoticebeforeIleft,andthathewastoundertakethenecessaryarrangementsforappointingmysuccessor。Thematterwasdiscussedinveryfewwords。AtitsconclusionSirPercivalabruptlyturnedonhisheel,andleftmefreetojoinMrsRubelle。Thatsingularforeignpersonhadbeensittingcomposedlyonthedoorstepallthistime,waitingtillIcouldfollowhertoMissHalcombe’sroom。
Ihadhardlywalkedhalf-waytowardsthehousewhenSirPercival,whohadwithdrawnintheoppositedirection,suddenlystoppedandcalledmeback。
`Whyareyouleavingmyservice?’heasked。
Thequestionwassoextraordinary,afterwhathadjustpassedbetweenus,thatIhardlyknewwhattosayinanswertoit。
`Mind!Idon’tknowwhyyouaregoing,’hewenton。`Youmustgiveareasonforleavingme,Isuppose,whenyougetanothersituation。Whatreason?Thebreakingupofthefamily?Isthatit?’
`Therecanbenopositiveobjection,SirPercival,tothatreason——’
`Verywell!That’sallIwanttoknow。Ifpeopleapplyforyourcharacter,that’syourreason,statedbyyourself。Yougoinconsequenceofthebreakingupofthefamily。’
HeturnedawayagainbeforeIcouldsayanotherword,andwalkedoutrapidlyintothegrounds。Hismannerwasasstrangeashislanguage。Iacknowledgehealarmedme。
EventhepatienceofMrsRubellewasgettingexhausted,whenIjoinedheratthehousedoor。
`Atlast!’shesaid,withashrugofherleanforeignshoulders。Sheledthewayintotheinhabitedsideofthehouse,ascendedthestairs,andopenedwithherkeythedoorattheendofthepassage,whichcommunicatedwiththeoldElizabethanrooms——adoorneverpreviouslyused,inmytime,atBlackwaterPark。TheroomsthemselvesIknewwell,havingenteredthemmyselfonvariousoccasionsfromtheothersideofthehouse。MrsRubellestoppedatthethirddooralongtheoldgallery,handedmethekeyofit,withthekeyofthedoorofcommunication,andtoldmeIshouldfindMissHalcombeinthatroom。BeforeIwentinIthoughtitdesirabletomakeherunderstandthatherattendancehadceased。Accordingly,Itoldherinplainwordsthatthechargeofthesickladyhenceforthdevolvedentirelyonmyself。
`Iamgladtohearit,ma’am,’saidMrsRubelle。`Iwanttogoverymuch。’
`Doyouleavetoday?’Iasked,tomakesureofher。
`Nowthatyouhavetakencharge,ma’am,Ileaveinhalfanhour’stime。SirPercivalhaskindlyplacedatmydispositionthegardener,andthechaise,wheneverIwantthem。Ishallwanttheminhalfanhour’stimetogotothestation。Iampackedupinanticipationalready。Iwishyougood-dayma’am。’
Shedroppedabriskcurtsey,andwalkedhackalongthegallery,hummingalittletune,andkeepingtimetoitcheerfullywiththenosegayinherhand。IamsincerelythankfultosaythatwasthelastIsawofMrsRubelle。
WhenIwentintotheroomMissHalcombewasasleep。Ilookedatheranxiously。asshelayinthedismal,high,old-fashionedbed。ShewascertainlynotinanyrespectalteredfortheworsesinceIhadseenherlast。Shehadnotbeenneglected,Iamboundtoadmit,inanywaythatIcouldperceive。Theroomwasdreary,anddusty,anddark,butthewindow(lookingonasolitarycourt-yardatthebackofthehouse)wasopenedtoletinthefreshair,andallthatcouldbedonetomaketheplacecomfortablehadbeendone。ThewholecrueltyofSirPercival’sdeceptionhadfallenonpoorLadyGlyde。Theonlyill-usagewhicheitherheorMrsRubellehadinflictedonMissHalcombeconsisted,asfarasIcouldsee,inthefirstoffenceofhidingheraway。
Istoleback,leavingthesickladystillpeacefullyasleep。togivethegardenerinstructionsaboutbringingthedoctor。Ibeggedtheman,afterhehadtakenMrsRubelletothestation,todriveroundbyMrDawson’s,andleaveamessageinmyname,askinghimtocallandseeme。Iknewhewouldcomeonmyaccount。andIknewhewouldremainwhenhefoundCountFoscohadleftthehouse。
Induecourseoftimethegardenerreturned,andsaidthathehaddrivenroundbyMrDawson’sresidence,afterleavingMrsRubelleatthestation。Thedoctorsentmewordthathewaspoorlyinhealthhimself,butthathewouldcall,ifpossible,thenextmorning。
Havingdeliveredhismessagethegardenerwasabouttowithdraw,butIstoppedhimtorequestthathewouldcomebackbeforedark,andsitupthatnight,inoneoftheemptybedrooms,soastobewithincallincaseIwantedhim。Heunderstoodreadilyenoughmyunwillingnesstobeleftaloneallnightinthemostdesolatepartofthatdesolatehouse,andwearrangedthatheshouldcomeinbetweeneightandnine。
Hecamepunctually,andIfoundcausetobethankfulthatIhadadoptedtheprecautionofcallinghimin。BeforemidnightSirPercival’sstrangetemperbrokeoutinthemostviolentandmostalarmingmanner,andifthegardenerhadnotbeenonthespottopacifyhimontheinstant,Iamafraidtothinkwhatmighthavehappened。
Almostalltheafternoonandeveninghehadbeenwalkingaboutthehouseandgroundsinanunsettled,excitablemanner,having,inallprobability,asIthought,takenanexcessivequantityofwineathissolitarydinner。Howeverthatmaybe,Iheardhisvoicecallingloudlyandangrilyinthenewwingofthehouse,asIwastakingaturnbackwardsandforwardsalongthegallerythelastthingatnight。Thegardenerimmediatelyrandowntohim,andIclosedthedoorofcommunication,tokeepthealarm,ifpossible,fromreachingMissHalcombe’sears。Itwasfullhalfanhourbeforethegardenercameback。Hedeclaredthathismasterwasquiteoutofhissenses——notthroughtheexcitementofdrink,asIhadsupposed,butthroughakindofpanicorfrenzyofmind,forwhichitwasimpossibletoaccount。HehadfoundSirPercivalwalkingbackwardsandforwardsbyhimselfinthehall,swearing,witheveryappearanceofthemostviolentpassion,thathewouldnotstopanotherminutealoneinsuchadungeonashisownhouse,andthathewouldtakethefirststageofhisjourneyimmediatelyinthemiddleofthenight。Thegardener,onapproachinghim,hadbeenhuntedout,withoathsandthreats,togetthehorseandchaisereadyinstantly。InaquarterofanhourSirPercivalhadjoinedhimintheyard,hadjumpedintothechaise,and,lashingthehorseintoagallop,haddrivenhimselfaway,withhisfaceaspaleasashesinthemoonlight。Thegardenerhadheardhimshoutingandcursingatthelodge-keepertogetupandopenthegate——hadheardthewheelsrollfuriouslyonagaininthestillnight,whenthegatewasunlocked——andknewnomore。
Thenextday,oradayortwoafter,Iforgetwhich,thechaisewasbroughtbackfromKnowlesbury,ournearesttown,bytheostlerattheoldinn。SirPercivalhadstoppedthere,andhadafterwardsleftbythetrain——forwhatdestinationthemancouldnottell。Ineverreceivedanyfurtherinformation,eitherfromhimselforfromanyoneelse,ofSirPercival’sproceedings,andIamnotevenaware,atthismoment,whetherheisinEnglandoroutofit。HeandIhavenotmetsincehedroveawaylikeanescapedcriminalfromhisownhouse,anditismyferventhopeandprayerthatwemaynevermeetagain。
Myownpartofthissadfamilystoryisnowdrawingtoanend。
IhavebeeninformedthattheparticularsofMissHalcombe’swaking,andofwhatpassedbetweenuswhenshefoundmesittingbyherbedside,arenotmaterialtothepurposewhichistobeansweredbythepresentnarrative。Itwillbesufficientformetosayinthisplace,thatshewasnotherselfconsciousofthemeansadoptedtoremoveherfromtheinhabitedtotheuninhabitedpartofthehouse。Shewasinadeepsleepatthetime,whethernaturallyorartificiallyproducedshecouldnotsay。InmyabsenceatTorquay,andintheabsenceofalltheresidentservantsexceptMargaretPorcher(whowasperpetuallyeating,drinking,orsleeping,whenshewasnotatwork),thesecrettransferofMissHalcombefromonepartofthehousetotheotherwasnodoubteasilyperformed。MrsRubelle(asIdiscoveredformyself,inlookingabouttheroom)hadprovisions,andallothernecessaries,togetherwiththemeansofheatingwater,broth,andsoon,withoutkindlingafire,placedatherdisposalduringthefewdaysofherimprisonmentwiththesicklady。ShehaddeclinedtoanswerthequestionswhichMissHalcombenaturallyput,buthadnot,inotherrespects,treatedherwithunkindnessorneglect。ThedisgraceoflendingherselftoaviledeceptionistheonlydisgracewithwhichIcanconscientiouslychargeMrsRubelle。
Ineedwritenoparticulars(andIamrelievedtoknowit)oftheeffectproducedonMissHalcombebythenewsofLadyGlyde’sdeparture,orbythefarmoremelancholytidingswhichreachedusonlytoosoonafterwardsatBlackwaterPark。InbothcasesIpreparedhermindbeforehandasgentlyandascarefullyaspossible,havingthedoctor’sadvicetoguideme,inthelastcaseonly,throughMrDawson’sbeingtoounwelltocometothehouseforsomedaysafterIhadsentforhim。Itwasasadtime,atimewhichitafflictsmetothinkofortowriteofnow。ThepreciousblessingsofreligiousconsolationwhichIendeavouredtoconveywerelonginreachingMissHalcombe’sheart,butIhopeandbelievetheycamehometoheratlast。Ineverlefthertillherstrengthwasrestored。Thetrainwhichtookmeawayfromthatmiserablehousewasthetrainwhichtookherawayalso。WepartedverymournfullyinLondon。IremainedwitharelativeatIslington,andshewentontoMrFairlie’shouseinCumberland。
IhaveonlyafewlinesmoretowritebeforeIclosethispainfulstatement。Theyaredictatedbyasenseofduty。
Inthefirstplace,Iwishtorecordmyownpersonalconvictionthatnoblamewhatever,inconnectionwiththeeventswhichIhavenowrelated,attachestoCountFosco。Iaminformedthatadreadfulsuspicionhasbeenraised,andthatsomeveryseriousconstructionsareplaceduponhislordship’sconduct。MypersuasionoftheCount’sinnocenceremains,however,quiteunshaken。IfheassistedSirPercivalinsendingmetoTorquay,heassistedunderadelusion,forwhich,asaforeignerandastranger,hewasnottoblame。IfhewasconcernedinbringingMrsRubelletoBlackwaterPark,itwashismisfortuneandnothisfault,whenthatforeignpersonwasbaseenoughtoassistadeceptionplannedandcarriedoutbythemasterofthehouse。Iprotest,intheinterestsofmorality,againstblamebeinggratuitouslyandwantonlyattachedtotheproceedingsoftheCount。
Inthesecondplace,IdesiretoexpressmyregretatmyowninabilitytoremembertheprecisedayonwhichLadyGlydeleftBlackwaterParkforLondon。Iamtoldthatitisofthelastimportancetoascertaintheexactdateofthatlamentablejourney,andIhaveanxiouslytaxedmymemorytorecallit。Theefforthasbeeninvain。IcanonlyremembernowthatitwastowardsthelatterpartofJuly。Weallknowthedifficulty,afteralapseoftime,offixingpreciselyonapastdateunlessithasbeenpreviouslywrittendown。ThatdifficultyisgreatlyincreasedinmycasebythealarmingandconfusingeventswhichtookplaceabouttheperiodofLadyGlyde’sdeparture。IheartilywishIhadmadeamemorandumatthetime。Iheartilywishmymemoryofthedatewasasvividasmymemoryofthatpoorlady’sface,whenitlookedatmesorrowfullyforthelasttimefromthecarriagewindow。
THESTORYCONTINUEDINSEVERALNARRATIVES
1。THENARRATIVEOFHESTERPINHORN,COOKINTHESERVICEOFCOUNTFOSCO
Takendownfromherownstatement
IAMsorrytosaythatIhaveneverlearnttoreadorwrite。Ihavebeenahard-workingwomanallmylife,andhavekeptagoodcharacter。Iknowthatitisasinandwickednesstosaythethingwhichisnot,andIwilltrulybewareofdoingsoonthisoccasion。AllthatIknowIwilltell,andIhumblybegthegentlemanwhotakesthisdowntoputmylanguagerightashegoeson,andtomakeallowancesformybeingnoscholar。
InthislastsummerIhappenedtobeoutofplace(throughnofaultofmyown),andIheardofasituationasplaincook,atNumberFive,ForestRoad,StJohn’sWood。Itooktheplaceontrial。Mymaster’snamewasFosco。MymistresswasanEnglishlady。HewasCountandshewasCountess。Therewasagirltodohousemaid’sworkwhenIgotthere。Shewasnotover-cleanortidy,buttherewasnoharminher。Iandsheweretheonlyservantsinthehouse。
Ourmasterandmistresscameafterwegotin;andassoonastheydidcomeweweretold,downstairs,thatcompanywasexpectedfromthecountry。
Thecompanywasmymistress’sniece,andthebackbedroomonthefirstfloorwasgotreadyforher。MymistressmentionedtomethatLadyGlyde(thatwashername)wasinpoorhealth,andthatImustbeparticularinmycookingaccordingly。Shewastocomethatday,aswellasIcanremember——butwhateveryoudo,don’ttrustmymemoryinthematter。Iamsorrytosayit’snouseaskingmeaboutdaysofthemonth,andsuch-like。ExceptSundays,halfmytimeItakenoheedofthem,beingahard-workingwomanandnoscholar。AllIknowisLadyGlydecame,andwhenshedidcome,afinefrightshegaveusallsurely。Idon’tknowhowmasterbroughthertothehouse,beinghardatworkatthetime。Buthedidbringherintheafternoon,Ithink,andthehousemaidopenedthedoortothem,andshowedthemintotheparlour。Beforeshehadbeenlongdowninthekitchenagainwithme,weheardahurry-skurryupstairs,andtheparlourbellringinglikemad,andmymistress’svoicecallingoutforhelp。
Webothranup,andtherewesawtheladylaidonthesofa,withherfaceghastlywhite,andherhandsfastclenched,andherheaddrawndowntooneside。Shehadbeentakenwithasuddenfright,mymistresssaid,andmasterhetoldusshewasinafitofconvulsions。Iranout,knowingtheneighbourhoodalittlebetterthantherestofthem,tofetchthenearestdoctor’shelp。ThenearesthelpwasatGoodricke’sandGarth’s,whoworkedtogetheraspartners,andhadagoodnameandconnection,asIhaveheard,allroundStJohn’sWood。MrGoodrickewasin,andhecamebackwithmedirectly。
Itwassometimebeforehecouldmakehimselfofmuchuse。Thepoorunfortunateladyfelloutofonefitintoanother,andwentonsotillshewasquiteweariedout,andashelplessasanew-bornbabe。Wethengothertobed。MrGoodrickewentawaytohishouseformedicine,andcamehackagaininaquarterofanhourorless。Besidesthemedicinehebroughtabitofhollowmahoganywoodwithhim,shapedlikeakindoftrumpet,andafterwaitingalittlewhile,heputoneendoverthelady’sheartandtheothertohisear,andlistenedcarefully。
Whenhehaddonehesaystomymistress,whowasintheroom,`Thisisaveryseriouscase,’hesays,`IrecommendyoutowritetoLadyGlyde’sfriendsdirectly。’Mymistresssaystohim,`Isitheart-disease?’Andhesays,`Yes,heart-diseaseofamostdangerouskind。’Hetoldherexactlywhathethoughtwasthematter,whichIwasnotcleverenoughtounderstand。ButIknowthis,heendedbysayingthathewasafraidneitherhishelpnoranyotherdoctor’shelpwaslikelytobeofmuchservice。
Mymistresstookthisillnewsmorequietlythanmymaster。Hewasabig,fat,oddsortofelderlyman,whokeptbirdsandwhitemice,andspoketothemasiftheyweresomanyChristianchildren。Heseemedterriblycutupbywhathadhappened。`Ah!poorLadyGlyde!poordearLadyGlyde!’hesays,andwentstalkingabout,wringinghisfathandsmorelikeaplay-actorthanagentleman。Foronequestionmymistressaskedthedoctoraboutthelady’schancesofgettinground,heaskedagoodfiftyatleast。Ideclarehequitetormentedusall,andwhenhewasquietatlast,outhewentintothebitofbackgarden,pickingtrumperylittlenosegays,andaskingmetotakethemupstairsandmakethesick-roomlookprettywiththem。Asifthatdidanygood。Ithinkhemusthavebeen,attimes,alittlesoftinhishead。Buthewasnotabadmaster——hehadamonstrousciviltongueofhisown,andajolly,easy,coaxingwaywithhim。Ilikedhimadealbetterthanmymistress。Shewasahardone,ifevertherewasahardoneyet。
Towardsnight-timetheladyrousedupalittle。Shehadbeensoweariedout,beforethat,bytheconvulsions,thatsheneverstirredhandorfoot,orspokeawordtoanybody。Shemovedinthebednow,andstaredaboutherattheroomandusinit。Shemusthavebeenanice-lookingladywhenwell,withlighthair,andblueeyesandallthat。Herrestwastroubledatnight——atleastsoIheardfrommymistress,whosatupalonewithher。IonlywentinoncebeforegoingtobedtoseeifIcouldbeofanyuse,andthenshewastalkingtoherselfinaconfused,ramblingmanner。Sheseemedtowantsadlytospeaktosomebodywhowasabsentfromhersomewhere。Icouldn’tcatchthenamethefirsttime,andthesecondtimemasterknockedatthedoor,withhisregularmouthfulofquestions,andanotherofhistrumperynosegays。
WhenIwentinearlythenextmorning,theladywascleanwornoutagain,andlayinakindoffaintsleep。MrGoodrickebroughthispartner,MrGarth,withhimtoadvise。Theysaidshemustnotbedisturbedoutofherrestonanyaccount。Theyaskedmymistressmanyquestions,attheotherendoftheroom,aboutwhatthelady’shealthhadbeeninpasttimes,andwhohadattendedher,andwhethershehadeversufferedmuchandlongtogetherunderdistressofmind。Iremembermymistresssaid`Yes’tothatlastquestion。AndMrGoodrickelookedatMrGarth,andshookhishead;andMrGarthlookedatMrGoodricke,andshookhishead。Theyseemedtothinkthatthedistressmighthavesomethingtodowiththemischiefatthelady’sheart。Shewasbutafrailthingtolookat,poorcreature!Verylittlestrengthatanytime,Ishouldsay——verylittlestrength。
Lateronthesamemorning,whenshewoke,theladytookasuddenturn,andgotseeminglyagreatdealbetter。Iwasnotletinagaintoseeher,nomorewasthehousemaid,forthereasonthatshewasnottobedisturbedbystrangers。WhatIheardofherbeingbetterwasthroughmymaster。Hewasinwonderfulgoodspiritsaboutthechange,andlookedinatthekitchenwindowfromthegarden,withhisgreatbigcurly-brimmedwhitehaton,togoout。
`GoodMrsCook,’sayshe,`LadyGlydeisbetter。Mymindismoreeasythanitwas,andIamgoingouttostretchmylegswithasunnylittlesummerwalk。ShallIorderforyou,shallImarketforyou,MrsCook?Whatareyoumakingthere?Anicetartfordinner?Muchcrust,ifyouplease——muchcrispcrust,mydear,thatmeltsandcrumblesdeliciousinthemouth。’Thatwashisway。Hewaspastsixty,andfondofpastry。Justthinkofthat!
Thedoctorcameagainintheforenoon,andsawforhimselfthatLadyGlydehadwokeupbetter。Heforbidustotalktoher,ortolethertalktous,incaseshewasthatwaydisposed,sayingshemustbekeptquietbeforeallthings,andencouragedtosleepasmuchaspossible。ShedidnotseemtowanttotalkwheneverIsawher,exceptovernight。whenIcouldn’tmakeoutwhatshewassaying——sheseemedtoomuchworndown。MrGoodrickewasnotnearlyinsuchgoodspiritsaboutherasmaster。Hesaidnothingwhenhecamedownstairs,exceptthathewouldcallagainatfiveo’clock。
Aboutthattime(whichwasbeforemastercamehomeagain)thebellranghardfromthebedroom,andmymistressranoutintothelanding,andcalledtometogoforMrGoodricke,andtellhimtheladyhadfainted。Igotonmybonnetandshawl,when,asgoodluckwouldhaveit,thedoctorhimselfcametothehouseforhispromisedvisit。
Ilethimin,andwentupstairsalongwithhim。`LadyGlydewasjustasusual,’saysmymistresstohimatthedoor;`shewasawake,andlookingaboutherinastrange,forlornmanner,whenIheardhergiveasortofhalfcry,andshefaintedinamoment。’Thedoctorwentuptothebed,andstoopeddownoverthesicklady。Helookedveryserious,allonasudden,atthesightofher,andputhishandonherheart。
MymistressstaredhardinMrGoodricke’sface。`Notdead!’saysshe,whispering,andturningallofatremblefromheadtofoot。
`Yes,’saysthedoctor,veryquietandgrave。`Dead。IwasafraiditwouldhappensuddenlywhenIexaminedherheartyesterday。’Mymistresssteppedbackfromthebedsidewhilehewasspeaking,andtrembledandtrembledagain。`Dead!’shewhisPerstoherself;`deadsosuddenly!deadsosoon!WhatwilltheCountsay?’MrGoodrickeadvisedhertogodownstairs,andquietherselfalittle。`Youhavebeensittingupallnight,’sayshe,`andyournervesareshaken。Thisperson,’sayshe,meaningme,`thispersonwillstayintheroomtillIcansendforthenecessaryassistance。’Mymistressdidashetoldher。`ImustpreparetheCount,’shesays。`ImustcarefullypreparetheCount。’Andsosheleftus,shakingfromheadtofoot,andwentout。
`Yourmasterisaforeigner,’saysMrGoodricke,whenmymistresshadleftus。`Doesheunderstandaboutregisteringthedeath?’`Ican’trightlytell,sir,’saysI,`butIshouldthinknot。’Thedoctorconsideredaminute,andthensayshe,`Idon’tusuallydosuchthings,’sayshe,`butitmaysavethefamilytroubleinthiscaseifIregisterthedeathmyself。Ishallpassthedistrictofficeinhalfanhour’stime,andIcaneasilylookin。Mention,ifyouplease,thatIwilldoso,’`Yes,sir,’saysI,`withthanks,I’msure,foryourkindnessinthinkingofit。’`Youdon’tmindstayingheretillIcansendyoutheproperperson?’sayshe。`No,sir,’saysI;`I’llstaywiththepoorladytillthen。Isupposenothingmorecouldbedone,sir,thanwasdone?’saysI。`No,’sayshe,`nothing;shemusthavesufferedsadlybeforeeverIsawher——thecasewashopelesswhenIwascalledin。’`Ah,dearme!weallcometoit,soonerorlater,don’twe,sir?’saysI。Hegavenoanswertothat——hedidn’tseemtocareabouttalking。Hesaid,`Good-day,’andwentout。
IstoppedbythebedsidefromthattimetillthetimewhenMrGoodrickesentthepersonin,ashehadpromised。Shewas,byname,JaneGould。Iconsideredhertobearespectable-lookingwoman。Shemadenoremark,excepttosaythatsheunderstoodwhatwaswantedofher,andthatshehadwindedamanyoftheminhertime。
Howmasterborethenews,whenhefirstheardit,ismorethanIcantell,nothavingbeenpresent。WhenIdidseehimhelookedawfullyovercomebyit,tobesure。Hesatquietinacorner,withhisfathandshangingoverhisthickknees,andhisheaddown,andhiseyeslookingatnothing。Heseemednotsomuchsorry,asscaredanddazedlike,bywhathadhappened。Mymistressmanagedallthatwastobedoneaboutthefuneral。Itmusthavecostasightofmoney——thecoffin,inparticular,beingmostbeautiful。Thedeadlady’shusbandwasaway,asweheard,inforeignparts。Butmymistress(beingheraunt)settleditwithherfriendsinthecountry(Cumberland,Ithink)thatsheshouldbeburiedthere,inthesamegravealongwithhermother。Everythingwasdonehandsomely,inrespectofthefuneral,Isayagain,andmasterwentdowntoattendtheburyinginthecountryhimself。Helookedgrandinhisdeepmourning,withhisbigsolemnface,andhisslowwalk,andhisbroadhatband——thathedid!
Inconclusion,Ihavetosay,inanswertoquestionsputtome——
(i)ThatneitherInormyfellow-servanteversawmymastergiveLadyGlydeanymedicinehimself。
(2)Thathewasnever,tomyknowledgeandbelief,leftaloneintheroomwithLadyGlyde。
(3)ThatIamnotabletosaywhatcausedthesuddenfright,whichmymistressinformedmehadseizedtheladyonherfirstcomingintothehouse。Thecausewasneverexplained,eithertomeortomyfellow-servant。
Theabovestatementhasbeenreadoverinmypresence。Ihavenothingtoaddtoit,ortotakeawayfromit。Isay,onmyoathasaChristianwoman,thisisthetruth。
(Signed)HESTERPINHORN,Her+Mark。
2。THENARRATIVEOFTHEDOCTOR
TotheRegistraroftheSub-Districtinwhichtheundermentioneddeathtookplace——IherebycertifythatIattendedLadyGlyde,agedTwenty-OnelastBirthday;thatIlastsawheronThursdaythe25thJuly1850;thatshediedonthesamedayatNo。5ForestRoad,StJohn’sWood,andthatthe
CauseofherdeathDurationofdisease
AneurismNotknown
(Signed)ALFREDGOODRICKE。
Prof。Title。M。R。C。S。Eng。,L。S。A。
Address:12CroydonGardens,
StJohn’sWood。
3。THENARRATIVEOFJANEGOULD
IWASthepersonsentinbyMrGoodricketodowhatwasrightandneedfulbytheremainsofaladywhohaddiedatthehousenamedinthecertificatewhichprecedesthis。Ifoundthebodyinchargeoftheservant,HesterPinhorn。Iremainedwithit,andprepareditatthepropertimeforthegrave。Itwaslaidinthecoffininmypresence,andIafterwardssawthecoffinscreweddownprevioustoitsremoval。Whenthathadbeendone,andnotbefore,Ireceivedwhatwasduetomeandleftthehouse。IreferpersonswhomaywishtoinvestigatemycharactertoMrGoodricke。HewillbearwitnessthatIcanbetrustedtotellthetruth。
(Signed)JANEGOULD。
4。THENARRATIVEOFTHETOMBSTONE
SACRED
TOTHEMEMORYOF
LAURA,
LADYGLYDE,
WIFEOFSIRPERCIVALGLYDE,BART。,
OFBLACKWATERPARK,HAMPSHIRE,
AND
DAUGHTEROFTHELATEPHILIPFAIRLIE,ESQ。,
OFLIMMERIDGEHOUSE,INTHISPARISH。
BORNMARCH27TH,1829;
MARRIEDDECEMBER22ND,1849;
DIEDJULY25TH,1850。
5。THENARRATIVEOFWALTERHARTRIGHT
EARLYinthesummerof1850IandmysurvivingcompanionsleftthewildsandforestsofCentralAmericaforhome。Arrivedatthecoast,wetookshipthereforEngland。ThevesselwaswreckedintheGulfofMexico——Iwasamongthefewsavedfromthesea。Itwasmythirdescapefromperilofdeath。Deathbydisease,deathbytheIndians,deathbydrowning——allthreehadapproachedme;allthreehadpassedmeby。
ThesurvivorsofthewreckwererescuedbyanAmericanvesselboundforLiverpool。TheshipreachedherportonthethirteenthdayofOctober1850。Welandedlateintheafternoon,andIarrivedinLondonthesamenight。
Thesepagesarenottherecordofmywanderingsandmydangersawayfromhome。Themotiveswhichledmefrommycountryandmyfriendstoanewworldofadventureandperilareknown。Fromthatself-imposedexileIcameback,asIhadhoped,prayed,believedIshouldcomeback——achangedman。InthewatersofanewlifeIhadtemperedmynatureafresh。Inthesternschoolofextremityanddangermywillhadlearnttobestrong,myhearttoberesolute,mymindtorelyonitself。Ihadgoneouttoflyfrommyownfuture。Icamebacktofaceit,asamanshould。
TofaceitwiththatinevitablesuppressionofmyselfwhichIknewitwoulddemandfromme。Ihadpartedwiththeworstbitternessofthepast,butnotwithmyheart’sremembranceofthesorrowandthetendernessofthatmemorabletime。Ihadnotceasedtofeeltheoneirreparabledisappointmentofmylife——Ihadonlylearnttobearit。LauraFairliewasinallmythoughtswhentheshipboremeaway,andIlookedmylastatEngland。LauraFairliewasinallmythoughtswhentheshipbroughtmeback,andthemorninglightshowedthefriendlyshoreinview。
Mypentracestheoldlettersasmyheartgoesbacktotheoldlove。IwriteofherasLauraFairliestill。Itishardtothinkofher,itishardtospeakofher,byherhusband’sname。
Therearenomorewordsofexplanationtoaddonmyappearingforthesecondtimeinthesepages。Thisnarrative,ifIhavethestrengthandthecouragetowriteit,maynowgoon。
Myfirstanxietiesandfirsthopeswhenthemorningcamecentredinmymotherandmysister。Ifeltthenecessityofpreparingthemforthejoyandsurpriseofmyreturn,afteranabsenceduringwhichithadbeenimpossibleforthemtoreceiveanytidingsofmeformonthspast。EarlyinthemorningIsentalettertotheHampsteadCottage,andfolloweditmyselfinanhour’stime。
Whenthefirstmeetingwasover,whenourquietandcomposureofotherdaysbegangraduallytoreturntous,Isawsomethinginmymother’sfacewhichtoldmethatasecretoppressionlayheavyonherheart。Therewasmorethanlove——therewassorrowintheanxiouseyesthatlookedonmesotenderly——therewaspityinthekindhandthatslowlyandfondlystrengtheneditsholdonmine。Wehadnoconcealmentsfromeachother。Sheknewhowthehopeofmylifehadbeenwrecked——sheknewwhyIhadlefther。ItwasonmylipstoaskascomposedlyasIcouldifanyletterhadcomeformefromMissHalcombe,iftherewasanynewsofhersisterthatImighthear。ButwhenIlookedinmymother’sfaceIlostcouragetoputthequestioneveninthatguardedform。Icouldonlysay,doubtinglyandrestrainedly——
`Youhavesomethingtotellme。’
Mysister,whohadbeensittingoppositetous,rosesuddenlywithoutawordofexplanation——roseandlefttheroom。
Mymothermovedclosertomeonthesofaandputherarmsroundmyneck。Thosefondarmstrembled——thetearsflowedfastoverthefaithfullovingface。
`Walter!’shewhispered,`myowndarling!myheartisheavyforyou,Oh,mysonImysonItrytorememberthatIamstillleft!’
Myheadsankonherbosom。Shehadsaidallinsayingthosewords。
Itwasthemorningofthethirddaysincemyreturn——themorningofthesixteenthofOctober。
Ihadremainedwiththematthecottage——Ihadtriedhardnottoembitterthehappinessofmyreturntothemasitwasembitteredtome。Ihaddoneallmancouldtoriseaftertheshock,andacceptmyliferesignedly——toletmygreatsorrowcomeintendernesstomyheart,andnotindespair。Itwasuselessandhopeless。Notearssoothedmyachingeyes,noreliefcametomefrommysister’ssympathyormymother’slove。
OnthatthirdmorningIopenedmyhearttothem。AtlastthewordspassedmylipswhichIhadlongedtospeakonthedaywhenmymothertoldmeofherdeath。
`Letmegoawayaloneforalittlewhile,’Isaid。`IshallbearitbetterwhenIhavelookedoncemoreattheplacewhereIfirstsawher——whenIhavekneltandprayedbythegravewheretheyhavelaidhertorest。’
Idepartedonmyjourney——myjourneytothegraveofLauraFairlie。
ItwasaquietautumnafternoonwhenIstoppedatthesolitarystation,andsetforthaloneonfootbythewell-rememberedroad。Thewaningsunwasshiningfaintlythroughthinwhiteclouds——theairwaswarmandstill——thepeacefulnessofthelonelycountrywasovershadowedandsaddenedbytheinfluenceofthefallingyear。
Ireachedthemoor——Istoodagainonthebrowofthehill——Ilookedonalongthepath——andtherewerethefamiliargardentreesinthedistance,theclearsweepingsemicircleofthedrive,thehighwhitewallsofLimmeridgeHouse。Thechancesandchanges,thewanderingsanddangersofmonthsandmonthspast,allshrankandshrivelledtonothinginmymind。Itwaslikeyesterdaysincemyfeethadlasttroddenthefragrantheathyground。IthoughtIshouldseehercomingtomeetme,withherlittlestrawhatshadingherface,hersimpledressflutteringintheair,andherwell-filledsketch-bookreadyinherhand。
Oh,death,thouhastthysting!oh,grave,thouhastthyvictory!
Iturnedaside,andtherebelowmeintheglenwasthelonesomegreychurch,thePorchwhereIhadwaitedforthecomingofthewomaninwhite,thehillsencirclingthequietburial-ground,thebrookbubblingcoldoveritsstonybed。Therewasthemarblecross,fairandwhite,attheheadofthetomb——thetombthatnowroseovermotheranddaughteralike。
Iapproachedthegrave。Icrossedoncemorethelowstonestile,andbaredmyheadasItouchedthesacredground。Sacredtogentlenessandgoodness,sacredtoreverenceandgrief。
Istoppedbeforethepedestalfromwhichthecrossrose。Ononesideofit,onthesidenearesttome,thenewly-cutinscriptionmetmyeyes——thehard,clear,cruelblackletterswhichtoldthestoryofherlifeanddeath。Itriedtoreadthem。Ididreadasfarasthename。`SacredtotheMemoryofLaura——’Thekindblueeyesdimwithtears——thefairheaddroopingwearily——theinnocentpartingwordswhichimploredmetoleaveher——oh,forahappierlastmemoryofherthanthis;thememoryItookawaywithme,thememoryIbringbackwithmetohergrave!
AsecondtimeItriedtoreadtheinscription。Isawattheendthedateofherdeath,andaboveit——
Aboveittherewerelinesonthemarble——therewasanameamongthemwhichdisturbedmythoughtsofher。Iwentroundtotheothersideofthegrave,wheretherewasnothingtoread,nothingofearthlyvilenesstoforceitswaybetweenherspiritandmine。
Ikneltdownbythetomb。Ilaidmyhands,Ilaidmyheadonthebroadwhitestone,andclosedmywearyeyesontheeartharound,onthelightabove。Ilethercomebacktome。Oh,mylove!mylove!myheartmayspeaktoyounow!Itisyesterdayagainsinceweparted——yesterday,sinceyourdearhandlayinmine——yesterday,sincemyeyeslookedtheirlastonyou。Mylove!mylove!
Timehadflowedon,andsilencehadfallenlikethicknightoveritscourse。
Thefirstsoundthatcameaftertheheavenlypeacerustledfaintlylikeapassingbreathofairoverthegrassoftheburial-ground。Ihearditnearingmeslowly,untilitcamechangedtomycar——camelikefootstepsmowingonward——thenstopped。
Ilookedup。
Thesunsetwasnearathand。Thecloudshadparted——theslantinglightfellmellowoverthehills。Thelastofthedaywascoldandclearandstillinthequietvalleyofthedead。
Beyondme,intheburial-ground,standingtogetherinthecoldclearnessofthelowerlight,Isawtwowomen。Theywerelookingtowardsthetomb,lookingtowardsme。
Two。
Theycamealittleon,andstoppedagain。Theirveilsweredown,andhidtheirfacesfromme。Whentheystoppedoneofthemraisedherveil。InthestilleveninglightIsawthefaceofMarianHalcombe。
Changed,changedasifyearshadpassedoverit!Theeyeslargeandwild,andlookingatmewithastrangeterrorinthem。Thefacewornandwastedpiteously。Painandfearandgriefwrittenonheraswithabrand。
Itookonesteptowardsherfromthegrave。Shenevermoved——sheneverspoke。Theveiledwomanwithhercriedoutfaintly。Istopped。Thespringsofmylifefelllow,andtheshudderingofanunutterabledreadcreptovermefromheadtofoot。
Thewomanwiththeveiledfacemovedawayfromhercompanion,andcametowardsmeslowly。Leftbyherself,standingbyherself,MarianHalcombespoke。ItwasthevoicethatIremembered——thevoicenotchanged,likethefrightenedeyesandthewastedface。
`Mydream!mydream!’Iheardhersaythosewordssoftlyintheawfulsilence。Shesankonherknees,andraisedherclaspedhandstoheaven。`Father!strengthenhim。Father!helphiminhishourofneed。’
Thewomancameon,slowlyandsilentlycameon。Ilookedather——ather,andatnoneother,fromthatmoment。
Thevoicethatwasprayingformefalteredandsanklow——thenroseonasudden,andcalledaffrightedly,calleddespairinglytometocomeaway。
Buttheveiledwomanhadpossessionofme,bodyandsoul。Shestoppedononesideofthegrave。Westoodfacetofacewiththetombstonebetweenus。Shewasclosetotheinscriptiononthesideofthepedestal。Hergowntouchedtheblackletters。
Thevoicecamenearer,androseandrosemorepassionatelystill。`HideyourfaceIdon’tlookather!Oh,forGod’ssake,sparehim——’
Thewomanliftedherveil。
`SacredtotheMemoryofLaura,LadyGlyde——’
Laura,LadyGlyde,wasstandingbytheinscription,andwaslookingatmeoverthegrave。