第8章

类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:29395更新时间:18/12/21 16:05:01
Raskolnikovwasalreadyenteringtheroom。Hecameinlookingasthoughhehadtheutmostdifficultynottoburstoutlaughingagain。BehindhimRazumihinstrodeingawkyandawkward,shamefacedandredasapeony,withanutterlycrestfallenandferociousexpression。HisfaceandwholefigurereallywereridiculousatthatmomentandamplyjustifiedRaskolnikov’slaughter。Raskolnikov,notwaitingforanintroduction,bowedtoPorfiryPetrovitch,whostoodinthemiddleoftheroomlookinginquiringlyatthem。Heheldouthishandandshookhands,stillapparentlymakingdesperateeffortstosubduehismirthandutterafewwordstointroducehimself。ButhehadnosoonersucceededinassumingaseriousairandmutteringsomethingwhenhesuddenlyglancedagainasthoughaccidentallyatRazumihin,andcouldnolongercontrolhimself:hisstifledlaughterbrokeoutthemoreirresistiblythemorehetriedtorestrainit。TheextraordinaryferocitywithwhichRazumihinreceivedthis“spontaneous”mirthgavethewholescenetheappearanceofmostgenuinefunandnaturalness。Razumihinstrengthenedthisimpressionasthoughonpurpose。 “Fool!Youfiend,”heroared,wavinghisarmwhichatoncestruckalittleroundtablewithanemptytea-glassonit。Everythingwassentflyingandcrashing。 “Butwhybreakchairs,gentlemen?Youknowit’salosstotheCrown,”PorfiryPetrovitchquotedgaily。 Raskolnikovwasstilllaughing,withhishandinPorfiryPetrovitch’s,butanxiousnottooverdoit,awaitedtherightmomenttoputanaturalendtoit。Razumihin,completelyputtoconfusionbyupsettingthetableandsmashingtheglass,gazedgloomilyatthefragments,cursedandturnedsharplytothewindowwherehestoodlookingoutwithhisbacktothecompanywithafiercelyscowlingcountenance,seeingnothing。PorfiryPetrovitchlaughedandwasreadytogoonlaughing,butobviouslylookedforexplanations。Zametovhadbeensittinginthecorner,butheroseatthevisitors’entranceandwasstandinginexpectationwithasmileonhislips,thoughhelookedwithsurpriseandevenitseemedincredulityatthewholesceneandatRaskolnikovwithacertainembarrassment。Zametov’sunexpectedpresencestruckRaskolnikovunpleasantly。 “I’vegottothinkofthat,”hethought。“Excuseme,please,”hebegan,affectingextremeembarrassment。“Raskolnikov。” “Notatall,verypleasanttoseeyou…andhowpleasantlyyou’vecomein。…Why,won’theevensaygood-morning?”PorfiryPetrovitchnoddedatRazumihin。 “UponmyhonourIdon’tknowwhyheisinsucharagewithme。IonlytoldhimaswecamealongthathewaslikeRomeo…andprovedit。Andthatwasall,Ithink!” “Pig!”ejaculatedRazumihin,withoutturninground。 “Theremusthavebeenverygravegroundsforit,ifheissofuriousattheword,”Porfirylaughed。 “Oh,yousharplawyer!…Damnyouall!”snappedRazumihin,andsuddenlyburstingoutlaughinghimself,hewentuptoPorfirywithamorecheerfulfaceasthoughnothinghadhappened。“That’lldo!Weareallfools。Tocometobusiness。ThisismyfriendRodionRomanovitchRaskolnikov;inthefirstplacehehasheardofyouandwantstomakeyouracquaintance,andsecondly,hehasalittlematterofbusinesswithyou。Bah!Zametov,whatbroughtyouhere?Haveyoumetbefore?Haveyouknowneachotherlong?” “Whatdoesthismean?”thoughtRaskolnikovuneasily。 Zametovseemedtakenaback,butnotverymuchso。 “Why,itwasatyourroomswemetyesterday,”hesaideasily。 “ThenIhavebeensparedthetrouble。Alllastweekhewasbeggingmetointroducehimtoyou。Porfiryandyouhavesniffedeachotheroutwithoutme。Whereisyourtobacco?” PorfiryPetrovitchwaswearingadressing-gown,verycleanlinen,andtrodden-downslippers。Hewasamanofaboutfiveandthirty,short,stouteventocorpulence,andcleanshaven。Heworehishaircutshortandhadalargeroundhead,particularlyprominentattheback。Hissoft,round,rathersnub-nosedfacewasofasicklyyellowishcolour,buthadavigorousandratherironicalexpression。Itwouldhavebeengood-naturedexceptforalookintheeyes,whichshonewithawatery,mawkishlightunderalmostwhite,blinkingeyelashes。Theexpressionofthoseeyeswasstrangelyoutofkeepingwithhissomewhatwomanishfigure,andgaveitsomethingfarmoreseriousthancouldbeguessedatfirstsight。 AssoonasPorfiryPetrovitchheardthathisvisitorhadalittlematterofbusinesswithhim,hebeggedhimtositdownonthesofaandsatdownhimselfontheotherend,waitingforhimtoexplainhisbusiness,withthatcarefulandover-seriousattentionwhichisatonceoppressiveandembarrassing,especiallytoastranger,andespeciallyifwhatyouarediscussingisinyouropinionoffartoolittleimportanceforsuchexceptionalsolemnity。ButinbriefandcoherentphrasesRaskolnikovexplainedhisbusinessclearlyandexactly,andwassowellsatisfiedwithhimselfthatheevensucceededintakingagoodlookatPorfiry。PorfiryPetrovitchdidnotoncetakehiseyesoffhim。Razumihin,sittingoppositeatthesametable,listenedwarmlyandimpatiently,lookingfromonetotheothereverymomentwithratherexcessiveinterest。 “Fool,”Raskolnikovsworetohimself。 “Youhavetogiveinformationtothepolice,”Porfiryreplied,withamostbusinesslikeair,“thathavinglearntofthisincident,thatisofthemurder,youbegtoinformthelawyerinchargeofthecasethatsuchandsuchthingsbelongtoyou,andthatyoudesiretoredeemthem…or…buttheywillwritetoyou。” “That’sjustthepoint,thatatthepresentmoment,”Raskolnikovtriedhisutmosttofeignembarrassment,“Iamnotquiteinfunds…andeventhistriflingsumisbeyondme…Ionlywanted,yousee,forthepresenttodeclarethatthethingsaremine,andthatwhenIhavemoney。…” “That’snomatter,”answeredPorfiryPetrovitch,receivinghisexplanationofhispecuniarypositioncoldly,“butyoucan,ifyouprefer,writestraighttome,tosay,thathavingbeeninformedofthematter,andclaimingsuchandsuchasyourproperty,youbeg…” “Onanordinarysheetofpaper?”Raskolnikovinterruptedeagerly,againinterestedinthefinancialsideofthequestion。 “Oh,themostordinary,”andsuddenlyPorfiryPetrovitchlookedwithobviousironyathim,screwinguphiseyesand,asitwere,winkingathim。ButperhapsitwasRaskolnikov’sfancy,foritalllastedbutamoment。Therewascertainlysomethingofthesort,Raskolnikovcouldhaveswornhewinkedathim,goodnessknowswhy。 “Heknows,”flashedthroughhismindlikelightning。 “Forgivemytroublingyouaboutsuchtrifles,”hewenton,alittledisconcerted,“thethingsareonlyworthfiveroubles,butIprizethemparticularlyforthesakeofthosefromwhomtheycametome,andImustconfessthatIwasalarmedwhenIheard…” “That’swhyyouweresomuchstruckwhenImentionedtoZossimovthatPorfirywasinquiringforeveryonewhohadpledges!”Razumihinputinwithobviousintention。 Thiswasreallyunbearable。Raskolnikovcouldnothelpglancingathimwithaflashofvindictiveangerinhisblackeyes,butimmediatelyrecollectedhimself。 “Youseemtobejeeringatme,brother?”hesaidtohim,withawell-feignedirritability。“IdaresayIdoseemtoyouabsurdlyanxiousaboutsuchtrash;butyoumustn’tthinkmeselfishorgraspingforthat,andthesetwothingsmaybeanythingbuttrashinmyeyes。Itoldyoujustnowthatthesilverwatch,thoughit’snotworthacent,istheonlythingleftusofmyfather’s。Youmaylaughatme,butmymotherishere,”heturnedsuddenlytoPorfiry,“andifsheknew,”heturnedagainhurriedlytoRazumihin,carefullymakinghisvoicetremble,“thatthewatchwaslost,shewouldbeindespair!Youknowwhatwomenare!” “Notabitofit!Ididn’tmeanthatatall!Quitethecontrary!”shoutedRazumihindistressed。 “Wasitright?Wasitnatural?DidIoverdoit?”Raskolnikovaskedhimselfinatremor。“WhydidIsaythataboutwomen?” “Oh,yourmotheriswithyou?”PorfiryPetrovitchinquired。 “Yes。” “Whendidshecome?” “night。” Porfirypausedasthoughreflecting。 “Yourthingswouldnotinanycasebelost,”hewentoncalmlyandcoldly。“Ihavebeenexpectingyouhereforsometime。” Andasthoughthatwasamatterofnoimportance,hecarefullyofferedtheash-traytoRazumihin,whowasruthlesslyscatteringcigaretteashoverthecarpet。Raskolnikovshuddered,butPorfirydidnotseemtobelookingathim,andwasstillconcernedwithRazumihin’scigarette。 “What?Expectinghim?Why,didyouknowthathehadpledgesthere?”criedRazumihin。 PorfiryPetrovitchaddressedhimselftoRaskolnikov。 “Yourthings,theringandthewatch,werewrappeduptogether,andonthepaperyournamewaslegiblywritteninpencil,togetherwiththedateonwhichyouleftthemwithher…” “Howobservantyouare!”Raskolnikovsmiledawkwardly,doinghisveryutmosttolookhimstraightintheface,buthefailed,andsuddenlyadded: “IsaythatbecauseIsupposetherewereagreatmanypledges…thatitmustbedifficulttorememberthemall。…Butyourememberthemallsoclearly,and…and…” “Stupid!Feeble!”hethought。“WhydidIaddthat?” “Butweknowallwhohadpledges,andyouaretheonlyonewhohasn’tcomeforward,”Porfiryansweredwithhardlyperceptibleirony。 “Ihaven’tbeenquitewell。” “Iheardthattoo。Iheard,indeed,thatyouwereingreatdistressaboutsomething。Youlookpalestill。” “Iamnotpaleatall。…No,Iamquitewell,”Raskolnikovsnappedoutrudelyandangrily,completelychanginghistone。Hisangerwasmounting,hecouldnotrepressit。“AndinmyangerIshallbetraymyself,”flashedthroughhismindagain。“Whyaretheytorturingme?” “Notquitewell!”Razumihincaughthimup。“Whatnext!Hewasunconsciousanddeliriousallyesterday。Wouldyoubelieve,Porfiry,assoonasourbackswereturned,hedressed,thoughhecouldhardlystand,andgaveustheslipandwentoffonaspreesomewheretillmidnight,deliriousallthetime!Wouldyoubelieveit!Extraordinary!” “Reallydelirious?Youdon’tsayso!”Porfiryshookhisheadinawomanishway。 “Nonsense!Don’tyoubelieveit!Butyoudon’tbelieveitanyway,”Raskolnikovletslipinhisanger。ButPorfiryPetrovitchdidnotseemtocatchthosestrangewords。 “Buthowcouldyouhavegoneoutifyouhadn’tbeendelirious?”Razumihingothotsuddenly。“Whatdidyougooutfor?Whatwastheobjectofit?Andwhyonthesly?Wereyouinyoursenseswhenyoudidit?NowthatalldangerisoverIcanspeakplainly。” “Iwasawfullysickofthemyesterday。”RaskolnikovaddressedPorfirysuddenlywithasmileofinsolentdefiance,“Iranawayfromthemtotakelodgingswheretheywouldn’tfindme,andtookalotofmoneywithme。Mr。Zametovtheresawit。Isay,Mr。Zametov,wasIsensibleordeliriousyesterday;settleourdispute。” HecouldhavestrangledZametovatthatmoment,sohatefulwerehisexpressionandhissilencetohim。 “Inmyopinionyoutalkedsensiblyandevenartfully,butyouwereextremelyirritable,”Zametovpronounceddryly。 “AndNikodimFomitchwastellingmeto-day,”putinPorfiryPetrovitch,“thathemetyouverylatelastnightinthelodgingofamanwhohadbeenrunover。” “Andthere,”saidRazumihin,“weren’tyoumadthen?Yougaveyourlastpennytothewidowforthefuneral。Ifyouwantedtohelp,givefifteenortwentyeven,butkeepthreeroublesforyourselfatleast,butheflungawayallthetwenty-fiveatonce!” “MaybeIfoundatreasuresomewhereandyouknownothingofit?Sothat’swhyIwasliberalyesterday。…Mr。ZametovknowsI’vefoundatreasure!Excuseus,please,fordisturbingyouforhalfanhourwithsuchtrivialities,”hesaid,turningtoPorfiryPetrovitch,withtremblinglips。“Weareboringyou,aren’twe?” “Ohno,quitethecontrary,quitethecontrary!Ifonlyyouknewhowyouinterestme!It’sinterestingtolookonandlisten…andIamreallygladyouhavecomeforwardatlast。” “Butyoumightgiveussometea!Mythroat’sdry,”criedRazumihin。 “Capitalidea!Perhapswewillallkeepyoucompany。Wouldn’tyoulike…somethingmoreessentialbeforetea?” “Getalongwithyou!” PorfiryPetrovitchwentouttoordertea。 Raskolnikov’sthoughtswereinawhirl。Hewasinterribleexasperation。 “Theworstofitistheydon’tdisguiseit;theydon’tcaretostandonceremony!Andhowifyoudidn’tknowmeatall,didyoucometotalktoNikodimFomitchaboutme?Sotheydon’tcaretohidethattheyaretrackingmelikeapackofdogs。Theysimplyspitinmyface。”Hewasshakingwithrage。“Come,strikemeopenly,don’tplaywithmelikeacatwithamouse。It’shardlycivil,PorfiryPetrovitch,butperhapsIwon’tallowit!Ishallgetupandthrowthewholetruthinyouruglyfaces,andyou’llseehowIdespiseyou。”Hecouldhardlybreathe。“Andwhatifit’sonlymyfancy?WhatifIammistaken,andthroughinexperienceIgetangryanddon’tkeepupmynastypart?Perhapsit’sallunintentional。Alltheirphrasesaretheusualones,butthereissomethingaboutthem。…Itallmightbesaid,butthereissomething。Whydidhesaybluntly,‘Withher’?WhydidZametovaddthatIspokeartfully?Whydotheyspeakinthattone?Yes,thetone。…Razumihinissittinghere,whydoesheseenothing?Thatinnocentblockheadneverdoesseeanything!Feverishagain!DidPorfirywinkatmejustnow?Ofcourseit’snonsense!Whatcouldhewinkfor?Aretheytryingtoupsetmynervesoraretheyteasingme?Eitherit’sillfancyortheyknow!EvenZametovisrude。…IsZametovrude?Zametovhaschangedhismind。Iforesawhewouldchangehismind!Heisathomehere,whileit’smyfirstvisit。Porfirydoesnotconsiderhimavisitor;sitswithhisbacktohim。They’reasthickasthieves,nodoubt,overme!Notadoubttheyweretalkingaboutmebeforewecame。Dotheyknowabouttheflat?Ifonlythey’dmakehaste!WhenIsaidthatIranawaytotakeaflatheletitpass。…Iputthatincleverlyaboutaflat,itmaybeofuseafterwards。…Delirious,indeed…ha-ha-ha!Heknowsallaboutlastnight!Hedidn’tknowofmymother’sarrival!Thehaghadwrittenthedateoninpencil!Youarewrong,youwon’tcatchme!Therearenofacts…it’sallsupposition!Youproducefacts!Theflatevenisn’tafactbutdelirium。Iknowwhattosaytothem。…Dotheyknowabouttheflat?Iwon’tgowithoutfindingout。WhatdidIcomefor?Butmybeingangrynow,maybeisafact!Fool,howirritableIam!Perhapsthat’sright;toplaytheinvalid。…Heisfeelingme。Hewilltrytocatchme。WhydidIcome?” Allthisflashedlikelightningthroughhismind。 PorfiryPetrovitchreturnedquickly。Hebecamesuddenlymorejovial。 “Yourpartyyesterday,brother,hasleftmyheadrather。…AndIamoutofsortsaltogether,”hebeganinquiteadifferenttone,laughingtoRazumihin。 “Wasitinteresting?Ileftyouyesterdayatthemostinterestingpoint。Whogotthebestofit?” “Oh,noone,ofcourse。Theygotontoeverlastingquestions,floatedoffintospace。” “Onlyfancy,Rodya,whatwegotontoyesterday。Whetherthereissuchathingascrime。Itoldyouthatwetalkedourheadsoff。” “Whatistherestrange?It’saneverydaysocialquestion,”Raskolnikovansweredcasually。 “Thequestionwasn’tputquitelikethat,”observedPorfiry。 “Notquite,that’strue,”Razumihinagreedatonce,gettingwarmandhurriedasusual。“Listen,Rodion,andtellusyouropinion,Iwanttohearit。Iwasfightingtoothandnailwiththemandwantedyoutohelpme。Itoldthemyouwerecoming。…Itbeganwiththesocialistdoctrine。Youknowtheirdoctrine;crimeisaprotestagainsttheabnormalityofthesocialorganisationandnothingmore,andnothingmore;noothercausesadmitted!…” “Youarewrongthere,”criedPorfiryPetrovitch;hewasnoticeablyanimatedandkeptlaughingashelookedatRazumihin,whichmadehimmoreexcitedthanever。 “Nothingisadmitted,”Razumihininterruptedwithheat。 “Iamnotwrong。I’llshowyoutheirpamphlets。Everythingwiththemis‘theinfluenceofenvironment,’andnothingelse。Theirfavouritephrase!Fromwhichitfollowsthat,ifsocietyisnormallyorganised,allcrimewillceaseatonce,sincetherewillbenothingtoprotestagainstandallmenwillbecomerighteousinoneinstant。Humannatureisnottakenintoaccount,itisexcluded,it’snotsupposedtoexist!Theydon’trecognisethathumanity,developingbyahistoricallivingprocess,willbecomeatlastanormalsociety,buttheybelievethatasocialsystemthathascomeoutofsomemathematicalbrainisgoingtoorganiseallhumanityatonceandmakeitjustandsinlessinaninstant,quickerthananylivingprocess!That’swhytheyinstinctivelydislikehistory,‘nothingbutuglinessandstupidityinit,’andtheyexplainitallasstupidity!That’swhytheysodislikethelivingprocessoflife;theydon’twantalivingsoul!Thelivingsouldemandslife,thesoulwon’tobeytherulesofmechanics,thesoulisanobjectofsuspicion,thesoulisretrograde!ButwhattheywantthoughitsmellsofdeathandcanbemadeofIndia-rubber,atleastisnotalive,hasnowill,isservileandwon’trevolt!Anditcomesintheendtotheirreducingeverythingtothebuildingofwallsandtheplanningofroomsandpassagesinaphalanstery!Thephalansteryisready,indeed,butyourhumannatureisnotreadyforthephalanstery—itwantslife,ithasn’tcompleteditsvitalprocess,it’stoosoonforthegraveyard!Youcan’tskipovernaturebylogic。Logicpresupposesthreepossibilities,buttherearemillions!Cutawayamillion,andreduceitalltothequestionofcomfort!That’stheeasiestsolutionoftheproblem!It’sseductivelyclearandyoumusn’tthinkaboutit。That’sthegreatthing,youmustn’tthink!Thewholesecretoflifeintwopagesofprint!” “Nowheisoff,beatingthedrum!Catchholdofhim,do!”laughedPorfiry。“Canyouimagine,”heturnedtoRaskolnikov,“sixpeopleholdingforthlikethatlastnight,inoneroom,withpunchasapreliminary!No,brother,youarewrong,environmentaccountsforagreatdealincrime;Icanassureyouofthat。” “Oh,Iknowitdoes,butjusttellme:amanoffortyviolatesachildoften;wasitenvironmentdrovehimtoit?” “Well,strictlyspeaking,itdid,”Porfiryobservedwithnoteworthygravity;“acrimeofthatnaturemaybeverywellascribedtotheinfluenceofenvironment。” Razumihinwasalmostinafrenzy。“Oh,ifyoulike,”heroared。“I’llprovetoyouthatyourwhiteeyelashesmayverywellbeascribedtotheChurchofIvantheGreat’sbeingtwohundredandfiftyfeethigh,andIwillproveitclearly,exactly,progressively,andevenwithaLiberaltendency!Iundertaketo!Willyoubetonit?” “Done!Let’shear,please,howhewillproveit!” “Heisalwayshumbugging,confoundhim,”criedRazumihin,jumpingupandgesticulating。“What’stheuseoftalkingtoyou?Hedoesallthatonpurpose;youdon’tknowhim,Rodion!Hetooktheirsideyesterday,simplytomakefoolsofthem。Andthethingshesaidyesterday!Andtheyweredelighted!Hecankeepitupforafortnighttogether。yearhepersuadedusthathewasgoingintoamonastery:hestucktoitfortwomonths。Notlongagohetookitintohisheadtodeclarehewasgoingtogetmarried,thathehadeverythingreadyforthewedding。Heorderednewclothesindeed。Weallbegantocongratulatehim。Therewasnobride,nothing,allpurefantasy!” “Ah,youarewrong!Igottheclothesbefore。Itwasthenewclothesinfactthatmademethinkoftakingyouin。” “Areyousuchagooddissembler?”Raskolnikovaskedcarelessly。 “Youwouldn’thavesupposedit,eh?Waitabit,Ishalltakeyouin,too。Ha-ha-ha!No,I’lltellyouthetruth。Allthesequestionsaboutcrime,environment,children,recalltomymindanarticleofyourswhichinterestedmeatthetime。‘OnCrime’…orsomethingofthesort,Iforgetthetitle,IreaditwithpleasuretwomonthsagointhePeriodicalReview。” “Myarticle?InthePeriodicalReview?”Raskolnikovaskedinastonishment。“IcertainlydidwriteanarticleuponabooksixmonthsagowhenIlefttheuniversity,butIsentittotheWeeklyReview。” “ButitcameoutinthePeriodical。” “AndtheWeeklyReviewceasedtoexist,sothat’swhyitwasn’tprintedatthetime。” “That’strue;butwhenitceasedtoexist,theWeeklyReviewwasamalgamatedwiththePeriodical,andsoyourarticleappearedtwomonthsagointhelatter。Didn’tyouknow?” Raskolnikovhadnotknown。 “Why,youmightgetsomemoneyoutofthemforthearticle!Whatastrangepersonyouare!Youleadsuchasolitarylifethatyouknownothingofmattersthatconcernyoudirectly。It’safact,Iassureyou。” “Bravo,Rodya!Iknewnothingaboutiteither!”criedRazumihin。“I’llrunto-daytothereading-roomandaskforthenumber。Twomonthsago?Whatwasthedate?Itdoesn’tmatterthough,Iwillfindit。Thinkofnottellingus!” “Howdidyoufindoutthatthearticlewasmine?It’sonlysignedwithaninitial。” “Ionlylearntitbychance,theotherday。Throughtheeditor;Iknowhim。…Iwasverymuchinterested。” “Ianalysed,ifIremember,thepsychologyofacriminalbeforeandafterthecrime。” “Yes,andyoumaintainedthattheperpetrationofacrimeisalwaysaccompaniedbyillness。Very,veryoriginal,but…itwasnotthatpartofyourarticlethatinterestedmesomuch,butanideaattheendofthearticlewhichIregrettosayyoumerelysuggestedwithoutworkingitoutclearly。Thereis,ifyourecollect,asuggestionthattherearecertainpersonswhocan…thatis,notpreciselyareableto,buthaveaperfectrighttocommitbreachesofmoralityandcrimes,andthatthelawisnotforthem。” Raskolnikovsmiledattheexaggeratedandintentionaldistortionofhisidea。 “What?Whatdoyoumean?Arighttocrime?Butnotbecauseoftheinfluenceofenvironment?”Razumihininquiredwithsomealarmeven。 “No,notexactlybecauseofit,”answeredPorfiry。“Inhisarticleallmenaredividedinto‘ordinary’and‘extraordinary。’Ordinarymenhavetoliveinsubmission,havenorighttotransgressthelaw,because,don’tyousee,theyareordinary。Butextraordinarymenhavearighttocommitanycrimeandtotransgressthelawinanyway,justbecausetheyareextraordinary。Thatwasyouridea,ifIamnotmistaken?” “Whatdoyoumean?Thatcan’tberight?”Razumihinmutteredinbewilderment。 Raskolnikovsmiledagain。Hesawthepointatonce,andknewwheretheywantedtodrivehim。Hedecidedtotakeupthechallenge。 “Thatwasn’tquitemycontention,”hebegansimplyandmodestly。“YetIadmitthatyouhavestateditalmostcorrectly;perhaps,ifyoulike,perfectlyso。”(Italmostgavehimpleasuretoadmitthis。)“TheonlydifferenceisthatIdon’tcontendthatextraordinarypeoplearealwaysboundtocommitbreachesofmorals,asyoucallit。Infact,Idoubtwhethersuchanargumentcouldbepublished。Isimplyhintedthatan‘extraordinary’manhastheright…thatisnotanofficialright,butaninnerrighttodecideinhisownconsciencetooverstep…certainobstacles,andonlyincaseitisessentialforthepracticalfulfilmentofhisidea(sometimes,perhaps,ofbenefittothewholeofhumanity)。Yousaythatmyarticleisn’tdefinite;IamreadytomakeitasclearasIcan。PerhapsIamrightinthinkingyouwantmeto;verywell。ImaintainthatifthediscoveriesofKeplerandNewtoncouldnothavebeenmadeknownexceptbysacrificingthelivesofone,adozen,ahundred,ormoremen,Newtonwouldhavehadtheright,wouldindeedhavebeenindutybound…toeliminatethedozenorthehundredmenforthesakeofmakinghisdiscoveriesknowntothewholeofhumanity。ButitdoesnotfollowfromthatthatNewtonhadarighttomurderpeoplerightandleftandtostealeverydayinthemarket。Then,Iremember,Imaintaininmyarticlethatall…well,legislatorsandleadersofmen,suchasLycurgus,Solon,Mahomet,Napoleon,andsoon,wereallwithoutexceptioncriminals,fromtheveryfactthat,makinganewlaw,theytransgressedtheancientone,handeddownfromtheirancestorsandheldsacredbythepeople,andtheydidnotstopshortatbloodshedeither,ifthatbloodshed—oftenofinnocentpersonsfightingbravelyindefenceofancientlaw—wereofusetotheircause。It’sremarkable,infact,thatthemajority,indeed,ofthesebenefactorsandleadersofhumanitywereguiltyofterriblecarnage。Inshort,Imaintainthatallgreatmenorevenmenalittleoutofthecommon,thatistosaycapableofgivingsomenewword,mustfromtheirverynaturebecriminals—moreorless,ofcourse。Otherwiseit’shardforthemtogetoutofthecommonrut;andtoremaininthecommonrutiswhattheycan’tsubmitto,fromtheirverynatureagain,andtomymindtheyoughtnot,indeed,tosubmittoit。Youseethatthereisnothingparticularlynewinallthat。Thesamethinghasbeenprintedandreadathousandtimesbefore。Asformydivisionofpeopleintoordinaryandextraordinary,Iacknowledgethatit’ssomewhatarbitrary,butIdon’tinsistuponexactnumbers。Ionlybelieveinmyleadingideathatmenareingeneraldividedbyalawofnatureintotwocategories,inferior(ordinary),thatis,sotosay,materialthatservesonlytoreproduceitskind,andmenwhohavethegiftorthetalenttoutteranewword。Thereare,ofcourse,innumerablesub-divisions,butthedistinguishingfeaturesofbothcategoriesarefairlywellmarked。Thefirstcategory,generallyspeaking,aremenconservativeintemperamentandlaw-abiding;theyliveundercontrolandlovetobecontrolled。Tomythinkingitistheirdutytobecontrolled,becausethat’stheirvocation,andthereisnothinghumiliatinginitforthem。Thesecondcategoryalltransgressthelaw;theyaredestroyersordisposedtodestructionaccordingtotheircapacities。Thecrimesofthesemenareofcourserelativeandvaried;forthemostparttheyseekinveryvariedwaysthedestructionofthepresentforthesakeofthebetter。Butifsuchaoneisforcedforthesakeofhisideatostepoveracorpseorwadethroughblood,hecan,Imaintain,findwithinhimself,inhisconscience,asanctionforwadingthroughblood—thatdependsontheideaanditsdimensions,notethat。It’sonlyinthatsenseIspeakoftheirrighttocrimeinmyarticle(yourememberitbeganwiththelegalquestion)。There’snoneedforsuchanxiety,however;themasseswillscarcelyeveradmitthisright,theypunishthemorhangthem(moreorless),andindoingsofulfilquitejustlytheirconservativevocation。Butthesamemassessetthesecriminalsonapedestalinthenextgenerationandworshipthem(moreorless)。Thefirstcategoryisalwaysthemanofthepresent,thesecondthemanofthefuture。Thefirstpreservetheworldandpeopleit,thesecondmovetheworldandleadittoitsgoal。Eachclasshasanequalrighttoexist。Infact,allhaveequalrightswithme—andvivelaguerreeternelle—tilltheNewJerusalem,ofcourse!” “ThenyoubelieveintheNewJerusalem,doyou?” “Ido,”Raskolnikovansweredfirmly;ashesaidthesewordsandduringthewholeprecedingtiradehekepthiseyesononespotonthecarpet。 “And…anddoyoubelieveinGod?Excusemycuriosity。” “Ido,”repeatedRaskolnikov,raisinghiseyestoPorfiry。 “And…doyoubelieveinLazarus’risingfromthedead?” “I…Ido。Whydoyouaskallthis?” “Youbelieveitliterally?” “Literally。” “Youdon’tsayso。…Iaskedfromcuriosity。Excuseme。Butletusgobacktothequestion;theyarenotalwaysexecuted。Some,onthecontrary…” “Triumphintheirlifetime?Oh,yes,someattaintheirendsinthislife,andthen…” “Theybeginexecutingotherpeople?” “Ifit’snecessary;indeed,forthemostparttheydo。Yourremarkisverywitty。” “Thankyou。Buttellmethis:howdoyoudistinguishthoseextraordinarypeoplefromtheordinaryones?Aretheresignsattheirbirth?Ifeelthereoughttobemoreexactitude,moreexternaldefinition。Excusethenaturalanxietyofapracticallaw-abidingcitizen,butcouldn’ttheyadoptaspecialuniform,forinstance,couldn’ttheywearsomething,bebrandedinsomeway?Foryouknowifconfusionarisesandamemberofonecategoryimaginesthathebelongstotheother,beginsto‘eliminateobstacles’asyousohappilyexpressedit,then…” “Oh,thatveryoftenhappens!Thatremarkiswittierthantheother。” “Thankyou。” “Noreasonto;buttakenotethatthemistakecanonlyariseinthefirstcategory,thatisamongtheordinarypeople(asIperhapsunfortunatelycalledthem)。Inspiteoftheirpredispositiontoobedienceverymanyofthem,throughaplayfulnessofnature,sometimesvouchsafedeventothecow,liketoimaginethemselvesadvancedpeople,‘destroyers,’andtopushthemselvesintothe‘newmovement,’andthisquitesincerely。Meanwhilethereallynewpeopleareveryoftenunobservedbythem,orevendespisedasreactionariesofgrovellingtendencies。ButIdon’tthinkthereisanyconsiderabledangerhere,andyoureallyneednotbeuneasyfortheynevergoveryfar。Ofcourse,theymighthaveathrashingsometimesforlettingtheirfancyrunawaywiththemandtoteachthemtheirplace,butnomore;infact,eventhisisn’tnecessaryastheycastigatethemselves,fortheyareveryconscientious:someperformthisserviceforoneanotherandotherschastisethemselveswiththeirownhands。…Theywillimposevariouspublicactsofpenitenceuponthemselveswithabeautifulandedifyingeffect;infactyou’venothingtobeuneasyabout。…It’salawofnature。” “Well,youhavecertainlysetmymindmoreatrestonthatscore;butthere’sanotherthingworriesme。Tellme,please,aretheremanypeoplewhohavetherighttokillothers,theseextraordinarypeople?Iamreadytobowdowntothem,ofcourse,butyoumustadmitit’salarmingifthereareagreatmanyofthem,eh?” “Oh,youneedn’tworryaboutthateither,”Raskolnikovwentoninthesametone。“Peoplewithnewideas,peoplewiththefaintestcapacityforsayingsomethingnew,areextremelyfewinnumber,extraordinarilysoinfact。Onethingonlyisclear,thattheappearanceofallthesegradesandsub-divisionsofmenmustfollowwithunfailingregularitysomelawofnature。Thatlaw,ofcourse,isunknownatpresent,butIamconvincedthatitexists,andonedaymaybecomeknown。Thevastmassofmankindismerematerial,andonlyexistsinorderbysomegreateffort,bysomemysteriousprocess,bymeansofsomecrossingofracesandstocks,tobringintotheworldatlastperhapsonemanoutofathousandwithasparkofindependence。Oneintenthousandperhaps—Ispeakroughly,approximately—isbornwithsomeindependence,andwithstillgreaterindependenceoneinahundredthousand。Themanofgeniusisoneofmillions,andthegreatgeniuses,thecrownofhumanity,appearonearthperhapsoneinmanythousandmillions。InfactIhavenotpeepedintotheretortinwhichallthistakesplace。Buttherecertainlyisandmustbeadefinitelaw,itcannotbeamatterofchance。” “Why,areyoubothjoking?”Razumihincriedatlast。“Thereyousit,makingfunofoneanother。Areyouserious,Rodya?” Raskolnikovraisedhispaleandalmostmournfulfaceandmadenoreply。Andtheunconcealed,persistent,nervous,anddiscourteoussarcasmofPorfiryseemedstrangetoRazumihinbesidethatquietandmournfulface。 “Well,brother,ifyouarereallyserious…Youareright,ofcourse,insayingthatit’snotnew,thatit’slikewhatwe’vereadandheardathousandtimesalready;butwhatisreallyoriginalinallthis,andisexclusivelyyourown,tomyhorror,isthatyousanctionbloodshedinthenameofconscience,and,excusemysayingso,withsuchfanaticism。…That,Itakeit,isthepointofyourarticle。Butthatsanctionofbloodshedbyconscienceistomymind…moreterriblethantheofficial,legalsanctionofbloodshed。…” “Youarequiteright,itismoreterrible,”Porfiryagreed。 “Yes,youmusthaveexaggerated!Thereissomemistake,Ishallreadit。Youcan’tthinkthat!Ishallreadit。” “Allthatisnotinthearticle,there’sonlyahintofit,”saidRaskolnikov。 “Yes,yes。”Porfirycouldn’tsitstill。“Yourattitudetocrimeisprettycleartomenow,but…excusemeformyimpertinence(Iamreallyashamedtobeworryingyoulikethis),yousee,you’veremovedmyanxietyastothetwogradesgettingmixed,but…therearevariouspracticalpossibilitiesthatmakemeuneasy!WhatifsomemanoryouthimaginesthatheisaLycurgusorMahomet—afutureoneofcourse—andsupposehebeginstoremoveallobstacles。…Hehassomegreatenterprisebeforehimandneedsmoneyforit…andtriestogetit…doyousee?” Zametovgaveasuddenguffawinhiscorner。Raskolnikovdidnotevenraisehiseyestohim。 “Imustadmit,”hewentoncalmly,“thatsuchcasescertainlymustarise。Thevainandfoolishareparticularlyapttofallintothatsnare;youngpeopleespecially。” “Yes,yousee。Wellthen?” “Whatthen?”Raskolnikovsmiledinreply;“that’snotmyfault。Soitisandsoitalwayswillbe。Hesaidjustnow(henoddedatRazumihin)thatIsanctionbloodshed。Societyistoowellprotectedbyprisons,banishment,criminalinvestigators,penalservitude。There’snoneedtobeuneasy。Youhavebuttocatchthethief。” “Andwhatifwedocatchhim?” “Thenhegetswhathedeserves。” “Youarecertainlylogical。Butwhatofhisconscience?” “Whydoyoucareaboutthat?” “Simplyfromhumanity。” “Ifhehasaconsciencehewillsufferforhismistake。Thatwillbehispunishment—aswellastheprison。” “Buttherealgeniuses,”askedRazumihinfrowning,“thosewhohavetherighttomurder?Oughtn’ttheytosufferatallevenforthebloodthey’veshed?” “Whythewordought?It’snotamatterofpermissionorprohibition。Hewillsufferifheissorryforhisvictim。Painandsufferingarealwaysinevitableforalargeintelligenceandadeepheart。Thereallygreatmenmust,Ithink,havegreatsadnessonearth,”headdeddreamily,notinthetoneoftheconversation。 Heraisedhiseyes,lookedearnestlyatthemall,smiled,andtookhiscap。Hewastooquietbycomparisonwithhismannerathisentrance,andhefeltthis。Everyonegotup。 “Well,youmayabuseme,beangrywithmeifyoulike,”PorfiryPetrovitchbeganagain,“butIcan’tresist。Allowmeonelittlequestion(IknowIamtroublingyou)。ThereisjustonelittlenotionIwanttoexpress,simplythatImaynotforgetit。” “Verygood,tellmeyourlittlenotion,”Raskolnikovstoodwaiting,paleandgravebeforehim。 “Well,yousee…Ireallydon’tknowhowtoexpressitproperly。…It’saplayful,psychologicalidea。…Whenyouwerewritingyourarticle,surelyyoucouldn’thavehelped,he-he!fancyingyourself…justalittle,an‘extraordinary’man,utteringanewwordinyoursense。…That’sso,isn’tit?” “Quitepossibly,”Raskolnikovansweredcontemptuously。 Razumihinmadeamovement。 “And,ifso,couldyoubringyourselfincaseofworldlydifficultiesandhardshiporforsomeservicetohumanity—tooverstepobstacles?…Forinstance,torobandmurder?” Andagainhewinkedwithhislefteye,andlaughednoiselesslyjustasbefore。 “IfIdidIcertainlyshouldnottellyou,”Raskolnikovansweredwithdefiantandhaughtycontempt。 “No,Iwasonlyinterestedonaccountofyourarticle,fromaliterarypointofview…” “Foo!howobviousandinsolentthatis!”Raskolnikovthoughtwithrepulsion。 “Allowmetoobserve,”heanswereddryly,“thatIdon’tconsidermyselfaMahometoraNapoleon,noranypersonageofthatkind,andnotbeingoneofthemIcannottellyouhowIshouldact。” “Oh,come,don’tweallthinkourselvesNapoleonsnowinRussia?”PorfiryPetrovitchsaidwithalarmingfamiliarity。 Somethingpeculiarbetrayeditselfintheveryintonationofhisvoice。 “PerhapsitwasoneofthesefutureNapoleonswhodidforAlyonaIvanovnalastweek?”Zametovblurtedoutfromthecorner。 Raskolnikovdidnotspeak,butlookedfirmlyandintentlyatPorfiry。Razumihinwasscowlinggloomily。Heseemedbeforethistobenoticingsomething。Helookedangrilyaround。Therewasaminuteofgloomysilence。Raskolnikovturnedtogo。 “Areyougoingalready?”Porfirysaidamiably,holdingouthishandwithexcessivepoliteness。“Very,verygladofyouracquaintance。Asforyourrequest,havenouneasiness,writejustasItoldyou,or,betterstill,cometomethereyourselfinadayortwo…to-morrow,indeed。Ishallbethereateleveno’clockforcertain。We’llarrangeitall;we’llhaveatalk。Asoneofthelasttobethere,youmightperhapsbeabletotellussomething,”headdedwithamostgood-naturedexpression。 “Youwanttocross-examinemeofficiallyindueform?”Raskolnikovaskedsharply。 “Oh,why?That’snotnecessaryforthepresent。Youmisunderstandme。Ilosenoopportunity,yousee,and…I’vetalkedwithallwhohadpledges。…Iobtainedevidencefromsomeofthem,andyouarethelast。…Yes,bytheway,”hecried,seeminglysuddenlydelighted,“Ijustremember,whatwasIthinkingof?”heturnedtoRazumihin,“youweretalkingmyearsoffaboutthatNikolay…ofcourse,Iknow,Iknowverywell,”heturnedtoRaskolnikov,“thatthefellowisinnocent,butwhatisonetodo?WehadtotroubleDmitritoo。…Thisisthepoint,thisisall:whenyouwentupthestairsitwaspastseven,wasn’tit?” “Yes,”answeredRaskolnikov,withanunpleasantsensationattheverymomenthespokethatheneednothavesaidit。 “Thenwhenyouwentupstairsbetweensevenandeight,didn’tyouseeinaflatthatstoodopenonasecondstorey,doyouremember?twoworkmenoratleastoneofthem?Theywerepaintingthere,didn’tyounoticethem?It’svery,veryimportantforthem。” “Painters?No,Ididn’tseethem,”Raskolnikovansweredslowly,asthoughransackinghismemory,whileatthesameinstanthewasrackingeverynerve,almostswooningwithanxietytoconjectureasquicklyaspossiblewherethetraplayandnottooverlookanything。“No,Ididn’tseethem,andIdon’tthinkInoticedaflatlikethatopen。…Butonthefourthstorey”(hehadmasteredthetrapnowandwastriumphant)“IremembernowthatsomeonewasmovingoutoftheflatoppositeAlyonaIvanovna’s。…Iremember…Irememberitclearly。Someporterswerecarryingoutasofaandtheysqueezedmeagainstthewall。Butpainters…no,Idon’trememberthattherewereanypainters,andIdon’tthinkthattherewasaflatopenanywhere,no,therewasn’t。” “Whatdoyoumean?”Razumihinshoutedsuddenly,asthoughhehadreflectedandrealised。“Why,itwasonthedayofthemurderthepainterswereatwork,andhewastherethreedaysbefore?Whatareyouasking?” “Foo!Ihavemuddledit!”Porfiryslappedhimselfontheforehead。“Deucetakeit!Thisbusinessisturningmybrain!”headdressedRaskolnikovsomewhatapologetically。“Itwouldbesuchagreatthingforustofindoutwhetheranyonehadseenthembetweensevenandeightattheflat,soIfanciedyoucouldperhapshavetoldussomething。…Iquitemuddledit。” “Thenyoushouldbemorecareful,”Razumihinobservedgrimly。 Thelastwordswereutteredinthepassage。PorfiryPetrovitchsawthemtothedoorwithexcessivepoliteness。 Theywentoutintothestreetgloomyandsullen,andforsomestepstheydidnotsayaword。Raskolnikovdrewadeepbreath。 “Idon’tbelieveit,Ican’tbelieveit!”repeatedRazumihin,tryinginperplexitytorefuteRaskolnikov’sarguments。 TheywerebynowapproachingBakaleyev’slodgings,wherePulcheriaAlexandrovnaandDouniahadbeenexpectingthemalongwhile。Razumihinkeptstoppingonthewayintheheatofdiscussion,confusedandexcitedbytheveryfactthattheywereforthefirsttimespeakingopenlyaboutit。 “Don’tbelieveit,then!”answeredRaskolnikov,withacold,carelesssmile。“Youwerenoticingnothingasusual,butIwasweighingeveryword。” “Youaresuspicious。Thatiswhyyouweighedtheirwords…h’m…certainly,Iagree,Porfiry’stonewasratherstrange,andstillmorethatwretchZametov!…Youareright,therewassomethingabouthim—butwhy?Why?” “Hehaschangedhismindsincelastnight。” “Quitethecontrary!Iftheyhadthatbrainlessidea,theywoulddotheirutmosttohideit,andconcealtheircards,soastocatchyouafterwards。…Butitwasallimpudentandcareless。” “Iftheyhadhadfacts—Imean,realfacts—oratleastgroundsforsuspicion,thentheywouldcertainlyhavetriedtohidetheirgame,inthehopeofgettingmore(theywouldhavemadeasearchlongagobesides)。Buttheyhavenofacts,notone。Itisallmirage—allambiguous。Simplyafloatingidea。Sotheytrytothrowmeoutbyimpudence。Andperhaps,hewasirritatedathavingnofacts,andblurteditoutinhisvexation—orperhapshehassomeplan…heseemsanintelligentman。Perhapshewantedtofrightenmebypretendingtoknow。Theyhaveapsychologyoftheirown,brother。Butitisloathsomeexplainingitall。Stop!” “Andit’sinsulting,insulting!Iunderstandyou。But…sincewehavespokenopenlynow(anditisanexcellentthingthatwehaveatlast—Iamglad)IwillownnowfranklythatInoticeditinthemlongago,thisidea。Ofcoursethemeresthintonly—aninsinuation—butwhyaninsinuationeven?Howdarethey?Whatfoundationhavethey?IfonlyyouknewhowfuriousIhavebeen。Thinkonly!Simplybecauseapoorstudent,unhingedbypovertyandhypochondria,ontheeveofaseveredeliriousillness(notethat),suspicious,vain,proud,whohasnotseenasoultospeaktoforsixmonths,inragsandinbootswithoutsoles,hastofacesomewretchedpolicemenandputupwiththeirinsolence;andtheunexpecteddebtthrustunderhisnose,theI。O。U。presentedbyTchebarov,thenewpaint,thirtydegreesReaumurandastiflingatmosphere,acrowdofpeople,thetalkaboutthemurderofapersonwherehehadbeenjustbefore,andallthatonanemptystomach—hemightwellhaveafaintingfit!Andthat,thatiswhattheyfounditallon!Damnthem!Iunderstandhowannoyingitis,butinyourplace,Rodya,Iwouldlaughatthem,orbetterstill,spitintheiruglyfaces,andspitadozentimesinalldirections。I’dhitoutinalldirections,neatlytoo,andsoI’dputanendtoit。Damnthem!Don’tbedownhearted。It’sashame!” “Hereallyhasputitwell,though,”Raskolnikovthought。 “Damnthem?Butthecross-examinationagain,to-morrow?”hesaidwithbitterness。“MustIreallyenterintoexplanationswiththem?Ifeelvexedasitis,thatIcondescendedtospeaktoZametovyesterdayintherestaurant。…” “Damnit!IwillgomyselftoPorfiry。Iwillsqueezeitoutofhim,asoneofthefamily:hemustletmeknowtheinsandoutsofitall!AndasforZametov…” “Atlastheseesthroughhim!”thoughtRaskolnikov。 “Stay!”criedRazumihin,seizinghimbytheshoulderagain。“Stay!youwerewrong。Ihavethoughtitout。Youarewrong!Howwasthatatrap?Yousaythatthequestionabouttheworkmenwasatrap。Butifyouhaddonethat,couldyouhavesaidyouhadseenthempaintingtheflat…andtheworkmen?Onthecontrary,youwouldhaveseennothing,evenifyouhadseenit。Whowouldownitagainsthimself?” “IfIhaddonethatthing,IshouldcertainlyhavesaidthatIhadseentheworkmenandtheflat,”Raskolnikovanswered,withreluctanceandobviousdisgust。 “Butwhyspeakagainstyourself?” “Becauseonlypeasants,orthemostinexperiencednovicesdenyeverythingflatlyatexaminations。Ifamaniseversolittledevelopedandexperienced,hewillcertainlytrytoadmitalltheexternalfactsthatcan’tbeavoided,butwillseekotherexplanationsofthem,willintroducesomespecial,unexpectedturn,thatwillgivethemanothersignificanceandputtheminanotherlight。PorfirymightwellreckonthatIshouldbesuretoanswerso,andsayIhadseenthemtogiveanairoftruth,andthenmakesomeexplanation。” “Buthewouldhavetoldyouatoncethattheworkmencouldnothavebeentheretwodaysbefore,andthatthereforeyoumusthavebeenthereonthedayofthemurderateighto’clock。Andsohewouldhavecaughtyouoveradetail。” “Yes,thatiswhathewasreckoningon,thatIshouldnothavetimetoreflect,andshouldbeinahurrytomakethemostlikelyanswer,andsowouldforgetthattheworkmencouldnothavebeentheretwodaysbefore。” “Buthowcouldyouforgetit?” “Nothingeasier。Itisinjustsuchstupidthingscleverpeoplearemosteasilycaught。Themorecunningamanis,thelesshesuspectsthathewillbecaughtinasimplething。Themorecunningamanis,thesimplerthetraphemustbecaughtin。Porfiryisnotsuchafoolasyouthink。…” “Heisaknavethen,ifthatisso!” Raskolnikovcouldnothelplaughing。Butattheverymoment,hewasstruckbythestrangenessofhisownfrankness,andtheeagernesswithwhichhehadmadethisexplanation,thoughhehadkeptupalltheprecedingconversationwithgloomyrepulsion,obviouslywithamotive,fromnecessity。 “Iamgettingarelishforcertainaspects!”hethoughttohimself。Butalmostatthesameinstanthebecamesuddenlyuneasy,asthoughanunexpectedandalarmingideahadoccurredtohim。Hisuneasinesskeptonincreasing。TheyhadjustreachedtheentrancetoBakaleyev’s。 “Goinalone!”saidRaskolnikovsuddenly。“Iwillbebackdirectly。” “Whereareyougoing?Why,wearejusthere。” “Ican’thelpit。…Iwillcomeinhalfanhour。Tellthem。” “Saywhatyoulike,Iwillcomewithyou。” “You,too,wanttotortureme!”hescreamed,withsuchbitterirritation,suchdespairinhiseyesthatRazumihin’shandsdropped。Hestoodforsometimeonthesteps,lookinggloomilyatRaskolnikovstridingrapidlyawayinthedirectionofhislodging。Atlast,grittinghisteethandclenchinghisfist,hesworehewouldsqueezePorfirylikealemonthatveryday,andwentupthestairstoreassurePulcheriaAlexandrovna,whowasbynowalarmedattheirlongabsence。 WhenRaskolnikovgothome,hishairwassoakedwithsweatandhewasbreathingheavily。Hewentrapidlyupthestairs,walkedintohisunlockedroomandatoncefastenedthelatch。Theninsenselessterrorherushedtothecorner,tothatholeunderthepaperwherehehadputthethings;puthishandin,andforsomeminutesfeltcarefullyinthehole,ineverycrackandfoldofthepaper。Findingnothing,hegotupanddrewadeepbreath。AshewasreachingthestepsofBakaleyev’s,hesuddenlyfanciedthatsomething,achain,astudorevenabitofpaperinwhichtheyhadbeenwrappedwiththeoldwoman’shandwritingonit,mightsomehowhaveslippedoutandbeenlostinsomecrack,andthenmightsuddenlyturnupasunexpected,conclusiveevidenceagainsthim。 Hestoodasthoughlostinthought,andastrange,humiliated,halfsenselesssmilestrayedonhislips。Hetookhiscapatlastandwentquietlyoutoftheroom。Hisideaswerealltangled。Hewentdreamilythroughthegateway。 “Hereheishimself,”shoutedaloudvoice。 Heraisedhishead。 Theporterwasstandingatthedoorofhislittleroomandwaspointinghimouttoashortmanwholookedlikeanartisan,wearingalongcoatandawaistcoat,andlookingatadistanceremarkablylikeawoman。Hestooped,andhisheadinagreasycaphungforward。Fromhiswrinkledflabbyfacehelookedoverfifty;hislittleeyeswerelostinfatandtheylookedoutgrimly,sternlyanddiscontentedly。 “Whatisit?”Raskolnikovasked,goinguptotheporter。 Themanstolealookathimfromunderhisbrowsandhelookedathimattentively,deliberately;thenheturnedslowlyandwentoutofthegateintothestreetwithoutsayingaword。 “Whatisit?”criedRaskolnikov。 “Why,hetherewasaskingwhetherastudentlivedhere,mentionedyournameandwhomyoulodgedwith。Isawyoucomingandpointedyououtandhewentaway。It’sfunny。” Theportertooseemedratherpuzzled,butnotmuchso,andafterwonderingforamomentheturnedandwentbacktohisroom。 Raskolnikovranafterthestranger,andatoncecaughtsightofhimwalkingalongtheothersideofthestreetwiththesameeven,deliberatestepwithhiseyesfixedontheground,asthoughinmeditation。Hesoonovertookhim,butforsometimewalkedbehindhim。Atlast,movingontoalevelwithhim,helookedathisface。Themannoticedhimatonce,lookedathimquickly,butdroppedhiseyesagain;andsotheywalkedforaminutesidebysidewithoututteringaword。 “Youwereinquiringforme…oftheporter?”Raskolnikovsaidatlast,butinacuriouslyquietvoice。 Themanmadenoanswer;hedidn’tevenlookathim。Againtheywerebothsilent。 “Whydoyou…comeandaskforme…andsaynothing。…What’sthemeaningofit?” Raskolnikov’svoicebrokeandheseemedunabletoarticulatethewordsclearly。 ThemanraisedhiseyesthistimeandturnedagloomysinisterlookatRaskolnikov。 “Murderer!”hesaidsuddenlyinaquietbutclearanddistinctvoice。 Raskolnikovwentonwalkingbesidehim。Hislegsfeltsuddenlyweak,acoldshiverrandownhisspine,andhisheartseemedtostandstillforamoment,thensuddenlybeganthrobbingasthoughitweresetfree。Sotheywalkedforaboutahundredpaces,sidebysideinsilence。 Themandidnotlookathim。 “Whatdoyoumean…whatis。…Whoisamurderer?”mutteredRaskolnikovhardlyaudibly。 “Youareamurderer,”themanansweredstillmorearticulatelyandemphatically,withasmileoftriumphanthatred,andagainhelookedstraightintoRaskolnikov’spalefaceandstrickeneyes。 Theyhadjustreachedthecross-roads。Themanturnedtotheleftwithoutlookingbehindhim。Raskolnikovremainedstanding,gazingafterhim。Hesawhimturnroundfiftypacesawayandlookbackathimstillstandingthere。Raskolnikovcouldnotseeclearly,buthefanciedthathewasagainsmilingthesamesmileofcoldhatredandtriumph。 Withslowfalteringsteps,withshakingknees,Raskolnikovmadehiswaybacktohislittlegarret,feelingchilledallover。Hetookoffhiscapandputitonthetable,andfortenminuteshestoodwithoutmoving。Thenhesankexhaustedonthesofaandwithaweakmoanofpainhestretchedhimselfonit。Sohelayforhalfanhour。 Hethoughtofnothing。Somethoughtsorfragmentsofthoughts,someimageswithoutorderorcoherencefloatedbeforehismind—facesofpeoplehehadseeninhischildhoodormetsomewhereonce,whomhewouldneverhaverecalled,thebelfryofthechurchatV。,thebilliardtableinarestaurantandsomeofficersplayingbilliards,thesmellofcigarsinsomeundergroundtobaccoshop,atavernroom,abackstaircasequitedark,allsloppywithdirtywaterandstrewnwithegg-shells,andtheSundaybellsfloatinginfromsomewhere。…Theimagesfollowedoneanother,whirlinglikeahurricane。Someofthemhelikedandtriedtoclutchat,buttheyfadedandallthewhiletherewasanoppressionwithinhim,butitwasnotoverwhelming,sometimesitwasevenpleasant。…Theslightshiveringstillpersisted,butthattoowasanalmostpleasantsensation。 HeheardthehurriedfootstepsofRazumihin;heclosedhiseyesandpretendedtobeasleep。Razumihinopenedthedoorandstoodforsometimeinthedoorwayasthoughhesitating,thenhesteppedsoftlyintotheroomandwentcautiouslytothesofa。RaskolnikovheardNastasya’swhisper: “Don’tdisturbhim!Lethimsleep。Hecanhavehisdinnerlater。” “Quiteso,”answeredRazumihin。Bothwithdrewcarefullyandclosedthedoor。Anotherhalf-hourpassed。Raskolnikovopenedhiseyes,turnedonhisbackagain,claspinghishandsbehindhishead。 “Whoishe?Whoisthatmanwhosprangoutoftheearth?Wherewashe,whatdidhesee?Hehasseenitall,that’sclear。Wherewashethen?Andfromwheredidhesee?Whyhasheonlynowsprungoutoftheearth?Andhowcouldhesee?Isitpossible?Hm…”continuedRaskolnikov,turningcoldandshivering,“andthejewelcaseNikolayfoundbehindthedoor—wasthatpossible?Aclue?Youmissaninfinitesimallineandyoucanbuilditintoapyramidofevidence!Aflyflewbyandsawit!Isitpossible?”Hefeltwithsuddenloathinghowweak,howphysicallyweakhehadbecome。“Ioughttohaveknownit,”hethoughtwithabittersmile。“AndhowdaredI,knowingmyself,knowinghowIshouldbe,takeupanaxeandshedblood!Ioughttohaveknownbeforehand。…Ah,butIdidknow!”hewhisperedindespair。Attimeshecametoastandstillatsomethought。 “No,thosemenarenotmadeso。TherealMastertowhomallispermittedstormsToulon,makesamassacreinParis,forgetsanarmyinEgypt,wasteshalfamillionmenintheMoscowexpeditionandgetsoffwithajestatVilna。Andaltarsaresetuptohimafterhisdeath,andsoallispermitted。No,suchpeople,itseems,arenotoffleshbutofbronze!” Onesuddenirrelevantideaalmostmadehimlaugh。Napoleon,thepyramids,Waterloo,andawretchedskinnyoldwoman,apawnbrokerwitharedtrunkunderherbed—it’sanicehashforPorfiryPetrovitchtodigest!Howcantheydigestit!It’stooinartistic。“ANapoleoncreepunderanoldwoman’sbed!Ugh,howloathsome!” Atmomentshefelthewasraving。Hesankintoastateoffeverishexcitement。“Theoldwomanisofnoconsequence,”hethought,hotlyandincoherently。“Theoldwomanwasamistakeperhaps,butsheisnotwhatmatters!Theoldwomanwasonlyanillness。…Iwasinahurrytooverstep。…Ididn’tkillahumanbeing,butaprinciple!Ikilledtheprinciple,butIdidn’toverstep,Istoppedonthisside。…Iwasonlycapableofkilling。AnditseemsIwasn’tevencapableofthat…Principle?WhywasthatfoolRazumihinabusingthesocialists?Theyareindustrious,commercialpeople;‘thehappinessofall’istheircase。No,lifeisonlygiventomeonceandIshallneverhaveitagain;Idon’twanttowaitfor‘thehappinessofall。’Iwanttolivemyself,orelsebetternotliveatall。Isimplycouldn’tpassbymymotherstarving,keepingmyroubleinmypocketwhileIwaitedforthe‘happinessofall。’Iamputtingmylittlebrickintothehappinessofallandsomyheartisatpeace。Ha-ha!Whyhaveyouletmeslip?Ionlyliveonce,Itoowant。…Ech,Iamanaestheticlouseandnothingmore,”headdedsuddenly,laughinglikeamadman。“Yes,Iamcertainlyalouse,”hewenton,clutchingattheidea,gloatingoveritandplayingwithitwithvindictivepleasure。“Inthefirstplace,becauseIcanreasonthatIamone,andsecondly,becauseforamonthpastIhavebeentroublingbenevolentProvidence,callingittowitnessthatnotformyownfleshlylustsdidIundertakeit,butwithagrandandnobleobject—ha-ha!Thirdly,becauseIaimedatcarryingitoutasjustlyaspossible,weighing,measuringandcalculating。OfalltheliceIpickedoutthemostuselessoneandproposedtotakefromheronlyasmuchasIneededforthefirststep,nomorenorless(sotherestwouldhavegonetoamonastery,accordingtoherwill,ha-ha!)。AndwhatshowsthatIamutterlyalouse,”headded,grindinghisteeth,“isthatIamperhapsvilerandmoreloathsomethanthelouseIkilled,andIfeltbeforehandthatIshouldtellmyselfsoafterkillingher。Cananythingbecomparedwiththehorrorofthat?Thevulgarity!Theabjectness!Iunderstandthe‘prophet’withhissabre,onhissteed:Allahcommandsand‘trembling’creationmustobey!The‘prophet’isright,heisrightwhenhesetsabatteryacrossthestreetandblowsuptheinnocentandtheguiltywithoutdeigningtoexplain!It’sforyoutoobey,tremblingcreation,andnottohavedesires,forthat’snotforyou!…Ishallnever,neverforgivetheoldwoman!” Hishairwassoakedwithsweat,hisquiveringlipswereparched,hiseyeswerefixedontheceiling。 “Mother,sister—howIlovedthem!WhydoIhatethemnow?Yes,Ihatethem,Ifeelaphysicalhatredforthem,Ican’tbearthemnearme。…Iwentuptomymotherandkissedher,Iremember。…Toembraceherandthinkifsheonlyknew…shallItellherthen?That’sjustwhatImightdo。…ShemustbethesameasIam,”headded,straininghimselftothink,asitwerestrugglingwithdelirium。“Ah,howIhatetheoldwomannow!IfeelIshouldkillheragainifshecametolife!PoorLizaveta!Whydidshecomein?…It’sstrangethough,whyisitIscarcelyeverthinkofher,asthoughIhadn’tkilledher?Lizaveta!Sonia!Poorgentlethings,withgentleeyes。…Dearwomen!Whydon’ttheyweep?Whydon’ttheymoan?Theygiveupeverything…theireyesaresoftandgentle。…Sonia,Sonia!GentleSonia!” Helostconsciousness;itseemedstrangetohimthathedidn’trememberhowhegotintothestreet。Itwaslateevening。Thetwilighthadfallenandthefullmoonwasshiningmoreandmorebrightly;buttherewasapeculiarbreathlessnessintheair。Therewerecrowdsofpeopleinthestreet;workmenandbusinesspeopleweremakingtheirwayhome;otherpeoplehadcomeoutforawalk;therewasasmellofmortar,dustandstagnantwater。Raskolnikovwalkedalong,mournfulandanxious;hewasdistinctlyawareofhavingcomeoutwithapurpose,ofhavingtodosomethinginahurry,butwhatitwashehadforgotten。Suddenlyhestoodstillandsawamanstandingontheothersideofthestreet,beckoningtohim。Hecrossedovertohim,butatoncethemanturnedandwalkedawaywithhisheadhanging,asthoughhehadmadenosigntohim。“Stay,didhereallybeckon?”Raskolnikovwondered,buthetriedtoovertakehim。Whenhewaswithintenpacesherecognisedhimandwasfrightened;itwasthesamemanwithstoopingshouldersinthelongcoat。Raskolnikovfollowedhimatadistance;hisheartwasbeating;theywentdownaturning;themanstilldidnotlookround。“DoesheknowIamfollowinghim?”thoughtRaskolnikov。Themanwentintothegatewayofabighouse。Raskolnikovhastenedtothegateandlookedintoseewhetherhewouldlookroundandsigntohim。Inthecourt-yardthemandidturnroundandagainseemedtobeckonhim。Raskolnikovatoncefollowedhimintotheyard,butthemanwasgone。Hemusthavegoneupthefirststaircase。Raskolnikovrushedafterhim。Heheardslowmeasuredstepstwoflightsabove。Thestaircaseseemedstrangelyfamiliar。Hereachedthewindowonthefirstfloor;themoonshonethroughthepaneswithamelancholyandmysteriouslight;thenhereachedthesecondfloor。Bah!thisistheflatwherethepainterswereatwork…buthowwasithedidnotrecogniseitatonce?Thestepsofthemanabovehaddiedaway。“Sohemusthavestoppedorhiddensomewhere。”Hereachedthethirdstorey,shouldhegoon?Therewasastillnessthatwasdreadful。…Buthewenton。Thesoundofhisownfootstepsscaredandfrightenedhim。Howdarkitwas!Themanmustbehidinginsomecornerhere。Ah!theflatwasstandingwideopen,hehesitatedandwentin。Itwasverydarkandemptyinthepassage,asthougheverythinghadbeenremoved;hecreptontiptoeintotheparlourwhichwasfloodedwithmoonlight。Everythingtherewasasbefore,thechairs,thelooking-glass,theyellowsofaandthepicturesintheframes。Ahuge,round,copper-redmoonlookedinatthewindows。“It’sthemoonthatmakesitsostill,weavingsomemystery,”thoughtRaskolnikov。Hestoodandwaited,waitedalongwhile,andthemoresilentthemoonlight,themoreviolentlyhisheartbeat,tillitwaspainful。Andstillthesamehush。Suddenlyheheardamomentarysharpcracklikethesnappingofasplinterandallwasstillagain。Aflyflewupsuddenlyandstruckthewindowpanewithaplaintivebuzz。Atthatmomenthenoticedinthecornerbetweenthewindowandthelittlecupboardsomethinglikeacloakhangingonthewall。“Whyisthatcloakhere?”hethought,“itwasn’ttherebefore。…”Hewentuptoitquietlyandfeltthattherewassomeonehidingbehindit。Hecautiouslymovedthecloakandsaw,sittingonachairinthecorner,theoldwomanbentdoublesothathecouldn’tseeherface;butitwasshe。Hestoodoverher。“Sheisafraid,”hethought。Hestealthilytooktheaxefromthenooseandstruckheroneblow,thenanotherontheskull。Butstrangetosayshedidnotstir,asthoughsheweremadeofwood。Hewasfrightened,bentdownnearerandtriedtolookather;butshe,too,bentherheadlower。Hebentrightdowntothegroundandpeepedupintoherfacefrombelow,hepeepedandturnedcoldwithhorror:theoldwomanwassittingandlaughing,shakingwithnoiselesslaughter,doingherutmostthatheshouldnothearit。Suddenlyhefanciedthatthedoorfromthebedroomwasopenedalittleandthattherewaslaughterandwhisperingwithin。Hewasovercomewithfrenzyandhebeganhittingtheoldwomanontheheadwithallhisforce,butateveryblowoftheaxethelaughterandwhisperingfromthebedroomgrewlouderandtheoldwomanwassimplyshakingwithmirth。Hewasrushingaway,butthepassagewasfullofpeople,thedoorsoftheflatsstoodopenandonthelanding,onthestairsandeverywherebelowtherewerepeople,rowsofheads,alllooking,buthuddledtogetherinsilenceandexpectation。Somethinggrippedhisheart,hislegswererootedtothespot,theywouldnotmove。…Hetriedtoscreamandwokeup。 Hedrewadeepbreath—buthisdreamseemedstrangelytopersist:hisdoorwasflungopenandamanwhomhehadneverseenstoodinthedoorwaywatchinghimintently。 Raskolnikovhadhardlyopenedhiseyesandheinstantlyclosedthemagain。Helayonhisbackwithoutstirring。 “Isitstilladream?”hewonderedandagainraisedhiseyelidshardlyperceptibly;thestrangerwasstandinginthesameplace,stillwatchinghim。 Hesteppedcautiouslyintotheroom,carefullyclosingthedoorafterhim,wentuptothetable,pausedamoment,stillkeepinghiseyesonRaskolnikov,andnoiselesslyseatedhimselfonthechairbythesofa;heputhishatonthefloorbesidehimandleanedhishandsonhiscaneandhischinonhishands。Itwasevidentthathewaspreparedtowaitindefinitely。AsfarasRaskolnikovcouldmakeoutfromhisstolenglances,hewasamannolongeryoung,stout,withafull,fair,almostwhitishbeard。 Tenminutespassed。Itwasstilllight,butbeginningtogetdusk。Therewascompletestillnessintheroom。Notasoundcamefromthestairs。Onlyabigflybuzzedandflutteredagainstthewindowpane。Itwasunbearableatlast。Raskolnikovsuddenlygotupandsatonthesofa。 “Come,tellmewhatyouwant。” “Iknewyouwerenotasleep,butonlypretending,”thestrangeransweredoddly,laughingcalmly。“ArkadyIvanovitchSvidrigailov,allowmetointroducemyself。…” “Canthisbestilladream?”Raskolnikovthoughtoncemore。 Helookedcarefullyandsuspiciouslyattheunexpectedvisitor。 “Svidrigailov!Whatnonsense!Itcan’tbe!”hesaidatlastaloudinbewilderment。 Hisvisitordidnotseematallsurprisedatthisexclamation。 “I’vecometoyoufortworeasons。Inthefirstplace,Iwantedtomakeyourpersonalacquaintance,asIhavealreadyheardagreatdealaboutyouthatisinterestingandflattering;secondly,Icherishthehopethatyoumaynotrefusetoassistmeinamatterdirectlyconcerningthewelfareofyoursister,AvdotyaRomanovna。Forwithoutyoursupportshemightnotletmecomenearhernow,forsheisprejudicedagainstme,butwithyourassistanceIreckonon…” “Youreckonwrongly,”interruptedRaskolnikov。 “Theyonlyarrivedyesterday,mayIaskyou?” Raskolnikovmadenoreply。 “Itwasyesterday,Iknow。Ionlyarrivedmyselfthedaybefore。Well,letmetellyouthis,RodionRomanovitch,Idon’tconsideritnecessarytojustifymyself,butkindlytellmewhatwasthereparticularlycriminalonmypartinallthisbusiness,speakingwithoutprejudice,withcommonsense?” Raskolnikovcontinuedtolookathiminsilence。 “ThatinmyownhouseIpersecutedadefencelessgirland‘insultedherwithmyinfamousproposals’—isthatit?(Iamanticipatingyou。)Butyou’veonlytoassumethatI,too,amamanetnihilhumanum…inaword,thatIamcapableofbeingattractedandfallinginlove(whichdoesnotdependonourwill),theneverythingcanbeexplainedinthemostnaturalmanner。Thequestionis,amIamonster,oramImyselfavictim?AndwhatifIamavictim?InproposingtotheobjectofmypassiontoelopewithmetoAmericaorSwitzerland,ImayhavecherishedthedeepestrespectforherandmayhavethoughtthatIwaspromotingourmutualhappiness!Reasonistheslaveofpassion,youknow;why,probably,Iwasdoingmoreharmtomyselfthananyone!” “Butthat’snotthepoint,”Raskolnikovinterruptedwithdisgust。“It’ssimplythatwhetheryouarerightorwrong,wedislikeyou。Wedon’twanttohaveanythingtodowithyou。Weshowyouthedoor。Goout!” Svidrigailovbrokeintoasuddenlaugh。 “Butyou’re…butthere’snogettingroundyou,”hesaid,laughinginthefrankestway。“Ihopedtogetroundyou,butyoutookuptherightlineatonce!” “Butyouaretryingtogetroundmestill!” “Whatofit?Whatofit?”criedSvidrigailov,laughingopenly。“ButthisiswhattheFrenchcallbonneguerre,andthemostinnocentformofdeception!…Butstillyouhaveinterruptedme;onewayoranother,Irepeatagain:therewouldneverhavebeenanyunpleasantnessexceptforwhathappenedinthegarden。MarfaPetrovna…” “YouhavegotridofMarfaPetrovna,too,sotheysay?”Raskolnikovinterruptedrudely。 “Oh,you’veheardthat,too,then?You’dbesureto,though。…Butasforyourquestion,Ireallydon’tknowwhattosay,thoughmyownconscienceisquiteatrestonthatscore。Don’tsupposethatIaminanyapprehensionaboutit。Allwasregularandinorder;themedicalinquirydiagnosedapoplexyduetobathingimmediatelyafteraheavydinnerandabottleofwine,andindeeditcouldhaveprovednothingelse。ButI’lltellyouwhatIhavebeenthinkingtomyselfoflate,onmywayhereinthetrain,especially:didn’tIcontributetoallthat…calamity,morally,inaway,byirritationorsomethingofthesort。ButIcametotheconclusionthatthat,too,wasquiteoutofthequestion。” Raskolnikovlaughed。 “Iwonderyoutroubleyourselfaboutit!” “Butwhatareyoulaughingat?Onlyconsider,Istruckherjusttwicewithaswitch—therewerenomarkseven…don’tregardmeasacynic,please;Iamperfectlyawarehowatrociousitwasofmeandallthat;butIknowforcertain,too,thatMarfaPetrovnawasverylikelypleasedatmy,sotosay,warmth。Thestoryofyoursisterhadbeenwrungouttothelastdrop;forthelastthreedaysMarfaPetrovnahadbeenforcedtositathome;shehadnothingtoshowherselfwithinthetown。Besides,shehadboredthemsowiththatletter(youheardaboutherreadingtheletter)。Andallofasuddenthosetwoswitchesfellfromheaven!Herfirstactwastoorderthecarriagetobegotout。…Nottospeakofthefactthattherearecaseswhenwomenarevery,verygladtobeinsultedinspiteofalltheirshowofindignation。Thereareinstancesofitwitheveryone;humanbeingsingeneral,indeed,greatlylovetobeinsulted,haveyounoticedthat?Butit’sparticularlysowithwomen。Onemightevensayit’stheironlyamusement。” AtonetimeRaskolnikovthoughtofgettingupandwalkingoutandsofinishingtheinterview。Butsomecuriosityandevenasortofprudencemadehimlingerforamoment。