第16章

类别:其他 作者:George MacDonald字数:32575更新时间:18/12/21 14:35:15
“I\'vegothim!”criedHugh。 “Letthemanalone,“growledaburlyfellowinthecrowd,withhisfistsclenchedinhistrowser-pockets。 “Letmehavealookathim,“saidFalconer,stoopingoverhim。“Ah! Idon\'tknowhim。That\'saswellforhim。Lethimup,Sutherland。“ ThebystanderstookFalconerforadetective,anddidnotseeminclinedtointerfere,allexceptthecarmanbeforementioned。Hecameup,pushingthecrowdrightandleft。 “Letthemanalone,“saidhe,inaveryoffensivetone。 “Iassureyou,“saidFalconer,“he\'snotworthyourtrouble;for——“ “Noneo\'yourcursedjaw!”saidthefellow,inalouderanddeepergrowl,approachingFalconerwithathreateningmien。 “Well,Ican\'thelpit,“saidFalconer,asiftohimself。 “Sutherland,lookafterthecount。“ “ThatIwill,“saidHugh,confidently。 Falconerturnedonthecarman,whowasjustonthepointofclosingwithhim,preferringthatmodeoffighting;andsayingonly:“Defendyourself,“retreatedastep。Themanwasgoodathisfiststoo,and,havingfailedinhisfirstattempt,madethebestuseofthemhecould。ButhehadnochancewithFalconer,whosecoolnessequalledhisskill。 Meantime,theBohemianhadbeenwatchinghischance;andalthoughthecontestcertainlydidnotlastlongerthanoneminute,foundopportunity,inthemiddleofit,towrenchhimselffreefromHugh,triphimup,anddartoff。Thecrowdgavewaybeforehim。Hevanishedsosuddenlyandcompletely,thatitwasevidenthemusthavestudiedtheneighbourhoodfromtheretreatsideofthequestion。Withrat-likeinstinct,hehadconsultedtheholesandcornersinanticipationofthenecessityofapplyingtothem。Hughgotup,and,directed,orpossiblymisdirectedbythebystanders,spedawayinpursuit;buthecouldhearorseenothingofthefugitive。 Attheendoftheminute,thecarmanlayintheroad。 “Lookafterhim,somebody,“saidFalconer。 “Nofearofhim,sir;he\'susedtoit,“answeredoneofthebystanders,withtherespectwhichFalconer\'sprowessclaimed。 FalconerwalkedafterHugh,whosoonreturned,lookingexcessivelymortified,andfeelingverysmallindeed。 “Nevermind,Sutherland,“saidhe。“Thefellowisuptoatrickortwo;butweshallcatchhimyet。Ifithadn\'tbeenforthatbigfoolthere——buthe\'spunishedenough。“ “Butwhatcanwedonext?Hewillnotcomehereagain。“ “Verylikelynot。StillhemaynotgiveuphisattemptsuponMissCameron。Ialmostwonder,seeingsheissoimpressible,thatshecangivenoaccountofhiswhereabouts。ButIpresumeclairvoyancedependsonthepresenceofotherqualificationsaswell。Ishouldliketomesmerizehermyself,andseewhethershecouldnothelpusthen。“ “Well,whynot,ifyouhavethepower?” “BecauseIhavemadeupmymindnottosuperinduceanyconditionofwhoselawsIamsoverypartiallyinformed。Besides,Iconsideritaconditionofdiseaseinwhich,asbysleeplessnessforinstance,thesensesofthesoul,ifyouwillallowtheexpression,are,foritspresentstate,renderedunnaturallyacute。Toinducesuchacondition,IdarenotexerciseapowerwhichitselfIdonotunderstand。“ CHAPTERXIX。 MARGARET。 Forthoughthatevervirtuouswasshe,Shewasincreasedinsuchexcellence,Ofthewesgood,ysetinhighbount? Andsodiscreetandfairofeloquence,Sobenign,andsodigneofreverence,Andcouth?sothepoeple\'shertembrace,Thateachherloveththatlookethinherface。 CHAUCER——TheClerk\'sTale。 HughreturnedtoMrs。Elton\'s,and,inthedining-room,wroteanotetoEuphra,toexpresshisdisappointment,andshamethat,afterall,thecounthadfoiledhim;but,atthesametime,hisdeterminationnottoabandonthequest,tilltherewasnoroomforhopeleft。Hesentthisuptoher,andwaited,thinkingthatshemightbeonthesofa,andmightsendforhim。Alittlewearyfromthereactionoftheexcitementhehadjustgonethrough,hesatdowninthecornerfarthestfromthedoor。Thelargeroomwasdimlylightedbyoneuntrimmedlamp。 Hesatforsometime,thinkingthatEuphrawaswritinghimanote,orperhapspreparingherselftoseehiminherroom。Involuntarilyhelookedup,andasuddenpang,asatthevisionofthedisembodied,shotthroughhisheart。Adimformstoodinthemiddleoftheroom,gazingearnestlyathim。HesawthesamefacewhichhehadseenforamomentinthelibraryatArnstead——theglorifiedfaceofMargaretElginbrod,shimmeringfaintlyinthedulllight。 Instinctivelyhepressedhishandstogether,palmtopalm,asifhehadbeenabouttokneelbeforeMadonnaherself。Delight,mingledwithhope,andtemperedbyshame,flushedhisface。Ghostornone,shebroughtnofearwithher,onlyawe。 Shestoodstill。 “Margaret!”hesaid,withtremblingvoice。 “Mr。Sutherland!”sheresponded,sweetly。 “Areyouaghost,Margaret?” Shesmiledasifshewereallspirit,and,advancingslowly,tookhisjoinedhandsinbothofhers。 “Forgiveme,Margaret,“sighedhe,asifwithhislastbreath,andburstintoanagonyoftears。 Shewaitedmotionless,tillhispassionshouldsubside,stillholdinghishands。Hefeltthatherhandsweresogood。 “Heisdead!”saidHugh,atlast,withalleffort,followedbyafreshoutburstofweeping。 “Yes,heisdead,“rejoinedMargaret,calmly。“YouwouldnotweepsoifyouhadseenhimdieasIdid——diewithasmilelikeasummersunset。Indeed,itwasthesunsettome;butthemoonhasbeenupforalongtimenow。“ Shesighedagentle,painlesssigh,andsmiledagainlikeasaint。 ShespokenearlyasScotchaseverintone,thoughthewordsandpronunciationwerealmostpureEnglish——Thislapseintosomuchoftheoldform,orrathergarment,ofspeech,constantlyrecurred,asoftenasherfeelingsweremoved,andespeciallywhenshetalkedtochildren。 “Forgiveme,“saidHugh,oncemore。 “Wearethesameasintheolddays,“answeredMargaret;andHughwassatisfied。 “Howdoyoucometobehere?”saidHugh,atlast,afterasilence。 “Iwilltellyouallaboutthatanothertime。NowImustgiveyouMissCameron\'smessage。Sheisverysorryshecannotseeyou,butsheisquiteunable。Indeed,sheisnotoutofbed。Butifyoucouldcallto-morrowmorning,shehopestobebetterandtobeabletoseeyou。Shesaysshecanneverthankyouenough。“ Thelampburnedyetfainter。Margaretwent,andproceededtotrimit。Thevirginsthatarosemusthavelookedverylovely,trimmingtheirlamps。Itisadeedveryfairandwomanly——thebestforawoman——tomakethelampburn。Thelightshoneupinherface,andthehandsremovingtheglobehandleditdelicately。Hesawthatthegoodhandswereverybeautifulhands;notsmall,butadmirablyshaped,andverypure。Asshereplacedtheglobe,—— “Thatman,“shesaid,“willnottroubleheranymore。“ “Ihopenot,“saidHugh;“butyouspeakconfidently:why?” “Becauseshehasbehavedgloriously。Shehasfoughtandconqueredhimonhisownground;andsheisafree,beautiful,andgoodcreatureofGodforever。“ “Youdelightme,“rejoinedHugh“Anothertime,perhaps,youwillbeabletotellmeallaboutit。“ “Ihopeso。Ithinkshewillnotmindmytellingyou。“ Theybadeeachothergoodnight;andHughwentawaywithastrangefeeling,whichhehadneverexperiencedbefore。Tocomparegreatthingswithsmall,itwassomethinglikewhathehadoncefeltinadream,inwhich,digginginhisfather\'sgarden,hehadfoundaperfectmarblestatue,youngaslife,andyetoldasthehills。Tothinkofthegirlhehadfirstseeninthedrawing-roomatTurriepuffit,idealizingherselfintosuchacreatureasthat,sogrand,andyetsowomanly!solofty,andyetsolovely;sostrong,andyetsograceful! Wouldthateverywomanbelievedintheidealofherself,andhopedforitasthewillofGod,notmerelyasthegoalofherownpurestambition!Butevenifthelowerdevelopmentofthehopewereallshepossessed,itwouldyetbewell;foritsinevitablefailurewouldsoondevelopethehigherandtriumphanthope。 Hethoughtabouthertillhefellasleep,anddreamedabouthertillhewoke。Notforamoment,however,didhefancyhewasinlovewithher:thefeelingwasdifferentfromanyhehadhithertorecognizedasembodyingthatpassion。Itwastherecognitionandconsequentadmirationofabeautywhicheveryonewhobehelditmustrecognizeandadmire;butmingled,inhiscase,witholdandpreciousmemories,doublydearnowintheincreasedearnestnessofhisnatureandaspirations,andwithadeeppersonalinterestfromthefactthat,howeverlittle,hehadyetcontributedaportionofthevitalfoodwherebythegraciouscreaturehadbecomewhatshewas。 Intheso-calledmorninghewenttoMrs。Elton\'s。Euphrawasexpectinghisvisit,andhewasshownupintoherroom,whereshewaslyingonacouchbythefire。Shereceivedhimwiththewarmthofgratitudeaddedtothatoffriendship。Herfacewaspaleandthin,buthereyeswerebrilliant。Shedidnotappearatfirstsighttobeveryill:butthedepthandrealityofhersicknessgrewuponhim。BehindhercouchstoodMargaret,likeaguardianangel。 Margaretcouldbeartheday,forshebelongedtoit;andthereforeshelookedmorebeautifulstillthanbythelamp-light。EuphraheldoutapalelittlehandtoHugh,andbeforeshewithdrewit,ledHugh\'stowardsMargaret。Theirhandsjoined。HowdifferenttoHughwasthetouchofthetwohands!Life,strength,persistencyintheone:languor,feebleness,andfadingintheother。 “Icanneverthankyouenough,“saidEuphra;“thereforeIwillnottry。Itisnobondagetoremainyourdebtor。“ “Thatwouldbethanksindeed,ifIhaddoneanything。“ “Ihavefoundoutanothermystery,“Euphraresumed,afterapause。 “Iamsorrytohearit,“answeredhe。“Ifeartherewillbenomysteriesleftby-and-by。“ “Nofearofthat,“sherejoined,“solongastheangelscomedowntomen。“AndsheturnedtowardsMargaretasshespoke。 Margaretsmiled。Inthecomplimentshefeltonlythekindness。 Hughlookedather。Sheturnedaway,andfoundsomethingtodoattheothersideoftheroom。 “Whatmystery,then,haveyoudestroyed?” “Notdestroyedit;forthemysteryofcourageremains。IwasthewickedghostthatnightintheGhost\'sWalk,youknow——thewhiteone:thereisthegoodghost,thenun,theblackone。“ “Who?Margaret?” “Yes,indeed。Shehasjustbeenconfessingittome。Ihadmytwoangels,asonewhosefatewasundetermined;myevilangelinthecount——mygoodangelinMargaret。LittledidIthinkthenthattheholypowerswerewatchingmeinher。Iknewtheevilone;Iknewnothingofthegood。Isupposeitissowithagreatmanypeople。“ Hughsatsilentinastonishment。Margaret,then,hadbeenatArnsteadwithMrs。Eltonallthetime。Itwasherselfhehadseeninthestudy。 “Didyoususpectme,Margaret?”resumedEuphra,turningtowardsherwhereshesatatthewindow。 “Notintheleast。Ionlyknewthatsomethingwaswrongaboutthehouse;thatsomebeingwasterrifyingtheservants,andpoorHarry; andIresolvedtodomybesttomeetit,especiallyifitshouldbeanythingofaghostlykind。“ “Thenyoudobelieveinsuchappearances?”saidHugh。 “Ihavenevermetanythingofthesortyet。Idon\'tknow。“ “Andyouwerenotafraid?” “Notmuch。Iamneverreallyafraidofanything。WhyshouldIbe?” NojustificationoffearwassuggestedeitherbyHughorbyEuphra。 TheyfeltthedignityofnaturethatliftedMargaretabovetheregionoffear。 “Comeandseemeagainsoon,“saidEuphra,asHughrosetogo。 Hepromised。 NextdayhedinedbyinvitationwithMrs。EltonandHarry。Euphrawasunabletoseehim,butsentakindmessagebyMargaretashewastakinghisleave。HehadbeenfearingthatheshouldnotseeMargaret;andwhenshedidappearhewasthemoredelighted;buttheinterviewwasnecessarilyshort。 Hecalledthenextday,andsawneitherEuphranorMargaret。Shewasnobetter。Mrs。Eltonsaidthephysicianscoulddiscovernodefinitediseaseeitherofthelungsorofanyotherorgan。Yetlifeseemedsinking。Margaretthoughtthattheconflictwhichshehadpassedthrough,hadexhaustedhervitality;that,hadsheyielded,shemighthavelivedaslave;butthatnow,perhaps,shemustdieafreewoman。 HercontinuedillnessmadeHughstillmoreanxioustofindthering,forheknewitwouldpleasehermuch。Falconerwouldhaveappliedtothepolice,buthefearedthatthemanwouldvanishfromLondon,upontheleastsuspicionthathewaswatched。Theyheldmanyconsultationsonthesubject。 CHAPTERXX。 ANEWGUIDE。 DasDenkenistnureinTraumdesF黨lens,einerstorbenesF黨len,einblass-graues,schwachesLeben。 Thinkingisonlyadreamoffeeling;adeadfeeling;apale-grey,feeblelife。 NOVALIS——DieLehrlingezuSais。 Forwhere\'snocourage,there\'snoruthnormone。 FaerieQueene:vi。7,18。 Onemorning,assoonasshewaked,Euphrasaid: “HaveIbeenstillallthenight,Margaret?” “Quitestill。Whydoyouask?” “BecauseIhavehadsuchastrangeandvividdream,thatIfeelasifImusthavebeentotheplace。Itwasafoolishquestion,though;because,ofcourse,youwouldnothaveletmego。“ “Ihopeitdidnottroubleyoumuch。“ “No,notmuch;forthoughIwaswiththecount,Ididnotseemtobethereinthebodyatall,onlysomehownearhim,andseeinghim。I canrecalltheplaceperfectly。“ “Doyouthinkitreallywastheplacehewasinatthetime?” “Ishouldnotwonder。ButnowIfeelsofree,sofarbeyondhimandallhispower,thatIdon\'tmindwhereorwhenIseehim。Hecannothurtmenow。“ “CouldyoudescribetheplacetoMr。Sutherland?Itmighthelphimtofindthecount。“ “That\'sagoodidea。Willyousendforhim?” “Yes,certainly。MayItellhimforwhat?” “Byallmeans。“ MargaretwrotetoHughatonce,andsentthenotebyhand。Hewasathomewhenitarrived。Hehurriedlyansweredit,andwenttofindFalconer。Tohisdelighthewasathome——notoutofbed,infact。 “Readthat。“ “Whoisitfrom?” “MissCameron\'smaid。“ “Itdoesnotlooklikeamaid\'sproduction。“ “Itisthough。Willyoucomewithme?YouknowLondontenthousandtimesbetterthanIdo。Idon\'tthinkweoughttoloseachance。“ “Certainlynot。Iwillgowithyou。Butperhapsshewillnotseeme。“ “Oh!yes,shewill,whenIhavetoldheraboutyou。“ “Itwillberatheratrialtoseeastranger。“ “Amancannotbeastrangerwithyoutenminutes,ifheonlylooksatyou;——stilllessawoman。“ Falconerlookedpleased,andsmiled。 “Iamgladyouthinkso。Letusgo。“ Whentheyarrived,Margaretcametothem。HughtoldherthatFalconerwashisbestfriend,andonewhoknewLondonperhapsbetterthananyothermaninit。Margaretlookedathimfullinthefaceforamoment。Falconersmiledattheintensityofherstillgaze。 Margaretreturnedthesmile,andsaid: “IwillaskMissCamerontoseeyet。“ “Thankyou,“wasallFalconer\'sreply;butthetonewasmorethanspeech。 Afteralittlewhile,theywereshownuptoEuphra\'sroom。Shehadwantedtositup,butMargaretwouldnotlether;soshewaslyingonhercouch。WhenFalconerwaspresentedtoher,hetookherhand,andhelditforamoment。Akindofindescribablebeambrokeoverhisface,asifhisspiritsmiledandthesmileshonethroughwithoutmovingoneofhisfeaturesasitpassed。Thetearsstoodinhiseyes。Tounderstandallthislook,onewouldneedtoknowhishistoryasIdo。Helaidherhandgentlyonherbosom,andsaid: “Godblessyou!” EuphrafeltthatGoddidblessherintheverywords。ShehadbeenlookingatFalconerallthetime。Itwasonlyfifteensecondsorso;buttheoutcomeofalifewascrowdedintoFalconer\'ssideofit;andtheconfidenceofEuphrarosetomeetthefaithfulnessofamanofGod——Whatwordsthoseare!——AmanofGod!HaveInotwrittenarevelation?Yes——tohimwhocanreadit——yes。 “Iknowenoughofyourstory,MissCameron,“hesaid,“tounderstandwithoutanyprefacewhatyouchoosetotellme。“ Euphrabeganatonce: “IdreamedlastnightthatIfoundmyselfoutsidethestreetdoor。 IdidnotknowwhereIwasgoing;butmyfeetseemedtoknow。Theycarriedme,roundtwoorthreecorners,intoawide,longstreet,whichIthinkwasOxford-street。TheycarriedmeonintoLondon,farbeyondanyquarterIknew。AllIcantellfurtheris,thatI turnedtotheleftbesideachurch,onthesteepleofwhichstoodwhatItookforawanderingghostjustlightedthere;——onlyIoughttotellyou,thatfrequentlyinmydreams——alwaysinmypeculiardreams——themorematerialandsolidandordinarythingsare,themorethinandghostlytheyappeartome。ThenIwentonandon,turningleftandrighttoomanytimesformetoremember,tillatlastIcametoalittle,old-fashionedcourt,withtwoorthreetreesinit。Ihadtogoupafewstepstoenterit。Iwasnotafraid,becauseIknewIwasdreaming,andthatmybodywasnotthere。Itisagreatrelieftofeelthatsometimes;foritisoftenverymuchintheway。Iopenedadoor,uponwhichthemoonshoneverybright,andwalkeduptwoflightsofstairsintoabackroom。 AndthereIfoundhim,doingsomethingatatablebycandlelight。 Hehadasheetofpaperbeforehim;butwhathewasdoingwithit,Icouldnotsee。Itriedhard;butitwasofnouse。Thedreamsuddenlyfaded,andIawoke,andfoundMargaret——ThenIknewIwassafe,“sheadded,withalovingglanceathermaid。 Falconerrose。 “Iknowtheplaceyoumeanperfectly,“hesaid。“Itistoopeculiartobemistaken。Lastnight,letmesee,howdidthemoonshine?——Yes。Ishallbeabletotelltheverydoor,Ithink,oralmost。“ “Howkindofyounottolaughatme!” “ImightmakeafoolofmyselfifIlaughedatanyone。SoI generallyavoidit。Wemayaswellgetthegoodoutofwhatwedonotunderstand——oratleasttryiftherebeanyinit。Willyoucome,Sutherland?” Hughrose,andtookhisleavewithFalconer。 “Howpleasedsheseemedwithyou,Falconer!”saidhe,astheyleftthehouse。 “Yes,shetouchedme。“ “Won\'tyougoandseeheragain?” “No;thereisnoneed,exceptshesendsforme。“ “Itwouldpleaseher——comforther,Iamsure。“ “ShehasgotoneofGod\'sangelsbesideher,Sutherland。Shedoesn\'twantme。“ “Whatdoyoumean?” “Imeanthatmaidofhers。“ Apang——ofjealousy,wasit?——shotthroughHugh\'sheart。Howcouldhesee——whatrighthadhetoseeanythinginMargaret? Hughmighthavekepthimselfatpeace,evenifhehadlovedMargaretasmuchasshedeserved,whichwouldhavebeenabouttentimesasmuchashedid。Isamannottorecognizeanangelwhenheseesher,andtocallherbyhername?HadHughseenintothecoreofthatgrandheart——whatformsatthere,andhow——hewouldhavebeenatpeace——wouldalmosthavefallendowntodothemanhomage。Hewassilent。 “Mydearfellow!”saidFalconer,asifhedivinedhisfeeling——forFalconer\'spowerovermenandwomencameallfromsympathywiththeirspirits,andnottheirnerves——“ifyouhaveanyholdofthatwoman,donotloseit;forassureasthere\'sasuninheaven,sheisoneofthewingedones。Don\'tIknowawomanwhenIseeher!” Hesighedwithakindofinvoluntarysigh,whichyetdidnotseektohideitselffromHugh。 “Mydearboy,“headded,layingastressontheword,“——Iamnearlytwiceyourage——don\'tbejealousofme。“ “Mr。Falconer,“saidHughhumbly,“forgiveme。Thefeelingwasinvoluntary;andifyouhavedetectedinitmorethanIwasawareof,youareatleastaslikelytoberightasIam。ButyoucannotthinkmorehighlyofMargaretthanIdo。“ AndyetHughdidnotknowhalfthegoodofherthen,thatthereaderdoesnow。 “Well,wehadbetterpartnow,andmeetagainatnight。“ “WhattimeshallIcometoyou?” “Oh!aboutnineIthinkwilldo。“ SoHughwenthome,andtriedtoturnhisthoughtstohisstory;butEuphra,Falconer,Funkelstein,andMargaretpersistedinsittingtohim,theoneaftertheother,insteadoftheheroesandheroinesofhistale。Hewascompelledtolayitaside,andbetakehimselftoastrollandapipe。 Ashewentdownstairs,hemetMissTalbot。 “You\'resoontiredofhome,Mr。Sutherland。Youhaven\'tbeeninabovehalfanhour,andyou\'reoutagainalready。“ “Why,yousee,MissTalbot,Iwantapipeverymuch。“ “Well,youain\'tgoingtothepublichousetosmokeit,areyou?” “No,“answeredHughlaughing。“Butyouknow,MissTalbot,youmadeitpartoftheagreementthatIshouldn\'tsmokeindoors。SoI\'mgoingtosmokeinthestreet。“ “Now,thinkofbeingtakenthatway!”retortedMissTalbot,withaninjuredair。“Why,thatwasbeforeIknewanythingaboutyou。Goupstairsdirectly,andsmokeyourpipe;andwhentheroomcan\'tholdanymore,youcanopenthewindows。Yoursmokewon\'tdoanyharm,Mr。Sutherland。ButI\'mverysorryyouquarrelledwithMrs。 Appleditch。She\'sahardwoman,andoverfondofhermoneyandherdrawing-room;andforthoseboysofhers——theLordhavemercyonthem,forshehasnone!Butshe\'satrueChristianforallthat,anddoesapowerofgoodamongthepoorpeople。“ “Whatdoesshegivethem,MissTalbot?” “Oh!——shegivesthem——hm-m——tractsandthings。Youknow,“sheadded,perceivingtheweaknessofherposition,“people\'ssoulsshouldcomefirst。AndpoorMrs。Appleditch——yousee——somefolksismadestickierthanothers,andtheirmoneystickstothem,somehow,thattheycan\'tpartwithit——poorwoman!” TothisHughhadnoanswerathand;forthoughMissTalbot\'slogicwasmorethanquestionable,hercharitywasperfectlysound;andHughfeltthathehadnotbeenforbearingenoughwiththemotherofthefuturepastors。Sohewentbacktohisroom,lightedhispipe,andsmokedtillhefellasleepoverasmallvolumeofmorbidmoderndivinity,whichMissTalbothadlenthim。Idonotmentionthenameofthebook,lestsomeofmyacquaintanceshouldabuseme,andothersit,morethaneitherdeserves。Hugh,however,foundthebestrefugefromthediseasedself-consciousnesswhichitendeavouredtorouse,andwhichisakindofspiritualsomnambulism,inanhourofGod\'sgoodsleep,intoameansofwhichthebookwastemporarilyelevated。Whenhewokehefoundhimselfgreatlyrefreshedbytheinfluenceithadexerciseduponhim。 Itwasnowthehourforthedailypretenceofgoingtodine。Sohewentout。Butallhehadwassomebread,whichheateashewalkedabout。Loiteringhere,andtriflingthere,passingfiveminutesoveravolumeoneverybookstallinHolborn,andcomparingtheshapesofthemeerschaumsineverytobacconist\'swindow,timeambledgentlyalongwithhim;anditstruckninejustashefoundhimselfatFalconer\'sdoor。 “Youareready,then?”saidFalconer。 “Quite。“ “Willyoutakeanythingbeforeyougo?Ithinkwehadbetterhavesomesupperfirst。Itisearlyforourproject。“ ThiswasawelcomeproposaltoHugh。Coldmeatandalewereexcellentpreparativesforwhatmightberequiredofhim;foratendencytocollapseinacertainregion,calledbycourtesythechest,isnotfavourabletodeedsofvalour。Bythetimehehadspenttenminutesinthedischargeoftheagreeabledutysuggested,hefelthimselfreadyforanythingthatmightfalltohislot。 Thefriendssetouttogether;and,undertheguidanceofthetwoforemostbumpsuponFalconer\'sforehead,soonarrivedattheplacehejudgedtobethatindicatedbyEuphra。ItwasverydifferentfromtheplaceHughhadpicturedtohimself。Yetineverythingitcorrespondedtoherdescription。 “Arewenotgreatfools,Sutherland,tosetoutonsuchachase,withthedreamofasickgirlforouronlyguide?” “Iamsureyoudon\'tthinkso,elseyouwouldnothavegone。“ “Ithinkwecanaffordthesmallrisktoourreputationinvolvedinthechaseofthissamewild-goose。Thereisenoughofstrangetestimonyaboutthingsofthesorttojustifyusinattendingtothehint。Besides,ifweneglectedit,itwouldbemortifyingtofindoutsomeday,perhapsahundredyearsafterthis,thatitwasatruehint。Itisaltogetherdifferentfromgivingourselvesuptothepursuitofsuchthings——Butthisoughttobethehouse,“headded,goinguptoonethathadarathermorerespectablelookthantherest。 Heknockedatthedoor。Anelderlywomanhalfopeneditandlookedatthemsuspiciously。 “Willyoutakemycardtotheforeigngentlemanwhoislodgingwithyou,andsayIamhappytowaituponhim?”saidFalconer。 Sheglancedathimagain,andturnedinwards,hesitatingwhethertoleavethedoorhalf-openornot。Falconerstoodsoclosetoit,however,thatshewasafraidtoshutitinhisface。 “Now,Sutherland,followme,“whisperedFalconer,assoonasthewomanhaddisappearedonthestair。 Hughfollowedbehindthemovingtowerofhisfriend,whostrodewithlong,noiselessstridestillhereachedthestair。Thathetookthreestepsatatime。Theywentuptwoflights,andreachedthetopjustasthewomanwaslayingherhandonthelockoftheback-roomdoor。Sheturnedandfacedthem。 “Speakoneword,“saidFalconer,inahissingwhisper,“and——“ Hecompletedthesentencebyanawfullythreateninggesture。Shedrewbackinterror,andyieldedherplaceatthedoor。 “Comein,“bawledsomeone,insecondanswertotheknockshehadalreadygiven。 “Itishe!”saidHugh,tremblingwithexcitement。 “Hush!”saidFalconer,andwentin。 Hughfollowed。Heknowthebackofthecountatonce。Hewasseatedatatable,apparentlywriting;but,goingnearer,theysawthathewasdrawing。AsinglecloserglanceshowedthemtheportraitofEuphragrowingunderhishand。Inordertointensifyhiswillandconcentrateituponher,hewasdrawingherportraitfrommemory。Butatthemomenttheycaughtsightofit,thewretch,awareofahostilepresence,sprangtohisfeet,andreachedthechimney-pieceatonebound,whencehecaughtupasword。 “Takecare,Falconer,“criedHugh;“thatweaponispoisoned。Heisnoevery-dayvillainyouhavetodealwith。“ Herememberedthecat。 FunkelsteinmadeasuddenlungeatHugh,hisfacepalewithhatredandanger。ButablowfromFalconer\'shugefist,travellingfasterthanthepointofhisweapon,stretchedhimonthefloor。SuchwasFalconer\'simpetus,thatithurledbothhimandthetableacrossthefallenvillain。Falconerwasupinamoment。NotsoFunkelstein。 TherewasplentyoftimeforHughtosecuretherapier,andforFalconertosecureitsowner,beforehecametohimself。 “Where\'smyring?”saidHugh,themomentheopenedhiseyes。 “Gentlemen,Iprotest,“beganFunkelstein,inavoiceuponwhichthecordthatboundhiswristshadanevidentinfluence。 “Nochaff!”saidFalconer。“We\'vegotallourfeathers。Handoverthetworings,orbethesecurityforthemyourself。“ “Whatwitnesshaveyouagainstme?” “Thebestofwitnesses——MissCameron。“ “Andme,“addedHugh。 “Gentlemen,Iamverysorry。Iyieldedtotemptation。Imeanttorestorethediamondafterthejokehadbeenplayedout,butIwasforcedtopartwithit。“ “Thejokeisplayedout,yousee,“saidFalconer。“Soyouhadbetterproducetheotherbaubleyoustoleatthesametime。“ “Ihavenotgotit。“ “Come,come,that\'stoomuch。Nobodywouldgiveyoumorethanfiveshillingsforit。Andyouknewwhatitwasworthwhenyoutookit。 Sutherland,youstandoverhimwhileIsearchtheroom。Thisportraitmayaswellbeputoutofthewayfirst。“ Ashespoke,Falconertoretheportraitandthrewitintothefire。 Hethenturnedtoacupboardintheroom。WhetheritwasthatFunkelsteinfearedfurtherrevelations,Idonotknow,buthequailed。 “Ihavenotgotit,“herepeated,however。 “Youlie,“answeredFalconer。 “IwouldgiveityouifIcould。“ “Youshall。“ TheBohemianlookedcontemptibleenoughnow,despitethehandsomenessofhisfeatures。Itneededfreedom,andtheabsenceofanyurgency,toenablehimtopersonateagentleman。Giventhoseconditions,hesucceeded。Butassoonashewasdisturbed,theglossvanished,andthetruenaturecameout,thatofaruffianandasneak。HequitequiveredatthelookwithwhichFalconerturnedagaintothecupboard。 “Stop,“hecried;“hereitis。“ Andmutteringwhatsoundedlikecurses,hepulledoutofhisbosomthering,suspendedfromhisneck“Sutherland,“saidFalconer,takingthering,“securethatrapier,andbecarefulwithit。Wewillhaveitspointtested。 Meantime,“——hereheturnedagaintohisprisoner——“IgiveyouwarningthatthemomentIleavethishouse,IgotoScotlandYard——Doyouknowtheplace?Ithererecommendthepolicetolookafteryou,andtheywillmindwhatIsay。IfyouleaveLondon,amessagewillbesent,whereveryougo,thatyouhadbetterbewatched。Myadvicetoyouis,tostaywhereyouareaslongasyoucan。Ishallmeetyouagain。“ Theylefthimonthefloor,tothecareofhislandlady,whomtheyfoundoutsidetheroom,speechlesswithterror。 Assoonastheywereinthesquare,onwhichthemoonwasnowshining,asithadshoneinEuphra\'sdreamthenightbefore,FalconergavetheringtoHugh。 “Takeittoajeweller\'s,Sutherland,andgetitcleaned,beforeyougiveittoMissCameron。“ “Iwill,“answeredHugh,andadded,“Idon\'tknowhowtothankyou。“ “Thendon\'t,“saidFalconer,withasmile。 Whentheyreachedtheendofthestreet,heturned,andbadeHughgoodnight。 “Takecareofthatcowardlything。Itmaybeasyousay。“ Hughturnedtowardshome。Falconerdivedintoacourt,andwasoutofsightinamoment。 CHAPTERXXI。 THELASTGROAT。 ThouhastbeenAsone,insufferingall,thatsuffersnothing; Amanthatfortune\'sbuffetsandrewardsHastta\'enwithequalthanks;andblessedarethoseWhosebloodandjudgmentaresowellcommingledThattheyarenotapipeforfortune\'sfingerTosoundwhatstopsheplease。 Hamlet。 Mostfriendsbefriendthemselveswithfriendship\'sshow。 SOUTHWELL。 HughtooktheringtoMrs。Elton\'s,andgaveitintoMargaret\'shand。ShebroughthimbackamessageofwarmestthanksfromEuphra。 Shehadaskedforwritingmaterialsatonce,andwasnowcommunicatingthegoodnewstoMr。Arnold,inMadeira。 “Ihaveneverseenherlooksohappy,“addedMargaret。“Shehopestobeabletoseeyouintheevening,ifyouwouldnotmindcallingagain。“ Hughdidcall,andsawher。Shereceivedhimmostkindly。Hewasdistressedtoseehowalteredshewas。Thefireofonelifeseemeddyingout——flowingawayandspendingfromhereyes,whichitilluminatedwithtoomuchlightasitpassedout。Butthefireofanotherlife,theimmortallife,whichliesinthoughtandfeeling,intruthandlovedivine,whichdeathcannottouch,becauseitisnotofhiskind,wasgrowingasfast。Hesatwithherforanhour,andthenwent。 Thischapterofhisownhistoryconcluded,Hughreturnedwithfreshenergytohisnovel,andworkedatitashisinventiongavehimscope。Therewasthemorenecessitythatheshouldmakeprogress,fromthefactthat,havingsenthismotherthegreaterpartofthesalaryhehadreceivedfromMr。Arnold,hewasnowreducedtohislastsovereign。Povertylooksratheruglywhenshecomessocloseasthis。Butshehadnotyetaccostedhim;andwithasovereigninhispocket,andlastweek\'srentpaid,abacheloriscertainlynotpoverty-stricken,atleastwhenheisasindependent,notonlyofotherpeople,butofhimself,asHughwas。Still,withoutmoremoneythanthatamanwalksinfetters,andisreadytoforgetthatthevariousrestraintsheisunderarenotincompatiblewithmosthonourablefreedom。SoHughworkedashardashecouldtofinishhisnovel,andsucceededwithinaweek。Thentherealanxietybegan。Hecarriedit,withmuchdoubtfulhope,tooneoftheprincipalpublishinghouses。Hadhebeenmoreselfishlywise,hewouldhaveputitintothehandsofFalconertonegotiateforhim。 Buthethoughthehadgivenhimquitetroubleenoughalready。Sohewentwithoutanintroductioneven。Themanuscriptwasreceivedpolitely,andattentionwaspromised。Butaweekpassed,andanother,andanother。Ahumansoulwasincommotionaboutthemeatthatperisheth——andthemanuscriptlayallthetimeunread,——forgotteninadrawer。 Atlengthhereachedhislastcoin。Hehadhadnomeatforseveraldays,exceptoncethathedinedatMrs。Elton\'s。Buthewouldnotborrowtillabsolutelycompelled,andsixpencewouldkeephimaliveanotherday。Inthemorninghehadsomebreakfast(forheknewhisbookswereworthenoughtopayallheowedMissTalbot),andthenhewanderedout。Throughthestreetshepacedandpaced,lookinginatallthesilversmiths\'andprintsellers\'windows,andsolacinghispovertywithafavouriteamusementofhisinuneasycircumstances,anamusementcheapenoughforaScotchmanreducedtohislastsixpence——castle-building。Thisisnotaltogetherabademploymentwherehopehaslaidthefoundation;butitisratheraheartlessonewheretheimaginationhastodrawthegroundplanaswellastheelevations。Thelatter,however,wasnotquiteHugh\'sconditionyet——Hereturnedatnight,carefullyavoidingthecook-shopsandtheirkindredsnares,withasilvergroatinhispocketstill。Buthecrawledupstairsratherfeebly,itmustbeconfessed,forayouthwithlimbsmouldedinthefashionofhis。 Hefoundaletterwaitinghim,fromafriendofhismother,informinghimthatshewasdangerouslyill,andurginghimtosetoffimmediatelyforhome。Thiswasliketheblastoffierybreathfromthedragon\'smaw,whichoverthrewtheRed-crossknight——butintothewelloflife,whereallhiswoundswerehealed,and——and——well——boardandlodgingprovidedhimgratis。 Whenhehadreadtheletter,hefellonhisknees,andsaidtohisfatherinheaven:“WhatamItodo?” Therewasnolakewithgoldenpiecesinitsbottom,whenceafishmightbringhimacoin。NorinallthewideLondonlaythereonehecouldclaimashis,butthegroatinhispocket。 HerosewiththesimpleresolutiontogoandtellFalconer。Hewent。Hewasnotathome。Emboldenedbynecessity,Hughlefthiscard,withthewordsonit:“Cometome;Ineedyou。“Hethenreturned,packedafewnecessaries,andsatdowntowait。ButhehadnotsatfiveminutesbeforeFalconerentered。 “What\'sthematter,Sutherland,mydearfellow?Youhaven\'tprickedyourselfwiththatskewer,haveyou?” Hughhandedhimtheletterwithonehand;andwhenhehadreadit,heldoutthefourpennypieceintheotherhand,tobereadlikewise。 Falconerunderstoodatonce。 “Sutherland,“hesaid,inatoneofreproof,“itisashameofyoutoforgetthatmenarebrothers。ArenottwowhocomeoutoftheheartofGod,ascloselyrelatedasiftheyhadlaininthewombofonemother?Whydidyounottellme?Youhavesuffered——Iamsureyouhave。“ “Ihave——alittle,“Hughconfessed。“Iamgettingratherlowinfact。Ihaven\'thadquiteenoughtoeat。“ HesaidthistoexcusethetearswhichFalconer\'skindness——nothunger——compelledfromtheircells。 “But,“headded,“Iwouldhavecometoyouassoonasthefourpencewasgone;oratleast,ifIhadn\'tgotanotherbeforeIwasveryhungryagain。“ “Goodheavens!”exclaimedFalconer,halfangrily。Thenpullingouthiswatch,“Wehavetwohours,“saidhe,“beforeatrainstartsforthenorth。Cometomyplace。“ Hughroseandobeyed。Falconer\'sattendantsoonbroughtthemaplentifulsupperfromaneighbouringshop;afterwhichFalconergotoutoneofhisbottlesofport,wellknowntohismoreintimatefriends;andHughthoughtnomoreaboutmoneythanifhehadhadhispursefull。Ifithadnotbeenforanxietyabouthismother,hewouldhavebeenhappierthanhehadeverbeeninhislifebefore。 For,crossinginthenightthewavering,heavingmorassoftheworld,hadhenotsethisfootupononespotwhichdidnotshake; thesummit,indeed,ofamightyPlutonicrock,thatwentdownwideningawaytotheverycentreoftheearth?Ashespedalongintherailwaythatnight,theprophecyofthousandsofyearscameback:“Amanshallbeahiding-placefromthewind,acovertfromthetempest,theshadowofagreatrockinawearyland。“Andhethoughtitwouldbeablessedtimeindeed,whenthiswasjustwhatamanwas。AndthenhethoughtoftheSonofMan,who,bybeingsuchfirst,wasenablingallhisfriendstobesuchtoo。OfhimFalconerhadalreadylearnedthis“truthintheinwardparts“;andhadfound,intheprocessoflearningit,thatthiswasthetruenaturewhichGodhadmadehisfromthefirst,nonewthingsuperinduceduponit。 Hehadhadbuttoclearawaytherubbishofworldliness,whichmoreorlessburiesthebestnaturesforatime,andsotofindhimself。 AfterHughhadeatenanddrunk,andthusoncemoreexperiencedthedivinitythatlayinfoodandwine,hewenttotakeleaveofhisfriendsatMrs。Elton\'s。Likemostinvalids,Euphrawasbetterintheevening:sherequestedtoseehim。Hefoundherinbed,andmuchwastedsincehesawherlast。Hecouldnotkeepthetearsfromfillinghiseyes,foralltheeventsofthatdayhadbroughtthemnearthesurface。 “Donotcry,dearfriend,“shesaidsweetly。“Thereisnoroomformehereanymore,andIamsentfor。“ Hughcouldnotreply。Shewenton: “IhavewrittentoMr。Arnoldaboutthering,andallyoudidtogetit。DoyouknowheisgoingtomarryLadyEmily?” StillHughcouldnotanswer。 Margaretstoodontheothersideofthebed,thegracefulembodimentofholyhealth,andinhissorrow,hecouldnothelpfeelingthebeautyofherpresence。HerlovelyhandsweretheservantsofEuphra,andherlight,firmfeetmovedonlyinministration。HefeltthatEuphrahadroomintheworldwhileMargaretwaitedonher。 Itisnothouse,andfire,andplentyofservants,andallthethingsthatmoneycanprocure,thatmakeahome——notfatherormotherorfriends;butoneheartwhichwillnotbewearyofhelping,willnotbeoffendedwiththepetulanceofsickness,northeministrationsneedfultoweakness:this“entireaffectionhatingnicerhands“willmakeahomeofacaveinarock,oragipsy\'stent。ThisEuphrahadinMargaret,andHughsawit。 “Itrustyouwillfindyourmotherbetter,Hugh“saidEuphra。 “Ifearnot,“answeredhe。 “Well,Margarethasbeenteachingme,andIthinkIhavelearnedit,thatdeathisnotatallsuchadreadfulthingasitlooks。Isaidtoher:\'Itiseasyforyou,Margaret,whoaresofarfromdeath\'sdoor。\'Butshetoldmethatshehadbeenallbutdeadonce,andthatyouhadsavedherlifealmostwithyourown。Oh,Hugh!sheissuchadear!” Euphrasmiledwithtentimesthefascinationofanyofheroldsmiles;forthesoulofthesmilewaslove。 “Ishallneverseeyouagain,Idaresay,“shewenton。“Myheartthanksyou,fromitsverydepths,foryourgoodnesstome。IthasbeenathousandtimesmorethanIdeserve。“ Hughkissedinsilencethewastedhandheldouttohiminadieu,anddeparted。Andtheworlditselfwasasadwanderingstar。 Falconerhadcalledforhim。TheydrovetoMissTalbot\'s,whereHughgothis\'bagofneedments,\'andbadehislandladygood-byeforatime。Falconerthenaccompaniedhimtotherailway。 Havinglefthimforamoment,Falconerrejoinedhim,saying:“Ihaveyourticket;“andputhimintoafirst-classcarriage。 Hughremonstrated。Falconerreplied: “Ifindthishulkofmineworthtakingcareof。Youwillbetwicethegoodtoyourmother,ifyoureachhertolerablyfresh。“ Hestoodbythecarriagedoortalkingtohim,tillthetrainstarted;walkedalongsidetillitwasfairlyinmotion;then,biddinghimgood-bye,leftinhishandalittlepacket,whichHugh,openingitbythelightofthelamp,foundtoconsistofafewsovereignsandafewshillingsfoldedupinatwenty-pound-note。 Ioughttotelloneotherlittlefact,however。Justbeforetheenginewhistled,FalconersaidtoHugh: “Givemethatfourpennypiece,youbraveoldfellow!” “Thereitis,“saidHugh。“Whatdoyouwantitfor?” “Iamgoingtomakeawedding-presentofittoyourwife,whoevershemayhappentobe。Ihopeshewillbeworthyofit。“ Hughinstantlythoughtwithinhimself: “WhatawifeMargaretwouldmaketoFalconer!” Thethoughtwasfollowedbyapang,keenandclear。 Thosewhoareinthehabitofregardingtherealandtheidealasessentiallyandthereforeirreconcileablyopposed,willremarkthatIcannothavedrawntherepresentationofFalconerfaithfully。 Perhapsthedifficultytheywillexperienceinrecognizingitstruthfulness,mayspringfromthefactthattheythemselvesareun-idealenoughtobelongtothenotsmallclassofstrong-mindedfriendswhosechiefcare,inperformingthepartoftherockinthewearyland,is——nottoshelteryouimprudently。Theyareafraidofweakeningyourconstitutionbyit,especiallyifitisnotstrongtobeginwith;soiftheydojusttakeofftheedgeofthetempestwiththesharpcornersoftheirshelteringrockforamoment,thenext,theywillthrustyououtintotherain,togethardyandself-denying,bybeingwettotheskinandwellblownabout。 ThericheasilylearnthewisdomofSolomon,butareunaptscholarsofhimwhoisgreaterthanSolomon。Itis,ontheotherhand,soeasyforthepoortohelpeachother,thattheyhavelittlemeritinit:itisnovirtue——onlyabeauty。Butthereareafewrich,who,rivallingthepoorintheirownpeculiarexcellences,enterintothekingdomofheaveninspiteoftheirriches;andthenfindthatbymeansoftheirrichestheyaremaderulersovermanycities。Shetowhosememorythisbookisdedicated,is——Iwillnotsaywas——oneofthenoblestofsuch。 Therearetwowaysofaccountingforthedifficultywhichareadermayfindinbelievinginsuchacharacter:eitherthat,notbeingpoor,hehasneverneededsuchafriend;orthat,beingrich,hehasneverbeensuchafriend。 Orifitbethat,beingpoor,hehasneverfoundsuchafriend;hisdifficultyiseasytoremove:——Ihave。 CHAPTERXXII。 DEATH。 Thinkthen,mysoul,thatdeathisbutagroomWhichbringsatapertotheoutwardroom,Whencethouspy\'stfirstalittleglimmeringlight; Andafterbringsitnearertothysight: Forsuchapproachesdothheavenmakeindeath。 DR。DONNE。 Hughfoundhismotherevenworsethanhehadexpected;butsheralliedalittleafterhisarrival。 Intheevening,hewanderedoutinthebrightmoonlitsnow。 Howstrangeitwastoseealltheoldformswithhisheartsofullofnewthings!Thesamehillsroseabouthim,withallthelinesoftheirshapesunchangedinseeming。Yettheywerechangingassurelyashimself;nay,hecontinuedmorethesamethanthey;forinhimtheoldformswerefoldedupinthenew。IntheeyesofHimwhocreatestime,thereisnorest,butalivingsacredchange,ajourneyingtowardsrest。Healonerests;andhealone,invirtueofhisrest,createschange。 Hethoughtwithsadness,howallthehauntsofhischildhoodwouldpasstoothers,whowouldfeelnoloveorreverenceforthem;thatthehousewouldbethesame,butsoundingwithnewsteps,andringingwithnewlaughter。Alittlefurtherthought,however,soonsatisfiedhimthatplacesdieaswellastheirdwellers;that,byslowdegrees,theirformsarewipedout;thatthenewtastesobliteratetheoldfashions;andthaterelongtheveryshapeofthehouseandfarmwouldbelapped,asitwere,aboutthetombofhimwhohadbeenthesouloftheshape,andwouldvanishfromthefaceoftheearth。 Alltheoldthingsathomelookedsad。Thelookcamefromthis,that,thoughhecouldsympathizewiththemandtheirstory,theycouldnotsympathizewithhim,andhesuffusedthemwithhisownsadness。Hecouldfindnorefugeinthepast;hemustgoonintothefuture。 Hismotherlingeredforsometimewithoutanyevidentchange。Hesatbyherbedsidethemostoftheday。Allshewantedwastohavehimwithinreachofherfeeblevoice,thatshemight,whenshepleased,drawhimwithintouchofherfeeblehand。Onceshesaid: “Myboy,Iamgoingtoyourfather。“ “Yes,mother,Ithinkyouare,“Hughreplied。“Howgladhewillbetoseeyou!” “ButIshallleaveyoualone。“ “Mother,IloveGod。“ Themotherlookedathim,asonlyamothercanlook,smiledsweetly,closedhereyesaswiththeweightofhercontentment,fellasleepholdinghishand,andsleptforhours。 Meanwhile,inLondon,MargaretwaswatchingEuphra。Shewasdying,andMargaretwastheangeloflifewatchingoverher。 “Ishallgetridofmylamenessthere,Margaret,shallInot?”saidEuphra,oneday,halfplayfully。 “Yes,dear。“ “Itwillbedelightfultowalkagainwithoutpain。“ “Perhapsyouwillnotgetridofitallatonce,though。“ “Whydoyouthinkso?”askedEuphra,withsomeappearanceofuneasiness。 “Because,ifitistakenfromyoubeforeyouarequitewillingtohaveitaslongasGodpleases,byandbyyouwillnotbeabletorest,tillyouhaveaskedforitbackagain,thatyoumaybearitforhissake。“ “Iamwilling,Margaret,Iamwilling。Onlyonecan\'tlikeit,youknow。“ “Iknowthat,“answeredMargaret。 Shespokenomore,andMargaretheardherweepinggently。Halfanhourhadpassedaway,whenshelookedup,andsaid: “Margaret,dear,Ibegintolikemylameness,Ithink。“ “Why,dear?” “Why,justbecauseGodmadeit,andbademebearit。MayInotthinkitisamarkonmefromhishand?” “Yes,Ithinkso。“ “Whydoyouthinkitcameonme?” “TowalkbacktoHimwith,dear。“ “Yes,yes;Iseeitall。“ Untilnow,MargarethadnotknowntowhatadegreethelamenessofEuphrahadtroubledher。Thatherprettyancleshouldbedeformed,andherlightfootableonlytolimp,hadbeenasourceofrealdistresstoher,eveninthemidstoffardeeper。 Thedayspassedon,andeverydayshegrewweaker。Shedidnotsuffermuch,butnothingseemedtodohergood。Mrs。Eltonwaskindnessitself。Harrywasindreadfuldistress。Hehauntedherroom,creepinginwheneverhehadachance,andsittingincornersoutoftheway。Euphralikedtohavehimnearher。Sheseldomspoketohim,ortoanyonebutMargaret,forMargaretalonecouldhearwitheasewhatshesaid。Butnowandthenshewouldmotionhimtoherbedside,andsay——itwasalwaysthesame—— “Harry,dear,begood。“ “Iwill;indeedIwill,dearEuphra,“wasstillHarry\'sreply。 Once,expressingtoMargaretherregretthatsheshouldbesuchatroubletoher,shesaid: “Youhavetodosomuchforme,thatIamashamed。“ “Doletmewashthefeetofoneofhisdisciples;“Margaretreplied,gentlyexpostulating;afterwhich,Euphranevergrumbledatherowndemandsuponher。 Again,oneday,shesaid: “Iamnotrightatallto-day,Margaret。Godcan\'tloveme,Iamsohateful。“ “Don\'tmeasureGod\'smindbyyourown,Euphra。Itwouldbeapoorlovethatdependednotonitself,butonthefeelingsofthepersonloved。Acryingbabyturnsawayfromitsmother\'sbreast,butshedoesnotputitawaytillitstopscrying。Sheholdsitcloser。 Formypart,intheworstmoodIameverin,whenIdon\'tfeelI loveGodatall,Ijustlookuptohislove。Isaytohim:\'Lookatme。SeewhatstateIamin。Helpme!”Ah!youwouldwonderhowthatmakespeace。Andthelovecomesofitself;sometimessostrong,itnearlybreaksmyheart。“ “ButthereisatextIdon\'tlike。“ “Takeanother,then。“ “Butitwillkeepcoming。“ “GiveitbacktoGod,andnevermindit。“ “Butwouldthatberight?” “Oneday,whenIwasalittlegirl,sohigh,Icouldn\'teatmyporridge,andsatlookingatit。\'Eatyourporridge,\'saidmymother。\'Idon\'twantit,\'Ianswered。\'There\'snothingelseforyou,\'saidmymother——forshehadnotlearnedsomuchfrommyfatherthen,asshedidbeforehedied。\'Hoots!\'saidmyfather——Icannot,dearEuphra,makehiswordsintoEnglish。“ “No,no,don\'t,“saidEuphra;“Ishallunderstandthemperfectly。“ “\'Hoots!Janet,mywoman!\'saidmyfather。\'Giethebairnadisho\' tay。Wadnayelikesometay,Maggy,mydoo?\'\'AywadI,\'saidI。 \'Theparritchisguideneuch,“saidmymother。\'Naedootaboottheparritch,woman;it\'sthebairn\'sstamack,it\'snotheparritch。\' Mymothersaidnomore,butmademeacupofsuchnicetea;forwhenevershegavein,shegaveinquite。Idrankit;and,halffromanxietytopleasemymother,halffromrevivinghunger,attackedtheporridgenext,andateitup。\'Leukatthat!\'saidmyfather。 \'Janet,mywoman,gieabodytheguidthattheycantak\',an\' they\'llsunetak\'theguidthattheycanna。Ye\'rebetternoo,Maggy,mydoo?\'InevertoldhimthatIhadtakentheporridgetoosoonafterall,andhadtocreepintothewood,andbesick。Butitisallthesameforthestory。“ Euphralaughedafeeblebutdelightedlaugh,andappliedthestoryforherself。 Sothewinterdayspassedon。 “IwishIcouldlivetillthespring,“saidEuphra。“Ishouldliketoseeasnowdropandaprimroseagain。“ “Perhapsyouwill,dear;butyouaregoingintoabetterspring。I couldalmostenvyyou,Euphra。“ “Butshallwehavespringthere?” “Ithinkso。“ “Andspring-flowers?” “Ithinkweshall——betterthanhere。“ “Buttheywillnotmeansomuch。“ “Thentheywon\'tbesogood。ButIshouldthinktheywouldmeaneversomuchmore,andbeeversomuchmorespring-like。Theywillbethespring-flowerstoallwintersinone,Ithink。“ Foldedintheloveofthiswoman,anointedforherdeathbyherwisdom,baptizedforthenewlifebyhersympathyanditstears,EuphradiedinthearmsofMargaret。 Margaretwept,fellonherknees,andgaveGodthanks。Mrs。Eltonwassodistressed,that,assoonasthefuneralwasover,shebrokeupherLondonhousehold,sendingsomeoftheservantshometothecountry,andtakingsometoherfavouritewateringplace,towhichHarryalsoaccompaniedher。 Shehopedthat,nowtheaffairoftheringwasclearedup,shemight,assoonasHughreturned,succeedinpersuadinghimtofollowthemtoDevonshire,andresumehistutorship。ThiswouldsatisfyheranxietyaboutHughandHarryboth。 Hugh\'smotherdiedtoo,andwasburied。Whenhereturnedfromthegravewhichnowheldbothfatherandmother,hefoundashortnotefromMargaret,tellinghimthatEuphrawasgone。Sorrowiseasiertobearwhenitcomesuponsorrow;buthecouldnothelpfeelingakeenadditionalpang,whenhelearnedthatshewasdeadwhomhehadlovedonce,andnowlovedbetter。Margaret\'snoteinformedhimlikewisethatEuphrahadleftawrittenrequest,thatherdiamondringshouldbegiventohimtowearforhersake。 Hepreparedtoleavethehomewhenceallthehomenesshadnowvanished,exceptwhatindeedlingeredinthepresenceofanoldnurse,whohadremainedfaithfultohismothertothelast。Thebodyitselfisoflittlevalueafterthespirit,thelove,isoutofit:sothehouseandalltheoldthingsarelittleenough,afterthelovedonesaregonewhokeptitaliveandmadeithome。 AllthatHughcoulddoforthisoldnursewastofurnishacottageforheroutofhismother\'sfurniture,givinghereverythingshelikedbest。Thenhegatheredthelittlehouseholdtreasures,thefewbooks,thefewportraitsandornaments,hisfather\'ssword,andhismother\'swedding-ring;destroyedwithsacredfireallwrittenpapers;soldtheremainderofthefurniture,whichhewouldgladlyhaveburnttoo,andsoproceededtotakehislastdeparturefromthehomeofhischildhood。 CHAPTERXXIII。 NATUREANDHERLADY。 DieFrauensindeinlieblichesGeheimniss,nurverh黮lt,nichtverschlossen——NOVALIS-MoralischeAnsichten。 Womenarealovelymystery——veiled,however,notshutup。 Hertwilightsweremoreclearthanourmid-day; Shedreamtdevoutlierthanmostusedtopray。 DR。DONNE。 PerhapsthegreatestbenefitthatresultedtoHughfrombeingthusmadeapilgrimandastrangerintheearth,was,thatNatureherselfsawhim,andtookhimin,Hitherto,asIhavealreadysaid,Hugh\'sacquaintancewithNaturehadbeenchieflyasecond-handone——heknewfriendsofhers。Natureinpoetry——notintheformofThomsonianorCowperiandescriptions,goodastheyare,butcloselyinterwovenwithandexpositoryofhumanthoughtandfeeling——hadlongbeendeartohim。Inthisformhehadbelievedthatheknewhersowell,astobeabletoreproducethelineamentsofherbelovedface。Butnowsheherselfappearedtohim——thegrand,pure,tendermother,ancientinyears,yeteveryoung;appearedtohim,notinthemirrorofaman\'swords,butbendingoverhimfromthefathomlessbosomofthesky,fromtheoutspreadarmsoftheforest-trees,fromthesilentjudgmentoftheeverlastinghills。Shespoketohimfromthedepthsofair,fromthewindsthatharpupontheboughs,andtrumpetuponthegreatcaverns,andfromthestreamsthatsingastheygotobelostinrest。Shewouldhaveshoneuponhimoutoftheeyesofherinfants,theflowers,buttheyhadtheirfacesturnedtoherbreastnow,hidingfromthepaleblueeyesandthefreezingbreathofoldWinter,whowaslookingforthemwithhisfacebentclosetotheirrefuge。Andhefeltthatshehadapowertohealandtoinstruct; yea,thatshewasapoweroflife,andcouldspeaktotheheartandconsciencemightywordsaboutGodandTruthandLove。 Forhedidnotforsakehisdeadhomeinhaste。Helingeredoverit,androamedaboutitsneighbourhood。Regardingallabouthimwithquiet,almostpassivespirit,hewasastonishedtofindhowhiseyesopenedtoseenatureinthemass。Before,hehadbeheldonlyportionsandbeauties。Whenorhowthechangepasseduponhimhecouldnottell。Buthenolongerlookedforaprettyeyebroworalovelyliponthefaceofnature:thesoulofnaturelookedoutuponhimfromtheharmonyofall,guidinghimunsoughttothediscoveryofathousandseparatedelights;whilefromtheexpandedvisionnewmeaningsflasheduponhimeveryday。HebeheldinthegreatAlltheexpressionofthethoughtsandfeelingsofthemakeroftheheavensandtheearthandtheseaandthefountainsofwater。Thepowersoftheworldtocome,thatis,theworldofunseentruthandidealreality,wereuponhiminthepresenceoftheworldthatnowis。 Forthefirsttimeinhislife,hefeltathomewithnature;andwhilehecouldmoanwiththewintrywind,henolongersighedinthewintrysunshine,thatforetold,likethefar-offflutterofaherald\'sbanner,theapproachofvictoriouslady-spring。 Withthesorrowandlonelinessoflosswithinhim,andNaturearoundhimseemingtosighforafullerexpressionofthethoughtthatthrobbedwithinher,itisnowonderthattheformofMargaret,thegatheringofthethousandformsofnatureintooneintensityandharmonyofloveliness,shouldriseagainupontheworldofhisimagination,tosetnomore。Fatherandmotherweregone。Margaretremainedbehind。Naturelayaroundhimlikeashiningdisk,thatneededavisiblecentreofintensestlight——ashieldofsilver,thatneededbutadiamondboss:Margaretalonecouldbethatcentre——thatdiamondlight-giver;forshealone,ofallthewomenheknew,seemedsotodrinkofthesun-raysofGod,astoradiatethemforth,forveryfulness,uponthecloudedworld。 Shehaddawnedonhimlikeasweetcrescentmoon,hangingfar-offinacoldandlowhorizon:now,liftinghiseyes,hesawthatsamemoonnearlyatthefull,andhighoverhead,yetleaningdowntowardshimthroughthedeepblueair,thatoverflowedwithhercalmtriumphoflight。Heknewthathelovedhernow。Heknewthateveryplacehewentthrough,caughtaglimmerofromancethemomenthethoughtofher;thateverymosttriflingeventthathappenedtohimself,lookedlikeapieceofastory-bookthemomenthethoughtoftellingittoher。Butthegrowthofthesefeelingshadbeengradual——soslowandgradual,thatwhenherecognizedthem,itseemedtohimasifhehadfeltthemfromthefirst。Thefactwas,thatassoonashebegantobecapableoflovingMargaret,hehadbeguntoloveher。Hehadneverbeenabletounderstandhertillhewasdrivenintothedesert。ButnowthatNaturerevealedherselftohimfullofLife,yea,oftheLifeofLife,namely,ofGodhimself,itwasnaturalthatheshouldhonourandlovethat\'ladyofherown\';thatheshouldrecognizeMargaretasgreaterthanhimself,asnearertotheheartofNature——yea,ofGodthefatherofall。ShehadbeenonewithNaturefromchildhood,andwhenhebegantobeonewithnaturetoo,hemustbecomeonewithher。 Andnow,inabsence,hebegantostudythecharacterofherwhom,inpresence,hehadthoughtheknewperfectly。HesoonfoundthatitwasaManoa,agoldencityinalandofParadise——toogoodtobebelievedin,exceptbyhimwhowasblessedwiththebeholdingofit。 Heknewnowthatshehadalwaysunderstoodwhathewasonlyjustwakingtorecognize。Andhefeltthatthescholarhadbeenverypatientwiththestupidityofthemaster,andhaddrawnfromhislessonsanourishmentofwhichhehadknownnothinghimself。 Butdaredhethinkofmarryingher,acreatureinspiredwithapresenceoftheSpiritofGodwhichnonebutthesaintsenjoy,andthenceclothedwithagarmentofbeauty,whichherspiritwoveoutofitsownloveliness?Shewasabeingtoglorifyanymanmerelybygrantinghimherhabitualpresence:what,then,ifshegaveherlove!ShewouldbringwithherthepresenceofGodhimself,forshewalkedeverinhislight,andthatlightclungtoherandradiatedfromher。True,manyyoungmaidensmustbewalkinginthesunshineofGod,elsewhencethelightandlovelinessandbloom,thesmileandthelaughoftheiryouth?ButMargaretnotonlywalkedinthislight:sheknewitandwhenceitcame。Shelookeduptoitssource,anditilluminatedherface。 Thesilentgirlofolddays,whosecountenanceworethestillnessofanunsunnedpool,asshelistenedwithreverencetohislessons,hadblossomedintothecalm,statelywoman,beforewhosepresencehefeltrebukedheknewnotwhy,uponwhosefacelayslumberingthought,everreadytowakeintolifeandmotion。Daredheloveher?Daredhetellherthathelovedher?Daredhe,sopoor,soworthless,seekforhimselfsuchaworld\'streasure?——Hemighthaveknownthatworthdoesnotneedhonour;thatitslowlinessiscontentwithascribingit。 SomeofmyreadersmaybeinclinedtothinkthatIhide,forthesakeofmyhero——poorlittlehero,oneofGod\'schildren,learningtowalk——aninevitablestrugglebetweenhisloveandhispride; inasmuchas,beingbutatutor,hemightbeexpectedtothinkthemoreofhisgoodfamily,andthepossibilityofhisonedaycomingtohonourwithoutthedrawbackofhavingdoneanythingtomeritit,atitlebeingalmostwithinhisgrasp;whileMargaretwasaploughman\'sdaughter,andalady\'smaid。But,althoughIknowmoreofHugh\'sfaultsthanIhavethoughtitatallnecessarytobringoutinmystory,Iprotestthat,hadhebeencapableofgivingthenameoflovetoafeelinginwhosepresencepridedaredtospeak,I shouldhaveconsideredhimunworthyofmypoorpen。Inplainlanguage,IdoubtifIshouldhavecaredtowritehisstoryatall。 Hegatheredtogether,asIhavesaid,thefewmemorialsoftheoldshipgonedowninthequietoceanoftime;paidonevisitofsorrowfulgladnesstohisparent\'sgrave,overwhichheraisednofutilestone——leavingit,liketheformswithinit,inthehandsofholydecay;andtookhisroad——whither?ToMargaret\'shome——toseeoldJanet;andtogooncetothegraveofhissecondfather。ThenhewouldreturntothetoilandhungerandhopeofLondon。 WhatmadeHughgotoTurriepuffit?HislovetoMargaret?No。A bettermotiveeventhanthat:——Repentance。BetterImeanforHughastotheindividualoccasion;notinitself;forloveisdeeperthanrepentance,seeingthatwithoutlovetherecanbenorepentance。Hehadrepentedbefore;butnowthathehauntedinsilencetheregionsofthepast,thewholeofhishistoryinconnectionwithDavidreturnedonhimclearandvivid,asifpassingonceagainbeforehiseyesandthroughhisheart;andherepentedmoredeeplystill。Perhapshewasnotquitesomuchtoblameashethoughthimself。Perhapsonlynowwasitpossiblefortheseedsoftruth,whichDavidhadsowninhisheart,toshowthemselvesabovethesoiloflower,yetministeringcares。Theyhadneededtolieawinterlongintheearth。Nowthekeenblastsandgridingfrostshaddonetheirwork,andtheybegantogrowinthetearfulprime。 Sorrowforlossbroughtinhertrainsorrowforwrong——asistermoresolemnstill,andwithadeeperblessinginthevoiceofherlovingfarewell——Itisagreatmistaketosupposethatsorrowisapartofrepentance。Itisfartoogoodagracetocomesoeasily。 Amanmayrepent,thatis,thinkbetterofit,andchangehisway,andbeverymuchofaPharisee——Idonotsayahypocrite——foralongtimeafter:itneedsasainttobesorrowful。Yetrepentanceisgenerallytheroadtothissorrow——Andnowthatinthegracioustimeofgrief,hiseyesightpurifiedbytears,heenteredoneafteranotherallthechambersofthepast,hehumblyrenewedoncemorehisfriendshipwiththenobledead,andwiththehomely,heartfulliving。Thegrey-headedmanwhowalkedwithGodlikeachild,andwithhisfellow-menlikeanelderbrotherwhowasalwaysforgettinghisbirthrightandservingtheyounger;thewomanwhobelievedwhereshecouldnotsee,andlovedwhereshecouldnotunderstand;andthemaidenwhowasstillandlustreless,becausesheeverabsorbedandseldomreflectedthelight——allcametohim,asiftocomforthimoncemoreinhisloneliness,whenhishearthadroomforthem,andneedofthemyetagain。Davidnowbecame,afterhisdeparture,yetmoreofafathertohimthanbefore,forthatspirit,whichisthetruesoulofallthisbodyofthings,hadbeguntorecalltohismindthewordsofDavid,andsoteachhimthethingsthatDavidknew,theeverlastingrealitiesofGod。Anditseemedtohimthewhile,thatheheardDavidhimselfuttering,inhishomely,kinglyvoice,whatevertruthreturnedtohimfromtheecho-caveofthepast。Evenwhenaquitenewthoughtarosewithinhim,itcametohiminthevoiceofDavid,oratleastwiththesolemnmusicofhistonesclingingaboutitasthemurmurabouttheriver\'scourse。 ExperiencehadnowbroughthimuptothepointwherehecouldbegintoprofitbyDavid\'scommunion;heneededthethingswhichDavidcouldteachhim;andDavidbeganforthwithtogivethemtohim。 Thatbirthofnatureinhissoul,whichenabledhimtounderstandandloveMargaret,helpedhimlikewisetocontemplatewithadmirationandawe,thetoweringpeaksofDavid\'shopes,trusts,andaspirations。Hehadtaughttheploughmanmathematics,butthatploughmanhadpossessedinhimselfalltheessentialelementsofthegrandeuroftheoldprophets,glorifiedbythefaithwhichtheSonofMandidnotfindintheearth,butleftbehindhimtogrowinit,andwhichhadgrowntoanoblegrowthofbeautyandstrengthinthispeasant,simpleandpatriarchalinthemidstofaself-conceitedage。And,oh!howgoodhehadbeentohim!Hehadbuiltahousethathemighttakehiminfromthecold,andmakelifepleasanttohim,asinthepresenceofGod。Hehadgivenhimhishearteverytimehegavehimhisgreatmanlyhand。Andthisman,thisfriend,thispresenceofChrist,Hughhadforsaken,neglected,allbutforgotten。Hecouldnotgo,and,liketheprodigal,falldownbeforehim,andsay,“Father,Ihavesinnedagainstheavenandthee,“forthatheavenhadtakenhimupoutofhissight。Hecouldonlyweepinstead,andbitterlyrepent。Yes;therewasonethingmorehecoulddo。Janetstilllived。Hewouldgotoher,andconfesshissin,andbegherforgiveness。Receivingit,hewouldbeatpeace。HeknewDavidforgavehim,whetherheconfessedornot; andthat,ifhewerealive,Davidwouldseekhisconfessiononlyasthecastingawayoftheseparationfromhisheart,asthebanishmentoftheworldlyspirit,andasthenaturalsignbywhichhemightknowthatHughwasonewithhimyet。 JanetwasDavid\'srepresentativeonearth:hewouldgotoher。 Sohereturned,richandgreat;richinknowingthathewasthechildofHimtowhomallthegoldminesbelong;andgreatinthathumilitywhichalonerecognizesgreatness,andinthebeginningsofthatmeeknesswhichshallinherittheearth。Nomorewouldhestunthisspiritualgrowthbyself-satisfaction。Nomorewouldhelayaside,inthecellarsofhismind,poorwitheredbulbsofopinions,which,butfortheevilministrationsofthatself-satisfaction,seekingtopreservethembydryingandsalting,mighthavebeenalreadyburstingintoblossomsoftruth,ofinfiniteloveliness。 HeknewthatMargaretthoughtfartoowellofhim——honouredhimgreatlybeyondhisdeserts。Hewouldnotallowhertobeanylongerthusdeceived。Hewouldtellherwhatapoorcreaturehewas。Buthewouldsay,too,thathehopedonedaytobeworthyofherpraise,thathehopedtogrowtowhatshethoughthim。Ifheshouldfailinconvincingher,hewouldreceiveallthehonourshegavehimhumbly,aspaid,nottohim,buttowhatheoughttobe。Godgrantitmightbeastohisfutureself! InthismoodhewenttoJanet。 CHAPTERXXIV。 THEFIR-WOODAGAIN。 ErstandvorderhimmlischenJungfrau。Dahoberdenleichten,gl鋘zendenSchleir,und——Rosenbl黷hchensankinseineArme——Novalis——DieLehrlingezuSais。 HestoodbeforetheheavenlyVirgin(Isis,theGoddessofNature)。 Thenliftedhethelight,shiningveil,and——Rosebud(hisoldlove) sankintohisarms。 Sowomanly,sobenigne,andsomeek。 CHAUCER——Prol。toLeg。ofGoodWomen。 Itwaswithaminglingofstrangeemotions,thatHughapproachedthesceneofthosenotveryold,andyet,tohisfeeling,quiteearlymemories。Theduskwasbeginningtogather。Thehoar-frostlaythickontheground。Thepine-treesstoodupinthecold,looking,intheirgarmentofspikes,asifthefrosthadmadethem。Therimeonthegatewasunfriendly,andchilledhishand。Heturnedintothefootpath。HesaytheroomDavidhadbuiltforhim。Itsthatchwasonemassofmosses,whosecolourswerehiddennowinthecuckoo-fruitofthefrost。Alas!howDeathhadcasthisdeeperfrostoverall;forthemanwasgonefromthehearth!ButneitheroldWinternorskeletonDeathcanwithholdthefeetofthelittlechildSpring。Sheisstrongerthanboth。Loveshallconquerhate; andGodwillovercomesin。 Hedrewnighttothedoor,trembling。Itseemedstrangetohimthathisnervesonly,andnothismind,shouldfeel——Inmomentsofunusualexcitement,itsometimeshappensthattheonlyconsciousnessastrongmanhasofemotion,liesinanunwontedphysicalvibration,theminditselfrefusingtobedisturbed。Itis,however,butaseeming:theemotionissodeep,thatconsciousnesscanlayholdofitsphysicalresultonly——Thecottagelookedthesameasever,onlythepeat-stackoutsidewassmaller。Intheshadowinessofthefirs,theglimmerofafirewasjustdiscernibleonthekitchenwindow。 Hetrembledsomuchthathecouldnotenter。Hewouldgointothefir-woodfirst,andseeMargaret\'stree,ashealwayscalleditinhisthoughtsanddreams。 Verypoorandstuntedandmeagrelookedthefir-treesofTurriepuffit,afterthebeechesandelmsofArnstead。Theeveningwindwhistledkeenandcoldthroughtheirdryneedles,andmadethemmoan,asifbecausetheywerefettered,andmustendurethewinterinhelplesspatience。Hereandthereamongstthem,rosetheTitansofthelittleforest——thehuge,old,contorted,wizard-like,yetbenevolentbeings——theScotchfirs。Towardsoneofthesehebenthisway。ItwastheoneunderwhichhehadseenMargaret,whenhemetherfirstinthewood,withherwholesoullostinthewavingofitswind-swung,sun-lightedtop,floatingaboutintheseaofairlikeagoldennestforsomesilverybirdofheaven。Tothinkthattheyounggirltowhomhehadgiventheprimrosehehadjustfound,thethenfirst-bornoftheSpring,shouldnowbethequeenofhisheart!Herchildishdreamoftheangelhauntingthewoodhadbeentrue,onlyshewastheangelherself。Hedrewneartheplace。Howwellheknewit!Heseatedhimself,coldasitwasintheFebruaryofScotland,atthefootoftheblessedtree。Hedidnotknowthatitwascold。 Whilehesatwithhiseyesfixedontheground,alightrustleinthefallenleavesmadehimraisethemsuddenly。Itwasallwinterandfallenleavesabouthim;butheliftedhiseyes,andinhissoulitwassummer:Margaretstoodbeforehim。Hewasnotintheleastsurprised。Forhowcanonewondertoseebeforehiseyes,theformofwhichhissoulisfull?——thereisnoshock。Shestoodalittlewayoff,looking——asifshewantedtobesurebeforeshemovedastep。Shewasdressedinagreywinseygown,closetoherthroatandwrists。Shehadneithershawlnorbonnet。Herfinehealthkeptherwarm,eveninawinterwoodatsun-down。Shelookedjustthesame;——athomeeverywhere;mostathomeinNature\'ssecretchamber。 Likethegeniusoftheplace,shemadethewinter-woodlookhomely。 WhatweretheoaksandbeechesofArnsteadnow?HomelinessandgloryareHeaven。 Shecamenearer。 “Margaret!”hemurmured,andwouldhaverisen。 “No,no;sitstill,“sherejoined,inapleadingtone。“Ithoughtitwastheangelinthepicture。NowIknowit。Sitstill,dearMr。 Sutherland,onemomentmore。“ Humbledbyhissenseofunworthiness,andalittledistressedthatshecouldsoquietlyrevealthedepthofherfeelingtowardshim,hesaid: “Ah,Margaret!Iwishyouwouldnotpraiseonesolittledeservingit。“ “Praise?”sherepeated,withanaccentofwonder。“Ipraiseyou! No,Mr。Sutherland;thatIamnotguiltyof。Nexttomyfather,youmademeknowandfeel。AndasIwalkedhere,Iwasthinkingoftheoldtimes,andoldertimesstill;andallatonceIsawtheverypictureoutoftheoldBible。“ Shecameclosetohimnow。Herose,trembling,butheldoutnohand,utterednogreeting。 “Margaret,dareIloveyou?”hefaltered。 Shelookedathimwithwide-openeyes。 “Me?”shesaid;andhereyesdidnotmovefromhis。Aslightrose-flushbloomedoutonhermotionlessface。 “Willyoubemywife?”hesaid,tremblingyetmore。 Shemadenoanswer,butlookedathimstill,withpartedlips,motionless。 “Iamverypoor,Margaret。Icouldnotmarrynow。“ Itwasastupidspeech,buthemadeit。 “Idon\'tcare,“sheanswered,withavoicelikethinking,“ifyounevermarryme。“ Hemisunderstoodher,andturnedcoldtotheveryheart。Hemisunderstoodherstillness。Herheartlaysodeep,thatittookalongtimeforitsfeelingstoreachandagitatethesurface。Hesaidnomore,butturnedawaywithasigh。 “Comehometomymother,“shesaid。 Heobeyedmechanically,andwalkedinsilencebyherside。Theyreachedthecottageandentered。Margaretsaid:“Hereheis,mother;“anddisappeared。 Janetwasseated——inherwidow\'smutch,withtheplainblackribbondownbothsides,androundtheback——inthearm-chairbythefire,ponderingonthepast,orgentlydreamingofhimthatwasgone。Sheturnedherhead。Sorrowhadbaptizedherfacewithanewgentleness。Thetenderexpressionwhichhadbeenbutoccasionalwhileherhusbandlived,wasalmostconstantnow。ShedidnotrecognizeHugh。Hesawit,anditaddedweighttohisdespair。Hewasleftoutside。 “Mother!”hesaid,involuntarily。 Shestartedtoherfeet,cried:“Mybairn!mybairn!”threwherarmsaroundhim,andlaidherheadonhisbosom。Hughsobbedasifhisheartwouldbreak。Janetwept,butherweepingwasquietasasummerrain。Heledhertoherchair,kneltbyherside,andhidinghisfaceinherlaplikeachild,falteredout,interruptedbyconvulsivesobs: “Forgiveme;forgiveme。Idon\'tdeserveit,butforgiveme。“ “Hootawa!mybairn!mybonnyman!Dinnagreetthatgait。TheLordpreserve\'s!whatareyegreetin\'for?Arenayecomehametoyerain?DidnaDawvidayesay——\'Gietheladtime,woman。It\'suncochaip,fortheLord\'sayemakin\'t。Thebestthingsisayethemaistplentifu\'。Gietheladtime,mybonnywoman!\'——didnahesaythat? Ay,heca\'dmehisbonnywoman,illasIdeserveditathishan\'。 An\'it\'snoformetosayaewordagenyou,MaisterSutherlan\',ginyehadbeenahantlewaurnorayoungthochtlessladcudnaweelhelpbein\'。An\'nooye\'recomehame,an\'nothingcudglaiddenmyheartmair,\'cep\',maybe,theMaisterhimsel\'wastosaytomyman: \'Dawvid!comefurth。\'“ Hughcouldmakenoreply。HegotholdofMargaret\'screepie,whichstoodinitsusualplace,andsatdownuponit,attheoldwoman\'sfeet。Shegazedinhisfaceforawhile,andthen,puttingherarmroundhisneck,drewhisheadtoherbosom,andfondledhimasifhehadbeenherownfirst-born。 “Buteh!yerbonniefaceissharpan\'sma\'towhatitusedtobe,MaisterSutherlan\'。Idootyehaecomethroughaheapo\'trouble。“ “I\'lltellyouallaboutit,“saidHugh。 “Na,na;bidestillawee。Ikena\'abootitfraeMaggy。An\'guidpreserve\'s!ye\'recleanperishedwi\'cauld。Latmeup,mybairn。“ Janetrose,andmadeupthefire,whichsooncastajoyfulglowthroughouttheroom。Thepeat-fireinthelittlecottagewasagoodsymboloftheheartofitsmistress:itgavefarmoreheatthanlight。Andformypart,dearaslightis,Ilikeheatbetter。Shethenputonthekettle,——ortheboilerIthinkshecalledit——saying: “I\'mjistgaein\'tomak\'yeacupo\'tay,Mr。Sutherlan\'。It\'sthehandiestthing,yeken。An\'Idootye\'remuckleinwanto\' something。Wadyenotak\'adrappyooto\'thebottle,i\'themanetime?” “No,thankyou,“saidHugh,wholongedtobealone,forhisheartwascoldasice;“Iwouldratherwaitforthetea;butIshouldbegladtohaveagoodwash,aftermyjourney。“ “Comeyerwa\'s,than,benthehoose。I\'lljistgangan\'getadrappyo\'hetwaterinadecanter。Bideyestillbythefire。“ Hughstood,andgazedintothepeat-fire。Buthesawnothinginit。 Alightsteppassedhimseveraltimes,buthedidnotheedit。Theloveliesteyeslookedearnestlytowardshimastheypassed,buthiswerenotliftedtomeettheirgaze。 “Noo,MaisterSutherlan\',comethisway。“ Hughwasleftaloneatlength,intheroomwhereDavidhadslept,whereDavidhadusedtopray。Hefellonhisknees,androsecomfortedbythewillofGod。AfewthingsofMargaret\'swereabouttheroom。ThedresshehadseenherinatMrs。Elton\'s,washangingbythebed。Hekissedthefoldsofthegarment,andsaid:“God\'swillbedone。“HehadjustfinishedahastyablutionwhenJanetcalledhim。 “Comeawa\',MaisterSutherlan\';comebentoyerainchaumer,“saidshe,leadingthewaytotheroomshestillcalledthestudy。 Margaretwasthere。Theroomwasjustashehadleftit。Abrightfirewasonthehearth。Teawasonthetable,witheggs,andoatcakes,andflour-sconsinabundance;forJanethadthebestshecouldgetforMargaret,whowasonlyherguestforalittlewhile。 ButHughcouldnoteat。Janetlookeddistressed,andMargaretglancedathimuneasily。 “Doeatsomething,Mr。Sutherland,“saidMargaret。 Hughlookedatherinvoluntarily。Shedidnotunderstandhislook,anditalarmedher。Hiscountenancewaschanged。 “Whatisthematter,dear——Hugh?”shesaid,rising,andlayingherhandonhisshoulder。 “Hoots!lassie,“brokeinhermother;“areyemakin\'lovetillaman,agentleman,aforemyverraeen?” “Hediditfirst,mother,“answeredMargaret,withasmile。 ApangofhopeshotthroughHugh\'sheart。 “Ow!that\'sthegaito\'t,is\'t?Thebairn\'sganedementit!Ye\'renoeftermerryin\'agentleman,Maggy?Na,na,lass!” Sosaying,theoldlady,rathercrossly,andveryimprudently,lefttheroomtofilltheteapotinthekitchen。 “Doyourememberthis?”saidMargaret,——whofeltthatHughmusthavemisunderstoodsomethingorother,——takingfromherpocketalittlebook,andfromthebookawitheredflower。 Hughsawthatitwaslikeaprimrose,andhopedagainsthopethatitwastheonewhichhehadgiventoher,onthespringmorninginthefir-wood。Still,afeelingverydifferentfromhismighthavemadeherpreserveit。Hemustknowallaboutit。 “Whydidyoukeepthat?”hesaid。 “BecauseIlovedyou。“ “Lovedme?” “Yes。Didn\'tyouknow?” “Whydidyousay,then,thatyoudidn\'tcareif——if——?” “Becauseloveisenough,Hugh——Thatwaswhy。“ THEEND。