第15章

类别:其他 作者:George MacDonald字数:21664更新时间:18/12/21 14:35:15
CHAPTERXVI。 FOREBODINGS。 Faust。Ifheavenwasmadeforman,\'twasmadeforme。 GoodAngel。Faustus,repent;yetheavenwillpitythee。 BadAngel。Thouartaspirit,Godcannotpitythee。 Faust。BeIadevil,yetGodmaypityme。 BadAngel。Toolate。 GoodAngel。NevertoolateifFaustuswillrepent。 BadAngel。Ifthourepent,devilswillteartheeinpieces。 OldMan。Iseeanangelhovero\'erthyhead,Andwithavialfullofpreciousgrace,Offerstopourthesameintothysoul。 MARLOWE——DoctorFaustus。 Mr。Appleditchhadhadsomebusiness-misfortunes,notofaheavynature,butsufficienttocastagloomoverthehouseinDervishTown,andespeciallyoverthefaceofhisspouse,whohadsetherheartonanewcarpetforherdrawing-room,andfearedsheoughtnottoprocureitnow。Itiswonderfulhowconscientioussomepeoplearetowardstheirbalanceatthebanker\'s。Howthedrawing-room,however,couldcometowantanewcarpetissomethingmysterious,exceptthereisapeculiarpowerofdecayinherentinthingsdeprivedofuse。Theseinfluencesoperating,however,shebegantothinkthatthetwoscionsofgrocerywerenotdrawingnineshillings\'worthaweekofthesapofdivinity。ThisshehintedtoMr。Appleditch。ItwasresolvedtogiveHughwarning。 Asitwouldinvolvesomeawkwardnesstostatereasons,Mrs。 Appleditchresolvedtoquarrelwithhim,astheeasiestwayofprefacinghisdischarge。Itwasthewayshetookwithhermaids-of-all-work;foritwasgrandinitself,andalwaysleftherwithacomfortablefeelingofinjureddignity。 Asapreliminarycourse,shebegantotreathimwithstilllesspolitenessthanbefore。Hughwassocarelessofherbehaviour,thatthismadenoimpressionuponhim。Buthecametounderstanditallafterwards,fromputtingtogethertheremarksofthechildren,andthepartialcommunicationsofMr。AppleditchtoMissTalbot,whichthatgoodladyinnocentlyimpartedtoherlodger。 Atlength,oneday,shecameintotheroomwhereHughwasmorebusyinteachingthanhispupilswereinlearning,andseatedherselfbythefiretowatchforanopportunity。Thiswassoonfound。Fortheboys,renderedstillmoreinattentivebythepresenceoftheirmother,couldnotbeinducedtofixtheleastthoughtuponthematterinhand;sothatHughwascompelledtogooverthesamethingagainandagain,withoutsuccess。Atlasthesaid: “Iamafraid,Mrs。Appleditch,Imustaskyoutointerfere,forI cannotgetanyattentionfromtheboysto-day。“ “Andhowcoulditbeotherwise,Mr。Sutherland,whenyoukeepwearingthemoutwithgoingoverandoverthesamething,tilltheyaresickofit?Whydon\'tyougoon?” “HowcanIgoonwhentheyhavenotlearnedthethingtheyareat? Thatwouldbetobuildthechimneysbeforethewalls。“ “Itisveryeasytobewitty,sir;butIbegyouwillbehavemorerespectfullytomeinthepresenceofmychildren,innocentlambs!” Lookingroundatthemoment,Hughcaughtinhisfacewhattheelderlambhadintendedforhisback,agrimacehideousenoughtohaveprocuredhiminstantpromotioninthekingdomofapes。Themothersawittoo,andadded: “Youseeyoucannotmakethemrespectyou。Really,Mr。Sutherland!” Hughwasabouttoreply,totheeffectthatitwasuseless,insuchcircumstances,toattemptteachingthematall,someutteranceofwhichsortwaswatchedforastheoccasionforhisinstantdismission;butatthatverymomentacarriageandpairpulledsharplyupatthedoor,withmorethantheusualamountofquadrupedation,andmotherandsonsdartedsimultaneouslytothewindow。 “My!”criedJohnnie,“whatarumgo!Isn\'tthatajollycarriage,Peetie?” “Papa\'sboughtacarriage!”shoutedPeetie。 “Bequiet,children,“saidtheirmother,asshesawafootmangetdownandapproachthedoor。 “Lookatthatbuffer,“saidJohnnie。“Docomeandseethisgrandfootman,Mr。Sutherland。He\'ssuchagentleman!” Aboxontheearfromhismothersilencedhim。Theservantenteringwithsomeperturbationamomentafter,addressedhermistress,forshedarednotaddressanyoneelsewhileshewasintheroom: “Please\'m,thecarriageisastin\'afterMr。Sutherland。“ “Mr。Sutherland?” “Yes\'m。“ TheladyturnedtoMr。Sutherland,who,althoughsurprisedaswell,wasnotinclinedtoshowhissurprisetoMrs。Appleditch。 “Ididnotknowyouhadcarriage-friends,Mr。Sutherland,“saidshe,withatossofherhead。 “NeitherdidI,“answeredHugh。“ButIwillgoandseewhoitis。“ Whenhereachedthestreet,hefoundHarryonthepavement,whohavinggotoutofthecarriage,andnothavingbeenaskedintothehouse,wasunabletostandstillforimpatience。Assoonashesawhistutor,heboundedtohim,andthrewhisarmsroundhisneck,standingastheywereintheopenstreet。Tearsofdelightfilledhiseyes。 “Come,come,come,“saidHarry;“weallwantyou。“ “Whowantsme?” “Mrs。EltonandEuphraandme。Come,getin。“ “AndhepulledHughtowardsthecarriage。 “Icannotgowithyounow。Ihavepupilshere。“ Harry\'sfacefell。 “Whenwillyoucome?” “Inhalf-an-hour。“ “Hurrah!Ishallbebackexactlyinhalf-an-hourthen。Dobeready,please,Mr。Sutherland。“ “Iwill。“ Harryjumpedintothecarriage,tellingthecoachmantodrivewherehepleased,andbebackatthesameplaceinhalf-an-hour。Hughreturnedintothehouse。 Asmaybesupposed,Margaretwasthemeansofthishappymeeting。 AlthoughshesawplainlyenoughthatEuphrawouldliketoseeHugh,shedidnotforsometimemakeuphermindtosendforhim。Thecircumstanceswhichmadeherresolvetodosowerethese。 ForsomedaysEuphraseemedtobegraduallyregainingherhealthandcomposureofmind。Oneevening,afteralongertalkthanusual,Margarethadleftherinbed,andhadgonetoherownroom。Shewasjustpreparingtogetintobedherself,whenaknockatherdoorstartledher,andgoingtoit,shesawEuphrastandingthere,paleasdeath,withnothingonbuthernightgown,notwithstandingthebittercoldofanearlyandseverefrost。Shethoughtatfirstshemustbewalkinginhersleep,butthescaredintelligenceofheropeneyes,soonsatisfiedherthatitwasnotso。 “Whatisthematter,dearMissCameron?”shesaid,ascalmlyasshecould。 “Heiscoming。Hewantsme。Ifhecallsme,Imustgo。“ “No,youshallnotgo,“rejoinedMargaret,firmly。 “Imust,Imust,“answeredEuphra,wringingherhands。 “Docomein,“saidMargaret,“youmustnotstandthereinthecold。“ “Letmegetintoyourbed。“ “Betterletmegowithyoutoyours。Thatwillbemorecomfortableforyou。“ “Oh!yes;pleasedo。“ MargaretthrewashawlroundEuphra,andwentbackwithhertoherroom。 “Hewantsme。Hewantsme。Hewillcallmesoon,“saidEuphra,inanagonisedwhisper,assoonasthedoorwasshut。“WhatshallI do!” “Cometobedfirst,andwewilltalkaboutitthere。“ Assoonastheywereinbed,MargaretputherarmroundEuphra,whowastremblingwithcoldandfear,andsaid: “Hasthismananyrighttocallyou?” “No,no,“answeredEuphra,vehemently。 “Thendon\'tgo。“ “ButIamafraidofhim。“ “DefyhiminGod\'sname。“ “Butbesidesthefear,thereissomethingthatIcan\'tdescribe,thatalwayskeepstellingme——no,nottellingme,pushingme——no,drawingme,asifIcouldnotrestamomenttillIgo。Icannotdescribeit。Ihatetogo,andyetIfeelthatifIwerecoldinmygrave,Imustriseandgoifhecalledme。IwishIcouldtellyouwhatitislike。ItisasifsomedemonwereshakingmysoultillI yieldedandwent。Oh!don\'tdespiseme。Ican\'thelpit。“ “Mydarling,Idon\'t,Ican\'tdespiseyou。Youshallnotgotohim。“ “ButImust,“answeredshe,withadespairingfaintnessmoreconvincingthananyvehemence;andthenbegantoweepwithaslow,hopelessweeping,liketherainofaNovembereve。 Margaretgotoutofbed。Euphrathoughtshewasoffended。Startingup,sheclaspedherhands,andsaid: “OhMargaret!Iwon\'tcry。Don\'tleaveme。Don\'tleaveme。“ Sheentreatedlikeachiddenchild。 “No,no,Ididn\'tmeantoleaveyouforamoment。Liedownagain,dear,andcryasmuchasyoulike。IamgoingtoreadalittlebitoutoftheNewTestamenttoyou。“ “IamafraidIcan\'tlistentoit。“ “Nevermind。Don\'ttry。Iwanttoreadit。“ MargaretgotaNewTestament,andreadpartofthatchapterofSt。 John\'sGospelwhichspeaksabouthumanlabourandthebreadoflife。 Shestoppedatthesewords: “ForIcamedownfromheaven,nottodomineownwill,butthewillofhimthatsentme。“ Euphra\'stearshadceased。ThesoundofMargaret\'svoice,which,ifitlostinsweetnessbybecomingmoreScotchwhenshereadtheGospel,yetgainedtherebyinpathos,andthepoweroftheblessedwordsthemselves,hadsoothedthetroubledspiritalittle,andshelayquiet。 “Thecountisnotagoodman,MissCameron?” “Youknowheisnot,Margaret。Heistheworstmanalive。“ “ThenitcannotbeGod\'swillthatyoushouldgotohim。“ “ButonedoesmanythingsthatarenotGod\'swill。“ “ButitisGod\'swillthatyoushouldnotgotohim。“ Euphralaysilentforafewmoments。Suddenlysheexclaimed: “ThenImustnotgotohim,“——gotoutofbed,threwherselfonherkneesbythebedside,andholdingupherclaspedhands,said,inlowtonesthatsoundedasifforcedfromherbyagony: “Iwon\'t!Iwon\'t!OGod,Iwillnot。Helpme,helpme!” Margaretkneltbesideher,andputherarmroundher。Euphraspokenomore,butremainedkneeling,withherextendedarmsandclaspedhandslyingonthebed,andherheadlaidbetweenthem。AtlengthMargaretgrewalarmed,andlookedather。Butshefoundthatshewasinasweetsleep。Shegentlydisengagedherself,andcoveringherupsoftandwarm,lefthertosleepoutherGod-sentsleepundisturbed,whileshesatbeside,andwatchedforherwaking。 Shesleptthusforanhour。Thenliftingherhead,andseeingMargaret,sherosequietly,asiffromherprayers,andsaidwithasmile: “Margaret,IwasdreamingthatIhadamother。“ “Soyouhave,somewhere。“ “Yes,soIhave,somewhere,“sherepeated,andcreptintobedlikeachild,laydown,andwasasleepagaininamoment。 Margaretwatchedherforanotherhour,andthenseeingnosignsofrestlessness,butthatonthecontraryhersleepwasprofound,laydownbesideher,andsoonsharedinthatreposewhichtowearywomenandmenisGod\'sbestgift。 Sheroseatherusualhourthenextday,andwasdressedbeforeEuphraawoke。ItwasacoldgreyDecembermorning,withthehoar-frostlyingthickontheroofsofthehouses。EuphraopenedhereyeswhileMargaretwasbusylightingthefire。Seeingthatshewasthere,sheclosedthemagain,andfelloncemorefastasleep。 Beforeshewokeagain,Margarethadsometeareadyforher;aftertakingwhich,shefeltabletogetup。SheroselookingmorebrightandhopefulthanMargarethadseenherbefore。 ButMargaret,whowatchedherintentlythroughtheday,sawachangecomeoverhercheer。Herfacegrewpaleandtroubled。Nowandthenhereyeswerefixedonvacancy;andagainshewouldlookatMargaretwithawoebegoneexpressionofcountenance;butpresently,asifrecollectingherself,wouldsmileandlookcheerfulforamoment。 Margaretsawthattheconflictwascomingon,ifnotalreadybegun——thatatleastitsshadowwasuponher;andthinkingthatifshecouldhaveatalkwithHughaboutwhathehadbeendoing,itwouldcomfortheralittle,anddivertherthoughtsfromherself,evenifnofartherormorepleasantlythantothecount,sheletHarryknowHugh\'saddress,asgiveninthelettertoherfather。 Shewascertainthat,ifHarrysucceededinfindinghim,nothingmorewasnecessarytoinsurehisbeingbroughttoMrs。Elton\'s。Aswehaveseen,HarryhadtracedhimtoBuccleuchTerrace。 Hughre-enteredthehouseinthesamemindinwhichhehadgoneout; namely,thatafterMrs。Appleditch\'sbehaviourtohimbeforehispupils,hecouldnotremaintheirtutoranylonger,howevergreathisneedmightbeofthepittancehereceivedforhisservices。 ButalthoughMrs。Appleditch\'sfirstfeelinghadbeenjealousyofHugh\'sacquaintancewith“carriage-people,“thetoadyismwhichissoessentialanelementofsuchjealousy,hadbythistimerevived;andwhenHughwasproceedingtofinishthelessonhehadbegun,intendingittobehislast,shesaid: “Whydidn\'tyouaskyourfriendintothedrawing-room,Mr。 Sutherland?” “Goodgracious!Thedrawing-room!”thoughtHugh——butanswered:“Hewillfetchmewhenthelessonisover。“ “Iamsure,sir,anyfriendsofyoursthatliketocalluponyouhere,willbeverywelcome。Itwillbemoreagreeabletoyoutoreceivethemhere,ofcourse;foryouraccommodationatpoorMissTalbot\'sishardlysuitableforsuchvisitors。“ “Iamsorrytosay,however,“answeredHugh,“thatafterthewayyouhavespokentometo-day,inthepresenceofmypupils,Icannotcontinuemyrelationtothemanylonger。“ “Ho!ho!”resnortedthelady,indignationandscornminglingwithmortification;“ourgrandvisitorshavesetourbacksup。Verywell,Mr。Sutherland,youwillobligemebyleavingthehouseatonce。Don\'ttroubleyourself,pray,tofinishthelesson。Iwillpayyouforitallthesame。Anythingtogetridofamanwhoinsultsmebeforetheveryfacesofmyinnocentlambs!Andpleasetoremember,“sheadded,asshepulledoutherpurse,whileHughwascollectingsomebookshehadlenttheboys,“thatwhenyouwerestarving,myhusbandandItookyouinandgaveyouemploymentoutofcharity——purecharity,Mr。Sutherland。Hereisyourmoney。“ “Goodmorning,Mrs。Appleditch,“saidHugh;andwalkedoutwithhisbooksunderhisarm,leavingherwiththemoneyinherhand。 Hehadtoknockhisfeetonthepavementinfrontofthehouse,tokeepthemfromfreezing,forhalf-an-hour,beforethecarriagearrivedtotakehimaway。Assoonasitcameup,hejumpedintoit,andwascarriedoffintriumphbyHarry。 Mrs。Eltonreceivedhimkindly。Euphraheldoutherhandwithaslightblush,andthequietfamiliarityofanoldfriend。Hughcouldalmosthavefalleninlovewithheragain,fromcompassionforherpale,wornface,andsubduedexpression。 Mrs。Eltonwentoutinthecarriagealmostdirectly,andEuphrabeggedHarrytoleavethemalone,asshehadsomethingtotalktoMr。Sutherlandabout。 “HaveyoufoundanytraceofCountHalkar,Hugh?”shesaid,themomenttheywerebythemselves。 “IamverysorrytosayIhavenot。Ihavedonemybest。“ “Iamquitesureofthat——Ijustwantedtotellyou,that,fromcertainindicationswhichnoonecouldunderstandsowellasmyself,Ithinkyouwillhavemorechanceoffindinghimnow。“ “Iamdelightedtohearit,“respondedHugh。“IfIonlyhadhim!” Euphrasighed,paused,andthensaid: “ButIamnotsureofit。IthinkheisinLondon;buthemaybeinBohemia,foranythingIknow。Ishall,however,inallprobability,knowmoreabouthimwithinafewdays。“ HughresolvedtogoatoncetoFalconer,andcommunicatetohimwhatEuphrahadtoldhim。Buthesaidnothingtoherastothemeansbywhichhehadtriedtodiscoverthecount;foralthoughhefeltsurethathehaddonerightintellingFalconerallaboutit,hewasafraidlestEuphra,notknowingwhatsortofamanhewas,mightnotlikeit。Euphra,onherpart,didnotmentionMargaret\'sname;forshehadbeggedhernottodoso。 “Youwilltellmewhenyouknowyourself?” “Perhaps——Iwill,ifIcan。Idowishyoucouldgetthering。I haveapainfulfeelingthatitgiveshimpoweroverme。“ “Thatcanonlybeanervousfancy,surely,“Hughventuredtosay。 “Perhapsitis。Idon\'tknow。But,still,withoutthat,thereareplentyofreasonsforwishingtorecoverit。Hewillputittoabaduse,ifhecan。Butforyoursake,especially,Iwishwecouldgetit。“ “Thankyou。Youwerealwayskind。“ “No,“shereplied,withoutliftinghereyes;“Ibroughtitalluponyou。“ “Butyoucouldnothelpit。“ “Notatthemoment。Butallthatledtoitwasmyfault。“ Shepaused;thensuddenlyresumed: “Iwillconfess——Doyouknowwhatgaverisetothereportsofthehousebeinghaunted?” “No。“ “Itwasmewanderingaboutitatnight,lookingforthatveryring,togivetothecount。Itwasshameful。ButIdid。Thosereportspreventedmefrombeingfoundout。ButIhopenotmanyghostsaresomiserableasIwas——YouremembermyspeakingtoyouofMr。 Arnold\'sjewels?” “Yes,perfectly。“ “Iwantedtofindout,throughyou,wheretheringwas。ButIhadnointentionofinvolvingyou。“ “Iamsureyouhadnot。“ “Don\'tbetoosureofanythingaboutme。Idon\'tknowwhatImighthavebeenledtodo。ButIamverysorry。Doforgiveme。“ “IcannotallowthatIhaveanythingtoforgive。Buttellme,Euphra,wereyouthecreature,inwhitethatIsawintheGhost\'sWalkonenight?Idon\'tmeanthelasttime。“ “Verylikely,“sheanswered,bendingherheadyetlower,withasigh。 “Thenwhowasthecreatureinblackthatmetyou?Andwhatbecameofyouthen?” “Didyouseeher?”rejoinedEuphra,turningpalerstill。“Ifaintedatsightofher。Itookherforthenunthathangsinthathorridroom。“ “SodidI,“saidHugh。“Butyoucouldnothavelainlong;forIwentuptothespotwhereyouvanished,andfoundnothing。“ “IsupposeIgotintotheshrubberybeforeIfell。Orthecountdraggedmein——Butwasthatreallyaghost?Ifeelnowasifitwasagoodmessenger,whetherghostornot,cometowarnme,ifI hadhadthecouragetolisten。IwishIhadtakenthewarning。“ Theytalkedabouttheseandotherthings,tillMrs。Elton,whohadmadeHughpromisetostaytolunch,returned。Whentheywereseatedattable,thekind-heartedwomansaid: “Now,Mr。Sutherland,whenwillyoubeginagainwithHarry?” “Idonotquiteunderstandyou,“answeredHugh。 “Ofcourseyouwillcomeandgivehimlessons,poorboy。Hewillbebroken-heartedifyoudon\'t。“ “IwishIcould。ButIcannot——atleastyet;forIknowhisfatherwasdissatisfiedwithme。ThatwasoneofthereasonsthatmadehimsendHarrytoLondon。“ Harrylookedwretchedlydisappointed,butsaidnothing。 “Ineverheardhimsayanythingofthesort。“ “Iamsureofit,though。Iamverysorryhehasmistakenme;buthewillknowmebettersomeday。“ “Iwilltakealltheresponsibility,“persistedMrs。Elton。 “Butunfortunatelytheresponsibilitystickstoofastforyoutotakeit。IcannotgetridofmyshareifIwould。“ “Youaretooparticular。IamsureMr。Arnoldnevercouldhavemeantthat。Thisismyhousetoo。“ “ButHarryishisboy。Ifyouwillletmecomeandseehimsometimes,Ishallbeverythankful,though。Imaybeusefultohimwithoutgivinghimlessons。“ “Thankyou,“saidHarrywithdelight。 “Well,well!IsupposeyouaresomuchinrequestinLondonthatyouwon\'tmisshimforapupil。“ “Onthecontrary,Ihavenotasingleengagement。Ifyoucouldfindmeone,Ishouldbeexceedinglyobligedtoyou。“ “Dear!dear!dear!”saidMrs。Elton。“ThenyoushallhaveHarry。“ “Oh!yes;pleasetakeme,“saidHarry,beseechingly。 “No,Icannot。Imustnot。“ Mrs。Eltonrangthebell。 “James,tellthecoachmanIwantthecarriageinanhour。“ Mrs。Eltonwasassubmissivetohercoachmanasladieswhohavecarriagesgenerallyare,andwouldnothavedreamedoforderingthehorsesoutsosoonagainforherself;butsheforgoteverythingelsewhenafriendwasinneedofhelp,andbecameperfectlypachydermatoustotheoffendedlooksorindignanthintsofthatimportantfunctionary。 WithinafewminutesafterHughtookhisleave,Mrs。Eltonwasonherwaytorepeatavisitshehadalreadypaidthesamemorning,andtomakeseveralothercalls,withtheexpressobjectoffindingpupilsforHugh。Butinthisshewasnotsosuccessfulasshehadexpected。Infact,noonewhomshecouldthinkof,wantedsuchservicesatpresent。Shereturnedhomequitedown-hearted,andallbutconvincedthatnothingcouldbedonebeforetheapproachoftheLondonseason。 CHAPTERXVII。 STRIFE。 They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Anadderandasnake; Buthaudmefast,letmenotpass,Ginyewouldbemymaik。 They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Anadderandanaske; They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Abalethatburnsfast。 They\'llshapemeinyourarms,Janet,Adove,butandaswan; Andlast,they\'llshapemeinyourarmsAmother-nakedman: Castyourgreenmantleoverme—— AndsaeshallIbewan。 ScotchBallad:Tamlane。 AssoonasHughhadleftthehouse,MargarethastenedtoEuphra。 Shefoundherinherownroom,alittlemorecheerful,butstillstrangelydepressed。Thisappearanceincreasedtowardstheevening,tillherlooksbecamequitehaggard,revealinganinwardconflictofgrowingagony。Margaretremainedwithher。 Justbeforedinner,theupstairsbell,whosesummonsMargaretwasaccustomedtoobey,rang,andshewentdown。Mrs。Eltondetainedherforafewminutes。Themomentshewasatliberty,sheflewtoEuphra\'sroombythebackstaircase。But,assheascended,shewashorrifiedtomeetEuphra,inacloakandthickveil,creepingdownthestairslikeathief。Withoutsayingaword,thestronggirlliftedherinherarmsasifshehadbeenachild,andcarriedherbacktoherroom。Euphraneitherstrugglednorspoke。Margaretlaidheronhercouch,andsatdownbesideher。Shelaywithoutmoving,and,althoughwideawake,gavenoothersignofexistencethananoccasionallowmoan,thatseemedtocomefromaheartpressedalmosttodeath。 Havinglainthusforanhour,shebrokethesilence。 “Margaret,doyoudespisemedreadfully?” “No,notintheleast。“ “YetyoufoundmegoingtodowhatIknewwaswrong。“ “YouhadnotmadeyourselfstrongbythinkingaboutthewillofGod。 Hadyou,dear?” “No。Iwilltellyouhowitwas。Ihadbeentormentedwiththeinclinationtogotohim,andhadbeenresistingittillIwaswornout,andcouldhardlybearitmore。Suddenlyallgrewcalmwithinme,andIseemedtohateCountHalkarnolonger。Ithoughtwithmyselfhoweasyitwouldbetoputastoptothisdreadfultorment,justbyyieldingtoit——onlythisonce。IthoughtIshouldthenbestrongertoresistthenexttime;forthiswaswearingmeoutso,thatImustyieldthenexttime,ifIpersistednow。Butwhatseemedtojustifyme,wasthethoughtthatsoIshouldfindoutwherehewas,andbeabletotellHugh;andthenhewouldgettheringforme,and,perhapsthatwoulddeliverme。Butitwasverywrongofme。IforgotallaboutthewillofGod。Iwillnotgoagain,Margaret。DoyouthinkImaytryagaintofighthim?” “Thatisjustwhatyoumustdo。AllthatGodrequiresofyouis,totryagain。God\'schildmustbefree。Dotry,dearMissCameron。“ “IthinkIcould,ifyouwouldcallmeEuphra。Youaresostrong,andpure,andgood,Margaret!IwishIhadneverhadanythoughtsbutsuchasyouhave,youbeautifulcreature!Oh,howgladIamthatyoufoundme!Dowatchmealways。“ “IwillcallyouEuphra。Iwillbeyoursister-servant——anythingyoulike,ifyouwillonlytryagain。“ “Thankyou,withallmytroubledheart,dearMargaret。Iwillindeedtryagain。“ Shesprangfromthecouchinasuddenagony,andgraspingMargaretbythearm,lookedatherwithsuchaterror-strickenface,thatshebegantofearshewaslosingherreason。 “Margaret,“shesaid,asifwiththevoiceasofonejustraisedfromthedead,speakingwithallthecharneldampsinherthroat,“coulditbethatIaminlovewithhimstill?” Margaretshuddered,butdidnotloseherself-possession。 “No,no,Euphra,darling。Youwerehauntedwithhim,andsotiredthatyouwerenotabletohatehimanylonger。Thenyoubegantogivewaytohim。Thatwasall。Therewasnoloveinthat。“ Euphra\'sgrasprelaxed。 “Doyouthinkso?” “Yes。“ Apausefollowed。 “DoyouthinkGodcarestohavemedohiswill?Isitanythingtohim?” “Iamsureofit。Whydidhemakeyouelse?Butitisnotforthesakeofbeingobeyedthathecaresforit,butforthesakeofservingyouandmakingyoublessedwithhisblessedness。Hedoesnotthinkabouthimself,butaboutyou。“ “Oh,dear!oh,dear!Imustnotgo。“ “Letmereadtoyouagain,Eupra。“ “Yes,pleasedo,Margaret。“ ShereadthefortiethchapterofIsaiah,oneofherfather\'sfavouritechapters,whereallthestrengthandknowledgeofGodareurgedtoaheight,thattheymayfallinoverwhelmingprofusionuponthewantsandfearsandunbeliefofhischildren。Howshouldhethatcalleththestarsbytheirnamesforgethispeople? Whilesheread,thecloudmeltedawayfromEuphra\'sface;asweetsleepfollowed;andtheparoxysmwasoverforthetime。 WasEuphrainsane?andwerethesethefirstaccessesofdailyfitsofmadness,whichhadbeengrowingandapproachingforwhocouldtellhowlong? Evenifsheweremad,orgoingmad,wasnotthistherightwaytotreather?IwonderhowoftenthespiritualcureoffaithintheSonofMan,theGreatHealer,hasbeentriedonthosepossessedwithourmoderndemons。Isitprovedthatinsanityhasitsorigininthephysicaldisorderwhich,itisnowsaid,canbeshowntoaccompanyitinvariably?Letitbeso:ityetappearstomethatifthephysicianwould,liketheSonofManhimself,descendasitwereintothedisorganizedworldinwhichtheconsciousnessofhispatientexists,andreceivingasfactallthatherevealstohimofitscondition——forfactitis,ofaveryrealsort——introduce,byallthemeansthatsympathycansuggest,theonecentralcureforevil,spiritualandmaterial,namely,thetruthoftheSonofMan,thevisionoftheperfectfriendandhelper,withtherevelationofthepromisedlibertyofobedience——ifhedidthis,itseemstomethatcuresmightstillbewroughtasmarvellousasthoseoftheancienttime。 Itseemstome,too,thatthatcanbebutanimperfectreligion,asitwouldbeapoorsalvation,fromwhichonecornerofdarknessmayhideus;fromwhoseblessedhealthandfreedomadisorderedbrainmaysnatchus;makingushopelessoutcasts,tillfirstthephysician,thestudentofphysicallaws,shallinterfereandrestoreustoasoundmind,orthegreatGod\'s-angelDeathcrumblethesoul-oppressingbrain,withitsthousandphantomsofpainandfearandhorror,intoafilmofdustinthehollowofthedesertedskull。 HughrepairedimmediatelytoFalconer\'schambers,wherehewasmorelikelytofindhimduringthedaythanintheevening。Hewasathome。HetoldhimofhisinterviewwithEuphra,andherfeelingthatthecountwasnotfaroff。 “Doyouthinktherecanbeanythinginit?”askedhe,whenhehadfinishedhisrelation。 “Ithinkverylikely,“answeredhisfriend。“Iwillbemoreontheoutlookthanever。Itmay,afterall,bethroughtheladyherselfthatweshallfindthevillain。Ifsheweretofallintooneofhertrances,now,Ithinkitalmostcertainshewouldgotohim。Sheoughttobecarefullywatchedandfollowed,ifthatshouldtakeplace。Letmeknowallthatyoulearnabouther。Goandseeheragainto-morrow,thatwemaybekeptinformedofherexperiences,sofarasshethinkspropertotellthem。“ “Iwill,“saidHugh,andtookhisleave。 ButMargaret,whoknewEuphra\'scondition,bothspiritualandphysical,betterthananyother,hadfardifferentobjectsforher,throughmeansoftheunholyattractionwhichthecountexercisedoverher,thanthediscoveryofthestolenring。Shewasdeterminedthatneithersleepingnorwakingshouldshefollowhiscall,ordancetohispiping。Sheshouldresisttothelast,inthenameofGod,andsoredeemherlostwillfromthepowerofthisdevil,towhomshehadfoolishlysoldit。 Thenextday,thestruggleevidentlycontinued;andithadsuchaneffectonEuphra,thatMargaretcouldnothelpfeelingveryanxiousabouttheresultasregardedherhealth,evenifsheshouldbevictoriousinthecontest。ButnotforonemomentdidMargaretquail;forshefeltconvinced,comeofitwhatmight,thattheonlyhopeforEuphralayinresistance。Death,tohermind,wassimplynothinginthebalancewithslaveryofsuchasort。 Once——butevidentlyinafitofabsence——Euphrarose,wenttothedoor,andopenedit。Butsheinstantlydashedittoagain,andwalkingslowlyback,resumedherseatonthecouch。Margaretcametoherfromtheothersideofthebed,whereshehadbeenworkingbythewindow,forthelastquarterofanhour,forthesakeofthewaninglight。 “Whatisit,dear?”shesaid。 “Oh,Margaret!areyouthere?Ididnotknowyouwereintheroom。 IfoundmyselfatthedoorbeforeIknewwhatIwasdoing。“ “Butyoucamebackofyourselfthistime。“ “YesIdid。ButIstillfeelinclinedtogo。“ “Thereisnosininthat,solongasyoudonotencouragethefeeling,oryieldtoit。“ “Ihateit。“ “Youwillsoonbefreefromit。Keeponcourageously,dearsister。 Youwillbeinlibertyandjoysoon。“ “Godgrantit。“ “Hewill,Euphra。Iamsurehewill。“ “Iamsureyouknow,oryouwouldnotsayit。“ Aknockcametothestreetdoor。Euphrastarted,andsatintheattitudeofafearfullistener。Amessagewaspresentlybroughther,thatMr。Sutherlandwasinthedrawing-room,andwishedtoseeher。 Euphraroseimmediately,andwenttohim。Margaret,whodidnotquitefeelthatshecouldbetrustedyet,removedtoaroombehindthedrawing-room,whenceshecouldseeEuphraifshepassedtogodownstairs。 HughaskedherifshecouldtellhimanythingmoreaboutCountHalkar。 “Only,“sheanswered,“thatIamstillsurerofhisbeingnearme。“ “Howdoyouknowit?” “Ineednotmindtellingyou,forIhavetoldyoubeforethathehasakindofsupernaturalpoweroverme。Iknowitbyhisdrawingmetowardshim。ItistrueImightfeelitjustthesamewhetherhewasinAmericaorinLondon;butIdonotthinkhewouldcaretodoit,ifheweresofaroff。Iknowhimwellenoughtoknowthathewouldnotwishformeexceptforsomeimmediateadvantagetohimself。“ “Butwhatistheuseofhisdoingso,whenyoudon\'tknowwhereheistobefound。“ “Ishouldgostraighttohim,withoutknowingwhereIwasgoing。“ Hughroseinhaste。 “Putonyourbonnetandcloak,andcomewithme。Iwilltakecareofyou。Leadmetohim,andtheringshallsoonbeinyourhandsagain。“ Euphrahesitated,halfrose,butsatdownimmediately。 “No,no!Notforworlds,“shesaid。“Donottemptme。Imustnot——Idarenot——Iwillnotgo。“ “ButIshallbewithyou。Iwilltakecareofyou。Don\'tyouthinkIamable,Euphra?” “Oh,yes!quiteable。ButImustnotgoanywhereatthatman\'sbidding。“ “Butitwon\'tbeathisbidding:itwillbeatmine。“ “Ah!thataltersthecaserather,doesitnot?IwonderwhatMargaretwouldsay。“ “Margaret!WhatMargaret?”saidHugh。 “Oh!mynewmaid,“answeredEuphra,recollectingherself。 “Notbeingwellatpresent,sheismynurse。“ “Weshalltakeacabassoonaswegettothecorner。“ “Idon\'tthinkthecountwouldbeabletoguidethehorse,“saidEuphra,withasmile。“Imustwalk。ButIshouldliketogo。I will。Itwouldbesuchavictorytocatchhiminhisowntoils。“ Sheroseandranupstairs。Inafewminutesshecamedownagain,cloakedandveiled。ButMargaretmetherasshedescended,andleadingherintothebackdrawing-room,said: “Areyougoing,Euphra?” “Yes;butIamgoingwithMr。Sutherland,“answeredEuphra,inadefensivetone。“Itistopleasehim,andnottoobeythecount。“ “AreyousureitisalltopleaseMr。Sutherland?Ifitwere,I don\'tthinkyouwouldbeabletoguidehimright。Isitnottogetridofyoursufferingbyyieldingtotemptation,Euphra?Atallevents,ifyougo,evenshouldMr。Sutherlandbesuccessfulwithhim,youwillneverfeelthatyouhaveovercomehim,orhe,thathehaslostyou。Hewillstillholdyoufast。Don\'tgo。Iamsureyouaredeceivingyourself。“ Euphrastoodforamomentandpoutedlikeanaughtychild。ThensuddenlythrowingherarmsaboutMargaret\'sneck,shekissedher,andsaid: “Iwon\'tgo,Margaret。Here,takemythingsupstairsforme。“ Shethrewoffherbonnetandcloak,andrejoinedHughinthedrawing-room。 “Ican\'tgo,“shesaid。“Imustnotgo。Ishouldbeyieldingtohim,anditwouldmakeaslaveofmeallmylife。“ “Itisouronlychanceforthering,“saidHugh。 AgainEuphrahesitatedandwavered;butagainsheconquered。 “Icannothelpit,“shesaid。“Iwouldrathernothavetheringthango——ifyouwillforgiveme。“ “Oh,Euphra!”repliedHugh。“Youknowitisnotformyself。“ “Idoknowit。Youwon\'tmindthenifIdon\'tgo?” “Certainlynot,ifyouhavemadeupyourmind。Youmusthaveagoodreasonforit。“ “IndeedIhave。“Andevenalreadyshefeltthatresistancebroughtitsownreward。 Hughwentalmostimmediately,inordertomakehisreporttoFalconer,withwhomhehadanappointmentforthepurpose。 “Sheisquiteright,“saidFalconer。“Idonotthink,intherelationinwhichshestandstohim,thatshecouldsafelydootherwise。Butitseemstomeverylikelythatthiswillturnoutwellforourplans,too。Letherpersist,andinallprobabilityhewillnotonlyhavetoresignherperforce,butwillsofarmakehimselfsubjecttoherinturn,astoseekherwhowillnotgotohim。Hewillpulluponhisownropetillheisdrawntothespotwherehehasfixedit。Whatremainsforyouandmetodo,istokeepaclosewatchonthehouseandneighbourhood。Mostlikelyweshallfindthevillainbeforelong。“ “Doyoureallythinkso?” “Thewholeaffairismysterious,andhastodowithlawswithwhichwearemostimperfectlyacquainted;butthisseemstomeapresumptionworthactingupon。Istherenooneinthehouseonwhomyoucoulddependforassistance——forinformation,atleast?” “Yes。ThereisthesameoldservantthatMrs。EltonhadwithheratArnstead。Heisasteadyoldfellow,andhasbeenveryfriendlywithme。“ “Well,whatIwouldadviseis,thatyoushouldfindyourselfquartersasnearthespotaspossible;and,besideskeepingasmuchofapersonalguarduponthehouseasyoucan,engagetheservantyoumentiontoletyouknow,themomentthecountmakeshisappearance。Itwillprobablybetowardsnightwhenhecalls,forsuchamanmayhavereasonsaswellasinstinctstomakehimlovethedarknessratherthanthelight。Youhadbettergoatonce;andwhenyouhavefoundaplace,leaveorsendtheaddressheretome,andtowardsnight-fallIwilljoinyou。Butwemayhavetowatchforseveraldays。Wemustnotbetoosanguine。“ Almostwithoutaword,HughwenttodoasFalconersaid。Theonlyplacehecouldfindsuitable,wasapublic-houseatthecornerofabackstreet,wherethemen-servantsoftheneighbourhoodusedtoresort。Hesucceededinsecuringaprivateroominit,foraweek,andimmediatelysentFalconerwordofhislocality。HethencalledasecondtimeatMrs。Elton\'s,andaskedtoseethebutler。Whenhecame: “Irwan,“saidhe,“hasHerrvonFunkelsteincalledhereto-day?” “No,sir,hehasnot。“ “Youwouldknowhim,wouldyounot?” “Yes,sir;perfectly。“ “Well,ifheshouldcallto-night,orto-morrow,oranytimewithinthenextfewdays,letmeknowthemomentheisinthehouse。YouwillfindmeattheGoldenStaff,roundthecorner。ItisoftheutmostimportancethatIshouldseehimatonce。Butdonotlethimknowthatanyonewantstoseehim。Youshallnotrepenthelpingmeinthisaffair。IknowIcantrustyou。“ Hughhadfixedhimwithhiseyes,beforehebegantoexplainhiswishes。Hehadfoundoutthatthiswasthebestwayofsecuringattentionfrominferiornatures,andthatitwasespeciallynecessarywithLondonservants;fortheirsuperciliousnessiscowedbyit,andthesuperiorwillbroughttobearupontheirs。Itistheonlywayamanwithoutacarriagehastocommandattentionfromsuch。Irwanwasnotoneofthissort。Hewasacountryservant,foronedifference。ButHughmadehisaddressasimpressiveaspossible。 “Iwillwithpleasure,sir,“answeredIrwan,andHughfelttolerablysureofhim。 Falconercame。Theyorderedsomesupper,andsattilleleveno\'clock。Therebeingthennochanceofasummons,theywentouttogether。Passingthehouse,theysawlightinoneupperwindowonly。Thatlightwouldburnthereallnight,foritwasinEuphra\'sroom。Theywenton,HughaccompanyingFalconerinoneofhismidnightwalksthroughLondon,ashehaddonerepeatedlybefore。 >FromsuchcompanionshipandthescenestowhichFalconerintroducedhim,hehadgatheredthisfruit,thathebegantobelieveinGodforthesakeofthewretchedmenandwomenhesawintheworld。Atfirstitwashisownpainatthesightofsuchmiserythatdrovehim,forconsolation,tohopeinGod;so,atfirst,itwasforhisownsake。Butashesawmoreofthem,andgrewtolovethemmore,hefeltthattheonlyhopeforthemlayintheloveofGod;andhehopedinGodforthem。HesawtoothataGodnotbothhumanlyandabsolutelydivine,aGodlessthanthatGodshadowedforthintheRedeemerofmen,wouldnotdo。ButthinkingaboutGodthus,andhopinginhimforhisbrothersandsisters,hebegantoloveGod。 Then,lastofall,thathemightseeinhimonetowhomhecouldabandoneverything,thathemightseehimperfectandallinallandashemustbe——forthesakeofGodhimself,hebelievedinhimastheSaviourofthesehissinfulandsufferingkin。 Asearlyaswasatallexcusable,thefollowingmorning,hecalledonEuphra。Thebutlersaidthatshehadnotcomedownyet,buthewouldsenduphisname。AmessagewasbroughtbackthatMissCameronwassorrynottoseehim,butshehadhadabadnight,andwasquiteunabletogetup。Irwanrepliedtohisinquiry,thatthecounthadnotcalled。HughwithdrewtotheGoldenStaff。 Abadnightithadbeenindeed。AsEuphrasleptwellthefirstpartofit,andhadnoattacksuchasshehadhaduponboththeprecedingnights,Margarethadhopedtheworstwasover。Stillshelaidherselfonlywithinthethresholdofsleepreadytowakeattheleastmotion。 InthemiddleofthenightshefeltEuphramove。Shelaystilltoseewhatshewoulddo。Euphraslippedoutofbed,andpartlydressedherself;thenwenttoherwardrobe,andputonacloakwithalargehood,whichshedrewoverherhead。Margaretlaywithadreadfulachingatherheart。Euphrawenttowardsthedoor。 Margaretcalledher,butshemadenoanswer。Margaretflewtothedoor,andreacheditbeforeher。Then,toherintensedelight,shesawthatEuphra\'seyeswereclosed。Justasshelaidherhandonthedoor,Margarettookhergentlyinherarms。 “Letmego,letmego!”Euphraalmostscreamed。Thensuddenlyopeninghereyes,shestaredatMargaretinabewilderedfashion,likeonewakingfromthedead。 “Euphra!dearEuphra!”saidMargaret。 “Oh,Margaret!isitreallyyou?”exclaimedEuphra,flingingherarmsabouther。“Oh,Iamglad。Ah!youseewhatImusthavebeenabout。IsupposeIknewwhenIwasdoingit,butIdon\'tknownow。 Ihaveforgottenallaboutit。Ohdear!ohdear!Ithoughtitwouldcometothis。“ “Cometobed,dear。Youcouldn\'thelpit。Itwasnotyourself。 Thereisnotmorethanhalfofyouawake,whenyouwalkinyoursleep。“ Theywenttobed。EuphracreptclosetoMargaret,andcriedherselfasleepagain。Thenextdayshehadabadhead-ache。Thiswithheralwaysfollowedsomnambulation。Shedidnotgetupallthatday。 WhenHughcalledagainintheevening,heheardshewasbetter,butstillinbed。 FalconerjoinedHughattheGoldenStaff,atnight;buttheyhadnobettersuccessthanbefore。Falconerwentoutalone,forHughwantedtokeephimselffresh。Thoughverystrong,hewasyoungerandlesshardenedthanFalconer,whocouldstandanincredibleamountoflabourandlackofsleep。Hughwouldhavegivenwayunderthehalf。 CHAPTERXVIII。 VICTORY Omyadmiredmistress,quenchnotoutTheholyfireswithinyou,thoughtemptationsShowerdownuponyou:claspthinearmouron; Fightwell,andthoushaltsee,afterthesewars,Thyheadwearsunbeams,andthyfeettouchstars。 MASSINGER——TheVirginMartyr。 ButHughcouldsleepnomorethanifhehadbeenoutwithFalconer。 Hewasasrestlessasawildbeastinacage。Somethingwouldnotlethimbeatpeace。Soherose,dressed,andwentout。Assoonasheturnedthecorner,hecouldseeMrs。Elton\'shouse。Itwasvisiblebothbyintermittentmoonlightabove,andbyflickeringgaslightbelow,forthewindblewratherstrong。Therewassnowintheair,heknew。Thelighttheyhadobservedlastnight,wasburningnow。Amomentservedtomaketheseobservations;andthenHugh\'seyeswerearrestedbythesightofsomethingelse——amanwalkingupanddownthepavementinfrontofMrs。Elton\'shouse。Heinstantlysteppedintotheshadowofaporchtowatchhim。Thefiguremightbethecount\'s;itmightnot;hecouldnotbesure。 Everynowandthenthemanlookeduptothewindows。Atlengthhestoppedrightunderthelightedone,andlookedup。Hughwasonthepointofglidingout,thathemightgetasnearhimaspossiblebeforerushingonhim,when,atthemoment,tohisgreatmortification,apolicemanemergedfromsomemysteriouscorner,andthefigureinstantlyvanishedinanother。Hughdidnotpursuehim; becauseitwouldbetosetallonasinglechance,andthatapoorone;forifthecount,shoulditbehe,succeededinescaping,hewouldnotreturntoaspotwhichheknewtobewatched。Hugh,therefore,withdrewoncemoreunderaporch,andwaited。But,whatevermightbethecause,themanmadehisappearancenomore。 Hughcontrivedtokeepwatchfortwohours,inspiteofsuspiciouspolicemen。Hesleptlateintothefollowingmorning。 CallingatMrs。Elton\'s,helearnedthatthecounthadnotbeenthere;thatMissCameronhadbeenveryillallnight;butthatshewasratherbettersincethemorning。 Thatnight,asthepreceding,Margarethadawakedsuddenly。Euphrawasnotinthebedbesideher。Shestartedupinanagonyofterror;butitwassoonallayed,thoughnotremoved。ShesawEuphraonherkneesatthefootofthebed,anold-fashionedfour-postone。 Shehadherarmstwinedroundoneofthebed-posts,andherheadthrownback,asifsomeonewerepullingherbackwardsbyherhair,whichfelloverhernight-dresstothefloorinthick,blackmasses。 Hereyeswereclosed;herfacewasdeath-like,almostlivid;andthecolddewsoftorturewererollingdownfrombrowtochin。Herlipsweremovingconvulsively,withnowandthentheappearanceofanattemptatarticulation,asiftheyweresetinmotionbyanagonyofinwardprayer。Margaret,unabletomove,watchedherwithanxioussympathyandfearfulexpectation。Howlongthislastedshecouldnottell,butitseemedalongtime。AtlengthMargaretrose,andlongingtohavesomeshareinthestruggle,howeversmall,wentsoftly,andstoodbehindher,shadowingherfromafeeblerayofmoonlightwhich,throughawind-rentcloud,hadstolenintotheroom,andlayuponherupturnedface。Theresheliftedupherheartinprayer。InamomentafterthetensionofEuphra\'scountenancerelaxedalittle;composureslowlyfollowed;herheadgraduallyrose,sothatMargaretcouldseeherfacenolonger;then,asgradually,droopedforward。Nextherarmsuntwinedthemselvesfromthebed-post,andherhandsclaspedthemselvestogether。Shelookedlikeoneprayingintheintensesilenceofabsorbingdevotion。 Margaretstoodstillasastatue。 InspeakingaboutitafterwardstoHugh,Margarettoldhimthatshedistinctlyrememberedhearing,whileshestood,themeasuredstepsofapolicemanpassthehouseonthepavementbelow。 InafewminutesEuphrabowedherheadyetlower,andthenrosetoherfeet。SheturnedroundtowardsMargaret,asifsheknewshewasthere。ToMargaret\'sastonishment,hereyeswerewideopen。Shesmiledamostchild-like,peaceful,happysmile,andsaid: “Itisover,Margaret,alloveratlast。Thankyou,withmywholeheart。Godhashelpedme。“ Atthatmoment,themoonshoneoutfull,andherfaceappearedinitslightlikethefaceofanangel。Margaretlookedonherwithawe。Fear,distress,anddoubthadvanished,andshewasalreadybeautifulliketheblessed。Margaretgotahandkerchief,andwipedthecolddampsfromherface。Thenshehelpedherintobed,whereshefellasleepalmostinstantly,andsleptlikeachild。Nowandthenshemoaned;butwhenMargaretlookedather,shesawthesmilestilluponhercountenance。 Shewokeweakandworn,buthappy。 “Ishallnottroubleyouto-day,Margaret,dear,“saidshe。“Ishallnotgetupyet,butyouwillnotneedtowatchme。Agreatchangehaspasseduponme。Iamfree。Ihaveovercomehim。Hemaydoashepleasesnow。Idonotcare。Idefyhim。Igotuplastnightinmysleep,butIrememberallaboutit;and,althoughIwasasleep,andfeltpowerlesslikeacorpse,Iresistedhim,evenwhenI thoughthewasdraggingmeawaybybodilyforce。AndIresistedhim,tillheleftmealone。ThankGod!” Ithadbeenaterriblestruggle,butshehadovercome。Norwasthisall:shewouldnomoreleadtwolives,thewakingandthesleeping。 Herwakingwillandconsciencehadassertedthemselvesinhersleepingacts;andthememoryofthesomnambulistlivedstillinthewakingwoman。Hencehertwoliveswereblendedintoonelife;andshewasnomoretwo,butone。Thisindicatedamightygrowthofindividualbeing。 “Iwokewithoutterror,“shewentontosay。“Ialwaysusedtowakefromsuchasleepinanagonyofunknownfear。IdonotthinkI shalleverwalkinmysleepagain。“ Isnotsalvationtheunitingofallournatureintooneharmoniouswhole——Godfirstinus,ourselveslast,andallindueorderbetween?SomethingverymuchanalogoustothechangeinEuphratakesplaceinamanwhenhefirstlearnsthathisbeliefsmustbecomeacts;thathisreligiouslifeandhishumanlifeareone; thathemustdothethingthatheadmires。TheIdealistheonlyabsoluteReal;anditmustbecometheRealintheindividuallifeaswell,howeverimpossibletheymaycountitwhonevertryit,orwhodonottrustinGodtoeffectit,whentheyfindthemselvesbaffledintheattempt。 Intheafternoon,Euphrafellasleep,andwhenshewoke,seemedbetter。ShesaidtoMargaret: “Canitbethatitwasalladream,Margaret?Imeanmyassociationwiththatdreadfulman。Ifeelasifitwereonlysomehorriddream,andthatIcouldneverhavehadanythingtodowithhim。I mayhavebeenoutofmymind,youknow,andhavetoldyouthingswhichIbelievedfirmlyenoughthen,butwhichneverreallytookplace。Itcouldnothavebeenme,Margaret,couldit?” “Notyourreal,true,bestself,dear。“ “Ihavebeenadreadfulcreature,Margaret。ButIfeelthatallthathasmeltedawayfromme,andgonebehindthesunset,whichwillforeverstand,inallitsgloryandloveliness,betweenmeandit,animpassablerampartofdefence。“ Herwordssoundedstrangeandexcited,buthereyeandherpulsewerecalm。 “Howcouldheeverhavehadthathatefulpoweroverme?” “Don\'tthinkanymoreabouthim,dear,butenjoytherestGodhasgivenyou。“ “Iwill,Iwill。“ Atthatmoment,amaidcametothedoor,withFunkelstein\'scardforMissCameron。 “Verywell,“saidMargaret;“askhimtowait。IwilltellMissCameron。Shemaywishtosendhimamessage。Youmaygo。“ ShetoldEuphrathatthecountwasinthehouse。Euphrashowednosurprise,nofear,noannoyance。 “Willyouseehimforme,Margaret,ifyoudon\'tmind;andtellhimfromme,thatIdefyhim;thatIdonothatehim,onlybecauseI despiseandforgethim;thatIchallengehimtodohisworst。“ Shehadforgottenallaboutthering。ButMargarethadnot。 “Iwill,“saidshe,andlefttheroom。 Onherwaydown,shewentintothedrawing-room,andrangthebell。 “SendMr。Irwantomehere,please。ItisforMissCameron。“ Themanwent,butpresentlyreturned,sayingthatthebutlerhadjuststeppedout。 “Verywell。Youwilldojustaswell。Whenthegentlemanleaveswhoiscallingnow,youmustfollowhim。Takeacab,ifnecessary,andfollowhimeverywhere,tillyoufindwherehestopsforthenight。Watchtheplace,andsendmewordwhereyouare。Butdon\'tlethimknow。Putonplainclothes,please,asfastasyoucan。“ “Yes,Miss,directly。“ TheservantsallcalledMargaret,Miss。 Shelingeredyetalittle,togivethemantime。Shewasnotatallsatisfiedwithherplan,butshecouldthinkofnothingbetter。 Happily,itwasnotnecessary。IrwanhadrunasfastashisoldlegswouldcarryhimtotheGoldenStaff。Hughreceivedthenewswithdelight。Hisheartseemedtoleapintohisthroat,andhefeltjustashedid,when,deer-stalkingforthefirsttime,hetriedtotakeaimatagreatredstag。 “Ishallwaitforhimoutsidethedoor。Wemusthavenonoiseinthehouse。Heisathief,orworse,Irwan。“ “Goodgracious!Andthere\'stheplatealllaidoutfordinneronthesideboard!”exclaimedIrwan,andhurriedofffasterthanhehadcome。 ButHughwasstandingatthedoorlongbeforeIrwangotuptoit。 HadMargaretknownwhowaswatchingoutside,itwouldhavebeenawonderfulrelieftoher。 Sheenteredthedining-room,wherethecountstoodimpatient。Headvancedquickly,actingonhisexpectationofEuphra,butseeinghismistake,stopped,andbowedpolitely。MargarettoldhimthatMissCameronwasill,andgavehimhermessage,wordforword。Thecountturnedpalewithmortificationandrage。Hebithislip,madenoreply,andwalkedoutintothehall,whereIrwanstoodwiththehandleofthedoorinhishand,impatienttoopenit。Nosoonerwasheoutofthehouse,thanHughspranguponhim;butthecount,whohadbeenperfectlyuponhisguard,eludedhim,anddartedoffdownthestreet。Hughpursuedatfullspeed,mortifiedathisescape。 Hehadnofearatfirstofovertakinghim,forhehadfoundfewmenhisequalsinspeedandendurance;buthesoonsaw,tohisdismay,thatthecountwasincreasingthedistancebetweenthem,andfearedthat,byasuddenturnintosomelabyrinth,hemightescapehimaltogether。TheypassedtheGoldenStaffatfullspeed,andatthenextcornerHughdiscoveredwhatgavethecounttheadvantage:itwashisagilityandrecklessnessinturningcorners。But,likethesorcerer\'simpunity,theyfailedhimatlast;for,atthenextturn,heranfulluponFalconer,whostaggeredback,whilethecountreeledandfell。Hughwasuponhiminamoment。“Help!”roaredthecount,foralastchancefromthesympathiesofagatheringcrowd。