CHAPTERXVI。
FOREBODINGS。
Faust。Ifheavenwasmadeforman,\'twasmadeforme。
GoodAngel。Faustus,repent;yetheavenwillpitythee。
BadAngel。Thouartaspirit,Godcannotpitythee。
Faust。BeIadevil,yetGodmaypityme。
BadAngel。Toolate。
GoodAngel。NevertoolateifFaustuswillrepent。
BadAngel。Ifthourepent,devilswillteartheeinpieces。
OldMan。Iseeanangelhovero\'erthyhead,Andwithavialfullofpreciousgrace,Offerstopourthesameintothysoul。
MARLOWE——DoctorFaustus。
Mr。Appleditchhadhadsomebusiness-misfortunes,notofaheavynature,butsufficienttocastagloomoverthehouseinDervishTown,andespeciallyoverthefaceofhisspouse,whohadsetherheartonanewcarpetforherdrawing-room,andfearedsheoughtnottoprocureitnow。Itiswonderfulhowconscientioussomepeoplearetowardstheirbalanceatthebanker\'s。Howthedrawing-room,however,couldcometowantanewcarpetissomethingmysterious,exceptthereisapeculiarpowerofdecayinherentinthingsdeprivedofuse。Theseinfluencesoperating,however,shebegantothinkthatthetwoscionsofgrocerywerenotdrawingnineshillings\'worthaweekofthesapofdivinity。ThisshehintedtoMr。Appleditch。ItwasresolvedtogiveHughwarning。
Asitwouldinvolvesomeawkwardnesstostatereasons,Mrs。
Appleditchresolvedtoquarrelwithhim,astheeasiestwayofprefacinghisdischarge。Itwasthewayshetookwithhermaids-of-all-work;foritwasgrandinitself,andalwaysleftherwithacomfortablefeelingofinjureddignity。
Asapreliminarycourse,shebegantotreathimwithstilllesspolitenessthanbefore。Hughwassocarelessofherbehaviour,thatthismadenoimpressionuponhim。Buthecametounderstanditallafterwards,fromputtingtogethertheremarksofthechildren,andthepartialcommunicationsofMr。AppleditchtoMissTalbot,whichthatgoodladyinnocentlyimpartedtoherlodger。
Atlength,oneday,shecameintotheroomwhereHughwasmorebusyinteachingthanhispupilswereinlearning,andseatedherselfbythefiretowatchforanopportunity。Thiswassoonfound。Fortheboys,renderedstillmoreinattentivebythepresenceoftheirmother,couldnotbeinducedtofixtheleastthoughtuponthematterinhand;sothatHughwascompelledtogooverthesamethingagainandagain,withoutsuccess。Atlasthesaid:
“Iamafraid,Mrs。Appleditch,Imustaskyoutointerfere,forI
cannotgetanyattentionfromtheboysto-day。“
“Andhowcoulditbeotherwise,Mr。Sutherland,whenyoukeepwearingthemoutwithgoingoverandoverthesamething,tilltheyaresickofit?Whydon\'tyougoon?”
“HowcanIgoonwhentheyhavenotlearnedthethingtheyareat?
Thatwouldbetobuildthechimneysbeforethewalls。“
“Itisveryeasytobewitty,sir;butIbegyouwillbehavemorerespectfullytomeinthepresenceofmychildren,innocentlambs!”
Lookingroundatthemoment,Hughcaughtinhisfacewhattheelderlambhadintendedforhisback,agrimacehideousenoughtohaveprocuredhiminstantpromotioninthekingdomofapes。Themothersawittoo,andadded:
“Youseeyoucannotmakethemrespectyou。Really,Mr。Sutherland!”
Hughwasabouttoreply,totheeffectthatitwasuseless,insuchcircumstances,toattemptteachingthematall,someutteranceofwhichsortwaswatchedforastheoccasionforhisinstantdismission;butatthatverymomentacarriageandpairpulledsharplyupatthedoor,withmorethantheusualamountofquadrupedation,andmotherandsonsdartedsimultaneouslytothewindow。
“My!”criedJohnnie,“whatarumgo!Isn\'tthatajollycarriage,Peetie?”
“Papa\'sboughtacarriage!”shoutedPeetie。
“Bequiet,children,“saidtheirmother,asshesawafootmangetdownandapproachthedoor。
“Lookatthatbuffer,“saidJohnnie。“Docomeandseethisgrandfootman,Mr。Sutherland。He\'ssuchagentleman!”
Aboxontheearfromhismothersilencedhim。Theservantenteringwithsomeperturbationamomentafter,addressedhermistress,forshedarednotaddressanyoneelsewhileshewasintheroom:
“Please\'m,thecarriageisastin\'afterMr。Sutherland。“
“Mr。Sutherland?”
“Yes\'m。“
TheladyturnedtoMr。Sutherland,who,althoughsurprisedaswell,wasnotinclinedtoshowhissurprisetoMrs。Appleditch。
“Ididnotknowyouhadcarriage-friends,Mr。Sutherland,“saidshe,withatossofherhead。
“NeitherdidI,“answeredHugh。“ButIwillgoandseewhoitis。“
Whenhereachedthestreet,hefoundHarryonthepavement,whohavinggotoutofthecarriage,andnothavingbeenaskedintothehouse,wasunabletostandstillforimpatience。Assoonashesawhistutor,heboundedtohim,andthrewhisarmsroundhisneck,standingastheywereintheopenstreet。Tearsofdelightfilledhiseyes。
“Come,come,come,“saidHarry;“weallwantyou。“
“Whowantsme?”
“Mrs。EltonandEuphraandme。Come,getin。“
“AndhepulledHughtowardsthecarriage。
“Icannotgowithyounow。Ihavepupilshere。“
Harry\'sfacefell。
“Whenwillyoucome?”
“Inhalf-an-hour。“
“Hurrah!Ishallbebackexactlyinhalf-an-hourthen。Dobeready,please,Mr。Sutherland。“
“Iwill。“
Harryjumpedintothecarriage,tellingthecoachmantodrivewherehepleased,andbebackatthesameplaceinhalf-an-hour。Hughreturnedintothehouse。
Asmaybesupposed,Margaretwasthemeansofthishappymeeting。
AlthoughshesawplainlyenoughthatEuphrawouldliketoseeHugh,shedidnotforsometimemakeuphermindtosendforhim。Thecircumstanceswhichmadeherresolvetodosowerethese。
ForsomedaysEuphraseemedtobegraduallyregainingherhealthandcomposureofmind。Oneevening,afteralongertalkthanusual,Margarethadleftherinbed,andhadgonetoherownroom。Shewasjustpreparingtogetintobedherself,whenaknockatherdoorstartledher,andgoingtoit,shesawEuphrastandingthere,paleasdeath,withnothingonbuthernightgown,notwithstandingthebittercoldofanearlyandseverefrost。Shethoughtatfirstshemustbewalkinginhersleep,butthescaredintelligenceofheropeneyes,soonsatisfiedherthatitwasnotso。
“Whatisthematter,dearMissCameron?”shesaid,ascalmlyasshecould。
“Heiscoming。Hewantsme。Ifhecallsme,Imustgo。“
“No,youshallnotgo,“rejoinedMargaret,firmly。
“Imust,Imust,“answeredEuphra,wringingherhands。
“Docomein,“saidMargaret,“youmustnotstandthereinthecold。“
“Letmegetintoyourbed。“
“Betterletmegowithyoutoyours。Thatwillbemorecomfortableforyou。“
“Oh!yes;pleasedo。“
MargaretthrewashawlroundEuphra,andwentbackwithhertoherroom。
“Hewantsme。Hewantsme。Hewillcallmesoon,“saidEuphra,inanagonisedwhisper,assoonasthedoorwasshut。“WhatshallI
do!”
“Cometobedfirst,andwewilltalkaboutitthere。“
Assoonastheywereinbed,MargaretputherarmroundEuphra,whowastremblingwithcoldandfear,andsaid:
“Hasthismananyrighttocallyou?”
“No,no,“answeredEuphra,vehemently。
“Thendon\'tgo。“
“ButIamafraidofhim。“
“DefyhiminGod\'sname。“
“Butbesidesthefear,thereissomethingthatIcan\'tdescribe,thatalwayskeepstellingme——no,nottellingme,pushingme——no,drawingme,asifIcouldnotrestamomenttillIgo。Icannotdescribeit。Ihatetogo,andyetIfeelthatifIwerecoldinmygrave,Imustriseandgoifhecalledme。IwishIcouldtellyouwhatitislike。ItisasifsomedemonwereshakingmysoultillI
yieldedandwent。Oh!don\'tdespiseme。Ican\'thelpit。“
“Mydarling,Idon\'t,Ican\'tdespiseyou。Youshallnotgotohim。“
“ButImust,“answeredshe,withadespairingfaintnessmoreconvincingthananyvehemence;andthenbegantoweepwithaslow,hopelessweeping,liketherainofaNovembereve。
Margaretgotoutofbed。Euphrathoughtshewasoffended。Startingup,sheclaspedherhands,andsaid:
“OhMargaret!Iwon\'tcry。Don\'tleaveme。Don\'tleaveme。“
Sheentreatedlikeachiddenchild。
“No,no,Ididn\'tmeantoleaveyouforamoment。Liedownagain,dear,andcryasmuchasyoulike。IamgoingtoreadalittlebitoutoftheNewTestamenttoyou。“
“IamafraidIcan\'tlistentoit。“
“Nevermind。Don\'ttry。Iwanttoreadit。“
MargaretgotaNewTestament,andreadpartofthatchapterofSt。
John\'sGospelwhichspeaksabouthumanlabourandthebreadoflife。
Shestoppedatthesewords:
“ForIcamedownfromheaven,nottodomineownwill,butthewillofhimthatsentme。“
Euphra\'stearshadceased。ThesoundofMargaret\'svoice,which,ifitlostinsweetnessbybecomingmoreScotchwhenshereadtheGospel,yetgainedtherebyinpathos,andthepoweroftheblessedwordsthemselves,hadsoothedthetroubledspiritalittle,andshelayquiet。
“Thecountisnotagoodman,MissCameron?”
“Youknowheisnot,Margaret。Heistheworstmanalive。“
“ThenitcannotbeGod\'swillthatyoushouldgotohim。“
“ButonedoesmanythingsthatarenotGod\'swill。“
“ButitisGod\'swillthatyoushouldnotgotohim。“
Euphralaysilentforafewmoments。Suddenlysheexclaimed:
“ThenImustnotgotohim,“——gotoutofbed,threwherselfonherkneesbythebedside,andholdingupherclaspedhands,said,inlowtonesthatsoundedasifforcedfromherbyagony:
“Iwon\'t!Iwon\'t!OGod,Iwillnot。Helpme,helpme!”
Margaretkneltbesideher,andputherarmroundher。Euphraspokenomore,butremainedkneeling,withherextendedarmsandclaspedhandslyingonthebed,andherheadlaidbetweenthem。AtlengthMargaretgrewalarmed,andlookedather。Butshefoundthatshewasinasweetsleep。Shegentlydisengagedherself,andcoveringherupsoftandwarm,lefthertosleepoutherGod-sentsleepundisturbed,whileshesatbeside,andwatchedforherwaking。
Shesleptthusforanhour。Thenliftingherhead,andseeingMargaret,sherosequietly,asiffromherprayers,andsaidwithasmile:
“Margaret,IwasdreamingthatIhadamother。“
“Soyouhave,somewhere。“
“Yes,soIhave,somewhere,“sherepeated,andcreptintobedlikeachild,laydown,andwasasleepagaininamoment。
Margaretwatchedherforanotherhour,andthenseeingnosignsofrestlessness,butthatonthecontraryhersleepwasprofound,laydownbesideher,andsoonsharedinthatreposewhichtowearywomenandmenisGod\'sbestgift。
Sheroseatherusualhourthenextday,andwasdressedbeforeEuphraawoke。ItwasacoldgreyDecembermorning,withthehoar-frostlyingthickontheroofsofthehouses。EuphraopenedhereyeswhileMargaretwasbusylightingthefire。Seeingthatshewasthere,sheclosedthemagain,andfelloncemorefastasleep。
Beforeshewokeagain,Margarethadsometeareadyforher;aftertakingwhich,shefeltabletogetup。SheroselookingmorebrightandhopefulthanMargarethadseenherbefore。
ButMargaret,whowatchedherintentlythroughtheday,sawachangecomeoverhercheer。Herfacegrewpaleandtroubled。Nowandthenhereyeswerefixedonvacancy;andagainshewouldlookatMargaretwithawoebegoneexpressionofcountenance;butpresently,asifrecollectingherself,wouldsmileandlookcheerfulforamoment。
Margaretsawthattheconflictwascomingon,ifnotalreadybegun——thatatleastitsshadowwasuponher;andthinkingthatifshecouldhaveatalkwithHughaboutwhathehadbeendoing,itwouldcomfortheralittle,anddivertherthoughtsfromherself,evenifnofartherormorepleasantlythantothecount,sheletHarryknowHugh\'saddress,asgiveninthelettertoherfather。
Shewascertainthat,ifHarrysucceededinfindinghim,nothingmorewasnecessarytoinsurehisbeingbroughttoMrs。Elton\'s。Aswehaveseen,HarryhadtracedhimtoBuccleuchTerrace。
Hughre-enteredthehouseinthesamemindinwhichhehadgoneout;
namely,thatafterMrs。Appleditch\'sbehaviourtohimbeforehispupils,hecouldnotremaintheirtutoranylonger,howevergreathisneedmightbeofthepittancehereceivedforhisservices。
ButalthoughMrs。Appleditch\'sfirstfeelinghadbeenjealousyofHugh\'sacquaintancewith“carriage-people,“thetoadyismwhichissoessentialanelementofsuchjealousy,hadbythistimerevived;andwhenHughwasproceedingtofinishthelessonhehadbegun,intendingittobehislast,shesaid:
“Whydidn\'tyouaskyourfriendintothedrawing-room,Mr。
Sutherland?”
“Goodgracious!Thedrawing-room!”thoughtHugh——butanswered:“Hewillfetchmewhenthelessonisover。“
“Iamsure,sir,anyfriendsofyoursthatliketocalluponyouhere,willbeverywelcome。Itwillbemoreagreeabletoyoutoreceivethemhere,ofcourse;foryouraccommodationatpoorMissTalbot\'sishardlysuitableforsuchvisitors。“
“Iamsorrytosay,however,“answeredHugh,“thatafterthewayyouhavespokentometo-day,inthepresenceofmypupils,Icannotcontinuemyrelationtothemanylonger。“
“Ho!ho!”resnortedthelady,indignationandscornminglingwithmortification;“ourgrandvisitorshavesetourbacksup。Verywell,Mr。Sutherland,youwillobligemebyleavingthehouseatonce。Don\'ttroubleyourself,pray,tofinishthelesson。Iwillpayyouforitallthesame。Anythingtogetridofamanwhoinsultsmebeforetheveryfacesofmyinnocentlambs!Andpleasetoremember,“sheadded,asshepulledoutherpurse,whileHughwascollectingsomebookshehadlenttheboys,“thatwhenyouwerestarving,myhusbandandItookyouinandgaveyouemploymentoutofcharity——purecharity,Mr。Sutherland。Hereisyourmoney。“
“Goodmorning,Mrs。Appleditch,“saidHugh;andwalkedoutwithhisbooksunderhisarm,leavingherwiththemoneyinherhand。
Hehadtoknockhisfeetonthepavementinfrontofthehouse,tokeepthemfromfreezing,forhalf-an-hour,beforethecarriagearrivedtotakehimaway。Assoonasitcameup,hejumpedintoit,andwascarriedoffintriumphbyHarry。
Mrs。Eltonreceivedhimkindly。Euphraheldoutherhandwithaslightblush,andthequietfamiliarityofanoldfriend。Hughcouldalmosthavefalleninlovewithheragain,fromcompassionforherpale,wornface,andsubduedexpression。
Mrs。Eltonwentoutinthecarriagealmostdirectly,andEuphrabeggedHarrytoleavethemalone,asshehadsomethingtotalktoMr。Sutherlandabout。
“HaveyoufoundanytraceofCountHalkar,Hugh?”shesaid,themomenttheywerebythemselves。
“IamverysorrytosayIhavenot。Ihavedonemybest。“
“Iamquitesureofthat——Ijustwantedtotellyou,that,fromcertainindicationswhichnoonecouldunderstandsowellasmyself,Ithinkyouwillhavemorechanceoffindinghimnow。“
“Iamdelightedtohearit,“respondedHugh。“IfIonlyhadhim!”
Euphrasighed,paused,andthensaid:
“ButIamnotsureofit。IthinkheisinLondon;buthemaybeinBohemia,foranythingIknow。Ishall,however,inallprobability,knowmoreabouthimwithinafewdays。“
HughresolvedtogoatoncetoFalconer,andcommunicatetohimwhatEuphrahadtoldhim。Buthesaidnothingtoherastothemeansbywhichhehadtriedtodiscoverthecount;foralthoughhefeltsurethathehaddonerightintellingFalconerallaboutit,hewasafraidlestEuphra,notknowingwhatsortofamanhewas,mightnotlikeit。Euphra,onherpart,didnotmentionMargaret\'sname;forshehadbeggedhernottodoso。
“Youwilltellmewhenyouknowyourself?”
“Perhaps——Iwill,ifIcan。Idowishyoucouldgetthering。I
haveapainfulfeelingthatitgiveshimpoweroverme。“
“Thatcanonlybeanervousfancy,surely,“Hughventuredtosay。
“Perhapsitis。Idon\'tknow。But,still,withoutthat,thereareplentyofreasonsforwishingtorecoverit。Hewillputittoabaduse,ifhecan。Butforyoursake,especially,Iwishwecouldgetit。“
“Thankyou。Youwerealwayskind。“
“No,“shereplied,withoutliftinghereyes;“Ibroughtitalluponyou。“
“Butyoucouldnothelpit。“
“Notatthemoment。Butallthatledtoitwasmyfault。“
Shepaused;thensuddenlyresumed:
“Iwillconfess——Doyouknowwhatgaverisetothereportsofthehousebeinghaunted?”
“No。“
“Itwasmewanderingaboutitatnight,lookingforthatveryring,togivetothecount。Itwasshameful。ButIdid。Thosereportspreventedmefrombeingfoundout。ButIhopenotmanyghostsaresomiserableasIwas——YouremembermyspeakingtoyouofMr。
Arnold\'sjewels?”
“Yes,perfectly。“
“Iwantedtofindout,throughyou,wheretheringwas。ButIhadnointentionofinvolvingyou。“
“Iamsureyouhadnot。“
“Don\'tbetoosureofanythingaboutme。Idon\'tknowwhatImighthavebeenledtodo。ButIamverysorry。Doforgiveme。“
“IcannotallowthatIhaveanythingtoforgive。Buttellme,Euphra,wereyouthecreature,inwhitethatIsawintheGhost\'sWalkonenight?Idon\'tmeanthelasttime。“
“Verylikely,“sheanswered,bendingherheadyetlower,withasigh。
“Thenwhowasthecreatureinblackthatmetyou?Andwhatbecameofyouthen?”
“Didyouseeher?”rejoinedEuphra,turningpalerstill。“Ifaintedatsightofher。Itookherforthenunthathangsinthathorridroom。“
“SodidI,“saidHugh。“Butyoucouldnothavelainlong;forIwentuptothespotwhereyouvanished,andfoundnothing。“
“IsupposeIgotintotheshrubberybeforeIfell。Orthecountdraggedmein——Butwasthatreallyaghost?Ifeelnowasifitwasagoodmessenger,whetherghostornot,cometowarnme,ifI
hadhadthecouragetolisten。IwishIhadtakenthewarning。“
Theytalkedabouttheseandotherthings,tillMrs。Elton,whohadmadeHughpromisetostaytolunch,returned。Whentheywereseatedattable,thekind-heartedwomansaid:
“Now,Mr。Sutherland,whenwillyoubeginagainwithHarry?”
“Idonotquiteunderstandyou,“answeredHugh。
“Ofcourseyouwillcomeandgivehimlessons,poorboy。Hewillbebroken-heartedifyoudon\'t。“
“IwishIcould。ButIcannot——atleastyet;forIknowhisfatherwasdissatisfiedwithme。ThatwasoneofthereasonsthatmadehimsendHarrytoLondon。“
Harrylookedwretchedlydisappointed,butsaidnothing。
“Ineverheardhimsayanythingofthesort。“
“Iamsureofit,though。Iamverysorryhehasmistakenme;buthewillknowmebettersomeday。“
“Iwilltakealltheresponsibility,“persistedMrs。Elton。
“Butunfortunatelytheresponsibilitystickstoofastforyoutotakeit。IcannotgetridofmyshareifIwould。“
“Youaretooparticular。IamsureMr。Arnoldnevercouldhavemeantthat。Thisismyhousetoo。“
“ButHarryishisboy。Ifyouwillletmecomeandseehimsometimes,Ishallbeverythankful,though。Imaybeusefultohimwithoutgivinghimlessons。“
“Thankyou,“saidHarrywithdelight。
“Well,well!IsupposeyouaresomuchinrequestinLondonthatyouwon\'tmisshimforapupil。“
“Onthecontrary,Ihavenotasingleengagement。Ifyoucouldfindmeone,Ishouldbeexceedinglyobligedtoyou。“
“Dear!dear!dear!”saidMrs。Elton。“ThenyoushallhaveHarry。“
“Oh!yes;pleasetakeme,“saidHarry,beseechingly。
“No,Icannot。Imustnot。“
Mrs。Eltonrangthebell。
“James,tellthecoachmanIwantthecarriageinanhour。“
Mrs。Eltonwasassubmissivetohercoachmanasladieswhohavecarriagesgenerallyare,andwouldnothavedreamedoforderingthehorsesoutsosoonagainforherself;butsheforgoteverythingelsewhenafriendwasinneedofhelp,andbecameperfectlypachydermatoustotheoffendedlooksorindignanthintsofthatimportantfunctionary。
WithinafewminutesafterHughtookhisleave,Mrs。Eltonwasonherwaytorepeatavisitshehadalreadypaidthesamemorning,andtomakeseveralothercalls,withtheexpressobjectoffindingpupilsforHugh。Butinthisshewasnotsosuccessfulasshehadexpected。Infact,noonewhomshecouldthinkof,wantedsuchservicesatpresent。Shereturnedhomequitedown-hearted,andallbutconvincedthatnothingcouldbedonebeforetheapproachoftheLondonseason。
CHAPTERXVII。
STRIFE。
They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Anadderandasnake;
Buthaudmefast,letmenotpass,Ginyewouldbemymaik。
They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Anadderandanaske;
They\'llturnmeinyourarms,Janet,Abalethatburnsfast。
They\'llshapemeinyourarms,Janet,Adove,butandaswan;
Andlast,they\'llshapemeinyourarmsAmother-nakedman:
Castyourgreenmantleoverme——
AndsaeshallIbewan。
ScotchBallad:Tamlane。
AssoonasHughhadleftthehouse,MargarethastenedtoEuphra。
Shefoundherinherownroom,alittlemorecheerful,butstillstrangelydepressed。Thisappearanceincreasedtowardstheevening,tillherlooksbecamequitehaggard,revealinganinwardconflictofgrowingagony。Margaretremainedwithher。
Justbeforedinner,theupstairsbell,whosesummonsMargaretwasaccustomedtoobey,rang,andshewentdown。Mrs。Eltondetainedherforafewminutes。Themomentshewasatliberty,sheflewtoEuphra\'sroombythebackstaircase。But,assheascended,shewashorrifiedtomeetEuphra,inacloakandthickveil,creepingdownthestairslikeathief。Withoutsayingaword,thestronggirlliftedherinherarmsasifshehadbeenachild,andcarriedherbacktoherroom。Euphraneitherstrugglednorspoke。Margaretlaidheronhercouch,andsatdownbesideher。Shelaywithoutmoving,and,althoughwideawake,gavenoothersignofexistencethananoccasionallowmoan,thatseemedtocomefromaheartpressedalmosttodeath。
Havinglainthusforanhour,shebrokethesilence。
“Margaret,doyoudespisemedreadfully?”
“No,notintheleast。“
“YetyoufoundmegoingtodowhatIknewwaswrong。“
“YouhadnotmadeyourselfstrongbythinkingaboutthewillofGod。
Hadyou,dear?”
“No。Iwilltellyouhowitwas。Ihadbeentormentedwiththeinclinationtogotohim,andhadbeenresistingittillIwaswornout,andcouldhardlybearitmore。Suddenlyallgrewcalmwithinme,andIseemedtohateCountHalkarnolonger。Ithoughtwithmyselfhoweasyitwouldbetoputastoptothisdreadfultorment,justbyyieldingtoit——onlythisonce。IthoughtIshouldthenbestrongertoresistthenexttime;forthiswaswearingmeoutso,thatImustyieldthenexttime,ifIpersistednow。Butwhatseemedtojustifyme,wasthethoughtthatsoIshouldfindoutwherehewas,andbeabletotellHugh;andthenhewouldgettheringforme,and,perhapsthatwoulddeliverme。Butitwasverywrongofme。IforgotallaboutthewillofGod。Iwillnotgoagain,Margaret。DoyouthinkImaytryagaintofighthim?”
“Thatisjustwhatyoumustdo。AllthatGodrequiresofyouis,totryagain。God\'schildmustbefree。Dotry,dearMissCameron。“
“IthinkIcould,ifyouwouldcallmeEuphra。Youaresostrong,andpure,andgood,Margaret!IwishIhadneverhadanythoughtsbutsuchasyouhave,youbeautifulcreature!Oh,howgladIamthatyoufoundme!Dowatchmealways。“
“IwillcallyouEuphra。Iwillbeyoursister-servant——anythingyoulike,ifyouwillonlytryagain。“
“Thankyou,withallmytroubledheart,dearMargaret。Iwillindeedtryagain。“
Shesprangfromthecouchinasuddenagony,andgraspingMargaretbythearm,lookedatherwithsuchaterror-strickenface,thatshebegantofearshewaslosingherreason。
“Margaret,“shesaid,asifwiththevoiceasofonejustraisedfromthedead,speakingwithallthecharneldampsinherthroat,“coulditbethatIaminlovewithhimstill?”
Margaretshuddered,butdidnotloseherself-possession。
“No,no,Euphra,darling。Youwerehauntedwithhim,andsotiredthatyouwerenotabletohatehimanylonger。Thenyoubegantogivewaytohim。Thatwasall。Therewasnoloveinthat。“
Euphra\'sgrasprelaxed。
“Doyouthinkso?”
“Yes。“
Apausefollowed。
“DoyouthinkGodcarestohavemedohiswill?Isitanythingtohim?”
“Iamsureofit。Whydidhemakeyouelse?Butitisnotforthesakeofbeingobeyedthathecaresforit,butforthesakeofservingyouandmakingyoublessedwithhisblessedness。Hedoesnotthinkabouthimself,butaboutyou。“
“Oh,dear!oh,dear!Imustnotgo。“
“Letmereadtoyouagain,Eupra。“
“Yes,pleasedo,Margaret。“
ShereadthefortiethchapterofIsaiah,oneofherfather\'sfavouritechapters,whereallthestrengthandknowledgeofGodareurgedtoaheight,thattheymayfallinoverwhelmingprofusionuponthewantsandfearsandunbeliefofhischildren。Howshouldhethatcalleththestarsbytheirnamesforgethispeople?
Whilesheread,thecloudmeltedawayfromEuphra\'sface;asweetsleepfollowed;andtheparoxysmwasoverforthetime。
WasEuphrainsane?andwerethesethefirstaccessesofdailyfitsofmadness,whichhadbeengrowingandapproachingforwhocouldtellhowlong?
Evenifsheweremad,orgoingmad,wasnotthistherightwaytotreather?IwonderhowoftenthespiritualcureoffaithintheSonofMan,theGreatHealer,hasbeentriedonthosepossessedwithourmoderndemons。Isitprovedthatinsanityhasitsorigininthephysicaldisorderwhich,itisnowsaid,canbeshowntoaccompanyitinvariably?Letitbeso:ityetappearstomethatifthephysicianwould,liketheSonofManhimself,descendasitwereintothedisorganizedworldinwhichtheconsciousnessofhispatientexists,andreceivingasfactallthatherevealstohimofitscondition——forfactitis,ofaveryrealsort——introduce,byallthemeansthatsympathycansuggest,theonecentralcureforevil,spiritualandmaterial,namely,thetruthoftheSonofMan,thevisionoftheperfectfriendandhelper,withtherevelationofthepromisedlibertyofobedience——ifhedidthis,itseemstomethatcuresmightstillbewroughtasmarvellousasthoseoftheancienttime。
Itseemstome,too,thatthatcanbebutanimperfectreligion,asitwouldbeapoorsalvation,fromwhichonecornerofdarknessmayhideus;fromwhoseblessedhealthandfreedomadisorderedbrainmaysnatchus;makingushopelessoutcasts,tillfirstthephysician,thestudentofphysicallaws,shallinterfereandrestoreustoasoundmind,orthegreatGod\'s-angelDeathcrumblethesoul-oppressingbrain,withitsthousandphantomsofpainandfearandhorror,intoafilmofdustinthehollowofthedesertedskull。
HughrepairedimmediatelytoFalconer\'schambers,wherehewasmorelikelytofindhimduringthedaythanintheevening。Hewasathome。HetoldhimofhisinterviewwithEuphra,andherfeelingthatthecountwasnotfaroff。
“Doyouthinktherecanbeanythinginit?”askedhe,whenhehadfinishedhisrelation。
“Ithinkverylikely,“answeredhisfriend。“Iwillbemoreontheoutlookthanever。Itmay,afterall,bethroughtheladyherselfthatweshallfindthevillain。Ifsheweretofallintooneofhertrances,now,Ithinkitalmostcertainshewouldgotohim。Sheoughttobecarefullywatchedandfollowed,ifthatshouldtakeplace。Letmeknowallthatyoulearnabouther。Goandseeheragainto-morrow,thatwemaybekeptinformedofherexperiences,sofarasshethinkspropertotellthem。“
“Iwill,“saidHugh,andtookhisleave。
ButMargaret,whoknewEuphra\'scondition,bothspiritualandphysical,betterthananyother,hadfardifferentobjectsforher,throughmeansoftheunholyattractionwhichthecountexercisedoverher,thanthediscoveryofthestolenring。Shewasdeterminedthatneithersleepingnorwakingshouldshefollowhiscall,ordancetohispiping。Sheshouldresisttothelast,inthenameofGod,andsoredeemherlostwillfromthepowerofthisdevil,towhomshehadfoolishlysoldit。
Thenextday,thestruggleevidentlycontinued;andithadsuchaneffectonEuphra,thatMargaretcouldnothelpfeelingveryanxiousabouttheresultasregardedherhealth,evenifsheshouldbevictoriousinthecontest。ButnotforonemomentdidMargaretquail;forshefeltconvinced,comeofitwhatmight,thattheonlyhopeforEuphralayinresistance。Death,tohermind,wassimplynothinginthebalancewithslaveryofsuchasort。
Once——butevidentlyinafitofabsence——Euphrarose,wenttothedoor,andopenedit。Butsheinstantlydashedittoagain,andwalkingslowlyback,resumedherseatonthecouch。Margaretcametoherfromtheothersideofthebed,whereshehadbeenworkingbythewindow,forthelastquarterofanhour,forthesakeofthewaninglight。
“Whatisit,dear?”shesaid。
“Oh,Margaret!areyouthere?Ididnotknowyouwereintheroom。
IfoundmyselfatthedoorbeforeIknewwhatIwasdoing。“
“Butyoucamebackofyourselfthistime。“
“YesIdid。ButIstillfeelinclinedtogo。“
“Thereisnosininthat,solongasyoudonotencouragethefeeling,oryieldtoit。“
“Ihateit。“
“Youwillsoonbefreefromit。Keeponcourageously,dearsister。
Youwillbeinlibertyandjoysoon。“
“Godgrantit。“
“Hewill,Euphra。Iamsurehewill。“
“Iamsureyouknow,oryouwouldnotsayit。“
Aknockcametothestreetdoor。Euphrastarted,andsatintheattitudeofafearfullistener。Amessagewaspresentlybroughther,thatMr。Sutherlandwasinthedrawing-room,andwishedtoseeher。
Euphraroseimmediately,andwenttohim。Margaret,whodidnotquitefeelthatshecouldbetrustedyet,removedtoaroombehindthedrawing-room,whenceshecouldseeEuphraifshepassedtogodownstairs。
HughaskedherifshecouldtellhimanythingmoreaboutCountHalkar。
“Only,“sheanswered,“thatIamstillsurerofhisbeingnearme。“
“Howdoyouknowit?”
“Ineednotmindtellingyou,forIhavetoldyoubeforethathehasakindofsupernaturalpoweroverme。Iknowitbyhisdrawingmetowardshim。ItistrueImightfeelitjustthesamewhetherhewasinAmericaorinLondon;butIdonotthinkhewouldcaretodoit,ifheweresofaroff。Iknowhimwellenoughtoknowthathewouldnotwishformeexceptforsomeimmediateadvantagetohimself。“
“Butwhatistheuseofhisdoingso,whenyoudon\'tknowwhereheistobefound。“
“Ishouldgostraighttohim,withoutknowingwhereIwasgoing。“
Hughroseinhaste。
“Putonyourbonnetandcloak,andcomewithme。Iwilltakecareofyou。Leadmetohim,andtheringshallsoonbeinyourhandsagain。“
Euphrahesitated,halfrose,butsatdownimmediately。
“No,no!Notforworlds,“shesaid。“Donottemptme。Imustnot——Idarenot——Iwillnotgo。“
“ButIshallbewithyou。Iwilltakecareofyou。Don\'tyouthinkIamable,Euphra?”
“Oh,yes!quiteable。ButImustnotgoanywhereatthatman\'sbidding。“
“Butitwon\'tbeathisbidding:itwillbeatmine。“
“Ah!thataltersthecaserather,doesitnot?IwonderwhatMargaretwouldsay。“
“Margaret!WhatMargaret?”saidHugh。
“Oh!mynewmaid,“answeredEuphra,recollectingherself。
“Notbeingwellatpresent,sheismynurse。“
“Weshalltakeacabassoonaswegettothecorner。“
“Idon\'tthinkthecountwouldbeabletoguidethehorse,“saidEuphra,withasmile。“Imustwalk。ButIshouldliketogo。I
will。Itwouldbesuchavictorytocatchhiminhisowntoils。“
Sheroseandranupstairs。Inafewminutesshecamedownagain,cloakedandveiled。ButMargaretmetherasshedescended,andleadingherintothebackdrawing-room,said:
“Areyougoing,Euphra?”
“Yes;butIamgoingwithMr。Sutherland,“answeredEuphra,inadefensivetone。“Itistopleasehim,andnottoobeythecount。“
“AreyousureitisalltopleaseMr。Sutherland?Ifitwere,I
don\'tthinkyouwouldbeabletoguidehimright。Isitnottogetridofyoursufferingbyyieldingtotemptation,Euphra?Atallevents,ifyougo,evenshouldMr。Sutherlandbesuccessfulwithhim,youwillneverfeelthatyouhaveovercomehim,orhe,thathehaslostyou。Hewillstillholdyoufast。Don\'tgo。Iamsureyouaredeceivingyourself。“
Euphrastoodforamomentandpoutedlikeanaughtychild。ThensuddenlythrowingherarmsaboutMargaret\'sneck,shekissedher,andsaid:
“Iwon\'tgo,Margaret。Here,takemythingsupstairsforme。“
Shethrewoffherbonnetandcloak,andrejoinedHughinthedrawing-room。
“Ican\'tgo,“shesaid。“Imustnotgo。Ishouldbeyieldingtohim,anditwouldmakeaslaveofmeallmylife。“
“Itisouronlychanceforthering,“saidHugh。
AgainEuphrahesitatedandwavered;butagainsheconquered。
“Icannothelpit,“shesaid。“Iwouldrathernothavetheringthango——ifyouwillforgiveme。“
“Oh,Euphra!”repliedHugh。“Youknowitisnotformyself。“
“Idoknowit。Youwon\'tmindthenifIdon\'tgo?”
“Certainlynot,ifyouhavemadeupyourmind。Youmusthaveagoodreasonforit。“
“IndeedIhave。“Andevenalreadyshefeltthatresistancebroughtitsownreward。
Hughwentalmostimmediately,inordertomakehisreporttoFalconer,withwhomhehadanappointmentforthepurpose。
“Sheisquiteright,“saidFalconer。“Idonotthink,intherelationinwhichshestandstohim,thatshecouldsafelydootherwise。Butitseemstomeverylikelythatthiswillturnoutwellforourplans,too。Letherpersist,andinallprobabilityhewillnotonlyhavetoresignherperforce,butwillsofarmakehimselfsubjecttoherinturn,astoseekherwhowillnotgotohim。Hewillpulluponhisownropetillheisdrawntothespotwherehehasfixedit。Whatremainsforyouandmetodo,istokeepaclosewatchonthehouseandneighbourhood。Mostlikelyweshallfindthevillainbeforelong。“
“Doyoureallythinkso?”
“Thewholeaffairismysterious,andhastodowithlawswithwhichwearemostimperfectlyacquainted;butthisseemstomeapresumptionworthactingupon。Istherenooneinthehouseonwhomyoucoulddependforassistance——forinformation,atleast?”
“Yes。ThereisthesameoldservantthatMrs。EltonhadwithheratArnstead。Heisasteadyoldfellow,andhasbeenveryfriendlywithme。“
“Well,whatIwouldadviseis,thatyoushouldfindyourselfquartersasnearthespotaspossible;and,besideskeepingasmuchofapersonalguarduponthehouseasyoucan,engagetheservantyoumentiontoletyouknow,themomentthecountmakeshisappearance。Itwillprobablybetowardsnightwhenhecalls,forsuchamanmayhavereasonsaswellasinstinctstomakehimlovethedarknessratherthanthelight。Youhadbettergoatonce;andwhenyouhavefoundaplace,leaveorsendtheaddressheretome,andtowardsnight-fallIwilljoinyou。Butwemayhavetowatchforseveraldays。Wemustnotbetoosanguine。“
Almostwithoutaword,HughwenttodoasFalconersaid。Theonlyplacehecouldfindsuitable,wasapublic-houseatthecornerofabackstreet,wherethemen-servantsoftheneighbourhoodusedtoresort。Hesucceededinsecuringaprivateroominit,foraweek,andimmediatelysentFalconerwordofhislocality。HethencalledasecondtimeatMrs。Elton\'s,andaskedtoseethebutler。Whenhecame:
“Irwan,“saidhe,“hasHerrvonFunkelsteincalledhereto-day?”
“No,sir,hehasnot。“
“Youwouldknowhim,wouldyounot?”
“Yes,sir;perfectly。“
“Well,ifheshouldcallto-night,orto-morrow,oranytimewithinthenextfewdays,letmeknowthemomentheisinthehouse。YouwillfindmeattheGoldenStaff,roundthecorner。ItisoftheutmostimportancethatIshouldseehimatonce。Butdonotlethimknowthatanyonewantstoseehim。Youshallnotrepenthelpingmeinthisaffair。IknowIcantrustyou。“
Hughhadfixedhimwithhiseyes,beforehebegantoexplainhiswishes。Hehadfoundoutthatthiswasthebestwayofsecuringattentionfrominferiornatures,andthatitwasespeciallynecessarywithLondonservants;fortheirsuperciliousnessiscowedbyit,andthesuperiorwillbroughttobearupontheirs。Itistheonlywayamanwithoutacarriagehastocommandattentionfromsuch。Irwanwasnotoneofthissort。Hewasacountryservant,foronedifference。ButHughmadehisaddressasimpressiveaspossible。
“Iwillwithpleasure,sir,“answeredIrwan,andHughfelttolerablysureofhim。
Falconercame。Theyorderedsomesupper,andsattilleleveno\'clock。Therebeingthennochanceofasummons,theywentouttogether。Passingthehouse,theysawlightinoneupperwindowonly。Thatlightwouldburnthereallnight,foritwasinEuphra\'sroom。Theywenton,HughaccompanyingFalconerinoneofhismidnightwalksthroughLondon,ashehaddonerepeatedlybefore。
>FromsuchcompanionshipandthescenestowhichFalconerintroducedhim,hehadgatheredthisfruit,thathebegantobelieveinGodforthesakeofthewretchedmenandwomenhesawintheworld。Atfirstitwashisownpainatthesightofsuchmiserythatdrovehim,forconsolation,tohopeinGod;so,atfirst,itwasforhisownsake。Butashesawmoreofthem,andgrewtolovethemmore,hefeltthattheonlyhopeforthemlayintheloveofGod;andhehopedinGodforthem。HesawtoothataGodnotbothhumanlyandabsolutelydivine,aGodlessthanthatGodshadowedforthintheRedeemerofmen,wouldnotdo。ButthinkingaboutGodthus,andhopinginhimforhisbrothersandsisters,hebegantoloveGod。
Then,lastofall,thathemightseeinhimonetowhomhecouldabandoneverything,thathemightseehimperfectandallinallandashemustbe——forthesakeofGodhimself,hebelievedinhimastheSaviourofthesehissinfulandsufferingkin。
Asearlyaswasatallexcusable,thefollowingmorning,hecalledonEuphra。Thebutlersaidthatshehadnotcomedownyet,buthewouldsenduphisname。AmessagewasbroughtbackthatMissCameronwassorrynottoseehim,butshehadhadabadnight,andwasquiteunabletogetup。Irwanrepliedtohisinquiry,thatthecounthadnotcalled。HughwithdrewtotheGoldenStaff。
Abadnightithadbeenindeed。AsEuphrasleptwellthefirstpartofit,andhadnoattacksuchasshehadhaduponboththeprecedingnights,Margarethadhopedtheworstwasover。Stillshelaidherselfonlywithinthethresholdofsleepreadytowakeattheleastmotion。
InthemiddleofthenightshefeltEuphramove。Shelaystilltoseewhatshewoulddo。Euphraslippedoutofbed,andpartlydressedherself;thenwenttoherwardrobe,andputonacloakwithalargehood,whichshedrewoverherhead。Margaretlaywithadreadfulachingatherheart。Euphrawenttowardsthedoor。
Margaretcalledher,butshemadenoanswer。Margaretflewtothedoor,andreacheditbeforeher。Then,toherintensedelight,shesawthatEuphra\'seyeswereclosed。Justasshelaidherhandonthedoor,Margarettookhergentlyinherarms。
“Letmego,letmego!”Euphraalmostscreamed。Thensuddenlyopeninghereyes,shestaredatMargaretinabewilderedfashion,likeonewakingfromthedead。
“Euphra!dearEuphra!”saidMargaret。
“Oh,Margaret!isitreallyyou?”exclaimedEuphra,flingingherarmsabouther。“Oh,Iamglad。Ah!youseewhatImusthavebeenabout。IsupposeIknewwhenIwasdoingit,butIdon\'tknownow。
Ihaveforgottenallaboutit。Ohdear!ohdear!Ithoughtitwouldcometothis。“
“Cometobed,dear。Youcouldn\'thelpit。Itwasnotyourself。
Thereisnotmorethanhalfofyouawake,whenyouwalkinyoursleep。“
Theywenttobed。EuphracreptclosetoMargaret,andcriedherselfasleepagain。Thenextdayshehadabadhead-ache。Thiswithheralwaysfollowedsomnambulation。Shedidnotgetupallthatday。
WhenHughcalledagainintheevening,heheardshewasbetter,butstillinbed。
FalconerjoinedHughattheGoldenStaff,atnight;buttheyhadnobettersuccessthanbefore。Falconerwentoutalone,forHughwantedtokeephimselffresh。Thoughverystrong,hewasyoungerandlesshardenedthanFalconer,whocouldstandanincredibleamountoflabourandlackofsleep。Hughwouldhavegivenwayunderthehalf。
CHAPTERXVIII。
VICTORY
Omyadmiredmistress,quenchnotoutTheholyfireswithinyou,thoughtemptationsShowerdownuponyou:claspthinearmouron;
Fightwell,andthoushaltsee,afterthesewars,Thyheadwearsunbeams,andthyfeettouchstars。
MASSINGER——TheVirginMartyr。
ButHughcouldsleepnomorethanifhehadbeenoutwithFalconer。
Hewasasrestlessasawildbeastinacage。Somethingwouldnotlethimbeatpeace。Soherose,dressed,andwentout。Assoonasheturnedthecorner,hecouldseeMrs。Elton\'shouse。Itwasvisiblebothbyintermittentmoonlightabove,andbyflickeringgaslightbelow,forthewindblewratherstrong。Therewassnowintheair,heknew。Thelighttheyhadobservedlastnight,wasburningnow。Amomentservedtomaketheseobservations;andthenHugh\'seyeswerearrestedbythesightofsomethingelse——amanwalkingupanddownthepavementinfrontofMrs。Elton\'shouse。Heinstantlysteppedintotheshadowofaporchtowatchhim。Thefiguremightbethecount\'s;itmightnot;hecouldnotbesure。
Everynowandthenthemanlookeduptothewindows。Atlengthhestoppedrightunderthelightedone,andlookedup。Hughwasonthepointofglidingout,thathemightgetasnearhimaspossiblebeforerushingonhim,when,atthemoment,tohisgreatmortification,apolicemanemergedfromsomemysteriouscorner,andthefigureinstantlyvanishedinanother。Hughdidnotpursuehim;
becauseitwouldbetosetallonasinglechance,andthatapoorone;forifthecount,shoulditbehe,succeededinescaping,hewouldnotreturntoaspotwhichheknewtobewatched。Hugh,therefore,withdrewoncemoreunderaporch,andwaited。But,whatevermightbethecause,themanmadehisappearancenomore。
Hughcontrivedtokeepwatchfortwohours,inspiteofsuspiciouspolicemen。Hesleptlateintothefollowingmorning。
CallingatMrs。Elton\'s,helearnedthatthecounthadnotbeenthere;thatMissCameronhadbeenveryillallnight;butthatshewasratherbettersincethemorning。
Thatnight,asthepreceding,Margarethadawakedsuddenly。Euphrawasnotinthebedbesideher。Shestartedupinanagonyofterror;butitwassoonallayed,thoughnotremoved。ShesawEuphraonherkneesatthefootofthebed,anold-fashionedfour-postone。
Shehadherarmstwinedroundoneofthebed-posts,andherheadthrownback,asifsomeonewerepullingherbackwardsbyherhair,whichfelloverhernight-dresstothefloorinthick,blackmasses。
Hereyeswereclosed;herfacewasdeath-like,almostlivid;andthecolddewsoftorturewererollingdownfrombrowtochin。Herlipsweremovingconvulsively,withnowandthentheappearanceofanattemptatarticulation,asiftheyweresetinmotionbyanagonyofinwardprayer。Margaret,unabletomove,watchedherwithanxioussympathyandfearfulexpectation。Howlongthislastedshecouldnottell,butitseemedalongtime。AtlengthMargaretrose,andlongingtohavesomeshareinthestruggle,howeversmall,wentsoftly,andstoodbehindher,shadowingherfromafeeblerayofmoonlightwhich,throughawind-rentcloud,hadstolenintotheroom,andlayuponherupturnedface。Theresheliftedupherheartinprayer。InamomentafterthetensionofEuphra\'scountenancerelaxedalittle;composureslowlyfollowed;herheadgraduallyrose,sothatMargaretcouldseeherfacenolonger;then,asgradually,droopedforward。Nextherarmsuntwinedthemselvesfromthebed-post,andherhandsclaspedthemselvestogether。Shelookedlikeoneprayingintheintensesilenceofabsorbingdevotion。
Margaretstoodstillasastatue。
InspeakingaboutitafterwardstoHugh,Margarettoldhimthatshedistinctlyrememberedhearing,whileshestood,themeasuredstepsofapolicemanpassthehouseonthepavementbelow。
InafewminutesEuphrabowedherheadyetlower,andthenrosetoherfeet。SheturnedroundtowardsMargaret,asifsheknewshewasthere。ToMargaret\'sastonishment,hereyeswerewideopen。Shesmiledamostchild-like,peaceful,happysmile,andsaid:
“Itisover,Margaret,alloveratlast。Thankyou,withmywholeheart。Godhashelpedme。“
Atthatmoment,themoonshoneoutfull,andherfaceappearedinitslightlikethefaceofanangel。Margaretlookedonherwithawe。Fear,distress,anddoubthadvanished,andshewasalreadybeautifulliketheblessed。Margaretgotahandkerchief,andwipedthecolddampsfromherface。Thenshehelpedherintobed,whereshefellasleepalmostinstantly,andsleptlikeachild。Nowandthenshemoaned;butwhenMargaretlookedather,shesawthesmilestilluponhercountenance。
Shewokeweakandworn,buthappy。
“Ishallnottroubleyouto-day,Margaret,dear,“saidshe。“Ishallnotgetupyet,butyouwillnotneedtowatchme。Agreatchangehaspasseduponme。Iamfree。Ihaveovercomehim。Hemaydoashepleasesnow。Idonotcare。Idefyhim。Igotuplastnightinmysleep,butIrememberallaboutit;and,althoughIwasasleep,andfeltpowerlesslikeacorpse,Iresistedhim,evenwhenI
thoughthewasdraggingmeawaybybodilyforce。AndIresistedhim,tillheleftmealone。ThankGod!”
Ithadbeenaterriblestruggle,butshehadovercome。Norwasthisall:shewouldnomoreleadtwolives,thewakingandthesleeping。
Herwakingwillandconsciencehadassertedthemselvesinhersleepingacts;andthememoryofthesomnambulistlivedstillinthewakingwoman。Hencehertwoliveswereblendedintoonelife;andshewasnomoretwo,butone。Thisindicatedamightygrowthofindividualbeing。
“Iwokewithoutterror,“shewentontosay。“Ialwaysusedtowakefromsuchasleepinanagonyofunknownfear。IdonotthinkI
shalleverwalkinmysleepagain。“
Isnotsalvationtheunitingofallournatureintooneharmoniouswhole——Godfirstinus,ourselveslast,andallindueorderbetween?SomethingverymuchanalogoustothechangeinEuphratakesplaceinamanwhenhefirstlearnsthathisbeliefsmustbecomeacts;thathisreligiouslifeandhishumanlifeareone;
thathemustdothethingthatheadmires。TheIdealistheonlyabsoluteReal;anditmustbecometheRealintheindividuallifeaswell,howeverimpossibletheymaycountitwhonevertryit,orwhodonottrustinGodtoeffectit,whentheyfindthemselvesbaffledintheattempt。
Intheafternoon,Euphrafellasleep,andwhenshewoke,seemedbetter。ShesaidtoMargaret:
“Canitbethatitwasalladream,Margaret?Imeanmyassociationwiththatdreadfulman。Ifeelasifitwereonlysomehorriddream,andthatIcouldneverhavehadanythingtodowithhim。I
mayhavebeenoutofmymind,youknow,andhavetoldyouthingswhichIbelievedfirmlyenoughthen,butwhichneverreallytookplace。Itcouldnothavebeenme,Margaret,couldit?”
“Notyourreal,true,bestself,dear。“
“Ihavebeenadreadfulcreature,Margaret。ButIfeelthatallthathasmeltedawayfromme,andgonebehindthesunset,whichwillforeverstand,inallitsgloryandloveliness,betweenmeandit,animpassablerampartofdefence。“
Herwordssoundedstrangeandexcited,buthereyeandherpulsewerecalm。
“Howcouldheeverhavehadthathatefulpoweroverme?”
“Don\'tthinkanymoreabouthim,dear,butenjoytherestGodhasgivenyou。“
“Iwill,Iwill。“
Atthatmoment,amaidcametothedoor,withFunkelstein\'scardforMissCameron。
“Verywell,“saidMargaret;“askhimtowait。IwilltellMissCameron。Shemaywishtosendhimamessage。Youmaygo。“
ShetoldEuphrathatthecountwasinthehouse。Euphrashowednosurprise,nofear,noannoyance。
“Willyouseehimforme,Margaret,ifyoudon\'tmind;andtellhimfromme,thatIdefyhim;thatIdonothatehim,onlybecauseI
despiseandforgethim;thatIchallengehimtodohisworst。“
Shehadforgottenallaboutthering。ButMargarethadnot。
“Iwill,“saidshe,andlefttheroom。
Onherwaydown,shewentintothedrawing-room,andrangthebell。
“SendMr。Irwantomehere,please。ItisforMissCameron。“
Themanwent,butpresentlyreturned,sayingthatthebutlerhadjuststeppedout。
“Verywell。Youwilldojustaswell。Whenthegentlemanleaveswhoiscallingnow,youmustfollowhim。Takeacab,ifnecessary,andfollowhimeverywhere,tillyoufindwherehestopsforthenight。Watchtheplace,andsendmewordwhereyouare。Butdon\'tlethimknow。Putonplainclothes,please,asfastasyoucan。“
“Yes,Miss,directly。“
TheservantsallcalledMargaret,Miss。
Shelingeredyetalittle,togivethemantime。Shewasnotatallsatisfiedwithherplan,butshecouldthinkofnothingbetter。
Happily,itwasnotnecessary。IrwanhadrunasfastashisoldlegswouldcarryhimtotheGoldenStaff。Hughreceivedthenewswithdelight。Hisheartseemedtoleapintohisthroat,andhefeltjustashedid,when,deer-stalkingforthefirsttime,hetriedtotakeaimatagreatredstag。
“Ishallwaitforhimoutsidethedoor。Wemusthavenonoiseinthehouse。Heisathief,orworse,Irwan。“
“Goodgracious!Andthere\'stheplatealllaidoutfordinneronthesideboard!”exclaimedIrwan,andhurriedofffasterthanhehadcome。
ButHughwasstandingatthedoorlongbeforeIrwangotuptoit。
HadMargaretknownwhowaswatchingoutside,itwouldhavebeenawonderfulrelieftoher。
Sheenteredthedining-room,wherethecountstoodimpatient。Headvancedquickly,actingonhisexpectationofEuphra,butseeinghismistake,stopped,andbowedpolitely。MargarettoldhimthatMissCameronwasill,andgavehimhermessage,wordforword。Thecountturnedpalewithmortificationandrage。Hebithislip,madenoreply,andwalkedoutintothehall,whereIrwanstoodwiththehandleofthedoorinhishand,impatienttoopenit。Nosoonerwasheoutofthehouse,thanHughspranguponhim;butthecount,whohadbeenperfectlyuponhisguard,eludedhim,anddartedoffdownthestreet。Hughpursuedatfullspeed,mortifiedathisescape。
Hehadnofearatfirstofovertakinghim,forhehadfoundfewmenhisequalsinspeedandendurance;buthesoonsaw,tohisdismay,thatthecountwasincreasingthedistancebetweenthem,andfearedthat,byasuddenturnintosomelabyrinth,hemightescapehimaltogether。TheypassedtheGoldenStaffatfullspeed,andatthenextcornerHughdiscoveredwhatgavethecounttheadvantage:itwashisagilityandrecklessnessinturningcorners。But,likethesorcerer\'simpunity,theyfailedhimatlast;for,atthenextturn,heranfulluponFalconer,whostaggeredback,whilethecountreeledandfell。Hughwasuponhiminamoment。“Help!”roaredthecount,foralastchancefromthesympathiesofagatheringcrowd。