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类别:其他 作者:George MacDonald字数:24204更新时间:18/12/21 14:35:15
Herethecandleswerebroughtin。 Thetwomenlookedateachotherfullintheface。Hughsawthathehadnotbeeninerror。Thesameremarkablecountenancewasbeforehim。Falconersmiled。 “Wehavemetbefore,“saidhe。 “Wehave,“saidHugh。 “Ihadaconvictionweshouldbebetteracquainted,butIdidnotexpectitsosoon。“ “Areyouaclairvoyant,then?” “Notintheleast。“ “Or,perhaps,beingaScotchman,youhavethesecondsight?” “IamhardlyCeltenoughforthat。ButIamasortofaseer,afterall——fromaninstinctofthespiritualrelationsofthings,Ihope; notintheleastfromthenervo-materialside。“ “IthinkIunderstandyou。“ “Areyouatleisure?” “Entirely。“ “Hadwenotbetterwalk,then?IhavetogoasfarasSomersTown——nogreatway;andwecantalkaswellwalkingassitting。“ “Withpleasure,“answeredHugh,rising。 “Willyoutakeanythingbeforeyougo?Aglassofport?ItistheonlywineIhappentohave。“ “Notadrop,thankyou。Iseldomtasteanythingstrongerthanwater。“ “Ilikethat。ButIlikeaglassofporttoo。Comethen。“ AndFalconerrose——andagreatrisingitwas;for,asIhavesaid,hewastwoorthreeinchestallerthanHugh,andmuchbroaderacrosstheshoulders;andHughwasnostriplingnow。Hecouldnothelpthinkingagainofhisoldfriend,DavidElginbrod,towhomhehadtolookuptofindthelivingeyesofhim,justasnowhelookeduptofindFalconer\'s。Buttherewasagreatdifferencebetweenthoseorgansinthetwomen。David\'shadbeenofanordinarysize,purekeenblue,sparklingoutofceruleandepthsofpeaceandhope,fulloflambentgleamswhenhewaslovinganyone,andeverreadytobedimmedwiththemistsofrisingemotion。AllthatHughcouldyetdiscoverofFalconer\'seyeswas,thattheywerelarge,andblackasnight,andsetsofarbackinhishead,thateachgleamedoutofitscavernedarchlikethereversedtorchoftheGreekGeniusofDeath,justbeforegoingoutinnight。Eitherthefrontalsinuswasverylarge,orhisobservantfacultieswerepeculiarlydeveloped。 Theywentout,andwalkedforsomedistanceinsilence。Hughventuredtosayatlength: “Yousaidyouhadspentthedaystrangely:mayIaskhow?” “InacondemnedcellinNewgate,“answeredFalconer。“Iamnotinthehabitofgoingtosuchplaces,butthemanwantedtoseeme,andIwent。“ AsFalconersaidnomore,andasHughwasafraidofshowinganythinglikevulgarcuriosity,thisthreadofconversationbroke。NothingworthrecordingpasseduntiltheyenteredanarrowcourtinSomersTown。 “Areyouafraidofinfection?”Falconersaid。 “Notintheleast,iftherebeanyreasonforexposingmyselftoit。“ “Thatisright——AndIneednotaskifyouareingoodhealth。“ “Iaminperfecthealth。“ “ThenIneednotmindaskingyoutowaitformetillIcomeoutofthishouse。Thereistyphusinit。“ “Iwillwaitwithpleasure。IwillgowithyouifIcanbeofanyuse。“ “Thereisnooccasion。Itisnotyourbusinessthistime。“ Sosaying,Falconeropenedthedoor,andwalkedin。 SaidHughtohimself:“Imusttellthismanthewholestory;andwithitallmyown。“ InafewminutesFalconerrejoinedhim,lookingsolemn,butwithakindofrelievedexpressiononhisface。 “Thepoorfellowisgone,“saidhe。 “Ah!” “Whatathingitmustbe,Mr。Sutherland,foramantobreakoutofthechoke-dampofatyphusfeverintotheclearairofthelifebeyond!” “Yes,“saidHugh;adding,afteraslighthesitation,“ifhebeatallpreparedforthechange。“ “Whereachangebelongstothenaturalorderofthings,“saidFalconer,“andarrivesinevitablyatsomehour,theremustalwaysbemoreorlesspreparednessforit。Besides,Ithinkamanisgenerallypreparedforabreathoffreshair。“ Hughdidnotreply,forhefeltthathedidnotfullycomprehendhisnewacquaintance。Buthehadastrongsuspicionthatitwasbecausehemovedinahigherregionthanhimself。 “Ifyouwillstillaccompanyme,“resumedFalconer,whohadnotyetadvertedtoHugh\'sobjectinseekinghisacquaintance,“youwill,I think,besooncompelledtobelievethat,atwhatevertimedeathmayarrive,orinwhateverconditionthemanmaybeatthetime,itcomesasthebestandonlygoodthatcanatthatmomentreachhim。 Weare,perhaps,toomuchinthehabitofthinkingofdeathastheculminationofdisease,which,regardedonlyinitself,isanevil,andaterribleevil。ButIthinkratherofdeathasthefirstpulseofthenewstrength,shakingitselffreefromtheoldmouldyremnantsofearth-garments,thatitmaybegininfreedomthenewlifethatgrowsoutoftheold。Thecaterpillardiesintothebutterfly。Whoknowsbutdiseasemaybethecoming,thekeenerlife,breakingintothis,andbeginningtodestroylikefiretheinferiormodesorgarmentsofthepresent?Andthendiseasewouldbebutthesignofthesalvationoffire;oftheagonyofthegreaterlifetoliftustoitself,outofthatwhereinwearefailingandsinning。Andsowepraisetheconsumingfireoflife。“ “Butsurelyallcannotfarealikeinthenewlife。“ “Farfromit。Accordingtothecondition。Butwhatwouldbehelltoone,willbequietness,andhope,andprogresstoanother; becausehehasleftworsebehindhim,andinthisthelifeassertsitself,andis——Butperhapsyouarenotinterestedinsuchsubjects,Mr。Sutherland,andIwearyyou。“ “IfIhavenotbeeninterestedinthemhitherto,Iamreadytobecomesonow。Letmegowithyou。“ “Withpleasure。“ AsIhaveattemptedtotellagreatdealaboutRobertFalconerandhispursuitselsewhere,IwillnothererelatetheparticularsoftheirwalkthroughsomeofthemostwretchedpartsofLondon。 Sufficeittosaythat,ifHugh,ashewalkedhome,wasnotyetpreparedtoreceiveandunderstandthehalfofwhatFalconerhadsaidaboutdeath,andhadnotyetthatfaithinGodthatgivesasperfectapeaceforthefutureofourbrothersandsisters,who,alas!haveasyetbeenfedwithhusks,asforthatofourselves,whohaveeatenbreadofthefinestofthewheat,andhavebeenbutalittlethankful,——heyetfeltatleastthatitwasablessedthingthatthesemenandwomenwouldalldie——mustalldie。Thatspectrefromwhichmenshrink,asifitwouldtakefromthemthelastshiveringremnantofexistence,heturnedtoforsomeconsolationevenforthem。Hewaspreparedtobelievethattheycouldnotbegoingtoworseintheend,thoughsomeoftherichandrespectableandeducatedmighthavetoreceivetheirevilthingsfirstintheotherworld;andhewasreadytounderstandthatgreatsayingofSchiller——fullofafaithevidentenoughtohimwhocanlookfarenoughintothesaying: “Deathcannotbeanevil,foritisuniversal。“ CHAPTERVIII。 EUPHRA。 Samson。OthattormentshouldnotbeconfinedTothebody\'swoundsandsores,ButmustsecretpassagefindTotheinmostmind。 Direinflammation,whichnocoolingherbOrmedicinalliquorcanasswage,NorbreathofvernalairfromsnowyAlp。 Sleephathforsookandgivenmeo\'erTodeath\'sbenummingopiumasmyonlycure,Thencefaintings,swooningsofdespair,Andsenseofheaven\'sdesertion。 MILTON——SamsonAgonistes。 HithertoIhavechieflyfollowedthehistoryofmyhero,ifheroinanysensehecanyetbecalled。NowImustleavehimforawhile,andtakeupthestoryoftherestofthefewpersonsconcernedinmytale。 LadyEmilyhadgonetoMadeira,andMr。Arnoldhadfollowed。Mrs。 EltonandHarry,andMargaret,ofcourse,hadgonetoLondon。 EuphrawasleftaloneatArnstead。 Agreatalterationhadtakenplaceinthisstrangegirl。Theservantswerepositivelyafraidofhernow,fromthebutlerdowntothekitchen-maid。Sheusedtogointoviolentfitsofpassion,inwhichthemereflashofhereyeswasoverpowering。Theseoutbreakswouldbefollowedalmostinstantaneouslybyseasonsofthedeepestdejection,inwhichshewouldconfineherselftoherroomforhours,or,lameasshewas,wanderaboutthehouseandtheGhost\'sWalk,herselfpaleasaghost,andlookingmeagreandwretched。 Also,shebecamesubjecttofrequentfaintingfits,thefirstofwhichtookplacethenightbeforeHugh\'sdeparture,aftershehadreturnedtothehousefromherinterviewwithhimintheGhost\'sWalk。Shewasevidentlymiserable。 Forthismiseryweknowthattherewereverysufficientreasons,withouttakingintoaccountthefactthatshehadnoonetofascinatenow。Hercontinuedlameness,whichherrestlessnessaggravated,likewisegavehergreatcauseforanxiety。ButI presumethat,evenduringtheearlypartofherconfinement,hermindhadbeenthrownbackuponitself,inthatconsciousnesswhichoftenarisesinlonelinessandsuffering;andthateventhenshehadbeguntofeelthatherownselfwasaworsetyrantthanthecount,andmadeheramorewretchedslavethananyexerciseofhisunlawfulpowercouldmakeher。 Somenatureswillendureanimmenseamountofmiserybeforetheyfeelcompelledtolookthereforhelp,whenceallhelpandhealingcomes。Theycannotbelievethatthereisverilyanunseenmysteriouspower,tilltheworldandallthatisinithasvanishedinthesmokeofdespair;tillcauseandeffectisnothingtotheintellect,andpossibleglorieshavefadedfromtheimagination; then,deprivedofallthatmadelifepleasantorhopeful,theimmortalessence,lonelyandwretchedandunabletocease,looksupwithitsnowunfetteredandwakenedinstinct,tothesourceofitsownlife——tothepossibleGodwho,notwithstandingalltheimprobabilitiesofhisexistence,mayyetperhapsbe,andmayyetperhapshearhiswretchedcreaturethatcalls。Inthislonelinessofdespair,lifemustfindTheLife;forjoyisgone,andlifeisallthatisleft:itiscompelledtoseekitssource,itsroot,itseternallife。Thisaloneremainsasapossiblething。StrangeconditionofdespairintowhichtheSpiritofGoddrivesaman——aconditioninwhichtheBestaloneisthePossible! Othersimplernatureslookupatonce。Evenbeforethefirstpanghaspassedaway,asbyaholyinstinctofcelestialchildhood,theylifttheireyestotheheavenswhencecomeththeiraid。OfthisclassEuphrawasnot。Shebelongedtotheformer。Andyetevenshehadbeguntolookupward,forthewatershadclosedaboveherhead。 ShebetookherselftotheonemanofwhomshehadheardasknowingaboutGod。Shewrote,butnoanswercame。Daysanddayspassedaway,andtherewasnoreply。 “Ah!justso!”shesaid,inbitterness。“AndifIcriedtoGodforever,Ishouldhearnowordofreply。Ifhebe,hesitsapart,andleavestheweaktobethepreyofthebad。Whatcareshe?” Yet,asshespoke,sherose,and,byasuddenimpulse,threwherselfonthefloor,andcriedforthefirsttime: “OGod,helpme!” Wastherevoiceorhearing? Sheroseatleastwithalittlehope,andwiththefeelingthatifshecouldcrytohim,itmightbethathecouldlistentoher。Itseemednaturaltopray;itseemedtocomeofitself:thatcouldnotbeexceptitwasfirstnaturalforGodtohear。Thefoundationofherownactionmustbeinhimwhomadeher;forhercallcouldbeonlyaresponseafterall。 Thetimepassedwearilyby。Dim,slowNovemberdayscameon,withthefallofthelastbrownshredofthosecloudsoflivinggreenthathadfloatedbetwixtearthandheaven。ThroughthebareboughsoftheoverarchingavenueoftheGhost\'sWalk,themselveslivingskeletons,shecouldnowlookstraightuptothebluesky,whichhadbeenthereallthetime。Andshehadbeguntolookuptoahigherheaven,throughthebareskeletonshapesoflife;forthefoliageofjoyhadwhollyvanished——shallwesayinorderthatthechildrenofthespringmightcome?——certainlyinorderfirstthattheblueskyofadeeperpeacemightreflectitselfinthehithertodarkenedwatersofhersoul。 Perhapssomeofmyreadersmaythinkthatshehadenoughtorepentoftokeepherfromweariness。Shehadplentytorepentof,nodoubt;butrepentance,betweentheparoxysmsofitsbitterness,isaverydrearyandNovember-likestateofthespiritualweather。Foritsfoggymorningsandcheerlessnoonscannotbelieveinthesunofspring,soontoripenintothesunofsummer;anditsbesttimeisthenight,thatshutsouttheworldandweepsitsfillofslowtears。Butshewasnotaltogethersoblameworthyasshemayhaveappeared。Heraffectationshadnotbeenaltogetherfalse。Shevalued,andinameasurepossessed,thefeelingsforwhichshesoughtcredit。Shehadagenuineenjoymentofnature,thoughafterasensuous,Keats-likefashion,notaWordsworthian。Itwasthebody,ratherthanthesoul,ofnaturethatsheloved——itsbeautyratherthanitstruth。Hadherloveofnaturebeenofthedeepest,shewouldhaveturnedasidetoconcealheremotionsratherthanhaveheldthemupasallurementsintheeyesofhercompanion。Butasnobodyandnobeautycanexistwithoutsoulandtruth,shewholovestheformermustatleastbecapableoflovingthedeeperessencetowhichtheyowetheirveryexistence。 ThisviewofhercharacterisborneoutbyherloveofmusicandherlikingforHugh。Bothweregenuine。Hadthelatterbeeneithermoreorlessgenuinethanitwas,thetaskoffascinationwouldhavebeenmoredifficult,anditssuccesslesscomplete。Whetherherownfeelingsbecamefurtherinvolvedthanshehadcalculatedupon,I cannottell;butsurelyitsayssomethingforher,inanycase,thatshedesiredtoretainHughasherfriend,insteadofhatinghimbecausehehadbeenherlover。 HowgladshewouldhavebeenofHarrynow!Thedayscrawledoneaftertheotherlikewearysnakes。ShetriedtoreadtheNewTestament:itwastoherlikeamouldychamberofworm-eatenparchments,whosewindowshadnotbeenopenedtothesunorthewindforcenturies;andinwhichthedustofthedecayingleaveschokedthefewbeamsthatfoundtheirwaythroughtheage-blindedpanes。 Thisstateofthingscouldnothavelastedlong;forEuphrawouldhavedied。Itlasted,however,untilshefeltthatshehadbeenleadingafalse,worthlesslife;thatshehadbeencastingfromhereverydaythefewremainingfragmentsoftruthandrealitythatyetkepthernaturefromfallinginaheapofhelplessruin;thatshehadneverbeenatruefriendtoanyone;thatshewasofnovalue——fitfornoone\'sadmiration,noone\'slove。Shemustleaveherformerself,likeadeadbody,behindher,andriseintoapurerairoflifeandreality,elseshewouldperishwiththateverlastingdeathwhichisthediseaseandcorruptionofthesoulitself。 Tothosewhoknowanythingofsuchexperiences,itwillnotbesurprisingthatsuchfeelingsastheseshouldbealternatedwithfierceburstsofpassion。Theoldselfthenstartedupwithfeverishenergy,andwrithedforlife。Neveranyonetriedtobebetter,without,foratime,seemingtohimself,perhapstoothers,tobeworse。Forthesufferingofthespiritweakensthebrainitself,andthewholephysicalnaturegroansunderit;whiletheenergyspentintheefforttoawake,andarisefromthedust,leavestheregionspreviouslyguardedbyprudencenakedtothewildinroadsofthesuddendestroyingimpulsesbornofsuffering,self-sickness,andhatred。Asinthedeliriouspatient,theywoulddashtotheearthwhatevercomesfirstwithinreach,asifthethingfirstperceived,andso(byperceptionalone)broughtintocontactwiththesuffering,werethecauseofallthedistress。 Onedayaletterarrivedforher。Shehadhadnoletterfromanyoneforweeks。Yet,whenshesawthedirection,sheflungitfromher。ItwasfromMrs。Elton,whomshedisliked,becauseshefoundherutterlyuninterestingandverystupid。 PoorMrs。Eltonlaidnoclaimtothecontrariesoftheseepithets。 Butinproportionassheabjuredthought,sheclaimedspeech,bothbywordofmouthandbyletter。Whynot?Therewasnothinginit。 Sheconsideredreasonasanawfulenemytothesoul,andobnoxioustoGod,especiallywhenappliedtofindoutwhathemeanswhenheaddressesusasreasonablecreatures。Butspeech?Therewasnoharminthat。Perhapsitwassomelatentconvictionthatthispowerofspeechwasthechiefdistinctionbetweenherselfandtheloweranimals,thatmadeheruseitsofreely,andatthesametimeopenherpursesoliberallytotheHospitalforOrphanDogsandCats。Haditnotbeenforherowndirenecessity,thefactthatMrs。EltonwasreligiouswouldhavebeenenoughtoconvinceEuphrathattherecouldnotpossiblybeanythinginreligion。 Theletterlayunopenedtillnextday——afacteasytoaccountfor,improbableasitmayseem;forbesideswritingaslargelyasshetalked,andlessamusinglybecausemorecorrectly,Mrs。Eltonwrotesuchanindistinctthoughpunctiliouslyneathand,thatthereadingofaletterofhersinvolvednosmallamountoflabour。Butthesunshiningoutnextmorning,Euphratookcouragetoreadit,whiledrinkinghercoffee,althoughshecouldnotexpecttomakethatceremonymorepleasantthereby。ItcontainedaninvitationtovisitMrs。Eltonatherhousein——Street,HydePark,withtheassurancethat,nowthateverythingwasarranged,theyhadplentyofroomforher。Mrs。EltonwassureshemustbelonelyatArnstead;andMrs。 Hortoncould,nodoubt,betrusted——andsoon。 Hadthisletterarrivedafewweeksearlier,Euphrawouldhaveinfusedintoheransweraskilfulconcoctionofdelicatecontempt; notfortheamusementofknowingthatMrs。Eltonwouldneverdiscoveratraceofit,butsimplyforarelieftoherowndislike。 Nowshewouldhavewrittenaplainletter,containingasbriefandastrueanexcuseasshecouldfind,haditnotbeen,that,inclosedinMrs。Elton\'snoteshefoundanother,whichranthus: “DEAREUPHRA,——Docomeandseeus。IdonotlikeLondonatallwithoutyou。TherearenohappydaysherelikethosewehadatArnsteadwithMr。Sutherland。Mrs。EltonandMargaretareverykindtome。ButIwishyouwouldcome。Do,do,do。Pleasedo。 “Youraffectionatecousin,“HARRYARNOLD。“ “Thedearboy!”saidEuphra,withagushofpureandgratefulaffection;“Iwillgoandseehim。“ Harryhadbeguntoworkwithhismasters,andwasdoinghisbest,whichwasverygood。Ifhisheartwasnotsomuchinitaswhenhewasstudyingwithhisbigbrother,hegainedagreatbenefitfromtheincreaseofexercisetohiswill,inthedoingofwhatwaslesspleasant。EversinceHughhadgivenhisfacultiesarightdirection,andaidedhimbyhealthfulmanlysympathy,hehadbeenmakingupfortheperiodduringwhichchildhoodhadbeenprotractedintoboyhood;andnowhewasmakingrapidprogress。 WhenEuphraarrived,Harryrushedtothehalltomeether。Shetookhiminherarms,andburstintotears。Hertearsdrewforthhis。 Hestrokedherpaleface,andsaid: “DearEuphra,howillyoulook!” “Ishallsoonbebetternow,Harry。“ “Iwasafraidyoudidnotloveme,Euphra;butnowIamsureyoudo。“ “IndeedIdo。IamverysorryforeverythingthatmadeyouthinkI didnotloveyou。“ “No,no。Itwasallmyfancy。Nowweshallbeveryhappy。“ AndsoHarrywas。AndEuphra,throughmeansofHarry,begantogainalittleofwhatisbetterthanmostkindsofhappiness,becauseitisnearesttothebesthappiness——Imeanpeace。Thisforetasteofrestcametoherfromthedevotednesswithwhichshenowappliedherselftoaidtheintellect,whichshehadunconsciouslyrepressedandstuntedbefore。ShetookHarry\'sbookswhenhehadgonetobed; andreadoverallhislessons,thatshemightbeabletoassisthiminpreparingthem;venturingthusintosomeregionsoflabourintowhichladiesaretooseldomconductedbythosewhoinstructthem。 Thisproducedinherquitenewexperiences。Oneofthesewas,thatinproportionasshelabouredforHarry,hopegrewforherself。Itwaslikewiseofthegreatestimmediatebenefitthattheintervalsofthought,insteadoflyingvacanttomelancholy,orthevapoursthatsprungfromtheforegoingstrifeofthespiritualelements,shouldbeoccupiedbyhealthymentalexercise。 Still,however,shewassubjecttogreatvicissitudesoffeeling。A kindofpeevishness,towhichshehadformerlybeenastranger,wasbuttooreadytoappear,evenwhenshewasmostanxious,inherconversewithHarry,tobehavewelltohim。Butthepureforgivenessoftheboywaswonderful。Insteadofplaguinghimselftofindoutthecauseofherbehaviour,orresentingitintheleast,heonlylaboured,byincreasedattentionandsubmission,toremoveit;andseemedperfectlysatisfiedwhenitwasfollowedbyakindword,whichtohimwasrepentance,apology,amends,andbetterment,allinone。Whenhehadthusdrivenawaytheevilspirit,therewasEuphraherownself。Soperfectlydidshesee,andsothoroughlyappreciatethiskindnessandloveofHarry,thathebegantolooktoherlikeanangelofforgivenesscometoliveaboy\'slife,thathemightdoanangel\'swork。 Herhealthcontinuedverypoor。Shesufferedconstantlyfrommoreorlessheadache,andattimesfromfaintings。Butshehadnotforsometimediscoveredanysignsofsomnambulism。 Ofthispeculiarityherfriendswereentirelyignorant。Theoccasions,indeed,onwhichithadmanifesteditselftoanexcessivedegree,hadbeenbutfew。 CHAPTERIX。 THENEWPUPILS。 Thinkyoualittledincandauntmineears? HaveInotinmytimeheardlionsroar? Anddoyoutellmeofawoman\'stongue,Thatgivesnothalfsogreatablowtohear,Aswillachestnutinafarmer\'sfire? Tush!tush!fearboyswithbugs。 TamingoftheShrew。 DuringthewholeofhisfirstinterviewwithFalconer,whichlastedsolongthathehadbeengladtomakeabedofFalconer\'ssofa,HughneveroncereferredtotheobjectforwhichhehadacceptedMacPherson\'sprofferedintroduction;nordidFalconeraskhimanyquestions。HughwastoomuchinterestedandsaddenedbythescenesthroughwhichFalconerledhim,nottoshrinkfromspeakingofanythinglessimportant;andwithFalconeritwasarule,aprinciplealmost,nevertoexpediteutteranceofanysort。 Inthemorning,feelingalittlegood-naturedanxietyastohislandlady\'sreceptionofhim,Hughmadesomeallusiontoit,ashesatathisnewfriend\'sbreakfast-table。 Falconersaid: “Whatisyourlandlady\'sname?” “MissTalbot。“ “Oh!littleMissTalbot?Youareingoodquarters——toogoodtolose,Icantellyou。JustsaytoMissTalbotthatyouwerewithme。“ “Youknowher,then?” “Oh,yes。“ “Youseemtoknoweverybody。“ “IfIhavespokentoapersononce,Ineverforgethim。“ “Thatseemstomeverystrange。“ “Itissimpleenough。Thesecretofitis,that,asfarasIcanhelpit,Ineverhaveanymerelybusinessrelationswithanyone。I tryalwaysnottoforgetthatthereisadeeperrelationbetweenus。 Icommonlysucceedworstinadrawing-room;yeteventhere,forthetimewearetogether,Itrytorecognisethepresenthumanity,howevermuchdistortedorconcealed。Theconsequenceis,Ineverforgetanybody;andIgenerallyfindthatothersrememberme——atleastthosewithwhomIhavehadanyrealrelations,springingfrommyneedorfromtheirs。Themanwhomendsabrokenchairforyou,orarentinyourcoat,rendersyouahumanservice;and,invirtueofthat,comesnearertoyourinnerself,thannine-tenthsoftheladiesandgentlemenwhomyoumeetonlyinwhatiscalledsociety,arelikelytodo。“ “Butdoyounotfinditawkwardsometimes?” “Notintheleast。Iamneverashamedofknowinganyone;andasI neverassumeafamiliaritythatdoesnotexist,Ineverfinditassumedtowardsme。“ HughfoundtheadvantageofFalconer\'ssociologywhenhementionedtoMissTalbotthathehadbeenhisguestthatnight。 “Youshouldhavesentusword,Mr。Sutherland,“wasallMissTalbot\'sreply。 “Icouldnotdosobeforeyoumusthavebeenallinbed。Iwassorry,butIcouldhardlyhelpit。“ MissTalbotturnedawayintothekitchen。Theonlyotherindicationofherfeelinginthematterwas,thatshesenthimupacupofdeliciouschocolateforhislunch,beforehesetoutforMr。 Appleditch\'s,whereshehadheardattheshopthathewasgoing。 MyreadermustnotbelefttofearthatIamabouttogiveadetailedaccountofHugh\'splanswiththeseunpleasantlittleimmortals,whoseearthlynaturesprangfromapairwhosereligionconsistedchieflyinnegations,andwhosemaindutyseemedtobetomakemoneyinsmallsums,andspenditinsmaller。WhenhearrivedatBuccleuchCrescent,hewasshownintothedining-room,intowhichtheboyswereseparatelydragged,toreceivethefirstinstalmentofthementallegacyleftthembytheirancestors。Butthelegacy-dutywassoheavythattheywouldgladlyhavedeclinedpayingit,evenwiththelossofthelegacyitself;andHughwasdismayedattheimpossibilityofinterestingtheminanything。Hetriedtellingthemstorieseven,withoutsuccess。Theystaredathim,itistrue; butwhethertherewasmorespeculationintheopenmouths,orinthefishy,overfedeyes,hefounditimpossibletodetermine。HecouldnothelpfeelingtheriddleofProvidenceinregardtothebirthofthese,muchhardertoreadthanthatinvolvedinthecaseofsomeofthelittlethieveswhoseacquaintancehehadmade,whenwithFalconer,theeveningbefore。Buthedidhisbest;andbeforethetimehadexpired——twohours,namely,——hehadfoundout,tohissatisfaction,thattheelderhadaturnforsums,andtheyoungerfordrawing。Sohemadeuseofthesepredilectionstobribethemtotheexerciseoftheirintellectuponless-favouredbranchesofhumanaccomplishment。Hefoundtheplanoperateaswellasitcouldhavebeenexpectedtooperateuponsuchmaterial。 Butoneortwolittleincidents,relatingtohisintercoursewithMrs。Appleditch,Imustnotomit。Thoughamother\'sloveismorereadytopurifyitselfthanmostotherloves——yetthereisaclassofmothers,whoseloveisonlyanextended,scarcelyanexpanded,selfishness。Mrs。Appleditchdidnotintheleastloveherchildrenbecausetheywerechildren,andchildrencommittedtohercarebytheFatherofallchildren;butshelovedthemdearlybecausetheywereherchildren。 OnedayHughgaveMasterAppleditchasmartslapacrossthefingers,astheultimateresource。Thechildscreamedashewellknewhow。 Hismotherburstintotheroom。 “Johnny,holdyourtongue!” “Teacher\'sbeenandhurtme。“ “Holdyourtongue,Isay。Myhead\'sliketosplit。Getoutoftheroom,youlittleruffian!” Sheseizedhimbytheshoulders,andturnedhimout,administeringaboxonhisearthatmadetheroomring。ThenturningtoHugh,“Mr。Sutherland,howdareyoustrikemychild?”shedemanded。 “Herequiredit,Mrs。Appleditch。Ididhimnoharm。HewillmindwhatIsayanothertime。“ “Iwillnothavehimtouched。It\'sdisgraceful。Tostrikeachild!” Shebelongedtothatclassofhumaneparentswhoconsideritcrueltoinflictanycorporalsufferinguponchildren,excepttheydoitthemselves,andinapassion。Johnniebehavedbetterafterthis,however;andtheonlyrevengeMrs。Appleditchtookforthisinterferencewiththedignityofhereldestborn,and,consequently,withherownashismother,was,that——withtheview,probably,ofimpressinguponHughaduesenseofthemenialpositionheoccupiedinherfamily——shealwayspaidhimhisfeeofoneshillingandsixpenceeverydaybeforeheleftthehouse。Onceortwiceshecontrivedaccidentallythatthesixpenceshouldbeincoppers。Hughwastoomuchofaphilosopher,however,tomindthisfromsuchawoman。Iamafraidheratherenjoyedherspite;forhefeltitdidnottouchhim,seeingitcouldnotbelesshonourabletobepaidbythedaythanbythequarterorbytheyear。Certainlythecopperswereanannoyance;butifthecopperscouldbecarried,theannoyancecouldbeborne。Therealdisgustintheaffairwas,thathehadtomeetandspeakwithawomaneveryday,forwhomhecouldfeelnothingbutcontemptandaversion。Hughwasnotyetabletominglewiththesefeelingsanyoftheleavenofthatcharitywhichtheyneedmostofallwhoarecontemptibleintheeyeoftheirfellows。Contemptismurdercommittedbytheintellect,ashatredismurdercommittedbytheheart。Charityhavinglifeinitself,istheoppositeanddestroyerofcontemptaswellasofhatred。 Afterthis,nothingwentamissforsometime。Butitwasverydrearyworktoteachsuchboys——fortheyoungercameinfortheoddsixpence。Slow,stupid,resistanceappearedtobetheonlyprincipleoftheirbehaviourtowardshim。Theyscornedthemanwhomtheirmotherdespisedandvaluedfortheself-samereason,namely,thathewascheap。Theywouldhavedefiedhimhadtheydared,buthemanagedtoestablishanauthorityoverthem——andtoincreaseit。 Still,hecouldnotrousethemtoanyrealinterestintheirstudies。Indeed,theywereasnearbeinglittlebeastsasitwaspossibleforchildrentobe。Theireyesgrewdullatastory-book,butgreedilybrightatthesightofbull\'seyesortoffee。Itwasthesamedayafterday,tillhewassickofit。Nodoubttheymadesomeprogress,butitwasscarcelyperceptibletohim。Throughfogandfair,throughfrostandsnow,throughwindandrain,hetrudgedtothatwretchedhouse。Noonemindstheweather——noyoungScotchman,atleast——whereanypleasurewaitsthecloseofthestruggle:tofighthiswaytomiserywasmorethanhecouldwellendure。Buthisdeliverancewasnearerthanheexpected。Itwasnottocomejustyet,however。 Allwentonwithfrightfulsameness,tillsundrydoubtfulsymptomsofanalterationinthepersonalappearanceofHughhavingaccumulatedatlastintoamassofevidence,forcedtheconvictionuponthemindofthegrocer\'swife,thathertutorwasactuallygrowingabeard。Couldshebelievehereyes?Shesaidshecouldnot。Butsheactedontheirtestimonynotwithstanding;andonedaysuddenlyaddressingHugh,said,inherusualcold,thin,cuttingfashionofspeech: “Mr。Sutherland,Iamastonishedandgrievedthatyou,ateacherofbabes,whoshouldsetanexampletothem,shoulddisguiseyourselfinsuchanoutlandishfigure。“ “Whatdoyoumean,Mrs。Appleditch?”askedHugh,who,thoughhehadmadeuphismindtofollowtheexampleofFalconer,yetfeltuncomfortableenough,duringthetransitionperiod,toknowquitewellwhatshemeant。 “WhatdoImean,sir?Itisashameforamantolethisbeardgrowlikeamonkey。“ “Butamonkeyhasn\'tabeard,“retortedHugh,laughing。“Manistheonlyanimalwhohasone。“ Thisassertion,ifnotquitecorrect,wasapproximatelyso,andwentmuchnearerthetruththanMrs。Appleditch\'sargument。 “It\'snojokingmatter,Mr。Sutherland,withmytwodarlingsgrowinguptobeministersofthegospel。“ “What!bothofthem?”thoughtHugh。“Goodheavens!”Buthesaid: “Well,butyouknow,Mrs。Appleditch,theApostlesthemselvesworebeards。“ “Yes,whentheywereJews。Butwhowouldhavebelievedthemiftheyhadpreachedthegospellikeoldclothesmen?No,no,Mr。 Sutherland,Iseethroughallthat。Myownunclewasapreacheroftheword——AssoonastheApostlesbecameChristians,theyshaved。 ItwasthesignofChristianity。TheApostlePaulhimselfsaysthatcleanlinessisnexttogodliness。“ Hughrestrainedhislaughter,andshiftedhisground。 “Butthereisnothingdirtyaboutthem,“hesaid。 “Notdirty?Nowreally,Mr。Sutherland,youprovokeme。Nothingdirtyinlonghairallroundyourmouth,andgoingintoiteveryspoonfulyoutake?” “Butitcanbekeptproperlytrimmed,youknow。“ “Butwho\'stotrustyoutodothat?No,no,Mr。Sutherland;youmustnotmakeaguyofyourself。“ Hughlaughed,andsaidnothing。Ofcoursehisbeardwouldgoongrowing,forhecouldnothelpit。 SodidMrs。Appleditch\'swrath。 CHAPTERX。 CONSULTATIONS。 WokeineG鰐tersind,waltenGespenster。 NOVALIS——Christenheit。 Wheregodsarenot,spectresrule。 EinCharakteristeinvollkommengebildeterWille。 NOVALIS——MoralischeAnsichten。 Acharacterisaperfectlyformedwill。 ItwasnotlongbeforeHughrepeatedhisvisittoFalconer。Hewasnotathome。Hewentagainandagain,butstillfailedinfindinghim。Thedayafterthethirdfailure,however,hereceivedanotefromFalconer,mentioninganhouratwhichhewouldbeathomeonthefollowingevening。Hughwent。Falconerwaswaitingforhim。 “Iamverysorry。Iamoutsomuch,“saidFalconer。 “IoughttohavetakentheopportunitywhenIhadit,“repliedHugh。 “Iwanttoaskyourhelp。MayIbeginatthebeginning,andtellyouallthestory?ormustIepitomizeandcurtailit?” “Beasdiffuseasyouplease。Ishallunderstandthethingthebetter。“ SoHughbegan,andtoldthewholeofhishistory,inasfarasitboreuponthestoryofthecrystal。Heendedwiththewords: “Itrust,Mr。Falconer,youwillnotthinkthatitisfromaloveoftalkingthatIhavesaidsomuchaboutthisaffair。“ “Certainlynot。Itisaremarkablestory。Iwillthinkwhatcanbedone。MeantimeIwillkeepmyeyesandearsopen。Imayfindthefellow。Tellmewhatheislike。“ Hughgaveasminuteadescriptionofthecountashecould。 “IthinkIseetheman,“saidFalconer。“IamprettysureIshallrecognisehim。“ “Haveyouanyideawhathecouldwantwiththering?” “Itisoneofthecuriouscoincidenceswhicharealwayshappening,“ answeredFalconer,“thatanewspaperofthisverydaywouldhaveenabledme,withoutanypreviousknowledgeofsimilarfacts,togiveaprobablycorrectsuggestionastohisobject。Butyoucanjudgeforyourself。“ Sosaying,Falconerwenttoaside-table,heapedupwithbooksandpapers,maps,andinstrumentsofvariouskinds,apparentlyintriumphantconfusion。Withoutamoment\'shesitation,notwithstanding,heselectedthepaperhewanted,andhandedittoHugh,whoreadinitalettertotheeditor,ofwhichthefollowingisaportion:—— “Ihaveforoverthirtyyearsbeeninthehabitofinvestigatingthequestionbymeansofcrystals。Andsince18——,Ihavepossessedthecelebratedcrystal,oncebelongingtoLadyBlessington,inwhichverymanypersons,bothchildrenandadults,haveseenvisionsofthespiritsofthedeceased,orofbeingsclaimingtobesuch,andofnumerousangelsandotherbeingsofthespiritualworld。ThesehaveinallcasessupportedthepurestandmostliberalChristianity。ThefacultyofseeinginthecrystalIhavefoundtoexistinaboutonepersonintenamongadults,andinnearlynineineverytenamongchildren;manyofwhomappeartolosethefacultyastheygrowtoadultage,unlesstheypractiseitcontinually。“ “Isitpossible,“saidHugh,pausing,“thatthiscanbeaveritablepaperofto-day?Aretherepeopletobelievesuchthings?” “Therearemorefoolsintheworld,Mr。Sutherland,thantherearecrystalsinitsmountains。“ Hughresumedhisreading。Hecameatlengthtothispassage: “Thespirits——whichIfeelcertaintheyare——whichappear,donothesitatetoinformusonallpossiblesubjectswhichmaytendtoimproveourmorals,andconfirmourfaithintheChristiandoctrines……Thecharactertheygiveoftheclassofspiritswhoareinthehabitofcommunicatingwithmortalsbyrappingandsuchproceedings,issuchthatitbehovesallChristianpeopletobeontheirguardagainsterroranddelusionthroughtheirmeans。“ Hughhadreadthispassagealoud。 “Isnotthatacomfort,now,Mr。Sutherland?”saidFalconer。“ForinallthereportswhichIhaveseenofthereligiousinstructioncommunicatedinthathighlyarticulatemanner,Calvinism,highandlow,haspredominated。IstronglysuspectthecrystalphantomsofArminianism,though。FancytheolddisputesofinfantChristendomperpetuatedamongstthepaltryghostsofanotherrealm!” “But,“saidHugh,“Idonotquiteseehowthisistohelpme,astothecount\'sobjectinsecuringthering;forcertainly,howeverdeficienthemaybeinsuchknowledge,heisnotlikelytohavecommittedthetheftforthesakeofinstructioninthedoctrinesofthesects。“ “No。Butsuchacrystalmightbeputtoother,nottosaybetter,uses。Besides,LadyBlessington\'scrystalmightbeapiouscrystal; andtheotherwhichbelongedtoLady——“ “LadyEuphrasia。“ “ToLadyEuphrasia,mightbeaworldlycrystalaltogether。Thismightrevealdemonsandtheircounsels,whilethatwashauntedbytheologicalangelsandevangelicalghosts。“ “Ah!Isee。Ishouldhavethought,however,thatthecounthadbeentoomuchofamanoftheworldtobelievesuchthings。“ “Hemightfindhisaccountinit,notwithstanding。Butnoamountofworld-wisdomcansetamanabovetheinroadsofsuperstition。Infact,thereisbutonethingthatcanfreeamanfromsuperstition,andthatisbelief。Allhistoryprovesit。Themostscepticalhaveeverbeenthemostcredulous。Thisisoneofthebestargumentsfortheexistenceofsomethingtobelieve。“ “YouremindmeofapassageinmystorywhichIomitted,asirrelevanttothematterinhand。“ “Doletmehaveit。Itcannotfailtointerestme。“ Hughgaveacompleteaccountoftheexperimentstheyhadmadewiththecareeringplate。NowthewritingofthenameofDavidElginbrodwasthemostremarkablephenomenonofthewhole,andHughwascompelled,inrespondingtothenaturalinterestofFalconer,togiveadescriptionofDavid。ThisledtoasketchofhisownsojournatTurriepuffit;inwhichthecharacterofDavidcameoutfarmoreplainlythanitcouldhavecomeoutinanydescription。 Whenhehadfinished,Falconerbrokeout,asifhehadbeenhithertorestraininghiswrathwithdifficulty: “Andthatwasthemanthecreaturesdaredtopersonate!Ihatethewholething,Sutherland。Itisfullofimpudenceandirreverence。 Perhapsthewretchedbeingsmaywantanotherthousandyears\' damnation,becauseoftheinjurydonetotheircharacterbythehomageofmenwhooughttoknowbetter。“ “Idonotquiteunderstandyou。“ “Imean,thatyououghttobelieveaseasilythatsuchamanasyoudescribeislaughingwiththedevilandhisangels,asthathewroteacopyattheorderofacharlatan,orworse。“ “Butitcouldhardlybedeception。“ “Notdeception?Amanlikehimcouldnotgetthroughthemwithoutbeingrecognised。“ “Idon\'tunderstandyou。Bywhom?” “Byswarmsoflowmiserablecreaturesthatsolamentthelossoftheirbeggarlybodiesthattheywouldbrooduponthemintheshapeofflesh-flies,ratherthanforsaketheputrifyingremnants。Afterthat,chairortableoranythingthattheycancomeintocontactwith,possessesquitesufficientorganizationforsuch。Don\'tyourememberthatonce,ratherthanhavenobodytogointo,theycreptintotheveryswine?Therewasafinepassionforself-embodimentandsympathy!Buttheswinethemselvescouldnotstandit,andpreferreddrowning。“ “Thenyoudothinktherewassomethingsupernaturalinit?” “Nothingintheleast。Itrequirednosupernaturalpowerstobeawarethatagreatmanwasdead,andthatyouhadknownhimwell。 Itannoysme,Sutherland,thatablemen,ay,andgoodmentoo,shouldconsultwithghostswhoseonlypossiblesuperiorityconsistsintheirbeingoutofthebody。Whyshouldtheybethewiserforthat?Ishouldassoonexpecttogainwisdombytakingoffmyclothes,andtoloseitbygettingintobed;ortoriseintotheseventhheavenofspiritualitybyhavingmyhaircut。Animpudentforgeryofthatgoodman\'sname!IfIwereyou,Sutherland,Iwouldhavenothingtodowithsuchalowset。Theyarethecanailleoftheotherworld。It\'sofnousetolayholdontheirskirts,fortheycan\'tfly。They\'rejustlikethevultures——easytocatch,becausethey\'refullofgarbage。Idoubtiftheyhavemoreintellectleftthanjustenoughtoliewith——Ihavebeencompelledtothinkagooddealaboutthesethingsoflate。“ FalconerputagoodmanyquestionstoHugh,aboutEuphraandherrelationtothecount;andsuchwastheconfidencewithwhichhehadinspiredhim,thatHughfeltatperfectlibertytoanswerthemallfully,notavoidingeventheexposureofhisownfeelings,wherethatwasinvolvedbythestory。 “Now,“saidFalconer,“Ihavematerialoutofwhichtoconstructatheory。Thecountisatpresentlikealawofnatureconcerningwhichaprudentquestionisthefirsthalfoftheanswer,asLordBaconsays;andyoucanputnoquestionwithouthavingfirstformedatheory,howeverslightortemporary;forotherwisenoquestionwillsuggestitself。But,inthemeantime,asIsaidbefore,IwillmakeinquiryuponthetheorythatheissomewhereinLondon,althoughIdoubtit。“ “ThenIwillnotoccupyyourtimeanylongeratpresent,“saidHugh。 “Couldyousay,withoutfetteringyourselfintheleast,whenI mightbeabletoseeyouagain?” “Letmesee。Iwillmakeanappointmentwithyou——NextSunday; here;atteno\'clockinthemorning。Makeanoteofit。“ “Thereisnofearofmyforgettingit。MyconsolationsarenotsonumerousthatIcanaffordtoforgetmysolepleasure。You,I shouldthink,havemoreneedtomakeanoteofitthanI,thoughI amquitewillingtobeforgotten,ifnecessary。“ “Ineverforgetmyengagements,“saidFalconer。 Theyparted,andHughwenthometohisnovel。 CHAPTERXI。 QUESTIONSANDDREAMS。 OnacertaintimetheLadySt。MaryhadcommandedtheLordJesustofetchhersomewateroutofthewell。Andwhenhehadgonetofetchthewater,thepitcher,whenitwasbroughtupfull,brake。ButJesus,spreadinghismantle,gatheredupthewateragain,andbroughtitinthattohismother——TheFirst(apocryphal)GospeloftheINFANCYofJESUSCHRIST。 Mrs。Eltonreadprayersmorningandevening;——veryelaboratecompositions,whichwouldhaveinstructedtheapostlesthemselvesinmanythingstheyhadneveranticipated。But,unfortunately,Mrs。 Eltonmustlikewisereadcertainremarks,intheformofahomily,intendedtoimpressthescripturewhichprecededituponthemindsofthelisteners。Betweenthemortarofthehomilist\'sfaith,andthedullblowsofthepestleofhisarrogance,thefairformoftruthwasgroundintothepowderofpioussmalltalk。ThisresultwasnotpleasanteithertoHarryortoEuphra。Euphra,withherlifethreateningtogotoruinabouther,wascryingoutforhimwhomadethesoulofman,“wholovedusintobeing,“2andwhoalonecanrenewthelifeofhischildren;andinsuchwordsasthoseascoffingdemonseemedtomockatherneeds。Harryhadthenaturaldislikeofallchildlikenaturestoeverythingformal,exclusive,andunjust。But,havingreceivednothingofwhatiscommonlycalledareligioustraining,thisadvantageresultedfromhisnewexperiencesinMrs。Elton\'sfamily,thatagooddirectionwasgiventohisthoughtsbythedislikewhichhefelttosuchutterances。 Morethanthis:ahorrorfelluponhimlestthesethingsshouldbetrue;lestthemightyAllofnatureshouldbeonlyamechanism,withoutexpressionandwithoutbeauty;lesttheGodwhomadeusshouldbelikeusonlyinthis,thathetoowasselfishandmeanandproud;lesthisideasshouldresemblethosethatinhabitthebrainofaretiredmoney-maker,orofanarbitrarymonarchclaimingadivineright——insteadoftoweringastheheavensovertheearth,abovetheloftiestmoodsofhighestpoet,mostgenerouschild,ormostdevotedmother。IdonotmeanthatthesethoughtstooktheseshapesinHarry\'smind;butthathisfeelingsweresuchasmighthavebeencondensedintosuchthoughts,hadhisintellectbeenmoremature。 Onemorning,thepassageofscripturewhichMrs。EltonreadwasthestoryoftheyoungmanwhocametoJesus,andwentawaysorrowful,becausetheLordthoughtsowellofhim,andlovedhimsoheartily,thathewantedtosethimfreefromhisriches。AgreatportionofthehomilywasoccupiedwithprovingthattheevangelistcouldnotpossiblymeanthatJesuslovedtheyoungmaninanypregnantsenseoftheword;butmerelymeantthatJesus“feltkindlydisposedtowardshim“——feltapoorlittlehumaninterestinhim,infact,anddidnotlovehimdivinelyatall。 Harry\'sfacewasinaflameallthetimeshewasreading。Whentheservicewasover——andabondserviceitwasforEuphraandhim——theylefttheroomtogether。Assoonasthedoorwasshut,heburstout: “Isay,Euphra!Wasn\'tthatashame?TheywouldhaveJesusasbadasthemselves。WeshallhavesomebodywritingabooknexttoprovethatafterallJesuswasaPharisee。“ “Nevermind,“saidtheheart-sore,scepticalEuphra;“nevermind,Harry;it\'sallnonsense。“ “No,it\'snotallnonsense。Jesusdidlovetheyoungman。I believethestoryitselfbeforealltheDoctorsofDivinityintheworld。Helovesallofus,hedoes——withallhisheart,too。“ “Ihopeso,“wasallshecouldreply;butshewascomfortedbyHarry\'svehementconfessionoffaith。 Euphrawassofarsoftened,orperhapsweakened,bysuffering,thatsheyieldedmanythingswhichwouldhaveseemedimpossiblebefore。 OneofthesewasthatshewenttochurchwithMrs。Elton,wherethatladyhopedshewouldgetgoodtohersoul。Harryofcoursewasnotleftbehind。Thechurchshefrequentedwasafashionableone,withavicarmorefashionablestill;forhadheleftthatchurch,morethanhalfhiscongregation,whichconsistedmostlyofladies,wouldhaveleftitalso,andfollowedhimtotheendsofLondon。Hewasamiddle-agedman,witharubicundcountenance,andagentlefamiliarityofmanner,thatwasexceedinglypleasingtothefashionablesheepwho,consciousthattheyhadwanderedfromthefold,werewaitingwithexemplarypatienceforthebarouchesandmail-phaetonsoftheskiestocarrythembackwithoutthetroubleofwalking。Alasforthem!theyhavetolearnthatthechariotsofheavenarechariotsoffire。 TheSundaymorningfollowingtheconversationIhavejustrecorded,theclergyman\'ssermonwasdevotedtotheillustrationofthegreatnessandcondescensionoftheSaviour。Afteracertainamountoftameexcitementexpendedupontheconsiderationofhispowerandkingdom,onepassagewaswoundupinthisfashion: “Yes,myfriends,evenhermostgraciousMajesty,QueenVictoria,therulerovermillionsdiverseinspeechandinhue,towhomwealllookupwithhumblesubmission,andwhomweacknowledgeasoursovereignlady——evenshe,greatassheis,addsbyherhomageajeweltohiscrown;and,hailinghimasherLord,bowsandrendershimworship!Yetthisishewhocomesdowntovisit,yea,dwellswithhisownelect,hischosenones,whomhehasledbacktothefoldofhisgrace。“ Forsomereason,knowntohimself,FalconerhadtakenHugh,whohadgonetohimaccordingtoappointmentthatmorning,tothissamechurch。Astheycameout,Hughsaid: “Mr——isquiteproudofthehonourdonehismasterbythequeen。“ “Idonotthink,“answeredFalconer,“thathismasterwillthinksomuchofit;forheoncehadhisfeetwashedbyawomanthatwasasinner。“ ThehomilywhichMrs。Eltonreadatprayersthatevening,boreuponthesamesubjectnominallyasthechapterthatprecededit——thatofelection;adoctrinewhichintheBibleassertsthefactofGod\'schoosingcertainpersonsforthespecificpurposeofreceivingfirst,andsocommunicatingthegiftsofhisgracetothewholeworld;butwhich,inthehomilyreferredto,wastakentomeanthechoiceofcertainpersonsforultimatesalvation,totheexclusionoftherest。Theyweresittinginsilenceaftertheclose,whenHarrystartedupsuddenly,saying:“Idon\'twantGodtoloveme,ifhedoesnotloveeverybody;“and,burstingintotears,hurriedoutoftheroom。Mrs。Eltonwasawfullyshockedathiswickedness。 Euphra,hastenedafterhim;buthewouldnotreturn,andwentsupperlesstobed。Euphra,however,carriedhimsomesupper。Hesatupinbedandateitwiththetearsinhiseyes。Shekissedhim,andbadehimgoodnight;when,justasshewasleavingtheroom,hebrokeoutwith: “Butonlythink,Euphra,ifitshouldbetrue!Iwouldrathernothavebeenmade。“ “Itisnottrue,“saidEuphra,inwhomafaintglimmeroffaithinGodawokeforthesakeoftheboywhomsheloved——awoketocomforthim,whenitwouldnotopenitseyesforherself。“No,Harrydear,ifthereisaGodatall,heisnotlikethat。“ “No,hecan\'tbe,“saidHarry,vehemently,andwiththebrightnessofasuddenthought;“forifhewerelikethat,hewouldn\'tbeaGodworthbeing;andthatcouldn\'tbe,youknow。“ Euphrakneltbyherbedside,andprayedmorehopefullythanformanydaysbefore。SheprayedthatGodwouldletherknowthathewasnotanidolofman\'sinvention。 Tillfriendlysleepcame,anduntiedtheknotofcare,bothEuphraandHarrylaytroubledwiththingstoogreatforthem。Evenintheirsleep,thecarewouldgatheragain,andbodyitselfintodreams。ThefirstthoughtthatvisitedHarrywhenheawoke,wasthememoryofhisdream:thathediedandwenttoheaven;thatheavenwasagreatchurchjustliketheoneMrs。Eltonwentto,onlylarger;thatthepewswerefilledwithangels,socrowdedtogetherthattheyhadtotuckuptheirwingsverycloseindeed——andHarrycouldnothelpwonderingwhattheywantedthemfor;thattheywereallsingingpsalms;thatthepulpitbyalittlechangehadbeenconvertedintoathrone,onwhichsatGodtheFather,lookingverysolemnandsevere;thatJesuswasseatedinthereading-desk,lookingverysad;andthattheHolyGhostsatontheclerk\'sdesk,intheshapeofawhitedove;thatacherub,whosefaceremindedhimverymuchofapolicemanheknew,tookhimbytheshoulderfortryingtopluckasplendidgreenfeatheroutofanarchangel\'swing,andledhimuptothethrone,whereGodshookhisheadathiminsuchadreadfulway,thathewasterrified,andthenstretchedouthishandtolayholdonhim;thatheshriekedwithfear;andthatJesusputouthishandandliftedhimintothereading-desk,andhidhimdownbelow。AndthereHarrylay,feelingsosafe,strokingandkissingthefeetthathadbeenwearyandwoundedforhim,till,inthegrowingdelightofthethoughtthatheactuallyheldthosefeet,hecameawakeandremembereditall。Trulyitwasachildishdream,butnotwithoutitsownsignificance。ForsurelytheonlyrefugefromheathenishrepresentationsofGodunderChristianforms,theonlyrefugefromman\'sblindingandparalysingtheories,fromthedeadwoodenshapessubstitutedforthelivingformsofhumanloveandhopeandaspiration,fromtheinterpretationswhichrenderscriptureasdryasaspeechinChancery——surelytheonerefugefromalltheseawfulevilsistheSonofman;fornomisrepresentationandnomisconceptioncandestroythebeautyofthatfacewhichthemarringofsorrowhaselevatedintotheregionofreality,beyondthemarringofirreverentspeculationandscholasticdefinition。 >FromtheGodofman\'spainting,weturntothemanofGod\'sbeing,andheleadsustothetrueGod,theradiationofwhoseglorywefirstseeinhim。Happyisthatmanwhohasaglimpseofthis,eveninadreamsuchasHarry\'s!——adreaminotherrespectschildishandincongruous,butnotmoreabsurdthantheinstructionwhenceitsprung。 Butthetroublesreturnedwiththeday。Prayersrevivedthem。HesoughtEuphrainherroom。 “TheysayImustrepentandbesorryformysins,“saidhe。“Ihavebeentryingveryhard;butIcan\'tthinkofany,exceptoncethatI gaveGog“(hisWelshpony)“suchabeatingbecausehewouldgowhereIdidn\'twanthim。Buthe\'sforgottenitlongago;andIgavehimtwofeedsofcornafterit,andsosomehowIcan\'tfeelverysorrynow。WhatshallIdo?——Butthat\'snotwhatImindmost。ItalwaysseemstomeitwouldbesomuchgranderofGodtosay:\'Comealong,nevermind。I\'llmakeyougood。Ican\'twaittillyouaregood;I loveyousomuch。\'“ HisownwordsweretoomuchforHarry,andheburstintotearsatthethoughtofGodbeingsokind。Euphra,insteadoftryingtocomforthim,criedtoo。Thustheycontinuedforsometime,Harrywithhisheadonherknees,andshekindlyfondlingitwithherdistressedhands。Harrywasthefirsttorecover;forhiswastheApriltime,whenrainclearstheheavens。Allatoncehesprungtohisfeet,andexclaimed: “Onlythink,Euphra!Whatif,afterall,IshouldfindoutthatGodisaskindasyouare!” HowEuphra\'sheartsmoteher! “DearHarry,“answeredshe,“GodmustbeagreatdealkinderthanI am。Ihavenotbeenkindtoyouatall。“ “Don\'tsaythat,Euphra。IshallbequitecontentifGodisaskindasyou。“ “Oh,Harry!IhopeGodislikewhatIdreamedaboutmymotherlastnight。“ “Tellmewhatyoudreamedabouther,dearEuphra。“ “IdreamedthatIwasalittlechild——“ “Wereyoualittlegirlwhenyourmotherdied?” “Oh,yes;suchatiny!ButIcanjustrememberher。“ “Tellmeyourdream,then。“ “IdreamedthatIwasalittlegirl,outallaloneonawildmountain-moor,trippingandstumblingonmynight-gown。Andthewindwassocold!And,somehoworother,thewindwasanenemytome,anditfollowedandcaughtme,andwhirledandtossedmeabout,andthenranawayagain。ThenIhastenedon,andthethornswentintomyfeet,andthestonescutthem。AndIheardthebloodfromthemtricklingdownthehill-sideasIwalked。“ “ThentheywouldbelikethefeetIsawinmydreamlastnight。“ “Whosefeetwerethey?” “Jesus\'feet。“ “Tellmeaboutit。“ “Youmustfinishyoursfirst,please,Euphra。“ SoEuphrawenton: “Igotdreadfullylame。Andthewindranafterme,andcaughtmeagain,andtookmeinhisgreatblueghostlyarms,andshookmeabout,andthendroppedmeagaintogoon。Butitwasveryhardtogoon,andIcouldn\'tstop;andtherewasnouseinstopping,forthewindwaseverywhereinamoment。ThensuddenlyIsawbeforemeagreatcataract,allinwhite,fallingflashfromaprecipice;andIthoughtwithmyself,\'Iwillgointothecataract,anditwillbeatmylifeout,andthenthewindwillnotgetmeanymore。\'SoI hastenedtowardsit,butthewindcaughtmemanytimesbeforeIgotnearit。AtlastIreachedit,andthrewmyselfdownintothebasinithadhollowedoutoftherocks。ButasIwasfalling,somethingcaughtmegently,andheldmefast,anditwasnotthewind。I openedmyeyes,andbehold!Iwasinmymother\'sarms,andshewasclaspingmetoherbreast;forwhatIhadtakenforacataractfallingintoagulf,wasonlymymother,withherwhitegrave-clothesfloatingallabouther,standingupinhergrave,tolookafterme。\'Itwastimeyoucamehome,mydarling,\'shesaid,andstoopeddownintohergravewithmeinherarms。Andoh!Iwassohappy;andherbosomwasnotcold,orherarmshard,andshecarriedmejustlikeababy。Andwhenshestoopeddown,thenadooropenedsomewhereinthegrave,Icouldnotfindoutwhereexactly——andinamomentafter,weweresittingtogetherinasummergrove,withthetree-topssteepedinsunshine,andwavingaboutinaquietlovingwind——oh,howdifferentfromtheonethatchasedmehome!——andweunderneathintheshadowofthetrees。AndthenI said,\'Mother,I\'vehurtmyfeet。\'“ “Didyoucallhermotherwhenyouwerealittlegirl?”interposedHarry。 “No,“answeredEuphra。“Icalledhermamma,likeotherchildren;butinmydreamsIalwayscallhermother。“ “Andwhatdidshesay?” “Shesaid——\'Poorchild!\'——andheldmyfeettoherbosom;andafterthat,whenIlookedatthem,thebleedingwasallgone,andIwasnotlameanymore。“ Euphra,pausedwithasigh。 “Oh,Harry!Idonotliketobelame。“ “Whatmore?”saidHarry,intentonlyonthedream。 “Oh!thenIwassohappy,thatIwokeupdirectly。“ “Whatapity!Butifitshouldcometrue?” “Howcoulditcometrue,dearHarry?” “Why,thisworldissometimescold,andtheroadishard——youknowwhatImean,Euphra。“ “Yes,Ido。“ “IwishIcoulddreamdreamslikethat!Howcleveryoumustbe!” “Butyoudreamdreams,too,Harry。Tellmeyours。“ “Oh,no,Ineverdreamdreams;thedreamsdreamme,“answeredHarry,withasmile。 Thenhetoldhisdream,towhichEuphralistenedwithaninterestuninjuredbythegrotesquenessofitsfancy。Eachinterpretedtheother\'swithreverence。 Theyceasedtalking;andsatsilentforawhile。ThenHarry,puttinghisarmsroundEuphra\'sneck,andhislipsclosetoherear,whispered: “PerhapsGodwillsaymydarlingtoyousomeday,Euphra;justasyourmotherdidinyourdream。“ Shewassilent。Harrylookedroundintoherface,andsawthatthetearswereflowingfast。 Atthatinstant,agentleknockcametothedoor。Euphracouldnotreplytoit。Itwasrepeated。Afteranothermoment\'sdelay,thedooropened,andMargaretwalkedin。