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类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:26478更新时间:18/12/21 13:17:54
CHAPTERI THEEARLYMARRIEDLIFEOFTHEMORELS “THEBOTTOMS“succeededto“HellRow“。HellRowwasablockofthatched,bulgingcottagesthatstoodbythebrooksideonGreenhillLane。 Therelivedthecollierswhoworkedinthelittlegin-pitstwo,fieldsaway。Thebrookranunderthealdertrees,scarcelysoiled,bythesesmallmines,whosecoalwasdrawntothesurfaceby,donkeysthatploddedwearilyinacircleroundagin。Andall,overthecountrysidewerethesesamepits,someofwhichhadbeen,workedinthetimeofCharlesII,thefewcolliersandthedonkeys,burrowingdownlikeantsintotheearth,makingqueermounds,andlittleblackplacesamongthecorn-fieldsandthemeadows。 Andthecottagesofthesecoal-miners,inblocksandpairshere,andthere,togetherwithoddfarmsandhomesofthestockingers,strayingovertheparish,formedthevillageofBestwood。 Then,somesixtyyearsago,asuddenchangetookplace。 Thegin-pitswereelbowedasidebythelargeminesof,thefinanciers。ThecoalandironfieldofNottinghamshireand,Derbyshirewasdiscovered。Carston,WaiteandCo。appeared。 Amidtremendousexcitement,LordPalmerstonformallyopened,thecompany’sfirstmineatSpinneyPark,ontheedgeofSherwoodForest。 AboutthistimethenotoriousHellRow,whichthroughgrowing,oldhadacquiredanevilreputation,wasburneddown,andmuchdirt,wascleansedaway。 Carston,Waite&Co。foundtheyhadstruckonagoodthing,so,downthevalleysofthebrooksfromSelbyandNuttall,newmines,weresunk,untilsoonthereweresixpitsworking。FromNuttall,highuponthesandstoneamongthewoods,therailwayran,pastthe,ruinedprioryoftheCarthusiansandpastRobinHood’sWell,downto,SpinneyPark,thenontoMinton,alargemineamongcorn-fields; fromMintonacrossthefarmlandsofthevalleysideto,Bunker’sHill,branchingoffthere,andrunning,northtoBeggarleeandSelby,thatlooksoveratCrichandthehills,ofDerbyshire:,sixmineslikeblackstudsonthecountryside,linkedbyaloopoffinechain,therailway。 Toaccommodatetheregimentsofminers,Carston,WaiteandCo。 builttheSquares,greatquadranglesofdwellingsonthehillside,ofBestwood,andthen,inthebrookvalley,onthesiteofHellRow,theyerectedtheBottoms。 TheBottomsconsistedofsixblocksofminers’dwellings,tworowsofthree,likethedotsonablank-sixdomino,andtwelve,housesinablock。Thisdoublerowofdwellingssatatthefoot,oftherathersharpslopefromBestwood,andlookedout,fromthe,atticwindowsatleast,ontheslowclimbofthevalleytowardsSelby。 Thehousesthemselvesweresubstantialandverydecent。 Onecouldwalkallround,seeinglittlefrontgardenswithauriculas,andsaxifrageintheshadowofthebottomblock,sweet-williamsandpinks,inthesunnytopblock;seeingneatfrontwindows,littleporches,littleprivethedges,anddormerwindowsfortheattics。Butthat,wasoutside;thatwastheviewontotheuninhabitedparloursofall,thecolliers’wives。Thedwelling-room,thekitchen,wasattheback,ofthehouse,facinginwardbetweentheblocks,lookingatascrubby,backgarden,andthenattheash-pits。Andbetweentherows,betweenthelonglinesofash-pits,wentthealley,wherethechildren,playedandthewomengossipedandthemensmoked。So,theactual,conditionsoflivingintheBottoms,thatwassowellbuiltand,thatlookedsonice,werequiteunsavourybecausepeoplemustlive,inthekitchen,andthekitchensopenedontothatnastyalleyofash-pits。 Mrs。MorelwasnotanxioustomoveintotheBottoms,whichwasalreadytwelveyearsoldandonthedownwardpath,whenshedescendedtoitfromBestwood。Butitwasthebestshe,coulddo。Moreover,shehadanendhouseinoneofthetopblocks,andthushadonlyoneneighbour;ontheothersideanextrastrip,ofgarden。And,havinganendhouse,sheenjoyedakindofaristocracy,amongtheotherwomenofthe“between“houses,becauseherrent,wasfiveshillingsandsixpenceinsteadoffiveshillingsaweek。 ButthissuperiorityinstationwasnotmuchconsolationtoMrs。Morel。 Shewasthirty-oneyearsold,andhadbeenmarriedeightyears。 Arathersmallwoman,ofdelicatemouldbutresolutebearing,sheshrankalittlefromthefirstcontactwiththeBottomswomen。 ShecamedownintheJuly,andintheSeptemberexpectedher,thirdbaby。 Herhusbandwasaminer。Theyhadonlybeenintheirnewhome,threeweekswhenthewakes,orfair,began。Morel,sheknew,wassure,tomakeaholidayofit。HewentoffearlyontheMondaymorning,thedayofthefair。Thetwochildrenwerehighlyexcited。 William,aboyofseven,fledoffimmediatelyafterbreakfast,toprowlroundthewakesground,leavingAnnie,whowasonlyfive,towhineallmorningtogoalso。Mrs。Moreldidherwork。 Shescarcelyknewherneighboursyet,andknewnoonewithwhom,totrustthelittlegirl。Soshepromisedtotakehertothewakes,afterdinner。 Williamappearedathalf-pasttwelve。Hewasaveryactivelad,fair-haired,freckled,withatouchoftheDaneorNorwegian,abouthim。 “CanIhavemydinner,mother?”hecried,rushinginwithhis,capon。”’Causeitbeginsathalf-pastone,themansaysso。” “Youcanhaveyourdinnerassoonasit’sdone,“repliedthemother。 “Isn’titdone?”hecried,hisblueeyesstaringather,inindignation。”ThenI’mgoin’be-outit。” “You’lldonothingofthesort。Itwillbedoneinfiveminutes。 Itisonlyhalf-pasttwelve。” “They’llbebeginnin’,“theboyhalfcried,halfshouted。 “Youwon’tdieiftheydo,“saidthemother。”Besides,it’s,onlyhalf-pasttwelve,soyou’veafullhour。” Theladbeganhastilytolaythetable,anddirectlythethree,satdown。Theywereeatingbatter-puddingandjam,whentheboy,jumpedoffhischairandstoodperfectlystiff。Somedistance,awaycouldbeheardthefirstsmallbrayingofamerry-go-round,andthetootingofahorn。Hisfacequiveredashelookedathismother。 “Itoldyou!”hesaid,runningtothedresserforhiscap。 “Takeyourpuddinginyourhand——andit’sonlyfivepastone,soyouwerewrong——youhaven’tgotyourtwopence,“criedthemother,inabreath。 Theboycameback,bitterlydisappointed,forhistwopence,thenwentoffwithoutaword。 “Iwanttogo,Iwanttogo,“saidAnnie,beginningtocry。 “Well,andyoushallgo,whining,wizzeninglittlestick!” saidthemother。Andlaterintheafternoonshetrudgedupthe,hillunderthetallhedgewithherchild。Thehaywasgathered,fromthefields,andcattlewereturnedontotheeddish。 Itwaswarm,peaceful。 Mrs。Moreldidnotlikethewakes。Thereweretwosetsofhorses,onegoingbysteam,onepulledroundbyapony;threeorgans,weregrinding,andtherecameoddcracksofpistol-shots,fearful,screechingofthecocoanutman’srattle,shoutsoftheAuntSallyman,screechesfromthepeep-showlady。Themotherperceivedhersongazing,enrapturedoutsidetheLionWallacebooth,atthepicturesofthis,famouslionthathadkilledanegroandmaimedforlifetwowhitemen。 Shelefthimalone,andwenttogetAnnieaspinoftoffee。 Presentlytheladstoodinfrontofher,wildlyexcited。 “Youneversaidyouwascoming——isn’tthe’alotofthings?- thatlion’skilledthreemen-l’vespentmytuppence-an’lookhere。” Hepulledfromhispockettwoegg-cups,withpinkmoss-roses,onthem。 “Igotthesefromthatstallwherey’avetergetthemmarbles,inthemholes。An’Igotthesetwointwogoes-’aepennyago-they’ve,gotmoss-roseson,lookhere。Iwantedthese。” Sheknewhewantedthemforher。 “H’m!”shesaid,pleased。”TheyAREpretty!” “Shallyoucarry’em,’causeI’mfrightenedo’breakin’’em?” Hewastipfulofexcitementnowshehadcome,ledherabout,theground,showedhereverything。Then,atthepeep-show,she,explainedthepictures,inasortofstory,towhichhelistened,asifspellbound。Hewouldnotleaveher。Allthetimehe,stuckclosetoher,bristlingwithasmallboy’sprideofher。 Fornootherwomanlookedsuchaladyasshedid,inherlittleblack,bonnetandhercloak。Shesmiledwhenshesawwomensheknew。 Whenshewastiredshesaidtoherson: “Well,areyoucomingnow,orlater?” “Areyougoin’a’ready?”hecried,hisfacefullofreproach。 “Already?,Itispastfour,Iknow。” “Whatareyougoin’a’readyfor?”helamented。 “Youneedn’tcomeifyoudon’twant,“shesaid。 Andshewentslowlyawaywithherlittlegirl,whilstherson,stoodwatchingher,cuttothehearttolethergo,andyetunable,toleavethewakes。Asshecrossedtheopengroundinfrontof,theMoonandStarssheheardmenshouting,andsmelledthebeer,andhurriedalittle,thinkingherhusbandwasprobablyinthebar。 Atabouthalf-pastsixhersoncamehome,tirednow,ratherpale,andsomewhatwretched。Hewasmiserable,thoughhedidnotknowit,becausehehadlethergoalone。Sinceshehadgone,hehadnot,enjoyedhiswakes。 “Hasmydadbeen?”heasked。 “No,“saidthemother。 “He’shelpingtowaitattheMoonandStars。Iseedhimthrough,thatblacktinstuffwi’holesin,onthewindow,wi’hissleeves,rolledup。” “Ha!”exclaimedthemothershortly。”He’sgotnomoney。 An’he’llbesatisfiedifhegetshis’lowance,whetherthey,givehimmoreornot。” Whenthelightwasfading,andMrs。Morelcouldseenomoretosew,sheroseandwenttothedoor。Everywherewasthesoundofexcitement,therestlessnessoftheholiday,thatatlastinfectedher。Shewent,outintothesidegarden。Womenwerecominghomefromthewakes,thechildrenhuggingawhitelambwithgreenlegs,orawoodenhorse。 Occasionallyamanlurchedpast,almostasfullashecouldcarry。 Sometimesagoodhusbandcamealongwithhisfamily,peacefully。 Butusuallythewomenandchildrenwerealone。Thestay-at-homemothers,stoodgossipingatthecornersofthealley,asthetwilightsank,foldingtheirarmsundertheirwhiteaprons。 Mrs。Morelwasalone,butshewasusedtoit。Hersonandher,littlegirlsleptupstairs;so,itseemed,herhomewastherebehindher,fixedandstable。Butshefeltwretchedwiththecomingchild。 Theworldseemedadrearyplace,wherenothingelsewouldhappen,forher——atleastuntilWilliamgrewup。Butforherself,nothingbutthisdrearyendurance——tillthechildrengrewup。 Andthechildren!,Shecouldnotaffordtohavethisthird。 Shedidnotwantit。Thefatherwasservingbeerinapublichouse,swillinghimselfdrunk。Shedespisedhim,andwastiedtohim。 Thiscomingchildwastoomuchforher。IfitwerenotforWilliam,andAnnie,shewassickofit,thestrugglewith,povertyanduglinessandmeanness。 Shewentintothefrontgarden,feelingtooheavytotake,herselfout,yetunabletostayindoors。Theheatsuffocatedher。 Andlookingahead,theprospectofherlifemadeherfeelasifshe,wereburiedalive。 Thefrontgardenwasasmallsquarewithaprivethedge。 Thereshestood,tryingtosootheherselfwiththescentofflowers,andthefading,beautifulevening。Oppositehersmallgatewasthe,stilethatleduphill,underthetallhedgebetweentheburningglow,ofthecutpastures。Theskyoverheadthrobbedandpulsedwithlight。 Theglowsankquicklyoffthefield;theearthandthehedges,smokeddusk。Asitgrewdark,aruddyglarecameoutonthehilltop,andoutoftheglarethediminishedcommotionofthefair。 Sometimes,downthetroughofdarknessformedbythepath,underthehedges,mencamelurchinghome。Oneyoungmanlapsed,intoarundownthesteepbitthatendedthehill,andwentwitha,crashintothestile。Mrs。Morelshuddered。Hepickedhimselfup,swearingviciously,ratherpathetically,asifhethoughtthestile,hadwantedtohurthim。 Shewentindoors,wonderingifthingswerenevergoingtoalter。 Shewasbeginningbynowtorealisethattheywouldnot。Sheseemed,sofarawayfromhergirlhood,shewonderedifitwerethesame,personwalkingheavilyupthebackgardenattheBottomsashadrun,solightlyupthebreakwateratSheernesstenyearsbefore。 “WhathaveItodowithit?”shesaidtoherself。”Whathave,Itodowithallthis?,EventhechildIamgoingtohave! Itdoesn’tseemasifIweretakenintoaccount。” Sometimeslifetakesholdofone,carriesthebodyalong,accomplishesone’shistory,andyetisnotreal,butleavesoneself,asitwereslurredover。 “Iwait,“Mrs。Morelsaidtoherself——“Iwait,andwhatIwait,forcannevercome。” Thenshestraightenedthekitchen,litthelamp,mendedthefire,lookedoutthewashingforthenextday,andputittosoak。 Afterwhichshesatdowntohersewing。Throughthelonghoursher,needleflashedregularlythroughthestuff。Occasionallyshesighed,movingtorelieveherself。Andallthetimeshewasthinking,howtomakethemostofwhatshehad,forthechildren’ssakes。 Athalf-pastelevenherhusbandcame。Hischeekswerevery,redandveryshinyabovehisblackmoustache。Hisheadnoddedslightly。 Hewaspleasedwithhimself。 “Oh!Oh!waitin’forme,lass?,I’vebin’elpin’Anthony,an’ what’sthinkhe’sgenme?,Nowtb’ralousyhae’f-crown,an’ that’sivrypenny——“ “Hethinksyou’vemadetherestupinbeer,“shesaidshortly。 “An’I’aven’t——thatI’aven’t。Youb’lieveme,I’ve’ad,verylittlethisday,Ihavean’all。”,Hisvoicewenttender。 “Here,an’Ibrowttheeabito’brandysnap,an’acocoanutforth’ children。”,Helaidthegingerbreadandthecocoanut,ahairyobject,onthetable。”Nay,thaniversaidthankyerfornowti’thylife,didter?” Asacompromise,shepickedupthecocoanutandshookit,toseeifithadanymilk。 “It’sagood’un,youmaybackyerlifeo’that。Igotitfra’ BillHodgkisson。’Bill,’Isays,’thanonwantsthemthreenuts,doester?,Arenaterforgi’ein’meoneformybitofaladan’ wench?’,’Iham,Walter,mylad,’’esays;’ta’ewhichon’em,ter’samind。’,An’soItookone,an’thanked’im。Ididn’t,liketershakeitafore’iseyes,but’esays,’Tha’dbetterma’e,sureit’sagoodun,Walt。’,An’so,yersee,Iknoweditwas。 He’sanicechap,isBillHodgkisson,e’sanicechap!” “Amanwillpartwithanythingsolongashe’sdrunk,andyou’redrunkalongwithhim,“saidMrs。Morel。 “Eh,thamuckylittle’ussy,who’sdrunk,Ish’dliketerknow?” saidMorel。Hewasextraordinarilypleasedwithhimself,becauseofhisday’shelpingtowaitintheMoonandStars。 Hechatteredon。 Mrs。Morel,verytired,andsickofhisbabble,wenttobed,asquicklyaspossible,whileherakedthefire。 Mrs。Morelcameofagoodoldburgherfamily,famousindependents,whohadfoughtwithColonelHutchinson,andwhoremainedstout,Congregationalists。Hergrandfatherhadgonebankruptinthelace-market,atatimewhensomanylace-manufacturerswereruinedinNottingham。 Herfather,GeorgeCoppard,wasanengineer——alarge,handsome,haughtyman,proudofhisfairskinandblueeyes,butmoreproud,stillofhisintegrity。Gertruderesembledhermotherinhersmall,build。Buthertemper,proudandunyielding,shehadfromtheCoppards。 GeorgeCoppardwasbitterlygalledbyhisownpoverty。 HebecameforemanoftheengineersinthedockyardatSheerness。 Mrs。Morel——Gertrude——wastheseconddaughter。Shefavouredhermother,lovedhermotherbestofall;butshehadtheCoppards’clear,defiantblueeyesandtheirbroadbrow。Sherememberedtohave,hatedherfather’soverbearingmannertowardshergentle,humorous,kindly-souledmother。Sherememberedrunningoverthebreakwater,atSheernessandfindingtheboat。Sherememberedtohavebeen,pettedandflatteredbyallthemenwhenshehadgonetothedockyard,forshewasadelicate,ratherproudchild。Sherememberedthefunny,oldmistress,whoseassistantshehadbecome,whomshehadlovedtohelp,intheprivateschool。AndshestillhadtheBiblethatJohnField,hadgivenher。SheusedtowalkhomefromchapelwithJohnField,whenshewasnineteen。Hewasthesonofawell-to-dotradesman,hadbeentocollegeinLondon,andwastodevotehimselftobusiness。 ShecouldalwaysrecallindetailaSeptemberSundayafternoon,whentheyhadsatunderthevineatthebackofherfather’shouse。 Thesuncamethroughthechinksofthevine-leavesandmade,beautifulpatterns,likealacescarf,fallingonherandonhim。 Someoftheleaveswerecleanyellow,likeyellowflatflowers。 “Nowsitstill,“hehadcried。”Nowyourhair,Idon’tknow,whatitISlike!,It’sasbrightascopperandgold,asredas,burntcopper,andithasgoldthreadswherethesunshinesonit。 Fancytheirsayingit’sbrown。Yourmothercallsitmouse-colour。” Shehadmethisbrillianteyes,butherclearfacescarcely,showedtheelationwhichrosewithinher。 “Butyousayyoudon’tlikebusiness,“shepursued。 “Idon’t。Ihateit!”hecriedhotly。 “Andyouwouldliketogointotheministry,“shehalfimplored。 “Ishould。Ishouldloveit,ifIthoughtIcouldmake,afirst-ratepreacher。” “Thenwhydon’tyou——whyDON’Tyou?”Hervoicerangwithdefiance。 “IfIwereaman,nothingwouldstopme。” Sheheldherheaderect。Hewasrathertimidbeforeher。 “Butmyfather’ssostiff-necked。Hemeanstoputmeinto,thebusiness,andIknowhe’lldoit。” “Butifyou’reaMAN?”shehadcried。 “Beingamanisn’teverything,“hereplied,frowningwith,puzzledhelplessness。 Now,asshemovedaboutherworkattheBottoms,withsome,experienceofwhatbeingamanmeant,sheknewthatitwasNOTeverything。 Attwenty,owingtoherhealth,shehadleftSheerness。 HerfatherhadretiredhometoNottingham。JohnField’sfather,hadbeenruined;thesonhadgoneasateacherinNorwood。Shedid,nothearofhimuntil,twoyearslater,shemadedeterminedinquiry。 Hehadmarriedhislandlady,awomanofforty,awidowwithproperty。 AndstillMrs。MorelpreservedJohnField’sBible。Shedid,notnowbelievehimtobe——Well,sheunderstoodprettywellwhathe,mightormightnothavebeen。SoshepreservedhisBible,andkept,hismemoryintactinherheart,forherownsake。Toherdyingday,forthirty-fiveyears,shedidnotspeakofhim。 Whenshewastwenty-threeyearsold,shemet,ataChristmas,party,ayoungmanfromtheErewashValley。Morelwasthen,twenty-sevenyearsold。Hewaswellset-up,erect,andverysmart。 Hehadwavyblackhairthatshoneagain,andavigorousblack,beardthathadneverbeenshaved。Hischeekswereruddy,andhisred,moistmouthwasnoticeablebecausehelaughedsooften,andsoheartily。Hehadthatrarething,arich,ringinglaugh。 GertrudeCoppardhadwatchedhim,fascinated。Hewassofullof,colourandanimation,hisvoiceransoeasilyintocomicgrotesque,hewassoreadyandsopleasantwitheverybody。Herownfather,hadarichfundofhumour,butitwassatiric。Thisman’s,wasdifferent:,soft,non-intellectual,warm,akindofgambolling。 Sheherselfwasopposite。Shehadacurious,receptivemind,whichfoundmuchpleasureandamusementinlisteningtootherfolk。 Shewascleverinleadingfolktotalk。Shelovedideas,andwas,consideredveryintellectual。Whatshelikedmostofallwasan,argumentonreligionorphilosophyorpoliticswithsomeeducatedman。 Thisshedidnotoftenenjoy。Soshealwayshadpeopletellher,aboutthemselves,findingherpleasureso。 Inherpersonshewasrathersmallanddelicate,witha,largebrow,anddroppingbunchesofbrownsilkcurls。Herblueeyes,wereverystraight,honest,andsearching。Shehadthebeautiful,handsoftheCoppards。Herdresswasalwayssubdued。Shewore,darkbluesilk,withapeculiarsilverchainofsilverscallops。 This,andaheavybroochoftwistedgold,washeronlyornament。 Shewasstillperfectlyintact,deeplyreligious,andfull,ofbeautifulcandour。 WalterMorelseemedmeltedawaybeforeher。Shewas,totheminerthatthingofmysteryandfascination,alady。 Whenshespoketohim,itwaswithasouthernpronunciationanda,purityofEnglishwhichthrilledhimtohear。Shewatchedhim。 Hedancedwell,asifitwerenaturalandjoyousinhimtodance。 HisgrandfatherwasaFrenchrefugeewhohadmarriedanEnglish,barmaid——ifithadbeenamarriage。GertrudeCoppardwatchedthe,youngminerashedanced,acertainsubtleexultationlikeglamourin,hismovement,andhisfacetheflowerofhisbody,ruddy,withtumbled,blackhair,andlaughingalikewhateverpartnerhebowedabove。 Shethoughthimratherwonderful,neverhavingmetanyonelikehim。 Herfatherwastoherthetypeofallmen。AndGeorgeCoppard,proudinhisbearing,handsome,andratherbitter;whopreferred,theologyinreading,andwhodrewnearinsympathyonlytooneman,theApostlePaul;whowasharshingovernment,andinfamiliarityironic; whoignoredallsensuouspleasure:——hewasverydifferentfrom,theminer。Gertrudeherselfwasrathercontemptuousofdancing; shehadnottheslightestinclinationtowardsthataccomplishment,andhadneverlearnedevenaRogerdeCoverley。Shewaspuritan,likeherfather,high-minded,andreallystern。Thereforethedusky,goldensoftnessofthisman’ssensuousflameoflife,thatflowedoff,hisfleshliketheflamefromacandle,notbaffledandgrippedinto,incandescencebythoughtandspiritasherlifewas,seemedtoher,somethingwonderful,beyondher。 Hecameandbowedaboveher。Awarmthradiatedthroughher,asifshehaddrunkwine。 “Nowdocomeandhavethisonewi’me,“hesaidcaressively。 “It’seasy,youknow。I’mpiningtoseeyoudance。” Shehadtoldhimbeforeshecouldnotdance。Sheglanced,athishumilityandsmiled。Hersmilewasverybeautiful。 Itmovedthemansothatheforgoteverything。 “No,Iwon’tdance,“shesaidsoftly。Herwordscameclean,andringing。 Notknowingwhathewasdoing——heoftendidtherightthing,byinstinct——hesatbesideher,incliningreverentially。 “Butyoumustn’tmissyourdance,“shereproved。 “Nay,Idon’twanttodancethat——it’snotoneasIcareabout。” “Yetyouinvitedmetoit。” Helaughedveryheartilyatthis。 “Ineverthoughto’that。Tha’rtnotlongintakingthecurl,outofme。” Itwasherturntolaughquickly。 “Youdon’tlookasifyou’dcomemuchuncurled,“shesaid。 “I’mlikeapig’stail,IcurlbecauseIcannahelpit,“ helaughed,ratherboisterously。 “Andyouareaminer!”sheexclaimedinsurprise。 “Yes。IwentdownwhenIwasten。” Shelookedathiminwonderingdismay。 “Whenyouwereten!,Andwasn’titveryhard?”sheasked。 “Yousoongetusedtoit。Youliveliketh’mice,an’youpop,outatnighttoseewhat’sgoingon。” “Itmakesmefeelblind,“shefrowned。 “Likeamoudiwarp!”helaughed。”Yi,an’there’ssomechaps,asdoesgoroundlikemoudiwarps。”,Hethrusthisfaceforward,intheblind,snout-likewayofamole,seemingtosniffand,peerfordirection。”Theydunthough!”heprotestednaively。 “Thaniverseedsuchawaytheygetin。Butthamunletmeta’e,theedownsometime,an’thacanseeforthysen。” Shelookedathim,startled。Thiswasanewtractoflife,suddenlyopenedbeforeher。Sherealisedthelifeoftheminers,hundredsofthemtoilingbelowearthandcomingupatevening。 Heseemedtohernoble。Heriskedhislifedaily,andwithgaiety。 Shelookedathim,withatouchofappealinherpurehumility。 “Shouldn’tterlikeit?”heaskedtenderly。”’Appennot,it’uddirtythee。” Shehadneverbeen“thee’d“and“thou’d“before。 ThenextChristmastheyweremarried,andforthreemonths,shewasperfectlyhappy:,forsixmonthsshewasveryhappy。 Hehadsignedthepledge,andworetheblueribbonofa,tee-totaller:,hewasnothingifnotshowy。Theylived,shethought,inhisownhouse。Itwassmall,butconvenientenough,andquite,nicelyfurnished,withsolid,worthystuffthatsuitedherhonestsoul。 Thewomen,herneighbours,wereratherforeigntoher,andMorel’s,motherandsisterswereapttosneeratherladylikeways。 Butshecouldperfectlywelllivebyherself,solongasshe,hadherhusbandclose。 Sometimes,whensheherselfweariedoflove-talk,shetried,toopenherheartseriouslytohim。Shesawhimlistendeferentially,butwithoutunderstanding。Thiskilledhereffortsatafinerintimacy,andshehadflashesoffear。Sometimeshewasrestlessofanevening: itwasnotenoughforhimjusttobenearher,sherealised。 Shewasgladwhenhesethimselftolittlejobs。 Hewasaremarkablyhandyman——couldmakeormendanything。 Soshewouldsay: “Idolikethatcoal-rakeofyourmother’s——itissmallandnatty。” “Doester,mywench?,Well,Imadethat,soIcanmakethee,one!“ “What!why,it’sasteelone!” “An’whatifitis!,Thas’ltha’eoneverysimilar,ifnot,exactlysame。” Shedidnotmindthemess,northehammeringandnoise。 Hewasbusyandhappy。 Butintheseventhmonth,whenshewasbrushinghisSundaycoat,shefeltpapersinthebreastpocket,and,seizedwithasuddencuriosity,tookthemouttoread。Heveryrarelyworethefrock-coathewas,marriedin:,andithadnotoccurredtoherbeforetofeelcurious,concerningthepapers。Theywerethebillsofthehouseholdfurniture,stillunpaid。 “Lookhere,“shesaidatnight,afterhewaswashedandhad,hadhisdinner。”Ifoundtheseinthepocketofyourwedding-coat。 Haven’tyousettledthebillsyet?” “No。Ihaven’thadachance。” “Butyoutoldmeallwaspaid。IhadbettergointoNottingham,onSaturdayandsettlethem。Idon’tlikesittingonanotherman’s,chairsandeatingfromanunpaidtable。” Hedidnotanswer。 “Icanhaveyourbank-book,can’tI?” “Thacanha’eit,forwhatgoodit’llbetothee。” “Ithought——“shebegan。Hehadtoldherhehadagoodbitof,moneyleftover。Butsherealiseditwasnouseaskingquestions。 Shesatrigidwithbitternessandindignation。 Thenextdayshewentdowntoseehismother。 “Didn’tyoubuythefurnitureforWalter?”sheasked。 “Yes,Idid,“tartlyretortedtheelderwoman。 “Andhowmuchdidhegiveyoutopayforit?” Theelderwomanwasstungwithfineindignation。 “Eightypound,ifyou’resokeenonknowin’,“shereplied。 “Eightypounds!,Butthereareforty-twopoundsstillowing!” “Ican’thelpthat。” “Butwherehasitallgone?” “You’llfindallthepapers,Ithink,ifyoulook——besideten,poundasheowedme,an’sixpoundastheweddingcostdownhere。” “Sixpounds!”echoedGertrudeMorel。Itseemedtoher,monstrousthat,afterherownfatherhadpaidsoheavily,forherwedding,sixpoundsmoreshouldhavebeensquandered,ineatinganddrinkingatWalter’sparents’house,athisexpense。 “Andhowmuchhashesunkinhishouses?”sheasked。 “Hishouses——whichhouses?” GertrudeMorelwentwhitetothelips。Hehadtoldher,thehousehelivedin,andthenextone,washisown。 “Ithoughtthehousewelivein——“shebegan。 “They’remyhouses,thosetwo,“saidthemother-in-law。“And,notcleareither。It’sasmuchasIcandotokeepthemortgage,interestpaid。” Gertrudesatwhiteandsilent。Shewasherfathernow。 “Thenweoughttobepayingyourent,“shesaidcoldly。 “Walterispayingmerent,“repliedthemother。 “Andwhatrent?”askedGertrude。 “Sixandsixaweek,“retortedthemother。 Itwasmorethanthehousewasworth。Gertrudeheldher,headerect,lookedstraightbeforeher。 “Itisluckytobeyou,“saidtheelderwoman,bitingly,“tohaveahusbandastakesalltheworryofthemoney,andleaves,youafreehand。” Theyoungwifewassilent。 Shesaidverylittletoherhusband,buthermannerhad,changedtowardshim。Somethinginherproud,honourablesoul,hadcrystallisedouthardasrock。 WhenOctobercamein,shethoughtonlyofChristmas。Twoyearsago,atChristmas,shehadmethim。LastChristmasshehadmarriedhim。 ThisChristmasshewouldbearhimachild。 “Youdon’tdanceyourself,doyou,missis?”askedher,nearestneighbour,inOctober,whentherewasgreattalk,ofopeningadancing-classovertheBrickandTileInnatBestwood。 “No——Ineverhadtheleastinclinationto,“Mrs。Morelreplied。 “Fancy!An’howfunnyasyoushouldha’marriedyourMester。 Youknowhe’squiteafamousonefordancing。” “Ididn’tknowhewasfamous,“laughedMrs。Morel。 “Yea,heisthough!,Why,heranthatdancing-classintheMiners’ Armsclub-roomforoverfiveyear。” “Didhe?” “Yes,hedid。”,Theotherwomanwasdefiant。”An’itwas,throngedeveryTuesday,andThursday,an’Sat’day——an’thereWAS carryin’s-on,accordin’toallaccounts。” ThiskindofthingwasgallandbitternesstoMrs。Morel,andshehadafairshareofit。Thewomendidnotspareher,atfirst; forshewassuperior,thoughshecouldnothelpit。 Hebegantoberatherlateincominghome。 “They’reworkingverylatenow,aren’tthey?”shesaidtoher,washer-woman。 “Nolaterthantheyallersdo,Idon’tthink。Buttheystopto,havetheirpintatEllen’s,an’theygettalkin’,an’thereyouare! Dinnerstonecold——an’itserves’emright。” “ButMr。Moreldoesnottakeanydrink。” Thewomandroppedtheclothes,lookedatMrs。Morel,thenwent,onwithherwork,sayingnothing。 GertrudeMorelwasveryillwhentheboywasborn。 Morelwasgoodtoher,asgoodasgold。Butshefeltverylonely,milesawayfromherownpeople。Shefeltlonelywithhimnow,andhispresenceonlymadeitmoreintense。 Theboywassmallandfrailatfirst,buthecameonquickly。 Hewasabeautifulchild,withdarkgoldringlets,anddark-blue,eyeswhichchangedgraduallytoacleargrey。Hismotherloved,himpassionately。Hecamejustwhenherownbitternessof,disillusionwashardesttobear;whenherfaithinlifewasshaken,andhersoulfeltdrearyandlonely。Shemademuchofthechild,andthefatherwasjealous。 AtlastMrs。Moreldespisedherhusband。Sheturnedto,thechild;sheturnedfromthefather。Hehadbeguntoneglecther; thenoveltyofhisownhomewasgone。Hehadnogrit,shesaid,bitterlytoherself。Whathefeltjustattheminute,thatwasalltohim。 Hecouldnotabidebyanything。Therewasnothingattheback,ofallhisshow。 Therebeganabattlebetweenthehusbandandwife——afearful,bloodybattlethatendedonlywiththedeathofone。Shefought,tomakehimundertakehisownresponsibilities,tomakehimfulfill,hisobligations。Buthewastoodifferentfromher。Hisnature,waspurelysensuous,andshestrovetomakehimmoral,religious。 Shetriedtoforcehimtofacethings。Hecouldnotendureit——it,drovehimoutofhismind。 Whilethebabywasstilltiny,thefather’stemperhadbecome,soirritablethatitwasnottobetrusted。Thechildhadonlyto,givealittletroublewhenthemanbegantobully。Alittlemore,andthehardhandsofthecollierhitthebaby。ThenMrs。Morel,loathedherhusband,loathedhimfordays;andhewentoutanddrank; andshecaredverylittlewhathedid。Only,onhisreturn,shescathedhimwithhersatire。 Theestrangementbetweenthemcausedhim,knowinglyorunknowingly,grosslytooffendherwherehewouldnothavedone。 Williamwasonlyoneyearold,andhismotherwasproudofhim,hewassopretty。Shewasnotwelloffnow,buthersisterskept,theboyinclothes。Then,withhislittlewhitehatcurledwithan,ostrichfeather,andhiswhitecoat,hewasajoytoher,thetwining,wispsofhairclusteringroundhishead。Mrs。Morellaylistening,oneSundaymorning,tothechatterofthefatherandchilddownstairs。 Thenshedozedoff。Whenshecamedownstairs,agreatfireglowed,inthegrate,theroomwashot,thebreakfastwasroughlylaid,andseatedinhisarmchair,againstthechimney-piece,satMorel,rathertimid;andstandingbetweenhislegs,thechild——cropped,likeasheep,withsuchanoddroundpoll——lookingwonderingather; andonanewspaperspreadoutuponthehearthrug,amyriadof,crescent-shapedcurls,likethepetalsofamarigoldscatteredinthe,reddeningfirelight。 Mrs。Morelstoodstill。Itwasherfirstbaby。Shewent,verywhite,andwasunabletospeak。 “Whatdostthinko’’im?”Morellaugheduneasily。 Shegrippedhertwofists,liftedthem,andcameforward。 Morelshrankback。 “Icouldkillyou,Icould!”shesaid。Shechokedwithrage,hertwofistsuplifted。 “Yernonwanttermakeawenchon’im,“Morelsaid,ina,frightenedtone,bendinghisheadtoshieldhiseyesfromhers。 Hisattemptatlaughterhadvanished。 Themotherlookeddownatthejagged,close-clippedheadof,herchild。Sheputherhandsonhishair,andstrokedandfondled,hishead。 “Oh——myboy!”shefaltered。Herliptrembled,herfacebroke,and,snatchingupthechild,sheburiedherfaceinhisshoulder,andcriedpainfully。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhocannotcry; whomithurtsasithurtsaman。Itwaslikerippingsomething,outofher,hersobbing。 Morelsatwithhiselbowsonhisknees,hishandsgripped,togethertilltheknuckleswerewhite。Hegazedinthefire,feelingalmoststunned,asifhecouldnotbreathe。 Presentlyshecametoanend,soothedthechildandclearedaway,thebreakfast-table。Sheleftthenewspaper,litteredwithcurls,spreaduponthehearthrug。Atlastherhusbandgathereditupandput,itatthebackofthefire。Shewentaboutherworkwithclosed,mouthandveryquiet。Morelwassubdued。Hecreptaboutwretchedly,andhismealswereamiserythatday。Shespoketohimcivilly,andneveralludedtowhathehaddone。Buthefeltsomethingfinal,hadhappened。 Afterwardsshesaidshehadbeensilly,thattheboy’shair,wouldhavehadtobecut,soonerorlater。Intheend,sheeven,broughtherselftosaytoherhusbanditwasjustaswellhehad,playedbarberwhenhedid。Butsheknew,andMorelknew,thatthat,acthadcausedsomethingmomentoustotakeplaceinhersoul。 Sherememberedthesceneallherlife,asoneinwhichshehad,sufferedthemostintensely。 Thisactofmasculineclumsinesswasthespearthroughthesideof,herloveforMorel。Before,whileshehadstrivenagainsthimbitterly,shehadfrettedafterhim,asifhehadgoneastrayfromher。 Nowsheceasedtofretforhislove:,hewasanoutsidertoher。 Thismadelifemuchmorebearable。 Nevertheless,shestillcontinuedtostrivewithhim。Shestill,hadherhighmoralsense,inheritedfromgenerationsofPuritans。 Itwasnowareligiousinstinct,andshewasalmostafanatic,withhim,becauseshelovedhim,orhadlovedhim。Ifhesinned,shetorturedhim。Ifhedrank,andlied,wasoftenapoltroon,sometimesaknave,shewieldedthelashunmercifully。 Thepitywas,shewastoomuchhisopposite。Shecouldnotbe,contentwiththelittlehemightbe;shewouldhavehimthemuchthat,heoughttobe。So,inseekingtomakehimnoblerthanhecouldbe,shedestroyedhim。Sheinjuredandhurtandscarredherself,butshelostnoneofherworth。Shealsohadthechildren。 Hedrankratherheavily,thoughnotmorethanmanyminers,andalwaysbeer,sothatwhilsthishealthwasaffected,itwas,neverinjured。Theweek-endwashischiefcarouse。Hesatin,theMiners’Armsuntilturning-outtimeeveryFriday,everySaturday,andeverySundayevening。OnMondayandTuesdayhehadtogetup,andreluctantlyleavetowardsteno’clock。Sometimeshestayedathome,onWednesdayandThursdayevenings,orwasonlyoutforanhour。 Hepracticallyneverhadtomissworkowingtohisdrinking。 Butalthoughhewasverysteadyatwork,hiswagesfelloff。 Hewasblab-mouthed,atongue-wagger。Authoritywashatefultohim,thereforehecouldonlyabusethepit-managers。Hewouldsay,inthePalmerston: “Th’gaffercomedowntoourstallthismorning,an’’esays,’Youknow,Walter,this’ere’llnotdo。Whatabouttheseprops?’ An’Isaystohim,’Why,whatarttalkin’about?,Whatd’st,meanaboutth’props?’,’It’llneverdo,this’ere,’’esays。 ’You’llbehavin’th’roofin,oneo’thesedays。’,An’Isays,’Tha’dbetterstan’onabito’clunch,then,an’holditupwi’ thy’ead。’,So’eworthatmad,’ecossedan’’eswore,an’ t’otherchapstheydidlaugh。”,Morelwasagoodmimic。Heimitated,themanager’sfat,squeakyvoice,withitsattemptatgoodEnglish。 “’Ishan’thaveit,Walter。Whoknowsmoreaboutit,meoryou?’ SoIsays,’I’veniverfunouthowmuchtha’knows,Alfred。 It’ll’appencarrytheeterbedan’back。”’ SoMorelwouldgoontotheamusementofhisbooncompanions。 Andsomeofthiswouldbetrue。Thepit-managerwasnotan,educatedman。HehadbeenaboyalongwithMorel,sothat,whilethetwodislikedeachother,theymoreorlesstookeach,otherforgranted。ButAlfredCharlesworthdidnotforgive,thebuttythesepublic-housesayings。Consequently,althoughMorel,wasagoodminer,sometimesearningasmuchasfivepoundsaweek,whenhemarried,hecamegraduallytohaveworseandworsestalls,wherethecoalwasthin,andhardtoget,andunprofitable。 Also,insummer,thepitsareslack。Often,onbrightsunny,mornings,themenareseentroopinghomeagainatten,eleven,ortwelve,o’clock。Noemptytrucksstandatthepit-mouth。Thewomenonthe,hillsidelookacrossastheyshakethehearthrugagainstthefence,andcountthewagonstheengineistakingalongthelineupthevalley。 Andthechildren,astheycomefromschoolatdinner-time,looking,downthefieldsandseeingthewheelsontheheadstocksstanding,say: “Minton’sknockedoff。Mydad’llbeathome。” Andthereisasortofshadowoverall,womenandchildren,andmen,becausemoneywillbeshortattheendoftheweek。 Morelwassupposedtogivehiswifethirtyshillingsaweek,toprovideeverything——rent,food,clothes,clubs,insurance,doctors。 Occasionally,ifhewereflush,hegaveherthirty-five。But,theseoccasionsbynomeansbalancedthosewhenhegaveher,twenty-five。Inwinter,withadecentstall,theminermight,earnfiftyorfifty-fiveshillingsaweek。Thenhewashappy。 OnFridaynight,Saturday,andSunday,hespentroyally,gettingrid,ofhissovereignorthereabouts。Andoutofsomuch,hescarcely,sparedthechildrenanextrapennyorboughtthemapoundofapples。 Itallwentindrink。Inthebadtimes,mattersweremoreworrying,buthewasnotsooftendrunk,sothatMrs。Morelusedtosay: “I’mnotsureIwouldn’tratherbeshort,forwhenhe’sflush,thereisn’taminuteofpeace。” Ifheearnedfortyshillingshekeptten;fromthirty-fivehe,keptfive;fromthirty-twohekeptfour;fromtwenty-eighthekeptthree; fromtwenty-fourhekepttwo;fromtwentyhekeptone-and-six; fromeighteenhekeptashilling;fromsixteenhekeptsixpence。 Heneversavedapenny,andhegavehiswifenoopportunity,ofsaving;instead,shehadoccasionallytopayhisdebts; notpublic-housedebts,forthoseneverwerepassedontothewomen,butdebtswhenhehadboughtacanary,orafancywalking-stick。 AtthewakestimeMorelwasworkingbadly,and,Mrs。Morelwastryingtosaveagainstherconfinement。 Soitgalledherbitterlytothinkheshouldbeout,takinghispleasureandspendingmoney,whilstsheremained,athome,harassed。Thereweretwodays’holiday。OntheTuesday,morningMorelroseearly。Hewasingoodspirits。Quiteearly,beforesixo’clock,sheheardhimwhistlingawaytohimselfdownstairs。 Hehadapleasantwayofwhistling,livelyandmusical。 Henearlyalwayswhistledhymns。Hehadbeenachoir-boywith,abeautifulvoice,andhadtakensolosinSouthwellcathedral。 Hismorningwhistlingalonebetrayedit。 Hiswifelaylisteningtohimtinkeringawayinthegarden,hiswhistlingringingoutashesawedandhammeredaway。Italways,gaveherasenseofwarmthandpeacetohearhimthusasshelay,inbed,thechildrennotyetawake,inthebrightearlymorning,happyinhisman’sfashion。 Atnineo’clock,whilethechildrenwithbarelegsandfeet,weresittingplayingonthesofa,andthemotherwaswashingup,hecameinfromhiscarpentry,hissleevesrolledup,hiswaistcoat,hangingopen。Hewasstillagood-lookingman,withblack,wavyhair,andalargeblackmoustache。Hisfacewasperhapstoo,muchinflamed,andtherewasabouthimalookalmostofpeevishness。 Butnowhewasjolly。Hewentstraighttothesinkwherehiswife,waswashingup。 “What,aretheethere!”hesaidboisterously。”Slutheoffan’ letmeweshmysen。” “YoumaywaittillI’vefinished,“saidhiswife。 “Oh,munI?,An’whatifIshonna?” Thisgood-humouredthreatamusedMrs。Morel。 “Thenyoucangoandwashyourselfinthesoft-watertub。” “Ha!,Ican’an’a’,thamuckylittle’ussy。” Withwhichhestoodwatchingheramoment,thenwentaway,towaitforher。 Whenhechosehecouldstillmakehimselfagainarealgallant。 Usuallyhepreferredtogooutwithascarfroundhisneck。 Now,however,hemadeatoilet。Thereseemedsomuchgustointheway,hepuffedandswilledashewashedhimself,somuchalacritywith,whichhehurriedtothemirrorinthekitchen,and,bendingbecause,itwastoolowforhim,scrupulouslypartedhiswetblackhair,thatitirritatedMrs。Morel。Heputonaturn-downcollar,ablackbow,andworehisSundaytail-coat。Assuch,helooked,spruce,andwhathisclotheswouldnotdo,hisinstinctformaking,themostofhisgoodlookswould。 Athalf-pastnineJerryPurdycametocallforhispal。 JerrywasMorel’sbosomfriend,andMrs。Moreldislikedhim。 Hewasatall,thinman,witharatherfoxyface,thekind,offacethatseemstolackeyelashes。Hewalkedwithastiff,brittledignity,asifhisheadwereonawoodenspring。Hisnature,wascoldandshrewd。Generouswhereheintendedtobegenerous,heseemedtobeveryfondofMorel,andmoreorlesstotakecharge,ofhim。 Mrs。Morelhatedhim。Shehadknownhiswife,whohaddied,ofconsumption,andwhohad,attheend,conceivedsuchaviolent,dislikeofherhusband,thatifhecameintoherroomitcaused,herhaemorrhage。NoneofwhichJerryhadseemedtomind。Andnow,hiseldestdaughter,agirloffifteen,keptapoorhouseforhim,andlookedafterthetwoyoungerchildren。 “Amean,wizzen-heartedstick!”Mrs。Morelsaidofhim。 “I’veneverknownJerrymeaninMYlife,“protestedMorel。 “Aopener-handedandmorefreerchapyoucouldn’tfindanywhere,accordin’tomyknowledge。” “Open-handedtoyou,“retortedMrs。Morel。”Buthisfist,isshuttightenoughtohischildren,poorthings。” “Poorthings!,Andwhatforaretheypoorthings,Ishould,liketoknow。” ButMrs。MorelwouldnotbeappeasedonJerry’sscore。 Thesubjectofargumentwasseen,craninghisthinneck,overthescullerycurtain。HecaughtMrs。Morel’seye。 “Mornin’,missis!,Mesterin?” “Yes——heis。” Jerryenteredunasked,andstoodbythekitchendoorway。 Hewasnotinvitedtositdown,butstoodthere,coollyasserting,therightsofmenandhusbands。 “Aniceday,“hesaidtoMrs。Morel。 “Yes。 “Grandoutthismorning——grandforawalk。” “DoyoumeanYOU’REgoingforawalk?”sheasked。 “Yes。Wemeanwalkin’toNottingham,“hereplied。 “H’m!” Thetwomengreetedeachother,bothglad:,Jerry,however,fullofassurance,Morelrathersubdued,afraidtoseemtoojubilantin,presenceofhiswife。Buthelacedhisbootsquickly,withspirit。 Theyweregoingforaten-milewalkacrossthefieldstoNottingham。 ClimbingthehillsidefromtheBottoms,theymountedgailyinto,themorning。AttheMoonandStarstheyhadtheirfirstdrink,thenontotheOldSpot。Thenalongfivemilesofdroughttocarry,themintoBulwelltoagloriouspintofbitter。Buttheystayed,inafieldwithsomehaymakerswhosegallonbottlewasfull,sothat,whentheycameinsightofthecity,Morelwassleepy。Thetown,spreadupwardsbeforethem,smokingvaguelyinthemiddayglare,fridgingthecrestawaytothesouthwithspiresandfactorybulks,andchimneys。InthelastfieldMorellaydownunderanoaktree,andsleptsoundlyforoveranhour。Whenherosetogoforwardhe,feltqueer。 ThetwohaddinnerintheMeadows,withJerry’ssister,thenrepairedtothePunchBowl,wheretheymixedintheexcitement,ofpigeon-racing。Morelneverinhislifeplayedcards,consideringthem,ashavingsomeoccult,malevolentpower——“thedevil’spictures,“ hecalledthem!,Buthewasamasterofskittlesandofdominoes。 HetookachallengefromaNewarkman,onskittles。Allthemenin,theold,longbartooksides,bettingeitheronewayortheother。 Moreltookoffhiscoat。Jerryheldthehatcontainingthemoney。 Themenatthetableswatched。Somestoodwiththeirmugsin,theirhands。Morelfelthisbigwoodenballcarefully,thenlaunchedit。 Heplayedhavocamongthenine-pins,andwonhalfacrown,whichrestoredhimtosolvency。 Byseveno’clockthetwowereingoodcondition。Theycaught,the7。30trainhome。 IntheafternoontheBottomswasintolerable。Everyinhabitant,remainingwasoutofdoors。Thewomen,intwosandthrees,bareheadedandinwhiteaprons,gossipedinthealleybetweentheblocks。 Men,havingarestbetweendrinks,satontheirheelsandtalked。 Theplacesmelledstale;theslateroofsglisteredinthearidheat。 Mrs。Moreltookthelittlegirldowntothebrookinthemeadows,whichwerenotmorethantwohundredyardsaway。Thewaterran,quicklyoverstonesandbrokenpots。Motherandchildleanedon,therailoftheoldsheep-bridge,watching。Upatthedipping-hole,attheotherendofthemeadow,Mrs。Morelcouldseethenaked,formsofboysflashingroundthedeepyellowwater,oranoccasionalbrightfiguredartglitteringovertheblackish,stagnantmeadow。SheknewWilliamwasatthedipping-hole,anditwasthedreadofherlifelestheshouldgetdrowned。 Annieplayedunderthetalloldhedge,pickingupaldercones,thatshecalledcurrants。Thechildrequiredmuchattention,andtheflieswereteasing。 Thechildrenwereputtobedatseveno’clock。Thenshe,workedawhile。 WhenWalterMorelandJerryarrivedatBestwoodtheyfelt,aloadofftheirminds;arailwayjourneynolongerimpended,sotheycouldputthefinishingtouchestoagloriousday。 TheyenteredtheNelsonwiththesatisfactionofreturnedtravellers。 Thenextdaywasawork-day,andthethoughtofitputadamper,onthemen’sspirits。Mostofthem,moreover,hadspenttheirmoney。 Somewerealreadyrollingdismallyhome,tosleepinpreparation,forthemorrow。Mrs。Morel,listeningtotheirmournfulsinging,wentindoors。Nineo’clockpassed,andten,andstill“thepair“ hadnotreturned。Onadoorstepsomewhereamanwassingingloudly,inadrawl:,“Lead,kindlyLight。”,Mrs。Morelwasalwaysindignant,withthedrunkenmenthattheymustsingthathymnwhenthey,gotmaudlin。 “Asif’Genevieve’weren’tgoodenough,“shesaid。 Thekitchenwasfullofthescentofboiledherbsandhops。 Onthehobalargeblacksaucepansteamedslowly。Mrs。Moreltook,apanchion,agreatbowlofthickredearth,streamedaheapofwhite,sugarintothebottom,andthen,strainingherselftotheweight,waspouringintheliquor。 JustthenMorelcamein。HehadbeenveryjollyintheNelson,butcominghomehadgrownirritable。Hehadnotquitegotoverthe,feelingofirritabilityandpain,afterhavingsleptontheground,whenhewassohot;andabadconscienceafflictedhimasheneared,thehouse。Hedidnotknowhewasangry。Butwhenthegardengate,resistedhisattemptstoopenit,hekickeditandbrokethelatch。 HeenteredjustasMrs。Morelwaspouringtheinfusionofherbsout,ofthesaucepan。Swayingslightly,helurchedagainstthetable。 Theboilingliquorpitched。Mrs。Morelstartedback。 “Goodgracious,“shecried,“cominghomeinhisdrunkenness!” “Comin’homeinhiswhat?”hesnarled,hishatoverhiseye。 Suddenlyherbloodroseinajet。 “Sayyou’reNOTdrunk!”sheflashed。 Shehadputdownhersaucepan,andwasstirringthesugar,intothebeer。Hedroppedhistwohandsheavilyonthetable,andthrusthisfaceforwardsather。 “’Sayyou’renotdrunk,’“herepeated。”Why,nobody,butanastylittlebitchlikeyou’ud’avesuchathought。” Hethrusthisfaceforwardather。 “There’smoneytobezzlewith,ifthere’smoneyfornothingelse。” “I’venotspentatwo-shillin’bitthisday,“hesaid。 “Youdon’tgetasdrunkasalordonnothing,“shereplied。 “And,“shecried,flashingintosuddenfury,“ifyou’vebeensponging,onyourbelovedJerry,why,lethimlookafterhischildren,fortheyneedit。” “It’salie,it’salie。Shutyourface,woman。” Theywerenowatbattle-pitch。Eachforgoteverythingsave,thehatredoftheotherandthebattlebetweenthem。Shewasfiery,andfuriousashe。Theywentontillhecalledheraliar。 “No,“shecried,startingup,scarceabletobreathe。 “Don’tcallmethat——you,themostdespicableliarthateverwalked,inshoe-leather。”Sheforcedthelastwordsoutofsuffocatedlungs。 “You’realiar!”heyelled,bangingthetablewithhisfist。 “You’realiar,you’realiar。” Shestiffenedherself,withclenchedfists。 “Thehouseisfilthywithyou,“shecried。 “Thengetoutonit——it’smine。Getoutonit!”heshouted。 “It’smeasbringsth’moneywhoam,notthee。It’smyhouse,notthine。 Thengerouton’t——gerouton’t!” “AndIwould,“shecried,suddenlyshakenintotears,ofimpotence。”Ah,wouldn’tI,wouldn’tIhavegonelongago,butforthosechildren。Ay,haven’tIrepentednotgoingyearsago,whenI’donlytheone“——suddenlydryingintorage。”Doyouthink,it’sforYOUIstop——doyouthinkI’dstoponeminuteforYOU?” “Go,then,“heshouted,besidehimself。”Go!” “No!”Shefacedround。”No,“shecriedloudly,“youshan’t,haveitALLyourownway;youshan’tdoALLyoulike。I’vegot,thosechildrentoseeto。Myword,“shelaughed,“Ishouldlook,welltoleavethemtoyou。” “Go,“hecriedthickly,liftinghisfist。Hewasafraid,ofher。”Go!” “Ishouldbeonlytooglad。Ishouldlaugh,laugh,mylord,ifIcouldgetawayfromyou,“shereplied。 Hecameuptoher,hisredface,withitsbloodshoteyes,thrustforward,andgrippedherarms。Shecriedinfearofhim,struggledtobefree。Comingslightlytohimself,panting,hepushed,herroughlytotheouterdoor,andthrustherforth,slottingthe,boltbehindherwithabang。Thenhewentbackintothekitchen,droppedintohisarmchair,hishead,burstingfullofblood,sinkingbetweenhisknees。Thushedippedgraduallyintoastupor,fromexhaustionandintoxication。 ThemoonwashighandmagnificentintheAugustnight。 Mrs。Morel,searedwithpassion,shiveredtofindherselfoutthere,inagreatwhitelight,thatfellcoldonher,andgaveashock,toherinflamedsoul。Shestoodforafewmomentshelplessly,staringattheglisteninggreatrhubarbleavesnearthedoor。 Thenshegottheairintoherbreast。Shewalkeddownthegardenpath,tremblingineverylimb,whilethechildboiledwithinher。 Forawhileshecouldnotcontrolherconsciousness;mechanicallyshe,wentoverthelastscene,thenoveritagain,certainphrases,certainmomentscomingeachtimelikeabrandred-hotdownon,hersoul;andeachtimesheenactedagainthepasthour,eachtime,thebrandcamedownatthesamepoints,tillthemarkwasburntin,andthepainburntout,andatlastshecametoherself。 Shemusthavebeenhalfanhourinthisdeliriouscondition。 Thenthepresenceofthenightcameagaintoher。Sheglancedround,infear。Shehadwanderedtothesidegarden,whereshewaswalking,upanddownthepathbesidethecurrantbushesunderthelongwall。 Thegardenwasanarrowstrip,boundedfromtheroad,thatcut,transverselybetweentheblocks,byathickthornhedge。 Shehurriedoutofthesidegardentothefront,whereshe,couldstandasifinanimmensegulfofwhitelight,themoon,streaminghighinfaceofher,themoonlightstandingupfromthe,hillsinfront,andfillingthevalleywheretheBottomscrouched,almostblindingly。There,pantingandhalfweepinginreaction,fromthestress,shemurmuredtoherselfoverandoveragain: “Thenuisance!thenuisance!” Shebecameawareofsomethingabouther。Withaneffortshe,rousedherselftoseewhatitwasthatpenetratedherconsciousness。 Thetallwhitelilieswerereelinginthemoonlight,andtheairwas,chargedwiththeirperfume,aswithapresence。Mrs。Morelgasped,slightlyinfear。Shetouchedthebig,pallidflowersontheirpetals,thenshivered。Theyseemedtobestretchinginthemoonlight。 Sheputherhandintoonewhitebin:,thegoldscarcelyshowed,onherfingersbymoonlight。Shebentdowntolookatthebinful,ofyellowpollen;butitonlyappeareddusky。Thenshedrankadeep,draughtofthescent。Italmostmadeherdizzy。 Mrs。Morelleanedonthegardengate,lookingout,andshe,lostherselfawhile。Shedidnotknowwhatshethought。 Exceptforaslightfeelingofsickness,andherconsciousnessin,thechild,herselfmeltedoutlikescentintotheshiny,paleair。 Afteratimethechild,too,meltedwithherinthemixing-pot,ofmoonlight,andsherestedwiththehillsandliliesandhouses,allswumtogetherinakindofswoon。 Whenshecametoherselfshewastiredforsleep。Languidlyshe,lookedabouther;theclumpsofwhitephloxseemedlikebushesspread,withlinen;amothricochettedoverthem,andrightacrossthegarden。 Followingitwithhereyerousedher。Afewwhiffsoftheraw,strongscentofphloxinvigoratedher。Shepassedalongthepath,hesitatingatthewhiterose-bush。Itsmelledsweetandsimple。 Shetouchedthewhiterufflesoftheroses。Theirfreshscent,andcool,softleavesremindedherofthemorning-timeandsunshine。 Shewasveryfondofthem。Butshewastired,andwantedtosleep。 Inthemysteriousout-of-doorsshefeltforlorn。 Therewasnonoiseanywhere。Evidentlythechildrenhadnot,beenwakened,orhadgonetosleepagain。Atrain,threemilesaway,roaredacrossthevalley。Thenightwasverylarge,andverystrange,stretchingitshoarydistancesinfinitely。Andoutofthesilver-grey,fogofdarknesscamesoundsvagueandhoarse:,acorncrakenot,faroff,soundofatrainlikeasigh,anddistantshoutsofmen。 Herquietenedheartbeginningtobeatquicklyagain,shehurried,downthesidegardentothebackofthehouse。Softlyshelifted,thelatch;thedoorwasstillbolted,andhardagainsther。 Sherappedgently,waited,thenrappedagain。Shemustnotrouse,thechildren,northeneighbours。Hemustbeasleep,andhewould,notwakeeasily。Herheartbegantoburntobeindoors。Sheclung,tothedoor-handle。Nowitwascold;shewouldtakeachill,andinherpresentcondition! Puttingherapronoverherheadandherarms,shehurriedagain,tothesidegarden,tothewindowofthekitchen。Leaningonthesill,shecouldjustsee,undertheblind,herhusband’sarmsspread,outonthetable,andhisblackheadontheboard。Hewassleeping,withhisfacelyingonthetable。Somethinginhisattitudemade,herfeeltiredofthings。Thelampwasburningsmokily;shecould,tellbythecoppercolourofthelight。Shetappedatthewindow,moreandmorenoisily。Almostitseemedasiftheglasswouldbreak。 Stillhedidnotwakeup。 Aftervainefforts,shebegantoshiver,partlyfromcontactwith,thestone,andfromexhaustion。Fearfulalwaysfortheunbornchild,shewonderedwhatshecoulddoforwarmth。Shewentdowntothe,coal-house,wheretherewasanoldhearthrugshehadcarriedoutfor,therag-manthedaybefore。Thisshewrappedoverhershoulders。 Itwaswarm,ifgrimy。Thenshewalkedupanddownthegardenpath,peepingeverynowandthenundertheblind,knocking,andtelling,herselfthatintheendtheverystrainofhispositionmustwakehim。 Atlast,afteraboutanhour,sherappedlongandlowat,thewindow。Graduallythesoundpenetratedtohim。When,indespair,shehadceasedtotap,shesawhimstir,thenlifthisfaceblindly。 Thelabouringofhishearthurthimintoconsciousness。Sherapped,imperativelyatthewindow。Hestartedawake。Instantlyshesawhis,fistssetandhiseyesglare。Hehadnotagrainofphysicalfear。 Ifithadbeentwentyburglars,hewouldhavegoneblindlyforthem。 Heglaredround,bewildered,butpreparedtofight。 “Openthedoor,Walter,“shesaidcoldly。 Hishandsrelaxed。Itdawnedonhimwhathehaddone。 Hisheaddropped,sullenanddogged。Shesawhimhurrytothedoor,heardtheboltchock。Hetriedthelatch。Itopened——andthere,stoodthesilver-greynight,fearfultohim,afterthetawnylight,ofthelamp。Hehurriedback。 WhenMrs。Morelentered,shesawhimalmost,runningthroughthedoortothestairs。Hehadripped,hiscollaroffhisneckinhishastetobegoneereshe,camein,andthereitlaywithburstenbutton-holes。Itmadeherangry。 Shewarmedandsoothedherself。Inherwearinessforgetting,everything,shemovedaboutatthelittletasksthatremainedtobedone,sethisbreakfast,rinsedhispit-bottle,puthispit-clothesonthe,hearthtowarm,sethispit-bootsbesidethem,puthimoutaclean,scarfandsnap-bagandtwoapples,rakedthefire,andwenttobed。 Hewasalreadydeadasleep。Hisnarrowblackeyebrowsweredrawn,upinasortofpeevishmiseryintohisforeheadwhilehischeeks’ down-strokes,andhissulkymouth,seemedtobesaying:,“Idon’t,carewhoyouarenorwhatyouare,ISHALLhavemyownway。” Mrs。Morelknewhimtoowelltolookathim。Assheunfastened,herbroochatthemirror,shesmiledfaintlytoseeherface,allsmearedwiththeyellowdustoflilies。Shebrusheditoff,andatlastlaydown。Forsometimehermindcontinuedsnapping,andjettingsparks,butshewasasleepbeforeherhusbandawoke,fromthefirstsleepofhisdrunkenness。 CHAPTERII THEBIRTHOFPAUL,ANDANOTHERBATTLE AFTERsuchasceneasthelast,WalterMorelwasforsomedaysabashed,andashamed,buthesoonregainedhisoldbullyingindifference。 Yettherewasaslightshrinking,adiminishinginhisassurance。 Physicallyeven,heshrank,andhisfinefullpresencewaned。 Henevergrewintheleaststout,sothat,ashesankfromhiserect,assertivebearing,hisphysiqueseemedtocontractalongwithhispride,andmoralstrength。 Butnowherealisedhowharditwasforhiswifetodrag,aboutatherwork,and,hissympathyquickenedbypenitence,hastenedforwardwithhishelp。Hecamestraighthomefromthepit,andstayedinateveningtillFriday,andthenhecouldnotremain,athome。Buthewasbackagainbyteno’clock,almostquitesober。 Healwaysmadehisownbreakfast。Beingamanwhoroseearly,andhadplentyoftimehedidnot,assomeminersdo,draghiswife,outofbedatsixo’clock。Atfive,sometimesearlier,hewoke,gotstraightoutofbed,andwentdownstairs。Whenshecouldnotsleep,hiswifelaywaitingforthistime,asforaperiodofpeace。 Theonlyrealrestseemedtobewhenhewasoutofthehouse。 Hewentdownstairsinhisshirtandthenstruggledintohis,pit-trousers,whichwereleftonthehearthtowarmallnight。 Therewasalwaysafire,becauseMrs。Morelraked。Andthefirst,soundinthehousewasthebang,bangofthepokeragainsttheraker,asMorelsmashedtheremainderofthecoaltomakethekettle,whichwasfilledandleftonthehob,finallyboil。Hiscupandknife,andfork,allhewantedexceptjustthefood,waslaidreadyon,thetableonanewspaper。Thenhegothisbreakfast,madethetea,packedthebottomofthedoorswithrugstoshutoutthedraught,piledabigfire,andsatdowntoanhourofjoy。Hetoasted,hisbacononaforkandcaughtthedropsoffatonhisbread; thenheputtherasheronhisthicksliceofbread,andcutoffchunks,withaclasp-knife,pouredhisteaintohissaucer,andwashappy。 Withhisfamilyabout,mealswereneversopleasant。Heloathed,afork:,itisamodernintroductionwhichhasstillscarcelyreached,commonpeople。WhatMorelpreferredwasaclasp-knife。Then,insolitude,heateanddrank,oftensitting,incoldweather,onalittlestoolwithhisbacktothewarmchimney-piece,hisfood,onthefender,hiscuponthehearth。Andthenhereadthelast,night’snewspaper——whatofithecould——spellingitoverlaboriously。 Hepreferredtokeeptheblindsdownandthecandlelitevenwhenit,wasdaylight;itwasthehabitofthemine。 Ataquartertosixherose,cuttwothickslicesofbread,andbutter,andputtheminthewhitecalicosnap-bag。Hefilledhis,tinbottlewithtea。Coldteawithoutmilkorsugarwasthedrink,hepreferredforthepit。Thenhepulledoffhisshirt,andput,onhispit-singlet,avestofthickflannelcutlowroundtheneck,andwithshortsleeveslikeachemise。