CHAPTERI
THEEARLYMARRIEDLIFEOFTHEMORELS
“THEBOTTOMS“succeededto“HellRow“。HellRowwasablockofthatched,bulgingcottagesthatstoodbythebrooksideonGreenhillLane。
Therelivedthecollierswhoworkedinthelittlegin-pitstwo,fieldsaway。Thebrookranunderthealdertrees,scarcelysoiled,bythesesmallmines,whosecoalwasdrawntothesurfaceby,donkeysthatploddedwearilyinacircleroundagin。Andall,overthecountrysidewerethesesamepits,someofwhichhadbeen,workedinthetimeofCharlesII,thefewcolliersandthedonkeys,burrowingdownlikeantsintotheearth,makingqueermounds,andlittleblackplacesamongthecorn-fieldsandthemeadows。
Andthecottagesofthesecoal-miners,inblocksandpairshere,andthere,togetherwithoddfarmsandhomesofthestockingers,strayingovertheparish,formedthevillageofBestwood。
Then,somesixtyyearsago,asuddenchangetookplace。
Thegin-pitswereelbowedasidebythelargeminesof,thefinanciers。ThecoalandironfieldofNottinghamshireand,Derbyshirewasdiscovered。Carston,WaiteandCo。appeared。
Amidtremendousexcitement,LordPalmerstonformallyopened,thecompany’sfirstmineatSpinneyPark,ontheedgeofSherwoodForest。
AboutthistimethenotoriousHellRow,whichthroughgrowing,oldhadacquiredanevilreputation,wasburneddown,andmuchdirt,wascleansedaway。
Carston,Waite&Co。foundtheyhadstruckonagoodthing,so,downthevalleysofthebrooksfromSelbyandNuttall,newmines,weresunk,untilsoonthereweresixpitsworking。FromNuttall,highuponthesandstoneamongthewoods,therailwayran,pastthe,ruinedprioryoftheCarthusiansandpastRobinHood’sWell,downto,SpinneyPark,thenontoMinton,alargemineamongcorn-fields;
fromMintonacrossthefarmlandsofthevalleysideto,Bunker’sHill,branchingoffthere,andrunning,northtoBeggarleeandSelby,thatlooksoveratCrichandthehills,ofDerbyshire:,sixmineslikeblackstudsonthecountryside,linkedbyaloopoffinechain,therailway。
Toaccommodatetheregimentsofminers,Carston,WaiteandCo。
builttheSquares,greatquadranglesofdwellingsonthehillside,ofBestwood,andthen,inthebrookvalley,onthesiteofHellRow,theyerectedtheBottoms。
TheBottomsconsistedofsixblocksofminers’dwellings,tworowsofthree,likethedotsonablank-sixdomino,andtwelve,housesinablock。Thisdoublerowofdwellingssatatthefoot,oftherathersharpslopefromBestwood,andlookedout,fromthe,atticwindowsatleast,ontheslowclimbofthevalleytowardsSelby。
Thehousesthemselvesweresubstantialandverydecent。
Onecouldwalkallround,seeinglittlefrontgardenswithauriculas,andsaxifrageintheshadowofthebottomblock,sweet-williamsandpinks,inthesunnytopblock;seeingneatfrontwindows,littleporches,littleprivethedges,anddormerwindowsfortheattics。Butthat,wasoutside;thatwastheviewontotheuninhabitedparloursofall,thecolliers’wives。Thedwelling-room,thekitchen,wasattheback,ofthehouse,facinginwardbetweentheblocks,lookingatascrubby,backgarden,andthenattheash-pits。Andbetweentherows,betweenthelonglinesofash-pits,wentthealley,wherethechildren,playedandthewomengossipedandthemensmoked。So,theactual,conditionsoflivingintheBottoms,thatwassowellbuiltand,thatlookedsonice,werequiteunsavourybecausepeoplemustlive,inthekitchen,andthekitchensopenedontothatnastyalleyofash-pits。
Mrs。MorelwasnotanxioustomoveintotheBottoms,whichwasalreadytwelveyearsoldandonthedownwardpath,whenshedescendedtoitfromBestwood。Butitwasthebestshe,coulddo。Moreover,shehadanendhouseinoneofthetopblocks,andthushadonlyoneneighbour;ontheothersideanextrastrip,ofgarden。And,havinganendhouse,sheenjoyedakindofaristocracy,amongtheotherwomenofthe“between“houses,becauseherrent,wasfiveshillingsandsixpenceinsteadoffiveshillingsaweek。
ButthissuperiorityinstationwasnotmuchconsolationtoMrs。Morel。
Shewasthirty-oneyearsold,andhadbeenmarriedeightyears。
Arathersmallwoman,ofdelicatemouldbutresolutebearing,sheshrankalittlefromthefirstcontactwiththeBottomswomen。
ShecamedownintheJuly,andintheSeptemberexpectedher,thirdbaby。
Herhusbandwasaminer。Theyhadonlybeenintheirnewhome,threeweekswhenthewakes,orfair,began。Morel,sheknew,wassure,tomakeaholidayofit。HewentoffearlyontheMondaymorning,thedayofthefair。Thetwochildrenwerehighlyexcited。
William,aboyofseven,fledoffimmediatelyafterbreakfast,toprowlroundthewakesground,leavingAnnie,whowasonlyfive,towhineallmorningtogoalso。Mrs。Moreldidherwork。
Shescarcelyknewherneighboursyet,andknewnoonewithwhom,totrustthelittlegirl。Soshepromisedtotakehertothewakes,afterdinner。
Williamappearedathalf-pasttwelve。Hewasaveryactivelad,fair-haired,freckled,withatouchoftheDaneorNorwegian,abouthim。
“CanIhavemydinner,mother?”hecried,rushinginwithhis,capon。”’Causeitbeginsathalf-pastone,themansaysso。”
“Youcanhaveyourdinnerassoonasit’sdone,“repliedthemother。
“Isn’titdone?”hecried,hisblueeyesstaringather,inindignation。”ThenI’mgoin’be-outit。”
“You’lldonothingofthesort。Itwillbedoneinfiveminutes。
Itisonlyhalf-pasttwelve。”
“They’llbebeginnin’,“theboyhalfcried,halfshouted。
“Youwon’tdieiftheydo,“saidthemother。”Besides,it’s,onlyhalf-pasttwelve,soyou’veafullhour。”
Theladbeganhastilytolaythetable,anddirectlythethree,satdown。Theywereeatingbatter-puddingandjam,whentheboy,jumpedoffhischairandstoodperfectlystiff。Somedistance,awaycouldbeheardthefirstsmallbrayingofamerry-go-round,andthetootingofahorn。Hisfacequiveredashelookedathismother。
“Itoldyou!”hesaid,runningtothedresserforhiscap。
“Takeyourpuddinginyourhand——andit’sonlyfivepastone,soyouwerewrong——youhaven’tgotyourtwopence,“criedthemother,inabreath。
Theboycameback,bitterlydisappointed,forhistwopence,thenwentoffwithoutaword。
“Iwanttogo,Iwanttogo,“saidAnnie,beginningtocry。
“Well,andyoushallgo,whining,wizzeninglittlestick!”
saidthemother。Andlaterintheafternoonshetrudgedupthe,hillunderthetallhedgewithherchild。Thehaywasgathered,fromthefields,andcattlewereturnedontotheeddish。
Itwaswarm,peaceful。
Mrs。Moreldidnotlikethewakes。Thereweretwosetsofhorses,onegoingbysteam,onepulledroundbyapony;threeorgans,weregrinding,andtherecameoddcracksofpistol-shots,fearful,screechingofthecocoanutman’srattle,shoutsoftheAuntSallyman,screechesfromthepeep-showlady。Themotherperceivedhersongazing,enrapturedoutsidetheLionWallacebooth,atthepicturesofthis,famouslionthathadkilledanegroandmaimedforlifetwowhitemen。
Shelefthimalone,andwenttogetAnnieaspinoftoffee。
Presentlytheladstoodinfrontofher,wildlyexcited。
“Youneversaidyouwascoming——isn’tthe’alotofthings?-
thatlion’skilledthreemen-l’vespentmytuppence-an’lookhere。”
Hepulledfromhispockettwoegg-cups,withpinkmoss-roses,onthem。
“Igotthesefromthatstallwherey’avetergetthemmarbles,inthemholes。An’Igotthesetwointwogoes-’aepennyago-they’ve,gotmoss-roseson,lookhere。Iwantedthese。”
Sheknewhewantedthemforher。
“H’m!”shesaid,pleased。”TheyAREpretty!”
“Shallyoucarry’em,’causeI’mfrightenedo’breakin’’em?”
Hewastipfulofexcitementnowshehadcome,ledherabout,theground,showedhereverything。Then,atthepeep-show,she,explainedthepictures,inasortofstory,towhichhelistened,asifspellbound。Hewouldnotleaveher。Allthetimehe,stuckclosetoher,bristlingwithasmallboy’sprideofher。
Fornootherwomanlookedsuchaladyasshedid,inherlittleblack,bonnetandhercloak。Shesmiledwhenshesawwomensheknew。
Whenshewastiredshesaidtoherson:
“Well,areyoucomingnow,orlater?”
“Areyougoin’a’ready?”hecried,hisfacefullofreproach。
“Already?,Itispastfour,Iknow。”
“Whatareyougoin’a’readyfor?”helamented。
“Youneedn’tcomeifyoudon’twant,“shesaid。
Andshewentslowlyawaywithherlittlegirl,whilstherson,stoodwatchingher,cuttothehearttolethergo,andyetunable,toleavethewakes。Asshecrossedtheopengroundinfrontof,theMoonandStarssheheardmenshouting,andsmelledthebeer,andhurriedalittle,thinkingherhusbandwasprobablyinthebar。
Atabouthalf-pastsixhersoncamehome,tirednow,ratherpale,andsomewhatwretched。Hewasmiserable,thoughhedidnotknowit,becausehehadlethergoalone。Sinceshehadgone,hehadnot,enjoyedhiswakes。
“Hasmydadbeen?”heasked。
“No,“saidthemother。
“He’shelpingtowaitattheMoonandStars。Iseedhimthrough,thatblacktinstuffwi’holesin,onthewindow,wi’hissleeves,rolledup。”
“Ha!”exclaimedthemothershortly。”He’sgotnomoney。
An’he’llbesatisfiedifhegetshis’lowance,whetherthey,givehimmoreornot。”
Whenthelightwasfading,andMrs。Morelcouldseenomoretosew,sheroseandwenttothedoor。Everywherewasthesoundofexcitement,therestlessnessoftheholiday,thatatlastinfectedher。Shewent,outintothesidegarden。Womenwerecominghomefromthewakes,thechildrenhuggingawhitelambwithgreenlegs,orawoodenhorse。
Occasionallyamanlurchedpast,almostasfullashecouldcarry。
Sometimesagoodhusbandcamealongwithhisfamily,peacefully。
Butusuallythewomenandchildrenwerealone。Thestay-at-homemothers,stoodgossipingatthecornersofthealley,asthetwilightsank,foldingtheirarmsundertheirwhiteaprons。
Mrs。Morelwasalone,butshewasusedtoit。Hersonandher,littlegirlsleptupstairs;so,itseemed,herhomewastherebehindher,fixedandstable。Butshefeltwretchedwiththecomingchild。
Theworldseemedadrearyplace,wherenothingelsewouldhappen,forher——atleastuntilWilliamgrewup。Butforherself,nothingbutthisdrearyendurance——tillthechildrengrewup。
Andthechildren!,Shecouldnotaffordtohavethisthird。
Shedidnotwantit。Thefatherwasservingbeerinapublichouse,swillinghimselfdrunk。Shedespisedhim,andwastiedtohim。
Thiscomingchildwastoomuchforher。IfitwerenotforWilliam,andAnnie,shewassickofit,thestrugglewith,povertyanduglinessandmeanness。
Shewentintothefrontgarden,feelingtooheavytotake,herselfout,yetunabletostayindoors。Theheatsuffocatedher。
Andlookingahead,theprospectofherlifemadeherfeelasifshe,wereburiedalive。
Thefrontgardenwasasmallsquarewithaprivethedge。
Thereshestood,tryingtosootheherselfwiththescentofflowers,andthefading,beautifulevening。Oppositehersmallgatewasthe,stilethatleduphill,underthetallhedgebetweentheburningglow,ofthecutpastures。Theskyoverheadthrobbedandpulsedwithlight。
Theglowsankquicklyoffthefield;theearthandthehedges,smokeddusk。Asitgrewdark,aruddyglarecameoutonthehilltop,andoutoftheglarethediminishedcommotionofthefair。
Sometimes,downthetroughofdarknessformedbythepath,underthehedges,mencamelurchinghome。Oneyoungmanlapsed,intoarundownthesteepbitthatendedthehill,andwentwitha,crashintothestile。Mrs。Morelshuddered。Hepickedhimselfup,swearingviciously,ratherpathetically,asifhethoughtthestile,hadwantedtohurthim。
Shewentindoors,wonderingifthingswerenevergoingtoalter。
Shewasbeginningbynowtorealisethattheywouldnot。Sheseemed,sofarawayfromhergirlhood,shewonderedifitwerethesame,personwalkingheavilyupthebackgardenattheBottomsashadrun,solightlyupthebreakwateratSheernesstenyearsbefore。
“WhathaveItodowithit?”shesaidtoherself。”Whathave,Itodowithallthis?,EventhechildIamgoingtohave!
Itdoesn’tseemasifIweretakenintoaccount。”
Sometimeslifetakesholdofone,carriesthebodyalong,accomplishesone’shistory,andyetisnotreal,butleavesoneself,asitwereslurredover。
“Iwait,“Mrs。Morelsaidtoherself——“Iwait,andwhatIwait,forcannevercome。”
Thenshestraightenedthekitchen,litthelamp,mendedthefire,lookedoutthewashingforthenextday,andputittosoak。
Afterwhichshesatdowntohersewing。Throughthelonghoursher,needleflashedregularlythroughthestuff。Occasionallyshesighed,movingtorelieveherself。Andallthetimeshewasthinking,howtomakethemostofwhatshehad,forthechildren’ssakes。
Athalf-pastelevenherhusbandcame。Hischeekswerevery,redandveryshinyabovehisblackmoustache。Hisheadnoddedslightly。
Hewaspleasedwithhimself。
“Oh!Oh!waitin’forme,lass?,I’vebin’elpin’Anthony,an’
what’sthinkhe’sgenme?,Nowtb’ralousyhae’f-crown,an’
that’sivrypenny——“
“Hethinksyou’vemadetherestupinbeer,“shesaidshortly。
“An’I’aven’t——thatI’aven’t。Youb’lieveme,I’ve’ad,verylittlethisday,Ihavean’all。”,Hisvoicewenttender。
“Here,an’Ibrowttheeabito’brandysnap,an’acocoanutforth’
children。”,Helaidthegingerbreadandthecocoanut,ahairyobject,onthetable。”Nay,thaniversaidthankyerfornowti’thylife,didter?”
Asacompromise,shepickedupthecocoanutandshookit,toseeifithadanymilk。
“It’sagood’un,youmaybackyerlifeo’that。Igotitfra’
BillHodgkisson。’Bill,’Isays,’thanonwantsthemthreenuts,doester?,Arenaterforgi’ein’meoneformybitofaladan’
wench?’,’Iham,Walter,mylad,’’esays;’ta’ewhichon’em,ter’samind。’,An’soItookone,an’thanked’im。Ididn’t,liketershakeitafore’iseyes,but’esays,’Tha’dbetterma’e,sureit’sagoodun,Walt。’,An’so,yersee,Iknoweditwas。
He’sanicechap,isBillHodgkisson,e’sanicechap!”
“Amanwillpartwithanythingsolongashe’sdrunk,andyou’redrunkalongwithhim,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Eh,thamuckylittle’ussy,who’sdrunk,Ish’dliketerknow?”
saidMorel。Hewasextraordinarilypleasedwithhimself,becauseofhisday’shelpingtowaitintheMoonandStars。
Hechatteredon。
Mrs。Morel,verytired,andsickofhisbabble,wenttobed,asquicklyaspossible,whileherakedthefire。
Mrs。Morelcameofagoodoldburgherfamily,famousindependents,whohadfoughtwithColonelHutchinson,andwhoremainedstout,Congregationalists。Hergrandfatherhadgonebankruptinthelace-market,atatimewhensomanylace-manufacturerswereruinedinNottingham。
Herfather,GeorgeCoppard,wasanengineer——alarge,handsome,haughtyman,proudofhisfairskinandblueeyes,butmoreproud,stillofhisintegrity。Gertruderesembledhermotherinhersmall,build。Buthertemper,proudandunyielding,shehadfromtheCoppards。
GeorgeCoppardwasbitterlygalledbyhisownpoverty。
HebecameforemanoftheengineersinthedockyardatSheerness。
Mrs。Morel——Gertrude——wastheseconddaughter。Shefavouredhermother,lovedhermotherbestofall;butshehadtheCoppards’clear,defiantblueeyesandtheirbroadbrow。Sherememberedtohave,hatedherfather’soverbearingmannertowardshergentle,humorous,kindly-souledmother。Sherememberedrunningoverthebreakwater,atSheernessandfindingtheboat。Sherememberedtohavebeen,pettedandflatteredbyallthemenwhenshehadgonetothedockyard,forshewasadelicate,ratherproudchild。Sherememberedthefunny,oldmistress,whoseassistantshehadbecome,whomshehadlovedtohelp,intheprivateschool。AndshestillhadtheBiblethatJohnField,hadgivenher。SheusedtowalkhomefromchapelwithJohnField,whenshewasnineteen。Hewasthesonofawell-to-dotradesman,hadbeentocollegeinLondon,andwastodevotehimselftobusiness。
ShecouldalwaysrecallindetailaSeptemberSundayafternoon,whentheyhadsatunderthevineatthebackofherfather’shouse。
Thesuncamethroughthechinksofthevine-leavesandmade,beautifulpatterns,likealacescarf,fallingonherandonhim。
Someoftheleaveswerecleanyellow,likeyellowflatflowers。
“Nowsitstill,“hehadcried。”Nowyourhair,Idon’tknow,whatitISlike!,It’sasbrightascopperandgold,asredas,burntcopper,andithasgoldthreadswherethesunshinesonit。
Fancytheirsayingit’sbrown。Yourmothercallsitmouse-colour。”
Shehadmethisbrillianteyes,butherclearfacescarcely,showedtheelationwhichrosewithinher。
“Butyousayyoudon’tlikebusiness,“shepursued。
“Idon’t。Ihateit!”hecriedhotly。
“Andyouwouldliketogointotheministry,“shehalfimplored。
“Ishould。Ishouldloveit,ifIthoughtIcouldmake,afirst-ratepreacher。”
“Thenwhydon’tyou——whyDON’Tyou?”Hervoicerangwithdefiance。
“IfIwereaman,nothingwouldstopme。”
Sheheldherheaderect。Hewasrathertimidbeforeher。
“Butmyfather’ssostiff-necked。Hemeanstoputmeinto,thebusiness,andIknowhe’lldoit。”
“Butifyou’reaMAN?”shehadcried。
“Beingamanisn’teverything,“hereplied,frowningwith,puzzledhelplessness。
Now,asshemovedaboutherworkattheBottoms,withsome,experienceofwhatbeingamanmeant,sheknewthatitwasNOTeverything。
Attwenty,owingtoherhealth,shehadleftSheerness。
HerfatherhadretiredhometoNottingham。JohnField’sfather,hadbeenruined;thesonhadgoneasateacherinNorwood。Shedid,nothearofhimuntil,twoyearslater,shemadedeterminedinquiry。
Hehadmarriedhislandlady,awomanofforty,awidowwithproperty。
AndstillMrs。MorelpreservedJohnField’sBible。Shedid,notnowbelievehimtobe——Well,sheunderstoodprettywellwhathe,mightormightnothavebeen。SoshepreservedhisBible,andkept,hismemoryintactinherheart,forherownsake。Toherdyingday,forthirty-fiveyears,shedidnotspeakofhim。
Whenshewastwenty-threeyearsold,shemet,ataChristmas,party,ayoungmanfromtheErewashValley。Morelwasthen,twenty-sevenyearsold。Hewaswellset-up,erect,andverysmart。
Hehadwavyblackhairthatshoneagain,andavigorousblack,beardthathadneverbeenshaved。Hischeekswereruddy,andhisred,moistmouthwasnoticeablebecausehelaughedsooften,andsoheartily。Hehadthatrarething,arich,ringinglaugh。
GertrudeCoppardhadwatchedhim,fascinated。Hewassofullof,colourandanimation,hisvoiceransoeasilyintocomicgrotesque,hewassoreadyandsopleasantwitheverybody。Herownfather,hadarichfundofhumour,butitwassatiric。Thisman’s,wasdifferent:,soft,non-intellectual,warm,akindofgambolling。
Sheherselfwasopposite。Shehadacurious,receptivemind,whichfoundmuchpleasureandamusementinlisteningtootherfolk。
Shewascleverinleadingfolktotalk。Shelovedideas,andwas,consideredveryintellectual。Whatshelikedmostofallwasan,argumentonreligionorphilosophyorpoliticswithsomeeducatedman。
Thisshedidnotoftenenjoy。Soshealwayshadpeopletellher,aboutthemselves,findingherpleasureso。
Inherpersonshewasrathersmallanddelicate,witha,largebrow,anddroppingbunchesofbrownsilkcurls。Herblueeyes,wereverystraight,honest,andsearching。Shehadthebeautiful,handsoftheCoppards。Herdresswasalwayssubdued。Shewore,darkbluesilk,withapeculiarsilverchainofsilverscallops。
This,andaheavybroochoftwistedgold,washeronlyornament。
Shewasstillperfectlyintact,deeplyreligious,andfull,ofbeautifulcandour。
WalterMorelseemedmeltedawaybeforeher。Shewas,totheminerthatthingofmysteryandfascination,alady。
Whenshespoketohim,itwaswithasouthernpronunciationanda,purityofEnglishwhichthrilledhimtohear。Shewatchedhim。
Hedancedwell,asifitwerenaturalandjoyousinhimtodance。
HisgrandfatherwasaFrenchrefugeewhohadmarriedanEnglish,barmaid——ifithadbeenamarriage。GertrudeCoppardwatchedthe,youngminerashedanced,acertainsubtleexultationlikeglamourin,hismovement,andhisfacetheflowerofhisbody,ruddy,withtumbled,blackhair,andlaughingalikewhateverpartnerhebowedabove。
Shethoughthimratherwonderful,neverhavingmetanyonelikehim。
Herfatherwastoherthetypeofallmen。AndGeorgeCoppard,proudinhisbearing,handsome,andratherbitter;whopreferred,theologyinreading,andwhodrewnearinsympathyonlytooneman,theApostlePaul;whowasharshingovernment,andinfamiliarityironic;
whoignoredallsensuouspleasure:——hewasverydifferentfrom,theminer。Gertrudeherselfwasrathercontemptuousofdancing;
shehadnottheslightestinclinationtowardsthataccomplishment,andhadneverlearnedevenaRogerdeCoverley。Shewaspuritan,likeherfather,high-minded,andreallystern。Thereforethedusky,goldensoftnessofthisman’ssensuousflameoflife,thatflowedoff,hisfleshliketheflamefromacandle,notbaffledandgrippedinto,incandescencebythoughtandspiritasherlifewas,seemedtoher,somethingwonderful,beyondher。
Hecameandbowedaboveher。Awarmthradiatedthroughher,asifshehaddrunkwine。
“Nowdocomeandhavethisonewi’me,“hesaidcaressively。
“It’seasy,youknow。I’mpiningtoseeyoudance。”
Shehadtoldhimbeforeshecouldnotdance。Sheglanced,athishumilityandsmiled。Hersmilewasverybeautiful。
Itmovedthemansothatheforgoteverything。
“No,Iwon’tdance,“shesaidsoftly。Herwordscameclean,andringing。
Notknowingwhathewasdoing——heoftendidtherightthing,byinstinct——hesatbesideher,incliningreverentially。
“Butyoumustn’tmissyourdance,“shereproved。
“Nay,Idon’twanttodancethat——it’snotoneasIcareabout。”
“Yetyouinvitedmetoit。”
Helaughedveryheartilyatthis。
“Ineverthoughto’that。Tha’rtnotlongintakingthecurl,outofme。”
Itwasherturntolaughquickly。
“Youdon’tlookasifyou’dcomemuchuncurled,“shesaid。
“I’mlikeapig’stail,IcurlbecauseIcannahelpit,“
helaughed,ratherboisterously。
“Andyouareaminer!”sheexclaimedinsurprise。
“Yes。IwentdownwhenIwasten。”
Shelookedathiminwonderingdismay。
“Whenyouwereten!,Andwasn’titveryhard?”sheasked。
“Yousoongetusedtoit。Youliveliketh’mice,an’youpop,outatnighttoseewhat’sgoingon。”
“Itmakesmefeelblind,“shefrowned。
“Likeamoudiwarp!”helaughed。”Yi,an’there’ssomechaps,asdoesgoroundlikemoudiwarps。”,Hethrusthisfaceforward,intheblind,snout-likewayofamole,seemingtosniffand,peerfordirection。”Theydunthough!”heprotestednaively。
“Thaniverseedsuchawaytheygetin。Butthamunletmeta’e,theedownsometime,an’thacanseeforthysen。”
Shelookedathim,startled。Thiswasanewtractoflife,suddenlyopenedbeforeher。Sherealisedthelifeoftheminers,hundredsofthemtoilingbelowearthandcomingupatevening。
Heseemedtohernoble。Heriskedhislifedaily,andwithgaiety。
Shelookedathim,withatouchofappealinherpurehumility。
“Shouldn’tterlikeit?”heaskedtenderly。”’Appennot,it’uddirtythee。”
Shehadneverbeen“thee’d“and“thou’d“before。
ThenextChristmastheyweremarried,andforthreemonths,shewasperfectlyhappy:,forsixmonthsshewasveryhappy。
Hehadsignedthepledge,andworetheblueribbonofa,tee-totaller:,hewasnothingifnotshowy。Theylived,shethought,inhisownhouse。Itwassmall,butconvenientenough,andquite,nicelyfurnished,withsolid,worthystuffthatsuitedherhonestsoul。
Thewomen,herneighbours,wereratherforeigntoher,andMorel’s,motherandsisterswereapttosneeratherladylikeways。
Butshecouldperfectlywelllivebyherself,solongasshe,hadherhusbandclose。
Sometimes,whensheherselfweariedoflove-talk,shetried,toopenherheartseriouslytohim。Shesawhimlistendeferentially,butwithoutunderstanding。Thiskilledhereffortsatafinerintimacy,andshehadflashesoffear。Sometimeshewasrestlessofanevening:
itwasnotenoughforhimjusttobenearher,sherealised。
Shewasgladwhenhesethimselftolittlejobs。
Hewasaremarkablyhandyman——couldmakeormendanything。
Soshewouldsay:
“Idolikethatcoal-rakeofyourmother’s——itissmallandnatty。”
“Doester,mywench?,Well,Imadethat,soIcanmakethee,one!“
“What!why,it’sasteelone!”
“An’whatifitis!,Thas’ltha’eoneverysimilar,ifnot,exactlysame。”
Shedidnotmindthemess,northehammeringandnoise。
Hewasbusyandhappy。
Butintheseventhmonth,whenshewasbrushinghisSundaycoat,shefeltpapersinthebreastpocket,and,seizedwithasuddencuriosity,tookthemouttoread。Heveryrarelyworethefrock-coathewas,marriedin:,andithadnotoccurredtoherbeforetofeelcurious,concerningthepapers。Theywerethebillsofthehouseholdfurniture,stillunpaid。
“Lookhere,“shesaidatnight,afterhewaswashedandhad,hadhisdinner。”Ifoundtheseinthepocketofyourwedding-coat。
Haven’tyousettledthebillsyet?”
“No。Ihaven’thadachance。”
“Butyoutoldmeallwaspaid。IhadbettergointoNottingham,onSaturdayandsettlethem。Idon’tlikesittingonanotherman’s,chairsandeatingfromanunpaidtable。”
Hedidnotanswer。
“Icanhaveyourbank-book,can’tI?”
“Thacanha’eit,forwhatgoodit’llbetothee。”
“Ithought——“shebegan。Hehadtoldherhehadagoodbitof,moneyleftover。Butsherealiseditwasnouseaskingquestions。
Shesatrigidwithbitternessandindignation。
Thenextdayshewentdowntoseehismother。
“Didn’tyoubuythefurnitureforWalter?”sheasked。
“Yes,Idid,“tartlyretortedtheelderwoman。
“Andhowmuchdidhegiveyoutopayforit?”
Theelderwomanwasstungwithfineindignation。
“Eightypound,ifyou’resokeenonknowin’,“shereplied。
“Eightypounds!,Butthereareforty-twopoundsstillowing!”
“Ican’thelpthat。”
“Butwherehasitallgone?”
“You’llfindallthepapers,Ithink,ifyoulook——besideten,poundasheowedme,an’sixpoundastheweddingcostdownhere。”
“Sixpounds!”echoedGertrudeMorel。Itseemedtoher,monstrousthat,afterherownfatherhadpaidsoheavily,forherwedding,sixpoundsmoreshouldhavebeensquandered,ineatinganddrinkingatWalter’sparents’house,athisexpense。
“Andhowmuchhashesunkinhishouses?”sheasked。
“Hishouses——whichhouses?”
GertrudeMorelwentwhitetothelips。Hehadtoldher,thehousehelivedin,andthenextone,washisown。
“Ithoughtthehousewelivein——“shebegan。
“They’remyhouses,thosetwo,“saidthemother-in-law。“And,notcleareither。It’sasmuchasIcandotokeepthemortgage,interestpaid。”
Gertrudesatwhiteandsilent。Shewasherfathernow。
“Thenweoughttobepayingyourent,“shesaidcoldly。
“Walterispayingmerent,“repliedthemother。
“Andwhatrent?”askedGertrude。
“Sixandsixaweek,“retortedthemother。
Itwasmorethanthehousewasworth。Gertrudeheldher,headerect,lookedstraightbeforeher。
“Itisluckytobeyou,“saidtheelderwoman,bitingly,“tohaveahusbandastakesalltheworryofthemoney,andleaves,youafreehand。”
Theyoungwifewassilent。
Shesaidverylittletoherhusband,buthermannerhad,changedtowardshim。Somethinginherproud,honourablesoul,hadcrystallisedouthardasrock。
WhenOctobercamein,shethoughtonlyofChristmas。Twoyearsago,atChristmas,shehadmethim。LastChristmasshehadmarriedhim。
ThisChristmasshewouldbearhimachild。
“Youdon’tdanceyourself,doyou,missis?”askedher,nearestneighbour,inOctober,whentherewasgreattalk,ofopeningadancing-classovertheBrickandTileInnatBestwood。
“No——Ineverhadtheleastinclinationto,“Mrs。Morelreplied。
“Fancy!An’howfunnyasyoushouldha’marriedyourMester。
Youknowhe’squiteafamousonefordancing。”
“Ididn’tknowhewasfamous,“laughedMrs。Morel。
“Yea,heisthough!,Why,heranthatdancing-classintheMiners’
Armsclub-roomforoverfiveyear。”
“Didhe?”
“Yes,hedid。”,Theotherwomanwasdefiant。”An’itwas,throngedeveryTuesday,andThursday,an’Sat’day——an’thereWAS
carryin’s-on,accordin’toallaccounts。”
ThiskindofthingwasgallandbitternesstoMrs。Morel,andshehadafairshareofit。Thewomendidnotspareher,atfirst;
forshewassuperior,thoughshecouldnothelpit。
Hebegantoberatherlateincominghome。
“They’reworkingverylatenow,aren’tthey?”shesaidtoher,washer-woman。
“Nolaterthantheyallersdo,Idon’tthink。Buttheystopto,havetheirpintatEllen’s,an’theygettalkin’,an’thereyouare!
Dinnerstonecold——an’itserves’emright。”
“ButMr。Moreldoesnottakeanydrink。”
Thewomandroppedtheclothes,lookedatMrs。Morel,thenwent,onwithherwork,sayingnothing。
GertrudeMorelwasveryillwhentheboywasborn。
Morelwasgoodtoher,asgoodasgold。Butshefeltverylonely,milesawayfromherownpeople。Shefeltlonelywithhimnow,andhispresenceonlymadeitmoreintense。
Theboywassmallandfrailatfirst,buthecameonquickly。
Hewasabeautifulchild,withdarkgoldringlets,anddark-blue,eyeswhichchangedgraduallytoacleargrey。Hismotherloved,himpassionately。Hecamejustwhenherownbitternessof,disillusionwashardesttobear;whenherfaithinlifewasshaken,andhersoulfeltdrearyandlonely。Shemademuchofthechild,andthefatherwasjealous。
AtlastMrs。Moreldespisedherhusband。Sheturnedto,thechild;sheturnedfromthefather。Hehadbeguntoneglecther;
thenoveltyofhisownhomewasgone。Hehadnogrit,shesaid,bitterlytoherself。Whathefeltjustattheminute,thatwasalltohim。
Hecouldnotabidebyanything。Therewasnothingattheback,ofallhisshow。
Therebeganabattlebetweenthehusbandandwife——afearful,bloodybattlethatendedonlywiththedeathofone。Shefought,tomakehimundertakehisownresponsibilities,tomakehimfulfill,hisobligations。Buthewastoodifferentfromher。Hisnature,waspurelysensuous,andshestrovetomakehimmoral,religious。
Shetriedtoforcehimtofacethings。Hecouldnotendureit——it,drovehimoutofhismind。
Whilethebabywasstilltiny,thefather’stemperhadbecome,soirritablethatitwasnottobetrusted。Thechildhadonlyto,givealittletroublewhenthemanbegantobully。Alittlemore,andthehardhandsofthecollierhitthebaby。ThenMrs。Morel,loathedherhusband,loathedhimfordays;andhewentoutanddrank;
andshecaredverylittlewhathedid。Only,onhisreturn,shescathedhimwithhersatire。
Theestrangementbetweenthemcausedhim,knowinglyorunknowingly,grosslytooffendherwherehewouldnothavedone。
Williamwasonlyoneyearold,andhismotherwasproudofhim,hewassopretty。Shewasnotwelloffnow,buthersisterskept,theboyinclothes。Then,withhislittlewhitehatcurledwithan,ostrichfeather,andhiswhitecoat,hewasajoytoher,thetwining,wispsofhairclusteringroundhishead。Mrs。Morellaylistening,oneSundaymorning,tothechatterofthefatherandchilddownstairs。
Thenshedozedoff。Whenshecamedownstairs,agreatfireglowed,inthegrate,theroomwashot,thebreakfastwasroughlylaid,andseatedinhisarmchair,againstthechimney-piece,satMorel,rathertimid;andstandingbetweenhislegs,thechild——cropped,likeasheep,withsuchanoddroundpoll——lookingwonderingather;
andonanewspaperspreadoutuponthehearthrug,amyriadof,crescent-shapedcurls,likethepetalsofamarigoldscatteredinthe,reddeningfirelight。
Mrs。Morelstoodstill。Itwasherfirstbaby。Shewent,verywhite,andwasunabletospeak。
“Whatdostthinko’’im?”Morellaugheduneasily。
Shegrippedhertwofists,liftedthem,andcameforward。
Morelshrankback。
“Icouldkillyou,Icould!”shesaid。Shechokedwithrage,hertwofistsuplifted。
“Yernonwanttermakeawenchon’im,“Morelsaid,ina,frightenedtone,bendinghisheadtoshieldhiseyesfromhers。
Hisattemptatlaughterhadvanished。
Themotherlookeddownatthejagged,close-clippedheadof,herchild。Sheputherhandsonhishair,andstrokedandfondled,hishead。
“Oh——myboy!”shefaltered。Herliptrembled,herfacebroke,and,snatchingupthechild,sheburiedherfaceinhisshoulder,andcriedpainfully。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhocannotcry;
whomithurtsasithurtsaman。Itwaslikerippingsomething,outofher,hersobbing。
Morelsatwithhiselbowsonhisknees,hishandsgripped,togethertilltheknuckleswerewhite。Hegazedinthefire,feelingalmoststunned,asifhecouldnotbreathe。
Presentlyshecametoanend,soothedthechildandclearedaway,thebreakfast-table。Sheleftthenewspaper,litteredwithcurls,spreaduponthehearthrug。Atlastherhusbandgathereditupandput,itatthebackofthefire。Shewentaboutherworkwithclosed,mouthandveryquiet。Morelwassubdued。Hecreptaboutwretchedly,andhismealswereamiserythatday。Shespoketohimcivilly,andneveralludedtowhathehaddone。Buthefeltsomethingfinal,hadhappened。
Afterwardsshesaidshehadbeensilly,thattheboy’shair,wouldhavehadtobecut,soonerorlater。Intheend,sheeven,broughtherselftosaytoherhusbanditwasjustaswellhehad,playedbarberwhenhedid。Butsheknew,andMorelknew,thatthat,acthadcausedsomethingmomentoustotakeplaceinhersoul。
Sherememberedthesceneallherlife,asoneinwhichshehad,sufferedthemostintensely。
Thisactofmasculineclumsinesswasthespearthroughthesideof,herloveforMorel。Before,whileshehadstrivenagainsthimbitterly,shehadfrettedafterhim,asifhehadgoneastrayfromher。
Nowsheceasedtofretforhislove:,hewasanoutsidertoher。
Thismadelifemuchmorebearable。
Nevertheless,shestillcontinuedtostrivewithhim。Shestill,hadherhighmoralsense,inheritedfromgenerationsofPuritans。
Itwasnowareligiousinstinct,andshewasalmostafanatic,withhim,becauseshelovedhim,orhadlovedhim。Ifhesinned,shetorturedhim。Ifhedrank,andlied,wasoftenapoltroon,sometimesaknave,shewieldedthelashunmercifully。
Thepitywas,shewastoomuchhisopposite。Shecouldnotbe,contentwiththelittlehemightbe;shewouldhavehimthemuchthat,heoughttobe。So,inseekingtomakehimnoblerthanhecouldbe,shedestroyedhim。Sheinjuredandhurtandscarredherself,butshelostnoneofherworth。Shealsohadthechildren。
Hedrankratherheavily,thoughnotmorethanmanyminers,andalwaysbeer,sothatwhilsthishealthwasaffected,itwas,neverinjured。Theweek-endwashischiefcarouse。Hesatin,theMiners’Armsuntilturning-outtimeeveryFriday,everySaturday,andeverySundayevening。OnMondayandTuesdayhehadtogetup,andreluctantlyleavetowardsteno’clock。Sometimeshestayedathome,onWednesdayandThursdayevenings,orwasonlyoutforanhour。
Hepracticallyneverhadtomissworkowingtohisdrinking。
Butalthoughhewasverysteadyatwork,hiswagesfelloff。
Hewasblab-mouthed,atongue-wagger。Authoritywashatefultohim,thereforehecouldonlyabusethepit-managers。Hewouldsay,inthePalmerston:
“Th’gaffercomedowntoourstallthismorning,an’’esays,’Youknow,Walter,this’ere’llnotdo。Whatabouttheseprops?’
An’Isaystohim,’Why,whatarttalkin’about?,Whatd’st,meanaboutth’props?’,’It’llneverdo,this’ere,’’esays。
’You’llbehavin’th’roofin,oneo’thesedays。’,An’Isays,’Tha’dbetterstan’onabito’clunch,then,an’holditupwi’
thy’ead。’,So’eworthatmad,’ecossedan’’eswore,an’
t’otherchapstheydidlaugh。”,Morelwasagoodmimic。Heimitated,themanager’sfat,squeakyvoice,withitsattemptatgoodEnglish。
“’Ishan’thaveit,Walter。Whoknowsmoreaboutit,meoryou?’
SoIsays,’I’veniverfunouthowmuchtha’knows,Alfred。
It’ll’appencarrytheeterbedan’back。”’
SoMorelwouldgoontotheamusementofhisbooncompanions。
Andsomeofthiswouldbetrue。Thepit-managerwasnotan,educatedman。HehadbeenaboyalongwithMorel,sothat,whilethetwodislikedeachother,theymoreorlesstookeach,otherforgranted。ButAlfredCharlesworthdidnotforgive,thebuttythesepublic-housesayings。Consequently,althoughMorel,wasagoodminer,sometimesearningasmuchasfivepoundsaweek,whenhemarried,hecamegraduallytohaveworseandworsestalls,wherethecoalwasthin,andhardtoget,andunprofitable。
Also,insummer,thepitsareslack。Often,onbrightsunny,mornings,themenareseentroopinghomeagainatten,eleven,ortwelve,o’clock。Noemptytrucksstandatthepit-mouth。Thewomenonthe,hillsidelookacrossastheyshakethehearthrugagainstthefence,andcountthewagonstheengineistakingalongthelineupthevalley。
Andthechildren,astheycomefromschoolatdinner-time,looking,downthefieldsandseeingthewheelsontheheadstocksstanding,say:
“Minton’sknockedoff。Mydad’llbeathome。”
Andthereisasortofshadowoverall,womenandchildren,andmen,becausemoneywillbeshortattheendoftheweek。
Morelwassupposedtogivehiswifethirtyshillingsaweek,toprovideeverything——rent,food,clothes,clubs,insurance,doctors。
Occasionally,ifhewereflush,hegaveherthirty-five。But,theseoccasionsbynomeansbalancedthosewhenhegaveher,twenty-five。Inwinter,withadecentstall,theminermight,earnfiftyorfifty-fiveshillingsaweek。Thenhewashappy。
OnFridaynight,Saturday,andSunday,hespentroyally,gettingrid,ofhissovereignorthereabouts。Andoutofsomuch,hescarcely,sparedthechildrenanextrapennyorboughtthemapoundofapples。
Itallwentindrink。Inthebadtimes,mattersweremoreworrying,buthewasnotsooftendrunk,sothatMrs。Morelusedtosay:
“I’mnotsureIwouldn’tratherbeshort,forwhenhe’sflush,thereisn’taminuteofpeace。”
Ifheearnedfortyshillingshekeptten;fromthirty-fivehe,keptfive;fromthirty-twohekeptfour;fromtwenty-eighthekeptthree;
fromtwenty-fourhekepttwo;fromtwentyhekeptone-and-six;
fromeighteenhekeptashilling;fromsixteenhekeptsixpence。
Heneversavedapenny,andhegavehiswifenoopportunity,ofsaving;instead,shehadoccasionallytopayhisdebts;
notpublic-housedebts,forthoseneverwerepassedontothewomen,butdebtswhenhehadboughtacanary,orafancywalking-stick。
AtthewakestimeMorelwasworkingbadly,and,Mrs。Morelwastryingtosaveagainstherconfinement。
Soitgalledherbitterlytothinkheshouldbeout,takinghispleasureandspendingmoney,whilstsheremained,athome,harassed。Thereweretwodays’holiday。OntheTuesday,morningMorelroseearly。Hewasingoodspirits。Quiteearly,beforesixo’clock,sheheardhimwhistlingawaytohimselfdownstairs。
Hehadapleasantwayofwhistling,livelyandmusical。
Henearlyalwayswhistledhymns。Hehadbeenachoir-boywith,abeautifulvoice,andhadtakensolosinSouthwellcathedral。
Hismorningwhistlingalonebetrayedit。
Hiswifelaylisteningtohimtinkeringawayinthegarden,hiswhistlingringingoutashesawedandhammeredaway。Italways,gaveherasenseofwarmthandpeacetohearhimthusasshelay,inbed,thechildrennotyetawake,inthebrightearlymorning,happyinhisman’sfashion。
Atnineo’clock,whilethechildrenwithbarelegsandfeet,weresittingplayingonthesofa,andthemotherwaswashingup,hecameinfromhiscarpentry,hissleevesrolledup,hiswaistcoat,hangingopen。Hewasstillagood-lookingman,withblack,wavyhair,andalargeblackmoustache。Hisfacewasperhapstoo,muchinflamed,andtherewasabouthimalookalmostofpeevishness。
Butnowhewasjolly。Hewentstraighttothesinkwherehiswife,waswashingup。
“What,aretheethere!”hesaidboisterously。”Slutheoffan’
letmeweshmysen。”
“YoumaywaittillI’vefinished,“saidhiswife。
“Oh,munI?,An’whatifIshonna?”
Thisgood-humouredthreatamusedMrs。Morel。
“Thenyoucangoandwashyourselfinthesoft-watertub。”
“Ha!,Ican’an’a’,thamuckylittle’ussy。”
Withwhichhestoodwatchingheramoment,thenwentaway,towaitforher。
Whenhechosehecouldstillmakehimselfagainarealgallant。
Usuallyhepreferredtogooutwithascarfroundhisneck。
Now,however,hemadeatoilet。Thereseemedsomuchgustointheway,hepuffedandswilledashewashedhimself,somuchalacritywith,whichhehurriedtothemirrorinthekitchen,and,bendingbecause,itwastoolowforhim,scrupulouslypartedhiswetblackhair,thatitirritatedMrs。Morel。Heputonaturn-downcollar,ablackbow,andworehisSundaytail-coat。Assuch,helooked,spruce,andwhathisclotheswouldnotdo,hisinstinctformaking,themostofhisgoodlookswould。
Athalf-pastnineJerryPurdycametocallforhispal。
JerrywasMorel’sbosomfriend,andMrs。Moreldislikedhim。
Hewasatall,thinman,witharatherfoxyface,thekind,offacethatseemstolackeyelashes。Hewalkedwithastiff,brittledignity,asifhisheadwereonawoodenspring。Hisnature,wascoldandshrewd。Generouswhereheintendedtobegenerous,heseemedtobeveryfondofMorel,andmoreorlesstotakecharge,ofhim。
Mrs。Morelhatedhim。Shehadknownhiswife,whohaddied,ofconsumption,andwhohad,attheend,conceivedsuchaviolent,dislikeofherhusband,thatifhecameintoherroomitcaused,herhaemorrhage。NoneofwhichJerryhadseemedtomind。Andnow,hiseldestdaughter,agirloffifteen,keptapoorhouseforhim,andlookedafterthetwoyoungerchildren。
“Amean,wizzen-heartedstick!”Mrs。Morelsaidofhim。
“I’veneverknownJerrymeaninMYlife,“protestedMorel。
“Aopener-handedandmorefreerchapyoucouldn’tfindanywhere,accordin’tomyknowledge。”
“Open-handedtoyou,“retortedMrs。Morel。”Buthisfist,isshuttightenoughtohischildren,poorthings。”
“Poorthings!,Andwhatforaretheypoorthings,Ishould,liketoknow。”
ButMrs。MorelwouldnotbeappeasedonJerry’sscore。
Thesubjectofargumentwasseen,craninghisthinneck,overthescullerycurtain。HecaughtMrs。Morel’seye。
“Mornin’,missis!,Mesterin?”
“Yes——heis。”
Jerryenteredunasked,andstoodbythekitchendoorway。
Hewasnotinvitedtositdown,butstoodthere,coollyasserting,therightsofmenandhusbands。
“Aniceday,“hesaidtoMrs。Morel。
“Yes。
“Grandoutthismorning——grandforawalk。”
“DoyoumeanYOU’REgoingforawalk?”sheasked。
“Yes。Wemeanwalkin’toNottingham,“hereplied。
“H’m!”
Thetwomengreetedeachother,bothglad:,Jerry,however,fullofassurance,Morelrathersubdued,afraidtoseemtoojubilantin,presenceofhiswife。Buthelacedhisbootsquickly,withspirit。
Theyweregoingforaten-milewalkacrossthefieldstoNottingham。
ClimbingthehillsidefromtheBottoms,theymountedgailyinto,themorning。AttheMoonandStarstheyhadtheirfirstdrink,thenontotheOldSpot。Thenalongfivemilesofdroughttocarry,themintoBulwelltoagloriouspintofbitter。Buttheystayed,inafieldwithsomehaymakerswhosegallonbottlewasfull,sothat,whentheycameinsightofthecity,Morelwassleepy。Thetown,spreadupwardsbeforethem,smokingvaguelyinthemiddayglare,fridgingthecrestawaytothesouthwithspiresandfactorybulks,andchimneys。InthelastfieldMorellaydownunderanoaktree,andsleptsoundlyforoveranhour。Whenherosetogoforwardhe,feltqueer。
ThetwohaddinnerintheMeadows,withJerry’ssister,thenrepairedtothePunchBowl,wheretheymixedintheexcitement,ofpigeon-racing。Morelneverinhislifeplayedcards,consideringthem,ashavingsomeoccult,malevolentpower——“thedevil’spictures,“
hecalledthem!,Buthewasamasterofskittlesandofdominoes。
HetookachallengefromaNewarkman,onskittles。Allthemenin,theold,longbartooksides,bettingeitheronewayortheother。
Moreltookoffhiscoat。Jerryheldthehatcontainingthemoney。
Themenatthetableswatched。Somestoodwiththeirmugsin,theirhands。Morelfelthisbigwoodenballcarefully,thenlaunchedit。
Heplayedhavocamongthenine-pins,andwonhalfacrown,whichrestoredhimtosolvency。
Byseveno’clockthetwowereingoodcondition。Theycaught,the7。30trainhome。
IntheafternoontheBottomswasintolerable。Everyinhabitant,remainingwasoutofdoors。Thewomen,intwosandthrees,bareheadedandinwhiteaprons,gossipedinthealleybetweentheblocks。
Men,havingarestbetweendrinks,satontheirheelsandtalked。
Theplacesmelledstale;theslateroofsglisteredinthearidheat。
Mrs。Moreltookthelittlegirldowntothebrookinthemeadows,whichwerenotmorethantwohundredyardsaway。Thewaterran,quicklyoverstonesandbrokenpots。Motherandchildleanedon,therailoftheoldsheep-bridge,watching。Upatthedipping-hole,attheotherendofthemeadow,Mrs。Morelcouldseethenaked,formsofboysflashingroundthedeepyellowwater,oranoccasionalbrightfiguredartglitteringovertheblackish,stagnantmeadow。SheknewWilliamwasatthedipping-hole,anditwasthedreadofherlifelestheshouldgetdrowned。
Annieplayedunderthetalloldhedge,pickingupaldercones,thatshecalledcurrants。Thechildrequiredmuchattention,andtheflieswereteasing。
Thechildrenwereputtobedatseveno’clock。Thenshe,workedawhile。
WhenWalterMorelandJerryarrivedatBestwoodtheyfelt,aloadofftheirminds;arailwayjourneynolongerimpended,sotheycouldputthefinishingtouchestoagloriousday。
TheyenteredtheNelsonwiththesatisfactionofreturnedtravellers。
Thenextdaywasawork-day,andthethoughtofitputadamper,onthemen’sspirits。Mostofthem,moreover,hadspenttheirmoney。
Somewerealreadyrollingdismallyhome,tosleepinpreparation,forthemorrow。Mrs。Morel,listeningtotheirmournfulsinging,wentindoors。Nineo’clockpassed,andten,andstill“thepair“
hadnotreturned。Onadoorstepsomewhereamanwassingingloudly,inadrawl:,“Lead,kindlyLight。”,Mrs。Morelwasalwaysindignant,withthedrunkenmenthattheymustsingthathymnwhenthey,gotmaudlin。
“Asif’Genevieve’weren’tgoodenough,“shesaid。
Thekitchenwasfullofthescentofboiledherbsandhops。
Onthehobalargeblacksaucepansteamedslowly。Mrs。Moreltook,apanchion,agreatbowlofthickredearth,streamedaheapofwhite,sugarintothebottom,andthen,strainingherselftotheweight,waspouringintheliquor。
JustthenMorelcamein。HehadbeenveryjollyintheNelson,butcominghomehadgrownirritable。Hehadnotquitegotoverthe,feelingofirritabilityandpain,afterhavingsleptontheground,whenhewassohot;andabadconscienceafflictedhimasheneared,thehouse。Hedidnotknowhewasangry。Butwhenthegardengate,resistedhisattemptstoopenit,hekickeditandbrokethelatch。
HeenteredjustasMrs。Morelwaspouringtheinfusionofherbsout,ofthesaucepan。Swayingslightly,helurchedagainstthetable。
Theboilingliquorpitched。Mrs。Morelstartedback。
“Goodgracious,“shecried,“cominghomeinhisdrunkenness!”
“Comin’homeinhiswhat?”hesnarled,hishatoverhiseye。
Suddenlyherbloodroseinajet。
“Sayyou’reNOTdrunk!”sheflashed。
Shehadputdownhersaucepan,andwasstirringthesugar,intothebeer。Hedroppedhistwohandsheavilyonthetable,andthrusthisfaceforwardsather。
“’Sayyou’renotdrunk,’“herepeated。”Why,nobody,butanastylittlebitchlikeyou’ud’avesuchathought。”
Hethrusthisfaceforwardather。
“There’smoneytobezzlewith,ifthere’smoneyfornothingelse。”
“I’venotspentatwo-shillin’bitthisday,“hesaid。
“Youdon’tgetasdrunkasalordonnothing,“shereplied。
“And,“shecried,flashingintosuddenfury,“ifyou’vebeensponging,onyourbelovedJerry,why,lethimlookafterhischildren,fortheyneedit。”
“It’salie,it’salie。Shutyourface,woman。”
Theywerenowatbattle-pitch。Eachforgoteverythingsave,thehatredoftheotherandthebattlebetweenthem。Shewasfiery,andfuriousashe。Theywentontillhecalledheraliar。
“No,“shecried,startingup,scarceabletobreathe。
“Don’tcallmethat——you,themostdespicableliarthateverwalked,inshoe-leather。”Sheforcedthelastwordsoutofsuffocatedlungs。
“You’realiar!”heyelled,bangingthetablewithhisfist。
“You’realiar,you’realiar。”
Shestiffenedherself,withclenchedfists。
“Thehouseisfilthywithyou,“shecried。
“Thengetoutonit——it’smine。Getoutonit!”heshouted。
“It’smeasbringsth’moneywhoam,notthee。It’smyhouse,notthine。
Thengerouton’t——gerouton’t!”
“AndIwould,“shecried,suddenlyshakenintotears,ofimpotence。”Ah,wouldn’tI,wouldn’tIhavegonelongago,butforthosechildren。Ay,haven’tIrepentednotgoingyearsago,whenI’donlytheone“——suddenlydryingintorage。”Doyouthink,it’sforYOUIstop——doyouthinkI’dstoponeminuteforYOU?”
“Go,then,“heshouted,besidehimself。”Go!”
“No!”Shefacedround。”No,“shecriedloudly,“youshan’t,haveitALLyourownway;youshan’tdoALLyoulike。I’vegot,thosechildrentoseeto。Myword,“shelaughed,“Ishouldlook,welltoleavethemtoyou。”
“Go,“hecriedthickly,liftinghisfist。Hewasafraid,ofher。”Go!”
“Ishouldbeonlytooglad。Ishouldlaugh,laugh,mylord,ifIcouldgetawayfromyou,“shereplied。
Hecameuptoher,hisredface,withitsbloodshoteyes,thrustforward,andgrippedherarms。Shecriedinfearofhim,struggledtobefree。Comingslightlytohimself,panting,hepushed,herroughlytotheouterdoor,andthrustherforth,slottingthe,boltbehindherwithabang。Thenhewentbackintothekitchen,droppedintohisarmchair,hishead,burstingfullofblood,sinkingbetweenhisknees。Thushedippedgraduallyintoastupor,fromexhaustionandintoxication。
ThemoonwashighandmagnificentintheAugustnight。
Mrs。Morel,searedwithpassion,shiveredtofindherselfoutthere,inagreatwhitelight,thatfellcoldonher,andgaveashock,toherinflamedsoul。Shestoodforafewmomentshelplessly,staringattheglisteninggreatrhubarbleavesnearthedoor。
Thenshegottheairintoherbreast。Shewalkeddownthegardenpath,tremblingineverylimb,whilethechildboiledwithinher。
Forawhileshecouldnotcontrolherconsciousness;mechanicallyshe,wentoverthelastscene,thenoveritagain,certainphrases,certainmomentscomingeachtimelikeabrandred-hotdownon,hersoul;andeachtimesheenactedagainthepasthour,eachtime,thebrandcamedownatthesamepoints,tillthemarkwasburntin,andthepainburntout,andatlastshecametoherself。
Shemusthavebeenhalfanhourinthisdeliriouscondition。
Thenthepresenceofthenightcameagaintoher。Sheglancedround,infear。Shehadwanderedtothesidegarden,whereshewaswalking,upanddownthepathbesidethecurrantbushesunderthelongwall。
Thegardenwasanarrowstrip,boundedfromtheroad,thatcut,transverselybetweentheblocks,byathickthornhedge。
Shehurriedoutofthesidegardentothefront,whereshe,couldstandasifinanimmensegulfofwhitelight,themoon,streaminghighinfaceofher,themoonlightstandingupfromthe,hillsinfront,andfillingthevalleywheretheBottomscrouched,almostblindingly。There,pantingandhalfweepinginreaction,fromthestress,shemurmuredtoherselfoverandoveragain:
“Thenuisance!thenuisance!”
Shebecameawareofsomethingabouther。Withaneffortshe,rousedherselftoseewhatitwasthatpenetratedherconsciousness。
Thetallwhitelilieswerereelinginthemoonlight,andtheairwas,chargedwiththeirperfume,aswithapresence。Mrs。Morelgasped,slightlyinfear。Shetouchedthebig,pallidflowersontheirpetals,thenshivered。Theyseemedtobestretchinginthemoonlight。
Sheputherhandintoonewhitebin:,thegoldscarcelyshowed,onherfingersbymoonlight。Shebentdowntolookatthebinful,ofyellowpollen;butitonlyappeareddusky。Thenshedrankadeep,draughtofthescent。Italmostmadeherdizzy。
Mrs。Morelleanedonthegardengate,lookingout,andshe,lostherselfawhile。Shedidnotknowwhatshethought。
Exceptforaslightfeelingofsickness,andherconsciousnessin,thechild,herselfmeltedoutlikescentintotheshiny,paleair。
Afteratimethechild,too,meltedwithherinthemixing-pot,ofmoonlight,andsherestedwiththehillsandliliesandhouses,allswumtogetherinakindofswoon。
Whenshecametoherselfshewastiredforsleep。Languidlyshe,lookedabouther;theclumpsofwhitephloxseemedlikebushesspread,withlinen;amothricochettedoverthem,andrightacrossthegarden。
Followingitwithhereyerousedher。Afewwhiffsoftheraw,strongscentofphloxinvigoratedher。Shepassedalongthepath,hesitatingatthewhiterose-bush。Itsmelledsweetandsimple。
Shetouchedthewhiterufflesoftheroses。Theirfreshscent,andcool,softleavesremindedherofthemorning-timeandsunshine。
Shewasveryfondofthem。Butshewastired,andwantedtosleep。
Inthemysteriousout-of-doorsshefeltforlorn。
Therewasnonoiseanywhere。Evidentlythechildrenhadnot,beenwakened,orhadgonetosleepagain。Atrain,threemilesaway,roaredacrossthevalley。Thenightwasverylarge,andverystrange,stretchingitshoarydistancesinfinitely。Andoutofthesilver-grey,fogofdarknesscamesoundsvagueandhoarse:,acorncrakenot,faroff,soundofatrainlikeasigh,anddistantshoutsofmen。
Herquietenedheartbeginningtobeatquicklyagain,shehurried,downthesidegardentothebackofthehouse。Softlyshelifted,thelatch;thedoorwasstillbolted,andhardagainsther。
Sherappedgently,waited,thenrappedagain。Shemustnotrouse,thechildren,northeneighbours。Hemustbeasleep,andhewould,notwakeeasily。Herheartbegantoburntobeindoors。Sheclung,tothedoor-handle。Nowitwascold;shewouldtakeachill,andinherpresentcondition!
Puttingherapronoverherheadandherarms,shehurriedagain,tothesidegarden,tothewindowofthekitchen。Leaningonthesill,shecouldjustsee,undertheblind,herhusband’sarmsspread,outonthetable,andhisblackheadontheboard。Hewassleeping,withhisfacelyingonthetable。Somethinginhisattitudemade,herfeeltiredofthings。Thelampwasburningsmokily;shecould,tellbythecoppercolourofthelight。Shetappedatthewindow,moreandmorenoisily。Almostitseemedasiftheglasswouldbreak。
Stillhedidnotwakeup。
Aftervainefforts,shebegantoshiver,partlyfromcontactwith,thestone,andfromexhaustion。Fearfulalwaysfortheunbornchild,shewonderedwhatshecoulddoforwarmth。Shewentdowntothe,coal-house,wheretherewasanoldhearthrugshehadcarriedoutfor,therag-manthedaybefore。Thisshewrappedoverhershoulders。
Itwaswarm,ifgrimy。Thenshewalkedupanddownthegardenpath,peepingeverynowandthenundertheblind,knocking,andtelling,herselfthatintheendtheverystrainofhispositionmustwakehim。
Atlast,afteraboutanhour,sherappedlongandlowat,thewindow。Graduallythesoundpenetratedtohim。When,indespair,shehadceasedtotap,shesawhimstir,thenlifthisfaceblindly。
Thelabouringofhishearthurthimintoconsciousness。Sherapped,imperativelyatthewindow。Hestartedawake。Instantlyshesawhis,fistssetandhiseyesglare。Hehadnotagrainofphysicalfear。
Ifithadbeentwentyburglars,hewouldhavegoneblindlyforthem。
Heglaredround,bewildered,butpreparedtofight。
“Openthedoor,Walter,“shesaidcoldly。
Hishandsrelaxed。Itdawnedonhimwhathehaddone。
Hisheaddropped,sullenanddogged。Shesawhimhurrytothedoor,heardtheboltchock。Hetriedthelatch。Itopened——andthere,stoodthesilver-greynight,fearfultohim,afterthetawnylight,ofthelamp。Hehurriedback。
WhenMrs。Morelentered,shesawhimalmost,runningthroughthedoortothestairs。Hehadripped,hiscollaroffhisneckinhishastetobegoneereshe,camein,andthereitlaywithburstenbutton-holes。Itmadeherangry。
Shewarmedandsoothedherself。Inherwearinessforgetting,everything,shemovedaboutatthelittletasksthatremainedtobedone,sethisbreakfast,rinsedhispit-bottle,puthispit-clothesonthe,hearthtowarm,sethispit-bootsbesidethem,puthimoutaclean,scarfandsnap-bagandtwoapples,rakedthefire,andwenttobed。
Hewasalreadydeadasleep。Hisnarrowblackeyebrowsweredrawn,upinasortofpeevishmiseryintohisforeheadwhilehischeeks’
down-strokes,andhissulkymouth,seemedtobesaying:,“Idon’t,carewhoyouarenorwhatyouare,ISHALLhavemyownway。”
Mrs。Morelknewhimtoowelltolookathim。Assheunfastened,herbroochatthemirror,shesmiledfaintlytoseeherface,allsmearedwiththeyellowdustoflilies。Shebrusheditoff,andatlastlaydown。Forsometimehermindcontinuedsnapping,andjettingsparks,butshewasasleepbeforeherhusbandawoke,fromthefirstsleepofhisdrunkenness。
CHAPTERII
THEBIRTHOFPAUL,ANDANOTHERBATTLE
AFTERsuchasceneasthelast,WalterMorelwasforsomedaysabashed,andashamed,buthesoonregainedhisoldbullyingindifference。
Yettherewasaslightshrinking,adiminishinginhisassurance。
Physicallyeven,heshrank,andhisfinefullpresencewaned。
Henevergrewintheleaststout,sothat,ashesankfromhiserect,assertivebearing,hisphysiqueseemedtocontractalongwithhispride,andmoralstrength。
Butnowherealisedhowharditwasforhiswifetodrag,aboutatherwork,and,hissympathyquickenedbypenitence,hastenedforwardwithhishelp。Hecamestraighthomefromthepit,andstayedinateveningtillFriday,andthenhecouldnotremain,athome。Buthewasbackagainbyteno’clock,almostquitesober。
Healwaysmadehisownbreakfast。Beingamanwhoroseearly,andhadplentyoftimehedidnot,assomeminersdo,draghiswife,outofbedatsixo’clock。Atfive,sometimesearlier,hewoke,gotstraightoutofbed,andwentdownstairs。Whenshecouldnotsleep,hiswifelaywaitingforthistime,asforaperiodofpeace。
Theonlyrealrestseemedtobewhenhewasoutofthehouse。
Hewentdownstairsinhisshirtandthenstruggledintohis,pit-trousers,whichwereleftonthehearthtowarmallnight。
Therewasalwaysafire,becauseMrs。Morelraked。Andthefirst,soundinthehousewasthebang,bangofthepokeragainsttheraker,asMorelsmashedtheremainderofthecoaltomakethekettle,whichwasfilledandleftonthehob,finallyboil。Hiscupandknife,andfork,allhewantedexceptjustthefood,waslaidreadyon,thetableonanewspaper。Thenhegothisbreakfast,madethetea,packedthebottomofthedoorswithrugstoshutoutthedraught,piledabigfire,andsatdowntoanhourofjoy。Hetoasted,hisbacononaforkandcaughtthedropsoffatonhisbread;
thenheputtherasheronhisthicksliceofbread,andcutoffchunks,withaclasp-knife,pouredhisteaintohissaucer,andwashappy。
Withhisfamilyabout,mealswereneversopleasant。Heloathed,afork:,itisamodernintroductionwhichhasstillscarcelyreached,commonpeople。WhatMorelpreferredwasaclasp-knife。Then,insolitude,heateanddrank,oftensitting,incoldweather,onalittlestoolwithhisbacktothewarmchimney-piece,hisfood,onthefender,hiscuponthehearth。Andthenhereadthelast,night’snewspaper——whatofithecould——spellingitoverlaboriously。
Hepreferredtokeeptheblindsdownandthecandlelitevenwhenit,wasdaylight;itwasthehabitofthemine。
Ataquartertosixherose,cuttwothickslicesofbread,andbutter,andputtheminthewhitecalicosnap-bag。Hefilledhis,tinbottlewithtea。Coldteawithoutmilkorsugarwasthedrink,hepreferredforthepit。Thenhepulledoffhisshirt,andput,onhispit-singlet,avestofthickflannelcutlowroundtheneck,andwithshortsleeveslikeachemise。