InmemoryofaffectionsoldandtrueOptimadies……primafugitVIRGIL
INTRODUCTION
LASTsummerIhappenedtobecrossingtheplainsofIowainaseasonofintenseheat,anditwasmygoodfortunetohaveforatravelingcompanionJamesQuayleBurden——JimBurden,aswestillcallhimintheWest。HeandIareoldfriends——wegrewuptogetherinthesameNebraskatown——andwehadmuchtosaytoeachother。
Whilethetrainflashedthroughnever-endingmilesofripewheat,bycountrytownsandbright-floweredpasturesandoakgroveswiltinginthesun,wesatintheobservationcar,wherethewoodworkwashottothetouchandreddustlaydeepovereverything。
Thedustandheat,theburningwind,remindedusofmanythings。
Weweretalkingaboutwhatitisliketospendone\'schildhoodinlittletownslikethese,buriedinwheatandcorn,understimulatingextremesofclimate:burningsummerswhentheworldliesgreenandbillowybeneathabrilliantsky,whenoneisfairlystifledinvegetation,inthecolorandsmellofstrongweedsandheavyharvests;
blusterywinterswithlittlesnow,whenthewholecountryisstrippedbareandgrayassheet-iron。Weagreedthatnoonewhohadnotgrownupinalittleprairietowncouldknowanythingaboutit。
Itwasakindoffreemasonry,wesaid。
AlthoughJimBurdenandIbothliveinNewYork,andareoldfriends,Idonotseemuchofhimthere。
HeislegalcounselforoneofthegreatWesternrailways,andissometimesawayfromhisNewYorkofficeforweekstogether。
Thatisonereasonwhywedonotoftenmeet。AnotheristhatI
donotlikehiswife。
WhenJimwasstillanobscureyounglawyer,strugglingtomakehiswayinNewYork,hiscareerwassuddenlyadvancedbyabrilliantmarriage。
GenevieveWhitneywastheonlydaughterofadistinguishedman。
HermarriagewithyoungBurdenwasthesubjectofsharpcommentatthetime。
Itwassaidshehadbeenbrutallyjiltedbyhercousin,RutlandWhitney,andthatshemarriedthisunknownmanfromtheWestoutofbravado。Shewasarestless,headstronggirl,eventhen,wholikedtoastonishherfriends。
Later,whenIknewher,shewasalwaysdoingsomethingunexpected。
ShegaveoneofhertownhousesforaSuffrageheadquarters,producedoneofherownplaysatthePrincessTheater,wasarrestedforpicketingduringagarment-makers\'strike,etc。Iamneverabletobelievethatshehasmuchfeelingforthecausestowhichshelendshernameandherfleetinginterest。
Sheishandsome,energetic,executive,buttomesheseemsunimpressionableandtemperamentallyincapableofenthusiasm。Herhusband\'squiettastesirritateher,Ithink,andshefindsitworthwhiletoplaythepatronesstoagroupofyoungpoetsandpaintersofadvancedideasandmediocreability。
Shehasherownfortuneandlivesherownlife。Forsomereason,shewishestoremainMrs。JamesBurden。
AsforJim,nodisappointmentshavebeensevereenoughtochillhisnaturallyromanticandardentdisposition。Thisdisposition,thoughitoftenmadehimseemveryfunnywhenhewasaboy,hasbeenoneofthestrongestelementsinhissuccess。
Heloveswithapersonalpassionthegreatcountrythroughwhichhisrailwayrunsandbranches。Hisfaithinitandhisknowledgeofithaveplayedanimportantpartinitsdevelopment。
HeisalwaysabletoraisecapitalfornewenterprisesinWyomingorMontana,andhashelpedyoungmenouttheretodoremarkablethingsinminesandtimberandoil。
IfayoungmanwithanideacanoncegetJimBurden\'sattention,canmanagetoaccompanyhimwhenhegoesoffintothewildshuntingforlostparksorexploringnewcanyons,thenthemoneywhichmeansactionisusuallyforthcoming。
JimisstillabletolosehimselfinthosebigWesterndreams。
Thoughheisoverfortynow,hemeetsnewpeopleandnewenterpriseswiththeimpulsivenessbywhichhisboyhoodfriendsrememberhim。
Heneverseemstometogrowolder。Hisfreshcolorandsandyhairandquick-changingblueeyesarethoseofayoungman,andhissympathetic,solicitousinterestinwomenisasyouthfulasitisWesternandAmerican。
DuringthatburningdaywhenwewerecrossingIowa,ourtalkkeptreturningtoacentralfigure,aBohemiangirlwhomwehadknownlongagoandwhombothofusadmired。
Morethananyotherpersonweremembered,thisgirlseemedtomeantousthecountry,theconditions,thewholeadventureofourchildhood。Tospeakhernamewastocalluppicturesofpeopleandplaces,tosetaquietdramagoinginone\'sbrain。
Ihadlostsightofheraltogether,butJimhadfoundheragainafterlongyears,hadrenewedafriendshipthatmeantagreatdealtohim,andoutofhisbusylifehadsetaparttimeenoughtoenjoythatfriendship。Hismindwasfullofherthatday。
Hemademeseeheragain,feelherpresence,revivedallmyoldaffectionforher。
“Ican\'tsee,“hesaidimpetuously,“whyyouhaveneverwrittenanythingaboutAntonia。“
ItoldhimIhadalwaysfeltthatotherpeople——hehimself,foroneknewhermuchbetterthanI。Iwasready,however,tomakeanagreementwithhim;IwouldsetdownonpaperallthatIrememberedofAntoniaifhewoulddothesame。
Wemight,inthisway,getapictureofher。
Herumpledhishairwithaquick,excitedgesture,whichwithhimoftenannouncesanewdetermination,andIcouldseethatmysuggestiontookholdofhim。“MaybeIwill,maybeIwill!“
hedeclared。Hestaredoutofthewindowforafewmoments,andwhenheturnedtomeagainhiseyeshadthesuddenclearnessthatcomesfromsomethingtheminditselfsees。
“Ofcourse,“hesaid,“Ishouldhavetodoitinadirectway,andsayagreatdealaboutmyself。It\'sthroughmyselfthatI
knewandfelther,andI\'vehadnopracticeinanyotherformofpresentation。“
ItoldhimthathowheknewherandfeltherwasexactlywhatI
mostwantedtoknowaboutAntonia。HehadhadopportunitiesthatI,asalittlegirlwhowatchedhercomeandgo,hadnot。
MonthsafterwardJimBurdenarrivedatmyapartmentonestormywinterafternoon,withabulginglegalportfolioshelteredunderhisfurovercoat。
Hebroughtitintothesitting-roomwithhimandtappeditwithsomeprideashestoodwarminghishands。
“Ifinisheditlastnight——thethingaboutAntonia,“hesaid。
“Now,whataboutyours?“
Ihadtoconfessthatminehadnotgonebeyondafewstragglingnotes。
“Notes?Ididn\'tmakeany。“Hedrankhisteaallatonceandputdownthecup。“Ididn\'tarrangeorrearrange。
IsimplywrotedownwhatofherselfandmyselfandotherpeopleAntonia\'snamerecallstome。Isupposeithasn\'tanyform。
Ithasn\'tanytitle,either。“Hewentintothenextroom,satdownatmydeskandwroteonthepinkishfaceoftheportfoliotheword,“Antonia。“Hefrownedatthisamoment,thenprefixedanotherword,makingit“MyAntonia。“
Thatseemedtosatisfyhim。
“Readitassoonasyoucan,“hesaid,rising,“butdon\'tletitinfluenceyourownstory。“
Myownstorywasneverwritten,butthefollowingnarrativeisJim\'smanuscript,substantiallyashebroughtittome。
NOTES:[1]TheBohemiannameAntoniaisstronglyaccentedonthefirstsyllable,liketheEnglishnameAnthony,andthe`i\'is,ofcourse,giventhesoundoflong`e\'。ThenameispronouncedAn\'-ton-ee-ah。
BOOKITheShimerdasI
IFIRSTHEARDOFAntoniaonwhatseemedtomeaninterminablejourneyacrossthegreatmidlandplainofNorthAmerica。
Iwastenyearsoldthen;Ihadlostbothmyfatherandmotherwithinayear,andmyVirginiarelativesweresendingmeouttomygrandparents,wholivedinNebraska。
Itravelledinthecareofamountainboy,JakeMarpole,oneofthe`hands\'onmyfather\'soldfarmundertheBlueRidge,whowasnowgoingWesttoworkformygrandfather。
Jake\'sexperienceoftheworldwasnotmuchwiderthanmine。
Hehadneverbeeninarailwaytrainuntilthemorningwhenwesetouttogethertotryourfortunesinanewworld。
Wewentallthewayinday-coaches,becomingmorestickyandgrimywitheachstageofthejourney。Jakeboughteverythingthenewsboysofferedhim:candy,oranges,brasscollarbuttons,awatch-charm,andformea`LifeofJesseJames,\'whichI
rememberasoneofthemostsatisfactorybooksIhaveeverread。
BeyondChicagowewereundertheprotectionofafriendlypassengerconductor,whoknewallaboutthecountrytowhichweweregoingandgaveusagreatdealofadviceinexchangeforourconfidence。
Heseemedtousanexperiencedandworldlymanwhohadbeenalmosteverywhere;inhisconversationhethrewoutlightlythenamesofdistantstatesandcities。Heworetheringsandpinsandbadgesofdifferentfraternalorderstowhichhebelonged。
Evenhiscuff-buttonswereengravedwithhieroglyphics,andhewasmoreinscribedthananEgyptianobelisk。
Oncewhenhesatdowntochat,hetoldusthatintheimmigrantcaraheadtherewasafamilyfrom`acrossthewater\'
whosedestinationwasthesameasours。
`Theycan\'tanyofthemspeakEnglish,exceptonelittlegirl,andallshecansayis“WegoBlackHawk,Nebraska。“She\'snotmucholderthanyou,twelveorthirteen,maybe,andshe\'sasbrightasanewdollar。
Don\'tyouwanttogoaheadandseeher,Jimmy?She\'sgottheprettybrowneyes,too!\'
Thislastremarkmademebashful,andIshookmyheadandsettleddownto`JesseJames。\'Jakenoddedatmeapprovinglyandsaidyouwerelikelytogetdiseasesfromforeigners。
IdonotremembercrossingtheMissouriRiver,oranythingaboutthelongday\'sjourneythroughNebraska。ProbablybythattimeIhadcrossedsomanyriversthatIwasdulltothem。
TheonlythingverynoticeableaboutNebraskawasthatitwasstill,alldaylong,Nebraska。
Ihadbeensleeping,curledupinaredplushseat,foralongwhilewhenwereachedBlackHawk。Jakerousedmeandtookmebythehand。
Westumbleddownfromthetraintoawoodensiding,wheremenwererunningaboutwithlanterns。Icouldn\'tseeanytown,orevendistantlights;
weweresurroundedbyutterdarkness。Theenginewaspantingheavilyafteritslongrun。Intheredglowfromthefire-box,agroupofpeoplestoodhuddledtogetherontheplatform,encumberedbybundlesandboxes。
Iknewthismustbetheimmigrantfamilytheconductorhadtoldusabout。
Thewomanworeafringedshawltiedoverherhead,andshecarriedalittletintrunkinherarms,huggingitasifitwereababy。
Therewasanoldman,tallandstooped。Twohalf-grownboysandagirlstoodholdingoilclothbundles,andalittlegirlclungtohermother\'sskirts。
Presentlyamanwithalanternapproachedthemandbegantotalk,shoutingandexclaiming。Iprickedupmyears,foritwaspositivelythefirsttimeIhadeverheardaforeigntongue。
Anotherlanterncamealong。Abanteringvoicecalledout:
`Hello,areyouMr。Burden\'sfolks?Ifyouare,it\'smeyou\'relookingfor。
I\'mOttoFuchs。I\'mMr。Burden\'shiredman,andI\'mtodriveyouout。
Hello,Jimmy,ain\'tyouscaredtocomesofarwest?\'
Ilookedupwithinterestatthenewfaceinthelantern-light。
Hemighthavesteppedoutofthepagesof`JesseJames。\'
Heworeasombrerohat,withawideleatherbandandabrightbuckle,andtheendsofhismoustacheweretwistedupstiffly,likelittlehorns。Helookedlivelyandferocious,Ithought,andasifhehadahistory。Alongscarranacrossonecheekanddrewthecornerofhismouthupinasinistercurl。
Thetopofhisleftearwasgone,andhisskinwasbrownasanIndian\'s。Surelythiswasthefaceofadesperado。
Ashewalkedabouttheplatforminhishigh-heeledboots,lookingforourtrunks,Isawthathewasaratherslightman,quickandwiry,andlightonhisfeet。Hetolduswehadalongnightdriveaheadofus,andhadbetterbeonthehike。
Heledustoahitching-barwheretwofarm-wagonsweretied,andIsawtheforeignfamilycrowdingintooneofthem。
Theotherwasforus。JakegotonthefrontseatwithOttoFuchs,andIrodeonthestrawinthebottomofthewagon-box,coveredupwithabuffalohide。Theimmigrantsrumbledoffintotheemptydarkness,andwefollowedthem。
Itriedtogotosleep,butthejoltingmademebitemytongue,andIsoonbegantoacheallover。Whenthestrawsettleddown,Ihadahardbed。CautiouslyIslippedfromunderthebuffalohide,gotuponmykneesandpeeredoverthesideofthewagon。
Thereseemedtobenothingtosee;nofences,nocreeksortrees,nohillsorfields。Iftherewasaroad,Icouldnotmakeitoutinthefaintstarlight。Therewasnothingbutland:
notacountryatall,butthematerialoutofwhichcountriesaremade。No,therewasnothingbutland——slightlyundulating,Iknew,becauseoftenourwheelsgroundagainstthebrakeaswewentdownintoahollowandlurchedupagainontheotherside。
Ihadthefeelingthattheworldwasleftbehind,thatwehadgotovertheedgeofit,andwereoutsideman\'sjurisdiction。
Ihadneverbeforelookedupattheskywhentherewasnotafamiliarmountainridgeagainstit。Butthiswasthecompletedomeofheaven,alltherewasofit。Ididnotbelievethatmydeadfatherandmotherwerewatchingmefromupthere;theywouldstillbelookingformeatthesheep-folddownbythecreek,oralongthewhiteroadthatledtothemountainpastures。
Ihadlefteventheirspiritsbehindme。Thewagonjoltedon,carryingmeIknewnotwhither。Idon\'tthinkIwashomesick。
Ifweneverarrivedanywhere,itdidnotmatter。
BetweenthatearthandthatskyIfelterased,blottedout。
Ididnotsaymyprayersthatnight:here,Ifelt,whatwouldbewouldbe。
II
IDONOTREMEMBERourarrivalatmygrandfather\'sfarmsometimebeforedaybreak,afteradriveofnearlytwentymileswithheavywork-horses。WhenIawoke,itwasafternoon。Iwaslyinginalittleroom,scarcelylargerthanthebedthatheldme,andthewindow-shadeatmyheadwasflappingsoftlyinawarmwind。
Atallwoman,withwrinkledbrownskinandblackhair,stoodlookingdownatme;Iknewthatshemustbemygrandmother。
Shehadbeencrying,Icouldsee,butwhenIopenedmyeyesshesmiled,peeredatmeanxiously,andsatdownonthefootofmybed。
`Hadagoodsleep,Jimmy?\'sheaskedbriskly。Theninaverydifferenttoneshesaid,asiftoherself,`My,howyoudolooklikeyourfather!\'
Irememberedthatmyfatherhadbeenherlittleboy;shemustoftenhavecometowakehimlikethiswhenheoverslept。`Hereareyourcleanclothes,\'
shewenton,strokingmycoverlidwithherbrownhandasshetalked。
`Butfirstyoucomedowntothekitchenwithme,andhaveanicewarmbathbehindthestove。Bringyourthings;there\'snobodyabout。\'
`Downtothekitchen\'struckmeascurious;itwasalways`outinthekitchen\'athome。Ipickedupmyshoesandstockingsandfollowedherthroughtheliving-roomanddownaflightofstairsintoabasement。Thisbasementwasdividedintoadining-roomattherightofthestairsandakitchenattheleft。
Bothroomswereplasteredandwhitewashed——theplasterlaiddirectlyupontheearthwalls,asitusedtobeindugouts。
Thefloorwasofhardcement。Upunderthewoodenceilingtherewerelittlehalf-windowswithwhitecurtains,andpotsofgeraniumsandwanderingJewinthedeepsills。AsIenteredthekitchen,Isniffedapleasantsmellofgingerbreadbaking。
Thestovewasverylarge,withbrightnickeltrimmings,andbehindittherewasalongwoodenbenchagainstthewall,andatinwashtub,intowhichgrandmotherpouredhotandcoldwater。
Whenshebroughtthesoapandtowels,ItoldherthatIwasusedtotakingmybathwithouthelp。`Canyoudoyourears,Jimmy?
Areyousure?Well,now,Icallyouarightsmartlittleboy。\'
Itwaspleasantthereinthekitchen。Thesunshoneintomybath-waterthroughthewesthalf-window,andabigMaltesecatcameupandrubbedhimselfagainstthetub,watchingmecuriously。
WhileIscrubbed,mygrandmotherbusiedherselfinthedining-roomuntilIcalledanxiously,`Grandmother,I\'mafraidthecakesareburning!\'
Thenshecamelaughing,wavingherapronbeforeherasifshewereshooingchickens。
Shewasaspare,tallwoman,alittlestooped,andshewasapttocarryherheadthrustforwardinanattitudeofattention,asifshewerelookingatsomething,orlisteningtosomething,faraway。AsIgrewolder,Icametobelievethatitwasonlybecauseshewassooftenthinkingofthingsthatwerefaraway。
Shewasquick-footedandenergeticinallhermovements。
Hervoicewashighandrathershrill,andsheoftenspokewithananxiousinflection,forshewasexceedinglydesirousthateverythingshouldgowithdueorderanddecorum。
Herlaugh,too,washigh,andperhapsalittlestrident,buttherewasalivelyintelligenceinit。Shewasthenfifty-fiveyearsold,astrongwoman,ofunusualendurance。
AfterIwasdressed,Iexploredthelongcellarnextthekitchen。
Itwasdugoutunderthewingofthehouse,wasplasteredandcemented,withastairwayandanoutsidedoorbywhichthemencameandwent。
Underoneofthewindowstherewasaplaceforthemtowashwhentheycameinfromwork。
Whilemygrandmotherwasbusyaboutsupper,Isettledmyselfonthewoodenbenchbehindthestoveandgotacquaintedwiththecat——
hecaughtnotonlyratsandmice,butgophers,Iwastold。
Thepatchofyellowsunlightonthefloortravelledbacktowardthestairway,andgrandmotherandItalkedaboutmyjourney,andaboutthearrivalofthenewBohemianfamily;shesaidtheyweretobeournearestneighbours。WedidnottalkaboutthefarminVirginia,whichhadbeenherhomeforsomanyyears。
Butafterthemencameinfromthefields,andwewereallseatedatthesuppertable,thensheaskedJakeabouttheoldplaceandaboutourfriendsandneighboursthere。
Mygrandfathersaidlittle。Whenhefirstcameinhekissedmeandspokekindlytome,buthewasnotdemonstrative。
Ifeltatoncehisdeliberatenessandpersonaldignity,andwasalittleinaweofhim。Thethingoneimmediatelynoticedabouthimwashisbeautiful,crinkly,snow-whitebeard。
IonceheardamissionarysayitwaslikethebeardofanArabiansheik。Hisbaldcrownonlymadeitmoreimpressive。
Grandfather\'seyeswerenotatalllikethoseofanoldman;
theywerebrightblue,andhadafresh,frostysparkle。
Histeethwerewhiteandregular——sosoundthathehadneverbeentoadentistinhislife。Hehadadelicateskin,easilyroughenedbysunandwind。Whenhewasayoungmanhishairandbeardwerered;hiseyebrowswerestillcoppery。
Aswesatatthetable,OttoFuchsandIkeptstealingcovertglancesateachother。GrandmotherhadtoldmewhileshewasgettingsupperthathewasanAustrianwhocametothiscountryayoungboyandhadledanadventurouslifeintheFarWestamongmining-campsandcowoutfits。
Hisironconstitutionwassomewhatbrokenbymountainpneumonia,andhehaddriftedbacktoliveinamildercountryforawhile。
HehadrelativesinBismarck,aGermansettlementtothenorthofus,butforayearnowhehadbeenworkingforgrandfather。
Theminutesupperwasover,Ottotookmeintothekitchentowhispertomeaboutaponydowninthebarnthathadbeenboughtformeatasale;
hehadbeenridinghimtofindoutwhetherhehadanybadtricks,buthewasa`perfectgentleman,\'andhisnamewasDude。FuchstoldmeeverythingIwantedtoknow:howhehadlosthisearinaWyomingblizzardwhenhewasastage-driver,andhowtothrowalasso。
Hepromisedtoropeasteerformebeforesundownnextday。
Hegotouthis`chaps\'andsilverspurstoshowthemtoJakeandme,andhisbestcowboyboots,withtopsstitchedinbolddesign——
roses,andtrue-lover\'sknots,andundrapedfemalefigures。
These,hesolemnlyexplained,wereangels。
Beforewewenttobed,JakeandOttowerecalleduptotheliving-roomforprayers。Grandfatherputonsilver-rimmedspectaclesandreadseveralPsalms。HisvoicewassosympatheticandhereadsointerestinglythatIwishedhehadchosenoneofmyfavouritechaptersintheBookofKings。
Iwasawedbyhisintonationoftheword`Selah。\'`Heshallchooseourinheritanceforus,theexcellencyofJacobwhomHeloved。Selah。\'Ihadnoideawhatthewordmeant;
perhapshehadnot。But,asheutteredit,itbecameoracular,themostsacredofwords。
EarlythenextmorningIranout-of-doorstolookaboutme。
IhadbeentoldthatourswastheonlywoodenhousewestofBlackHawk——untilyoucametotheNorwegiansettlement,wheretherewereseveral。Ourneighbourslivedinsodhousesanddugouts——comfortable,butnotveryroomy。
Ourwhiteframehouse,withastoreyandhalf-storeyabovethebasement,stoodattheeastendofwhatImightcallthefarmyard,withthewindmillclosebythekitchendoor。
Fromthewindmillthegroundslopedwestward,downtothebarnsandgranariesandpig-yards。Thisslopewastrampledhardandbare,andwashedoutinwindinggulliesbytherain。
Beyondthecorncribs,atthebottomoftheshallowdraw,wasamuddylittlepond,withrustywillowbushesgrowingaboutit。
Theroadfromthepost-officecamedirectlybyourdoor,crossedthefarmyard,andcurvedroundthislittlepond,beyondwhichitbegantoclimbthegentleswellofunbrokenprairietothewest。There,alongthewesternsky-lineitskirtedagreatcornfield,muchlargerthananyfieldIhadeverseen。
Thiscornfield,andthesorghumpatchbehindthebarn,weretheonlybrokenlandinsight。Everywhere,asfarastheeyecouldreach,therewasnothingbutrough,shaggy,redgrass,mostofitastallasI。
Northofthehouse,insidetheploughedfire-breaks,grewathick-setstripofbox-eldertrees,lowandbushy,theirleavesalreadyturningyellow。
Thishedgewasnearlyaquarterofamilelong,butIhadtolookveryhardtoseeitatall。Thelittletreeswereinsignificantagainstthegrass。
Itseemedasifthegrasswereabouttorunoverthem,andovertheplum-patchbehindthesodchicken-house。
AsIlookedaboutmeIfeltthatthegrasswasthecountry,asthewateristhesea。Theredofthegrassmadeallthegreatprairiethecolourofwinestains,orofcertainseaweedswhentheyarefirstwashedup。
Andtherewassomuchmotioninit;thewholecountryseemed,somehow,toberunning。
IhadalmostforgottenthatIhadagrandmother,whenshecameout,hersunbonnetonherhead,agrain-sackinherhand,andaskedmeifI
didnotwanttogotothegardenwithhertodigpotatoesfordinner。
Thegarden,curiouslyenough,wasaquarterofamilefromthehouse,andthewaytoitledupashallowdrawpastthecattlecorral。
Grandmothercalledmyattentiontoastouthickorycane,tippedwithcopper,whichhungbyaleatherthongfromherbelt。This,shesaid,washerrattlesnakecane。
Imustnevergotothegardenwithoutaheavystickoracorn-knife;
shehadkilledagoodmanyrattlersonherwaybackandforth。
AlittlegirlwholivedontheBlackHawkroadwasbittenontheankleandhadbeensickallsummer。
IcanrememberexactlyhowthecountrylookedtomeasIwalkedbesidemygrandmotheralongthefaintwagon-tracksonthatearlySeptembermorning。
Perhapstheglideoflongrailwaytravelwasstillwithme,formorethananythingelseIfeltmotioninthelandscape;inthefresh,easy-blowingmorningwind,andintheearthitself,asiftheshaggygrasswereasortofloosehide,andunderneathitherdsofwildbuffaloweregalloping,galloping……
Alone,Ishouldneverhavefoundthegarden——except,perhaps,forthebigyellowpumpkinsthatlayaboutunprotectedbytheirwitheringvines——andIfeltverylittleinterestinitwhenI
gotthere。Iwantedtowalkstraightonthroughtheredgrassandovertheedgeoftheworld,whichcouldnotbeveryfaraway。
Thelightairaboutmetoldmethattheworldendedhere:
onlythegroundandsunandskywereleft,andifonewentalittlefarthertherewouldbeonlysunandsky,andonewouldfloatoffintothem,likethetawnyhawkswhichsailedoverourheadsmakingslowshadowsonthegrass。
Whilegrandmothertookthepitchforkwefoundstandinginoneoftherowsanddugpotatoes,whileIpickedthemupoutofthesoftbrownearthandputthemintothebag,IkeptlookingupatthehawksthatweredoingwhatImightsoeasilydo。
Whengrandmotherwasreadytogo,IsaidIwouldliketostayupthereinthegardenawhile。
Shepeereddownatmefromunderhersunbonnet。
`Aren\'tyouafraidofsnakes?\'
`Alittle,\'Iadmitted,`butI\'dliketostay,anyhow。\'
`Well,ifyouseeone,don\'thaveanythingtodowithhim。
Thebigyellowandbrownoneswon\'thurtyou;they\'rebull-snakesandhelptokeepthegophersdown。Don\'tbescaredifyouseeanythinglookoutofthatholeinthebankoverthere。
That\'sabadgerhole。He\'saboutasbigasabig\'possum,andhisfaceisstriped,blackandwhite。Hetakesachickenonceinawhile,butIwon\'tletthemenharmhim。
Inanewcountryabodyfeelsfriendlytotheanimals。
IliketohavehimcomeoutandwatchmewhenI\'matwork。\'
Grandmotherswungthebagofpotatoesoverhershoulderandwentdownthepath,leaningforwardalittle。
Theroadfollowedthewindingsofthedraw;whenshecametothefirstbend,shewavedatmeanddisappeared。
Iwasleftalonewiththisnewfeelingoflightnessandcontent。
Isatdowninthemiddleofthegarden,wheresnakescouldscarcelyapproachunseen,andleanedmybackagainstawarmyellowpumpkin。
Thereweresomeground-cherrybushesgrowingalongthefurrows,fulloffruit。Iturnedbackthepaperytriangularsheathsthatprotectedtheberriesandateafew。Allaboutmegiantgrasshoppers,twiceasbigasanyIhadeverseen,weredoingacrobaticfeatsamongthedriedvines。
Thegophersscurriedupanddowntheploughedground。Thereinthesheltereddraw-bottomthewinddidnotblowveryhard,butIcouldhearitsingingitshummingtuneuponthelevel,andIcouldseethetallgrasseswave。
Theearthwaswarmunderme,andwarmasIcrumbleditthroughmyfingers。
Queerlittleredbugscameoutandmovedinslowsquadronsaroundme。
Theirbackswerepolishedvermilion,withblackspots。IkeptasstillasIcould。Nothinghappened。Ididnotexpectanythingtohappen。
Iwassomethingthatlayunderthesunandfeltit,likethepumpkins,andIdidnotwanttobeanythingmore。Iwasentirelyhappy。
Perhapswefeellikethatwhenwedieandbecomeapartofsomethingentire,whetheritissunandair,orgoodnessandknowledge。Atanyrate,thatishappiness;tobedissolvedintosomethingcompleteandgreat。
Whenitcomestoone,itcomesasnaturallyassleep。
III
ONSUNDAYMORNINGOttoFuchswastodriveusovertomaketheacquaintanceofournewBohemianneighbours。Weweretakingthemsomeprovisions,astheyhadcometoliveonawildplacewheretherewasnogardenorchicken-house,andverylittlebrokenland。
Fuchsbroughtupasackofpotatoesandapieceofcuredporkfromthecellar,andgrandmotherpackedsomeloavesofSaturday\'sbread,ajarofbutter,andseveralpumpkinpiesinthestrawofthewagon-box。
Weclambereduptothefrontseatandjoltedoffpastthelittlepondandalongtheroadthatclimbedtothebigcornfield。
Icouldhardlywaittoseewhatlaybeyondthatcornfield;
buttherewasonlyredgrasslikeours,andnothingelse,thoughfromthehighwagon-seatonecouldlookoffalongway。
Theroadranaboutlikeawildthing,avoidingthedeepdraws,crossingthemwheretheywerewideandshallow。
Andallalongit,whereveritloopedorran,thesunflowersgrew;
someofthemwereasbigaslittletrees,withgreatroughleavesandmanybrancheswhichboredozensofblossoms。
Theymadeagoldribbonacrosstheprairie。Occasionallyoneofthehorseswouldtearoffwithhisteethaplantfullofblossoms,andwalkalongmunchingit,theflowersnoddingintimetohisbitesasheatedowntowardthem。
TheBohemianfamily,grandmothertoldmeaswedrovealong,hadboughtthehomesteadofafellowcountryman,PeterKrajiek,andhadpaidhimmorethanitwasworth。Theiragreementwithhimwasmadebeforetheylefttheoldcountry,throughacousinofhis,whowasalsoarelativeofMrs。Shimerda。TheShimerdaswerethefirstBohemianfamilytocometothispartofthecounty。
Krajiekwastheironlyinterpreter,andcouldtellthemanythinghechose。TheycouldnotspeakenoughEnglishtoaskforadvice,oreventomaketheirmostpressingwantsknown。Oneson,Fuchssaid,waswell-grown,andstrongenoughtoworktheland;
butthefatherwasoldandfrailandknewnothingaboutfarming。
Hewasaweaverbytrade;hadbeenaskilledworkmanontapestriesandupholsterymaterials。Hehadbroughthisfiddlewithhim,whichwouldn\'tbeofmuchusehere,thoughheusedtopickupmoneybyitathome。
`Ifthey\'renicepeople,IhatetothinkofthemspendingthewinterinthatcaveofKrajiek\'s,\'saidgrandmother。
`It\'snobetterthanabadgerhole;noproperdugoutatall。
AndIhearhe\'smadethempaytwentydollarsforhisoldcookstovethatain\'tworthten。\'
`Yes\'m,\'saidOtto;`andhe\'ssold\'emhisoxenandhistwobonyoldhorsesforthepriceofgoodworkteams。
I\'dhaveinterferedaboutthehorses——theoldmancanunderstandsomeGerman——ifI\'dIa\'thoughtitwoulddoanygood。
ButBohemianshasanaturaldistrustofAustrians。\'
Grandmotherlookedinterested。`Now,whyisthat,Otto?\'
Fuchswrinkledhisbrowandnose。`Well,ma\'m,it\'spolitics。
Itwouldtakemealongwhiletoexplain。\'
Thelandwasgrowingrougher;IwastoldthatwewereapproachingSquawCreek,whichcutupthewesthalfoftheShimerdas\'
placeandmadethelandoflittlevalueforfarming。
Soonwecouldseethebroken,grassyclaycliffswhichindicatedthewindingsofthestream,andtheglitteringtopsofthecottonwoodsandashtreesthatgrewdownintheravine。
Someofthecottonwoodshadalreadyturned,andtheyellowleavesandshiningwhitebarkmadethemlooklikethegoldandsilvertreesinfairytales。
AsweapproachedtheShimerdas\'dwelling,Icouldstillseenothingbutroughredhillocks,anddrawswithshelvingbanksandlongrootshangingoutwheretheearthhadcrumbledaway。
Presently,againstoneofthosebanks,Isawasortofshed,thatchedwiththesamewine-colouredgrassthatgreweverywhere。
Nearittiltedashatteredwindmillframe,thathadnowheel。
Wedroveuptothisskeletontotieourhorses,andthenIsawadoorandwindowsunkdeepinthedrawbank。Thedoorstoodopen,andawomanandagirloffourteenranoutandlookedupatushopefully。Alittlegirltrailedalongbehindthem。
ThewomanhadonherheadthesameembroideredshawlwithsilkfringesthatsheworewhenshehadalightedfromthetrainatBlackHawk。
Shewasnotold,butshewascertainlynotyoung。Herfacewasalertandlively,withasharpchinandshrewdlittleeyes。
Sheshookgrandmother\'shandenergetically。
`Veryglad,veryglad!\'sheejaculated。Immediatelyshepointedtothebankoutofwhichshehademergedandsaid,`Housenogood,housenogood!\'
Grandmothernoddedconsolingly。`You\'llgetfixedupcomfortableafterwhile,Mrs。Shimerda;makegoodhouse。\'
Mygrandmotheralwaysspokeinaveryloudtonetoforeigners,asiftheyweredeaf。ShemadeMrs。Shimerdaunderstandthefriendlyintentionofourvisit,andtheBohemianwomanhandledtheloavesofbreadandevensmelledthem,andexaminedthepieswithlivelycuriosity,exclaiming,`Muchgood,muchthank!\'——andagainshewrunggrandmother\'shand。
Theoldestson,Ambroz——theycalleditAmbrosch——
cameoutofthecaveandstoodbesidehismother。
Hewasnineteenyearsold,shortandbroad-backed,withaclose-cropped,flathead,andawide,flatface。
Hishazeleyeswerelittleandshrewd,likehismother\'s,butmoreslyandsuspicious;theyfairlysnappedatthefood。
Thefamilyhadbeenlivingoncorncakesandsorghummolassesforthreedays。
Thelittlegirlwaspretty,butAntonia——theyaccentedthenamethus,strongly,whentheyspoketoher——wasstillprettier。
Irememberedwhattheconductorhadsaidabouthereyes。
Theywerebigandwarmandfulloflight,likethesunshiningonbrownpoolsinthewood。Herskinwasbrown,too,andinhercheeksshehadaglowofrich,darkcolour。
Herbrownhairwascurlyandwild-looking。Thelittlesister,whomtheycalledYulka(Julka),wasfair,andseemedmildandobedient。WhileIstoodawkwardlyconfrontingthetwogirls,Krajiekcameupfromthebarntoseewhatwasgoingon。
WithhimwasanotherShimerdason。Evenfromadistanceonecouldseethattherewassomethingstrangeaboutthisboy。
Asheapproachedus,hebegantomakeuncouthnoises,andhelduphishandstoshowushisfingers,whichwerewebbedtothefirstknuckle,likeaduck\'sfoot。Whenhesawmedrawback,hebegantocrowdelightedly,`Hoo,hoo-hoo,hoo-hoo!\'
likearooster。Hismotherscowledandsaidsternly,`Marek!\'thenspokerapidlytoKrajiekinBohemian。
`Shewantsmetotellyouhewon\'thurtnobody,Mrs。Burden。Hewasbornlikethat。Theothersaresmart。Ambrosch,hemakegoodfarmer。\'
HestruckAmbroschontheback,andtheboysmiledknowingly。
Atthatmomentthefathercameoutoftheholeinthebank。
Heworenohat,andhisthick,iron-greyhairwasbrushedstraightbackfromhisforehead。Itwassolongthatitbushedoutbehindhisears,andmadehimlookliketheoldportraitsIrememberedinVirginia。
Hewastallandslender,andhisthinshouldersstooped。
Helookedatusunderstandingly,thentookgrandmother\'shandandbentoverit。Inoticedhowwhiteandwell-shapedhisownhandswere。
Theylookedcalm,somehow,andskilled。Hiseyesweremelancholy,andweresetbackdeepunderhisbrow。Hisfacewasruggedlyformed,butitlookedlikeashes——likesomethingfromwhichallthewarmthandlighthaddiedout。Everythingaboutthisoldmanwasinkeepingwithhisdignifiedmanner。Hewasneatlydressed。
Underhiscoatheworeaknittedgreyvest,and,insteadofacollar,asilkscarfofadarkbronze-green,carefullycrossedandheldtogetherbyaredcoralpin。WhileKrajiekwastranslatingforMr。Shimerda,Antoniacameuptomeandheldoutherhandcoaxingly。
Inamomentwewererunningupthesteepdrawsidetogether,Yulkatrottingafterus。
Whenwereachedthelevelandcouldseethegoldtree-tops,I
pointedtowardthem,andAntonialaughedandsqueezedmyhandasiftotellmehowgladshewasIhadcome。WeracedofftowardSquawCreekanddidnotstopuntilthegrounditselfstopped——
fellawaybeforeussoabruptlythatthenextstepwouldhavebeenoutintothetree-tops。Westoodpantingontheedgeoftheravine,lookingdownatthetreesandbushesthatgrewbelowus。
ThewindwassostrongthatIhadtoholdmyhaton,andthegirls\'
skirtswereblownoutbeforethem。Antoniaseemedtolikeit;
sheheldherlittlesisterbythehandandchatteredawayinthatlanguagewhichseemedtomespokensomuchmorerapidlythanmine。
Shelookedatme,hereyesfairlyblazingwiththingsshecouldnotsay。
`Name?Whatname?\'sheasked,touchingmeontheshoulder。
Itoldhermyname,andsherepeateditaftermeandmadeYulkasayit。
Shepointedintothegoldcottonwoodtreebehindwhosetopwestoodandsaidagain,`Whatname?\'
Wesatdownandmadeanestinthelongredgrass。
Yulkacurleduplikeababyrabbitandplayedwithagrasshopper。
Antoniapointeduptotheskyandquestionedmewithherglance。
Igavehertheword,butshewasnotsatisfiedandpointedtomyeyes。
Itoldher,andsherepeatedtheword,makingitsoundlike`ice。\'
Shepointeduptothesky,thentomyeyes,thenbacktothesky,withmovementssoquickandimpulsivethatshedistractedme,andIhadnoideawhatshewanted。Shegotuponherkneesandwrungherhands。Shepointedtoherowneyesandshookherhead,thentomineandtothesky,noddingviolently。
`Oh,\'Iexclaimed,`blue;bluesky。\'
Sheclappedherhandsandmurmured,`Bluesky,blueeyes,\'
asifitamusedher。Whilewesnuggleddownthereoutofthewind,shelearnedascoreofwords。Shewasalive,andveryeager。
Weweresodeepinthegrassthatwecouldseenothingbuttheblueskyoverusandthegoldtreeinfrontofus。Itwaswonderfullypleasant。
AfterAntoniahadsaidthenewwordsoverandover,shewantedtogivemealittlechasedsilverringsheworeonhermiddlefinger。
Whenshecoaxedandinsisted,Irepulsedherquitesternly。
Ididn\'twantherring,andIfelttherewassomethingrecklessandextravagantaboutherwishingtogiveitawaytoaboyshehadneverseenbefore。NowonderKrajiekgotthebetterofthesepeople,ifthiswashowtheybehaved。
Whileweweredisputing`aboutthering,Iheardamournfulvoicecalling,`Antonia,Antonia!\'
Shespranguplikeahare。\'Tatinek!Tatinek!\'sheshouted,andwerantomeettheoldmanwhowascomingtowardus。
Antoniareachedhimfirst,tookhishandandkissedit。
WhenIcameup,hetouchedmyshoulderandlookedsearchinglydownintomyfaceforseveralseconds。Ibecamesomewhatembarrassed,forIwasusedtobeingtakenforgrantedbymyelders。
WewentwithMr。Shimerdabacktothedugout,wheregrandmotherwaswaitingforme。BeforeIgotintothewagon,hetookabookoutofhispocket,openedit,andshowedmeapagewithtwoalphabets,oneEnglishandtheotherBohemian。
Heplacedthisbookinmygrandmother\'shands,lookedatherentreatingly,andsaid,withanearnestnesswhichIshallneverforget,`Te-e-ach,te-e-achmyAntonia!\'
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ONTHEAFTERNOONofthatsameSundayItookmyfirstlongrideonmypony,underOtto\'sdirection。AfterthatDudeandIwenttwiceaweektothepost-office,sixmileseastofus,andIsavedthemenagooddealoftimebyridingonerrandstoourneighbours。
Whenwehadtoborrowanything,ortosendaboutwordthattherewouldbepreachingatthesodschoolhouse,Iwasalwaysthemessenger。
FormerlyFuchsattendedtosuchthingsafterworkinghours。
Alltheyearsthathavepassedhavenotdimmedmymemoryofthatfirstgloriousautumn。Thenewcountrylayopenbeforeme:
therewerenofencesinthosedays,andIcouldchoosemyownwayoverthegrassuplands,trustingtheponytogetmehomeagain。
SometimesIfollowedthesunflower-borderedroads。FuchstoldmethatthesunflowerswereintroducedintothatcountrybytheMormons;
thatatthetimeofthepersecution,whentheyleftMissouriandstruckoutintothewildernesstofindaplacewheretheycouldworshipGodintheirownway,themembersofthefirstexploringparty,crossingtheplainstoUtah,scatteredsunflowerseedastheywent。
Thenextsummer,whenthelongtrainsofwagonscamethroughwithallthewomenandchildren,theyhadthesunflowertrailtofollow。
IbelievethatbotanistsdonotconfirmFuchs\'sstory,butinsistthatthesunflowerwasnativetothoseplains。Nevertheless,thatlegendhasstuckinmymind,andsunflower-borderedroadsalwaysseemtometheroadstofreedom。
Iusedtolovetodriftalongthepale-yellowcornfields,lookingforthedampspotsonesometimesfoundattheiredges,wherethesmartweedsoonturnedarichcoppercolourandthenarrowbrownleaveshungcurledlikecocoonsabouttheswollenjointsofthestem。
SometimesIwentsouthtovisitourGermanneighboursandtoadmiretheircatalpagrove,ortoseethebigelmtreethatgrewupoutofadeepcrackintheearthandhadahawk\'snestinitsbranches。
Treesweresorareinthatcountry,andtheyhadtomakesuchahardfighttogrow,thatweusedtofeelanxiousaboutthem,andvisitthemasiftheywerepersons。Itmusthavebeenthescarcityofdetailinthattawnylandscapethatmadedetailsoprecious。
SometimesIrodenorthtothebigprairie-dogtowntowatchthebrownearth-owlsflyhomeinthelateafternoonandgodowntotheirnestsundergroundwiththedogs。
AntoniaShimerdalikedtogowithme,andweusedtowonderagreatdealaboutthesebirdsofsubterraneanhabit。
Wehadtobeonourguardthere,forrattlesnakeswerealwayslurkingabout。Theycametopickupaneasylivingamongthedogsandowls,whichwerequitedefencelessagainstthem;
tookpossessionoftheircomfortablehousesandatetheeggsandpuppies。Wefeltsorryfortheowls。Itwasalwaysmournfultoseethemcomeflyinghomeatsunsetanddisappearundertheearth。But,afterall,wefelt,wingedthingswhowouldlivelikethatmustberatherdegradedcreatures。
Thedog-townwasalongwayfromanypondorcreek。
OttoFuchssaidhehadseenpopulousdog-townsinthedesertwheretherewasnosurfacewaterforfiftymiles;heinsistedthatsomeoftheholesmustgodowntowater——nearlytwohundredfeet,hereabouts。Antoniasaidshedidn\'tbelieveit;
thatthedogsprobablylappedupthedewintheearlymorning,liketherabbits。
Antoniahadopinionsabouteverything,andshewassoonabletomakethemknown。Almosteverydayshecamerunningacrosstheprairietohaveherreadinglessonwithme。
Mrs。Shimerdagrumbled,butrealizeditwasimportantthatonememberofthefamilyshouldlearnEnglish。Whenthelessonwasover,weusedtogouptothewatermelonpatchbehindthegarden。
Isplitthemelonswithanoldcorn-knife,andweliftedouttheheartsandatethemwiththejuicetricklingthroughourfingers。ThewhiteChristmasmelonswedidnottouch,butwewatchedthemwithcuriosity。Theyweretobepickedlate,whenthehardfrostshadsetin,andputawayforwinteruse。
Afterweeksontheocean,theShimerdaswerefamishedforfruit。
Thetwogirlswouldwanderformilesalongtheedgeofthecornfields,huntingforground-cherries。
Antonialovedtohelpgrandmotherinthekitchenandtolearnaboutcookingandhousekeeping。Shewouldstandbesideher,watchinghereverymovement。
WewerewillingtobelievethatMrs。Shimerdawasagoodhousewifeinherowncountry,butshemanagedpoorlyundernewconditions:
theconditionswerebadenough,certainly!
Irememberhowhorrifiedwewereatthesour,ashy-greybreadshegaveherfamilytoeat。Shemixedherdough,wediscovered,inanoldtinpeck-measurethatKrajiekhadusedaboutthebarn。
Whenshetookthepasteouttobakeit,sheleftsmearsofdoughstickingtothesidesofthemeasure,putthemeasureontheshelfbehindthestove,andletthisresidueferment。
Thenexttimeshemadebread,shescrapedthissourstuffdownintothefreshdoughtoserveasyeast。
DuringthosefirstmonthstheShimerdasneverwenttotown。
KrajiekencouragedtheminthebeliefthatinBlackHawktheywouldsomehowbemysteriouslyseparatedfromtheirmoney。
TheyhatedKrajiek,buttheyclungtohimbecausehewastheonlyhumanbeingwithwhomtheycouldtalkorfromwhomtheycouldgetinformation。Hesleptwiththeoldmanandthetwoboysinthedugoutbarn,alongwiththeoxen。
Theykepthimintheirholeandfedhimforthesamereasonthattheprairie-dogsandthebrownowlshousetherattlesnakes——
becausetheydidnotknowhowtogetridofhim。
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WEKNEWTHATTHINGSwerehardforourBohemianneighbours,butthetwogirlswerelightheartedandnevercomplained。
Theywerealwaysreadytoforgettheirtroublesathome,andtorunawaywithmeovertheprairie,scaringrabbitsorstartingupflocksofquail。
IrememberAntonia\'sexcitementwhenshecameintoourkitchenoneafternoonandannounced:`Mypapafindfriendsupnorth,withRussianmans。
Lastnighthetakemeforsee,andIcanunderstandverymuchtalk。
Nicemans,Mrs。Burden。Oneisfatandallthetimelaugh。
Everybodylaugh。ThefirsttimeIseemypapalaughinthiskawntree。
Oh,verynice!\'
IaskedherifshemeantthetwoRussianswholivedupbythebigdog-town。IhadoftenbeentemptedtogotoseethemwhenIwasridinginthatdirection,butoneofthemwasawild-lookingfellowandIwasalittleafraidofhim。
Russiaseemedtomemoreremotethananyothercountry——
fartherawaythanChina,almostasfarastheNorthPole。
Ofallthestrange,uprootedpeopleamongthefirstsettlers,thosetwomenwerethestrangestandthemostaloof。
Theirlastnameswereunpronounceable,sotheywerecalledPavelandPeter。Theywentaboutmakingsignstopeople,anduntiltheShimerdascametheyhadnofriends。
Krajiekcouldunderstandthemalittle,buthehadcheatedtheminatrade,sotheyavoidedhim。Pavel,thetallone,wassaidtobeananarchist;sincehehadnomeansofimpartinghisopinions,probablyhiswildgesticulationsandhisgenerallyexcitedandrebelliousmannergaverisetothissupposition。
Hemustoncehavebeenaverystrongman,butnowhisgreatframe,withbig,knottyjoints,hadawastedlook,andtheskinwasdrawntightoverhishighcheekbones。
Hisbreathingwashoarse,andhealwayshadacough。
Peter,hiscompanion,wasaverydifferentsortoffellow;short,bow-legged,andasfatasbutter。Healwaysseemedpleasedwhenhemetpeopleontheroad,smiledandtookoffhiscaptoeveryone,menaswellaswomen。
Atadistance,onhiswagon,helookedlikeanoldman;hishairandbeardwereofsuchapaleflaxencolourthattheyseemedwhiteinthesun。
Theywereasthickandcurlyascardedwool。Hisrosyface,withitssnubnose,setinthisfleece,waslikeamelonamongitsleaves。
Hewasusuallycalled`CurlyPeter,\'or`RooshianPeter。\'
ThetwoRussiansmadegoodfarm-hands,andinsummertheyworkedouttogether。IhadheardourneighbourslaughingwhentheytoldhowPeteralwayshadtogohomeatnighttomilkhiscow。
Otherbachelorhomesteadersusedcannedmilk,tosavetrouble。
SometimesPetercametochurchatthesodschoolhouse。
ItwasthereIfirstsawhim,sittingonalowbenchbythedoor,hisplushcapinhishands,hisbarefeettuckedapologeticallyundertheseat。
AfterMr。ShimerdadiscoveredtheRussians,hewenttoseethemalmosteveryevening,andsometimestookAntoniawithhim。
ShesaidtheycamefromapartofRussiawherethelanguagewasnotverydifferentfromBohemian,andifIwantedtogototheirplace,shecouldtalktothemforme。
Oneafternoon,beforetheheavyfrostsbegan,werodeuptheretogetheronmypony。
TheRussianshadaneatloghousebuiltonagrassyslope,withawindlasswellbesidethedoor。Aswerodeupthedraw,weskirtedabigmelonpatch,andagardenwheresquashesandyellowcucumberslayaboutonthesod。
WefoundPeteroutbehindhiskitchen,bendingoverawashtub。
Hewasworkingsohardthathedidnothearuscoming。
Hiswholebodymovedupanddownasherubbed,andhewasafunnysightfromtherear,withhisshaggyheadandbandylegs。
Whenhestraightenedhimselfuptogreetus,dropsofperspirationwererollingfromhisthicknosedownontohiscurlybeard。
Peterdriedhishandsandseemedgladtoleavehiswashing。
Hetookusdowntoseehischickens,andhiscowthatwasgrazingonthehillside。HetoldAntoniathatinhiscountryonlyrichpeoplehadcows,buthereanymancouldhaveonewhowouldtakecareofher。ThemilkwasgoodforPavel,whowasoftensick,andhecouldmakebutterbybeatingsourcreamwithawoodenspoon。Peterwasveryfondofhiscow。
HepattedherflanksandtalkedtoherinRussianwhilehepulledupherlariatpinandsetitinanewplace。
Afterhehadshownushisgarden,Petertrundledaloadofwatermelonsupthehillinhiswheelbarrow。Pavelwasnotathome。
Hewasoffsomewherehelpingtodigawell。ThehouseIthoughtverycomfortablefortwomenwhowere`batching。\'Besidesthekitchen,therewasaliving-room,withawidedoublebedbuiltagainstthewall,properlymadeupwithblueginghamsheetsandpillows。
Therewasalittlestoreroom,too,withawindow,wheretheykeptgunsandsaddlesandtools,andoldcoatsandboots。
Thatdaythefloorwascoveredwithgardenthings,dryingforwinter;
cornandbeansandfatyellowcucumbers。Therewerenoscreensorwindow-blindsinthehouse,andallthedoorsandwindowsstoodwideopen,lettinginfliesandsunshinealike。
Peterputthemelonsinarowontheoilcloth-coveredtableandstoodoverthem,brandishingabutcherknife。Beforethebladegotfairlyintothem,theysplitoftheirownripeness,withadelicioussound。Hegaveusknives,butnoplates,andthetopofthetablewassoonswimmingwithjuiceandseeds。
IhadneverseenanyoneeatsomanymelonsasPeterate。
Heassuredusthattheyweregoodforone——betterthanmedicine;
inhiscountrypeoplelivedonthematthistimeofyear。
Hewasveryhospitableandjolly。Once,whilehewaslookingatAntonia,hesighedandtoldusthatifhehadstayedathomeinRussiaperhapsbythistimehewouldhavehadaprettydaughterofhisowntocookandkeephouseforhim。
Hesaidhehadlefthiscountrybecauseofa`greattrouble。\'
Whenwegotuptogo,Peterlookedaboutinperplexityforsomethingthatwouldentertainus。Heranintothestoreroomandbroughtoutagaudilypaintedharmonica,satdownonabench,andspreadinghisfatlegsapartbegantoplaylikeawholeband。
Thetuneswereeitherverylivelyorverydoleful,andhesangwordstosomeofthem。
Beforeweleft,PeterputripecucumbersintoasackforMrs。Shimerdaandgaveusalard-pailfullofmilktocookthemin。Ihadneverheardofcookingcucumbers,butAntoniaassuredmetheywereverygood。
Wehadtowalktheponyallthewayhometokeepfromspillingthemilk。
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ONEAFTERNOONWEWEREhavingourreadinglessononthewarm,grassybankwherethebadgerlived。Itwasadayofambersunlight,buttherewasashiverofcomingwinterintheair。
Ihadseeniceonthelittlehorsepondthatmorning,andaswewentthroughthegardenwefoundthetallasparagus,withitsredberries,lyingontheground,amassofslimygreen。
Tonywasbarefooted,andsheshiveredinhercottondressandwascomfortableonlywhenweweretuckeddownonthebakedearth,inthefullblazeofthesun。
Shecouldtalktomeaboutalmostanythingbythistime。
Thatafternoonshewastellingmehowhighlyesteemedourfriendthebadgerwasinherpartoftheworld,andhowmenkeptaspecialkindofdog,withveryshortlegs,tohunthim。
Thosedogs,shesaid,wentdownintotheholeafterthebadgerandkilledhimthereinaterrificstruggleunderground;
youcouldhearthebarksandyelpsoutside。Thenthedogdraggedhimselfback,coveredwithbitesandscratches,toberewardedandpettedbyhismaster。Sheknewadogwhohadastaronhiscollarforeverybadgerhehadkilled。
Therabbitswereunusuallysprythatafternoon。Theykeptstartingupallaboutus,anddashingoffdownthedrawasiftheywereplayingagameofsomekind。Butthelittlebuzzingthingsthatlivedinthegrasswerealldead——allbutone。
Whilewewerelyingthereagainstthewarmbank,alittleinsectofthepalest,frailestgreenhoppedpainfullyoutofthebuffalograssandtriedtoleapintoabunchofbluestem。
Hemissedit,fellback,andsatwithhisheadsunkbetweenhislonglegs,hisantennaequivering,asifhewerewaitingforsomethingtocomeandfinishhim。Tonymadeawarmnestforhiminherhands;talkedtohimgailyandindulgentlyinBohemian。
Presentlyhebegantosingforus——athin,rustylittlechirp。
Sheheldhimclosetoherearandlaughed,butamomentafterwardIsawthereweretearsinhereyes。Shetoldmethatinhervillageathometherewasanoldbeggarwomanwhowentaboutsellingherbsandrootsshehaddugupintheforest。
Ifyoutookherinandgaveherawarmplacebythefire,shesangoldsongstothechildreninacrackedvoice,likethis。
OldHata,shewascalled,andthechildrenlovedtoseehercomingandsavedtheircakesandsweetsforher。
Whenthebankontheothersideofthedrawbegantothrowanarrowshelfofshadow,weknewweoughttobestartinghomeward;thechillcameonquicklywhenthesungotlow,andAntonia\'sdresswasthin。
Whatwerewetodowiththefraillittlecreaturewehadluredbacktolifebyfalsepretences?Iofferedmypockets,butTonyshookherheadandcarefullyputthegreeninsectinherhair,tyingherbighandkerchiefdownlooselyoverhercurls。
IsaidIwouldgowithheruntilwecouldseeSquawCreek,andthenturnandrunhome。Wedriftedalonglazily,veryhappy,throughthemagicallightofthelateafternoon。
Allthosefallafternoonswerethesame,butInevergotusedtothem。
Asfaraswecouldsee,themilesofcopper-redgrassweredrenchedinsunlightthatwasstrongerandfiercerthanatanyothertimeoftheday。Theblondcornfieldswereredgold,thehaystacksturnedrosyandthrewlongshadows。Thewholeprairiewaslikethebushthatburnedwithfireandwasnotconsumed。
Thathouralwayshadtheexultationofvictory,oftriumphantending,likeahero\'sdeath——heroeswhodiedyoungandgloriously。
Itwasasuddentransfiguration,alifting-upofday。
HowmanyanafternoonAntoniaandIhavetrailedalongtheprairieunderthatmagnificence!Andalwaystwolongblackshadowsflittedbeforeusorfollowedafter,darkspotsontheruddygrass。
Wehadbeensilentalongtime,andtheedgeofthesunsanknearerandnearertheprairiefloor,whenwesawafiguremovingontheedgeoftheupland,agunoverhisshoulder。
Hewaswalkingslowly,dragginghisfeetalongasifhehadnopurpose。
Webrokeintoaruntoovertakehim。
`Mypapasickallthetime,\'Tonypantedasweflew。
`Henotlookgood,Jim。\'
AswenearedMr。Shimerdasheshouted,andheliftedhisheadandpeeredabout。Tonyranuptohim,caughthishandandpresseditagainsthercheek。Shewastheonlyoneofhisfamilywhocouldrousetheoldmanfromthetorporinwhichheseemedtolive。
Hetookthebagfromhisbeltandshowedusthreerabbitshehadshot,lookedatAntoniawithawintryflickerofasmileandbegantotellhersomething。Sheturnedtome。
`Mytatinekmakemelittlehatwiththeskins,littlehatforwinter!\'
sheexclaimedjoyfully。`Meatforeat,skinforhat\'——shetoldoffthesebenefitsonherfingers。
Herfatherputhishandonherhair,butshecaughthiswristandlifteditcarefullyaway,talkingtohimrapidly。
IheardthenameofoldHata。Heuntiedthehandkerchief,separatedherhairwithhisfingers,andstoodlookingdownatthegreeninsect。Whenitbegantochirpfaintly,helistenedasifitwereabeautifulsound。
Ipickedupthegunhehaddropped;aqueerpiecefromtheoldcountry,shortandheavy,withastag\'sheadonthecock。
Whenhesawmeexaminingit,heturnedtomewithhisfar-awaylookthatalwaysmademefeelasifIweredownatthebottomofawell。
Hespokekindlyandgravely,andAntoniatranslated:
`Mytatineksaywhenyouarebigboy,hegiveyouhisgun。
Veryfine,fromBohemie。Itwasbelongtoagreatman,veryrich,likewhatyounotgothere;manyfields,manyforests,manybighouse。
Mypapaplayforhiswedding,andhegivemypapafinegun,andmypapagiveyou。\'
Iwasgladthatthisprojectwasoneoffuturity。ThereneverweresuchpeopleastheShimerdasforwantingtogiveawayeverythingtheyhad。Eventhemotherwasalwaysofferingmethings,thoughIknewsheexpectedsubstantialpresentsinreturn。
Westoodthereinfriendlysilence,whilethefeebleminstrelshelteredinAntonia\'shairwentonwithitsscratchychirp。
Theoldman\'ssmile,ashelistened,wassofullofsadness,ofpityforthings,thatIneverafterwardforgotit。
Asthesunsanktherecameasuddencoolnessandthestrongsmellofearthanddryinggrass。Antoniaandherfatherwentoffhandinhand,andIbuttonedupmyjacketandracedmyshadowhome。