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类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:24067更新时间:18/12/19 17:00:42
Whatdidhethinkofallthistime,then?Whatdidhewishfor? Thereisnodoubtthathewasaperfectlyfreeagentallthrough,andthatasfarasNastasiawasconcerned,therewasnoforceofanykindbroughttobearonhim。Nastasiawishedforaspeedymarriage,true!——buttheprinceagreedatoncetoherproposals; heagreed,infact,socasuallythatanyonemightsupposehewasbutaccedingtothemostsimpleandordinarysuggestion。 Therearemanystrangecircumstancessuchasthisbeforeus;butinouropiniontheydobutdeepenthemystery,anddonotinthesmallestdegreehelpustounderstandthecase。 However,letustakeonemoreexample。Thus,weknowforafactthatduringthewholeofthisfortnighttheprincespentallhisdaysandeveningswithNastasia;hewalkedwithher,drovewithher;hebegantoberestlesswheneverhepassedanhourwithoutseeingher——infact,toallappearances,hesincerelylovedher。 Hewouldlistentoherforhoursatatimewithaquietsmileonhisface,scarcelysayingawordhimself。Andyetweknow,equallycertainly,thatduringthisperiodheseveraltimessetoff,suddenly,totheEpanchins’,notconcealingthefactfromNastasiaPhilipovna,anddrivingthelattertoabsolutedespair。 WeknowalsothathewasnotreceivedattheEpanchins’solongastheyremainedatPavlofsk,andthathewasnotallowedaninterviewwithAglaya;——butnextdayhewouldsetoffoncemoreonthesameerrand,apparentlyquiteobliviousofthefactofyesterday’svisithavingbeenafailure,——and,ofcourse,meetingwithanotherrefusal。Weknow,too,thatexactlyanhourafterAglayahadfledfromNastasiaPhilipovna’shouseonthatfatefulevening,theprincewasattheEpanchins’,——andthathisappearancetherehadbeenthecauseofthegreatestconsternationanddismay;forAglayahadnotbeenhome,andthefamilyonlydiscoveredthen,forthefirsttime,thatthetwoofthemhadbeentoNastasia’shousetogether。 ItwassaidthatElizabethaProkofievnaandherdaughtershadthereandthendenouncedtheprinceinthestrongestterms,andhadrefusedanyfurtheracquaintanceandfriendshipwithhim; theirrageanddenunciationsbeingredoubledwhenVariaArdalionovnasuddenlyarrivedandstatedthatAglayahadbeenatherhouseinaterriblestateofmindforthelasthour,andthatsherefusedtocomehome。 Thislastitemofnews,whichdisturbedLizabethaProkofievnamorethananythingelse,wasperfectlytrue。OnleavingNastasia’s,Aglayahadfeltthatshewouldratherdiethanfaceherpeople,andhadthereforegonestraighttoNinaAlexandrovna’s。Onreceivingthenews,LizabethaandherdaughtersandthegeneralallrushedofftoAglaya,followedbyPrinceLefNicolaievitch——undeterredbyhisrecentdismissal;butthroughVariahewasrefusedasightofAglayaherealso。TheendoftheepisodewasthatwhenAglayasawhermotherandsisterscryingoverherandnotutteringawordofreproach,shehadflungherselfintotheirarmsandgonestraighthomewiththem。 ItwassaidthatGaniamanagedtomakeafoolofhimselfevenonthisoccasion;for,findinghimselfalonewithAglayaforaminuteortwowhenVariahadgonetotheEpanchins’,hehadthoughtitafittingopportunitytomakeadeclarationofhislove,andonhearingthisAglaya,inspiteofherstateofmindatthetime,hadsuddenlyburstoutlaughing,andhadputastrangequestiontohim。Sheaskedhimwhetherhewouldconsenttoholdhisfingertoalightedcandleinproofofhisdevotion! Gania——itwassaid——lookedsocomicallybewilderedthatAglayahadalmostlaughedherselfintohysterics,andhadrushedoutoftheroomandupstairs,——whereherparentshadfoundher。 Hippolytetoldtheprincethislaststory,sendingforhimonpurpose。WhenMuishkinheardaboutthecandleandGania’sfingerhehadlaughedsothathehadquiteastonishedHippolyte,——andthenshudderedandburstintotears。Theprince’sconditionduringthosedayswasstrangeandperturbed。Hippolyteplainlydeclaredthathethoughthewasoutofhismind;——this,however,washardlytobereliedupon。 Offeringallthesefactstoourreadersandrefusingtoexplainthem,wedonotforamomentdesiretojustifyourhero’sconduct。Onthecontrary,wearequitepreparedtofeelourshareoftheindignationwhichhisbehaviourarousedintheheartsofhisfriends。EvenVeraLebedeffwasangrywithhimforawhile; sowasColia;sowasKeller,untilhewasselectedforbestman; sowasLebedeffhimself,——whobegantointrigueagainsthimoutofpureirritation;——butofthisanon。InfactweareinfullaccordwithcertainforciblewordsspokentotheprincebyEvgeniePavlovitch,quiteunceremoniously,duringthecourseofafriendlyconversation,sixorsevendaysaftertheeventsatNastasiaPhilipovna’shouse。 WemayremarkherethatnotonlytheEpanchinsthemselves,butallwhohadanythingtodowiththem,thoughtitrighttobreakwiththeprinceinconsequenceofhisconduct。PrinceS。evenwentsofarastoturnawayandcuthimdeadinthestreet。ButEvgeniePavlovitchwasnotafraidtocompromisehimselfbypayingtheprinceavisit,anddidso,inspiteofthefactthathehadrecommencedtovisitattheEpanchins’,wherehewasreceivedwithredoubledhospitalityandkindnessafterthetemporaryestrangement。 EvgeniecalledupontheprincethedayafterthatonwhichtheEpanchinsleftPavlofsk。Heknewofallthecurrentrumours,——infact,hehadprobablycontributedtothemhimself。Theprincewasdelightedtoseehim,andimmediatelybegantospeakoftheEpanchins;——whichsimpleandstraightforwardopeningquitetookEvgenie’sfancy,sothathemeltedatonce,andplungedinmediasreswithoutceremony。 Theprincedidnotknow,uptothis,thattheEpanchinshadlefttheplace。Hegrewverypaleonhearingthenews;butamomentlaterhenoddedhishead,andsaidthoughtfully: \"Iknewitwasboundtobeso。\"Thenheaddedquickly: \"Wherehavetheygoneto?\" Evgeniemeanwhileobservedhimattentively,andtherapidityofthequestions,their,simplicity,theprince’scandour,andatthesametime,hisevidentperplexityandmentalagitation,surprisedhimconsiderably。However,hetoldMuishkinallhecould,kindlyandindetail。Theprincehardlyknewanything,forthiswasthefirstinformantfromthehouseholdwhomhehadmetsincetheestrangement。 EvgeniereportedthatAglayahadbeenreallyill,andthatfortwonightsshehadnotsleptatall,owingtohighfever;thatnowshewasbetterandoutofseriousdanger,butstillinanervous,hystericalstate。 \"It’sagoodthingthatthereispeaceinthehouse,atallevents,\"hecontinued。\"Theyneverutterahintaboutthepast,notonlyinAglaya’spresence,butevenamongthemselves。Theoldpeoplearetalkingofatripabroadintheautumn,immediatelyafterAdelaida’swedding;Aglayareceivedthenewsinsilence。\" Evgeniehimselfwasverylikelygoingabroadalso;sowerePrinceS。andhiswife,ifaffairsallowedofit;thegeneralwastostayathome。TheywereallattheirestateofColminanow,abouttwentymilesorsofromSt。Petersburg。PrincessBielokonskihadnotreturnedtoMoscowyet,andwasapparentlystayingonforreasonsofherown。LizabethaProkofievnahadinsistedthatitwasquiteimpossibletoremaininPavlofskafterwhathadhappened。Evgeniehadtoldherofalltherumourscurrentintownabouttheaffair;sothattherecouldbenotalkoftheirgoingtotheirhouseontheYelaginasyet。 \"Andinpointoffact,prince,\"addedEvgeniePavlovitch,\"youmustallowthattheycouldhardlyhavestayedhere,consideringthattheyknewofallthatwentonatyourplace,andinthefaceofyourdailyvisitstotheirhouse,visitswhichyouinsisteduponmakinginspiteoftheirrefusaltoseeyou。\" \"Yes——yes,quiteso;youarequiteright。IwishedtoseeAglayaIvanovna,youknow!\"saidtheprince,noddinghishead。 \"Oh,mydearfellow,\"criedEvgenie,warmly,withrealsorrowinhisvoice,\"howcouldyoupermitallthattocomeaboutasithas?Ofcourse,ofcourse,Iknowitwasallsounexpected。I admitthatyou,onlynaturally,lostyourhead,and——andcouldnotstopthefoolishgirl;thatwasnotinyourpower。Iquiteseesomuch;butyoureallyshouldhaveunderstoodhowseriouslyshecaredforyou。Shecouldnotbeartoshareyouwithanother; andyoucouldbringyourselftothrowawayandshattersuchatreasure!Oh,prince,prince!\" \"Yes,yes,youarequiterightagain,\"saidthepoorprince,inanguishofmind。\"Iwaswrong,Iknow。ButitwasonlyAglayawholookedonNastasiaPhilipovnaso;nooneelsedid,youknow。\" \"Butthat’sjusttheworstofitall,don’tyousee,thattherewasabsolutelynothingseriousaboutthematterinreality!\" criedEvgenie,besidehimself:\"Excuseme,prince,butIhavethoughtoverallthis;Ihavethoughtagreatdealoverit;I knowallthathadhappenedbefore;Iknowallthattookplacesixmonthssince;andIknowtherewasNOTHINGseriousaboutthematter,itwasbutfancy,smoke,fantasy,distortedbyagitation,andonlythealarmedjealousyofanabsolutelyinexperiencedgirlcouldpossiblyhavemistakenitforseriousreality。\" HereEvgeniePavlovitchquitelethimselfgo,andgavethereinstohisindignation。 Clearlyandreasonably,andwithgreatpsychologicalinsight,hedrewapictureoftheprince’spastrelationswithNastasiaPhilipovna。EvgeniePavlovitchalwayshadareadytongue,butonthisoccasionhiseloquence,surprisedhimself。\"Fromtheverybeginning,\"hesaid,\"youbeganwithalie;whatbeganwithaliewasboundtoendwithalie;suchisthelawofnature。Idonotagree,infactIamangry,whenIhearyoucalledanidiot;youarefartoointelligenttodeservesuchanepithet;butyouaresofarSTRANGEastobeunlikeothers;thatyoumustallow,yourself。Now,Ihavecometotheconclusionthatthebasisofallthathashappened,hasbeenfirstofallyourinnateinexperience(remarktheexpression’innate,’prince)。Thenfollowsyourunheard-ofsimplicityofheart;thencomesyourabsolutewantofsenseofproportion(tothiswantyouhaveseveraltimesconfessed);andlastly,amass,anaccumulation,ofintellectualconvictionswhichyou,inyourunexampledhonestyofsoul,acceptunquestionablyasalsoinnateandnaturalandtrue。 Admit,prince,thatinyourrelationswithNastasiaPhilipovnatherehasexisted,fromtheveryfirst,somethingdemocratic,andthefascination,sotospeak,ofthe’womanquestion’?IknowallaboutthatscandaloussceneatNastasiaPhilipovna’shousewhenRogojinbroughtthemoney,sixmonthsago。I’llshowyouyourselfasinalooking-glass,ifyoulike。Iknowexactlyallthatwenton,ineverydetail,andwhythingshaveturnedoutastheyhave。 Youthirsted,whileinSwitzerland,foryourhome-country,forRussia;youread,doubtless,manybooksaboutRussia,excellentbooks,Idaresay,buthurtfultoYOU;andyouarrivedhere;asitwere,onfirewiththelongingtobeofservice。Then,ontheverydayofyourarrival,theytellyouasadstoryofanill- usedwoman;theytellYOU,aknight,pureandwithoutreproach,thistaleofapoorwoman!ThesamedayyouactuallySEEher;youareattractedbyherbeauty,herfantastic,almostdemoniacal,beauty——(Iadmitherbeauty,ofcourse)。 \"Addtoallthisyournervousnature,yourepilepsy,andyoursuddenarrivalinastrangetown——thedayofmeetingsandofexcitingscenes,thedayofunexpectedacquaintanceships,thedayofsuddenactions,thedayofmeetingwiththethreelovelyEpanchingirls,andamongthemAglaya——addyourfatigue,yourexcitement;addNastasia’seveningparty,andthetoneofthatparty,and——whatwereyoutoexpectofyourselfatsuchamomentasthat?\" \"Yes,yes,yes!\"saidtheprince,oncemore,noddinghishead,andblushingslightly。\"Yes,itwasso,ornearlyso——Iknowit。 Andbesides,yousee,Ihadnotsleptthenightbefore,inthetrain,orthenightbeforethat,either,andIwasverytired。\" \"Ofcourse,ofcourse,quiteso;that’swhatIamdrivingat!\" continuedEvgenie,excitedly。\"Itisasclearaspossible,andmostcomprehensible,thatyou,inyourenthusiasm,shouldplungeheadlongintothefirstchancethatcameofpubliclyairingyourgreatideathatyou,aprince,andapure-livingman,didnotconsiderawomandisgracedifthesinwerenotherown,butthatofadisgustingsociallibertine!Oh,heavens!it’scomprehensibleenough,mydearprince,butthatisnotthequestion,unfortunately!Thequestionis,wasthereanyrealityandtruthinyourfeelings?Wasitnature,ornothingbutintellectualenthusiasm?Whatdoyouthinkyourself?Wearetold,ofcourse,thatafarworsewomanwasFORGIVEN,butwedon’tfindthatshewastoldthatshehaddonewell,orthatshewasworthyofhonourandrespect!Didnotyourcommon-senseshowyouwhatwastherealstateofthecase,afewmonthslater?Thequestionisnow,notwhethersheisaninnocentwoman(Idonotinsistonewayortheother——Idonotwishto);butcanherwholecareerjustifysuchintolerablepride,suchinsolent,rapaciousegotismasshehasshown?Forgiveme,Iamtooviolent,perhaps,but——\" \"Yes——Idaresayitisallasyousay;Idaresayyouarequiteright,\"mutteredtheprinceoncemore。\"Sheisverysensitiveandeasilyputout,ofcourse;butstill,she……\" \"Sheisworthyofsympathy?Isthatwhatyouwishedtosay,mygoodfellow?Butthen,forthemeresakeofvindicatingherworthinessofsympathy,youshouldnothaveinsultedandoffendedanobleandgenerousgirlinherpresence!Thisisaterribleexaggerationofsympathy!Howcanyouloveagirl,andyetsohumiliateherastothrowheroverforthesakeofanotherwoman,beforetheveryeyesofthatotherwoman,whenyouhavealreadymadeheraformalproposalofmarriage?AndyouDIDproposetoher,youknow;youdidsobeforeherparentsandsisters。Canyoubeanhonestman,prince,ifyouactso?Iaskyou!Anddidyounotdeceivethatbeautifulgirlwhenyouassuredherofyourlove?\" \"Yes,youarequiteright。Oh!IfeelthatIamveryguilty!\" saidMuishkin,indeepestdistress。 \"Butasifthatisenough!\"criedEvgenie,indignantly。\"Asifitisenoughsimplytosay:’IknowIamveryguilty!’Youaretoblame,andyetyoupersevereinevil-doing。Wherewasyourheart,Ishouldliketoknow,yourCHRISTIANHEART,allthattime?Didshelookasthoughsheweresufferingless,atthatmoment?Yousawherface——wasshesufferinglessthantheotherwoman?Howcouldyouseehersufferingandallowittocontinue?Howcouldyou?\" \"ButIdidnotallowit,\"murmuredthewretchedprince。 \"How——whatdoyoumeanyoudidn’tallow?\" \"Uponmyword,Ididn’t!TothismomentIdon’tknowhowitallhappened。I——IranafterAglayaIvanovna,butNastasiaPhilipovnafelldowninafaint;andsincethatdaytheywon’tletmeseeAglaya——that’sallIknow。\" \"It’sallthesame;yououghttohaverunafterAglayathoughtheotherwasfainting。\" \"Yes,yes,Iought——butIcouldn’t!Shewouldhavedied——shewouldhavekilledherself。Youdon’tknowher;andIshouldhavetoldAglayaeverythingafterwards——butIsee,EvgeniePavlovitch,youdon’tknowall。Tellmenow,whyamInotallowedtoseeAglaya?Ishouldhavecleareditallup,youknow。Neitherofthemkepttotherealpoint,yousee。IcouldneverexplainwhatImeantoyou,butIthinkIcouldtoAglaya。Oh!myGod,myGod!YouspokejustnowofAglaya’sfaceatthemomentwhensheranaway。Oh,myGod!Irememberit!Comealong,comealong—— quick!\"HepulledatEvgenie’scoat-sleevenervouslyandexcitedly,androsefromhischair。 \"Whereto?\" \"CometoAglaya——quick,quick!\" \"ButItoldyousheisnotatPavlofsk。Andwhatwouldbetheuseifshewere?\" \"Oh,she’llunderstand,she’llunderstand!\"criedtheprince,claspinghishands。\"Shewouldunderstandthatallthisisnotthepoint——notabittherealpoint——itisquiteforeigntotherealquestion。\" \"Howcanitbeforeign?YouAREgoingtobemarried,areyounot? Verywell,thenyouarepersistinginyourcourse。AREyougoingtomarryherornot?\" \"Yes,Ishallmarryher——yes。\" \"Thenwhyisit’notthepoint’?\" \"Oh,no,itisnotthepoint,notabit。Itmakesnodifference,mymarryingher——itmeansnothing。\" \"How’meansnothing’?Youaretalkingnonsense,myfriend。Youaremarryingthewomanyouloveinordertosecureherhappiness,andAglayaseesandknowsit。Howcanyousaythatit’s’notthepoint’?\" \"Herhappiness?Oh,no!Iamonlymarryingher——well,becauseshewishedit。Itmeansnothing——it’sallthesame。Shewouldcertainlyhavedied。IseenowthatthatmarriagewithRogojinwasaninsaneidea。IunderstandallnowthatIdidnotunderstandbefore;and,doyouknow,whenthosetwostoodoppositetooneanother,IcouldnotbearNastasiaPhilipovna’sface!Youmustknow,EvgeniePavlovitch,Ihavenevertoldanyonebefore——notevenAglaya——thatIcannotbearNastasiaPhilipovna’sface。\"(Heloweredhisvoicemysteriouslyashesaidthis。)YoudescribedthateveningatNastasiaPhilipovna’s(sixmonthssince)veryaccuratelyjustnow;butthereisonethingwhichyoudidnotmention,andofwhichyoutooknoaccount,becauseyoudonotknow。ImeanherFACE——Ilookedatherface,yousee。EveninthemorningwhenIsawherportrait,IfeltthatIcouldnotBEAR tolookatit。Now,there’sVeraLebedeff,forinstance,hereyesarequitedifferent,youknow。I’mAFRAIDofherface!\"headded,withrealalarm。 \"YouareAFRAIDofit?\" \"Yes——she’smad!\"hewhispered,growingpale。 \"Doyouknowthisforcertain?\"askedEvgenie,withthegreatestcuriosity。 \"Yes,forcertain——quiteforcertain,now!IhavediscovereditABSOLUTELYforcertain,theselastfewdays。\" \"Whatareyoudoing,then?\"criedEvgenie,inhorror。\"YoumustbemarryinghersolelyoutofFEAR,then!Ican’tmakeheadortailofit,prince。Perhapsyoudon’tevenloveher?\" \"Oh,no;Iloveherwithallmysoul。Why,sheisachild!She’sachildnow——arealchild。Oh!youknownothingaboutitatall,Isee。\" \"Andareyouassured,atthesametime,thatyouloveAglayatoo?\" \"Yes——yes——oh;yes!\" \"Howso?DoyouwanttomakeoutthatyoulovethemBOTH?\" \"Yes——yes——both!Ido!\" \"Excuseme,prince,butthinkwhatyouaresaying!Recollectyourself!\" \"WithoutAglaya——I——IMUSTseeAglaya!——Ishalldieinmysleepverysoon——IthoughtIwasdyinginmysleeplastnight。Oh!ifAglayaonlyknewall——Imeanreally,REALLYall!BecauseshemustknowALL——that’sthefirstconditiontowardsunderstanding。Whycannotweeverknowallaboutanother,especiallywhenthatotherhasbeenguilty?ButIdon’tknowwhatI’mtalkingabout——I’msoconfused。Youpainedmesodreadfully。Surely——surelyAglayahasnotthesameexpressionnowasshehadatthemomentwhensheranaway?Oh,yes!IamguiltyandIknowit——Iknowit!ProbablyI aminfaultallround——Idon’tquiteknowhow——butIaminfault,nodoubt。Thereissomethingelse,butIcannotexplainittoyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。Ihavenowords;butAglayawillunderstand。IhavealwaysbelievedAglayawillunderstand——Iamassuredshewill。\" \"No,prince,shewillnot。Aglayalovedlikeawoman,likeahumanbeing,notlikeanabstractspirit。Doyouknowwhat,mypoorprince?Themostprobableexplanationofthematteristhatyouneverlovedeithertheoneortheotherinreality。\" \"Idon’tknow——perhapsyouarerightinmuchthatyouhavesaid,EvgeniePavlovitch。Youareverywise,EvgeniePavlovitch——oh! howmyheadisbeginningtoacheagain!Cometoher,quick——forGod’ssake,come!\" \"ButItellyousheisnotinPavlofsk!She’sinColmina。\" \"Oh,cometoColmina,then!Come——letusgoatonce!\" \"No——no,impossible!\"saidEvgenie,rising。 \"Lookhere——I’llwritealetter——takealetterforme!\" \"No——no,prince;youmustforgiveme,butIcan’tundertakeanysuchcommissions!Ireallycan’t。\" Andsotheyparted。 EvgeniePavlovitchleftthehousewithstrangeconvictions。He,too,feltthattheprincemustbeoutofhismind。 \"AndwhatdidhemeanbythatFACE——afacewhichhesofears,andyetsoloves?Andmeanwhilehereallymaydie,ashesays,withoutseeingAglaya,andshewillneverknowhowdevotedlyhelovesher!Ha,ha,ha!Howdoesthefellowmanagetolovetwoofthem?Twodifferentkindsoflove,Isuppose!Thisisveryinteresting——pooridiot!Whatonearthwillbecomeofhimnow?\" X。 THEprincedidnotdiebeforehiswedding——eitherbydayornight,ashehadforetoldthathemight。Veryprobablyhepasseddisturbednights,andwasafflictedwithbaddreams;but,duringthedaytime,amonghisfellow-men,heseemedaskindasever,andevencontented;onlyalittlethoughtfulwhenalone。 Theweddingwashurriedon。ThedaywasfixedforexactlyaweekafterEvgenie’svisittotheprince。Inthefaceofsuchhasteasthis,eventheprince’sbestfriends(ifhehadhadany)wouldhavefeltthehopelessnessofanyattempttosave\"thepoormadman。\"RumoursaidthatinthevisitofEvgeniePavlovitchwastobediscernedtheinfluenceofLizabethaProkofievnaandherhusband……Butifthosegoodsouls,intheboundlesskindnessoftheirhearts,weredesirousofsavingtheeccentricyoungfellowfromruin,theywereunabletotakeanystrongermeasurestoattainthatend。Neithertheirposition,northeirprivateinclination,perhaps(andonlynaturally),wouldallowthemtouseanymorepronouncedmeans。 Wehaveobservedbeforethatevensomeoftheprince’snearestneighbourshadbeguntoopposehim。VeraLebedeff’spassivedisagreementwaslimitedtothesheddingofafewsolitarytears; tomorefrequentsittingaloneathome,andtoadiminishedfrequencyinhervisitstotheprince’sapartments。 Coliawasoccupiedwithhisfatheratthistime。Theoldmandiedduringasecondstroke,whichtookplacejusteightdaysafterthefirst。Theprinceshowedgreatsympathyinthegriefofthefamily,andduringthefirstdaysoftheirmourninghewasatthehouseagreatdealwithNinaAlexandrovna。Hewenttothefuneral,anditwasobservablethatthepublicassembledinchurchgreetedhisarrivalanddeparturewithwhisperings,andwatchedhimclosely。 Thesamethinghappenedintheparkandinthestreet,whereverhewent。Hewaspointedoutwhenhedroveby,andheoftenoverheardthenameofNastasiaPhilipovnacoupledwithhisownashepassed。Peoplelookedoutforheratthefuneral,too,butshewasnotthere;andanotherconspicuousabsenteewasthecaptain’swidow,whomLebedeffhadpreventedfromcoming。 Thefuneralserviceproducedagreateffectontheprince。HewhisperedtoLebedeffthatthiswasthefirsttimehehadeverheardaRussianfuneralservicesincehewasalittleboy。 Observingthathewaslookingabouthimuneasily,Lebedeffaskedhimwhomhewasseeking。 \"Nothing。IonlythoughtI——\" \"IsitRogojin?\" \"Why——ishehere?\" \"Yes,he’sinchurch。\" \"IthoughtIcaughtsightofhiseyes!\"mutteredtheprince,inconfusion。\"Butwhatofit!——Whyishehere?Washeasked?\" \"Oh,dear,no!Why,theydon’tevenknowhim!Anyonecancomein,youknow。Whydoyoulooksoamazed?Ioftenmeethim;I’veseenhimatleastfourtimes,hereatPavlofsk,withinthelastweek。\" \"Ihaven’tseenhimonce——sincethatday!\"theprincemurmured。 AsNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotsaidawordabouthavingmetRogojinsince\"thatday,\"theprinceconcludedthatthelatterhadhisownreasonsforwishingtokeepoutofsight。Allthedayofthefuneralourhero,wasinadeeplythoughtfulstate,whileNastasiaPhilipovnawasparticularlymerry,bothinthedaytimeandintheevening。 Coliahadmadeitupwiththeprincebeforehisfather’sdeath,anditwashewhourgedhimtomakeuseofKellerandBurdovsky,promisingtoanswerhimselffortheformer’sbehaviour。NinaAlexandrovnaandLebedefftriedtopersuadehimtohavetheweddinginSt。Petersburg,insteadofinthepublicfashioncontemplated,downhereatPavlofskintheheightoftheseason。 ButtheprinceonlysaidthatNastasiaPhilipovnadesiredtohaveitso,thoughhesawwellenoughwhatpromptedtheirarguments。 ThenextdayKellercametovisittheprince。Hewasinahighstateofdelightwiththepostofhonourassignedtohimatthewedding。 Beforeenteringhestoppedonthethreshold,raisedhishandasifmakingasolemnvow,andcried: \"Iwon’tdrink!\" Thenhewentuptotheprince,seizedbothhishands,shookthemwarmly,anddeclaredthathehadatfirstfelthostiletowardstheprojectofthismarriage,andhadopenlysaidsointhebilliard-rooms,butthatthereasonsimplywasthat,withtheimpatienceofafriend,hehadhopedtoseetheprincemarryatleastaPrincessdeRohanordeChabot;butthatnowhesawthattheprince’swayofthinkingwastentimesmorenoblethanthatof\"alltherestputtogether。\"Forhedesiredneitherpompnorwealthnorhonour,butonlythetruth!Thesympathiesofexaltedpersonageswerewellknown,andtheprincewastoohighlyplacedbyhiseducation,andsoon,nottobeinsomesenseanexaltedpersonage! \"Butallthecommonherdjudge’differently;inthetown,atthemeetings,inthevillas,attheband,intheinnsandthebilliard-rooms,thecomingeventhasonlytobementionedandthereareshoutsandcriesfromeverybody。Ihaveevenheardtalkofgettingupa’charivari’underthewindowsonthewedding- night。Soif’youhaveneedofthepistol’ofanhonestman,prince,Iamreadytofirehalfadozenshotsevenbeforeyourisefromyournuptialcouch!\" Kelleralsoadvised,inanticipationofthecrowdmakingarushaftertheceremony,thatafire-hoseshouldbeplacedattheentrancetothehouse;butLebedeffwasopposedtothismeasure,whichhesaidmightresultintheplacebeingpulleddown。 \"Iassureyou,prince,thatLebedeffisintriguingagainstyou。 Hewantstoputyouundercontrol。Imaginethat!Totake’fromyoutheuseofyourfree-willandyourmoney——that’istosay,thetwothingsthatdistinguishusfromtheanimals!Ihavehearditsaidpositively。Itisthesobertruth。\" Theprincerecollectedthatsomebodyhadtoldhimsomethingofthekindbefore,andhehad,ofcourse,scoffedatit。Heonlylaughednow,andforgotthehintatonce。 Lebedeffreallyhadbeenbusyforsomelittlewhile;but,asusual,hisplanshadbecometoocomplextosucceed,throughsheerexcessofardour。Whenhecametotheprince——theverydaybeforethewedding——toconfess(forhealwaysconfessedtothepersonsagainstwhomheintrigued,especiallywhentheplanfailed),heinformedourherothathehimselfwasabornTalleyrand,butforsomeunknownreasonhadbecomesimpleLebedeff。Hethenproceededtoexplainhiswholegametotheprince,interestingthelatterexceedingly。 AccordingtoLebedeff’saccount,hehadfirsttriedwhathecoulddowithGeneralEpanchin。Thelatterinformedhimthathewishedwelltotheunfortunateyoungman,andwouldgladlydowhathecouldto\"savehim,\"butthathedidnotthinkitwouldbeseemlyforhimtointerfereinthismatter。LizabethaProkofievnawouldneitherhearnorseehim。PrinceS。andEvgeniePavlovitchonlyshruggedtheirshoulders,andimpliedthatitwasnobusinessoftheirs。However,Lebedeffhadnotlostheart,andwentofftoacleverlawyer,——aworthyandrespectableman,whomheknewwell。 ThisoldgentlemaninformedhimthatthethingwasperfectlyfeasibleifhecouldgetholdofcompetentwitnessesastoMuishkin’smentalincapacity。Then,withtheassistanceofafewinfluentialpersons,hewouldsoonseethematterarranged。 Lebedeffimmediatelyprocuredtheservicesofanolddoctor,andcarriedthelatterawaytoPavlofsktoseetheprince,bywayofviewingtheground,asitwere,andtogivehim(Lebedeff) counselastowhetherthethingwastobedoneornot。Thevisitwasnottobeofficial,butmerelyfriendly。 Muishkinrememberedthedoctor’svisitquitewell。HerememberedthatLebedeffhadsaidthathelookedill,andhadbetterseeadoctor;andalthoughtheprincescoutedtheidea,Lebedeffhadturnedupalmostimmediatelywithhisoldfriend,explainingthattheyhadjustmetatthebedsideofHippolyte,whowasveryill,andthatthedoctorhadsomethingtotelltheprinceaboutthesickman。 Theprincehad,ofcourse,atoncereceivedhim,andhadplungedintoaconversationaboutHippolyte。HehadgiventhedoctoranaccountofHippolyte’sattemptedsuicide;andhadproceededthereaftertotalkofhisownmalady,——ofSwitzerland,ofSchneider,andsoon;andsodeeplywastheoldmaninterestedbytheprince’sconversationandhisdescriptionofSchneider’ssystem,thathesatonfortwohours。 Muishkingavehimexcellentcigarstosmoke,andLebedeff,forhispart,regaledhimwithliqueurs,broughtinbyVera,towhomthedoctor——amarriedmanandthefatherofafamily——addressedsuchcomplimentsthatshewasfilledwithindignation。Theypartedfriends,and,afterleavingtheprince,thedoctorsaidtoLebedeff:\"Ifallsuchpeoplewereputunderrestraint,therewouldbenooneleftforkeepers。\"Lebedeffthen,intragictones,toldoftheapproachingmarriage,whereupontheothernoddedhisheadandrepliedthat,afterall,marriageslikethatwerenotsorare;thathehadheardthattheladywasveryfascinatingandofextraordinarybeauty,whichwasenoughtoexplaintheinfatuationofawealthyman;that,further,thankstotheliberalityofTotskiandofRogojin,shepossessed——sohehadheard——notonlymoney,butpearls,diamonds,shawls,andfurniture,andconsequentlyshecouldnotbeconsideredabadmatch。Inbrief,itseemedtothedoctorthattheprince’schoice,farfrombeingasignoffoolishness,denoted,onthecontrary,ashrewd,calculating,andpracticalmind。Lebedeffhadbeenmuchstruckbythispointofview,andheterminatedhisconfessionbyassuringtheprincethathewasready,ifneedbe,toshedhisverylife’sbloodforhim。 Hippolyte,too,wasasourceofsomedistractiontotheprinceatthistime;hewouldsendforhimatanyandeveryhouroftheday。Theylived,——Hippolyteandhismotherandthechildren,——inasmallhousenotfaroff,andthelittleoneswerehappy,ifonlybecausetheywereabletoescapefromtheinvalidintothegarden。TheprincehadenoughtodoinkeepingthepeacebetweentheirritableHippolyteandhismother,andeventuallytheformerbecamesomaliciousandsarcasticonthesubjectoftheapproachingwedding,thatMuishkintookoffenceatlast,andrefusedtocontinuehisvisits。 Acoupleofdayslater,however,Hippolyte’smothercamewithtearsinhereyes,andbeggedtheprincetocomeback,\"orHE wouldeatherupbodily。\"SheaddedthatHippolytehadagreatsecrettodisclose。Ofcoursetheprincewent。Therewasnosecret,however,unlesswereckoncertainpantingsandagitatedglancesaround(probablyallputon)astheinvalidbeggedhisvisitorto\"bewareofRogojin。\" \"Heisthesortofman,\"hecontinued,。\"whowon’tgiveuphisobject,youknow;heisnotlikeyouandme,prince——hebelongstoquiteadifferentorderofbeings。Ifhesetshisheartonathinghewon’tbeafraidofanything——\"andsoon。 Hippolytewasveryill,andlookedasthoughhecouldnotlongsurvive。Hewastearfulatfirst,butgrewmoreandmoresarcasticandmaliciousastheinterviewproceeded。 TheprincequestionedhimindetailastohishintsaboutRogojin。HewasanxioustoseizeuponsomefactswhichmightconfirmHippolyte’svaguewarnings;buttherewerenone;onlyHippolyte’sownprivateimpressionsandfeelings。 However,theinvalid——tohisimmensesatisfaction——endedbyseriouslyalarmingtheprince。 AtfirstMuishkinhadnotcaredtomakeanyreplytohissundryquestions,andonlysmiledinresponsetoHippolyte’sadviceto\"runforhislife——abroad,ifnecessary。ThereareRussianpriestseverywhere,andonecangetmarriedallovertheworld。\" ButitwasHippolyte’slastideawhichupsethim。 \"WhatIamreallyalarmedabout,though,\"hesaid,\"isAglayaIvanovna。Rogojinknowshowyouloveher。Loveforlove。YoutookNastasiaPhilipovnafromhim。HewillmurderAglayaIvanovna;forthoughsheisnotyours,ofcourse,now,stillsuchanactwouldpainyou,——wouldn’tit?\" Hehadattainedhisend。Theprinceleftthehousebesidehimselfwithterror。 ThesewarningsaboutRogojinwereexpressedonthedaybeforethewedding。ThateveningtheprincesawNastasiaPhilipovnaforthelasttimebeforetheyweretomeetatthealtar;butNastasiawasnotinapositiontogivehimanycomfortorconsolation。Onthecontrary,sheonlyaddedtohismentalperturbationastheeveningwenton。Uptothistimeshehadinvariablydoneherbesttocheerhim——shewasafraidofhislookingmelancholy;shewouldtrysingingtohim,andtellinghimeverysortoffunnystoryorreminiscencethatshecouldrecall。Theprincenearlyalwayspretendedtobeamused,whetherheweresoactuallyorno;butoftenenoughhelaughedsincerely,delightedbythebrilliancyofherwitwhenshewascarriedawaybyhernarrative,assheveryoftenwas。Nastasiawouldbewildwithjoytoseetheimpressionshehadmade,andtohearhislaughofrealamusement;andshewouldremainthewholeeveninginastateofprideandhappiness。 Butthiseveninghermelancholyandthoughtfulnessgrewwitheveryhour。 TheprincehadtoldEvgeniePavlovitchwithperfectsinceritythathelovedNastasiaPhilipovnawithallhissoul。Inhisloveforhertherewasthesortoftendernessonefeelsforasick,unhappychildwhichcannotbeleftalone。HeneverspokeofhisfeelingsforNastasiatoanyone,noteventoherself。Whentheyweretogethertheyneverdiscussedtheir\"feelings,\"andtherewasnothingintheircheerful,animatedconversationwhichanoutsidercouldnothaveheard。DariaAlexeyevna,withwhomNastasiawasstaying,toldafterwardshowshehadbeenfilledwithjoyanddelightonlytolookatthem,allthistime。 ThankstothemannerinwhichheregardedNastasia’smentalandmoralcondition,theprincewastosomeextentfreedfromotherperplexities。Shewasnowquitedifferentfromthewomanhehadknownthreemonthsbefore。Hewasnotastonished,forinstance,toseehernowsoimpatienttomarryhim——shewhoformerlyhadweptwithrageandhurledcursesandreproachesathimifhementionedmarriage!\"Itshowsthatshenolongerfears,asshedidthen,thatshewouldmakemeunhappybymarryingme,\"hethought。Andhefeltsurethatsosuddenachangecouldnotbeanaturalone。Thisrapidgrowthofself-confidencecouldnotbedueonlytoherhatredforAglaya。Tosupposethatwouldbetosuspectthedepthofherfeelings。NorcoulditarisefromdreadofthefatethatawaitedherifshemarriedRogojin。Thesecauses,indeed,aswellasothers,mighthaveplayedapartinit,butthetruereason,Muishkindecided,wastheonehehadlongsuspected——thatthepoorsicksoulhadcometotheendofitsforces。Yetthiswasanexplanationthatdidnotprocurehimanypeaceofmind。Attimesheseemedtobemakingviolenteffortstothinkofnothing,andonewouldhavesaidthathelookedonhismarriageasanunimportantformality,andonhisfuturehappinessasathingnotworthconsidering。AstoconversationssuchastheoneheldwithEvgeniePavlovitch,heavoidedthemasfaraspossible,feelingthattherewerecertainobjectionstowhichhecouldmakenoanswer。 TheprincehadobservedthatNastasiaknewwellenoughwhatAglayawastohim。Heneverspokeofit,buthehadseenherfacewhenshehadcaughthimstartingofffortheEpanchins’houseonseveraloccasions。WhentheEpanchinsleftPavlofsk,shehadbeamedwithradianceandhappiness。Unsuspiciousandunobservantashewas,hehadfearedatthattimethatNastasiamighthavesomeschemeinhermindforasceneorscandalwhichwoulddriveAglayaoutofPavlofsk。Shehadencouragedtherumoursandexcitementamongtheinhabitantsoftheplaceastohermarriagewiththeprince,inordertoannoyherrival;and,findingitdifficulttomeettheEpanchinsanywhere,shehad,ononeoccasion,takenhimforadrivepasttheirhouse。Hedidnotobservewhatwashappeninguntiltheywerealmostpassingthewindows,whenitwastoolatetodoanything。Hesaidnothing,butfortwodaysafterwardshewasill。 Nastasiadidnottrythatparticularexperimentagain。Afewdaysbeforethatfixedforthewedding,shegrewgraveandthoughtful。 Shealwaysendedbygettingthebetterofhermelancholy,andbecomingmerryandcheerfulagain,butnotquitesounaffectedlyhappyasshehadbeensomedaysearlier。 Theprinceredoubledhisattentivestudyofhersymptoms。Itwasamostcuriouscircumstance,inhisopinion,thatsheneverspokeofRogojin。Butonce,aboutfivedaysbeforethewedding,whentheprincewasathome,amessengerarrivedbegginghimtocomeatonce,asNastasiaPhilipovnawasveryill。 Hehadfoundherinaconditionapproachingtoabsolutemadness。 Shescreamed,andtrembled,andcriedoutthatRogojinwashidingoutthereinthegarden——thatshehadseenhimherself——andthathewouldmurderherinthenight——thathewouldcutherthroat。 Shewasterriblyagitatedallday。ButitsohappenedthattheprincecalledatHippolyte’shouselateron,andheardfromhismotherthatshehadbeenintownallday,andhadtherereceivedavisitfromRogojin,whohadmadeinquiriesaboutPavlofsk。Oninquiry,itturnedoutthatRogojinvisitedtheoldladyintownatalmostthesamemomentwhenNastasiadeclaredthatshehadseenhiminthegarden;sothatthewholethingturnedouttobeanillusiononherpart。NastasiaimmediatelywentacrosstoHippolyte’stoinquiremoreaccurately,andreturnedimmenselyrelievedandcomforted。 Onthedaybeforethewedding,theprinceleftNastasiainastateofgreatanimation。Herwedding-dressandallsortsoffineryhadjustarrivedfromtown。Muishkinhadnotimaginedthatshewouldbesoexcitedoverit,buthepraisedeverything,andhispraiserenderedherdoublyhappy。 ButNastasiacouldnothidethecauseofherintenseinterestinherweddingsplendour。Shehadheardoftheindignationinthetown,andknewthatsomeofthepopulacewasgettingupasortofcharivariwithmusic,thatverseshadbeencomposedfortheoccasion,andthattherestofPavlofsksocietymoreorlessencouragedthesepreparations。So,sinceattemptswerebeingmadetohumiliateher,shewantedtoholdherheadevenhigherthanusual,andtooverwhelmthemallwiththebeautyandtasteofhertoilette。\"Letthemshoutandwhistle,iftheydare!\"Hereyesflashedatthethought。But,underneaththis,shehadanothermotive,ofwhichshedidnotspeak。ShethoughtthatpossiblyAglaya,oratanyratesomeonesentbyher,wouldbepresentincognitoattheceremony,orinthecrowd,andshewishedtobepreparedforthiseventuality。 Theprinceleftherateleven,fullofthesethoughts,andwenthome。Butitwasnottwelveo’clockwhenamessengercametosaythatNastasiawasverybad,andhemustcomeatonce。 Onhurryingbackhefoundhisbridelockedupinherownroomandcouldhearherhystericalcriesandsobs。Itwassometimebeforeshecouldbemadetohearthattheprincehadcome,andthensheopenedthedooronlyjustsufficientlytolethimin,andimmediatelylockeditbehindhim。Shethenfellonherkneesathisfeet。(SoatleastDanaAlexeyevnareported。) \"WhatamIdoing?WhatamIdoingtoyou?\"shesobbedconvulsively,embracinghisknees。 Theprincewasawholehoursoothingandcomfortingher,andlefther,atlength,pacifiedandcomposed。Hesentanothermessengerduringthenighttoinquireafterher,andtwomorenextmorning。 ThelastbroughtbackamessagethatNastasiawassurroundedbyawholearmyofdressmakersandmaids,andwasashappyandasbusyassuchabeautyshouldbeonherweddingmorning,andthattherewasnotavestigeofyesterday’sagitationremaining。Themessageconcludedwiththenewsthatatthemomentofthebearer’sdeparturetherewasagreatconfabulationinprogressastowhichdiamondsweretobeworn,andhow。 Thismessageentirelycalmedtheprince’smind。 Thefollowingreportoftheproceedingsontheweddingdaymaybedependedupon,ascomingfromeye-witnesses。 Theweddingwasfixedforeighto’clockintheevening。NastasiaPhilipovnawasreadyatseven。Fromsixo’clockgroupsofpeoplebegantogatheratNastasia’shouse,attheprince’s,andatthechurchdoor,butmoreespeciallyattheformerplace。Thechurchbegantofillatseven。 ColiaandVeraLebedeffwereveryanxiousontheprince’saccount,buttheyweresobusyoverthearrangementsforreceivingtheguestsafterthewedding,thattheyhadnotmuchtimefortheindulgenceofpersonalfeelings。 Thereweretobeveryfewguestsbesidesthebestmenandsoon; onlyDanaAlexeyevna,thePtitsins,Gania,andthedoctor。WhentheprinceaskedLebedeffwhyhehadinvitedthedoctor,whowasalmostastranger,Lebedeffreplied: \"Why,hewearsan’order,’anditlookssowell!\" Thisideaamusedtheprince。 KellerandBurdovskylookedwonderfullycorrectintheirdress- coatsandwhitekidgloves,althoughKellercausedthebridegroomsomealarmbyhisundisguisedlyhostileglancesatthegatheringcrowdofsight-seersoutside。 Atabouthalf-pastseventheprincestartedforthechurchinhiscarriage。 Wemayremarkherethatheseemedanxiousnottoomitasingleoneoftherecognizedcustomsandtraditionsobservedatweddings。Hewishedalltobedoneasopenlyaspossible,and\"indueorder。\" Arrivedatthechurch,Muishkin,underKeller’sguidance,passedthroughthecrowdofspectators,amidcontinuouswhisperingandexcitedexclamations。Theprincestayednearthealtar,whileKellermadeoffoncemoretofetchthebride。 OnreachingthegateofDariaAlexeyevna’shouse,Kellerfoundafardensercrowdthanhehadencounteredattheprince’s。TheremarksandexclamationsofthespectatorsherewereofsoirritatinganaturethatKellerwasverynearmakingthemaspeechontheimproprietyoftheirconduct,butwasluckilycaughtbyBurdovsky,intheactofturningtoaddressthem,andhurriedindoors。 NastasiaPhilipovnawasready。Sherosefromherseat,lookedintotheglassandremarked,asKellertoldthetaleafterwards,thatshewas\"aspaleasacorpse。\"Shethenbentherheadreverently,beforetheikoninthecorner,andlefttheroom。 Atorrentofvoicesgreetedherappearanceatthefrontdoor。Thecrowdwhistled,clappeditshands,andlaughedandshouted;butinamomentortwoisolatedvoicesweredistinguishable。 \"Whatabeauty!\"criedone。 \"Well,sheisn’tthefirstintheworld,northelast,\"saidanother。 \"Marriagecoverseverything,\"observedathird。 \"Idefyyoutofindanotherbeautylikethat,\"saidafourth。 \"She’sarealprincess!I’dsellmysoulforsuchaprincessasthat!\" Nastasiacameoutofthehouselookingaswhiteasanyhandkerchief;butherlargedarkeyesshoneuponthevulgarcrowdlikeblazingcoals。Thespectators’crieswereredoubled,andbecamemoreexultantandtriumphanteverymoment。Thedoorofthecarriagewasopen,andKellerhadgivenhishandtothebridetohelpherin,whensuddenlywithaloudcrysherushedfromhim,straightintothesurgingcrowd。Herfriendsaboutherwerestupefiedwithamazement;thecrowdpartedassherushedthroughit,andsuddenly,atadistanceoffiveorsixyardsfromthecarriage,appearedRogojin。Itwashislookthathadcaughthereyes。 Nastasiarushedtohimlikeamadwoman,andseizedbothhishands。 \"Saveme!\"shecried。\"Takemeaway,anywhereyoulike,quick!\" Rogojinseizedherinhisarmsandalmostcarriedhertothecarriage。Then,inaflash,hetoreahundred-roublenoteoutofhispocketandheldittothecoachman。 \"Tothestation,quick!Ifyoucatchthetrainyoushallhaveanother。Quick!\" HeleapedintothecarriageafterNastasiaandbangedthedoor。 Thecoachmandidnothesitateamoment;hewhippedupthehorses,andtheywereoft。 \"OnemoresecondandIshouldhavestoppedhim,\"saidKeller,afterwards。Infact,heandBurdovskyjumpedintoanothercarriageandsetoffinpursuit;butitstruckthemastheydrovealongthatitwasnotmuchusetryingtobringNastasiabackbyforce。 \"Besides,\"saidBurdovsky,\"theprincewouldnotlikeit,wouldhe?\"Sotheygaveupthepursuit。 RogojinandNastasiaPhilipovnareachedthestationjustintimeforthetrain。Ashejumpedoutofthecarriageandwasalmostonthepointofenteringthetrain,Rogojinaccostedayounggirlstandingontheplatformandwearinganold-fashioned,butrespectable-looking,blackcloakandasilkhandkerchiefoverherhead。 \"Takefiftyroublesforyourcloak?\"heshouted,holdingthemoneyouttothegirl。Beforetheastonishedyoungwomancouldcollectherscatteredsenses,hepushedthemoneyintoherhand,seizedthemantle,andthrewitandthehandkerchiefoverNastasia’sheadandshoulders。Thelatter’swedding-arraywouldhaveattractedtoomuchattention,anditwasnotuntilsometimelaterthatthegirlunderstoodwhyheroldcloakandkerchiefhadbeenboughtatsuchaprice。 Thenewsofwhathadhappenedreachedthechurchwithextraordinaryrapidity。WhenKellerarrived,ahostofpeoplewhomhedidnotknowthrongedaroundtoaskhimquestions。Therewasmuchexcitedtalking,andshakingofheads,evensomelaughter;butnooneleftthechurch,allbeinganxioustoobservehowthenowcelebratedbridegroomwouldtakethenews。Hegrewverypaleuponhearingit,buttookitquitequietly。 \"Iwasafraid,\"hemuttered,scarcelyaudibly,\"butIhardlythoughtitwouldcometothis。\"Thenafterashortsilence,headded:\"However,inherstate,itisquiteconsistentwiththenaturalorderofthings。\" EvenKelleradmittedafterwardsthatthiswas\"extraordinarilyphilosophical\"ontheprince’spart。Heleftthechurchquitecalm,toallappearances,asmanywitnesseswerefoundtodeclareafterwards。Heseemedanxioustoreachhomeandbeleftaloneasquicklyaspossible;butthiswasnottobe。Hewasaccompaniedbynearlyalltheinvitedguests,andbesidesthis,thehousewasalmostbesiegedbyexcitedbandsofpeople,whoinsisteduponbeingallowedtoentertheverandah。TheprinceheardKellerandLebedeffremonstratingandquarrellingwiththeseunknownindividuals,andsoonwentouthimself。Heapproachedthedisturbersofhispeace,requestedcourteouslytobetoldwhatwasdesired;thenpolitelyputtingLebedeffandKelleraside,headdressedanoldgentlemanwhowasstandingontheverandahstepsattheheadofthebandofwould-beguests,andcourteouslyrequestedhimtohonourhimwithavisit。Theoldfellowwasquitetakenabackbythis,butentered,followedbyafewmore,whotriedtoappearattheirease。Therestremainedoutside,andpresentlythewholecrowdwascensuringthosewhohadacceptedtheinvitation。Theprinceofferedseatstohisstrangevisitors,teawasserved,andageneralconversationsprangup。Everythingwasdonemostdecorously,totheconsiderablesurpriseoftheintruders。Afewtentativeattemptsweremadetoturntheconversationtotheeventsoftheday,andafewindiscreetquestionswereasked;butMuishkinrepliedtoeverybodywithsuchsimplicityandgood-humour,andatthesametimewithsomuchdignity,andshowedsuchconfidenceinthegoodbreedingofhisguests,thattheindiscreettalkerswerequicklysilenced。Bydegreestheconversationbecamealmostserious。Onegentlemansuddenlyexclaimed,withgreatvehemence:\"Whateverhappens,I shallnotsellmyproperty;Ishallwait。Enterpriseisbetterthanmoney,andthere,sir,youhavemywholesystemofeconomy,ifyouwish!\"Headdressedtheprince,whowarmlycommendedhissentiments,thoughLebedeffwhisperedinhisearthatthisgentleman,whotalkedsomuchofhis\"property,\"hadneverhadeitherhouseorhome。 Nearlyanhourpassedthus,andwhenteawasoverthevisitorsseemedtothinkthatitwastimetogo。Astheywentout,thedoctorandtheoldgentlemanbadeMuishkinawarmfarewell,andalltheresttooktheirleavewithheartyprotestationsofgood- will,droppingremarkstotheeffectthat\"itwasnouseworrying,\"andthat\"perhapsallwouldturnoutforthebest,\" andsoon。Someoftheyoungerintruderswouldhaveaskedforchampagne,buttheywerecheckedbytheolderones。Whenallhaddeparted,KellerleanedovertoLebedeff,andsaid: \"Withyouandmetherewouldhavebeenascene。Weshouldhaveshoutedandfought,andcalledinthepolice。Buthehassimplymadesomenewfriends——andsuchfriends,too!Iknowthem!\" Lebedeff,whowasslightlyintoxicated,answeredwithasigh: \"Thingsarehiddenfromthewiseandprudent,andrevealeduntobabes。Ihaveappliedthosewordstohimbefore,butnowIaddthatGodhaspreservedthebabehimselffromtheabyss,HeandallHissaints。\" Atlast,abouthalf-pastten,theprincewasleftalone。Hisheadached。Coliawasthelasttogo,afterhavinghelpedhimtochangehisweddingclothes。Theypartedonaffectionateterms,and,withoutspeakingofwhathadhappened,Coliapromisedtocomeveryearlythenextday。Hesaidlaterthattheprincehadgivennohintofhisintentionswhentheysaidgood-bye,buthadhiddenthemevenfromhim。Soontherewashardlyanyoneleftinthehouse。BurdovskyhadgonetoseeHippolyte;KellerandLebedeffhadwanderedofftogethersomewhere。 OnlyVeraLebedeffremainedhurriedlyrearrangingthefurnitureintherooms。Asshelefttheverandah,sheglancedattheprince。Hewasseatedatthetable,withbothelbowsuponit,andhisheadrestingonhishands。Sheapproachedhim,andtouchedhisshouldergently。Theprincestartedandlookedatherinperplexity;heseemedtobecollectinghissensesforaminuteorso,beforehecouldrememberwherehewas。Asrecollectiondawneduponhim,hebecameviolentlyagitated。Allhedid,however,wastoaskVeraveryearnestlytoknockathisdoorandawakehimintimeforthefirsttraintoPetersburgnextmorning。Verapromised,andtheprinceentreatedhernottotellanyoneofhisintention。Shepromisedthis,too;andatlast,whenshehadhalf-closedthedoor,becalledherbackathirdtime,tookherhandsinhis,kissedthem,thenkissedherforehead,andinaratherpeculiarmannersaidtoher,\"Untiltomorrow!\" SuchwasVera’sstoryafterwards。 Shewentawayingreatanxietyabouthim,butwhenshesawhiminthemorning,heseemedtobequitehimselfagain,greetedherwithasmile,andtoldherthathewouldverylikelybebackbytheevening。ItappearsthathedidnotconsideritnecessarytoinformanyoneexceptingVeraofhisdeparturefortown。 XI。 ANhourlaterhewasinSt。Petersburg,andbyteno’clockhehadrungthebellatRogojin’s。 Hehadgonetothefrontdoor,andwaskeptwaitingalongwhilebeforeanyonecame。AtlastthedoorofoldMrs。Rogojin’sflatwasopened,andanagedservantappeared。 \"ParfenSemionovitchisnotathome,\"sheannouncedfromthedoorway。\"Whomdoyouwant?\" \"ParfenSemionovitch。\" \"Heisnotin。\" Theoldwomanexaminedtheprincefromheadtofootwithgreatcuriosity。 \"Atalleventstellmewhetherhesleptathomelastnight,andwhetherhecamealone?\" Theoldwomancontinuedtostareathim,butsaidnothing。 \"WasnotNastasiaPhilipovnaherewithhim,yesterdayevening?\" \"And,pray,whoareyouyourself?\" \"PrinceLefNicolaievitchMuishkin;heknowsmewell。\" \"Heisnotathome。\" Thewomanloweredhereyes。 \"AndNastasiaPhilipovna?\" \"Iknownothingaboutit。\" \"Stopaminute!Whenwillhecomeback?\" \"Idon’tknowthateither。\" Thedoorwasshutwiththesewords,andtheoldwomandisappeared。Theprincedecidedtocomebackwithinanhour。Passingoutofthehouse,hemettheporter。 \"IsParfenSemionovitchathome?\"heasked。 \"Yes。\" \"Whydidtheytellmehewasnotathome,then?\"\"Wheredidtheytellyouso,——athisdoor?\"\"No,athismother’sflat;IrangatParfenSemionovitch’sdoorandnobodycame。\" \"Well,hemayhavegoneout。Ican’ttell。Sometimeshetakesthekeyswithhim,andleavestheroomsemptyfortwoorthreedays。\" \"Doyouknowforcertainthathewasathomelastnight?\" \"Yes,hewas。\" \"WasNastasiaPhilipovnawithhim?\" \"Idon’tknow;shedoesn’tcomeoften。IthinkIshouldhaveknownifshehadcome。\" Theprincewentoutdeepinthought,andwalkedupanddownthepavementforsometime。ThewindowsofalltheroomsoccupiedbyRogojinwereclosed,thoseofhismother’sapartmentswereopen。 Itwasahot,brightday。Theprincecrossedtheroadinordertohaveagoodlookatthewindowsagain;notonlywereRogojin’sclosed,butthewhiteblindswerealldownaswell。 Hestoodthereforaminuteandthen,suddenlyandstrangelyenough,itseemedtohimthatalittlecornerofoneoftheblindswaslifted,andRogojin’sfaceappearedforaninstantandthenvanished。Hewaitedanotherminute,anddecidedtogoandringthebelloncemore;however,hethoughtbetterofitagainandputitoffforanhour。 ThechiefobjectinhismindatthismomentwastogetasquicklyashecouldtoNastasiaPhilipovna’slodging。Herememberedthat,notlongsince,whenshehadleftPavlofskathisrequest,hehadbeggedhertoputupintownatthehouseofarespectablewidow,whohadwell-furnishedroomstolet,neartheIsmailofskybarracks。ProbablyNastasiahadkepttheroomswhenshecamedowntoPavlofskthislasttime;andmostlikelyshewouldhavespentthenightinthem,Rogojinhavingtakenherstraighttherefromthestation。 Theprincetookadroshky。Itstruckhimashedroveonthatheoughttohavebegunbycominghere,sinceitwasmostimprobablethatRogojinshouldhavetakenNastasiatohisownhouselastnight。Herememberedthattheportersaidsheveryrarelycameatall,sothatitwasstilllesslikelythatshewouldhavegonetheresolateatnight。 Vainlytryingtocomforthimselfwiththesereflections,theprincereachedtheIsmailofskybarracksmoredeadthanalive。 TohisconsternationthegoodpeopleatthelodgingshadnotonlyheardnothingofNastasia,butallcameouttolookathimasifhewereamarvelofsomesort。Thewholefamily,ofallages,surroundedhim,andhewasbeggedtoenter。Heguessedatoncethattheyknewperfectlywellwhohewas,andthatyesterdayoughttohavebeenhiswedding-day;andfurtherthattheyweredyingtoaskaboutthewedding,andespeciallyaboutwhyheshouldbeherenow,inquiringforthewomanwhoinallreasonablehumanprobabilitymighthavebeenexpectedtobewithhiminPavlofsk。 Hesatisfiedtheircuriosity,inasfewwordsaspossible,withregardtothewedding,buttheirexclamationsandsighsweresonumerousandsincerethathewasobligedtotellthewholestory—— inashortform,ofcourse。TheadviceofalltheseagitatedladieswasthattheprinceshouldgoatonceandknockatRogojin’suntilhewasletin:andwhenletininsistuponasubstantialexplanationofeverything。IfRogojinwasreallynotathome,theprincewasadvisedtogotoacertainhouse,theaddressofwhichwasgiven,wherelivedaGermanlady,afriendofNastasiaPhilipovna’s。Itwaspossiblethatshemighthavespentthenightthereinheranxietytoconcealherself。 Theprincerosefromhisseatinaconditionofmentalcollapse。 Thegoodladiesreportedafterwardsthat\"hispallorwasterribletosee,andhislegsseemedtogivewayunderneathhim。\"Withdifficultyhewasmadetounderstandthathisnewfriendswouldbegladofhisaddress,inordertoactwithhimifpossible。 Afteramoment’sthoughthegavetheaddressofthesmallhotel,onthestairsofwhichhehadhadafitsomefiveweekssince。HethensetoffoncemoreforRogojin’s。 ThistimetheyneitheropenedthedooratRogojin’sflatnorattheoneopposite。Theprincefoundtheporterwithdifficulty,butwhenfound,themanwouldhardlylookathimoranswerhisquestions,pretendingtobebusy。Eventually,however,hewaspersuadedtoreplysofarastostatethatRogojinhadleftthehouseearlyinthemorningandgonetoPavlofsk,andthathewouldnotreturntodayatall。 \"Ishallwait;hemaycomebackthisevening。\" \"Hemaynotbehomeforaweek。\" \"Then,atallevents,heDIDsleephere,didhe?\" \"Well——hedidsleephere,yes。\"