第17章

类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:24588更新时间:18/12/19 17:00:42
TheprincegazedaffectionatelyatColia,who,ofcourse,hadcomeinsolelyforthepurposeoftalkingaboutthis\"giganticthought。\" \"Butitisnotanyoneparticularthought,only;itisthegeneralcircumstancesofthecase。IfVoltairehadwrittenthisnow,orRousseau,Ishouldhavejustreaditandthoughtitremarkable,butshouldnothavebeensoIMPRESSEDbyit。Butamanwhoknowsforcertainthathehasbuttenminutestoliveandcantalklikethat——why——it’s——it’sPRIDE,thatis!Itisreallyamostextraordinary,exaltedassertionofpersonaldignity,it’s——it’sDEFIANT!WhataGIGANTICstrengthofwill,eh?Andtoaccuseafellowlikethatofnotputtinginthecaponpurpose; it’sbaseandmean!Youknowhedeceiveduslastnight,thecunningrascal。Ineverpackedhisbagforhim,andIneversawhispistol。Hepackedithimself。Butheputmeoffmyguardlikethat,yousee。Verasaysyouaregoingtolethimstayon;I swearthere’snodanger,especiallyaswearealwayswithhim。\" \"Whowasbyhimatnight?\" \"I,andBurdovsky,andKostiaLebedeff。Kellerstayedalittlewhile,andthenwentovertoLebedeff’stosleep。FerdishenkosleptatLebedeff’s,too;buthewentawayatseveno’clock。MyfatherisalwaysatLebedeff’s;buthehasgoneoutjustnow。I daresayLebedeffwillbecominginheredirectly;hehasbeenlookingforyou;Idon’tknowwhathewants。Shallwelethiminornot,ifyouareasleep?I’mgoingtohaveanap,too。By-the- by,suchacuriousthinghappened。Burdovskywokemeatseven,andImetmyfatherjustoutsidetheroom,sodrunk,hedidn’tevenknowme。Hestoodbeforemelikealog,andwhenherecoveredhimself,askedhurriedlyhowHippolytewas。’Yes,’hesaid,whenItoldhim,’that’sallverywell,butIREALLYcametowarnyouthatyoumustbeverycarefulwhatyousaybeforeFerdishenko。’Doyoufollowme,prince?\" \"Yes。Isitreallyso?However,it’sallthesametous,ofcourse。\" \"Ofcourseitis;wearenotasecretsociety;andthatbeingthecase,itisallthemorecuriousthatthegeneralshouldhavebeenonhiswaytowakemeupinordertotellmethis。\" \"Ferdishenkohasgone,yousay?\" \"Yes,hewentatseveno’clock。Hecameintotheroomonhiswayout;Iwaswatchingjustthen。Hesaidhewasgoingtospend’therestofthenight’atWilkin’s;there’satipsyfellow,afriendofhis,ofthatname。Well,I’moff。Oh,here’sLebedeffhimself! Theprincewantstogotosleep,LukianTimofeyovitch,soyoumayjustgoawayagain。\" \"Onemoment,mydearprince,justone。Imustabsolutelyspeaktoyouaboutsomethingwhichismostgrave,\"saidLebedeff,mysteriouslyandsolemnly,enteringtheroomwithabowandlookingextremelyimportant。Hehadbutjustreturned,andcarriedhishatinhishand。Helookedpreoccupiedandmostunusuallydignified。 Theprincebeggedhimtotakeachair。 \"Ihearyouhavecalledtwice;Isupposeyouarestillworriedaboutyesterday’saffair。\" \"What,aboutthatboy,youmean?Ohdearno,yesterdaymyideaswerealittle——well——mixed。Today,Iassureyou,Ishallnotopposeintheslightestdegreeanysuggestionsitmaypleaseyoutomake。\" \"What’supwithyouthismorning,Lebedeff?Youlooksoimportantanddignified,andyouchooseyourwordssocarefully,\"saidtheprince,smiling。 \"NicolaiArdalionovitch!\"saidLebedeff,inamostamiabletoneofvoice,addressingtheboy。\"AsIhaveacommunicationtomaketotheprincewhichconcernsonlymyself——\" \"Ofcourse,ofcourse,notmyaffair。Allright,\"saidColia,andawayhewent。 \"Ilovethatboyforhisperception,\"saidLebedeff,lookingafterhim。\"Mydearprince,\"hecontinued,\"Ihavehadaterriblemisfortune,eitherlastnightorearlythismorning。Icannottelltheexacttime。\" \"Whatisit?\" \"Ihavelostfourhundredroublesoutofmysidepocket!They’regone!\"saidLebedeff,withasoursmile。 \"You’velostfourhundredroubles?Oh!I’msorryforthat。\" \"Yes,itisseriousforapoormanwholivesbyhistoil。\" \"Ofcourse,ofcourse!Howwasit?\" \"Oh,thewineistoblame,ofcourse。Iconfesstoyou,prince,asIwouldtoProvidenceitself。YesterdayIreceivedfourhundredroublesfromadebtorataboutfiveintheafternoon,andcamedownherebytrain。Ihadmypurseinmypocket。WhenI changed,Iputthemoneyintothepocketofmyplainclothes,intendingtokeepitbyme,asIexpectedtohaveanapplicantforitintheevening。\" \"It’struethen,Lebedeff,thatyouadvertisetolendmoneyongoldorsilverarticles?\" \"Yes,throughanagent。Myownnamedoesn’tappear。Ihavealargefamily,yousee,andatasmallpercentage——\" \"Quiteso,quiteso。Ionlyaskedforinformation——excusethequestion。Goon。\" \"Well,meanwhilethatsickboywasbroughthere,andthoseguestscamein,andwehadtea,and——well,wemademerry——tomyruin! Hearingofyourbirthdayafterwards,andexcitedwiththecircumstancesoftheevening,Iranupstairsandchangedmyplainclothesoncemoreformyuniform[CivilServiceclerksinRussiawearuniform。]——youmusthavenoticedIhadmyuniformonalltheevening?Well,Iforgotthemoneyinthepocketofmyoldcoat—— youknowwhenGodwillruinamanhefirstofallbereaveshimofhissenses——anditwasonlythismorningathalf-pastseventhatIwokeupandgrabbedatmycoatpocket,firstthing。Thepocketwasempty——thepursegone,andnotatracetobefound!\" \"Dearme!Thisisveryunpleasant!\" \"Unpleasant!Indeeditis。Youhavefoundaveryappropriateexpression,\"saidLebedeff,politely,butwithsarcasm。 \"Butwhat’stobedone?It’saseriousmatter,\"saidtheprince,thoughtfully。\"Don’tyouthinkyoumayhavedroppeditoutofyourpocketwhilstintoxicated?\" \"Certainly。Anythingispossiblewhenoneisintoxicated,asyouneatlyexpressit,prince。Butconsider——ifI,intoxicatedornot,droppedanobjectoutofmypocketontotheground,thatobjectoughttoremainontheground。Whereistheobject,then?\" \"Didn’tyouputitawayinsomedrawer,perhaps?\" \"I’velookedeverywhere,andturnedouteverything。\" \"Iconfessthisdisturbsmeagooddeal。Someonemusthavepickeditup,then。\" \"Ortakenitoutofmypocket——twoalternatives。\" \"Itisverydistressing,becauseWHO——?That’sthequestion!\" \"Mostundoubtedly,excellentprince,youhavehitit——thatistheveryquestion。Howwonderfullyyouexpresstheexactsituationinafewwords!\" \"Come,come,Lebedeff,nosarcasm!It’saserious——\" \"Sarcasm!\"criedLebedeff,wringinghishands。 \"Allright,allright,I’mnotangry。I’monlyputoutaboutthis。Whomdoyoususpect?\" \"Thatisaverydifficultandcomplicatedquestion。Icannotsuspecttheservant,forshewasinthekitchenthewholeevening,nordoIsuspectanyofmychildren。\" \"Ishouldthinknot。Goon。\" \"Thenitmustbeoneoftheguests。\" \"Issuchathingpossible?\" \"Absolutelyandutterlyimpossible——andyet,soitmustbe。ButonethingIamsureof,ifitbeatheft,itwascommitted,notintheeveningwhenwewerealltogether,buteitheratnightorearlyinthemorning;therefore,byoneofthosewhoslepthere。 BurdovskyandColiaIexcept,ofcourse。Theydidnotevencomeintomyroom。\" \"Yes,oreveniftheyhad!Butwhodidsleepwithyou?\"\"Fourofus,includingmyself,intworooms。Thegeneral,myself,Keller,andFerdishenko。Oneofusfouritmusthavebeen。Idon’tsuspectmyself,thoughsuchcaseshavebeenknown。\" \"Oh!DOgoon,Lebedeff!Don’tdragitoutso。\" \"Well,therearethreeleft,then——Kellerfirstly。Heisadrunkardtobeginwith,andaliberal(inthesenseofotherpeople’spockets),otherwisewithmoreoftheancientknightabouthimthanofthemodernliberal。Hewaswiththesickmanatfirst,butcameoverafterwardsbecausetherewasnoplacetoliedownintheroomandthefloorwassohard。\" \"Yoususpecthim?\" \"IDIDsuspecthim。WhenIwokeupathalf-pastsevenandtoremyhairindespairformylossandcarelessness,Iawokethegeneral,whowassleepingthesleepofinnocencenearme。TakingintoconsiderationthesuddendisappearanceofFerdishenko,whichwassuspiciousinitself,wedecidedtosearchKeller,whowaslyingtheresleepinglikeatop。Well,wesearchedhisclothesthoroughly,andnotafarthingdidwefind;infact,hispocketsallhadholesinthem。Wefoundadirtyhandkerchief,andalove- letterfromsomescullery-maid。Thegeneraldecidedthathewasinnocent。Weawokehimforfurtherinquiries,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinmakinghimunderstandwhatwasup。Heopenedhismouthandstared——helookedsostupidandsoabsurdlyinnocent。Itwasn’tKeller。\" \"Oh,I’msoglad!\"saidtheprince,joyfully。\"Iwassoafraid。\" \"Afraid!Thenyouhadsomegroundsforsupposinghemightbetheculprit?\"saidLebedeff,frowning。 \"Ohno——notabit!ItwasfoolishofmetosayIwasafraid! Don’trepeatitplease,Lebedeff,don’ttellanyoneIsaidthat!\" \"Mydearprince!yourwordslieinthelowestdepthofmyheart—— itistheirtomb!\"saidLebedeff,solemnly,pressinghishattotheregionofhisheart。 \"Thanks;verywell。ThenIsupposeit’sFerdishenko;thatis,I mean,yoususpectFerdishenko?\" \"Whomelse?\"saidLebedeff,softly,gazingintentlyintotheprincesface。 \"Ofcourse——quiteso,whomelse?Butwhataretheproofs?\" \"Wehaveevidence。Inthefirstplace,hismysteriousdisappearanceatseveno’clock,orevenearlier。\" \"Iknow,Coliatoldmethathehadsaidhewasoffto——Iforgetthename,somefriendofhis,tofinishthenight。\" \"H’m!thenColiahasspokentoyoualready?\" \"Notaboutthetheft。\" \"Hedoesnotknowofit;Ihavekeptitasecret。Verywell,FerdishenkowentofftoWilkin’s。Thatisnotsocuriousinitself,butheretheevidenceopensoutfurther。Helefthisaddress,yousee,whenhewent。Nowprince,consider,whydidheleavehisaddress?WhydoyousupposehewentoutofhiswaytotellColiathathehadgonetoWilkin’s?WhocaredtoknowthathewasgoingtoWilkin’s?No,no!prince,thisisfinesse,thieves’finesse!Thisisasgoodassaying,’There,howcanIbeathiefwhenIleavemyaddress?I’mnotconcealingmymovementsasathiefwould。’Doyouunderstand,prince?\" \"Ohyes,butthatisnotenough。\" \"Secondproof。Thescentturnsouttobefalse,andtheaddressgivenisasham。Anhourafter——thatisatabouteight,IwenttoWilkin’smyself,andtherewasnotraceofFerdishenko。Themaiddidtellme,certainly,thatanhourorsosincesomeonehadbeenhammeringatthedoor,andhadsmashedthebell;shesaidshewouldnotopenthedoorbecauseshedidn’twanttowakehermaster;probablyshewastoolazytogetupherself。Suchphenomenaaremetwithoccasionally!\" \"Butisthatallyourevidence?Itisnotenough!\" \"Well,prince,whomarewetosuspect,then?Consider!\"saidLebedeffwithalmostservileamiability,smilingattheprince。 Therewasalookofcunninginhiseyes,however。 \"Youshouldsearchyourroomandallthecupboardsagain,\"saidtheprince,afteramomentortwoofsilentreflection。 \"ButIhavedoneso,mydearprince!\"saidLebedeff,moresweetlythanever。 \"H’m!whymustyouneedsgoupandchangeyourcoatlikethat?\" askedtheprince,bangingthetablewithhisfist,inannoyance。 \"Oh,don’tbesoworriedonmyaccount,prince!IassureyouIamnotworthit!Atleast,notIalone。ButIseeyouaresufferingonbehalfofthecriminaltoo,forwretchedFerdishenko,infact!\" \"Ofcourseyouhavegivenmeadisagreeableenoughthingtothinkabout,\"saidtheprince,irritably,\"butwhatareyougoingtodo,sinceyouaresosureitwasFerdishenko?\" \"ButwhoelseCOULDitbe,myverydearprince?\"repeatedLebedeff,assweetassugaragain。\"Ifyoudon’twishmetosuspectMr。Burdovsky?\" \"Ofcoursenot。\" \"Northegeneral?Ha,ha,ha!\" \"Nonsense!\"saidtheprince,angrily,turningrounduponhim。 \"Quiteso,nonsense!Ha,ha,ha!dearme!Hedidamuseme,didthegeneral!WewentoffonthehotscenttoWilkin’stogether,youknow;butImustfirstobservethatthegeneralwasevenmorethunderstruckthanImyselfthismorning,whenIawokehimafterdiscoveringthetheft;somuchsothathisveryfacechanged——hegrewredandthenpale,andatlengthflewintoaparoxysmofsuchnoblewraththatIassureyouIwasquitesurprised!Heisamostgenerous-heartedman!Hetellsliesbythethousands,I know,butitismerelyaweakness;heisamanofthehighestfeelings;asimple-mindedmantoo,andamanwhocarriestheconvictionofinnocenceinhisveryappearance。Ilovethatman,sir;Imayhavetoldyousobefore;itisaweaknessofmine。 Well——hesuddenlystoppedinthemiddleoftheroad,openedouthiscoatandbaredhisbreast。\"Searchme,\"hesays,\"yousearchedKeller;whydon’tyousearchmetoo?Itisonlyfair!\" sayshe。Andallthewhilehislegsandhandsweretremblingwithanger,andheaswhiteasasheetallover!SoIsaidtohim,\"Nonsense,general;ifanybodybutyourselfhadsaidthattome,I’dhavetakenmyhead,myownhead,andputitonalargedishandcarrieditroundtoanyonewhosuspectedyou;andIshouldhavesaid:’There,youseethathead?It’smyhead,andI’llgobailwiththatheadforhim!Yes,andwalkthroughthefireforhim,too。There,’saysI,’that’showI’danswerforyou,general!’Thenheembracedme,inthemiddleofthestreet,andhuggedmesotight(cryingovermeallthewhile)thatIcoughedfittochoke!’Youaretheonefriendlefttomeamidallmymisfortunes,’sayshe。Oh,he’samanofsentiment,that!Hewentontotellmeastoryofhowhehadbeenaccused,orsuspected,ofstealingfivehundredthousandroublesonce,asayoungman; andhow,theverynextday,hehadrushedintoaburning,blazinghouseandsavedtheverycountwhosuspectedhim,andNinaAlexandrovna(whowasthenayounggirl),fromafierydeath。Thecountembracedhim,andthatwashowhecametomarryNinaAlexandrovna,hesaid。Asforthemoney,itwasfoundamongtheruinsnextdayinanEnglishironboxwithasecretlock;ithadgotunderthefloorsomehow,andifithadnotbeenforthefireitwouldneverhavebeenfound!Thewholethingis,ofcourse,anabsolutefabrication,thoughwhenhespokeofNinaAlexandrovnahewept!She’sagrandwoman,isNinaAlexandrovna,thoughsheisveryangrywithme!\" \"Areyouacquaintedwithher?\" \"Well,hardlyatall。IwishIwere,ifonlyforthesakeofjustifyingmyselfinhereyes。NinaAlexandrovnahasagrudgeagainstmefor,asshethinks,encouragingherhusbandindrinking;whereasinrealityInotonlydonotencouragehim,butIactuallykeephimoutofharm’sway,andoutofbadcompany。 Besides,he’smyfriend,prince,sothatIshallnotlosesightofhim,again。Wherehegoes,Igo。He’squitegivenupvisitingthecaptain’swidow,thoughsometimeshethinkssadlyofher,especiallyinthemorning,whenhe’sputtingonhisboots。I don’tknowwhyit’satthattime。Buthehasnomoney,andit’snousehisgoingtoseeherwithout。Hasheborrowedanymoneyfromyou,prince?\" \"No,hehasnot。\" \"Ah,he’sashamedto!HeMEANTtoaskyou,Iknow,forhesaidso。Isupposehethinksthatasyougavehimsomeonce(youremember),youwouldprobablyrefuseifheaskedyouagain。\" \"Doyouevergivehimmoney?\" \"Prince!Money!WhyIwouldgivethatmannotonlymymoney,butmyverylife,ifhewantedit。Well,perhapsthat’sexaggeration; notlife,we’llsay,butsomeillness,aboilorabadcough,oranythingofthatsort,Iwouldstandwithpleasure,forhissake; forIconsiderhimagreatmanfallen——money,indeed!\" \"H’m,thenyouDOgivehimmoney?\" \"N-no,Ihavenevergivenhimmoney,andheknowswellthatI willnevergivehimany;becauseIamanxioustokeephimoutofintemperateways。Heisgoingtotownwithmenow;foryoumustknowIamofftoPetersburgafterFerdishenko,whilethescentishot;I’mcertainheisthere。Ishallletthegeneralgooneway,whileIgotheother;wehavesoarrangedmattersinordertopopoutuponFerdishenko,yousee,fromdifferentsides。ButIamgoingtofollowthatnaughtyoldgeneralandcatchhim,Iknowwhere,atacertainwidow’shouse;forIthinkitwillbeagoodlesson,toputhimtoshamebycatchinghimwiththewidow。\" \"Oh,Lebedeff,don’t,don’tmakeanyscandalaboutit!\"saidtheprince,muchagitated,andspeakinginalowvoice。 \"Notfortheworld,notfortheworld!Imerelywishtomakehimashamedofhimself。Oh,prince,greatthoughthismisfortunebetomyself,Icannothelpthinkingofhismorals!Ihaveagreatfavourtoaskofyou,esteemedprince;Iconfessthatitisthechiefobjectofmyvisit。YouknowtheIvolgins,youhaveevenlivedintheirhouse;soifyouwouldlendmeyourhelp,honouredprince,inthegeneral’sowninterestandforhisgood。\" Lebedeffclaspedhishandsinsupplication。 \"Whathelpdoyouwantfromme?YoumaybecertainthatIammostanxioustounderstandyou,Lebedeff。\" \"Ifeltsureofthat,orIshouldnothavecometoyou。WemightmanageitwiththehelpofNinaAlexandrovna,sothathemightbecloselywatchedinhisownhouse。UnfortunatelyIamnotonterms……otherwise……butNicolaiArdalionovitch,whoadoresyouwithallhisyouthfulsoul,mighthelp,too。\" \"No,no!HeavenforbidthatweshouldbringNinaAlexandrovnaintothisbusiness!OrColia,either。ButperhapsIhavenotyetquiteunderstoodyou,Lebedeff?\" Lebedeffmadeanimpatientmovement。 \"Butthereisnothingtounderstand!Sympathyandtenderness,thatisall——thatisallourpoorinvalidrequires!Youwillpermitmetoconsiderhimaninvalid?\" \"Yes,itshowsdelicacyandintelligenceonyourpart。\" \"Iwillexplainmyideabyapracticalexample,tomakeitclearer。Youknowthesortofmanheis。Atpresenthisonlyfailingisthatheiscrazyaboutthatcaptain’swidow,andhecannotgotoherwithoutmoney,andImeantocatchhimatherhousetoday——forhisowngood;butsupposingitwasnotonlythewidow,butthathehadcommittedarealcrime,oratleastsomeverydishonourableaction(ofwhichheis,ofcourse,incapable),Irepeatthateveninthatcase,ifheweretreatedwithwhatI maycallgeneroustenderness,onecouldgetatthewholetruth,forheisverysoft-hearted!Believeme,hewouldbetrayhimselfbeforefivedayswereout;hewouldburstintotears,andmakeacleanbreastofthematter;especiallyifmanagedwithtact,andifyouandhisfamilywatchedhiseverystep,sotospeak。Oh,mydearprince,\"Lebedeffaddedmostemphatically,\"Idonotpositivelyassertthathehas……Iamready,asthesayingis,toshedmylastdropofbloodforhimthisinstant;butyouwilladmitthatdebauchery,drunkenness,andthecaptain’swidow,allthesetogethermayleadhimveryfar。\" \"Iam,ofcourse,quitereadytoaddmyeffortstoyoursinsuchacase,\"saidtheprince,rising;\"butIconfess,Lebedeff,thatIamterriblyperplexed。Tellme,doyoustillthink…… plainly,yousayyourselfthatyoususpectMr。Ferdishenko?\" Lebedeffclaspedhishandsoncemore。 \"Why,whoelsecouldIpossiblysuspect?Whoelse,mostoutspokenprince?\"hereplied,withanunctuoussmile。 Muishkinfrowned,androsefromhisseat。 \"Yousee,Lebedeff,amistakeherewouldbeadreadfulthing。 ThisFerdishenko,Iwouldnotsayawordagainsthim,ofcourse; but,whoknows?Perhapsitreallywashe?Imeanhereallydoesseemtobeamorelikelymanthan……thananyother。\" Lebedeffstrainedhiseyesandearstotakeinwhattheprincewassaying。Thelatterwasfrowningmoreandmore,andwalkingexcitedlyupanddown,tryingnottolookatLebedeff。 \"Yousee,\"hesaid,\"IwasgiventounderstandthatFerdishenkowasthatsortofman,——thatonecan’tsayeverythingbeforehim。 Onehastotakecarenottosaytoomuch,youunderstand?Isaythistoprovethathereallyis,sotospeak,morelikelytohavedonethisthananyoneelse,eh?Youunderstand?Theimportantthingis,nottomakeamistake。\" \"AndwhotoldyouthisaboutFerdishenko?\" \"Oh,Iwastold。OfcourseIdon’taltogetherbelieveit。IamverysorrythatIshouldhavehadtosaythis,becauseIassureyouIdon’tbelieveitmyself;itisallnonsense,ofcourse。Itwasstupidofmetosayanythingaboutit。\" \"Yousee,itisveryimportant,itismostimportanttoknowwhereyougotthisreportfrom,\"saidLebedeff,excitedly。Hehadrisenfromhisseat,andwastryingtokeepstepwiththeprince,runningafterhim,upanddown。\"Becauselookhere,prince,I don’tmindtellingyounowthatasweweregoingalongtoWilkin’sthismorning,aftertellingmewhatyouknowaboutthefire,andsavingthecountandallthat,thegeneralwaspleasedtodropcertainhintstothesameeffectaboutFerdishenko,butsovaguelyandclumsilythatIthoughtbettertoputafewquestionstohimonthematter,withtheresultthatIfoundthewholethingwasaninventionofhisexcellency’sownmind。Ofcourse,heonlylieswiththebestintentions;still,helies。 But,suchbeingthecase,wherecouldyouhaveheardthesamereport?Itwastheinspirationofthemomentwithhim,youunderstand,sowhocouldhavetoldYOU?Itisanimportantquestion,yousee!\" \"ItwasColiatoldme,andhisfathertoldHIMataboutsixthismorning。Theymetatthethreshold,whenColiawasleavingtheroomforsomethingorother。\"TheprincetoldLebedeffallthatColiahadmadeknowntohimself,indetail。 \"Therenow,that’swhatwemaycallSCENT!\"saidLebedeff,rubbinghishandsandlaughingsilently。\"Ithoughtitmustbeso,yousee。Thegeneralinterruptedhisinnocentslumbers,atsixo’clock,inordertogoandwakehisbelovedson,andwarnhimofthedreadfuldangerofcompanionshipwithFerdishenko。 Dearme!whatadreadfullydangerousmanFerdishenkomustbe,andwhattouchingpaternalsolicitude,onthepartofhisexcellency,ha!ha!ha!\" \"Listen,Lebedeff,\"begantheprince,quiteoverwhelmed;\"DOactquietly——don’tmakeascandal,Lebedeff,Iaskyou——Ientreatyou!Noonemustknow——NOONE,mind!Inthatcaseonly,Iwillhelpyou。\" \"Beassured,mosthonourable,mostworthyofprinces——beassuredthatthewholemattershallbeburiedwithinmyheart!\"criedLebedeff,inaparoxysmofexaltation。\"I’dgiveeverydropofmyblood……Illustriousprince,Iamapoorwretchinsoulandspirit,butasktheveriestscoundrelwhetherhewouldprefertodealwithonelikehimself,orwithanoble-heartedmanlikeyou,andthereisnodoubtastohischoice!He’llanswerthatheprefersthenoble-heartedman——andthereyouhavethetriumphofvirtue!Aurevoir,honouredprince!YouandItogether——softly! softly!\" X。 THEprinceunderstoodatlastwhyheshiveredwithdreadeverytimehethoughtofthethreelettersinhispocket,andwhyhehadputoffreadingthemuntiltheevening。 Whenhefellintoaheavysleeponthesofaontheverandah,withouthavinghadthecouragetoopenasingleoneofthethreeenvelopes,heagaindreamedapainfuldream,andoncemorethatpoor,\"sinful\"womanappearedtohim。Againshegazedathimwithtearssparklingonherlonglashes,andbeckonedhimafterher; andagainheawoke,asbefore,withthepictureofherfacehauntinghim。 Helongedtogetupandgotoheratonce——butheCOULDNOT。Atlength,almostindespair,heunfoldedtheletters,andbegantoreadthem。 Theseletters,too,werelikeadream。Wesometimeshavestrange,impossibledreams,contrarytoallthelawsofnature。Whenweawakewerememberthemandwonderattheirstrangeness。Youremember,perhaps,thatyouwereinfullpossessionofyourreasonduringthissuccessionoffantasticimages;eventhatyouactedwithextraordinarylogicandcunningwhilesurroundedbymurdererswhohidtheirintentionsandmadegreatdemonstrationsoffriendship,whilewaitingforanopportunitytocutyourthroat。Yourememberhowyouescapedthembysomeingeniousstratagem;thenyoudoubtediftheywerereallydeceived,orwhethertheywereonlypretendingnottoknowyourhiding-place; thenyouthoughtofanotherplanandhoodwinkedthemonceagain。 Yourememberallthisquiteclearly,buthowisitthatyourreasoncalmlyacceptedallthemanifestabsurditiesandimpossibilitiesthatcrowdedintoyourdream?Oneofthemurdererssuddenlychangedintoawomanbeforeyourveryeyes; thenthewomanwastransformedintoahideous,cunninglittledwarf;andyoubelievedit,andaccepteditallalmostasamatterofcourse——whileatthesametimeyourintelligenceseemedunusuallykeen,andaccomplishedmiraclesofcunning,sagacity,andlogic!Whyisitthatwhenyouawaketotheworldofrealitiesyounearlyalwaysfeel,sometimesveryvividly,thatthevanisheddreamhascarriedwithitsomeenigmawhichyouhavefailedtosolve?Yousmileattheextravaganceofyourdream,andyetyoufeelthatthistissueofabsurditycontainedsomerealidea,somethingthatbelongstoyourtruelife,——somethingthatexists,andhasalwaysexisted,inyourheart。Yousearchyourdreamforsomeprophecythatyouwereexpecting。Ithasleftadeepimpressionuponyou,joyfulorcruel,butwhatitmeans,orwhathasbeenpredictedtoyouinit,youcanneitherunderstandnorremember。 Thereadingoftheselettersproducedsomesucheffectupontheprince。Hefelt,beforeheevenopenedtheenvelopes,thattheveryfactoftheirexistencewaslikeanightmare。Howcouldsheeverhavemadeuphermindtowritetoher?heaskedhimself。Howcouldshewriteaboutthatatall?Andhowcouldsuchawildideahaveenteredherhead?Andyet,thestrangestpartofthematterwas,thatwhilehereadtheletters,hehimselfalmostbelievedinthepossibility,andeveninthejustification,oftheideahehadthoughtsowild。Ofcourseitwasamaddream,anightmare,andyettherewassomethingcruellyrealaboutit。Forhourshewashauntedbywhathehadread。Severalpassagesreturnedagainandagaintohismind,andashebroodedoverthem,hefeltinclinedtosaytohimselfthathehadforeseenandknownallthatwaswrittenhere;itevenseemedtohimthathehadreadthewholeofthissometimeorother,long,longago;andallthathadtormentedandgrievedhimuptonowwastobefoundintheseold,longsinceread,letters。 \"Whenyouopenthisletter\"(sothefirstbegan),\"lookfirstatthesignature。Thesignaturewilltellyouall,sothatIneedexplainnothing,norattempttojustifymyself。WereIinanywayonafootingwithyou,youmightbeoffendedatmyaudacity;butwhoamI,andwhoareyou?Weareatsuchextremes,andIamsofarremovedfromyou,thatIcouldnotoffendyouifIwishedtodoso。\" Fartheron,inanotherplace,shewrote:\"Donotconsidermywordsasthesicklyecstasiesofadiseasedmind,butyouare,inmyopinion——perfection!Ihaveseenyou——Iseeyoueveryday。I donotjudgeyou;IhavenotweighedyouinthescalesofReasonandfoundyouPerfection——itissimplyanarticleoffaith。ButI mustconfessonesinagainstyou——Iloveyou。Oneshouldnotloveperfection。Oneshouldonlylookonitasperfection——yetIaminlovewithyou。Thoughloveequalizes,donotfear。Ihavenotloweredyoutomylevel,eveninmymostsecretthoughts。Ihavewritten’Donotfear,’asifyoucouldfear。IwouldkissyourfootprintsifIcould;but,oh!Iamnotputtingmyselfonalevelwithyou!——Lookatthesignature——quick,lookatthesignature!\" \"However,observe\"(shewroteinanotheroftheletters),\"thatalthoughIcoupleyouwithhim,yetIhavenotonceaskedyouwhetheryoulovehim。Hefellinlovewithyou,thoughhesawyoubutonce。Hespokeofyouasof’thelight。’Thesearehisownwords——Iheardhimusethem。ButIunderstoodwithouthissayingitthatyouwereallthatlightistohim。Ilivednearhimforawholemonth,andIunderstoodthenthatyou,too,mustlovehim。 Ithinkofyouandhimasone。\" \"Whatwasthematteryesterday?\"(shewroteonanothersheet)。\"I passedbyyou,andyouseemedtometoBLUSH。Perhapsitwasonlymyfancy。IfIweretobringyoutothemostloathsomeden,andshowyoutherevelationofundisguisedvice——youshouldnotblush。Youcanneverfeelthesenseofpersonalaffront。Youmayhateallwhoaremean,orbase,orunworthy——butnotforyourself——onlyforthosewhomtheywrong。NoonecanwrongYOU。 Doyouknow,Ithinkyououghttoloveme——foryouarethesameinmyeyesasinhis-youareaslight。Anangelcannothate,perhapscannotlove,either。Ioftenaskmyself——isitpossibletoloveeverybody?Indeeditisnot;itisnotinnature。 Abstractloveofhumanityisnearlyalwaysloveofself。Butyouaredifferent。Youcannothelplovingall,sinceyoucancomparewithnone,andareaboveallpersonaloffenceoranger。Oh!howbitteritwouldbetometoknowthatyoufeltangerorshameonmyaccount,forthatwouldbeyourfall——youwouldbecomecomparableatoncewithsuchasme。 \"Yesterday,afterseeingyou,Iwenthomeandthoughtoutapicture。 \"ArtistsalwaysdrawtheSaviourasanactorinoneoftheGospelstories。Ishoulddodifferently。IshouldrepresentChristalone——thedisciplesdidleaveHimaloneoccasionally。IshouldpaintonelittlechildleftwithHim。ThischildhasbeenplayingaboutnearHim,andhadprobablyjustbeentellingtheSavioursomethinginitsprettybabyprattle。Christhadlistenedtoit,butwasnowmusing——onehandreposingonthechild’sbrighthead。 Hiseyeshaveafar-awayexpression。Thought,greatastheUniverse,isinthem——Hisfaceissad。ThelittleoneleansitselbowuponChrist’sknee,andwithitscheekrestingonitshand,gazesupatHim,ponderingaschildrensometimesdoponder。Thesunissetting。Thereyouhavemypicture。 \"Youareinnocent——andinyourinnocenceliesallyourperfection——oh,rememberthat!Whatismypassiontoyou?——youareminenow;Ishallbenearyouallmylife——Ishallnotlivelong!\" Atlength,inthelastletterofall,hefound: \"ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmisunderstandme!DonotthinkthatI humiliatemyselfbywritingthustoyou,orthatIbelongtothatclassofpeoplewhotakeasatisfactioninhumiliatingthemselves——frompride。Ihavemyconsolation,thoughitwouldbedifficulttoexplainit——butIdonothumiliatemyself。 \"WhydoIwishtouniteyoutwo?Foryoursakesormyown?Formyownsake,naturally。Alltheproblemsofmylifewouldthusbesolved;Ihavethoughtsoforalongtime。IknowthatoncewhenyoursisterAdelaidasawmyportraitshesaidthatsuchbeautycouldoverthrowtheworld。ButIhaverenouncedtheworld。YouthinkitstrangethatIshouldsayso,foryousawmedeckedwithlaceanddiamonds,inthecompanyofdrunkardsandwastrels。Takenonoticeofthat;IknowthatIhavealmostceasedtoexist。Godknowswhatitisdwellingwithinmenow——itisnotmyself。Icanseeiteverydayintwodreadfuleyeswhicharealwayslookingatme,evenwhennotpresent。Theseeyesaresilentnow,theysaynothing;butIknowtheirsecret。Hishouseisgloomy,andthereisasecretinit。Iamconvincedthatinsomeboxhehasarazorhidden,tiedroundwithsilk,justliketheonethatMoscowmurdererhad。Thismanalsolivedwithhismother,andhadarazorhiddenaway,tiedroundwithwhitesilk,andwiththisrazorheintendedtocutathroat。 \"AllthewhileIwasintheirhouseIfeltsurethatsomewherebeneaththefloortherewashiddenawaysomedreadfulcorpse,wrappedinoil-cloth,perhapsburiedtherebyhisfather,whoknows?JustasintheMoscowcase。Icouldhaveshownyoutheveryspot! \"Heisalwayssilent,butIknowwellthathelovesmesomuchthathemusthateme。Myweddingandyoursaretobeonthesameday;soIhavearrangedwithhim。Ihavenosecretsfromhim。I wouldkillhimfromveryfright,buthewillkillmefirst。Hehasjustburstoutlaughing,andsaysthatIamraving。HeknowsIamwritingtoyou。\" Therewasmuchmoreofthisdeliriouswanderingintheletters—— oneofthemwasverylong。 Atlasttheprincecameoutofthedark,gloomypark,inwhichhehadwanderedaboutforhoursjustasyesterday。Thebrightnightseemedtohimtobelighterthanever。\"Itmustbequiteearly,\" hethought。(Hehadforgottenhiswatch。)Therewasasoundofdistantmusicsomewhere。\"Ah,\"hethought,\"theVauxhall!Theywon’tbetheretoday,ofcourse!\"Atthismomenthenoticedthathewasclosetotheirhouse;hehadfeltthathemustgravitatetothisspoteventually,and,withabeatingheart,hemountedtheverandahsteps。 Noonemethim;theverandahwasempty,andnearlypitchdark。Heopenedthedoorintotheroom,butit,too,wasdarkandempty。 Hestoodinthemiddleoftheroominperplexity。Suddenlythedooropened,andincameAlexandra,candleinhand。Seeingtheprinceshestoppedbeforehiminsurprise,lookingathimquestioningly。 Itwasclearthatshehadbeenmerelypassingthroughtheroomfromdoortodoor,andhadnothadtheremotestnotionthatshewouldmeetanyone。 \"Howdidyoucomehere?\"sheasked,atlast。 \"I-I——camein——\" \"Mammaisnotverywell,norisAglaya。Adelaidahasgonetobed,andIamjustgoing。Wewerealonethewholeevening。FatherandPrinceS。havegonetotown。\" \"Ihavecometoyou——now——to——\" \"Doyouknowwhattimeitis?\" \"N——no!\" \"Half-pasttwelve。Wearealwaysinbedbyone。\" \"I-Ithoughtitwashalf-pastnine!\" \"Nevermind!\"shelaughed,\"butwhydidn’tyoucomeearlier? Perhapsyouwereexpected!\" \"Ithought\"hestammered,makingforthedoor。 \"Aurevoir!Ishallamusethemallwiththisstorytomorrow!\" Hewalkedalongtheroadtowardshisownhouse。Hisheartwasbeating,histhoughtswereconfused,everythingaroundseemedtobepartofadream。 Andsuddenly,justastwicealreadyhehadawakedfromsleepwiththesamevision,thatveryapparitionnowseemedtoriseupbeforehim。Thewomanappearedtostepoutfromthepark,andstandinthepathinfrontofhim,asthoughshehadbeenwaitingforhimthere。 Heshudderedandstopped;sheseizedhishandandpresseditfrenziedly。 No,thiswasnoapparition! Thereshestoodatlast,facetofacewithhim,forthefirsttimesincetheirparting。 Shesaidsomething,buthelookedsilentlybackather。Hisheartachedwithanguish。Oh!neverwouldhebanishtherecollectionofthismeetingwithher,andheneverremembereditbutwiththesamepainandagonyofmind。 Shewentonherkneesbeforehim——thereintheopenroad——likeamadwoman。Heretreatedastep,butshecaughthishandandkissedit,and,justasinhisdream,thetearsweresparklingonherlong,beautifullashes。 \"Getup!\"hesaid,inafrightenedwhisper,raisingher。\"Getupatonce!\" \"Areyouhappy——areyouhappy?\"sheasked。\"Saythisoneword。 Areyouhappynow?Today,thismoment?Haveyoujustbeenwithher?Whatdidshesay?\" Shedidnotrisefromherknees;shewouldnotlistentohim;sheputherquestionshurriedly,asthoughshewerepursued。 \"Iamgoingawaytomorrow,asyoubademe——Iwon’twrite——sothatthisisthelasttimeIshallseeyou,thelasttime!ThisisreallytheLASTTIME!\" \"Oh,becalm——becalm!Getup!\"heentreated,indespair。 Shegazedthirstilyathimandclutchedhishands。 \"Good-bye!\"shesaidatlast,androseandlefthim,veryquickly。 TheprincenoticedthatRogojinhadsuddenlyappearedatherside,andhadtakenherarmandwasleadingheraway。 \"Waitaminute,prince,\"shoutedthelatter,ashewent。\"Ishallbebackinfiveminutes。\" Hereappearedinfiveminutesashehadsaid。Theprincewaswaitingforhim。 \"I’veputherinthecarriage,\"hesaid;\"ithasbeenwaitingroundthecornertheresinceteno’clock。SheexpectedthatyouwouldbewithTHEMalltheevening。Itoldherexactlywhatyouwroteme。Shewon’twritetothegirlanymore,shepromises;andtomorrowshewillbeoff,asyouwish。Shedesiredtoseeyouforthelasttime,althoughyourefused,sowe’vebeensittingandwaitingonthatbenchtillyoushouldpassonyourwayhome。\" \"Didshebringyouwithherofherownaccord?\" \"Ofcourseshedid!\"saidRogojin,showinghisteeth;\"andIsawformyselfwhatIknewbefore。You’vereadherletters,I suppose?\" \"Didyoureadthem?\"askedtheprince,struckbythethought。 \"Ofcourse——sheshowedthemtomeherself。Youarethinkingoftherazor,eh?Ha,ha,ha!\" \"Oh,sheismad!\"criedtheprince,wringinghishands。\"Whoknows?Perhapssheisnotsomadafterall,\"saidRogojin,softly,asthoughthinkingaloud。 Theprincemadenoreply。 \"Well,good-bye,\"saidRogojin。\"I’mofftomorrowtoo,youknow。 Remembermekindly!By-the-by,\"headded,turningroundsharplyagain,\"didyouanswerherquestionjustnow?Areyouhappy,ornot?\" \"No,no,no!\"criedtheprince,withunspeakablesadness。 \"Ha,ha!Ineversupposedyouwouldsay’yes,’\"criedRogojin,laughingsardonically。 Andhedisappeared,withoutlookingroundagain。 PARTIV I。 AWEEKhadelapsedsincetherendezvousofourtwofriendsonthegreenbenchinthepark,when,onefinemorningatabouthalf- pastteno’clock,VarvaraArdalionovna,otherwiseMrs。Ptitsin,whohadbeenouttovisitafriend,returnedhomeinastateofconsiderablementaldepression。 Therearecertainpeopleofwhomitisdifficulttosayanythingwhichwillatoncethrowthemintorelief——inotherwords,describethemgraphicallyintheirtypicalcharacteristics。Thesearetheywhoaregenerallyknownas\"commonplacepeople,\"andthisclasscomprises,ofcourse,theimmensemajorityofmankind。 Authors,asarule,attempttoselectandportraytypesrarelymetwithintheirentirety,butthesetypesareneverthelessmorerealthanreallifeitself。 \"Podkoleosin\"[AcharacterinGogol’scomedy,TheWedding。]wasperhapsanexaggeration,buthewasbynomeansanon-existentcharacter;onthecontrary,howmanyintelligentpeople,afterhearingofthisPodkoleosinfromGogol,immediatelybegantofindthatscoresoftheirfriendswereexactlylikehim!Theyknew,perhaps,beforeGogoltoldthem,thattheirfriendswerelikePodkoleosin,buttheydidnotknowwhatnametogivethem。Inreallife,youngfellowsseldomjumpoutofthewindowjustbeforetheirweddings,becausesuchafeat,nottospeakofitsotheraspects,mustbeadecidedlyunpleasantmodeofescape;andyetthereareplentyofbridegrooms,intelligentfellowstoo,whowouldbereadytoconfessthemselvesPodkoleosinsinthedepthsoftheirconsciousness,justbeforemarriage。Nordoeseveryhusbandfeelboundtorepeatateverystep,\"Tul’asvoulu,GeorgesDandin!\"likeanothertypicalpersonage;andyethowmanymillionsandbillionsofGeorgesDandinsthereareinreallifewhofeelinclinedtoutterthissoul-drawncryaftertheirhoneymoon,ifnotthedayafterthewedding!Therefore,withoutenteringintoanymoreseriousexaminationofthequestion,I willcontentmyselfwithremarkingthatinreallifetypicalcharactersare\"watereddown,\"sotospeak;andalltheseDandinsandPodkoleosinsactuallyexistamonguseveryday,butinadilutedform。Iwilljustadd,however,thatGeorgesDandinmighthaveexistedexactlyasMolierepresentedhim,andprobablydoesexistnowandthen,thoughrarely;andsoIwillendthisscientificexamination,whichisbeginningtolooklikeanewspapercriticism。Butforallthis,thequestionremains,—— whatarethenoveliststodowithcommonplacepeople,andhowaretheytobepresentedtothereaderinsuchaformastobeintheleastdegreeinteresting?Theycannotbeleftoutaltogether,forcommonplacepeoplemeetoneateveryturnoflife,andtoleavethemoutwouldbetodestroythewholerealityandprobabilityofthestory。Tofillanovelwithtypicalcharactersonly,orwithmerelystrangeanduncommonpeople,wouldrenderthebookunrealandimprobable,andwouldverylikelydestroytheinterest。Inmyopinion,thedutyofthenovelististoseekoutpointsofinterestandinstructioneveninthecharactersofcommonplacepeople。 Forinstance,whenthewholeessenceofanordinaryperson’snatureliesinhisperpetualandunchangeablecommonplaceness; andwheninspiteofallhisendeavourstodosomethingoutofthecommon,thispersonends,eventually,byremaininginhisunbrokenlineofroutine。Ithinksuchanindividualreallydoesbecomeatypeofhisown——atypeofcommonplacenesswhichwillnotfortheworld,ifitcanhelpit,becontented,butstrainsandyearnstobesomethingoriginalandindependent,withouttheslightestpossibilityofbeingso。Tothisclassofcommonplacepeoplebelongseveralcharactersinthisnovel;—— characterswhich——Iadmit——Ihavenotdrawnveryvividlyuptonowformyreader’sbenefit。 Suchwere,forinstance,VarvaraArdalionovnaPtitsin,herhusband,andherbrother,Gania。 Thereisnothingsoannoyingastobefairlyrich,ofafairlygoodfamily,pleasingpresence,averageeducation,tobe\"notstupid,\"kind-hearted,andyettohavenotalentatall,nooriginality,notasingleideaofone’sown——tobe,infact,\"justlikeeveryoneelse。\" Ofsuchpeopletherearecountlessnumbersinthisworld——farmoreeventhanappear。Theycanbedividedintotwoclassesasallmencan——thatis,thoseoflimitedintellect,andthosewhoaremuchcleverer。Theformeroftheseclassesisthehappier。 Toacommonplacemanoflimitedintellect,forinstance,nothingissimplerthantoimaginehimselfanoriginalcharacter,andtorevelinthatbeliefwithouttheslightestmisgiving。 Manyofouryoungwomenhavethoughtfittocuttheirhairshort,putonbluespectacles,andcallthemselvesNihilists。Bydoingthistheyhavebeenabletopersuadethemselves,withoutfurthertrouble,thattheyhaveacquirednewconvictionsoftheirown。 Somemenhavebutfeltsomelittlequalmofkindnesstowardstheirfellow-men,andthefacthasbeenquiteenoughtopersuadethemthattheystandaloneinthevanofenlightenmentandthatnoonehassuchhumanitarianfeelingsasthey。Othershavebuttoreadanideaofsomebodyelse’s,andtheycanimmediatelyassimilateitandbelievethatitwasachildoftheirownbrain。 The\"impudenceofignorance,\"ifImayusetheexpression,isdevelopedtoawonderfulextentinsuchcases;——unlikelyasitappears,itismetwithateveryturn。 ThisconfidenceofastupidmaninhisowntalentshasbeenwonderfullydepictedbyGogolintheamazingcharacterofPirogoff。Pirogoffhasnottheslightestdoubtofhisowngenius,——nay,ofhisSUPERIORITYofgenius,——socertainisheofitthatheneverquestionsit。HowmanyPirogoffshavetherenotbeenamongourwriters——scholars——propagandists?Isay\"havebeen,\"butindeedthereareplentyofthematthisveryday。 Ourfriend,Gania,belongedtotheotherclass——tothe\"muchcleverer\"persons,thoughhewasfromheadtofootpermeatedandsaturatedwiththelongingtobeoriginal。Thisclass,asIhavesaidabove,isfarlesshappy。Forthe\"clevercommonplace\" person,thoughhemaypossiblyimaginehimselfamanofgeniusandoriginality,nonethelesshaswithinhisheartthedeathlesswormofsuspicionanddoubt;andthisdoubtsometimesbringsaclevermantodespair。(Asarule,however,nothingtragichappens;——hisliverbecomesalittledamagedinthecourseoftime,nothingmoreserious。Suchmendonotgiveuptheiraspirationsafteroriginalitywithoutaseverestruggle,——andtherehavebeenmenwho,thoughgoodfellowsinthemselves,andevenbenefactorstohumanity,havesunktothelevelofbasecriminalsforthesakeoforiginality。 Ganiawasabeginner,asitwere,uponthisroad。Adeepandunchangeableconsciousnessofhisownlackoftalent,combinedwithavastlongingtobeabletopersuadehimselfthathewasoriginal,hadrankledinhisheart,evenfromchildhood。 Heseemedtohavebeenbornwithoverwroughtnerves,andinhispassionatedesiretoexcel,hewasoftenledtothebrinkofsomerashstep;andyet,havingresolveduponsuchastep,whenthemomentarrived,heinvariablyprovedtoosensibletotakeit。Hewasready,inthesameway,todoabaseactioninordertoobtainhiswished-forobject;andyet,whenthemomentcametodoit,hefoundthathewastoohonestforanygreatbaseness。(Notthatheobjectedtoactsofpettymeanness——hewasalwaysreadyforTHEM。)Helookedwithhateandloathingonthepovertyanddownfallofhisfamily,andtreatedhismotherwithhaughtycontempt,althoughheknewthathiswholefuturedependedonhercharacterandreputation。 Aglayahadsimplyfrightenedhim;yethedidnotgiveupallthoughtsofher——thoughheneverseriouslyhopedthatshewouldcondescendtohim。Atthetimeofhis\"adventure\"withNastasiaPhilipovnahehadcometotheconclusionthatmoneywashisonlyhope——moneyshoulddoallforhim。 AtthemomentwhenhelostAglaya,andafterthescenewithNastasia,hehadfeltsolowinhisowneyesthatheactuallybroughtthemoneybacktotheprince。Ofthisreturningofthemoneygiventohimbyamadwomanwhohadreceiveditfromamadman,hehadoftenrepentedsince——thoughheneverceasedtobeproudofhisaction。DuringtheshorttimethatMuishkinremainedinPetersburgGaniahadhadtimetocometohatehimforhissympathy,thoughtheprincetoldhimthatitwas\"noteveryonewhowouldhaveactedsonobly\"astoreturnthemoney。Hehadlongpondered,too,overhisrelationswithAglaya,andhadpersuadedhimselfthatwithsuchastrange,childish,innocentcharacterashers,thingsmighthaveendedverydifferently。 Remorsethenseizedhim;hethrewuphispost,andburiedhimselfinself-tormentandreproach。 HelivedatPtitsin’s,andopenlyshowedcontemptforthelatter,thoughhealwayslistenedtohisadvice,andwassensibleenoughtoaskforitwhenhewantedit。GavrilaArdalionovitchwasangrywithPtitsinbecausethelatterdidnotcaretobecomeaRothschild。\"IfyouaretobeaJew,\"hesaid,\"doitproperly—— squeezepeoplerightandleft,showsomecharacter;betheKingoftheJewswhileyouareaboutit。\" Ptitsinwasquietandnoteasilyoffended——heonlylaughed。ButononeoccasionheexplainedseriouslytoGaniathathewasnoJew,thathedidnothingdishonest,thathecouldnothelpthemarketpriceofmoney,that,thankstohisaccuratehabits,hehadalreadyagoodfootingandwasrespected,andthathisbusinesswasflourishing。 \"Ishan’teverbeaRothschild,andthereisnoreasonwhyI should,\"headded,smiling;\"butIshallhaveahouseintheLiteynaya,perhapstwo,andthatwillbeenoughforme。\"\"WhoknowsbutwhatImayhavethree!\"heconcludedtohimself;butthisdream,cherishedinwardly,heneverconfidedtoasoul。 Naturelovesandfavourssuchpeople。Ptitsinwillcertainlyhavehisreward,notthreehouses,butfour,preciselybecausefromchildhooduphehadrealizedthathewouldneverbeaRothschild。 ThatwillbethelimitofPtitsin’sfortune,and,comewhatmay,hewillneverhavemorethanfourhouses。 VarvaraArdalionovnawasnotlikeherbrother。Shetoo,hadpassionatedesires,buttheywerepersistentratherthanimpetuous。Herplanswereaswiseashermethodsofcarryingthemout。Nodoubtshealsobelongedtothecategoryofordinarypeoplewhodreamofbeingoriginal,butshesoondiscoveredthatshehadnotagrainoftrueoriginality,andshedidnotletittroublehertoomuch。Perhapsacertainkindofpridecametoherhelp。ShemadeherfirstconcessiontothedemandsofpracticallifewithgreatresolutionwhensheconsentedtomarryPtitsin。 However,whenshemarriedshedidnotsaytoherself,\"Nevermindameanactionifitleadstotheendinview,\"asherbrotherwouldcertainlyhavesaidinsuchacase;itisquiteprobablethathemayhavesaiditwhenheexpressedhiselder-brotherlysatisfactionatherdecision。Farfromthis;VarvaraArdalionovnadidnotmarryuntilshefeltconvincedthatherfuturehusbandwasunassuming,agreeable,almostcultured,andthatnothingonearthwouldtempthimtoareallydishonourabledeed。Astosmallmeannesses,suchtriflesdidnottroubleher。Indeed,whoisfreefromthem?Itisabsurdtoexpecttheideal!Besides,sheknewthathermarriagewouldprovidearefugeforallherfamily。 SeeingGaniaunhappy,shewasanxioustohelphim,inspiteoftheirformerdisputesandmisunderstandings。Ptitsin,inafriendlyway,wouldpresshisbrother-in-lawtoenterthearmy。 \"Youknow,\"hesaidsometimes,jokingly,\"youdespisegeneralsandgeneraldom,butyouwillseethat’they’willallendbybeinggeneralsintheirturn。Youwillseeitifyoulivelongenough!\" \"ButwhyshouldtheysupposethatIdespisegenerals?\"Ganiathoughtsarcasticallytohimself。 Toserveherbrother’sinterests,VarvaraArdalionovnawasconstantlyattheEpanchins’house,helpedbythefactthatinchildhoodsheandGaniahadplayedwithGeneralIvanFedorovitch’sdaughters。Itwouldhavebeeninconsistentwithhercharacterifinthesevisitsshehadbeenpursuingachimera;herprojectwasnotchimericalatall;shewasbuildingonafirmbasis——onherknowledgeofthecharacteroftheEpanchinfamily,especiallyAglaya,whomshestudiedclosely。AllVarvara’seffortsweredirectedtowardsbringingAglayaandGaniatogether。 Perhapssheachievedsomeresult;perhaps,also,shemadethemistakeofdependingtoomuchuponherbrother,andexpectingmorefromhimthanhewouldeverbecapableofgiving。Howeverthismaybe,hermanoeuvreswereskilfulenough。ForweeksatatimeshewouldnevermentionGania。Herattitudewasmodestbutdignified,andshewasalwaysextremelytruthfulandsincere。 Examiningthedepthsofherconscience,shefoundnothingtoreproachherselfwith,andthisstillfurtherstrengthenedherinherdesigns。ButVarvaraArdalionovnasometimesremarkedthatshefeltspiteful;thattherewasagooddealofvanityinher,perhapsevenofwoundedvanity。Shenoticedthisatcertaintimesmorethanatothers,andespeciallyafterhervisitstotheEpanchins。 Today,asIhavesaid,shereturnedfromtheirhousewithaheavyfeelingofdejection。Therewasasensationofbitterness,asortofmockingcontempt,mingledwithit。 Arrivedatherownhouse,Variaheardaconsiderablecommotiongoingonintheupperstorey,anddistinguishedthevoicesofherfatherandbrother。OnenteringthesalonshefoundGaniapacingupanddownatfranticspeed,palewithrageandalmosttearinghishair。Shefrowned,andsubsidedontothesofawithatiredair,andwithouttakingthetroubletoremoveherhat。Sheverywellknewthatifshekeptquietandaskedherbrothernothingabouthisreasonfortearingupanddowntheroom,hiswrathwouldfalluponherhead。Soshehastenedtoputthequestion: \"Theoldstory,eh?\" \"Oldstory?No!Heavenknowswhat’supnow——Idon’t!Fatherhassimplygonemad;mother’sinfloodsoftears。Uponmyword,Varia,Imustkickhimoutofthehouse;orelsegomyself,\"headded,probablyrememberingthathecouldnotwellturnpeopleoutofahousewhichwasnothisown。 \"Youmustmakeallowances,\"murmuredVaria。 \"Makeallowances?Forwhom?Him——theoldblackguard?No,no,Varia——thatwon’tdo!Itwon’tdo,Itellyou!Andlookattheswaggeroftheman!He’salltoblamehimself,andyetheputsonsomuch’side’thatyou’dthink——myword!——’It’stoomuchtroubletogothroughthegate,youmustbreakthefenceforme!’ That’sthesortofairheputson;butwhat’sthematterwithyou,Varia?Whatacuriousexpressionyouhave!\" \"I’mallright,\"saidVaria,inatonethatsoundedasthoughshewereallwrong。 Ganialookedmoreintentlyather。 \"You’vebeenTHERE?\"heasked,suddenly。 \"Yes。\" \"Didyoufindoutanything?\" \"Nothingunexpected。Idiscoveredthatit’salltrue。Myhusbandwaswiserthaneitherofus。Justashesuspectedfromthebeginning,soithasfallenout。Whereishe?\" \"Out。Well——whathashappened?——goon。\" \"Theprinceisformallyengagedtoher——that’ssettled。Theeldersisterstoldmeaboutit。Aglayahasagreed。Theydon’tattempttoconcealitanylonger;youknowhowmysteriousandsecrettheyhaveallbeenuptonow。Adelaida’sweddingisputoffagain,sothatbothcanbemarriedononeday。Isn’tthatdelightfullyromantic?Somebodyoughttowriteapoemonit。Sitdownandwriteanodeinsteadoftearingupanddownlikethat。ThiseveningPrincessBielokonskiistoarrive;shecomesjustintime——theyhaveapartytonight。HeistobepresentedtooldBielokonski,thoughIbelieveheknowsheralready;probablytheengagementwillbeopenlyannounced。Theyareonlyafraidthathemayknocksomethingdown,ortripoversomethingwhenhecomesintotheroom。Itwouldbejustlikehim。\" Ganialistenedattentively,buttohissister’sastonishmenthewasbynomeanssoimpressedbythisnews(whichshould,shethought,havebeensoimportanttohim)asshehadexpected。 \"Well,itwasclearenoughallalong,\"hesaid,afteramoment’sreflection。\"Sothat’stheend,\"headded,withadisagreeablesmile,continuingtowalkupanddowntheroom,butmuchslowerthanbefore,andglancingslylyintohissister’sface。 \"It’sagoodthingthatyoutakeitphilosophically,atallevents,\"saidVaria。\"I’mreallyverygladofit。\" \"Yes,it’soffourhands——offYOURS,Ishouldsay。\" \"IthinkIhaveservedyoufaithfully。IneverevenaskedyouwhathappinessyouexpectedtofindwithAglaya。\" \"DidIeverexpecttofindhappinesswithAglaya?\" \"Come,come,don’toverdoyourphilosophy。Ofcourseyoudid。Nowit’sallover,andagoodthing,too;pairoffoolsthatwehavebeen!IconfessIhaveneverbeenabletolookatitseriously。I busiedmyselfinitforyoursake,thinkingthattherewasnoknowingwhatmighthappenwithafunnygirllikethattodealwith。Therewereninetytoonechancesagainstit。TothismomentIcan’tmakeoutwhyyouwishedforit。\" \"H’m!now,Isuppose,youandyourhusbandwillneverwearyofeggingmeontoworkagain。You’llbeginyourlecturesaboutperseveranceandstrengthofwill,andallthat。Iknowitallbyheart,\"saidGania,laughing。 \"He’sgotsomenewideainhishead,\"thoughtVaria。\"Aretheypleasedoverthere——theparents?\"askedGania,suddenly。 \"N——no,Idon’tthinktheyare。Youcanjudgeforyourself。I thinkthegeneralispleasedenough;hermotherisalittleuneasy。ShealwaysloathedtheideaoftheprinceasaHUSBAND; everybodyknowsthat。\" \"Ofcourse,naturally。Thebridegroomisanimpossibleandridiculousone。Imean,hasSHEgivenherformalconsent?\" \"Shehasnotsaid’no,’uptonow,andthat’sall。Itwassuretobesowithher。Youknowwhatsheislike。Youknowhowabsurdlyshysheis。Yourememberhowsheusedtohideinacupboardasachild,soastoavoidseeingvisitors,forhoursatatime。Sheisjustthesamenow;but,doyouknow,Ithinkthereissomethingseriousinthematter,evenfromherside;Ifeelit,somehow。Shelaughsattheprince,theysay,frommorntonightinordertohideherrealfeelings;butyoumaybesureshefindsoccasiontosaysomethingorothertohimonthesly,forhehimselfisinastateofradianthappiness。Hewalksintheclouds;theysayheisextremelyfunnyjustnow;Ihearditfromthemselves。Theyseemedtobelaughingatmeintheirsleeves—— thoseeldergirls——Idon’tknowwhy。\" Ganiahadbeguntofrown,andprobablyVariaaddedthislastsentenceinordertoprobehisthought。However,atthismoment,thenoisebeganagainupstairs。 \"I’llturnhimout!\"shoutedGania,gladoftheopportunityofventinghisvexation。\"Ishalljustturnhimout——wecan’thavethis。\" \"Yes,andthenhe’llgoabouttheplaceanddisgraceusashedidyesterday。\" \"How’ashedidyesterday’?Whatdoyoumean?Whatdidhedoyesterday?\"askedGania,inalarm。 \"Why,goodnessme,don’tyouknow?\"Variastoppedshort。 \"What?Youdon’tmeantosaythathewentthereyesterday!\"criedGania,flushingredwithshameandanger。\"Goodheavens,Varia! Speak!Youhavejustbeenthere。WAShethereornot,QUICK?\"AndGaniarushedforthedoor。Variafollowedandcaughthimbybothhands。 \"Whatareyoudoing?Whereareyougoingto?Youcan’tlethimgonow;ifyoudohe’llgoanddosomethingworse。\" \"Whatdidhedothere?Whatdidhesay?\"\"Theycouldn’ttellmethemselves;theycouldn’tmakeheadortailofit;buthefrightenedthemall。Hecametoseethegeneral,whowasnotathome;soheaskedforLizabethaProkofievna。Firstofall,hebeggedherforsomeplace,orsituation,forworkofsomekind,andthenhebegantocomplainaboutUS,aboutmeandmyhusband,andyou,especiallyYOU;hesaidalotofthings。\" \"Oh!couldn’tyoufindout?\"mutteredGania,tremblinghysterically。 \"No——nothingmorethanthat。Why,theycouldn’tunderstandhimthemselves;andverylikelydidn’ttellmeall。\" Ganiaseizedhisheadwithbothhandsandtotteredtothewindow; Variasatdownattheotherwindow。 \"Funnygirl,Aglaya,\"sheobserved,afterapause。\"Whensheleftmeshesaid,’Givemyspecialandpersonalrespectstoyourparents;Ishallcertainlyfindanopportunitytoseeyourfatheroneday,’andsoseriousoverit。She’sastrangecreature。\" \"Wasn’tshejoking?Shewasspeakingsarcastically!\"\"Notabitofit;that’sjustthestrangepartofit。\" \"Doessheknowaboutfather,doyouthink——ornot?\" \"ThattheydoNOTknowaboutitinthehouseisquitecertain,therestofthem,Imean;butyouhavegivenmeanidea。Aglayaperhapsknows。Shealone,though,ifanyone;forthesisterswereasastonishedasIwastohearherspeaksoseriously。Ifsheknows,theprincemusthavetoldher。\" \"Oh!it’snotagreatmattertoguesswhotoldher。Athief!A thiefinourfamily,andtheheadofthefamily,too!\" \"Oh!nonsense!\"criedVaria,angrily。\"Thatwasnothingbutadrunkard’stale。Nonsense!Why,whoinventedthewholething