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类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:25722更新时间:18/12/19 17:00:42
Thequestionastowhatshemighthavetosayofspecialinteresttohimselfoccurredtohimonceortwice。Hedidnotdoubt,foramoment,thatshereallyhadsomesuchsubjectofconversationinstore,butsoverylittleinterestedinthematterwashethatitdidnotstrikehimtowonderwhatitcouldbe。Thecrunchofgravelonthepathsuddenlycausedhimtoraisehishead。 Aman,whosefaceitwasdifficulttoseeinthegloom,approachedthebench,andsatdownbesidehim。Theprincepeeredintohisface,andrecognizedthelividfeaturesofRogojin。 \"Iknewyou’dbewanderingaboutsomewherehere。Ididn’thavetolookforyouverylong,\"mutteredthelatterbetweenhisteeth。 Itwasthefirsttimetheyhadmetsincetheencounteronthestaircaseatthehotel。 PainfullysurprisedashewasatthissuddenapparitionofRogojin,theprince,forsomelittlewhile,wasunabletocollecthisthoughts。Rogojin,evidently,sawandunderstoodtheimpressionhehadmade;andthoughheseemedmoreorlessconfusedatfirst,yethebegantalkingwithwhatlookedlikeassumedeaseandfreedom。However,theprincesoonchangedhismindonthisscore,andthoughtthattherewasnotonlynoaffectationofindifference,butthatRogojinwasnotevenparticularlyagitated。Iftherewerealittleapparentawkwardness,itwasonlyinhiswordsandgestures。Themancouldnotchangehisheart。 \"Howdidyou——findmehere?\"askedtheprinceforthesakeofsayingsomething。 \"Kellertoldme(Ifoundhimatyourplace)thatyouwereinthepark。’Ofcourseheis!’Ithought。\" \"Whyso?\"askedtheprinceuneasily。 Rogojinsmiled,butdidnotexplain。 \"Ireceivedyourletter,LefNicolaievitch——what’sthegoodofallthat?——It’snouse,youknow。I’vecometoyoufromHER,——shebademetellyouthatshemustseeyou,shehassomethingtosaytoyou。Shetoldmetofindyoutoday。\" \"I’llcometomorrow。NowI’mgoinghome——areyoucomingtomyhouse?\" \"WhyshouldI?I’vegivenyouthemessage——Goodbye!\" \"Won’tyoucome?\"askedtheprinceinagentlevoice。 \"Whatanextraordinarymanyouare!Iwonderatyou!\"Rogojinlaughedsarcastically。 \"Whydoyouhatemeso?\"askedtheprince,sadly。\"Youknowyourselfthatallyoususpectedisquiteunfounded。Ifeltyouwerestillangrywithme,though。Doyouknowwhy?Becauseyoutriedtokillme——that’swhyyoucan’tshakeoffyourwrathagainstme。ItellyouthatIonlyremembertheParfenRogojinwithwhomIexchangedcrosses,andvowedbrotherhood。Iwroteyouthisinyesterday’sletter,inorderthatyoumightforgetallthatmadnessonyourpart,andthatyoumightnotfeelcalledtotalkaboutitwhenwemet。Whydoyouavoidme?Whydoyouholdyourhandbackfromme?Itellyouagain,Iconsiderallthathaspassedadelirium,aninsanedream。Icanunderstandallyoudid,andallyoufeltthatday,asifitweremyself。Whatyouwerethenimaginingwasnotthecase,andcouldneverbethecase。 Why,then,shouldtherebeangerbetweenus?\" \"Youdon’tknowwhatangeris!\"laughedRogojin,inreplytotheprince’sheatedwords。 Hehadmovedapaceortwoaway,andwashidinghishandsbehindhim。 \"No,itisimpossibleformetocometoyourhouseagain,\"headdedslowly。 \"Why?Doyouhatemesomuchasallthat?\" \"Idon’tloveyou,LefNicolaievitch,and,therefore,whatwouldbetheuseofmycomingtoseeyou?Youarejustlikeachild—— youwantaplaything,anditmustbetakenoutandgivenyou——andthenyoudon’tknowhowtoworkit。Youaresimplyrepeatingallyousaidinyourletter,andwhat’stheuse?OfcourseIbelieveeverywordyousay,andIknowperfectlywellthatyouneitherdidorevercandeceivemeinanyway,andyet,Idon’tloveyou。 Youwritethatyou’veforgotteneverything,andonlyrememberyourbrotherParfen,withwhomyouexchangedcrosses,andthatyoudon’trememberanythingabouttheRogojinwhoaimedaknifeatyourthroat。Whatdoyouknowaboutmyfeelings,eh?\"(Rogojinlaugheddisagreeably。)\"HereyouareholdingoutyourbrotherlyforgivenesstomeforathingthatIhaveperhapsneverrepentedofintheslightestdegree。Ididnotthinkofitagainallthatevening;allmythoughtswerecentredonsomethingelse——\" \"Notthinkofitagain?Ofcourseyoudidn’t!\"criedtheprince。 \"AndIdareswearthatyoucamestraightawaydownheretoPavlofsktolistentothemusicanddogheraboutinthecrowd,andstareather,justasyoudidtoday。There’snothingsurprisinginthat!Ifyouhadn’tbeeninthatconditionofmindthatyoucouldthinkofnothingbutonesubject,youwould,probably,neverhaveraisedyourknifeagainstme。Ihadapresentimentofwhatyouwoulddo,thatday,eversinceIsawyoufirstinthemorning。Doyouknowyourselfwhatyoulookedlike? Iknewyouwouldtrytomurdermeevenattheverymomentwhenweexchangedcrosses。Whatdidyoutakemetoyourmotherfor?Didyouthinktostayyourhandbydoingso?Perhapsyoudidnotputyourthoughtsintowords,butyouandIwerethinkingthesamething,orfeelingthesamethingloomingoverus,atthesamemoment。Whatshouldyouthinkofmenowifyouhadnotraisedyourknifetome——theknifewhichGodavertedfrommythroat?I wouldhavebeenguiltyofsuspectingyouallthesame——andyouwouldhaveintendedthemurderallthesame;thereforeweshouldhavebeenmutuallyguiltyinanycase。Come,don’tfrown;youneedn’tlaughatme,either。Yousayyouhaven’t’repented。’ Repented!Youprobablycouldn’t,ifyouweretotry;youdislikemetoomuchforthat。Why,ifIwereanangeloflight,andasinnocentbeforeyouasababe,youwouldstillloathemeifyoubelievedthatSHElovedme,insteadoflovingyourself。That’sjealousy——thatistherealjealousy。 \"ButdoyouknowwhatIhavebeenthinkingoutduringthislastweek,Parfen?I’lltellyou。Whatifshelovesyounowbetterthananyone?AndwhatifshetormentsyouBECAUSEshelovesyou,andinproportiontoherloveforyou,soshetormentsyouthemore?Shewon’ttellyouthis,ofcourse;youmusthaveeyestosee。Whydoyousupposesheconsentstomarryyou?Shemusthaveareason,andthatreasonshewilltellyousomeday。Somewomendesirethekindofloveyougiveher,andsheisprobablyoneofthese。Yourloveandyourwildnatureimpressher。Doyouknowthatawomaniscapableofdrivingamancrazyalmost,withhercrueltiesandmockeries,andfeelsnotonesinglepangofregret,becauseshelooksathimandsaystoherself,’There!I’lltormentthismannearlyintohisgrave,andthen,oh!howI’llcompensatehimforitallwithmylove!’\" Rogojinlistenedtotheend,andthenburstoutlaughing: \"Why,prince,Ideclareyoumusthavehadatasteofthissortofthingyourself——haven’tyou?Ihaveheardtellofsomethingofthekind,youknow;isittrue?\" \"What?Whatcanyouhaveheard?\"saidtheprince,stammering。 Rogojincontinuedtolaughloudly。Hehadlistenedtotheprince’sspeechwithcuriosityandsomesatisfaction。Thespeaker’simpulsivewarmthhadsurprisedandevencomfortedhim。 \"Why,I’venotonlyheardofit;Iseeitformyself,\"hesaid。 \"Whenhaveyoueverspokenlikethatbefore?Itwasn’tlikeyourself,prince。Why,ifIhadn’theardthisreportaboutyou,I shouldneverhavecomeallthiswayintothepark——atmidnight,too!\" \"Idon’tunderstandyouintheleast,Parfen。\" \"Oh,SHEtoldmeallaboutitlongago,andtonightIsawformyself。Isawyouatthemusic,youknow,andwhomyouweresittingwith。Shesworetomeyesterday,andagaintoday,thatyouaremadlyinlovewithAglayaIvanovna。Butthat’sallthesametome,prince,andit’snotmyaffairatall;forifyouhaveceasedtoloveHER,SHEhasnotceasedtoloveYOU。Youknow,ofcourse,thatshewantstomarryyoutothatgirl?She’ssworntoit!Ha,ha!Shesaystome,’UntilthenIwon’tmarryyou。Whentheygotochurch,we’llgotoo-andnotbefore。’Whatonearthdoesshemeanbyit?Idon’tknow,andIneverdid。 Eithershelovesyouwithoutlimitsor——yet,ifshelovesyou,whydoesshewishtomarryyoutoanothergirl?Shesays,’Iwanttoseehimhappy,’whichistosay——shelovesyou。\" \"Iwrote,andIsaytoyouoncemore,thatsheisnotinherrightmind,\"saidtheprince,whohadlistenedwithanguishtowhatRogojinsaid。 \"Goodnessknows——youmaybewrongthere!Atallevents,shenamedthedaythisevening,asweleftthegardens。’Inthreeweeks,’ saysshe,’andperhapssooner,weshallbemarried。’Shesworetoit,tookoffhercrossandkissedit。Soitalldependsuponyounow,prince,Yousee!Ha,ha!\" \"That’sallmadness。Whatyousayaboutme,Parfen,nevercanandneverwillbe。Tomorrow,Ishallcomeandseeyou——\" \"Howcanshebemad,\"Rogojininterrupted,\"whensheissaneenoughforotherpeopleandonlymadforyou?HowcanshewriteletterstoHER,ifshe’smad?Ifshewereinsanetheywouldobserveitinherletters。\" \"Whatletters?\"saidtheprince,alarmed。 \"ShewritestoHER——andthegirlreadstheletters。Haven’tyouheard?——Youaresuretohear;she’ssuretoshowyouthelettersherself。\" \"Iwon’tbelievethis!\"criedtheprince。 \"Why,prince,you’veonlygoneafewstepsalongthisroad,I perceive。Youareevidentlyamerebeginner。Waitabit!Beforelong,you’llhaveyourowndetectives,you’llwatchdayandnight,andyou’llknoweverylittlethingthatgoesonthere—— thatis,if——\" \"Dropthatsubject,Rogojin,andnevermentionitagain。Andlisten:asIhavesathere,andtalked,andlistened,ithassuddenlystruckmethattomorrowismybirthday。Itmustbeabouttwelveo’clock,now;comehomewithme——do,andwe’llseethedayin!We’llhavesomewine,andyoushallwishme——Idon’tknowwhat——butyou,especiallyyou,mustwishmeagoodwish,andIshallwishyoufullhappinessinreturn。Otherwise,handmemycrossbackagain。Youdidn’treturnittomenextday。Haven’tyougotitonnow?\" \"Yes,Ihave,\"saidRogojin。 \"Comealong,then。Idon’twishtomeetmynewyearwithoutyou—— mynewlife,Ishouldsay,foranewlifeisbeginningforme。 Didyouknow,Parfen,thatanewlifehadbegunforme?\" \"Iseeformyselfthatitisso——andIshalltellHER。Butyouarenotquiteyourself,LefNicolaievitch。\" IV。 THEprinceobservedwithgreatsurprise,asheapproachedhisvilla,accompaniedbyRogojin,thatalargenumberofpeoplewereassembledonhisverandah,whichwasbrilliantlylightedup。Thecompanyseemedmerryandwerenoisilylaughingandtalking——evenquarrelling,tojudgefromthesounds。Atalleventstheywereclearlyenjoyingthemselves,andtheprinceobservedfurtheroncloserinvestigation——thatallhadbeendrinkingchampagne。Tojudgefromthelivelyconditionofsomeoftheparty,itwastobesupposedthataconsiderablequantityofchampagnehadbeenconsumedalready。 Alltheguestswereknowntotheprince;butthecuriouspartofthematterwasthattheyhadallarrivedonthesameevening,asthoughwithoneaccord,althoughhehadonlyhimselfrecollectedthefactthatitwashisbirthdayafewmomentssince。 \"Youmusthavetoldsomebodyyouweregoingtotrotoutthechampagne,andthat’swhytheyareallcome!\"mutteredRogojin,asthetwoenteredtheverandah。\"Weknowallaboutthat!You’veonlytowhistleandtheycomeupinshoals!\"hecontinued,almostangrily。Hewasdoubtlessthinkingofhisownlateexperienceswithhisbooncompanions。 Allsurroundedtheprincewithexclamationsofwelcome,and,onhearingthatitwashisbirthday,withcriesofcongratulationanddelight;manyofthemwereverynoisy。 Thepresenceofcertainofthoseintheroomsurprisedtheprincevastly,buttheguestwhoseadventfilledhimwiththegreatestwonder——almostamountingtoalarm——wasEvgeniePavlovitch。Theprincecouldnotbelievehiseyeswhenhebeheldthelatter,andcouldnothelpthinkingthatsomethingwaswrong。 Lebedeffranuppromptlytoexplainthearrivalofallthesegentlemen。Hewashimselfsomewhatintoxicated,buttheprincegatheredfromhislong-windedperiodsthatthepartyhadassembledquitenaturally,andaccidentally。 FirstofallHippolytehadarrived,earlyintheevening,andfeelingdecidedlybetter,haddeterminedtoawaittheprinceontheverandah。ThereLebedeffhadjoinedhim,andhishouseholdhadfollowed——thatis,hisdaughtersandGeneralIvolgin。 BurdovskyhadbroughtHippolyte,andstayedonwithhim。GaniaandPtitsinhaddroppedinaccidentallylateron;thencameKeller,andheandColiainsistedonhavingchampagne。EvgeniePavlovitchhadonlydroppedinhalfanhourorsoago。Lebedeffhadservedthechampagnereadily。 \"Myownthough,prince,myown,mind,\"hesaid,\"andthere’llbesomesupperlateron;mydaughterisgettingitreadynow。Comeandsitdown,prince,weareallwaitingforyou,wewantyouwithus。Fancywhatwehavebeendiscussing!Youknowthequestion,’tobeornottobe,’——outofHamlet!Acontemporarytheme!Quiteup-to-date!Mr。Hippolytehasbeeneloquenttoadegree。Hewon’tgotobed,buthehasonlydrunkalittlechampagne,andthatcan’tdohimanyharm。Comealong,prince,andsettlethequestion。Everyoneiswaitingforyou,sighingforthelightofyourluminousintelligence……\" Theprincenoticedthesweet,welcominglookonVeraLebedeff’sface,asshemadeherwaytowardshimthroughthecrowd。Heheldouthishandtoher。Shetookit,blushingwithdelight,andwishedhim\"ahappylifefromthatdayforward。\"Thensheranofftothekitchen,where。herpresencewasnecessarytohelpinthepreparationsforsupper。Beforetheprince’sarrivalshehadspentsometimeontheterrace,listeningeagerlytotheconversation,thoughthevisitors,mostlyundertheinfluenceofwine,werediscussingabstractsubjectsfarbeyondhercomprehension。Inthenextroomheryoungersisterlayonawoodenchest,soundasleep,withhermouthwideopen;buttheboy,Lebedeff’sson,hadtakenuphispositionclosebesideColiaandHippolyte,hisfacelitupwithinterestintheconversationofhisfatherandtherest,towhichhewouldwillinglyhavelistenedfortenhoursatastretch。 \"Ihavewaitedforyouonpurpose,andamverygladtoseeyouarrivesohappy,\"saidHippolyte,whentheprincecameforwardtopresshishand,immediatelyaftergreetingVera。 \"AndhowdoyouknowthatIam’sohappy’? \"Icanseeitbyyourface!Say’howdoyoudo’totheothers,andcomeandsitdownhere,quick——I’vebeenwaitingforyou!\"headded,accentuatingthefactthathehadwaited。Ontheprince’sasking,\"Willitnotbeinjurioustoyoutositoutsolate?\"herepliedthathecouldnotbelievethathehadthoughthimselfdyingthreedaysorsoago,forheneverhadfeltbetterthanthisevening。 Burdovskynextjumpedupandexplainedthathehadcomeinbyaccident,havingescortedHippolytefromtown。Hemurmuredthathewasgladhehad\"writtennonsense\"inhisletter,andthenpressedtheprince’shandwarmlyandsatdownagain。 TheprinceapproachedEvgeniePavlovitchlastofall。Thelatterimmediatelytookhisarm。 \"Ihaveacoupleofwordstosaytoyou,\"hebegan,\"andthoseonaveryimportantmatter;let’sgoasideforaminuteortwo。\" \"Justacoupleofwords!\"whisperedanothervoiceintheprince’sotherear,andanotherhandtookhisotherarm。Muishkinturned,andtohisgreatsurpriseobservedared,flushedfaceandadroll-lookingfigurewhichherecognizedatonceasthatofFerdishenko。Goodnessknowswherehehadturnedupfrom! \"DoyourememberFerdishenko?\"heasked。 \"Wherehaveyoudroppedfrom?\"criedtheprince。 \"Heissorryforhissinsnow,prince,\"criedKeller。\"Hedidnotwanttoletyouknowhewashere;hewashiddenoverthereinthecorner,——butherepentsnow,hefeelshisguilt。\" \"Why,whathashedone?\" \"Imethimoutsideandbroughthimin——he’sagentlemanwhodoesn’toftenallowhisfriendstoseehim,oflate——buthe’ssorrynow。\" \"Delighted,I’msure!——I’llcomebackdirectly,gentlemen,——sitdowntherewiththeothers,please,——excusemeonemoment,\"saidthehost,gettingawaywithdifficultyinordertofollowEvgenie。 \"Youareverygayhere,\"beganthelatter,\"andIhavehadquiteapleasanthalf-hourwhileIwaitedforyou。Nowthen,mydearLefNicolaievitch,thisiswhat’sthematter。I’vearrangeditallwithMoloftsoff,andhavejustcomeintorelieveyourmindonthatscore。Youneedbeundernoapprehensions。Hewasverysensible,asheshouldbe,ofcourse,forIthinkhewasentirelytoblamehimself。\" \"WhatMoloftsoff?\" \"Theyoungfellowwhosearmsyouheld,don’tyouknow?Hewassowildwithyouthathewasgoingtosendafriendtoyoutomorrowmorning。\" \"Whatnonsense!\" \"Ofcourseitisnonsense,andinnonsenseitwouldhaveended,doubtless;butyouknowthesefellows,they——\" \"Excuseme,butIthinkyoumusthavesomethingelsethatyouwishedtospeakabout,EvgeniePavlovitch?\" \"Ofcourse,Ihave!\"saidtheother,laughing。\"Yousee,mydearfellow,tomorrow,veryearlyinthemorning,Imustbeofftotownaboutthisunfortunatebusiness(myuncle,youknow!)。Justimagine,mydearsir,itisalltrue——wordforword——and,ofcourse,everybodyknewitexceptingmyself。AllthishasbeensuchablowtomethatIhavenotmanagedtocallinattheEpanchins’。TomorrowIshallnotseethemeither,becauseI shallbeintown。Imaynotbehereforthreedaysormore;inaword,myaffairsarealittleoutofgear。Butthoughmytownbusinessis,ofcourse,mostpressing,stillIdeterminednottogoawayuntilIhadseenyou,andhadaclearunderstandingwithyouuponcertainpoints;andthatwithoutlossoftime。Iwillwaitnow,ifyouwillallowme,untilthecompanydeparts;Imayjustaswell,forIhavenowhereelsetogoto,andIshallcertainlynotdoanysleepingtonight;I’mfartooexcited。Andfinally,Imustconfessthat,thoughIknowitisbadformtopursueamaninthisway,Ihavecometobegyourfriendship,mydearprince。Youareanunusualsortofaperson;youdon’tlieateverystep,assomemendo;infact,youdon’tlieatall,andthereisamatterinwhichIneedatrueandsincerefriend,forIreallymayclaimtobeamongthenumberofbonafideunfortunatesjustnow。\" Helaughedagain。 \"Butthetroubleis,\"saidtheprince,afteraslightpauseforreflection,\"thatgoodnessonlyknowswhenthispartywillbreakup。Hadn’twebetterstrollintothepark?I’llexcusemyself,there’snodangeroftheirgoingaway。\" \"No,no!Ihavemyreasonsforwishingthemnottosuspectusofbeingengagedinanyspeciallyimportantconversation。Therearegentrypresentwhoarealittletoomuchinterestedinus。Youarenotawareofthatperhaps,prince?Itwillbeagreatdealbetteriftheyseethatwearefriendlyjustinanordinaryway。 They’llallgoinacoupleofhours,andthenI’llaskyoutogivemetwentyminutes-halfanhouratmost。\" \"Byallmeans!IassureyouIamdelighted——youneednothaveenteredintoalltheseexplanations。Asforyourremarksaboutfriendshipwithme——thanks,verymuchindeed。Youmustexcusemybeingalittleabsentthisevening。Doyouknow,Icannotsomehowbeattentivetoanythingjustnow?\" \"Isee,Isee,\"saidEvgenie,smilinggently。Hismirthseemedverynearthesurfacethisevening。 \"Whatdoyousee?\"saidtheprince,startled。 \"Idon’twantyoutosuspectthatIhavesimplycomeheretodeceiveyouandpumpinformationoutofyou!\"saidEvgenie,stillsmiling,andwithoutmakinganydirectreplytothequestion。 \"Oh,butIhaven’ttheslightestdoubtthatyoudidcometopumpme,\"saidtheprince,laughinghimself,atlast;\"andIdaresayyouarequitepreparedtodeceivemetoo,sofarasthatgoes。 Butwhatofthat?I’mnotafraidofyou;besides,you’llhardlybelieveit,IfeelasthoughIreallydidn’tcareascraponewayortheother,justnow!——And-and-andasyouareacapitalfellow,Iamconvincedofthat,Idaresaywereallyshallendbybeinggoodfriends。IlikeyouverymuchEvgeniePavlovitch;Iconsideryouaverygoodfellowindeed。\" \"Well,inanycase,youareamostdelightfulmantohavetodealwith,bethebusinesswhatitmay,\"concludedEvgenie。\"Comealongnow,I’lldrinkaglasstoyourhealth。I’mcharmedtohaveenteredintoalliancewithyou。By-the-by,\"headdedsuddenly,hasthisyoungHippolytecomedowntostaywithyou\"Yes。\" \"He’snotgoingtodieatonce,Ishouldthink,ishe?\" \"Why?\" \"Oh,Idon’tknow。I’vebeenhalfanhourherewithhim,andhe——\" Hippolytehadbeenwaitingfortheprinceallthistime,andhadneverceasedlookingathimandEvgeniePavlovitchastheyconversedinthecorner。Hebecamemuchexcitedwhentheyapproachedthetableoncemore。Hewasdisturbedinhismind,itseemed;perspirationstoodinlargedropsonhisforehead;inhisgleamingeyesitwaseasytoreadimpatienceandagitation;hisgazewanderedfromfacetofaceofthosepresent,andfromobjecttoobjectintheroom,apparentlywithoutaim。Hehadtakenapart,andananimatedone,inthenoisyconversationofthecompany;buthisanimationwasclearlytheoutcomeoffever。Histalkwasalmostincoherent;hewouldbreakoffinthemiddleofasentencewhichhehadbegunwithgreatinterest,andforgetwhathehadbeensaying。TheprincediscoveredtohisdismaythatHippolytehadbeenallowedtodrinktwolargeglassesofchampagne;theonenowstandingbyhimbeingthethird。Allthishefoundoutafterwards;atthemomenthedidnotnoticeanything,veryparticularly。 \"DoyouknowIamspeciallygladthattodayisyourbirthday!\" criedHippolyte。 \"Why?\" \"You’llsoonsee。D’youknowIhadafeelingthattherewouldbealotofpeopleheretonight?It’snotthefirsttimethatmypresentimentshavebeenfulfilled。IwishIhadknownitwasyourbirthday,I’dhavebroughtyouapresent——perhapsIhavegotapresentforyou!Whoknows?Ha,ha!Howlongisitnowbeforedaylight?\" \"Notacoupleofhours,\"saidPtitsin,lookingathiswatch。 What’sthegoodofdaylightnow?Onecanreadallnightintheopenairwithoutit,\"saidsomeone。 \"Thegoodofit!Well,Iwantjusttoseearayofthesun,\"saidHippolyte。Canonedrinktothesun’shealth,doyouthink,prince?\" \"Oh,Idaresayonecan;butyouhadbetterbecalmandliedown,Hippolyte——that’smuchmoreimportant。 \"Youarealwayspreachingaboutresting;youarearegularnursetome,prince。Assoonasthesunbeginsto’resound’inthesky——whatpoetsaidthat?’Thesunresoundedinthesky。’Itisbeautiful,thoughthere’snosenseinit!——thenwewillgotobed。Lebedeff,tellme,isthesunthesourceoflife?Whatdoesthesource,or’spring,’oflifereallymeanintheApocalypse? Youhaveheardofthe’StarthatiscalledWormwood,’prince?\" \"IhaveheardthatLebedeffexplainsitastherailroadsthatcoverEuropelikeanet。\" Everybodylaughed,andLebedeffgotupabruptly。 \"No!Allowme,thatisnotwhatwearediscussing!\"hecried,wavinghishandtoimposesilence。\"Allowme!Withthesegentlemen……allthesegentlemen,\"headded,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,\"oncertainpoints……thatis……\"Hethumpedthetablerepeatedly,andthelaughterincreased。Lebedeffwasinhisusualeveningcondition,andhadjustendedalongandscientificargument,whichhadlefthimexcitedandirritable。Onsuchoccasionshewasapttoevinceasupremecontemptforhisopponents。 \"Itisnotright!Halfanhourago,prince,itwasagreedamongusthatnooneshouldinterrupt,nooneshouldlaugh,thateachpersonwastoexpresshisthoughtsfreely;andthenattheend,wheneveryonehadspoken,objectionsmightbemade,evenbytheatheists。Wechosethegeneralaspresident。Nowwithoutsomesuchruleandorder,anyonemightbeshouteddown,evenintheloftiestandmostprofoundthought……\" \"Goon!Goon!Nobodyisgoingtointerruptyou!\"criedseveralvoices。 \"Speak,butkeeptothepoint!\" \"Whatisthis’star’?\"askedanother。 Ihavenoidea,\"repliedGeneralIvolgin,whopresidedwithmuchgravity。 \"Ilovethesearguments,prince,\"saidKeller,alsomorethanhalfintoxicated,movingrestlesslyinhischair。\"Scientificandpolitical。\"Then,turningsuddenlytowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,whowasseatednearhim:\"Doyouknow,IsimplyadorereadingtheaccountsofthedebatesintheEnglishparliament。Notthatthediscussionsthemselvesinterestme;Iamnotapolitician,youknow;butitdelightsmetoseehowtheyaddresseachother’thenoblelordwhoagreeswithme,’’myhonourableopponentwhoastonishedEuropewithhisproposal,’’thenobleviscountsittingopposite’——alltheseexpressions,allthisparliamentarismofafreepeople,hasanenormousattractionforme。Itfascinatesme,prince。Ihavealwaysbeenanartistinthedepthsofmysoul,I assureyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。\" \"Doyoumeantosay,\"criedGania,fromtheothercorner,\"doyoumeantosaythatrailwaysareaccursedinventions,thattheyareasourceofruintohumanity,apoisonpouredupontheearthtocorruptthespringsoflife?\" GavrilaArdalionovitchwasinhighspiritsthatevening,anditseemedtotheprincethathisgaietywasmingledwithtriumph。OfcoursehewasonlyjokingwithLebedeff,meaningtoegghimon,buthegrewexcitedhimselfatthesametime。 \"Nottherailways,ohdear,no!\"repliedLebedeff,withamixtureofviolentangerandextremeenjoyment。\"Consideredalone,therailwayswillnotpollutethespringsoflife,butasawholetheyareaccursed。Thewholetendencyofourlatestcenturies,initsscientificandmaterialisticaspect,ismostprobablyaccursed。\" \"Isitcertainlyaccursed?……ordoyouonlymeanitmightbe? Thatisanimportantpoint,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。 \"Itisaccursed,certainlyaccursed!\"repliedtheclerk,vehemently。 \"Don’tgosofast,Lebedeff;youaremuchmilderinthemorning,\" saidPtitsin,smiling。 \"But,ontheotherhand,morefrankintheevening!Intheeveningsincereandfrank,\"repeatedLebedeff,earnestly。\"Morecandid,moreexact,morehonest,morehonourable,and…… althoughImayshowyoumyweakside,Ichallengeyouall;youatheists,forinstance!Howareyougoingtosavetheworld?Howfindastraightroadofprogress,youmenofscience,ofindustry,ofcooperation,oftradesunions,andalltherest? Howareyougoingtosaveit,Isay?Bywhat?Bycredit?Whatiscredit?Towhatwillcreditleadyou?\" \"Youaretooinquisitive,\"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。 \"Well,anyonewhodoesnotinteresthimselfinquestionssuchasthisis,inmyopinion,amerefashionabledummy。\" \"Butitwillleadatleasttosolidarity,andbalanceofinterests,\"saidPtitsin。 \"Youwillreachthatwithnothingtohelpyoubutcredit?Withoutrecoursetoanymoralprinciple,havingforyourfoundationonlyindividualselfishness,andthesatisfactionofmaterialdesires? Universalpeace,andthehappinessofmankindasawhole,beingtheresult!IsitreallysothatImayunderstandyou,sir?\" \"Buttheuniversalnecessityofliving,ofdrinking,ofeating—— inshort,thewholescientificconvictionthatthisnecessitycanonlybesatisfiedbyuniversalco-operationandthesolidarityofinterests——is,itseemstome,astrongenoughideatoserveasabasis,sotospeak,anda’springoflife,’forhumanityinfuturecenturies,\"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch,nowthoroughlyroused。 \"Thenecessityofeatinganddrinking,thatistosay,solelytheinstinctofself-preservation……\" \"Isnotthatenough?Theinstinctofself-preservationisthenormallawofhumanity……\" \"Whotoldyouthat?\"brokeinEvgeniePavlovitch。 \"Itisalaw,doubtless,butalawneithermorenorlessnormalthanthatofdestruction,evenself-destruction。Isitpossiblethatthewholenormallawofhumanityiscontainedinthissentimentofself-preservation?\" \"Ah!\"criedHippolyte,turningtowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,andlookingathimwithaqueersortofcuriosity。 ThenseeingthatRadomskiwaslaughing,hebegantolaughhimself,nudgedColia,whowassittingbesidehim,withhiselbow,andagainaskedwhattimeitwas。HeevenpulledColia’ssilverwatchoutofhishand,andlookedatiteagerly。Then,asifhehadforgotteneverything,hestretchedhimselfoutonthesofa,puthishandsbehindhishead,andlookedupatthesky。 AfteraminuteortwohegotupandcamebacktothetabletolistentoLebedeff’soutpourings,asthelatterpassionatelycommentatedonEvgeniePavlovitch’sparadox。 \"Thatisanartfulandtraitorousidea。Asmartnotion,\" vociferatedtheclerk,\"thrownoutasanappleofdiscord。Butitisjust。Youareascoffer,amanoftheworld,acavalryofficer,and,thoughnotwithoutbrains,youdonotrealizehowprofoundisyourthought,norhowtrue。Yes,thelawsofself- preservationandofself-destructionareequallypowerfulinthisworld。Thedevilwillholdhisempireoverhumanityuntilalimitoftimewhichisstillunknown。Youlaugh?Youdonotbelieveinthedevil?ScepticismastothedevilisaFrenchidea,anditisalsoafrivolousidea。Doyouknowwhothedevilis?Doyouknowhisname?Althoughyoudon’tknowhisnameyoumakeamockeryofhisform,followingtheexampleofVoltaire。Yousneerathishoofs,athistail,athishorns——allofthemtheproduceofyourimagination!Inrealitythedevilisagreatandterriblespirit,withneitherhoofs,nortail,norhorns;itisyouwhohaveendowedhimwiththeseattributes!But……heisnotthequestionjustnow!\" \"Howdoyouknowheisnotthequestionnow?\"criedHippolyte,laughinghysterically。 \"Anotherexcellentidea,andworthconsidering!\"repliedLebedeff。\"But,again,thatisnotthequestion。Thequestionatthismomentiswhetherwehavenotweakened’thespringsoflife’ bytheextension……\" \"Ofrailways?\"putinColiaeagerly。 \"Notrailways,properlyspeaking,presumptuousyouth,butthegeneraltendencyofwhichrailwaysmaybeconsideredastheoutwardexpressionandsymbol。Wehurryandpushandhustle,forthegoodofhumanity!’Theworldisbecomingtoonoisy,toocommercial!’groanssomesolitarythinker。’Undoubtedlyitis,butthenoiseofwaggonsbearingbreadtostarvinghumanityisofmorevaluethantranquillityofsoul,’repliesanothertriumphantly,andpassesonwithanairofpride。Asforme,I don’tbelieveinthesewaggonsbringingbreadtohumanity。For,foundedonnomoralprinciple,thesemaywell,evenintheactofcarryingbreadtohumanity,coldlyexcludeaconsiderableportionofhumanityfromenjoyingit;thathasbeenseenmorethanonce。 \"What,thesewaggonsmaycoldlyexclude?\"repeatedsomeone。 \"Thathasbeenseenalready,\"continuedLebedeff,notdeigningtonoticetheinterruption。\"Malthuswasafriendofhumanity,but,withill-foundedmoralprinciples,thefriendofhumanityisthedevourerofhumanity,withoutmentioninghispride;for,touchthevanityofoneofthesenumberlessphilanthropists,andtoavengehisself-esteem,hewillbereadyatoncetosetfiretothewholeglobe;andtotellthetruth,weareallmoreorlesslikethat。I,perhaps,mightbethefirsttosetalighttothefuel,andthenrunaway。But,again,Imustrepeat,thatisnotthequestion。\" \"Whatisitthen,forgoodness’sake?\" \"Heisboringus!\" \"Thequestionisconnectedwiththefollowinganecdoteofpasttimes;forIamobligedtorelateastory。Inourtimes,andinourcountry,whichIhopeyouloveasmuchasIdo,forasfarasIamconcerned,Iamreadytoshedthelastdropofmyblood…… \"Goon!Goon!\" \"Inourdearcountry,asindeedinthewholeofEurope,afaminevisitshumanityaboutfourtimesacentury,asfarasIcanremember;onceineverytwenty-fiveyears。Iwon’tsweartothisbeingtheexactfigure,butanyhowtheyhavebecomecomparativelyrare。\" \"Comparativelytowhat?\" \"Tothetwelfthcentury,andthoseimmediatelyprecedingandfollowingit。Wearetoldbyhistoriansthatwidespreadfaminesoccurredinthosedayseverytwoorthreeyears,andsuchwastheconditionofthingsthatmenactuallyhadrecoursetocannibalism,insecret,ofcourse。Oneofthesecannibals,whohadreachedagoodage,declaredofhisownfreewillthatduringthecourseofhislongandmiserablelifehehadpersonallykilledandeaten,inthemostprofoundsecrecy,sixtymonks,nottomentionseveralchildren;thenumberofthelatterhethoughtwasaboutsix,aninsignificanttotalwhencomparedwiththeenormousmassofecclesiasticsconsumedbyhim。Astoadults,laymenthatistosay,hehadnevertouchedthem。\" Thepresidentjoinedinthegeneraloutcry。 \"That’simpossible!\"saidheinanaggrievedtone。\"Iamoftendiscussingsubjectsofthisnaturewithhim,gentlemen,butforthemostparthetalksnonsenseenoughtomakeonedeaf:thisstoryhasnopretenceofbeingtrue。\" \"General,rememberthesiegeofKars!Andyou,gentlemen,I assureyoumyanecdoteisthenakedtruth。Imayremarkthatreality,althoughitisgovernedbyinvariablelaw,hasattimesaresemblancetofalsehood。Infact,thetruerathingisthelesstrueitsounds。\" \"Butcouldanyonepossiblyeatsixtymonks?\"objectedthescoffinglisteners。 \"Itisquiteclearthathedidnoteatthemallatonce,butinaspaceoffifteenortwentyyears:fromthatpointofviewthethingiscomprehensibleandnatural……\" \"Natural?\" \"Andnatural,\"repeatedLebedeffwithpedanticobstinacy。 \"Besides,aCatholicmonkisbynatureexcessivelycurious;itwouldbequiteeasythereforetoenticehimintoawood,orsomesecretplace,onfalsepretences,andtheretodealwithhimassaid。ButIdonotdisputeintheleastthatthenumberofpersonsconsumedappearstodenoteaspiceofgreediness。\" \"Itisperhapstrue,gentlemen,\"saidtheprince,quietly。Hehadbeenlisteninginsilenceuptothatmomentwithouttakingpartintheconversation,butlaughingheartilywiththeothersfromtimetotime。Evidentlyhewasdelightedtoseethateverybodywasamused,thateverybodywastalkingatonce,andeventhateverybodywasdrinking。Itseemedasifhewerenotintendingtospeakatall,whensuddenlyheintervenedinsuchaseriousvoicethateveryonelookedathimwithinterest。 \"Itistruethattherewerefrequentfaminesatthattime,gentlemen。Ihaveoftenheardofthem,thoughIdonotknowmuchhistory。Butitseemstomethatitmusthavebeenso。WhenIwasinSwitzerlandIusedtolookwithastonishmentatthemanyruinsoffeudalcastlesperchedonthetopofsteepandrockyheights,halfamileatleastabovesea-level,sothattoreachthemonehadtoclimbmanymilesofstonytracks。Acastle,asyouknow,is,akindofmountainofstones——adreadful,almostanimpossible,labour!Doubtlessthebuilderswereallpoormen,vassals,andhadtopayheavytaxes,andtokeepupthepriesthood。How,then,couldtheyprovideforthemselves,andwhenhadtheytimetoploughandsowtheirfields?Thegreaternumbermust,literally,havediedofstarvation。Ihavesometimesaskedmyselfhowitwasthatthesecommunitieswerenotutterlysweptoffthefaceoftheearth,andhowtheycouldpossiblysurvive。Lebedeffisnotmistaken,inmyopinion,whenhesaysthattherewerecannibalsinthosedays,perhapsinconsiderablenumbers;butIdonotunderstandwhyheshouldhavedraggedinthemonks,norwhathemeansbythat。\" \"Itisundoubtedlybecause,inthetwelfthcentury,monksweretheonlypeopleonecouldeat;theywerethefat,amongmanylean,\"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch。 \"Abrilliantidea,andmosttrue!\"criedLebedeff,\"forhenevereventouchedthelaity。Sixtymonks,andnotasinglelayman!Itisaterribleidea,butitishistoric,itisstatistic;itisindeedoneofthosefactswhichenablesanintelligenthistoriantoreconstructthephysiognomyofaspecialepoch,foritbringsoutthisfurtherpointwithmathematicalaccuracy,thattheclergywereinthosedayssixtytimesricherandmoreflourishingthantherestofhumanity。andperhapssixtytimesfatteralso……\" \"Youareexaggerating,youareexaggerating,Lebedeff!\"criedhishearers,amidlaughter。 \"Iadmitthatitisanhistoricthought,butwhatisyourconclusion?\"askedtheprince。 HespokesoseriouslyinaddressingLebedeff,thathistonecontrastedquitecomicallywiththatoftheothers。Theywereverynearlylaughingathim,too,buthedidnotnoticeit。 \"Don’tyouseeheisalunatic,prince?\"whisperedEvgeniePavlovitchinhisear。\"Someonetoldmejustnowthatheisabittouchedonthesubjectoflawyers,thathehasamaniaformakingspeechesandintendstopasstheexaminations。Iamexpectingasplendidburlesquenow。\" \"Myconclusionisvast,\"repliedLebedeff,inavoicelikethunder。\"Letusexaminefirstthepsychologicalandlegalpositionofthecriminal。Weseethatinspiteofthedifficultyoffindingotherfood,theaccused,or,aswemaysay,myclient,hasoftenduringhispeculiarlifeexhibitedsignsofrepentance,andofwishingtogiveupthisclericaldiet。Incontrovertiblefactsprovethisassertion。Hehaseatenfiveorsixchildren,arelativelyinsignificantnumber,nodoubt,butremarkableenoughfromanotherpointofview。Itismanifestthat,prickedbyremorse——formyclientisreligious,inhisway,andhasaconscience,asIshallprovelater——anddesiringtoextenuatehissinasfaraspossible,hehastriedsixtimesatleasttosubstitutelaynourishmentforclerical。Thatthiswasmerelyanexperimentwecanhardlydoubt:forifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgastronomicvariety,sixwouldhavebeentoofew;whyonlysix?Whynotthirty?Butifweregarditasanexperiment,inspiredbythefearofcommittingnewsacrilege,thenthisnumbersixbecomesintelligible。Sixattemptstocalmhisremorse,andtheprickingofhisconscience,wouldamplysuffice,fortheseattemptscouldscarcelyhavebeenhappyones。Inmyhumbleopinion,achildistoosmall;Ishouldsay,notsufficient;whichwouldresultinfourorfivetimesmorelaychildrenthanmonksbeingrequiredinagiventime。Thesin,lessenedontheonehand,wouldthereforebeincreasedontheother,inquantity,notinquality。Pleaseunderstand,gentlemen,thatinreasoningthus,Iamtakingthepointofviewwhichmighthavebeentakenbyacriminalofthemiddleages。Asformyself,amanofthelatenineteenthcentury,I,ofcourse,shouldreasondifferently;Isaysoplainly,andthereforeyouneednotjeeratmenormockme,gentlemen。Asforyou,general,itisstillmoreunbecomingonyourpart。Inthesecondplace,andgivingmyownpersonalopinion,achild’sfleshisnotasatisfyingdiet;itistooinsipid,toosweet;andthecriminal,inmakingtheseexperiments,couldhavesatisfiedneitherhisconsciencenorhisappetite。Iamabouttoconclude,gentlemen;andmyconclusioncontainsareplytooneofthemostimportantquestionsofthatdayandofourown!Thiscriminalendedatlastbydenouncinghimselftotheclergy,andgivinghimselfuptojustice。Wecannotbutask,rememberingthepenalsystemofthatday,andthetorturesthatawaitedhim——thewheel,thestake,thefire!——wecannotbutask,Irepeat,whatinducedhimtoaccusehimselfofthiscrime?Whydidhenotsimplystopshortatthenumbersixty,andkeephissecretuntilhislastbreath?Whycouldhenotsimplyleavethemonksalone,andgointothedeserttorepent? Orwhynotbecomeamonkhimself?Thatiswherethepuzzlecomesin!Theremusthavebeensomethingstrongerthanthestakeorthefire,oreventhanthehabitsoftwentyyears!Theremusthavebeenanideamorepowerfulthanallthecalamitiesandsorrowsofthisworld,famineortorture,leprosyorplague——anideawhichenteredintotheheart,directedandenlargedthespringsoflife,andmadeeventhathellsupportabletohumanity!Showmeaforce,apowerlikethat,inthisourcenturyofvicesandrailways!Imightsay,perhaps,inourcenturyofsteamboatsandrailways,butIrepeatinourcenturyofvicesandrailways,becauseIamdrunkbuttruthful!Showmeasingleideawhichunitesmennowadayswithhalfthestrengththatithadinthosecenturies,anddaretomaintainthatthe’springsoflife’havenotbeenpollutedandweakenedbeneaththis’star,’beneaththisnetworkinwhichmenareentangled!Don’ttalktomeaboutyourprosperity,yourriches,therarityoffamine,therapidityofthemeansoftransport!Thereismoreofriches,butlessofforce。Theideaunitingheartandsoultoheartandsoulexistsnomore。Allisloose,soft,limp——weareallofuslimp…… Enough,gentlemen!Ihavedone。Thatisnotthequestion。No,thequestionisnow,excellency,Ibelieve,tositdowntothebanquetyouareabouttoprovideforus!\" Lebedeffhadrousedgreatindignationinsomeofhisauditors(itshouldberemarkedthatthebottleswereconstantlyuncorkedduringhisspeech);butthisunexpectedconclusioncalmedeventhemostturbulentspirits。\"That’showacleverbarristermakesagoodpoint!\"saidhe,whenspeakingofhisperorationlateron。 Thevisitorsbegantolaughandchatteronceagain;thecommitteelefttheirseats,andstretchedtheirlegsontheterrace。KelleralonewasstilldisgustedwithLebedeffandhisspeech;heturnedfromonetoanother,sayinginaloudvoice: \"Heattackseducation,heboastsofthefanaticismofthetwelfthcentury,hemakesabsurdgrimaces,andaddedtothatheisbynomeanstheinnocenthemakeshimselfouttobe。Howdidhegetthemoneytobuythishouse,allowmetoask?\" Inanothercornerwasthegeneral,holdingforthtoagroupofhearers,amongthemPtitsin,whomhehadbuttonholed。\"Ihaveknown,\"saidhe,\"arealinterpreteroftheApocalypse,thelateGregorySemeonovitchBurmistroff,andhe——hepiercedtheheartlikeafieryflash!Hebeganbyputtingonhisspectacles,thenheopenedalargeblackbook;hiswhitebeard,andhistwomedalsonhisbreast,recallingactsofcharity,alladdedtohisimpressiveness。Hebeganinasternvoice,andbeforehimgenerals,hardmenoftheworld,boweddown,andladiesfelltothegroundfainting。Butthisonehere——heendsbyannouncingabanquet!Thatisnottherealthing!\" Ptitsinlistenedandsmiled,thenturnedasiftogethishat; butifhehadintendedtoleave,hechangedhismind。Beforetheothershadrisenfromthetable,Ganiahadsuddenlyleftoffdrinking,andpushedawayhisglass,adarkshadowseemedtocomeoverhisface。Whentheyallrose,hewentandsatdownbyRogojin。Itmighthavebeenbelievedthatquitefriendlyrelationsexistedbetweenthem。Rogojin,whohadalsoseemedonthepointofgoingawaynowsatmotionless,hisheadbent,seemingtohaveforgottenhisintention。Hehaddrunknowine,andappearedabsorbedinreflection。Fromtimetotimeheraisedhiseyes,andexaminedeveryonepresent;onemighthaveimaginedthathewasexpectingsomethingveryimportanttohimself,andthathehaddecidedtowaitforit。Theprincehadtakentwoorthreeglassesofchampagne,andseemedcheerful。AsherosehenoticedEvgeniePavlovitch,and,rememberingtheappointmenthehadmadewithhim,smiledpleasantly。EvgeniePavlovitchmadeasignwithhisheadtowardsHippolyte,whomhewasattentivelywatching。Theinvalidwasfastasleep,stretchedoutonthesofa。 \"Tellme,prince,whyonearthdidthisboyintrudehimselfuponyou?\"heasked,withsuchannoyanceandirritationinhisvoicethattheprincewasquitesurprised。\"Iwouldn’tmindlayingoddsthatheisuptosomemischief。\" \"Ihaveobserved,\"saidtheprince,\"thatheseemstobeanobjectofverysingularinteresttoyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。Whyisit?\" \"YoumayaddthatIhavesurelyenoughtothinkof,onmyownaccount,withouthim;andthereforeitisallthemoresurprisingthatIcannottearmyeyesandthoughtsawayfromhisdetestablephysiognomy。\" \"Oh,come!Hehasahandsomeface。\" \"Why,lookathim——lookathimnow!\" TheprinceglancedagainatEvgeniePavlovitchwithconsiderablesurprise。 V。 HIPPOLYTE,whohadfallenasleepduringLebedeff’sdiscourse,nowsuddenlywokeup,justasthoughsomeonehadjoggedhimintheside。Heshuddered,raisedhimselfonhisarm,gazedaround,andgrewverypale。Alookalmostofterrorcrossedhisfaceasherecollected。 \"What!aretheyalloff?Isitallover?Isthesunup?\"Hetrembled,andcaughtattheprince’shand。\"Whattimeisit?Tellme,quick,forgoodness’sake!HowlonghaveIslept?\"headded,almostindespair,justasthoughhehadoversleptsomethinguponwhichhiswholefatedepended。 \"Youhavesleptsevenorperhapseightminutes,\"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。 Hippolytegazedeagerlyatthelatter,andmusedforafewmoments。 \"Oh,isthatall?\"hesaidatlast。\"ThenI——\" Hedrewalong,deepbreathofrelief,asitseemed。Herealizedthatallwasnotoverasyet,thatthesunhadnotrisen,andthattheguestshadmerelygonetosupper。Hesmiled,andtwohecticspotsappearedonhischeeks。 \"SoyoucountedtheminuteswhileIslept,didyou,EvgeniePavlovitch?\"hesaid,ironically。\"Youhavenottakenyoureyesoffmealltheevening——Ihavenoticedthatmuch,yousee!Ah,Rogojin!I’vejustbeendreamingabouthim,prince,\"headded,frowning。\"Yes,bytheby,\"startingup,\"where’stheorator? Where’sLebedeff?Hashefinished?Whatdidhetalkabout?Isittrue,prince,thatyouoncedeclaredthat’beautywouldsavetheworld’?GreatHeaven!Theprincesaysthatbeautysavestheworld!AndIdeclarethatheonlyhassuchplayfulideasbecausehe’sinlove!Gentlemen,theprinceisinlove。Iguesseditthemomenthecamein。Don’tblush,prince;youmakemesorryforyou。Whatbeautysavestheworld?ColiatoldmethatyouareazealousChristian;isitso?ColiasaysyoucallyourselfaChristian。\" Theprinceregardedhimattentively,butsaidnothing。 \"Youdon’tanswerme;perhapsyouthinkIamveryfondofyou?\" addedHippolyte,asthoughthewordshadbeendrawnfromhim。 \"No,Idon’tthinkthat。Iknowyoudon’tloveme。\" \"What,afteryesterday?Wasn’tIhonestwithyou?\" \"Iknewyesterdaythatyoudidn’tloveme。\" \"Whyso?whyso?BecauseIenvyyou,eh?Youalwaysthinkthat,I know。ButdoyouknowwhyIamsayingallthis?Lookhere!Imusthavesomemorechampagne——pourmeoutsome,Keller,willyou?\" \"No,you’renottodrinkanymore,Hippolyte。Iwon’tletyou。\" Theprincemovedtheglassaway。 \"Wellperhapsyou’reright,\"saidHippolyte,musing。Theymightsay——yet,deviltakethem!whatdoesitmatter?——prince,whatcanitmatterwhatpeoplewillsayofusTHEN,eh?IbelieveI’mhalfasleep。I’vehadsuchadreadfuldream——I’veonlyjustrememberedit。Prince,Idon’twishyousuchdreamsasthat,thoughsureenough,perhaps,IDON’Tloveyou。Whywishamanevil,thoughyoudonotlovehim,eh?Givemeyourhand——letmepressitsincerely。There——you’vegivenmeyourhand——youmustfeelthatI DOpressitsincerely,don’tyou?Idon’tthinkIshalldrinkanymore。Whattimeisit?Nevermind,Iknowthetime。Thetimehascome,atallevents。What!theyarelayingsupperoverthere,arethey?Thenthistableisfree?Capital,gentlemen!I——hem!thesegentlemenarenotlistening。Prince,IwilljustreadoveranarticleIhavehere。Supperismoreinteresting,ofcourse,but——\" HereHippolytesuddenly,andmostunexpectedly,pulledoutofhisbreast-pocketalargesealedpaper。Thisimposing-lookingdocumentheplaceduponthetablebeforehim。 Theeffectofthissuddenactionuponthecompanywasinstantaneous。EvgeniePavlovitchalmostboundedoffhischairinexcitement。Rogojindrewnearertothetablewithalookonhisfaceasifheknewwhatwascoming。Ganiacamenearertoo;sodidLebedeffandtheothers——thepaperseemedtobeanobjectofgreatinteresttothecompanyingeneral。 \"Whathaveyougotthere?\"askedtheprince,withsomeanxiety。 \"Atthefirstglimpseoftherisingsun,prince,Iwillgotobed。ItoldyouIwould,wordofhonour!Youshallsee!\"criedHippolyte。\"YouthinkI’mnotcapableofopeningthispacket,doyou?\"Heglareddefiantlyroundattheaudienceingeneral。 Theprinceobservedthathewastremblingallover。 \"Noneofuseverthoughtsuchathing!\"Muishkinrepliedforall。 \"Whyshouldyousupposeitofus?Andwhatareyougoingtoread,Hippolyte?Whatisit?\" \"Yes,whatisit?\"askedothers。Thepacketsealedwithredwaxseemedtoattracteveryone,asthoughitwereamagnet。 \"Iwrotethisyesterday,myself,justafterIsawyou,prince,andtoldyouIwouldcomedownhere。Iwrotealldayandallnight,andfinisheditthismorningearly。AfterwardsIhadadream。\" \"Hadn’twebetterhearittomorrow?\"askedtheprincetimidly。 \"Tomorrow’therewillbenomoretime!’\"laughedHippolyte,hysterically。\"Youneedn’tbeafraid;Ishallgetthroughthewholethinginfortyminutes,atmostanhour!Lookhowinterestedeverybodyis!Everybodyhasdrawnnear。Look!lookatthemallstaringatmysealedpacket!IfIhadn’tsealeditupitwouldn’thavebeenhalfsoeffective!Ha,ha!that’smystery,thatis!Nowthen,gentlemen,shallIbreakthesealornot?Saytheword;it’samystery,Itellyou——asecret!Prince,youknowwhosaidtherewouldbe’nomoretime’?ItwasthegreatandpowerfulangelintheApocalypse。\" \"Betternotreaditnow,\"saidtheprince,puttinghishandonthepacket。 \"No,don’treadit!\"criedEvgeniesuddenly。Heappearedsostrangelydisturbedthatmanyofthosepresentcouldnothelpwondering。 \"Reading?Noneofyourreadingnow!\"saidsomebody;\"it’ssupper- time。\"\"Whatsortofanarticleisit?Forapaper?Probablyit’sverydull,\"saidanother。Buttheprince’stimidgesturehadimpressedevenHippolyte。 \"ThenI’mnottoreadit?\"hewhispered,nervously。\"AmInottoreadit?\"herepeated,gazingaroundateachfaceinturn。\"Whatareyouafraidof,prince?\"heturnedandaskedthelattersuddenly。 \"WhatshouldIbeafraidof?\" \"Hasanyoneacoinaboutthem?Givemeatwenty-copeckpiece,somebody!\"AndHippolyteleaptfromhischair。 \"Hereyouare,\"saidLebedeff,handinghimone;hethoughttheboyhadgonemad。 \"VeraLukianovna,\"saidHippolyte,\"tossit,willyou?Heads,I read,tails,Idon’t。\" VeraLebedefftossedthecoinintotheairandletitfallonthetable。 Itwas\"heads。\" \"ThenIreadit,\"saidHippolyte,inthetoneofonebowingtothefiatofdestiny。Hecouldnothavegrownpalerifaverdictofdeathhadsuddenlybeenpresentedtohim。 \"Butafterall,whatisit?IsitpossiblethatIshouldhavejustriskedmyfatebytossingup?\"hewenton,shuddering;andlookedroundhimagain。Hiseyeshadacuriousexpressionofsincerity。\"Thatisanastonishingpsychologicalfact,\"hecried,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,inatoneofthemostintensesurprise。\"Itis……itissomethingquiteinconceivable,prince,\"herepeatedwithgrowinganimation,likeamanregainingconsciousness。\"Takenoteofit,prince,rememberit;youcollect,Iamtold,factsconcerningcapitalpunishment……Theytoldmeso。Ha,ha!MyGod,howabsurd!\"Hesatdownonthesofa,puthiselbowsonthetable,andlaidhisheadonhishands。\"Itisshameful——thoughwhatdoesitmattertomeifitisshameful? \"Gentlemen,gentlemen!Iamabouttobreaktheseal,\"hecontinued,withdetermination。\"I-I——ofcourseIdon’tinsistuponanyonelisteningiftheydonotwishto。\" Withtremblingfingershebrokethesealanddrewoutseveralsheetsofpaper,smoothedthemoutbeforehim,andbegansortingthem。 \"Whatonearthdoesallthismean?What’shegoingtoread?\" mutteredseveralvoices。Otherssaidnothing;butoneandallsatdownandwatchedwithcuriosity。Theybegantothinksomethingstrangemightreallybeabouttohappen。Verastoodandtrembledbehindherfather’schair,almostintearswithfright;Coliawasnearlyasmuchalarmedasshewas。LebedeffjumpedupandputacoupleofcandlesnearertoHippolyte,sothathemightseebetter。 \"Gentlemen,this——you’llsoonseewhatthisis,\"beganHippolyte,andsuddenlycommencedhisreading。 \"It’sheaded,’ANecessaryExplanation,’withthemotto,’Apresmoiledeluge!’Oh,deucetakeitall!SurelyIcanneverhaveseriouslywrittensuchasillymottoasthat?Lookhere,gentlemen,Ibegtogivenoticethatallthisisverylikelyterriblenonsense。Itisonlyafewideasofmine。Ifyouthinkthatthereisanythingmysteriouscoming——orinaword——\" \"Betterreadonwithoutanymorebeatingaboutthebush,\"saidGania。 \"Affectation!\"remarkedsomeoneelse。 \"Toomuchtalk,\"saidRogojin,breakingthesilenceforthefirsttime。 Hippolyteglancedathimsuddenly,andwhentheireye,metRogojinshowedhisteethinadisagreeablesmile,andsaidthefollowingstrangewords:\"That’snotthewaytosettlethisbusiness,myfriend;that’snotthewayatall。\" OfcoursenobodyknewwhatRogojinmeantbythis;buthiswordsmadeadeepimpressionuponall。Everyoneseemedtoseeinaflashthesameidea。 AsforHippolyte,theireffectuponhimwasastounding。Hetrembledsothattheprincewasobligedtosupporthim,andwouldcertainlyhavecriedout,butthathisvoiceseemedtohaveentirelylefthimforthemoment。Foraminuteortwohecouldnotspeakatall,butpantedandstaredatRogojin。Atlasthemanagedtoejaculate: \"ThenitwasYOUwhocame——YOU——YOU?\" \"Camewhere?Whatdoyoumean?\"askedRogojin,amazed。ButHippolyte,pantingandchokingwithexcitement,interruptedhimviolently。 \"YOUcametomelastweek,inthenight,attwoo’clock,thedayIwaswithyouinthemorning!Confessitwasyou!\" \"Lastweek?Inthenight?Haveyougonecracked,mygoodfriend?\" Hippolytepausedandconsideredamoment。Thenasmileofcunning——almosttriumph——crossedhislips。 \"Itwasyou,\"hemurmured,almostinawhisper,butwithabsoluteconviction。\"Yes,itwasyouwhocametomyroomandsatsilentlyonachairatmywindowforawholehour——more!Itwasbetweenoneandtwoatnight;youroseandwentoutataboutthree。Itwasyou,you!Whyyoushouldhavefrightenedmeso,whyyoushouldhavewishedtotormentmelikethat,Icannottell——butyouitwas。\" Therewasabsolutehatredinhiseyesashesaidthis,buthislookoffearandhistremblinghadnotlefthim。 \"Youshallhearallthisdirectly,gentlemen。I-I——listen!\" Heseizedhispaperinadesperatehurry;hefidgetedwithit,andtriedtosortit,butforalongwhilehistremblinghandscouldnotcollectthesheetstogether。\"He’seithermadordelirious,\"murmuredRogojin。Atlasthebegan。 Forthefirstfiveminutesthereader’svoicecontinuedtotremble,andhereaddisconnectedlyandunevenly;butgraduallyhisvoicestrengthened。Occasionallyaviolentfitofcoughingstoppedhim,buthisanimationgrewwiththeprogressofthereading——asdidalsothedisagreeableimpressionwhichitmadeuponhisaudience,——untilitreachedthehighestpitchofexcitement。 Hereisthearticle。 MYNECESSARYEXPLANATION。 \"Apresmoiledeluge。 \"Yesterdaymorningtheprincecametoseeme。Amongotherthingsheaskedmetocomedowntohisvilla。Iknewhewouldcomeandpersuademetothisstep,andthathewouldadducetheargumentthatitwouldbeeasierformetodie’amongpeopleandgreentrees,’——asheexpressedit。Buttodayhedidnotsay’die,’hesaid’live。’Itisprettymuchthesametome,inmyposition,whichhesays。WhenIaskedhimwhyhemadesuchapointofhis’greentrees,’hetoldme,tomyastonishment,thathehadheardthatlasttimeIwasinPavlofskIhadsaidthatIhadcome’tohavealastlookatthetrees。’ \"WhenIobservedthatitwasallthesamewhetheronediedamongtreesorinfrontofablankbrickwall,ashere,andthatitwasnotworthmakinganyfussoverafortnight,heagreedatonce。 ButheinsistedthatthegoodairatPavlofskandthegreennesswouldcertainlycauseaphysicalchangeforthebetter,andthatmyexcitement,andmyDREAMS,wouldbeperhapsrelieved。I remarkedtohim,withasmile,thathespokelikeamaterialist,andheansweredthathehadalwaysbeenone。Ashenevertellsalie,theremustbesomethinginhiswords。Hissmileisapleasantone。Ihavehadagoodlookathim。Idon’tknowwhetherIlikehimornot;andIhavenotimetowasteoverthequestion。 ThehatredwhichIfeltforhimforfivemonthshasbecomeconsiderablymodified,Imaysay,duringthelastmonth。Whoknows,perhapsIamgoingtoPavlofskonpurposetoseehim!ButwhydoIleavemychamber?Thosewhoaresentencedtodeathshouldnotleavetheircells。IfIhadnotformedafinalresolve,buthaddecidedtowaituntilthelastminute,Ishouldnotleavemyroom,oraccepthisinvitationtocomeanddieatPavlofsk。Imustbequickandfinishthisexplanationbeforetomorrow。Ishallhavenotimetoreaditoverandcorrectit,forImustreadittomorrowtotheprinceandtwoorthreewitnesseswhomIshallprobablyfindthere。 \"Asitwillbeabsolutelytrue,withoutatouchoffalsehood,I amcurioustoseewhatimpressionitwillmakeuponmemyselfatthemomentwhenIreaditout。Thisismy’lastandsolemn’——butwhyneedIcallitthat?Thereisnoquestionaboutthetruthofit,foritisnotworthwhilelyingforafortnight;afortnightoflifeisnotitselfworthhaving,whichisaproofthatIwritenothingherebutpuretruth。 (\"N。B——Letmeremembertoconsider;amImadatthismoment,ornot?orratheratthesemoments?Ihavebeentoldthatconsumptivessometimesdogooutoftheirmindsforawhileinthelaststagesofthemalady。IcanprovethistomorrowwhenI readitout,bytheimpressionitmakesupontheaudience。Imustsettlethisquestiononceandforall,otherwiseIcan’tgoonwithanything。) \"IbelieveIhavejustwrittendreadfulnonsense;butthere’snotimeforcorrecting,asIsaidbefore。Besidesthat,IhavemademyselfapromisenottoalterasinglewordofwhatIwriteinthispaper,eventhoughIfindthatIamcontradictingmyselfeveryfivelines。Iwishtoverifytheworkingofthenaturallogicofmyideastomorrowduringthereading——whetherIamcapableofdetectinglogicalerrors,andwhetherallthatIhavemeditatedoverduringthelastsixmonthsbetrue,ornothingbutdelirium。 \"IftwomonthssinceIhadbeencalledupontoleavemyroomandtheviewofMeyer’swallopposite,IverilybelieveIshouldhavebeensorry。ButnowIhavenosuchfeeling,andyetIamleavingthisroomandMeyer’sbrickwallFOREVER。Sothatmyconclusion,thatitisnotworthwhileindulgingingrief,oranyotheremotion,forafortnight,hasprovedstrongerthanmyverynature,andhastakenoverthedirectionofmyfeelings。Butisitso?Isitthecasethatmynatureisconqueredentirely?IfI weretobeputontheracknow,Ishouldcertainlycryout。I shouldnotsaythatitisnotworthwhiletoyellandfeelpainbecauseIhavebutafortnighttolive。 \"ButisittruethatIhavebutafortnightoflifelefttome?I knowItoldsomeofmyfriendsthatDoctorB。hadinformedmethatthiswasthecase;butInowconfessthatIlied;B。hasnotevenseenme。However,aweekago,Icalledinamedicalstudent,Kislorodoff,whoisaNationalist,anAtheist,andaNihilist,byconviction,andthatiswhyIhadhim。Ineededamanwhowouldtellmethebaretruthwithoutanyhumbugorceremony——andsohedid——indeed,almostwithpleasure(whichIthoughtwasgoingalittletoofar)。 \"Well,heplumpedoutthatIhadaboutamonthleftme;itmightbealittlemore,hesaid,underfavourablecircumstances,butitmightalsobeconsiderablyless。AccordingtohisopinionI mightdiequitesuddenly——tomorrow,forinstance——therehadbeensuchcases。OnlyadayortwosinceayoungladyatColomnawhosufferedfromconsumption,andwasaboutonaparwithmyselfinthemarchofthedisease,wasgoingouttomarkettobuyprovisions,whenshesuddenlyfeltfaint,laydownonthesofa,gaspedonce,anddied。 \"Kislorodofftoldmeallthiswithasortofexaggerateddevil- may-carenegligence,andasthoughhedidmegreathonourbytalkingtomeso,becauseitshowedthatheconsideredmethesamesortofexaltedNihilisticbeingashimself,towhomdeathwasamatterofnoconsequencewhatever,eitherway。 \"Atallevents,thefactremained——amonthoflifeandnomore!