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类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:24502更新时间:18/12/19 16:53:04
BOOKI Seldenpausedinsurprise。IntheafternoonrushoftheGrandCentralStationhiseyeshadbeenrefreshedbythesightofMissLilyBart。 ItwasaMondayinearlySeptember,andhewasreturningtohisworkfromahurrieddipintothecountry;butwhatwasMissBartdoingintownatthatseason?Ifshehadappearedtobecatchingatrain,hemighthaveinferredthathehadcomeonherintheactoftransitionbetweenoneandanotherofthecountry-houseswhichdisputedherpresenceafterthecloseoftheNewportseason;butherdesultoryairperplexedhim。Shestoodapartfromthecrowd,lettingitdriftbyhertotheplatformorthestreet,andwearinganairofirresolutionwhichmight,ashesurmised,bethemaskofaverydefinitepurpose。Itstruckhimatoncethatshewaswaitingforsomeone,buthehardlyknewwhytheideaarrestedhim。TherewasnothingnewaboutLilyBart,yethecouldneverseeherwithoutafaintmovementofinterest:itwascharacteristicofherthatshealwaysrousedspeculation,thathersimplestactsseemedtheresultoffar-reachingintentions。 Animpulseofcuriositymadehimturnoutofhisdirectlinetothedoor,andstrollpasther。Heknewthatifshedidnotwishtobeseenshewouldcontrivetoeludehim;anditamusedhimtothinkofputtingherskilltothetest。 \"Mr。Selden——whatgoodluck!\" Shecameforwardsmiling,eageralmost,inherresolvetointercepthim。Oneortwopersons,inbrushingpastthem,lingeredtolook;forMissBartwasafiguretoarresteventhesuburbantravellerrushingtohislasttrain。 Seldenhadneverseenhermoreradiant。Hervividhead,relievedagainstthedulltintsofthecrowd,madehermoreconspicuousthaninaball-room,andunderherdarkhatandveilsheregainedthegirlishsmoothness,thepurityoftint,thatshewasbeginningtoloseafterelevenyearsoflatehoursandindefatigabledancing。Wasitreallyelevenyears,Seldenfoundhimselfwondering,andhadsheindeedreachedthenine-and-twentiethbirthdaywithwhichherrivalscreditedher? \"Whatluck!\"sherepeated。\"Howniceofyoutocometomyrescue!\" Herespondedjoyfullythattodosowashismissioninlife,andaskedwhatformtherescuewastotake。 \"Oh,almostany——eventosittingonabenchandtalkingtome。 Onesitsoutacotillion——whynotsitoutatrain?Itisn’tabithotterherethaninMrs。VanOsburgh’sconservatory——andsomeofthewomenarenotabituglier。\"Shebrokeoff,laughing,toexplainthatshehadcomeuptotownfromTuxedo,onherwaytotheGusTrenors’atBellomont,andhadmissedthethree-fifteentraintoRhinebeck。\"Andthereisn’tanothertillhalf-pastfive。\"Sheconsultedthelittlejewelledwatchamongherlaces。 \"Justtwohourstowait。AndIdon’tknowwhattodowithmyself。 Mymaidcameupthismorningtodosomeshoppingforme,andwastogoontoBellomontatoneo’clock,andmyaunt’shouseisclosed,andIdon’tknowasoulintown。\"Sheglancedplaintivelyaboutthestation。\"ItIShotterthanMrs。VanOsburgh’s,afterall。Ifyoucansparethetime,dotakemesomewhereforabreathofair。\" Hedeclaredhimselfentirelyatherdisposal:theadventurestruckhimasdiverting。Asaspectator,hehadalwaysenjoyedLilyBart;andhiscourselaysofaroutofherorbitthatitamusedhimtobedrawnforamomentintothesuddenintimacywhichherproposalimplied。 \"ShallwegoovertoSherry’sforacupoftea?\" Shesmiledassentingly,andthenmadeaslightgrimace。 \"SomanypeoplecomeuptotownonaMonday——oneissuretomeetalotofbores。I’masoldasthehills,ofcourse,anditoughtnottomakeanydifference;butifI’Moldenough,you’renot,\" sheobjectedgaily。\"I’mdyingfortea——butisn’tthereaquieterplace?\" Heansweredhersmile,whichrestedonhimvividly。Herdiscretionsinterestedhimalmostasmuchasherimprudences:hewassosurethatbothwerepartofthesamecarefully-elaboratedplan。InjudgingMissBart,hehadalwaysmadeuseofthe\"argumentfromdesign。\" \"TheresourcesofNewYorkarerathermeagre,\"hesaid;\"butI’llfindahansomfirst,andthenwe’llinventsomething。\"Heledherthroughthethrongofreturningholiday-makers,pastsallow-facedgirlsinpreposteroushats,andflat-chestedwomenstrugglingwithpaperbundlesandpalm-leaffans。Wasitpossiblethatshebelongedtothesamerace?Thedinginess,thecrudityofthisaveragesectionofwomanhoodmadehimfeelhowhighlyspecializedshewas。 Arapidshowerhadcooledtheair,andcloudsstillhungrefreshinglyoverthemoiststreet。 \"Howdelicious!Letuswalkalittle,\"shesaidastheyemergedfromthestation。 TheyturnedintoMadisonAvenueandbegantostrollnorthward。Asshemovedbesidehim,withherlonglightstep,Seldenwasconsciousoftakingaluxuriouspleasureinhernearness:inthemodellingofherlittleear,thecrispupwardwaveofherhair——wasiteversoslightlybrightenedbyart?——andthethickplantingofherstraightblacklashes。Everythingaboutherwasatoncevigorousandexquisite,atoncestrongandfine。Hehadaconfusedsensethatshemusthavecostagreatdealtomake,thatagreatmanydullanduglypeoplemust,insomemysteriousway,havebeensacrificedtoproduceher。Hewasawarethatthequalitiesdistinguishingherfromtheherdofhersexwerechieflyexternal:asthoughafineglazeofbeautyandfastidiousnesshadbeenappliedtovulgarclay。Yettheanalogylefthimunsatisfied,foracoarsetexturewillnottakeahighfinish;andwasitnotpossiblethatthematerialwasfine,butthatcircumstancehadfashioneditintoafutileshape? Ashereachedthispointinhisspeculationsthesuncameout,andherliftedparasolcutoffhisenjoyment。Amomentortwolatershepausedwithasigh。 \"Oh,dear,I’msohotandthirsty——andwhatahideousplaceNewYorkis!\"Shelookeddespairinglyupanddownthedrearythoroughfare。\"Othercitiesputontheirbestclothesinsummer,butNewYorkseemstositinitsshirtsleeves。\"Hereyeswandereddownoneoftheside-streets。\"Someonehashadthehumanitytoplantafewtreesoverthere。Letusgointotheshade。\" \"Iamgladmystreetmeetswithyourapproval,\"saidSeldenastheyturnedthecorner。 \"Yourstreet?Doyoulivehere?\" Sheglancedwithinterestalongthenewbrickandlimestonehouse-fronts,fantasticallyvariedinobediencetotheAmericancravingfornovelty,butfreshandinvitingwiththeirawningsandflower-boxes。 \"Ah,yes——tobesure:THEBENEDICK。Whatanice-lookingbuilding! Idon’tthinkI’veeverseenitbefore。\"Shelookedacrossattheflat-housewithitsmarbleporchandpseudo-Georgianfacade。 \"Whichareyourwindows?Thosewiththeawningsdown?\" \"Onthetopfloor——yes。\" \"Andthatnicelittlebalconyisyours?Howcoolitlooksupthere!\" Hepausedamoment。\"Comeupandsee,\"hesuggested。\"Icangiveyouacupofteainnotime——andyouwon’tmeetanybores。\" Hercolourdeepened——shestillhadtheartofblushingattherighttime——butshetookthesuggestionaslightlyasitwasmade。 \"Whynot?It’stootempting——I’lltaketherisk,\"shedeclared。 \"Oh,I’mnotdangerous,\"hesaidinthesamekey。Intruth,hehadneverlikedheraswellasatthatmoment。Heknewshehadacceptedwithoutafterthought:hecouldneverbeafactorinhercalculations,andtherewasasurprise,arefreshmentalmost,inthespontaneityofherconsent。 Onthethresholdhepausedamoment,feelingforhislatchkey。 \"There’snoonehere;butIhaveaservantwhoissupposedtocomeinthemornings,andit’sjustpossiblehemayhaveputoutthetea-thingsandprovidedsomecake。\" Heusheredherintoaslipofahallhungwitholdprints。Shenoticedthelettersandnotesheapedonthetableamonghisglovesandsticks;thenshefoundherselfinasmalllibrary,darkbutcheerful,withitswallsofbooks,apleasantlyfadedTurkeyrug,alittereddeskand,ashehadforetold,atea-trayonalowtablenearthewindow。Abreezehadsprungup,swayinginwardthemuslincurtains,andbringingafreshscentofmignonetteandpetuniasfromtheflower-boxonthebalcony。 Lilysankwithasighintooneoftheshabbyleatherchairs。 \"Howdelicioustohaveaplacelikethisalltoone’sself!Whatamiserablethingitistobeawoman。\"Sheleanedbackinaluxuryofdiscontent。 Seldenwasrummaginginacupboardforthecake。 \"Evenwomen,\"hesaid,\"havebeenknowntoenjoytheprivilegesofaflat。\" \"Oh,governesses——orwidows。Butnotgirls——notpoor,miserable,marriageablegirls!\" \"Ievenknowagirlwholivesinaflat。\" Shesatupinsurprise。\"Youdo?\" \"Ido,\"heassuredher,emergingfromthecupboardwiththesought-forcake。 \"Oh,Iknow——youmeanGertyFarish。\"Shesmiledalittleunkindly。\"ButIsaidMARRIAGEABLE——andbesides,shehasahorridlittleplace,andnomaid,andsuchqueerthingstoeat。Hercookdoesthewashingandthefoodtastesofsoap。Ishouldhatethat,youknow。\" \"Youshouldn’tdinewithheronwash-days,\"saidSelden,cuttingthecake。 Theybothlaughed,andhekneltbythetabletolightthelampunderthekettle,whileshemeasuredouttheteaintoalittletea-potofgreenglaze。Ashewatchedherhand,polishedasabitofoldivory,withitsslenderpinknails,andthesapphirebraceletslippingoverherwrist,hewasstruckwiththeironyofsuggestingtohersuchalifeashiscousinGertrudeFarishhadchosen。Shewassoevidentlythevictimofthecivilizationwhichhadproducedher,thatthelinksofherbraceletseemedlikemanacleschaininghertoherfate。 Sheseemedtoreadhisthought。\"ItwashorridofmetosaythatofGerty,\"shesaidwithcharmingcompunction。\"Iforgotshewasyourcousin。Butwe’resodifferent,youknow:shelikesbeinggood,andIlikebeinghappy。Andbesides,sheisfreeandIamnot。IfIwere,IdaresayIcouldmanagetobehappyeveninherflat。Itmustbepureblisstoarrangethefurniturejustasonelikes,andgiveallthehorrorstotheash-man。IfIcouldonlydoovermyaunt’sdrawing-roomIknowIshouldbeabetterwoman。\" \"Isitsoverybad?\"heaskedsympathetically。 Shesmiledathimacrossthetea-potwhichshewasholdinguptobefilled。 \"Thatshowshowseldomyoucomethere。Whydon’tyoucomeoftener?\" \"WhenIdocome,it’snottolookatMrs。Peniston’sfurniture。\" \"Nonsense,\"shesaid。\"Youdon’tcomeatall——andyetwegetonsowellwhenwemeet。\" \"Perhapsthat’sthereason,\"heansweredpromptly。\"I’mafraidI haven’tanycream,youknow——shallyoumindasliceoflemoninstead?\" \"Ishalllikeitbetter。\"Shewaitedwhilehecutthelemonanddroppedathindiskintohercup。\"Butthatisnotthereason,\" sheinsisted。 \"Thereasonforwhat?\" \"Foryournevercoming。\"Sheleanedforwardwithashadeofperplexityinhercharmingeyes。\"IwishIknew——IwishIcouldmakeyouout。OfcourseIknowtherearemenwhodon’tlikeme——onecantellthatataglance。Andthereareotherswhoareafraidofme:theythinkIwanttomarrythem。\"Shesmiledupathimfrankly。 \"ButIdon’tthinkyoudislikeme——andyoucan’tpossiblythinkI wanttomarryyou。\" \"No——Iabsolveyouofthat,\"heagreed。 \"Well,then——?\" Hehadcarriedhiscuptothefireplace,andstoodleaningagainstthechimney-pieceandlookingdownonherwithanairofindolentamusement。Theprovocationinhereyesincreasedhisamusement——hehadnotsupposedshewouldwasteherpowderonsuchsmallgame;butperhapsshewasonlykeepingherhandin;orperhapsagirlofhertypehadnoconversationbutofthepersonalkind。Atanyrate,shewasamazinglypretty,andhehadaskedhertoteaandmustliveuptohisobligations。 \"Well,then,\"hesaidwithaplunge,\"perhapsTHAT’Sthereason。\" \"What?\" \"Thefactthatyoudon’twanttomarryme。PerhapsIdon’tregarditassuchastronginducementtogoandseeyou。\"Hefeltaslightshiverdownhisspineasheventuredthis,butherlaughreassuredhim。 \"DearMr。Selden,thatwasn’tworthyofyou。It’sstupidofyoutomakelovetome,anditisn’tlikeyoutobestupid。\"Sheleanedback,sippingherteawithanairsoenchantinglyjudicialthat,iftheyhadbeeninheraunt’sdrawing-room,hemightalmosthavetriedtodisproveherdeduction。 \"Don’tyousee,\"shecontinued,\"thattherearemenenoughtosaypleasantthingstome,andthatwhatIwantisafriendwhowon’tbeafraidtosaydisagreeableoneswhenIneedthem?SometimesI havefanciedyoumightbethatfriend——Idon’tknowwhy,exceptthatyouareneitheraprignorabounder,andthatIshouldn’thavetopretendwithyouorbeonmyguardagainstyou。\"Hervoicehaddroppedtoanoteofseriousness,andshesatgazingupathimwiththetroubledgravityofachild。 \"Youdon’tknowhowmuchIneedsuchafriend,\"shesaid。\"Myauntisfullofcopy-bookaxioms,buttheywereallmeanttoapplytoconductintheearlyfifties。Ialwaysfeelthattoliveuptothemwouldincludewearingbook-muslinwithgigotsleeves。 Andtheotherwomen——mybestfriends——well,theyusemeorabuseme;buttheydon’tcareastrawwhathappenstome。I’vebeenabouttoolong——peoplearegettingtiredofme;theyarebeginningtosayIoughttomarry。\" Therewasamoment’spause,duringwhichSeldenmeditatedoneortworepliescalculatedtoaddamomentaryzesttothesituation; butherejectedtheminfavourofthesimplequestion:\"Well,whydon’tyou?\" Shecolouredandlaughed。\"Ah,IseeyouAREafriendafterall,andthatisoneofthedisagreeablethingsIwasaskingfor。\" \"Itwasn’tmeanttobedisagreeable,\"hereturnedamicably。 \"Isn’tmarriageyourvocation?Isn’titwhatyou’reallbroughtupfor?\" Shesighed。\"Isupposeso。Whatelseisthere?\" \"Exactly。Andsowhynottaketheplungeandhaveitover?\" Sheshruggedhershoulders。\"YouspeakasifIoughttomarrythefirstmanwhocamealong。\" \"Ididn’tmeantoimplythatyouareashardputtoitasthat。Buttheremustbesomeonewiththerequisitequalifications。\" Sheshookherheadwearily。\"IthrewawayoneortwogoodchanceswhenIfirstcameout——Isupposeeverygirldoes;andyouknowI amhorriblypoor——andveryexpensive。Imusthaveagreatdealofmoney。\" Seldenhadturnedtoreachforacigarette-boxonthemantelpiece。 \"What’sbecomeofDillworth?\"heasked。 \"Oh,hismotherwasfrightened——shewasafraidIshouldhaveallthefamilyjewelsreset。AndshewantedmetopromisethatI wouldn’tdooverthedrawing-room。\" \"Theverythingyouaremarryingfor!\" \"Exactly。SoshepackedhimofftoIndia。\" \"Hardluck——butyoucandobetterthanDillworth。\" Heofferedthebox,andshetookoutthreeorfourcigarettes,puttingonebetweenherlipsandslippingtheothersintoalittlegoldcaseattachedtoherlongpearlchain。 \"HaveItime?Justawhiff,then。\"Sheleanedforward,holdingthetipofhercigarettetohis。Asshedidso,henoted,withapurelyimpersonalenjoyment,howevenlytheblacklashesweresetinhersmoothwhitelids,andhowthepurplishshadebeneaththemmeltedintothepurepallourofthecheek。 Shebegantosaunterabouttheroom,examiningthebookshelvesbetweenthepuffsofhercigarette-smoke。Someofthevolumeshadtheripetintsofgoodtoolingandoldmorocco,andhereyeslingeredonthemcaressingly,notwiththeappreciationoftheexpert,butwiththepleasureinagreeabletonesandtexturesthatwasoneofherinmostsusceptibilities。Suddenlyherexpressionchangedfromdesultoryenjoymenttoactiveconjecture,andsheturnedtoSeldenwithaquestion。 \"Youcollect,don’tyou——youknowaboutfirsteditionsandthings?\" \"Asmuchasamanmaywhohasnomoneytospend。NowandthenI pickupsomethingintherubbishheap;andIgoandlookonatthebigsales。\" Shehadagainaddressedherselftotheshelves,buthereyesnowswepttheminattentively,andhesawthatshewaspreoccupiedwithanewidea。 \"AndAmericana——doyoucollectAmericana?\" Seldenstaredandlaughed。 \"No,that’sratheroutofmyline。I’mnotreallyacollector,yousee;IsimplyliketohavegoodeditionsofthebooksIamfondof。\" Shemadeaslightgrimace。\"AndAmericanaarehorriblydull,I suppose?\" \"Ishouldfancyso——excepttothehistorian。Butyourrealcollectorvaluesathingforitsrarity。Idon’tsupposethebuyersofAmericanasitupreadingthemallnight——oldJeffersonGrycecertainlydidn’t。\" Shewaslisteningwithkeenattention。\"Andyettheyfetchfabulousprices,don’tthey?Itseemssooddtowanttopayalotforanuglybadly-printedbookthatoneisnevergoingtoread! AndIsupposemostoftheownersofAmericanaarenothistorianseither?\" \"No;veryfewofthehistorianscanaffordtobuythem。Theyhavetousethoseinthepubliclibrariesorinprivatecollections。 Itseemstobethemereraritythatattractstheaveragecollector。\" Hehadseatedhimselfonanarmofthechairnearwhichshewasstanding,andshecontinuedtoquestionhim,askingwhichweretherarestvolumes,whethertheJeffersonGrycecollectionwasreallyconsideredthefinestintheworld,andwhatwasthelargestpriceeverfetchedbyasinglevolume。 Itwassopleasanttosittherelookingupather,assheliftednowonebookandthenanotherfromtheshelves,flutteringthepagesbetweenherfingers,whileherdroopingprofilewasoutlinedagainstthewarmbackgroundofoldbindings,thathetalkedonwithoutpausingtowonderathersuddeninterestinsounsuggestiveasubject。Buthecouldneverbelongwithherwithouttryingtofindareasonforwhatshewasdoing,andasshereplacedhisfirsteditionofLaBruyereandturnedawayfromthebookcases,hebegantoaskhimselfwhatshehadbeendrivingat。Hernextquestionwasnotofanaturetoenlightenhim。Shepausedbeforehimwithasmilewhichseemedatoncedesignedtoadmithimtoherfamiliarity,andtoremindhimoftherestrictionsitimposed。 \"Don’tyouevermind,\"sheaskedsuddenly,\"notbeingrichenoughtobuyallthebooksyouwant?\" Hefollowedherglanceabouttheroom,withitswornfurnitureandshabbywalls。 \"Don’tIjust?Doyoutakemeforasaintonapillar?\" \"Andhavingtowork——doyoumindthat?\" \"Oh,theworkitselfisnotsobad——I’mratherfondofthelaw。\" \"No;butthebeingtieddown:theroutine——don’tyoueverwanttogetaway,toseenewplacesandpeople?\" \"Horribly——especiallywhenIseeallmyfriendsrushingtothesteamer。\" Shedrewasympatheticbreath。\"Butdoyoumindenough——tomarrytogetoutofit?\" Seldenbrokeintoalaugh。\"Godforbid!\"hedeclared。 Sherosewithasigh,tossinghercigaretteintothegrate。 \"Ah,there’sthedifference——agirlmust,amanmayifhechooses。\"Shesurveyedhimcritically。\"Yourcoat’salittleshabby——butwhocares?Itdoesn’tkeeppeoplefromaskingyoutodine。IfIwereshabbynoonewouldhaveme:awomanisaskedoutasmuchforherclothesasforherself。Theclothesarethebackground,theframe,ifyoulike:theydon’tmakesuccess,buttheyareapartofit。Whowantsadingywoman?Weareexpectedtobeprettyandwell-dressedtillwedrop——andifwecan’tkeepitupalone,wehavetogointopartnership。\" Seldenglancedatherwithamusement:itwasimpossible,evenwithherlovelyeyesimploringhim,totakeasentimentalviewofhercase。 \"Ah,well,theremustbeplentyofcapitalonthelook-outforsuchaninvestment。Perhapsyou’llmeetyourfatetonightattheTrenors’。\" Shereturnedhislookinterrogatively。 \"Ithoughtyoumightbegoingthere——oh,notinthatcapacity! Buttherearetobealotofyourset——GwenVanOsburgh,theWetheralls,LadyCressidaRaith——andtheGeorgeDorsets。\" Shepausedamomentbeforethelastname,andshotaquerythroughherlashes;butheremainedimperturbable。 \"Mrs。Trenoraskedme;butIcan’tgetawaytilltheendoftheweek;andthosebigpartiesboreme。\" \"Ah,sotheydome,\"sheexclaimed。 \"Thenwhygo?\" \"It’spartofthebusiness——youforget!Andbesides,ifIdidn’t,IshouldbeplayingbeziquewithmyauntatRichfieldSprings。\" \"That’salmostasbadasmarryingDillworth,\"heagreed,andtheybothlaughedforpurepleasureintheirsuddenintimacy。 Sheglancedattheclock。 \"Dearme!Imustbeoff。It’safterfive。\" Shepausedbeforethemantelpiece,studyingherselfinthemirrorwhilesheadjustedherveil。Theattituderevealedthelongslopeofherslendersides,whichgaveakindofwild-woodgracetoheroutline——asthoughshewereacaptureddryadsubduedtotheconventionsofthedrawing-room;andSeldenreflectedthatitwasthesamestreakofsylvanfreedominhernaturethatlentsuchsavourtoherartificiality。 Hefollowedheracrosstheroomtotheentrance-hall;butonthethresholdsheheldoutherhandwithagestureofleave-taking。 \"It’sbeendelightful;andnowyouwillhavetoreturnmyvisit。\" \"Butdon’tyouwantmetoseeyoutothestation?\" \"No;goodbyehere,please。\" Sheletherhandlieinhisamoment,smilingupathimadorably。 \"Goodbye,then——andgoodluckatBellomont!\"hesaid,openingthedoorforher。 Onthelandingshepausedtolookabouther。Therewereathousandchancestooneagainsthermeetinganybody,butonecouldnevertell,andshealwayspaidforherrareindiscretionsbyaviolentreactionofprudence。Therewasnooneinsight,however,butachar-womanwhowasscrubbingthestairs。HerownstoutpersonanditssurroundingimplementstookupsomuchroomthatLily,topassher,hadtogatherupherskirtsandbrushagainstthewall。Asshedidso,thewomanpausedinherworkandlookedupcuriously,restingherclenchedredfistsonthewetclothshehadjustdrawnfromherpail。Shehadabroadsallowface,slightlypittedwithsmall-pox,andthinstraw-colouredhairthroughwhichherscalpshoneunpleasantly。 \"Ibegyourpardon,\"saidLily,intendingbyherpolitenesstoconveyacriticismoftheother’smanner。 Thewoman,withoutanswering,pushedherpailaside,andcontinuedtostareasMissBartsweptbywithamurmurofsilkenlinings。Lilyfeltherselfflushingunderthelook。Whatdidthecreaturesuppose?Couldoneneverdothesimplest,themostharmlessthing,withoutsubjectingone’sselftosomeodiousconjecture?Halfwaydownthenextflight,shesmiledtothinkthatachar-woman’sstareshouldsoperturbher。Thepoorthingwasprobablydazzledbysuchanunwontedapparition。ButWERE suchapparitionsunwontedonSelden’sstairs?MissBartwasnotfamiliarwiththemoralcodeofbachelors’flat-houses,andhercolourroseagainasitoccurredtoherthatthewoman’spersistentgazeimpliedagropingamongpastassociations。Butsheputasidethethoughtwithasmileatherownfears,andhasteneddownward,wonderingifsheshouldfindacabshortofFifthAvenue。 UndertheGeorgianporchshepausedagain,scanningthestreetforahansom。Nonewasinsight,butasshereachedthesidewalksheranagainstasmallglossy-lookingmanwithagardeniainhiscoat,whoraisedhishatwithasurprisedexclamation。 \"MissBart?Well——ofallpeople!ThisISluck,\"hedeclared;andshecaughtatwinkleofamusedcuriositybetweenhisscrewed-uplids。 \"Oh,Mr。Rosedale——howareyou?\"shesaid,perceivingthattheirrepressibleannoyanceonherfacewasreflectedinthesuddenintimacyofhissmile。 Mr。Rosedalestoodscanningherwithinterestandapproval。HewasaplumprosymanoftheblondJewishtype,withsmartLondonclothesfittinghimlikeupholstery,andsmallsidelongeyeswhichgavehimtheairofappraisingpeopleasiftheywerebric-a-brac。HeglancedupinterrogativelyattheporchoftheBenedick。 \"Beenuptotownforalittleshopping,Isuppose?\"hesaid,inatonewhichhadthefamiliarityofatouch。 MissBartshrankfromitslightly,andthenflungherselfintoprecipitateexplanations。 \"Yes——Icameuptoseemydress-maker。IamjustonmywaytocatchthetraintotheTrenors’。\" \"Ah——yourdress-maker;justso,\"hesaidblandly。\"Ididn’tknowtherewereanydress-makersintheBenedick。\" \"TheBenedick?\"Shelookedgentlypuzzled。\"Isthatthenameofthisbuilding?\" \"Yes,that’sthename:Ibelieveit’sanoldwordforbachelor,isn’tit?Ihappentoownthebuilding——that’sthewayIknow。\" Hissmiledeepenedasheaddedwithincreasingassurance:\"Butyoumustletmetakeyoutothestation。TheTrenorsareatBellomont,ofcourse?You’vebarelytimetocatchthefive-forty。 Thedress-makerkeptyouwaiting,Isuppose。\" Lilystiffenedunderthepleasantry。 \"Oh,thanks,\"shestammered;andatthatmomenthereyecaughtahansomdriftingdownMadisonAvenue,andshehaileditwithadesperategesture。 \"You’reverykind;butIcouldn’tthinkoftroublingyou,\"shesaid,extendingherhandtoMr。Rosedale;andheedlessofhisprotestations,shesprangintotherescuingvehicle,andcalledoutabreathlessordertothedriver。 Inthehansomsheleanedbackwithasigh。Whymustagirlpaysodearlyforherleastescapefromroutine?Whycouldoneneverdoanaturalthingwithouthavingtoscreenitbehindastructureofartifice?ShehadyieldedtoapassingimpulseingoingtoLawrenceSelden’srooms,anditwassoseldomthatshecouldallowherselftheluxuryofanimpulse!Thisone,atanyrate,wasgoingtocostherrathermorethanshecouldafford。Shewasvexedtoseethat,inspiteofsomanyyearsofvigilance,shehadblunderedtwicewithinfiveminutes。Thatstupidstoryaboutherdress-makerwasbadenough——itwouldhavebeensosimpletotellRosedalethatshehadbeentakingteawithSelden!Themerestatementofthefactwouldhaverendereditinnocuous。But,afterhavingletherselfbesurprisedinafalsehood,itwasdoublystupidtosnubthewitnessofherdiscomfiture。IfshehadhadthepresenceofmindtoletRosedaledrivehertothestation,theconcessionmighthavepurchasedhissilence。Hehadhisrace’saccuracyintheappraisalofvalues,andtobeseenwalkingdowntheplatformatthecrowdedafternoonhourinthecompanyofMissLilyBartwouldhavebeenmoneyinhispocket,ashemighthimselfhavephrasedit。Heknew,ofcourse,thattherewouldbealargehouse-partyatBellomont,andthepossibilityofbeingtakenforoneofMrs。Trenor’sguestswasdoubtlessincludedinhiscalculations。Mr。Rosedalewasstillatastageinhissocialascentwhenitwasofimportancetoproducesuchimpressions。 TheprovokingpartwasthatLilyknewallthis——knewhoweasyitwouldhavebeentosilencehimonthespot,andhowdifficultitmightbetodosoafterward。Mr。SimonRosedalewasamanwhomadeithisbusinesstoknoweverythingabouteveryone,whoseideaofshowinghimselftobeathomeinsocietywastodisplayaninconvenientfamiliaritywiththehabitsofthosewithwhomhewishedtobethoughtintimate。Lilywassurethatwithintwenty-fourhoursthestoryofhervisitingherdress-makerattheBenedickwouldbeinactivecirculationamongMr。Rosedale’sacquaintances。Theworstofitwasthatshehadalwayssnubbedandignoredhim。Onhisfirstappearance——whenherimprovidentcousin,JackStepney,hadobtainedforhim(inreturnforfavourstooeasilyguessed)acardtooneofthevastimpersonalVanOsburgh\"crushes\"——Rosedale,withthatmixtureofartisticsensibilityandbusinessastutenesswhichcharacterizeshisrace,hadinstantlygravitatedtowardMissBart。Sheunderstoodhismotives,forherowncoursewasguidedbyasnicecalculations。Trainingandexperiencehadtaughthertobehospitabletonewcomers,sincethemostunpromisingmightbeusefullateron,andtherewereplentyofavailableOUBLIETTEStoswallowthemiftheywerenot。Butsomeintuitiverepugnance,gettingthebetterofyearsofsocialdiscipline,hadmadeherpushMr。RosedaleintohisOUBLIETTEwithoutatrial。Hehadleftbehindonlytherippleofamusementwhichhisspeedydespatchhadcausedamongherfriends;andthoughlater(toshiftthemetaphor)hereappearedlowerdownthestream,itwasonlyinfleetingglimpses,withlongsubmergencesbetween。 HithertoLilyhadbeenundisturbedbyscruples。InherlittlesetMr。Rosedalehadbeenpronounced\"impossible,\"andJackStepneyroundlysnubbedforhisattempttopayhisdebtsindinnerinvitations。EvenMrs。Trenor,whosetasteforvarietyhadledherintosomehazardousexperiments,resistedJack’sattemptstodisguiseMr。Rosedaleasanovelty,anddeclaredthathewasthesamelittleJewwhohadbeenservedupandrejectedatthesocialboardadozentimeswithinhermemory;andwhileJudyTrenorwasobduratetherewassmallchanceofMr。Rosedale’spenetratingbeyondtheouterlimbooftheVanOsburghcrushes。Jackgaveupthecontestwithalaughing\"You’llsee,\"and,stickingmanfullytohisguns,showedhimselfwithRosedaleatthefashionablerestaurants,incompanywiththepersonallyvividifsociallyobscureladieswhoareavailableforsuchpurposes。Buttheattempthadhithertobeenvain,andasRosedaleundoubtedlypaidforthedinners,thelaughremainedwithhisdebtor。 Mr。Rosedale,itwillbeseen,wasthusfarnotafactortobefeared——unlessoneputone’sselfinhispower。AndthiswaspreciselywhatMissBarthaddone。Herclumsyfibhadlethimseethatshehadsomethingtoconceal;andshewassurehehadascoretosettlewithher。Somethinginhissmiletoldherhehadnotforgotten。Sheturnedfromthethoughtwithalittleshiver,butithungonherallthewaytothestation,anddoggedherdowntheplatformwiththepersistencyofMr。Rosedalehimself。 Shehadjusttimetotakeherseatbeforethetrainstarted;buthavingarrangedherselfinhercornerwiththeinstinctivefeelingforeffectwhichneverforsookher,sheglancedaboutinthehopeofseeingsomeothermemberoftheTrenors’party。Shewantedtogetawayfromherself,andconversationwastheonlymeansofescapethatsheknew。 Hersearchwasrewardedbythediscoveryofaveryblondyoungmanwithasoftreddishbeard,who,attheotherendofthecarriage,appearedtobedissemblinghimselfbehindanunfoldednewspaper。Lily’seyebrightened,andafaintsmilerelaxedthedrawnlinesofhermouth。ShehadknownthatMr。PercyGrycewastobeatBellomont,butshehadnotcountedontheluckofhavinghimtoherselfinthetrain;andthefactbanishedallperturbingthoughtsofMr。Rosedale。Perhaps,afterall,thedaywastoendmorefavourablythanithadbegun。 Shebegantocutthepagesofanovel,tranquillystudyingherpreythroughdowncastlasheswhilesheorganizedamethodofattack。Somethinginhisattitudeofconsciousabsorptiontoldherthathewasawareofherpresence:noonehadeverbeenquitesoengrossedinaneveningpaper!Sheguessedthathewastooshytocomeuptoher,andthatshewouldhavetodevisesomemeansofapproachwhichshouldnotappeartobeanadvanceonherpart。 ItamusedhertothinkthatanyoneasrichasMr。PercyGryceshouldbeshy;butshewasgiftedwithtreasuresofindulgenceforsuchidiosyncrasies,andbesides,histimiditymightserveherpurposebetterthantoomuchassurance。Shehadtheartofgivingself-confidencetotheembarrassed,butshewasnotequallysureofbeingabletoembarrasstheself-confident。 Shewaitedtillthetrainhademergedfromthetunnelandwasracingbetweentheraggededgesofthenorthernsuburbs。Then,asitlowereditsspeednearYonkers,sherosefromherseatanddriftedslowlydownthecarriage。AsshepassedMr。Gryce,thetraingavealurch,andhewasawareofaslenderhandgrippingthebackofhischair。Herosewithastart,hisingenuousfacelookingasthoughithadbeendippedincrimson:eventhereddishtintinhisbeardseemedtodeepen。Thetrainswayedagain,almostflingingMissBartintohisarms。 Shesteadiedherselfwithalaughanddrewback;buthewasenvelopedinthescentofherdress,andhisshoulderhadfeltherfugitivetouch。 \"Oh,Mr。Gryce,isityou?I’msosorry——Iwastryingtofindtheporterandgetsometea。\" Sheheldoutherhandasthetrainresumeditslevelrush,andtheystoodexchangingafewwordsintheaisle。Yes——hewasgoingtoBellomont。Hehadheardshewastobeoftheparty——heblushedagainasheadmittedit。Andwashetobethereforawholeweek? Howdelightful! Butatthispointoneortwobelatedpassengersfromthelaststationforcedtheirwayintothecarriage,andLilyhadtoretreattoherseat。 \"Thechairnexttomineisempty——dotakeit,\"shesaidoverhershoulder;andMr。Gryce,withconsiderableembarrassment,succeededineffectinganexchangewhichenabledhimtotransporthimselfandhisbagstoherside。 \"Ah——andhereistheporter,andperhapswecanhavesometea。\" Shesignalledtothatofficial,andinamoment,withtheeasethatseemedtoattendthefulfilmentofallherwishes,alittletablehadbeensetupbetweentheseats,andshehadhelpedMr。 Grycetobestowhisencumberingpropertiesbeneathit。 Whentheteacamehewatchedherinsilentfascinationwhileherhandsflittedabovethetray,lookingmiraculouslyfineandslenderincontrasttothecoarsechinaandlumpybread。Itseemedwonderfultohimthatanyoneshouldperformwithsuchcarelesseasethedifficulttaskofmakingteainpublicinalurchingtrain。Hewouldneverhavedaredtoorderitforhimself,lestheshouldattractthenoticeofhisfellow-passengers;but,secureintheshelterofherconspicuousness,hesippedtheinkydraughtwithadelicioussenseofexhilaration。 Lily,withtheflavourofSelden’scaravanteaonherlips,hadnogreatfancytodrownitintherailwaybrewwhichseemedsuchnectartohercompanion;but,rightlyjudgingthatoneofthecharmsofteaisthefactofdrinkingittogether,sheproceededtogivethelasttouchtoMr。Gryce’senjoymentbysmilingathimacrossherliftedcup。 \"Isitquiteright——Ihaven’tmadeittoostrong?\"sheaskedsolicitously;andherepliedwithconvictionthathehadnevertastedbettertea。 \"Idaresayitistrue,\"shereflected;andherimaginationwasfiredbythethoughtthatMr。Gryce,whomighthavesoundedthedepthsofthemostcomplexself-indulgence,wasperhapsactuallytakinghisfirstjourneyalonewithaprettywoman。 Itstruckherasprovidentialthatsheshouldbetheinstrumentofhisinitiation。Somegirlswouldnothaveknownhowtomanagehim。Theywouldhaveover-emphasizedthenoveltyoftheadventure,tryingtomakehimfeelinitthezestofanescapade。 ButLily’smethodsweremoredelicate。SherememberedthathercousinJackStepneyhadoncedefinedMr。Gryceastheyoungmanwhohadpromisedhismothernevertogooutintherainwithouthisovershoes;andactingonthishint,sheresolvedtoimpartagentlydomesticairtothescene,inthehopethathercompanion,insteadoffeelingthathewasdoingsomethingrecklessorunusual,wouldmerelybeledtodwellontheadvantageofalwayshavingacompaniontomakeone’steainthetrain。 Butinspiteofherefforts,conversationflaggedafterthetrayhadbeenremoved,andshewasdriventotakeafreshmeasurementofMr。Gryce’slimitations。Itwasnot,afterall,opportunitybutimaginationthathelacked:hehadamentalpalatewhichwouldneverlearntodistinguishbetweenrailwayteaandnectar。 Therewas,however,onetopicshecouldrelyon:onespringthatshehadonlytotouchtosethissimplemachineryinmotion。Shehadrefrainedfromtouchingitbecauseitwasalastresource,andshehadreliedonotherartstostimulateothersensations; butasasettledlookofdulnessbegantocreepoverhiscandidfeatures,shesawthatextrememeasureswerenecessary。 \"Andhow,\"shesaid,leaningforward,\"areyougettingonwithyourAmericana?\" Hiseyebecameadegreelessopaque:itwasasthoughanincipientfilmhadbeenremovedfromit,andshefelttheprideofaskilfuloperator。 \"I’vegotafewnewthings,\"hesaid,suffusedwithpleasure,butloweringhisvoiceasthoughhefearedhisfellow-passengersmightbeinleaguetodespoilhim。 Shereturnedasympatheticenquiry,andgraduallyhewasdrawnontotalkofhislatestpurchases。Itwastheonesubjectwhichenabledhimtoforgethimself,orallowedhim,rather,torememberhimselfwithoutconstraint,becausehewasathomeinit,andcouldassertasuperioritythattherewerefewtodispute。HardlyanyofhisacquaintancescaredforAmericana,orknewanythingaboutthem;andtheconsciousnessofthisignorancethrewMr。Gryce’sknowledgeintoagreeablerelief。Theonlydifficultywastointroducethetopicandtokeepittothefront;mostpeopleshowednodesiretohavetheirignorancedispelled,andMr。Grycewaslikeamerchantwhosewarehousesarecrammedwithanunmarketablecommodity。 ButMissBart,itappeared,reallydidwanttoknowaboutAmericana;andmoreover,shewasalreadysufficientlyinformedtomakethetaskoffartherinstructionaseasyasitwasagreeable。 Shequestionedhimintelligently,sheheardhimsubmissively; and,preparedforthelookoflassitudewhichusuallycreptoverhislisteners’faces,hegreweloquentunderherreceptivegaze。 The\"points\"shehadhadthepresenceofmindtogleanfromSelden,inanticipationofthisverycontingency,wereservinghertosuchgoodpurposethatshebegantothinkhervisittohimhadbeentheluckiestincidentoftheday。Shehadoncemoreshownhertalentforprofitingbytheunexpected,anddangeroustheoriesastotheadvisabilityofyieldingtoimpulseweregerminatingunderthesurfaceofsmilingattentionwhichshecontinuedtopresenttohercompanion。 Mr。Gryce’ssensations,iflessdefinite,wereequallyagreeable。 Hefelttheconfusedtitillationwithwhichthelowerorganismswelcomethegratificationoftheirneeds,andallhissensesflounderedinavaguewell-being,throughwhichMissBart’spersonalitywasdimlybutpleasantlyperceptible。 Mr。Gryce’sinterestinAmericanahadnotoriginatedwithhimself:itwasimpossibletothinkofhimasevolvinganytasteofhisown。Anunclehadlefthimacollectionalreadynotedamongbibliophiles;theexistenceofthecollectionwastheonlyfactthathadevershedgloryonthenameofGryce,andthenephewtookasmuchprideinhisinheritanceasthoughithadbeenhisownwork。Indeed,hegraduallycametoregarditassuch,andtofeelasenseofpersonalcomplacencywhenhechancedonanyreferencetotheGryceAmericana。Anxiousashewastoavoidpersonalnotice,hetook,intheprintedmentionofhisname,apleasuresoexquisiteandexcessivethatitseemedacompensationforhisshrinkingfrompublicity。 Toenjoythesensationasoftenaspossible,hesubscribedtoallthereviewsdealingwithbook-collectingingeneral,andAmericanhistoryinparticular,andasallusionstohislibraryaboundedinthepagesofthesejournals,whichformedhisonlyreading,hecametoregardhimselfasfiguringprominentlyinthepubliceye,andtoenjoythethoughtoftheinterestwhichwouldbeexcitedifthepersonshemetinthestreet,orsatamongintravelling,weresuddenlytobetoldthathewasthepossessoroftheGryceAmericana。 Mosttimiditieshavesuchsecretcompensations,andMissBartwasdiscerningenoughtoknowthattheinnervanityisgenerallyinproportiontotheouterself-depreciation。Withamoreconfidentpersonshewouldnothavedaredtodwellsolongononetopic,ortoshowsuchexaggeratedinterestinit;butshehadrightlyguessedthatMr。Gryce’segoismwasathirstysoil,requiringconstantnurturefromwithout。MissBarthadthegiftoffollowinganundercurrentofthoughtwhilesheappearedtobesailingonthesurfaceofconversation;andinthiscasehermentalexcursiontooktheformofarapidsurveyofMr。PercyGryce’sfutureascombinedwithherown。TheGryceswerefromAlbany,andbutlatelyintroducedtothemetropolis,wherethemotherandsonhadcome,afteroldJeffersonGryce’sdeath,totakepossessionofhishouseinMadisonAvenue——anappallinghouse,allbrownstonewithoutandblackwalnutwithin,withtheGrycelibraryinafire-proofannexthatlookedlikeamausoleum。 Lily,however,knewallaboutthem:youngMr。Gryce’sarrivalhadflutteredthematernalbreastsofNewYork,andwhenagirlhasnomothertopalpitateforhershemustneedsbeonthealertforherself。Lily,therefore,hadnotonlycontrivedtoputherselfintheyoungman’sway,buthadmadetheacquaintanceofMrs。Gryce,amonumentalwomanwiththevoiceofapulpitoratorandamindpreoccupiedwiththeiniquitiesofherservants,whocamesometimestositwithMrs。Penistonandlearnfromthatladyhowshemanagedtopreventthekitchen-maid’ssmugglinggroceriesoutofthehouse。Mrs。Grycehadakindofimpersonalbenevolence:casesofindividualneedsheregardedwithsuspicion,butshesubscribedtoInstitutionswhentheirannualreportsshowedanimpressivesurplus。Herdomesticdutiesweremanifold,fortheyextendedfromfurtiveinspectionsoftheservants’bedroomstounannounceddescentstothecellar;butshehadneverallowedherselfmanypleasures。Once,however,shehadhadaspecialeditionoftheSarumRuleprintedinrubricandpresentedtoeveryclergymaninthediocese;andthegiltalbuminwhichtheirlettersofthankswerepastedformedthechiefornamentofherdrawing-roomtable。 Percyhadbeenbroughtupintheprincipleswhichsoexcellentawomanwassuretoinculcate。Everyformofprudenceandsuspicionhadbeengraftedonanatureoriginallyreluctantandcautious,withtheresultthatitwouldhaveseemedhardlyneedfulforMrs。 Grycetoextracthispromiseabouttheovershoes,solittlelikelywashetohazardhimselfabroadintherain。Afterattaininghismajority,andcomingintothefortunewhichthelateMr。Grycehadmadeoutofapatentdeviceforexcludingfreshairfromhotels,theyoungmancontinuedtolivewithhismotherinAlbany;butonJeffersonGryce’sdeath,whenanotherlargepropertypassedintoherson’shands,Mrs。Grycethoughtthatwhatshecalledhis\"interests\"demandedhispresenceinNewYork。SheaccordinglyinstalledherselfintheMadisonAvenuehouse,andPercy,whosesenseofdutywasnotinferiortohismother’s,spentallhisweekdaysinthehandsomeBroadStreetofficewhereabatchofpalemenonsmallsalarieshadgrowngreyinthemanagementoftheGryceestate,andwherehewasinitiatedwithbecomingreverenceintoeverydetailoftheartofaccumulation。 AsfarasLilycouldlearn,thishadhithertobeenMr。Gryce’sonlyoccupation,andshemighthavebeenpardonedforthinkingitnottoohardatasktointerestayoungmanwhohadbeenkeptonsuchlowdiet。Atanyrate,shefeltherselfsocompletelyincommandofthesituationthatsheyieldedtoasenseofsecurityinwhichallfearofMr。Rosedale,andofthedifficultiesonwhichthatfearwascontingent,vanishedbeyondtheedgeofthought。 ThestoppingofthetrainatGarrisonswouldnothavedistractedherfromthesethoughts,hadshenotcaughtasuddenlookofdistressinhercompanion’seye。Hisseatfacedtowardthedoor,andsheguessedthathehadbeenperturbedbytheapproachofanacquaintance;afactconfirmedbytheturningofheadsandgeneralsenseofcommotionwhichherownentranceintoarailway-carriagewasapttoproduce。 Sheknewthesymptomsatonce,andwasnotsurprisedtobehailedbythehighnotesofaprettywoman,whoenteredthetrainaccompaniedbyamaid,abull-terrier,andafootmanstaggeringunderaloadofbagsanddressing-cases。 \"Oh,Lily——areyougoingtoBellomont?Thenyoucan’tletmehaveyourseat,Isuppose?ButIMUSThaveaseatinthiscarriage——porter,youmustfindmeaplaceatonce。Can’tsomeonebeputsomewhereelse?Iwanttobewithmyfriends。Oh,howdoyoudo,Mr。Gryce?DopleasemakehimunderstandthatImusthaveaseatnexttoyouandLily。\" Mrs。GeorgeDorset,regardlessofthemildeffortsofatravellerwithacarpet-bag,whowasdoinghisbesttomakeroomforherbygettingoutofthetrain,stoodinthemiddleoftheaisle,diffusingaboutherthatgeneralsenseofexasperationwhichaprettywomanonhertravelsnotinfrequentlycreates。 ShewassmallerandthinnerthanLilyBart,witharestlesspliabilityofpose,asifshecouldhavebeencrumpledupandrunthrougharing,likethesinuousdraperiessheaffected。Hersmallpalefaceseemedthemeresettingofapairofdarkexaggeratedeyes,ofwhichthevisionarygazecontrastedcuriouslywithherself-assertivetoneandgestures;sothat,asoneofherfriendsobserved,shewaslikeadisembodiedspiritwhotookupagreatdealofroom。 HavingfinallydiscoveredthattheseatadjoiningMissBart’swasatherdisposal,shepossessedherselfofitwithafartherdisplacementofhersurroundings,explainingmeanwhilethatshehadcomeacrossfromMountKiscoinhermotor-carthatmorning,andhadbeenkickingherheelsforanhouratGarrisons,withouteventhealleviationofacigarette,herbruteofahusbandhavingneglectedtoreplenishhercasebeforetheypartedthatmorning。 \"AndatthishourofthedayIdon’tsupposeyou’veasingleoneleft,haveyou,Lily?\"sheplaintivelyconcluded。 MissBartcaughtthestartledglanceofMr。PercyGryce,whoseownlipswereneverdefiledbytobacco。 \"Whatanabsurdquestion,Bertha!\"sheexclaimed,blushingatthethoughtofthestoreshehadlaidinatLawrenceSelden’s。 \"Why,don’tyousmoke?Sincewhenhaveyougivenitup?What——younever——Andyoudon’teither,Mr。Gryce?Ah,ofcourse——howstupidofme——Iunderstand。\" AndMrs。DorsetleanedbackagainsthertravellingcushionswithasmilewhichmadeLilywishtherehadbeennovacantseatbesideherown。 BridgeatBellomontusuallylastedtillthesmallhours;andwhenLilywenttobedthatnightshehadplayedtoolongforherowngood。 Feelingnodesirefortheself-communionwhichawaitedherinherroom,shelingeredonthebroadstairway,lookingdownintothehallbelow,wherethelastcard-playersweregroupedaboutthetrayoftallglassesandsilver-collareddecanterswhichthebutlerhadjustplacedonalowtablenearthefire。 Thehallwasarcaded,withagallerysupportedoncolumnsofpaleyellowmarble。Tallclumpsoffloweringplantsweregroupedagainstabackgroundofdarkfoliageintheanglesofthewalls。 Onthecrimsoncarpetadeer-houndandtwoorthreespanielsdozedluxuriouslybeforethefire,andthelightfromthegreatcentrallanternoverheadshedabrightnessonthewomen’shairandstrucksparksfromtheirjewelsastheymoved。 ThereweremomentswhensuchscenesdelightedLily,whentheygratifiedhersenseofbeautyandhercravingfortheexternalfinishoflife;therewereotherswhentheygaveasharperedgetothemeagrenessofherownopportunities。Thiswasoneofthemomentswhenthesenseofcontrastwasuppermost,andsheturnedawayimpatientlyasMrs。GeorgeDorset,glitteringinserpentinespangles,drewPercyGryceinherwaketoaconfidentialnookbeneaththegallery。 ItwasnotthatMissBartwasafraidoflosinghernewly-acquiredholdoverMr。Gryce。Mrs。Dorsetmightstartleordazzlehim,butshehadneithertheskillnorthepatiencetoeffecthiscapture。 Shewastooself-engrossedtopenetratetherecessesofhisshyness,andbesides,whyshouldshecaretogiveherselfthetrouble?Atmostitmightamusehertomakesportofhissimplicityforanevening——afterthathewouldbemerelyaburdentoher,andknowingthis,shewasfartooexperiencedtoencouragehim。Butthemerethoughtofthatotherwoman,whocouldtakeamanupandtosshimasideasshewilled,withouthavingtoregardhimasapossiblefactorinherplans,filledLilyBartwithenvy。ShehadbeenboredalltheafternoonbyPercyGryce——themerethoughtseemedtowakenanechoofhisdroningvoice——butshecouldnotignorehimonthemorrow,shemustfollowuphersuccess,mustsubmittomoreboredom,mustbereadywithfreshcompliancesandadaptabilities,andallonthebarechancethathemightultimatelydecidetodoherthehonourofboringherforlife。 Itwasahatefulfate——buthowescapefromit?Whatchoicehadshe?Tobeherself,oraGertyFarish。Assheenteredherbedroom,withitssoftly-shadedlights,herlacedressing-gownlyingacrossthesilkenbedspread,herlittleembroideredslippersbeforethefire,avaseofcarnationsfillingtheairwithperfume,andthelastnovelsandmagazineslyinguncutonatablebesidethereading-lamp,shehadavisionofMissFarish’scrampedflat,withitscheapconveniencesandhideouswall-papers。No;shewasnotmadeformeanandshabbysurroundings,forthesqualidcompromisesofpoverty。Herwholebeingdilatedinanatmosphereofluxury;itwasthebackgroundsherequired,theonlyclimateshecouldbreathein。Buttheluxuryofotherswasnotwhatshewanted。Afewyearsagoithadsufficedher:shehadtakenherdailymeedofpleasurewithoutcaringwhoprovidedit。Nowshewasbeginningtochafeattheobligationsitimposed,tofeelherselfamerepensioneronthesplendourwhichhadonceseemedtobelongtoher。Therewereevenmomentswhenshewasconsciousofhavingtopayherway。 Foralongtimeshehadrefusedtoplaybridge。Sheknewshecouldnotaffordit,andshewasafraidofacquiringsoexpensiveataste。Shehadseenthedangerexemplifiedinmorethanoneofherassociates——inyoungNedSilverton,forinstance,thecharmingfairboynowseatedinabjectraptureattheelbowofMrs。Fisher,astrikingdivorceewitheyesandgownsasemphaticasthehead-linesofher\"case。\"LilycouldrememberwhenyoungSilvertonhadstumbledintotheircircle,withtheairofastrayedArcadianwhohaspublishedchamungsonnetsinhiscollegejournal。SincethenhehaddevelopedatasteforMrs。Fisherandbridge,andthelatteratleasthadinvolvedhiminexpensesfromwhichhehadbeenmorethanoncerescuedbyharassedmaidensisters,whotreasuredthesonnets,andwentwithoutsugarintheirteatokeeptheirdarlingafloat。Ned’scasewasfamiliartoLily:shehadseenhischarmingeyes——whichhadagooddealmorepoetryinthemthanthesonnets——changefromsurprisetoamusement,andfromamusementtoanxiety,ashepassedunderthespelloftheterriblegodofchance;andshewasafraidofdiscoveringthesamesymptomsinherowncase。 Forinthelastyearshehadfoundthatherhostessesexpectedhertotakeaplaceatthecard-table。Itwasoneofthetaxesshehadtopayfortheirprolongedhospitality,andforthedressesandtrinketswhichoccasionallyreplenishedherinsufficientwardrobe。Andsinceshehadplayedregularlythepassionhadgrownonher。Onceortwiceoflateshehadwonalargesum,andinsteadofkeepingitagainstfuturelosses,hadspentitindressorjewelry;andthedesiretoatoneforthisimprudence,combinedwiththeincreasingexhilarationofthegame,drovehertoriskhigherstakesateachfreshventure。Shetriedtoexcuseherselfonthepleathat,intheTrenorset,ifoneplayedatallonemusteitherplayhighorbesetdownaspriggishorstingy;butsheknewthatthegamblingpassionwasuponher,andthatinherpresentsurroundingstherewassmallhopeofresistingit。 Tonighttheluckhadbeenpersistentlybad,andthelittlegoldpursewhichhungamonghertrinketswasalmostemptywhenshereturnedtoherroom。Sheunlockedthewardrobe,andtakingoutherjewel-case,lookedunderthetrayfortherollofbillsfromwhichshehadreplenishedthepursebeforegoingdowntodinner。 Onlytwentydollarswereleft:thediscoverywassostartlingthatforamomentshefanciedshemusthavebeenrobbed。Thenshetookpaperandpencil,andseatingherselfatthewriting-table,triedtoreckonupwhatshehadspentduringtheday。Herheadwasthrobbingwithfatigue,andshehadtogooverthefiguresagainandagain;butatlastitbecamecleartoherthatshehadlostthreehundreddollarsatcards。Shetookouthercheque-booktoseeifherbalancewaslargerthansheremembered,butfoundshehaderredintheotherdirection。Thenshereturnedtohercalculations;butfigureasshewould,shecouldnotconjurebackthevanishedthreehundreddollars。Itwasthesumshehadsetasidetopacifyherdress-maker——unlesssheshoulddecidetouseitasasoptothejeweller。Atanyrate,shehadsomanyusesforitthatitsveryinsufficiencyhadcausedhertoplayhighinthehopeofdoublingit。Butofcourseshehadlost——shewhoneededeverypenny,whileBerthaDorset,whosehusbandshoweredmoneyonher,musthavepocketedatleastfivehundred,andJudyTrenor,whocouldhaveaffordedtoloseathousandanight,hadleftthetableclutchingsuchaheapofbillsthatshehadbeenunabletoshakehandswithherguestswhentheybadehergoodnight。 AworldinwhichsuchthingscouldbeseemedamiserableplacetoLilyBart;butthenshehadneverbeenabletounderstandthelawsofauniversewhichwassoreadytoleaveheroutofitscalculations。 Shebegantoundresswithoutringingforhermaid,whomshehadsenttobed。Shehadbeenlongenoughinbondagetootherpeople’spleasuretobeconsiderateofthosewhodependedonhers,andinherbittermoodsitsometimesstruckherthatsheandhermaidwereinthesameposition,exceptthatthelatterreceivedherwagesmoreregularly。 Asshesatbeforethemirrorbrushingherhair,herfacelookedhollowandpale,andshewasfrightenedbytwolittlelinesnearhermouth,faintflawsinthesmoothcurveofthecheek。 \"Oh,Imuststopworrying!\"sheexclaimed。\"Unlessit’stheelectriclight——\"shereflected,springingupfromherseatandlightingthecandlesonthedressing-table。 Sheturnedoutthewall-lights,andpeeredatherselfbetweenthecandle-flames。Thewhiteovalofherfaceswamoutwaveringlyfromabackgroundofshadows,theuncertainlightblurringitlikeahaze;butthetwolinesaboutthemouthremained。 Lilyroseandundressedinhaste。 \"ItisonlybecauseIamtiredandhavesuchodiousthingstothinkabout,\"shekeptrepeating;anditseemedanaddedinjusticethatpettycaresshouldleaveatraceonthebeautywhichwasheronlydefenceagainstthem。 Buttheodiousthingswerethere,andremainedwithher。ShereturnedwearilytothethoughtofPercyGryce,asawayfarerpicksupaheavyloadandtoilsonafterabriefrest。Shewasalmostsureshehad\"landed\"him:afewdays’workandshewouldwinherreward。Buttherewarditselfseemedupalatablejustthen:shecouldgetnozestfromthethoughtofvictory。Itwouldbearestfromworry,nomore——andhowlittlethatwouldhaveseemedtoherafewyearsearlier!Herambitionshadshrunkgraduallyinthedesiccatingairoffailure。Butwhyhadshefailed?Wasitherownfaultorthatofdestiny? Sherememberedhowhermother,aftertheyhadlosttheirmoney,usedtosaytoherwithakindoffiercevindictiveness:\"Butyou’llgetitallback——you’llgetitallback,withyourface。\"……Theremembrancerousedawholetrainofassociation,andshelayinthedarknessreconstructingthepastoutofwhichherpresenthadgrown。 Ahouseinwhichnooneeverdinedathomeunlesstherewas\"company\";adoor-bellperpetuallyringing;ahall-tableshoweredwithsquareenvelopeswhichwereopenedinhaste,andoblongenvelopeswhichwereallowedtogatherdustinthedepthsofabronzejar;aseriesofFrenchandEnglishmaidsgivingwarningamidachaosofhurriedly-ransackedwardrobesanddress-closets; anequallychangingdynastyofnursesandfootmen;quarrelsinthepantry,thekitchenandthedrawing-room;precipitatetripstoEurope,andreturnswithgorgedtrunksanddaysofinterminableunpacking;semi-annualdiscussionsastowherethesummershouldbespent,greyinterludesofeconomyandbrilliantreactionsofexpense——suchwasthesettingofLilyBart’sfirstmemories。 Rulingtheturbulentelementcalledhomewasthevigorousanddeterminedfigureofamotherstillyoungenoughtodanceherball-dressestorags,whilethehazyoutlineofaneutral-tintedfatherfilledanintermediatespacebetweenthebutlerandthemanwhocametowindtheclocks。Eventotheeyesofinfancy,Mrs。HudsonBarthadappearedyoung;butLilycouldnotrecallthetimewhenherfatherhadnotbeenbaldandslightlystooping,withstreaksofgreyinhishair,andatiredwalk。Itwasashocktohertolearnafterwardthathewasbuttwoyearsolderthanhermother。 Lilyseldomsawherfatherbydaylight。Alldayhewas\"downtown\";andinwinteritwaslongafternightfallwhensheheardhisfaggedsteponthestairsandhishandontheschool-roomdoor。Hewouldkissherinsilence,andaskoneortwoquestionsofthenurseorthegoverness;thenMrs。Bart’smaidwouldcometoremindhimthathewasdiningout,andhewouldhurryawaywithanodtoLily。Insummer,whenhejoinedthemforaSundayatNewportorSouthampton,hewasevenmoreeffacedandsilentthaninwinter。Itseemedtotirehimtorest,andhewouldsitforhoursstaringatthesea-linefromaquietcorneroftheverandah,whiletheclatterofhiswife’sexistencewentonunheededafewfeetoff。Generally,however,Mrs。BartandLilywenttoEuropeforthesummer,andbeforethesteamerwashalfwayoverMr。Barthaddippedbelowthehorizon。SometimeshisdaughterheardhimdenouncedforhavingneglectedtoforwardMrs。Bart’sremittances;butforthemostparthewasnevermentionedorthoughtoftillhispatientstoopingfigurepresenteditselfontheNewYorkdockasabufferbetweenthemagnitudeofhiswife’sluggageandtherestrictionsoftheAmericancustom-house。 InthisdesultoryyetagitatedfashionlifewentonthroughLily’steens:azig-zagbrokencoursedownwhichthefamilycraftglidedonarapidcurrentofamusement,tuggedatbytheunderflowofaperpetualneed——theneedofmoremoney。Lilycouldnotrecallthetimewhentherehadbeenmoneyenough,andinsomevaguewayherfatherseemedalwaystoblameforthedeficiency。