第5章

类别:其他 作者:Zane Grey字数:11180更新时间:18/12/18 14:45:39
Hesawhisownpalefacegoingawayfromthisolder,grimmerman。 \"Son,ifIcouldhavelookedforwardtoanythin’butbloodspillin’ I’dneverhavegivenyousuchanametouphold,\"continuedtherancher。 \"WhatI’mgoin’totellyounowismysecret。Myothersonsan’Annhaveneverheardit。JimBlaisdellsuspectsthere’ssomethin’strange,buthedoesn’tknow。I’llshorenevertellanyoneelsebutyou。 An’youmustpromisetokeepmysecretnowan’afterIamgone。\" \"Ipromise,\"saidJean。 \"Wal,an’nowtogetitout,\"beganhisfather,breathinghard。 Hisfacetwitchedandhishandsclenched。\"ThesheepmanheahI havetoreckonwithisLeeJorth,alifelongenemyofmine。Wewereborninthesametown,playedtogetheraschildren,an’foughtwitheachotherasboys。Wenevergotalongtogether。An’webothfellinlovewiththesamegirl。Itwasnipan’tuckforawhile。 EllenSuttonbelongedtooneoftheoldfamiliesoftheSouth。 Shewasabeauty,an’muchcourted,an’Ireckonitwashardforhertochoose。ButIwonheran’webecameengaged。Thenthewarbrokeout。IenlistedwithmybrotherJean。HeadvisedmetomarryEllenbeforeIleft。ButIwouldnot。Thatwastheblunderofmylife。 Soonafterourpartin’herlettersceasedtocome。ButIdidn’tdistrusther。Thatwasaterribletimean’allwasconfusion。 ThenIgotcrippledan’putinahospital。An’inabootayearIwassentbackhome。\" AtthisjunctureJeanrefrainedfromfurthergazeathisfather’sface。 LeeJorthhadgottenoutofgoin’towar,\"wentontherancher,inlower,thickervoice。\"He’dmarriedmysweetheart,Ellen…… IknewthestorylongbeforeIgotwell。Hehadrunafterherlikeahoundafterahare……An’Ellenmarriedhim。Wal,whenIwasabletogetabootIwenttoseeJorthan’Ellen。Iconfrontedthem。 Ihadtoknowwhyshehadgonebackonme。LeeJorthhadn’tchangedanywithallhisgoodfortune。He’dmadeEllenbelieveinmydishonor。 But,Ireckon,liesornolies,EllenSuttonwasfaithless。Inmyabsencehehadwonherawayfromme。An’Isawthatshelovedhimassheneverhadme。Ireckonthatkilledallmygenerosity。Ifshe’dbeenimposeduponan’weanedawaybyhisliesan’hadregrettedmealittleI’dhaveforgiven,perhaps。Butsheworshipedhim。Shewashisslave。An’I,wal,Ilearnedwhathatewas。 \"ThewarruinedtheSuttons,sameassomanySoutherners。LeeJorthwentinforraisin’cattle。He’dgottentheSuttonrangean’afterafewyearshebegantoaccumulatestock。Inthosedayseverycattlemanwasalittlebitofathief。Everycattlemandroveinan’brandedcalveshecouldn’tswearwashis。Wal,theIsbelswerethestrongestcattleraisersinthatcountry。An’IlaidatrapforLeeJorth,caughthimintheactofbrandin’calvesofmineI’dmarked,an’I provedhimathief。Imadehimarustler。Iruinedhim。Wemetonce。 ButJorthwasoneTexannotstrongonthedraw,atleastagainstanIsbel。Heleftthecountry。Hehadfriendsan’relativesan’theystartedhimatstockraisin’again。Buthebegantogamblean’hegotinwithashadycrowd。Hewentfrombadtoworsean’thenhecamebackhome。WhenIsawthechangeinproud,beautifulEllenSutton,an’howshestillworshipedJorth,itshoredrovemenearmadbetweenpityan’hate……Wal,IreckoninaTexanhateoutlivesanyotherfeelin’。Therecameastrangeturnofthewheelan’myfortuneschanged。 Likemostyoungbloodsoftheday,Idrankan’gambled。An’onenightIrunacrossJorthan’acard—sharpfriend。Hefleecedme。Wequarreled。 Gunswerethrown。Ikilledmyman……AbootthatperiodtheTexasRangershadcomeintoexistence……An’,son,whenIsaidIneverwasrunoutofTexasIwasn’tholdin’tostricttruth。Irodeoutonahoss。 \"IwenttoOregon。ThereImarriedsoon,an’thereBillan’Guywereborn。Theirmotherdidnotlivelong。An’nextImarriedyourmother,Jean。ShehadsomeIndianblood,which,forallIcouldsee,madeheronlythefiner。Shewasawonderfulwomanan’gavemetheonlyhappinessIeverknew。Yourememberher,ofcourse,an’thosehomedaysinOregon。IreckonImadeanothergreatblunderwhenImovedtoArizona。Butthecattlecountryhadalwayscalledme。IhadheardofthiswildTontoBasinan’howTexansweresettlin’there。An’JimBlaisdellsentmewordtocome——thatthisshorewasagardenspotoftheWest。Wal,itis。An’yourmotherwasgone—— \"ThreeyearsagoLeeJorthdriftedintotheTonto。An’,strangetome,alongabootayearorsoafterhiscomin’theHashKnifeGangrodeupfromTexas。Jorthwentinforraisin’sheep。AlongwithsomeothersheepmenhelivesupintheRimcanyons。Somewherebackinthewildbrakesisthehidin’placeoftheHashKnifeGang。Nobodybutme,Ireckon,associatesColonelJorth,ashe’scalled,withDaggsan’ hisgang。MaybeBlaisdellan’afewothershaveahunch。Butthat’snomatter。AsasheepmanJorthhasalegitimategrievancewiththecattlemen。Butwhatcouldbesettledbyasquareconsiderationforthegoodofallan’thefutureJorthwillneversettle。He’llneversettlebecauseheisnownolongeranhonestman。He’sinwithDaggs。 Icain’tprovethis,son,butIknowit。IsawitinJorth’sfacewhenImethimthatdaywithGreaves。Isawmore。Ishoresawwhatheisupto。He’dnevermeetmeatanevenbreak。He’sdeadsetonusin’thissheepan’cattlefeudtoruinmyfamilyan’me,evenasI ruinedhim。Buthemeansmore,Jean。ThiswillbeawarbetweenTexans,an’abloodywar。TherearebadmeninthisTonto——someoftheworstthatdidn’tgetshotinTexas。Jorthwillhavesomeofthesefellows……Now,arewegoin’towaittobesheepedoffourrangean’tobemurderedfromambush?\" \"No,wearenot,\"repliedJean,quietly。 \"Wal,comedowntothehouse,\"saidtherancher,andledthewaywithoutspeakinguntilhehaltedbythedoor。Thereheplacedhisfingeronasmallholeinthewoodatabouttheheightofaman’shead。 Jeansawitwasabulletholeandthatafewgrayhairsstucktoitsedges。Theranchersteppedclosertothedoor—post,sothathisheadwaswithinaninchofthewood。ThenhelookedatJeanwitheyesinwhichthereglinteddancingspecksoffire,likewildsparks。 \"Son,thissneakin’shotatmewasmadethreemawnin’sago。Irecollectmovin’myhaidjustwhenIheardthecrackofarifle。Shorewassurprised。ButIgotinsidequick。\" Jeanscarcelyheardthelatterpartofthisspeech。Heseemeddoubledupinwardly,inhotandcoldconvulsionsofchangingemotion。A terribleholduponhisconsciousnesswasabouttobreakandletgo。 ThefirstshothadbeenfiredandhewasanIsbel。Indeed,hisfatherhadmadehimtentimesanIsbel。Bloodwasthick。Hisfatherdidnotspeaktodullears。Thisstrifeofrisingtumultinhimseemedtheeffectofyearsofcalm,ofpeaceinthewoods,ofdreamywaitingforheknewnotwhat。Itwasthepassionateprimitivelifeinhimthathadawakenedtothecallofbloodties。 \"That’sabootall,son,\"concludedtherancher。\"YouunderstandnowwhyIfeelthey’regoin’tokillme。Ifeelitheah。\"Withsolemngestureheplacedhisbroadhandoverhisheart。\"An’,Jean,strangewhisperscometomeatnight。Itseemslikeyourmotherwascallin’ ortryin’towarnme。Icain’texplainthesequeerwhispers。ButI knowwhatIknow。\" \"Jorthhashisfollowers。Youmusthaveyours,\"repliedJean,tensely。 \"Shore,son,an’Icantakemychoiceofthebestmenheah,\"repliedtherancher,withpride。\"ButI’llnotdothat。I’lllaythedealbeforetheman’letthemchoose。Ireckonit’llnotbealong—windedfight。It’llbeshortanbloody,afterthewayofTexans。I’mlookin’ toyou,Jean,toseethatanIsbelisthelastman!\" \"MyGod——dad!istherenootherway?ThinkofmysisterAnn——ofmybrothers’wives——of——ofotherwomen!Dad,thesedamnedTexasfeudsarecruel,horrible!\"burstoutJean,inpassionateprotest。 \"Jean,woulditbeanyeasierforourwomenifweletthesemenshootusdownincoldblood?\" \"Ohno——no,Isee,there’snohopeof——of……But,dad,Iwasn’tthinkin’aboutmyself。Idon’tcare。OncestartedI’ll——I’llbewhatyoubraggedIwas。Onlyit’ssohardto—togivein。\" Jeanleanedanarmagainstthesideofthecabinand,bowinghisfaceoverit,hesurrenderedtotheirresistiblecontentionwithinhisbreast。Andasifwithawrenchthatstrangeinwardholdbroke。 Heletdown。Hewentback。Somethingthatwasboyishandhopeful——andinitsplaceslowlyrosethedarktideofhisinheritance,thesavageinstinctofself—preservationbequeathedbyhisIndianmother,andthefierce,feudalbloodlustofhisTexanfather。 Thenasheraisedhimself,grippedbyasickeningcoldnessinhisbreast,herememberedEllenJorth’sfaceasshehadgazeddreamilydownofftheRim——sosoft,sodifferent,withtremulouslips,sad,musing,withfar—seeingstareofdarkeyes,peeringintotheunknown,theinstinctoflifestillunlived。WithconfusedvisionandnamelesspainJeanthoughtofher。 \"Dad,it’shardon——the——theyoungfolks,\"hesaid,bitterly。\"Thesinsofthefather,youknow。An’theotherside。HowaboutJorth? Hasheanychildren?\" WhatacuriousgleamofsurpriseandconjectureJeanencounteredinhisfather’sgaze! \"Hehasadaughter。EllenJorth。Namedafterhermother。ThefirsttimeIsawEllenJorthIthoughtshewasaghostofthegirlIhadlovedan’lost。Sightofherwaslikeabladeinmyside。Butthelooksofheran’whatsheis——theydon’tgibe。OldasIam,myheart——Bah!EllenJorthisadamnedhussy!\" JeanIsbelwentoffaloneintothecedars。Surrenderandresignationtohisfather’screedshouldhaveendedhisperplexityandworry。 Hisinstantandburningresolvetobeashisfatherhadrepresentedhimshouldhaveopenedhismindtoslowcunning,tothecraftoftheIndian,tothedevelopmentofhate。Butthereseemedtobeanobstacle。 Acloudinthewayofvision。Afacelimnedonhismemory。 Thosedamningwordsofhisfather’shadbeenashock——howlittleorgreathecouldnottell。WasitonlyadaysincehehadmetEllenJorth?Whathadmadeallthedifference?Suddenlylikeabreaththefragranceofherhaircamebacktohim。Thenthesweetcoolnessofherlips!Jeantrembled。Helookedaroundhimasifhewerepursuedorsurroundedbyeyes,byinstincts,byfears,byincomprehensiblethings。 \"Ahuh!Thatmustbewhatailsme,\"hemuttered。\"Thelookofher——an’ thatkiss——they’vegonehardme。Ishouldneverhavestoppedtotalk。 An’I’mtokillherfatheran’leavehertoGodknowswhat。\" Somethingwaswrongsomewhere。Jeanabsolutelyforgotthatwithinthehourhehadpledgedhismanhood,hislifetoafeudwhichcouldbeblottedoutonlyinblood。Ifhehadunderstoodhimselfhewouldhaverealizedthatthepledgewasnomorethrillingandunintelligibleinitspossibilitiesthanthisinstinctwhichdrewhimirresistibly。 \"EllenJorth!So——mydadcallsheradamnedhussy!So——thatexplainsthe——thewaysheacted——whysheneverhitmewhenIkissedher。An’ herwords,soeasyan’cool—like。Hussy?Thatmeansshe’sbad——bad! Scornfulofme——maybedisappointedbecausemykisswasinnocent! Itwas,Iswear。An’allshesaid:’Oh,I’vebeenkissedbefore。’\" Jeangrewfuriouswithhimselfforthespreadingofanewsensationinhisbreastthatseemednowtoache。Hadhebecomeinfatuated,allinaday,withthisEllenJorth?Washejealousofthemenwhohadtheprivilegeofherkisses?No!Buthisreplywashotwithshame,withuncertainty。Thethingthatseemedwrongwasoutsideofhimself。 Ablunderwasnocrime。Tobeattractedbyaprettygirlinthewoods——toyieldtoanimpulsewasnodisgrace,norwrong。Hehadbeenfoolishoveragirlbefore,thoughnottosucharashextent。EllenJorthhadstuckinhisconsciousness,andwithherasenseofregret。 Thenswiftlyranghisfather’sbitterwords,therevealing:\"Butthelooksofheran’whatsheis——theydon’tgibe!\"Intheimportofthesewordshidthemeaningofthewrongthattroubledhim。 Broodinglyheponderedoverthem。 \"Thelooksofher。Yes,shewaspretty。Butitdidn’tdawnonmeatfirst。I——Iwassortofexcited。Ilikedtolookather,butdidn’tthink。\"Andnowconsciouslyherfacewascalledup,infinitelysweetandmoreimpellingforthedeliberatememory。Flashofbrownskin,smoothandclear;levelgazeofdark,wideeyes,steady,bold,unseeing; redcurvedlips,sadandsweet;herstrong,clean,finefacerosebeforeJean,eagerandwistfulonemoment,softenedbydreamymusingthought,andthenextstormilypassionate,fullofhate,fulloflonging,butthemoremysteriousandbeautiful。 Shelookslikethat,butshe’sbad,\"concludedJean,withbitterfinality。\"ImighthavefalleninlovewithEllenJorthif——ifshe’dbeendifferent。\" ButtheconvictionforceduponJeandidnotdispelthehauntingmemoryofherfacenordiditwhollysilencethedeepandstubbornvoiceofhisconsciousness。Laterthatafternoonhesoughtamomentwithhissister。 \"Ann,didyouevermeetEllenJorth?\"heasked。 \"Yes,butnotlately,\"repliedAnn。 \"Well,ImetherasIwasridin’alongyesterday。Shewasherdin’ sheep,\"wentonJean,rapidly。\"IaskedhertoshowmethewaytotheRim。An’shewalkedwithmeamileorso。Ican’tsaythemeetin’ wasnotinterestin’,atleasttome……Willyoutellmewhatyouknowabouther?\" \"Sure,Jean,\"repliedhissister,withherdarkeyesfixedwonderinglyandkindlyonhistroubledface。\"I’veheardagreatdeal,butinthisTontoBasinIdon’tbelieveallIhear。WhatIknowI’lltellyou。 IfirstmetEllenJorthtwoyearsago。Wedidn’tknoweachother’snamesthen。ShewastheprettiestgirlIeversaw。Ilikedher。 Shelikedme。Sheseemedunhappy。Thenexttimewemetwasataround—up。Therewereothergirlswithmeandtheysnubbedher。 ButIleftthemandwentaroundwithher。Thatsnubcuthertotheheart。Shewaslonely。Shehadnofriends。Shetalkedaboutherself——howshehatedthepeople,butlovedArizona。Shehadnothin’ fittowear。Ididn’tneedtobetoldthatshe’dbeenusedtobetterthings。Justwhenitlookedasifweweregoin’tobefriendsshetoldmewhoshewasandaskedmemyname。Itoldher。Jean,I couldn’thavehurthermoreifI’dslappedherface。Sheturnedwhite。Shegasped。Andthensheranoff。ThelasttimeIsawherwasaboutayearago。Iwasridin’ashort—cuttrailtotheranchwhereafriendlived。AndImetEllenJorthridin’withamanI’dneverseen。Thetrailwasovergrownandshady。Theywereridin’ closeanddidn’tseemerightoff。Themanhadhisarmroundher。 Shepushedhimaway。Isawherlaugh。Thenhegotholdofheragainandwaskissin’herwhenhishorseshiedatsightofmine。Theyrodebymethen。EllenJorthheldherheadhighandneverlookedatme。\" \"Ann,doyouthinkshe’sabadgirl?\"demandedJean,bluntly。 \"Bad?Oh,Jean!\"exclaimedAnn,insurpriseandembarrassment。 \"Dadsaidshewasadamnedhussy。\" \"Jean,dadhatestheJorths。\" \"Sister,I’maskin’youwhatyouthinkofEllenJorth。Wouldyoubefriendswithherifyoucould?\" \"Yes。\" \"Thenyoudon’tbelieveshe’sbad。\" \"No。EllenJorthislonely,unhappy。Shehasnomother。Shelivesaloneamongroughmen。Suchagirlcan’tkeepmenfromhandlin’herandkissin’her。Maybeshe’stoofree。Maybeshe’swild。Butshe’shonest,Jean。Youcantrustawomantotell。Whensherodepastmethatdayherfacewaswhiteandproud。ShewasaJorthandIwasanIsbel。Shehatedherself——shehatedme。Butnobadgirlcouldlooklikethat。Sheknowswhat’ssaidofherallaroundthevalley。 Butshedoesn’tcare。She’dencouragegossip。\" \"Thankyou,Ann,\"repliedJean,huskily。\"Pleasekeepthis——thismeetin’ofminewithheralltoyourself,won’tyou?\" \"Why,Jean,ofcourseIwill。\" Jeanwanderedawayagain,peculiarlygratefultoAnnforrevivingandupholdingsomethinginhimthatseemedawaveringpartofthebestofhim——achivalrythathaddemandedtobekilledbyjudgmentofarighteouswoman。Hewasconsciousofanuplift,agladdeningofhisspirit。Yettheacheremained。Morethanthat,hefoundhimselfplungeddeeperintoconjecture,doubt。HadnottheEllenJorthincidentended?Hedeniedhisfather’sindictmentofherandacceptedthefaithofhissister。\"Reckonthat’sabootall,asdadsays,\"hesoliloquized。Yetwasthatall?Hepacedunderthecedars。 Hewatchedthesunset。Helistenedtothecoyotes。Helingeredthereafterthecallforsupper;untiloutofthetumultofhisconflictingemotionsandponderingsthereevolvedthestaggeringconsciousnessthathemustseeEllenJorthagain。 CHAPTERIV EllenJorthhurriedbackintotheforest,hotlyresentfuloftheaccidentthathadthrownherincontactwithanIsbel。 Disgustfilledher——disgustthatshehadbeenamiabletoamemberofthehatedfamilythathadruinedherfather。Thesurpriseofthismeetingdidnotcometoherwhileshewasunderthespellofstrongerfeeling。Shewalkedunderthetrees,swiftly,withheaderect,lookingstraightbeforeher,andeverystepseemedarelief。 Uponreachingcamp,herattentionwasdistractedfromherself。Pepe,theMexicanboy,withthetwoshepherddogs,wastryingtodrivesheepintoacloserbunchtosavethelambsfromcoyotes。Ellenlovedthefleecy,totteringlittlelambs,andatthisseasonshehatedalltheprowlingbeastoftheforest。Fromthistimeonforweekstheflockwouldbebesiegedbywolves,lions,bears,thelastofwhichwereoftenboldanddangerous。Theoldgrizzliesthatkilledtheewestoeatonlythemilk—bagswereparticularlydreadedbyEllen。Shewasagoodshotwitharifle,buthadordersfromherfathertoletthebearsalone。Fortunately,suchsheep—killingbearswerebutfew,andwerelefttobehuntedbymenfromtheranch。Mexicansheepherderscouldnotbedependedupontoprotecttheirflocksfrombears。 EllenhelpedPepedriveinthestragglers,andshetookseveralshotsatcoyotesskulkingalongtheedgeofthebrush。Theopengladeintheforestwasfavorableforherdingthesheepatnight,andthedogscouldbedependedupontoguardtheflock,andinmostcasestodrivepredatorybeastsaway。 Afterthistask,whichbroughtthetimetosunset,Ellenhadsuppertocookandeat。Darknesscame,andacoolnightwindsetin。 Hereandtherealambbleatedplaintively。Withherworkdonefortheday,Ellensatbeforearuddycampfire,andfoundherthoughtsagaincenteringaroundthesingularadventurethathadbefallenher。 Disdainfullyshestrovetothinkofsomethingelse。ButtherewasnothingthatcoulddispeltheinterestofhermeetingwithJeanIsbel。 Thereuponsheimpatientlysurrenderedtoit,andrecalledeverywordandactionwhichshecouldremember。Andintheprocessofthismeditationshecametoanactionofhers,recollectionofwhichbroughtthebloodtinglingtoherneckandcheeks,sounusuallyandburninglythatshecoveredthemwithherhands。\"Whatdidhethinkofme?\"shemused,doubtfully。Itdidnotmatterwhathethought,butshecouldnothelpwondering。Andwhenshecametothememoryofhiskissshesufferedmorethanthesensationofthrobbingscarletcheeks。Scornfullyandbitterlysheburstout,\"Shorehecouldn’thavethoughtmuchgoodofme。\" Thehalfhourfollowingthisreminiscencewasfarfrombeingpleasant。 Proud,passionate,strong—willedEllenJorthfoundherselfavictimofconflictingemotions。Theeventofthedaywastooclose。Shecouldnotunderstandit。DisgustanddisdainandscorncouldnotmakethismeetingwithJeanIsbelasifithadneverbeen。Pridecouldnoteffaceitfromhermind。Themoreshereflected,thehardershetriedtoforget,thestrongergrewasignificanceofinterest。Andwhenahintofthisdawneduponherconsciousnesssheresenteditsoforciblythatshelosthertemper,scatteredthecampfire,andwentintothelittleteepeetenttorollinherblankets。 Thussettledsnugandwarmforthenight,withashepherddogcurledattheopeningofhertent,sheshuthereyesandconfidentlybadesleependherperplexities。Butsleepdidnotcomeatherinvitation。 Shefoundherselfwideawake,keenlysensitivetothesputteringofthecampfire,thetinklingofbellsontherams,thebleatingoflambs,thesoughofwindinthepines,andthehungrysharpbarkofcoyotesoffinthedistance。Darknesswasnorespecterofherpride。Thelonesomenightwithitsemphasisofsolitudeseemedtoinduceclamoringandstrangethoughts,aconfusingensembleofallthosethathadannoyedherduringthedaytime。Notforlonghoursdidsheerwearinessbringhertoslumber。 Ellenawakenedlateandfailedofherusualalacrity。BothPepeandtheshepherddogappearedtoregardherwithsurpriseandsolicitude。 Ellen’sspiritwaslowthismorning;herbloodransluggishly;shehadtofightamournfultendencytofeelsorryforherself。Andatfirstshewasnotverysuccessful。Thereseemedtobesomekindofpleasureinrevelinginmelancholywhichhercommonsensetoldherhadnoreasonforexistence。Butstatesofmindpersistedinspiteofcommonsense。 \"Pepe,whenisAntoniocomin’back?\"sheasked。 Theboycouldnotgiveherasatisfactoryanswer。Ellenhadwillinglytakenthesheepherder’splaceforafewdays,butnowshewasimpatienttogohome。Shelookeddownthegreen—and—brownaislesoftheforestuntilshewastired。Antoniodidnotreturn。Ellenspentthedaywiththesheep;andinthemanifoldtaskofcaringforathousandnew—bornlambssheforgotherself。Thisdaysawtheendoflambing—timeforthatseason。Theforestresoundedtoababelofbaasandbleats。Whennightcameshewasgladtogotobed,forwhatwithlossofsleep,andwearinessshecouldscarcelykeephereyesopen。 Thefollowingmorningsheawakenedearly,bright,eager,expectant,fullofboundinglife,strangelyawareofthebeautyandsweetnessofthescentedforest,strangelyconsciousofsomenamelessstimulustoherfeelings。 NotlongwasElleninassociatingthisnewanddelightfulvarietyofsensationswiththefactthatJeanIsbelhadsetto—dayforhisrideuptotheRimtoseeher。Ellen’sjoyousnessfled;hersmilesfaded。 Thespringmorninglostitsmagicradiance。 \"Shorethere’snosenseinmylyin’tomyself,\"shesoliloquized,thoughtfully。\"It’squeerofme——feelin’gladaboothim——withoutknowin’。Lord!Imustbelonesome!Tobegladofseein’anIsbel,evenifheisdifferent!\" Soberlysheacceptedtheastoundingreality。Herconfidencediedwithhergayety;hervanitybegantosuffer。AndshecaughtatheradmissionthatJeanIsbelwasdifferent;sheresenteditinamaze; sheridiculedit;shelaughedathernaiveconfession。Shecouldarriveatnoconclusionotherthanthatshewasaweak—minded,fluctuating,inexplicablelittlefool。 Butforallthatshefoundhermindhadbeenmadeupforher,withoutconsentordesire,beforeherwillhadbeenconsulted;andthatinevitablyandunalterablyshemeanttoseeJeanIsbelagain。 Longshebattledwiththisstrangedecree。Onemomentshewonavictoryover,thisnewcuriousself,onlytoloseitthenext。 Andatlastoutofherconflictthereemergedafewconvictionsthatleftherwithsomeshredsofpride。ShehatedallIsbels,shehatedanyIsbel,andparticularlyshehatedJeanIsbel。Shewasonlycurious——intenselycurioustoseeifhewouldcomeback,andifhedidcomewhathewoulddo。Shewantedonlytowatchhimfromsomecovert。Shewouldnotgonearhim,notlethimseeherorguessofherpresence。 Thussheassuagedherhurtvanity——thusshestifledhermiserabledoubts。 Longbeforethesunhadbeguntoslantwestwardtowardthemid—afternoonJeanIsbelhadsetasameetingtimeEllendirectedherstepsthroughtheforesttotheRim。Shefeltashamedofhereagerness。Shehadaguiltyconsciencethatnostrangethrillscouldsilence。Itwouldbefuntoseehim,towatchhim,tolethimwaitforher,tofoolhim。 LikeanIndian,shechosethesoftpine—needlematstotreadupon,andherlight—moccasinedfeetleftnotrace。LikeanIndianalsoshemadeawidedetour,andreachedtheRimaquarterofamilewestofthespotwhereshehadtalkedwithJeanIsbel;andhere,turningeast,shetookcaretosteponthebarestones。Thiswasanadventure,seeminglythefirstshehadeverhadinherlife。AssuredlyshehadneverbeforecomedirectlytotheRimwithouthaltingtolook,towonder,toworship。 Thistimeshescarcelyglancedintotheblueabyss。Allabsorbedwassheinhidinghertracks。Notonechanceinathousandwouldsherisk。 TheJorthprideburnedevenwhilethefemininesideofherdominatedheractions。Shehadsomedifficultrockypointstocross,thenwindfallstoround,andatlengthreachedthecovertshedesired。 AruggedyellowpointoftheRimstoodsomewhathigherthanthespotEllenwantedtowatch。Adensethicketofjackpinesgrewtotheveryedge。ItaffordedanambushthateventheIndianeyesJeanIsbelwascreditedwithcouldneverpenetrate。Moreover,ifbyaccidentshemadeanoiseandexcitedsuspicion,shecouldretreatunobservedandhideinthehugerocksbelowtheRim,whereaferretcouldnotlocateher。 Withherplandecidedupon,Ellenhadnothingtodobutwait,sosherepairedtotheothersideofthepinethicketandtotheedgeoftheRimwhereshecouldwatchandlisten。SheknewthatlongbeforeshesawIsbelshewouldhearhishorse。Itwasaltogetherunlikelythathewouldcomeonfoot。 \"Shore,EllenJorth,y’u’reaqueergirl,\"shemused。\"IreckonI wasn’twellacquaintedwithy’u。\" Beneathheryawnedawonderfuldeepcanyon,ruggedandrockywithbutfewpinesonthenorthslope,thickwithdarkgreentimberonthesouthslope。Yellowandgraycrags,liketurretedcastles,stoodupoutoftheslopingforestonthesideoppositeher。Thetreeswereallsharp,spearpointed。Patchesoflightgreenaspensshowedstrikinglyagainstthedenseblack。ThegreatslopebeneathEllenwasserratedwithnarrow,deepgorges,almostcanyonsinthemselves。 Shadowsalternatedwithclearbrightspaces。Themile—widemouthofthecanyonopenedupontheBasin,downintoaworldofwildtimberedrangesandravines,valleysandhills,thatrolledandtumbledindark—greenwavestotheSierraAnchas。