第2章

类别:其他 作者:JEROME K JEROME字数:6584更新时间:18/12/18 13:24:13
Involuntarilyhestretchedhishandstowardsit,feltapangofgriefwhenitvanished,leavingonlythegreylight。Hedrewtherustybolts,flungopenthegreatdoor。Astrangeworldlaybeforehim,anewworldoflightsandshadows,thatwooedhimwiththeirbeauty——aworldoflow,softvoicesthatcalledtohim。Therecametohimagainthatbittersenseofhavingbeenrobbed。 \"Icouldhavebeensohappyalltheseyears,\"murmuredoldNicholastohimself。\"ItisjustthelittletownIcouldhaveloved——soquaint,soquiet,sohomelike。Imighthavehadfriends,oldcronies,childrenofmyownmaybe——\" AvisionofthesleepingChristinaflashedbeforehiseyes。Shehadcometohimachild,feelingonlygratitudetowardshim。Hadhehadeyeswithwhichtoseeher,allthingsmighthavebeendifferent。 Wasittoolate?Heisnotsoold——notsoveryold。Newlifeisinhisveins。ShestilllovesJan,butthatwastheJanofyesterday。 Inthefuture,Jan’severywordanddeedwillbepromptedbytheevilsoulthatwasoncethesoulofNicholasSnyders——thatNicholasSnydersrememberswell。Cananywomanlovethat,letthecasebeashandsomeasyouwill? Oughthe,asanhonestman,tokeepthesoulhehadwonfromJanbywhatmightbecalledatrick?Yes,ithadbeenafairbargain,andJanhadtakenhisprice。Besides,itwasnotasifJanhadfashionedhisownsoul;thesethingsarechance。Whyshouldonemanbegivengold,andanotherbegivenparchedpeas?HehasasmuchrighttoJan’ssoulasJaneverhad。Heiswiser,hecandomoregoodwithit。 ItwasJan’ssoulthatlovedChristina;letJan’ssoulwinherifitcan。AndJan’ssoul,listeningtotheargument,couldnotthinkofawordtoofferinopposition。 ChristinawasstillasleepwhenNicholasre—enteredthekitchen。Helightedthefireandcookedthebreakfastandthenarousedhergently。 TherewasnodoubtitwasChristina。ThemomenthereyesrestedonoldNicholas,therecamebacktoherthefrightenedrabbitlookthathadalwaysirritatedhim。Itirritatedhimnow,buttheirritationwasagainsthimself。 \"YouweresleepingsosoundlywhenIcameinlastnight——\"Christinacommenced。 \"Andyouwereafraidtowakeme,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。\"Youthoughttheoldcurmudgeonwouldbecross。Listen,Christina。Youpaidoffyesterdaythelastdebtyourfatherowed。Itwastoanoldsailor——Ihadnotbeenabletofindhimbefore。Notacentmoredoyouowe,andthereremainstoyou,outofyourwages,ahundredflorins。Itisyourswheneveryouliketoaskmeforit。\" Christinacouldnotunderstand,neitherthennorduringthedaysthatfollowed;nordidNicholasenlightenher。ForthesoulofJanhadenteredintoaverywiseoldman,whoknewthatthebestwaytolivedownthepastistoliveboldlythepresent。AllthatChristinacouldbesureofwasthattheoldNicholasSnydershadmysteriouslyvanished,thatinhisplaceremainedanewNicholas,wholookedatherwithkindlyeyes——frankandhonest,compellingconfidence。ThoughNicholasneversaidso,itcametoChristinathatsheherself,hersweetexample,herennoblinginfluenceitwasthathadwroughtthiswondrouschange。AndtoChristinatheexplanationseemednotimpossible——seemedevenpleasing。 Thesightofhislittereddeskwashatefultohim。Startingearlyinthemorning,Nicholaswoulddisappearfortheentireday,returningintheeveningtiredbutcheerful,bringingwithhimflowersthatChristinalaughedat,tellinghimtheywereweeds。Butwhatmatterednames?ToNicholastheywerebeautiful。InZandamthechildrenranfromhim,thedogsbarkedafterhim。SoNicholas,escapingthroughbyways,wouldwanderfarintothecountry。Childreninthevillagesaroundcametoknowakindoldfellowwholovedtolinger,hishandsrestingonhisstaff,watchingtheirplay,listeningtotheirlaughter;whoseamplepocketswerestorehousesofgoodthings。Theirelders,passingby,wouldwhispertooneanotherhowlikehewasinfeaturestowickedoldNick,themiserofZandam,andwouldwonderwherehecamefrom。Norwasitonlythefacesofthechildrenthattaughthislipstosmile。Ittroubledhimatfirsttofindtheworldsofullofmarvellouslyprettygirls——ofprettywomenalso,allmoreorlesslovable。Itbewilderedhim。Untilhefoundthat,notwithstanding,Christinaremainedalwaysinhisthoughtstheprettiest,themostlovableofthemall。Theneveryprettyfacerejoicedhim:itremindedhimofChristina。 Onhisreturnthesecondday,Christinahadmethimwithsadnessinhereyes。FarmerBeerstraater,anoldfriendofherfather’s,hadcalledtoseeNicholas;notfindingNicholas,hadtalkedalittlewithChristina。Ahardheartedcreditorwasturninghimoutofhisfarm。 ChristinapretendednottoknowthatthecreditorwasNicholashimself,butmarvelledthatsuchwickedmencouldbe。Nicholassaidnothing,butthenextdayFarmerBeerstraaterhadcalledagain,allsmiles,blessings,andgreatwonder。 \"Butwhatcanhavecometohim?\"repeatedFarmerBeerstraateroverandover。 ChristinahadsmiledandansweredthatperhapsthegoodGodhadtouchedhisheart;butthoughttoherselfthatperhapsithadbeenthegoodinfluenceofanother。Thetaleflew。Christinafoundherselfbesiegedoneveryhand,and,findingherintercessionsinvariablysuccessful,grewdaybydaymorepleasedwithherself,andbyconsequencemorepleasedwithNicholasSnyders。ForNicholaswasacunningoldgentleman。Jan’ssoulinhimtookdelightinundoingtheevilthesoulofNicholashadwrought。ButthebrainofNicholasSnydersthatremainedtohimwhispered:\"Letthelittlemaidthinkitisallherdoing。\" ThenewsreachedtheearsofDameToelast。ThesameeveningsawherseatedintheinglenookoppositeNicholasSnyders,whosmokedandseemedbored。 \"Youaremakingafoolofyourself,NicholasSnyders,\"theDametoldhim。\"Everybodyislaughingatyou。\" \"Ihadrathertheylaughedthancursedme,\"growledNicholas。 \"Haveyouforgottenallthathaspassedbetweenus?\"demandedtheDame。 \"WishIcould,\"sighedNicholas。 \"Atyourage——\"commencedtheDame。 \"IamfeelingyoungerthanIeverfeltinallmylife,\"Nicholasinterruptedher。 \"Youdon’tlookit,\"commentedtheDame。 \"Whatdolooksmatter?\"snappedNicholas。\"Itisthesoulofamanthatistherealman。\" \"Theycountforsomething,astheworldgoes,\"explainedtheDame。 \"Why,ifIlikedtofollowyourexampleandmakeafoolofmyself,thereareyoungmen,fineyoungmen,handsomeyoungmen——\" \"Don’tletmestandinyourway,\"interposedNicholasquickly。\"Asyousay,IamoldandIhaveadevilofatemper。TheremustbemanybettermenthanIam,menmoreworthyofyou。\" \"Idon’tsaytherearenot,\"returnedtheDame:\"butnobodymoresuitable。Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Ihaven’tlostmywits,NicholasSnyders,ifyouhave。Whenyouareyourselfagain——\" NicholasSnyderssprangtohisfeet。\"Iammyself,\"hecried,\"andintendtoremainmyself!WhodaressayIamnotmyself?\" \"Ido,\"retortedtheDamewithexasperatingcoolness。\"NicholasSnydersisnothimselfwhenatthebiddingofapretty—faceddollheflingshismoneyoutofthewindowwithbothhands。Heisacreaturebewitched,andIamsorryforhim。She’llfoolyouforthesakeofherfriendstillyouhaven’tacentleft,andthenshe’lllaughatyou。Whenyouareyourself,NicholasSnyders,youwillbecrazywithyourself——rememberthat。\"AndDameToelastmarchedoutandslammedthedoorbehindher。 \"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。\"Thephrasekeptringinginhisears。Hithertohisnew—foundhappinesshadfilledhislife,leavingnoroomforthought。ButtheoldDame’swordshadsowntheseedofreflection。 WasChristinafoolinghim?Thethoughtwasimpossible。Neveroncehadshepleadedforherself,neveronceforJan。TheevilthoughtwasthecreatureofDameToelast’sevilmind。Christinalovedhim。Herfacebrightenedathiscoming。Thefearofhimhadgoneoutofher;aprettytyrannyhadreplacedit。Butwasitthelovethathesought? Jan’ssoulinoldNick’sbodywasyoungandardent。ItdesiredChristinanotasadaughter,butasawife。CoulditwinherinspiteofoldNick’sbody?ThesoulofJanwasanimpatientsoul。Bettertoknowthantodoubt。 \"Donotlightthecandles;letustalkalittlebythelightofthefireonly,\"saidNicholas。AndChristina,smiling,drewherchairtowardstheblaze。ButNicholassatintheshadow。 \"Yougrowmorebeautifuleveryday,Christina,\"saidNicholas—— \"sweeterandmorewomanly。Hewillbeahappymanwhocallsyouwife。\" ThesmilepassedfromChristina’sface。\"Ishallnevermarry,\"sheanswered。\"Neverisalongword,littleone。\" \"Atruewomandoesnotmarrythemanshedoesnotlove。\" \"Butmayshenotmarrythemanshedoes?\"smiledNicholas。 \"Sometimesshemaynot,\"Christinaexplained。 \"Andwhenisthat?\" Christina’sfacewasturnedaway。\"Whenhehasceasedtoloveher。\" ThesoulinoldNick’sbodyleaptwithjoy。\"Heisnotworthyofyou,Christina。Hisnewfortunehaschangedhim。Isitnotso?Hethinksonlyofmoney。Itisasthoughthesoulofamiserhadenteredintohim。HewouldmarryevenDameToelastforthesakeofhergold—bagsandherbroadlandsandhermanymills,ifonlyshewouldhavehim。 Cannotyouforgethim?\" \"Ishallneverforgethim。Ishallneverloveanotherman。Itrytohideit;andoftenIamcontenttofindthereissomuchintheworldthatIcando。Butmyheartisbreaking。\"Sheroseand,kneelingbesidehim,claspedherhandsaroundhim。\"Iamgladyouhaveletmetellyou,\"shesaid。\"ButforyouIcouldnothaveborneit。Youaresogoodtome。\" Foranswerhestrokedwithhiswitheredhandthegoldenhairthatfelldisorderedabouthiswitheredknees。Sheraisedhereyestohim;theywerefilledwithtears,butsmiling。 \"Icannotunderstand,\"shesaid。\"Ithinksometimesthatyouandhemusthavechangedsouls。Heishardandmeanandcruel,asyouusedtobe。\"Shelaughed,andthearmsaroundhimtightenedforamoment。 \"Andnowyouarekindandtenderandgreat,asoncehewas。ItisasifthegoodGodhadtakenawaymyloverfrommetogivetomeafather。\" \"Listentome,Christina,\"hesaid。\"Itisthesoulthatistheman,notthebody。Couldyounotlovemeformynewsoul?\" \"ButIdoloveyou,\"answeredChristina,smilingthroughhertears。 \"Couldyouasahusband?\"Thefirelightfelluponherface。 Nicholas,holdingitbetweenhiswitheredhands,lookedintoitlongandhard;andreadingwhathereadthere,laiditbackagainsthisbreastandsootheditwithhiswitheredhand。 \"Iwasjesting,littleone,\"hesaid。\"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Andso,inspiteofall,youstillloveJan?\" \"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\" \"Andifhewould,youwouldmarryhim,lethissoulbewhatitmay?\" \"Ilovehim,\"answeredChristina。\"Icannothelpit。\" OldNicholassatalonebeforethedyingfire。Isitthesoulorthebodythatistherealman?Theanswerwasnotsosimpleashehadthoughtit。 \"ChristinalovedJan\"——soNicholasmumbledtothedyingfire——\"whenhehadthesoulofJan。Sheloveshimstill,thoughhehasthesoulofNicholasSnyders。WhenIaskedherifshecouldloveme,itwasterrorIreadinhereyes,thoughJan’ssoulisnowinme;shedivinedit。ItmustbethebodythatistherealJan,therealNicholas。IfthesoulofChristinaenteredintothebodyofDameToelast,shouldI turnfromChristina,fromhergoldenhair,herfathomlesseyes,heraskinglips,todesiretheshrivelledcarcassofDameToelast?No;I shouldstillshudderatthethoughtofher。YetwhenIhadthesoulofNicholasSnyders,Ididnotloatheher,whileChristinawasnaughttome。Itmustbewiththesoulthatwelove,elseJanwouldstillloveChristinaandIshouldbeMiserNick。YethereamIlovingChristina,usingNicholasSnyders’brainandgoldtothwartNicholasSnyders’everyscheme,doingeverythingthatIknowwillmakehimmadwhenhecomesbackintohisownbody;whileJancaresnolongerforChristina,wouldmarryDameToelastforherbroadlands,hermanymills。Clearlyitisthesoulthatistherealman。ThenoughtInottobeglad,thinkingIamgoingbackintomyownbody,knowingthatI shallwedChristina?ButIamnotglad;Iamverymiserable。IshallnotgowithJan’ssoul,Ifeelit;myownsoulwillcomebacktome。 Ishallbeagainthehard,cruel,meanoldmanIwasbefore,onlynowIshallbepoorandhelpless。Thefolkswilllaughatme,andIshallcursethem,powerlesstodothemevil。EvenDameToelastwillnotwantmewhenshelearnsall。AndyetImustdothisthing。SolongasJan’ssoulisinme,IloveChristinabetterthanmyself。Imustdothisforhersake。Iloveher——Icannothelpit。\" OldNicholasrose,tookfromtheplace,whereamonthbeforehehadhiddenit,thesilverflaskofcunningworkmanship。 \"Justtwomoreglassfulsleft,\"musedNicholas,ashegentlyshooktheflaskagainsthisear。Helaiditonthedeskbeforehim,thenopenedonceagaintheoldgreenledger,fortherestillremainedworktobedone。 HewokeChristinaearly。\"Taketheseletters,Christina,\"hecommanded。\"Whenyouhavedeliveredthemall,butnotbefore,gotoJan;tellhimIamwaitingheretoseehimonamatterofbusiness。\" Hekissedherandseemedlothtolethergo。 \"Ishallonlybealittlewhile,\"smiledChristina。 \"Allpartingstakebutalittlewhile,\"heanswered。 OldNicholashadforeseenthetroublehewouldhave。Janwascontent,hadnodesiretobeagainasentimentalyoungfool,eagertosaddlehimselfwithapennilesswife。Janhadotherdreams。 \"Drink,man,drink!\"criedNicholasimpatiently,\"beforeIamtemptedtochangemymind。Christina,providedyoumarryher,istherichestbrideinZandam。Thereisthedeed;readit;andreadquickly。\" ThenJanconsented,andthetwomendrank。Andtherepassedabreathbetweenthemasbefore;andJanwithhishandscoveredhiseyesamoment。 Itwasapity,perhaps,thathedidso,forinthatmomentNicholassnatchedatthedeedthatlaybesideJanonthedesk。Thenextinstantitwasblazinginthefire。 \"Notsopoorasyouthought!\"camethecroakingvoiceofNicholas。 \"Notsopoorasyouthought!Icanbuildagain,Icanbuildagain!\" Andthecreature,laughinghideously,dancedwithitswitheredarmsspreadoutbeforetheblaze,lestJanshouldseektorescueChristina’sburningdowrybeforeitwasdestroyed。 JandidnottellChristina。InspiteofallJancouldsay,shewouldgoback。NicholasSnydersdroveherfromthedoorwithcurses。Shecouldnotunderstand。TheonlythingclearwasthatJanhadcomebacktoher。 \"’Twasastrangemadnessthatseizeduponme,\"Janexplained。\"Letthegoodseabreezesbringushealth。\" SofromthedeckofJan’sshiptheywatchedoldZandamtillitvanishedintoair。 Christinacriedalittleatthethoughtofneverseeingitagain;butJancomfortedherandlaternewfaceshidtheold。 AndoldNicholasmarriedDameToelast,but,happily,livedtodoevilonlyforafewyearslonger。 Longafter,JantoldChristinathewholestory,butitsoundedveryimprobable,andChristina——though,ofcourse,shedidnotsayso——didnotquitebelieveit,butthoughtJanwastryingtoexplainawaythatstrangemonthofhislifeduringwhichhehadwooedDameToelast。YetitcertainlywasstrangethatNicholas,forthesameshortmonth,hadbeensodifferentfromhisusualself。 \"Perhaps,\"thoughtChristina,\"ifIhadnottoldhimIlovedJan,hewouldnothavegonebacktohisoldways。Pooroldgentleman!Nodoubtitwasdespair。\"