第6章

类别:其他 作者:Anton Checkov字数:6025更新时间:18/12/18 13:21:33
DORN。Right。 MASHA。Haveyouputdownthree?Eight。Eighty—one。Ten。 SHAMRAEFF。Don’tgosofast。 ARKADINA。Couldyoubelieveit?IamstilldazedbythereceptiontheygavemeinKharkoff。 MASHA。Thirty—four。[Thenotesofamelancholywaltzareheard。] ARKADINA。Thestudentsgavemeanovation;theysentmethreebasketsofflowers,awreath,andthisthinghere。 Sheunclaspsabroochfromherbreastandlaysitonthetable。 SHAMRAEFF。Thereissomethingworthwhile! MASHA。Fifty。 DORN。Fifty,didyousay? ARKADINA。Iworeaperfectlymagnificentdress;Iamnofoolwhenitcomestoclothes。 PAULINA。Constantineisplayingagain;thepoorboyissad。 SHAMRAEFF。Hehasbeenseverelycriticisedinthepapers。 MASHA。Seventy—seven。 ARKADINA。Theywanttoattractattentiontohim。 TRIGORIN。Hedoesn’tseemabletomakeasuccess,hecan’tsomehowstriketherightnote。Thereisanoddvaguenessabouthiswritingsthatsometimesvergesondelirium。Hehasnevercreatedasinglelivingcharacter。 MASHA。Eleven。 ARKADINA。Areyoubored,Peter?[Apause]Heisasleep。 DORN。TheCouncilloristakinganap。 MASHA。Seven。Ninety。 TRIGORIN。DoyouthinkIshouldwriteifIlivedinsuchaplaceasthis,ontheshoreofthislake?Never!Ishouldovercomemypassion,andgivemylifeuptothecatchingoffish。 MASHA。Twenty—eight。 TRIGORIN。AndifIcaughtaperchorabass,whatblissitwouldbe! DORN。IhavegreatfaithinConstantine。Iknowthereissomethinginhim。Hethinksinimages;hisstoriesarevividandfullofcolour,andalwaysaffectmedeeply。Itisonlyapitythathehasnodefiniteobjectinview。Hecreatesimpressions,andnothingmore,andonecannotgofaronimpressionsalone。Areyouglad,madam,thatyouhaveanauthorforason? ARKADINA。Justthink,Ihaveneverreadanythingofhis;Ineverhavetime。 MASHA。Twenty—six。 TREPLIEFFcomesinquietlyandsitsdownathistable。 SHAMRAEFF。[ToTRIGORIN]Wehavesomethingherethatbelongstoyou,sir。 TRIGORIN。Whatisit? SHAMRAEFF。Youtoldmetohavethesea—gullstuffedthatMr。 Constantinekilledsometimeago。 TRIGORIN。DidI?[Thoughtfully]Idon’tremember。 MASHA。Sixty—one。One。 TREPLIEFFthrowsopenthewindowandstandslistening。 TREPLIEFF。Howdarkthenightis!Iwonderwhatmakesmesorestless。 ARKADINA。Shutthewindow,Constantine,thereisadraughthere。 TREPLIEFFshutsthewindow。 MASHA。Ninety—eight。 TRIGORIN。See,mycardisfull。 ARKADINA。[Gaily]Bravo!Bravo! SHAMRAEFF。Bravo! ARKADINA。Whereverhegoesandwhateverhedoes,thatmanalwayshasgoodluck。[Shegetsup]Andnow,cometosupper。Ourrenownedguestdidnothaveanydinnerto—day。Wecancontinueourgamelater。[Toherson]Come,Constantine,leaveyourwritingandcometosupper。 TREPLIEFF。Idon’twantanythingtoeat,mother;Iamnothungry。 ARKADINA。Asyouplease。[ShewakesSORIN]Cometosupper,Peter。 [ShetakesSHAMRAEFF’Sarm]LetmetellyouaboutmyreceptioninKharkoff。 PAULINAblowsoutthecandlesonthetable,thensheandDORN rollSORIN’Schairoutoftheroom,andallgooutthroughthedoorontheleft,exceptTREPLIEFF,whoisleftalone。TREPLIEFF preparestowrite。Herunshiseyeoverwhathehasalreadywritten。 TREPLIEFF。Ihavetalkedagreatdealaboutnewformsofart,butIfeelmyselfgraduallyslippingintothebeatentrack。[Hereads]\"Theplacardcrieditfromthewall——apalefaceinaframeofduskyhair\"——cried——frame——thatisstupid。[Hescratchesoutwhathehaswritten]Ishallbeginagainfromtheplacewheremyheroiswakenedbythenoiseoftherain,butwhatfollowsmustgo。Thisdescriptionofamoonlightnightislongandstilted。Trigorinhasworkedoutaprocessofhisown,anddescriptionsareeasyforhim。Hewritesthattheneckofabrokenbottlelyingonthebankglitteredinthemoonlight,andthattheshadowslayblackunderthemill—wheel。Thereyouhaveamoonlightnightbeforeyoureyes,butIspeakoftheshimmeringlight,thetwinklingstars,thedistantsoundsofapianomeltingintothestillandscentedair,andtheresultisabominable。[A pause]Theconvictionisgraduallyforcingitselfuponmethatgoodliteratureisnotaquestionofformsneworold,butofideasthatmustpourfreelyfromtheauthor’sheart,withouthisbotheringhisheadaboutanyformswhatsoever。[Aknockisheardatthewindownearestthetable]Whatwasthat?[Helooksoutofthewindow]Ican’tseeanything。[Heopenstheglassdoorandlooksoutintothegarden]Iheardsomeonerundownthesteps。 [Hecalls]Whoisthere?[Hegoesout,andisheardwalkingquicklyalongtheterrace。InafewminuteshecomesbackwithNINAZARIETCHNAYA]Oh,Nina,Nina! NINAlaysherheadonTREPLIEFF’Sbreastandstifleshersobs。 TREPLIEFF。[Deeplymoved]Nina,Nina!Itisyou——you!Ifeltyouwouldcome;alldaymyhearthasbeenachingforyou。[Hetakesoffherhatandcloak]Mydarling,mybelovedhascomebacktome!Wemustn’tcry,wemustn’tcry。 NINA。Thereissomeonehere。 TREPLIEFF。Nooneishere。 NINA。Lockthedoor,someonemightcome。 TREPLIEFF。Noonewillcomein。 NINA。Iknowyourmotherishere。Lockthedoor。 TREPLIEFFlocksthedoorontherightandcomesbacktoNINA。 TREPLIEFF。Thereisnolockonthatone。Ishallputachairagainstit。[Heputsanarm—chairagainstthedoor]Don’tbefrightened,nooneshallcomein。 NINA。[Gazingintentlyintohisface]Letmelookatyou。[Shelooksabouther]Itiswarmandcomfortableinhere。Thisusedtobeasitting—room。HaveIchangedmuch? TREPLIEFF。Yes,youhavegrownthinner,andyoureyesarelargerthantheywere。Nina,itseemssostrangetoseeyou!Whydidn’tyouletmegotoyou?Whydidn’tyoucomesoonertome?Youhavebeenherenearlyaweek,Iknow。Ihavebeenseveraltimeseachdaytowhereyoulive,andhavestoodlikeabeggarbeneathyourwindow。 NINA。Iwasafraidyoumighthateme。Idreameverynightthatyoulookatmewithoutrecognisingme。IhavebeenwanderingaboutontheshoresofthelakeeversinceIcameback。Ihaveoftenbeennearyourhouse,butIhaveneverhadthecouragetocomein。Letussitdown。[Theysitdown]Letussitdownandtalkourheartsout。Itissoquietandwarminhere。Doyouhearthewindwhistlingoutside?AsTurgenieffsays,\"Happyishewhocansitatnightundertheroofofhishome,whohasawarmcornerinwhichtotakerefuge。\"Iamasea—gull——andyet——no。 [Shepassesherhandacrossherforehead]WhatwasIsaying?Oh,yes,Turgenieff。Hesays,\"andGodhelpallhouselesswanderers。\" [Shesobs。] TREPLIEFF。Nina!Youarecryingagain,Nina! NINA。Itisallright。Ishallfeelbetterafterthis。Ihavenotcriedfortwoyears。Iwentintothegardenlastnighttoseeifouroldtheatrewerestillstanding。Iseeitis。Iweptthereforthefirsttimeintwoyears,andmyheartgrewlighter,andmysoulsawmoreclearlyagain。See,Iamnotcryingnow。[Shetakeshishandinhers]Soyouareanauthornow,andIamanactress。Wehavebothbeensuckedintothewhirlpool。Mylifeusedtobeashappyasachild’s;Iusedtowakesinginginthemorning;Ilovedyouanddreamtoffame,andwhatisthereality? To—morrowmorningearlyImuststartforEltzbytraininathird—classcarriage,withalotofpeasants,andatEltztheeducatedtrades—peoplewillpursuemewithcompliments。Itisaroughlife。 TREPLIEFF。WhyareyougoingtoEltz? NINA。Ihaveacceptedanengagementthereforthewinter。Itistimeformetogo。 TREPLIEFF。Nina,Ihavecursedyou,andhatedyou,andtornupyourphotograph,andyetIhaveknowneveryminuteofmylifethatmyheartandsoulwereyoursforever。Toceasefromlovingyouisbeyondmypower。IhavesufferedcontinuallyfromthetimeIlostyouandbegantowrite,andmylifehasbeenalmostunendurable。Myyouthwassuddenlypluckedfrommethen,andI seemnowtohavelivedinthisworldforninetyyears。Ihavecalledouttoyou,Ihavekissedthegroundyouwalkedon,whereverIlookedIhaveseenyourfacebeforemyeyes,andthesmilethathadilluminedformethebestyearsofmylife。 NINA。[Despairingly]Why,whydoeshetalktomelikethis? TREPLIEFF。Iamquitealone,unwarmedbyanyattachment。IamascoldasifIwerelivinginacave。WhateverIwriteisdryandgloomyandharsh。Stayhere,Nina,Ibeseechyou,orelseletmegoawaywithyou。 NINAquicklyputsonhercoatandhat。 TREPLIEFF。Nina,whydoyoudothat?ForGod’ssake,Nina![Hewatchesherasshedresses。Apause。] NINA。Mycarriageisatthegate。Donotcomeouttoseemeoff。 Ishallfindthewayalone。[Weeping]Letmehavesomewater。 TREPLIEFFhandsheraglassofwater。 TREPLIEFF。Whereareyougoing? NINA。Backtothevillage。Isyourmotherhere? TREPLIEFF。Yes,myunclefellillonThursday,andwetelegraphedforhertocome。 NINA。WhydoyousaythatyouhavekissedthegroundIwalkedon? Youshouldkillmerather。[Shebendsoverthetable]Iamsotired。IfIcouldonlyrest——rest。[Sheraisesherhead]Iamasea—gull——no——no,Iamanactress。[ShehearsARKADINAandTRIGORINlaughinginthedistance,runstothedoorontheleftandlooksthroughthekeyhole]Heistheretoo。[ShegoesbacktoTREPLIEFF]Ah,well——nomatter。Hedoesnotbelieveinthetheatre;heusedtolaughatmydreams,sothatlittlebylittleIbecamedown—heartedandceasedtobelieveinittoo。Thencameallthecaresoflove,thecontinualanxietyaboutmylittleone,sothatIsoongrewtrivialandspiritless,andplayedmypartswithoutmeaning。1neverknewwhattodowithmyhands,andI couldnotwalkproperlyorcontrolmyvoice。Youcannotimaginethestateofmindofonewhoknowsashegoesthroughaplayhowterriblybadlyheisacting。Iamasea—gull——no——no,thatisnotwhatImeanttosay。Doyourememberhowyoushotaseagullonce?Amanchancedtopassthatwayanddestroyeditoutofidleness。Thatisanideaforashortstory,butitisnotwhatI meanttosay。[Shepassesherhandacrossherforehead]WhatwasIsaying?Oh,yes,thestage。Ihavechangednow。NowIamarealactress。Iactwithjoy,withexaltation,Iamintoxicatedbyit,andfeelthatIamsuperb。Ihavebeenwalkingandwalking,andthinkingandthinking,eversinceIhavebeenhere,andIfeelthestrengthofmyspiritgrowinginmeeveryday。Iknownow,I understandatlast,Constantine,thatforus,whetherwewriteoract,itisnotthehonourandgloryofwhichIhavedreamtthatisimportant,itisthestrengthtoendure。Onemustknowhowtobearone’scross,andonemusthavefaith。Ibelieve,andsodonotsuffersomuch,andwhenIthinkofmycallingIdonotfearlife。 TREPLIEFF。[Sadly]Youhavefoundyourway,youknowwhereyouaregoing,butIamstillgropinginachaosofphantomsanddreams,notknowingwhomandwhatendIamservingbyitall。I donotbelieveinanything,andIdonotknowwhatmycallingis。 NINA。[Listening]Hush!Imustgo。Good—bye。WhenIhavebecomeafamousactressyoumustcomeandseeme。Willyoupromisetocome?Butnow——[Shetakeshishand]itislate。Icanhardlystand。Iamfainting。Iamhungry。 TREPLIEFF。Stay,andletmebringyousomesupper。 NINA。No,no——anddon’tcomeout,Icanfindthewayalone。Mycarriageisnotfaraway。Soshebroughthimbackwithher? However,whatdifferencecanthatmaketome?Don’ttellTrigorinanythingwhenyouseehim。Ilovehim——IlovehimevenmorethanIusedto。Itisanideaforashortstory。Ilovehim——Ilovehimpassionately——Ilovehimtodespair。Haveyouforgotten,Constantine,howpleasanttheoldtimeswere?Whatagay,bright,gentle,purelifeweled?Howafeelingassweetandtenderasaflowerblossomedinourhearts?Doyouremember,[Sherecites] \"Allmenandbeasts,lions,eagles,andquails,hornedstags,geese,spiders,silentfishthatinhabitthewaves,starfishfromthesea,andcreaturesinvisibletotheeye——inoneword,life——all,alllife,completingthedrearyroundsetbeforeit,hasdiedoutatlast。Athousandyearshavepassedsincetheearthlastborealivingcreatureonitsbreast,andtheunhappymoonnowlightsherlampinvain。Nolongerarethecriesofstorksheardinthemeadows,orthedroneofbeetlesinthegrovesoflimes————\" SheembracesTREPLIEFFimpetuouslyandrunsoutontotheterrace。 TREPLIEFF。[Afterapause]Itwouldbeapityifshewereseeninthegarden。Mymotherwouldbedistressed。 Hestandsforseveralminutestearinguphismanuscriptsandthrowingthemunderthetable,thenunlocksthedoorontherightandgoesout。 DORN。[Tryingtoforceopenthedoorontheleft]Odd!Thisdoorseemstobelocked。[Hecomesinandputsthechairbackinitsformerplace]Thisislikeahurdlerace。 ARKADINAandPAULINAcomein,followedbyJACOBcarryingsomebottles;thencomeMASHA,SHAMRAEFF,andTRIGORIN。 ARKADINA。Puttheclaretandthebeerhere,onthetable,sothatwecandrinkwhileweareplaying。Sitdown,friends。 PAULINA。Andbringtheteaatonce。 Shelightsthecandlesandtakesherseatatthecard—table。 SHAMRAEFFleadsTRIGORINtothecupboard。 SHAMRAEFF。Hereisthestuffedsea—gullIwastellingyouabout。 [Hetakesthesea—gulloutofthecupboard]Youtoldmetohaveitdone。 TRIGORIN。[lookingatthebird]Idon’trememberathingaboutit,notathing。[Ashotisheard。Everyonejumps。] ARKADINA。[Frightened]Whatwasthat? DORN。Nothingatall;probablyoneofmymedicinebottleshasblownup。Don’tworry。[Hegoesoutthroughthedoorontheright,andcomesbackinafewmoments]ItisasIthought,aflaskofetherhasexploded。[Hesings] \"SpellboundoncemoreIstandbeforethee。\" ARKADINA。[Sittingdownatthetable]Heavens!Iwasreallyfrightened。Thatnoiseremindedmeof——[Shecoversherfacewithherhands]Everythingisblackbeforemyeyes。 DORN。[Lookingthroughthepagesofamagazine,toTRIGORIN] TherewasanarticlefromAmericainthismagazineabouttwomonthsagothatIwantedtoaskyouabout,amongotherthings。 [HeleadsTRIGORINtothefrontofthestage]Iamverymuchinterestedinthisquestion。[Helowershisvoiceandwhispers] YoumusttakeMadameArkadinaawayfromhere;whatIwantedtosaywas,thatConstantinehasshothimself。 Thecurtainfalls。