第3章

类别:其他 作者:Anton Checkov字数:7747更新时间:18/12/18 13:21:33
SORIN。Thepoorsoulisunhappy。 DORN。Thatisatrifle,yourhonour。 SORIN。Youjudgeherlikeamanwhohasobtainedallhewantsinlife。 ARKADINA。Oh,whatcouldbedullerthanthisdeartediumofthecountry?Theairishotandstill,nobodydoesanythingbutsitandphilosophiseaboutlife。Itispleasant,myfriends,tositandlistentoyouhere,butIhadratherathousandtimessitaloneintheroomofahotellearningarolebyheart。 NINA。[Withenthusiasm]Youarequiteright。Iunderstandhowyoufeel。 SORIN。Ofcourseitispleasantertoliveintown。Onecansitinone’slibrarywithatelephoneatone’selbow,noonecomesinwithoutbeingfirstannouncedbythefootman,thestreetsarefullofcabs,andall——— DORN。[Sings] \"Tellher,ohflowers———\" SHAMRAEFFcomesin,followedbyPAULINA。 SHAMRAEFF。Heretheyare。Howdoyoudo?[HekissesARKADINA’S handandthenNINA’S]Iamdelightedtoseeyoulookingsowell。 [ToARKADINA]Mywifetellsmethatyoumeantogototownwithherto—day。Isthatso? ARKADINA。Yes,thatiswhatIhadplannedtodo。 SHAMRAEFF。Hm——thatissplendid,buthowdoyouintendtogetthere,madam?Wearehaulingryeto—day,andallthemenarebusy。Whathorseswouldyoutake? ARKADINA。Whathorses?HowdoIknowwhathorsesweshallhave? SORIN。Why,wehavethecarriagehorses。 SHAMRAEFF。Thecarriagehorses!AndwhereamItofindtheharnessforthem?Thisisastonishing!Mydearmadam,Ihavethegreatestrespectforyourtalents,andwouldgladlysacrificetenyearsofmylifeforyou,butIcannotletyouhaveanyhorsesto—day。 ARKADINA。ButifImustgototown?Whatanextraordinarystateofaffairs! SHAMRAEFF。Youdonotknow,madam,whatitistorunafarm。 ARKADINA。[Inaburstofanger]Thatisanoldstory!UnderthesecircumstancesIshallgobacktoMoscowthisveryday。Orderacarriageformefromthevillage,orIshallgotothestationonfoot。 SHAMRAEFF。[losinghistemper]UnderthesecircumstancesIresignmyposition。Youmustfindyourselfanothermanager。[Hegoesout。] ARKADINA。Itislikethiseverysummer:everysummerIaminsultedhere。Ishallneversetfoothereagain。 Shegoesouttotheleft,inthedirectionofthewharf。Inafewminutessheisseenenteringthehouse,followedbyTRIGORIN,whocarriesabucketandfishing—rod。 SORIN。[Losinghistemper]Whatthedeucedidhemeanbyhisimpudence?Iwantallthehorsesbroughthereatonce! NINA。[ToPAULINA]HowcouldherefuseanythingtoMadameArkadina,thefamousactress?Isnoteverywish,everycapriceeven,ofhers,moreimportantthananyfarmwork?Thisisincredible。 PAULINA。[Indespair]WhatcanIdoaboutit?PutyourselfinmyplaceandtellmewhatIcando。 SORIN。[ToNINA]Letusgoandfindmysister,andallbeghernottogo。[HelooksinthedirectioninwhichSHAMRAEFFwentout]Thatmanisinsufferable;aregulartyrant。 NINA。[Preventinghimfromgettingup]Sitstill,sitstill,andletuswheelyou。[SheandMEDVIEDENKOpushthechairbeforethem]Thisisterrible! SORIN。Yes,yes,itisterrible;buthewon’tleave。Ishallhaveatalkwithhiminamoment。[Theygoout。OnlyDORNandPAULINA areleft。] DORN。Howtiresomepeopleare!Yourhusbanddeservestobethrownoutofhereneckandcrop,butitwillallendbythisoldgrannySorinandhissisteraskingtheman’spardon。Seeifitdoesn’t。 PAULINA。Hehassentthecarriagehorsesintothefieldstoo。 Thesemisunderstandingsoccureveryday。Ifyouonlyknewhowtheyexciteme!Iamill;see!Iamtremblingallover!Icannotendurehisroughways。[Imploringly]Eugene,mydarling,mybeloved,takemetoyou。Ourtimeisshort;wearenolongeryoung;letusenddeceptionandconcealment,eventhoughitisonlyattheendofourlives。[Apause。] DORN。Iamfifty—fiveyearsold。Itistoolatenowformetochangemywaysofliving。 PAULINA。Iknowthatyourefusemebecausethereareotherwomenwhoareneartoyou,andyoucannottakeeverybody。Iunderstand。 Excuseme——IseeIamonlybotheringyou。 NINAisseennearthehousepickingabunchofflowers。 DORN。No,itisallright。 PAULINA。Iamtorturedbyjealousy。Ofcourseyouareadoctorandcannotescapefromwomen。Iunderstand。 DORN。[TONINA,whocomestowardhim]Howarethingsinthere? NINA。MadameArkadinaiscrying,andSorinishavinganattackofasthma。 DORN。Letusgoandgivethembothsomecamomiletea。 NINA。[Handshimthebunchofflowers]Herearesomeflowersforyou。 DORN。Thankyou。[Hegoesintothehouse。] PAULINA。[Followinghim]Whatprettyflowers![Astheyreachthehouseshesaysinalowvoice]Givemethoseflowers!Givethemtome! DORNhandshertheflowers;shetearsthemtopiecesandflingsthemaway。Theybothgointothehouse。 NINA。[Alone]Howstrangetoseeafamousactressweeping,andforsuchatrifle!Isitnotstrange,too,thatafamousauthorshouldsitfishingallday?Heistheidolofthepublic,thepapersarefullofhim,hisphotographisforsaleeverywhere,hisworkshavebeentranslatedintomanyforeignlanguages,andyetheisoverjoyedifhecatchesacoupleofminnows。Ialwaysthoughtfamouspeopleweredistantandproud;Ithoughttheydespisedthecommoncrowdwhichexaltsrichesandbirth,andavengedthemselvesonitbydazzlingitwiththeinextinguishablehonourandgloryoftheirfame。ButhereIseethemweepingandplayingcardsandflyingintopassionslikeeverybodyelse。 TREPLIEFFcomesinwithoutahaton,carryingagunandadeadseagull。 TREPLIEFF。Areyoualonehere? NINA。Yes。 TREPLIEFFlaysthesea—gullatherfeet。 NINA。Whatdoyoumeanbythis? TREPLIEFF。Iwasbaseenoughto—daytokillthisgull。Ilayitatyourfeet。 NINA。Whatishappeningtoyou?[Shepicksupthegullandstandslookingatit。] TREPLIEFF。[Afterapause]SoshallIsoonendmyownlife。 NINA。YouhavechangedsothatIfailtorecogniseyou。 TREPLIEFF。Yes,IhavechangedsincethetimewhenIceasedtorecogniseyou。Youhavefailedme;yourlookiscold;youdonotliketohavemenearyou。 NINA。Youhavegrownsoirritablelately,andyoutalksodarklyandsymbolicallythatyoumustforgivemeifIfailtofollowyou。Iamtoosimpletounderstandyou。 TREPLIEFF。Allthisbeganwhenmyplayfailedsodismally。A womannevercanforgivefailure。Ihaveburntthemanuscripttothelastpage。Oh,ifyoucouldonlyfathommyunhappiness!Yourestrangementistometerrible,incredible;itisasifIhadsuddenlywakedtofindthislakedriedupandsunkintotheearth。Yousayyouaretoosimpletounderstandme;but,oh,whatistheretounderstand?Youdislikedmyplay,youhavenofaithinmypowers,youalreadythinkofmeascommonplaceandworthless,asmanyare。[Stampinghisfoot]HowwellIcanunderstandyourfeelings!Andthatunderstandingistomelikeadaggerinthebrain。Mayitbeaccursed,togetherwithmystupidity,whichsucksmylife—bloodlikeasnake![HeseesTRIGORIN,whoapproachesreadingabook]Therecomesrealgenius,stridingalonglikeanotherHamlet,andwithabook,too。 [Mockingly]\"Words,words,words。\"Youfeelthewarmthofthatsunalready,yousmile,youreyesmeltandglowliquidinitsrays。Ishallnotdisturbyou。[Hegoesout。] TRIGORIN。[Makingnotesinhisbook]Takessnuffanddrinksvodka;alwayswearsblackdresses;islovedbyaschoolteacher—— NINA。Howdoyoudo? TRIGORIN。Howareyou,MissNina?Owingtoanunforeseendevelopmentofcircumstances,itseemsthatweareleavingheretoday。YouandIshallprobablyneverseeeachotheragain,andI amsorryforit。Iseldommeetayoungandprettygirlnow;Icanhardlyrememberhowitfeelstobenineteen,andtheyounggirlsinmybooksareseldomlivingcharacters。Ishouldliketochangeplaceswithyou,ifbutforanhour,tolookoutattheworldthroughyoureyes,andsofindoutwhatsortofalittlepersonyouare。 NINA。AndIshouldliketochangeplaceswithyou。 TRIGORIN。Why? NINA。Tofindouthowafamousgeniusfeels。Whatisitliketobefamous?Whatsensationsdoesitgiveyou? TRIGORIN。Whatsensations?Idon’tbelieveitgivesany。 [Thoughtfully]Eitheryouexaggeratemyfame,orelse,ifitexists,allIcansayisthatonesimplydoesn’tfeelfameinanyway。 NINA。Butwhenyoureadaboutyourselfinthepapers? TRIGORIN。Ifthecriticspraiseme,Iamhappy;iftheycondemnme,Iamoutofsortsforthenexttwodays。 NINA。Thisisawonderfulworld。IfyouonlyknewhowIenvyyou! Menareborntodifferentdestinies。Somedullydragaweary,uselesslifebehindthem,lostinthecrowd,unhappy,whiletooneoutofamillion,astoyou,forinstance,comesabrightdestinyfullofinterestandmeaning。Youarelucky。 TRIGORIN。I,lucky?[Heshrugshisshoulders]H—m——Ihearyoutalkingaboutfame,andhappiness,andbrightdestinies,andthosefinewordsofyoursmeanasmuchtome——forgivemysayingso——assweetmeatsdo,whichInevereat。Youareveryyoung,andverykind。 NINA。Yourlifeisbeautiful。 TRIGORIN。Iseenothingespeciallylovelyaboutit。[Helooksathiswatch]Excuseme,Imustgoatonce,andbeginwritingagain。 Iaminahurry。[Helaughs]Youhavesteppedonmypetcorn,astheysay,andIamgettingexcited,andalittlecross。Letusdiscussthisbrightandbeautifullifeofmine,though。[Afterafewmoments’thought]Violentobsessionssometimeslayholdofaman:hemay,forinstance,thinkdayandnightofnothingbutthemoon。Ihavesuchamoon。DayandnightIamheldinthegripofonebesettingthought,towrite,write,write!HardlyhaveI finishedonebookthansomethingurgesmetowriteanother,andthenathird,andthenafourth——Iwriteceaselessly。Iam,asitwere,onatreadmill。Ihurryforeverfromonestorytoanother,andcan’thelpmyself。Doyouseeanythingbrightandbeautifulinthat?Oh,itisawildlife!Evennow,thrilledasIambytalkingtoyou,Idonotforgetforaninstantthatanunfinishedstoryisawaitingme。Myeyefallsonthatcloudthere,whichhastheshapeofagrandpiano;IinstantlymakeamentalnotethatI mustremembertomentioninmystoryacloudfloatingbythatlookedlikeagrandpiano。Ismellheliotrope;Imuttertomyself:asicklysmell,thecolourwornbywidows;Imustrememberthatinwritingmynextdescriptionofasummerevening。 Icatchanideaineverysentenceofyoursorofmyown,andhastentolockallthesetreasuresinmyliterarystore—room,thinkingthatsomedaytheymaybeusefultome。AssoonasI stopworkingIrushofftothetheatreorgofishing,inthehopethatImayfindoblivionthere,butno!Somenewsubjectforastoryissuretocomerollingthroughmybrainlikeanironcannonball。Ihearmydeskcalling,andhavetogobacktoitandbegintowrite,write,write,oncemore。Andsoitgoesforeverlasting。Icannotescapemyself,thoughIfeelthatIamconsumingmylife。TopreparethehoneyIfeedtounknowncrowds,Iamdoomedtobrushthebloomfrommydearestflowers,totearthemfromtheirstems,andtrampletherootsthatborethemunderfoot。AmInotamadman?ShouldInotbetreatedbythosewhoknowmeasonementallydiseased?Yetitisalwaysthesame,sameoldstory,tillIbegintothinkthatallthispraiseandadmirationmustbeadeception,thatIambeinghoodwinkedbecausetheyknowIamcrazy,andIsometimestremblelestI shouldbegrabbedfrombehindandwhiskedofftoalunaticasylum。Thebestyearsofmyyouthweremadeonecontinualagonyformebymywriting。Ayoungauthor,especiallyifatfirsthedoesnotmakeasuccess,feelsclumsy,ill—at—ease,andsuperfluousintheworld。Hisnervesareallonedgeandstretchedtothepointofbreaking;heisirresistiblyattractedtoliteraryandartisticpeople,andhoversaboutthemunknownandunnoticed,fearingtolookthembravelyintheeye,likeamanwithapassionforgambling,whosemoneyisallgone。Ididnotknowmyreaders,butforsomereasonIimaginedtheyweredistrustfulandunfriendly;Iwasmortallyafraidofthepublic,andwhenmyfirstplayappeared,itseemedtomeasifallthedarkeyesintheaudiencewerelookingatitwithenmity,andalltheblueoneswithcoldindifference。Oh,howterribleitwas! Whatagony! NINA。Butdon’tyourinspirationandtheactofcreationgiveyoumomentsofloftyhappiness? TRIGORIN。Yes。Writingisapleasuretome,andsoisreadingtheproofs,butnosoonerdoesabookleavethepressthanitbecomesodioustome;itisnotwhatImeantittobe;Imadeamistaketowriteitatall;Iamprovokedanddiscouraged。Thenthepublicreadsitandsays:\"Yes,itiscleverandpretty,butnotnearlyasgoodasTolstoi,\"or\"Itisalovelything,butnotasgoodasTurgenieff’s’FathersandSons,’\"andsoitwillalwaysbe。TomydyingdayIshallhearpeoplesay:\"Cleverandpretty; cleverandpretty,\"andnothingmore;andwhenIamgone,thosethatknewmewillsayastheypassmygrave:\"HereliesTrigorin,acleverwriter,buthewasnotasgoodasTurgenieff。\" NINA。Youmustexcuseme,butIdeclinetounderstandwhatyouaretalkingabout。Thefactis,youhavebeenspoiltbyyoursuccess。 TRIGORIN。WhatsuccesshaveIhad?Ihaveneverpleasedmyself; asawriter,Idonotlikemyselfatall。ThetroubleisthatI ammadegiddy,asitwere,bythefumesofmybrain,andoftenhardlyknowwhatIamwriting。Ilovethislake,thesetrees,theblueheaven;nature’svoicespeakstomeandwakesafeelingofpassioninmyheart,andIamovercomebyanuncontrollabledesiretowrite。ButIamnotonlyapainteroflandscapes,Iamamanofthecitybesides。Ilovemycountry,too,andherpeople;Ifeelthat,asawriter,itismydutytospeakoftheirsorrows,oftheirfuture,alsoofscience,oftherightsofman,andsoforth。SoIwriteoneverysubject,andthepublichoundsmeonallsides,sometimesinanger,andIraceanddodgelikeafoxwithapackofhoundsonhistrail。Iseelifeandknowledgeflittingawaybeforeme。Iamleftbehindthemlikeapeasantwhohasmissedhistrainatastation,andfinallyIcomebacktotheconclusionthatallIamfitforistodescribelandscapes,andthatwhateverelseIattemptringsabominablyfalse。 NINA。Youworktoohardtorealisetheimportanceofyourwritings。Whatifyouarediscontentedwithyourself?Toothersyouappearagreatandsplendidman。IfIwereawriterlikeyouIshoulddevotemywholelifetotheserviceoftheRussianpeople,knowingatthesametimethattheirwelfaredependedontheirpowertorisetotheheightsIhadattained,andthepeopleshouldsendmebeforetheminachariotoftriumph。 TRIGORIN。Inachariot?DoyouthinkIamAgamemnon?[Theybothsmile。] NINA。FortheblissofbeingawriteroranactressIcouldendurewant,anddisillusionment,andthehatredofmyfriends,andthepangsofmyowndissatisfactionwithmyself;butIshoulddemandinreturnfame,real,resoundingfame![Shecoversherfacewithherhands]Whew!Myheadreels! THEVOICEOFARKADINA。[Frominsidethehouse]Boris!Boris! TRIGORIN。Sheiscallingme,probablytocomeandpack,butI don’twanttoleavethisplace。[Hiseyesrestonthelake]Whatablessingsuchbeautyis! NINA。Doyouseethathousethere,onthefarshore? TRIGORIN。Yes。 NINA。Thatwasmydeadmother’shome。Iwasbornthere,andhavelivedallmylifebesidethislake。Iknoweverylittleislandinit。 TRIGORIN。Thisisabeautifulplacetolive。[Hecatchessightofthedeadsea—gull]Whatisthat? NINA。Agull。Constantineshotit。 TRIGORIN。Whatalovelybird!Really,Ican’tbeartogoaway。 Can’tyoupersuadeIrinatostay?[Hewritessomethinginhisnote—book。] NINA。Whatareyouwriting? TRIGORIN。Nothingmuch,onlyanideathatoccurredtome。[Heputsthebookbackinhispocket]Anideaforashortstory。A younggirlgrowsupontheshoresofalake,asyouhave。Shelovesthelakeasthegullsdo,andisashappyandfreeasthey。 Butamanseesherwhochancestocomethatway,andhedestroysheroutofidleness,asthisgullherehasbeendestroyed。[A pause。ARKADINAappearsatoneofthewindows。] ARKADINA。Boris!Whereareyou? TRIGORIN。Iamcomingthisminute。 Hegoestowardthehouse,lookingbackatNINA。ARKADINAremainsatthewindow。 TRIGORIN。Whatdoyouwant? ARKADINA。Wearenotgoingaway,afterall。 TRIGORINgoesintothehouse。NINAcomesforwardandstandslostinthought。 NINA。Itisadream! Thecurtainfalls。 ACTIII Thedining—roomofSORIN’Shouse。Doorsopenoutofittotherightandleft。Atablestandsinthecentreoftheroom。Trunksandboxesencumberthefloor,andpreparationsfordepartureareevident。TRIGORINissittingatatableeatinghisbreakfast,andMASHAisstandingbesidehim。 MASHA。Iamtellingyouallthesethingsbecauseyouwritebooksandtheymaybeusefultoyou。Itellyouhonestly,Ishouldnothavelivedanotherdayifhehadwoundedhimselffatally。YetI amcourageous;Ihavedecidedtotearthisloveofmineoutofmyheartbytheroots。 TRIGORIN。Howwillyoudoit? MASHA。BymarryingMedviedenko。 TRIGORIN。Theschool—teacher? MASHA。Yes。 TRIGORIN。Idon’tseethenecessityforthat。 MASHA。Oh,ifyouknewwhatitistolovewithouthopeforyearsandyears,towaitforeverforsomethingthatwillnevercome!I shallnotmarryforlove,butmarriagewillatleastbeachange,andwillbringnewcarestodeadenthememoriesofthepast。 Shallwehaveanotherdrink? TRIGORIN。Haven’tyouhadenough? MASHA。Fiddlesticks![Shefillsaglass]Don’tlookatmewiththatexpressiononyourface。Womendrinkoftenerthanyouimagine,butmostofthemdoitinsecret,andnotopenly,asI do。Theydoindeed,anditisalwayseithervodkaorbrandy。 [Theytouchglasses]Toyourgoodhealth!YouaresoeasytogetonwiththatIamsorrytoseeyougo。[Theydrink。] TRIGORIN。AndIamsorrytoleave。 MASHA。Youshouldaskhertostay。 TRIGORIN。Shewouldnotdothatnow。Hersonhasbeenbehavingoutrageously。Firstheattemptedsuicide,andnowIhearheisgoingtochallengemetoaduel,thoughwhathisprovocationmaybeIcan’timagine。Heisalwayssulkingandsneeringandpreachingaboutanewformofart,asifthefieldofartwerenotlargeenoughtoaccommodatebotholdandnewwithoutthenecessityofjostling。