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类别:其他 作者:By FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT字数:6111更新时间:18/12/18 11:15:01
Insidetheshopmoredanglingspectreshungandtheplacewasalmostdark。Itwasashabbypawnshop,andthemanloungingbehindthecounterwasashabbymanwithanunshaven,unamiableface。 \"Iwanttolookatthatpistolintheright—handcornerofyourwindow,\" AntonyDartsaid。 Thepawnbrokerutteredasoundsomethingbetweenahalf—laughandagrunt。Hetooktheweaponfromthewindow。 AntonyDartexamineditcritically。 Hemustmakequitesureofit。Hemadenofurtherremark。 Hefelthehaddonewithspeech。 Beingtoldthepriceaskedforthepurchase,hedrewouthispurseandtookthemoneyfromit。Aftermakingthepaymenthenotedthathestillpossessedafive—poundnoteandsomesovereigns。Therepassedthroughhismindawonderastowhowouldspendit。Themostdecentthing,perhaps,wouldbetogiveitaway。Ifitwasinhisroom——to—morrow——theparishwouldnotburyhim,anditwouldbesaferthattheparishshould。 Hewasthinkingofthisashelefttheshopandbegantocrossthestreet。Becausehismindwaswanderinghewaslesswatchful。Suddenlyarubber—tiredhansom,movingwithoutsound,appearedimmediatelyinhispath——thehorse’sheadloomedupabovehisown。Hemadetheinevitableinvoluntarywhirlasidetomoveoutoftheway,thehansompassed,andturningagain,hewenton。Hismovementhadbeentooswifttoallowofhisrealizingthedirectioninwhichhisturnhadbeenmade。Hewaswhollyunawarethatwhenhecrossedthestreethecrossedbackwardinsteadofforward。Heturnedacornerliterallyfeelinghisway,wenton,turnedanother,andafterwalkingthelengthofthestreet,suddenlyunderstoodthathewasinastrangeplaceandhadlosthisbearings。 Thiswasexactlywhathadhappenedtopeopleonthedayofthememorablefogofthreeyearsbefore。 Hehadheardthemtalkingofsuchexperiences,andofthecuriousandbafflingsensationstheygaverisetointhebrain。Nowheunderstoodthem。Hecouldnotbefarfromhislodgings,buthefeltlikeamanwhowasblind,andwhohadbeenturnedoutofthepathheknew。 Hehadnottheresourceofthepeoplewhosestorieshehadheard。Hewouldnotstopandaddressanyone。 Therecouldbenocertaintyastowhomhemightfindhimselfspeakingto。Hewouldspeaktonoone。 Hewouldwanderaboutuntilhecameuponsomeclew。Evenifhecameuponnone,thefogwouldsurelyliftalittleandbecomeatriflelessdenseincourseoftime。Hedrewupthecollarofhisovercoat,pulledhishatdownoverhiseyesandwenton——hishandonthethinghehadthrustintoapocket。 Hedidnotfindhisclewashehadhoped,andinsteadofliftingthefoggrewheavier。Hefoundhimselfatlastnolongerstrivingforanyend,butramblingalongmechanically,feelinglikeamaninadream——anightmare。Onceherecognizedaweirdsuggestioninthemysteryabouthim。To—morrowmightonebewanderingaboutaimlesslyinsomesuchhaze。Hehopednot。 HislodgingswerenotfarfromtheEmbankment,andheknewatlastthathewaswanderingalongit,andhadreachedoneofthebridges。 Hismoodledhimtoturninuponit,andwhenhereachedanembrasuretostopnearitandleanupontheparapetlookingdown。Hecouldnotseethewater,thefogwastoodense,buthecouldhearsomefaintsplashingagainststones。Hehadtakennofoodandwasratherfaint。 Whatastrangethingitwastofeelfaintforwantoffood——tostandalone,cutofffromeveryotherhumanbeing——everythingdonefor。 Nowonderthatsometimes,particularlyonsuchdaysasthese,therewereplungesmadefromtheparapet——nowonder。Heleanedfartheroverandstrainedhiseyestoseesomegleamofwaterthroughtheyellowness。Butitwasnottobedone。Hewasthinkingtheinevitablething,ofcourse;butsuchaplungewouldnotdoforhim。Theotherthingwoulddestroyalltraces。 Ashedrewbackheheardsomethingfallwiththesolidtinklingsoundofcoinontheflagpavement。 Whenhehadbeeninthepawnbroker’sshophehadtakenthegoldfromhispurseandthrustitcarelesslyintohiswaistcoatpocket,thinkingthatitwouldbeeasytoreachwhenhechosetogiveittoonebeggaroranother,ifheshouldseesomewretchwhowouldbethebetterforit。Somemovementhehadmadeinbendinghadcausedasovereigntoslipoutandithadfallenuponthestones。 Hedidnotintendtopickitup,butinthemomentinwhichhestoodlookingdownatitheheardclosetohimashufflingmovement。 Whathehadthoughtabundleofragsorrubbishcoveredwithsacking——sometramp’sdesertedorforgottenbelongings——wasstirring。Itwasalive,andashebenttolookatitthesackingdivideditself,andasmallhead,coveredwithashockofbrilliantredhair,thrustitselfout,ashrewd,smallfaceturningtolookupathimslylywithdeep—setblackeyes。 Itwasahumangirlcreatureabouttwelveyearsold。 \"Areyergoin’todoit?\"shesaidinahoarse,street—strainedvoice。 \"Yerwouldbeafoolifyerdid—— withasmuchasthatonyer。\" Shepointedwithareddened,chapped,anddirtyhandatthesovereign。 \"Pickitup,\"hesaid。\"Youmayhaveit。\" Herwildshuffleforwardwasanactualleap。Thehandmadeasnatchingclutchatthecoin。Shewasevidentlyafraidthathewaseithernotinearnestorwouldrepent。Thenextsecondshewasonherfeetandreadyforflight。 \"Stop,\"hesaid;\"I’vegotmoretogiveaway。\" Shehesitated——notbelievinghim,yetfeelingitmadnesstoloseachance。 \"MORE!\"shegasped。Thenshedrewnearertohim,andasingularchangecameuponherface。Itwasachangewhichmadeherlookoddlyhuman。 \"Gawd,mister!\"shesaid。\"Yercangiveawayaquidlikeitwasnothin’——an’yer’vegotmore——an’ yergoin’todoTHAT——jescosyer’adabittoomuchlarsnightan’there’safogthismornin’!Youtakeitstraightfromme——don’tyerdoit。 Igiveyerthattipforthesuvrink。\" Shewas,forheryears,souglyandsoancient,andhardenedinvoiceandskinandmannerthatshefascinatedhim。NotthatamanwhohasnoTo—morrowinviewislikelytobeparticularlyconsciousofmentalprocesses。Hewasdonefor,buthestoodandstaredather。WhatpartofthePowermovingtheschemeoftheuniversestoodnearandthrusthimoninthepathdesignedhedidnotknowthen——perhapsneverdid。Hewasstillholdingontothethinginhispocket,buthespoketoheragain。 \"Whatdoyoumean?\"heaskedglumly。 Shesidlednearer,hersharpeyesonhisface。 \"Ibinwatchin’yer,\"shesaid。 \"Isatdownandpulledthesackoverme’eadtobreatheinsideitan’ getabitwarm。An’Iseeyercome。 Iknowedwotyerwasafter,Idid。 Iwatchedyerthrougha’oleinmesack。Iwasn’tgoin’tocallacopper。 Ishouldn’twantterbestoppedmeselfifImadeupmemind。I seedagaldraggedoutlas’weekan’ it’dabrokeyer’arttosee’ertear’erclothesan’scream。Wotbusiness’adtheypreventin’’ergoin’offquiet?Iwouldn’t’a’stoppedyer——butw’enthequidfell,thatmadeitdifferent。\" \"I——\"hesaid,feelingthefoolishnessofthestatement,butmakingit,nevertheless,\"Iamill。\" \"Courseyerill。It’syer’ead。 Comealongermean’getacupercawfeeatastand,an’buckup。Ifyer’vegivemethatquidstraight—— wish—yer—may—die——I’llgowithyeran’getacupmyself。Iain’t’adabitesinceyesterday——an’’twa’n’tnothin’ butasliceo’polonysossidgeIfoundonadust—’eap。Comeon,mister。\" Shepulledhiscoatwithhercrackedhand。Heglanceddownatitmechanically,andsawthatsomeofthefissureshadbledandtheroughenedsurfacewassmearedwiththeblood。Theystoodtogetherinthesmallspaceinwhichthefogenclosedthem——heandshe——themanwithnoTo—morrowandthegirlthingwhoseemedasoldashimself,withhersharp,smallnoseandchin,hersharpeyesandvoice——andyet——perhapsthefogsenclosingdidit——somethingdrewthemtogetherinanuncannyway。 Somethingmadehimforgetthelostclewtothelodging—house—— somethingmadehimturnandgowithher——athingledinthedark。 \"Howcanyoufindyourway?\" hesaid。\"Ilostmine。\" \"Thereain’tnofogcanloseme,\" sheanswered,shufflingalongbyhisside;\"’sides,it’sgoin’tolift。 Lookatthatmancomin’to’ardsus。\" Itwastruethattheycouldseethroughtheorange—coloredmisttheapproachingfigureofamanwhowasatayard’sdistancefromthem。 Yes,itwasliftingslightly——atleastenoughtoallowofone’smakingaguessatthedirectioninwhichonemoved。 \"Whereareyougoing?\"heasked。 \"AppleBlossomCourt,\"sheanswered。\"Thecawfee—stand’sinastreetnearit——andthere’sashopwhereIcanbuythings。\" \"AppleBlossomCourt!\"heejaculated。\"Whataname!\" \"Thereain’tnoapple—blossomsthere,\"chuckling;\"nornosmellof’em。’Tain’tasniceasitsnimeis——AppleBlossomCourtain’t。\" \"Whatdoyouwanttobuy?A pairofshoes?\"Theshoeshernakedfeetwerethrustintowereleprous—lookingthingsthroughwhichnearlyallhertoesprotruded。Butshechuckledwhenhespoke。 \"No,I’mgoin’tobuyadi’mondtirarertogototheoperyin,\"shesaid,draggingheroldsackcloserroundherneck。\"Iain’tadanoounsinceIwenttothelastDrorin’— room。\" Itwasimpudentstreetchaff,buttherewascheerfulspiritinit,andcheerfulspirithassomeocculteffectuponmorbidity。AntonyDartdidnotsmile,buthefeltafaintstirringofcuriosity,whichwas,afterall,notabadthingforamanwhohadnotfeltaninterestforayear。 \"Whatisityouaregoingtobuy?\" \"I’mgoin’tofillmestummickfust,\"withagrinofelation。\"Threethicksliceso’breadan’drippin’an’ amugo’cawfee。An’thenI’mgoin’togetsumethin’’eartytocarrytoPolly。Sheain’tnogood,porething!\" \"Whoisshe?\" Stoppingamomenttodraguptheheelofherdreadfulshoe,sheansweredhimwithanunprejudiceddirectnesswhichmighthavebeenappallingifhehadbeeninthemoodtobeappalled。 \"Ain’teighteen,an’tryin’toearn’erlivin’onthestreet。Sheain’tmadeforit。Littlecountrything,allusfrightenedtodeathan’readytobustoutcryin’。Gentsain’tgoin’ tostandthat。Alotof’emwantscheerin’upasmuchasshedoes。 Gentaswasinliquorlastnightknocked’erdownan’give’erablackeye。’Twan’tillfeelin’,buthelosthistemper,an’give’eraknockcasual。Shecan’tgooutto—night,an’she’sbeen’uddledupalldaycryin’for’ermother。\" \"Whereishermother?\" \"Inthecountry——onafarm。 Pollytookaplaceinalodgin’—’ousean’gotintrouble。Thebibywasdead,an’whenshecomeouto’ QueenCharlotte’sshewastookinbyawomanan’kep’。Shekicked’eroutinaweek’cosofhercryin’。 Thelifedidn’tsuit’er。Ifound’ercryin’fittosplit’erchistonenight——cornero’AppleBlossomCourt—— an’Itookcareof’er。\" \"Where?\" \"Mechambers,\"grinning;\"toploftofa’ouseinthecourt。Ifanyoneelse’d’aveitIshouldbeturnedout。It’san’ole,Icantellyer—— butit’sbetterthansleepin’underthebridges。\" \"Takemetoseeit,\"saidAntonyDart。\"Iwanttoseethegirl。\" Thewordsspokethemselves。Whyshouldhecaretoseeeithercockloftorgirl?Hedidnot。Hewantedtogobacktohislodgingswiththatwhichhehadcomeouttobuy。 Yethesaidthisthing。Hiscompanionlookedupathimwithanexpressionactuallyrelieved。 \"Wouldyertikeupwith’er?\" witheagersharpness,asifconfrontingasimplebusinessproposition。 \"She’sprettyan’clean,an’shewon’tdrinkadropo’nothin’。Ifshewastreatedkindshe’dbecheerfler。She’sgotaroundficean’ light’airan’eyes。’Er’air’scurly。 P’rapsyer’dlike’er。\" \"Takemetoseeher。\" \"She’dlookbetterto—morrow,\" cautiously,\"whentheswellin’sgonedownround’ereye。\" Dartstarted——anditwasbecausehehadforthelastfiveminutesforgottensomething。 \"Ishallnotbehereto—morrow,\" hesaid。Hisgraspuponthethinginhispockethadloosened,andhetightenedit。 \"Ihavesomemoremoneyinmypurse,\"hesaiddeliberately。\"I meanttogiveitawaybeforegoing。 Iwanttogiveittopeoplewhoneeditverymuch。\" Shegavehimoneofthesly,squintingglances。 \"Deservin’cases?\"Sheputittohiminbrazenmockery。 \"Idon’tcare,\"heansweredslowlyandheavily。\"Idon’tcareadamn。\" Herfacechangedexactlyashehadseenitchangeonthebridgewhenshehaddrawnnearertohim。 Itsuglyhardnesssuddenlylookedhuman。Andthatshecouldlookhumanwasfantastic。 \"’Owmuch’aveyer?\"sheasked。 \"’Owmuchisit?\" \"Abouttenpounds。\" Shestoppedandstaredathimwithopenmouth。 \"Gawd!\"shebrokeout;\"tenpounds’dsendAppleBlossomCourtto’eving。Leastways,it’dtakesomeofitouto’’ell。\" \"Takemetoit,\"hesaidroughly。 \"Takeme。\" Shebegantowalkquickly,breathingfast。Thefogwaslighter,anditwasnolongerablindingthing。 AquestionoccurredtoDart。 \"Whydon’tyouaskmetogivethemoneytoyou?\"hesaidbluntly。 \"Dunno,\"sheansweredasbluntly。 Butaftertakingafewstepsfarthershespokeagain。 \"I’mcheerflerthanmostof’em,\" sheelaborated。\"Ifyerborncheerfleyercanstandthings。WhenI getsajobnussin’women’sbibiestheydon’tcrywhenI’andles’em。 Igetsmanyabitean’acopper’coso’that。Folkslikesyer。IshallgetonbetterthanPollywhenI’moldenoughtogoonthestreet。\" Theorganofwhoselagging,sickpumpingsAntonyDarthadscarcelybeenawareformonthsgaveasuddenleapinhisbreast。Hisbloodactuallyhasteneditspace,andranthroughhisveinsinsteadofcrawling——adistinctphysicaleffectofanactualmentalcondition。Itwasproduceduponhimbythemerematter—of—factordinarinessofhertone。Hehadneverbeenasenti— mentalman,andhadlongceasedtobeafeelingone,butatthatmomentsomethingemotionalandnormalhappenedtohim。 \"Youexpecttoliveinthatway?\" hesaid。 \"Ain’tnothin’elsefermetodo。 WishtIwasbetterlookin’。ButI’vegotalotof’air,\"clawinghermop,\"an’it’sred。Oneday,\" chuckling,\"agentsestome——heses:`Oh!yer’lldo。Yeranuglylittledevil——butyeAREadevil。’\" Shewasleadinghimthroughanarrow,filthybackstreet,andshestopped,grinningupinhisface。 \"Isay,mister,\"shewheedled,\"let’sstopatthecawfee—stand。 It’supthisway。\" Whenheaccededandfollowedher,shequicklyturnedacorner。 Theywereinanotherlanethickwithfog,whichflaredwiththeflameoftorchesstuckincosters’ barrowswhichstoodhereandthere。 barrowswithfriedfishuponthem,barrowswithsecond—hand—lookingvegetablesandotherspiledwithmorethansecond—hand—lookinggarments。