第5章

类别:其他 作者:William Ernest Henley字数:7084更新时间:18/12/18 09:40:10
Lucindo。What’sthis?Youspeakofstones,bays,wormsandmud? Butrocksandcragstowerupwardseverywhere,Ineveryspotaspringcomesbubblingforth: Whetherimpetuous,low,high——whatmatter? MysteriousplacesstillaretobefoundWhereweareheldenrapturedandspellbound。 Toseethemwakesexcitementinmybreast,Andifitbursts,why,itisjest,nomore。 Sotakemewhereyouwill,yes,tothatgoal! Waverandfalternot,butlet’saway! Pertini。TherollingthunderfirstmustceaseitsdinErethepurelightningcleanseyourbreastwithin。 SotoaspotI’llmakemyselfyourguideWhere,Imuchfear,you’llwishtoolongtoabide。 Lucindo。Oh,letourjourney’sgoalliewhereitmay,I’llfollowyou,ifyouwillleadtheway。 Pertini。Mistrustful!(Theybothgoout。)Scene3AroominPertini’shouse。Oulanemisalone,seatedatatable,writing。Paperslieabout。 Suddenlyhespringsup,walkszipanddown,thenstopsabruptlyandstandswithfoldedarms。 Oulanem。Alllost!Thehourisnowexpired,andtimeStandsstill。Thispigmyuniversecollapses。 SoonIshallclaspEternityandhowlHumanity’sgiantcurseintoitsear。 Eternity!Itiseternalpain,Deathinconceivable,immeasurable! Anevilartificecontrivedtotauntus,Whoarebutclockwork,blindmachineswoundupTobethecalendar—foolsofTime;tobe,Onlythatsomethingthusatleastmighthappen; Andtodecay,thattheremightbedecay! Theworldsmusthavehadneedofonethingmore— Dumb,searingagonytosendthemwhirling。 Deathcomestolifeandputsonshoesandstockings; Thesorrowingplant,thestone’sinerterosion,ThebirdsthatfindnosongtotellthepainOftheiraethereallife,thegeneraldiscordAndtheblindstrivingoftheAlltoshakeItselfoutofitself,becrushedinquarrel— Thisnowstandsupandhasapairoflegs,Andhasabreasttofeelthecurseoflife! Ha,Imusttwinemeonthewheelofflame,AndinEternity’sringI’lldancemyfrenzy! Ifaughtbesidesthatfrenzycoulddevour,I’dleaptherein,thoughImustsmashaworldThattoweredhighbetweenmyselfandit! Itwouldbeshatteredbymylong—drawncurse,AndIwoulddingmyarmsaroundcruelBeing,Embracingme,’twouldsilentpassaway。 ThensilentwouldIsinkintothevoid。 Whollytosink,notbe——oh,thiswereLife,ButsweptalonghighonEternity’scurrentToroaroutthrenodiesfortheCreator,Scornonthebrow!CanSunburnitaway? Boundincompulsion’ssway,curseindefiance! Lettheenvenomedeyeflashforthdestruction— Doesithurlofftheponderousworldsthatbind? Boundineternalfear,splinteredandvoid,BoundtotheverymarbleblockofBeing,Bound,boundforever,andforeverbound! Theworlds,theyseeitandgorollingonAndhowltheburialsongoftheirowndeath。 Andwe,weApesofacoldGod,stillcherishWithfrenziedpainuponourlovingbreastThevipersovoluptuouslywarm,ThatitasUniversalFormrearsupAndfromitsplaceonhighgrinsdownonus! Andinourear,tillloathing’sallconsumed,Thewearywaveroarsonward,everonward! Nowquick,thedieiscast,andallisready; Destroywhatonlypoetry’sliecontrived,Acurseshallfinishwhatacurseconceived。 (Hesitsdownatthetableandwrites。)Scene4Alwander’shouse;first—beforethehouse。Lucindo,Pertini。 Lucindo。Whybringmehere? Pertini。Forasucculentpieceofwoman,That’sall!Seeforyourself,andifshesoftlyBreathesamelodiouspeaceintoyoursoul,Thenforward! Lucindo。What!You’retakingmetowhores? AndattheverytimewhenallofLifeComesdownwithcrushingforceuponmyshoulders,AndwhenmybreastswellsirresistiblyInamadfrenzycravingself—destruction; Wheneachbreathbreathesathousanddeathsforme,Andnowawoman! Pertini。Ha!Raveon,youngman,Breathehellfireanddestruction,breatheaway! Whatwhores?DidImisunderstandyourmeaning? See,there’sthehouse。Doesitlooklikeabrothel? YouthinkIwanttoplaythepimpforyou,Andusetheverydaylightforalantern? That’srich。Butenterfirstandthere,perhaps,You’lllearnwhatyoudesire。 Lucindo。Iseeyourtrick。 Thestuffyoumadeitofisverycheap。 Youreallyseektoslipthehandthatholdsyou。 BegratefulthatthismomentImusthearyou; Buttemporisingwillcostyouyourlife。 (Theygointothehouse。Thecurtainfallsandanotherisraised。Amodern,elegantroom。Beatriceissittingonthesofa,aguitarbesideher。Lucindo,Pertini,Beatrice。) Pertini。Beatrice,ayoungtravellerIbring,Apleasantgentleman,mydistantkinsman。 Beatrice(toLucindo)。Welcome! Lucindo。ForgivemeifIfindnowords,Nospeechtoexpressmyheart’sastonishment。 Beautysorarequiteoverwhelmsthespirits; Thebloodleapshigh,butnotawordwillcome。 Beatrice。Fairwords,youngsir。Youareinapleasantmood。 Ithankyourdisposition,notthefavourThatNaturehasdeniedmesounkindly,When’tisyourtonguethatspeaks,andnotyourheart。 Lucindo。Oh,ifmyheartmightspeak,ifitmightonlyPourforthwhatyouhavequickenedinitsdepths,Thewordswouldallbeflamesofmelody,Andeverybreathawholeeternity,AHeaven,anEmpireinfinitelyvast,InwhichallliveswouldsparklebrightwiththoughtsFullofsoftyearning,fullofharmonies,LockingtheWorldsosweetlyinitsbreast,Streamingwithradianceofpureloveliness,Sinceeverywordwouldonlybearyourname! Pertini。Youwillnottakeitinbadpart,younglady,IfIexplaintoyouthatheisGermanAndalwaysravesofMelodyandSoul。 Beatrice。AGerman!ButIliketheGermanswell,AndIamproudtobeofthatsamestock。 Come,sithere,Germansir。(Sheoffershimaplaceonthesofa。) Lucindo。Thankyou,mylady。(AsidetoPertini。) Away!Thereisstilltime;hereIamlost! Beatrice(abashed)。DidIspeakoutofplace?(Lucindowantstospeak,butPertinicutsin。) Pertini。Spareusyourflourishesandyourflattery! Twasnothing,Beatrice;merelysomebusinessThatImuststillarrangeforhiminhaste。 Lucindo(confused,inalowvoice)。 ByGod,Pertini,youareplayingwithme! Pertini(aloud)。Takeitnotsotoheart,don’tbesoscared! Theladytrustsmyword,isitnotso? Beatrice,hemaystay,isitnotso,TillIamback。Andpleaseremember——prudence; Youareastranger,sonofoolishness。 Beatrice。Oh,come,youngsir,wasthenmywelcomesuchThatyoucouldthinkI’dbanishyou,astranger,FriendofPertini,anoldfriendofours,Unceremoniouslyfromthishouse,Whosehospitabledoorsareopentoall? Youneednotflatter,butyoumustbefair。 Lucindo。ByGod,yourgraciouskindnessoverwhelmsme! Youspeakasgentlyastheangelsspeak。 ForgiveifoverawedandovercomeBythewildstreamofpassionlongforgotten,Thelipsspokewhattheyoughttohaveconcealed。 YetseetheskyallclearandluminousSmiledownuponusfromtheclouds’bluerealm,Andseethecoloursthrobsosweetandbright,Nowwrappedinshadeandnowingentlelight,Minglinginharmoniessosoftandfull,Onelovelypicture,oneinspiredsoul。 Seethis,andthenbesilentifyourlipsObey。Butno!yourheartenchantedleaps,Prudenceandcircumspectionvanishedall。 Thelipsmustspeakwhatholdsyourheartinthrall。 EvenastheAeolianlyreisstirredtosoundWhenZephyrwrapshisflutteringpinionsround。 Beatrice。ReproofIcannotfindwithinmyheart,Youdressthepoison,sir,withsuchsweetart。 Lucindo(asidetoPertini)。 Confoundedvillain,yetgoodvillaintoo,WhatshallIdo?Getoutofhere,byGod! Pertini(aloud)。 Itranklesinhismind,rememberinghowItookthewordsoutofhismouthjustnow。 Inlanguagebeautifulhewouldhavetalked,Whenbymyinterruptionhewasbalked。 Butnevermind,’tisBeatrice’sbeliefYoukindlywishedtoaffordhersomereliefFromyourgrandtalk;likeanyGermanjest,Onceswallowed,it’snoteasytodigest。 Igo。 Lucindo(inalowvoice)。Butman! Pertini(aloud)。ThinkofthesympathiesThatfromthestomachtotheheartsoonrise; I’llsoonbebacktofetchyouswiftaway,Orelseinthissweetplacetoolongyou’llstay。 (Aside。)Imustbegone。Andwhilehepayshiscourt,I’llseetheoldmanbringsitalltonaught。 (ExitPertini。Lucindoisinconfusion。) Beatrice。AndmustIyetoncemorebidyoubeseated? Lucindo。I’llgladlysithereifyoutrulywishit。(Sitsdown。) Beatrice。OurfriendPertini’softenstrangelymoody。 Lucindo。Yes,strangelyso!Moststrangely!Verystrangely! (Pause。) Forgiveme,lady——youesteemthisman! Beatrice。Hehaslongbeenatruefriendofthehousehold,Andalwaystreatedmemostamiably。 Andyet——Iknownotwhy——Icannotbearhim。 He’softenviolent。Oftenfromhisbreast— Forgiveme,he’syourfriend——somesecretspiritCallsstrangely,inavoiceIdonotlike。 ItisasthoughsomeinnerturbulentdarknessShrankfromthedaylight’sopenlookofloveAndfearedtomakeresponse,asifheharbouredAnevilworsethanhistonguespeaks,worseevenThanhisheartdarestothink。Thisisbutsurmise,AndIdowrong,confidingitsosoon; Itissuspicion;suspicionisaviper。 Lucindo。Doyouregretconfidinginme,then? Beatrice。Wereitasecretthatconcernedmyself— Butoh,whatamIsaying!HaveyouwonMytrustalready?YetitisnotwrongThatIshouldtellyoueverythingIknow; Icouldconfideitalltoanyone,SinceIknownothingthat’snotknowntoall。 Lucindo。Toall?Wellsaid!Youwouldbekindtoall? Beatrice。Wouldyounottoo? Lucindo。Oangel,Osweetbeing! Beatrice。Youmakemefearful,sir。Whatmeanthesewords? Youjumpsosuddenlyfromthemetotheme! Lucindo。Imustactquickly,forthehourisstriking。 Whyhesitate?Deathisineveryminute。 CanIconcealit?It’samiracle,Ihavejustmetyou;strangethoughitappears,Wemighthaveknowneachothermanyyears。 ItisasifthemusicIheardsoundWithinmyownheart,livingformhadfound,Andintovibrant,warmrealityThespirit—bondunitingusbreaksfree。 Beatrice。Iwon’tdenyit:youarenottomeAstranger,yetstillstrangeyouare,unknown。 ButasdarkspiritswouldnotletusseeEachothertillthishour,sowemustownTheremaybeotherspiritswhosedeceitBindsuswithtreacherousbonds,howeversweet。 Foresightandwisdomwemustnotdespise; Thestrongestlightningstrikesnotfromdarkskies。 Lucindo。Ofairphilosopheroftheheart!OGod,Icanresistnomore,foryoucompelme! DonotimaginethatIdonotholdYouinrespectbecausemyheartgrowsbold。 Itthrobstobursting,allmynervesaretense。 Icanresistnomore。SoonI’llbegone,Far,farawayfromhere,fromyoudivided。 Then,worlds,plungedown,plungedownintotheabyss! Forgiveme,sweetmychild,forgivethehourThatdrivesmeonwardwithsuchviolentpower。 Iloveyou,Beatrice,byGodIswearit,AndLoveandBeatricemakebutonewordThatIcanutteronlyinonebreath,AndinthisthoughtI’dgotomeetmydeath。 Beatrice。Sincegoodcannevercomeofit,IpraySpeaknomorethus。If——butthiscannotbe—— Youweretowinmyheart,now,straightaway,Surelyyouwouldnolongerhonourme。 You’dsaythatIwasjustacommonthing,Ready,asthousandsare,tohaveherfling。 IfforamomentsuchanotioncrossedYourmind,thenloveandhonourwouldbelost。 Twouldmeanthatyoucaredformenotajot,Andself—reproachwouldhavetobemylot。 Lucindo。Tenderandlovelybeing,hearmeplead! Ifonlyinmybosomyoucouldread,Ineverlovedtillnow,byGodabove,Andyourreproachesmakeamockoflove。 Letthebasemerchanthaggleoverflaws,Byshrewddelaysmoreprofitstillhedraws。 Lovebringstheunionoftheworldsabout,Naughtisbeyond,andnaughtelsetodesire。 Letthosewhobindthemselvesinhatreddoubt。 LoveisaflashingsparkfromLife’sownfire,Magicthatholdsusinanopenring,Soyieldtoit——thisistheonlythingThatcountsinlove,notprudentcarefulness; Forloveisquicktokindle,quicktobless。 Beatrice。ShallIbemodest?Coy?No,Imustdare,Howeverhighmayleaptheflames’fierceflare。 YetmybreasttightensunderfearfulstrainAsifdelightweremixedwithsearingpain,AsifbetweenouruniontherecamefloatingAhissingsoundmixedinbydevilsgloating。 Lucindo。Itisthefirewhichyoudonotyetknow,Andtheoldlife,whichnowhasturnedtogoAwayfromus,isspeakingitslastword; Thenitsreproacheswillnomorebeheard。 Buttellme,Beatrice,howwillyoubemine! Beatrice。MyfatherwantstotiemetoamanWhomIwouldhateifIcouldhatemyfellows。 Butbeassuredyousoonwillhearfromme。 Whereareyoustaying,sweetfriendofmyheart? Lucindo。Why,atPertini’shouse。 Beatrice。I’llsendacourier。 Butnowyourname?MostsurelyitmustsoundAsdoesthemusicofthecirclingspheres。 Lucindo(inaseriousvoice)。Lucindoismyname。 Beatrice。Lucindo!Sweet,Sweetringsthatnametome。Ah,myLucindo,Heismyworld,myGod,myheart,myall。 Lucindo。Beatrice,that’syourself,andyouaremore,Youareyetmorethanall,foryouareBeatrice。(Hepressesherardentlytohisbreast。ThedoorburstsopenandWierinenters。) Wierin。Aprettysight!OBeatrice!Osnake! Puppetofvirtue,areyou,coldasmarble! Lucindo。Whatdoyoumeanbythis?Whatdoyouseek? ByGod,noapecouldeverlooksosleek。 Wierin。Damnedboy,you’llsoonenoughlearnwhatImean。 We’llspeaktogether,youandI,OrivalFashionedinhumanformtomakeitloathsome,Creaturepuffedupwithimpudentconceit,Apieceofblotting—papertowipepenson,Acomicheroofsomewretchedjape。 Lucindo。Andasremarked,beholdthecompleteape! Shameonyouthustobandywordswithme! Suchcourageislikebarrel—organmusicPlayedtoapaintedpictureofabattle。 Soontherealthingwillcount。 Wierin。Soon?Nowboy,nowwe’llhavethismatterout! B—b—byGod——myverybloodrunscold! Beatrice,I’llfinishoffthisparamour。 Lucindo。Silence,fellow,I’llfollowyouthisinstant。 (Pertinienters。) Pertini。What’sallthisnoise?Youthinkyou’reonthestreet?(ToWierin。) Whydoyouscreech,youcrow?I’llstopyourmouth!(Aside。) I’vecomejustinthenickoftime。ThefellowHassomewhatmisinterpretedmymeaning。 (Beatricefallsinafaint。) Lucindo。Help!Sheswoons!OGod! (Hebendsoverher。) Cometoyourself,angel,sweetspirit,speak!(Hekissesher。) Feelyouthewarmth?Hereyelidsflutter,shebreathes! Beatrice,whyareyouso?Oh,tellme,why? Youwanttokillme?CanIseeyouthus? (Heraisesherup,embracingher。Wierinwantstorushuponhim。Pertiniholdshimback。) Pertini。Come,friendCrow,justafewwordsinyourear。 Beatrice(inafaintvoice)。Lucindo,myLucindo,ah,mylostone,Andlosttome,myheart,beforeIwonyou。 Lucindo。Becalm,myangel,nothingshallbelost,AndsoonI’llseethisfellowbreathehislast。 (Hecarrieshertothesofa。) Liethereawhile;wecannotlongremain,Thisholyplacemustbearnoevilstain。 Wierin。Come,weshallspeaktogether。 Pertini。I’llcometoo。 Onesecondataduelissomethingnew。 Lucindo。Composeyourself,sweetchild,beofgoodcheer。 Beatrice。Farewell。 Lucindo。Angel,farewell。 Beatrice(withadeepsigh)。I’mfulloffear。 (Curtain。EndofActI。) Bookofverse——KarlMarxSONGTOTHESTARSYoudanceroundandaroundInshimmeringraysoflight,YoursoaringshapesaboundInnumberinfinite。 HerebreaksthenoblestSoul,Thefullheartburstsintwain,AndlikeajewelingoldIsclaspedbymortalpain。 ItturnsonyouitslookDarkly,compellingly,Fromyou,babe—like,wouldsuckHopeandEternity。 Alas,yourlightisneverMorethanaethereallyrare。 NodivinebeingeverCastintoyouhisfire。 Youarefalseimages,Facesofradiantflame; Heart’swarmthandtendernessAndSoulyoucannotclaim。 AmockeryisyourshiningOfAction,Pain,Desire。 OnyouisdashedallyearningAndtheheart’ssongoffire。 Grieving,wemustturngrey,Endindespairandpain,ThenseethemockeryThatEarthandHeavenremain; That,aswetrembleeven,Andworldswithinusdrown,Notreetrunk’severriven,Nostargoesplungingdown。 Deadyou’dbeotherwise,Yourgravetheoceanblue,Allgone,theshiningrays,Andallfirespentinyou。 Truthyou’dspeaksilently,Notdazzlewithdeadlight,Norshineinclarity; AndallroundwouldbeNight。