第4章

类别:其他 作者:William Ernest Henley字数:6792更新时间:18/12/18 09:40:10
Oulanem。Butweintendtomakealengthystay。 Pertini。EachdaythelessyouspendinpleasurehereWillbemyloss。 Oulanem。Oncemorewethankyouwarmly。 Pertini(callingaservant)。 Boy!Seethegentlemenuptotheirroom。 Theywishtotakesomerestaftertheirjourney; TheyalsowanttobealoneandchangeTheirheavytravellingclothesforlighterwear。 Oulanem。Wetakeourleave,butweshallsoonreturn。(OulanemandLucindogooutwiththeservant。) Pertini(alone,cautiouslylookinground)。 It’she,byGod,it’she;thedayhascome; He,theoldfriendInevercouldforget,Anymorethanmyconsciencegivesmerest。 That’sexcellent!NowI’llexchangemyconscience; Heshallbeithenceforth,yes,he,Oulanem。 So,conscience,nowmayitgowellwithyou。 Foreverynightyoustoodbeforemybed,YouwenttosleepwhenIdid,rosewithme—— Weknoweachother,man,myeyesuponit! What’smore,Iknowthatthereareothershere; TheyareOulanemalso,alsoOulanem! There’sdeathringsinthatname。Well,letitringTillinitsownervileitringsitslast。 Butwait,Ihaveitnow!Asclearasair,Firmasmybones,itcomesupfrommysoul。 Hisoathstandsupinarmsbeforemyeyes! I’vefoundit,andI’llseehefindsittoo! Myplanismade——youareitsverysoul,Yes,you,Oulanem,areitsverylife。 WouldyouworkDestinyas’twereapuppet? MakeHeavenaplaythingforyourcalculations? FabricateGodsoutofyouroldspentloins? Now,playyourpartoffpat,mylittleGod; Butwait——waitforyourcue——leavethattome! (EnterLucindo。)Scene2Pertini,Lucindo。 Pertini。Pray,whysomuchalone,mydearyoungsir? Lucindo。Curiosity。Theoldfindnothingnew。 Pertini。Indeed!Yourtimeoflife! Lucindo。No,butifeverMysoulcherishedastrongdesire,ifeverMyheartwasmovedbyapresentientyearning,ItwastocallhimFather,behisson,Thatone’swhosemanlyandimpassionedspiritCandrinkinworldsentire;whoseheartstreamsforthTheradianceoftheGods。Didyounotknowhim,ThenyoumightnotconceivethatsuchamanCouldbe。 Pertini。Itsoundsindeedmostfineandtender,WhenfromthewarmvoluptuouslipsofyouthThepraiseofAgestreamsforthliketonguesoffire。 Itsoundssomoral,likeaBiblesermon,JustlikethestoryoftheDameSusannah,OrlikethattaleabouttheProdigalSon。 ButdareIaskyouifyouknowthismanWithwhomyourheartwouldseemsocloselybound? Lucindo。Seem?Onlysemblance——semblanceanddelusion? Youhatemankind? Pertini。Well,attheveryleastIamaman! Lucindo。ForgiveifI’veoffended。 YouarefullwelldisposedtowardstheStranger,AndhewhogoesinfriendshiptotheWanderer,Hisspiritisnotlockedwithinitself。 Youseekananswer。Answeryoushallhave。 WearetogetherboundinastrangeunionDeepwoveninthebottomofourheartsWhich,evenasbrightblazingbrandsoffire,Thespiritsofhisbreastweaveroundwithradiance,Asifwell—wishingDemonsoftheLightWiththoughtfultendernesshadmatchedusboth。 ThushaveIknownhimsincelong,longago—— Solongago,thatMemoryscarcelywhispersOfourfirstmeeting。Howwefoundeachother,Iknowitnot。 Pertini。Itsoundsindeedromantic。 Andyet,mydearyoungsir,itisbutsoundThatsoundsonlytoparryarequest。 Lucindo。Isweartoit。 Pertini。Whatdoyouswearto,sir? Lucindo。Idonotknowhim,yetindeedIknowhim。 Hehidessomemysterydeepwithinhisbreast,WhichImaynotyetknow——notnow……notyet··· Thesewordsrepeatthemselveseachday,eachhour。 Forsee,Idonotknowmyself! Pertini。That’sbad! Lucindo。Istandheresocutoff,soseparate。 ThepoorestwretchtakesprideinwhatheisWhen,smiling,hetellsofthelinethatborehim,Cherishinginhishearteachlittledetail。 Icannotdothis。MencallmeLucindo,Buttheycouldcallmegallowstoo,ortree。 Pertini。Whatdoyouwant,then?Friendshipwiththegallows? Kinship,even?Well,Icanhelpyouthere! Lucindo(earnestly)。PlaynotwithemptysyllablesandsoundsWhenIrageinwardly。 Pertini。Rageon,myfriend,Tillrageisspent。 Lucindo(indignantly)。Whatdoyoumean? Pertini。Mean?Nothing!Iamadryhousephilistine,nomore,Amanwhosimplycallseachhouranhour,Whogoestosleepatnight—time,justtoriseWhenmorningcomesagain;whocountsthehoursUntilhe’scountedoutandtheclockstops,Andwormsbecomethehandsthatshowthetime; AndsoontillthefinalJudgmentDayWhenJesus,withtheAngelGabriel,Pronouncingsentenceonhiswrathfultrumpet,Readsoutthelistofourrecordedsins,Andstandsusontherightorontheleft,AndrunshisGod—fistoverallourhidesTofindoutwhetherwearelambsorwolves。 Lucindo。He’llnotnameme,becauseIhavenoname。 Pertini。Wellsaid!That’showIliketohearyouspeak! ButsinceI’mjustaplainhousephilistine,Mythoughtsarehomely,andIhandlethoughtsAsyoudostonesandsand。SoifamanCannotnamehisownfamily,butturnsUpwithanother,he’sanoff—shoot——bornOnthewrongsideoftheblanket。 Lucindo。Whatwasthat? Thinksoonerblackthesunandflatthemoon,Andneithersendingforthoneshaftoflight,Buthereasound——asurmise——andLifeweighsit。 Pertini。Myfriend,youmustnotimprovisesowildly。 Believeme,I’mnotpronetonervousfits! Butoff—shootsarequiteoftengreenandmessy,Yes,yes,theytaketheirownluxuriantwayAndshootupshiningtowardstheveryHeavens,Asiftheyknewthattheyhadsprungfromjoy,Begottenbynodullandslavishunion。 Forlookyou,off—shootsofthiskindaresatires; Nature’saPoet,Marriagesitsinachair,Itscapon,andwithalltheaccessories,Itssullenfacewithgrimacingdistorted,And,lyingatitsfeet,adustyparchmentScrawledoverwiththeparson’sblasphemies,Thechurch’sdismalhallstogiveperspective,Thechurlishrabblegapinginthebackground— Givemeoff—shoots! Lucindo(incensed)。ForGod’ssake,that’senough! Whatisit,man?Whatdoyoumean?Speakout; ButbytheEternalIshallspeakwithyouWhatdoIask?Liesitnotclearbeforeme,GrinsnotHelloutofit,doesitnotriseBeforemylooklikeDeath’sownwitheredshape,Toglareatmeandmutterthreatsofstorm? But,man,noteasily,believeyoume,Haveyouhurledfromyourwithereddevil’sfistThisblazingbrandoffireintomybreast: Fordonotthinkyouplaydicewithaboy,FlingingthedicewithshatteringforcestraightatHischildishhead。You’veplayedtoofastwithme。 Sonow——andmarkyouthis——we’regamingcomrades。 You’vequicklymadeyourselffamiliar。OutWithallthat’sheavinginyourvilesnake’sbosom! Andbeitmistrustonly,orderision,ThenIshallthrowitbackintoyourthroat,Andyouyourselfshallchokeyourpoisondown,AndthenI’llplaywithyou!Butspeak!Iwishit! Pertini。Youdo?YouthinkofFaustandMephistopheles。 You’vebroodedonthemdeeply,Idaresay。 Itellyou,no。Keepyourwishtoyourself,AndI’llthrowdustintoitssillyeyes。 Lucindo。Takecare。Don’tblowupontheglowingembersUntiltheflamesblazeupandyouyourselfAreburnttocinders! Pertini。Aphrase!Anemptyphrase! Theonlyonetheyburnwillbeyourself! Lucindo。Myself!Sobeit!TomyselfI’mnothing! Butyou,oh,youmyyouthfularmsenfoldAndtwinethemselvesinfrenzyroundyourbreast。 Theabyssyawnsgapingnighttobothofus,Ifyousinkdown,smiling,I’llfollowyou,Andwhispertoyou,\"Down!Comewithme!Comrade!\" Pertini。Itseemsyou’regiftedwithimagination。 Youhavedreamedmuchalreadyinyourlife? Lucindo。Justso。Iamadreamer,yes,adreamer。 WhatknowledgedoIwantfromyouwhohavenone? You’veonlyseenus,butyouknowusnot,Yethurlagainstmescornandblasphemy。 WhatamIwaitingfor?Stillmoreofyou? Youhavenomore……butIhavemoreforyou。 Forme——guilt,poison,shame——youmustredeemit。 You’vedrawnthecircle,anditleavesnoroomFortwoofus。Nowuseyourjumpingskill。 AsFatedraws,soitdraws。Soletitbe。 Pertini。YoumusthavereadthatendingoutinclassFromsomedry,dustyhookoftragedies。 Lucindo。True,thisistragedythatweareplaying。 Comeon,now。Whereandhowyouwant。Youchoose。 Pertini。Andwhen,andeverywhere,andanytime,Andnone! Lucindo。Coward,don’tmakeamockeryofmywords,OrI’llwritecowardacrossyourveryface,AndshoutitoutthrougheachandeverystreetAndthrashyoupublicly,ifyou’llnotfollow,IfyoudarecrackyourfeeblehackneyedjokesWhenmyheart’sbloodrunscoldwithinmyveins。 Notonewordmore;followordonotfollow,Yoursentenceispronounced,youcoward,youknave! Pertini(incensed)。Saythatagain,boy!Saythosewordsagain! Lucindo。Why,ifitbringsyoujoy——athousandtimes; IfitstirsupyourgallandsetsitflowingUntilthebloodstartsfuriousfromyoureyeballs,Thenhereitisagain:youknave,youcoward! Pertini。We’llhavethisout。Writethatuponyourbrain。 There’sstilloneplacetoknitustwotogether,AndthatisHell——Hellnotforme,butyou! Lucindo。Whycountthesyllables,ifitcanbesettledHereonthespot。ThenflyawaytoHell,AndtelltheDevilsitwasIthatsentyou! Pertini。Justonemoreword。 Lucindo。Whatistheuseofwords? Ihearthemnot。Blowbubblesinthewind,Drawlineamentsonyourfacetomatchyourwords,Iseethemnot。Bringweapons,letthemspeak,I’llputmywholeheartintothem,andifItbreaksnot,then— Pertini(interruptinghim)。 Notquitesobold,mylad,andnotsocallow! You,youhavenotathingtolose,no,nothing! Youareastonethat’sfallenfromthemoon,ThatsomeonesomewherescratchedonesinglewordYouspelledthelettersout:theyread\"Lucindo\"。 See!OnthatemptytabletI’llnotdareWagermyself,mylife,myhonour,all。 Youwanttousemybloodforartist’scolour? AmItobethebrushthatlendsyoutone? Wearetoofarremovedinrankandstation。 AmItostandagainstyouasyouare? IknowwhatIam。Tellme,whatareyou? Youknownot,arenot,youhavenaughttolose! Thief—like,youseektopledgetomeanhonourThatneverinyourbastard’sbosomglowed? Youseektoswindle,layyouremptyticketAgainstmysterlingworth,myfriend? Notso!Firstgetyouhonour,nameandlife— Youarestillnothing——thenI’llgladlystakeMyhonour,nameandlifeagainstyourown! Lucindo。Sothat’sit,coward!Youwanttosaveyourskin? You’veworkedthesumoutsoingeniously,Oh,soingeniously,inyourdullbrain? Donotdeceiveyourself:I’llchangeyouranswer,AndIshallwritedown\"coward\"initsplace。 I’llscornyouasIwouldamaddenedbeast; I’llshameyou,yes,shameyoubeforetheworld,Andthenyoucanexplain,withallthedetails,Toauntsanduncles,children,everyone,IcallmyselfLucindo,yes,Lucindo,Thatismyname;itmighthavebeensomeother; Igobyit,thoughitcouldhavebeendifferent。 Whatmencallbeing,Idonotpossess; Butyouarewhatyouare,andthat’sacoward! Pertini。That’snice,that’sverypretty。ButsupposingIcouldgiveyouaname——youhear,aname? Lucindo。Youhavenonameyourself,andyetyou’dgiveone,Youwhohaveneverseenme,savethisonce; Andseeing’salie,theeternalmockeryThathoundsusdown:wesee,andthatisall。 Pertini。Good。Butwhograspsmorethanisseen? Lucindo。Notyou。 You’veseeninallthingswhatyouare:ascoundrel。 Pertini。True;I’mnoteasilyfooledbythefirstglance。 Butthatman——hewasnotbornyesterday! Believeme,hehasseenathingortwo。 Whatifwekneweachother? Lucindo。Idon’tbelieveit。 Pertini。Butistherenotapoet,wondrousstrange,Agloomyaesthete,buttofridicule,Whospendshishoursinsubtlemeditation,WhowouldmakerhymesofLife,andwouldmostgladlyHimselfbeauthorofthepoemofLife? Lucindo。Ha!Itmightwellbechance。Youdon’tdeceiveme! Pertini。Chance!SuchisthelanguageofphilosophersWhenreasondoesn’tcometorescuethem。 Chance——it’ssoeasilysaid——onesyllable,Anameisalsochance。Anyone’snameMightbeOulanemifhehadnoother。 AndsoitispurechanceifIsocallhim。 Lucindo。Youknowhim?Heavens!Speak!InHeaven’sname! Pertini。Youknowtheboys’reward?Itsnameis——silence。 Lucindo。Itsickensmetoaskofyouafavour,ButIbeseechyou,byallyouholddear! Pertini。Dear?YouthinkthatIamgoingtobargain? Acoward,youknow,isdeaftoallentreaty。 Lucindo。Youmust,then,ifyouwouldwipeoutthetauntOfcoward,youmustspeakwithoutdelay。 Pertini。Let’sduelnow,I’llfightyouasyouare。 You’regoodenoughforme,soletusfight。 Lucindo。Don’tdrivemetotheextreme,nottothatvergeWheretherearenomorebounds,whereallthingsend。 Pertini。Listentohim!Wewanttotryextremes,AsFatedraws,soitdraws。Soletitbe! Lucindo。Ha!Istherenowayout,nohopeatall? Hisbreastashardasiron,allfeelingwithered,Cankeredanddriedwithscorn,hemixespoisonAndrubsitinforbalsam。Andhesmiles。 Thismaybeyourlasthour,man,yes,yourlast,Seizeit,absorbit,forinlessthannotimeYou’llstandbeforeyourJudge;sobreakthechainOfyourlife’sviciousactionswithonelast,Onelastgooddeed,onesolitaryword,Aslightlybreathedasair! Pertini。’Twaschance,goodfriend。 Believeme,Ibelieveinchancemyself。 Lucindo。InVain!——all——all——Butstop,youshallowfool,Itwon’tbesettledthatway,no,byGod! Yoursharpeyehasdeceivedyouonceagain。 I’llcallhimhereinperson。Thenyoumaystand,Beforehim,facetofaceandeyetoeye,Justlikealittleboycaughtdoingwrong。 Youcannotholdme,man!Outofmyway!(Herushesoff。) Pertini。Agreaterplannowrescuesyou,mylad; Pertinican’tforget,believeyoume! Pertini(calls)。Lucindo,ho!InHeaven’sname,comeback!(Lucindoreturns。) Lucindo。Whatwouldyou?Offwithyou! Pertini。There’shonourforyou! Go,telltheworthygentlemanwequarrelled; Youchallengedme,butbeingagoodboyAgoodboyandaverypiouschild!— Repented,beggedforgiveness,wereforgiven。 Thenshedapioustear,andkisshishand,Andcuttherodforyourrepentantback! Lucindo。Youdrivemetoit。 Pertini。Youletyourselfbedriven。 Thissoundsasmoralasachildren’sprimer。 DoyoubelieveinGod? Lucindo。Confesstoyou? Pertini。Don’tyoudemandthatIconfesstoyou? Ishall。Butsay,doyoubelieveinGod? Lucindo。What’sthattoyou? Pertini。It’shardlyfashionable,SoI’dmuchliketohearyoutellmeplainly。 Lucindo。Idon’tbelievewithwhatiscalledbelief,AndyetIknowHimasIknowmyself。 Pertini。We’lltalkofthatwhenmoodandmomentsuit; Howyoubelieveisallthesametome,Atleastyoudobelieve。Good。SwearbyHim。 Lucindo。What?Sweartoyou? Pertini。Yes,swearyoumustthatneverWillyourtongueblabasinglesyllable。 Lucindo。ByGod,Iswearit。 Pertini。Thenswearyou’llcherishonlyfriendshipforme。 See,Iamnotsobad——onlyoutspoken。 Lucindo。ByGod,IwouldnotswearitforaworldThatIlovedyouorheldyouinesteem。 IcannotandIwillnoteverswearit,Butwhatispast,letthatbeallwipedoutAsifitwerealoathsome,evildream。 I’llplungeitdownwherealldreamsdisappearto,Deepintherollingwavesofoblivion。 ThatIwillsweartoyoubyHimthat’sholy,Fromwhomtheworldscomewhirlingupthroughspace,WhowithHisglancebringsforthEternity,Iswear!Butnowtheguerdonformyoath。 Pertini。Come!Iwillleadyoutoaquietplace,Andshowyoumanyasight:rockyravines,WherelakeshavewelledupfromvolcanicEarth,Cradlinginquietudetheirroundedwaters; Andwheretheyearsrushpastinsilentsequence,Thenwillthestormindeedsubside,andthen—