Theylaughedwithpleasurewhentheywereinthehall。Theplaceseemedfullandbusy。
`DoyouknowifMrandMrsCrich——English——fromParis,havearrived?\'
BirkinaskedinGerman。
Theporterreflectedamoment,andwasjustgoingtoanswer,whenUrsulacaughtsightofGudrunsaunteringdownthestairs,wearingherdarkglossycoat,withgreyfur。
`Gudrun!Gudrun!\'shecalled,wavingupthewellofthestaircase。`Shu—hu!\'
Gudrunlookedovertherail,andimmediatelylosthersauntering,diffidentair。Hereyesflashed。
`Really——Ursula!\'shecried。AndshebegantomovedownstairsasUrsularanup。Theymetataturnandkissedwithlaughterandexclamationsinarticulateandstirring。
`But!\'criedGudrun,mortified。`Wethoughtitwastomorrowyouwerecoming!Iwantedtocometothestation。\'
`No,we\'vecometoday!\'criedUrsula。`Isn\'titlovelyhere!\'
`Adorable!\'saidGudrun。`Gerald\'sjustgoneouttogetsomething。Ursula,aren\'tyoufearfullytired?\'
`No,notsovery。ButIlookafilthysight,don\'tI!\'
`No,youdon\'t。Youlookalmostperfectlyfresh。Ilikethatfurcapimmensely!\'SheglancedoverUrsula,whoworeabigsoftcoatwithacollarofdeep,soft,blondfur,andasoftblondcapoffur。
`Andyou!\'criedUrsula。`Whatdoyouthinkyoulooklike!\'
Gudrunassumedanunconcerned,expressionlessface。
`Doyoulikeit?\'shesaid。
`It\'sveryfine!\'criedUrsula,perhapswithatouchofsatire。
`Goup——orcomedown,\'saidBirkin。Fortherethesistersstood,GudrunwithherhandonUrsula\'sarm,ontheturnofthestairshalfwaytothefirstlanding,blockingthewayandaffordingfullentertainmenttothewholeofthehallbelow,fromthedoorportertotheplumpJewinblackclothes。
Thetwoyoungwomenslowlymounted,followedbyBirkinandthewaiter。
`Firstfloor?\'askedGudrun,lookingbackoverhershoulder。
`SecondMadam——thelift!\'thewaiterreplied。Andhedartedtotheelevatortoforestallthetwowomen。Buttheyignoredhim,as,chatteringwithoutheed,theysettomountthesecondflight。Ratherchagrined,thewaiterfollowed。
Itwascurious,thedelightofthesistersineachother,atthismeeting。
Itwasasiftheymetinexile,andunitedtheirsolitaryforcesagainstalltheworld。Birkinlookedonwithsomemistrustandwonder。
Whentheyhadbathedandchanged,Geraldcamein。Helookedshininglikethesunonfrost。
`GowithGeraldandsmoke,\'saidUrsulatoBirkin。`GudrunandIwanttotalk。\'
ThenthesisterssatinGudrun\'sbedroom,andtalkedclothes,andexperiences。
GudruntoldUrsulatheexperienceoftheBirkinletterinthecafe。Ursulawasshockedandfrightened。
`Whereistheletter?\'sheasked。
`Ikeptit,\'saidGudrun。
`You\'llgiveitme,won\'tyou?\'shesaid。
ButGudrunwassilentforsomemoments,beforeshereplied:
`Doyoureallywantit,Ursula?\'
`Iwanttoreadit,\'saidUrsula。
`Certainly,\'saidGudrun。
Evennow,shecouldnotadmit,toUrsula,thatshewantedtokeepit,asamemento,orasymbol。ButUrsulaknew,andwasnotpleased。Sothesubjectwasswitchedoff。
`WhatdidyoudoinParis?\'askedUrsula。
`Oh,\'saidGudrunlaconically——`theusualthings。WehadafinepartyonenightinFannyBath\'sstudio。\'
`Didyou?AndyouandGeraldwerethere!Whoelse?Tellmeaboutit。\'
`Well,\'saidGudrun。`There\'snothingparticulartotell。YouknowFannyisfrightfullyinlovewiththatpainter,BillyMacfarlane。Hewasthere——soFannysparednothing,shespentveryfreely。Itwasreallyremarkable!Ofcourse,everybodygotfearfullydrunk——butinaninterestingway,notlikethatfilthyLondoncrowd。Thefactisthesewereallpeoplethatmatter,whichmakesallthedifference。TherewasaRoumanian,afinechap。Hegotcompletelydrunk,andclimbedtothetopofahighstudioladder,andgavethemostmarvellousaddress——really,Ursula,itwaswonderful!HebeganinFrench——Lavie,c\'estuneaffaired\'amesimperiales——inamostbeautifulvoice——hewasafine—lookingchap——
buthehadgotintoRoumanianbeforehehadfinished,andnotasoulunderstood。
ButDonaldGilchristwasworkedtoafrenzy。Hedashedhisglasstotheground,anddeclared,byGod,hewasgladhehadbeenborn,byGod,itwasamiracletobealive。Anddoyouknow,Ursula,soitwas——\'Gudrunlaughedratherhollowly。
`ButhowwasGeraldamongthemall?\'askedUrsula。
`Gerald!Oh,myword,hecameoutlikeadandelioninthesun!He\'sawholesaturnaliainhimself,onceheisroused。Ishouldn\'tliketosaywhosewaisthisarmdidnotgoround。Really,Ursula,heseemstoreapthewomenlikeaharvest。Therewasn\'tonethatwouldhaveresistedhim。
Itwastooamazing!Canyouunderstandit?\'
Ursulareflected,andadancinglightcameintohereyes。
`Yes,\'shesaid。`Ican。Heissuchawhole—hogger。\'
`Whole—hogger!Ishouldthinkso!\'exclaimedGudrun。`Butitistrue,Ursula,everywomanintheroomwasreadytosurrendertohim。Chanticleerisn\'tinit——evenFannyBath,whoisgenuinelyinlovewithBillyMacfarlane!Ineverwasmoreamazedinmylife!Andyouknow,afterwards——IfeltIwasawholeroomfulofwomen。Iwasnomoremyselftohim,thanIwasQueenVictoria。Iwasawholeroomfulofwomenatonce。
Itwasmostastounding!Butmyeye,I\'dcaughtaSultanthattime——\'
Gudrun\'seyeswereflashing,hercheekwashot,shelookedstrange,exotic,satiric。Ursulawasfascinatedatonce——andyetuneasy。
Theyhadtogetreadyfordinner。Gudruncamedowninadaringgownofvividgreensilkandtissueofgold,withgreenvelvetbodiceandastrangeblack—and—whitebandroundherhair。Shewasreallybrilliantlybeautifulandeverybodynoticedher。Geraldwasinthatfull—blooded,gleamingstatewhenhewasmosthandsome。Birkinwatchedthemwithquick,laughing,half—sinistereyes,Ursulaquitelostherhead。Thereseemedaspell,almostablindingspell,castroundtheirtable,asiftheywerelightedupmorestronglythantherestofthedining—room。
`Don\'tyoulovetobeinthisplace?\'criedGudrun。`Isn\'tthesnowwonderful!Doyounoticehowitexaltseverything?Itissimplymarvellous。
Onereallydoesfeeliibermenschlich——morethanhuman。\'
`Onedoes,\'criedUrsula。`Butisn\'tthatpartlythebeingoutofEngland?\'
`Oh,ofcourse,\'criedGudrun。`OnecouldneverfeellikethisinEngland,forthesimplereasonthatthedamperisneverliftedoffone,there。
Itisquiteimpossiblereallytoletgo,inEngland,ofthatIamassured。\'
Andsheturnedagaintothefoodshewaseating。Shewasflutteringwithvividintensity。
`It\'squitetrue,\'saidGerald,`itneverisquitethesameinEngland。
Butperhapswedon\'twantittobe——perhapsit\'slikebringingthelightalittletoonearthepowder—magazine,toletgoaltogether,inEngland。
Oneisafraidwhatmighthappen,ifeverybodyelseletgo。\'
`MyGod!\'criedGudrun。`Butwouldn\'titbewonderful,ifallEnglanddidsuddenlygoofflikeadisplayoffireworks。\'
`Itcouldn\'t,\'saidUrsula。`Theyarealltoodamp,thepowderisdampinthem。\'
`I\'mnotsosureofthat,\'saidGerald。
`NorI,\'saidBirkin。`WhentheEnglishreallybegintogooff,enmasse,it\'llbetimetoshutyourearsandrun。\'
`Theyneverwill,\'saidUrsula。
`We\'llsee,\'hereplied。
`Isn\'titmarvellous,\'saidGudrun,`howthankfulonecanbe,tobeoutofone\'scountry。Icannotbelievemyself,Iamsotransported,themomentIsetfootonaforeignshore。Isaytomyself\"Herestepsanewcreatureintolife。\"\'
`Don\'tbetoohardonpooroldEngland,\'saidGerald。`Thoughwecurseit,weloveitreally。\'
ToUrsula,thereseemedafundofcynicisminthesewords。
`Wemay,\'saidBirkin。`Butit\'sadamnablyuncomfortablelove:likealoveforanagedparentwhosuffershorriblyfromacomplicationofdiseases,forwhichthereisnohope。\'
Gudrunlookedathimwithdilateddarkeyes。
`Youthinkthereisnohope?\'sheasked,inherpertinentfashion。
ButBirkinbackedaway。Hewouldnotanswersuchaquestion。
`AnyhopeofEngland\'sbecomingreal?Godknows。It\'sagreatactualunrealitynow,anaggregationintounreality。Itmightbereal,iftherewerenoEnglishmen。\'
`YouthinktheEnglishwillhavetodisappear?\'persistedGudrun。Itwasstrange,herpointedinterestinhisanswer。Itmighthavebeenherownfateshewasinquiringafter。Herdark,dilatedeyesrestedonBirkin,asifshecouldconjurethetruthofthefutureoutofhim,asoutofsomeinstrumentofdivination。
Hewaspale。Then,reluctantly,heanswered:
`Well——whatelseisinfrontofthem,butdisappearance?They\'vegottodisappearfromtheirownspecialbrandofEnglishness,anyhow。\'
Gudrunwatchedhimasifinahypnoticstate,hereyeswideandfixedonhim。
`Butinwhatwaydoyoumean,disappear?——\'shepersisted。
`Yes,doyoumeanachangeofheart?\'putinGerald。
`Idon\'tmeananything,whyshouldI?\'saidBirkin。`I\'manEnglishman,andI\'vepaidthepriceofit。Ican\'ttalkaboutEngland——Icanonlyspeakformyself。\'
`Yes,\'saidGudrunslowly,`youloveEnglandimmensely,immensely,Rupert。\'
`Andleaveher,\'hereplied。
`No,notforgood。You\'llcomeback,\'saidGerald,noddingsagely。
`Theysaythelicecrawloffadyingbody,\'saidBirkin,withaglareofbitterness。`SoIleaveEngland。\'
`Ah,butyou\'llcomeback,\'saidGudrun,withasardonicsmile。
`Tantpispourmoi,\'hereplied。
`Isn\'theangrywithhismothercountry!\'laughedGerald,amused。
`Ah,apatriot!\'saidGudrun,withsomethinglikeasneer。
Birkinrefusedtoansweranymore。
Gudrunwatchedhimstillforafewseconds。Thensheturnedaway。Itwasfinished,herspellofdivinationinhim。Shefeltalreadypurelycynical。
ShelookedatGerald。Hewaswonderfullikeapieceofradiumtoher。Shefeltshecouldconsumeherselfandknowall,bymeansofthisfatal,livingmetal。Shesmiledtoherselfatherfancy。Andwhatwouldshedowithherself,whenshehaddestroyedherself?Forifspirit,ifintegralbeingisdestructible,Matterisindestructible。
Hewaslookingbrightandabstracted,puzzled,forthemoment。Shestretchedoutherbeautifularm,withitsfluffofgreentulle,andtouchedhischinwithhersubtle,artist\'sfingers。
`Whataretheythen?\'sheasked,withastrange,knowingsmile。
`What?\'hereplied,hiseyessuddenlydilatingwithwonder。
`Yourthoughts。\'
Geraldlookedlikeamancomingawake。
`IthinkIhadnone,\'hesaid。
`Really!\'shesaid,withgravelaughterinhervoice。
AndtoBirkinitwasasifshekilledGerald,withthattouch。
`Ahbut,\'criedGudrun,`letusdrinktoBritannia——letusdrinktoBritannia。\'
Itseemedtherewaswilddespairinhervoice。Geraldlaughed,andfilledtheglasses。
`IthinkRupertmeans,\'hesaid,`thatnationallyallEnglishmenmustdie,sothattheycanexistindividuallyand——\'
`Super—nationally——\'putinGudrun,withaslightironicgrimace,raisingherglass。
Thenextday,theydescendedatthetinyrailwaystationofHohenhausen,attheendofthetinyvalleyrailway。Itwassnoweverywhere,awhite,perfectcradleofsnow,newandfrozen,sweepingupaneitherside,blackcrags,andwhitesweepsofsilvertowardsthebluepaleheavens。
Astheysteppedoutonthenakedplatform,withonlysnowaroundandabove,Gudrunshrankasifitchilledherheart。
`MyGod,Jerry,\'shesaid,turningtoGeraldwithsuddenintimacy,`you\'vedoneitnow。\'
`What?\'
Shemadeafaintgesture,indicatingtheworldoneitherhand。
`Lookatit!\'
Sheseemedafraidtogoon。Helaughed。
Theywereintheheartofthemountains。Fromhighabove,oneitherside,sweptdownthewhitefoldofsnow,sothatoneseemedsmallandtinyinavalleyofpureconcreteheaven,allstrangelyradiantandchangelessandsilent。
`Itmakesonefeelsosmallandalone,\'saidUrsula,turningtoBirkinandlayingherhandonhisarm。
`You\'renotsorryyou\'vecome,areyou?\'saidGeraldtoGudrun。
Shelookeddoubtful。Theywentoutofthestationbetweenbanksofsnow。
`Ah,\'saidGerald,sniffingtheairinelation,`thisisperfect。There\'soursledge。We\'llwalkabit——we\'llrunuptheroad。\'
Gudrun,alwaysdoubtful,droppedherheavycoatonthesledge,ashedidhis,andtheysetoff。Suddenlyshethrewupherheadandsetoffscuddingalongtheroadofsnow,pullinghercapdownoverherears。Herblue,brightdressflutteredinthewind,herthickscarletstockingswerebrilliantabovethewhiteness。Geraldwatchedher:sheseemedtoberushingtowardsherfate,andleavinghimbehind。Helethergetsomedistance,then,looseninghislimbs,hewentafterher。
Everywherewasdeepandsilentsnow。Greatsnow—eavesweigheddownthebroad—roofedTyrolesehouses,thatweresunktothewindow—sashesinsnow。
Peasant—women,full—skirted,wearingeachacross—overshawl,andthicksnow—boots,turnedinthewaytolookatthesoft,determinedgirlrunningwithsuchheavyfleetnessfromtheman,whowasovertakingher,butnotgaininganypoweroverher。
Theypassedtheinnwithitspaintedshuttersandbalcony,afewcottages,halfburiedinthesnow;thenthesnow—buriedsilentsawmillbytheroofedbridge,whichcrossedthehiddenstream,overwhichtheyranintotheverydepthoftheuntouchedsheetsofsnow。Itwasasilenceandasheerwhitenessexhilaratingtomadness。Buttheperfectsilencewasmostterrifying,isolatingthesoul,surroundingtheheartwithfrozenair。
`It\'samarvellousplace,forallthat,\'saidGudrun,lookingintohiseyeswithastrange,meaninglook。Hissoulleapt。
`Good,\'hesaid。
Afierceelectricenergyseemedtoflowoverallhislimbs,hismusclesweresurcharged,hishandsfelthardwithstrength。Theywalkedalongrapidlyupthesnow—road,thatwasmarkedbywitheredbranchesoftreesstuckinatintervals。Heandshewereseparate,likeoppositepolesofonefierceenergy。Buttheyfeltpowerfulenoughtoleapovertheconfinesoflifeintotheforbiddenplaces,andbackagain。
BirkinandUrsulawererunningalongalso,overthesnow。Hehaddisposedoftheluggage,andtheyhadalittlestartofthesledges。Ursulawasexcitedandhappy,butshekeptturningsuddenlytocatchholdofBirkin\'sarm,tomakesureofhim。
`ThisissomethingIneverexpected,\'shesaid。`Itisadifferentworld,here。\'
Theywentonintoasnowmeadow。Theretheywereovertakenbythesledge,thatcametinklingthroughthesilence。ItwasanothermilebeforetheycameuponGudrunandGeraldonthesteepup—climb,besidethepink,half—buriedshrine。
Thentheypassedintoagulley,wherewerewallsofblackrockandariverfilledwithsnow,andastillblueskyabove。Throughacoveredbridgetheywent,drummingroughlyovertheboards,crossingthesnow—bedoncemore,thenslowlyupandup,thehorseswalkingswiftly,thedrivercrackinghislongwhipashewalkedbeside,andcallinghisstrangewildhue—hue!,thewallsofrockpassingslowlyby,tilltheyemergedagainbetweenslopesandmassesofsnow。Upandup,graduallytheywent,throughthecoldshadow—radianceoftheafternoon,silencedbytheimminenceofthemountains,theluminous,dazingsidesofsnowthatroseabovethemandfellawaybeneath。
Theycameforthatlastinalittlehightable—landofsnow,wherestoodthelastpeaksofsnowliketheheartpetalsofanopenrose。Inthemidstofthelastdesertedvalleysofheavenstoodalonelybuildingwithbrownwoodenwallsandwhiteheavyroof,deepanddesertedinthewasteofsnow,likeadream。Itstoodlikearockthathadrolleddownfromthelaststeepslopes,arockthathadtakentheformofahouse,andwasnowhalf—buried。
Itwasunbelievablethatonecouldlivethereuncrushedbyallthisterriblewasteofwhitenessandsilenceandclear,upper,ringingcold。
Yetthesledgesranupinfinestyle,peoplecametothedoorlaughingandexcited,thefloorofthehostelranghollow,thepassagewaswetwithsnow,itwasareal,warminterior。
Thenew—comerstrampedupthebarewoodenstairs,followingtheservingwoman。GudrunandGeraldtookthefirstbedroom。Inamomenttheyfoundthemselvesaloneinabare,smallish,close—shutroomthatwasallofgolden—colouredwood,floor,walls,ceiling,door,allofthesamewarmgoldpanellingofoiledpine。Therewasawindowoppositethedoor,butlowdown,becausetheroofsloped。Undertheslopeoftheceilingwerethetablewithwash—handbowlandjug,andacross,anothertablewithmirror。Oneithersidethedoorweretwobedspiledhighwithanenormousblue—checkedoverbolster,enormous。
Thiswasall——nocupboard,noneoftheamenitiesoflife。Heretheywereshutuptogetherinthiscellofgolden—colouredwood,withtwobluecheckedbeds。Theylookedateachotherandlaughed,frightenedbythisnakednearnessofisolation。
Amanknockedandcameinwiththeluggage。Hewasasturdyfellowwithflattishcheek—bones,ratherpale,andwithcoarsefairmoustache。Gudrunwatchedhimputdownthebags,insilence,thentrampheavilyout。
`Itisn\'ttoorough,isit?\'Geraldasked。
Thebedroomwasnotverywarm,andsheshiveredslightly。
`Itiswonderful,\'sheequivocated。`Lookatthecolourofthispanelling——it\'swonderful,likebeinginsideanut。\'
Hewasstandingwatchingher,feelinghisshort—cutmoustache,leaningbackslightlyandwatchingherwithhiskeen,undauntedeyes,dominatedbytheconstantpassion,thatwaslikeadoomuponhim。
Shewentandcroucheddowninfrontofthewindow,curious。
`Oh,butthis——!\'shecriedinvoluntarily,almostinpain。
Infrontwasavalleyshutinunderthesky,thelasthugeslopesofsnowandblackrock,andattheend,likethenaveloftheearth,awhite—foldedwall,andtwopeaksglimmeringinthelatelight。Straightinfrontranthecradleofsilentsnow,betweenthegreatslopesthatwerefringedwithalittleroughnessofpine—trees,likehair,roundthebase。Butthecradleofsnowranontotheeternalclosing—in,wherethewallsofsnowandrockroseimpenetrable,andthemountainpeaksabovewereinheavenimmediate。
Thiswasthecentre,theknot,thenaveloftheworld,wheretheearthbelongedtotheskies,pure,unapproachable,impassable。
ItfilledGudrunwithastrangerapture。Shecrouchedinfrontofthewindow,clenchingherfaceinherhands,inasortoftrance。Atlastshehadarrived,shehadreachedherplace。Hereatlastshefoldedherventureandsettleddownlikeacrystalinthenavelofsnow,andwasgone。
Geraldbentaboveherandwaslookingoutoverhershoulder。Alreadyhefelthewasalone。Shewasgone。Shewascompletelygone,andtherewasicyvapourroundhisheart。Hesawtheblindvalley,thegreatcul—de—sacofsnowandmountainpeaks,undertheheaven。Andtherewasnowayout。
Theterriblesilenceandcoldandtheglamorouswhitenessoftheduskwrappedhimround,andsheremainedcrouchingbeforethewindow,asatashrine,ashadow。
`Doyoulikeit?\'heasked,inavoicethatsoundeddetachedandforeign。
Atleastshemightacknowledgehewaswithher。Butsheonlyavertedhersoft,mutefacealittlefromhisgaze。Andheknewthatthereweretearsinhereyes,herowntears,tearsofherstrangereligion,thatputhimtonought。
Quitesuddenly,heputhishandunderherchinandliftedupherfacetohim。Herdarkblueeyes,intheirwetnessoftears,dilatedasifshewasstartledinherverysoul。Theylookedathimthroughtheirtearsinterrorandalittlehorror。Hislightblueeyeswerekeen,small—pupilledandunnaturalintheirvision。Herlipsparted,asshebreathedwithdifficulty。
Thepassioncameupinhim,strokeafterstroke,liketheringingofabronzebell,sostrongandunflawedandindomitable。Hiskneestightenedtobronzeashehungabovehersoftface,whoselipspartedandwhoseeyesdilatedinastrangeviolation。Inthegraspofhishandherchinwasunutterablysoftandsilken。Hefeltstrongaswinter,hishandswerelivingmetal,invincibleandnottobeturnedaside。Hisheartranglikeabellclanginginsidehim。
Hetookherupinhisarms。Shewassoftandinert,motionless。Allthewhilehereyes,inwhichthetearshadnotyetdried,weredilatedasifinakindofswoonoffascinationandhelplessness。Hewassuperhumanlystrong,andunflawed,asifinvestedwithsupernaturalforce。
Heliftedhercloseandfoldedheragainsthim。Hersoftness,herinert,relaxedweightlayagainsthisownsurcharged,bronze—likelimbsinaheavinessofdesirabilitythatwoulddestroyhim,ifhewerenotfulfilled。Shemovedconvulsively,recoilingawayfromhim。Hisheartwentuplikeaflameofice,heclosedoverherlikesteel。Hewoulddestroyherratherthanbedenied。
Buttheoverweeningpowerofhisbodywastoomuchforher。Sherelaxedagain,andlaylooseandsoft,pantinginalittledelirium。Andtohim,shewassosweet,shewassuchblissofrelease,thathewouldhavesufferedawholeeternityoftortureratherthanforegoonesecondofthispangofunsurpassablebliss。
`MyGod,\'hesaidtoher,hisfacedrawnandstrange,transfigured,`whatnext?\'
Shelayperfectlystill,withastill,child—likefaceanddarkeyes,lookingathim。Shewaslost,fallenrightaway。
`Ishallalwaysloveyou,\'hesaid,lookingather。
Butshedidnothear。Shelay,lookingathimasatsomethingshecouldneverunderstand,never:asachildlooksatagrown—upperson,withouthopeofunderstanding,onlysubmitting。
Hekissedher,kissedhereyesshut,sothatshecouldnotlookanymore。Hewantedsomethingnow,somerecognition,somesign,someadmission。
Butsheonlylaysilentandchild—likeandremote,likeachildthatisovercomeandcannotunderstand,onlyfeelslost。Hekissedheragain,givingup。
`ShallwegodownandhavecoffeeandKuchen?\'heasked。
Thetwilightwasfallingslate—blueatthewindow。Sheclosedhereyes,closedawaythemonotonouslevelofdeadwonder,andopenedthemagaintotheevery—dayworld。
`Yes,\'shesaidbriefly,regainingherwillwithaclick。Shewentagaintothewindow。Blueeveninghadfallenoverthecradleofsnowandoverthegreatpallidslopes。Butintheheaventhepeaksofsnowwererosy,glisteningliketranscendent,radiantspikesofblossomintheheavenlyupper—world,solovelyandbeyond。
Gudrunsawalltheirloveliness,sheknewhowimmortallybeautifultheywere,greatpistilsofrose—coloured,snow—fedfireinthebluetwilightoftheheaven。Shecouldseeit,sheknewit,butshewasnotofit。Shewasdivorced,debarred,asoulshutout。
Withalastlookofremorse,sheturnedaway,andwasdoingherhair。
Hehadunstrappedtheluggage,andwaswaiting,watchingher。Sheknewhewaswatchingher。Itmadeheralittlehastyandfeverishinherprecipitation。
Theywentdownstairs,bothwithastrangeother—worldlookontheirfaces,andwithaglowintheireyes。TheysawBirkinandUrsulasittingatthelongtableinacorner,waitingforthem。
`Howgoodandsimpletheylooktogether,\'Gudrunthought,jealously。
Sheenviedthemsomespontaneity,achildishsufficiencytowhichsheherselfcouldneverapproach。Theyseemedsuchchildrentoher。
`SuchgoodKranzkuchen!\'criedUrsulagreedily。`Sogood!\'
`Right,\'saidGudrun。`CanwehaveKaffeemitKranzkuchen?\'sheaddedtothewaiter。
AndsheseatedherselfonthebenchbesideGerald。Birkin,lookingatthem,feltapainoftendernessforthem。
`Ithinktheplaceisreallywonderful,Gerald,\'hesaid;`prachtvollandwunderbarandwunderschonandunbeschreiblichandalltheotherGermanadjectives。\'
Geraldbrokeintoaslightsmile。
`Ilikeit,\'hesaid。
Thetables,ofwhitescrubbedwood,wereplacedroundthreesidesoftheroom,asinaGasthaus。BirkinandUrsulasatwiththeirbackstothewall,whichwasofoiledwood,andGeraldandGudrunsatinthecornernextthem,neartothestove。Itwasafairlylargeplace,withatinybar,justlikeacountryinn,butquitesimpleandbare,andallofoiledwood,ceilingsandwallsandfloor,theonlyfurniturebeingthetablesandbenchesgoingroundthreesides,thegreatgreenstove,andthebarandthedoorsonthefourthside。Thewindowsweredouble,andquiteuncurtained。
Itwasearlyevening。
Thecoffeecame——hotandgood——andawholeringofcake。
`AwholeKuchen!\'criedUrsula。`Theygiveyoumorethanus!Iwantsomeofyours。\'
Therewereotherpeopleintheplace,tenaltogether,soBirkinhadfoundout:twoartists,threestudents,amanandwife,andaProfessorandtwodaughters——allGermans。ThefourEnglishpeople,beingnewcomers,satintheircoignofvantagetowatch。TheGermanspeepedinatthedoor,calledawordtothewaiter,andwentawayagain。Itwasnotmeal—time,sotheydidnotcomeintothisdining—room,butbetookthemselves,whentheirbootswerechanged,totheReunionsaal。
TheEnglishvisitorscouldheartheoccasionaltwangingofazither,thestrummingofapiano,snatchesoflaughterandshoutingandsinging,afaintvibrationofvoices。Thewholebuildingbeingofwood,itseemedtocarryeverysound,likeadrum,butinsteadofincreasingeachparticularnoise,itdecreasedit,sothatthesoundofthezitherseemedtiny,asifadiminutivezitherwereplayingsomewhere,anditseemedthepianomustbeasmallone,likealittlespinet。
Thehostcamewhenthecoffeewasfinished。HewasaTyrolese,broad,ratherflat—cheeked,withapale,pock—markedskinandflourishingmoustaches。