`What\'sthematter?\'hesaidagain,whenshewasquieter。Butsheonlypressedherfacefurtherintohisshoulder,inpain,likeachildthatcannottell。
`Whatisit,then?\'heasked。Suddenlyshebrokeaway,wipedhereyes,regainedhercomposure,andwentandsatinachair。
`Fatherhitme,\'sheannounced,sittingbunchedup,ratherlikearuffledbird,hereyesverybright。
`Whatfor?\'hesaid。
Shelookedaway,andwouldnotanswer。Therewasapitifulrednessabouthersensitivenostrils,andherquiveringlips。
`Why?\'herepeated,inhisstrange,soft,penetratingvoice。
Shelookedroundathim,ratherdefiantly。
`BecauseIsaidIwasgoingtobemarriedtomorrow,andhebulliedme。\'
`Whydidhebullyyou?\'
Hermouthdroppedagain,sherememberedthesceneoncemore,thetearscameup。
`BecauseIsaidhedidn\'tcare——andhedoesn\'t,it\'sonlyhisdomineeringnessthat\'shurt——\'shesaid,hermouthpulledawrybyherweeping,allthetimeshespoke,sothathealmostsmiled,itseemedsochildish。Yetitwasnotchildish,itwasamortalconflict,adeepwound。
`Itisn\'tquitetrue,\'hesaid。`Andevenso,youshouldn\'tsayit。\'
`Itistrue——itistrue,\'shewept,`andIwon\'tbebulliedbyhispretendingit\'slove——whenitisn\'t——hedoesn\'tcare,howcanhe——no,hecan\'t——\'
Hesatinsilence。Shemovedhimbeyondhimself。
`Thenyoushouldn\'trousehim,ifhecan\'t,\'repliedBirkinquietly。
`AndIhavelovedhim,Ihave,\'shewept。`I\'velovedhimalways,andhe\'salwaysdonethistome,hehas——\'
`It\'sbeenaloveofopposition,then,\'hesaid。`Nevermind——itwillbeallright。It\'snothingdesperate。\'
`Yes,\'shewept,`itis,itis。\'
`Why?\'
`Ishallneverseehimagain——\'
`Notimmediately。Don\'tcry,youhadtobreakwithhim,ithadtobe——don\'tcry。\'
Hewentovertoherandkissedherfine,fragilehair,touchingherwetcheeksgently。
`Don\'tcry,\'herepeated,`don\'tcryanymore。\'
Heheldherheadcloseagainsthim,verycloseandquiet。
Atlastshewasstill。Thenshelookedup,hereyeswideandfrightened。
`don\'tyouwantme?\'sheasked。
`Wantyou?\'Hisdarkened,steadyeyespuzzledheranddidnotgiveherplay。
`DoyouwishIhadn\'tcome?\'sheasked,anxiousnowagainforfearshemightbeoutofplace。
`No,\'hesaid。`Iwishtherehadn\'tbeentheviolence——somuchugliness——butperhapsitwasinevitable。\'
Shewatchedhiminsilence。Heseemeddeadened。
`ButwhereshallIstay?\'sheasked,feelinghumiliated。
Hethoughtforamoment。
`Here,withme,\'hesaid。`We\'remarriedasmuchtodayasweshallbetomorrow。\'
`But——\'
`I\'lltellMrsVarley,\'hesaid。`Nevermindnow。\'
Hesatlookingather。Shecouldfeelhisdarkenedsteadyeyeslookingatherallthetime。Itmadeheralittlebitfrightened。Shepushedherhairoffherforeheadnervously。
`DoIlookugly?\'shesaid。
Andsheblewhernoseagain。
Asmallsmilecameroundhiseyes。
`No,\'hesaid,`fortunately。\'
Andhewentacrosstoher,andgatheredherlikeabelonginginhisarms。Shewassotenderlybeautiful,hecouldnotbeartoseeher,hecouldonlybeartohideheragainsthimself。Now;washedallcleanbyhertears,shewasnewandfraillikeaflowerjustunfolded,aflowersonew,sotender,somadeperfectbyinnerlight,thathecouldnotbeartolookather,hemusthideheragainsthimself,coverhiseyesagainsther。Shehadtheperfectcandourofcreation,somethingtranslucentandsimple,likearadiant,shiningflowerthatmomentunfoldedinprimalblessedness。
Shewassonew,sowonder—clear,soundimmed。Andhewassoold,sosteepedinheavymemories。Hersoulwasnew,undefinedandglimmeringwiththeunseen。Andhissoulwasdarkandgloomy,ithadonlyonegrainoflivinghope,likeagrainofmustardseed。Butthisonelivinggraininhimmatchedtheperfectyouthinher。
`Iloveyou,\'hewhisperedashekissedher,andtrembledwithpurehope,likeamanwhoisbornagaintoawonderful,livelyhopefarexceedingtheboundsofdeath。
Shecouldnotknowhowmuchitmeanttohim,howmuchhemeantbythefewwords。Almostchildish,shewantedproof,andstatement,evenover—statement,foreverythingseemedstilluncertain,unfixedtoher。
Butthepassionofgratitudewithwhichhereceivedherintohissoul,theextreme,unthinkablegladnessofknowinghimselflivingandfittounitewithher,he,whowassonearlydead,whowassoneartobeinggonewiththerestofhisracedowntheslopeofmechanicaldeath,couldneverbeunderstoodbyher。Heworshippedherasageworshipsyouth,hegloriedinher,because,inhisonegrainoffaith,hewasyoungasshe,hewasherpropermate。Thismarriagewithherwashisresurrectionandhislife。
Allthisshecouldnotknow。Shewantedtobemademuchof,tobeadored。
Therewereinfinitedistancesofsilencebetweenthem。Howcouldhetellheroftheimmanenceofherbeauty,thatwasnotform,orweight,orcolour,butsomethinglikeastrange,goldenlight!Howcouldheknowhimselfwhatherbeautylayin,forhim。Hesaid`Yournoseisbeautiful,yourchinisadorable。\'Butitsoundedlikelies,andshewasdisappointed,hurt。
Evenwhenhesaid,whisperingwithtruth,`Iloveyou,Iloveyou,\'itwasnottherealtruth。Itwassomethingbeyondlove,suchagladnessofhavingsurpassedoneself,ofhavingtranscendedtheoldexistence。Howcouldhesay\"I\"whenhewassomethingnewandunknown,nothimselfatall?ThisI,thisoldformulaoftheage,wasadeadletter。
Inthenew,superfinebliss,apeacesupersedingknowledge,therewasnoIandyou,therewasonlythethird,unrealisedwonder,thewonderofexistingnotasoneself,butinaconsummationofmybeingandofherbeinginanewone,anew,paradisalunitregainedfromtheduality。NorcanIsay`Iloveyou,\'whenIhaveceasedtobe,andyouhaveceasedtobe:
wearebothcaughtupandtranscendedintoanewonenesswhereeverythingissilent,becausethereisnothingtoanswer,allisperfectandatone。
Speechtravelsbetweentheseparateparts。ButintheperfectOnethereisperfectsilenceofbliss。
Theyweremarriedbylawonthenextday,andshedidashebadeher,shewrotetoherfatherandmother。Hermotherreplied,notherfather。
Shedidnotgobacktoschool。ShestayedwithBirkininhisrooms,orattheMill,movingwithhimashemoved。Butshedidnotseeanybody,saveGudrunandGerald。Shewasallstrangeandwonderingasyet,butrelievedasbydawn。
GeraldsattalkingtoheroneafternooninthewarmstudydownattheMill。Ruperthadnotyetcomehome。
`Youarehappy?\'Geraldaskedher,withasmile。
`Veryhappy!\'shecried,shrinkingalittleinherbrightness。
`Yes,onecanseeit。\'
`Canone?\'criedUrsulainsurprise。
Helookedupatherwithacommunicativesmile。
`Ohyes,plainly。\'
Shewaspleased。Shemeditatedamoment。
`AndcanyouseethatRupertishappyaswell?\'
Heloweredhiseyelids,andlookedaside。
`Ohyes,\'hesaid。
`Really!\'
`Ohyes。\'
Hewasveryquiet,asifitweresomethingnottobetalkedaboutbyhim。Heseemedsad。
Shewasverysensitivetosuggestion。Sheaskedthequestionhewantedhertoask。
`Whydon\'tyoubehappyaswell?\'shesaid。`Youcouldbejustthesame。\'
Hepausedamoment。
`WithGudrun?\'heasked。
`Yes!\'shecried,hereyesglowing。Buttherewasastrangetension,anemphasis,asiftheywereassertingtheirwishes,againstthetruth。
`YouthinkGudrunwouldhaveme,andweshouldbehappy?\'hesaid。
`Yes,I\'msure!\'shecried。
Hereyeswereroundwithdelight。Yetunderneathshewasconstrained,sheknewherowninsistence。
`Oh,I\'msoglad,\'sheadded。
Hesmiled。
`Whatmakesyouglad?\'hesaid。
`Forhersake,\'shereplied。`I\'msureyou\'d——you\'retherightmanforher。\'
`Youare?\'hesaid。`Anddoyouthinkshewouldagreewithyou?\'
`Ohyes!\'sheexclaimedhastily。Then,uponreconsideration,veryuneasy:
`ThoughGudrunisn\'tsoverysimple,isshe?Onedoesn\'tknowherinfiveminutes,doesone?She\'snotlikemeinthat。\'Shelaughedathimwithherstrange,open,dazzledface。
`Youthinkshe\'snotmuchlikeyou?\'Geraldasked。
Sheknittedherbrows。
`Oh,inmanywayssheis。ButIneverknowwhatshewilldowhenanythingnewcomes。\'
`Youdon\'t?\'saidGerald。Hewassilentforsomemoments。Thenhemovedtentatively。`Iwasgoingtoaskher,inanycase,togoawaywithmeatChristmas,\'hesaid,inaverysmall,cautiousvoice。
`Goawaywithyou?Foratime,youmean?\'
`Aslongasshelikes,\'hesaid,withadeprecatingmovement。
Theywerebothsilentforsomeminutes。
`Ofcourse,\'saidUrsulaatlast,`shemightjustbewillingtorushintomarriage。Youcansee。\'
`Yes,\'smiledGerald。`Icansee。Butincaseshewon\'t——doyouthinkshewouldgoabroadwithmeforafewdays——orforafortnight?\'
`Ohyes,\'saidUrsula。`I\'daskher。\'
`Doyouthinkwemightallgotogether?\'
`Allofus?\'AgainUrsula\'sfacelightedup。`Itwouldberatherfun,don\'tyouthink?\'
`Greatfun,\'hesaid。
`Andthenyoucouldsee,\'saidUrsula。
`What?\'
`Howthingswent。Ithinkitisbesttotakethehoneymoonbeforethewedding——don\'tyou?\'
Shewaspleasedwiththismot。Helaughed。
`Incertaincases,\'hesaid。`I\'dratheritweresoinmyowncase。\'
`Wouldyou!\'exclaimedUrsula。Thendoubtingly,`Yes,perhapsyou\'reright。Oneshouldpleaseoneself。\'
Birkincameinalittlelater,andUrsulatoldhimwhathadbeensaid。
`Gudrun!\'exclaimedBirkin。`She\'sabornmistress,justasGeraldisabornlover——amantentitre。Ifassomebodysaysallwomenareeitherwivesormistresses,thenGudrunisamistress。\'
`Andallmeneitherloversorhusbands,\'criedUrsula。`Butwhynotboth?\'
`Theoneexcludestheother,\'helaughed。
`ThenIwantalover,\'criedUrsula。
`Noyoudon\'t,\'hesaid。
`ButIdo,\'shewailed。
Hekissedher,andlaughed。
ItwastwodaysafterthisthatUrsulawastogotofetchherthingsfromthehouseinBeldover。Theremovalhadtakenplace,thefamilyhadgone。GudrunhadroomsinWilleyGreen。
Ursulahadnotseenherparentssincehermarriage。Sheweptovertherupture,yetwhatwasthegoodofmakingitup!Goodornotgood,shecouldnotgotothem。SoherthingshadbeenleftbehindandsheandGudrunweretowalkoverforthem,intheafternoon。
Itwasawintryafternoon,withredinthesky,whentheyarrivedatthehouse。Thewindowsweredarkandblank,alreadytheplacewasfrightening。
Astark,voidentrance—hallstruckachilltotheheartsofthegirls。
`Idon\'tbelieveIdarehavecomeinalone,\'saidUrsula。`Itfrightensme。\'
`Ursula!\'criedGudrun。`Isn\'titamazing!Canyoubelieveyoulivedinthisplaceandneverfeltit?HowIlivedhereadaywithoutdyingofterror,Icannotconceive!\'
Theylookedinthebigdining—room。Itwasagood—sizedroom,butnowacellwouldhavebeenlovelier。Thelargebaywindowswerenaked,thefloorwasstripped,andaborderofdarkpolishwentroundthetractofpaleboarding。
Inthefadedwallpaperweredarkpatcheswherefurniturehadstood,wherepictureshadhung。Thesenseofwalls,dry,thin,flimsy—seemingwalls,andaflimsyflooring,palewithitsartificialblackedges,wasneutralisingtothemind。Everythingwasnulltothesenses,therewasenclosurewithoutsubstance,forthewallsweredryandpapery。Whereweretheystanding,onearth,orsuspendedinsomecardboardbox?Inthehearthwasburntpaper,andscrapsofhalf—burntpaper。
`Imaginethatwepassedourdayshere!\'saidUrsula。
`Iknow,\'criedGudrun。`Itistooappalling。Whatmustwebelike,ifwearethecontentsofthis!\'
`Vile!\'saidUrsula。`Itreallyis。\'
Andsherecognisedhalf—burntcoversof`Vogue\'——half—burntrepresentationsofwomeningowns——lyingunderthegrate。
Theywenttothedrawing—room。Anotherpieceofshut—inair;withoutweightorsubstance,onlyasenseofintolerablepaperyimprisonmentinnothingness。Thekitchendidlookmoresubstantial,becauseofthered—tiledfloorandthestove,butitwascoldandhorrid。
Thetwogirlstrampedhollowlyupthebarestairs。Everysoundreechoedundertheirhearts。Theytrampeddownthebarecorridor。AgainstthewallofUrsula\'sbedroomwereherthings——atrunk,awork—basket,somebooks,loosecoats,ahat—box,standingdesolateintheuniversalemptinessofthedusk。
`Acheerfulsight,aren\'tthey?\'saidUrsula,lookingdownatherforsakenpossessions。
`Verycheerful,\'saidGudrun。
Thetwogirlssetto,carryingeverythingdowntothefrontdoor。Againandagaintheymadethehollow,re—echoingtransit。Thewholeplaceseemedtoresoundaboutthemwithanoiseofhollow,emptyfutility。Inthedistancetheempty,invisibleroomssentforthavibrationalmostofobscenity。
Theyalmostfledwiththelastarticles,intotheout—of—door。
Butitwascold。TheywerewaitingforBirkin,whowascomingwiththecar。Theywentindoorsagain,andupstairstotheirparents\'frontbedroom,whosewindowslookeddownontheroad,andacrossthecountryattheblack—barredsunset,blackandredbarred,withoutlight。
Theysatdowninthewindow—seat,towait。Bothgirlswerelookingovertheroom。Itwasvoid,withameaninglessnessthatwasalmostdreadful。
`Really,\'saidUrsula,`thisroomcouldn\'tbesacred,couldit?\'
Gudrunlookedoveritwithsloweyes。
`Impossible,\'shereplied。
`WhenIthinkoftheirlives——father\'sandmother\'s,theirlove,andtheirmarriage,andallofuschildren,andourbringing—up——wouldyouhavesuchalife,Prune?\'
`Iwouldn\'t,Ursula。\'
`Itallseemssonothing——theirtwolives——there\'snomeaninginit。Really,iftheyhadnotmet,andnotmarried,andnotlivedtogether——itwouldn\'thavemattered,wouldit?\'
`Ofcourse——youcan\'ttell,\'saidGudrun。
`No。ButifIthoughtmylifewasgoingtobelikeit——Prune,\'shecaughtGudrun\'sarm,`Ishouldrun。\'
Gudrunwassilentforafewmoments。
`Asamatteroffact,onecannotcontemplatetheordinarylife——onecannotcontemplateit,\'repliedGudrun。`Withyou,Ursula,itisquitedifferent。Youwillbeoutofitall,withBirkin。He\'saspecialcase。
Butwiththeordinaryman,whohashislifefixedinoneplace,marriageisjustimpossible。Theremaybe,andthereare,thousandsofwomenwhowantit,andcouldconceiveofnothingelse。Buttheverythoughtofitsendsmemad。Onemustbefree,aboveall,onemustbefree。
Onemayforfeiteverythingelse,butonemustbefree——onemustnotbecome7,PinchbeckStreet——orSomersetDrive——orShortlands。Nomanwillbesufficienttomakethatgood——noman!Tomarry,onemusthaveafreelance,ornothing,acomrade—in—arms,aGlckstritter。Amanwithapositioninthesocialworld——well,itisjustimpossible,impossible!\'
`Whatalovelyword——aGlckstritter!\'saidUrsula。`Somuchnicerthanasoldieroffortune。\'
`Yes,isn\'tit?\'saidGudrun。`I\'dtilttheworldwithaGlcksritter。
Butahome,anestablishment!Ursula,whatwoulditmean?——think!\'
`Iknow,\'saidUrsula。`We\'vehadonehome——that\'senoughforme。\'
`Quiteenough,\'saidGudrun。
`Thelittlegreyhomeinthewest,\'quotedUrsulaironically。
`Doesn\'titsoundgrey,too,\'saidGudrungrimly。
Theywereinterruptedbythesoundofthecar。TherewasBirkin。Ursulawassurprisedthatshefeltsolitup,thatshebecamesuddenlysofreefromtheproblemsofgreyhomesinthewest。
Theyheardhisheelsclickonthehallpavementbelow。
`Hello!\'hecalled,hisvoiceechoingalivethroughthehouse。Ursulasmiledtoherself。Hewasfrightenedoftheplacetoo。
`Hello!Hereweare,\'shecalleddownstairs。Andtheyheardhimquicklyrunningup。
`Thisisaghostlysituation,\'hesaid。
`Thesehousesdon\'thaveghosts——they\'veneverhadanypersonality,andonlyaplacewithpersonalitycanhaveaghost,\'saidGudrun。
`Isupposeso。Areyoubothweepingoverthepast?\'
`Weare,\'saidGudrun,grimly。
Ursulalaughed。
`Notweepingthatit\'sgone,butweepingthatiteverwas,\'shesaid。
`Oh,\'hereplied,relieved。
Hesatdownforamoment。Therewassomethinginhispresence,Ursulathought,lambentandalive。Itmadeeventheimpertinentstructureofthisnullhousedisappear。
`Gudrunsaysshecouldnotbeartobemarriedandputintoahouse,\'
saidUrsulameaningful——theyknewthisreferredtoGerald。
Hewassilentforsomemoments。
`Well,\'hesaid,`ifyouknowbeforehandyoucouldn\'tstandit,you\'resafe。\'
`Quite!\'saidGudrun。
`Whydoeseverywomanthinkheraiminlifeistohaveahubbyandalittlegreyhomeinthewest?Whyisthisthegoaloflife?Whyshoulditbe?\'saidUrsula。
`Ilfautavoirlerespectdesesbtises,\'saidBirkin。
`Butyouneedn\'thavetherespectforthebetisebeforeyou\'vecommittedit,\'laughedUrsula。
`Ahthen,desbetisesdupapa?\'
`Etdelamaman,\'addedGudrunsatirically。
`Etdesvoisins,\'saidUrsula。
Theyalllaughed,androse。Itwasgettingdark。Theycarriedthethingstothecar。Gudrunlockedthedooroftheemptyhouse。Birkinhadlightedthelampsoftheautomobile。Itallseemedveryhappy,asiftheyweresettingout。
`DoyoumindstoppingatCoulsons。Ihavetoleavethekeythere,\'saidGudrun。
`Right,\'saidBirkin,andtheymovedoff。
Theystoppedinthemainstreet。Theshopswerejustlighted,thelastminerswerepassinghomealongthecauseways,half—visibleshadowsintheirgreypit—dirt,movingthroughtheblueair。Buttheirfeetrangharshlyinmanifoldsound,alongthepavement。
HowpleasedGudrunwastocomeoutoftheshop,andenterthecar,andbeborneswiftlyawayintothedownhillofpalpabledusk,withUrsulaandBirkin!Whatanadventurelifeseemedatthismoment!Howdeeply,howsuddenlysheenviedUrsula!Lifeforherwassoquick,andanopendoor——sorecklessasifnotonlythisworld,buttheworldthatwasgoneandtheworldtocomewerenothingtoher。Ah,ifshecouldbejustlikethat,itwouldbeperfect。
Foralways,exceptinhermomentsofexcitement,shefeltawantwithinherself。Shewasunsure。Shehadfeltthatnow,atlast,inGerald\'sstrongandviolentlove,shewaslivingfullyandfinally。ButwhenshecomparedherselfwithUrsula,alreadyhersoulwasjealous,unsatisfied。Shewasnotsatisfied——shewasnevertobesatisfied。
Whatwassheshortofnow?Itwasmarriage——itwasthewonderfulstabilityofmarriage。Shedidwantit,lethersaywhatshemight。Shehadbeenlying。Theoldideaofmarriagewasrightevennow——marriageandthehome。Yethermouthgavealittlegrimaceatthewords。ShethoughtofGeraldandShortlands——marriageandthehome!Ahwell,letitrest!Hemeantagreatdealtoher——but——!Perhapsitwasnotinhertomarry。
Shewasoneoflife\'soutcasts,oneofthedriftinglivesthathavenoroot。No,noitcouldnotbeso。Shesuddenlyconjureduparosyroom,withherselfinabeautifulgown,andahandsomemanineveningdresswhoheldherinhisarmsinthefirelight,andkissedher。Thispicturesheentitled`Home。\'ItwouldhavedonefortheRoyalAcademy。
`Comewithustotea——do,\'saidUrsula,astheyrannearertothecottageofWilleyGreen。
`Thanksawfully——butImustgoin——\'saidGudrun。ShewantedverymuchtogoonwithUrsulaandBirkin。
Thatseemedlikelifeindeedtoher。Yetacertainperversitywouldnotlether。
`Docome——yes,itwouldbesonice,\'pleadedUrsula。
`I\'mawfullysorry——Ishouldloveto——butIcan\'t——really——\'
Shedescendedfromthecarintremblinghaste。
`Can\'tyoureally!\'cameUrsula\'sregretfulvoice。
`No,reallyIcan\'t,\'respondedGudrun\'spathetic,chagrinedwordsoutofthedusk。
`Allright,areyou?\'calledBirkin。
`Quite!\'saidGudrun。`Good—night!\'
`Good—night,\'theycalled。
`Comewheneveryoulike,weshallbeglad,\'calledBirkin。
`Thankyouverymuch,\'calledGudrun,inthestrange,twangingvoiceoflonelychagrinthatwasverypuzzlingtohim。Sheturnedawaytohercottagegate,andtheydroveon。Butimmediatelyshestoodtowatchthem,asthecarranvagueintothedistance。Andasshewentupthepathtoherstrangehouse,herheartwasfullofincomprehensiblebitterness。
Inherparlourwasalong—caseclock,andinsertedintoitsdialwasaruddy,round,slant—eyed,joyous—paintedface,thatwaggedoverwiththemostridiculousoglewhentheclockticked,andbackagainwiththesameabsurdglad—eyeatthenexttick。Allthetimetheabsurdsmooth,brown—ruddyfacegaveheranobtrusive`glad—eye。\'Shestoodforminutes,watchingit,tillasortofmaddeneddisgustovercameher,andshelaughedatherselfhollowly。Andstillitrocked,andgavehertheglad—eyefromoneside,thenfromtheother,fromoneside,thenfromtheother。Ah,howunhappyshewas!Inthemidstofhermostactivehappiness,ah,howunhappyshewas!Sheglancedatthetable。Gooseberryjam,andthesamehome—madecakewithtoomuchsodainit!Still,gooseberryjamwasgood,andonesorarelygotit。
AlltheeveningshewantedtogototheMill。Butshecoldlyrefusedtoallowherself。Shewentthenextafternooninstead。ShewashappytofindUrsulaalone。Itwasalovely,intimatesecludedatmosphere。Theytalkedendlesslyanddelightedly。`Aren\'tyoufearfullyhappyhere?\'
saidGudruntohersisterglancingatherownbrighteyesinthemirror。
Shealwaysenvied,almostwithresentment,thestrangepositivefullnessthatsubsistedintheatmospherearoundUrsulaandBirkin。
Howreallybeautifullythisroomisdone,\'shesaidaloud。`Thishardplaitedmatting——whatalovelycolouritis,thecolourofcoollight!\'
Anditseemedtoherperfect。
`Ursula,\'shesaidatlength,inavoiceofquestionanddetachment,`didyouknowthatGeraldCrichhadsuggestedourgoingawayalltogetheratChristmas?\'
`Yes,he\'sspokentoRupert。\'
AdeepflushdyedGudrun\'scheek。Shewassilentamoment,asiftakenaback,andnotknowingwhattosay。
`Butdon\'tyouthing,\'shesaidatlast,`itisamazinglycool!\'
Ursulalaughed。
`Ilikehimforit,\'shesaid。
Gudrunwassilent。Itwasevidentthat,whilstshewasalmostmortifiedbyGerald\'stakingthelibertyofmakingsuchasuggestiontoBirkin,yettheideaitselfattractedherstrongly。
`There\'sratherlovelysimplicityaboutGerald,Ithink,\'saidUrsula,`sodefiant,somehow!Oh,Ithinkhe\'sverylovable。\'
Gudrundidnotreplyforsomemoments。Shehadstilltogetoverthefeelingofinsultatthelibertytakenwithherfreedom。
`WhatdidRupertsay——doyouknow?\'sheasked。