第30章

类别:其他 作者:D。 H。 Lawrence字数:9375更新时间:18/12/18 08:44:44
`What\'sthematter?\'hesaidagain,whenshewasquieter。Butsheonlypressedherfacefurtherintohisshoulder,inpain,likeachildthatcannottell。 `Whatisit,then?\'heasked。Suddenlyshebrokeaway,wipedhereyes,regainedhercomposure,andwentandsatinachair。 `Fatherhitme,\'sheannounced,sittingbunchedup,ratherlikearuffledbird,hereyesverybright。 `Whatfor?\'hesaid。 Shelookedaway,andwouldnotanswer。Therewasapitifulrednessabouthersensitivenostrils,andherquiveringlips。 `Why?\'herepeated,inhisstrange,soft,penetratingvoice。 Shelookedroundathim,ratherdefiantly。 `BecauseIsaidIwasgoingtobemarriedtomorrow,andhebulliedme。\' `Whydidhebullyyou?\' Hermouthdroppedagain,sherememberedthesceneoncemore,thetearscameup。 `BecauseIsaidhedidn\'tcare——andhedoesn\'t,it\'sonlyhisdomineeringnessthat\'shurt——\'shesaid,hermouthpulledawrybyherweeping,allthetimeshespoke,sothathealmostsmiled,itseemedsochildish。Yetitwasnotchildish,itwasamortalconflict,adeepwound。 `Itisn\'tquitetrue,\'hesaid。`Andevenso,youshouldn\'tsayit。\' `Itistrue——itistrue,\'shewept,`andIwon\'tbebulliedbyhispretendingit\'slove——whenitisn\'t——hedoesn\'tcare,howcanhe——no,hecan\'t——\' Hesatinsilence。Shemovedhimbeyondhimself。 `Thenyoushouldn\'trousehim,ifhecan\'t,\'repliedBirkinquietly。 `AndIhavelovedhim,Ihave,\'shewept。`I\'velovedhimalways,andhe\'salwaysdonethistome,hehas——\' `It\'sbeenaloveofopposition,then,\'hesaid。`Nevermind——itwillbeallright。It\'snothingdesperate。\' `Yes,\'shewept,`itis,itis。\' `Why?\' `Ishallneverseehimagain——\' `Notimmediately。Don\'tcry,youhadtobreakwithhim,ithadtobe——don\'tcry。\' Hewentovertoherandkissedherfine,fragilehair,touchingherwetcheeksgently。 `Don\'tcry,\'herepeated,`don\'tcryanymore。\' Heheldherheadcloseagainsthim,verycloseandquiet。 Atlastshewasstill。Thenshelookedup,hereyeswideandfrightened。 `don\'tyouwantme?\'sheasked。 `Wantyou?\'Hisdarkened,steadyeyespuzzledheranddidnotgiveherplay。 `DoyouwishIhadn\'tcome?\'sheasked,anxiousnowagainforfearshemightbeoutofplace。 `No,\'hesaid。`Iwishtherehadn\'tbeentheviolence——somuchugliness——butperhapsitwasinevitable。\' Shewatchedhiminsilence。Heseemeddeadened。 `ButwhereshallIstay?\'sheasked,feelinghumiliated。 Hethoughtforamoment。 `Here,withme,\'hesaid。`We\'remarriedasmuchtodayasweshallbetomorrow。\' `But——\' `I\'lltellMrsVarley,\'hesaid。`Nevermindnow。\' Hesatlookingather。Shecouldfeelhisdarkenedsteadyeyeslookingatherallthetime。Itmadeheralittlebitfrightened。Shepushedherhairoffherforeheadnervously。 `DoIlookugly?\'shesaid。 Andsheblewhernoseagain。 Asmallsmilecameroundhiseyes。 `No,\'hesaid,`fortunately。\' Andhewentacrosstoher,andgatheredherlikeabelonginginhisarms。Shewassotenderlybeautiful,hecouldnotbeartoseeher,hecouldonlybeartohideheragainsthimself。Now;washedallcleanbyhertears,shewasnewandfraillikeaflowerjustunfolded,aflowersonew,sotender,somadeperfectbyinnerlight,thathecouldnotbeartolookather,hemusthideheragainsthimself,coverhiseyesagainsther。Shehadtheperfectcandourofcreation,somethingtranslucentandsimple,likearadiant,shiningflowerthatmomentunfoldedinprimalblessedness。 Shewassonew,sowonder—clear,soundimmed。Andhewassoold,sosteepedinheavymemories。Hersoulwasnew,undefinedandglimmeringwiththeunseen。Andhissoulwasdarkandgloomy,ithadonlyonegrainoflivinghope,likeagrainofmustardseed。Butthisonelivinggraininhimmatchedtheperfectyouthinher。 `Iloveyou,\'hewhisperedashekissedher,andtrembledwithpurehope,likeamanwhoisbornagaintoawonderful,livelyhopefarexceedingtheboundsofdeath。 Shecouldnotknowhowmuchitmeanttohim,howmuchhemeantbythefewwords。Almostchildish,shewantedproof,andstatement,evenover—statement,foreverythingseemedstilluncertain,unfixedtoher。 Butthepassionofgratitudewithwhichhereceivedherintohissoul,theextreme,unthinkablegladnessofknowinghimselflivingandfittounitewithher,he,whowassonearlydead,whowassoneartobeinggonewiththerestofhisracedowntheslopeofmechanicaldeath,couldneverbeunderstoodbyher。Heworshippedherasageworshipsyouth,hegloriedinher,because,inhisonegrainoffaith,hewasyoungasshe,hewasherpropermate。Thismarriagewithherwashisresurrectionandhislife。 Allthisshecouldnotknow。Shewantedtobemademuchof,tobeadored。 Therewereinfinitedistancesofsilencebetweenthem。Howcouldhetellheroftheimmanenceofherbeauty,thatwasnotform,orweight,orcolour,butsomethinglikeastrange,goldenlight!Howcouldheknowhimselfwhatherbeautylayin,forhim。Hesaid`Yournoseisbeautiful,yourchinisadorable。\'Butitsoundedlikelies,andshewasdisappointed,hurt。 Evenwhenhesaid,whisperingwithtruth,`Iloveyou,Iloveyou,\'itwasnottherealtruth。Itwassomethingbeyondlove,suchagladnessofhavingsurpassedoneself,ofhavingtranscendedtheoldexistence。Howcouldhesay\"I\"whenhewassomethingnewandunknown,nothimselfatall?ThisI,thisoldformulaoftheage,wasadeadletter。 Inthenew,superfinebliss,apeacesupersedingknowledge,therewasnoIandyou,therewasonlythethird,unrealisedwonder,thewonderofexistingnotasoneself,butinaconsummationofmybeingandofherbeinginanewone,anew,paradisalunitregainedfromtheduality。NorcanIsay`Iloveyou,\'whenIhaveceasedtobe,andyouhaveceasedtobe: wearebothcaughtupandtranscendedintoanewonenesswhereeverythingissilent,becausethereisnothingtoanswer,allisperfectandatone。 Speechtravelsbetweentheseparateparts。ButintheperfectOnethereisperfectsilenceofbliss。 Theyweremarriedbylawonthenextday,andshedidashebadeher,shewrotetoherfatherandmother。Hermotherreplied,notherfather。 Shedidnotgobacktoschool。ShestayedwithBirkininhisrooms,orattheMill,movingwithhimashemoved。Butshedidnotseeanybody,saveGudrunandGerald。Shewasallstrangeandwonderingasyet,butrelievedasbydawn。 GeraldsattalkingtoheroneafternooninthewarmstudydownattheMill。Ruperthadnotyetcomehome。 `Youarehappy?\'Geraldaskedher,withasmile。 `Veryhappy!\'shecried,shrinkingalittleinherbrightness。 `Yes,onecanseeit。\' `Canone?\'criedUrsulainsurprise。 Helookedupatherwithacommunicativesmile。 `Ohyes,plainly。\' Shewaspleased。Shemeditatedamoment。 `AndcanyouseethatRupertishappyaswell?\' Heloweredhiseyelids,andlookedaside。 `Ohyes,\'hesaid。 `Really!\' `Ohyes。\' Hewasveryquiet,asifitweresomethingnottobetalkedaboutbyhim。Heseemedsad。 Shewasverysensitivetosuggestion。Sheaskedthequestionhewantedhertoask。 `Whydon\'tyoubehappyaswell?\'shesaid。`Youcouldbejustthesame。\' Hepausedamoment。 `WithGudrun?\'heasked。 `Yes!\'shecried,hereyesglowing。Buttherewasastrangetension,anemphasis,asiftheywereassertingtheirwishes,againstthetruth。 `YouthinkGudrunwouldhaveme,andweshouldbehappy?\'hesaid。 `Yes,I\'msure!\'shecried。 Hereyeswereroundwithdelight。Yetunderneathshewasconstrained,sheknewherowninsistence。 `Oh,I\'msoglad,\'sheadded。 Hesmiled。 `Whatmakesyouglad?\'hesaid。 `Forhersake,\'shereplied。`I\'msureyou\'d——you\'retherightmanforher。\' `Youare?\'hesaid。`Anddoyouthinkshewouldagreewithyou?\' `Ohyes!\'sheexclaimedhastily。Then,uponreconsideration,veryuneasy: `ThoughGudrunisn\'tsoverysimple,isshe?Onedoesn\'tknowherinfiveminutes,doesone?She\'snotlikemeinthat。\'Shelaughedathimwithherstrange,open,dazzledface。 `Youthinkshe\'snotmuchlikeyou?\'Geraldasked。 Sheknittedherbrows。 `Oh,inmanywayssheis。ButIneverknowwhatshewilldowhenanythingnewcomes。\' `Youdon\'t?\'saidGerald。Hewassilentforsomemoments。Thenhemovedtentatively。`Iwasgoingtoaskher,inanycase,togoawaywithmeatChristmas,\'hesaid,inaverysmall,cautiousvoice。 `Goawaywithyou?Foratime,youmean?\' `Aslongasshelikes,\'hesaid,withadeprecatingmovement。 Theywerebothsilentforsomeminutes。 `Ofcourse,\'saidUrsulaatlast,`shemightjustbewillingtorushintomarriage。Youcansee。\' `Yes,\'smiledGerald。`Icansee。Butincaseshewon\'t——doyouthinkshewouldgoabroadwithmeforafewdays——orforafortnight?\' `Ohyes,\'saidUrsula。`I\'daskher。\' `Doyouthinkwemightallgotogether?\' `Allofus?\'AgainUrsula\'sfacelightedup。`Itwouldberatherfun,don\'tyouthink?\' `Greatfun,\'hesaid。 `Andthenyoucouldsee,\'saidUrsula。 `What?\' `Howthingswent。Ithinkitisbesttotakethehoneymoonbeforethewedding——don\'tyou?\' Shewaspleasedwiththismot。Helaughed。 `Incertaincases,\'hesaid。`I\'dratheritweresoinmyowncase。\' `Wouldyou!\'exclaimedUrsula。Thendoubtingly,`Yes,perhapsyou\'reright。Oneshouldpleaseoneself。\' Birkincameinalittlelater,andUrsulatoldhimwhathadbeensaid。 `Gudrun!\'exclaimedBirkin。`She\'sabornmistress,justasGeraldisabornlover——amantentitre。Ifassomebodysaysallwomenareeitherwivesormistresses,thenGudrunisamistress。\' `Andallmeneitherloversorhusbands,\'criedUrsula。`Butwhynotboth?\' `Theoneexcludestheother,\'helaughed。 `ThenIwantalover,\'criedUrsula。 `Noyoudon\'t,\'hesaid。 `ButIdo,\'shewailed。 Hekissedher,andlaughed。 ItwastwodaysafterthisthatUrsulawastogotofetchherthingsfromthehouseinBeldover。Theremovalhadtakenplace,thefamilyhadgone。GudrunhadroomsinWilleyGreen。 Ursulahadnotseenherparentssincehermarriage。Sheweptovertherupture,yetwhatwasthegoodofmakingitup!Goodornotgood,shecouldnotgotothem。SoherthingshadbeenleftbehindandsheandGudrunweretowalkoverforthem,intheafternoon。 Itwasawintryafternoon,withredinthesky,whentheyarrivedatthehouse。Thewindowsweredarkandblank,alreadytheplacewasfrightening。 Astark,voidentrance—hallstruckachilltotheheartsofthegirls。 `Idon\'tbelieveIdarehavecomeinalone,\'saidUrsula。`Itfrightensme。\' `Ursula!\'criedGudrun。`Isn\'titamazing!Canyoubelieveyoulivedinthisplaceandneverfeltit?HowIlivedhereadaywithoutdyingofterror,Icannotconceive!\' Theylookedinthebigdining—room。Itwasagood—sizedroom,butnowacellwouldhavebeenlovelier。Thelargebaywindowswerenaked,thefloorwasstripped,andaborderofdarkpolishwentroundthetractofpaleboarding。 Inthefadedwallpaperweredarkpatcheswherefurniturehadstood,wherepictureshadhung。Thesenseofwalls,dry,thin,flimsy—seemingwalls,andaflimsyflooring,palewithitsartificialblackedges,wasneutralisingtothemind。Everythingwasnulltothesenses,therewasenclosurewithoutsubstance,forthewallsweredryandpapery。Whereweretheystanding,onearth,orsuspendedinsomecardboardbox?Inthehearthwasburntpaper,andscrapsofhalf—burntpaper。 `Imaginethatwepassedourdayshere!\'saidUrsula。 `Iknow,\'criedGudrun。`Itistooappalling。Whatmustwebelike,ifwearethecontentsofthis!\' `Vile!\'saidUrsula。`Itreallyis。\' Andsherecognisedhalf—burntcoversof`Vogue\'——half—burntrepresentationsofwomeningowns——lyingunderthegrate。 Theywenttothedrawing—room。Anotherpieceofshut—inair;withoutweightorsubstance,onlyasenseofintolerablepaperyimprisonmentinnothingness。Thekitchendidlookmoresubstantial,becauseofthered—tiledfloorandthestove,butitwascoldandhorrid。 Thetwogirlstrampedhollowlyupthebarestairs。Everysoundreechoedundertheirhearts。Theytrampeddownthebarecorridor。AgainstthewallofUrsula\'sbedroomwereherthings——atrunk,awork—basket,somebooks,loosecoats,ahat—box,standingdesolateintheuniversalemptinessofthedusk。 `Acheerfulsight,aren\'tthey?\'saidUrsula,lookingdownatherforsakenpossessions。 `Verycheerful,\'saidGudrun。 Thetwogirlssetto,carryingeverythingdowntothefrontdoor。Againandagaintheymadethehollow,re—echoingtransit。Thewholeplaceseemedtoresoundaboutthemwithanoiseofhollow,emptyfutility。Inthedistancetheempty,invisibleroomssentforthavibrationalmostofobscenity。 Theyalmostfledwiththelastarticles,intotheout—of—door。 Butitwascold。TheywerewaitingforBirkin,whowascomingwiththecar。Theywentindoorsagain,andupstairstotheirparents\'frontbedroom,whosewindowslookeddownontheroad,andacrossthecountryattheblack—barredsunset,blackandredbarred,withoutlight。 Theysatdowninthewindow—seat,towait。Bothgirlswerelookingovertheroom。Itwasvoid,withameaninglessnessthatwasalmostdreadful。 `Really,\'saidUrsula,`thisroomcouldn\'tbesacred,couldit?\' Gudrunlookedoveritwithsloweyes。 `Impossible,\'shereplied。 `WhenIthinkoftheirlives——father\'sandmother\'s,theirlove,andtheirmarriage,andallofuschildren,andourbringing—up——wouldyouhavesuchalife,Prune?\' `Iwouldn\'t,Ursula。\' `Itallseemssonothing——theirtwolives——there\'snomeaninginit。Really,iftheyhadnotmet,andnotmarried,andnotlivedtogether——itwouldn\'thavemattered,wouldit?\' `Ofcourse——youcan\'ttell,\'saidGudrun。 `No。ButifIthoughtmylifewasgoingtobelikeit——Prune,\'shecaughtGudrun\'sarm,`Ishouldrun。\' Gudrunwassilentforafewmoments。 `Asamatteroffact,onecannotcontemplatetheordinarylife——onecannotcontemplateit,\'repliedGudrun。`Withyou,Ursula,itisquitedifferent。Youwillbeoutofitall,withBirkin。He\'saspecialcase。 Butwiththeordinaryman,whohashislifefixedinoneplace,marriageisjustimpossible。Theremaybe,andthereare,thousandsofwomenwhowantit,andcouldconceiveofnothingelse。Buttheverythoughtofitsendsmemad。Onemustbefree,aboveall,onemustbefree。 Onemayforfeiteverythingelse,butonemustbefree——onemustnotbecome7,PinchbeckStreet——orSomersetDrive——orShortlands。Nomanwillbesufficienttomakethatgood——noman!Tomarry,onemusthaveafreelance,ornothing,acomrade—in—arms,aGlckstritter。Amanwithapositioninthesocialworld——well,itisjustimpossible,impossible!\' `Whatalovelyword——aGlckstritter!\'saidUrsula。`Somuchnicerthanasoldieroffortune。\' `Yes,isn\'tit?\'saidGudrun。`I\'dtilttheworldwithaGlcksritter。 Butahome,anestablishment!Ursula,whatwoulditmean?——think!\' `Iknow,\'saidUrsula。`We\'vehadonehome——that\'senoughforme。\' `Quiteenough,\'saidGudrun。 `Thelittlegreyhomeinthewest,\'quotedUrsulaironically。 `Doesn\'titsoundgrey,too,\'saidGudrungrimly。 Theywereinterruptedbythesoundofthecar。TherewasBirkin。Ursulawassurprisedthatshefeltsolitup,thatshebecamesuddenlysofreefromtheproblemsofgreyhomesinthewest。 Theyheardhisheelsclickonthehallpavementbelow。 `Hello!\'hecalled,hisvoiceechoingalivethroughthehouse。Ursulasmiledtoherself。Hewasfrightenedoftheplacetoo。 `Hello!Hereweare,\'shecalleddownstairs。Andtheyheardhimquicklyrunningup。 `Thisisaghostlysituation,\'hesaid。 `Thesehousesdon\'thaveghosts——they\'veneverhadanypersonality,andonlyaplacewithpersonalitycanhaveaghost,\'saidGudrun。 `Isupposeso。Areyoubothweepingoverthepast?\' `Weare,\'saidGudrun,grimly。 Ursulalaughed。 `Notweepingthatit\'sgone,butweepingthatiteverwas,\'shesaid。 `Oh,\'hereplied,relieved。 Hesatdownforamoment。Therewassomethinginhispresence,Ursulathought,lambentandalive。Itmadeeventheimpertinentstructureofthisnullhousedisappear。 `Gudrunsaysshecouldnotbeartobemarriedandputintoahouse,\' saidUrsulameaningful——theyknewthisreferredtoGerald。 Hewassilentforsomemoments。 `Well,\'hesaid,`ifyouknowbeforehandyoucouldn\'tstandit,you\'resafe。\' `Quite!\'saidGudrun。 `Whydoeseverywomanthinkheraiminlifeistohaveahubbyandalittlegreyhomeinthewest?Whyisthisthegoaloflife?Whyshoulditbe?\'saidUrsula。 `Ilfautavoirlerespectdesesbtises,\'saidBirkin。 `Butyouneedn\'thavetherespectforthebetisebeforeyou\'vecommittedit,\'laughedUrsula。 `Ahthen,desbetisesdupapa?\' `Etdelamaman,\'addedGudrunsatirically。 `Etdesvoisins,\'saidUrsula。 Theyalllaughed,androse。Itwasgettingdark。Theycarriedthethingstothecar。Gudrunlockedthedooroftheemptyhouse。Birkinhadlightedthelampsoftheautomobile。Itallseemedveryhappy,asiftheyweresettingout。 `DoyoumindstoppingatCoulsons。Ihavetoleavethekeythere,\'saidGudrun。 `Right,\'saidBirkin,andtheymovedoff。 Theystoppedinthemainstreet。Theshopswerejustlighted,thelastminerswerepassinghomealongthecauseways,half—visibleshadowsintheirgreypit—dirt,movingthroughtheblueair。Buttheirfeetrangharshlyinmanifoldsound,alongthepavement。 HowpleasedGudrunwastocomeoutoftheshop,andenterthecar,andbeborneswiftlyawayintothedownhillofpalpabledusk,withUrsulaandBirkin!Whatanadventurelifeseemedatthismoment!Howdeeply,howsuddenlysheenviedUrsula!Lifeforherwassoquick,andanopendoor——sorecklessasifnotonlythisworld,buttheworldthatwasgoneandtheworldtocomewerenothingtoher。Ah,ifshecouldbejustlikethat,itwouldbeperfect。 Foralways,exceptinhermomentsofexcitement,shefeltawantwithinherself。Shewasunsure。Shehadfeltthatnow,atlast,inGerald\'sstrongandviolentlove,shewaslivingfullyandfinally。ButwhenshecomparedherselfwithUrsula,alreadyhersoulwasjealous,unsatisfied。Shewasnotsatisfied——shewasnevertobesatisfied。 Whatwassheshortofnow?Itwasmarriage——itwasthewonderfulstabilityofmarriage。Shedidwantit,lethersaywhatshemight。Shehadbeenlying。Theoldideaofmarriagewasrightevennow——marriageandthehome。Yethermouthgavealittlegrimaceatthewords。ShethoughtofGeraldandShortlands——marriageandthehome!Ahwell,letitrest!Hemeantagreatdealtoher——but——!Perhapsitwasnotinhertomarry。 Shewasoneoflife\'soutcasts,oneofthedriftinglivesthathavenoroot。No,noitcouldnotbeso。Shesuddenlyconjureduparosyroom,withherselfinabeautifulgown,andahandsomemanineveningdresswhoheldherinhisarmsinthefirelight,andkissedher。Thispicturesheentitled`Home。\'ItwouldhavedonefortheRoyalAcademy。 `Comewithustotea——do,\'saidUrsula,astheyrannearertothecottageofWilleyGreen。 `Thanksawfully——butImustgoin——\'saidGudrun。ShewantedverymuchtogoonwithUrsulaandBirkin。 Thatseemedlikelifeindeedtoher。Yetacertainperversitywouldnotlether。 `Docome——yes,itwouldbesonice,\'pleadedUrsula。 `I\'mawfullysorry——Ishouldloveto——butIcan\'t——really——\' Shedescendedfromthecarintremblinghaste。 `Can\'tyoureally!\'cameUrsula\'sregretfulvoice。 `No,reallyIcan\'t,\'respondedGudrun\'spathetic,chagrinedwordsoutofthedusk。 `Allright,areyou?\'calledBirkin。 `Quite!\'saidGudrun。`Good—night!\' `Good—night,\'theycalled。 `Comewheneveryoulike,weshallbeglad,\'calledBirkin。 `Thankyouverymuch,\'calledGudrun,inthestrange,twangingvoiceoflonelychagrinthatwasverypuzzlingtohim。Sheturnedawaytohercottagegate,andtheydroveon。Butimmediatelyshestoodtowatchthem,asthecarranvagueintothedistance。Andasshewentupthepathtoherstrangehouse,herheartwasfullofincomprehensiblebitterness。 Inherparlourwasalong—caseclock,andinsertedintoitsdialwasaruddy,round,slant—eyed,joyous—paintedface,thatwaggedoverwiththemostridiculousoglewhentheclockticked,andbackagainwiththesameabsurdglad—eyeatthenexttick。Allthetimetheabsurdsmooth,brown—ruddyfacegaveheranobtrusive`glad—eye。\'Shestoodforminutes,watchingit,tillasortofmaddeneddisgustovercameher,andshelaughedatherselfhollowly。Andstillitrocked,andgavehertheglad—eyefromoneside,thenfromtheother,fromoneside,thenfromtheother。Ah,howunhappyshewas!Inthemidstofhermostactivehappiness,ah,howunhappyshewas!Sheglancedatthetable。Gooseberryjam,andthesamehome—madecakewithtoomuchsodainit!Still,gooseberryjamwasgood,andonesorarelygotit。 AlltheeveningshewantedtogototheMill。Butshecoldlyrefusedtoallowherself。Shewentthenextafternooninstead。ShewashappytofindUrsulaalone。Itwasalovely,intimatesecludedatmosphere。Theytalkedendlesslyanddelightedly。`Aren\'tyoufearfullyhappyhere?\' saidGudruntohersisterglancingatherownbrighteyesinthemirror。 Shealwaysenvied,almostwithresentment,thestrangepositivefullnessthatsubsistedintheatmospherearoundUrsulaandBirkin。 Howreallybeautifullythisroomisdone,\'shesaidaloud。`Thishardplaitedmatting——whatalovelycolouritis,thecolourofcoollight!\' Anditseemedtoherperfect。 `Ursula,\'shesaidatlength,inavoiceofquestionanddetachment,`didyouknowthatGeraldCrichhadsuggestedourgoingawayalltogetheratChristmas?\' `Yes,he\'sspokentoRupert。\' AdeepflushdyedGudrun\'scheek。Shewassilentamoment,asiftakenaback,andnotknowingwhattosay。 `Butdon\'tyouthing,\'shesaidatlast,`itisamazinglycool!\' Ursulalaughed。 `Ilikehimforit,\'shesaid。 Gudrunwassilent。Itwasevidentthat,whilstshewasalmostmortifiedbyGerald\'stakingthelibertyofmakingsuchasuggestiontoBirkin,yettheideaitselfattractedherstrongly。 `There\'sratherlovelysimplicityaboutGerald,Ithink,\'saidUrsula,`sodefiant,somehow!Oh,Ithinkhe\'sverylovable。\' Gudrundidnotreplyforsomemoments。Shehadstilltogetoverthefeelingofinsultatthelibertytakenwithherfreedom。 `WhatdidRupertsay——doyouknow?\'sheasked。