第6章

类别:其他 作者:D。 H。 Lawrence字数:10588更新时间:18/12/18 08:44:44
`Youmustaskforchampagne,\'camethewhispering,gentlemanlyvoiceoftheother。 Geraldsuddenlyrealisedthatthiswasahinttohim。 `Shallwehavechampagne?\'heasked,laughing。 `Yesplease,dwy,\'shelispedchildishly。 Geraldwatchedhereatingtheoysters。Shewasdelicateandfinickinginhereating,herfingerswerefineandseemedverysensitiveinthetips,sosheputherfoodapartwithfine,smallmotions,sheatecarefully,delicately。Itpleasedhimverymuchtoseeher,anditirritatedBirkin。 Theywerealldrinkingchampagne。Maxim,theprimyoungRussianwiththesmooth,warm—colouredfaceandblack,oiledhairwastheonlyonewhoseemedtobeperfectlycalmandsober。Birkinwaswhiteandabstract,unnatural,Geraldwassmilingwithaconstantbright,amused,coldlightinhiseyes,leaningalittleprotectivelytowardsthePussum,whowasveryhandsome,andsoft,unfoldedlikesomeredlotusindreadfulfloweringnakedness,vaingloriousnow,flushedwithwineandwiththeexcitementofmen。Hallidaylookedfoolish。Oneglassofwinewasenoughtomakehimdrunkandgiggling。 Yettherewasalwaysapleasant,warmnaiveteabouthim,thatmadehimattractive。 `I\'mnotafwaidofanythingexceptblack—beetles,\'saidthePussum,lookingupsuddenlyandstaringwithherblackeyes,onwhichthereseemedanunseeingfilmofflame,fullyuponGerald。Helaugheddangerously,fromtheblood。Herchildishspeechcaressedhisnerves,andherburning,filmedeyes,turnednowfulluponhim,obliviousofallherantecedents,gavehimasortoflicence。 `I\'mnot,\'sheprotested。`I\'mnotafraidofotherthings。Butblack—beetles——ugh!\'sheshudderedconvulsively,asiftheverythoughtweretoomuchtobear。 `Doyoumean,\'saidGerald,withthepunctiliousnessofamanwhohasbeendrinking,`thatyouareafraidofthesightofablack—beetle,oryouareafraidofablack—beetlebitingyou,ordoingyousomeharm?\' `Dotheybite?\'criedthegirl。 `Howperfectlyloathsome!\'exclaimedHalliday。 `Idon\'tknow,\'repliedGerald,lookingroundthetable。`Doblack—beetlesbite?Butthatisn\'tthepoint。Areyouafraidoftheirbiting,orisitametaphysicalantipathy?\' Thegirlwaslookingfulluponhimallthetimewithinchoateeyes。 `Oh,Ithinkthey\'rebeastly,they\'rehorrid,\'shecried。`IfIseeone,itgivesmethecreepsallover。Ifoneweretocrawlonme,I\'msureIshoulddie——I\'msureIshould。\' `Ihopenot,\'whisperedtheyoungRussian。 `I\'msureIshould,Maxim,\'sheasseverated。 `Thenonewon\'tcrawlonyou,\'saidGerald,smilingandknowing。Insomestrangewayheunderstoodher。 `It\'smetaphysical,asGeraldsays,\'Birkinstated。 Therewasalittlepauseofuneasiness。 `Andareyouafraidofnothingelse,Pussum?\'askedtheyoungRussian,inhisquick,hushed,elegantmanner。 `Notweally,\'shesaid。`Iamafwaidofsomethings,butnotweallythesame。I\'mnotafwaidofblood。\' `Notafwaidofblood!\'exclaimedayoungmanwithathick,pale,jeeringface,whohadjustcometothetableandwasdrinkingwhisky。 ThePussumturnedonhimasulkylookofdislike,lowandugly。 `Aren\'tyoureallyafraidofblud?\'theotherpersisted,asneeralloverhisface。 `No,I\'mnot,\'sheretorted。 `Why,haveyoueverseenblood,exceptinadentist\'sspittoon?\'jeeredtheyoungman。 `Iwasn\'tspeakingtoyou,\'sherepliedrathersuperbly。 `Youcananswerme,can\'tyou?\'hesaid。 Forreply,shesuddenlyjabbedaknifeacrosshisthick,palehand。 Hestartedupwithavulgarcurse。 `Show\'swhatyouare,\'saidthePussumincontempt。 `Curseyou,\'saidtheyoungman,standingbythetableandlookingdownatherwithacridmalevolence。 `Stopthat,\'saidGerald,inquick,instinctivecommand。 Theyoungmanstoodlookingdownatherwithsardoniccontempt,acowed,self—consciouslookonhisthick,paleface。Thebloodbegantoflowfromhishand。 `Oh,howhorrible,takeitaway!\'squealedHalliday,turninggreenandavertinghisface。 `D\'youfeelill?\'askedthesardonicyoungman,insomeconcern。`Doyoufeelill,Julius?Garn,it\'snothing,man,don\'tgiveherthepleasureoflettingherthinkshe\'sperformedafeat——don\'tgiveherthesatisfaction,man——it\'sjustwhatshewants。\' `Oh!\'squealedHalliday。 `He\'sgoingtocat,Maxim,\'saidthePussumwarningly。ThesuaveyoungRussianroseandtookHallidaybythearm,leadinghimaway。Birkin,whiteanddiminished,lookedonasifheweredispleased。Thewounded,sardonicyoungmanmovedaway,ignoringhisbleedinghandinthemostconspicuousfashion。 `He\'sanawfulcoward,really,\'saidthePussumtoGerald。`He\'sgotsuchaninfluenceoverJulius。\' `Whoishe?\'askedGerald。 `He\'saJew,really。Ican\'tbearhim。\' `Well,he\'squiteunimportant。Butwhat\'swrongwithHalliday?\' `Julius\'sthemostawfulcowardyou\'veeverseen,\'shecried。`HealwaysfaintsifIliftaknife——he\'stewwifiedofme。\' `H\'m!\'saidGerald。 `They\'reallafwaidofme,\'shesaid。`OnlytheJewthinkshe\'sgoingtoshowhiscourage。Buthe\'sthebiggestcowardofthemall,really,becausehe\'safwaidwhatpeoplewillthinkabouthim——andJuliusdoesn\'tcareaboutthat。\' `They\'vealotofvalourbetweenthem,\'saidGeraldgood—humouredly。 ThePussumlookedathimwithaslow,slowsmile。Shewasveryhandsome,flushed,andconfidentindreadfulknowledge。TwolittlepointsoflightglintedonGerald\'seyes。 `WhydotheycallyouPussum,becauseyou\'relikeacat?\'heaskedher。 `Iexpectso,\'shesaid。 Thesmilegrewmoreintenseonhisface。 `Youare,rather;orayoung,femalepanther。\' `OhGod,Gerald!\'saidBirkin,insomedisgust。 TheybothlookeduneasilyatBirkin。 `You\'resilenttonight,Wupert,\'shesaidtohim,withaslightinsolence,beingsafewiththeotherman。 Hallidaywascomingback,lookingforlornandsick。 `Pussum,\'hesaid,`Iwishyouwouldn\'tdothesethings——Oh!\'Hesankinhischairwithagroan。 `You\'dbettergohome,\'shesaidtohim。 `Iwillgohome,\'hesaid。`Butwon\'tyouallcomealong。Won\'tyoucomeroundtotheflat?\'hesaidtoGerald。`Ishouldbesogladifyouwould。Do——that\'llbesplendid。Isay?\'Helookedroundforawaiter。 `Getmeataxi。\'Thenhegroanedagain。`OhIdofeel——perfectlyghastly! Pussum,youseewhatyoudotome。\' `Thenwhyareyousuchanidiot?\'shesaidwithsullencalm。 `ButI\'mnotanidiot!Oh,howawful!Docome,everybody,itwillbesosplendid。Pussum,youarecoming。What?Ohbutyoumustcome,yes,youmust。What?Oh,mydeargirl,don\'tmakeafussnow,Ifeelperfectly——Oh,it\'ssoghastly——Ho!——er!Oh!\' `Youknowyoucan\'tdrink,\'shesaidtohim,coldly。 `Itellyouitisn\'tdrink——it\'syourdisgustingbehaviour,Pussum,it\'snothingelse。Oh,howawful!Libidnikov,doletusgo。\' `He\'sonlydrunkoneglass——onlyoneglass,\'cametherapid,hushedvoiceoftheyoungRussian。 Theyallmovedofftothedoor。ThegirlkeptneartoGerald,andseemedtobeatoneinhermotionwithhim。Hewasawareofthis,andfilledwithdemon—satisfactionthathismotionheldgoodfortwo。Heheldherinthehollowofhiswill,andshewassoft,secret,invisibleinherstirringthere。 Theycrowdedfiveofthemintothetaxi—cab。Hallidaylurchedinfirst,anddroppedintohisseatagainsttheotherwindow。ThenthePussumtookherplace,andGeraldsatnexttoher。TheyheardtheyoungRussiangivingorderstothedriver,thentheywereallseatedinthedark,crowdedclosetogether,Hallidaygroaningandleaningoutofthewindow。Theyfelttheswift,muffledmotionofthecar。 ThePussumsatneartoGerald,andsheseemedtobecomesoft,subtlytoinfuseherselfintohisbones,asifshewerepassingintohiminablack,electricflow。Herbeingsuffusedintohisveinslikeamagneticdarkness,andconcentratedatthebaseofhisspinelikeafearfulsourceofpower。Meanwhilehervoicesoundedoutreedyandnonchalant,asshetalkedindifferentlywithBirkinandwithMaxim。BetweenherandGeraldwasthissilenceandthisblack,electriccomprehensioninthedarkness。 Thenshefoundhishand,andgraspeditinherownfirm,smallclasp。Itwassoutterlydark,andyetsuchanakedstatement,thatrapidvibrationsranthroughhisbloodandoverhisbrain,hewasnolongerresponsible。 Stillhervoicerangonlikeabell,tingedwithatoneofmockery。Andassheswungherhead,herfinemaneofhairjustswepthisface,andallhisnerveswereonfire,aswithasubtlefrictionofelectricity。Butthegreatcentreofhisforceheldsteady,amagnificentpridetohim,atthebaseofhisspine。 Theyarrivedatalargeblockofbuildings,wentupinalift,andpresentlyadoorwasbeingopenedforthembyaHindu。Geraldlookedinsurprise,wonderingifhewereagentleman,oneoftheHindusdownfromOxford,perhaps。 Butno,hewastheman—servant。 `Maketea,Hasan,\'saidHalliday。 `Thereisaroomforme?\'saidBirkin。 Tobothofwhichquestionsthemangrinned,andmurmured。 HemadeGeralduncertain,because,beingtallandslenderandreticent,helookedlikeagentleman。 `Whoisyourservant?\'heaskedofHalliday。`Helooksaswell。\' `Ohyes——that\'sbecausehe\'sdressedinanotherman\'sclothes。He\'sanythingbutaswell,really。Wefoundhimintheroad,starving。SoI tookhimhere,andanothermangavehimclothes。He\'sanythingbutwhatheseemstobe——hisonlyadvantageisthathecan\'tspeakEnglishandcan\'tunderstandit,sohe\'sperfectlysafe。\' `He\'sverydirty,\'saidtheyoungRussianswiftlyandsilently。 Directly,themanappearedinthedoorway。 `Whatisit?\'saidHalliday。 TheHindugrinned,andmurmuredshyly: `Wanttospeaktomaster。\' Geraldwatchedcuriously。Thefellowinthedoorwaywasgoodlookingandclean—limbed,hisbearingwascalm,helookedelegant,aristocratic。 Yethewashalfasavage,grinningfoolishly。Hallidaywentoutintothecorridortospeakwithhim。 `What?\'theyheardhisvoice。`What?Whatdoyousay?Tellmeagain。 What?Wantmoney?Wantmoremoney?Butwhatdoyouwantmoneyfor?\' TherewastheconfusedsoundoftheHindu\'stalking,thenHallidayappearedintheroom,smilingalsofoolishly,andsaying: `Hesayshewantsmoneytobuyunderclothing。Cananybodylendmeashilling?Ohthanks,ashillingwilldotobuyalltheunderclotheshewants。\'HetookthemoneyfromGeraldandwentoutintothepassageagain,wheretheyheardhimsaying,`Youcan\'twantmoremoney,youhadthreeandsixyesterday。Youmustn\'taskforanymore。Bringtheteainquickly。\' Geraldlookedroundtheroom。ItwasanordinaryLondonsitting—roominaflat,evidentlytakenfurnished,rathercommonandugly。Buttherewereseveralnegrostatues,wood—carvingsfromWestAfrica,strangeanddisturbing,thecarvednegroeslookedalmostlikethefoetusofahumanbeing。Onewasawomansittingnakedinastrangeposture,andlookingtortured,herabdomenstuckout。TheyoungRussianexplainedthatshewassittinginchild—birth,clutchingtheendsofthebandthathungfromherneck,oneineachhand,sothatshecouldbeardown,andhelplabour。Thestrange,transfixed,rudimentaryfaceofthewomanagainremindedGeraldofafoetus,itwasalsoratherwonderful,conveyingthesuggestionoftheextremeofphysicalsensation,beyondthelimitsofmentalconsciousness。 `Aren\'ttheyratherobscene?\'heasked,disapproving。 `Idon\'tknow,\'murmuredtheotherrapidly。`Ihaveneverdefinedtheobscene。Ithinktheyareverygood。\' Geraldturnedaway。Therewereoneortwonewpicturesintheroom,intheFuturistmanner;therewasalargepiano。Andthese,withsomeordinaryLondonlodging—housefurnitureofthebettersort,completedthewhole。 ThePussumhadtakenoffherhatandcoat,andwasseatedonthesofa。 Shewasevidentlyquiteathomeinthehouse,butuncertain,suspended。 Shedidnotquiteknowherposition。HerallianceforthetimebeingwaswithGerald,andshedidnotknowhowfarthiswasadmittedbyanyofthemen。Shewasconsideringhowsheshouldcarryoffthesituation。Shewasdeterminedtohaveherexperience。Now,atthiseleventhhour,shewasnottobebaulked。Herfacewasflushedaswithbattle,hereyewasbroodingbutinevitable。 ThemancameinwithteaandabottleofKummel。Hesetthetrayonalittletablebeforethecouch。 `Pussum,\'saidHalliday,`pouroutthetea。\' Shedidnotmove。 `Won\'tyoudoit?\'Hallidayrepeated,inastateofnervousapprehension。 `I\'venotcomebackhereasitwasbefore,\'shesaid。`Ionlycamebecausetheotherswantedmeto,notforyoursake。\' `MydearPussum,youknowyouareyourownmistress。Idon\'twantyoutodoanythingbutusetheflatforyourownconvenience——youknowit,I\'vetoldyousomanytimes。\' Shedidnotreply,butsilently,reservedlyreachedforthetea—pot。 Theyallsatroundanddranktea。Geraldcouldfeeltheelectricconnectionbetweenhimandhersostrongly,asshesattherequietandwithheld,thatanothersetofconditionsaltogetherhadcometopass。Hersilenceandherimmutabilityperplexedhim。Howwashegoingtocometoher? Andyethefeltitquiteinevitable。Hetrustedcompletelytothecurrentthatheldthem。Hisperplexitywasonlysuperficial,newconditionsreigned,theoldweresurpassed;hereonedidasonewaspossessedtodo,nomatterwhatitwas。 Birkinrose。Itwasnearlyoneo\'clock。 `I\'mgoingtobed,\'hesaid。`Gerald,I\'llringyouupinthemorningatyourplaceoryouringmeuphere。\' `Right,\'saidGerald,andBirkinwentout。 Whenhewaswellgone,Hallidaysaidinastimulatedvoice,toGerald: `Isay,won\'tyoustayhere——ohdo!\' `Youcan\'tputeverybodyup,\'saidGerald。 `OhbutIcan,perfectly——therearethreemorebedsbesidesmine—— dostay,won\'tyou。Everythingisquiteready——thereisalwayssomebodyhere——Ialwaysputpeopleup——Ilovehavingthehousecrowded。\' `Butthereareonlytworooms,\'saidthePussum,inacold,hostilevoice,`nowRupert\'shere。\' `Iknowthereareonlytworooms,\'saidHalliday,inhisodd,highwayofspeaking。`Butwhatdoesthatmatter?\' Hewassmilingratherfoolishly,andhespokeeagerly,withaninsinuatingdetermination。 `JuliusandIwillshareoneroom,\'saidtheRussianinhisdiscreet,precisevoice。HallidayandhewerefriendssinceEton。 `It\'sverysimple,\'saidGerald,risingandpressingbackhisarms,stretchinghimself。Thenhewentagaintolookatoneofthepictures。 Everyoneofhislimbswasturgidwithelectricforce,andhisbackwastenselikeatiger\'s,withslumberingfire。Hewasveryproud。 ThePussumrose。ShegaveablacklookatHalliday,blackanddeadly,whichbroughttheratherfoolishlypleasedsmiletothatyoungman\'sface。 Thenshewentoutoftheroom,withacoldgood—nighttothemallgenerally。 Therewasabriefinterval,theyheardadoorclose,thenMaximsaid,inhisrefinedvoice: `That\'sallright。\' HelookedsignificantlyatGerald,andsaidagain,withasilentnod: `That\'sallright——you\'reallright。\' Geraldlookedatthesmooth,ruddy,comelyface,andatthestrange,significanteyes,anditseemedasifthevoiceoftheyoungRussian,sosmallandperfect,soundedinthebloodratherthanintheair。 `I\'mallrightthen,\'saidGerald。 `Yes!Yes!You\'reallright,\'saidtheRussian。 Hallidaycontinuedtosmile,andtosaynothing。 SuddenlythePussumappearedagaininthedoor,hersmall,childishfacelookingsullenandvindictive。 `Iknowyouwanttocatchmeout,\'camehercold,ratherresonantvoice。 `ButIdon\'tcare,Idon\'tcarehowmuchyoucatchmeout。\' Sheturnedandwasgoneagain。Shehadbeenwearingaloosedressing—gownofpurplesilk,tiedroundherwaist。Shelookedsosmallandchildishandvulnerable,almostpitiful。AndyettheblacklooksofhereyesmadeGeraldfeeldrownedinsomepotentdarknessthatalmostfrightenedhim。 Themenlitanothercigaretteandtalkedcasually。 WomenInLove:Chapter7CHAPTERVIIFetishINTHEMORNINGGeraldwokelate。Hehadsleptheavily。 Pussumwasstillasleep,sleepingchildishlyandpathetically。Therewassomethingsmallandcurledupanddefencelessabouther,thatrousedanunsatisfiedflameofpassionintheyoungman\'sblood,adevouringavidpity。Helookedatheragain。Butitwouldbetoocrueltowakeher。Hesubduedhimself,andwentaway。 Hearingvoicescomingfromthesitting—room,HallidaytalkingtoLibidnikov,hewenttothedoorandglancedin。Hehadonasilkwrapofabeautifulbluishcolour,withanamethysthem。 Tohissurprisehesawthetwoyoungmenbythefire,starknaked。Hallidaylookedup,ratherpleased。 `Good—morning,\'hesaid。`Oh——didyouwanttowels?\'Andstarknakedhewentoutintothehall,stridingastrange,whitefigurebetweentheunlivingfurniture。Hecamebackwiththetowels,andtookhisformerposition,crouchingseatedbeforethefireonthefender。 `Don\'tyoulovetofeelthefireonyourskin?\'hesaid。 `Itisratherpleasant,\'saidGerald。 `Howperfectlysplendiditmustbetobeinaclimatewhereonecoulddowithoutclothingaltogether,\'saidHalliday。 `Yes,\'saidGerald,`ifthereweren\'tsomanythingsthatstingandbite。\' `That\'sadisadvantage,\'murmuredMaxim。 Geraldlookedathim,andwithaslightrevulsionsawthehumananimal,goldenskinnedandbare,somehowhumiliating。Hallidaywasdifferent。Hehadaratherheavy,slack,brokenbeauty,whiteandfirm。HewaslikeaChristinaPieta。Theanimalwasnotthereatall,onlytheheavy,brokenbeauty。AndGeraldrealisedhowHalliday\'seyeswerebeautifultoo,soblueandwarmandconfused,brokenalsointheirexpression。Thefireglowfellonhisheavy,ratherbowedshoulders,hesatslacklycrouchedonthefender,hisfacewasuplifted,weak,perhapsslightlydisintegrate,andyetwithamovingbeautyofitsown。 `Ofcourse,\'saidMaxim,`you\'vebeeninhotcountrieswherethepeoplegoaboutnaked。\' `Ohreally!\'exclaimedHalliday。`Where?\' `SouthAmerica——Amazon,\'saidGerald。 `Ohbuthowperfectlysplendid!It\'soneofthethingsIwantmosttodo——tolivefromdaytodaywithouteverputtingonanysortofclothingwhatever。IfIcoulddothat,IshouldfeelIhadlived。\' `Butwhy?\'saidGerald。`Ican\'tseethatitmakessomuchdifference。\' `Oh,Ithinkitwouldbeperfectlysplendid。I\'msurelifewouldbeentirelyanotherthing——entirelydifferent,andperfectlywonderful。\' `Butwhy?\'askedGerald。`Whyshouldit?\' `Oh——onewouldfeelthingsinsteadofmerelylookingatthem。 Ishouldfeeltheairmoveagainstme,andfeelthethingsItouched,insteadofhavingonlytolookatthem。I\'msurelifeisallwrongbecauseithasbecomemuchtoovisual——wecanneitherhearnorfeelnorunderstand,wecanonlysee。I\'msurethatisentirelywrong。\' `Yes,thatistrue,thatistrue,\'saidtheRussian。 Geraldglancedathim,andsawhim,hissuave,goldencolouredbodywiththeblackhairgrowingfineandfreely,liketendrils,andhislimbslikesmoothplant—stems。Hewassohealthyandwell—made,whydidhemakeoneashamed,whydidonefeelrepelled?WhyshouldGeraldevendislikeit,whydiditseemtohimtodetractfromhisowndignity。Wasthatallahumanbeingamountedto?Souninspired!thoughtGerald。 Birkinsuddenlyappearedinthedoorway,inwhitepyjamasandwethair,andatoweloverhisarm。Hewasaloofandwhite,andsomehowevanescent。 `There\'sthebath—roomnow,ifyouwantit,\'hesaidgenerally,andwasgoingawayagain,whenGeraldcalled: `Isay,Rupert!\' `What?\'Thesinglewhitefigureappearedagain,apresenceintheroom。 `Whatdoyouthinkofthatfigurethere?Iwanttoknow,\'Geraldasked。 Birkin,whiteandstrangelyghostly,wentovertothecarvedfigureofthenegrowomaninlabour。Hernude,protuberantbodycrouchedinastrange,clutchingposture,herhandsgrippingtheendsoftheband,aboveherbreast。 `Itisart,\'saidBirkin。 `Verybeautiful,it\'sverybeautiful,\'saidtheRussian。 Theyalldrewneartolook。Geraldlookedatthegroupofmen,theRussiangoldenandlikeawater—plant,Hallidaytallandheavily,brokenlybeautiful,Birkinverywhiteandindefinite,nottobeassigned,ashelookedcloselyatthecarvenwoman。Strangelyelated,Geraldalsoliftedhiseyestothefaceofthewoodenfigure。Andhisheartcontracted。 Hesawvividlywithhisspiritthegrey,forward—stretchingfaceofthenegrowoman,Africanandtense,abstractedinutterphysicalstress。 Itwasaterribleface,void,peaked,abstractedalmostintomeaninglessnessbytheweightofsensationbeneath。HesawthePussuminit。Asinadream,heknewher。 `Whyisitart?\'Geraldasked,shocked,resentful。 `Itconveysacompletetruth,\'saidBirkin。`Itcontainsthewholetruthofthatstate,whateveryoufeelaboutit。\' `Butyoucan\'tcallithighart,\'saidGerald。 `High!Therearecenturiesandhundredsofcenturiesofdevelopmentinastraightline,behindthatcarving;itisanawfulpitchofculture,ofadefinitesort。\' `Whatculture?\'Geraldasked,inopposition。HehatedthesheerAfricanthing。 `Purecultureinsensation,cultureinthephysicalconsciousness,reallyultimatephysicalconsciousness,mindless,utterlysensual。Itissosensualastobefinal,supreme。\' ButGeraldresentedit。Hewantedtokeepcertainillusions,certainideaslikeclothing。 `Youlikethewrongthings,Rupert,\'hesaid,`thingsagainstyourself。\' `Oh,Iknow,thisisn\'teverything,\'Birkinreplied,movingaway。 WhenGeraldwentbacktohisroomfromthebath,healsocarriedhisclothes。Hewassoconventionalathome,thatwhenhewasreallyaway,andontheloose,asnow,heenjoyednothingsomuchasfulloutrageousness。 Sohestrodewithhisbluesilkwrapoverhisarmandfeltdefiant。 ThePussumlayinherbed,motionless,herround,darkeyeslikeblack,unhappypools。Hecouldonlyseetheblack,bottomlesspoolsofhereyes。 Perhapsshesuffered。Thesensationofherinchoatesufferingrousedtheoldsharpflameinhim,amordantpity,apassionalmostofcruelty。 `Youareawakenow,\'hesaidtoher。 `Whattimeisit?\'camehermutedvoice。 Sheseemedtoflowback,almostlikeliquid,fromhisapproach,tosinkhelplesslyawayfromhim。Herinchoatelookofaviolatedslave,whosefulfilmentliesinherfurtherandfurtherviolation,madehisnervesquiverwithacutelydesirablesensation。Afterall,hiswastheonlywill,shewasthepassivesubstanceofhiswill。Hetingledwiththesubtle,bitingsensation。Andthenheknew,hemustgoawayfromher,theremustbepureseparationbetweenthem。 Itwasaquietandordinarybreakfast,thefourmenalllookingverycleanandbathed。GeraldandtheRussianwerebothcorrectandcommeilfautinappearanceandmanner,Birkinwasgauntandsick,andlookedafailureinhisattempttobeaproperlydressedman,likeGeraldandMaxim。Hallidayworetweedsandagreenflannelshirt,andaragofatie,whichwasjustrightforhim。TheHindubroughtinagreatdealofsofttoast,andlookedexactlythesameashehadlookedthenightbefore,staticallythesame。 AttheendofthebreakfastthePussumappeared,inapurplesilkwrapwithashimmeringsash。Shehadrecoveredherselfsomewhat,butwasmuteandlifelessstill。Itwasatormenttoherwhenanybodyspoketoher。 Herfacewaslikeasmall,finemask,sinistertoo,maskedwithunwillingsuffering。Itwasalmostmidday。Geraldroseandwentawaytohisbusiness,gladtogetout。Buthehadnotfinished。Hewascomingbackagainatevening,theywerealldiningtogether,andhehadbookedseatsfortheparty,exceptingBirkin,atamusic—hall。 Atnighttheycamebacktotheflatverylateagain,againflushedwithdrink。Againtheman—servant——whoinvariablydisappearedbetweenthehoursoftenandtwelveatnight——cameinsilentlyandinscrutablywithtea,bendinginaslow,strange,leopard—likefashiontoputthetraysoftlyonthetable。Hisfacewasimmutable,aristocratic—looking,tingedslightlywithgreyundertheskin;hewasyoungandgood—looking。ButBirkinfeltaslightsickness,lookingathim,andfeelingtheslightgreynessasanashoracorruption,inthearistocraticinscrutabilityofexpressionanauseating,bestialstupidity。 Againtheytalkedcordiallyandrousedlytogether。Butalreadyacertainfriabilitywascomingovertheparty,Birkinwasmadwithirritation,HallidaywasturninginaninsanehatredagainstGerald,thePussumwasbecominghardandcold,likeaflintknife,andHallidaywaslayinghimselfouttoher。Andherintention,ultimately,wastocaptureHalliday,tohavecompletepoweroverhim。 Inthemorningtheyallstalkedandloungedaboutagain。ButGeraldcouldfeelastrangehostilitytohimself,intheair。Itrousedhisobstinacy,andhestoodupagainstit。Hehungonfortwomoredays。TheresultwasanastyandinsanescenewithHallidayonthefourthevening。HallidayturnedwithabsurdanimosityuponGerald,inthecafe。Therewasarow。