`Youmustaskforchampagne,\'camethewhispering,gentlemanlyvoiceoftheother。
Geraldsuddenlyrealisedthatthiswasahinttohim。
`Shallwehavechampagne?\'heasked,laughing。
`Yesplease,dwy,\'shelispedchildishly。
Geraldwatchedhereatingtheoysters。Shewasdelicateandfinickinginhereating,herfingerswerefineandseemedverysensitiveinthetips,sosheputherfoodapartwithfine,smallmotions,sheatecarefully,delicately。Itpleasedhimverymuchtoseeher,anditirritatedBirkin。
Theywerealldrinkingchampagne。Maxim,theprimyoungRussianwiththesmooth,warm—colouredfaceandblack,oiledhairwastheonlyonewhoseemedtobeperfectlycalmandsober。Birkinwaswhiteandabstract,unnatural,Geraldwassmilingwithaconstantbright,amused,coldlightinhiseyes,leaningalittleprotectivelytowardsthePussum,whowasveryhandsome,andsoft,unfoldedlikesomeredlotusindreadfulfloweringnakedness,vaingloriousnow,flushedwithwineandwiththeexcitementofmen。Hallidaylookedfoolish。Oneglassofwinewasenoughtomakehimdrunkandgiggling。
Yettherewasalwaysapleasant,warmnaiveteabouthim,thatmadehimattractive。
`I\'mnotafwaidofanythingexceptblack—beetles,\'saidthePussum,lookingupsuddenlyandstaringwithherblackeyes,onwhichthereseemedanunseeingfilmofflame,fullyuponGerald。Helaugheddangerously,fromtheblood。Herchildishspeechcaressedhisnerves,andherburning,filmedeyes,turnednowfulluponhim,obliviousofallherantecedents,gavehimasortoflicence。
`I\'mnot,\'sheprotested。`I\'mnotafraidofotherthings。Butblack—beetles——ugh!\'sheshudderedconvulsively,asiftheverythoughtweretoomuchtobear。
`Doyoumean,\'saidGerald,withthepunctiliousnessofamanwhohasbeendrinking,`thatyouareafraidofthesightofablack—beetle,oryouareafraidofablack—beetlebitingyou,ordoingyousomeharm?\'
`Dotheybite?\'criedthegirl。
`Howperfectlyloathsome!\'exclaimedHalliday。
`Idon\'tknow,\'repliedGerald,lookingroundthetable。`Doblack—beetlesbite?Butthatisn\'tthepoint。Areyouafraidoftheirbiting,orisitametaphysicalantipathy?\'
Thegirlwaslookingfulluponhimallthetimewithinchoateeyes。
`Oh,Ithinkthey\'rebeastly,they\'rehorrid,\'shecried。`IfIseeone,itgivesmethecreepsallover。Ifoneweretocrawlonme,I\'msureIshoulddie——I\'msureIshould。\'
`Ihopenot,\'whisperedtheyoungRussian。
`I\'msureIshould,Maxim,\'sheasseverated。
`Thenonewon\'tcrawlonyou,\'saidGerald,smilingandknowing。Insomestrangewayheunderstoodher。
`It\'smetaphysical,asGeraldsays,\'Birkinstated。
Therewasalittlepauseofuneasiness。
`Andareyouafraidofnothingelse,Pussum?\'askedtheyoungRussian,inhisquick,hushed,elegantmanner。
`Notweally,\'shesaid。`Iamafwaidofsomethings,butnotweallythesame。I\'mnotafwaidofblood。\'
`Notafwaidofblood!\'exclaimedayoungmanwithathick,pale,jeeringface,whohadjustcometothetableandwasdrinkingwhisky。
ThePussumturnedonhimasulkylookofdislike,lowandugly。
`Aren\'tyoureallyafraidofblud?\'theotherpersisted,asneeralloverhisface。
`No,I\'mnot,\'sheretorted。
`Why,haveyoueverseenblood,exceptinadentist\'sspittoon?\'jeeredtheyoungman。
`Iwasn\'tspeakingtoyou,\'sherepliedrathersuperbly。
`Youcananswerme,can\'tyou?\'hesaid。
Forreply,shesuddenlyjabbedaknifeacrosshisthick,palehand。
Hestartedupwithavulgarcurse。
`Show\'swhatyouare,\'saidthePussumincontempt。
`Curseyou,\'saidtheyoungman,standingbythetableandlookingdownatherwithacridmalevolence。
`Stopthat,\'saidGerald,inquick,instinctivecommand。
Theyoungmanstoodlookingdownatherwithsardoniccontempt,acowed,self—consciouslookonhisthick,paleface。Thebloodbegantoflowfromhishand。
`Oh,howhorrible,takeitaway!\'squealedHalliday,turninggreenandavertinghisface。
`D\'youfeelill?\'askedthesardonicyoungman,insomeconcern。`Doyoufeelill,Julius?Garn,it\'snothing,man,don\'tgiveherthepleasureoflettingherthinkshe\'sperformedafeat——don\'tgiveherthesatisfaction,man——it\'sjustwhatshewants。\'
`Oh!\'squealedHalliday。
`He\'sgoingtocat,Maxim,\'saidthePussumwarningly。ThesuaveyoungRussianroseandtookHallidaybythearm,leadinghimaway。Birkin,whiteanddiminished,lookedonasifheweredispleased。Thewounded,sardonicyoungmanmovedaway,ignoringhisbleedinghandinthemostconspicuousfashion。
`He\'sanawfulcoward,really,\'saidthePussumtoGerald。`He\'sgotsuchaninfluenceoverJulius。\'
`Whoishe?\'askedGerald。
`He\'saJew,really。Ican\'tbearhim。\'
`Well,he\'squiteunimportant。Butwhat\'swrongwithHalliday?\'
`Julius\'sthemostawfulcowardyou\'veeverseen,\'shecried。`HealwaysfaintsifIliftaknife——he\'stewwifiedofme。\'
`H\'m!\'saidGerald。
`They\'reallafwaidofme,\'shesaid。`OnlytheJewthinkshe\'sgoingtoshowhiscourage。Buthe\'sthebiggestcowardofthemall,really,becausehe\'safwaidwhatpeoplewillthinkabouthim——andJuliusdoesn\'tcareaboutthat。\'
`They\'vealotofvalourbetweenthem,\'saidGeraldgood—humouredly。
ThePussumlookedathimwithaslow,slowsmile。Shewasveryhandsome,flushed,andconfidentindreadfulknowledge。TwolittlepointsoflightglintedonGerald\'seyes。
`WhydotheycallyouPussum,becauseyou\'relikeacat?\'heaskedher。
`Iexpectso,\'shesaid。
Thesmilegrewmoreintenseonhisface。
`Youare,rather;orayoung,femalepanther。\'
`OhGod,Gerald!\'saidBirkin,insomedisgust。
TheybothlookeduneasilyatBirkin。
`You\'resilenttonight,Wupert,\'shesaidtohim,withaslightinsolence,beingsafewiththeotherman。
Hallidaywascomingback,lookingforlornandsick。
`Pussum,\'hesaid,`Iwishyouwouldn\'tdothesethings——Oh!\'Hesankinhischairwithagroan。
`You\'dbettergohome,\'shesaidtohim。
`Iwillgohome,\'hesaid。`Butwon\'tyouallcomealong。Won\'tyoucomeroundtotheflat?\'hesaidtoGerald。`Ishouldbesogladifyouwould。Do——that\'llbesplendid。Isay?\'Helookedroundforawaiter。
`Getmeataxi。\'Thenhegroanedagain。`OhIdofeel——perfectlyghastly!
Pussum,youseewhatyoudotome。\'
`Thenwhyareyousuchanidiot?\'shesaidwithsullencalm。
`ButI\'mnotanidiot!Oh,howawful!Docome,everybody,itwillbesosplendid。Pussum,youarecoming。What?Ohbutyoumustcome,yes,youmust。What?Oh,mydeargirl,don\'tmakeafussnow,Ifeelperfectly——Oh,it\'ssoghastly——Ho!——er!Oh!\'
`Youknowyoucan\'tdrink,\'shesaidtohim,coldly。
`Itellyouitisn\'tdrink——it\'syourdisgustingbehaviour,Pussum,it\'snothingelse。Oh,howawful!Libidnikov,doletusgo。\'
`He\'sonlydrunkoneglass——onlyoneglass,\'cametherapid,hushedvoiceoftheyoungRussian。
Theyallmovedofftothedoor。ThegirlkeptneartoGerald,andseemedtobeatoneinhermotionwithhim。Hewasawareofthis,andfilledwithdemon—satisfactionthathismotionheldgoodfortwo。Heheldherinthehollowofhiswill,andshewassoft,secret,invisibleinherstirringthere。
Theycrowdedfiveofthemintothetaxi—cab。Hallidaylurchedinfirst,anddroppedintohisseatagainsttheotherwindow。ThenthePussumtookherplace,andGeraldsatnexttoher。TheyheardtheyoungRussiangivingorderstothedriver,thentheywereallseatedinthedark,crowdedclosetogether,Hallidaygroaningandleaningoutofthewindow。Theyfelttheswift,muffledmotionofthecar。
ThePussumsatneartoGerald,andsheseemedtobecomesoft,subtlytoinfuseherselfintohisbones,asifshewerepassingintohiminablack,electricflow。Herbeingsuffusedintohisveinslikeamagneticdarkness,andconcentratedatthebaseofhisspinelikeafearfulsourceofpower。Meanwhilehervoicesoundedoutreedyandnonchalant,asshetalkedindifferentlywithBirkinandwithMaxim。BetweenherandGeraldwasthissilenceandthisblack,electriccomprehensioninthedarkness。
Thenshefoundhishand,andgraspeditinherownfirm,smallclasp。Itwassoutterlydark,andyetsuchanakedstatement,thatrapidvibrationsranthroughhisbloodandoverhisbrain,hewasnolongerresponsible。
Stillhervoicerangonlikeabell,tingedwithatoneofmockery。Andassheswungherhead,herfinemaneofhairjustswepthisface,andallhisnerveswereonfire,aswithasubtlefrictionofelectricity。Butthegreatcentreofhisforceheldsteady,amagnificentpridetohim,atthebaseofhisspine。
Theyarrivedatalargeblockofbuildings,wentupinalift,andpresentlyadoorwasbeingopenedforthembyaHindu。Geraldlookedinsurprise,wonderingifhewereagentleman,oneoftheHindusdownfromOxford,perhaps。
Butno,hewastheman—servant。
`Maketea,Hasan,\'saidHalliday。
`Thereisaroomforme?\'saidBirkin。
Tobothofwhichquestionsthemangrinned,andmurmured。
HemadeGeralduncertain,because,beingtallandslenderandreticent,helookedlikeagentleman。
`Whoisyourservant?\'heaskedofHalliday。`Helooksaswell。\'
`Ohyes——that\'sbecausehe\'sdressedinanotherman\'sclothes。He\'sanythingbutaswell,really。Wefoundhimintheroad,starving。SoI
tookhimhere,andanothermangavehimclothes。He\'sanythingbutwhatheseemstobe——hisonlyadvantageisthathecan\'tspeakEnglishandcan\'tunderstandit,sohe\'sperfectlysafe。\'
`He\'sverydirty,\'saidtheyoungRussianswiftlyandsilently。
Directly,themanappearedinthedoorway。
`Whatisit?\'saidHalliday。
TheHindugrinned,andmurmuredshyly:
`Wanttospeaktomaster。\'
Geraldwatchedcuriously。Thefellowinthedoorwaywasgoodlookingandclean—limbed,hisbearingwascalm,helookedelegant,aristocratic。
Yethewashalfasavage,grinningfoolishly。Hallidaywentoutintothecorridortospeakwithhim。
`What?\'theyheardhisvoice。`What?Whatdoyousay?Tellmeagain。
What?Wantmoney?Wantmoremoney?Butwhatdoyouwantmoneyfor?\'
TherewastheconfusedsoundoftheHindu\'stalking,thenHallidayappearedintheroom,smilingalsofoolishly,andsaying:
`Hesayshewantsmoneytobuyunderclothing。Cananybodylendmeashilling?Ohthanks,ashillingwilldotobuyalltheunderclotheshewants。\'HetookthemoneyfromGeraldandwentoutintothepassageagain,wheretheyheardhimsaying,`Youcan\'twantmoremoney,youhadthreeandsixyesterday。Youmustn\'taskforanymore。Bringtheteainquickly。\'
Geraldlookedroundtheroom。ItwasanordinaryLondonsitting—roominaflat,evidentlytakenfurnished,rathercommonandugly。Buttherewereseveralnegrostatues,wood—carvingsfromWestAfrica,strangeanddisturbing,thecarvednegroeslookedalmostlikethefoetusofahumanbeing。Onewasawomansittingnakedinastrangeposture,andlookingtortured,herabdomenstuckout。TheyoungRussianexplainedthatshewassittinginchild—birth,clutchingtheendsofthebandthathungfromherneck,oneineachhand,sothatshecouldbeardown,andhelplabour。Thestrange,transfixed,rudimentaryfaceofthewomanagainremindedGeraldofafoetus,itwasalsoratherwonderful,conveyingthesuggestionoftheextremeofphysicalsensation,beyondthelimitsofmentalconsciousness。
`Aren\'ttheyratherobscene?\'heasked,disapproving。
`Idon\'tknow,\'murmuredtheotherrapidly。`Ihaveneverdefinedtheobscene。Ithinktheyareverygood。\'
Geraldturnedaway。Therewereoneortwonewpicturesintheroom,intheFuturistmanner;therewasalargepiano。Andthese,withsomeordinaryLondonlodging—housefurnitureofthebettersort,completedthewhole。
ThePussumhadtakenoffherhatandcoat,andwasseatedonthesofa。
Shewasevidentlyquiteathomeinthehouse,butuncertain,suspended。
Shedidnotquiteknowherposition。HerallianceforthetimebeingwaswithGerald,andshedidnotknowhowfarthiswasadmittedbyanyofthemen。Shewasconsideringhowsheshouldcarryoffthesituation。Shewasdeterminedtohaveherexperience。Now,atthiseleventhhour,shewasnottobebaulked。Herfacewasflushedaswithbattle,hereyewasbroodingbutinevitable。
ThemancameinwithteaandabottleofKummel。Hesetthetrayonalittletablebeforethecouch。
`Pussum,\'saidHalliday,`pouroutthetea。\'
Shedidnotmove。
`Won\'tyoudoit?\'Hallidayrepeated,inastateofnervousapprehension。
`I\'venotcomebackhereasitwasbefore,\'shesaid。`Ionlycamebecausetheotherswantedmeto,notforyoursake。\'
`MydearPussum,youknowyouareyourownmistress。Idon\'twantyoutodoanythingbutusetheflatforyourownconvenience——youknowit,I\'vetoldyousomanytimes。\'
Shedidnotreply,butsilently,reservedlyreachedforthetea—pot。
Theyallsatroundanddranktea。Geraldcouldfeeltheelectricconnectionbetweenhimandhersostrongly,asshesattherequietandwithheld,thatanothersetofconditionsaltogetherhadcometopass。Hersilenceandherimmutabilityperplexedhim。Howwashegoingtocometoher?
Andyethefeltitquiteinevitable。Hetrustedcompletelytothecurrentthatheldthem。Hisperplexitywasonlysuperficial,newconditionsreigned,theoldweresurpassed;hereonedidasonewaspossessedtodo,nomatterwhatitwas。
Birkinrose。Itwasnearlyoneo\'clock。
`I\'mgoingtobed,\'hesaid。`Gerald,I\'llringyouupinthemorningatyourplaceoryouringmeuphere。\'
`Right,\'saidGerald,andBirkinwentout。
Whenhewaswellgone,Hallidaysaidinastimulatedvoice,toGerald:
`Isay,won\'tyoustayhere——ohdo!\'
`Youcan\'tputeverybodyup,\'saidGerald。
`OhbutIcan,perfectly——therearethreemorebedsbesidesmine——
dostay,won\'tyou。Everythingisquiteready——thereisalwayssomebodyhere——Ialwaysputpeopleup——Ilovehavingthehousecrowded。\'
`Butthereareonlytworooms,\'saidthePussum,inacold,hostilevoice,`nowRupert\'shere。\'
`Iknowthereareonlytworooms,\'saidHalliday,inhisodd,highwayofspeaking。`Butwhatdoesthatmatter?\'
Hewassmilingratherfoolishly,andhespokeeagerly,withaninsinuatingdetermination。
`JuliusandIwillshareoneroom,\'saidtheRussianinhisdiscreet,precisevoice。HallidayandhewerefriendssinceEton。
`It\'sverysimple,\'saidGerald,risingandpressingbackhisarms,stretchinghimself。Thenhewentagaintolookatoneofthepictures。
Everyoneofhislimbswasturgidwithelectricforce,andhisbackwastenselikeatiger\'s,withslumberingfire。Hewasveryproud。
ThePussumrose。ShegaveablacklookatHalliday,blackanddeadly,whichbroughttheratherfoolishlypleasedsmiletothatyoungman\'sface。
Thenshewentoutoftheroom,withacoldgood—nighttothemallgenerally。
Therewasabriefinterval,theyheardadoorclose,thenMaximsaid,inhisrefinedvoice:
`That\'sallright。\'
HelookedsignificantlyatGerald,andsaidagain,withasilentnod:
`That\'sallright——you\'reallright。\'
Geraldlookedatthesmooth,ruddy,comelyface,andatthestrange,significanteyes,anditseemedasifthevoiceoftheyoungRussian,sosmallandperfect,soundedinthebloodratherthanintheair。
`I\'mallrightthen,\'saidGerald。
`Yes!Yes!You\'reallright,\'saidtheRussian。
Hallidaycontinuedtosmile,andtosaynothing。
SuddenlythePussumappearedagaininthedoor,hersmall,childishfacelookingsullenandvindictive。
`Iknowyouwanttocatchmeout,\'camehercold,ratherresonantvoice。
`ButIdon\'tcare,Idon\'tcarehowmuchyoucatchmeout。\'
Sheturnedandwasgoneagain。Shehadbeenwearingaloosedressing—gownofpurplesilk,tiedroundherwaist。Shelookedsosmallandchildishandvulnerable,almostpitiful。AndyettheblacklooksofhereyesmadeGeraldfeeldrownedinsomepotentdarknessthatalmostfrightenedhim。
Themenlitanothercigaretteandtalkedcasually。
WomenInLove:Chapter7CHAPTERVIIFetishINTHEMORNINGGeraldwokelate。Hehadsleptheavily。
Pussumwasstillasleep,sleepingchildishlyandpathetically。Therewassomethingsmallandcurledupanddefencelessabouther,thatrousedanunsatisfiedflameofpassionintheyoungman\'sblood,adevouringavidpity。Helookedatheragain。Butitwouldbetoocrueltowakeher。Hesubduedhimself,andwentaway。
Hearingvoicescomingfromthesitting—room,HallidaytalkingtoLibidnikov,hewenttothedoorandglancedin。Hehadonasilkwrapofabeautifulbluishcolour,withanamethysthem。
Tohissurprisehesawthetwoyoungmenbythefire,starknaked。Hallidaylookedup,ratherpleased。
`Good—morning,\'hesaid。`Oh——didyouwanttowels?\'Andstarknakedhewentoutintothehall,stridingastrange,whitefigurebetweentheunlivingfurniture。Hecamebackwiththetowels,andtookhisformerposition,crouchingseatedbeforethefireonthefender。
`Don\'tyoulovetofeelthefireonyourskin?\'hesaid。
`Itisratherpleasant,\'saidGerald。
`Howperfectlysplendiditmustbetobeinaclimatewhereonecoulddowithoutclothingaltogether,\'saidHalliday。
`Yes,\'saidGerald,`ifthereweren\'tsomanythingsthatstingandbite。\'
`That\'sadisadvantage,\'murmuredMaxim。
Geraldlookedathim,andwithaslightrevulsionsawthehumananimal,goldenskinnedandbare,somehowhumiliating。Hallidaywasdifferent。Hehadaratherheavy,slack,brokenbeauty,whiteandfirm。HewaslikeaChristinaPieta。Theanimalwasnotthereatall,onlytheheavy,brokenbeauty。AndGeraldrealisedhowHalliday\'seyeswerebeautifultoo,soblueandwarmandconfused,brokenalsointheirexpression。Thefireglowfellonhisheavy,ratherbowedshoulders,hesatslacklycrouchedonthefender,hisfacewasuplifted,weak,perhapsslightlydisintegrate,andyetwithamovingbeautyofitsown。
`Ofcourse,\'saidMaxim,`you\'vebeeninhotcountrieswherethepeoplegoaboutnaked。\'
`Ohreally!\'exclaimedHalliday。`Where?\'
`SouthAmerica——Amazon,\'saidGerald。
`Ohbuthowperfectlysplendid!It\'soneofthethingsIwantmosttodo——tolivefromdaytodaywithouteverputtingonanysortofclothingwhatever。IfIcoulddothat,IshouldfeelIhadlived。\'
`Butwhy?\'saidGerald。`Ican\'tseethatitmakessomuchdifference。\'
`Oh,Ithinkitwouldbeperfectlysplendid。I\'msurelifewouldbeentirelyanotherthing——entirelydifferent,andperfectlywonderful。\'
`Butwhy?\'askedGerald。`Whyshouldit?\'
`Oh——onewouldfeelthingsinsteadofmerelylookingatthem。
Ishouldfeeltheairmoveagainstme,andfeelthethingsItouched,insteadofhavingonlytolookatthem。I\'msurelifeisallwrongbecauseithasbecomemuchtoovisual——wecanneitherhearnorfeelnorunderstand,wecanonlysee。I\'msurethatisentirelywrong。\'
`Yes,thatistrue,thatistrue,\'saidtheRussian。
Geraldglancedathim,andsawhim,hissuave,goldencolouredbodywiththeblackhairgrowingfineandfreely,liketendrils,andhislimbslikesmoothplant—stems。Hewassohealthyandwell—made,whydidhemakeoneashamed,whydidonefeelrepelled?WhyshouldGeraldevendislikeit,whydiditseemtohimtodetractfromhisowndignity。Wasthatallahumanbeingamountedto?Souninspired!thoughtGerald。
Birkinsuddenlyappearedinthedoorway,inwhitepyjamasandwethair,andatoweloverhisarm。Hewasaloofandwhite,andsomehowevanescent。
`There\'sthebath—roomnow,ifyouwantit,\'hesaidgenerally,andwasgoingawayagain,whenGeraldcalled:
`Isay,Rupert!\'
`What?\'Thesinglewhitefigureappearedagain,apresenceintheroom。
`Whatdoyouthinkofthatfigurethere?Iwanttoknow,\'Geraldasked。
Birkin,whiteandstrangelyghostly,wentovertothecarvedfigureofthenegrowomaninlabour。Hernude,protuberantbodycrouchedinastrange,clutchingposture,herhandsgrippingtheendsoftheband,aboveherbreast。
`Itisart,\'saidBirkin。
`Verybeautiful,it\'sverybeautiful,\'saidtheRussian。
Theyalldrewneartolook。Geraldlookedatthegroupofmen,theRussiangoldenandlikeawater—plant,Hallidaytallandheavily,brokenlybeautiful,Birkinverywhiteandindefinite,nottobeassigned,ashelookedcloselyatthecarvenwoman。Strangelyelated,Geraldalsoliftedhiseyestothefaceofthewoodenfigure。Andhisheartcontracted。
Hesawvividlywithhisspiritthegrey,forward—stretchingfaceofthenegrowoman,Africanandtense,abstractedinutterphysicalstress。
Itwasaterribleface,void,peaked,abstractedalmostintomeaninglessnessbytheweightofsensationbeneath。HesawthePussuminit。Asinadream,heknewher。
`Whyisitart?\'Geraldasked,shocked,resentful。
`Itconveysacompletetruth,\'saidBirkin。`Itcontainsthewholetruthofthatstate,whateveryoufeelaboutit。\'
`Butyoucan\'tcallithighart,\'saidGerald。
`High!Therearecenturiesandhundredsofcenturiesofdevelopmentinastraightline,behindthatcarving;itisanawfulpitchofculture,ofadefinitesort。\'
`Whatculture?\'Geraldasked,inopposition。HehatedthesheerAfricanthing。
`Purecultureinsensation,cultureinthephysicalconsciousness,reallyultimatephysicalconsciousness,mindless,utterlysensual。Itissosensualastobefinal,supreme。\'
ButGeraldresentedit。Hewantedtokeepcertainillusions,certainideaslikeclothing。
`Youlikethewrongthings,Rupert,\'hesaid,`thingsagainstyourself。\'
`Oh,Iknow,thisisn\'teverything,\'Birkinreplied,movingaway。
WhenGeraldwentbacktohisroomfromthebath,healsocarriedhisclothes。Hewassoconventionalathome,thatwhenhewasreallyaway,andontheloose,asnow,heenjoyednothingsomuchasfulloutrageousness。
Sohestrodewithhisbluesilkwrapoverhisarmandfeltdefiant。
ThePussumlayinherbed,motionless,herround,darkeyeslikeblack,unhappypools。Hecouldonlyseetheblack,bottomlesspoolsofhereyes。
Perhapsshesuffered。Thesensationofherinchoatesufferingrousedtheoldsharpflameinhim,amordantpity,apassionalmostofcruelty。
`Youareawakenow,\'hesaidtoher。
`Whattimeisit?\'camehermutedvoice。
Sheseemedtoflowback,almostlikeliquid,fromhisapproach,tosinkhelplesslyawayfromhim。Herinchoatelookofaviolatedslave,whosefulfilmentliesinherfurtherandfurtherviolation,madehisnervesquiverwithacutelydesirablesensation。Afterall,hiswastheonlywill,shewasthepassivesubstanceofhiswill。Hetingledwiththesubtle,bitingsensation。Andthenheknew,hemustgoawayfromher,theremustbepureseparationbetweenthem。
Itwasaquietandordinarybreakfast,thefourmenalllookingverycleanandbathed。GeraldandtheRussianwerebothcorrectandcommeilfautinappearanceandmanner,Birkinwasgauntandsick,andlookedafailureinhisattempttobeaproperlydressedman,likeGeraldandMaxim。Hallidayworetweedsandagreenflannelshirt,andaragofatie,whichwasjustrightforhim。TheHindubroughtinagreatdealofsofttoast,andlookedexactlythesameashehadlookedthenightbefore,staticallythesame。
AttheendofthebreakfastthePussumappeared,inapurplesilkwrapwithashimmeringsash。Shehadrecoveredherselfsomewhat,butwasmuteandlifelessstill。Itwasatormenttoherwhenanybodyspoketoher。
Herfacewaslikeasmall,finemask,sinistertoo,maskedwithunwillingsuffering。Itwasalmostmidday。Geraldroseandwentawaytohisbusiness,gladtogetout。Buthehadnotfinished。Hewascomingbackagainatevening,theywerealldiningtogether,andhehadbookedseatsfortheparty,exceptingBirkin,atamusic—hall。
Atnighttheycamebacktotheflatverylateagain,againflushedwithdrink。Againtheman—servant——whoinvariablydisappearedbetweenthehoursoftenandtwelveatnight——cameinsilentlyandinscrutablywithtea,bendinginaslow,strange,leopard—likefashiontoputthetraysoftlyonthetable。Hisfacewasimmutable,aristocratic—looking,tingedslightlywithgreyundertheskin;hewasyoungandgood—looking。ButBirkinfeltaslightsickness,lookingathim,andfeelingtheslightgreynessasanashoracorruption,inthearistocraticinscrutabilityofexpressionanauseating,bestialstupidity。
Againtheytalkedcordiallyandrousedlytogether。Butalreadyacertainfriabilitywascomingovertheparty,Birkinwasmadwithirritation,HallidaywasturninginaninsanehatredagainstGerald,thePussumwasbecominghardandcold,likeaflintknife,andHallidaywaslayinghimselfouttoher。Andherintention,ultimately,wastocaptureHalliday,tohavecompletepoweroverhim。
Inthemorningtheyallstalkedandloungedaboutagain。ButGeraldcouldfeelastrangehostilitytohimself,intheair。Itrousedhisobstinacy,andhestoodupagainstit。Hehungonfortwomoredays。TheresultwasanastyandinsanescenewithHallidayonthefourthevening。HallidayturnedwithabsurdanimosityuponGerald,inthecafe。Therewasarow。