`Yes。\'
Therewasareallypuzzledpause。
`Ican\'tsay,\'saidGerald。`Ithasn\'tbeen,sofar。\'
`Whathasyourlifebeen,sofar?\'
`Oh——findingoutthingsformyself——andgettingexperiences——andmakingthingsgo。\'
Birkinknittedhisbrowslikesharplymouldedsteel。
`Ifind,\'hesaid,`thatoneneedssomeonereallypuresingleactivity——Ishouldcallloveasinglepureactivity。ButIdon\'treallyloveanybody——notnow。\'
`Haveyoueverreallylovedanybody?\'askedGerald。
`Yesandno,\'repliedBirkin。
`Notfinally?\'saidGerald。
`Finally——finally——no,\'saidBirkin。
`NorI,\'saidGerald。
`Anddoyouwantto?\'saidBirkin。
Geraldlookedwithalong,twinkling,almostsardoniclookintotheeyesoftheotherman。
`Idon\'tknow,\'hesaid。
`Ido——Iwanttolove,\'saidBirkin。
`Youdo?\'
`Yes。Iwantthefinalityoflove。\'
`Thefinalityoflove,\'repeatedGerald。Andhewaitedforamoment。
`Justonewoman?\'headded。Theeveninglight,floodingyellowalongthefields,litupBirkin\'sfacewithatense,abstractsteadfastness。
Geraldstillcouldnotmakeitout。
`Yes,onewoman,\'saidBirkin。
ButtoGeralditsoundedasifhewereinsistentratherthanconfident。
`Idon\'tbelieveawoman,andnothingbutawoman,willevermakemylife,\'saidGerald。
`Notthecentreandcoreofit——thelovebetweenyouandawoman?\'
askedBirkin。
Gerald\'seyesnarrowedwithaqueerdangeroussmileashewatchedtheotherman。
`Ineverquitefeelitthatway,\'hesaid。
`Youdon\'t?Thenwhereindoeslifecentre,foryou?\'
`Idon\'tknow——that\'swhatIwantsomebodytotellme。AsfarasI
canmakeout,itdoesn\'tcentreatall。Itisartificiallyheldtogetherbythesocialmechanism。\'
Birkinponderedasifhewouldcracksomething。
`Iknow,\'hesaid,`itjustdoesn\'tcentre。Theoldidealsaredeadasnails——nothingthere。Itseemstomethereremainsonlythisperfectunionwithawoman——sortofultimatemarriage——andthereisn\'tanythingelse。\'
`Andyoumeanifthereisn\'tthewoman,there\'snothing?\'saidGerald。
`Prettywellthat——seeingthere\'snoGod。\'
`Thenwe\'rehardputtoit,\'saidGerald。Andheturnedtolookoutofthewindowattheflying,goldenlandscape。
Birkincouldnothelpseeinghowbeautifulandsoldierlyhisfacewas,withacertaincouragetobeindifferent。
`Youthinkitsheavyoddsagainstus?\'saidBirkin。
`Ifwe\'vegottomakeourlifeupoutofawoman,onewoman,womanonly,yes,Ido,\'saidGerald。`Idon\'tbelieveIshallevermakeupmylife,atthatrate。\'
Birkinwatchedhimalmostangrily。
`Youareabornunbeliever,\'hesaid。
`IonlyfeelwhatIfeel,\'saidGerald。AndhelookedagainatBirkinalmostsardonically,withhisblue,manly,sharp—lightedeyes。Birkin\'seyeswereatthemomentfullofanger。Butswiftlytheybecametroubled,doubtful,thenfullofawarm,richaffectionatenessandlaughter。
`Ittroublesmeverymuch,Gerald,\'hesaid,wrinklinghisbrows。
`Icanseeitdoes,\'saidGerald,uncoveringhismouthinamanly,quick,soldierlylaugh。
Geraldwasheldunconsciouslybytheotherman。Hewantedtobenearhim,hewantedtobewithinhissphereofinfluence。TherewassomethingverycongenialtohiminBirkin。Butyet,beyondthis,hedidnottakemuchnotice。Hefeltthathe,himself,Gerald,hadharderandmoredurabletruthsthananytheothermanknew。Hefelthimselfolder,moreknowing。
Itwasthequick—changingwarmthandvenalityandbrilliantwarmutterancehelovedinhisfriend。Itwastherichplayofwordsandquickinterchangeoffeelingsheenjoyed。Therealcontentofthewordsheneverreallyconsidered:
hehimselfknewbetter。
Birkinknewthis。HeknewthatGeraldwantedtobefondofhimwithouttakinghimseriously。Andthismadehimgohardandcold。Asthetrainranon,hesatlookingattheland,andGeraldfellaway,becameasnothingtohim。
Birkinlookedattheland,attheevening,andwasthinking:`Well,ifmankindisdestroyed,ifourraceisdestroyedlikeSodom,andthereisthisbeautifuleveningwiththeluminouslandandtrees,Iamsatisfied。
Thatwhichinformsitallisthere,andcanneverbelost。Afterall,whatismankindbutjustoneexpressionoftheincomprehensible。Andifmankindpassesaway,itwillonlymeanthatthisparticularexpressioniscompletedanddone。Thatwhichisexpressed,andthatwhichistobeexpressed,cannotbediminished。Thereitis,intheshiningevening。Letmankindpassaway——timeitdid。Thecreativeutteranceswillnotcease,theywillonlybethere。Humanitydoesn\'tembodytheutteranceoftheincomprehensibleanymore。Humanityisadeadletter。Therewillbeanewembodiment,inanewway。Lethumanitydisappearasquickaspossible。\'
Geraldinterruptedhimbyasking,`WhereareyoustayinginLondon?\'
Birkinlookedup。
`WithamaninSoho。Ipaypartoftherentofaflat,andstoptherewhenIlike。\'
`Goodidea——haveaplacemoreorlessyourown,\'saidGerald。
`Yes。ButIdon\'tcareforitmuch。I\'mtiredofthepeopleIamboundtofindthere。\'
`Whatkindofpeople?\'
`Art——music——LondonBohemia——themostpettifoggingcalculatingBohemiathateverreckoneditspennies。Butthereareafewdecentpeople,decentinsomerespects。Theyarereallyverythoroughrejectersoftheworld——perhapstheyliveonlyinthegestureofrejectionandnegation——butnegativelysomething,atanyrate。\'
`Whatarethey?——painters,musicians?\'
`Painters,musicians,writers——hangers—on,models,advancedyoungpeople,anybodywhoisopenlyatoutswiththeconventions,andbelongstonowhereparticularly。TheyareoftenyoungfellowsdownfromtheUniversity,andgirlswhoarelivingtheirownlives,astheysay。\'
`Allloose?\'saidGerald。
Birkincouldseehiscuriosityroused。
`Inoneway。Mostbound,inanother。Foralltheirshockingness,allononenote。\'
HelookedatGerald,andsawhowhisblueeyeswerelitupwithalittleflameofcuriousdesire。Hesawtoohowgood—lookinghewas。Geraldwasattractive,hisbloodseemedfluidandelectric。Hisblueeyesburnedwithakeen,yetcoldlight,therewasacertainbeauty,abeautifulpassivityinallhisbody,hismoulding。
`Wemightseesomethingofeachother——IaminLondonfortwoorthreedays,\'saidGerald。
`Yes,\'saidBirkin,`Idon\'twanttogotothetheatre,orthemusichall——you\'dbettercomeroundtotheflat,andseewhatyoucanmakeofHallidayandhiscrowd。\'
`Thanks——Ishouldliketo,\'laughedGerald。`Whatareyoudoingtonight?\'
`IpromisedtomeetHallidayatthePompadour。It\'sabadplace,butthereisnowhereelse。\'
`Whereisit?\'askedGerald。
`PiccadillyCircus。\'
`Ohyes——well,shallIcomeroundthere?\'
`Byallmeans,itmightamuseyou。\'
Theeveningwasfalling。TheyhadpassedBedford。Birkinwatchedthecountry,andwasfilledwithasortofhopelessness。Healwaysfeltthis,onapproachingLondon。
Hisdislikeofmankind,ofthemassofmankind,amountedalmosttoanillness。
`\"WherethequietcolouredendofeveningsmilesMilesandmiles——\"\'
hewasmurmuringtohimself,likeamancondemnedtodeath。Gerald,whowasverysubtlyalert,waryinallhissenses,leanedforwardandaskedsmilingly:
`Whatwereyousaying?\'Birkinglancedathim,laughed,andrepeated:
`\"Wherethequietcolouredendofeveningsmiles,Milesandmiles,OverpastureswherethesomethingsomethingsheepHalfasleep——\"\'
Geraldalsolookednowatthecountry。AndBirkin,who,forsomereasonwasnowtiredanddispirited,saidtohim:
`IalwaysfeeldoomedwhenthetrainisrunningintoLondon。Ifeelsuchadespair,sohopeless,asifitweretheendoftheworld。\'
`Really!\'saidGerald。`Anddoestheendoftheworldfrightenyou?\'
Birkinliftedhisshouldersinaslowshrug。
`Idon\'tknow,\'hesaid。`Itdoeswhileithangsimminentanddoesn\'tfall。Butpeoplegivemeabadfeeling——verybad。\'
TherewasarousedgladsmileinGerald\'seyes。
`Dothey?\'hesaid。Andhewatchedtheothermancritically。
InafewminutesthetrainwasrunningthroughthedisgraceofoutspreadLondon。Everybodyinthecarriagewasonthealert,waitingtoescape。
Atlasttheywereunderthehugearchofthestation,inthetremendousshadowofthetown。Birkinshuthimselftogether——hewasinnow。
Thetwomenwenttogetherinataxi—cab。
`Don\'tyoufeellikeoneofthedamned?\'askedBirkin,astheysatinalittle,swiftly—runningenclosure,andwatchedthehideousgreatstreet。
`No,\'laughedGerald。
`Itisrealdeath,\'saidBirkin。
WomenInLove:Chapter6CHAPTERVICremedeMentheTHEYMETagaininthecafeseveralhourslater。
Geraldwentthroughthepushdoorsintothelarge,loftyroomwherethefacesandheadsofthedrinkersshoweddimlythroughthehazeofsmoke,reflectedmoredimly,andrepeatedadinfinituminthegreatmirrorsonthewalls,sothatoneseemedtoenteravague,dimworldofshadowydrinkershummingwithinanatmosphereofbluetobaccosmoke。Therewas,however,theredplushoftheseatstogivesubstancewithinthebubbleofpleasure。
Geraldmovedinhisslow,observant,glistening—attentivemotiondownbetweenthetablesandthepeoplewhoseshadowyfaceslookedupashepassed。
Heseemedtobeenteringinsomestrangeelement,passingintoanilluminatednewregion,amongahostoflicentioussouls。Hewaspleased,andentertained。
Helookedoverallthedim,evanescent,strangelyilluminatedfacesthatbentacrossthetables。ThenhesawBirkinriseandsignaltohim。
AtBirkin\'stablewasagirlwithdark,soft,fluffyhaircutshortintheartistfashion,hanginglevelandfullalmostliketheEgyptianprincess\'s。Shewassmallanddelicatelymade,withwarmcolouringandlarge,darkhostileeyes。Therewasadelicacy,almostabeautyinallherform,andatthesametimeacertainattractivegrossnessofspirit,thatmadealittlesparkleapinstantlyalightinGerald\'seyes。
Birkin,wholookedmuted,unreal,hispresenceleftout,introducedherasMissDarrington。Shegaveherhandwithasudden,unwillingmovement,lookingallthewhileatGeraldwithadark,exposedstare。Aglowcameoverhimashesatdown。
Thewaiterappeared。Geraldglancedattheglassesoftheothertwo。
Birkinwasdrinkingsomethinggreen,MissDarringtonhadasmallliqueurglassthatwasemptysaveforatinydrop。
`Won\'tyouhavesomemore——?\'
`Brandy,\'shesaid,sippingherlastdropandputtingdowntheglass。
Thewaiterdisappeared。
`No,\'shesaidtoBirkin。`Hedoesn\'tknowI\'mback。He\'llbeterrifiedwhenheseesmehere。\'
Shespokeherr\'slikew\'s,lispingwithaslightlybabyishpronunciationwhichwasatonceaffectedandtruetohercharacter。Hervoicewasdullandtoneless。
`Whereishethen?\'askedBirkin。
`He\'sdoingaprivateshowatLadySnellgrove\'s,\'saidthegirl。`Warensistheretoo。\'
Therewasapause。
`Well,then,\'saidBirkin,inadispassionateprotectivemanner,`whatdoyouintendtodo?\'
Thegirlpausedsullenly。Shehatedthequestion。
`Idon\'tintendtodoanything,\'shereplied。`Ishalllookforsomesittingstomorrow。\'
`Whoshallyougoto?\'askedBirkin。
`IshallgotoBentley\'sfirst。ButIbelievehe\'sangwywithmeforrunningaway。\'
`ThatisfromtheMadonna?\'
`Yes。Andthenifhedoesn\'twantme,IknowIcangetworkwithCarmarthen。\'
`Carmarthen?\'
`LordCarmarthen——hedoesphotographs。\'
`Chiffonandshoulders——\'
`Yes。Buthe\'sawfullydecent。\'Therewasapause。
`AndwhatareyougoingtodoaboutJulius?\'heasked。
`Nothing,\'shesaid。`Ishalljustignorehim。\'
`You\'vedonewithhimaltogether?\'Butsheturnedasideherfacesullenly,anddidnotanswerthequestion。
Anotheryoungmancamehurryinguptothetable。
`HalloBirkin!HalloPussum,whendidyoucomeback?\'hesaideagerly。
`Today。\'
`DoesHallidayknow?\'
`Idon\'tknow。Idon\'tcareeither。\'
`Ha—ha!Thewindstillsitsinthatquarter,doesit?DoyoumindifIcomeovertothistable?\'
`I\'mtalkingtoWupert,doyoumind?\'shereplied,coollyandyetappealingly,likeachild。
`Openconfession——goodforthesoul,eh?\'saidtheyoungman。`Well,solong。\'
AndgivingasharplookatBirkinandatGerald,theyoungmanmovedoff,withaswingofhiscoatskirts。
AllthistimeGeraldhadbeencompletelyignored。Andyethefeltthatthegirlwasphysicallyawareofhisproximity。Hewaited,listened,andtriedtopiecetogethertheconversation。
`Areyoustayingattheflat?\'thegirlasked,ofBirkin。
`Forthreedays,\'repliedBirkin。`Andyou?\'
`Idon\'tknowyet。IcanalwaysgotoBertha\'s。\'Therewasasilence。
SuddenlythegirlturnedtoGerald,andsaid,inaratherformal,politevoice,withthedistantmannerofawomanwhoacceptsherpositionasasocialinferior,yetassumesintimatecamaraderiewiththemalesheaddresses:
`DoyouknowLondonwell?\'
`Icanhardlysay,\'helaughed。`I\'vebeenupagoodmanytimes,butIwasneverinthisplacebefore。\'
`You\'renotanartist,then?\'shesaid,inatonethatplacedhimanoutsider。
`No,\'hereplied。
`He\'sasoldier,andanexplorer,andaNapoleonofindustry,\'saidBirkin,givingGeraldhiscredentialsforBohemia。
`Areyouasoldier?\'askedthegirl,withacoldyetlivelycuriosity。
`No,Iresignedmycommission,\'saidGerald,`someyearsago。\'
`Hewasinthelastwar,\'saidBirkin。
`Wereyoureally?\'saidthegirl。
`AndthenheexploredtheAmazon,\'saidBirkin,`andnowheisrulingovercoal—mines。\'
ThegirllookedatGeraldwithsteady,calmcuriosity。Helaughed,hearinghimselfdescribed。Hefeltproudtoo,fullofmalestrength。Hisblue,keeneyeswerelitupwithlaughter,hisruddyface,withitssharpfairhair,wasfullofsatisfaction,andglowingwithlife。Hepiquedher。
`Howlongareyoustaying?\'sheaskedhim。
`Adayortwo,\'hereplied。`Butthereisnoparticularhurry。\'
Stillshestaredintohisfacewiththatslow,fullgazewhichwassocuriousandsoexcitingtohim。Hewasacutelyanddelightfullyconsciousofhimself,ofhisownattractiveness。Hefeltfullofstrength,abletogiveoffasortofelectricpower。Andhewasawareofherdark,hot—lookingeyesuponhim。Shehadbeautifuleyes,dark,fully—opened,hot,nakedintheirlookingathim。Andonthemthereseemedtofloatafilmofdisintegration,asortofmiseryandsullenness,likeoilonwater。Sheworenohatintheheatedcafe,herloose,simplejumperwasstrungonastringroundherneck。Butitwasmadeofrichpeach—colouredcrepe—de—chine,thathungheavilyandsoftlyfromheryoungthroatandherslenderwrists。Herappearancewassimpleandcomplete,reallybeautiful,becauseofherregularityandform,hersoftdarkhairfallingfullandleveloneithersideofherhead,herstraight,small,softenedfeatures,Egyptianintheslightfulnessoftheircurves,herslenderneckandthesimple,rich—colouredsmockhangingonherslendershoulders。Shewasverystill,almostnull,inhermanner,apartandwatchful。
SheappealedtoGeraldstrongly。Hefeltanawful,enjoyablepoweroverher,aninstinctivecherishingveryneartocruelty。Forshewasavictim。
Hefeltthatshewasinhispower,andhewasgenerous。Theelectricitywasturgidandvoluptuouslyrich,inhislimbs。Hewouldbeabletodestroyherutterlyinthestrengthofhisdischarge。Butshewaswaitinginherseparation,given。
Theytalkedbanalitiesforsometime。SuddenlyBirkinsaid:
`There\'sJulius!\'andhehalfrosetohisfeet,motioningtothenewcomer。
Thegirl,withacurious,almostevilmotion,lookedroundoverhershoulderwithoutmovingherbody。Geraldwatchedherdark,softhairswingoverherears。Hefeltherwatchingintenselythemanwhowasapproaching,sohelookedtoo。Hesawapale,full—builtyoungmanwithratherlong,solidfairhairhangingfromunderhisblackhat,movingcumbrouslydowntheroom,hisfacelitupwithasmileatoncenaiveandwarm,andvapid。HeapproachedtowardsBirkin,withahasteofwelcome。
Itwasnottillhewasquiteclosethatheperceivedthegirl。Herecoiled,wentpale,andsaid,inahighsquealingvoice:
`Pussum,whatareyoudoinghere?\'
Thecafelookeduplikeanimalswhentheyhearacry。Hallidayhungmotionless,analmostimbecilesmileflickeringpalelyonhisface。Thegirlonlystaredathimwithablacklookinwhichflaredanunfathomablehellofknowledge,andacertainimpotence。Shewaslimitedbyhim。
`Whyhaveyoucomeback?\'repeatedHalliday,inthesamehigh,hystericalvoice。`Itoldyounottocomeback。\'
Thegirldidnotanswer,onlystaredinthesameviscous,heavyfashion,straightathim,ashestoodrecoiled,asifforsafety,againstthenexttable。
`Youknowyouwantedhertocomeback——comeandsitdown,\'saidBirkintohim。
`NoIdidn\'twanthertocomeback,andItoldhernottocomeback。
Whathaveyoucomefor,Pussum?\'
`Fornothingfromyou,\'shesaidinaheavyvoiceofresentment。
`Thenwhyhaveyoucomebackatall?\'criedHalliday,hisvoicerisingtoakindofsqueal。
`Shecomesasshelikes,\'saidBirkin。`Areyougoingtositdown,orareyounot?\'
`No,Iwon\'tsitdownwithPussum,\'criedHalliday。
`Iwon\'thurtyou,youneedn\'tbeafraid,\'shesaidtohim,verycurtly,andyetwithasortofprotectivenesstowardshim,inhervoice。
Hallidaycameandsatatthetable,puttinghishandonhisheart,andcrying:
`Oh,it\'sgivenmesuchaturn!Pussum,Iwishyouwouldn\'tdothesethings。Whydidyoucomeback?\'
`Notforanythingfromyou,\'sherepeated。
`You\'vesaidthatbefore,\'hecriedinahighvoice。
Sheturnedcompletelyawayfromhim,toGeraldCrich,whoseeyeswereshiningwithasubtleamusement。
`Wereyouevervewymuchafwaidofthesavages?\'sheaskedinhercalm,dullchildishvoice。
`No——neververymuchafraid。Onthewholethey\'reharmless——they\'renotbornyet,youcan\'tfeelreallyafraidofthem。Youknowyoucanmanagethem。\'
`Doyouweally?Aren\'ttheyveryfierce?\'
`Notvery。Therearen\'tmanyfiercethings,asamatteroffact。Therearen\'tmanythings,neitherpeoplenoranimals,thathaveitinthemtobereallydangerous。\'
`Exceptinherds,\'interruptedBirkin。
`Aren\'ttherereally?\'shesaid。`Oh,Ithoughtsavageswereallsodangerous,they\'dhaveyourlifebeforeyoucouldlookround。\'
`Didyou?\'helaughed。`Theyareover—rated,savages。They\'retoomuchlikeotherpeople,notexciting,afterthefirstacquaintance。\'
`Oh,it\'snotsoverywonderfullybravethen,tobeanexplorer?\'
`No。It\'smoreaquestionofhardshipsthanofterrors。\'
`Oh!Andweren\'tyoueverafraid?\'
`Inmylife?Idon\'tknow。Yes,I\'mafraidofsomethings——ofbeingshutup,lockedupanywhere——orbeingfastened。I\'mafraidofbeingboundhandandfoot。\'
Shelookedathimsteadilywithherdarkeyes,thatrestedonhimandrousedhimsodeeply,thatitlefthisupperselfquitecalm。Itwasratherdelicious,tofeelherdrawinghisself—revelationsfromhim,asfromtheveryinnermostdarkmarrowofhisbody。Shewantedtoknow。Andherdarkeyesseemedtobelookingthroughintohisnakedorganism。Hefelt,shewascompelledtohim,shewasfatedtocomeintocontactwithhim,musthavetheseeinghimandknowinghim。Andthisrousedacuriousexultance。
Alsohefelt,shemustrelinquishherselfintohishands,andbesubjecttohim。Shewassoprofane,slave—like,watchinghim,absorbedbyhim。
Itwasnotthatshewasinterestedinwhathesaid;shewasabsorbedbyhisself—revelation,byhim,shewantedthesecretofhim,theexperienceofhismalebeing。
Gerald\'sfacewaslitupwithanuncannysmile,fulloflightandrousedness,yetunconscious。Hesatwithhisarmsonthetable,hissunbrowned,rathersinisterhands,thatwereanimalandyetveryshapelyandattractive,pushedforwardtowardsher。Andtheyfascinatedher。Andsheknew,shewatchedherownfascination。
Othermenhadcometothetable,totalkwithBirkinandHalliday。Geraldsaidinalowvoice,apart,toPussum:
`Wherehaveyoucomebackfrom?\'
`Fromthecountry,\'repliedPussum,inaverylow,yetfullyresonantvoice。Herfaceclosedhard。ContinuallysheglancedatHalliday,andthenablackflarecameoverhereyes。Theheavy,fairyoungmanignoredhercompletely;hewasreallyafraidofher。ForsomemomentsshewouldbeunawareofGerald。Hehadnotconqueredheryet。
`AndwhathasHallidaytodowithit?\'heasked,hisvoicestillmuted。
Shewouldnotanswerforsomeseconds。Thenshesaid,unwillingly:
`Hemademegoandlivewithhim,andnowhewantstothrowmeover。
Andyethewon\'tletmegotoanybodyelse。Hewantsmetolivehiddeninthecountry。AndthenhesaysIpersecutehim,thathecan\'tgetridofme。\'
`Doesn\'tknowhisownmind,\'saidGerald。
`Hehasn\'tanymind,sohecan\'tknowit,\'shesaid。`Hewaitsforwhatsomebodytellshimtodo。Heneverdoesanythinghewantstodohimself——becausehedoesn\'tknowwhathewants。He\'saperfectbaby。\'
GeraldlookedatHallidayforsomemoments,watchingthesoft,ratherdegeneratefaceoftheyoungman。Itsverysoftnesswasanattraction;
itwasasoft,warm,corruptnature,intowhichonemightplungewithgratification。
`Buthehasnoholdoveryou,hashe?\'Geraldasked。
`Youseehemademegoandlivewithhim,whenIdidn\'twantto,\'shereplied。`Hecameandcriedtome,tears,youneversawsomany,sayinghecouldn\'tbearitunlessIwentbacktohim。Andhewouldn\'tgoaway,hewouldhavestayedforever。Hemademegoback。Theneverytimehebehavesinthisfashion。AndnowI\'mgoingtohaveababy,hewantstogivemeahundredpoundsandsendmeintothecountry,sothathewouldneverseemenorhearofmeagain。ButI\'mnotgoingtodoit,after——
\'
AqueerlookcameoverGerald\'sface。
`Areyougoingtohaveachild?\'heaskedincredulous。Itseemed,tolookather,impossible,shewassoyoungandsofarinspiritfromanychild—bearing。
Shelookedfullintohisface,andherdark,inchoateeyeshadnowafurtivelook,andalookofaknowledgeofevil,darkandindomitable。
Aflameransecretlytohisheart。
`Yes,\'shesaid。`Isn\'titbeastly?\'
`Don\'tyouwantit?\'heasked。
`Idon\'t,\'sherepliedemphatically。
`But——\'hesaid,`howlonghaveyouknown?\'
`Tenweeks,\'shesaid。
Allthetimeshekeptherdark,inchoateeyesfulluponhim。Heremainedsilent,thinking。Then,switchingoffandbecomingcold,heasked,inavoicefullofconsideratekindness:
`Isthereanythingwecaneathere?Isthereanythingyouwouldlike?\'
`Yes,\'shesaid,`Ishouldadoresomeoysters。\'
`Allright,\'hesaid。`We\'llhaveoysters。\'Andhebeckonedtothewaiter。
Hallidaytooknonotice,untilthelittleplatewassetbeforeher。
Thensuddenlyhecried:
`Pussum,youcan\'teatoysterswhenyou\'redrinkingbrandy。\'
`Whathasitgotodowithyou?\'sheasked。
`Nothing,nothing,\'hecried。`Butyoucan\'teatoysterswhenyou\'redrinkingbrandy。\'
`I\'mnotdrinkingbrandy,\'shereplied,andshesprinkledthelastdropsofherliqueuroverhisface。Hegaveanoddsqueal。Shesatlookingathim,asifindifferent。
`Pussum,whydoyoudothat?\'hecriedinpanic。HegaveGeraldtheimpressionthathewasterrifiedofher,andthathelovedhisterror。
Heseemedtorelishhisownhorrorandhatredofher,turnitoverandextracteveryflavourfromit,inrealpanic。Geraldthoughthimastrangefool,andyetpiquant。
`ButPussum,\'saidanotherman,inaverysmall,quickEtonvoice,`youpromisednottohurthim。\'
`Ihaven\'thurthim,\'sheanswered。
`Whatwillyoudrink?\'theyoungmanasked。Hewasdark,andsmooth—skinned,andfullofastealthyvigour。
`Idon\'tlikeporter,Maxim,\'shereplied。