`That\'sdoneit!\'shesaid。
Sheputherhandonthearmofhercare—worn,sallowfather,andfrothingherlightdraperies,proceededovertheeternalredcarpet。Herfather,muteandyellowish,hisblackbeardmakinghimlookmorecareworn,mountedthestepsstiffly,asifhisspiritwereabsent;butthelaughingmistofthebridewentalongwithhimundiminished。
Andnobridegroomhadarrived!Itwasintolerableforher。Ursula,herheartstrainedwithanxiety,waswatchingthehillbeyond;thewhite,descendingroad,thatshouldgivesightofhim。Therewasacarriage。Itwasrunning。
Ithadjustcomeintosight。Yes,itwashe。Ursulaturnedtowardsthebrideandthepeople,and,fromherplaceofvantage,gaveaninarticulatecry。Shewantedtowarnthemthathewascoming。Buthercrywasinarticulateandinaudible,andsheflusheddeeply,betweenherdesireandherwincingconfusion。
Thecarriagerattleddownthehill,anddrewnear。Therewasashoutfromthepeople。Thebride,whohadjustreachedthetopofthesteps,turnedroundgailytoseewhatwasthecommotion。Shesawaconfusionamongthepeople,acabpullingup,andherloverdroppingoutofthecarriage,anddodgingamongthehorsesandintothecrowd。
`Tibs!Tibs!\'shecriedinhersudden,mockingexcitement,standinghighonthepathinthesunlightandwavingherbouquet。He,dodgingwithhishatinhishand,hadnotheard。
`Tibs!\'shecriedagain,lookingdowntohim。
Heglancedup,unaware,andsawthebrideandherfatherstandingonthepathabovehim。Aqueer,startledlookwentoverhisface。Hehesitatedforamoment。Thenhegatheredhimselftogetherforaleap,toovertakeher。
`Ah—h—h!\'cameherstrange,intakencry,as,onthereflex,shestarted,turnedandfled,scuddingwithanunthinkableswiftbeatingofherwhitefeetandfrayingofherwhitegarments,towardsthechurch。Likeahoundtheyoungmanwasafterher,leapingthestepsandswingingpastherfather,hissupplehaunchesworkinglikethoseofahoundthatbearsdownonthequarry。
`Ay,afterher!\'criedthevulgarwomenbelow,carriedsuddenlyintothesport。
She,herflowersshakenfromherlikefroth,wassteadyingherselftoturntheangleofthechurch。Sheglancedbehind,andwithawildcryoflaughterandchallenge,veered,poised,andwasgonebeyondthegreystonebuttress。Inanotherinstantthebridegroom,bentforwardasheran,hadcaughttheangleofthesilentstonewithhishand,andhadswunghimselfoutofsight,hissupple,strongloinsvanishinginpursuit。
Instantlycriesandexclamationsofexcitementburstfromthecrowdatthegate。AndthenUrsulanoticedagainthedark,ratherstoopingfigureofMrCrich,waitingsuspendedonthepath,watchingwithexpressionlessfacetheflighttothechurch。Itwasover,andheturnedroundtolookbehindhim,atthefigureofRupertBirkin,whoatoncecameforwardandjoinedhim。
`We\'llbringuptherear,\'saidBirkin,afaintsmileonhisface。
`Ay!\'repliedthefatherlaconically。Andthetwomenturnedtogetherupthepath。
BirkinwasasthinasMrCrich,paleandill—looking。Hisfigurewasnarrowbutnicelymade。Hewentwithaslighttrailofonefoot,whichcameonlyfromself—consciousness。Althoughhewasdressedcorrectlyforhispart,yettherewasaninnateincongruitywhichcausedaslightridiculousnessinhisappearance。Hisnaturewascleverandseparate,hedidnotfitatallintheconventionaloccasion。Yethesubordinatedhimselftothecommonidea,travestiedhimself。
Heaffectedtobequiteordinary,perfectlyandmarvellouslycommonplace。
Andhediditsowell,takingthetoneofhissurroundings,adjustinghimselfquicklytohisinterlocutorandhiscircumstance,thatheachievedaverisimilitudeofordinarycommonplacenessthatusuallypropitiatedhisonlookersforthemoment,disarmedthemfromattackinghissingleness。
NowhespokequiteeasilyandpleasantlytoMrCrich,astheywalkedalongthepath;heplayedwithsituationslikeamanonatight—rope:butalwaysonatight—rope,pretendingnothingbutease。
`I\'msorrywearesolate,\'hewassaying。`Wecouldn\'tfindabutton—hook,soittookusalongtimetobuttonourboots。Butyouweretothemoment。\'
`Weareusuallytotime,\'saidMrCrich。
`AndI\'malwayslate,\'saidBirkin。`ButtodayIwasreallypunctual,onlyaccidentallynotso。I\'msorry。\'
Thetwomenweregone,therewasnothingmoretosee,forthetime。
UrsulawasleftthinkingaboutBirkin。Hepiquedher,attractedher,andannoyedher。
Shewantedtoknowhimmore。Shehadspokenwithhimonceortwice,butonlyinhisofficialcapacityasinspector。Shethoughtheseemedtoacknowledgesomekinshipbetweenherandhim,anatural,tacitunderstanding,ausingofthesamelanguage。Buttherehadbeennotimefortheunderstandingtodevelop。Andsomethingkeptherfromhim,aswellasattractedhertohim。Therewasacertainhostility,ahiddenultimatereserveinhim,coldandinaccessible。
Yetshewantedtoknowhim。
`WhatdoyouthinkofRupertBirkin?\'sheasked,alittlereluctantly,ofGudrun。Shedidnotwanttodiscusshim。
`WhatdoIthinkofRupertBirkin?\'repeatedGudrun。`Ithinkhe\'sattractive——decidedlyattractive。WhatIcan\'tstandabouthimishiswaywithotherpeople——hiswayoftreatinganylittlefoolasifshewerehisgreatestconsideration。Onefeelssoawfullysold,oneself。\'
`Whydoeshedoit?\'saidUrsula。
`Becausehehasnorealcriticalfaculty——ofpeople,atallevents,\'
saidGudrun。`Itellyou,hetreatsanylittlefoolashetreatsmeoryou——andit\'ssuchaninsult。\'
`Oh,itis,\'saidUrsula。`Onemustdiscriminate。\'
`Onemustdiscriminate,\'repeatedGudrun。`Buthe\'sawonderfulchap,inotherrespects——amarvellouspersonality。Butyoucan\'ttrusthim。\'
`Yes,\'saidUrsulavaguely。ShewasalwaysforcedtoassenttoGudrun\'spronouncements,evenwhenshewasnotinaccordaltogether。
Thesisterssatsilent,waitingfortheweddingpartytocomeout。Gudrunwasimpatientoftalk。ShewantedtothinkaboutGeraldCrich。Shewantedtoseeifthestrongfeelingshehadgotfromhimwasreal。Shewantedtohaveherselfready。
Insidethechurch,theweddingwasgoingon。HermioneRoddicewasthinkingonlyofBirkin。Hestoodnearher。Sheseemedtogravitatephysicallytowardshim。Shewantedtostandtouchinghim。Shecouldhardlybesurehewasnearher,ifshedidnottouchhim。Yetshestoodsubjectedthroughtheweddingservice。
Shehadsufferedsobitterlywhenhedidnotcome,thatstillshewasdazed。Stillshewasgnawedasbyaneuralgia,tormentedbyhispotentialabsencefromher。Shehadawaitedhiminafaintdeliriumofnervoustorture。
Asshestoodbearingherselfpensively,theraptlookonherface,thatseemedspiritual,liketheangels,butwhichcamefromtorture,gaveheracertainpoignancythattorehisheartwithpity。Hesawherbowedhead,herraptface,thefaceofanalmostdemoniacalecstatic。Feelinghimlooking,sheliftedherfaceandsoughthiseyes,herownbeautifulgreyeyesflaringhimagreatsignal。Butheavoidedherlook,shesankherheadintormentandshame,thegnawingatherheartgoingon。Andhetoowastorturedwithshame,andultimatedislike,andwithacutepityforher,becausehedidnotwanttomeethereyes,hedidnotwanttoreceiveherflareofrecognition。
Thebrideandbridegroomweremarried,thepartywentintothevestry。
HermionecrowdedinvoluntarilyupagainstBirkin,totouchhim。Andheenduredit。
Outside,GudrunandUrsulalistenedfortheirfather\'splayingontheorgan。Hewouldenjoyplayingaweddingmarch。Nowthemarriedpairwerecoming!Thebellswereringing,makingtheairshake。Ursulawonderedifthetreesandtheflowerscouldfeelthevibration,andwhattheythoughtofit,thisstrangemotionintheair。Thebridewasquitedemureonthearmofthebridegroom,whostaredupintotheskybeforehim,shuttingandopeninghiseyesunconsciously,asifhewereneitherherenorthere。
Helookedrathercomical,blinkingandtryingtobeinthescene,whenemotionallyhewasviolatedbyhisexposuretoacrowd。Helookedatypicalnavalofficer,manly,anduptohisduty。
BirkincamewithHermione。Shehadarapt,triumphantlook,likethefallenangelsrestored,yetstillsubtlydemoniacal,nowsheheldBirkinbythearm。Andhewasexpressionless,neutralised,possessedbyherasifitwerehisfate,withoutquestion。
GeraldCrichcame,fair,good—looking,healthy,withagreatreserveofenergy。Hewaserectandcomplete,therewasastrangestealthglisteningthroughhisamiable,almosthappyappearance。Gudrunrosesharplyandwentaway。Shecouldnotbearit。Shewantedtobealone,toknowthisstrange,sharpinoculationthathadchangedthewholetemperofherblood。
WomenInLove:Chapter2CHAPTERIIShortlandsTHEBRANGWENSwenthometoBeldover,thewedding—partygatheredatShortlands,theCriches\'home。
Itwasalong,lowoldhouse,asortofmanorfarm,thatspreadalongthetopofaslopejustbeyondthenarrowlittlelakeofWilleyWater。Shortlandslookedacrossaslopingmeadowthatmightbeapark,becauseofthelarge,solitarytreesthatstoodhereandthere,acrossthewaterofthenarrowlake,atthewoodedhillthatsuccessfullyhidthecollieryvalleybeyond,butdidnotquitehidetherisingsmoke。Nevertheless,thescenewasruralandpicturesque,verypeaceful,andthehousehadacharmofitsown。
Itwascrowdednowwiththefamilyandtheweddingguests。Thefather,whowasnotwell,withdrewtorest。Geraldwashost。Hestoodinthehomelyentrancehall,friendlyandeasy,attendingtothemen。Heseemedtotakepleasureinhissocialfunctions,hesmiled,andwasabundantinhospitality。
Thewomenwanderedaboutinalittleconfusion,chasedhitherandthitherbythethreemarrieddaughtersofthehouse。Allthewhiletherecouldbeheardthecharacteristic,imperiousvoiceofoneCrichwomanoranothercalling`Helen,comehereaminute,\'`Marjory,Iwantyou——here。\'`Oh,Isay,MrsWitham——。\'Therewasagreatrustlingofskirts,swiftglimpsesofsmartly—dressedwomen,achilddancedthroughthehallandbackagain,amaidservantcameandwenthurriedly。
Meanwhilethemenstoodincalmlittlegroups,chatting,smoking,pretendingtopaynoheedtotherustlinganimationofthewomen\'sworld。Buttheycouldnotreallytalk,becauseoftheglassyravelofwomen\'sexcited,coldlaughterandrunningvoices。Theywaited,uneasy,suspended,ratherbored。ButGeraldremainedasifgenialandhappy,unawarethathewaswaitingorunoccupied,knowinghimselftheverypivotoftheoccasion。
SuddenlyMrsCrichcamenoiselesslyintotheroom,peeringaboutwithherstrong,clearface。Shewasstillwearingherhat,andhersaccoatofbluesilk。
`Whatisit,mother?\'saidGerald。
`Nothing,nothing!\'sheansweredvaguely。AndshewentstraighttowardsBirkin,whowastalkingtoaCrichbrother—in—law。
`Howdoyoudo,MrBirkin,\'shesaid,inherlowvoice,thatseemedtotakenocountofherguests。Sheheldoutherhandtohim。
`OhMrsCrich,\'repliedBirkin,inhisreadily—changingvoice,`Icouldn\'tcometoyoubefore。\'
`Idon\'tknowhalfthepeoplehere,\'shesaid,inherlowvoice。Herson—in—lawmoveduneasilyaway。
`Andyoudon\'tlikestrangers?\'laughedBirkin。`Imyselfcanneverseewhyoneshouldtakeaccountofpeople,justbecausetheyhappentobeintheroomwithone:whyshouldIknowtheyarethere?\'
`Whyindeed,whyindeed!\'saidMrsCrich,inherlow,tensevoice。`Exceptthattheyarethere。Idon\'tknowpeoplewhomIfindinthehouse。Thechildrenintroducethemtome——\"Mother,thisisMrSo—and—so。\"
Iamnofurther。WhathasMrSo—and—sotodowithhisownname?——andwhathaveItodowitheitherhimorhisname?\'
ShelookedupatBirkin。Shestartledhim。Hewasflatteredtoothatshecametotalktohim,forshetookhardlyanynoticeofanybody。Helookeddownathertenseclearface,withitsheavyfeatures,buthewasafraidtolookintoherheavy—seeingblueeyes。Henoticedinsteadhowherhairloopedinslack,slovenlystrandsoverherratherbeautifulears,whichwerenotquiteclean。Neitherwasherneckperfectlyclean。Eveninthatheseemedtobelongtoher,ratherthantotherestofthecompany;
though,hethoughttohimself,hewasalwayswellwashed,atanyrateattheneckandears。
Hesmiledfaintly,thinkingthesethings。Yethewastense,feelingthatheandtheelderly,estrangedwomanwereconferringtogetherliketraitors,likeenemieswithinthecampoftheotherpeople。Heresembledadeer,thatthrowsoneearbackuponthetrailbehind,andoneearforward,toknowwhatisahead。
`Peopledon\'treallymatter,\'hesaid,ratherunwillingtocontinue。
Themotherlookedupathimwithsudden,darkinterrogation,asifdoubtinghissincerity。
`Howdoyoumean,matter?\'sheaskedsharply。
`Notmanypeopleareanythingatall,\'heanswered,forcedtogodeeperthanhewantedto。`Theyjingleandgiggle。Itwouldbemuchbetteriftheywerejustwipedout。Essentially,theydon\'texist,theyaren\'tthere。\'
Shewatchedhimsteadilywhilehespoke。
`Butwedidn\'timaginethem,\'shesaidsharply。
`There\'snothingtoimagine,that\'swhytheydon\'texist。\'
`Well,\'shesaid,`Iwouldhardlygoasfarasthat。Theretheyare,whethertheyexistorno。Itdoesn\'trestwithmetodecideontheirexistence。
IonlyknowthatIcan\'tbeexpectedtotakecountofthemall。Youcan\'texpectmetoknowthem,justbecausetheyhappentobethere。AsfarasIgotheymightaswellnotbethere。\'
`Exactly,\'hereplied。
`Mightn\'tthey?\'sheaskedagain。
`Justaswell,\'herepeated。Andtherewasalittlepause。
`Exceptthattheyarethere,andthat\'sanuisance,\'shesaid。
`Therearemysons—in—law,\'shewenton,inasortofmonologue。`NowLaura\'sgotmarried,there\'sanother。AndIreallydon\'tknowJohnfromJamesyet。
Theycomeuptomeandcallmemother。Iknowwhattheywillsay——\"howareyou,mother?\"Ioughttosay,\"Iamnotyourmother,inanysense。\"
Butwhatistheuse?Theretheyare。Ihavehadchildrenofmyown。IsupposeIknowthemfromanotherwoman\'schildren。\'
`Onewouldsupposeso,\'hesaid。
Shelookedathim,somewhatsurprised,forgettingperhapsthatshewastalkingtohim。Andshelostherthread。
Shelookedroundtheroom,vaguely。Birkincouldnotguesswhatshewaslookingfor,norwhatshewasthinking。Evidentlyshenoticedhersons。
`Aremychildrenallthere?\'sheaskedhimabruptly。
Helaughed,startled,afraidperhaps。
`Iscarcelyknowthem,exceptGerald,\'hereplied。
`Gerald!\'sheexclaimed。`He\'sthemostwantingofthemall。You\'dneverthinkit,tolookathimnow,wouldyou?\'
`No,\'saidBirkin。
Themotherlookedacrossathereldestson,staredathimheavilyforsometime。
`Ay,\'shesaid,inanincomprehensiblemonosyllable,thatsoundedprofoundlycynical。Birkinfeltafraid,asifhedarednotrealise。AndMrsCrichmovedaway,forgettinghim。Butshereturnedonhertraces。
`Ishouldlikehimtohaveafriend,\'shesaid。`Hehasneverhadafriend。\'
Birkinlookeddownintohereyes,whichwereblue,andwatchingheavily。
Hecouldnotunderstandthem。`AmImybrother\'skeeper?\'hesaidtohimself,almostflippantly。
Thenheremembered,withaslightshock,thatthatwasCain\'scry。AndGeraldwasCain,ifanybody。NotthathewasCain,either,althoughhehadslainhisbrother。Therewassuchathingaspureaccident,andtheconsequencesdidnotattachtoone,eventhoughonehadkilledone\'sbrotherinsuchwise。Geraldasaboyhadaccidentallykilledhisbrother。Whatthen?Whyseektodrawabrandandacurseacrossthelifethathadcausedtheaccident?Amancanlivebyaccident,anddiebyaccident。Orcanhenot?Iseveryman\'slifesubjecttopureaccident,isitonlytherace,thegenus,thespecies,thathasauniversalreference?Oristhisnottrue,istherenosuchthingaspureaccident?Haseverythingthathappensauniversalsignificance?Hasit?Birkin,ponderingashestoodthere,hadforgottenMrsCrich,asshehadforgottenhim。
Hedidnotbelievethattherewasanysuchthingasaccident。Itallhungtogether,inthedeepestsense。
Justashehaddecidedthis,oneoftheCrichdaughterscameup,saying:
`Won\'tyoucomeandtakeyourhatoff,motherdear?Weshallbesittingdowntoeatinaminute,andit\'saformaloccasion,darling,isn\'tit?\'
Shedrewherarmthroughhermother\'s,andtheywentaway。Birkinimmediatelywenttotalktothenearestman。
Thegongsoundedfortheluncheon。Themenlookedup,butnomovewasmadetothedining—room。Thewomenofthehouseseemednottofeelthatthesoundhadmeaningforthem。Fiveminutespassedby。Theelderlymanservant,Crowther,appearedinthedoorwayexasperatedly。HelookedwithappealatGerald。Thelattertookupalarge,curvedconchshell,thatlayonashelf,andwithoutreferencetoanybody,blewashatteringblast。Itwasastrangerousingnoise,thatmadetheheartbeat。Thesummonswasalmostmagical。Everybodycamerunning,asifatasignal。Andthenthecrowdinoneimpulsemovedtothedining—room。
Geraldwaitedamoment,forhissistertoplayhostess。Heknewhismotherwouldpaynoattentiontoherduties。Buthissistermerelycrowdedtoherseat。Thereforetheyoungman,slightlytoodictatorial,directedthegueststotheirplaces。
Therewasamoment\'slull,aseverybodylookedattheborsd\'oeuvresthatwerebeinghandedround。Andoutofthislull,agirlofthirteenorfourteen,withherlonghairdownherback,saidinacalm,self—possessedvoice:
`Gerald,youforgetfather,whenyoumakethatunearthlynoise。\'
`DoI?\'heanswered。Andthen,tothecompany,`Fatherislyingdown,heisnotquitewell。\'
`Howishe,really?\'calledoneofthemarrieddaughters,peepingroundtheimmenseweddingcakethattoweredupinthemiddleofthetablesheddingitsartificialflowers。
`Hehasnopain,buthefeelstired,\'repliedWinifred,thegirlwiththehairdownherback。
Thewinewasfilled,andeverybodywastalkingboisterously。Atthefarendofthetablesatthemother,withherloosely—loopedhair。ShehadBirkinforaneighbour。Sometimessheglancedfiercelydowntherowsoffaces,bendingforwardsandstaringunceremoniously。AndshewouldsayinalowvoicetoBirkin:
`Whoisthatyoungman?\'
`Idon\'tknow,\'Birkinanswereddiscreetly。
`HaveIseenhimbefore?\'sheasked。
`Idon\'tthinkso。Ihaven\'t,\'hereplied。Andshewassatisfied。
Hereyesclosedwearily,apeacecameoverherface,shelookedlikeaqueeninrepose。Thenshestarted,alittlesocialsmilecameonherface,foramomentshelookedthepleasanthostess。Foramomentshebentgraciously,asifeveryonewerewelcomeanddelightful。Andthenimmediatelytheshadowcameback,asullen,eaglelookwasonherface,sheglancedfromunderherbrowslikeasinistercreatureatbay,hatingthemall。
`Mother,\'calledDiana,ahandsomegirlalittleolderthanWinifred,`Imayhavewine,mayn\'tI?\'
`Yes,youmayhavewine,\'repliedthemotherautomatically,forshewasperfectlyindifferenttothequestion。
AndDianabeckonedtothefootmantofillherglass。
`Geraldshouldn\'tforbidme,\'shesaidcalmly,tothecompanyatlarge。
`Allright,Di,\'saidherbrotheramiably。Andsheglancedchallengeathimasshedrankfromherglass。
Therewasastrangefreedom,thatalmostamountedtoanarchy,inthehouse。Itwasratheraresistancetoauthority,thanliberty。Geraldhadsomecommand,bymereforceofpersonality,notbecauseofanygrantedposition。Therewasaqualityinhisvoice,amiablebutdominant,thatcowedtheothers,whowereallyoungerthanhe。
Hermionewashavingadiscussionwiththebridegroomaboutnationality。
`No,\'shesaid,`Ithinkthattheappealtopatriotismisamistake。
Itislikeonehouseofbusinessrivallinganotherhouseofbusiness。\'
`Wellyoucanhardlysaythat,canyou?\'exclaimedGerald,whohadarealpassionfordiscussion。`Youcouldn\'tcallaraceabusinessconcern,couldyou?——andnationalityroughlycorrespondstorace,Ithink。
Ithinkitismeantto。\'
Therewasamoment\'spause。GeraldandHermionewerealwaysstrangelybutpolitelyandevenlyinimical。
`Doyouthinkracecorrespondswithnationality?\'sheaskedmusingly,withexpressionlessindecision。
Birkinknewshewaswaitingforhimtoparticipate。Anddutifullyhespokeup。
`IthinkGeraldisright——raceistheessentialelementinnationality,inEuropeatleast,\'hesaid。
AgainHermionepaused,asiftoallowthisstatementtocool。Thenshesaidwithstrangeassumptionofauthority:
`Yes,butevenso,isthepatrioticappealanappealtotheracialinstinct?
Isitnotratheranappealtotheproprietoryinstinct,thecommercialinstinct?Andisn\'tthiswhatwemeanbynationality?\'
`Probably,\'saidBirkin,whofeltthatsuchadiscussionwasoutofplaceandoutoftime。
ButGeraldwasnowonthescentofargument。
`Aracemayhaveitscommercialaspect,\'hesaid。`Infactitmust。
Itislikeafamily。Youmustmakeprovision。Andtomakeprovisionyouhavegottostriveagainstotherfamilies,othernations。Idon\'tseewhyyoushouldn\'t。\'
AgainHermionemadeapause,domineeringandcold,beforeshereplied:
`Yes,Ithinkitisalwayswrongtoprovokeaspiritofrivalry。Itmakesbadblood。Andbadbloodaccumulates。\'
`Butyoucan\'tdoawaywiththespiritofemulationaltogether?\'saidGerald。`Itisoneofthenecessaryincentivestoproductionandimprovement。\'
`Yes,\'cameHermione\'ssaunteringresponse。`Ithinkyoucandoawaywithit。\'
`Imustsay,\'saidBirkin,`Idetestthespiritofemulation。\'Hermionewasbitingapieceofbread,pullingitfrombetweenherteethwithherfingers,inaslow,slightlyderisivemovement。SheturnedtoBirkin。
`Youdohateit,yes,\'shesaid,intimateandgratified。
`Detestit,\'herepeated。
`Yes,\'shemurmured,assuredandsatisfied。
`But,\'Geraldinsisted,`youdon\'tallowonemantotakeawayhisneighbour\'sliving,sowhyshouldyouallowonenationtotakeawaythelivingfromanothernation?\'
TherewasalongslowmurmurfromHermionebeforeshebrokeintospeech,sayingwithalaconicindifference:
`Itisnotalwaysaquestionofpossessions,isit?Itisnotallaquestionofgoods?\'
Geraldwasnettledbythisimplicationofvulgarmaterialism。
`Yes,moreorless,\'heretorted。`IfIgoandtakeaman\'shatfromoffhishead,thathatbecomesasymbolofthatman\'sliberty。Whenhefightsmeforhishat,heisfightingmeforhisliberty。\'
Hermionewasnonplussed。
`Yes,\'shesaid,irritated。`Butthatwayofarguingbyimaginaryinstancesisnotsupposedtobegenuine,isit?Amandoesnotcomeandtakemyhatfromoffmyhead,doeshe?\'
`Onlybecausethelawpreventshim,\'saidGerald。
`Notonly,\'saidBirkin。`Ninety—ninemenoutofahundreddon\'twantmyhat。\'
`That\'samatterofopinion,\'saidGerald。
`Orthehat,\'laughedthebridegroom。
`Andifhedoeswantmyhat,suchasitis,\'saidBirkin,`why,surelyitisopentometodecide,whichisagreaterlosstome,myhat,ormylibertyasafreeandindifferentman。IfIamcompelledtoofferfight,Ilosethelatter。Itisaquestionwhichisworthmoretome,mypleasantlibertyofconduct,ormyhat。\'
`Yes,\'saidHermione,watchingBirkinstrangely。`Yes。\'
`Butwouldyouletsomebodycomeandsnatchyourhatoffyourhead?\'
thebrideaskedofHermione。
Thefaceofthetallstraightwomanturnedslowlyandasifdruggedtothisnewspeaker。
`No,\'shereplied,inalowinhumantone,thatseemedtocontainachuckle。
`No,Ishouldn\'tletanybodytakemyhatoffmyhead。\'
`Howwouldyoupreventit?\'askedGerald。
`Idon\'tknow,\'repliedHermioneslowly。`ProbablyIshouldkillhim。\'
Therewasastrangechuckleinhertone,adangerousandconvincinghumourinherbearing。
`Ofcourse,\'saidGerald,`IcanseeRupert\'spoint。Itisaquestiontohimwhetherhishatorhispeaceofmindismoreimportant。\'
`Peaceofbody,\'saidBirkin。
`Well,asyoulikethere,\'repliedGerald。`Buthowareyougoingtodecidethisforanation?\'
`Heavenpreserveme,\'laughedBirkin。
`Yes,butsupposeyouhaveto?\'Geraldpersisted。
`Thenitisthesame。Ifthenationalcrown—pieceisanoldhat,thenthethievinggentmayhaveit。\'
`Butcanthenationalorracialhatbeanoldhat?\'insistedGerald。
`Prettywellboundtobe,Ibelieve,\'saidBirkin。
`I\'mnotsosure,\'saidGerald。
`Idon\'tagree,Rupert,\'saidHermione。
`Allright,\'saidBirkin。
`I\'mallfortheoldnationalhat,\'laughedGerald。
`Andafoolyoulookinit,\'criedDiana,hispertsisterwhowasjustinherteens。
`Oh,we\'requiteoutofourdepthswiththeseoldhats,\'criedLauraCrich。`Dryupnow,Gerald。We\'regoingtodrinktoasts。Letusdrinktoasts。
Toasts——glasses,glasses——nowthen,toasts!Speech!Speech!\'
Birkin,thinkingaboutraceornationaldeath,watchedhisglassbeingfilledwithchampagne。Thebubblesbrokeattherim,themanwithdrew,andfeelingasuddenthirstatthesightofthefreshwine,Birkindrankuphisglass。Aqueerlittletensionintheroomrousedhim。Hefeltasharpconstraint。
`DidIdoitbyaccident,oronpurpose?\'heaskedhimself。Andhedecidedthat,accordingtothevulgarphrase,hehaddoneit`accidentallyonpurpose。\'
Helookedroundatthehiredfootman。Andthehiredfootmancame,withasilentstepofcoldservant—likedisapprobation。Birkindecidedthathedetestedtoasts,andfootmen,andassemblies,andmankindaltogether,inmostofitsaspects。Thenherosetomakeaspeech。Buthewassomehowdisgusted。
Atlengthitwasover,themeal。Severalmenstrolledoutintothegarden。
Therewasalawn,andflower—beds,andattheboundaryanironfenceshuttingoffthelittlefieldorpark。Theviewwaspleasant;ahighroadcurvingroundtheedgeofalowlake,underthetrees。Inthespringair,thewatergleamedandtheoppositewoodswerepurplishwithnewlife。CharmingJerseycattlecametothefence,breathinghoarselyfromtheirvelvetmuzzlesatthehumanbeings,expectingperhapsacrust。
Birkinleanedonthefence。Acowwasbreathingwethotnessonhishand。
`Prettycattle,verypretty,\'saidMarshall,oneofthebrothers—in—law。
`Theygivethebestmilkyoucanhave。\'
`Yes,\'saidBirkin。
`Eh,mylittlebeauty,eh,mybeauty!\'saidMarshall,inaqueerhighfalsettovoice,thatcausedtheothermantohaveconvulsionsoflaughterinhisstomach。
`Whowontherace,Lupton?\'hecalledtothebridegroom,tohidethefactthathewaslaughing。
Thebridegroomtookhiscigarfromhismouth。
`Therace?\'heexclaimed。Thenaratherthinsmilecameoverhisface。
Hedidnotwanttosayanythingabouttheflighttothechurchdoor。`Wegottheretogether。Atleastshetouchedfirst,butIhadmyhandonhershoulder。\'
`What\'sthis?\'askedGerald。
Birkintoldhimabouttheraceofthebrideandthebridegroom。
`H\'m!\'saidGerald,indisapproval。`Whatmadeyoulatethen?\'
`Luptonwouldtalkabouttheimmortalityofthesoul,\'saidBirkin,`andthenhehadn\'tgotabutton—hook。\'
`OhGod!\'criedMarshall。`Theimmortalityofthesoulonyourweddingday!Hadn\'tyougotanythingbettertooccupyyourmind?\'
`What\'swrongwithit?\'askedthebridegroom,aclean—shavennavalman,flushingsensitively。
`Soundsasifyouweregoingtobeexecutedinsteadofmarried。Theimmortalityofthesoul!\'repeatedthebrother—in—law,withmostkillingemphasis。
Buthefellquiteflat。