第5章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:21096更新时间:18/12/14 16:33:22
\"H\'m!Verywell,then。CaptainHarrylooksverystern,andGeorgecrumplesallupinside……Heseesthroughme,hethinks……Ofcourseitcouldnotbe;butGeorge,bythattime,wasscaredathisownshadow。HeisshirkingitwithCloete,too。Giveshispartnertounderstandthathisbrotherhashalfamindtotryaspellonshore,andsoon。Cloetewaits,gnawinghisfingers;soanxious。 Cloetereallyhadfoundamanforthejob。Believeitornot,hehadfoundhiminsidetheveryboarding-househelodgedin- somewhereaboutTottenhamCourtRoad。Hehadnoticeddown-stairsafellow-aboarderandnotaboarder-hangingaboutthedark- partofthepassagemostly;sortof\'manofthehouse,\'aslinkingchap。Blackeyes。Whiteface。Thewomanofthehouse-awidowlady,shecalledherself-veryfullofMr。Stafford;Mr。StaffordthisandMr。Staffordthat……Anyhow,Cloeteoneeveningtakeshimouttohaveadrink。Cloetemostlypassedawayhiseveningsinsaloonbars。Nodrunkard,though,Cloete;forcompany;likedtotalktoallsortsthere;justhabit;Americanfashion。 \"SoCloetetakesthatchapoutmorethanonce。Notverygoodcompany,though。Littletosayforhimself。Sitsquietanddrinkswhat\'sgiventohim,eyesalwayshalfclosed,speakssortofdemure……I\'vehadmisfortunes,hesays。Thetruthwastheyhadkickedhimoutofabigsteam-shipcompanyfordisgracefulconduct; nothingtoaffecthiscertificate,youunderstand;andhehadgonedownquiteeasily。Likedit,Iexpect。Anything\'sbetterthanwork。Livedonthewidowladywhokeptthatboarding-house。\" \"That\'salmostincredible,\"Iventuredtointerrupt。\"Amanwithamaster\'scertificate,doyoumean?\" \"Ido;I\'veknownthem\'buscads,\"hegrowled,contemptuously。 \"Yes。Swingonthetail-boardbythestrapandyell,\'tuppencealltheway。\'Throughdrink。ButthisStaffordwasofanotherkind。 Hell\'sfullofsuchStaffords;Cloetewouldmakefunofhim,andthentherewouldbeanastygleaminthefellow\'shalf-shuteye。 ButCloetewasgenerallykindtohim。Cloetewasafellowthatwouldbekindtoamangydog。Anyhow,heusedtostanddrinkstothatobject,andnowandthengavehimhalfacrown-becausethewidowladykeptMr。Staffordshortofpocket-money。Theyhadrowsalmosteverydaydowninthebasement…… ItwasthefellowbeingasailorthatputintoCloete\'smindthefirstnotionofdoingawaywiththeSagamore。Hestudieshimabit,thinksthere\'senoughdevilinhimyettobetempted,andoneeveninghesaystohim……Isupposeyouwouldn\'tmindgoingtoseaagain,foraspell?……Theotherneverraiseshiseyes;saysit\'sscarcelyworthone\'swhileforthemiserablesalaryonegets……Well,butwhatdoyousaytocaptain\'swagesforatime,andacoupleofhundredextraifyouarecompelledtocomehomewithouttheship。Accidentswillhappen,saysCloete……Oh!sureto,saysthatStafford;andgoesontakingsipsofhisdrinkasifhehadnointerestinthematter。 \"Cloetepresseshimabit;buttheotherobserves,impudentandlanguidlike:Yousee,there\'snofutureinathinglikethat-isthere?……Oh!no,saysCloete。Certainlynot。Idon\'tmeanthistohaveanyfuture-asfarasyouareconcerned。It\'sa\'onceforall\'transaction。Well,whatdoyouestimateyourfutureat?heasks……Thefellowmorelistlessthanever-nearlyasleep-I believetheskunkwasreallytoolazytocare。Smallcheatingatcards,wheedlingorbullyinghislivingoutofsomewomanorother,wasmorehisstyle。Cloeteswearsathiminwhisperssomethingawful。AllthisinthesaloonbaroftheHorseShoe,TottenhamCourtRoad。Finallytheyagree,overthesecondsixpennyworthofScotchhot,onfivehundredpoundsasthepriceoftomahawkingtheSagamore。AndCloetewaitstoseewhatGeorgecando。 \"Aweekortwogoesby。Theotherfellowloafsaboutthehouseasiftherehadbeennothing,andCloetebeginstodoubtwhetherhereallymeansevertotacklethatjob。ButonedayhestopsCloeteatthedoor,withhisdowncasteyes:Whataboutthatemploymentyouwishedtogiveme?heasks……Yousee,hehadplayedsomemorethanusualdirtytrickonthewomanandexpectedawfulructionspresently;andtobefiredoutforsure。Cloeteverypleased。Georgehadbeenprevaricatingtohimsuchalotthathereallythoughtthethingwasaswellassettled。Andhesays: Yes。It\'stimeIintroducedyoutomyfriend。Justgetyourhatandwewillgonow…… \"Thetwocomeintotheoffice,andGeorgeathisdesksitsupinasuddenpanic-staring。Seesatallishfellow,sortofnasty- handsomeface,heavyeyes,halfshut;shortdrabovercoat,shabbybowlerhat,verycareful-likeinhismovements。Andhethinkstohimself,Isthathowsuchamanlooks!No,thething\'simpossible……Cloetedoestheintroduction,andthefellowturnsroundtolookbehindhimatthechairbeforehesitsdown……Athoroughlycompetentman,Cloetegoeson……Themansaysnothing,sitsperfectlyquiet。AndGeorgecan\'tspeak,throattoodry。Thenhemakesaneffort:H\'m!H\'m!Ohyes-unfortunately-sorrytodisappoint-mybrother-madeotherarrangements-goinghimself。 \"Thefellowgetsup,neverraisinghiseyesofftheground,likeamodestgirl,andgoesoutsoftly,rightoutoftheofficewithoutasound。Cloetestickshischininhishandandbitesallhisfingersatonce。George\'sheartslowsdownandhespeakstoCloete……Thiscan\'tbedone。Howcanitbe?DirectlytheshipislostHarrywouldseethroughit。Youknowheisamantogototheunderwritershimselfwithhissuspicions。Andhewouldbreakhisheartoverme。HowcanIplaythatonhim?There\'sonlytwoofusintheworldbelongingtoeachother…… \"Cloeteletsoutahorridcuss-word,jumpsup,boltsawayintohisroom,andGeorgehearshimtherebangingthingsaround。Afterawhilehegoestothedoorandsaysinatremblingvoice:Youaskmeforanimpossibility……Cloeteinsidereadytoflyoutlikeatigerandrendhim;butheopensthedooralittlewayandsayssoftly:Talkingofhearts,yoursisnobiggerthanamouse\'s,letmetellyou……ButGeorgedoesn\'tcare-loadofftheheart,anyhow。AndjustthenCaptainHarrycomesin……Hallo,Georgeboy。Iamlittlelate。WhataboutachopattheCheshire,now?……Rightyouare,oldman……Andofftheygotolunchtogether。 Cloetehasnothingtoeatthatday。 \"Georgefeelsanewmanforatime;butallofasuddenthatfellowStaffordbeginstohangaboutthestreet,insightofthehousedoor。ThefirsttimeGeorgeseeshimhethinkshemadeamistake。 Butno;nexttimehehastogoout,thereistheveryfellowskulkingontheothersideoftheroad。ItmakesGeorgenervous; buthemustgooutonbusiness,andwhenthefellowcutsacrosstheroad-wayhedodgeshim。Hedodgeshimonce,twice,threetimes; butatlasthegetsnabbedinhisverydoorway……Whatdoyouwant?hesays,tryingtolookfierce。 \"Itseemsthatructionshadcomeinthebasementofthatboarding- house,andthewidowladyhadturnedonhim(beingjealousmad),totheextentoftalkingofthepolice。THATMr。Staffordcouldn\'tstand;soheclearedoutlikeascaredstag,andtherehewas,chuckedintothestreets,sotospeak。Cloetelookedsosavageashewenttoandfrothathehadn\'tthespunktotacklehim;butGeorgeseemedasofterkindtohiseye。Hewouldhavebeengladofhalfaquid,anything……I\'vehadmisfortunes,hesayssoftly,inhisdemureway,whichfrightensGeorgemorethanarowwouldhavedone……Considertheseverityofmydisappointment,hesays…… \"George,insteadoftellinghimtogotothedevil,loseshishead……Idon\'tknowyou。Whatdoyouwant?hecries,andboltsup- stairstoCloete……Lookwhat\'scomeofit,hegasps;nowweareatthemercyofthathorridfellow……Cloetetriestoshowhimthatthefellowcandonothing;butGeorgethinksthatsomesortofscandalmaybeforcedon,anyhow。Saysthathecan\'tlivewiththathorrorhauntinghim。Cloetewouldlaughifheweren\'ttoowearyofitall。Thenathoughtstrikeshimandhechangeshistune……Well,perhaps!Iwillgodown-stairsandsendhimawaytobeginwith……Hecomesback……He\'sgone。Butperhapsyouareright。Thefellow\'shardup,andthat\'swhatmakespeopledesperate。Thebestthingwouldbetogethimoutofthecountryforatime。Lookhere,thepoordevilisreallyinwantofemployment。Iwon\'taskyoumuchthistime:onlytoholdyourtongue;andIshalltrytogetyourbrothertotakehimaschiefofficer。AtthisGeorgelayshisarmsandhisheadonhisdesk,sothatCloetefeelssorryforhim。ButaltogetherCloetefeelsmorecheerfulbecausehehasshakentheghostabitintothatStafford。 Thatveryafternoonhebuyshimasuitofblueclothes,andtellshimthathewillhavetoturntoandworkforhislivingnow。GotoseaasmateoftheSagamore。Theskunkwasn\'tverywilling,butwhatwithhavingnothingtoeatandnoplacetosleepin,andthewomanhavingfrightenedhimwiththetalkofsomeprosecutionorother,hehadnochoice,properlyspeaking。Cloetetakescareofhimforacoupleofdays……Ourarrangementstillstands,sayshe。Here\'stheshipboundforPortElizabeth;notasafeanchorageatall。Shouldshebychancepartfromheranchorsinanorth-eastgaleandgetlostonthebeach,asmanyofthemdo,why,it\'sfivehundredinyourpocket-andaquickreturnhome。Youareuptothejob,ain\'tyou? \"OurMr。Staffordtakesitallinwithdowncasteyes……Iamacompetentseaman,hesays,withhissly,modestair。Aship\'schiefmatehasnodoubtmanyopportunitiestomanipulatethechainsandanchorstosomepurpose……AtthisCloetethumpshimontheback:You\'lldo,mynoblesailor。Goinandwin…… \"NextthingGeorgeknows,hisbrothertellshimthathehadoccasiontoobligehispartner。Andgladofit,too。Likesthepartnernoend。Tookafriendofhisasmate。Manhadhistroubles,beenashoreayearnursingadyingwife,itseems。Downonhisluck……Georgeprotestsearnestlythatheknowsnothingoftheperson。Sawhimonce。Notveryattractivetolookat……AndCaptainHarrysaysinhisheartyway,That\'sso,butmustgivethepoordevilachance…… \"SoMr。Staffordjoinsindock。Anditseemsthathedidmanagetomonkeywithoneofthecables-keepinghismindonPortElizabeth。 Theriggershadallthecablerangedondecktocleanlockers。Thenewmatewatchesthemgoashore-dinnerhour-andsendstheship- keeperoutoftheshiptofetchhimabottleofbeer。Thenhegoestoworkwhittlingawaytheforelockoftheforty-five-fathomshackle-pin,givesitataportwowithahammerjusttomakeitloose,andofcoursethatcablewasn\'tsafeanymore。Riggerscomeback-youknowwhatriggersare:comeday,goday,andGodsendSunday。Downgoesthechainintothelockerwithouttheirforemanlookingattheshacklesatall。Whatdoeshecare?Heain\'tgoingintheship。Andtwodayslatertheshipgoestosea……\" AtthispointIwasincautiousenoughtobreatheoutanother\"I see,\"whichgaveoffenceagain,andbroughtonmearude\"No,youdon\'t\"-asbefore。Butinthepauseherememberedtheglassofbeerathiselbow。Hedrankhalfofit,wipedhismustaches,andremarkedgrimly- \"Don\'tyouthinkthattherewillbeanysealifeinthis,becausethereain\'t。Ifyou\'regoingtoputinanyoutofyourownhead,now\'syourchance。IsupposeyouknowwhattendaysofbadweatherintheChannelarelike?Idon\'t。Anyway,tenwholedaysgoby。 OneMondayCloetecomestotheofficealittlelate-hearsawoman\'svoiceinGeorge\'sroomandlooksin。Newspapersonthedesk,onthefloor;CaptainHarry\'swifesittingwithredeyesandabagonthechairnearher……Lookatthis,saysGeorge,ingreatexcitement,showinghimapaper。Cloete\'sheartgivesajump。Ha!WreckinWestportBay。TheSagamoregoneashoreearlyhoursofSunday,andsothenewspapermenhadtimetoputinsomeoftheirwork。Columnsofit。Lifeboatouttwice。Captainandcrewremainbytheship。Tugssummonedtoassist。Iftheweatherimproves,thiswell-knownfineshipmayyetbesaved……Youknowthewaythesechapsputit……Mrs。HarrythereonherwaytocatchatrainfromCannonStreet。Gotanhourtowait。 \"CloetetakesGeorgeasideandwhispers:Shipsavedyet!Oh,damn!Thatmustneverbe;youhear?ButGeorgelooksathimdazed,andMrs。Harrykeepsonsobbingquietly:……Ioughttohavebeenwithhim。ButIamgoingtohim……Weareallgoingtogether,criesCloete,allofasudden。Herushesout,sendsthewomanacupofhotbovrilfromtheshopacrosstheroad,buysarugforher,thinksofeverything;andinthetraintucksherinandkeepsontalking,thirteentothedozen,alltheway,tokeepherspiritsup,asitwere;butreallybecausehecan\'tholdhispeaceforveryjoy。Here\'sthethingdoneallatonce,andnothingtopay。Done。Actuallydone。Hisheadswimsnowandagainwhenhethinksofit。Whatenormousluck!Italmostfrightenshim。Hewouldliketoyellandsing。MeantimeGeorgeDunbarsitsinhiscorner,lookingsodeadlymiserablethatatlastpoorMrs。Harrytriestocomforthim,andsocheersherselfupatthesametimebytalkingabouthowherHarryisaprudentman;notlikelytoriskhiscrew\'slifeorhisownunnecessarily-andsoon。 \"FirstthingtheyhearatWestportstationisthatthelife-boathasbeenouttotheshipagain,andhasbroughtoffthesecondofficer,whohadhurthimself,andafewsailors。Captainandtherestofthecrew,aboutfifteeninall,arestillonboard。Tugsexpectedtoarriveeverymoment。 \"TheytakeMrs。Harrytotheinn,nearlyoppositetherocks;sheboltsstraightup-stairstolookoutofthewindow,andsheletsoutagreatcrywhensheseesthewreck。Shewon\'tresttillshegetsonboardtoherHarry。Cloetesoothesherallhecan……Allright;youtrytoeatamouthful,andwewillgotomakeinquiries。 \"HedrawsGeorgeoutoftheroom:Lookhere,shecan\'tgoonboard,butIshall。I\'llseetoitthathedoesn\'tstopintheshiptoolong。Let\'sgoandfindthecoxswainofthelife-boat……Georgefollowshim,shiveringfromtimetotime。Thewavesarewashingovertheoldpier;notmuchwind,awild,gloomyskyoverthebay。Inthewholeworldonlyonetugawayoff,headingtotheseas,tossedinandoutofsighteveryminuteasregularasclockwork。 \"Theymeetthecoxswainandhetellsthem:Yes!He\'sgoingoutagain。No,theyain\'tindangeronboard-notyet。Buttheship\'schanceisverypoor。Still,ifthewinddoesn\'tpipeupagainandtheseagoesdownsomethingmightbetried。AftersometalkheagreestotakeCloeteonboard;supposedtobewithanurgentmessagefromtheownerstothecaptain。 \"WheneverCloetelooksattheskyhefeelscomforted;itlookssothreatening。GeorgeDunbarfollowshimaboutwithawhitefaceandsayingnothing。Cloetetakeshimtohaveadrinkortwo,andbyandbyhebeginstopickup……That\'sbetter,saysCloete;dashmeifitwasn\'tlikewalkingaboutwithadeadmanbefore。Yououghttobethrowingupyourcap,man。IfeelasifIwantedtostandinthestreetandcheer。Yourbrotherissafe,theshipislost,andwearemademen。 \"Areyoucertainshe\'slost?asksGeorge。ItwouldbeanawfulblowafteralltheagoniesIhavegonethroughinmymind,sinceyoufirstspoketome,ifsheweretobegotoff-and-and-allthistemptationtobeginoveragain……Forwehadnothingtodowiththis;hadwe? \"Ofcoursenot,saysCloete。Wasn\'tyourbrotherhimselfincharge?It\'sprovidential……Oh!criesGeorge,shocked…… Well,sayit\'sthedevil,saysCloete,cheerfully。Idon\'tmind! Youhadnothingtodowithitanymorethanababyunborn,yougreatsofty,you……CloetehasgotsothathealmostlovedGeorgeDunbar。Well。Yes。Thatwasso。Idon\'tmeanherespectedhim。 Hewasjustfondofhispartner。 \"Theygoback,youmaysayfairlyskipping,tothehotel,andfindthewifeofthecaptainattheopenwindow,withhereyesontheshipasifshewantedtoflyacrossthebayoverthere……Nowthen,Mrs。Dunbar,criesCloete,youcan\'tgo,butIamgoing。Anymessages?Don\'tbeshy。I\'lldelivereverywordfaithfully。Andifyouwouldliketogivemeakissforhim,I\'lldeliverthattoo,dashmeifIdon\'t。 \"HemakesMrs。Harrylaughwithhispatter……Oh,dearMr。 Cloete,youareacalm,reasonableman。Makehimbehavesensibly。 He\'sabitobstinate,youknow,andhe\'ssofondoftheship,too。 TellhimIamhere-lookingon……Trustme,Mrs。Dunbar。Onlyshutthatwindow,that\'sagoodgirl。Youwillbesuretocatchcoldifyoudon\'t,andtheCaptainwon\'tbepleasedcomingoffthewrecktofindyoucoughingandsneezingsothatyoucan\'ttellhimhowhappyyouare。Andnowifyoucangetmeabitoftapetofastenmyglassesongoodtomyears,Iwillbegoing…… \"HowhegetsonboardIdon\'tknow。Allwetandshakenandexcitedandoutofbreath,hedoesgetonboard。Shiplyingover,smotheredinsprays,butnotmovingverymuch;justenoughtojagone\'snerveabit。Hefindsthemallcrowdedonthedeck-houseforward,intheirshinyoilskins,withfaceslikesickmen。 CaptainHarrycan\'tbelievehiseyes。What!Mr。Cloete!Whatareyoudoinghere,inGod\'sname?……Yourwife\'sashorethere,lookingon,gaspsoutCloete;andaftertheyhadtalkedabit,CaptainHarrythinksit\'suncommonlypluckyandkindofhisbrother\'spartnertocomeofftohimlikethis。Mangladtohavesomebodytotalkto……It\'sabadbusiness,Mr。Cloete,hesays。 AndCloeterejoicestohearthat。CaptainHarrythinkshehaddonehisbest,butthecablehadpartedwhenhetriedtoanchorher。Itwasagreattrialtolosetheship。Well,hewouldhavetofaceit。Hefetchesadeepsighnowandthen。Cloetealmostsorryhehadcomeonboard,becausetobeonthatwreckkeepshischestinatightbandallthetime。Theycrouchoutofthewindundertheportboat,alittleapartfromthemen。Thelife-boathadgoneawayafterputtingCloeteonboard,butwascomingbacknexthighwatertotakeoffthecrewifnoattemptatgettingtheshipafloatcouldbemade。Duskwasfalling;winter\'sday;blacksky;windrising。CaptainHarryfeltmelancholy。God\'swillbedone。Ifshemustbeleftontherocks-why,shemust。AmanshouldtakewhatGodsendshimstandingup……Suddenlyhisvoicebreaks,andhesqueezesCloete\'sarm:ItseemsasifIcouldn\'tleaveher,hewhispers。Cloetelooksroundatthemenlikealotofhuddledsheepandthinkstohimself:Theywon\'tstay……Suddenlytheshipliftsalittleandsetsdownwithathump。Tiderising。 Everybodybeginningtolookoutforthelife-boat。Someofthemenmadeheroutfarawayandalsotwomoretugs。Butthegalehascomeonagain,andeverybodyknowsthatnotugwilleverdarecomeneartheship。 \"That\'stheend,CaptainHarrysays,verylow……Cloetethinksheneverfeltsocoldinallhislife……AndIfeelasifI didn\'tcaretoliveonjustnow,muttersCaptainHarry……Yourwife\'sashore,lookingon,saysCloete……Yes。Yes。Itmustbeawfulforhertolookatthepooroldshiplyingheredonefor。 Why,that\'sourhome。 \"CloetethinksthataslongastheSagamore\'sdoneforhedoesn\'tcare,andonlywisheshimselfsomewhereelse。Theslightestmovementoftheshipcutshisbreathlikeablow。Andhefeelsexcitedbythedanger,too。Thecaptaintakeshimaside……Thelife-boatcan\'tcomenearusformorethananhour。Lookhere,Cloete,sinceyouarehere,andsuchapluckyone-dosomethingforme……Hetellshimthenthatdowninhiscabinaftinacertaindrawerthereisabundleofimportantpapersandsomesixtysovereignsinasmallcanvasbag。AsksCloetetogoandgetthesethingsout。Hehasn\'tbeenbelowsincetheshipstruck,anditseemstohimthatifheweretotakehiseyesoffhershewouldfalltopieces。Andthenthemen-ascaredlotbythistime-ifheweretoleavethembythemselvestheywouldattempttolaunchoneoftheship\'sboatsinapanicatsomeheavierthump-andthensomeofthemboundtogetdrowned……Therearetwoorthreeboxesofmatchesaboutmyshelvesinmycabinifyouwantalight,saysCaptainHarry。Onlywipeyourwethandsbeforeyoubegintofeelforthem…… \"Cloetedoesn\'tlikethejob,butdoesn\'tliketoshowfunk,either-andhegoes。Lotsofwateronthemain-deck,andhesplashesalong;itwasgettingdark,too。Allatonce,bythemainmast,somebodycatcheshimbythearm。Stafford。Hewasn\'tthinkingofStaffordatall。CaptainHarryhadsaidsomethingastothematenotbeingquitesatisfactory,butitwasn\'tmuch。Cloetedoesn\'trecognisehiminhisoilskinsatfirst。Heseesawhitefacewithbigeyespeeringathim……Areyoupleased,Mr。Cloete……? \"Cloeteismovedtolaughatthewhine,andshakeshimoff。Butthefellowscramblesonafterhimonthepoopandfollowshimdownintothecabinofthatwreckedship。Andtheretheyare,thetwoofthem;canhardlyseeeachother……Youdon\'tmeantomakemebelieveyouhavehadanythingtodowiththis,saysCloete…… \"Theybothshiver,nearlyoutoftheirwitswiththeexcitementofbeingonboardthatship。Shethumpsandlurches,andtheystaggertogether,feelingsick。CloeteagainburstsoutlaughingatthatwretchedcreatureStaffordpretendingtohavebeenuptosomethingsodesperate……Isthathowyouthinkyoucantreatmenow?yellstheothermanallofasudden…… \"Aseastrikesthestern,theshiptremblesandgroansallroundthem,there\'sthenoiseoftheseasaboutandoverhead,confusingCloete,andhehearstheotherscreamingasifcrazy……Ah,youdon\'tbelieveme!Goandlookattheportchain。Parted?Eh?Goandseeifit\'sparted。Goandfindthebrokenlink。Youcan\'t。 There\'snobrokenlink。Thatmeansathousandpoundsforme。Noless。Athousandthedayafterwegetashore-prompt。Iwon\'twaittillshebreaksup,Mr。Cloete。TotheunderwritersIgoifI\'vetowalktoLondononmybarefeet。Portcable!Lookatherportcable,Iwillsaytothem。Idoctoredit-fortheowners- temptedbyalowrascalcalledCloete。 \"Cloetedoesnotunderstandwhatitmeansexactly。Allheseesisthatthefellowmeanstomakemischief。Heseestroubleahead…… Doyouthinkyoucanscareme?heasks,-youpoormiserableskunk……AndStaffordfaceshimout-bothholdingontothecabintable:No,damnyou,youareonlyadirtyvagabond;butIcanscaretheother,thechapintheblackcoat…… \"MeaningGeorgeDunbar。Cloete\'sbrainreelsatthethought。Hedoesn\'timaginethefellowcandoanyrealharm,butheknowswhatGeorgeis;givetheshowaway;upsetthewholebusinesshehadsethishearton。Hesaysnothing;hehearstheother,whatwiththefunkandstrainandexcitement,pantinglikeadog-andthenasnarl……Athousanddown,twenty-fourhoursafterwegetashore; dayafterto-morrow。That\'smylastword,Mr。Cloete……A thousandpounds,dayafterto-morrow,saysCloete。Ohyes。Andto-daytakethis,youdirtycur……Hehitsstraightfromtheshoulderinsheerrage,nothingelse。Staffordgoesawayspinningalongthebulk-head。Seeingthis,Cloetestepsoutandlandshimanotheronesomewhereaboutthejaw。Thefellowstaggersbackwardrightintothecaptain\'scabinthroughtheopendoor。Cloete,followinghimup,hearshimfalldownheavilyandrolltoleeward,thenslamsthedoortoandturnsthekey……There!sayshetohimself,thatwillstopyoufrommakingtrouble。\" \"ByJove!\"Imurmured。 Theoldfellowdepartedfromhisimpressiveimmobilitytoturnhisrakishlyhattedheadandlookatmewithhisold,black,lack- lustreeyes。 \"Hedidleavehimthere,\"heuttered,weightily,returningtothecontemplationofthewall。\"Cloetedidn\'tmeantoallowanybody,letaloneathinglikeStafford,tostandinthewayofhisgreatnotionofmakingGeorgeandhimself,andCaptainHarry,too,forthatmatter,richmen。Andhedidn\'tthinkmuchofconsequences。 Thesepatent-medicinechapsdon\'tcarewhattheysayorwhattheydo。Theythinktheworld\'sboundtoswallowanystorytheyliketotell……Hestandslisteningforabit。Anditgiveshimquiteaturntohearathumpatthedoorandasortofmuffledravingscreechinsidethecaptain\'sroom。Hethinkshehearshisownname,too,throughtheawfulcrashastheoldSagamorerisesandfallstoasea。Thatnoiseandthatawfulshockmakehimclearoutofthecabin。Hecollectshissensesonthepoop。Buthisheartsinksalittleattheblackwildnessofthenight。Chancesthathewillgetdrownedhimselfbeforelong。Putshisheaddownthecompanion。ThroughthewindandbreakingseashecanhearthenoiseofStafford\'sbeatingagainstthedoorandcursing。Helistensandsaystohimself:No。Can\'ttrusthimnow…… \"Whenhegetsbacktothetopofthedeck-househesaystoCaptainHarry,whoaskshimifhegotthethings,thatheisverysorry。 Therewassomethingwrongwiththedoor。Couldn\'topenit。Andtotellyouthetruth,sayshe,Ididn\'tliketostopanylongerinthatcabin。Therearenoisesthereasiftheshipweregoingtopieces……CaptainHarrythinks:Nervous;can\'tbeanythingwrongwiththedoor。Buthesays:Thanks-nevermind,nevermind…… Allhandslookingoutnowforthelife-boat。Everybodythinkingofhimselfrather。Cloeteaskshimself,willtheymisshim?ButthefactisthatMr。Staffordhadmadesuchpoorshowatseathataftertheshipstrucknobodyeverpaidanyattentiontohim。Nobodycaredwhathedidorwherehewas。Pitchdark,too-nocountingofheads。Thelightofthetugwiththelifeboatintowisseenmakingfortheship,andCaptainHarryasks:Areweallthere?……Somebodyanswers:Allhere,sir……Standbytoleavetheship,then,saysCaptainHarry;andtwoofyouhelpthegentlemanoverfirst……Aye,aye,sir……CloetewasmovedtoaskCaptainHarrytolethimstaytilllast,butthelife-boatdropsonagrapnelabreastthefore-rigging,twochapslayholdofhim,watchtheirchance,anddrophimintoher,allsafe。 \"He\'snearlyexhausted;notusedtothatsortofthing,yousee。 Hesitsinthestern-sheetswithhiseyesshut。Don\'twanttolookatthewhitewaterboilingallaround。Themendropintotheboatoneafteranother。ThenhehearsCaptainHarry\'svoiceshoutinginthewindtothecoxswain,toholdonamoment,andsomeotherwordshecan\'tcatch,andthecoxswainyellingback:Don\'tbelong,sir……Whatisit?Cloeteasksfeelingfaint……Somethingabouttheship\'spapers,saysthecoxswain,veryanxious。It\'snotimetobefoolingaboutalongside,youunderstand。Theyhaultheboatoffalittleandwait。Thewaterfliesoverherinsheets。Cloete\'ssensesalmostleavehim。Hethinksofnothing。He\'snumballover,tillthere\'sashout:Hereheis!……Theyseeafigureinthefore-riggingwaiting-theyslackawayonthegrapnel-lineandgethimintheboatquiteeasy。Thereisalittleshouting-it\'sallmixedupwiththenoiseofthesea。CloetefanciesthatStafford\'svoiceistalkingawayquiteclosetohisear。There\'salullinthewind,andStafford\'svoiceseemstobespeakingveryfasttothecoxswain;hetellshimthatofcoursehewasnearhisskipper,wasallthetimenearhim,tilltheoldmansaidatthelastmomentthathemustgoandgettheship\'spapersfromaft; wouldinsistongoinghimself;toldhim,Stafford,togetintothelife-boat……Hehadmeanttowaitforhisskipper,onlytherecamethissmoothoftheseas,andhethoughthewouldtakehischanceatonce。 \"Cloeteopenshiseyes。Yes。There\'sStaffordsittingclosebyhiminthatcrowdedlife-boat。ThecoxswainstoopsoverCloeteandcries:Didyouhearwhatthematesaid,sir?……Cloete\'sfacefeelsasifitweresetinplaster,lipsandall。Yes,Idid,heforceshimselftoanswer。Thecoxswainwaitsamoment,thensays: Idon\'tlikeit……Andheturnstothemate,tellinghimitwasapityhedidnottrytorunalongthedeckandhurryupthecaptainwhenthelullcame。Staffordanswersatoncethathedidthinkofit,onlyhewasafraidofmissinghimonthedeckinthedark。 For,sayshe,thecaptainmighthavegotoveratonce,thinkingI wasalreadyinthelife-boat,andyouwouldhavehauledoffperhaps,leavingmebehind……Trueenough,saysthecoxswain。A minuteorsopasses。Thiswon\'tdo,muttersthecoxswain。 SuddenlyStaffordspeaksupinasortofhollowvoice:IwasbywhenhetoldMr。Cloeteherethathedidn\'tknowhowhewouldeverhavethecouragetoleavetheoldship;didn\'the,now?……AndCloetefeelshisarmbeinggrippedquietlyinthedark……Didn\'thenow?Wewerestandingtogetherjustbeforeyouwentover,Mr。 Cloete?…… \"Justthenthecoxswaincriesout:I\'mgoingonboardtosee…… Cloetetearshisarmaway:Iamgoingwithyou…… \"Whentheygetaboard,thecoxswaintellsCloetetogoaftalongonesideoftheshipandhewouldgoalongtheothersoasnottomissthecaptain……Andfeelaboutwithyourhands,too,sayshe; hemighthavefallenandbelyinginsensiblesomewhereonthedeck……WhenCloetegetsatlasttothecabincompaniononthepoopthecoxswainisalreadythere,peeringdownandsniffing。Idetectasmellofsmokedownthere,sayshe。Andheyells:Areyouthere,sir?……Thisisnotacaseforshouting,saysCloete,feelinghisheartgostony,asitwere……Downtheygo。Pitchdark;theinclinationsosharpthatthecoxswain,gropinghiswayintothecaptain\'sroom,slipsandgoestumblingdown。Cloetehearshimcryoutasthoughhehadhurthimself,andaskswhat\'sthematter。Andthecoxswainanswersquietlythathehadfallenonthecaptain,lyingthereinsensible。Cloetewithoutawordbeginstogropeallovertheshelvesforaboxofmatches,findsone,andstrikesalight。HeseesthecoxswaininhiscorkjacketkneelingoverCaptainHarry……Blood,saysthecoxswain,lookingup,andthematchgoesout…… \"Waitabit,saysCloete;I\'llmakepaperspills……Hehadfeltthebackofbooksontheshelves。AndsohestandslightingonespillfromanotherwhilethecoxswainturnspoorCaptainHarryover。Dead,hesays。Shotthroughtheheart。Here\'stherevolver……HehandsituptoCloete,wholooksatitbeforeputtingitinhispocket,andseesaplateonthebuttwithH。 DUNBARonit……Hisown,hemutters……Whoseelserevolverdidyouexpecttofind?snapsthecoxswain。Andlook,hetookoffhislongoilskininthecabinbeforehewentin。Butwhat\'sthislotofburntpaper?Whatcouldhewanttoburntheship\'spapersfor?…… Cloeteseesall,thelittledrawersdrawnout,andasksthecoxswaintolookwellintothem……There\'snothing,saystheman。 Cleanedout。Seemstohavepulledoutallhecouldlayhishandsonandsetfiretothelot。Mad-that\'swhatitis-wentmad。 Andnowhe\'sdead。You\'llhavetobreakittohiswife…… \"IfeelasifIweregoingmadmyself,saysCloete,suddenly,andthecoxswainbegshimforGod\'ssaketopullhimselftogether,anddragshimawayfromthecabin。Theyhadtoleavethebody,andasitwastheywerejustintimebeforeafurioussquallcameon。 Cloeteisdraggedintothelife-boatandthecoxswaintumblesin。 Haulawayonthegrapnel,heshouts;thecaptainhasshothimself…… \"Cloetewaslikeadeadman-didn\'tcareforanything。HeletthatStaffordpinchhisarmtwicewithoutmakingasign。MostofWestportwasontheoldpiertoseethemenoutofthelife-boat,andatfirsttherewasasortofconfusedcheeryuproarwhenshecamealongside;butafterthecoxswainhasshoutedsomethingthevoicesdieout,andeverybodyisveryquiet。AssoonasCloetehassetfootonsomethingfirmhebecomeshimselfagain。Thecoxswainshakeshandswithhim:Poorwoman,poorwoman,I\'dratheryouhadthejobthanI…… \"Where\'sthemate?\"asksCloete。He\'sthelastmanwhospoketothemaster……Somebodyranalong-thecrewwerebeingtakentotheMissionHall,wheretherewasafireandshake-downsreadyforthem-somebodyranalongthepierandcaughtupwithStafford…… Here!Theowner\'sagentwantsyou……Cloetetucksthefellow\'sarmunderhisownandwalksawaywithhimtotheleft,wherethefishing-harbouris……IsupposeIhaven\'tmisunderstoodyou。Youwishmetolookafteryouabit,sayshe。Theotherhangsonhimratherlimp,butgivesanastylittlelaugh:Youhadbetter,hemumbles;butmind,notricks;notricks,Mr。Cloete;weareonlandnow。 \"There\'sapoliceofficewithinfiftyyardsfromhere,saysCloete。 Heturnsintoalittlepublichouse,pushesStaffordalongthepassage。Thelandlordrunsoutofthebar……Thisisthemateoftheshipontherocks,Cloeteexplains;Iwishyouwouldtakecareofhimabitto-night……What\'sthematterwithhim?askstheman。Staffordleansagainstthewallinthepassage,lookingghastly。AndCloetesaysit\'snothing-doneup,ofcourse……I willberesponsiblefortheexpense;Iamtheowner\'sagent。I\'llberoundinanhourortwotoseehim。 AndCloetegetsbacktothehotel。Thenewshadtravelledtherealready,andthefirstthingheseesisGeorgeoutsidethedooraswhiteasasheetwaitingforhim。Cloetejustgiveshimanodandtheygoin。Mrs。Harrystandsattheheadofthestairs,and,whensheseesonlythesetwocomingup,flingsherarmsaboveherheadandrunsintoherroom。Nobodyhaddaredtellher,butnotseeingherhusbandwasenough。Cloetehearsanawfulshriek……Gotoher,hesaystoGeorge。 \"Whilehe\'saloneintheprivateparlourCloetedrinksaglassofbrandyandthinksitallout。ThenGeorgecomesin……Thelandlady\'swithher,hesays。Andhebeginstowalkupanddowntheroom,flinginghisarmsaboutandtalking,disconnectedlike,hisfacesethardasCloetehasneverseenitbefore……Whatmustbe,mustbe。Dead-onlybrother。Well,dead-histroublesover。 Butweareliving,hesaystoCloete;andIsuppose,sayshe,glaringathimwithhot,dryeyes,thatyouwon\'tforgettowireinthemorningtoyourfriendthatwearecominginforcertain…… \"Meaningthepatent-medicinefellow……Deathisdeathandbusinessisbusiness,Georgegoeson;andlook-myhandsareclean,hesays,showingthemtoCloete。Cloetethinks:He\'sgoingcrazy。Hecatchesholdofhimbytheshouldersandbeginstoshakehim:Damnyou-ifyouhadhadthesensetoknowwhattosaytoyourbrother,ifyouhadhadthespunktospeaktohimatall,youmoralcreatureyou,hewouldbealivenow,heshouts。 \"AtthisGeorgestares,thenburstsoutweepingwithagreatbellow。Hethrowshimselfonthecouch,burieshisfaceinacushion,andhowlslikeakid……That\'sbetter,thinksCloete,andheleaveshim,tellingthelandlordthathemustgoout,ashehassomelittlebusinesstoattendtothatnight。Thelandlord\'swife,weepingherself,catcheshimonthestairs:Oh,sir,thatpoorladywillgooutofhermind…… \"Cloeteshakesheroff,thinkingtohimself:Ohno!Shewon\'t。 Shewillgetoverit。NobodywillgomadaboutthisaffairunlessIdo。Itisn\'tsorrowthatmakespeoplegomad,butworry。 \"ThereCloetewaswrong。WhataffectedMrs。Harrywasthatherhusbandshouldtakehisownlife,withher,asitwere,lookingon。 ShebroodedoveritsothatinlessthanayeartheyhadtoputherintoaHome。Shewasvery,veryquiet;justgentlemelancholy。 Shelivedforquitealongtime。 \"Well,Cloetesplashesalonginthewindandrain。Nobodyinthestreets-alltheexcitementover。Thepublicanrunsouttomeethiminthepassageandsaystohim:Notthisway。Heisn\'tinhisroom。Wecouldn\'tgethimtogotobednohow。He\'sinthelittleparlourthere。We\'velightedhimafire……Youhavebeengivinghimdrinkstoo,saysCloete;IneversaidIwouldberesponsiblefordrinks。Howmany?……Two,saystheother。It\'sallright。 Idon\'tminddoingthatmuchforashipwreckedsailor……Cloetesmileshisfunnysmile:Eh?Come。Hepaidforthem……Thepublicanjustblinks……Gaveyougold,didn\'the?Speakup!……Whatofthat!criestheman。Whatareyouafter,anyway?Hehadtherightchangeforhissovereign。 \"Justso,saysCloete。Hewalksintotheparlour,andthereheseesourStafford;hairalluponend,landlord\'sshirtandpantson,barefeetinslippers,sittingbythefire。WhenheseesCloetehecastshiseyesdown。 \"Youdidn\'tmeanusevertomeetagain,Mr。Cloete,Staffordsays,demurely……Thatfellow,whenhehadthedrinkhewanted-hewasn\'tadrunkard-wouldputonthissortofsly,modestair…… Butsincethecaptaincommittedsuicide,hesays,Ihavebeensittingherethinkingitout。Allsortsofthingshappen。 Conspiracytolosetheship-attemptedmurder-andthissuicide。 Forifitwasnotsuicide,Mr。Cloete,thenIknowofavictimofthemostcruel,cold-bloodedattemptatmurder;somebodywhohassufferedathousanddeaths。Andthatmakesthethousandpoundsofwhichwespokeonceaquiteinsignificantsum。Lookhowveryconvenientthissuicideis…… \"HelooksupatCloetethen,whosmilesathimandcomesquiteclosetothetable。 \"YoukilledHarryDunbar,hewhispers……Thefellowglaresathimandshowshisteeth:OfcourseIdid!Ihadbeeninthatcabinforanhourandahalflikearatinatrap……Shutupandlefttodrowninthatwreck。Letfleshandbloodjudge。OfcourseI shothim!Ithoughtitwasyou,youmurderingscoundrel,comebacktosettleme。Heopensthedoorflyingandtumblesrightdownuponme;Ihadarevolverinmyhand,andIshothim。Iwascrazy。Menhavegonecrazyforless。 \"Cloetelooksathimwithoutflinching。Aha!That\'syourstory,isit?……Andheshakesthetablealittleinhispassionashespeaks……Nowlistentomine。What\'sthisconspiracy?Who\'sgoingtoproveit?Youweretheretorob。Youwereriflinghiscabin;hecameuponyouunawareswithyourhandsinthedrawer;andyoushothimwithhisownrevolver。Youkilledtosteal-tosteal!Hisbrotherandtheclerksintheofficeknowthathetooksixtypoundswithhimtosea。Sixtypoundsingoldinacanvasbag。Hetoldmewheretheywere。Thecoxswainofthelife-boatcansweartoitthatthedrawerswereallempty。Andyouaresuchafoolthatbeforeyou\'rehalfanhourashoreyouchangeasovereigntopayforadrink。Listentome。Ifyoudon\'tturnupdayafterto-morrowatGeorgeDunbar\'ssolicitors,tomaketheproperdepositionastothelossoftheship,Ishallsetthepoliceonyourtrack。Dayafterto-morrow…… \"Andthenwhatdoyouthink?ThatStaffordbeginstotearhishair。Justso。Tugsatitwithbothhandswithoutsayinganything。Cloetegivesapushtothetablewhichnearlysendsthefellowoffhischair,tumblinginsidethefender;sothathehasgottocatchholdofittosavehimself…… \"YouknowthesortofmanIam,Cloetesays,fiercely。I\'vegottoapointthatIdon\'tcarewhathappenstome。Iwouldshootyounowfortuppence。 \"Atthisthecurdodgesunderthetable。ThenCloetegoesout,andasheturnsinthestreet-youknow,littlefishermen\'scottages,alldark;rainingintorrents,too-theotheropensthewindowoftheparlourandspeaksinasortofcryingvoice- \"YoulowYankeefiend-I\'llpayyouoffsomeday。 \"Cloetepassesbywithadamnbitterlaugh,becausehethinksthatthefellowinawayhaspaidhimoffalready,ifheonlyknewit。\" Myimpressiveruffiandrankwhatremainedofhisbeer,whilehisblack,sunkeneyeslookedatmeovertherim。 \"Idon\'tquiteunderstandthis,\"Isaid。\"Inwhatway?\" HeunbentalittleandexplainedwithouttoomuchscornthatCaptainHarrybeingdead,hishalfoftheinsurancemoneywenttohiswife,andhertrusteesofcourseboughtconsolswithit。 Enoughtokeephercomfortable。GeorgeDunbar\'shalf,asCloetefearedfromthefirst,didnotprovesufficienttolaunchthemedicinewell;othermoneyedmensteppedin,andthesetwohadtogooutofthatbusiness,prettynearlyshornofeverything。 \"Iamcurious,\"Isaid,\"tolearnwhatthemotiveforceofthistragicaffairwas-Imeanthepatentmedicine。Doyouknow?\" Henamedit,andIwhistledrespectfully。NothinglessthanParker\'sLivelyLumbagoPills。Enormousproperty!Youknowit; alltheworldknowsit。Everysecondman,atleast,onthisglobeofourshastriedit。 \"Why!\"Icried,\"theymissedanimmensefortune。\" \"Yes,\"hemumbled,\"bythepriceofarevolver-shot。\" HetoldmealsothateventuallyCloetereturnedtotheStates,passengerinacargo-boatfromAlbertDock。Thenightbeforehesailedhemethimwanderingaboutthequays,andtookhimhomeforadrink。\"Funnychap,Cloete。Wesatallnightdrinkinggrogs,tillitwastimeforhimtogoonboard。\" ItwasthenthatCloete,unembitteredbutweary,toldhimthisstory,withthatutterlyunconsciousfranknessofapatent-medicinemanstrangertoallmoralstandards。Cloeteconcludedbyremarkingthathe,had\"hadenoughoftheoldcountry。\"GeorgeDunbarhadturnedonhim,too,intheend。Cloetewasclearlysomewhatdisillusioned。 AstoStafford,hedied,professedloafer,insomeEastEndhospitalorother,andonhislastdayclamoured\"foraparson,\" becausehisconscienceworriedhimforkillinganinnocentman。 \"Wantedsomebodytotellhimitwasallright,\"growledmyoldruffian,contemptuously。\"HetoldtheparsonthatIknewthisCloetewhohadtriedtomurderhim,andsotheparson(heworkedamongthedocklabourers)oncespoketomeaboutit。Thatskunkofafellowfindinghimselftrappedyelledformercy……Promisedtobegoodandsoon……Thenhewentcrazy……screamedandthrewhimselfabout,beathisheadagainstthebulkheads……youcanguessallthat-eh?……tillhewasexhausted。Gaveup。Threwhimselfdown,shuthiseyes,andwantedtopray。Sohesays。 Triedtothinkofsomeprayerforaquickdeath-hewasthatterrified。Thoughtthatifhehadaknifeorsomethinghewouldcuthisthroat,andbedonewithit。Thenhethinks:No!Wouldtrytocutawaythewoodaboutthelock……Hehadnoknifeinhispocket……hewasweepingandcallingonGodtosendhimatoolofsomekindwhensuddenlyhethinks:Axe!Inmostshipsthereisaspareemergencyaxekeptinthemaster\'sroominsomelockerorother……Uphejumps……Pitchdark。\"Pullsatthedrawerstofindmatchesand,gropingforthem,thefirstthinghecomesupon- CaptainHarry\'srevolver。Loadedtoo。Hegoesperfectlyquietallover。Canshootthelocktopieces。See?Saved!God\'sprovidence!Thereareboxesofmatchestoo。Thinkshe:ImayjustaswellseewhatIamabout。 \"Strikesalightandseesthelittlecanvasbagtuckedawayatthebackofthedrawer。Knewatoncewhatthatwas。Ramsitintohispocketquick。Aha!sayshetohimself:thisrequiresmorelight。 Sohepitchesalotofpaperonthefloor,setfiretoit,andstartsinahurryrummagingformorevaluables。Didyouever?HetoldthatEast-Endparsonthatthedeviltemptedhim。FirstGod\'smercy-thendevil\'swork。Turnandturnabout…… \"Anysquirmingskunkcantalklikethat。Hewassobusywiththedrawersthatthefirstthingheheardwasashout,GreatHeavens。 Helooksupandtherewasthedooropen(Cloetehadleftthekeyinthelock)andCaptainHarryholdingon,wellabovehim,veryfierceinthelightoftheburningpapers。Hiseyeswerestartingoutofhishead。Thieving,hethundersathim。Asailor!Anofficer! No!Awretchlikeyoudeservesnobetterthantobeleftheretodrown。 \"ThisStafford-onhisdeath-bed-toldtheparsonthatwhenheheardthesewordshewentcrazyagain。Hesnatchedhishandwiththerevolverinitoutofthedrawer,andfiredwithoutaiming。 CaptainHarryfellrightinwithacrashlikeastoneontopoftheburningpapers,puttingtheblazeout。Alldark。Notasound。Helistenedforabitthendroppedtherevolverandscrambledoutondecklikemad。\" Theoldfellowstruckthetablewithhisponderousfist。 \"Whatmakesmesickistohearthesesillyboat-mentellingpeoplethecaptaincommittedsuicide。Pah!CaptainHarrywasamanthatcouldfacehisMakeranytimeupthere,andherebelow,too。Hewasn\'tthesorttoslinkoutoflife。Nothe!Hewasagoodmandowntotheground。HegavememyfirstjobasstevedoreonlythreedaysafterIgotmarried。\" AsthevindicationofCaptainHarryfromthechargeofsuicideseemedtobehisonlyobject,Ididnotthankhimveryeffusivelyforhismaterial。Andthenitwasnotworthmanythanksinanycase。 ForitistoostartlingeventothinkofsuchthingshappeninginourrespectableChannelinfullview,sotospeak,oftheluxuriouscontinentaltraffictoSwitzerlandandMonteCarlo。ThisstorytobeacceptableshouldhavebeentransposedtosomewhereintheSouthSeas。Butitwouldhavebeentoomuchtroubletocookitfortheconsumptionofmagazinereaders。Sohereitisraw,sotospeak- justasitwastoldtome-butunfortunatelyrobbedofthestrikingeffectofthenarrator;themostimposingoldruffianthateverfollowedtheunromantictradeofmasterstevedoreintheportofLondon。 Oct。1910。 THEINNOFTHETWOWITCHES-AFIND Thistale,episode,experience-callithowyouwill-wasrelatedinthefiftiesofthelastcenturybyamanwho,byhisownconfession,wassixtyyearsoldatthetime。Sixtyisnotabadage-unlessinperspective,whennodoubtitiscontemplatedbythemajorityofuswithmixedfeelings。Itisacalmage;thegameispracticallyoverbythen;andstandingasideonebeginstorememberwithacertainvividnesswhatafinefellowoneusedtobe。Ihaveobservedthat,byanamiableattentionofProvidence,mostpeopleatsixtybegintotakearomanticviewofthemselves。 Theirveryfailuresexhaleacharmofpeculiarpotency。Andindeedthehopesofthefutureareafinecompanytolivewith,exquisiteforms,fascinatingifyoulike,but-sotospeak-naked,strippedforarun。Therobesofglamourareluckilythepropertyoftheimmovablepastwhich,withoutthem,wouldsit,ashiverysortofthing,underthegatheringshadows。 Isupposeitwastheromanticismofgrowingagewhichsetourmantorelatehisexperienceforhisownsatisfactionorforthewonderofhisposterity。Itcouldnothavebeenforhisglory,becausetheexperiencewassimplythatofanabominablefright-terrorhecallsit。Youwouldhaveguessedthattherelationalludedtointheveryfirstlineswasinwriting。 ThiswritingconstitutestheFinddeclaredinthesub-title。Thetitleitselfismyowncontrivance,(can\'tcallitinvention),andhasthemeritofveracity。Wewillbeconcernedwithaninnhere。 Astothewitchesthat\'smerelyaconventionalexpression,andwemusttakeourman\'swordforitthatitfitsthecase。 TheFindwasmadeinaboxofbooksboughtinLondon,inastreetwhichnolongerexists,fromasecond-handbooksellerinthelaststageofdecay。Astothebooksthemselvestheywereatleasttwentieth-hand,andoninspectionturnedoutnotworththeverysmallsumofmoneyIdisbursed。Itmighthavebeensomepremonitionofthatfactwhichmademesay:\"ButImusthavetheboxtoo。\"Thedecayedbooksellerassentedbythecareless,tragicgestureofamanalreadydoomedtoextinction。 Alitterofloosepagesatthebottomoftheboxexcitedmycuriositybutfaintly。Theclose,neat,regularhandwritingwasnotattractiveatfirstsight。ButinoneplacethestatementthatinA。D。1813thewriterwastwenty-twoyearsoldcaughtmyeye。 Twoandtwentyisaninterestingageinwhichoneiseasilyrecklessandeasilyfrightened;thefacultyofreflectionbeingweakandthepowerofimaginationstrong。 Inanotherplacethephrase:\"Atnightwestoodinagain,\" arrestedmylanguidattention,becauseitwasaseaphrase。\"Let\'sseewhatitisallabout,\"Ithought,withoutexcitement。 Oh!butitwasadull-facedMS。,eachlineresemblingeveryotherlineintheirclose-setandregularorder。Itwaslikethedroneofamonotonousvoice。Atreatiseonsugar-refining(thedreariestsubjectIcanthinkof)couldhavebeengivenamorelivelyappearance。\"InA。D。1813,Iwastwenty-twoyearsold,\"hebeginsearnestlyandgoesonwitheveryappearanceofcalm,horribleindustry。Don\'timagine,however,thatthereisanythingarchaicinmyfind。Diabolicingenuityininventionthoughasoldastheworldisbynomeansalostart。Lookatthetelephonesforshatteringthelittlepeaceofmindgiventousinthisworld,oratthemachinegunsforlettingwithdispatchlifeoutofourbodies。Now-a-daysanyblear-eyedoldwitchifonlystrongenoughtoturnaninsignificantlittlehandlecouldlaylowahundredyoungmenoftwentyinthetwinklingofaneye。 Ifthisisn\'tprogress!……Whyimmense!Wehavemovedon,andsoyoumustexpecttomeethereacertainnaivenessofcontrivanceandsimplicityofaimappertainingtotheremoteepoch。Andofcoursenomotoringtouristcanhopetofindsuchaninnanywhere,now。Thisone,theoneofthetitle,wassituatedinSpain。ThatmuchIdiscoveredonlyfrominternalevidence,becauseagoodmanypagesofthatrelationweremissing-perhapsnotagreatmisfortuneafterall。Thewriterseemedtohaveenteredintoamostelaboratedetailofthewhyandwhereforeofhispresenceonthatcoast-presumablythenorthcoastofSpain。Hisexperiencehasnothingtodowiththesea,though。AsfarasIcanmakeitout,hewasanofficeronboardasloop-of-war。There\'snothingstrangeinthat。AtallstagesofthelongPeninsularcampaignmanyofourmen-of-warofthesmallerkindwerecruisingoffthenorthcoastofSpain-asriskyanddisagreeableastationascanbewellimagined。 Itlooksasthoughthatshipofhishadhadsomespecialservicetoperform。Acarefulexplanationofallthecircumstanceswastobeexpectedfromourman,only,asI\'vesaid,someofhispages(goodtoughpapertoo)weremissing:goneincoversforjampotsorinwaddingforthefowling-piecesofhisirreverentposterity。Butitistobeseenclearlythatcommunicationwiththeshoreandeventhesendingofmessengersinlandwaspartofherservice,eithertoobtainintelligencefromortotransmitordersoradvicetopatrioticSpaniards,guerillerosorsecretjuntasoftheprovince。 Somethingofthesort。Allthiscanbeonlyinferredfromthepreservedscrapsofhisconscientiouswriting。 Nextwecomeuponthepanegyricofaveryfinesailor,amemberoftheship\'scompany,havingtheratingofthecaptain\'scoxswain。