Yougetoutofhere!\"
Thetravelingmanleft。Rakingthesamplesofcol-
larfastenersoffthecounterintoablackleatherbag,heran。Hewasasmallmanandverybow-leggedandheranawkwardly。Theblackbagcaughtagainstthedoorandhestumbledandfell。\"Crazy,that\'swhatheis——crazy!\"hesputteredashearosefromthesidewalkandhurriedaway。
InthestoreElmerCowleyandhisfatherstaredateachother。Nowthattheimmediateobjectofhiswrathhadfled,theyoungermanwasembarrassed。
\"Well,Imeantit。Ithinkwe\'vebeenqueerlongenough,\"hedeclared,goingtotheshowcaseandreplacingtherevolver。Sittingonabarrelhepulledonandfastenedtheshoehehadbeenholdinginhishand。Hewaswaitingforsomewordofunder-
standingfromhisfatherbutwhenEbenezerspokehiswordsonlyservedtoreawakenthewrathinthesonandtheyoungmanranoutofthestorewithoutreplying。Scratchinghisgreybeardwithhislongdirtyfingers,themerchantlookedathissonwiththesamewaveringuncertainstarewithwhichhehadconfrontedthetravelingman。\"I\'llbestarched,\"
hesaidsoftly。\"Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched!\"
ElmerCowleywentoutofWinesburgandalongacountryroadthatparalleledtherailroadtrack。Hedidnotknowwherehewasgoingorwhathewasgoingtodo。Intheshelterofadeepcutwheretheroad,afterturningsharplytotheright,dippedunderthetrackshestoppedandthepassionthathadbeenthecauseofhisoutburstinthestorebegantoagainfindexpression。\"Iwillnotbequeer——onetobelookedatandlistenedto,\"hedeclaredaloud。
\"I\'llbelikeotherpeople。I\'llshowthatGeorgeWil-
lard。He\'llfindout。I\'llshowhim!\"
Thedistraughtyoungmanstoodinthemiddleoftheroadandglaredbackatthetown。HedidnotknowthereporterGeorgeWillardandhadnospe-
cialfeelingconcerningthetallboywhoranabouttowngatheringthetownnews。Thereporterhadmerelycome,byhispresenceintheofficeandintheprintshopoftheWinesburgEagle,tostandforsomethingintheyoungmerchant\'smind。HethoughttheboywhopassedandrepassedCowley&Son\'sstoreandwhostoppedtotalktopeopleinthestreetmustbethinkingofhimandperhapslaughingathim。GeorgeWillard,hefelt,belongedtothetown,typifiedthetown,representedinhispersonthespiritofthetown。ElmerCowleycouldnothavebelievedthatGeorgeWillardhadalsohisdaysofunhappiness,thatvaguehungersandsecretunnam-
abledesiresvisitedalsohismind。Didhenotrepre-
sentpublicopinionandhadnotthepublicopinionofWinesburgcondemnedtheCowleystoqueerness?
DidhenotwalkwhistlingandlaughingthroughMainStreet?Mightnotonebystrikinghispersonstrikealsothegreaterenemy——thethingthatsmiledandwentitsownway——thejudgmentofWinesburg?
ElmerCowleywasextraordinarilytallandhisarmswerelongandpowerful。Hishair,hiseye-
brows,andthedownybeardthathadbeguntogrowuponhischin,werepalealmosttowhiteness。
Histeethprotrudedfrombetweenhislipsandhiseyeswerebluewiththecolorlessbluenessofthemarblescalled\"aggies\"thattheboysofWinesburgcarriedintheirpockets。ElmerhadlivedinWines-
burgforayearandhadmadenofriends。Hewas,hefelt,onecondemnedtogothroughlifewithoutfriendsandhehatedthethought。
Sullenlythetallyoungmantrampedalongtheroadwithhishandsstuffedintohistrouserpockets。
Thedaywascoldwitharawwind,butpresentlythesunbegantoshineandtheroadbecamesoftandmuddy。ThetopsoftheridgesoffrozenmudthatformedtheroadbegantomeltandthemudclungtoElmer\'sshoes。Hisfeetbecamecold。Whenhehadgoneseveralmilesheturnedofftheroad,crossedafieldandenteredawood。Inthewoodhegatheredstickstobuildafire,bywhichhesattryingtowarmhimself,miserableinbodyandinmind。
Fortwohourshesatonthelogbythefireandthen,arisingandcreepingcautiouslythroughamassofunderbrush,hewenttoafenceandlookedacrossfieldstoasmallfarmhousesurroundedbylowsheds。Asmilecametohislipsandhebeganmakingmotionswithhislongarmstoamanwhowashuskingcorninoneofthefields。
Inhishourofmiserytheyoungmerchanthadreturnedtothefarmwherehehadlivedthroughboyhoodandwheretherewasanotherhumanbeingtowhomhefelthecouldexplainhimself。Themanonthefarmwasahalf-wittedoldfellownamedMook。HehadoncebeenemployedbyEbenezerCowleyandhadstayedonthefarmwhenitwassold。Theoldmanlivedinoneoftheunpaintedshedsbackofthefarmhouseandputteredaboutalldayinthefields。
Mookthehalf-witlivedhappily。Withchildlikefaithhebelievedintheintelligenceoftheanimalsthatlivedintheshedswithhim,andwhenhewaslonelyheldlongconversationswiththecows,thepigs,andevenwiththechickensthatranaboutthebarnyard。Heitwaswhohadputtheexpressionregardingbeing\"laundered\"intothemouthofhisformeremployer。Whenexcitedorsurprisedbyany-
thinghesmiledvaguelyandmuttered:\"I\'llbewashedandironed。Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched。\"
Whenthehalf-wittedoldmanlefthishuskingofcornandcameintothewoodtomeetElmerCowley,hewasneithersurprisednorespeciallyinterestedinthesuddenappearanceoftheyoungman。Hisfeetalsowerecoldandhesatonthelogbythefire,gratefulforthewarmthandapparentlyindifferenttowhatElmerhadtosay。
Elmertalkedearnestlyandwithgreatfreedom,walkingupanddownandwavinghisarmsabout。
\"Youdon\'tunderstandwhat\'sthematterwithmesoofcourseyoudon\'tcare,\"hedeclared。\"Withmeit\'sdifferent。Lookhowithasalwaysbeenwithme。
Fatherisqueerandmotherwasqueer,too。Eventheclothesmotherusedtowearwerenotlikeotherpeople\'sclothes,andlookatthatcoatinwhichfa-
thergoesaboutthereintown,thinkinghe\'sdressedup,too。Whydon\'thegetanewone?Itwouldn\'tcostmuch。I\'lltellyouwhy。Fatherdoesn\'tknowandwhenmotherwasaliveshedidn\'tknoweither。
Mabelisdifferent。Sheknowsbutshewon\'tsayanything。Iwill,though。I\'mnotgoingtobestaredatanylonger。Whylookhere,Mook,fatherdoesn\'tknowthathisstorethereintownisjustaqueerjumble,thathe\'llneversellthestuffhebuys。Heknowsnothingaboutit。Sometimeshe\'salittlewor-
riedthattradedoesn\'tcomeandthenhegoesandbuyssomethingelse。Intheeveningshesitsbythefireupstairsandsaystradewillcomeafterawhile。
Heisn\'tworried。He\'squeer。Hedoesn\'tknowenoughtobeworried。\"
Theexcitedyoungmanbecamemoreexcited。\"Hedon\'tknowbutIknow,\"heshouted,stoppingtogazedownintothedumb,unresponsivefaceofthehalf-wit。\"Iknowtoowell。Ican\'tstandit。Whenwelivedouthereitwasdifferent。IworkedandatnightIwenttobedandslept。Iwasn\'talwaysseeingpeopleandthinkingasIamnow。Intheevening,thereintown,Igotothepostofficeortothedepottoseethetraincomein,andnoonesaysanythingtome。Everyonestandsaroundandlaughsandtheytalkbuttheysaynothingtome。ThenIfeelsoqueerthatIcan\'ttalkeither。Igoaway。Idon\'tsayany-
thing。Ican\'t。\"
Thefuryoftheyoungmanbecameuncontrollable。
\"Iwon\'tstandit,\"heyelled,lookingupatthebarebranchesofthetrees。\"I\'mnotmadetostandit。\"
Maddenedbythedullfaceofthemanonthelogbythefire,ElmerturnedandglaredathimashehadglaredbackalongtheroadatthetownofWinesburg。\"Goonbacktowork,\"hescreamed。
\"Whatgooddoesitdometotalktoyou?\"A
thoughtcametohimandhisvoicedropped。\"I\'macowardtoo,eh?\"hemuttered。\"DoyouknowwhyIcameclearouthereafoot?IhadtotellsomeoneandyouweretheonlyoneIcouldtell。Ihuntedoutanotherqueerone,yousee。Iranaway,that\'swhatI
did。Icouldn\'tstanduptosomeonelikethatGeorgeWillard。Ihadtocometoyou。IoughttotellhimandIwill。\"
Againhisvoicearosetoashoutandhisarmsflewabout。\"Iwilltellhim。Iwon\'tbequeer。Idon\'tcarewhattheythink。Iwon\'tstandit。\"
ElmerCowleyranoutofthewoodsleavingthehalf-witsittingonthelogbeforethefire。Presentlytheoldmanaroseandclimbingoverthefencewentbacktohisworkinthecorn。\"I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched,\"hedeclared。\"Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironed。\"Mookwasinterested。Hewentalongalanetoafieldwheretwocowsstoodnibblingatastrawstack。\"Elmerwashere,\"hesaidtothecows。\"Elmeriscrazy。Youbettergetbehindthestackwherehedon\'tseeyou。He\'llhurtsome-
oneyet,Elmerwill。\"
Ateighto\'clockthateveningElmerCowleyputhisheadinatthefrontdooroftheofficeoftheWinesburgEaglewhereGeorgeWillardsatwriting。
Hiscapwaspulleddownoverhiseyesandasullendeterminedlookwasonhisface。\"Youcomeonout-
sidewithme,\"hesaid,steppinginandclosingthedoor。Hekepthishandontheknobasthoughpre-
paredtoresistanyoneelsecomingin。\"Youjustcomealongoutside。Iwanttoseeyou。\"
GeorgeWillardandElmerCowleywalkedthroughthemainstreetofWinesburg。ThenightwascoldandGeorgeWillardhadonanewovercoatandlookedveryspruceanddressedup。Hethrusthishandsintotheovercoatpocketsandlookedinquir-
inglyathiscompanion。Hehadlongbeenwantingtomakefriendswiththeyoungmerchantandfindoutwhatwasinhismind。Nowhethoughthesawachanceandwasdelighted。\"Iwonderwhathe\'supto?Perhapshethinkshehasapieceofnewsforthepaper。Itcan\'tbeafirebecauseIhaven\'theardthefirebellandthereisn\'tanyonerunning,\"hethought。
InthemainstreetofWinesburg,onthecoldNo-
vemberevening,butfewcitizensappearedandthesehurriedalongbentongettingtothestoveatthebackofsomestore。ThewindowsofthestoreswerefrostedandthewindrattledthetinsignthathungovertheentrancetothestairwayleadingtoDoctorWelling\'soffice。BeforeHern\'sGroceryabas-
ketofapplesandarackfilledwithnewbroomsstoodonthesidewalk。ElmerCowleystoppedandstoodfacingGeorgeWillard。Hetriedtotalkandhisarmsbegantopumpupanddown。Hisfaceworkedspasmodically。Heseemedabouttoshout。\"Oh,yougoonback,\"hecried。\"Don\'tstayoutherewithme。Iain\'tgotanythingtotellyou。Idon\'twanttoseeyouatall。\"
ForthreehoursthedistractedyoungmerchantwanderedthroughtheresidentstreetsofWinesburgblindwithanger,broughtonbyhisfailuretodeclarehisdeterminationnottobequeer。Bitterlythesenseofdefeatsettleduponhimandhewantedtoweep。
Afterthehoursoffutilesputteringatnothingnessthathadoccupiedtheafternoonandhisfailureinthepresenceoftheyoungreporter,hethoughthecouldseenohopeofafutureforhimself。
Andthenanewideadawnedforhim。Inthedark-
nessthatsurroundedhimhebegantoseealight。
Goingtothenowdarkenedstore,whereCowley&
Sonhadforoverayearwaitedvainlyfortradetocome,hecreptstealthilyinandfeltaboutinabarrelthatstoodbythestoveattherear。InthebarrelbeneathshavingslayatinboxcontainingCowley&
Son\'scash。EveryeveningEbenezerCowleyputtheboxinthebarrelwhenheclosedthestoreandwentupstairstobed。\"Theywouldn\'tneverthinkofacarelessplacelikethat,\"hetoldhimself,thinkingofrobbers。
Elmertooktwentydollars,twoten-dollarbills,fromthelittlerollcontainingperhapsfourhundreddollars,thecashleftfromthesaleofthefarm。Thenreplacingtheboxbeneaththeshavingshewentqui-
etlyoutatthefrontdoorandwalkedagaininthestreets。
Theideathathethoughtmightputanendtoallofhisunhappinesswasverysimple。\"Iwillgetoutofhere,runawayfromhome,\"hetoldhimself。HeknewthatalocalfreighttrainpassedthroughWinesburgatmidnightandwentontoCleveland,whereitarrivedatdawn。HewouldstealarideonthelocalandwhenhegottoClevelandwouldlosehimselfinthecrowdsthere。Hewouldgetworkinsomeshopandbecomefriendswiththeotherworkmenandwouldbeindistinguishable。Thenhecouldtalkandlaugh。Hewouldnolongerbequeerandwouldmakefriends。Lifewouldbegintohavewarmthandmeaningforhimasithadforothers。
Thetallawkwardyoungman,stridingthroughthestreets,laughedathimselfbecausehehadbeenangryandhadbeenhalfafraidofGeorgeWillard。
Hedecidedhewouldhavehistalkwiththeyoungreporterbeforehelefttown,thathewouldtellhimaboutthings,perhapschallengehim,challengeallofWinesburgthroughhim。
AglowwithnewconfidenceElmerwenttotheofficeoftheNewWillardHouseandpoundedonthedoor。Asleep-eyedboysleptonacotintheoffice。Hereceivednosalarybutwasfedatthehoteltableandborewithpridethetitleof\"nightclerk。\"
BeforetheboyElmerwasbold,insistent。\"You\'wakehimup,\"hecommanded。\"Youtellhimtocomedownbythedepot。IgottoseehimandI\'mgoingawayonthelocal。Tellhimtodressandcomeondown。Iain\'tgotmuchtime。\"
ThemidnightlocalhadfinisheditsworkinWines-
burgandthetrainsmenwerecouplingcars,swing-
inglanternsandpreparingtoresumetheirflighteast。GeorgeWillard,rubbinghiseyesandagainwearingthenewovercoat,randowntothestationplatformafirewithcuriosity。\"Well,hereIam。Whatdoyouwant?You\'vegotsomethingtotellme,eh?\"
hesaid。
Elmertriedtoexplain。Hewethislipswithhistongueandlookedatthetrainthathadbeguntogroanandgetunderway。\"Well,yousee,\"hebegan,andthenlostcontrolofhistongue。\"I\'llbewashedandironed。I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched,\"hemutteredhalfincoherently。
ElmerCowleydancedwithfurybesidethegroan-
ingtraininthedarknessonthestationplatform。
Lightsleapedintotheairandbobbedupanddownbeforehiseyes。Takingthetwoten-dollarbillsfromhispockethethrustthemintoGeorgeWillard\'shand。\"Takethem,\"hecried。\"Idon\'twantthem。
Givethemtofather。Istolethem。\"Withasnarlofrageheturnedandhislongarmsbegantoflaytheair。Likeonestrugglingforreleasefromhandsthatheldhimhestruckout,hittingGeorgeWillardblowafterblowonthebreast,theneck,themouth。Theyoungreporterrolledoverontheplatformhalfun-
conscious,stunnedbytheterrificforceoftheblows。
Springingaboardthepassingtrainandrunningoverthetopsofcars,Elmersprangdowntoaflatcarandlyingonhisfacelookedback,tryingtoseethefallenmaninthedarkness。Pridesurgedupinhim。\"I
showedhim,\"hecried。\"IguessIshowedhim。I
ain\'tsoqueer。IguessIshowedhimIain\'tsoqueer。\"
THEUNTOLDLIE
RAYPEARSONandHalWinterswerefarmhandsem-
ployedonafarmthreemilesnorthofWinesburg。
OnSaturdayafternoonstheycameintotownandwanderedaboutthroughthestreetswithotherfel-
lowsfromthecountry。
Raywasaquiet,rathernervousmanofperhapsfiftywithabrownbeardandshouldersroundedbytoomuchandtoohardlabor。InhisnaturehewasasunlikeHalWintersastwomencanbeunlike。
Raywasanaltogetherseriousmanandhadalittlesharp-featuredwifewhohadalsoasharpvoice。Thetwo,withhalfadozenthin-leggedchildren,livedinatumble-downframehousebesideacreekatthebackendoftheWillsfarmwhereRaywasemployed。
HalWinters,hisfellowemployee,wasayoungfellow。HewasnotoftheNedWintersfamily,whowereveryrespectablepeopleinWinesburg,butwasoneofthethreesonsoftheoldmancalledWind-
peterWinterswhohadasawmillnearUnionville,sixmilesaway,andwhowaslookeduponbyevery-
oneinWinesburgasaconfirmedoldreprobate。
PeoplefromthepartofNorthernOhioinwhichWinesburglieswillrememberoldWindpeterbyhisunusualandtragicdeath。HegotdrunkoneeveningintownandstartedtodrivehometoUnionvillealongtherailroadtracks。HenryBrattenburg,thebutcher,wholivedoutthatway,stoppedhimattheedgeofthetownandtoldhimhewassuretomeetthedowntrainbutWindpeterslashedathimwithhiswhipanddroveon。Whenthetrainstruckandkilledhimandhistwohorsesafarmerandhiswifewhoweredrivinghomealonganearbyroadsawtheaccident。TheysaidthatoldWindpeterstoodupontheseatofhiswagon,ravingandswearingattheonrushinglocomotive,andthathefairlyscreamedwithdelightwhentheteam,maddenedbyhisinces-
santslashingatthem,rushedstraightaheadtocer-
taindeath。BoyslikeyoungGeorgeWillardandSethRichmondwillremembertheincidentquitevividlybecause,althougheveryoneinourtownsaidthattheoldmanwouldgostraighttohellandthatthecommunitywasbetteroffwithouthim,theyhadasecretconvictionthatheknewwhathewasdoingandadmiredhisfoolishcourage。Mostboyshaveseasonsofwishingtheycoulddiegloriouslyinsteadofjustbeinggroceryclerksandgoingonwiththeirhumdrumlives。
ButthisisnotthestoryofWindpeterWintersnoryetofhissonHalwhoworkedontheWillsfarmwithRayPearson。ItisRay\'sstory。Itwill,however,benecessarytotalkalittleofyoungHalsothatyouwillgetintothespiritofit。
Halwasabadone。Everyonesaidthat。TherewerethreeoftheWintersboysinthatfamily,John,Hal,andEdward,allbroad-shoulderedbigfellowslikeoldWindpeterhimselfandallfightersandwoman-chasersandgenerallyall-aroundbadones。
Halwastheworstofthelotandalwaysuptosomedevilment。Heoncestolealoadofboardsfromhisfather\'smillandsoldtheminWinesburg。Withthemoneyheboughthimselfasuitofcheap,flashyclothes。Thenhegotdrunkandwhenhisfathercameravingintotowntofindhim,theymetandfoughtwiththeirfistsonMainStreetandwerear-
restedandputintojailtogether。
HalwenttoworkontheWillsfarmbecausetherewasacountryschoolteacheroutthatwaywhohadtakenhisfancy。Hewasonlytwenty-twothenbuthadalreadybeenintwoorthreeofwhatwerespo-
kenofinWinesburgas\"womenscrapes。\"Everyonewhoheardofhisinfatuationfortheschoolteacherwassureitwouldturnoutbadly。\"He\'llonlygetherintotrouble,you\'llsee,\"wasthewordthatwentaround。
Andsothesetwomen,RayandHal,wereatworkinafieldonadayinthelateOctober。Theywerehuskingcornandoccasionallysomethingwassaidandtheylaughed。Thencamesilence。Ray,whowasthemoresensitiveandalwaysmindedthingsmore,hadchappedhandsandtheyhurt。Heputthemintohiscoatpocketsandlookedawayacrossthefields。
Hewasinasad,distractedmoodandwasaffectedbythebeautyofthecountry。IfyouknewtheWinesburgcountryinthefallandhowthelowhillsareallsplashedwithyellowsandredsyouwouldunderstandhisfeeling。Hebegantothinkofthetime,longagowhenhewasayoungfellowlivingwithhisfather,thenabakerinWinesburg,andhowonsuchdayshehadwanderedawayintothewoodstogathernuts,huntrabbits,orjusttoloafaboutandsmokehispipe。Hismarriagehadcomeaboutthroughoneofhisdaysofwandering。Hehadin-
ducedagirlwhowaitedontradeinhisfather\'sshoptogowithhimandsomethinghadhappened。Hewasthinkingofthatafternoonandhowithadaf-
fectedhiswholelifewhenaspiritofprotestawokeinhim。HehadforgottenaboutHalandmutteredwords。\"TrickedbyGad,that\'swhatIwas,trickedbylifeandmadeafoolof,\"hesaidinalowvoice。
Asthoughunderstandinghisthoughts,HalWin-
tersspokeup。\"Well,hasitbeenworthwhile?Whataboutit,eh?Whataboutmarriageandallthat?\"heaskedandthenlaughed。Haltriedtokeeponlaugh-
ingbuthetoowasinanearnestmood。Hebegantotalkearnestly。\"Hasafellowgottodoit?\"heasked。\"Hashegottobeharnessedupanddriventhroughlifelikeahorse?\"
Haldidn\'twaitforananswerbutsprangtohisfeetandbegantowalkbackandforthbetweenthecornshocks。Hewasgettingmoreandmoreexcited。
Bendingdownsuddenlyhepickedupanearoftheyellowcornandthrewitatthefence。\"I\'vegotNellGuntherintrouble,\"hesaid。\"I\'mtellingyou,butyoukeepyourmouthshut。\"
RayPearsonaroseandstoodstaring。Hewasal-
mostafootshorterthanHal,andwhentheyoungermancameandputhistwohandsontheolderman\'sshoulderstheymadeapicture。Theretheystoodinthebigemptyfieldwiththequietcornshocksstand-
inginrowsbehindthemandtheredandyellowhillsinthedistance,andfrombeingjusttwoindif-
ferentworkmentheyhadbecomeallalivetoeachother。Halsenseditandbecausethatwashiswayhelaughed。\"Well,olddaddy,\"hesaidawkwardly,\"comeon,adviseme。I\'vegotNellintrouble。Per-
hapsyou\'vebeeninthesamefixyourself。Iknowwhateveryonewouldsayistherightthingtodo,butwhatdoyousay?ShallImarryandsettledown?
ShallIputmyselfintotheharnesstobewornoutlikeanoldhorse?Youknowme,Ray。Therecan\'tanyonebreakmebutIcanbreakmyself。ShallIdoitorshallItellNelltogotothedevil?Comeon,youtellme。Whateveryousay,Ray,I\'lldo。\"
Raycouldn\'tanswer。HeshookHal\'shandslooseandturningwalkedstraightawaytowardthebarn。
Hewasasensitivemanandthereweretearsinhiseyes。HeknewtherewasonlyonethingtosaytoHalWinters,sonofoldWindpeterWinters,onlyonethingthatallhisowntrainingandallthebeliefsofthepeopleheknewwouldapprove,butforhislifehecouldn\'tsaywhatheknewheshouldsay。
Athalf-pastfourthatafternoonRaywasputteringaboutthebarnyardwhenhiswifecameupthelanealongthecreekandcalledhim。AfterthetalkwithHalhehadn\'treturnedtothecornfieldbutworkedaboutthebarn。HehadalreadydonetheeveningchoresandhadseenHal,dressedandreadyforaroisteringnightintown,comeoutofthefarmhouseandgointotheroad。Alongthepathtohisownhousehetrudgedbehindhiswife,lookingatthegroundandthinking。Hecouldn\'tmakeoutwhatwaswrong。Everytimeheraisedhiseyesandsawthebeautyofthecountryinthefailinglighthewantedtodosomethinghehadneverdonebefore,shoutorscreamorhithiswifewithhisfistsorsomethingequallyunexpectedandterrifying。Alongthepathhewentscratchinghisheadandtryingtomakeitout。Helookedhardathiswife\'sbackbutsheseemedallright。
Sheonlywantedhimtogointotownforgroceriesandassoonasshehadtoldhimwhatshewantedbegantoscold。\"You\'realwaysputtering,\"shesaid。
\"NowIwantyoutohustle。Thereisn\'tanythinginthehouseforsupperandyou\'vegottogettotownandbackinahurry。\"
Raywentintohisownhouseandtookanovercoatfromahookbackofthedoor。Itwastornaboutthepocketsandthecollarwasshiny。Hiswifewentintothebedroomandpresentlycameoutwithasoiledclothinonehandandthreesilverdollarsintheother。Somewhereinthehouseachildweptbitterlyandadogthathadbeensleepingbythestovearoseandyawned。Againthewifescolded。\"Thechildrenwillcryandcry。Whyareyoualwaysputtering?\"
sheasked。
Raywentoutofthehouseandclimbedthefenceintoafield。Itwasjustgrowingdarkandthescenethatlaybeforehimwaslovely。Allthelowhillswerewashedwithcolorandeventhelittleclustersofbushesinthecornersofthefenceswerealivewithbeauty。ThewholeworldseemedtoRayPearsontohavebecomealivewithsomethingjustasheandHalhadsuddenlybecomealivewhentheystoodinthecornfieldstatingintoeachother\'seyes。
ThebeautyofthecountryaboutWinesburgwastoomuchforRayonthatfallevening。Thatisalltherewastoit。Hecouldnotstandit。Ofasuddenheforgotallaboutbeingaquietoldfarmhandandthrowingoffthetornovercoatbegantorunacrossthefield。Asheranheshoutedaprotestagainsthislife,againstalllife,againsteverythingthatmakeslifeugly。\"Therewasnopromisemade,\"hecriedintotheemptyspacesthatlayabouthim。\"Ididn\'tpromisemyMinnieanythingandHalhasn\'tmadeanypromisetoNell。Iknowhehasn\'t。Shewentintothewoodswithhimbecauseshewantedtogo。
Whathewantedshewanted。WhyshouldIpay?
WhyshouldHalpay?Whyshouldanyonepay?I
don\'twantHaltobecomeoldandwornout。I\'lltellhim。Iwon\'tletitgoon。I\'llcatchHalbeforehegetstotownandI\'lltellhim。\"
Rayranclumsilyandoncehestumbledandfelldown。\"ImustcatchHalandtellhim,\"hekeptthinking,andalthoughhisbreathcameingaspshekeptrunningharderandharder。Asheranhethoughtofthingsthathadn\'tcomeintohismindforyears——howatthetimehemarriedhehadplannedtogowesttohisuncleinPortland,Oregon——howhehadn\'twantedtobeafarmhand,buthadthoughtwhenhegotoutWesthewouldgotoseaandbeasailororgetajobonaranchandrideahorseintoWesterntowns,shoutingandlaughingandwakingthepeopleinthehouseswithhiswildcries。Thenasheranherememberedhischildrenandinfancyfelttheirhandsclutchingathim。AllofhisthoughtsofhimselfwereinvolvedwiththethoughtsofHalandhethoughtthechildrenwereclutchingattheyoungermanalso。\"Theyaretheaccidentsoflife,Hal,\"hecried。\"Theyarenotmineoryours。Ihadnothingtodowiththem。\"
DarknessbegantospreadoverthefieldsasRayPearsonranonandon。Hisbreathcameinlittlesobs。WhenhecametothefenceattheedgeoftheroadandconfrontedHalWinters,alldressedupandsmokingapipeashewalkedjauntilyalong,hecouldnothavetoldwhathethoughtorwhathewanted。
RayPearsonlosthisnerveandthisisreallytheendofthestoryofwhathappenedtohim。Itwasalmostdarkwhenhegottothefenceandheputhishandsonthetopbarandstoodstaring。HalWintersjumpedaditchandcomingupclosetoRayputhishandsintohispocketsandlaughed。HeseemedtohavelosthisownsenseofwhathadhappenedinthecornfieldandwhenheputupastronghandandtookholdofthelapelofRay\'scoatheshooktheoldmanashemighthaveshakenadogthathadmisbehaved。
\"Youcametotellme,eh?\"hesaid。\"Well,nevermindtellingmeanything。I\'mnotacowardandI\'vealreadymadeupmymind。\"Helaughedagainandjumpedbackacrosstheditch。\"Nellain\'tnofool,\"
hesaid。\"Shedidn\'taskmetomarryher。Iwanttomarryher。Iwanttosettledownandhavekids。\"
RayPearsonalsolaughed。Hefeltlikelaughingathimselfandalltheworld。
AstheformofHalWintersdisappearedintheduskthatlayovertheroadthatledtoWinesburg,heturnedandwalkedslowlybackacrossthefieldstowherehehadlefthistornovercoat。Ashewentsomememoryofpleasanteveningsspentwiththethin-leggedchildreninthetumble-downhousebythecreekmusthavecomeintohismind,forhemut-
teredwords。\"It\'sjustaswell。WhateverItoldhimwouldhavebeenalie,\"hesaidsoftly,andthenhisformalsodisappearedintothedarknessofthefields。
DRINK
TOMFOSTERcametoWinesburgfromCincinnatiwhenhewasstillyoungandcouldgetmanynewimpressions。HisgrandmotherhadbeenraisedonafarmnearthetownandasayounggirlhadgonetoschooltherewhenWinesburgwasavillageoftwelveorfifteenhousesclusteredaboutageneralstoreontheTrunionPike。
Whatalifetheoldwomanhadledsinceshewentawayfromthefrontiersettlementandwhatastrong,capablelittleoldthingshewas!ShehadbeeninKansas,inCanada,andinNewYorkCity,travelingaboutwithherhusband,amechanic,be-
forehedied。Latershewenttostaywithherdaughter,whohadalsomarriedamechanicandlivedinCovington,Kentucky,acrosstheriverfromCincinnati。
ThenbeganthehardyearsforTomFoster\'sgrandmother。Firstherson-in-lawwaskilledbyapolicemanduringastrikeandthenTom\'smotherbecameaninvalidanddiedalso。Thegrandmotherhadsavedalittlemoney,butitwassweptawaybytheillnessofthedaughterandbythecostofthetwofunerals。Shebecameahalfworn-outoldwomanworkerandlivedwiththegrandsonaboveajunkshoponasidestreetinCincinnati。Forfiveyearsshescrubbedthefloorsinanofficebuildingandthengotaplaceasdishwasherinarestaurant。
Herhandswerealltwistedoutofshape。Whenshetookholdofamoporabroomhandlethehandslookedlikethedriedstemsofanoldcreepingvineclingingtoatree。
TheoldwomancamebacktoWinesburgassoonasshegotthechance。Oneeveningasshewascom-
inghomefromworkshefoundapocket-bookcon-
tainingthirty-sevendollars,andthatopenedtheway。Thetripwasagreatadventurefortheboy。Itwaspastseveno\'clockatnightwhenthegrand-
mothercamehomewiththepocket-bookheldtightlyinheroldhandsandshewassoexcitedshecouldscarcelyspeak。SheinsistedonleavingCincinnatithatnight,sayingthatiftheystayeduntilmorningtheownerofthemoneywouldbesuretofindthemoutandmaketrouble。Tom,whowasthensixteenyearsold,hadtogotrudgingofftothestationwiththeoldwoman,bearingalloftheirearthlybelong-
ingsdoneupinaworn-outblanketandslungacrosshisback。Byhissidewalkedthegrandmotherurginghimforward。Hertoothlessoldmouthtwitchedner-
vously,andwhenTomgrewwearyandwantedtoputthepackdownatastreetcrossing,shesnatcheditupandifhehadnotpreventedwouldhaveslungitacrossherownback。Whentheygotintothetrainandithadrunoutofthecityshewasasdelightedasagirlandtalkedastheboyhadneverheardhertalkbefore。
Allthroughthenightasthetrainrattledalong,thegrandmothertoldTomtalesofWinesburgandofhowhewouldenjoyhislifeworkinginthefieldsandshootingwildthingsinthewoodsthere。Shecouldnotbelievethatthetinyvillageoffiftyyearsbeforehadgrownintoathrivingtowninherab-
sence,andinthemorningwhenthetraincametoWinesburgdidnotwanttogetoff。\"Itisn\'twhatI
thought。Itmaybehardforyouhere,\"shesaid,andthenthetrainwentonitswayandthetwostoodconfused,notknowingwheretoturn,inthepres-
enceofAlbertLongworth,theWinesburgbaggagemaster。
ButTomFosterdidgetalongallright。Hewasonetogetalonganywhere。Mrs。White,thebanker\'swife,employedhisgrandmothertoworkinthekitchenandhegotaplaceasstableboyinthebank-
er\'snewbrickbarn。
InWinesburgservantswerehardtoget。Thewomanwhowantedhelpinherhouseworkem-
ployeda\"hiredgirl\"whoinsistedonsittingatthetablewiththefamily。Mrs。Whitewassickofhiredgirlsandsnatchedatthechancetogetholdoftheoldcitywoman。ShefurnishedaroomfortheboyTomupstairsinthebarn。\"Hecanmowthelawnandrunerrandswhenthehorsesdonotneedatten-
tion,\"sheexplainedtoherhusband。
TomFosterwasrathersmallforhisageandhadalargeheadcoveredwithstiffblackhairthatstoodstraightup。Thehairemphasizedthebignessofhishead。Hisvoicewasthesoftestthingimaginable,andhewashimselfsogentleandquietthatheslippedintothelifeofthetownwithoutattractingtheleastbitofattention。
OnecouldnothelpwonderingwhereTomFostergothisgentleness。InCincinnatihehadlivedinaneighborhoodwheregangsoftoughboysprowledthroughthestreets,andallthroughhisearlyforma-
tiveyearsheranaboutwithtoughboys。Forawhilehewasamessengerforatelegraphcompanyanddeliveredmessagesinaneighborhoodsprinkledwithhousesofprostitution。ThewomeninthehousesknewandlovedTomFosterandthetoughboysinthegangslovedhimalso。
Heneverassertedhimself。Thatwasonethingthathelpedhimescape。Inanoddwayhestoodintheshadowofthewalloflife,wasmeanttostandintheshadow。Hesawthemenandwomeninthehousesoflust,sensedtheircasualandhorribleloveaffairs,sawboysfightingandlistenedtotheirtalesofthievinganddrunkenness,unmovedandstrangelyunaffected。
OnceTomdidsteal。Thatwaswhilehestilllivedinthecity。Thegrandmotherwasillatthetimeandhehimselfwasoutofwork。Therewasnothingtoeatinthehouse,andsohewentintoaharnessshoponasidestreetandstoleadollarandseventy-fivecentsoutofthecashdrawer。
Theharnessshopwasrunbyanoldmanwithalongmustache。Hesawtheboylurkingaboutandthoughtnothingofit。WhenhewentoutintothestreettotalktoateamsterTomopenedthecashdrawerandtakingthemoneywalkedaway。Laterhewascaughtandhisgrandmothersettledthemat-
terbyofferingtocometwiceaweekforamonthandscrubtheshop。Theboywasashamed,buthewasratherglad,too。\"Itisallrighttobeashamedandmakesmeunderstandnewthings,\"hesaidtothegrandmother,whodidn\'tknowwhattheboywastalkingaboutbutlovedhimsomuchthatitdidn\'tmatterwhethersheunderstoodornot。
ForayearTomFosterlivedinthebanker\'sstableandthenlosthisplacethere。Hedidn\'ttakeverygoodcareofthehorsesandhewasaconstantsourceofirritationtothebanker\'swife。Shetoldhimtomowthelawnandheforgot。Thenshesenthimtothestoreortothepostofficeandhedidnotcomebackbutjoinedagroupofmenandboysandspentthewholeafternoonwiththem,standingabout,lis-
teningandoccasionally,whenaddressed,sayingafewwords。Asinthecityinthehousesofprostitu-
tionandwiththerowdyboysrunningthroughthestreetsatnight,soinWinesburgamongitscitizenshehadalwaysthepowertobeapartofandyetdistinctlyapartfromthelifeabouthim。
AfterTomlosthisplaceatBankerWhite\'shedidnotlivewithhisgrandmother,althoughoftenintheeveningshecametovisithim。HerentedaroomattherearofalittleframebuildingbelongingtooldRufusWhiting。ThebuildingwasonDuaneStreet,justoffMainStreet,andhadbeenusedforyearsasalawofficebytheoldman,whohadbecometoofeebleandforgetfulforthepracticeofhisprofessionbutdidnotrealizehisinefficiency。HelikedTomandlethimhavetheroomforadollaramonth。Inthelateafternoonwhenthelawyerhadgonehometheboyhadtheplacetohimselfandspenthourslyingonthefloorbythestoveandthinkingofthings。Intheeveningthegrandmothercameandsatinthelawyer\'schairtosmokeapipewhileTomremainedsilent,ashealways,didinthepresenceofeveryone。
Oftentheoldwomantalkedwithgreatvigor。
Sometimesshewasangryaboutsomehappeningatthebanker\'shouseandscoldedawayforhours。Outofherownearningssheboughtamopandregularlyscrubbedthelawyer\'soffice。ThenwhentheplacewasspotlesslycleanandsmelledcleanshelightedherclaypipeandsheandTomhadasmoketo-
gether。\"WhenyougetreadytodiethenIwilldiealso,\"shesaidtotheboylyingonthefloorbesideherchair。
TomFosterenjoyedlifeinWinesburg。Hedidoddjobs,suchascuttingwoodforkitchenstovesandmowingthegrassbeforehouses。InlateMayandearlyJunehepickedstrawberriesinthefields。Hehadtimetoloafandheenjoyedloafing。BankerWhitehadgivenhimacast-offcoatwhichwastoolargeforhim,buthisgrandmothercutitdown,andhehadalsoanovercoat,gotatthesameplace,thatwaslinedwithfur。Thefurwaswornawayinspots,butthecoatwaswarmandinthewinterTomsleptinit。HethoughthismethodofgettingalonggoodenoughandwashappyandsatisfiedwiththewayfifeinWinesburghadturnedoutforhim。
ThemostabsurdlittlethingsmadeTomFosterhappy。That,Isuppose,waswhypeoplelovedhim。
InHern\'sGrocerytheywouldberoastingcoffeeonFridayafternoon,preparatorytotheSaturdayrushoftrade,andtherichodorinvadedlowerMainStreet。TomFosterappearedandsatonaboxattherearofthestore。Foranhourhedidnotmovebutsatperfectlystill,fillinghisbeingwiththespicyodorthatmadehimhalfdrunkwithhappiness。\"I
likeit,\"hesaidgently。\"Itmakesmethinkofthingsfaraway,placesandthingslikethat。\"
OnenightTomFostergotdrunk。Thatcameaboutinacuriousway。Heneverhadbeendrunkbefore,andindeedinallhisfifehadnevertakenadrinkofanythingintoxicating,buthefeltheneededtobedrunkthatonetimeandsowentanddidit。
InCincinnati,whenhelivedthere,Tomhadfoundoutmanythings,thingsaboutuglinessandcrimeandlust。Indeed,heknewmoreofthesethingsthananyoneelseinWinesburg。Thematterofsexinparticularhadpresenteditselftohiminaquitehorriblewayandhadmadeadeepimpressiononhismind。Hethought,afterwhathehadseenofthewomenstandingbeforethesqualidhousesoncoldnightsandthelookhehadseenintheeyesofthemenwhostoppedtotalktothem,thathewouldputsexaltogetheroutofhisownlife。Oneofthewomenoftheneighborhoodtemptedhimonceandhewentintoaroomwithher。Heneverforgotthesmelloftheroomnorthegreedylookthatcameintotheeyesofthewoman。Itsickenedhimandinaveryterriblewayleftascaronhissoul。Hehadalwaysbeforethoughtofwomenasquiteinnocentthings,muchlikehisgrandmother,butafterthatoneexperienceintheroomhedismissedwomenfromhismind。Sogentlewashisnaturethathecouldnothateanythingandnotbeingabletounder-
standhedecidedtoforget。
AndTomdidforgetuntilhecametoWinesburg。
Afterhehadlivedtherefortwoyearssomethingbegantostirinhim。Onallsideshesawyouthmak-
ingloveandhewashimselfayouth。Beforeheknewwhathadhappenedhewasinlovealso。HefellinlovewithHelenWhite,daughterofthemanforwhomhehadworked,andfoundhimselfthink-
ingofheratnight。
ThatwasaproblemforTomandhesettleditinhisownway。HelethimselfthinkofHelenWhitewheneverherfigurecameintohismindandonlyconcernedhimselfwiththemannerofhisthoughts。
Hehadafight,aquietdeterminedlittlefightofhisown,tokeephisdesiresinthechannelwherehethoughttheybelonged,butonthewholehewasvictorious。
Andthencamethespringnightwhenhegotdrunk。Tomwaswildonthatnight。Hewaslikeaninnocentyoungbuckoftheforestthathaseatenofsomemaddeningweed。Thethingbegan,ranitscourse,andwasendedinonenight,andyoumaybesurethatnooneinWinesburgwasanytheworseforTom\'soutbreak。
Inthefirstplace,thenightwasonetomakeasensitivenaturedrunk。Thetreesalongtheresi-
dencestreetsofthetownwereallnewlyclothedinsoftgreenleaves,inthegardensbehindthehousesmenwereputteringaboutinvegetablegardens,andintheairtherewasahush,awaitingkindofsilenceverystirringtotheblood。
TomlefthisroomonDuaneStreetjustastheyoungnightbegantomakeitselffelt。Firsthewalkedthroughthestreets,goingsoftlyandquietlyalong,thinkingthoughtsthathetriedtoputintowords。HesaidthatHelenWhitewasaflamedanc-
ingintheairandthathewasalittletreewithoutleavesstandingoutsharplyagainstthesky。Thenhesaidthatshewasawind,astrongterriblewind,comingoutofthedarknessofastormyseaandthathewasaboatleftontheshoreoftheseabyafisherman。
Thatideapleasedtheboyandhesaunteredalongplayingwithit。HewentintoMainStreetandsatonthecurbingbeforeWacker\'stobaccostore。Foranhourhelingeredaboutlisteningtothetalkofmen,butitdidnotinteresthimmuchandheslippedaway。ThenhedecidedtogetdrunkandwentintoWilly\'ssaloonandboughtabottleofwhiskey。Put-
tingthebottleintohispocket,hewalkedoutoftown,wantingtobealonetothinkmorethoughtsandtodrinkthewhiskey。
Tomgotdrunksittingonabankofnewgrassbesidetheroadaboutamilenorthoftown。Beforehimwasawhiteroadandathisbackanappleor-
chardinfullbloom。Hetookadrinkoutofthebottleandthenlaydownonthegrass。HethoughtofmorningsinWinesburgandofhowthestonesinthegraveleddrivewaybyBankerWhite\'shousewerewetwithdewandglistenedinthemorninglight。Hethoughtofthenightsinthebarnwhenitrainedandhelayawakehearingthedrummingoftheraindropsandsmellingthewarmsmellofhorsesandofhay。ThenhethoughtofastormthathadgoneroaringthroughWinesburgseveraldaysbeforeand,hismindgoingback,herelivedthenighthehadspentonthetrainwithhisgrandmotherwhenthetwowerecomingfromCincinnati。Sharplyherememberedhowstrangeithadseemedtositqui-
etlyinthecoachandtofeelthepoweroftheenginehurlingthetrainalongthroughthenight。
Tomgotdrunkinaveryshorttime。Hekepttak-
ingdrinksfromthebottleasthethoughtsvisitedhimandwhenhisheadbegantoreelgotupandwalkedalongtheroadgoingawayfromWinesburg。
TherewasabridgeontheroadthatranoutofWinesburgnorthtoLakeErieandthedrunkenboymadehiswayalongtheroadtothebridge。Therehesatdown。Hetriedtodrinkagain,butwhenhehadtakenthecorkoutofthebottlehebecameillandputitquicklyback。Hisheadwasrockingbackandforthandsohesatonthestoneapproachtothebridgeandsighed。Hisheadseemedtobeflyingaboutlikeapinwheelandthenprojectingitselfoffintospaceandhisarmsandlegsfloppedhelplesslyabout。
Ateleveno\'clockTomgotbackintotown。GeorgeWillardfoundhimwanderingaboutandtookhimintotheEagleprintshop。Thenhebecameafraidthatthedrunkenboywouldmakeamessonthefloorandhelpedhimintothealleyway。
ThereporterwasconfusedbyTomFoster。ThedrunkenboytalkedofHelenWhiteandsaidhehadbeenwithherontheshoreofaseaandhadmadelovetoher。GeorgehadseenHelenWhitewalkinginthestreetwithherfatherduringtheeveninganddecidedthatTomwasoutofhishead。AsentimentconcerningHelenWhitethatlurkedinhisownheartflamedupandhebecameangry。\"Nowyouquitthat,\"hesaid。\"Iwon\'tletHelenWhite\'snamebedraggedintothis。Iwon\'tletthathappen。\"HebeganshakingTom\'sshoulder,tryingtomakehimunderstand。\"Youquitit,\"hesaidagain。
Forthreehoursthetwoyoungmen,thusstrangelythrowntogether,stayedintheprintshop。WhenhehadalittlerecoveredGeorgetookTomforawalk。
Theywentintothecountryandsatonalogneartheedgeofawood。Somethinginthestillnightdrewthemtogetherandwhenthedrunkenboy\'sheadbegantocleartheytalked。
\"Itwasgoodtobedrunk,\"TomFostersaid。\"Ittaughtmesomething。Iwon\'thavetodoitagain。I
willthinkmoredearlyafterthis。Youseehowitis。\"
GeorgeWillarddidnotsee,buthisangerconcern-
ingHelenWhitepassedandhefeltdrawntowardthepale,shakenboyashehadneverbeforebeendrawntowardanyone。Withmotherlysolicitude,heinsistedthatTomgettohisfeetandwalkabout。
Againtheywentbacktotheprintshopandsatinsilenceinthedarkness。
ThereportercouldnotgetthepurposeofTomFoster\'sactionstraightenedoutinhismind。WhenTomspokeagainofHelenWhiteheagaingrewangryandbegantoscold。\"Youquitthat,\"hesaidsharply。\"Youhaven\'tbeenwithher。Whatmakesyousayyouhave?Whatmakesyoukeepsayingsuchthings?Nowyouquitit,doyouhear?\"
Tomwashurt。Hecouldn\'tquarrelwithGeorgeWillardbecausehewasincapableofquarreling,sohegotuptogoaway。WhenGeorgeWillardwasinsistentheputouthishand,layingitontheolderboy\'sarm,andtriedtoexplain。
\"Well,\"hesaidsoftly,\"Idon\'tknowhowitwas。
Iwashappy。Youseehowthatwas。HelenWhitemademehappyandthenightdidtoo。Iwantedtosuffer,tobehurtsomehow。IthoughtthatwaswhatIshoulddo。Iwantedtosuffer,yousee,becauseeveryonesuffersanddoeswrong。Ithoughtofalotofthingstodo,buttheywouldn\'twork。Theyallhurtsomeoneelse。\"
TomFoster\'svoicearose,andforonceinhislifehebecamealmostexcited。\"Itwaslikemakinglove,that\'swhatImean,\"heexplained。\"Don\'tyouseehowitis?IthurtmetodowhatIdidandmadeeverythingstrange。That\'swhyIdidit。I\'mglad,too。Ittaughtmesomething,that\'sit,that\'swhatI
wanted。Don\'tyouunderstand?Iwantedtolearnthings,yousee。That\'swhyIdidit。\"
DEATH
THESTAIRWAYLEADINGuptoDoctorReefy\'soffice,intheHeffnerBlockabovetheParisDryGoodsstore,wasbutdimlylighted。Attheheadofthestairwayhungalampwithadirtychimneythatwasfastenedbyabrackettothewall。Thelamphadatinreflector,brownwithrustandcoveredwithdust。
Thepeoplewhowentupthestairwayfollowedwiththeirfeetthefeetofmanywhohadgonebefore。
Thesoftboardsofthestairshadyieldedunderthepressureoffeetanddeephollowsmarkedtheway。
Atthetopofthestairwayaturntotherightbroughtyoutothedoctor\'sdoor。Totheleftwasadarkhallwayfilledwithrubbish。Oldchairs,carpen-
ter\'shorses,stepladdersandemptyboxeslayinthedarknesswaitingforshinstobebarked。ThepileofrubbishbelongedtotheParisDryGoodsCompany。