AndsointotheroomintheeveningcameyoungEnoch\'sfriends。Therewasnothingparticularlystrikingaboutthemexceptthattheywereartistsofthekindthattalk。Everyoneknowsofthetalkingartists。Throughoutalloftheknownhistoryoftheworldtheyhavegatheredinroomsandtalked。Theytalkofartandarepassionately,almostfeverishly,inearnestaboutit。T1heythinkitmattersmuchmorethanitdoes。
Andsothesepeoplegatheredandsmokedciga-
rettesandtalkedandEnochRobinson,theboyfromthefarmnearWinesburg,wasthere。Hestayedinacornerandforthemostpartsaidnothing。Howhisbigbluechildlikeeyesstaredabout!Onthewallswerepictureshehadmade,crudethings,halffin-
ished。Hisfriendstalkedofthese。Leaningbackintheirchairs,theytalkedandtalkedwiththeirheadsrockingfromsidetoside。Wordsweresaidaboutlineandvaluesandcomposition,lotsofwords,suchasarealwaysbeingsaid。
Enochwantedtotalktoobuthedidn\'tknowhow。
Hewastooexcitedtotalkcoherently。Whenhetriedhesputteredandstammeredandhisvoicesoundedstrangeandsqueakytohim。Thatmadehimstoptalking。Heknewwhathewantedtosay,butheknewalsothathecouldneverbyanypossibilitysayit。Whenapicturehehadpaintedwasunderdiscussion,hewantedtoburstoutwithsomethinglikethis:\"Youdon\'tgetthepoint,\"hewantedtoexplain;\"thepictureyouseedoesn\'tconsistofthethingsyouseeandsaywordsabout。Thereissome-
thingelse,somethingyoudon\'tseeatall,somethingyouaren\'tintendedtosee。Lookatthisoneoverhere,bythedoorhere,wherethelightfromthewindowfallsonit。Thedarkspotbytheroadthatyoumightnotnoticeatallis,yousee,thebeginningofeverything。ThereisaclumpofelderstheresuchasusedtogrowbesidetheroadbeforeourhousebackinWinesburg,Ohio,andinamongtheeldersthereissomethinghidden。Itisawoman,that\'swhatitis。Shehasbeenthrownfromahorseandthehorsehasrunawayoutofsight。Doyounotseehowtheoldmanwhodrivesacartlooksanxiouslyabout?ThatisThadGraybackwhohasafarmuptheroad。HeistakingcorntoWinesburgtobegroundintomealatComstock\'smill。Heknowsthereissomethingintheelders,somethinghiddenaway,andyethedoesn\'tquiteknow。
\"It\'sawomanyousee,that\'swhatitis!It\'sawomanand,oh,sheislovely!Sheishurtandissufferingbutshemakesnosound。Don\'tyouseehowitis?Sheliesquitestill,whiteandstill,andthebeautycomesoutfromherandspreadsovereverything。Itisintheskybackthereandallaroundeverywhere。Ididn\'ttrytopaintthewoman,ofcourse。Sheistoobeautifultobepainted。Howdulltotalkofcompositionandsuchthings!WhydoyounotlookattheskyandthenrunawayasIusedtodowhenIwasaboybackthereinWinesburg,Ohio?\"
ThatisthekindofthingyoungEnochRobinsontrembledtosaytotheguestswhocameintohisroomwhenhewasayoungfellowinNewYorkCity,buthealwaysendedbysayingnothing。Thenhebegantodoubthisownmind。Hewasafraidthethingshefeltwerenotgettingexpressedinthepictureshepainted。Inahalfindignantmoodhestoppedinvitingpeopleintohisroomandpresentlygotintothehabitoflockingthedoor。Hebegantothinkthatenoughpeoplehadvisitedhim,thathedidnotneedpeopleanymore。Withquickimagina-
tionhebegantoinventhisownpeopletowhomhecouldreallytalkandtowhomheexplainedthethingshehadbeenunabletoexplaintolivingpeo-
ple。Hisroombegantobeinhabitedbythespiritsofmenandwomenamongwhomhewent,inhisturnsayingwords。ItwasasthougheveryoneEnochRobinsonhadeverseenhadleftwithhimsomees-
senceofhimself,somethinghecouldmouldandchangetosuithisownfancy,somethingthatunder-
stoodallaboutsuchthingsasthewoundedwomanbehindtheeldersinthepictures。
Themild,blue-eyedyoungOhioboywasacom-
pleteegotist,asallchildrenareegotists。Hedidnotwantfriendsforthequitesimplereasonthatnochildwantsfriends。Hewantedmostofallthepeo-
pleofhisownmind,peoplewithwhomhecouldreallytalk,peoplehecouldharangueandscoldbythehour,servants,yousee,tohisfancy。Amongthesepeoplehewasalwaysself-confidentandbold。
Theymighttalk,tobesure,andevenhaveopinionsoftheirown,butalwayshetalkedlastandbest。Hewaslikeawriterbusyamongthefiguresofhisbrain,akindoftinyblue-eyedkinghewas,inasix-
dollarroomfacingWashingtonSquareinthecityofNewYork。
ThenEnochRobinsongotmarried。Hebegantogetlonelyandtowanttotouchactualflesh-and-
bonepeoplewithhishands。Dayspassedwhenhisroomseemedempty。Lustvisitedhisbodyandde-
siregrewinhismind。Atnightstrangefevers,burn-
ingwithin,kepthimawake。HemarriedagirlwhosatinachairnexttohisownintheartschoolandwenttoliveinanapartmenthouseinBrooklyn。Twochildrenwereborntothewomanhemarried,andEnochgotajobinaplacewhereillustrationsaremadeforadvertisements。
ThatbegananotherphaseofEnoch\'slife。Hebegantoplayatanewgame。Forawhilehewasveryproudofhimselfintheroleofproducingciti-
zenoftheworld。Hedismissedtheessenceofthingsandplayedwithrealities。Inthefallhevotedatanelectionandhehadanewspaperthrownonhisporcheachmorning。Whenintheeveninghecamehomefromworkhegotoffastreetcarandwalkedsedatelyalongbehindsomebusinessman,strivingtolookverysubstantialandimportant。Asapayeroftaxeshethoughtheshouldposthimselfonhowthingsarerun。\"I\'mgettingtobeofsomemoment,arealpartofthings,ofthestateandthecityandallthat,\"hetoldhimselfwithanamusingminiatureairofdignity。Once,cominghomefromPhiladel-
phia,hehadadiscussionwithamanmetonatrain。
Enochtalkedabouttheadvisabilityofthegovern-
ment\'sowningandoperatingtherailroadsandthemangavehimacigar。ItwasEnoch\'snotionthatsuchamoveonthepartofthegovernmentwouldbeagoodthing,andhegrewquiteexcitedashetalked。Laterherememberedhisownwordswithpleasure。\"Igavehimsomethingtothinkabout,thatfellow,\"hemutteredtohimselfasheclimbedthestairstohisBrooklynapartment。
Tobesure,Enoch\'smarriagedidnotturnout。Hehimselfbroughtittoanend。Hebegantofeelchokedandwalledinbythelifeintheapartment,andtofeeltowardhiswifeandeventowardhischildrenashehadfeltconcerningthefriendswhooncecametovisithim。Hebegantotelllittleliesaboutbusinessengagementsthatwouldgivehimfreedomtowalkaloneinthestreetatnightand,thechanceoffering,hesecretlyre-rentedtheroomfac-
ingWashingtonSquare。ThenMrs。AlRobinsondiedonthefarmnearWinesburg,andhegoteightthousanddollarsfromthebankthatactedastrusteeofherestate。ThattookEnochoutoftheworldofmenaltogether。Hegavethemoneytohiswifeandtoldherhecouldnotliveintheapartmentanymore。Shecriedandwasangryandthreatened,butheonlystaredatherandwenthisownway。Inrealitythewifedidnotcaremuch。ShethoughtEnochslightlyinsaneandwasalittleafraidofhim。
Whenitwasquitesurethathewouldnevercomeback,shetookthetwochildrenandwenttoavillageinConnecticutwhereshehadlivedasagirl。Intheendshemarriedamanwhoboughtandsoldrealestateandwascontentedenough。
AndsoEnochRobinsonstayedintheNewYorkroomamongthepeopleofhisfancy,playingwiththem,talkingtothem,happyasachildishappy。
Theywereanoddlot,Enoch\'speople。Theyweremade,Isuppose,outofrealpeoplehehadseenandwhohadforsomeobscurereasonmadeanappealtohim。Therewasawomanwithaswordinherhand,anoldmanwithalongwhitebeardwhowentaboutfollowedbyadog,ayounggirlwhosestock-
ingswerealwayscomingdownandhangingoverhershoetops。Theremusthavebeentwodozenoftheshadowpeople,inventedbythechild-mindofEnochRobinson,wholivedintheroomwithhim。
AndEnochwashappy。Intotheroomhewentandlockedthedoor。Withanabsurdairofimpor-
tancehetalkedaloud,givinginstructions,makingcommentsonlife。Hewashappyandsatisfiedtogoonmakinghislivingintheadvertisingplaceuntilsomethinghappened。Ofcoursesomethingdidhap-
pen。ThatiswhyhewentbacktoliveinWinesburgandwhyweknowabouthim。Thethingthathap-
penedwasawoman。Itwouldbethatway。Hewastoohappy。Somethinghadtocomeintohisworld。
SomethinghadtodrivehimoutoftheNewYorkroomtoliveouthislifeanobscure,jerkylittlefig-
ure,bobbingupanddownonthestreetsofanOhiotownateveningwhenthesunwasgoingdownbe-
hindtheroofofWesleyMoyer\'sliverybarn。
Aboutthethingthathappened。EnochtoldGeorgeWillardaboutitonenight。Hewantedtotalktosomeone,andhechosetheyoungnewspaperre-
porterbecausethetwohappenedtobethrownto-
getheratatimewhentheyoungermanwasinamoodtounderstand。
Youthfulsadness,youngman\'ssadness,thesad-
nessofagrowingboyinavillageattheyear\'send,openedthelipsoftheoldman。ThesadnesswasintheheartofGeorgeWillardandwaswithoutmean-
ing,butitappealedtoEnochRobinson。
Itrainedontheeveningwhenthetwometandtalked,adrizzlywetOctoberrain。Thefruitionoftheyearhadcomeandthenightshouldhavebeenfinewithamoonintheskyandthecrispsharppromiseoffrostintheair,butitwasn\'tthatway。
ItrainedandlittlepuddlesofwatershoneunderthestreetlampsonMainStreet。InthewoodsinthedarknessbeyondtheFairGroundwaterdrippedfromtheblacktrees。Beneaththetreeswetleaveswerepastedagainsttreerootsthatprotrudedfromtheground。IngardensbackofhousesinWinesburgdryshriveledpotatovineslaysprawlingontheground。Menwhohadfinishedtheeveningmealandwhohadplannedtogouptowntotalktheeve-
ningawaywithothermenatthebackofsomestorechangedtheirminds。GeorgeWillardtrampedaboutintherainandwasgladthatitrained。Hefeltthatway。HewaslikeEnochRobinsonontheeveningswhentheoldmancamedownoutofhisroomandwanderedaloneinthestreets。HewaslikethatonlythatGeorgeWillardhadbecomeatallyoungmananddidnotthinkitmanlytoweepandcarryon。
Foramonthhismotherhadbeenveryillandthathadsomethingtodowithhissadness,butnotmuch。Hethoughtabouthimselfandtotheyoungthatalwaysbringssadness。
EnochRobinsonandGeorgeWillardmetbeneathawoodenawningthatextendedoutovertheside-
walkbeforeVoight\'swagonshoponMaumeeStreetjustoffthemainstreetofWinesburg。Theywenttogetherfromtherethroughtherain-washedstreetstotheolderman\'sroomonthethirdflooroftheHeffnerBlock。Theyoungreporterwentwillinglyenough。EnochRobinsonaskedhimtogoafterthetwohadtalkedfortenminutes。Theboywasalittleafraidbuthadneverbeenmorecuriousinhislife。
Ahundredtimeshehadheardtheoldmanspokenofasalittleoffhisheadandhethoughthimselfratherbraveandmanlytogoatall。Fromtheverybeginning,inthestreetintherain,theoldmantalkedinaqueerway,tryingtotellthestoryoftheroominWashingtonSquareandofhislifeintheroom。\"You\'llunderstandifyoutryhardenough,\"
hesaidconclusively。\"IhavelookedatyouwhenyouwentpastmeonthestreetandIthinkyoucanunderstand。Itisn\'thard。AllyouhavetodoistobelievewhatIsay,justlistenandbelieve,that\'sallthereistoit。\"
Itwaspasteleveno\'clockthateveningwhenoldEnoch,talkingtoGeorgeWillardintheroomintheHeffnerBlock,cametothevitalthing,thestoryofthewomanandofwhatdrovehimoutofthecitytoliveouthislifealoneanddefeatedinWinesburg。
HesatonacotbythewindowwithhisheadinhishandandGeorgeWillardwasinachairbyatable。
Akerosenelampsatonthetableandtheroom,althoughalmostbareoffurniture,wasscrupulouslyclean。AsthemantalkedGeorgeWillardbegantofeelthathewouldliketogetoutofthechairandsitonthecotalso。Hewantedtoputhisarmsaboutthelittleoldman。Inthehalfdarknessthemantalkedandtheboylistened,filledwithsadness。
\"Shegottocominginthereaftertherehadn\'tbeenanyoneintheroomforyears,\"saidEnochRobinson。\"Shesawmeinthehallwayofthehouseandwegotacquainted。Idon\'tknowjustwhatshedidinherownroom。Ineverwentthere。Ithinkshewasamusicianandplayedaviolin。EverynowandthenshecameandknockedatthedoorandI
openedit。Inshecameandsatdownbesideme,justsatandlookedaboutandsaidnothing。Anyway,shesaidnothingthatmattered。\"
Theoldmanarosefromthecotandmovedabouttheroom。Theovercoatheworewaswetfromtherainanddropsofwaterkeptfallingwithasoftthumponthefloor。WhenheagainsatuponthecotGeorgeWillardgotoutofthechairandsatbesidehim。
\"Ihadafeelingabouther。Shesatthereintheroomwithmeandshewastoobigfortheroom。I
feltthatshewasdrivingeverythingelseaway。Wejusttalkedoflittlethings,butIcouldn\'tsitstill。I
wantedtotouchherwithmyfingersandtokissher。Herhandsweresostrongandherfacewassogoodandshelookedatmeallthetime。\"
Thetremblingvoiceoftheoldmanbecamesilentandhisbodyshookasfromachill。\"Iwasafraid,\"
hewhispered。\"Iwasterriblyafraid。Ididn\'twanttolethercomeinwhensheknockedatthedoorbutIcouldn\'tsitstill。\'No,no,\'Isaidtomyself,butIgotupandopenedthedoorjustthesame。Shewassogrownup,yousee。Shewasawoman。I
thoughtshewouldbebiggerthanIwasthereinthatroom。\"
EnochRobinsonstaredatGeorgeWillard,hischildlikeblueeyesshininginthelamplight。Againheshivered。\"IwantedherandallthetimeIdidn\'twanther,\"heexplained。\"ThenIbegantotellheraboutmypeople,abouteverythingthatmeantany-
thingtome。Itriedtokeepquiet,tokeepmyselftomyself,butIcouldn\'t。IfeltjustasIdidaboutopen-
ingthedoor。SometimesIachedtohavehergoawayandnevercomebackanymore。\"
Theoldmansprangtohisfeetandhisvoiceshookwithexcitement。\"Onenightsomethinghap-
pened。IbecamemadtomakeherunderstandmeandtoknowwhatabigthingIwasinthatroom。I
wantedhertoseehowimportantIwas。Itoldheroverandover。Whenshetriedtogoaway,Iranandlockedthedoor。Ifollowedherabout。Italkedandtalkedandthenallofasuddenthingswenttosmash。AlookcameintohereyesandIknewshedidunderstand。Maybeshehadunderstoodallthetime。Iwasfurious。Icouldn\'tstandit。Iwantedhertounderstandbut,don\'tyousee,Icouldn\'tletherunderstand。Ifeltthatthenshewouldknowevery-
thing,thatIwouldbesubmerged,drownedout,yousee。That\'showitis。Idon\'tknowwhy。\"
Theoldmandroppedintoachairbythelampandtheboylistened,filledwithawe。\"Goaway,boy,\"saidtheman。\"Don\'tstayherewithmeanymore。Ithoughtitmightbeagoodthingtotellyoubutitisn\'t。Idon\'twanttotalkanymore。Goaway。\"
GeorgeWillardshookhisheadandanoteofcom-
mandcameintohisvoice。\"Don\'tstopnow。Tellmetherestofit,\"hecommandedsharply。\"Whathappened?Tellmetherestofthestory。\"
EnochRobinsonsprangtohisfeetandrantothewindowthatlookeddownintothedesertedmainstreetofWinesburg。GeorgeWillardfollowed。Bythewindowthetwostood,thetallawkwardboy-
manandthelittlewrinkledman-boy。Thechildish,eagervoicecarriedforwardthetale。\"Isworeather,\"heexplained。\"Isaidvilewords。Iorderedhertogoawayandnottocomeback。Oh,Isaidterriblethings。AtfirstshepretendednottounderstandbutIkeptatit。Iscreamedandstampedonthefloor。I
madethehouseringwithmycurses。Ididn\'twantevertoseeheragainandIknew,aftersomeofthethingsIsaid,thatIneverwouldseeheragain。\"
Theoldman\'svoicebrokeandheshookhishead。
\"Thingswenttosmash,\"hesaidquietlyandsadly。
\"Outshewentthroughthedoorandallthelifetherehadbeenintheroomfollowedherout。Shetookallofmypeopleaway。Theyallwentoutthroughthedoorafterher。That\'sthewayitwas。\"
GeorgeWillardturnedandwentoutofEnochRobinson\'sroom。Inthedarknessbythewindow,ashewentthroughthedoor,hecouldhearthethinoldvoicewhimperingandcomplaining。\"I\'malone,allalonehere,\"saidthevoice。\"ItwaswarmandfriendlyinmyroombutnowI\'mallalone。\"
ANAWAKENING
BELLECARPENTERhadadarkskin,greyeyes,andthicklips。Shewastallandstrong。Whenblackthoughtsvisitedhershegrewangryandwishedshewereamanandcouldfightsomeonewithherfists。
SheworkedinthemillineryshopkeptbyMrs。KateMcHughandduringthedaysattrimminghatsbyawindowattherearofthestore。Shewasthedaugh-
terofHenryCarpenter,bookkeeperintheFirstNa-
tionalBankofWinesburg,andlivedwithhiminagloomyoldhousefaroutattheendofBuckeyeStreet。Thehousewassurroundedbypinetreesandtherewasnograssbeneaththetrees。Arustytineaves-troughhadslippedfromitsfasteningsatthebackofthehouseandwhenthewindblewitbeatagainsttheroofofasmallshed,makingadismaldrummingnoisethatsometimespersistedallthroughthenight。
WhenshewasayounggirlHenryCarpentermadelifealmostunbearableforBelle,butassheemergedfromgirlhoodintowomanhoodhelosthispoweroverher。Thebookkeeper\'slifewasmadeupofinnumerablelittlepettinesses。Whenhewenttothebankinthemorninghesteppedintoaclosetandputonablackalpacacoatthathadbecomeshabbywithage。Atnightwhenhereturnedtohishomehedonnedanotherblackalpacacoat。Everyeveninghepressedtheclothesworninthestreets。
Hehadinventedanarrangementofboardsforthepurpose。Thetrouserstohisstreetsuitwereplacedbetweentheboardsandtheboardswereclampedtogetherwithheavyscrews。Inthemorninghewipedtheboardswithadampclothandstoodthemuprightbehindthediningroomdoor。Iftheyweremovedduringthedayhewasspeechlesswithangeranddidnotrecoverhisequilibriumforaweek。
Thebankcashierwasalittlebullyandwasafraidofhisdaughter。She,herealized,knewthestoryofhisbrutaltreatmentofhermotherandhatedhimforit。Onedayshewenthomeatnoonandcarriedahandfulofsoftmud,takenfromtheroad,intothehouse。Withthemudshesmearedthefaceoftheboardsusedforthepressingoftrousersandthenwentbacktoherworkfeelingrelievedandhappy。
BelleCarpenteroccasionallywalkedoutintheeveningwithGeorgeWillard。Secretlyshelovedan-
otherman,butherloveaffair,aboutwhichnooneknew,causedhermuchanxiety。ShewasinlovewithEdHandby,bartenderinEdGriffith\'sSaloon,andwentaboutwiththeyoungreporterasakindofrelieftoherfeelings。ShedidnotthinkthatherstationinlifewouldpermithertobeseeninthecompanyofthebartenderandwalkedaboutunderthetreeswithGeorgeWillardandlethimkisshertorelievealongingthatwasveryinsistentinhernature。Shefeltthatshecouldkeeptheyoungermanwithinbounds。AboutEdHandbyshewassomewhatuncertain。
Handby,thebartender,wasatall,broad-shoulderedmanofthirtywholivedinaroomupstairsaboveGriffith\'ssaloon。Hisfistswerelargeandhiseyesunusuallysmall,buthisvoice,asthoughstrivingtoconcealthepowerbackofhisfists,wassoftandquiet。
Attwenty-fivethebartenderhadinheritedalargefarmfromanuncleinIndiana。Whensold,thefarmbroughtineightthousanddollars,whichEdspentinsixmonths。GoingtoSandusky,onLakeErie,hebegananorgyofdissipation,thestoryofwhichafterwardfilledhishometownwithawe。Hereandtherehewentthrowingthemoneyabout,drivingcarriagesthroughthestreets,givingwinepartiestocrowdsofmenandwomen,playingcardsforhighstakesandkeepingmistresseswhosewardrobescosthimhundredsofdollars。OnenightataresortcalledCedarPoint,hegotintoafightandranamucklikeawildthing。WithhisfisthebrokealargemirrorinthewashroomofahotelandlaterwentaboutsmashingwindowsandbreakingchairsindancehallsforthejoyofhearingtheglassrattleonthefloorandseeingtheterrorintheeyesofclerkswhohadcomefromSanduskytospendtheeveningattheresortwiththeirsweethearts。
TheaffairbetweenEdHandbyandBelleCarpen-
teronthesurfaceamountedtonothing。Hehadsuc-
ceededinspendingbutoneeveninginhercompany。
OnthateveninghehiredahorseandbuggyatWes-
leyMoyer\'sliverybarnandtookherforadrive。
Theconvictionthatshewasthewomanhisnaturedemandedandthathemustgethersettleduponhimandhetoldherofhisdesires。Thebartenderwasreadytomarryandtobegintryingtoearnmoneyforthesupportofhiswife,butsosimplewashisnaturethathefounditdifficulttoexplainhisintentions。Hisbodyachedwithphysicallongingandwithhisbodyheexpressedhimself。Takingthemillinerintohisarmsandholdinghertightlyinspiteofherstruggles,hekissedheruntilshebecamehelpless。Thenhebroughtherbacktotownandletheroutofthebuggy。\"WhenIgetholdofyouagainI\'llnotletyougo。Youcan\'tplaywithme,\"hede-
claredasheturnedtodriveaway。Then,jumpingoutofthebuggy,hegrippedhershoulderswithhisstronghands。\"I\'llkeepyouforgoodthenexttime,\"
hesaid。\"Youmightaswellmakeupyourmindtothat。It\'syouandmeforitandI\'mgoingtohaveyoubeforeIgetthrough。\"
OnenightinJanuarywhentherewasanewmoonGeorgeWillard,whowasinEdHandby\'smindtheonlyobstacletohisgettingBelleCarpenter,wentforawalk。EarlythateveningGeorgewentintoRansomSurbeck\'spoolroomwithSethRichmondandArtWilson,sonofthetownbutcher。SethRichmondstoodwithhisbackagainstthewallandremainedsilent,butGeorgeWillardtalked。ThepoolroomwasfilledwithWinesburgboysandtheytalkedofwomen。Theyoungreportergotintothatvein。Hesaidthatwomenshouldlookoutforthemselves,thatthefellowwhowentoutwithagirlwasnotresponsibleforwhathappened。Ashetalkedhelookedabout,eagerforattention。HeheldthefloorforfiveminutesandthenArtWilsonbegantotalk。
Artwaslearningthebarber\'stradeinCalProuse\'sshopandalreadybegantoconsiderhimselfanau-
thorityinsuchmattersasbaseball,horseracing,drinking,andgoingaboutwithwomen。HebegantotellofanightwhenhewithtwomenfromWines-
burgwentintoahouseofprostitutionatthecountyseat。Thebutcher\'ssonheldacigarinthesideofhismouthandashetalkedspatonthefloor。\"Thewomenintheplacecouldn\'tembarrassmealthoughtheytriedhardenough,\"heboasted。\"Oneofthegirlsinthehousetriedtogetfresh,butIfooledher。
AssoonasshebegantotalkIwentandsatinherlap。EveryoneintheroomlaughedwhenIkissedher。Itaughthertoletmealone。\"
GeorgeWillardwentoutofthepoolroomandintoMainStreet。FordaystheweatherhadbeenbittercoldwithahighwindblowingdownonthetownfromLakeErie,eighteenmilestothenorth,butonthatnightthewindhaddiedawayandanewmoonmadethenightunusuallylovely。With-
outthinkingwherehewasgoingorwhathewantedtodo,GeorgewentoutofMainStreetandbeganwalkingindimlylightedstreetsfilledwithframehouses。
Outofdoorsundertheblackskyfilledwithstarsheforgothiscompanionsofthepoolroom。Becauseitwasdarkandhewasalonehebegantotalkaloud。
Inaspiritofplayhereeledalongthestreetimitatingadrunkenmanandthenimaginedhimselfasoldiercladinshiningbootsthatreachedtothekneesandwearingaswordthatjingledashewalked。Asasoldierhepicturedhimselfasaninspector,passingbeforealonglineofmenwhostoodatattention。
Hebegantoexaminetheaccoutrementsofthemen。
Beforeatreehestoppedandbegantoscold。\"Yourpackisnotinorder,\"hesaidsharply。\"HowmanytimeswillIhavetospeakofthismatter?Everythingmustbeinorderhere。Wehaveadifficulttaskbe-
foreusandnodifficulttaskcanbedonewithoutorder。\"
Hypnotizedbyhisownwords,theyoungmanstumbledalongtheboardsidewalksayingmorewords。\"Thereisalawforarmiesandformentoo,\"
hemuttered,lostinreflection。\"Thelawbeginswithlittlethingsandspreadsoutuntilitcoversevery-
thing。Ineverylittlethingtheremustbeorder,intheplacewheremenwork,intheirclothes,intheirthoughts。Imyselfmustbeorderly。Imustlearnthatlaw。Imustgetmyselfintotouchwithsomethingorderlyandbigthatswingsthroughthenightlikeastar。InmylittlewayImustbegintolearnsome-
thing,togiveandswingandworkwithlife,withthelaw。\"
GeorgeWillardstoppedbyapicketfencenearastreetlampandhisbodybegantotremble。Hehadneverbeforethoughtsuchthoughtsashadjustcomeintohisheadandhewonderedwheretheyhadcomefrom。Forthemomentitseemedtohimthatsomevoiceoutsideofhimselfhadbeentalkingashewalked。Hewasamazedanddelightedwithhisownmindandwhenhewalkedonagainspokeofthematterwithfervor。\"TocomeoutofRansomSurbeck\'spoolroomandthinkthingslikethat,\"hewhispered。\"Itisbettertobealone。IfItalkedlikeArtWilsontheboyswouldunderstandmebuttheywouldn\'tunderstandwhatI\'vebeenthinkingdownhere。\"
InWinesburg,asinallOhiotownsoftwentyyearsago,therewasasectioninwhichliveddaylaborers。Asthetimeoffactorieshadnotyetcome,thelaborersworkedinthefieldsorweresectionhandsontherailroads。Theyworkedtwelvehoursadayandreceivedonedollarforthelongdayoftoil。Thehousesinwhichtheylivedweresmallcheaplyconstructedwoodenaffairswithagardenattheback。Themorecomfortableamongthemkeptcowsandperhapsapig,housedinalittleshedattherearofthegarden。
Withhisheadfilledwithresoundingthoughts,GeorgeWillardwalkedintosuchastreetontheclearJanuarynight。Thestreetwasdimlylightedandinplacestherewasnosidewalk。Inthescenethatlayabouthimtherewassomethingthatexcitedhisal-
readyarousedfancy。Forayearhehadbeendevot-
ingallofhisoddmomentstothereadingofbooksandnowsometalehehadreadconcerningfifeinoldworldtownsofthemiddleagescamesharplybacktohismindsothathestumbledforwardwiththecuriousfeelingofonerevisitingaplacethathadbeenapartofsomeformerexistence。Onanimpulseheturnedoutofthestreetandwentintoalittledarkalleywaybehindtheshedsinwhichlivedthecowsandpigs。
Forahalfhourhestayedinthealleyway,smellingthestrongsmellofanimalstoocloselyhousedandlettinghismindplaywiththestrangenewthoughtsthatcametohim。Theveryranknessofthesmellofmanureintheclearsweetairawokesomethingheadyinhisbrain。Thepoorlittlehouseslightedbykerosenelamps,thesmokefromthechimneysmountingstraightupintotheclearair,thegruntingofpigs,thewomencladincheapcalicodressesandwashingdishesinthekitchens,thefootstepsofmencomingoutofthehousesandgoingofftothestoresandsaloonsofMainStreet,thedogsbarkingandthechildrencrying——allofthesethingsmadehimseem,ashelurkedinthedarkness,oddlydetachedandapartfromalllife。
Theexcitedyoungman,unabletobeartheweightofhisownthoughts,begantomovecautiouslyalongthealleyway。Adogattackedhimandhadtobedrivenawaywithstones,andamanappearedatthedoorofoneofthehousesandsworeatthedog。
Georgewentintoavacantlotandthrowingbackhisheadlookedupatthesky。Hefeltunutterablybigandremadebythesimpleexperiencethroughwhichhehadbeenpassingandinakindoffervorofemo-
tionputuphishands,thrustingthemintothedark-
nessabovehisheadandmutteringwords。Thedesiretosaywordsovercamehimandhesaidwordswithoutmeaning,rollingthemoveronhistongueandsayingthembecausetheywerebravewords,fullofmeaning。\"Death,\"hemuttered,night,thesea,fear,loveliness。\"
GeorgeWillardcameoutofthevacantlotandstoodagainonthesidewalkfacingthehouses。Hefeltthatallofthepeopleinthelittlestreetmustbebrothersandsisterstohimandhewishedhehadthecouragetocallthemoutoftheirhousesandtoshaketheirhands。\"IftherewereonlyawomanhereIwouldtakeholdofherhandandwewouldrununtilwewerebothtiredout,\"hethought。\"Thatwouldmakemefeelbetter。\"WiththethoughtofawomaninhismindhewalkedoutofthestreetandwenttowardthehousewhereBelleCarpenterlived。
Hethoughtshewouldunderstandhismoodandthathecouldachieveinherpresenceapositionhehadlongbeenwantingtoachieve。Inthepastwhenhehadbeenwithherandhadkissedherlipshehadcomeawayfilledwithangerathimself。Hehadfeltlikeonebeingusedforsomeobscurepurposeandhadnotenjoyedthefeeling。Nowhethoughthehadsuddenlybecometoobigtobeused。
WhenGeorgegottoBelleCarpenter\'shousetherehadalreadybeenavisitortherebeforehim。EdHandbyhadcometothedoorandcallingBelleoutofthehousehadtriedtotalktoher。Hehadwantedtoaskthewomantocomeawaywithhimandtobehiswife,butwhenshecameandstoodbythedoorhelosthisself-assuranceandbecamesullen。\"Youstayawayfromthatkid,\"hegrowled,thinkingofGeorgeWillard,andthen,notknowingwhatelsetosay,turnedtogoaway。\"IfIcatchyoutogetherI
willbreakyourbonesandhistoo,\"headded。Thebartenderhadcometowoo,nottothreaten,andwasangrywithhimselfbecauseofhisfailure。
WhenherloverhaddepartedBellewentindoorsandranhurriedlyupstairs。FromawindowattheupperpartofthehouseshesawEdHandbycrossthestreetandsitdownonahorseblockbeforethehouseofaneighbor。Inthedimlightthemansatmotionlessholdinghisheadinhishands。Shewasmadehappybythesight,andwhenGeorgeWillardcametothedoorshegreetedhimeffusivelyandhurriedlyputonherhat。Shethoughtthat,asshewalkedthroughthestreetswithyoungWillard,EdHandbywouldfollowandshewantedtomakehimsuffer。
ForanhourBelleCarpenterandtheyoungre-
porterwalkedaboutunderthetreesinthesweetnightair。GeorgeWillardwasfullofbigwords。Thesenseofpowerthathadcometohimduringthehourinthedarknessinthealleywayremainedwithhimandhetalkedboldly,swaggeringalongandswinginghisarmsabout。HewantedtomakeBelleCarpenterrealizethathewasawareofhisformerweaknessandthathehadchanged。\"You\'llfindmedifferent,\"hedeclared,thrustinghishandsintohispocketsandlookingboldlyintohereyes。\"Idon\'tknowwhybutitisso。You\'vegottotakemeforamanorletmealone。That\'showitis。\"
Upanddownthequietstreetsunderthenewmoonwentthewomanandtheboy。WhenGeorgehadfinishedtalkingtheyturneddownasidestreetandwentacrossabridgeintoapaththatranupthesideofahill。ThehillbeganatWaterworksPondandclimbedupwardtotheWinesburgFairGrounds。Onthehillsidegrewdensebushesandsmalltreesandamongthebusheswerelittleopenspacescarpetedwithlonggrass,nowstiffandfrozen。
AshewalkedbehindthewomanupthehillGeorgeWillard\'sheartbegantobeatrapidlyandhisshouldersstraightened。SuddenlyhedecidedthatBelleCarpenterwasabouttosurrenderherselftohim。Thenewforcethathadmanifesteditselfinhimhad,hefelt,beenatworkuponherandhadledtoherconquest。Thethoughtmadehimhalfdrunkwiththesenseofmasculinepower。Althoughhehadbeenannoyedthatastheywalkedaboutshehadnotseemedtobelisteningtohiswords,thefactthatshehadaccompaniedhimtothisplacetookallhisdoubtsaway。\"Itisdifferent。Everythinghasbecomedifferent,\"hethoughtandtakingholdofhershoulderturnedheraboutandstoodlookingather,hiseyesshiningwithpride。
BelleCarpenterdidnotresist。Whenhekissedheruponthelipssheleanedheavilyagainsthimandlookedoverhisshoulderintothedarkness。Inherwholeattitudetherewasasuggestionofwaiting。
Again,asinthealleyway,GeorgeWillard\'smindranoffintowordsand,holdingthewomantightlyhewhisperedthewordsintothestillnight。\"Lust,\"
hewhispered,\"lustandnightandwomen。\"
GeorgeWillarddidnotunderstandwhathap-
penedtohimthatnightonthehillside。Later,whenhegottohisownroom,hewantedtoweepandthengrewhalfinsanewithangerandhate。HehatedBelleCarpenterandwassurethatallhislifehewouldcontinuetohateher。Onthehillsidehehadledthewomantooneofthelittleopenspacesamongthebushesandhaddroppedtohiskneesbesideher。Asinthevacantlot,bythelaborers\'
houses,hehadputuphishandsingratitudeforthenewpowerinhimselfandwaswaitingforthewomantospeakwhenEdHandbyappeared。
Thebartenderdidnotwanttobeattheboy,whohethoughthadtriedtotakehiswomanaway。Heknewthatbeatingwasunnecessary,thathehadpowerwithinhimselftoaccomplishhispurposewithoutusinghisfists。GrippingGeorgebytheshoulderandpullinghimtohisfeet,heheldhimwithonehandwhilehelookedatBelleCarpenterseatedonthegrass。Thenwithaquickwidemove-
mentofhisarmhesenttheyoungermansprawlingawayintothebushesandbegantobullythewoman,whohadrisentoherfeet。\"You\'renogood,\"hesaidroughly。\"I\'vehalfamindnottobotherwithyou。I\'dletyoualoneifIdidn\'twantyousomuch。\"
OnhishandsandkneesinthebushesGeorgeWillardstaredatthescenebeforehimandtriedhardtothink。Hepreparedtospringatthemanwhohadhumiliatedhim。Tobebeatenseemedtobeinfinitelybetterthantobethushurledignominiouslyaside。
ThreetimestheyoungreportersprangatEdHandbyandeachtimethebartender,catchinghimbytheshoulder,hurledhimbackintothebushes。
TheoldermanseemedpreparedtokeeptheexercisegoingindefinitelybutGeorgeWillard\'sheadstrucktherootofatreeandhelaystill。ThenEdHandbytookBelleCarpenterbythearmandmarchedheraway。
Georgeheardthemanandwomanmakingtheirwaythroughthebushes。Ashecreptdownthehill-
sidehisheartwassickwithinhim。Hehatedhimselfandhehatedthefatethathadbroughtabouthishumiliation。Whenhismindwentbacktothehouraloneinthealleywayhewaspuzzledandstoppinginthedarknesslistened,hopingtohearagainthevoiceoutsidehimselfthathadsoshortatimebeforeputnewcourageintohisheart。Whenhiswayhomewardledhimagainintothestreetofframehouseshecouldnotbearthesightandbegantorun,wantingtogetquicklyoutoftheneighborhoodthatnowseemedtohimutterlysqualidandcommonplace。
\"QUEER\"
FROMHISSEATonaboxintheroughboardshedthatstucklikeaburrontherearofCowley&Son\'sstoreinWinesburg,ElmerCowley,thejuniormemberofthefirm,couldseethroughadirtywindowintotheprintshopoftheWinesburgEagle。Elmerwasputtingnewshoelacesinhisshoes。Theydidnotgoinreadilyandhehadtotaketheshoesoff。Withtheshoesinhishandhesatlookingatalargeholeintheheelofoneofhisstockings。ThenlookingquicklyuphesawGeorgeWillard,theonlynewspa-
perreporterinWinesburg,standingatthebackdooroftheEagleprintshopandstaringabsentmindedlyabout。\"Well,well,whatnext!\"exclaimedtheyoungmanwiththeshoesinhishand,jumpingtohisfeetandcreepingawayfromthewindow。
AflushcreptintoElmerCowley\'sfaceandhishandsbegantotremble。InCowley&Son\'sstoreaJewishtravelingsalesmanstoodbythecountertalk-
ingtohisfather。Heimaginedthereportercouldhearwhatwasbeingsaidandthethoughtmadehimfurious。Withoneoftheshoesstillheldinhishandhestoodinacorneroftheshedandstampedwithastockingedfootupontheboardfloor。
Cowley&Son\'sstoredidnotfacethemainstreetofWinesburg。ThefrontwasonMaumeeStreetandbeyonditwasVoight\'swagonshopandashedfortheshelteringoffarmers\'horses。Besidethestoreanalleywayranbehindthemainstreetstoresandalldaydraysanddeliverywagons,intentonbringinginandtakingoutgoods,passedupanddown。Thestoreitselfwasindescribable。WillHendersononcesaidofitthatitsoldeverythingandnothing。InthewindowfacingMaumeeStreetstoodachunkofcoalaslargeasanapplebarrel,toindicatethatordersforcoalweretaken,andbesidetheblackmassofthecoalstoodthreecombsofhoneygrownbrownanddirtyintheirwoodenframes。
Thehoneyhadstoodinthestorewindowforsixmonths。Itwasforsaleaswerealsothecoathang-
ers,patentsuspenderbuttons,cansofroofpaint,bottlesofrheumatismcure,andasubstituteforcof-
feethatcompanionedthehoneyinitspatientwill-
ingnesstoservethepublic。
EbenezerCowley,themanwhostoodinthestorelisteningtotheeagerpatterofwordsthatfellfromthelipsofthetravelingman,wastallandleanandlookedunwashed。Onhisscrawnyneckwasalargewenpartiallycoveredbyagreybeard。HeworealongPrinceAlbertcoat。Thecoathadbeenpur-
chasedtoserveasaweddinggarment。BeforehebecameamerchantEbenezerwasafarmerandafterhismarriageheworethePrinceAlbertcoattochurchonSundaysandonSaturdayafternoonswhenhecameintotowntotrade。Whenhesoldthefarmtobecomeamerchantheworethecoatconstantly。Ithadbecomebrownwithageandwascoveredwithgreasespots,butinitEbenezeralwaysfeltdressedupandreadyforthedayintown。
AsamerchantEbenezerwasnothappilyplacedinlifeandhehadnotbeenhappilyplacedasafarmer。Stillheexisted。Hisfamily,consistingofadaughternamedMabelandtheson,livedwithhiminroomsabovethestoreanditdidnotcostthemmuchtolive。Histroubleswerenotfinancial。Hisunhappinessasamerchantlayinthefactthatwhenatravelingmanwithwarestobesoldcameinatthefrontdoorhewasafraid。Behindthecounterhestoodshakinghishead。Hewasafraid,firstthathewouldstubbornlyrefusetobuyandthuslosetheopportunitytosellagain;secondthathewouldnotbestubbornenoughandwouldinamomentofweaknessbuywhatcouldnotbesold。
InthestoreonthemorningwhenElmerCowleysawGeorgeWillardstandingandapparentlylis-
teningatthebackdooroftheEagleprintshop,asituationhadarisenthatalwaysstirredtheson\'swrath。ThetravelingmantalkedandEbenezerlis-
tened,hiswholefigureexpressinguncertainty。\"Youseehowquicklyitisdone,\"saidthetravelingman,whohadforsaleasmallflatmetalsubstituteforcollarbuttons。Withonehandhequicklyunfastenedacollarfromhisshirtandthenfasteneditonagain。
Heassumedaflatteringwheedlingtone。\"Itellyouwhat,menhavecometotheendofallthisfoolingwithcollarbuttonsandyouarethemantomakemoneyoutofthechangethatiscoming。Iamoffer-
ingyoutheexclusiveagencyforthistown。TaketwentydozenofthesefastenersandI\'llnotvisitanyotherstore。I\'llleavethefieldtoyou。\"
ThetravelingmanleanedoverthecounterandtappedwithhisfingeronEbenezer\'sbreast。\"It\'sanopportunityandIwantyoutotakeit,\"heurged。
\"Afriendofminetoldmeaboutyou。\'SeethatmanCowley,\'hesaid。\'He\'saliveone。\'\"
Thetravelingmanpausedandwaited。Takingabookfromhispockethebeganwritingouttheorder。StillholdingtheshoeinhishandElmerCow-
leywentthroughthestore,pastthetwoabsorbedmen,toaglassshowcasenearthefrontdoor。Hetookacheaprevolverfromthecaseandbegantowaveitabout。\"Yougetoutofhere!\"heshrieked。
\"Wedon\'twantanycollarfastenershere。\"Anideacametohim。\"Mind,I\'mnotmakinganythreat,\"
headded。\"Idon\'tsayI\'llshoot。MaybeIjusttookthisgunoutofthecasetolookatit。Butyoubettergetout。Yessir,I\'llsaythat。Youbettergrabupyourthingsandgetout。\"
Theyoungstorekeeper\'svoicerosetoascreamandgoingbehindthecounterhebegantoadvanceuponthetwomen。\"We\'rethroughbeingfoolshere!\"hecried。\"Weain\'tgoingtobuyanymorestuffuntilwebegintosell。Weain\'tgoingtokeeponbeingqueerandhavefolksstaringandlistening。