第9章

类别:其他 作者:Charles Brockden Brown字数:14107更新时间:18/12/14 15:58:59
Ihavealreadysaid,thattheentranceintothisclosetwasbesidemybed,which,ontwosides,wascloselyshrowdedbycurtains。Onthatsidenearestthecloset,thecurtainwasraised。AsIpassedalongIcastmyeyethither。Istarted,andlookedagain。Iborealightinmyhand,andbroughtitnearermyeyes,inordertodispelanyillusivemiststhatmighthavehoveredbeforethem。OncemoreIfixedmyeyesuponthebed,inhopethatthismorestedfastscrutinywouldannihilatetheobjectwhichbeforeseemedtobethere。 ThisthenwasthesightwhichCarwinhadpredicted!Thiswastheeventwhichmyunderstandingwastofindinexplicable!Thiswasthefatewhichhadbeenreservedforme,butwhich,bysomeuntowardchance,hadbefallenonanother! Ihadnotbeenterrifiedbyemptymenaces。Violationanddeathawaitedmyentranceintothischamber。SomeinscrutablechancehadledHERhitherbeforeme,andthemercilessfangsofwhichIwasdesignedtobetheprey,hadmistakentheirvictim,andhadfixedthemselvesinHERheart。Butwherewasmysafety?Wasthemischiefexhaustedorflown?Thestepsoftheassassinhadjustbeenhere;theycouldnotbefaroff; inamomenthewouldrushintomypresence,andIshouldperishunderthesamepollutingandsuffocatinggrasp! Myframeshook,andmykneeswereunabletosupportme。I gazedalternatelyattheclosetdoorandatthedoorofmyroom。 Atoneoftheseavenueswouldentertheexterminatorofmyhonorandmylife。Iwaspreparedfordefence;butnowthatdangerwasimminent,mymeansofdefence,andmypowertousethemweregone。Iwasnotqualified,byeducationandexperience,toencounterperilslikethese:or,perhaps,IwaspowerlessbecauseIwasagainassaultedbysurprize,andhadnotfortifiedmymindbyforesightandpreviousreflectionagainstascenelikethis。 Fearsformyownsafetyagainyieldedplacetoreflectionsonthescenebeforeme。Ifixedmyeyesuponhercountenance。Mysister\'swell-knownandbelovedfeaturescouldnotbeconcealedbyconvulsionorlividness。Whatdirefulillusionledtheehither?Bereftofthee,whatholdonhappinessremainstothyoffspringandthyspouse?Tolosetheebyacommonfatewouldhavebeensufficientlyhard;butthussuddenlytoperish——tobecomethepreyofthisghastlydeath!HowwillaspectaclelikethisbeenduredbyWieland?Todiebeneathhisgraspwouldnotsatisfythyenemy。Thiswasmercytotheevilswhichhepreviouslymadetheesuffer!Aftertheseevilsdeathwasaboonwhichthoubesoughtesthimtogrant。Heentertainednoenmityagainstthee:Iwastheobjectofhistreason;butbysometremendousmistakehisfurywasmisplaced。Buthowcomestthouhither?andwherewasWielandinthyhourofdistress? Iapproachedthecorpse:Iliftedthestillflexiblehand,andkissedthelipswhichwerebreathless。Herflowingdraperywasdiscomposed。Irestoredittoorder,andseatingmyselfonthebed,againfixedstedfasteyesuponhercountenance。I cannotdistinctlyrecollecttheruminationsofthatmoment。I sawconfusedly,butforcibly,thateveryhopewasextinguishedwiththelifeofCATHARINE。AllhappinessanddignitymusthenceforthbebanishedfromthehouseandnameofWieland:allthatremainedwastolingeroutinagoniesashortexistence; andleavetotheworldamonumentofblastedhopesandchangeablefortune。Pleyelwasalreadylosttome;yet,whileCatharinelivedlifewasnotadetestablepossession:butnow,severedfromthecompanionofmyinfancy,thepartakerofallmythoughts,mycares,andmywishes,Iwaslikeonesetafloatuponastormysea,andhanginghissafetyuponaplank;nightwasclosinguponhim,andanunexpectedsurgehadtornhimfromhisholdandoverwhelmedhimforever。 ChapterXVII Ihadnoinclinationnorpowertomovefromthisspot。Formorethananhour,myfacultiesandlimbsseemedtobedeprivedofallactivity。Thedoorbelowcreakedonitshinges,andstepsascendedthestairs。Mywanderingandconfusedthoughtswereinstantlyrecalledbythesesounds,anddroppingthecurtainofthebed,Imovedtoapartoftheroomwhereanyonewhoenteredshouldbevisible;sucharethevibrationsofsentiment,thatnotwithstandingtheseemingfulfilmentofmyfears,andincreaseofmydanger,Iwasconscious,onthisoccasion,tonoturbulencebutthatofcuriosity。 Atlengthheenteredtheapartment,andIrecognizedmybrother。ItwasthesameWielandwhomIhadeverseen。Yethisfeatureswerepervadedbyanewexpression。Isupposedhimunacquaintedwiththefateofhiswife,andhisappearanceconfirmedthispersuasion。AbrowexpandingintoexultationI hadhithertoneverseeninhim,yetsuchabrowdidhenowwear。 Notonlywasheunapprizedofthedisasterthathadhappened,butsomejoyousoccurrencehadbetided。Whatareversewaspreparingtoannihilatehistransitorybliss!Nohusbandeverdoatedmorefondly,fornowifeeverclaimedsoboundlessadevotion。Iwasnotuncertainastotheeffectstoflowfromthediscoveryofherfate。Iconfidednotatallintheeffortsofhisreasonorhispiety。Therewerefewevilswhichhismodesofthinkingwouldnotdisarmoftheirsting;buthere,allopiatestogrief,andallcompellersofpatiencewerevain。 Thisspectaclewouldbeunavoidablyfollowedbytheoutragesofdesperation,andarushingtodeath。 Forthepresent,Ineglectedtoaskmyselfwhatmotivebroughthimhither。Iwasonlyfearfuloftheeffectstoflowfromthesightofthedead。Yetcoulditbelongconcealedfromhim?Sometimeandspeedilyhewouldobtainthisknowledge。Nostratagemscouldconsiderablyorusefullyprolonghisignorance。 Allthatcouldbesoughtwastotakeawaytheabruptnessofthechange,andshutouttheconfusionofdespair,andtheinroadsofmadness:butIknewmybrother,andknewthatallexertionstoconsolehimwouldbefruitless。 WhatcouldIsay?Iwasmute,andpouredforththosetearsonhisaccount,whichmyownunhappinesshadbeenunabletoextort。Inthemidstofmytears,Iwasnotunobservantofhismotions。Thesewereofanaturetorousesomeothersentimentthangriefor,atleast,tomixwithitaportionofastonishment。 Hiscountenancesuddenlybecametroubled。Hishandswereclaspedwithaforcethatlefttheprintofhisnailsinhisflesh。Hiseyeswerefixedonmyfeet。Hisbrainseemedtoswellbeyonditscontinent。Hedidnotceasetobreathe,buthisbreathwasstifledintogroans。Ihadneverwitnessedthehurricaneofhumanpassions。Myelementhad,tilllately,beenallsunshineandcalm。Iwasunconversantwiththealtitudesandenergiesofsentiment,andwastransfixedwithinexplicablehorrorbythesymptomswhichInowbeheld。 AfterasilenceandaconflictwhichIcouldnotinterpret,heliftedhiseyestoheaven,andinbrokenaccentsexclaimed,\"Thisistoomuch!Anyvictimbutthis,andthywillbedone。 HaveInotsufficientlyattestedmyfaithandmyobedience?Shethatisgone,theythathaveperished,werelinkedwithmysoulbytieswhichonlythycommandwouldhavebroken;buthereissanctityandexcellencesurpassinghuman。Thisworkmanshipisthine,anditcannotbethywilltoheapitintoruins。\" Heresuddenlyunclaspinghishands,hestruckoneofthemagainsthisforehead,andcontinued——\"Wretch!whomadetheequicksightedinthecouncilsofthyMaker?Deliverancefrommortalfettersisawardedtothisbeing,andthouarttheministerofthisdecree。\" Sosaying,Wielandadvancedtowardsme。Hiswordsandhismotionswerewithoutmeaning,exceptononesupposition。ThedeathofCatharinewasalreadyknowntohim,andthatknowledge,asmighthavebeensuspected,haddestroyedhisreason。Ihadfearednothingless;butnowthatIbeheldtheextinctionofamindthemostluminousandpenetratingthateverdignifiedthehumanform,mysensationswerefraughtwithnewandinsupportableanguish。 Ihadnottimetoreflectinwhatwaymyownsafetywouldbeeffectedbythisrevolution,orwhatIhadtodreadfromthewildconceptionsofamadman。Headvancedtowardsme。Somehollownoiseswerewaftedbythebreeze。Confusedclamoursweresucceededbymanyfeettraversingthegrass,andthencrowdingintOthepiazza。 Thesesoundssuspendedmybrother\'spurpose,andhestoodtolisten。Thesignalsmultipliedandgrewlouder;perceivingthis,heturnedfromme,andhurriedoutofmysight。Allaboutmewaspregnantwithmotivestoastonishment。Mysister\'scorpse,Wieland\'sfranticdemeanour,and,atlength,thiscrowdofvisitantssolittleaccordedwithmyforesight,thatmymentalprogresswasstopped。Theimpulsehadceasedwhichwasaccustomedtogivemotionandordertomythoughts。 Footstepsthrongeduponthestairs,andpresentlymanyfacesshewedthemselveswithinthedoorofmyapartment。Theselookswerefullofalarmandwatchfulness。Theypryedintocornersasifinsearchofsomefugitive;nexttheirgazewasfixeduponme,andbetokenedallthevehemenceofterrorandpity。ForatimeIquestionedwhetherthesewerenotshapesandfaceslikethatwhichIhadseenatthebottomofthestairs,creaturesofmyfancyorairyexistences。 Myeyewanderedfromonetoanother,tillatlengthitfellonacountenancewhichIwellknew。ItwasthatofMr。Hallet。 Thismanwasadistantkinsmanofmymother,venerableforhisage,hisuprightness,andsagacity。Hehadlongdischargedthefunctionsofamagistrateandgoodcitizen。Ifanyterrorsremained,hispresencewassufficienttodispelthem。 Heapproached,tookmyhandwithacompassionateair,andsaidinalowvoice,\"Where,mydearClara,areyourbrotherandsister?\"Imadenoanswer,butpointedtothebed。Hisattendantsdrewasidethecurtain,andwhiletheireyesglaredwithhorroratthespectaclewhichtheybeheld,thoseofMr。 Halletoverflowedwithtears。 Afterconsiderablepause,heoncemoreturnedtome。\"Mydeargirl,thissightisnotforyou。Canyouconfideinmycare,andthatofMrs。Baynton\'s?Wewillseeperformedallthatcircumstancesrequire。\" Imadestrenuousoppositiontothisrequest。Iinsistedonremainingnearhertillshewereinterred。Hisremonstrances,however,andmyownfeelings,shewedmetheproprietyofatemporarydereliction。Louisastoodinneedofacomforter,andmybrother\'schildrenofanurse。Myunhappybrotherwashimselfanobjectofsolicitudeandcare。Atlength,I consentedtorelinquishthecorpse,andgotomybrother\'s,whosehouse,Isaid,wouldneedmistress,andhischildrenaparent。 Duringthisdiscourse,myvenerablefriendstruggledwithhistears,butmylastintimationcalledthemforthwithfreshviolence。Meanwhile,hisattendantsstoodroundinmournfulsilence,gazingonmeandateachother。Irepeatedmyresolution,androsetoexecuteit;buthetookmyhandtodetainme。Hiscountenancebetrayedirresolutionandreluctance。Irequestedhimtostatethereasonofhisoppositiontothismeasure。Ientreatedhimtobeexplicit。I toldhimthatmybrotherhadjustbeenthere,andthatIknewhiscondition。Thismisfortunehaddrivenhimtomadness,andhisoffspringmustnotwantaprotector。Ifhechose,IwouldresignWielandtohiscare;buthisinnocentandhelplessbabesstoodininstantneedofnurseandmother,andtheseofficesI wouldbynomeansallowanothertoperformwhileIhadlife。 EverywordthatIutteredseemedtoaugmenthisperplexityanddistress。Atlasthesaid,\"Ithink,Clara,Ihaveentitledmyselftosomeregardfromyou。Youhaveprofessedyourwillingnesstoobligeme。NowIcalluponyoutoconferuponmethehighestobligationinyourpower。PermitMrs。Bayntontohavethemanagementofyourbrother\'shousefortwoorthreedays;thenitshallbeyourstoactinitasyouplease。Nomatterwhataremymotivesinmakingthisrequest:perhapsI thinkyourage,yoursex,orthedistresswhichthisdisastermustoccasion,incapacitatesyoufortheoffice。SurelyyouhavenodoubtofMrs。Baynton\'stendernessordiscretion。\" Newideasnowrushedintomymind。IfixedmyeyesstedfastlyonMr。Hallet。\"Aretheywell?\"saidI。\"IsLouisawell?AreBenjamin,andWilliam,andConstantine,andLittleClara,aretheysafe?Tellmetruly,Ibeseechyou!\" \"Theyarewell,\"hereplied;\"theyareperfectlysafe。\" \"Fearnoeffeminateweaknessinme:Icanbeartohearthetruth。Tellmetruly,aretheywell?\" Heagainassuredmethattheywerewell。 \"Whatthen,\"resumedI,\"doyoufear?Isitpossibleforanycalamitytodisqualifymeforperformingmydutytothesehelplessinnocents?IamwillingtodividethecareofthemwithMrs。Baynton;Ishallbegratefulforhersympathyandaid; butwhatshouldIbetodesertthematanhourlikethis!\" Iwillcutshortthisdistressfuldialogue。Istillpersistedinmypurpose,andhestillpersistedinhisopposition。Thisexcitedmysuspicionsanew;butthesewereremovedbysolemndeclarationsoftheirsafety。Icouldnotexplainthisconductinmyfriend;butatlengthconsentedtogotothecity,providedIshouldseethemforafewminutesatpresent,andshouldreturnonthemorrow。 Eventhisarrangementwasobjectedto。Atlengthhetoldmetheywereremovedtothecity。Whyweretheyremoved,Iasked,andwhither?Myimportunitieswouldnotnowbeeluded。Mysuspicionswereroused,andnoevasionorartificewassufficienttoallaythem。Manyoftheaudiencebegantogiveventtotheiremotionsintears。Mr。Hallethimselfseemedasiftheconflictweretoohardtobelongersustained。SomethingwhisperedtomyheartthathavochadbeenwiderthanInowwitnessed。Isuspectedthisconcealmenttoarisefromapprehensionsoftheeffectswhichaknowledgeofthetruthwouldproduceinme。Ioncemoreentreatedhimtoinformmetrulyoftheirstate。Toenforcemyentreaties,Iputonanairofinsensibility。\"Icanguess,\"saidI,\"whathashappened——Theyareindeedbeyondthereachofinjury,fortheyaredead!Isitnotso?\"Myvoicefalteredinspiteofmycourageousefforts。 \"Yes,\"saidhe,\"theyaredead!Deadbythesamefate,andbythesamehand,withtheirmother!\" \"Dead!\"repliedI;\"what,all?\" \"All!\"repliedhe:\"hesparedNOTONE!\" Allowme,myfriends,toclosemyeyesupontheafter-scene。 WhyshouldIprotractatalewhichIalreadybegintofeelistoolong?Overthissceneatleastletmepasslightly。Here,indeed,mynarrativewouldbeimperfect。Allwastempestuouscommotioninmyheartandinmybrain。Ihavenomemoryforoughtbutunconscioustransitionsandruefulsights。Iwasingeniousandindefatigableintheinventionoftorments。I wouldnotdispensewithanyspectacleadaptedtoexasperatemygrief。EachpaleandmangledformIcrushedtomybosom。 Louisa,whomIlovedwithsoineffableapassion,wasdeniedtomeatfirst,butmyobstinacyconqueredtheirreluctance。 Theyledthewayintoadarkenedhall。Alamppendantfromtheceilingwasuncovered,andtheypointedtoatable。Theassassinhaddefraudedmeofmylastandmiserableconsolation。 Isoughtnotinhervisage,forthetingeofthemorning,andthelustreofheaven。Thesehadvanishedwithlife;butIhopedforlibertytoprintalastkissuponherlips。Thiswasdeniedme;forsuchhadbeenthemercilessblowthatdestroyedher,thatnotaLINEAMENTREMAINED! Iwascarriedhencetothecity。Mrs。Halletwasmycompanionandmynurse。WhyshouldIdwellupontherageoffever,andtheeffusionsofdelirium?Carwinwasthephantomthatpursuedmydreams,thegiantoppressorunderwhosearmI wasforeveronthepointofbeingcrushed。Strenuousmuscleswererequiredtohindermyflight,andheartsofsteeltowithstandtheeloquenceofmyfears。InvainIcalleduponthemtolookupward,tomarkhissparklingrageandscowlingcontempt。AllIsoughtwastoflyfromthestrokethatwaslifted。ThenIheapeduponmyguardsthemostvehementreproaches,orbetookmyselftowailingsonthehaplessnessofmycondition。 Thismalady,atlength,declined,andmyweepingfriendsbegantolookformyrestoration。Slowly,andwithintermittedbeams,memoryrevisitedme。ThescenesthatIhadwitnessedwererevived,becamethethemeofdeliberationanddeduction,andcalledforththeeffusionsofmorerationalsorrow。 ChapterXVIII Ihadimperfectlyrecoveredmystrength,whenIwasinformedofthearrivalofmymother\'sbrother,ThomasCambridge。Tenyearssince,hewenttoEurope,andwasasurgeonintheBritishforcesinGermany,duringthewholeofthelatewar。Afteritsconclusion,someconnectionthathehadformedwithanIrishofficer,madehimretireintoIreland。Intercoursehadbeenpunctuallymaintainedbyletterswithhissister\'schildren,andhopesweregiventhathewouldshortlyreturntohisnativecountry,andpasshisoldageinoursociety。Hewasnowinanevilhourarrived。 Idesiredaninterviewwithhimfornumerousandurgentreasons。WiththefirstreturnsofmyunderstandingIhadanxiouslysoughtinformationofthefateofmybrother。DuringthecourseofmydiseaseIhadneverseenhim;andvagueandunsatisfactoryanswerswerereturnedtoallmyinquires。IhadvehementlyinterrogatedMrs。Halletandherhusband,andsolicitedaninterviewwiththisunfortunateman;buttheymysteriouslyinsinuatedthathisreasonwasstillunsettled,andthathiscircumstancesrenderedaninterviewimpossible。Theirreserveontheparticularsofthisdestruction,andtheauthorofit,wasequallyinvincible。 Forsometime,findingallmyeffortsfruitless,Ihaddesistedfromdirectinquiriesandsolicitations,determined,assoonasmystrengthwassufficientlyrenewed,topursueothermeansofdispellingmyuncertainty。Inthisstateofthingsmyuncle\'sarrivalandintentiontovisitmewereannounced。I almostshudderedtobeholdthefaceofthisman。WhenI reflectedonthedisastersthathadbefallenus,Iwashalfunwillingtowitnessthatdejectionandgriefwhichwouldbedisclosedinhiscountenance。ButIbelievedthatalltransactionshadbeenthoroughlydisclosedtohim,andconfidedinmyimportunitytoextortfromhimtheknowledgethatI sought。 Ihadnodoubtastothepersonofourenemy;butthemotivesthaturgedhimtoperpetratethesehorrors,themeansthatheused,andhispresentcondition,weretotallyunknown。Itwasreasonabletoexpectsomeinformationonthishead,frommyuncle。Ithereforewaitedhiscomingwithimpatience。Atlength,intheduskoftheevening,andinmysolitarychamber,thismeetingtookplace。 Thismanwasournearestrelation,andhadevertreateduswiththeaffectionofaparent。Ourmeeting,therefore,couldnotbewithoutoverflowingtendernessandgloomyjoy。HeratherencouragedthanrestrainedthetearsthatIpouredoutinhisarms,andtookuponhimselfthetaskofcomforter。Allusionstorecentdisasterscouldnotbelongomitted。Onetopicfacilitatedtheadmissionofanother。Atlength,ImentionedanddeploredtheignoranceinwhichIhadbeenkeptrespectingmybrother\'sdestiny,andthecircumstancesofourmisfortunes。 IentreatedhimtotellmewhatwasWieland\'scondition,andwhatprogresshadbeenmadeindetectingorpunishingtheauthorofthisunheard-ofdevastation。 \"Theauthor!\"saidhe;\"Doyouknowtheauthor?\" \"Alas!\"Ianswered,\"Iamtoowellacquaintedwithhim。Thestoryofthegroundsofmysuspicionswouldbepainfulandtoolong。Iamnotapprizedoftheextentofyourpresentknowledge。TherearenonebutWieland,Pleyel,andmyself,whoareabletorelatecertainfacts。\" \"Spareyourselfthepain,\"saidhe。\"AllthatWielandandPleyelcancommunicate,Iknowalready。Ifanythingofmomenthasfallenwithinyourownexclusiveknowledge,andtherelationbenottooarduousforyourpresentstrength,IconfessIamdesirousofhearingit。PerhapsyoualludetoonebythenameofCarwin。Iwillanticipateyourcuriositybysaying,thatsincethesedisasters,noonehasseenorheardofhim。Hisagencyis,therefore,amysterystillunsolved。\" Ireadilycompliedwithhisrequest,andrelatedasdistinctlyasIcould,thoughingeneralterms,theeventstransactedinthesummer-houseandmychamber。HelistenedwithoutapparentsurprizetothetaleofPleyel\'serrorsandsuspicions,andwithaugmentedseriousness,tomynarrativeofthewarningsandinexplicablevision,andtheletterfounduponthetable。Iwaitedforhiscomments。 \"Yougatherfromthis,\"saidhe,\"thatCarwinistheauthorofallthismisery。\" \"Isitnot,\"answeredI,\"anunavoidableinference?Butwhatknowyourespectingit?Wasitpossibletoexecutethismischiefwithoutwitnessorcoadjutor?Ibeseechyoutorelatetome,whenandwhyMr。Halletwassummonedtothescene,andbywhomthisdisasterwasfirstsuspectedordiscovered。Surely,suspicionmusthavefallenuponsomeone,andpursuitwasmade。\" Myunclerosefromhisseat,andtraversedthefloorwithhastysteps。Hiseyeswerefixedupontheground,andheseemedburiedinperplexity。Atlengthhepaused,andsaidwithanemphatictone,\"Itistrue;theinstrumentisknown。Carwinmayhaveplotted,buttheexecutionwasanother\'s。Thatotherisfound,andhisdeedisascertained。\" \"Goodheaven!\"Iexclaimed,\"whatsayyou?WasnotCarwintheassassin?Couldanyhandbuthishavecarriedintoactthisdreadfulpurpose?\" \"HaveInotsaid,\"returnedhe,\"thattheperformancewasanother\'s?Carwin,perhaps,orheaven,orinsanity,promptedthemurderer;butCarwinisunknown。Theactualperformerhas,longsince,beencalledtojudgmentandconvicted,andis,atthismoment,atthebottomofadungeonloadedwithchains。\" Iliftedmyhandsandeyes。\"Whothenisthisassassin?Bywhatmeans,andwhitherwashetraced?Whatisthetestimonyofhisguilt?\" \"Hisown,corroboratedwiththatofaservant-maidwhospiedthemurderofthechildrenfromaclosetwhereshewasconcealed。Themagistratereturnedfromyourdwellingtoyourbrother\'s。Hewasemployedinhearingandrecordingthetestimonyoftheonlywitness,whenthecriminalhimself,unexpected,unsolicited,unsought,enteredthehall,acknowledgedhisguilt,andrenderedhimselfuptojustice。 \"Hehassincebeensummonedtothebar。Theaudiencewascomposedofthousandswhomrumoursofthiswonderfuleventhadattractedfromthegreatestdistance。Alongandimpartialexaminationwasmade,andtheprisonerwascalleduponforhisdefence。Incompliancewiththiscallhedeliveredanamplerelationofhismotivesandactions。\"Therehestopped。 Ibesoughthimtosaywhothiscriminalwas,andwhattheinstigationsthatcompelledhim。Myunclewassilent。Iurgedthisinquirywithnewforce。Irevertedtomyownknowledge,andsoughtinthissomebasistoconjecture。IranoverthescantycatalogueofthemenwhomIknew;Ilightedonnoonewhowasqualifiedforministeringtomalicelikethis。AgainI resortedtoimportunity。HadIeverseenthecriminal?Wasitsheercruelty,ordiabolicalrevengethatproducedthisoverthrow? Hesurveyedme,foraconsiderabletime,andlistenedtomyinterrogationsinsilence。Atlengthhespoke:\"Clara,Ihaveknowntheebyreport,andinsomedegreebyobservation。Thouartabeingofnovulgarsort。Thyfriendshavehithertotreatedtheeasachild。Theymeantwell,but,perhaps,theywereunacquaintedwiththystrength。Iassuremyselfthatnothingwillsurpassthyfortitude。 \"Thouartanxioustoknowthedestroyerofthyfamily,hisactions,andhismotives。ShallIcallhimtothypresence,andpermithimtoconfessbeforethee?ShallImakehimthenarratorofhisowntale?\" Istartedonmyfeet,andlookedroundmewithfearfulglances,asifthemurdererwascloseathand。\"Whatdoyoumean?\"saidI;\"putanend,Ibeseechyou,tothissuspence。\" \"Benotalarmed;youwillnevermorebeholdthefaceofthiscriminal,unlesshebegiftedwithsupernaturalstrength,andseverlikethreadstheconstraintoflinksandbolts。Ihavesaidthattheassassinwasarraignedatthebar,andthatthetrialendedwithasummonsfromthejudgetoconfessortovindicatehisactions。Areplywasimmediatelymadewithsignificanceofgesture,andatranquilmajesty,whichdenotedlessofhumanitythangodhead。Judges,advocatesandauditorswerepanic-struckandbreathlesswithattention。Oneofthehearersfaithfullyrecordedthespeech。Thereitis,\"continuedhe,puttingarollofpapersinmyhand,\"youmayreaditatyourleisure。\" Withthesewordsmyuncleleftmealone。Mycuriosityrefusedmeamoment\'sdelay。Iopenedthepapers,andreadasfollows。 ChapterXIX \"TheodoreWieland,theprisoneratthebar,wasnowcalleduponforhisdefence。Helookedaroundhimforsometimeinsilence,andwithamildcountenance。Atlengthhespoke: \"Itisstrange;Iamknowntomyjudgesandmyauditors。WhoistherepresentastrangertothecharacterofWieland?whoknowshimnotasanhusband——asafather——asafriend?yethereamIarraignedascriminal。Iamchargedwithdiabolicalmalice;Iamaccusedofthemurderofmywifeandmychildren! \"Itistrue,theywereslainbyme;theyallperishedbymyhand。Thetaskofvindicationisignoble。WhatisitthatIamcalledtovindicate?andbeforewhom? \"Youknowthattheyaredead,andthattheywerekilledbyme。Whatmorewouldyouhave?Wouldyouextortfrommeastatementofmymotives?Haveyoufailedtodiscoverthemalready?Youchargemewithmalice;butyoureyesarenotshut; yourreasonisstillvigorous;yourmemoryhasnotforsakenyou。 Youknowwhomitisthatyouthuscharge。Thehabitsofhislifeareknowntoyou;histreatmentofhiswifeandhisoffspringisknowntoyou;thesoundnessofhisintegrity,andtheunchangeablenessofhisprinciples,arefamiliartoyourapprehension;yetyoupersistinthischarge!Youleadmehithermanacledasafelon;youdeemmeworthyofavileandtormentingdeath! \"WhoaretheywhomIhavedevotedtodeath?Mywife——thelittleones,thatdrewtheirbeingfromme——thatcreaturewho,asshesurpassedtheminexcellence,claimedalargeraffectionthanthosewhomnaturalaffinitiesboundtomyheart。Thinkyethatmalicecouldhaveurgedmetothisdeed?Hideyouraudaciousfrontsfromthescrutinyofheaven。Takerefugeinsomecavernunvisitedbyhumaneyes。Yemaydeploreyourwickednessorfolly,butyecannotexpiateit。 \"ThinknotthatIspeakforyoursakes。Hugtoyourheartsthisdetestableinfatuation。Deemmestillamurderer,anddragmetountimelydeath。Imakenotanefforttodispelyourillusion:Iutternotawordtocureyouofyoursanguinaryfolly:butthereareprobablysomeinthisassemblywhohavecomefromfar:fortheirsakes,whosedistancehasdisabledthemfromknowingme,IwilltellwhatIhavedone,andwhy。 \"ItisneedlesstosaythatGodistheobjectofmysupremepassion。Ihavecherished,inhispresence,asingleanduprightheart。Ihavethirstedfortheknowledgeofhiswill。 Ihaveburntwithardourtoapprovemyfaithandmyobedience。 \"Mydayshavebeenspentinsearchingfortherevelationofthatwill;butmydayshavebeenmournful,becausemysearchfailed。Isoliciteddirection:Iturnedoneverysidewhereglimmeringsoflightcouldbediscovered。Ihavenotbeenwhollyuninformed;butmyknowledgehasalwaysstoppedshortofcertainty。Dissatisfactionhasinsinuateditselfintoallmythoughts。Mypurposeshavebeenpure;mywishesindefatigable; butnottilllatelywerethesepurposesthoroughlyaccomplished,andthesewishesfullygratified。 \"Ithankthee,myfather,forthybounty;thatthoudidstnotaskalesssacrificethanthis;thatthouplacedstmeinaconditiontotestifymysubmissiontothywill!WhathaveI withheldwhichitwasthypleasuretoexact?NowmayI,withdauntlessanderecteye,claimmyreward,sinceIhavegiventheethetreasureofmysoul。 \"Iwasatmyownhouse:itwaslateintheevening:mysisterhadgonetothecity,butproposedtoreturn。ItwasinexpectationofherreturnthatmywifeandIdelayedgoingtobedbeyondtheusualhour;therestofthefamily,however,wereretired。 \"Mymindwascontemplativeandcalm;notwhollydevoidofapprehensiononaccountofmysister\'ssafety。Recentevents,noteasilyexplained,hadsuggestedtheexistenceofsomedanger;butthisdangerwaswithoutadistinctforminourimagination,andscarcelyruffledourtranquillity。 \"Timepassed,andmysisterdidnotarrive;herhouseisatsomedistancefrommine,andthoughherarrangementshadbeenmadewithaviewtoresidingwithus,itwaspossiblethat,throughforgetfulness,ortheoccurrenceofunforeseenemergencies,shehadreturnedtoherowndwelling。 \"HenceitwasconceivedproperthatIshouldascertainthetruthbygoingthither。Iwent。Onmywaymymindwasfulloftheseideaswhichrelatedtomyintellectualcondition。Inthetorrentoffervidconceptions,Ilostsightofmypurpose。SometimesIstoodstill;sometimesIwanderedfrommypath,andexperiencedsomedifficulty,onrecoveringfrommyfitofmusing,toregainit。 \"Theseriesofmythoughtsiseasilytraced。Atfirsteveryveinbeatwithrapturesknownonlytothemanwhoseparentalandconjugalloveiswithoutlimits,andthecupofwhosedesires,immenseasitis,overflowswithgratification。Iknownotwhyemotionsthatwereperpetualvisitantsshouldnowhaverecurredwithunusualenergy。Thetransitionwasnotnewfromsensationsofjoytoaconsciousnessofgratitude。Theauthorofmybeingwaslikewisethedispenserofeverygiftwithwhichthatbeingwasembellished。Theservicetowhichabenefactorlikethiswasentitled,couldnotbecircumscribed。Mysocialsentimentswereindebtedtotheiralliancewithdevotionforalltheirvalue。Allpassionsarebase,alljoysfeeble,allenergiesmalignant,whicharenotdrawnfromthissource。 \"Foratime,mycontemplationssoaredaboveearthanditsinhabitants。Istretchedforthmyhands;Iliftedmyeyes,andexclaimed,O!thatImightbeadmittedtothypresence;thatminewerethesupremedelightofknowingthywill,andofperformingit!Theblissfulprivilegeofdirectcommunicationwiththee,andoflisteningtotheaudibleenunciationofthypleasure! \"WhattaskwouldInotundertake,whatprivationwouldInotcheerfullyendure,totestifymyloveofthee?Alas!thouhidestthyselffrommyview:glimpsesonlyofthyexcellenceandbeautyareaffordedme。Wouldthatamomentaryemanationfromthyglorywouldvisitme!thatsomeunambiguoustokenofthypresencewouldsalutemysenses! \"Inthismood,Ienteredthehouseofmysister。Itwasvacant。ScarcelyhadIregainedrecollectionofthepurposethatbroughtmehither。Thoughtsofadifferenttendencyhadsuchabsolutepossessionofmymind,thattherelationsoftimeandspacewerealmostobliteratedfrommyunderstanding。Thesewanderings,however,wererestrained,andIascendedtoherchamber。 \"Ihadnolight,andmighthaveknownbyexternalobservation,thatthehousewaswithoutanyinhabitant。Withthis,however,Iwasnotsatisfied。Ienteredtheroom,andtheobjectofmysearchnotappearing,Ipreparedtoreturn。 \"Thedarknessrequiredsomecautionindescendingthestair。 IstretchedmyhandtoseizethebalustradebywhichImightregulatemysteps。HowshallIdescribethelustre,which,atthatmoment,burstuponmyvision! \"Iwasdazzled。Myorganswerebereavedoftheiractivity。 Myeye-lidswerehalf-closed,andmyhandswithdrawnfromthebalustrade。Anamelessfearchilledmyveins,andIstoodmotionless。Thisirradiationdidnotretireorlessen。Itseemedasifsomepowerfuleffulgencecoveredmelikeamantle。 \"Iopenedmyeyesandfoundallaboutmeluminousandglowing。Itwastheelementofheaventhatflowedaround。 Nothingbutafierystreamwasatfirstvisible;but,anon,ashrillvoicefrombehindcalleduponmetoattend。 \"Iturned:ItisforbiddentodescribewhatIsaw:Words,indeed,wouldbewantingtothetask。Thelineamentsofthatbeing,whoseveilwasnowlifted,andwhosevisagebeameduponmysight,nohuesofpenciloroflanguagecanpourtray。 \"Asitspoke,theaccentsthrilledtomyheart。\"Thyprayersareheard。Inproofofthyfaith,rendermethywife。ThisisthevictimIchuse。Callherhither,andhereletherfall。\"——Thesound,andvisage,andlightvanishedatonce。 \"Whatdemandwasthis?ThebloodofCatharinewastobeshed!Mywifewastoperishbymyhand!Isoughtopportunitytoattestmyvirtue。LittledidIexpectthataprooflikethiswouldhavebeendemanded。 \"Mywife!Iexclaimed:OGod!substitutesomeothervictim。 Makemenotthebutcherofmywife。Myownbloodischeap。 ThiswillIpouroutbeforetheewithawillingheart;butspare,Ibeseechthee,thispreciouslife,orcommissionsomeotherthanherhusbandtoperformthebloodydeed。 \"Invain。Theconditionswereprescribed;thedecreehadgoneforth,andnothingremainedbuttoexecuteit。Irushedoutofthehouseandacrosstheintermediatefields,andstoppednottillIenteredmyownparlour。