第3章

类别:其他 作者:Jack London字数:17315更新时间:18/12/14 15:44:31
\"Whatwasyouthinkin\'about,Jim?\" Jimwasatrifleawkwardforthemoment。 \"Nothin\',\"heanswered。\"OnlyIwasthinkin\'justhowfunnyitwas——allthemjoolsathishouse。Whatmadeyouask?\" \"Nothin\'。Iwasjustwonderin\',thatwasall。\" Thesilencesettleddown,brokenbyanoccasionallowandnervousgiggleonthepartofJim。Hewasovercomebythespreadofgems。Itwasnotthathefelttheirbeauty。Hewasunawarethattheywerebeautifulinthemselves。Butinthemhisswiftimaginationvisionedthejoysoflifetheywouldbuy,andallthedesiresandappetitesofhisdiseasedmindandsicklyfleshweretickledbythepromisetheyextended。Hebuildedwondrous,orgy-hauntedcastlesoutoftheirbrilliantfires,andwasappalledatwhathebuilded。Thenitwasthathegiggled。Itwasalltooimpossibletobereal。Andyettheretheyblazedonthetablebeforehim,fanningtheflameofthelustofhim,andhegiggledagain。 \"Iguesswemightaswellcount\'em,\"Mattsaidsuddenly,tearinghimselfawayfromhisownvisions。\"Youwatchmean\'seethatit\'ssquare,becauseyouan\'mehasgottobeonthesquare,Jim。Understand?\" Jimdidnotlikethis,andbetrayeditinhiseyes,whileMattdidnotlikewhathesawinhispartner\'seyes。 \"Understand?\"Mattrepeated,almostmenacingly。 \"Ain\'twealwaysbensquare?\"theotherreplied,onthedefensivebecauseofthetreacheryalreadywhisperinginhim。 \"Itdon\'tcostnothin\',bein\'squareinhardtimes,\"Mattretorted。\"It\'sbein\'squareinprosperitythatcounts。Whenweain\'tgotnothin\',wecan\'thelpbein\'square。We\'reprosperousnow,an\'we\'vegottobebusinessmen——honestbusinessmen。Understand?\" \"That\'sthetalkforme,\"Jimapproved,butdeepdowninthemeagresoulofhim,——andinspiteofhim,——wantonandlawlessthoughtswerestirringlikechainedbeasts。 Mattsteppedtothefoodshelfbehindthetwo-burnerkerosenecookingstove。Heemptiedtheteafromapaperbag,andfromasecondbagemptiedsomeredpeppers。Returningtothetablewiththebags,heputintothemthetwosizesofsmalldiamonds。Thenhecountedthelargegemsandwrappedthemintheirtissuepaperandchamoisskin。 \"Hundredan\'forty-sevengood-sizedones,\"washisinventory;\"twentyrealbigones;twobigboysandonewhopper;an\'acoupleoffistfulsofteenyonesan\'dust。\" HelookedatJim。 \"Correct,\"wastheresponse。 Hewrotethecountoutonaslipofmemorandumpaper,andmadeacopyofit,givingonesliptohispartnerandretainingtheother。 \"Justforreference,\"hesaid。 Againhehadrecoursetothefoodshelf,whereheemptiedthesugarfromalargepaperbag。Intothishethrustthediamonds,largeandsmall,wrappeditupinabandannahandkerchief,andstoweditawayunderhispillow。Thenhesatdownontheedgeofthebedandtookoffhisshoes。 \"An\'youthinkthey\'reworthahundredthousan\'?\"Jimasked,pausingandlookingupfromtheunlacingofhisshoe。 \"Sure,\"wastheanswer。\"Iseenadance-housegirldowninArizonaonce,withsomebigsparklersonher。Theywasn\'treal。Shesaidiftheywasshewouldn\'tbedancin\'。Saidthey\'dbeworthalloffiftythousan\',an\' shedidn\'thaveadozenof\'emalltold。\" \"Who\'dworkforalivin\'?\"Jimtriumphantlydemanded。\"Pickan\'shovelwork!\"hesneered。\"Worklikeadogallmylife,an\'saveallmywages,an\'Iwouldn\'thavehalfasmuchaswegottonight。\" \"Dishwashin\'saboutyourmeasure,an\'youcouldn\'tgetmore\'ntwentyamonthan\'board。Yourfiggersis\'wayoff,butyourpointiswelltaken。 Letthemthatlikesit,work。IroderangeforthirtyamonthwhenIwasyoungan\'foolish。Well,I\'molder,an\'Iain\'tridin\'range。\" Hegotintobedononeside。Jimputoutthelightandfollowedhiminontheotherside。 \"How\'syourarmfeel?\"Jimqueriedamiably。 Suchconcernwasunusual,andMattnotedit,andreplied—— \"Iguessthere\'snodangerofhydrophoby。Whatmadeyouask?\" Jimfeltinhimselfaguiltystir,andunderhisbreathhecursedtheother\'swayofaskingdisagreeablequestions;butaloudheanswered—— \"Nothin\',onlyyouseemedscaredofitatfirst。Whatareyougoin\'todowithyourshare,Matt?\" \"BuyacattleranchinArizonaan\'setdownan\'payothermentoriderangeforme。There\'ssomeseveralI\'dliketoseeaskin\'ajobfromme,damnthem!An\'nowyoushutyourface,Jim。It\'llbesometimebeforeIbuythatranch。JustnowI\'mgoin\'tosleep。\" ButJimlaylongawake,nervousandtwitching,rollingaboutrestlesslyandrollinghimselfwideawakeeverytimehedozed。Thediamondsstillblazedunderhiseyelids,andthefireofthemhurt。Matt,inspiteofhisheavynature,sleptlightly,likeawildanimalalertinitssleep;andJimnoticed,everytimehemoved,thathispartner\'sbodymovedsufficientlytoshowthatithadreceivedtheimpressionandthatitwastremblingonthevergeofawakening。Forthatmatter,Jimdidnotknowwhetherornot,frequently,theotherwasawake。Once,quietly,betokeningcompleteconsciousness,Mattsaidtohim:\"Aw,gotosleep,Jim。Don\'tworryaboutthemjools。They\'llkeep。\"AndJimhadthoughtthatatthatparticularmomentMatthadbeensurelyasleep。 InthelatemorningMattwasawakewithJim\'sfirstmovement,andthereafterheawokeanddozedwithhimuntilmidday,whentheygotuptogetherandbegandressing。 \"I\'mgoin\'outtogetapaperan\'somebread,\"Mattsaid。\"Youboilthecoffee。\" AsJimlistened,unconsciouslyhisgazeleftMatt\'sfaceandrovedtothepillow,beneathwhichwasthebundlewrappedinthebandannahandkerchief。 OntheinstantMatt\'sfacebecamelikeawildbeast\'s。 \"Lookhere,Jim,\"hesnarled。\"You\'vegottoplaysquare。Ifyoudomedirt,I\'llfixyou。Understand?I\'deatyou,Jim。Youknowthat。I\'dbiterightintoyourthroatan\'eatyoulikethatmuchbeefsteak。\" Hissunburnedskinwasblackwiththesurgeofbloodinit,andhistobacco-stainedteethwereexposedbythesnarlinglips。Jimshiveredandinvoluntarilycowered。Therewasdeathinthemanhelookedat。Onlythenightbeforethatblack-facedmanhadkilledanotherwithhishands,andithadnothurthissleep。AndinhisownheartJimwasawareofasneakingguilt,ofatrainofthoughtthatmeritedallthatwasthreatened。 Mattpassedout,leavinghimstillshivering。Thenahatredtwistedhisownface,andhesoftlyhurledsavagecursesatthedoor。Herememberedthejewels,andhastenedtothebed,feelingunderthepillowforthebandannabundle。Hecrusheditwithhisfingerstomakecertainthatitstillcontainedthediamonds。AssuredthatMatthadnotcarriedthemaway,helookedtowardthekerosenestovewithaguiltystart。Thenhehurriedlylightedit,filledthecoffee-potatthesink,andputitovertheflame。 ThecoffeewasboilingwhenMattreturned,andwhilethelattercutthebreadandputasliceofbutteronthetable,Jimpouredoutthecoffee。 Itwasnotuntilhesatdownandhadtakenafewsipsofthecoffee,thatMattpulledoutthemorningpaperfromhispocket。 \"Wewaswayoff,\"hesaid。\"ItoldyouIdidn\'tdastfiggerouthowfatitwas。Lookatthat。\" Hepointedtothehead-linesonthefirstpage。 \"SWIFTNEMESISONBUJANNOFF\'STRACK,\"theyread。\"MURDEREDINHISSLEEP AFTERROBBINGHISPARTNER。\" \"Thereyouhaveit!\"Mattcried。\"Herobbedhispartner——robbedhimlikeadirtythief。\" \"Halfamillionofjewelsmissin\',\"Jimreadaloud。HeputthepaperdownandstaredatMatt。 \"That\'swhatItoldyou,\"thelattersaid。\"Whatinhelldoweknowaboutjools?Halfamillion!——an\'thebestIcouldfiggeritwasahundredthousan\'。Goonan\'readtherestofit。\" Theyreadonsilently,theirheadssidebyside,theuntouchedcoffeegrowingcold;andeverandanononeortheotherburstforthwithsomesalientprintedfact。 \"I\'dliketoseenMetzner\'sfacewhenheopenedthesafeatthestorethismornin\',\"Jimgloated。 \"HehitthehighplacesrightawayforBujannoff\'shouse,\"Mattexplained。 \"Goonan\'read。\" \"WastohavesailedlastnightattenontheSajodafortheSouthSeas—— steamshipdelayedbyextrafreight——\" \"That\'swhywecaught\'minbed,\"Mattinterrupted。\"Itwasjustluck—— likepickin\'afifty-to-onewinner。\" \"Sajodasailedatsixthismornin\'——\" \"Hedidn\'tcatchher,\"Mattsaid。\"Isawhisalarm-clockwassetatfive。 That\'dgiven\'mplentyoftime……onlyIcomealongan\'putthekiboshonhistime。Goon。\" \"AdolphMetznerindespair——thefamousHaythornepearlnecklace—— magnificentlyassortedpearls——valuedbyexpertsatfromfiftytoseventythousan\'dollars。\" Jimbrokeofftoswearvilelyandsolemnly,concludingwith,\"Thosedamnoyster-eggsworthallthatmoney!\" Helickedhislipsandadded,\"Theywasbeautiesan\'nomistake。\" \"BigBraziliangem,\"hereadon。\"Eightythousan\'dollars——manyvaluablegemsofthefirstwater——severalthousan\'smalldiamondswellworthfortythousan\'。\" \"Whatyoudon\'tknowaboutjoolsisworthknowin\',\"Mattsmiledgood- humouredly。 \"Theoryofthesleuths,\"Jimread。\"Thievesmusthaveknown——cleverlykeptwatchonBujannoff\'sactions——musthavelearnedhisplanandtrailedhimtohishousewiththefruitsofhisrobbery——\" \"Clever——hell!\"Mattbrokeout。\"That\'sthewayreputationsismade…… inthenoospapers。How\'dweknowhewasrobbin\'hispardner?\" \"Anyway,we\'vegotthegoods,\"Jimgrinned。\"Let\'slookat\'emagain。\" Heassuredhimselfthatthedoorwaslockedandbolted,whileMattbroughtoutthebundleinthebandannaandopeneditonthetable。 \"Ain\'ttheybeauties,though!\"Jimexclaimedatsightofthepearls;andforatimehehadeyesonlyforthem。\"Accordin\'totheexperts,worthfromfiftytoseventythousan\'dollars。\" \"An\'womenlikethemthings,\"Mattcommented。\"An\'they\'lldoeverythingtoget\'em——sellthemselves,commitmurder,anything。\" \"Justlikeyouan\'me。\" \"Notonyourlife,\"Mattretorted。\"I\'llcommitmurderfor\'em,butnotfortheirownsakes,butforsakeofwhatthey\'llgetme。That\'sthedifference。Womenwantthejoolsforthemselves,an\'Iwantthejoolsforthewomenan\'suchthingsthey\'llgetme。\" \"Luckythatmenan\'womendon\'twantthesamethings,\"Jimremarked。 \"That\'swhatmakescommerce,\"Mattagreed;\"peoplewantin\'differentthings。\" InthemiddleoftheafternoonJimwentouttobuyfood。Whilehewasgone,Mattclearedthetableofthejewels,wrappingthemupasbeforeandputtingthemunderthepillow。Thenhelightedthekerosenestoveandstartedtoboilwaterforcoffee。Afewminuteslater,Jimreturned。 \"Mostsurprising,\"heremarked。\"Streets,an\'stores,an\'peoplejustliketheyalwayswas。Nothin\'changed。An\'mewalkingalongthroughitallamillionaire。Nobodylookedatmean\'guessedit。\" Mattgruntedunsympathetically。Hehadlittlecomprehensionofthelighterwhimsandfanciesofhispartner\'simagination。 \"Didyougetaporterhouse?\"hedemanded。 \"Sure,an\'aninchthick。It\'sapeach。Lookatit。\" Heunwrappedthesteakandhelditupfortheother\'sinspection。Thenhemadethecoffeeandsetthetable,whileMattfriedthesteak。 \"Don\'tputontoomuchofthemredpeppers,\"Jimwarned。\"Iain\'tusedtoyourMexicancookin\'。Youalwaysseasontoohot。\" Mattgruntedalaughandwentonwithhiscooking。Jimpouredoutthecoffee,butfirst,intothenickedchinacup,heemptiedapowderhehadcarriedinhisvestpocketwrappedinarice-paper。Hehadturnedhisbackforthemomentonhispartner,buthedidnotdaretoglancearoundathim。 Mattplacedanewspaperonthetable,andonthenewspapersetthehotfrying-pan。Hecutthesteakinhalf,andservedJimandhimself。 \"Eatherwhileshe\'shot,\"hecounselled,andwithknifeandforksettheexample。 \"She\'sadandy,\"wasJim\'sjudgment,afterhisfirstmouthful。\"ButItellyouonethingstraight。I\'mnevergoin\'tovisityouonthatArizonaranch,soyouneedn\'taskme。\" \"What\'sthematternow?\"Mattasked。 \"Hell\'sthematter,\"wastheanswer。\"TheMexicancookin\'onyourranch\'dbetoomuchforme。IfI\'vegothella-comin\'inthenextlife,I\'mnotgoin\'totormentmyinsidesinthisone。Damnedpeppers!\" Hesmiled,expelledhisbreathforciblytocoolhisburningmouth,dranksomecoffee,andwentoneatingthesteak。 \"Whatdoyouthinkaboutthenextlifeanyway,Matt?\"heaskedalittlelater,whilesecretlyhewonderedwhytheotherhadnotyettouchedhiscoffee。 \"Ain\'tnonextlife,\"Mattanswered,pausingfromthesteaktotakehisfirstsipofcoffee。\"Norheavennorhell,nornothin\'。Yougetallthat\'scomin\'righthereinthislife。\" \"An\'afterward?\"Jimqueriedoutofhismorbidcuriosity,forheknewthathelookeduponamanthatwassoontodie。\"An\'afterward?\"herepeated。 \"Didyoueverseeamantwoweeksdead?\"theotherasked。 Jimshookhishead。 \"Well,Ihave。Hewaslikethisbeefsteakyouan\'meiseatin\'。Itwasoncesteercavortin\'overthelandscape。Butnowit\'sjustmeat。That\'sall,justmeat。An\'that\'swhatyouan\'mean\'allpeoplecometo——meat。\" Mattgulpeddownthewholecupofcoffee,andrefilledthecup。 \"Areyouscaredtodie?\"heasked。 Jimshookhishead。\"What\'stheuse?Idon\'tdieanyway。Ipassonan\' liveagain——\" \"Togostealin\',an\'lyin\'an\'snivellin\'throughanotherlife,an\'goonthatwayforeveran\'everan\'ever?\"Mattsneered。 \"MaybeI\'llimprove,\"Jimsuggestedhopefully。\"Maybestealin\'won\'tbenecessaryinthelifetocome。\" Heceasedabruptly,andstaredstraightbeforehim,afrightenedexpressiononhisface。 \"What\'sthematter!\"Mattdemanded。 \"Nothin\'。Iwasjustwonderin\'\"——Jimreturnedtohimselfwithaneffort—— \"aboutthisdyin\',thatwasall。\" Buthecouldnotshakeoffthefrightthathadstartledhim。Itwasasifanunseenthingofgloomhadpassedhimby,castinguponhimtheintangibleshadowofitspresence。Hewasawareofafeelingofforeboding。 Somethingominouswasabouttohappen。Calamityhoveredintheair。Hegazedfixedlyacrossthetableattheotherman。Hecouldnotunderstand。 Wasitthathehadblunderedandpoisonedhimself?No,Matthadthenickedcup,andhehadcertainlyputthepoisoninthenickedcup。 Itwasallhisownimagination,washisnextthought。Ithadplayedhimtricksbefore。Fool!Ofcourseitwas。Ofcoursesomethingwasabouttohappen,butitwasabouttohappentoMatt。HadnotMattdrunkthewholecupofcoffee? Jimbrightenedupandfinishedhissteak,soppingbreadinthegravywhenthemeatwasgone。 \"WhenIwasakid——\"hebegan,butbrokeoffabruptly。 Againtheunseenthingofgloomhadfluttered,andhisbeingwasvibrantwithpremonitionofimpendingmisfortune。Hefeltadisruptiveinfluenceatworkinthefleshofhim,andinallhismusclestherewasaseemingthattheywereabouttobegintotwitch。Hesatbacksuddenly,andassuddenlyleanedforwardwithhiselbowsonthetable。Atremorrandimlythroughthemusclesofhisbody。Itwaslikethefirstrustlingofleavesbeforetheoncomingofwind。Heclenchedhisteeth。Itcameagain,aspasmodictensingofhismuscles。Heknewpanicattherevoltwithinhisbeing。Hismusclesnolongerrecognizedhismasteryoverthem。Againtheyspasmodicallytensed,despitethewillofhim,forhehadwilledthattheyshouldnottense。Thiswasrevolutionwithinhimself,thiswasanarchy; andtheterrorofimpotencerushedupinhimashisfleshgrippedandseemedtoseizehiminaclutch,chillsrunningupanddownhisbackandsweatstartingonhisbrow。Heglancedabouttheroom,andallthedetailsofitsmotehimwithastrangesenseoffamiliarity。Itwasasthoughhehadjustreturnedfromalongjourney。Helookedacrossthetableathispartner。Mattwaswatchinghimandsmiling。AnexpressionofhorrorspreadoverJim\'sface。 \"MyGod,Matt!\"hescreamed。\"Youain\'tdopedme?\" Mattsmiledandcontinuedtowatchhim。Intheparoxysmthatfollowed,Jimdidnotbecomeunconscious。Hismusclestensedandtwitchedandknotted,hurtinghimandcrushinghimintheirsavagegrip。Andinthemidstofitall,itcametohimthatMattwasactingqueerly。Hewastravellingthesameroad。Thesmilehadgonefromhisface,andtherewasonitanintentexpression,asifhewerelisteningtosomeinnertaleofhimselfandtryingtodivinethemessage。Mattgotupandwalkedacrosstheroomandbackagain,thensatdown。 \"Youdidthis,Jim,\"hesaidquietly。 \"ButIdidn\'tthinkyou\'dtrytofixME,\"Jimansweredreproachfully。 \"Oh,Ifixedyouallright,\"Mattsaid,withteethclosetogetherandshiveringbody。\"Whatdidyougiveme?\" \"Strychnine。\" \"SameasIgaveyou,\"Mattvolunteered。\"It\'sahellofamess,ain\'tit?\" \"You\'relyin\',Matt,\"Jimpleaded。\"Youain\'tdopedme,haveyou?\" \"Isuredid,Jim;an\'Ididn\'toverdoseyou,neither。Icookeditinasneatasyoupleaseinyourhalftheporterhouse——Holdon!Where\'reyougoin\'?\" Jimhadmadeadashforthedoor,andwasthrowingbackthebolts。Mattspranginbetweenandshovedhimaway。 \"Drugstore,\"Jimpanted。\"Drugstore。\" \"Noyoudon\'t。You\'llstayrighthere。Thereain\'tgoin\'tobeanyrunnin\'outan\'makin\'apoisonplayonthestreet——notwithallthemjoolsreposin\'underthepillow。Savve?Evenifyoudidn\'tdie,you\'dbeinthehandsofthepolicewithawholelotofexplanationscomin\'。Emeticsisthestuffforpoison。I\'mjustasbadbitasyou,an\'I\'mgoin\'totakeaemetic。That\'sallthey\'dgiveyouatadrugstore,anyway。\" HethrustJimbackintothemiddleoftheroomandshottheboltsintoplace。Ashewentacrossthefloortothefoodshelf,hepassedonehandoverhisbrowandflungoffthebeadedsweat。Itspatteredaudiblyonthefloor。JimwatchedagonizedlyasMattgotthemustard-canandacupandranforthesink。Hestirredacupfulofmustardandwateranddrankitdown。Jimhadfollowedhimandwasreachingwithtremblinghandsfortheemptycup。AgainMattshovedhimaway。Ashemixedasecondcupful,hedemanded—— \"D\'youthinkonecup\'lldoforme?YoucanwaittillI\'mdone。\" Jimstartedtotottertowardthedoor,butMattcheckedhim。 \"Ifyoumonkeywiththatdoor,I\'lltwistyourneck。Savve?YoucantakeyourswhenI\'mdone。An\'ifitsavesyou,I\'lltwistyourneck,anyway。 Youain\'tgotnochance,nohow。Itoldyoumanytimeswhatyou\'dgetifyoudidmedirt。\" \"Butyoudidmedirt,too,\"Jimarticulatedwithaneffort。 Mattwasdrinkingthesecondcupful,anddidnotanswer。ThesweathadgotintoJim\'seyes,andhecouldscarcelyseehiswaytothetable,wherehegotacupforhimself。ButMattwasmixingathirdcupful,and,asbefore,thrusthimaway。 \"ItoldyoutowaittillIwasdone,\"Mattgrowled。\"Getoutamyway。\" AndJimsupportedhistwitchingbodybyholdingontothesink,thewhileheyearnedtowardtheyellowishconcoctionthatstoodforlife。Itwasbysheerwillthathestoodandclungtothesink。Hisfleshstrovetodoublehimupandbringhimtothefloor。Mattdrankthethirdcupful,andwithdifficultymanagedtogettoachairandsitdown。Hisfirstparoxysmwaspassing。Thespasmsthatafflictedhimweredyingaway。Thisgoodeffectheascribedtothemustardandwater。Hewassafe,atanyrate。Hewipedthesweatfromhisface,and,intheintervalofcalm,foundroomforcuriosity。Helookedathispartner。 AspasmhadshakenthemustardcanoutofJim\'shands,andthecontentswerespilleduponthefloor。Hestoopedtoscoopsomeofthemustardintothecup,andthesucceedingspasmdoubledhimuponthefloor。Mattsmiled。 \"Staywithit,\"heencouraged。\"It\'sthestuffallright。It\'sfixedmeup。\" Jimheardhimandturnedtowardhimastrickenface,twistedwithsufferingandpleading。Spasmnowfollowedspasmtillhewasinconvulsions,rollingonthefloorandyellowinghisfaceandhairinthemustard。 Mattlaughedhoarselyatthesight,butthelaughbrokemidway。Atremorhadrunthroughhisbody。Anewparoxysmwasbeginning。Hearoseandstaggeredacrosstothesink,where,withprobingforefinger,hevainlystrovetoassisttheactionoftheemetic。Intheend,heclungtothesinkasJimhadclung,filledwiththehorrorofgoingdowntothefloor。 Theother\'sparoxysmhadpassed,andhesatup,weakandfainting,tooweaktorise,hisforeheaddripping,hislipsfleckedwithafoammadeyellowbythemustardinwhichhehadrolled。Herubbedhiseyeswithhisknuckles,andgroansthatwerelikewhinescamefromhisthroat。 \"Whatareyousnifflin\'about?\"Mattdemandedoutofhisagony。\"Allyougottodoisdie。An\'whenyoudieyou\'redead。\" \"I……ain\'t……snifflin\'……it\'s……the……mustard…… stingin\'……my……eyes,\"Jimpantedwithdesperateslowness。 Itwashislastsuccessfulattemptatspeech。Thereafterhebabbledincoherently,pawingtheairwithshakingarmstillafreshconvulsionstretchedhimonthefloor。 Mattstruggledbacktothechair,and,doubleduponit,withhisarmsclaspedabouthisknees,hefoughtwithhisdisintegratingflesh。Hecameoutoftheconvulsioncoolandweak。Helookedtoseehowitwentwiththeother,andsawhimlyingmotionless。 Hetriedtosoliloquize,tobefacetious,tohavehislastgrimlaughatlife,buthislipsmadeonlyincoherentsounds。Thethoughtcametohimthattheemetichadfailed,andthatnothingremainedbutthedrugstore。 Helookedtowardthedooranddrewhimselftohisfeet。Therehesavedhimselffromfallingbyclutchingthechair。Anotherparoxysmhadbegun。 Andinthemidstoftheparoxysm,withhisbodyandallthepartsofitflyingapartandwrithingandtwistingbackagainintoknots,heclungtothechairandshoveditbeforehimacrossthefloor。Thelastshredsofhiswillwereleavinghimwhenhegainedthedoor。Heturnedthekeyandshotbackonebolt。Hefumbledforthesecondbolt,butfailed。Thenheleanedhisweightagainstthedoorandsliddowngentlytothefloor。 CREATEDHETHEM Shemethimatthedoor。 \"Ididnotthinkyouwouldbesoearly。\" \"Itishalfpasteight。\"Helookedathiswatch。\"Thetrainleavesat9。12。\" Hewasverybusinesslike,untilhesawherlipstrembleassheabruptlyturnedandledtheway。 \"It\'llbeallright,littlewoman,\"hesaidsoothingly。\"DoctorBodineau\'stheman。He\'llpullhimthrough,you\'llsee。\" Theyenteredtheliving-room。Hisglancequestedapprehensivelyabout,thenturnedtoher。 \"Where\'sAl?\" Shedidnotanswer,butwithasuddenimpulsecameclosetohimandstoodmotionless。Shewasaslender,dark-eyedwoman,inwhosefacewasstampedthestrainandstressofliving。Butthefinelinesandthehauntedlookintheeyeswerenotthehandiworkofmereworry。Heknewwhosehandiworkitwasashelookeduponit,andsheknewwhensheconsultedhermirror。 \"It\'snouse,Mary,\"hesaid。Heputhishandonhershoulder。\"We\'vetriedeverything。It\'sawretchedbusiness,Iknow,butwhatelsecanwedo?You\'vefailed。DoctorBodineau\'sallthat\'sleft。\" \"IfIhadanotherchance……\"shebeganfalteringly。 \"We\'vethreshedthatallout,\"heansweredharshly。\"You\'vegottobuckup,now。Youknowwhatconclusionwearrivedat。Youknowyouhaven\'ttheghostofahopeinanotherchance。\" Sheshookherhead。\"Iknowit。Butitisterrible,thethoughtofhisgoingawaytofightitoutalone。\" \"Hewon\'tbealone。There\'sDoctorBodineau。Andbesides,it\'sabeautifulplace。\" Sheremainedsilent。 \"Itistheonlything,\"hesaid。 \"Itistheonlything,\"sherepeatedmechanically。 Helookedathiswatch。\"Where\'sAl?\" \"I\'llsendhim。\" Whenthedoorhadclosedbehindher,hewalkedovertothewindowandlookedout,drummingabsentlywithhisknucklesonthepane。 \"Hello。\" Heturnedandrespondedtothegreetingofthemanwhohadjustentered。 Therewasaperceptibledragtotheman\'sfeetashewalkedacrosstowardthewindowandpausedirresolutelyhalfway。 \"I\'vechangedmymind,George,\"heannouncedhurriedlyandnervously。\"I\'mnotgoing。\" Hepluckedathissleeve,shuffledwithhisfeet,droppedhiseyes,andwithastrongeffortraisedthemagaintoconfronttheother。 Georgeregardedhimsilently,hisnostrilsdistendingandhisleanfingersunconsciouslycrookinglikeaneagle\'stalonsabouttoclutch。 Inlineandfeature,therewasmuchofresemblancebetweenthetwomen;andyet,inthestrongestresemblancestherewasaradicaldifference。Theirswerethesameblackeyes,butthoseofthemanatthewindowweresharpandstraightlooking,whilethoseofthemaninthemiddleoftheroomwerecloudyandfurtive。Hecouldnotfacetheother\'sgaze,andcontinuallyandvainlystruggledwithhimselftodoso。Thehighcheekboneswiththehollowsbeneathwerethesame,yetthetextureofthehollowsseemeddifferent。Thethin-lippedmouthswerefromthesamemould,butGeorge\'slipswerefirmandmuscular,whileAl\'sweresoftandloose——thelipsofanasceticturnedvoluptuary。Therewasalsoasagatthecorners。Hisfleshhintedofgrossness,especiallysointheeagle-likeaquilinenosethatmustoncehavebeenliketheother\'s,butthathadlosttheausteritytheother\'sstillretained。 Alfoughtforsteadinessinthemiddleofthefloor。Thesilencebotheredhim。Hehadafeelingthathewasabouttobeginswayingbackandforth。 Hemoistenedhislipswithhistongue。 \"I\'mgoingtostay,\"hesaiddesperately。 Hedroppedhiseyesandpluckedagainathissleeve。 \"Andyouareonlytwenty-sixyearsold,\"Georgesaidatlast。\"Youpoor,feebleoldman。\" \"Don\'tbesosureofthat,\"Alretorted,withaflashofbelligerence。 \"Doyourememberwhenweswamthatmileandahalfacrossthechannel?\" \"Well,andwhatofit?\"AsullenexpressionwascreepingacrossAl\'sface。 \"Anddoyourememberwhenweboxedinthebarnafterschool?\" \"Icouldtakeallyougaveme。\" \"AllIgaveyou!\"George\'svoicerosemomentarilytoahigherpitch。\"Youlickedmefourafternoonsoutoffive。YouweretwiceasstrongasI—— threetimesasstrong。AndnowI\'dbeafraidtolandonyouwithasofacushion;you\'dcrumpleuplikealastyear\'sleaf。You\'ddie,youpoor,miserableoldman。\" \"Youneedn\'tabusemejustbecauseI\'vechangedmymind,\"theotherprotested,thehintofawhineinhisvoice。 Hiswifeentered,andhelookedappealinglytoher;butthemanatthewindowstrodesuddenlyuptohimandburstout—— \"Youdon\'tknowyourownmindfortwosuccessiveminutes!Youhaven\'tanymind,youspineless,crawlingworm!\" \"Youcan\'tmakemeangry。\"Alsmiledwithcunning,andglancedtriumphantlyathiswife。\"Youcan\'tmakemeangry,\"herepeated,asthoughtheideawerethoroughlygratifyingtohim。\"Iknowyourgame。 It\'smystomach,Itellyou。Ican\'thelpit。BeforeGod,Ican\'t!Isn\'titmystomach,Mary?\" SheglancedatGeorgeandspokecomposedly,thoughshehidatremblinghandinafoldofherskirt。 \"Isn\'tittime?\"sheaskedsoftly。 Herhusbandturneduponhersavagely。\"I\'mnotgoingtogo!\"hecried。 \"That\'sjustwhatI\'vebeentelling……him。AndItellyouagain,allofyou,I\'mnotgoing。Youcan\'tbullyme。\" \"Why,Al,dear,yousaid——\"shebegan。 \"NevermindwhatIsaid!\"hebrokeout。\"I\'vesaidsomethingelserightnow,andyou\'veheardit,andthatsettlesit。\" HewalkedacrosstheroomandthrewhimselfwithemphasisintoaMorrischair。Buttheothermanwasswiftlyuponhim。Thetalon-likefingersgrippedhisshoulders,jerkedhimtohisfeet,andheldhimthere。 \"You\'vereachedthelimit,Al,andIwantyoutounderstandit。I\'vetriedtotreatyoulike……likemybrother,buthereafterIshalltreatyoulikethethingthatyouare。Doyouunderstand?\" Theangerinhisvoicewascold。Theblazeinhiseyeswascold。Itwasvastlymoreeffectivethananyoutburst,andAlcringedunderitandundertheclutchinghandthatwasbruisinghisshouldermuscles。 \"Itisonlybecauseofmethatyouhavethishouse,thatyouhavethefoodyoueat。Yourposition?Anyothermanwouldhavebeenshownthedoorayearago——twoyearsago。Ihaveheldyouinit。Yoursalaryhasbeencharity。Ithasbeenpaidoutofmypocket。Mary……herdresses…… thatgownshehasonismadeover;shewearsthediscardeddressesofhersisters,ofmywife。Charity——doyouunderstand?Yourchildren——theyarewearingthediscardedclothesofmychildren,ofthechildrenofmyneighbourswhothinktheclotheswenttosomeorphanasylum。Anditisanorphanasylum……oritsoonwillbe。\" Heemphasizedeachpointwithanunconscioustighteningofhisgripontheshoulder。Alwassquirmingwiththepainofit。Thesweatwasstartingoutonhisforehead。 \"Nowlistenwelltome,\"hisbrotherwenton。\"Inthreeminutesyouwilltellmethatyouaregoingwithme。Ifyoudon\'t,Maryandthechildrenwillbetakenawayfromyou——to-day。Youneedn\'tevercometotheoffice。 Thishousewillbeclosedtoyou。AndinsixmonthsIshallhavethepleasureofburyingyou。Youhavethreeminutestomakeupyourmind。\" Almadeastranglingmovement,andreachedupwithweakfingerstotheclutchinghand。 \"Myheart……letmego……you\'llbethedeathofme,\"hegasped。 ThehandthrusthimdownforciblyintotheMorrischairandreleasedhim。 Theclockonthemantletickedloudly。Georgeglancedatit,andatMary。 Shewasleaningagainstthetable,unabletoconcealhertrembling。Hebecameunpleasantlyawareofthefeelingofhisbrother\'sfingersonhishand。Quiteunconsciouslyhewipedthebackofthehanduponhiscoat。 Theclocktickedoninthesilence。ItseemedtoGeorgethattheroomreverberatedwithhisvoice。Hecouldhearhimselfstillspeaking。 \"I\'llgo,\"camefromtheMorrischair。 Itwasaweakandshakenvoice,anditwasaweakandshakenmanthatpulledhimselfoutoftheMorrischair。Hestartedtowardthedoor。 \"Whereareyougoing?\"Georgedemanded。 \"Suitcase,\"cametheresponse。\"Mary\'llsendthetrunklater。I\'llbebackinaminute。\" Thedoorclosedafterhim。Amomentlater,struckwithsuddensuspicion,Georgewasopeningthedoor。Heglancedin。Hisbrotherstoodatasideboard,inonehandadecanter,intheotherhand,bottomupandtohislips,awhiskyglass。 AcrosstheglassAlsawthathewasobserved。Itthrewhimintoapanic。 Hastilyhetriedtorefilltheglassandgetittohislips;butglassanddecanterweresentsmashingtothefloor。Hesnarled。Itwaslikethesoundofawildbeast。Butthegriponhisshouldersubduedandfrightenedhim。Hewasbeingpropelledtowardthedoor。 \"Thesuitcase,\"hegasped。\"It\'sthereinthatroom。Letmegetit。\" \"Where\'sthekey?\"hisbrotherasked,whenhehadbroughtit。 \"Itisn\'tlocked。\" Thenextmomentthesuitcasewasspreadopen,andGeorge\'shandwassearchingthecontents。Fromonesideitbroughtoutabottleofwhisky,fromtheothersideaflask。Hesnappedthecaseto。 \"Comeon,\"hesaid。\"Ifwemissonecar,wemissthattrain。\" Hewentoutintothehallway,leavingAlwithhiswife。Itwaslikeafuneral,Georgethought,ashewaited。 Hisbrother\'sovercoatcaughtontheknobofthefrontdooranddelayeditsclosinglongenoughforMary\'sfirstsobtocometotheirears。George\'slipswereverythinandcompressedashewentdownthesteps。Inonehandhecarriedthesuitcase。Withtheotherhandheheldhisbrother\'sarm。 Astheynearedthecorner,heheardtheelectriccarablockaway,andurgedhisbrotheron。Alwasbreathinghard。Hisfeetdraggedandshuffled,andheheldback。 \"AhellofabrotherYOUare,\"hepanted。 Forreply,hereceivedaviciousjerkonhisarm。Itremindedhimofhischildhoodwhenhewashurriedalongbysomeangrygrown-up。Andlikeachild,hehadtobehelpedupthecarstep。Hesankdownonanoutsideseat,panting,sweating,overcomebytheexertion。HefollowedGeorge\'seyesasthelatterlookedhimupanddown。 \"AhellofabrotherYOUare,\"wasGeorge\'scommentwhenhehadfinishedtheinspection。 MoisturewelledintoAl\'seyes。 \"It\'smystomach,\"hesaidwithself-pity。 \"Idon\'twonder,\"wastheretort。\"Burntoutlikethecraterofavolcano。 Ferventheatisn\'tacircumstance。\" Thereaftertheydidnotspeak。Whentheyarrivedatthetransferpoint,Georgecametohimselfwithastart。Hesmiled。Withfixedgazethatdidnotseethehousesthatstreamedacrosshisfieldofvision,hehadhimselfbeensunkdeepinself-pity。Hehelpedhisbrotherfromthecar,andlookeduptheintersectingstreet。Thecartheyweretotakewasnotinsight。 Al\'seyeschanceduponthecornergroceryandsaloonacrosstheway。Atoncehebecamerestless。Hishandspassedbeyondhiscontrol,andheyearnedhungrilyacrossthestreettothedoorthatswungopenevenashelookedandletinahappypilgrim。Andinthatinstanthesawthewhite- jacketedbartenderagainstanarrayofglitteringglass。Quiteunconsciouslyhestartedtocrossthestreet。 \"Holdon。\"George\'shandwasonhisarm。 \"Iwantsomewhisky,\"heanswered。 \"You\'vealreadyhadsome。\" \"Thatwashoursago。Goon,George,letmehavesome。It\'sthelastday。 Don\'tshutoffonmeuntilwegetthere——Godknowsitwillbesoonenough。\" Georgeglanceddesperatelyupthestreet。Thecarwasinsight。 \"Thereisn\'ttimeforadrink,\"hesaid。 \"Idon\'twantadrink。Iwantabottle。\"Al\'svoicebecamewheedling。 \"Goon,George。It\'sthelast,theverylast。\" \"No。\"ThedenialwasasfinalasGeorge\'sthinlipscouldmakeit。 Alglancedattheapproachingcar。Hesatdownsuddenlyonthecurbstone。 \"What\'sthematter?\"hisbrotherasked,withmomentaryalarm。 \"Nothing。Iwantsomewhisky。It\'smystomach。\" \"Comeonnow,getup。\" Georgereachedforhim,butwasanticipated,forhisbrothersprawledflatonthepavement,oblivioustothedirtandtothecuriousglancesofthepassers-by。Thecarwasclangingitsgongatthecrossing,ablockaway。 \"You\'llmissit,\"Algrinnedfromthepavement。\"Anditwillbeyourfault。\" George\'sfistsclenchedtightly。 \"FortwocentsI\'dgiveyouathrashing。\" \"Andmissthecar,\"wasthetriumphantcommentfromthepavement。 Georgelookedatthecar。Itwashalfwaydowntheblock。Helookedathiswatch。Hedebatedasecondlonger。 \"Allright,\"hesaid。\"I\'llgetit。Butyougetonthatcar。Ifyoumissit,I\'llbreakthebottleoveryourhead。\" Hedashedacrossthestreetandintothesaloon。Thecarcameinandstopped。Therewerenopassengerstogetoff。Aldraggedhimselfupthestepsandsatdown。Hesmiledastheconductorrangthebellandthecarstarted。Theswingingdoorofthesaloonburstopen。Clutchinginhishandthesuitcaseandapintbottleofwhisky,Georgestartedinpursuit。 Theconductor,hishandonthebellcord,waitedtoseeifitwouldbenecessarytostop。Itwasnot。Georgeswunglightlyaboard,satdownbesidehisbrother,andpassedhimthebottle。 \"Youmighthavegotaquart,\"Alsaidreproachfully。 Heextractedthecorkwithapocketcorkscrew,andelevatedthebottle。 \"I\'msick……mystomach,\"heexplainedinapologetictonestothepassengerwhosatnexttohim。 Inthetraintheysatinthesmoking-car。Georgefeltthatitwasimperative。Also,havingsuccessfullycaughtthetrain,hisheartsoftened。Hefeltmorekindlytowardhisbrother,andaccusedhimselfofunnecessaryharshness。Hestrovetoatonebytalkingabouttheirmother,andsisters,andthelittleaffairsandinterestsofthefamily。ButAlwasmorose,anddevotedhimselftothebottle。Asthetimepassed,hismouthhunglooserandlooser,whiletheringsunderhiseyesseemedtopuffoutandallhisfacialmusclestorelax。 \"It\'smystomach,\"hesaid,once,whenhefinishedthebottleanddroppeditundertheseat;buttheswifthardeningofhisbrother\'sfacedidnotencouragefurtherexplanations。 Theconveyancethatmetthematthestationhadallthedignityandluxuriousnessofaprivatecarriage。George\'seyeswerekeenfortheearmarksoftheinstitutiontowhichtheyweregoing,buthisapprehensionswereallayedfrommomenttomoment。Astheyenteredthewidegatewayandrolledonthroughthespaciousgrounds,hefeltsurethattheinstitutionalsideoftheplacewouldnotjaruponhisbrother。Itwasmorelikeasummerhotel,or,betteryet,acountryclub。Andastheysweptonthroughthespringsunshine,thesongsofbirdsinhisears,andinhisnostrilsthebreathofflowers,Georgesighedforaweekofrestinsuchaplace,andbeforehiseyesloomedthearidvistaofsummerintownandattheoffice。Therewasnotroominhisincomeforhisbrotherandhimself。 \"Letustakeawalkinthegrounds,\"hesuggested,aftertheyhadmetDoctorBodineauandinspectedthequartersassignedtoAl。\"Thecarriageleavesforthestationinhalfanhour,andwe\'lljusthavetime。\" \"It\'sbeautiful,\"heremarkedamomentlater。Underhisfeetwasthevelvetgrass,thetreesarchedoverhead,andhestoodinmottledsunshine。 \"IwishIcouldstayforamonth。\" \"I\'lltradeplaceswithyou,\"Alsaidquickly。 Georgelaugheditoff,buthefeltasinkingoftheheart。 \"Lookatthatoak!\"hecried。\"Andthatwoodpecker!Isn\'theabeauty!\" \"Idon\'tlikeithere,\"heheardhisbrothermutter。 George\'slipstightenedinpreparationforthestruggle,buthesaid—— \"I\'mgoingtosendMaryandthechildrenofftothemountains。Sheneedsit,andsodothey。Andwhenyou\'reinshape,I\'llsendyourightontojointhem。Thenyoucantakeyoursummervacationbeforeyoucomebacktotheoffice。\" \"I\'mnotgoingtostayinthisdamnedhole,forallyoutalkaboutit,\"Alannouncedabruptly。 \"Yesyouare,andyou\'regoingtogetyourhealthandstrengthbackagain,sothatthelookofyouwillputthecolourinMary\'scheekswhereitusedtobe。\" \"I\'mgoingbackwithyou。\"Al\'svoicewasfirm。\"I\'mgoingtotakethesametrainback。It\'sabouttimeforthatcarriage,Iguess。\" \"Ihaven\'ttoldyouallmyplans,\"Georgetriedtogoon,butAlcuthimoff。 \"Youmightaswellquitthat。Idon\'twantanyofyoursoapytalking。Youtreatmelikeachild。I\'mnotachild。Mymind\'smadeup,andI\'llshowyouhowlongitcanstaymadeup。Youneedn\'ttalktome。Idon\'tcarearapforwhatyou\'regoingtosay。\" Abalefullightwasinhiseyes,andtohisbrotherheseemedforalltheworldlikeacorneredrat,desperateandreadytofight。AsGeorgelookedathimherememberedbacktotheirchildhood,anditcametohimthatatlastwasarousedinAlthesameoldstubbornstrainthathadenabledhim,asachild,tostandagainstallforceandpersuasion。 Georgeabandonedhope。Hehadlost。Thiscreaturewasnothuman。Thelastfineinstinctofthehumanhadfled。Itwasabrute,sluggishandstolid,impossibletomove——justtherawstuffoflife,combative,rebellious,andindomitable。Andashecontemplatedhisbrotherhefeltinhimselftherisingupofasimilarbrute。Hebecamesuddenlyawarethathisfingersweretensingandcrookinglikeathug\'s,andheknewthedesiretokill。Andhisreason,turnedtraitoratlast,counselledthatheshouldkill,thatitwastheonlythingleftforhimtodo。 Hewasarousedbyaservantcallingtohimthroughthetreesthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Heanswered。Then,lookingstraightbeforehim,hediscoveredhisbrother。Hehadforgottenitwashisbrother。Ithadbeenonlyathingthemomentbefore。Hebegantotalk,andashetalkedthewaybecamecleartohim。Hisreasonhadnotturnedtraitor。Thebruteinhimhadmerelyorientatedhisreason。 \"Youarenoearthlygood,Al,\"hesaid。\"Youknowthat。You\'vemadeMary\'slifeahell。Youareacursetoyourchildren。Andyouhavenotmadelifeexactlyaparadisefortherestofus。\" \"There\'snouseyourtalking,\"Alinterjected。\"I\'mnotgoingtostayhere。\" \"That\'swhatI\'mcomingto,\"Georgecontinued。\"Youdon\'thavetostayhere。\"(Al\'sfacebrightened,andheinvoluntarilymadeamovement,asthoughabouttostarttowardthecarriage。)\"Ontheotherhand,itisnotnecessarythatyoushouldreturnwithme。Thereisanotherway。\" George\'shandwenttohishippocketandappearedwitharevolver。Itlayalonghispalm,thebutttowardAl,andtowardAlheextendedit。Atthesametime,withhishead,heindicatedthenear-bythicket。 \"Youcan\'tbluffme,\"Alsnarled。 \"Itisnotabluff,Al。Lookatme。Imeanit。Andifyoudon\'tdoitforyourself,Ishallhavetodoitforyou。\" Theyfacedeachother,theprofferedrevolverstillextended。Aldebatedforamoment,thenhiseyesblazed。Withaquickmovementheseizedtherevolver。 \"MyGod!I\'lldoit,\"hesaid。\"I\'llshowyouwhatI\'vegotinme。\" Georgefeltsuddenlysick。Heturnedaway。Hedidnotseehisbrotherenterthethicket,butheheardthepassageofhisbodythroughtheleavesandbranches。 \"Good-bye,Al,\"hecalled。 \"Good-bye,\"camefromthethicket。 Georgefeltthesweatuponhisforehead。Hebeganmoppinghisfacewithhishandkerchief。Heheard,asfromaremotedistance,thevoiceoftheservantagaincallingtohimthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Thewoodpeckerdroppeddownthroughthemottledsunshineandlightedonthetrunkofatreeadozenfeetaway。Georgefeltthatitwasalladream,andyetthroughitallhefeltsupremejustification。Itwastherightthingtodo。Itwastheonlything。 Hiswholebodygaveaspasmodicstart,asthoughtherevolverhadbeenfired。ItwasthevoiceofAl,closeathisback。 \"Here\'syourgun,\"Alsaid。\"I\'llstay。\" Theservantappearedamongthetrees,approachingrapidlyandcallinganxiously。Georgeputtheweaponinhispocketandcaughtbothhisbrother\'shandsinhisown。 \"Godblessyou,oldman,\"hemurmured;\"and\"——withafinalsqueezeofthehands——\"goodluck!\" \"I\'mcoming,\"hecalledtotheservant,andturnedandranthroughthetreestowardthecarriage。 THECHINAGO \"Thecoralwaxes,thepalmgrows,butmandeparts。\"—— Tahitianproverb。