第6章

类别:其他 作者:Russell Conwell字数:17862更新时间:18/12/14 11:25:45
Itisopentosufferersofanyraceorcreed,andthepoorareneverrefusedadmission,therulebeingthattreatmentisfreeforthosewhocannotpay,butthatsuchascanafforditshallpayaccordingtotheirmeans。 Andthehospitalhasakindlyfeaturethatendearsittopatientsandtheirrelativesalike,andthatisthat,byDr。Conwell\'spersonalorder,therearenotonlytheusualweek-dayhoursforvisiting,butalsooneeveningaweekandeverySundayafternoon。“Forotherwise,\'\'ashesays,“manywouldbeunabletocomebecausetheycouldnotgetawayfromtheirwork。\'\' Alittleovereightyearsagoanotherhospitalwastakenincharge,theGarretson——notfoundedbyConwell,thisone,butacquired,andpromptlyexpandedinitsusefulness。 BoththeSamaritanandtheGarretsonarepartofTempleUniversity。TheSamaritanHospitalhastreated,sinceitsfoundation,uptothemiddleof1915,29,301patients;theGarretson,initsshorterlife,5,923。Includingdispensarycasesaswellashousepatients,thetwohospitalstogether,undertheheadshipofPresidentConwell,havehandledover400,000cases。 HowConwellcanpossiblymeetthemultifariousdemandsuponhistimeisinitselfamiracle。 Heistheheadofthegreatchurch;heistheheadoftheuniversity;heistheheadofthehospitals; heistheheadofeverythingwithwhichheisassociated!Andheisnotonlynominally,butveryactively,thehead! VIII HISSPLENDIDEFFICIENCY CONWELLhasafewstrongandefficientexecutivehelperswhohavelongbeenassociatedwithhim;menandwomenwhoknowhisideasandideals,whoaredevotedtohim,andwhodotheirutmosttorelievehim;andofcoursethereisverymuchthatisthusdoneforhim;butevenasitis,heissoovershadowingaman(thereisreallynootherword)thatallwhoworkwithhimlooktohimforadviceandguidancetheprofessorsandthestudents,thedoctorsandthenurses,thechurchofficers,theSunday-schoolteachers,themembersofhiscongregation。Andheisnevertoobusytoseeanyonewhoreallywishestoseehim。 Hecanattendtoavastintricacyofdetail,andanswermyriadpersonalquestionsanddoubts,andkeepthegreatinstitutionssplendidlygoing,bythoroughsystematizationoftime,andbywatchingeveryminute。Hehasseveralsecretaries,forspecialwork,besideshisprivatesecretary。Hiscorrespondenceisverygreat。Oftenhedictatestoasecretaryashetravelsonthetrain。EveninthefewdaysforwhichhecanrunbacktotheBerkshires,workisawaitinghim。Workfollowshim。Andafterknowingofthis,oneispositivelyamazedthatheisabletogivetohiscountry-widelecturesthetimeandthetravelingthattheyinexorablydemand。Onlyamanofimmensestrength,ofthegreateststamina,averitablesuperman,couldpossiblydoit。Andattimesonequiteforgets,noticingthemultiplicityofhisoccupations,thathepreparestwosermonsandtwotalksonSunday! HereishisusualSundayschedule,whenathome。Herisesatsevenandstudiesuntilbreakfast,whichisateight-thirty。Thenhestudiesuntilnine-forty-five,whenheleadsamen\'smeetingatwhichheislikelyalsotoplaytheorganandleadthesinging。Atten-thirtyistheprincipalchurchservice,atwhichhepreaches,andatthecloseofwhichheshakeshandswithhundreds。 Hedinesatone,afterwhichhetakesfifteenminutes\'restandthenreads;andatthreeo\'clockheaddresses,inatalkthatislikeanothersermon,alargeclassofmen——notthesamemenasinthemorning。HeisalsosuretolookinattheregularsessionoftheSunday-school。Homeagain,wherehestudiesandreadsuntilsupper-time。Atseven- thirtyistheeveningservice,atwhichheagainpreachesandafterwhichheshakeshandswithseveralhundredmoreandtalkspersonally,inhisstudy,withanywhohaveneedoftalkwithhim。 Heisusuallyhomebyten-thirty。Ispokeofit,oneevening,ashavingbeenastrenuousday,andheresponded,withacheerfullywhimsicalsmile: “Threesermonsandshookhandswithninehundred。\'\' Thatevening,astheserviceclosed,hehadsaidtothecongregation:“Ishallbehereforanhour。Wealwayshaveapleasanttimetogetherafterservice。Ifyouareacquaintedwithme,comeupandshakehands。Ifyouarestrangers\'\'—— justtheslightestofpauses——“comeupandletusmakeanacquaintancethatwilllastforeternity。\'\'Irememberhowsimplyandeasilythiswassaid,inhisclear,deepvoice,andhowimpressiveandimportantitseemed,andwithwhatunexpectednessitcame。“Comeandmakeanacquaintancethatwilllastforeternity!\'\' Andtherewasaserenityabouthiswayofsayingthiswhichwouldmakestrangersthink——justashemeantthemtothink——thathehadnothingwhatevertodobuttotalkwiththem。Evenhisowncongregationhave,mostofthem,littleconceptionofhowbusyamanheisandhowpreciousishistime。 OneeveninglastJunetotakeaneveningofwhichIhappenedtoknow——hegothomefromajourneyoftwohundredmilesatsixo\'clock,andafterdinnerandaslightrestwenttothechurchprayer-meeting,whichheledinhisusualvigorouswayatsuchmeetings,playingtheorganandleadingthesinging,aswellasprayingandtalk- ing。Aftertheprayer-meetinghewenttotwodinnersinsuccession,bothofthemimportantdinnersinconnectionwiththecloseoftheuniversityyear,andatbothdinnershespoke。Attheseconddinnerhewasnotifiedofthesuddenillnessofamemberofhiscongregation,andinstantlyhurriedtotheman\'shomeandthencetothehospitaltowhichhehadbeenremoved,andthereheremainedattheman\'sbedside,orinconsultationwiththephysicians,untiloneinthemorning。Nextmorninghewasupatsevenandagainatwork。 “ThisonethingIdo,\'\'ishisprivatemaximofefficiency,andaliteralistmightpointoutthathedoesnotonethingonly,butathousandthings,notgettingConwell\'smeaning,whichisthatwhateverthethingmaybewhichheisdoingheletshimselfthinkofnothingelseuntilitisdone。 Dr。Conwellhasaprofoundloveforthecountryandparticularlyforthecountryofhisownyouth。 Helovesthewindthatcomessweepingoverthehills,helovesthewide-stretchingviewsfromtheheightsandtheforestintimaciesofthenestlednooks。Helovestheripplingstreams,helovesthewildflowersthatnestleinseclusionorthatunexpectedlypaintsomemountainmeadowwithdelight。Helovestheverytouchoftheearth,andhelovesthegreatbarerocks。 Hewritesversesattimes;atleasthehaswrittenlinesforafewoldtunes;anditinterestedmegreatlytochanceuponsomelinesofhisthatpictureheavenintermsoftheBerkshires: _Thewide-stretchingvalleysincolorssofadeless,Wheretreesarealldeathlessandflowerse\'erbloom_。 ThatisheavenintheeyesofaNewEnglandhill-man!Notgoldenpavementandivorypalaces,butvalleysandtreesandflowersandthewidesweepoftheopen。 Fewthingspleasehimmorethantogo,forexample,blackberrying,andhehasaknackofneverscratchinghisfaceorhisfingerswhendoingso。Andhefindsblackberrying,whetherhegoesaloneorwithfriends,anextraordinarilygoodtimeforplanningsomethinghewishestodoorworkingoutthethoughtofasermon。Andfishingisevenbetter,forinfishinghefindsimmenserecreationandrestfulnessandatthesametimeafurtheropportunitytothinkandplan。 Asasmallboyhewishedthathecouldthrowadamacrossthetrout-brookthatrunsnearthelittleConwellhome,and——ashenevergivesup—— hefinallyrealizedtheambition,althoughitwasafterhalfacentury!Andnowhehasabigpond,three-quartersofamilelongbyhalfamilewide,lyinginfrontofthehouse,downaslopefromit—— apondstockedwithsplendidpickerel。Helikestofloataboutrestfullyonthispond,thinkingorfishing,orboth。Andonthatpondheshowedmehowtocatchpickerelevenunderablazeofsunlight! Heisatrout-fisher,too,foritisatroutstreamthatfeedsthispondandgoesdashingawayfromitthroughthewilderness;andformilesadjoininghisplaceafishingclubofwealthymenboughtuptherightsinthistroutstream,andtheyapproachedhimwithaliberaloffer。Buthedeclinedit。“IrememberedwhatgoodtimesIhadwhenIwasaboy,fishingupanddownthatstream,andIcouldn\'tthinkofkeepingtheboysofthepresentdayfromsuchapleasure。Sotheymaystillcomeandfishfortrouthere。\'\' Aswewalkedonedaybesidethisbrook,hesuddenlysaid:“Didyouevernoticethateverybrookhasitsownsong?Ishouldknowthesongofthisbrookanywhere。\'\' Itwouldseemasifhelovedhisruggednativecountrybecauseitisruggedevenmorethanbecauseitisnative!Himselfsorugged,sohardy,soenduring——thestrengthofthehillsishisalso。 Always,inhisveryappearance,youseesomethingofthisruggednessofthehills;aruggedness,asincerity,aplainness,thatmarkalikehischaracterandhislooks。Andalwaysonerealizesthestrengthoftheman,evenwhenhisvoice,asitusuallyis,islow。Andoneincreasinglyrealizesthestrengthwhen,onthelectureplatformorinthepulpitorinconversation,heflashesvividlyintofire。 Abig-bonedmanheis,sturdy-framed,atallman,withbroadshouldersandstronghands。 Hishairisadeepchestnut-brownthatatfirstsightseemsblack。Inhisearlymanhoodhewassuperbinlooks,ashispicturesshow,butanxietyandworkandtheconstantflightofyears,withphysicalpain,havesettledhisfaceintolinesofsadnessandalmostofseverity,whichinstantlyvanishwhenhespeaks。Andhisfaceisilluminedbymarvelouseyes。 Heisalonelyman。Thewifeofhisearlyyearsdiedlong,longago,beforesuccesshadcome,andshewasdeeplymourned,forshehadloyallyhelpedhimthroughatimethatheldmuchofstruggleandhardship。Hemarriedagain;andthiswifewashisloyalhelpmateformanyyears。 Inatimeofspecialstress,whenadefalcationofsixty-fivethousanddollarsthreatenedtocrushTempleCollegejustwhenitwasgettingonitsfeet,forbothTempleChurchandTempleCollegehadinthoseearlydaysbuoyantlyassumedheavyindebtedness,heraisedeverydollarhecouldbysellingormortgaginghisownpossessions,andinthishiswife,ashelovinglyremembers,mostcordiallystoodbesidehim,althoughsheknewthatifanythingshouldhappentohimthefinancialsacrificewouldleaveherpenniless。Shediedafteryearsofcompanionship;hischildrenmarriedandmadehomesoftheirown;heisalonelyman。Yetheisnotunhappy,forthetremendousdemandsofhistremendousworkleavehimlittletimeforsadnessorretrospect。Attimestherealizationcomesthatheisgettingold,thatfriendsandcomradeshavebeenpassingaway,leavinghimanoldmanwithyoungerfriendsandhelpers。Butsuchrealizationonlymakeshimworkwithanearnestnessstillmoreintense,knowingthatthenightcomethwhennomanshallwork。 Deeplyreligiousthoughheis,hedoesnotforcereligionintoconversationonordinarysubjectsoruponpeoplewhomaynotbeinterestedinit。 Withhim,itisactionandgoodworks,withfaithandbelief,thatcount,exceptwhentalkisthenatural,thefitting,thenecessarything;whenaddressingeitheroneindividualorthousands,hetalkswithsuperbeffectiveness。 Hissermonsare,itmayalmostliterallybesaid,parableafterparable;althoughhehimselfwouldbethelastmantosaythis,foritwouldsoundasifheclaimedtomodelafterthegreatestofallexamples。Hisownwayofputtingitisthatheusesstoriesfrequentlybecausepeoplearemoreimpressedbyillustrationsthanbyargument。 Always,whetherinthepulpitoroutofit,heissimpleandhomelike,humanandunaffected。 Ifhehappenstoseesomeoneinthecongregationtowhomhewishestospeak,hemayjustleavehispulpitandwalkdowntheaisle,whilethechoirissinging,andquietlysayafewwordsandreturn。 Intheearlydaysofhisministry,ifheheardofapoorfamilyinimmediateneedoffoodhewouldbequitelikelytogatherabasketofprovisionsandgopersonally,andofferthisassistanceandsuchotherashemightfindnecessarywhenhereachedtheplace。Ashebecameknownheceasedfromthisdirectandopenmethodofcharity,forheknewthatimpulsivenesswouldbetakenforintentionaldisplay。Buthehasneverceasedtobereadytohelpontheinstantthatheknowshelpisneeded。Delayandlengthyinvestigationareavoidedbyhimwhenhecanbecertainthatsomethingimmediateisrequired。 Andtheextentofhisquietcharityisamazing。 familyforwhichtosavemoney,andwithnocaretoputawaymoneyforhimself,hethinksonlyofmoneyasaninstrumentforhelpfulness。 Ineverheardafriendcriticizehimexceptfortoogreatopen-handedness。 Iwasstronglyimpressed,aftercomingtoknowhim,thathepossessedmanyofthequalitiesthatmadeforthesuccessoftheold-timedistrictleadersofNewYorkCity,andImentionedthistohim,andheatoncerespondedthathehadhimselfmet“BigTim,\'\'thelong-timeleaderoftheSullivans,andhadhadhimathishouse,BigTimhavinggonetoPhiladelphiatoaidsomehenchmanintrouble,andhavingpromptlysoughttheaidofDr。Conwell。AnditwascharacteristicofConwellthathesaw,whatsomanyneversaw,themoststrikingcharacteristicofthatTammanyleader。For,“BigTimSullivanwassokind-hearted!\'\'Conwellappreciatedtheman\'spoliticalunscrupulousnessaswellasdidhisenemies,buthesawalsowhatmadehisunderlyingpower——hiskind-heartedness。ExceptthatSullivancouldbesupremelyunscrupulous,andthatConwellissupremelyscrupulous,thereweremarkedsimilaritiesinthesemastersovermen;andConwellpossesses,asSullivanpossessed,awonderfulmemoryforfacesandnames。 Naturally,RussellConwellstandssteadilyandstronglyforgoodcitizenship。ButhenevertalksboastfulAmericanism。HeseldomspeaksinsomanywordsofeitherAmericanismorgoodcitizenship,butheconstantlyandsilentlykeepstheAmericanflag,asthesymbolofgoodcitizenship,beforehispeople。AnAmericanflagisprominentinhischurch;anAmericanflagisseeninhishome; abeautifulAmericanflagisupathisBerkshireplaceandsurmountsaloftytowerwhere,whenhewasaboy,therestoodamightytreeatthetopofwhichwasaneagle\'snest,whichhasgivenhimanameforhishome,forhetermsit“TheEagle\'sNest。\'\' RememberingalongstorythatIhadreadofhisclimbingtothetopofthattree,thoughitwasawell-nighimpossiblefeat,andsecuringthenestbygreatperseveranceanddaring,Iaskedhimifthestorywereatrueone。“Oh,I\'veheardsomethingaboutit;somebodysaidthatsomebodywatchedme,orsomethingofthekind。ButIdon\'trememberanythingaboutitmyself。\'\' Anyfriendofhisissuretosaysomething,afterawhile,abouthisdetermination,hisinsistenceongoingaheadwithanythingonwhichhehasreallysethisheart。Oneoftheveryimportantthingsonwhichheinsisted,inspiteofverygreatopposition,andespeciallyanoppositionfromtheotherchurchesofhisdenomination(forthiswasagoodmanyyearsago,whentherewasmuchmorenarrownessinchurchesandsectsthanthereisatpresent),waswithregardtodoingawaywithclosecommunion。Hedeterminedonanopencommunion;andhiswayofputtingit,oncedecidedupon,was:“Myfriends,itisnotformetoinviteyoutothetableoftheLord。ThetableoftheLordisopen。Ifyoufeelthatyoucancometothetable,itisopentoyou。\'\'Andthisistheformwhichhestilluses。 Henotonlynevergivesup,but,sohisfriendssay,heneverforgetsathinguponwhichhehasoncedecided,andattimes,longaftertheysupposedthematterhasbeenentirelyforgotten,theysuddenlyfindDr。Conwellbringinghisoriginalpurposetopass。WhenIwastoldofthisIrememberedthatpickerel-pondintheBerkshires! Ifheisreallysetupondoinganything,littleorbig,adversecriticismdoesnotdisturbhisserenity。Someyearsagohebeganwearingahugediamond,whosesizeattractedmuchcriticismandcausticcomment。Heneversaidawordindefense;hejustkeptonwearingthediamond。 Oneday,however,aftersomeyears,hetookitoff,andpeoplesaid,“Hehaslistenedtothecriticismatlast!\'\'Hesmiledreminiscentlyashetoldmeaboutthis,andsaid:“AdearolddeaconofmycongregationgavemethatdiamondandI didnotliketohurthisfeelingsbyrefusingit。 Itreallybotheredmetowearsuchaglaringbigthing,butbecauseIdidn\'twanttohurttheolddeacon\'sfeelingsIkeptonwearingituntilhewasdead。ThenIstoppedwearingit。\'\' TheambitionofRussellConwellistocontinueworkingandworkinguntiltheverylastmomentofhislife。Inworkheforgetshissadness,hisloneliness,hisage。Andhesaidtomeoneday,“Iwilldieinharness。\'\' IX THESTORYOFACRESOFDIAMONDS CONSIDERINGeverything,themostremarkablethinginRussellConwell\'sremarkablelifeishislecture,“AcresofDiamonds。\'\' Thatis,thelectureitself,thenumberoftimeshehasdeliveredit,whatasourceofinspirationithasbeentomyriads,themoneythathehasmadeandismaking,and,stillmore,thepurposetowhichhedirectsthemoney。Inthecircumstancessurrounding“AcresofDiamonds,\'\'initstremendoussuccess,intheattitudeofmindrevealedbythelectureitselfandbywhatDr。 Conwelldoeswithit,itisilluminativeofhischaracter,hisaims,hisability。 Thelectureisvibrantwithhisenergy。Itflasheswithhishopefulness。Itisfullofhisenthusiasm。 Itispackedfullofhisintensity。Itstandsforthepossibilitiesofsuccessineveryone。Hehasdelivereditoverfivethousandtimes。Thedemandforitneverdiminishes。Thesuccessgrowsneverless。 ThereisatimeinRussellConwell\'syouthofwhichitispainforhimtothink。Hetoldmeofitoneevening,andhisvoicesanklowerandlowerashewentfarbackintothepast。ItwasofhisdaysatYalethathespoke,fortheyweredaysofsuffering。ForhehadnotmoneyforYale,andinworkingformoreheenduredbitterhumiliation。Itwasnotthattheworkwashard,forRussellConwellhasalwaysbeenreadyforhardwork。Itwasnotthattherewereprivationsanddifficulties,forhehasalwaysfounddifficultiesonlythingstoovercome,andenduredprivationswithcheerfulfortitude。Butitwasthehumiliationsthathemet——thepersonalhumiliationsthataftermorethanhalfacenturymakehimsufferinrememberingthem——yetoutofthosehumiliationscameamarvelousresult。 “Idetermined,\'\'hesays,“thatwhateverI coulddotomakethewayeasieratcollegeforotheryoungmenworkingtheirwayIwoulddo。\'\' Andso,manyyearsago,hebegantodevoteeverydollarthathemadefrom“AcresofDiamonds\'\' tothisdefinitepurpose。Hehaswhatmaybetermedawaiting-list。Onthatlistareveryfewcaseshehaslookedintopersonally。 Infinitelybusymanthatheis,hecannotdoextensivepersonalinvestigation。Alargeproportionofhisnamescometohimfromcollegepresidentswhoknowofstudentsintheirowncollegesinneedofsuchahelpinghand。 “Everynight,\'\'hesaid,whenIaskedhimtotellmeaboutit,“whenmylectureisoverandthecheckisinmyhand,Isitdowninmyroominthehotel\'\'——whatalonelypicture,tool——“I sitdowninmyroominthehotelandsubtractfromthetotalsumreceivedmyactualexpensesforthatplace,andmakeoutacheckforthedifferenceandsendittosomeyoungmanonmylist。AndIalwayssendwiththecheckaletterofadviceandhelpfulness,expressingmyhopethatitwillbeofsomeservicetohimandtellinghimthatheistofeelundernoobligationexcepttohisLord。Ifeelstrongly,andItrytomakeeveryyoungmanfeel,thattheremustbenosenseofobligationtomepersonally。AndItellthemthatIamhopingtoleavebehindmemenwhowilldomoreworkthanIhavedone。Don\'tthinkthatIputintoomuchadvice,\'\'headded,withasmile,“forIonlytrytoletthemknowthatafriendistryingtohelpthem。\'\' Hisfacelightedashespoke。“Thereissuchafascinationinit!\'\'heexclaimed。“Itisjustlikeagamble!AndassoonasIhavesenttheletterandcrossedanameoffmylist,Iamaimingforthenextone!\'\' Andafterapauseheadded:“Idonotattempttosendanyyoungmanenoughforallhisexpenses。ButIwanttosavehimfrombitterness,andeachcheckwillhelp。And,too,\'\'heconcluded,navely,inthevernacular,“Idon\'twantthemtolaydownonme!\'\' Hetoldmethathemadeitclearthathedidnotwishtogetreturnsorreportsfromthisbranchofhislife-work,foritwouldtakeagreatdealoftimeinwatchingandthinkingandinthereadingandwritingofletters。“Butitismainly,\'\'hewenton,“thatIdonotwishtoholdovertheirheadsthesenseofobligation。\'\' WhenIsuggestedthatthiswassurelyanexampleofbreadcastuponthewatersthatcouldnotreturn,hewassilentforalittleandthensaid,thoughtfully:“Asonegetsoninyearsthereissatisfactionindoingathingforthesakeofdoingit。Thebreadreturnsinthesenseofeffortmade。\'\' OnarecenttripthroughMinnesotahewaspositivelyupset,sohissecretarytoldme,throughbeingrecognizedonatrainbyayoungmanwhohadbeenhelpedthrough“AcresofDiamonds,\'\' andwho,findingthatthiswasreallyDr。Conwell,eagerlybroughthiswifetojoinhiminmostferventthanksforhisassistance。BoththehusbandandhiswifeweresoemotionallyovercomethatitquiteovercameDr。Conwellhimself。 Thelecture,toquotethenoblewordsofDr。 Conwellhimself,isdesignedtohelp“everyperson,ofeithersex,whocherishesthehighresolveofsustainingacareerofusefulnessandhonor。\'\' Itisalectureofhelpfulness。Anditisalecture,whengivenwithConwell\'svoiceandfaceandmanner,thatisfulloffascination。Andyetitisallsosimple! Itispackedfullofinspiration,ofsuggestion,ofaid。Healtersittomeetthelocalcircumstancesofthethousandsofdifferentplacesinwhichhedeliversit。Butthebaseremainsthesame。Andeventhosetowhomitisanoldstorywillgotohearhimtimeaftertime。Itamuseshimtosaythatheknowsindividualswhohavelistenedtoittwentytimes。 ItbeginswithastorytoldtoConwellbyanoldArabasthetwojourneyedtogethertowardNineveh,and,asyoulisten,youheartheactualvoicesandyouseethesandsofthedesertandthewavingpalms。Thelecturer\'svoiceissoeasy,soeffortless,itseemssoordinaryandmatter-of- fact——yettheentiresceneisinstantlyvitalandalive!Instantlythemanhashisaudienceunderasortofspell,eagertolisten,readytobemerryorgrave。Hehasthefacultyofcontrol,thevitalqualitythatmakestheorator。 Thesamepeoplewillgotohearthislectureoverandover,andthatisthekindoftributethatConwelllikes。Irecentlyheardhimdeliveritinhisownchurch,whereitwouldnaturallybethoughttobeanoldstory,andwhere,presumably,onlyafewofthefaithfulwouldgo;butitwasquiteclearthatallofhischurcharethefaithful,foritwasalargeaudiencethatcametolistentohim;hardlyaseatinthegreatauditoriumwasvacant。Anditshouldbeaddedthat,althoughitwasinhisownchurch,itwasnotafreelecture,whereathrongmightbeexpected,butthateachonepaidaliberalsumforaseat——andthepayingofadmissionisalwaysapracticaltestofthesincerityofdesiretohear。 Andthepeopleweresweptalongbythecurrentasiflecturerandlecturewereofnovelinterest。 Thelectureinitselfisgoodtoread,butitisonlywhenitisilluminedbyConwell\'svividpersonalitythatoneunderstandshowitinfluencesintheactualdelivery。 Onthatparticulareveninghehaddecidedtogivethelectureinthesameformaswhenhefirstdelivereditmanyyearsago,withoutanyofthealterationsthathavecomewithtimeandchanginglocalities,andashewenton,withtheaudienceripplingandbubblingwithlaughterasusual,heneverdoubtedthathewasgivingitashehadgivenityearsbefore;andyet——soup-to-dateandalivemusthenecessarilybe,inspiteofadefinitiveefforttosethimselfback——everyonceinawhilehewascomingoutwithillustrationsfromsuchdistinctlyrecentthingsastheautomobile! ThelasttimeIheardhimwasthe5,124thtimeforthelecture。Doesn\'titseemincredible!5,124 times\'Inoticedthathewastodeliveritatalittleout-of-the-wayplace,difficultforanyconsiderablenumbertogetto,andIwonderedjusthowmuchofanaudiencewouldgatherandhowtheywouldbeimpressed。SoIwentoverfromthereIwas,afewmilesaway。TheroadwasdarkandIpicturedasmallaudience,butwhenIgotthereIfoundthechurchbuildinginwhichhewastodeliverthelecturehadaseatingcapacityof830andthatprecisely830peoplewerealreadyseatedthereandthatafringeofotherswerestandingbehind。Manyhadcomefrommilesaway。Yetthelecturehadscarcely,ifatall,beenadvertised。Butpeoplehadsaidtooneanother:“Aren\'tyougoingtohearDr。Conwell?\'\' Andthewordhadthusbeenpassedalong。 Irememberhowfascinatingitwastowatchthataudience,fortheyrespondedsokeenlyandwithsuchheartfeltpleasurethroughouttheentirelecture。Andnotonlyweretheyimmenselypleasedandamusedandinterested——andtoachievethatatacrossroadschurchwasinitselfatriumphtobeproudof——butIknewthateverylistenerwasgivenanimpulsetowarddoingsomethingforhimselfandforothers,andthatwithatleastsomeofthemtheimpulsewouldmaterializeinacts。Overandoveronerealizeswhatapowersuchamanwields。 Andwhatanunselfishness!For,faroninyearsasheis,andsufferingpain,hedoesnotchopdownhislecturetoadefinitelength;hedoesnottalkforjustanhourorgoongrudginglyforanhourandahalf。Heseesthatthepeoplearefascinatedandinspired,andheforgetspain,ignorestime,forgetsthatthenightislateandthathehasalongjourneytogotogethome,andkeepsongenerouslyfortwohours!Andeveryonewishesitwerefour。 Alwayshetalkswitheaseandsympathy。 Therearegeniality,composure,humor,simpleandhomelyjests——yetneverdoestheaudienceforgetthatheiseverymomentintremendousearnest。Theybubblewithresponsivelaughteroraresilentinrivetedattention。Astircanbeseentosweepoveranaudience,ofearnestnessorsurpriseoramusementorresolve。Whenheisgraveandsoberorfervidthepeoplefeelthatheishimselfafervidlyearnestman,andwhenheistellingsomethinghumorousthereisonhispartalmostarepressedchuckle,agenialappreciationofthefunofit,notintheleastasifhewerelaughingathisownhumor,butasifheandhishearerswerelaughingtogetheratsomethingofwhichtheywereallhumorouslycognizant。 Myriadsuccessesinlifehavecomethroughthedirectinspirationofthissinglelecture。Onehearsofsomanythattheremustbevastlymorethatarenevertold。AfewofthemostrecentweretoldmebyDr。Conwellhimself,onebeingofafarmerboywhowalkedalongdistancetohearhim。Onhiswayhome,sotheboy,nowaman,haswrittenhim,hethoughtoverandoverofwhathecoulddotoadvancehimself,andbeforehereachedhomehelearnedthatateacherwaswantedatacertaincountryschool。Heknewhedidnotknowenoughtoteach,butwassurehecouldlearn,sohebravelyaskedfortheplace。 Andsomethinginhisearnestnessmadehimwinatemporaryappointment。Thereuponheworkedandstudiedsohardandsodevotedly,whilehedailytaught,thatwithinafewmonthshewasregularlyemployedthere。“Andnow,\'\'saysConwell,abruptly,withhischaracteristicskim- mingoveroftheintermediatedetailsbetweentheimportantbeginningofathingandthesatisfactoryend,“andnowthatyoungmanisoneofourcollegepresidents。\'\' AndveryrecentlyaladycametoDr。Conwell,thewifeofanexceptionallyprominentmanwhowasearningalargesalary,andshetoldhimthatherhusbandwassounselfishlygenerouswithmoneythatoftentheywerealmostinstraits。 Andshesaidtheyhadboughtalittlefarmasacountryplace,payingonlyafewhundreddollarsforit,andthatshehadsaidtoherself,laughingly,afterhearingthelecture,“Therearenoacresofdiamondsonthisplace!\'\'Butshealsowentontotellthatshehadfoundaspringofexceptionallyfinewaterthere,althoughinbuyingtheyhadscarcelyknownofthespringatall; andshehadbeensoinspiredbyConwellthatshehadhadthewateranalyzedand,findingthatitwasremarkablypure,hadbeguntohaveitbottledandsoldunderatradenameasspecialspringwater。Andsheismakingmoney。Andshealsosellspureicefromthepool,cutinwinter-timeandallbecauseof“AcresofDiamonds\'\'! Severalmillionsofdollars,inall,havebeenreceivedbyRussellConwellastheproceedsfromthissinglelecture。Suchafactisalmoststaggering—— anditismorestaggeringtorealizewhatgoodisdoneintheworldbythisman,whodoesnotearnforhimself,butuseshismoneyinimmediatehelpfulness。Andonecanneitherthinknorwritewithmoderationwhenitisfurtherrealizedthatfarmoregoodthancanbedonedirectlywithmoneyhedoesbyupliftingandinspiringwiththislecture。Alwayshisheartiswiththewearyandtheheavy-laden。Alwayshestandsforself-betterment。 Lastyear,1914,heandhisworkweregivenuniquerecognition。Foritwasknownbyhisfriendsthatthisparticularlecturewasapproachingitsfive-thousandthdelivery,andtheyplannedacelebrationofsuchaneventinthehistoryofthemostpopularlectureintheworld。Dr。ConwellagreedtodeliveritintheAcademyofMusic,inPhiladelphia,andthebuildingwaspackedandthestreetsoutsidewerethronged。Theproceedsfromallsourcesforthatfive-thousandthlecturewereoverninethousanddollars。 TheholdwhichRussellConwellhasgainedontheaffectionsandrespectofhishomecitywasseennotonlyinthethousandswhostrovetohearhim,butintheprominentmenwhoservedonthelocalcommitteeinchargeofthecelebration。 Therewasanationalcommittee,too,andthenation-widelovethathehaswon,thenation- wideappreciationofwhathehasdoneandisstilldoing,wasshownbythefactthatamongthenamesofthenotablesonthiscommitteewerethoseofninegovernorsofstates。TheGovernorofPennsylvaniawashimselfpresenttodoRussellConwellhonor,andhegavetohimakeyemblematicoftheFreedomoftheState。 The“FreedomoftheState\'\'——yes;thisman,welloverseventy,haswonit。TheFreedomoftheState,theFreedomoftheNation——forthismanofhelpfulness,thismarvelousexponentofthegospelofsuccess,hasworkedmarvelouslyforthefreedom,thebetterment,theliberation,theadvancement,oftheindividual。 FIFTYYEARSONTHELECTURE PLATFORM BY RUSSELLH。CONWELL ANAutobiography!Whatanabsurdrequest! Ifalltheconditionswerefavorable,thestoryofmypublicLifecouldnotbemadeinteresting。 Itdoesnotseempossiblethatanywillcaretoreadsoplainanduneventfulatale。Iseenothinginitforboasting,normuchthatcouldbehelpful。 ThenIneversavedascrapofpaperintentionallyconcerningmyworktowhichIcouldrefer,notabook,notasermon,notalecture,notanewspapernoticeoraccount,notamagazinearticle,notoneofthekindbiographieswrittenfromtimetotimebynoblefriendshaveIeverkeptevenasasouvenir,althoughsomeofthemmaybeinmylibrary。Ihaveeverfeltthatthewritersconcerningmylifeweretoogenerousandthatmyownworkwastoohastilydone。HenceIhavenothinguponwhichtobaseanautobiographicalaccount,excepttherecollectionswhichcometoanoverburdenedmind。 Mygeneralviewofhalfacenturyonthelectureplatformbringstomepreciousandbeautifulmemories,andfillsmysoulwithdevoutgratitudefortheblessingsandkindnesseswhichhavebeengiventomesofarbeyondmydeserts。 SomuchmoresuccesshascometomyhandsthanIeverexpected;somuchmoreofgoodhaveIfoundthanevenyouth\'swildestdreamincluded;somuchmoreeffectivehavebeenmyweakestendeavorsthanIeverplannedorhoped—— thatabiographywrittentruthfullywouldbemostlyanaccountofwhatmenandwomenhavedoneforme。 Ihavelivedtoseeaccomplishedfarmorethanmyhighestambitionincluded,andhaveseentheenterprisesIhaveundertakenrushbyme,pushedonbyathousandstronghandsuntiltheyhaveleftmefarbehindthem。Therealitiesarelikedreamstome。Blessingsonthelovingheartsandnoblemindswhohavebeensowillingtosacrificeforothers\'goodandtothinkonlyofwhattheycoulddo,andneverofwhattheyshouldget! ManyofthemhaveascendedintotheShiningLand,andhereIaminmineagegazingupalone,_OnlywaitingtilltheshadowsArealittlelongergrown_。 Fiftyyears!Iwasayoungman,notyetofage,whenIdeliveredmyfirstplatformlecture。 TheCivilWarof1861-65drewonwithallitspassions,patriotism,horrors,andfears,andIwasstudyinglawatYaleUniversity。IhadfromchildhoodfeltthatIwas“calledtotheministry。\'\' TheearliesteventofmemoryistheprayerofmyfatheratfamilyprayersinthelittleoldcottageintheHampshirehighlandsoftheBerkshireHills,callingonGodwithasobbingvoicetoleadmeintosomespecialservicefortheSaviour。Itfilledmewithawe,dread,andfear,andIrecoiledfromthethought,untilIdeterminedtofightagainstitwithallmypower。SoIsoughtforotherprofessionsandfordecentexcusesforbeinganythingbutapreacher。 YetwhileIwasnervousandtimidbeforetheclassindeclamationanddreadedtofaceanykindofanaudience,Ifeltinmysoulastrangeimpulsiontowardpublicspeakingwhichforyearsmadememiserable。Thewarandthepublicmeetingsforrecruitingsoldiersfurnishedanoutletformysuppressedsenseofduty,andmyfirstlecturewasonthe“LessonsofHistory\'\'asappliedtothecampaignsagainsttheConfederacy。 Thatmatchlesstemperanceoratorandlovingfriend,JohnB。Gough,introducedmetothelittleaudienceinWestfield,Massachusetts,in1862。 Whatafoolishlittleschool-boyspeechitmusthavebeen!ButMr。Gough\'skindwordsofpraise,thebouquetsandtheapplause,mademefeelthatsomehowthewaytopublicoratorywouldnotbesohardasIhadfeared。 FromthattimeIactedonMr。Gough\'sadviceand“soughtpractice\'\'byacceptingalmosteveryinvitationIreceivedtospeakonanykindofasubject。Thereweremanysadfailuresandtears,butitwasarestfulcompromisewithmyconscienceconcerningtheministry,anditpleasedmyfriends。 Iaddressedpicnics,Sunday-schools,patrioticmeetings,funerals,anniversaries,commencements,debates,cattle-shows,andsewing-circleswithoutpartialityandwithoutprice。Forthefirstfiveyearstheincomewasallexperience。Thenvoluntarygiftsbegantocomeoccasionallyintheshapeofajack-knife,aham,abook,andthefirstcashremunerationwasfromafarmers\'club,ofseventy-fivecentstowardthe“horsehire。\'\' ItwasacuriousfactthatonememberofthatclubafterwardmovedtoSaltLakeCityandwasamemberofthecommitteeattheMormonTabernaclein1872which,whenIwasacorrespondent,onajourneyaroundtheworld,employedmetolectureon“MenoftheMountains\'\'intheMormonTabernacle,atafeeoffivehundreddollars。 WhileIwasgainingpracticeinthefirstyearsofplatformwork,Ihadthegoodfortunetohaveprofitableemploymentasasoldier,orasacorrespondentorlawyer,orasaneditororasapreacher,whichenabledmetopaymyownexpenses,andithasbeenseldominthefiftyyearsthatIhaveevertakenafeeformypersonaluse。 Inthelastthirty-sixyearsIhavededicatedsolemnlyallthelectureincometobenevolententerprises。IfIamantiquatedenoughforanautobiography,perhapsImaybeagedenoughtoavoidthecriticismofbeinganegotist,whenI statethatsomeyearsIdeliveredonelecture,“AcresofDiamonds,\'\'overtwohundredtimeseachyear,atanaverageincomeofaboutonehundredandfiftydollarsforeachlecture。 ItwasaremarkablegoodfortunewhichcametomeasalecturerwhenMr。JamesRedpathorganizedthefirstlecturebureaueverestablished。 Mr。RedpathwasthebiographerofJohnBrownofHarper\'sFerryrenown,andasMr。Brownhadbeenlongafriendofmyfather\'sIfoundemployment,whileastudentonvacation,insellingthatlifeofJohnBrown。ThatacquaintancewithMr。 RedpathwasmaintaineduntilMr。Redpath\'sdeath。ToGeneralCharlesH。Taylor,withwhomIwasemployedforatimeasreporterfortheBoston_DailyTraveler_,Iwasindebtedformanyactsofself-sacrificingfriendshipwhichsoftenmysoulasIrecallthem。HedidmethegreatestkindnesswhenhesuggestedmynametoMr。 Redpathasonewhocould“fillinthevacanciesinthesmallertowns\'\'wherethe“greatlightscouldnotalwaysbesecured。\'\' WhatagloriousgalaxyofgreatnamesthatoriginallistofRedpathlecturerscontained! HenryWardBeecher,JohnB。Gough,SenatorCharlesSumner,TheodoreTilton,WendellPhillips,Mrs。MaryA。Livermore,BayardTaylor,RalphWaldoEmerson,withmanyofthegreatpreachers,musicians,andwritersofthatremarkableera。EvenDr。Holmes,JohnWhittier,HenryW。Longfellow,JohnLothropMotley,GeorgeWilliamCurtis,andGeneralBurnsidewerepersuadedtoappearoneormoretimes,althoughtheyrefusedtoreceivepay。IcannotforgethowashamedIfeltwhenmynameap- pearedintheshadowofsuchnames,andhowsureIwasthateveryacquaintancewasridiculingmebehindmyback。Mr。BayardTaylor,however,wrotemefromthe_Tribune_officeakindnotesayingthathewasgladtoseeme“ontheroadtogreatusefulness。\'\'GovernorClafflin,ofMassachusetts,tookthetimetosendmeanoteofcongratulation。 GeneralBenjaminF。Butler,however,advisedmeto“sticktothelast\'\'andbeagoodlawyer。 Theworkoflecturingwasalwaysataskandaduty。IdonotfeelnowthatIeversoughttobeanentertainer。IamsureIwouldhavebeenanutterfailurebutforthefeelingthatImustpreachsomegospeltruthinmylecturesanddoatleastthatmuchtowardthatever-persistent“callofGod。\'\'WhenIenteredtheministry(1879)IhadbecomesoassociatedwiththelectureplatforminAmericaandEnglandthatIcouldnotfeeljustifiedinabandoningsogreatafieldofusefulness。 Theexperiencesofalloursuccessfullecturersareprobablynearlyalike。Thewayisnotalwayssmooth。Butthehardroads,thepoorhotels,thelatetrains,thecoldhalls,thehotchurchauditoriums,theoverkindnessofhospitablecommittees,andthebrokenhoursofsleepareannoyancesonesoonforgets;andthehostsofintelligentfaces,themessagesofthanks,andtheeffectsoftheearningsonthelivesofyoungcollegemencanneverceasetobeadailyjoy。Godblessthemall。 OftenhaveIbeenaskedifIdidnot,infiftyyearsoftravelinallsortsofconveyances,meetwithaccidents。Itisamarveltomethatnosucheventeverbroughtmeharm。Inacontinuousperiodofovertwenty-sevenyearsIdeliveredabouttwolecturesineverythreedays,yetIdidnotmissasingleengagement。SometimesIhadtohireaspecialtrain,butIreachedthetownontime,withonlyarareexception,andthenIwasbutafewminuteslate。Accidentshaveprecededandfollowedmeontrainsandboats,andweresometimesinsight,butIwaspreservedwithoutinjurythroughalltheyears。IntheJohnstownfloodregionIsawabridgegooutbehindourtrain。IwasonceonaderelictsteamerontheAtlanticfortwenty-sixdays。AtanothertimeamanwaskilledintheberthofasleeperI hadlefthalfanhourbefore。OftenhaveIfeltthetrainleavethetrack,butnoonewaskilled。 Robbershaveseveraltimesthreatenedmylife,butallcameoutwithoutlosstome。Godandmanhaveeverbeenpatientwithme。 Yetthisperiodoflecturinghasbeen,afterall,asideissue。TheTemple,anditschurch,inPhiladelphia,which,whenitsmembershipwaslessthanthreethousandmembers,forsomanyyearscontributedthroughitsmembershipoversixtythousanddollarsayearfortheupliftofhumanity,hasmadelifeacontinualsurprise;whiletheSamaritanHospital\'samazinggrowth,andtheGarretsonHospital\'sdispensaries,havebeensocontinuallyministeringtothesickandpoor,andhavedonesuchskilfulworkforthetensofthousandswhoaskfortheirhelpeachyear,thatI havebeenmadehappywhileawaylecturingbythefeelingthateachhourandminutetheywerefaithfullydoinggood。TempleUniversity,whichwasfoundedonlytwenty-sevenyearsago,hasalreadysentoutintoahigherincomeandnoblerlifenearlyahundredthousandyoungmenandwomenwhocouldnotprobablyhaveobtainedaneducationinanyotherinstitution。Thefaithful,self-sacrificingfaculty,nownumberingtwohundredandfifty-threeprofessors,havedonetherealwork。ForthatIcanclaimbutlittlecredit; andImentiontheUniversityhereonlytoshowthatmy“fiftyyearsonthelectureplatform\'\' hasnecessarilybeenasidelineofwork。 Mybest-knownlecture,“AcresofDiamonds,\'\' wasamereaccidentaladdress,atfirstgivenbeforeareunionofmyoldcomradesoftheForty- sixthMassachusettsRegiment,whichservedintheCivilWarandinwhichIwascaptain。I hadnothoughtofgivingtheaddressagain,andevenafteritbegantobecalledforbylecturecommitteesIdidnotdreamthatIshouldlivetodeliverit,asInowhavedone,almostfivethousandtimes。“Whatisthesecretofitspopularity?\'\'Icouldneverexplaintomyselforothers。 IsimplyknowthatIalwaysattempttoenthusemyselfoneachoccasionwiththeideathatitisaspecialopportunitytodogood,andIinterestmyselfineachcommunityandapplythegeneralprincipleswithlocalillustrations。 Thehandwhichnowholdsthispenmustinthenaturalcourseofeventssoonceasetogestureontheplatform,anditisasincere,prayerfulhopethatthisbookwillgoonintotheyearsdoingincreasinggoodfortheaidofmybrothersandsistersinthehumanfamily。